i knew that wkx is callous and cruel in guzhu mode but these past few days i spent time seeing it in slowmotion because im gathering material for my wip. combing through these scenes with wkx and the ghost valley women is really tough. hes so mean, hes such an asshole, hes such a jerk. and its so intriguing and gutpunching because these are moments when he starts out alone, drinking or being tended to by a servant, introspective. lqq or lfm or gu xiang join him, and theyre in an entirely different mood, and they need something from him in some way. theyre putting their own vulnerability on display, theyre reaching out a hand to him. and he ,, doesnt handle it well.
there is this scene with lfm when they share a moment of genuine connection and tell each other of their thoughts and intentions. and even though wkx is more open here, even though this is after he has been domesticated by being around his a-xu and looking after zcl, a ghost remembering being human, and even though hes telling lfm of his original plan for the jianghu in order to make her understand his growth, that he has seen the error of his ways, it still shakes her up, and his willingness to listen to her advise doesnt seem enough to smooth things over so fast.
i dont know where im going with this, just that wkx has this pattern in how he behaves around others who have the unfortunate luck to be listening to him, and it transitions from different shades of distrust and disbelief to open disgust and bitterness, and it always has him fall into cussing out the people in power who hurt him, and it never fails to take a toll on those listening. hes not emotionally available when like this, and you can see how hard it is for those around to reach him
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In response to your post about radfems and men, a few years ago I started going down the radfem rabbit hole, a lot of this came from being in a community of men who actually /were/ psychopaths, along with having a father and grandfather who were too. I have PPD as well, so seeing these men act this way and having radfems whispering in my ear "All men want to kill you, all men want to kill you" was DETERIORATING me like acid. I cannot describe to you the hell I was living in each day due to paranoia eating away at me. It felt like my own spirit was a chain link fence turning into rust.
Then I met my husband, and he completely changed my life. And yes I know women can save themselves, we aren't all damsels in distress, but I honestly /was/ too bad off to just pull myself out of it. Since fear of men was the biggest thing killing me from the inside out, a man coming along and showing me that I can both trust people AND at least some men, seriously subdued a massive chunk of my rage, hatred and fear. And he really goes above and beyond too! Every problem I have had he has helped me to fix, along with showing me how to do things myself. Some people may not like that it was a man who "rescued" me, but I don't owe it to anyone to be an idyllic girl power success story, I owe it to myself and to our son to not be a terrified wreck.
I mean I have always suspected that radfems and terfs were like this.
Like my going theory is that if you believe men are irredeemable monsters who can only hurt other people all the time, you clearly don't have good relationships, with anyone at all.
That kind of mistrust of your fellow human beings comes from a well of hurt and paranoia that you're not addressing properly.
I'm glad you found someone to help and love you, though. And I don't think it's anti feminist to need someone to rescue you either.
what's so wrong with being saved, no matter who or what does it?
nice metaphor with the chain link fence btw. that'll live on in my mind for a bit.
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Omg so I just started reading SVSSS fics, and I read one in which the author mentions MULTIPLE TIMES how LBH has had sex with LMY, and it pissed me off!!! Like, she is literally the only one who was specifically stated to have never had explicit sex with him!!! He had a harem with so many women, literally pick any other woman!! WHY!! YOU DIDN'T EVEN HAVE TO NAME SOMEBODY YOU COULD'VE JUST SAID LIKE "wife #361" HONESTLY
It really just read to me like "Oh I need a woman, what woman is there, oh look, I know ONE (1) WOMAN! LET'S USE HER!" PISSED ME OFF FOR NO REASON
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(This is for shits and giggles, since I know you'd never do straight radiostatic) but Trans FtM Vox going to hell and waking up as a Doe!Demon while Alastor is a Stag demon is hilarious to me. (I mean its hell. No way is it going to respect gender identity.)
who sent this in my inbox. who sent this in my inbox youre a genius
i dont count this as heterosexual because vox is still a man even if he's unfortunately endowed with flesh lumps and a female identity so like.yeah i fully approve of this! this is funny! i feel like theyd start off with a more platonic friendship though fs lol
*honestly i doubt hell respected his gender identity to begin with lmfao like look at his boobs and crotch that man is NOT cis. whatever modifications he got he did those all himself and thank god for it because now i get to look at voobies <3
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She cleans his room and you focus on her calling it nasty 😭 women never win servants or not, she better be nice about it apparently. Nothing concerning about a man who needs his gf clean after him, but she called it disgusting that IS concerning she is obviously not nice 🤬
you literally have no evidence that the man needs someone to clean after him. that's the point. she goes online calling her husband's room disgusting but we don't know if it is. or if he wants her to clean it. if he even is ok with her cleaning it. and i just don't think you should talk about your partner like that, regardless of gender.
like, are you ok or do you just not like men.
and who is saying women need to be nice.
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Fuck it. I'm ace again.
Yall play with my heart too much, so now nobody gets a chance.
Contact me never unless you want to talk about anarchy/politics, neurodivergencies, religion/beliefs, creation, or any special interests really.
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