crucifiedfaerie · 1 year ago
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Growing Pains | Pt. 1 ༉₊˚✧
Kylo Ren/Ben Solo x Fem!Reader
➴ Summary: He loved you, he left you, and now he will stop at nothing to get you back.
➴ Word Count: 1.3k
➴ Warnings: smut in future chapters so 18+ MDNI, fem!reader, stalking, kidnapping, lots and lots of angst, a little blood, slight death mention, kylo is kinda soft for a min but he's still kylo ren so mean!kylo, flashback dream, established relationship with ben, crylo ren, reader is wallowing and low key wants to die
➴ Taglist: ( @enviedear @capitanostella @teapartydreams )
A/N: lowkey (high key) cried while writing this. did not intend for this fic to be so sad right off the bat but here we are. so apologies for that. nonetheless, i hope you enjoy !! <3
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Your head was spinning as you clutched your saber, the yellow glow reflecting off your teary, panicked eyes. You don't know how long you had been running, it felt like ages. The salt from your tears stung your face where twigs and branches had slashed you. Something had been hunting you. A dark, looming creature in a mask that you knew was never going to stop until it was dead or had you in its grasp.
You stopped in a clearing, frantically whipping your head around, looking in every direction. The moss felt soft underneath your bare feet that were sore from running, and it was so quiet you could hear a pin drop. Not even the wind or the birds made a sound and the hairs on the back of your neck stood straight up.
Before you could even process the sound of the branch snapping behind you, everything went black. The last thing you remember feeling was being caught by two strong hands before being enveloped in the dark void of sleep.
It was the same dream as every night, and despite how heartbreaking it was to wake up from, you found great comfort in it. After six years, you had accepted at some point that sleep was going to be the only place you'd ever see him again.
"Do you ever wish you were a bird?" Ben turned his head to look at you, that same smile on his face he always seemed to have when he was in your presence.
You laughed at him, "I can't say it's something I've ever thought about. Do you?"
The two of you had been laying in a flower meadow, watching the clouds and birds go by as the sky faded to an orangey-pink. He let go of your hand to roll closer to you, and he brushed your wind blown hair out of your face.
You picked pieces of grass from his dark hair as he spoke. "Of course I do. If we were birds, we could go anywhere together, we could fly far away from here and we would have no responsibilities." He smiled down at you.
Before you could respond to him, everything faded away. Ben, the pink sky behind him, and the warm meadow all slipped through your fingers like sand. Despite it's own despair, your brain threw itself into a different memory. A much darker, more painful memory.
"Get away from me!" Ben screamed at you, pointing his saber at you. The rain beat down on the both of you, soaking your clothes and chilling you down to the bone.
You looked at him, the betrayal clear in your eyes. "This isn't you, Ben... I don't understand, please help me understand. Why are you doing this?" Your voice broke as you pleaded with him, your warm tears mixing with the cold rain.
He ignored your pleas and looked down at you with an expression void of emotion. "Maybe you never knew me to begin with."
In the blink of an eye he was gone, leaving you alone and cold in the rain. Your broken sobs were drowned out by the heavy rain as you realized nothing would ever be the same again.
When you awoke, the painful throbbing in your head came crashing down on you immediately. Your body ached as you sat up from the concrete floor of the cell you had been put in, and you lifted your hand to the side of your head. When you looked at your fingers they were covered in flaky, dried blood.
When you fully came to your senses, you saw him, sitting across from you on the other side of the room. Kylo Ren, the Supreme Leader of the First Order and most feared man in the galaxy was mere feet from you, simply staring at you. You weakly scrambled backwards to put distance between you, your head hitting the wall behind you, causing you to wince.
He stood, holding a damp cloth in his gloved hand. "Don't do that. You're hurt enough as it is." Kylo said blankly through his modulator, before crouching down in front of you, attempting to be at eye level despite his dark helmet separating the two of you.
He reached his hand out towards your face. You frantically shook your head and inched away from him, causing him to sigh and use the force to freeze you in place. "Stop moving, I'm trying to help you." He sounded annoyed, but he began to gently wipe the blood from your face with the cloth.
You winced at the contact, which he noticed. "I'm sorry, I'm almost done." The modulator in his helmet stripped his voice of any emotion, but you could've sworn there was a hint of sympathy in his tone.
Once he finished, he released you and leaned back slightly as if to admire his work, before nodding at you. "You must be terrified. My intention was not to hurt you, I thought it would be easier to catch you... I suppose I was wrong." His modulated voice crackled.
You saw your reflection in his visor, your expression terrified and eyes sunken. You began to cry. "Why am I here?! I j-just want to go home, I want t-to go back to Ahch-To, please!" You begged him through broken sobs.
Kylo tilted his head slightly. "Now why would you want to go back there? It isn't like you have anyone to go back to but the terrible memories." His voice was now cold, calculated.
Your brow furrowed. "How would you know that?! You know nothing about me!" You shouted at him, tears streaming down your face.
He laughed through the modulator, as if there were some inside joke you had no part in. "On the contrary. I know plenty about you."
Your eyes narrowed as you stared at him, angry and confused. "Who are you?"
He sighed. "In due time, you will understand. In the meantime, eat." He pushed the tray of food that had been sitting next to you when you woke up closer to you, before standing up. "I'll be back later. If that food isn't gone when I return, you won't like the consequences." He turned around swiftly and made his way to the door.
"Why didn't you just kill me in that forest?" You said weakly.
Your question made him freeze. He tensed in the doorway, and didn't turn to look at you before speaking. "In due time, you will understand." He repeated, only he sounded... pained this time. He quickly left, shutting the door and locking it behind him.
You picked at your food, feeling the sorrow and rage boiling inside you. You screamed, throwing the tray at the door before curling up into a ball and sobbing against the cold, concrete floor of the cell.
You wanted nothing more in that moment than to feel the warm, comforting embrace of Ben, but you knew it would never come. There was a song he would always sing to you, to calm you down. As you laid there crying, you began to hum the tune to yourself.
Unbeknownst to you, Kylo stood outside the door to your cell, listening to your outburst. He sighed, leaning against the wall, deep in thought. He was quickly pulled from his thoughts though, by your humming.
He froze. Despite your broken sobs, he recognized it immediately. He had almost forgotten about that song, it reminded him of a version of himself that he had spent six years trying to kill. Kylo didn't realize he was crying until he felt a tear slip out of the bottom of his helmet. He quickly wiped it away with a gloved hand and inhaled sharply, before walking down the dimly lit hallway, away from your cell.
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mythosandthemorbid · 15 days ago
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❤️‍🩹🔪Depollute Me, Pretty Baby - Chapter 4🔪❤️‍🩹
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CW: Stockholm syndrome, hurt/comfort but it’s Ren and Strade so yk it’s gonna be fucked, blood, violence, sadism, age regression (and exploitation of such), Ren Hana brother figure, father figure Strade, both due to MCs/Readers age regression, same warnings as the source material, Boyfriend to Death.
Type: Strade x reader, first person POV of the reader
I rested my head in Ren’s lap, my eyes closed as his fingers gently threaded through my hair. His voice was soft but full of enthusiasm as he continued explaining the finer points of his favorite anime, occasionally pausing to munch on some chips.
“So a lot of the best parts are missed in the translation from Japanese to English,” he was saying, his tone carrying a bit of frustration. “You miss so much of the nuance in the characters, their little quirks and how they really feel. It’s not like the English version is bad, but… it’s just not the same, you know?”
I nodded slightly, more to let him know I was listening than anything else. The dull ache in my body had faded into the background of Ren’s soothing touch and casual conversation. His petting, surprisingly tender, was enough to keep me from focusing too much on the lingering pain or the creeping sense of dread that never quite left.
Ren sighed, popping another chip into his mouth. “But you can’t speak Japanese and aren’t in the state to learn it, so I can’t really blame you. Still, this English dub is almost painful to watch.”
I smiled faintly, letting out a soft hum. “You’re really passionate about this show, huh?” I asked fondly. I rubbed my head against his leg a little, feeling something nice and warm bubble up in my chest.
“Oh yeah!” Ren beamed, his eyes lighting up. “It’s like, the only thing keeping me sane some days. Strade lets me watch it when I’m good, so I try to stay on his good side.”
That mention of Strade caused a faint shiver to run down my spine, though I kept my expression neutral. I didn’t want to bring up my own fears—not when Ren seemed to be enjoying himself. He seemed so happy! The sight made me smile a little myself. Still, I couldn’t help but ask, “Does he ever… talk about his plans?”
Ren shrugged, his hand absentmindedly running through my hair again. “Strade doesn’t share too much unless he’s in the mood. He’s pretty unpredictable, you know? Some days, he’s super into his projects, other days, he’s just… I dunno, playing with us, I guess.” He glanced down at me, his smile softening. “But he likes you, I can tell. Said you were special. That’s good. It means he’ll keep you around.”
I swallowed, unsure if that was comforting or not. It felt… nice, at least. It didn’t feel bad. I was warning up to the thought, but I couldn’t help but wonder... “And you? What about you, Ren?”
Ren chuckled, a little too brightly. “Oh, I’m just his helper. Been around for a while, actually. I… guess I’m kind of like you in that way. He’s had plenty of others come and go, but I’ve lasted because, well, I know how to stay useful. And hey, I like having company.”
His voice faltered slightly at the last part, and I glanced up at him, confused. He caught my look and quickly smiled again. “But you and me? We’ll get along great. I can tell. We already are!”
I nodded again, this time more earnestly. Ren was clearly lonely, and I wasn’t much different. Maybe we could both make this work, together. The thought gave me some small sense of comfort—if I could stay useful to Ren and Strade, I wouldn’t be discarded.
Just as I was starting to relax again, a sound interrupted the quiet—the basement door creaking open. I tensed instantly, and I could feel Ren stiffen beside me. Our eyes met for a brief moment, and a flash of excitement crossed his face.
“He’s back,” Ren whispered, his voice almost giddy. His excitement caught me off guard, but when I focused, I realized my own heart had sped up too. Was I… relieved?
“You’re excited too,” Ren teased lightly, pointing it out with a smirk. “But remember… we can’t go down there. He told us to stay put.”
I blinked, a little disappointed. Ren was right—Strade had made it clear we weren’t to interrupt whatever he was doing. But still, a part of me wanted to move, to see what was happening. Ren seemed to notice, his hand stilling on my head for a moment.
“Just think of it like… like his job,” Ren said quietly, his tone soft but firm. “We can’t interrupt him while he’s working. It’s important to him, and we’d only make it worse for ourselves if we did.”
I nodded slowly, the tension in my body starting to ease as I processed his words. He was right. This was Strade’s time, and whatever he did with whoever he was bringing in wasn’t my concern. I had to stay focused on surviving, on staying valuable. That was what mattered.
Ren’s hand resumed its soothing movements, and he leaned back against the couch, his gaze shifting to the TV. “Don’t worry. He’ll come back for us. He always does.”
I nodded again. Staying useful, staying valuable, that’s what I needed to think about. But as I tried to focus on that, my mind rebelled, the thoughts swirling in a fog. A dull ache started at the back of my head, growing worse with every attempt to think, to strategize. It was like trying to grasp at smoke—nothing stuck. I felt myself getting lost in the haze, sinking deeper into that uncomfortable emptiness.
Ren didn’t seem to notice. He kept talking, something about the show still playing on the TV, his voice just white noise in the background as the ache in my head sharpened. My focus drifted in and out, and I didn’t even realize how long I’d been stuck in that feeling until a sudden, blood-curdling scream tore through the silence.
I flinched, the sound pulling me out of my daze, though the fog in my mind lingered. My heart stuttered in my chest, and I glanced at Ren. His ears perked up immediately, his whole body tensing, but he didn’t say a word about it. He acted like he hadn’t heard it at all, his attention remaining fixed on the TV. But I knew he had. His posture was stiff, the usual carefree energy drained from his frame.
For a moment, the room felt suffocating, every second stretching painfully until finally, the door creaked open and Strade entered the room.
He was cheerful as ever, humming to himself as he made his way over to the sink in the corner. I barely processed his greeting, his words slipping past me in my fog, though I couldn’t help but feel a little excited. The scream had already slipped my mind. Strade scrubbed his hands clean, the water running red for a moment before it faded to clear. “Well, isn’t this nice?” he said, grinning over his shoulder at us. “You two are getting along so well! I knew you would.”
He peeled off his blood-splattered button-up shirt, draping it casually over the back of a chair. The sight barely registered for me, though I could hear Ren muttering something in response, playing along with Strade’s infectious excitement. It was like background noise, distant and muffled. I couldn’t focus, couldn’t pull myself out of the haze.
Strade moved over to the couch, sitting down next to us with an easy smile, his focus shifting mainly to Ren. They chatted for a while—about what, I had no idea. The words blurred together, my body feeling heavier and heavier by the second.
It wasn’t until I felt the cold metal of the collar around my neck being unclasped that I realized Strade’s attention had shifted to me. He moved me with ease, pulling me into his lap, and the sudden shift in my position sent a sharp jolt of pain through my body. I let out a weak whine, instinctively trying to curl in on myself, but Strade’s grip kept me firmly in place.
He laughed softly, his voice dripping with amusement. “There we go,” he said, almost cooing. “That’s what I like to hear.”
Ren shifted slightly beside us, glancing over with mild concern, but he didn’t say anything.
Strade’s hand traced down my back, almost mockingly gentle. “What’s up with them, Ren? They’re all… out of it today.”
Ren hesitated, his ears flicking slightly before he responded. “Uh, maybe just tired? I mean, you did rough them up pretty good before. Might still be feeling it.”
Strade hummed in thought, his hand idly petting my head now. “Is that it, mien liebchen?” he asked, his tone saccharine sweet. “You’re still all sore and tired from our last little playtime, buddy?”
I didn’t respond, the fog still thick in my head, but Strade didn’t seem to mind. He chuckled again, clearly enjoying my state, whatever the cause.
I didn’t know why I was acting like this, why everything seemed so big and confusing all of a sudden. I just knew I wanted to stay close to Strade. He felt safe, warm, like something I could hold onto.
Strade’s hand stilled on my back for a moment, as if he noticed something was different. He looked down at me, his gaze soft but curious. “Oh?” he said, his voice still cheerful but a little more thoughtful. “What’s this, now? Are we feeling a bit younger today?”
His tone wasn’t teasing, more like he’d made an observation. His fingers brushed through my hair, still holding me securely in his lap. I didn’t answer, didn’t really understand what he was asking. I just nuzzled deeper into him, my body aching, head too clouded to respond.
Ren perked up from where he sat nearby, his ears twitching in interest. “They’re acting… different,” he commented, watching us with wide eyes. ”I thought they were just tired…” He didn’t sound uncomfortable—more curious than anything.
Strade gave a low chuckle, running his hand gently along my back. “Yeah, they are. Seems like they’re in a different headspace now.” He looked down at me again, his grip on me a little firmer. “You feeling small, buddy?”
“Mnn…” I whined softly in response, too overwhelmed to say anything. The pain still throbbed through me, sharper now, but being this close to him felt better. Like I needed him.
Strade didn’t miss a beat, shifting me a little in his lap. His fingers pressed lightly over one of the deeper wounds on my side, testing, and I let out a sharp yelp. Tears welled up in my eyes, and I clutched at him, seeking comfort through the pain.
“Ah, there it is,” Strade said, almost conversationally, as if my reaction was exactly what he expected. He didn’t seem phased by the tears in my eyes or the way I squirmed against him. If anything, he looked… interested. His smile didn’t fade, his voice remaining as light as ever. “Hurts a little more when you’re small, doesn’t it?”
Ren, still watching, blinked in surprise. “Oh… they’re like… a kid now?” His voice was quieter, like he was trying to figure it out himself. “That’s… kinda cute.” He smiled, his tail twitching behind him as he relaxed.
Strade just nodded, clearly amused. “It is cute, isn’t it? Makes you wonder how they’re going to handle this new feeling.” He pressed his hand a little firmer on my side, eliciting another soft cry from me. I flinched, tears spilling over, but I still didn’t pull away.
Ren’s face brightened even more at my reaction. “They’re not usually like this, right?” He tilted his head, genuinely curious now. “But they’re not… in pain, like, really bad?”
Strade shrugged lightly, his grip on me still steady. “They’re feeling it, sure. But they’re holding on. And that’s what matters.” He looked down at me again, his fingers brushing away some of the tears from my cheeks. “Right?”
I sniffled and gave him a small nod, still crying a little.
Strade chuckled again, clearly pleased with how things were playing out. “Good.” He leaned back slightly, letting me rest more comfortably in his lap, his hands still roaming over my skin, lightly testing, pressing just enough to remind me of the pain but never going too far. He wasn’t going to let me forget, but there was something… almost protective about how he held me.
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blueesnow · 5 months ago
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First Mai mention from Masa... And then there's a chance it was actually George/Enjouji Madoka by full name (Ren's butler and also related to Renge if I'm not wrong(?) hence why he's the only one taking care of Ren despite his father's order to everyone in the house to ignore him and I'm sure there's a memorial in Ren's repeat from his POV where Renge asked him to do that in case she was not there anymore ;;w;;) from Ren's private story when he mentioned how there's one of his acquaintance who used to brought him to Italy on his childhood and I perfectly remember there's a spesific memorial for that back in the otoge (is it debut?), and now you're telling me there's also Tomochika mention from Camus's private story? 😭 Although her va already retired it's nice to know they still keep her around ;;w;;
(Oh yeah not to mention I've heard from ppl who had Camus UR that you can hear Alexander's sounds too in the side story and outside of that you can hear Camus mentioned him from time to time which is cute www)
Ringo and Ryuya (especially Ryuya cuz of Yamato) also got mentioned from time to time too which is nice www so far there's only Raging 3D model appeared in the main story and since it's only 3 chapters and they promises to update it later there's chance they probably going to bring back Shining with 3D model too, I mean this is the character who made utapri famous after all www
Ngl at first I didn't have quite a lot of expectations for raiemo when it got announced like yeah maybe I'd dl and play it like SL though maybe not that obsessedly playing cuz my girl's not there and the story of it is kinda...boring for me (their AU had great ideas but 5 lines for each chapter is a bit eh...)
Athough I'm happy they bring back Haruchan to the cast I'm worried whether they will be going to do her justice ever since the recent events of her treatment in the series but my god they really went beyond from what I expected 😭 I'm glad they really made her much more of a protagonist than I've ever thought and I love how you can see her personalities from it.
I'm also glad how the boys mentioned her reckless attitude when it comes to composing, "You tends not see your surrounding when you were composing please take care of yourself" Or "You probably haven't eaten anything aren't you?" like those little details of haruka being 音楽夢中 is so nice 🥺
(in case you didn't know this girl is music-obsessed okay. Idk why the anime change her background like that though she still keep a few of her personalities in (then again they also did the same thing with the boys changing things that didn't have to be changed so idk) You see she was such a shy and quite a loner girl before, she didn't know how to have a conversation with ppl using words as it's too difficult for her but she learnt that she can express her feelings using music.
I remember there's a description where she used to have like long hair and especially long bangs (the reason is because she's scared talking with ppl while making eye-contact so she never cut it off) but the one who made her want to change herself was Hayato on TV. To her Hayato is this shining and dazzling presence and sometime she even wondered how could a person have a smile so bright that she can't take her eyes off of him. While watching Hayato she learned that she can't keep being scared around ppl anymore so she actively tried to have a solo performance from time to time (with her original musics that she made) outside with her keyboard cuz music is the only way where she can properly communicate.
That's the time where she properly met Masato. She was doing her own solo performance as usual in the middle of the snow (she didn't care it snowed + she's more than happy knowing that barely anyone around bcus of it www) when suddenly a man suddenly singing in sync within her plays. They both talked and praised each other talents and later on promised to themselves not to let that talent go to waste. They're both each other's reasons why they went to Saotome Academy. After meeting Masato was the time where she finally feeling brave and cut her hair short to what it is now. You see, while Hayato gave her hope to walk, Masato gave her courage so that she could run. It's a shame the anime kinda ruined that ww
Also speaking about that masaharu meeting, in Debut prologue when she first met Ranmaru he asked her whether he had seen her before but he avoided the topic later cuz he thought he was probably mistaken or something but in fact in Masato's route it was revealed that the area where Ranmaru used to perform before was around the place where Haruka used to live and it's also one of the places where she used to perform too so chances are Ranmaru probably heard her performance before cuz this guy is also quite a music lover, another reason why he kinda tolerated her and gave her a chance on the beginning of debut and AS too 'cuz of Haruka's passion for music—even if he was mean to her when he was on his woman-hater phase www
It also didn't help Ranmaru also had the same problem as she did, that communicating with words is kinda hard on him but he can express himself freely with music so they're both are kinda alike hence why both of them are attracted to each other.
There's also like one of her bad habits when it comes to music which is being a workaholic www She's the type of a girl when she's too deep in her zone she can't see her surrounding at all so sometimes she tends to skip sleeping and eating (I love how her debut profile literally state that bad habits of hers www)
Because of that sometimes you could hear her talk about how she didn't sleep for days and later on collapsed out of exhaustation or just got sick and even got taken to hospital or just sleeping anywhere except her own room (Natsuki literally found her sleeping in the recording room before instead of her dorm room when he went to pick her up while Ranmaru found her sleeping in the office, he scolded her for that though he's surprised when she mentioned that she haven't been sleeping for 3 days and later on when she went to his home the lack of sleep finally caught on to her and she's asleep in Ranmaru's room www) —and these things happened in a lot of the boys routes wwww
Her quotes in Otoya's route is... something else XD
"I doubt human would die just because they didn't sleep for 3 days" -said her as she finished a months worth of work in by a week 😭 Girl, once a time it's okay cuz that's totally unavoidable when it comes to work but after knowing about you the chances of you doing this almost every day is high enough so pls stop.
Even Shining was like speechless and called her a demon for it, though girly is quite an airhead and she's in her I-look-up-to-you-Principal phase so she thank him for that which impressed Shining even more wwww
There's also her quote in Otoya AA once she moved to agency's dorm when she found out that the equipments much better than the school dorm and that it was a one person-one room, "I could definitely composing here for 24 hours straight~" girl pls don't.
There's also tomoharu convo when she went to her dorm room (otoya's repeat after story I remember(?)) and Haruchan just casually mentioned how she's so concentrated in her composing that without her knowing the sun was already up when she glanced on her window which just flabbergasted Tomochika and she's like, "My god, did you even sleep!?" Tomochika's thought after that was interesting cuz to her Haruka used to be this calm and reserved girl but she tends to be this wild uncontrollable being(?) that she didn't know on how to scold her www
In Ai's memorial when she got sick in his route and she can't be contacted no matter how long he waited for her so he went by force to her dorm room only to found the girl collapsed in the middle of her room www As he finished taking her to the bed he heard her calling him out which he thought she finally awoken but alas girl is sleeptalking and it was... 😂 "Senpai... I... finished the song... " Ai's reaction to that is hilarious www *This girl... She's still composing even on her dream? Just how much does this girl likes to work" 🤣
Another memorial after that is also hilarious cuz apparently after he nurse her back he still can't trust her to take care of herself, that once she wake up the next morning she'll do the same thing over and over again which turns into a cycle www so he in his own way try to message her (got interrupted by Reiji and Ranmaru 😂 and it had 3 versions of message, one by Reiji, one by Ranmaru, and one the combination of ReiRan which made Ai speechless until he dediced he write it himself www) in the morning telling her to stop working for awhile and take a full-rest until she finally got better. (Which reminds me when he went to make her food when she's sick she's so uncomfortable with letting her Senpai cooks for her so she's like let me do it but Ai's already done with it and told her off "This is Senpai's order, sleep." and girl silently went back to her bed it's cute 🤣) And after she got better and they went to their usual pace of work, Ai made sure to made her stop when it's gotten too long and force her to take a break from time to time. 😂
In another memorial of his, apparently the reason why she can be fully concentrated and good when it comes to music but not the other things (as in she's slow learning other things to which Ai scold her for it hence the 8bit meme) cuz according to Ai is because she used all of her brain only just for music so she didn't have any left to receive other things. Like her brain's only got plugged when it's about music 😂 The first time I read that what comes to mind was the Patrick episode where he went genius www
Also her becoming music-obsessed also tends to had few of boys getting jealous and feels like they lost by it (Reiji especially in ASAS 😂 imagine you try to propose to your gf but she told you that she can't imagine herself being a bride bcus her wish for now is to write music for as long as she wanted to, poor guy www—it didn't help that before that there's this scene where they were walking around at night and Reiji told her how he loved her smile and what should he do to make her smile which she replied by hearing music! Which later on made Reiji realized somehow music tends to make her smile much more brighter than himself which made him self-conscius so he promised to himself that he'd do his best to make her much more attracted to him in the future so that he won't lose to music which Haruka responded "???" 🤣)
There's also like Ren side too where he showed her how to play basketball and somehow the sight of him and how the ball went to the ring gained her inspiration to make music so she went all talkative about it to Ren which Ren just replied "Lady really loved music, huh" "Hm? Yeah. Why you ask?" "Nah, it's nothing. Somehow I got a feeling that I can never win against it" "???" 😂
And welp on Nacchan's repeat love end after story (you know how there's still Satsuki but it was rather called as wild Natsuki) these two were having fun in the forest until Natsuki's glasses went off, boy went blind without it so he literally try to grab anywhere to find his glasses and somehow that sight of Nacchan awoken something in Haruchan that she decided to be a naughty for a sec so she told Natsuki the wrong location for his glasses multiple times until wild Natsuki appeared and so these two are doing hide and seek as a wolf and red riding hood until he finally catch her and whisper to her what she wanted (in a sexy way okay) but sadly haruchan's like "I want to hear Natsuki-kun's singing voice or him playing a viola or—" which pissed off Wild Natsuki and he called her "You music-idiot woman!" 😂 which was supposed to be Sacchan's nickname for her from before he was still Satsuki(?)
Honestly I tends to joke that "haha did Haruchan have a 声フェチ" after seeing her first reaction being mesmerized by Otoya's voice and all her monologues about is...something else that she forgot she was sexuallly harassed on the train before and Otoya came to save her www but ngl seeing her reactions after hearing the boys voice after that...it might be not that impossible 😐 It also didn't help that this girl had sensitive ears too so playing with her ears will be--okay I'm gonna stop :")))
Anyway back to Haruchan's bad habits, Ai's memorial in ASAS is also hilarious. Like the end of his B Route is that he gave her key to his house and told her that she could go there even if he's not around while baiting her with all of his equipments on his studio which would made her composing easier. So boy finally went back from work and is glad to know that Haruka used his key. She's still working even after she greets him though Ai's kinda not bothered about it so he sat beside her while waiting for her to finish as he told us how his home now feels more homey now that it finally got decorated bit by bit by Haruka'a touch, like Haruka tends to bring these sea creatures plushie and keeps it in his house which is cute XDXD Like there's a penguin one, a dolphin and jellyfish. So he plays with one of the plushie while he waits for her until he just... got bored of it. Like it's cute he suddenly said this on his mind "I'm here right now and you won't even pay attention to me" though him sulking while still decide to wait for her is much more cuter XD
Welp until he finally decided to told her to take a break and she responded, "Oh, I'm sorry. It's just a little bit more" Ai... Ai's reaction hearing that was hilarious 😂 "That face... is definitely not just 'a lil bit more' face" Ai soon remember her habits 🤣 This robo suddenly went into detective mode and searching through all of her surroundings such as her empty mug and how only the table she's working on had music sheets all scattered around. He even went so far as to calculate how many hours she spent there which he definitely decided it's more than just four hours worth of work so he decided to be blunt and said, "You, you haven't take a break since 1pm didn't you? " "H-How did you know!?" and he... he literally took her by force from her workplace after that 🤣
Oh yeah, another cute facts about Haruka... remember how she was a fan of Hayato? She was such a fangirl before that when the topic change into Hayato she turned into this talkative girl even though she was so shy before and it surprised and intimidated Syo when he first knew about this side of her XD It happened on his memorial when he supposed to do a report with Hayato and Haruka's like "I got you" so she brought him to his room and showed her all of her recording collections so they watch Hayato together until Haruka decided to go full fangirl mode on Hayato like their conversation went like "Look at that Syo-kun! Isn't Hayato-sama Amazing!?" "Uh...yeah.." "Look this part is where he's adlibbing! Look look" which later on made Syo so quiet which is hilarious 'cuz you know this guy is the loudest ppl 😂 And usually syoharu convo were literally with Syo speaking talkatively with Haruka sometimes responding in a calm manner so it's interesting since their dynamic change here www
Also her being an idol fan didn't stop just with Hayato. After she dated her idol bf apparently this girl had a habit to buy anything to support her bf which is CD, merchs, anything. So you see, the thing with the CD... is seriously hilarious okay. I mean the CD was a song that she made by herself, and the reactions of the boys when she went and buy one is... Syo was perplexed and mentioned how the agency already gave them one when it got produced but girl already went to the store (Natsuki's Repeat Friend End After Story), when Haruka was going to go to the register and buy the CD Ai suddenly came up behind her and asking why is she buying one when he already gave her one as a celebration (Ai ASAS A Route End), Masato's a bit confused when she suddenly running to him with CD in hand while shouting that she managed to buy it but he's happy knowing her happy (Debut Masato). And out of all of that reaction... the one with Ai is hilarious. So apparently in the shop there were like two of Ai fans in there so they kinda noticed him and want to try approach him and he realized this so Ai told Haruka to let's get out of here but Haruka... 😭 She insist that he lets her go to the register and buy the CD first before they took off and... he actually lets her 😂 They didn't show how it went since the scene skipped after they finally ran away but my god Haruchan... 😭 "My idol bf almost got ambushed by his fans but oh no my CD is much more important" 🤣 this girl's priority XD
I also remember there's a scene where she bought Ranmaru's poster and told him how she's going to hang it up in her room.... forgetting that she lived with him now. But she still decided to ask him can she still hang the poster which the man responded, "Hell no, what kind of an idiot who hangs a poster of their own face in their room" 🤣)
Anyway I've just realized I talk way too much about this girl, I'm so sorry you can't just ignore that giant wall of words:"))) But yeah, I did like Haruka back when I watch the anime. But my god I never expected to actually loving her so much after playing the game, even more than the boys www. Like she's the reason why I'm still enjoying utapri until now. Any contents that had her in it I quickly went and prepare my spoon and fork while waiting for the meal. Broc pls release more merchs of her I need to buy more i'm still salty I never got the 10th anni merch by kurahana sensei cuz my god girl is so sexy she's full of confidence also pls don't forget about dolce vita--
Anyway back to raiemo, I've noticed that almost all of the backgrounds they used in raiemo literally resemble the ones from the ori game; such as haruka's dorm room, each of the boys's dorm room (starish), Saotome Academy's Classroom, and I also found out they also used Ai's room (studio) just like how it was back in AS in his UR side story (there's also a good chance the other senpai will have their own room displayed too asdfghjkl if any of you had their ur and unlocked their side story let me know)
So yeah I had a lot of fun right now enjoying raiemo, seeing Haruka still working as a composer and learning about the boys once again. I hope they keep mentioning and bring out the sub characters more in the future if by chance they mention Hakase and Kaoru I'm dead but I hope they mentioned the parents too I miss hearing Nacchan's Dad Story or Syo's parents (which their dynamic is interesting cuz his mom is the one wearing the pants in the relationship www)
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lemmetreatya · 2 years ago
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you just moved in w eren and he tries your cooking for the first time. just to mess with you he says some shit like “eh it could be better” to see how you’d react
💿 as always, our ultimate shit stirrrerrrrrr!!! 💿
“Ren, come taste this!”
You called out into the mostly empty apartment.
Having just moved in, you thought you’d cook the first meal for the two of you; a start to the new beginning of a new chapter.
Hearing the soft pattering of feet, you took a scoop of the hot food that was cooking over the pot. You softly blowed on it so it wouldn’t be too hot for him eat.
Making his way into the kitchen with dust all over his clothes, Eren wiped his hands on his trousers.
“This whatchu been cooking?”
You nod in reply, a smile on your face as you offered him the sample of food with your hand underneath the spoon. You personally knew it tasted good but you just wanted him to try it — to get a taste of what food was gonna taste like from now on.
“Say ‘ahh’!”
The man opened his mouth wide, face concentrated on the spoon as he took the serving in his mouth. Taking a gulp of the food, you watched his face to see his expression.
“Eh, could be better.” He said as he smacked his lips. “It’s mediocre at best.”
Pulling back, you gave him a stank look.
“Bitch, what?”
“What?” Eren shrugged and gave you a passive blank face.
For a moment you were speechless. It was then that you made a rather unbelievable low laugh as you slapped the spoon against your palm.
“Oh, I know you fucking playing with me, Big boy. I just know you’re fucking playing me.”
Seeing that you weren't joking, Eren changed up his tune. He let out a soft chuckle as he manoeuvred in your direction.
“Relax, I’m playing with you, it tastes great!”
Your stoic face turned into a melty pout.
“Eren…”
With a light laugh, Eren shook his head as he moved closer to you, engulfing you in a sideways hug.
“Naw, I’m sorry, baby. Honestly, it tastes very nice, I’m looking forward to it.”
Still pouting, you went back to stirring the food.
“Who said you’re even getting some anymore…”
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tiktokonaclock · 1 year ago
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The Siren and The Demon Chapter 2
"The whole point of your mission was to convince the brawlers to join us. “ Kazarina scolded the teenagers kneeling in front of her. “What part of that was confusing to you ?!”
The agents all found the floor quite interesting, appearently. Her teammates each scolded the kids, except for Gill. Interesting Kozarina thought. Gill would never miss a chance on belittling someone. Perhaps, degrading teenagers was not as enjoyable as degrading her. He gave the emperor a suggestion for their next strike instead.
The meeting was dismissed.She watched the agents leaving the room one by one, on their toes. Emperor gave them the order to prepare for attack. Gill turned to her with a smug expression on his face.
"We have to prepare for the attack, not a night out. So don't waste too much time On your make-up."
"And you make sure to go potty before the attack."
The stifled laughter on her other teammates’ face were reassuring her that she had come up with a good come back. She sent Gill her fakest smile.
The agentd have been waiting in the main sallon of the palace for some time now. The ships needed to be prepared by their owners, and it took almost an hour. They were mostly silent, yet they stood together. The failure was theirs, just as how the victory would have been theirs as well.
"Do you guys think Sid is okay?" Zenet asked, finally breaking the silence.
“Sid’s dead, Zenet. "Mason replied, his expression cold as stone. "They killed him for losing the element."
"Have you seen the body?"
"Do I need to? The emperor explicitly said that he doesn't want any weaklings around. So You get destroyed when you fuck up. Easy as that.”
“The stakes are high for us now." Lena said, crossing her arms. “My guess is that they will try us out individually and decide who gets to stick around." She looked around, "Our lives would've been lot easier if it wasn't for the brawlers."
"Those fucking idiots have no idea what we are going through here." Mason said. "Both us individually and the entirety of Gundalia generally."
"If they had seen the Gundalia's condition they would have chosen to help us instead of Neithians," Ren spoke as if he was in a dream. "I am sure of that."
"Then perhaps you should have tried to explain our motivation to them. We didn't start a war just to satisfy our craving for violance." Jesse said.
"Maybe you should've done that Jesse, since you are so good with words"
“If I was the appointed leader of this mission, I would.”
Zenet's cell phone rang, interrupting the bickering. Once she saw the name on it, she hid the screen by putting it on her leg. "I'll be right back." She said as she walked away. Once she was sure she was far enough, she picked up the phone. Her head tilted and her expression hardend on her face. "No, I am not." They heard her say. "I can't talk to you right now." She turned to her teammates and once she realized that they were observing her, she covered her mouth with her hand.
"What the fuck?" Mason grumbled. "
"My money is on the chance of her having a suitor that won't stop chasing her," Jesse replied.
“Isn't she a little too young for that?"
“She is only 2 years younger than us.”
“2 years is lot when you are a teen.”
“Well, I had a boyfriend when I was 15.” Lena shruged." Plus, if we are going to get murdered for losing a match we might as well lose our virginity beforehand."
The others laughed at the irony.
"Well well." "Kazarina said when she saw the knight running towards the enemy's Side. "Who let Elright out of his cage?” "Somebody is getting fired." Gill replied. Kazarina crossed her arms as she turned to him. "I thought Airzel was keeping him captive." She sent a cheeky smile. "Perhaps your loyal aide is not as great as you think.”
“Do not take his name on your mouth Kazarina." Gill replied harshly. "At least I have friends other than lab rats.”
The blonde's smug expression slowly faded off her face as she turned in front of her. "Neither you nor the other men would have your vicious toys to play with, if it wasn't for my research center," she said. "It is thanks to us, to me, that we are so strong.”
Gill smirked as he walked towards her. Closing the few steps gap between them, he leaned on her. The scent of his woody perfume filled her lungs as he whispered: “Then perhaps I'll have to find new toys to play with, my dear.”
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sleezeboss · 2 years ago
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2022 Art Summary and Thoughts
stealing this from a mutual- just wanted to reflect on the art I’ve made this year, what I’ve learned, and where I’d like to see myself go from here.
The end of the year is weird for me, artistically. I always slow down with art and get really immersed in family, holidays, and my life outside of art. And because I’m not cranking out art 7 days a week, it skews my view of my output and self worth, and it makes me end the year feeling like I’ve quit art, like I haven’t made anything, like it’s time to hang up my hat and move on or something.
But! When I stop being dramatic for like 5 seconds, I can see that that’s not true at ALL, and in actuality, in the last year, I’ve made some incredibly profound strides with my art that I am so excited to carry into the next year.
I’m hoping that sitting down and contemplating these strides will help solidify them and make them more tangible to me.
So let’s dive in!
At the beginning of 2022, I had a LOT of fun reacquainting myself with Ren and Stimpy. I started rewatching it on a whim while working out one day, having not watched the show since I was.... 6? and was instantly transported to a world of inspiration and love for my art and art-making that I hadn’t experienced for some time. The expressions, dynamism, and sheer energy of that show reminded me a lot about what I love most about my art. I felt encouraged to pursue my strengths, rather than constantly focusing on what I need to improve or need to change about my art. And I felt it blossom. I made some pieces I really loved in 2022, and I hope to continue with that energy and love for my own work that keeps art-making enjoyable and meditative for me.
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These were all expression studies of screencaps from Ren and Stimpy episodes. I got ADDICTED to seeing my boys with these big, bold expressions.
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This is the screenshot that kicked it all off lmao. This unlocked something so crazy in me.
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This was me taking a stab at pulling expressions from my head, no reference.
After that, during the summer, I took a 6 week animation course through Animation Mentor, an online school. I loved it so much, that as soon as it finished, I immediately signed up for a second course that started not even 2 weeks after. Not to be dramatic, but no joke? For the first time in my artistic journey, I felt capable and confident about animating. It was the first time in my life that 2D animation was actually presented to me in an accessible (and achievable!!) manner. I have ALWAYS struggled with animating. I love it so much! I am a cartoon fanatic and Disney animation enthusiast at heart, and to love something so deeply and to only be mediocre at it at best can really be hurtful and demoralizing, but! These two animation courses really helped rewrite that narrative for me.
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This was my second-to-last assignment, the floursack test.
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This was my final assignment for my first course, 2D animation for beginners. A head-turn.
Moving into the new year, I would really like to see myself animate more. Making several small, 2-3 second animations and getting the practice in, building up a personal portfolio of animation is something I really want to see for myself. I want to see my characters live and breath, god damnit!!
Animating inspired me to make some style guides for my boys, rather than ref-sheets. I think ref sheets can become outdated quickly as your style adapts and changes, but a style guide, one typically used by animators, is a great guideline for keeping characters consistent. I thought that would be very useful for me, so I made one for Rex and Bub, naturally.
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In the fall, I finally finished a mini comic I had started earlier in the year, Belphi’s New Pussy.
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Comic-making was admittedly hard for me last year. I think graduating from my iPad to a new tablet set-up and learning CSP from scratch really shook my artistic confidence and motivation for comic making. All last year, I was beating myself up about not working on chapter 5 of Badbeat, so I am amazed and proud that I was able to get BNP out. Not only did I get it out, but it ended up being one of the most successful posts of my twitter career lmao. I’m really happy with how it looks, but I think it’s becoming clear to me that that level of comic polish is not sustainable for more than 1 chapter a year. If I want to finish Badbeat in my life time, I’m gonna need to simplify my process. Maybe even keep it to my iPad. Something about drawing and sketching is easier on my iPad, whereas the actual comic formatting can be done in CSP. I’m obviously still trying to learn my optimal workflow for efficiency, speed, and sanity haha.
In the comic year, I really would like to get chapter 5 out. That is my comic goal for the new year.
All and all, it has been a really productive year artistically. I feel like quantity-wise I have produced less than maybe the year prior, but I think the things I DID produce have been profound. Pushing Bub and Rex’s designs and expressions has been profound. Taking the steps to learn animation has been profound. Making a comic entirely in a new program that I have owned for less than a year is profound.
I am very proud of myself and can’t wait to see what the new year has in store!
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srorgana1 · 2 years ago
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Into the Reverb (Kylo Ren/Reader)
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Chapter Eight
You yawn as you reach for your coffee thermos. D’Acy has been prattling on about something or another for the last 5 minutes or so. Probably budget or finance based. You shift in your seat, trying to get more comfortable, willing yourself to not go there. Do not think about it, you have already overanalyzed it to death.
He kissed you. He initiated. But why? Was it a heat of the moment thing or something more? You weren't sure. You wanted to text him on Sunday but you lost the nerve to. Now you will be forced to see the agent of your thoughts in all his muscled glory in two hours.
You jump at the sound of your name. “Sorry I missed that” you spit out quickly, embarrassed you missed what was being spoken about you. You look up with flushed cheeks to D’Acy. Her shoulders shake with silent laughter. “What I was saying Y/N, is that we are very impressed with your work with Ochi. We know he’s difficult to work with. But your hard work paid off, girlfriend. The EP is great and has been cleared for release at the end of the month" she says, smiling at you.
Your month drops in shock. You weren't expecting this type of praise. “Y/N, you have been doing really well” Chewie piped up “Your work with the Knights has been exceptional. They all say they love working with you.” Your whole body flushes as you stammer for words. “T-Thank you, wow, um thank you for that”. You cringe inside at your lack of words. You receive a warm smile from D’Acy as the conversation of the meeting shifts to other release dates.
Kylo runs a hand through his sweaty hair. It’s at that irritating stage, plenty long enough to hide his ears easily without trying but the front is in his eyes constantly. He huffs, wishing he had something to tie it up with. He and the Knights have been recording the final version of Never Giving Up. You are at the board behind the glass looking determined. You had them record the chorus a couple of times, each time using different vocal techniques and distortions. Kylo personally liked the version with the elongated fry scream at the end.
“Good job guys, I think we got it” you say through the speakers “Come on back and I’ll let you review them.” There’s a chorus of yeah and cools from the men around him. As he unhooks his Fender from the amp, he shifts his eyes to you. So beautiful. He wonders what you thought about what happened on Saturday. He wants to know if this isn’t just one sided.
As he walks in, he notices the only spot available is the chair next to you. How convenient. Smirking to himself, he settles in, placing one leg over the other and turns to you. You don’t meet his eyes. Something is wrong. Your normally expressive face seems impassive. His eyebrows crinkle as he stares.
“Ky? Ky!” Shit. “What?” he says, shaking his head as he meets five other sets of eyes. “Sorry” he grumbles “what did you say?” Kuruk smirked as Vic cleared his throat. “I said of the three choruses I liked the third one the most when we were in there. What do you think?”
Kylo rubs his hands down his face, annoyed and embarrassed. “I agree but let's listen to them, so we can make a combined decision?” Vic nods with a sly smile as he tosses him a water bottle. Damn he needs to pull it together.
They agree quickly and record the whole song in less than an hour. Ushar whoops at the end due to the adrenaline and they decide to keep it on the recording. The band chatters happily as they pack up the space deciding on dinner at the local cantina. “You coming, Kylo?” Kuruk says, slapping his shoulder. “No. Didn’t sleep well last night so I'm gonna crash” he says, not meeting his eyes. “Sure you are” Kuruk show-whispers with a wink. Kylo groans as he swats Kuruk’s hand away.
As he waves the guys off, he grabs his guitar case and steps into the room with you. “That went really well today” you say as you stare at the screen. He watches as your fingers move over the mouse and keyboard, saving and filing all their hard work safely away. “All thanks to you though” he says as he sits next to you.
A surprised expression crosses your face. “I’m serious Y/N, this shit is kickass because of you, we didn’t have this type of support at the First Order” he says, giving you a warm smile. You turn to him slightly in your chair as you take off your headphones. “Thanks Ky” you mumble, your eyes avoiding his. He moves his hand to your thigh to keep you steady.
He sees confusion swirling in your eyes. “What’s wrong?” he whispers. “I... you kissed me” you say softly. “Yeah, yeah I did. Is that a problem?” he says leaning in slightly. “I don’t know, but I…why me? I’m nothing special.” His eyes widened at that. He has the overwhelming need to settle your doubts and show how special you are.
He leans all the way and places a soft kiss on your lips, pulling back slowly to assess your response. Your cheeks are beautifully warm and your full lips slightly parted. “Lemme tell you how you are special” he mumbles as he cups your cheek and pulls you forward. He meets your lips with a strangled groan. Your lips are so soft and your taste is exquisite.
His grip on your thigh tightens as he feels your hands go to his chest. He feels himself harden as your fingers explore his wide shoulders. “You are amazing” He growls, kissing you harder. “Wickedly talented” Kiss “Sexy as hell." Moving quickly, he pulls you out of your chair and onto his lap. Your legs straddle him naturally as your arms lock around his neck, gasping softly. “It’s okay baby girl I got you” he whispers at your lips as he claims yours once again.
He continues his assault on your lips and neck. He loves the feeling on your soft skin under his tongue. You let out a low groan as he kisses you, your hips rotating slightly over him. His hands lock onto your hips, eyes flutter with pleasure.
He relishes the friction. He feels your fingers move into his hair as you rock your hips again. He nuzzles his nose to the side of your face. “Hmmm, baby girl you feel so good,” he groans, placing a kiss behind your ear.
“Kylo” you sigh, apparently just as affected as he is. “Yes baby?” he breathes, lips still at your neck. “What is this?” “Shh baby girl, it's okay, it's whatever you want it to be” he says as faces you. You move one hand back to his shoulder as you run the other through his hair. He hums as your nails scratch along his scalp. He clears his throat, focusing on your eyes. “Y/N, I really mean that. I like you and I'm interested in whatever you want this to be, if that’s okay with you?”
You don’t say anything for a minute or two. Kylo can literally see the wheels spinning in your head. He squeezes your hip in solitude. “You don't need to decide now, just let me know, okay" he says as he kisses your nose. “I don’t normally do stuff like this” you whisper, placing your forehead against his. His cheeks warm at your brutal honesty. It's another reason he’s attracted to you.
“Neither do I, I’m not like Kuruk” he retorts as he wraps his arms around you. He smiles at your giggle. “Yeah, him and Rae are a bit much.” he says, chuckles as he kisses you softly. “Totally agree with you there.”
Big thanks to my girls @asnackdriver @punk-in-docs @the-wayward-rose @thepilotanon @ladyzimmerman for their amazing support.
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ao3feed--reylo · 1 year ago
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a little bit scandalous
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by Inayaluic
Pretending to be her boss' girlfriend was the last thing Rey expected when she walked into work that morning. It was ridiculous, really. No one would ever believe that they were together. But after taking one look at Ben's forlorn expression, Rey knew she couldn't say no.
It was only for two days. Just a simple lunch at a place down the street and then a gala the next night for some charity. It couldn't be that bad, right? If nothing else, she'd get a few fancy meals and a pretty dress out of this.
Words: 2159, Chapters: 1/2, Language: English
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Categories: F/M
Characters: Rey (Star Wars), Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Leia Organa, Han Solo
Relationships: Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren
Additional Tags: Semi-Public Sex, Bathroom Sex, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Boss/Employee Relationship, Exhibitionism, Ben Solo Needs A Hug, Leia isn't a great mom, Age Difference, Ben is in his early 40s, Rey is in her 20s, Unsafe Sex, Blow Jobs, Public Blow Jobs, Vaginal Sex, Rough Sex, Nerdy Ben Solo, Ben Solo Wears Glasses, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, paper thin plot, Ben works in Finance, Rey works in IT, Ben's a bit clumsy whenever Rey is around, It's almost like he's got a crush on her or something, Smut, Ben's shy, until he's not, fast burn
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mighthavesecrets · 1 year ago
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Embers of Hope in a Darkened Galaxy - Chapter 4
Echoes of Victory
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After the triumphant takeover of the Taldor V facility, an air of exhilaration swept through the Resistance ranks. The days that followed were filled with jubilant celebrations, as members of the Resistance reveled in their hard-earned victory. Among the heroes of the mission, Poe and Rey stood out prominently, their actions becoming the subject of admiration and fascination. Poe, with his natural charisma and flair for storytelling, took great pleasure in regaling their comrades with dramatic accounts of their daring exploits within the facility's walls. With animated gestures and a theatrical tone, he spun tales of hair-raising encounters and narrow escapes, captivating his audience and leaving them in awe. The crowd would hang onto his every word, their expressions alternating between gasps of suspense and hearty laughter. Rey, on the other hand, found herself swept up in the contagious energy of the celebrations. She listened to Poe's stories with a gleeful twinkle in her eyes, fully aware that half of the dangers he described were embellished for dramatic effect, while the other half were entirely figments of his imagination. Nonetheless, she reveled in the camaraderie and the shared sense of accomplishment that permeated the room. Each exaggerated account seemed to only add to the joy and laughter that echoed through the gathering.
Rey often found herself seeking a moment of respite from the joyful chaos in secluded nooks of the Resistance base. She yearned for solace, a chance to untangle the web of emotions that entwined her heart and mind. On this particular day, Rey retreated to the sanctuary of her bedroom. The door softly closed behind her, shutting out the cacophony of the bustling Resistance base. With a sigh, she found herself seated on the edge of her bed, the familiar contours providing a sense of comfort. As she sat in the quiet embrace of solitude, her thoughts inevitably gravitated towards Kylo Ren. She couldn't deny the turmoil she felt whenever he entered her thoughts. There was a part of her that despised him for the atrocities he had committed, the pain he had caused, and the darkness that seemed to consume him. But there was also a part of her, a small ember of compassion, that recognized the fractured soul behind the menacing mask. The memory of his lips pressing against hers lingered, a bittersweet imprint upon her soul. The intensity of that stolen kiss had left her breathless, igniting a torrent of conflicting emotions within her. Rey's heart felt like a battlefield, torn between the pull of attraction and the weight of reason. How could she reconcile the tender warmth she had felt in that fleeting connection with the knowledge of the darkness that coursed through him? How could she trust the sincerity behind that gesture, knowing the abyss of pain and destruction that he embodied? It was an endless cycle of turmoil, a tempestuous storm raging within her. On one hand, she yearned for the forbidden closeness that had flickered between them, an undeniable chemistry that defied the boundaries of their opposing sides. On the other hand, caution and apprehension whispered in her ear, reminding her of the perils of entwining her destiny with his.
As she crossed her legs, a profound stillness settled in the room, as if the very air held its breath in reverence. The sounds of her surroundings, the distant murmurs and footsteps, gradually faded into the background, dissipating like tendrils of mist. In this newfound silence, Rey was cocooned in a world of her own making. As if her mere thoughts had summoned it forth, the ethereal quiet enveloped her like a gentle embrace. The usual noises and distractions were replaced by a serene tranquility that permeated the space. The room, once filled with the hum of machinery and the echo of voices, now felt like a haven of stillness. Closing her eyes, Rey embraced the calm that surrounded her. The outside world seemed distant, its demands and expectations fading into insignificance. In the softness of the silence, her mind wandered, tracing the contours of her connection with Kylo Ren, a connection that defied easy categorization. A subtle tremor resonated through the very fabric of her being as the Force bond, the invisible thread that linked her to Kylo Ren, awakened once more. The boundaries of physical space seemed to dissolve as their minds connected, drawing them into a shared space beyond the reach of time and distance.
She opened her eyes, and found herself face-to-face with him, her heart pounding in her chest. The air crackled with unspoken tension as their gazes locked. He broke the silence, his voice devoid of any hint of emotion.
“First Order operations in the Taldor systems have been halted entirely. The Resistance's success in taking the facility is commendable, considering the formidable defenses it possessed.” His words hung in the air, a statement that held far more weight than the words themselves. Rey braced herself, ready to defend her actions, to stand firm against his perceived judgment. But her voice betrayed her, uttering a question that burned within her.
“You kissed me.” 
The accusation lingered in her words, a challenge and a plea for understanding. She searched his eyes, hoping to find the answers to the questions that swirled within her. His response was measured, his expression a mask of detachment.
“I did.” 
His words held no trace of remorse or regret. It was a simple admission, devoid of any emotion. His response was cool and measured, devoid of any visible emotion. His face, once a canvas of untold stories, now revealed little. Rey's heart ached, desperate for a connection, for a sign that would unravel the mysteries that bound them together. In that moment, Rey felt a surge of conflicting emotions: anger, confusion, and an unexpected undercurrent of longing. She had anticipated a confrontation, a confrontation that would demand explanations and justifications. Instead, she was met with a calm acceptance of a truth she wasn't sure she was ready to confront.
Rey's voice trembled with a mix of frustration and longing.
“Why? Why spare me? Why kiss me?” she asked him. “What purpose does it serve?”
She wanted answers, she craved clarity. But Kylo’s response remained enigmatic, his tone cool and detached.
“Reasons can be elusive, Rey. Motivations tangled in a web of uncertainty.” 
His words only deepened her confusion, the conflicting emotions swirling within her. She yearned for understanding, for a sense of purpose in this tumultuous connection they shared. But the answers remained elusive, slipping through her grasp like sand. She searched his face for a sign, a flicker of vulnerability, anything that could provide the clarity she so desperately sought. But his features remained impassive, offering no solace.
“So you’ve come to offer me metaphors and half answers. How very Jedi of you,” Rey said with a bitter edge, her voice laced with frustration. She let out a huff of air, her disappointment palpable. He chuckled darkly. 
“I suppose I did learn something,” Kylo replied. The meaning was clear, even though he hadn't said it out loud — from Luke. The mention hung heavily in the air, a bitter reminder of what was lost and still weighed on Rey's heart. In a sudden burst of emotion, Rey rose from her bed, the intensity of her action surprising even herself. Kylo flinched, taken aback by her sudden outburst.
“We can't do this,” she spoke, her voice wavering with a mix of determination and anger. “We can't pretend to be friends, or allies, or…” she motioned between the two of them, “anything more than what we are. You and I are sworn enemies, caught in a relentless dance between light and dark. It can't be anything more than that.” Rey's voice trembled as her eyes welled up with unshed tears. Embarrassed, she rubbed at her face.
Kylo's gaze softened ever so slightly, a hint of sympathy seeping through his composed exterior. He reached out a hand, as if trying to bridge the widening chasm between them.
“There's a connection between us, something that defies the boundaries of the Force. You can’t deny that,” he implored, his voice soft and urgent.
Rey recoiled at his words.
“I can deny it. I will deny it. This bond between us is nothing but a curse, a cruel twist of fate that has tied us together. I won't let it define me, I won't let it control me. I won't let you control me,” she spat out, her voice laced with venom.
Kylo's face hardened, his hand dropping to his side.
“Control you? You think I want to control you? You have no idea what you're talking about,” he hissed back, his own anger flaring.
Rey took a step forward, her fists clenched at her sides.
"Don't act like you're innocent in all this. You've done things, terrible things. You've hurt people, killed people. You've turned your back on everything you once believed in,” she accused, her voice rising.
Kylo didn't flinch, his expression resolute.
“And you've done the same, Rey. You've fought alongside the Resistance, a group that has killed First Order soldiers without remorse. You've allied yourself with those who would see the galaxy thrown into chaos. We're not so different, you and I,” he countered, his voice level.
Rey shook her head, her eyes blazing with fury.
“Don't you dare compare me to you. I fight for what's right, for the good of the galaxy. You fight for power, for control. You don't care who gets hurt along the way.”
Kylo's expression hardened.
"And I suppose you've never felt the lure of the darkness? You've never been tempted to take the easy path, to seize power and control for yourself? You're not as pure as you think you are, Rey,” he retorted. “You don't understand, Rey," he continued. "There's more at play here than you know. The First Order, the Resistance, they're both just pawns in a greater scheme.”
For a moment, the two of them stood in tense silence, their anger and resentment palpable in the air. The room seemed to hold its breath, waiting for a resolution that remained just out of reach.
"I don't know if I can trust you," Rey admitted, her voice tinged with vulnerability.
Kylo's expression softened, the hardness in his eyes giving way to a flicker of compassion.
"I understand. But you have to believe me when I say that I'm not your enemy, Rey. There's more to this than meets the eye," he said, his voice low and steady.
Rey held his gaze for a long moment, her mind racing as she struggled to make sense of the conflicting emotions she felt. her frustration grew, her inner turmoil threatening to consume her. She couldn't fathom the depth of their connection, the inexplicable pull that kept drawing her back to him. She wanted to break through his façade, to unravel the mysteries that he guarded so fiercely.
But she was done trying today.
With a heavy sigh, Rey looked away from Kylo, the tension in the air dissipating as her anger faded away. Without another word she turned and walked away, leaving Kylo standing alone. As his form disappeared into the shadows, she knew deep down that this wasn't the end--their story was far from over.
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Rey tried to put their conversation to the back of her mind. As the days passed, she threw herself into her training, determined to become stronger--to become a Jedi worthy of the title. The hours spent practicing her lightsaber forms and honing her connection to the Force left little room for anything else. But despite her efforts, thoughts of Kylo continued to linger on the fringes of her mind, a persistent distraction that refused to be ignored.
Rey entered the command center of the Resistance base, her heart pounding with a mix of anticipation and nerves. The air was thick with urgency, officers engaged in their duties, and holographic displays projected mission updates across the room. General Leia stood at the center of it all, a beacon of strength and determination.
As Rey approached, she took a moment to observe General Leia, her expression a blend of resilience and concern. The General's eyes met Rey's, and she offered a small smile of encouragement. Rey took a deep breath, feeling a sense of comfort wash over her in Leia's presence.
"Rey," Leia greeted her warmly. "I'm glad you're here. We have a mission for you."
Rey straightened, her focus sharpening as she prepared herself for whatever task the General had in mind.
"What do you need me to do?" Rey asked, her voice steady.
Leia motioned for Rey to follow her to a nearby table, where a holographic image of a planet flickered to life.
"Veridion Prime, a crucial system on the edge of the First Order's influence, teeters on the brink of a decision. Their support or neutrality could tip the balance in our favor." Rey nodded, listening intently.
"Your mission is to travel to Veridion Prime as our representative," Leia continued. "Convince Chancellor Kellan Arden and the leaders of Veridion Prime that the Resistance offers a path worth taking. Share our vision of a galaxy free from oppression, and seek their support."
Leia waved her hand, and a holographic image of a man appeared as if he were standing there in front of them. He was middle aged, his hair graying, with a serious face but kind eyes.
"Chancellor Arden values neutrality," Leia emphasized. "So, tread carefully, Rey. Build trust, demonstrate the integrity of the Resistance, and appeal to their shared desire for freedom." Leia handed Rey a datapad. "You'll find the details on this."
Rey nodded, taking in the gravity of the task before her. It was a daunting challenge, but she knew that the fate of the galaxy rested on the outcome of this mission. She steeled herself, her resolve unwavering.
"I won't let you down, General," she said, her voice determined.
Leia smiled kindly, placing a hand on Rey's shoulder.
"I know you won't," she said, her eyes shining with pride. "May the Force be with you, Rey."
As Rey left the command center, she flicked through the datapad, her mind racing with the details of the mission. She focused on her training, on the skills she had honed through practice and dedication. But despite her efforts, her thoughts kept returning to Kylo--to the bond that tied them together, even as they remained sworn enemies.
Rey walked purposefully through the bustling corridors of the Resistance base, her steps filled with determination. She had been entrusted with an important mission, and she knew that time was of the essence. The weight of responsibility settled on her shoulders as she made her way to the hangar, where the Resistance fleet awaited. Entering the hangar, Rey was greeted by the familiar sight of starships in various stages of preparation. The air hummed with activity, echoing the urgency of the Resistance's cause. Technicians and mechanics moved about with focused intensity, ensuring each vessel was primed and ready for action. Rey's eyes scanned the hangar, searching for the ship assigned to her. It was a sleek, agile starfighter, adorned with the emblem of the Resistance. The ship stood apart from the others, its engines quietly humming with anticipation, as if eager to take flight and fulfill its purpose. As she prepared to depart for Veridion Prime, Rey's mind was in turmoil. She knew that Kylo had secrets, that there was more to their connection than he had let on. And yet, she couldn't deny the pull she felt towards him, the inexplicable attraction that defied all logic.
Rey boarded her ship, steeling herself for the mission ahead. But as she took her seat in the cockpit and the engines roared to life, she couldn't shake the feeling that she was heading towards something greater--something that would change the course of her fate, and the fate of the entire galaxy. As she soared through the stars towards Veridion Prime, Rey couldn't help but wonder if Kylo was out there somewhere, thinking about her too. She couldn't deny the spark of attraction that had ignited between them, even amidst their conflicting loyalties and bitter disagreements. But she knew that, for now, she had a mission to complete--and the fate of the galaxy rested on her success.
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ghost-rocker · 6 years ago
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Thoughts on Skip Beat! 266: Relationships
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Honestly, I thought this was a very interesting chapter. Seeing Kyoko and Sho’s interaction, plus Ren’s reaction made me think of something rather simple.
First, Ren’s reaction.
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He’s understandably pissed and hurt for a number of reasons. He hates Sho’s behavior, what he did to Kyoko, and his closeness to Kyoko. Not only is Sho the kind of showy, rude guy Ren hates-- he’s also closer to Kyoko in age and relationship-wise. 
While a bit of jealously persists, there’s also the fact that he knows how much Sho hurt Kyoko. 
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“I just... can’t get this unpleasant vision out of my head... It’s where Heaven and Earth are overturned...”
That’s the vision where Kyoko and Sho end up together. Admittedly, we’ve seen Ren jealous before (of Kyoko’s closeness to Kijima, iirc), and he is inexperienced with “true love.” Kyoko falling in love or being close to anyone else may be enough to prompt his irritation. I think we’ve been given enough evidence about his feelings for Sho, though, that show why Fuwa is the #1 unacceptable candidate for Kyoko (in his eyes).
However, let’s look at Kyoko and Sho now.
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Yashiro-san describes their interaction the best:
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That’s exactly what it looks like! Despite the disguise, it likely is Fuwa since we’re shown Kyoko’s conversation with him, in addition to this lovely reaction:
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A lot of things, Darumaya Lady.
Kyoko does not want to be caught with Fuwa, especially in front of Ren who 1) she loves, and 2) she knows dislikes him. 
Why Kyoko was acting so amicably with him is a mystery (especially given her immediate reaction and even her conversation with him where she expresses her usual anger). What likely happened is that Kyoko teased or mocked him, but it’s very clear from Yashiro and Ren’s perspective that the interaction differs from her usual outbursts.
Even if she was not being truly friendly, it still raises what I’ll call my revelation.
What if Kyoko stops hating Sho? Why should she continue sneaking around?
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First, it appears that Kyoko’s anger toward Sho has diluted a bit over the course of the series. She went from cursing him to now non-violently interacting with him (even if it was at the behest of her boss).
One contribution to this could be her love of acting-- it’s no longer a tool to crush Fuwa, and that isn’t really her goal anymore. She is no longer living for him.
Kyoko has matured a lot over the course of the series.
Even though Sho has hurt her so much, we still see very clear examples of their strong relationship. Honestly, due to how close they were for a majority of their lives, it is likely they’ll always be able to read each other.
However, though Kyoko’s hatred of him has lessened, does she forgive him? It doesn’t appear that she’s reached this stage yet, since she still feels guilty for being seen with him. She might not even be aware that she needs to forgive him since she is now living for herself. It is also true that she overall hates his selfishness, which prompts much of her anger.
Let’s say Kyoko does forgive Sho. She doesn’t have to fall in love with him, or even interact with him. Due to growing up together, even if they meet once in a blue moon, they’ll likely still be able to get along well.
In this light, Ren’s reaction toward Kyoko interacting with Sho seems rather selfish and childish. 
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Overall, it seems that Ren’s biggest obstacle is accepting that Kyoko can be close to others. Even if Kyoko forgave Sho, I don’t think Ren would be able to dislike him any less.
Imagining the unlikely scenario of discussing Sho’s appearance arises next chapter (knowing these problem-avoiding characters), I can only see Ren being cold and Kyoko being hurt. 
For example, Ren may ask why she was seeing Fuwa, or say that he’s happy they’re getting along. Ren’s mood, no matter what face he pulls, will clearly be off. Kyoko might apologize, but she’ll be hurt that the man she loves is treating her coldly, and worried that he has the wrong idea.
And thus, another obstacle has been thrown in the path of Ren and Kyoko’s relationship.
I would very much like to be wrong about everything-- except for Kyoko forgiving Sho and not feeling guilty for interacting with him, since that’s important.
Skip Beat! has been going on for so many years and I still have no idea how Ren or Kyoko’s secrets will be revealed. 
I originally hoped Sho would stumble across Ren’s real identity and reveal it, but it appears that Sho may have matured a bit as well, putting such tactics possibly underneath him.
Conversely, Ren’s childish side has been revealed, which isn’t a bad thing, but looking at his actions, it is a bit concerning.
Oh, and that scandalous event of the actress kissing him will probably come to light sooner or later (probably later, when he and Kyoko are getting along again).
What if Nakamura-sensei is now shifting the writing so we like Sho more and Ren less? It’s good to give them character development, but I’d feel pretty cheated if Ren didn’t confess or refused Kyoko’s confession.
Relationships changing is nice too, but I guess I’m selfish just like Ren and Sho can be.
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femininetea · 4 years ago
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"Always expecting betrayal... But never from you"
The general who became a father to his soldier (spoilers for rwby v8 ch13)
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Personal impressions:
I was so mad last week, thinking IW would have been defeated already/too soon but they tricked us. And I'm so glad it's a Winter vs. Ironwood fight. And the emotions.... I can't.
He was her father figure and I'm sure it was viewed like that from both sides. We were clearly shown what IW would do if anyone was in his way. Even when she disobeyed he didn't shoot her. He trusted her until the last moment.... We saw him get mad, break down and hopeless. But never cry. It's not just any soldier he's fighting. He's fighting his right hand. Winter Schnee, someone who was like a daughter to him.
But let's get to their actual relationship.
An essay on Winter in RWBY is planned btw.
Winter seems to have the highest rank in the military next to Ironwood, which is impressive for her age and shows her determination but also how IW believes in her
In V4 Jacques claimed that IW "stole his daughter" and IW hinted at that they often had this conversation
In V7 Jacques asked IW if Winter knew that Weiss returned to Atlas
From the point of V2 and V3 it seems that Winter still had contact to Jacques but not as much anymore in V7, something happened and I think because of the dust embargo IW and Jacques had their confrontation and Winter obviously chose IW's side and detached from her father completely
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(It was always hinted (and I think even stated in the remnant guide book) that Winter protected her siblings and had to take the most abuse. And you can clearly see that by her type of fight or flight trauma and how she's literally supposed to represent the ice queen with her hidden emotions and stuff
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You see her in that state of shock, fear, panic, trauma etc. when she realizes that she failed Ironwood. He was proud of her for catching Yang, Ren and Jaune and put his hand on her since they would be useful. Harriet then told him and I think this represents how someone like IW would be able to hurt her that much emotionally since he is in the position of an authority and a father figure to her)
Also he was ready to shoot his people at any time like the council man or Marrow but he didn't shoot her and allowed her to stay by her side
That and how she defends IW most of the time show how she trusts her judgment, IW trusts her judgement as well as seen in V4 when he told Jacques that Winter told him that there was a threat in Mistral
In World of Remnant we see IW walking past soldiers and Winter standing out. It was about the technical grooming of atlas students to join the military but you can tell from what we know of Ironwood, that he has a good heart (eruption fang made a vid on that recently)
When Winter told Weiss that "the general would have a place for you" She said it with such happiness, atlas and the military was winter's new home and IW gave her the chance to repurpose her life
She even defended IW in front of Jacques, her biological father and she takes great personal offense when his judgement is mistreated. Even when Weiss talked about trust Winter said that he would never hide anything from her
The offer with the Winter Maiden... You could say that he did this to control her and I'd accept your opinion... But there's one thing that makes me think that he still obviously also cared for her. Over the years he knew how much the military meant to her. She even told Penny that her life doesnt matter and only her job does. It means everything to her and like Winter said herself, she saw the Maiden powers as a privilege and it makes me feel like Ironwood saw them as something that would make her unique and give her once again a purpose that is unique to her and not just her being one of many soldiers
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He even apologized, knowing it wouldn't be easy for her (since he expected Winter and not Ozcar) and when he had his talk with RWBY he called Winter her/Weiss' sister instead of just her name and idk but that just made this even more special
In Volume 8 it is once again shown how Winter is basically the one who also trusted Ironwood until the end. And in ch 12 she didnt judge him... She expressed her worries for his behavior. She couldn't believe the man who made her feel like she was everything would ever become so cruel
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They way their worry for each other looks so similar
And while I know that they have a theme for the Atlas military , I think it's obvious how Winter looked even more like IW in all her outfits compared to the rest of the military
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Many people think Ironwood is dumb for over trusting Winter but I think it shows his flaw as a general. He let's his emotions get in the way since he cares about her and continues to trust her even though she disobeyed orders
His last words were "As my last order: step aside", he could've just shot her again as she layed defenseless on the ground but he didn't
Remember how in the first episode he said "Thank you Winter, I don't know what I would do without you"
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Right before, she said that she'll be fine without him asking anything. It sounds a little more personal in my opinion. Why would you tell your boss that you'll be fine without him asking about your status? the conversation was literally about Qrow and Robyn before but he looked worried and wanted the room for themselves and she immediately said that.
Some people also talk about how they emphasized with Ironwood in volume 7 since wasn't shown to have family or a partner yet would do anything for Atlas. But again, he did care about Winter a lot and wanted her to be save.
Something I also noticed when writing this is that in volume 3 Ironwood called her Schnee yet in V7 he calls the Ace Ops and her via first name basis. Clover said that he trusts Ironwood with this life and I think that's how Winter and the Ace ops felt about him, the person who gave them hope. Especially Winter.
And now we're here. Seeing the man cry a tear. We know now, if Winter wins, she has to kill him. Imprisoning him wasn't enough. And I think that will be her final moment of her being a "Ice Queen", when she has to kill him, she will probably turn to her emotional side and grieve.
As mentioned, the military, her position, her rank and Ironwood meant everything to her. She talked so enthusiastically when she had her conversation with Weiss about moving in together without their father and how IW has a place for her younger sister. And now along with Ironwood, both are in a situation they never thought they'd be in.
That was it from me. In short form , I just wanted to share some ideas and things I've noticed about their relationship and dynamic. None of this is meant as a romantic way and you can of course disagree but please stay respectful. Thank you and we'll see each other next chapter<3
P. S. Winter please don't die
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calico-strawberry · 2 years ago
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So I do wanna do some clarification (and unload some of my brain rot) about Aevia and how I characterize her.
Like if it wasn't obvious I've been treating her as a pseudo-OC. Still rather adherent for the most part to the plot, and still heavily influenced by plot points and same background as established by the story. Main difference being how I actually view Aevia's personality and how I'd think her reactions and the like to certain events would be.
Long Post btw if you don't have the long post thing shortened
Spoilers ahead for several late game events up to Chapter 15 of V13 (specifying in case anything major changes in a future version)
So first off, Personality and I how I personally characterize Aevia, along with her Pokemon.
-Specializes in both Poison and Fairy types. Notable exception in her Altaria. Swaps other members as needed for battle, but Altaria is her ace.
-rather then being, ya know, the Player, the soul plucked to be made the Interceptor was a random, forgotten soul.
-due to being more or less forgotten, the soul was a blank slate. Early on she's heavily influenced by the og Aevia's soul, personality wise, even though her and the rest are still dormant.
-In addition due to the supposed blank slate, Aevia is given false memories of a past life to better fit her into the world. Crescent's creation of Nancy actually worked out perfectly for this. (I think this part is somewhat canon? At least the Nancy part, in Nancy working out great in making Aevia fit into the world despite being the Interceptor)
-Overall personality isn't too different from a kind-hearted Positive Karma player. She's nice, and very helpful. Also not very vengeful.
-Very quiet and not very expressive. As the story progresses she opens up and becomes more animated, but still doesn't talk a large degree unless around certain people.
-Likes practical jokes and puns tho
-also very mischievous, on that note. Has fun teasing or otherwise messing with her friends a bit
-very good with kids
-probably wouldn't take the fact she's effectively immortal from natural causes very well, even though she wouldn't know that by this point
As for Relationships, again not terribly different from a kind, good karma player, though with some key differences and exceptions (and also some specifics, which aren't terribly far removed from canon just elaborating on them)
-Her relationships with her main set of rivals and friends are largely the same. However-
-Particularly close with, and has romantic feelings for, both Venam and Melia
-with Venam, she's closer to, as they've spent gotten to spend more time together in casual settings rather then in life threatening adventures. Also have a shared enjoyment of pranks and messing with their friends.
-cares a great deal for Melia, but on the flip side to Venam, it's not quite the same closeness because like 90% of the time they're around each other they're also trying not to get killed to some degree, or are on some other similar risky or dangerous adventure. That being said, quite obviously Aevia would die for Melia and vice versa.
-besties with Aelita
-Cares a lot for Ren, but they were a fair bit distant due to the initial perceived betrayal from Ren. They've largely made amends by Chapter 15 though.
-Not as close to Erin or Kanon. Still cares about them, and enjoys spending time with them, but not as frequent compared to the rest of the hero squad.
-considers Amber and Mosley as siblings/family. Later on also considers Saki as a sort of sibling as well.
-has complicated feelings regarding Crescent. Some parts of her despise her for some of her actions, but her knowledge of why Crescent was that way softened her opinion of her somewhat.
-Otherwise her other relationships are not far removed from any canon. Notably forgiving, and sometimes even shows kindness to, to Ex Team Xen members (or members that clearly don't want to be there but can't leave, like Sharon and Eli). Ties in with Aevia not being terribly vengeful.
And finally how I imagine how these differences effect certain plot events, and how I believe Aevia's own development through the story occurs.
-As mentioned, initially she's heavily influenced by OG Aevia, including having skills like being able to play the piano and the like.
-Subconciously she starts to try and make herself her own person. With some help from her friends, she starts to be a bit more unique in personality, even if some influence from og Aevia still bleeds through (such as Aevia being incredibly self sacrificial)
-due to this subconscious desire to be her own person, it's what causes her to heavily change her appearance in Chapter 9, even fully changing her hair to brown. When she notices no one but Melia even mentions her appearance it starts to distress her.
-at the end of Chapter 11 when the Puppet Master first calls her the Interceptor, her false memories start to fade. She starts to low key have an identity crisis at this point, a crisis which only gets worse as she learns more about herself.
-Her internal struggles are only exacerbated towards the end of Chapter 15. When she gets a called an "Empty puppet" carrying a bunch of souls by Kieran and Clear, and she learns the nature of the souls within her making even her friends not truly see her for herself.
-However when she fully gets the support from og Aevia and the rest, she fully comes into her own person. Including her friends finally being able to actually see her. By the end of the chapter while there's of course loads of stress and things to worry about still with Team Xen, she does feel like a weight was lifted off her shoulders.
And that's it, I just wanted to make a super long post about a Blorbo. Get some of my thoughts somewhere.
Because even if in a couple weeks I'm into something completely different, I'll be back for Rejuvenation whenever v14 drops
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lil-red-horror · 3 years ago
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A Caring Heart - Slashers x Nurse!Reader
Warnings: None! :)
Author’s note:  Please know this, if there is any errors with the story either a grammar or spelling error, I’m so sorry. :( My English isn’t the greatest and I’m trying my best. So, if you see one, feel free to DM me about it! I won’t mind.
                                                    Chapter 10
                                                   𝓐𝓽𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮
     Billy Loomis. Well then, after him this whole Ghostface trio will be over with. Then you can finally move onto a different psychopath killer. Great. 
    “Billy is really something else. His ego really blinds him. So expect nothing nice from him.” Hernandez tells you. You couldn’t wait to meet this man. Hearing about him makes you think of a high schooler. Or well, one that never grew up. 
    “Yeah, Hernandez and I couldn’t really break through him. But I mean, you can say that about most of the patients here. He is honestly really mean to anyone actually. Just know, it’s okay if you can’t break through him. We expect you to not be able to.” Heath patted your shoulder and then went up to Billy’s door. He pulled out his keys and started unlocking the door. He opened the door just enough for you and Hernandez to get through. You both went in and saw a room just as messy as Stu’s. Maybe a bit better. Heath then came in. You were hidden behind the men for protection and for somewhat of a surprise. 
    “Billy-” Hernandez spoke up but was quickly cut off by a paper ball hitting his face.
    “Oops, my bad.” came from the man in front of you. He had brown greasy hair, not taken good care of. Tanned skin and some freckles all around him, not too much though. His eyes were brown, almost as dark as the night. They were luring, but behind them were filled with anger and hatred. He was on one of the chairs given to him in the rooms. He was laid back, looking bored as ever.
    Billy speaks in an annoyed tone, “What do you want? I’m clearly busy working on my target practice.” Hernandez is now ticked. 
    He takes a deep break and fixes his hair. “We came over here to show you your new nurse, Y/N L/N. She is here to take care of you, your health-” He is once again interrupted.
    “...My medicine, my psychosis, blah blah, you get the rest. I’ve heard this shit four times already.” Billy interjects, not caring or the patience to listen. You couldn’t believe there were four nurses before you already. It worries you dearly.
    “Just show me the guy already and get this over already. I could care less about him.” Billy rolls his eyes while speaking. 
    “Actually if you were listening to me, Loomis, you would have heard me say ‘she’.“ Hernandez says in a rush, not risking being interrupted. And after he spoke, Billy's interest had peaked. But he quickly removes his expression. 
    “Okay, fine, show me her then.” He stands us, arms crossed in annoyance and impatience. Both men then move to the side and show you. You were nervous to be show off to him, it feels as if every time he looks at you, he is finding new ways to humiliate and degrade you. 
    You cleared your throat and spoke up, “I’m Y/N, i’ll be your new nurse. I’m hoping we can help each other and get to know each other more.” You held your hand out by instinct. But you know he won’t shake it. 
    Billy sits back down in his seat. He looks away from you and says one last word to you. “You won’t survive here.” He goes back to working on something on his desk. Not caring about you or the men.
    “Well then, I think we’ll be going.” Heath says before putting a hand on your shoulder and pushing you out of the room. Hernandez follows out and closes the door and locks it. 
    “We’re sorry Y/N. He can be rude and uncaring at times.” Heath tells you, giving an apologetic look. 
    “It’s fine, I'll prove him wrong. Just wait and see.” You give the men a determined look. They find it endearing and strong. 
    Hernandez playfully punches your shoulder, “Okay Ms. tough Y/N. Let’s see if you can handle Amanda Young.” He laughs and moves forward to the next door.
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nanamin-3 · 3 years ago
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Black Swan (2)
summary:  A meeting by chance between two very different people. The attraction is obvious, but will they let the obstacles they face get in the way of each other?
pairing: AU Sukuna x f!reader
chapter warnings: tension, language, angst, abandonment issues
As soon as Sukuna and Y/N walked through the door, they saw Yuuji and Ren’s eyes shoot up to them expectantly. As they both headed towards the counter, Sukuna couldn’t help but feel flustered at the questioning looks both men were shooting at him. “So, Y/N is going to stick around for a bit, but I’m sure she’s hungry. Yuuji, would you mind running out to grab some food for her?” turning to look at Y/N to ask her what she wanted. Y/N felt a bit dejected; she was hoping that they would go eat something together, but she figured he was probably busy. Quickly getting up, Yuuji started heading for the door, “Ok yeah, but what about you? Did you want anything else?” Sukuna shook his head, heading behind the counter. ‘Ill just eat what you brought earlier.” Y/N felt a bit awkward, maybe she should have left with her mother, she felt she was just imposing on them.
“Nonsense, besides I think Yuuji threw out that food since it got cold.” Everyone turned to look at Ren who had not spoken until now. Sukuna narrowed his eyes at the old man, what was he planning? “Take Y/N to eat, the ramen place next block is great. We should be slow the rest of the day and its almost time to close anyway. Yuuji and I can finish off for the day.” Sukuna and Yuuji looked at Ren bewildered. “Oh, no I couldn’t impose. I’m sure you are busy and me being here will cause you to have to work longer, its okay I can grab something to eat somewhere and Ill head home,” Y/N quickly interjected. Shaking his head, Ren got up and headed towards Sukuna and Y/N. Standing behind them, he began pushing them out the door. “Nonsense, you’ll be doing us a favor because if not, hell just stay here holed up in that desk. Besides Ill beat him up if he lets you head home alone, now go enjoy.” Finally out the office, Ren closed the door behind them and gave a halfhearted wave.
Sukuna groaned inwardly, he was surprised that Ren was letting him leave, but was glad that he could spend some more time with her. He hoped she didn’t feel weird about any of this or forced to eat with him. Looking down at her he took a deep breath. “Hey Y/N, listen, if you want, we can stop somewhere so you can get something to eat, and I can take you to your father’s office or back home. You don’t need to stick around with me,” he finished with a smile. Y/N took a few steps ahead and turned to look at him. “I would love to hang out with you today if you’re not busy. I know I’m probably imposing on you; you’re working and I’m sure you’re busy. But if you’re okay with it I’d love to go somewhere and eat, ill pay for taking up your time!” she finished in a rush, looking away embarrassed.
He couldn’t help but smile, he had just met her, but he was instantly drawn to her and her sweet attitude and positive energy. Walking towards her he chuckled and leaned down, close to her face. Enjoying her flustered expression at his closeness, he whispered, “There’s no chance in hell I’m letting you pay. Does ramen sound good?” Y/N snickered and nodded happily. Putting his hand on the small of her back, Sukuna led Y/N down the road.
The walk to the ramen shop was fast, being about a block away from Sukuna’ s shop. It was a small place, with a few tables and as soon as they walked in, everyone started greeting Sukuna. Once they were seated, a sweet looking older lady came over to take their order. Sukuna quickly ordered for both and handing her some tea looked over at the older woman who was staring at them with a twinkle in her eyes. With a smirk, Sukuna made introductions. “Asu, this is my friend Y/N. Wanted to bring her to try your ramen since it’s the best one around.” Y/N gave the older woman a bow with a small smile. “Oh, you own the place. Its very lovely! I haven’t had ramen in a long time, so I am excited to try it.” Asu quickly bowed at the praise. “Oh, my sweet girl, I’ve known this scoundrel for a long time so I’m sure he just says that because of it. But any friend of my boy is always welcome here, I will go and make sure now that they put extra care on your food!” With a wave, she quickly left to the kitchen and they could hear her talking animatedly to the cooks.
Turning back to look at Y/N, Sukuna could not help but stare at her big doe eyes looking around excitedly. “So, I take it you might not come to these types of restaurants often?” As soon as those words left him mouth, he wanted to bang his head against the table. Y/N’s face instantly fell and she looked embarrassed. Stuttering Sukuna continued, “I-I meant to a ramen restaurant, since you had said you hadn’t eaten it in a while.” With a small laugh, Y/N shook her head. “Don’t worry, I know what I must look like. With my parents and the attitude. Just some snobbish girl walking around and…” she finished sadly. “Is that why you were crying when you came into the shop?” Sukuna asked quietly. Y/N turned to look at him quickly, he could see her big eyes getting slightly watery already and how she was trying to hold back. “I figured you would not be paying attention,” she said with a small smile.
Sukuna felt like an ass. This girl was obviously going through something, they had just met, and she probably didn’t want to talk about her problems with a stranger. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to pry,” Sukuna said. She let out a small sigh, and shaking her head looked up at him with a big grin. “Don’t worry, you seem like a trusty person despite all the tattoos.” They both smiled at each other, glad the tension had been fleeting. “I think the only problem is with my mother. I love her but she wants me to be something that I’m not… go to stuffy dinners with their friends, set me up with their pretentious kids and act uppity.” Y/N ran her hands through her hair, in a sign of frustration and Sukuna chuckled. He could see she clearly was different from her mother. “She wants me to work in my father’s office and learn about the finances, but that’s not something I really want to do,” she finished with a pout. Placing her cheek on her knuckles she gave a small laugh.
“See, there I go again just yapping away,” she said, “What about you, were your parents ever opposed to the idea of you being a mechanic?” A beat passed before Sukuna placed his hand on the back of his head and off handedly said, “Mmm... I wouldn’t know. I never met my parents, but Ren is pretty happy with how I turned out so far from what I can see.” Looking back at her, she had paled considerably. Before Sukuna could assure her not to worry, she reached out and clasped his free hand on both of hers. “Sukuna, my god you probably think I am so dense. I am so sorry, I cannot stop putting my foot in my mouth,” she finished in a whisper. Sukuna had not heard a thing she had said, since all he could think about was his hand on hers. Feeling himself blush, he looked away, and giving her hand a squeeze, he said, “don’t worry at all Y/N. It’s a long story, but my parents where not in the best place to have a child. Ren found me and I’ve been with him ever since.”
Y/N couldn’t believe he was talking about this so casually. Looking back at him he looked incredibly sincere about his words and the smile he gave her made her feel very warm inside. His hand stayed in hers, none of them letting go of the other when a phone rang out, breaking them apart. “Oh, its mine,” Sukuna said pulling his phone out of his pocket. “Its Yuuji, I’m so sorry, I’m going to take this very quickly,” Sukuna said standing up and walking outside. Giving him a nod and a smile, she stayed back in the table. “Hey kid, what happened?” Sukuna answered hurriedly. Hearing laughs on the other end Sukuna breathed out a sigh of relief. “Man, you always think we can’t handle ourselves,” Yuuji said annoyed, “just wanted to let you know that well go ahead and close out so take your time with Y/N.” Sukuna grunted, it seemed as if Ren had gotten the younger boy on board with his crazy plans.
“Don’t think so, as soon as were done, ill put Y/N on a car home and ill be back to help out. Besides, what about Lilly, I got to take her home and Ren can’t handle her,” Sukuna countered back. He could hear Yuuji repeating his words and figured they were both near the phone. Hearing some rustling sounds and Yuuji’ s protests, Sukuna heard Ren’s booming voice. “Listen to me idiot, take your time and don’t rush back. We are okay and besides you are always saying how we must give the boy more responsibility. Don’t worry about the dog either, Yuuji will take her.” And with that, the line went dead.
Grumbling, Sukuna glared at his phone before heading back in. As he headed back to the table, he saw that Asu had brought them their food and was talking animatedly with Y/N. Fearing she might feel overwhelmed with the new people he hurried back to the table, but in nearing he noticed how she was listening intently and chiming in whenever needed.
“Sorry about that,” he said, sitting down. Asu and Y/N turned to look at him with a smile. “Sukuna, I was just telling Y/N here about Ren’s birthday coming up and how were hosting a dinner for him. She is more than invited to come is she wants.” Sukuna felt as if the whole world was conspiring against him and wanting her to feel uncomfortable. With a rueful laugh, she looked at Sukuna nervously and said, “I would love to Asu, but I’m sure Sukuna is tired of dealing with me. I roped him in to lunch as it is!” Asu looked at them nervously, her secret plan of playing match maker slowly crumbling in front of her eyes but was pleasantly surprised when Sukuna quickly interjected.
“I would love for you to come, if you want.” Smiling Asu turned to leave with a smile and a wave. “Really?” Y/N asked quietly. Not trusting himself to say something silly, Sukuna smiled and nodded. Looking down at her food happily, Y/N grinned and began eating. They both continued eating, while still talking and learning more about each other. Even long after they had finished and Y/N sang praises on the food, they remained at the restaurant just talking and Y/N was enamored when he told her the story about how he had gotten Lilly. “Ren was not much of an animal guy, but since I kept pestering him about wanting a sibling, he got me that little monster,” Sukuna said with a smirk. “I wasn’t very happy, but that girl became my best friend and I love her ever since.” Y/N remembered the old dog and her big floppy ears, she could see how someone could fall in love with her easily. When she had walked into the shop side of the building at Sukuna’ s shop, Lilly had waddled over to her as if knowing she needed some comforting.
“Man, it sucks that dogs also get older. But she is the sweetest girl ever, I would love to see her again,” Y/N said with a smile. Sukuna chuckled, “Since she’s gotten older, she can’t see very well so she’s not very comfortable with people she doesn’t know. That is why I was surprised that she went up to you just like that, but I’m glad she made you feel better and any time you want to see her you’re more than welcome to come over.”
Y/N smiled at Sukuna when she felt her phone buzz, pulling it out she saw it was her brother. Just checking to see the mechanic didn’t murder you. Y/N sneered, damn it Aoi. “Is everything okay?” Sukuna asked hesitantly, “do you need to head home?”. Typing a quick response that she was alive and would be home later, Y/N put her phone away. “Oh no! Just my brother making sure you didn’t murder me.” Sukuna looked at her with surprise, then chuckling when he saw her smile. He was getting used to her humor and it made him like her a little more.
They remained in the restaurant a little while longer, continuing to talk about their lives and Y/N telling him about Aoi and Sukuna about Yuuji. Realizing it was late, they headed over to pay the bill, with Y/N still trying to pay the bill, but Asu and Sukuna banding together to make sure she didn’t pay for anything to her chagrin. Before leaving, Asu made sure to give her some of the restaurants pork buns which ignited another attempt to pay for the food, with Asu refusing and Y/N promising she would come to Ren’s dinner. Sukuna and Y/N finally headed out and walked towards the station.
They both walked in a comfortable silence enjoying the now fresh night side by side. Nearing the station, Y/N felt a panic within her. She had never had so much fun having a simple dinner with someone. She did not feel like she had to pretend someone she was not or fulfill someone’s ridiculous expectations. She knew she had just met Sukuna, but she felt very comfortable with him and felt she could be herself around him. Thinking what she could do to prolong the night, she was surprised when she did not see Sukuna next to her. Turning around to look for him, she noticed he was a few steps back looking around.
Taking a step towards him, she hesitantly asked “H-Hey I everything okay?” Quickly catching up to her, Sukuna looked away from her and said, “I don’t know if you’re too full or want to head home already but there’s a bubble tea stand near here. Did you want to get some?” Feeling relief, Y/N quickly nodded. Sukuna quickly let out a breath he did not know he was holding in and led Y/N to the tea stand. Once they got there, they quickly ordered and took their drinks to a nearby bench and kept talking about their lives. Once they had finished their drinks, they finally headed to the station as Sukuna figured he had kept her out late enough.
Once she told him where he lived, they waited for her train to arrive. A few minutes later, Sukuna nodded up ahead at the incoming train. “Ah, there it is, this one should take you straight home. From the address I believe it shouldn’t be more than a block’s walk away from your house once you get off at the station I told you.”
Y/N listened intently, nodding to assure him he understood his instructions. As the train slowed down to a stop, she turned to look at him wanting to somehow ensure this wouldn’t be the last time they would speak to each other. She thought giving him her number might just make her seem desperate, so as she racked her brain for other ways to ensure they remained in contact, she was surprised when Sukuna handed her a small white square. Grabbing it, Y/N looked at him questioningly. “Its my phone number, I know it has the shop’s number listed but I wrote in my phone number just in case you ever want to come by and see Lilly. Oh, and in case you do want to come to Ren’s dinner, let me know and I can pick you up,” Sukuna said, turning away from her. Y/N wanted to jump up and down but figured she would do that once she got home.
Giving him a big smile, all Y/N could do was nod. The train had finally stopped, and people were rushing in and out. Realizing she had a few seconds before she was left stranded, she quickly thanked Sukuna and before she lost her edge, threw her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. Before he could react and hug her back, Y/N let go and rushed inside the train, leaving Sukuna standing there a blushing mess. As the doors closed, Y/N remained standing, waving to Sukuna as the train sped away from the station.
Once he could no longer see the train, Sukuna headed up the stairs and out of the station. Walking onto the street, Sukuna clicked his tongue. The address Y/N had told him was in Aoyama, which was not a long train ride, but he realized he should have asked for her phone number to make sure she had gotten home when he felt his phone vibrate. Pulling it out, he saw a phone number he did not recognize and swiftly opened the message. Hi! Its Y/N, I realized you don’t have my number so here it is. Ill let you know as soon as I get home, just to make sure I wasn’t murdered, and they don’t blame you for my going missing! Kidding! But thank you for tonight, I haven’t had that much fun in years…
Sukuna couldn’t help but let out a chortle. Y/N was quickly becoming one of his favorite people and they had just met. Quickly typing out a reply, Sukuna walked home with a spring in his step. He really liked this girl, and he would make sure that if she felt the same, he would make sure nothing got in his way to show her his feelings for her.
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iliveiloveiwrite · 4 years ago
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Millie’s Massive Fic Rec Post
To celebrate 700 followers I’m showing all the love, people. What you’ll find here are fics that were sent to me who I agree deserve a bit more love as well as fics I’ve read and adored. They’re split into characters so all you need to do is scroll to find your fave and bask in its glory. There is some swearing but it’s only because it’s the only way I know how to express my feelings. This is also my thank you to each of the authors involved for taking the time out of their day to write these fics for free. There are also some authors I know I’ve forgotten and I am so so sorry if I have, I promise you it wasn't intentional, I love you all very much.
As always, I love and appreciate you all. Let’s get started on this ridiculously long post!!
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Harry Potter:
Don’t Walk Away - @kalimagik - THE ANGST. I was on the edge of my seat through it all; I knew what was coming but did I look away? No. I was completely sucked it and that ending... oh my god, I was broken. If you’re looking for an incredibly written piece of angst that has you in tears, then this is the fic.
Dandelions - @lupins-sweater - The first post of A Very Harry Potter Summer and it was kicked off so brilliantly!! This fic had me wishing for my very own Harry to take morning walks with. It’s so wonderful; it has you wanting a summery morning and dandelions to make wishes on.
Always You - @bl597 - inspired by Louis Tomlinson’s song Always You, so I was already sold on that front. It’s an angst piece - Harry pining from afar, regretting his decisions but with a happy ending. I love that it's written from his perspective, that he realises what he’s done. I really do love this fic, and I aim to work my way through her masterlist!
The Truth Behind The Kiss - @justauthoring​ - the anticipation from the first sentence, I was on the edge of my seat. I loved every single word of this fic, it’s written so well. I just, I need you all to read this fic bc it is SO GOOD. Harry, Triwizard tournament, feelings, fluff - it has it all. 
For how long? - @siriusly-addicted-to-writing​ - It seems for Harry fics I am drawn to angst even though I write nothing but fluff for him. This fic is no different. Dani, this fic is wonderful, I love it. You capture the angst brilliantly! Go read this everyone!
Ron Weasley:
“can we pretend I never said that?” - @hello-everyfandom - I love this so much! Ron calling himself ‘the snog master’ had me snorting out loud - it’s great. And then the dialogue continues to be brilliant. I really enjoyed this fic! Ron needs more attention people!!  
Crossing Lines - @kalimagik - ADORABLE. CUTE. WONDERFUL. Oh, Ron. Everything about this fic is marvellous. The relationship between Ron and the reader, the realisation, the meddling. It was perfect, so so perfect.
birthday - @lupinsdarling - FLUFFY AND CHAOTIC AND I LOVE IT. Why oh why doesn't Ron get more love? Why doesn't this fic have more attention? It’s so fluffy and Ron is so bloody cute that my heart physically hurt while reading this. It hurt because it was so PURE.
Hermione Granger, Ginny Weasley:
Girls in one room - @eleven-times-lively - Hermione x Reader - oh my god I snorted at Ron, I love it. And the fluff? There’s so much fluff, I can't deal with the fluff. If you’re going to read a Hermione fic, read this one!
just as lovely - @vanillann - this is so pure! it’s so wonderful, and the relationship between Hermione and the reader is so cute! 
Hug ur friends drabble - @firewhisky-kisses - Ginny x Reader - it’s the cutest thing I’ve read, oh my god, is it cute! I love everything about this, Steph is so talented! But I go into that further down.
Neville Longbottom:
Never the Bride - @obsessedwithrandomthings - Dee’s fic reads as a rom com, it’s so brilliantly done. By the time you're at the end, you feel as if you’ve just watched a two hour rom com and need to squeal into your pillow because of the feels. I love this fic.
Moonlight Swim - @kalimagik - Neville. Oh, Neville. This fic stole my heart and it won't give me it back. The idea of a moonlight swim with Neville? Here for it. And the confession? *chefs kiss* incredible. 
Healing - @firewhisky-kisses - I cannot put into words how much I loved this fic,. Steph is just so incredibly talented and writes Neville so wonderfully. Healing is the first fic of two and that second part had me in happy tears because Neville deserves the world. I go back and reread this a lot when I need to boost my emotions, so thank you for this Steph.
Good News - @peachesandpinks - Let me explain something here, Ron repeatedly and without fail hypes up fic writers to the point where she makes me cry happy tears at her comments. Her writing (and I'm going to swear now) is fucking brilliant. I love it, I adore it. Ren has a way with words that I only hope to master. This fic? Marvellous, magnificent, wonderful - pick a synonym and go wild. It’s so sweet and wholesome - what more could you possibly want other than to be on her taglist?
Tally Marks - @obsessedwithrandomthings NEVILLE WITH TATTOOS PEOPLE! NEVILLE! WITH! TATTOOS! Do I need to say anymore? Yes? Okay. Dee is a fantastic writer but she writes Neville perfectly. We have had many conversations about her love for Neville and her love for him shines through in this fic. She writes with such care and I love reading everything.
Draco Malfoy: 
The Purist - @mxl-foy - This series is so good. Like, so good, that if it was a physical book, it would be sat on my shelves. I would religiously check her account every time I came onto Tumblr to see if a new chapter was posted, and if there was, you best believe there was a happy dance. It’s so incredibly thought out and plotted. And there’s going to be a part two! It’s so great!
Notes - @malfoys-demigod - This is so sweet! I live for fluffy Draco as you all know if you read my Draco fics, but I adore reading fluffy Draco as well. This fic is so adorable, I love it! 
Always so Cold - @teheharrypotter - Five times Draco gave you his sweater and the one time you accepted. I love these sort of fics, they’re my indulgence fics. Jealous!Draco is one of my favourite things to read as well. and he’s so dramatic. I couldn't ask for more in a fic, definitely one of my favourites. 
the distance between us - @sdicapriox - This is a genius idea. I love this idea, and I love how it was executed. Almost 10k words of brilliance. I love the reader and her first letter to Draco and her entire personality - fish funeral? genius. I really like how you portray Draco and the effort you put into his internal monologue, it really is something excellent. The ending as well, I won't spoil, I just urge people to read this. 
Heartbreak - @slytherinprincess03 - you have to have a little bit of angst in a Draco fic rec right? This fic has it but the ending is perfect and fluffy, gah! I love it!. Not to mention, Draco is such a gentlemen in it. I can't wait to see what else you write, lovely!!
Hardly A Date - @fanficflaneuse - I love this fic. I love it so much. I tend not to read sibling!reader but I adored this. The relationship between Harry and the reader, and then Draco and the reader. It’s amazing. I could rant for hours and hours about how much I love her work - her series are out of this world and she captures Draco’s character perfectly. 
George Weasley:
Red with Rage - @kalimagik - AGH ANOTHER OF MAGGIE’S FICS. The prank? Genius, and that end line - incredible. Her characterisation of the twins is so good, I love reading her fics. She deserves more than 300 followers! So if you don’t already follow her, go now!
When Everything Changes - @strawberriesonsummer - Based on the song Everything Has Changed by Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran. This is so pure, it’s so fluffy. George is adorable in this! I can't wait to read what else you write for George!
Come back to you - @dreamer821 - JJ, JJ, JJ. Ugh, this fic is a work of art and George is so bloody caring. I mention this a lot but the relationship between George and the reader is so important to get right and JJ does it flawlessly. My heart hurts for this fic and that last line, LOVE IT. I live for how JJ writes George, I could read her work all day. GO READ HER STUFF, YOU WON’T REGRET IT.
Fred Weasley:
The Right Bird - @dreamer821 - I’m not only just involving this because it was used in my writing challenge but oh my days, it is so wonderful. The relationship between Fred and the reader is just *chefs kiss* perfect. JJ has such a way with words and I just love how she depicts Fred.
Lost, are we? - @prongsies - I think I’m going to make my way through your masterlist because I loved this so much. The teasing was so cute, and Fred helping her at the beginning? Ahhhhh brilliant. 
Watermelon Sugar - @prongsies - COMPLETING THE FINEST SERVICE TO THE HP FANDOM AND WRITING FICS INSPIRED BY FINE LINE - I SALUTE YOU. This is so good, so so good. The references to the song are used so well and that little bit of fluff at the end? Amazing. If you’ll excuse me, I’m going to put the song on repeat now...
Percy Weasley: 
Nothing We Can’t Forgive -  @firewhisky-kisses - This series really does showcase Steph’s talent. She’s an incredible writer and this fic deserves all the attention it can possibly get. It’s the first Percy fic I’ve ever read and I’m already planning a reread. Steph captures Percy’s character flawlessly whilst also depicting his healing in a manner that is so relatable. I’ve linked the masterlist because once you start reading, you won't want to stop. 
Sight is Relative - @hufflefluff-writer - This fic has a blind reader which I think makes it all the more beautiful. Amelia’s characterisation of Percy really is wonder, she captures him brilliantly. The fic after they eat is quite literally breathtaking. The description of colours, the dialogue - it’s fantastic.
Hufflepuff!Reader Headcanons - @soft-nerdy-wolf - I loved this from the beginning where the reader was already helping Percy out of his comfort zone by disregarding curfew. Then the further, I read, I loved more and more because of how fluffy it is! And the confession? So so sweet! This needs more attention!
Bill Weasley: 
Estrellita - @fanficflaneuse and @hufflefluff-writer - It is a fic inspired by the Sound of Music, what more could you possibly want? It’s so delicate and incredibly written by two extremely talented writers. The relationship between Bill and the reader = adorable. The whole series is so fantastic, I’ve linked part one and you’ll find the rest on Amelia’s masterlist, which you’ll need because you’ll be reading the entire thing in one sitting, I swear.
Charlie Weasley:
As Family the First Time - @kalimagik - you’ll have noticed that Maggie features a lot here but that’s because she is so damned talented that I adore most of her fics. The first Charlie Weasley fic I read and I fell in love. It’s just so fluffy and humorous with features from the whole Weasley family. Basically, by the end of it I was ready to raise dragons in Romania with a certain Weasley.
Meeting the Weasleys - @soft-nerdy-wolf - This made smile all sorts of stupid. From the beginning, I wanted to own Hepaestus (the perfect name for a dragon in my opinion - Zeus’ own forger, amazing.) And the fluff with Charlie straight after? I love, love, love it as well as the fun relationship they have. And the pranks with Fred and George? Ah! I just love.
Dragons blurb - @hufflefluff-writer - I know it’s only a blurb but oh my god, I loved it, I love it. Jealous!Charlie and a buttload of fluff - the best to boost your mood.
Cedric Diggory:
A Ghost Story - @wondernimbus - So beautifully haunting. Ysa has a way with words that make you feel as if you're physically there, living the fic alongside the characters. There aren't really any words to describe how talented Ysa is - all I can do is urge to read her masterlist and discover for yourself. 
My Boys - @potterverseimagine - Cedric and dogs - I am in love. This fic is so sweet and pure and playful. Playful Cedric is so great omg and this fic is full to the brim with it. I just... ah I love this so much. AND HE’S ALIVE. I LOVE FICS WHERE HE’S ALIVE. Thank you for this!!
It’s a Date - @angelinathebook​ - Lena, this is so good. You need to write more Cedric! Ah, I hate those boys so much but I love Cedric!! This is so good! Cedric needs more love 100% - if you haven't read this already, you need to read it now!!
Sirius Black: 
Lost Time - @obsessedwithrandomthings - Reader standing up for who she loves against Bellatrix? Yes, we love that. Slow burn romance with Sirius? I love that even more. Dee never fails to astound me when she writes Sirius, and I know she won’t fail to astound you too. Seriously (lol), go through Dee’s masterlist, read her works, you won't regret it. She’s the loveliest.
Our Godson - @nebulablakemurphy - Christina is so talented. The letters!!! Are so good!!! AND WHEN THEY FINALLY MEET? My heart! Christina, it's as if you broke it and then rebuilt it again all in the span of 2.8k words especially with that ending. I love this fic, and you will love this fic. 
Curiosity - @siriusly-the-best-gryffindor​ - I don’t know what else to say that I haven't already said in my reblog but I love this fic. I am heavily pierced and heavily tattooed and I love seeing a reader as the same. I love all of this fic, it 100% needs more love!
The Jimmy Jab Games - @im-a-writer-right​ - A Sirius fic inspired by Brooklyn-99. I loved every single chapter, it made me so happy. And that final chapter, I was smiling like a fool throughout. Sirius is a dream through this, and that bet? I love! I’ve linked the masterlist because you won’t want to move as you read.  
Secrets and fears - @firewhisky-kisses​ - Steph does it again with the masterpieces. Honestly, I squeal a little whenever I see her in my notifications with a new fic because everything she writes is stellar, and this is no exception. If you’re going to read anything tonight, let it be her masterlist. If you haven't read her latest Sirius piece as well, you are sorely missing out. 
Remus Lupin:
Protect - @obsessedwithrandomthings - Oh man, this one hurt. There are so many feels to this fic, so many layers. The enemies to lovers? Amazing. That ending as well - so fucking good. Like everything Dee writes, so fucking good.
Sleeping Beauty - @poppin-potter - This is adorable. There’s no other words for it. The relationship between the reader and Remus is so cute, I was smiling all the way through it. Not to mention the relationship between the reader and the Marauders, so bloody good. And that ending? It was so peaceful, like I was reading and I was like yeah, I would’t mind a piece of that.
Pain of reality - @heloisedaphnebrightmore - I had to involve some Remus angst, and oh my word. You smashed my heart into pieces in the beginning and had put it back together by the end. Heloise is an incredible writer, so so talented. This is a Remus fic you cannot miss out on!
Bruise and Scars - @peachesandpinks - Soulmate AU and Marauders Era Remus. What more could you possibly want? It’s poetic. If you look to my Neville section, you’ll see why I love Ren’s writing so much but let me tell you, I am a SUCKER for Remus. Always have been, always will be. You will not regret reading this fic or any of Ren’s fics.
Nights like These - @teheharrypotter - another fic in A Very Harry Potter Summer and the description in this fic is so good! The way the summer night described has you feeling every moment of it. And the conversation between Remus and the reader is so beautiful, where they touch upon their grief. It’s a wonderfully written piece of work.
James Potter:
Numb Love - @heloisedaphnebrightmore - Unrequited love is like my guilty pleasure because I love the angst of it, and this fic. Oh this fic, it destroyed me and I loved every single minute of it. How this fic doesn't have more notes, I have no clue. It’s a masterpiece of emotions. 
Reading between the lines - @approved-by-dentists - ohhh this fic is great, I love the flirtation between the reader and James in the beginning all the way to end. It was one of the first James fics I read (I’m late to the party, I’m well aware) and omg I love it. Just go read the fic!
Book-thief - @wondernimbus - I’m going to repeat my words from earlier, there are no words to describe Ysa’s talent. James Potter and a bookshop and I was sold. She captures his character so brilliantly. Just... go binge her work.
Summer revelations - @pregnant-piggy - I keep saying this about all the fics I put on here but I love this fic! I love it! First, I love James. Second, I need those muffins - seriously, where can I get these muffins? And their realisations and confessions! It’s such a pure fic, I’m absolutely in love with your portrayal of James.
Newt Scamander:
Cheeky Niffler - @eleven-times-lively - reader is an archaeologist - from that moment, I was sold. I loved reading this, I loved the idea and I love Niffler as it is! I always need more Newt in my life and this is perfect.
Online Love - @strawberriesonsummer​ - Modern AU! I really loved this idea, I love the idea of Newt with a phone and ringing the wrong number. It’s such a wonderful fic, I haven't read Newt in so long so this was such a lovely one to read! I can’t wait to read what other Newt fics are posted!
desire - @blisfvll​ - I am a huge fan of their works; their Draco fics are incredible and their Newt fics are just the same. This had me feeling all sorts of emotions, and I loved every second of it.  
You stared Newt right in the eyes. - @fantasticnewtimagines​ - I didn't know what the title to this was so I just type out the first sentence, I hope you don't mind! This is a delicious piece of angst with a lovely, happy ending. I adore this piece so much because it conveys so much. I love it!!
MARVEL:
I want to take a moment to appeal to the followers of mine who also enjoy reading marvel. @shaynawrites23​ has started to write some marvel fics and even entered my writing challenge and her fics definitely deserve some attention! She’s a wonderful writer and her fics are so cute! If you’re a fan of Bucky, you’ll love these fics!
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The maid and the Cat, Ren and Akira: some musings
What gloomy love brightened the half-lives of the Sohmas’ most Cursed ones?
I often wonder what the relationship between the former Cat and his attendant would have looked like, twisted and sad as it must have been. Precious little is shown about those two, and only through Kazuma’s pov. We know she took care of and pitied the Cat, to the point that she even slept with him and bore his child. This is not unlike Kureno’s relationship with Akito. She might have treated him with the same kindness and devotion, distant, perhaps harmful, yet selfless.
Selfless? I think another way to extrapolate on the story of Kazuma’s grandparents is with Ren and Akira’s relationship.
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Many great meta writers have already pointed out that those who fill in the positions at the extremes of the Sohma hierarchy, the Cat and God, or in this case the Cat and the idolized, deified family head, are foils to each other and are the ones that are dehumanized and isolated the most.
But now I think that you can also compare the way the previous Cat and Akira both chose ("chose" being a relative term in the case of the Cat) a romantic partner.
(Akira wasn’t God, but as the family head, he was worshipped just like Akito. His sickness also contributed to making him stand apart. Not only was he kept inside the compound because of his frailty, the hold that death had on him blessed him with this ephemeral, divine aura. “Was it the sorrow that befell him at such a young age that gave him that otherworldly beauty?»)
Both Kazuma’s grandfather and Akito’s father were doomed, Akira to die an early death, Kazuma’s grandfather to live the life of a living dead. Both were buried alive in the Sohma estate, either at the outskirts or at the center of it.
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Both reached out to their progeny. (But Kazuma rejected the offered cake, and will endeavour to atone and honour his grandfather’s memory. Akito clung to every memento she had of her father and will need to learn to let go of him.)
And both the previous Cat and Akira found some measure of comfort in the affections and arms of their female caretakers, Sohma servants who saw their loneliness and expressed their compassion, though not in a particularly healthy way: Kazuma’s grandmother acting out of pity, Ren out of obsessive love.
It’s interesting to me how their respective position was reflected in their partners’ feelings : the imprisoned, despised Cat, Kazuma’s grandmother looked down on. The respected, otherworldly beautiful Akira was adored by Ren.
Kazuma sums up his grandparents’ relationship thusly:
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Those correspond to the main "duties" that a wife is traditionally supposed to provide her husband.
The day-to-day caring.
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Childbearing.
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Attending their husband’s deathbed.
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Obviously Ren wished she could have skipped the second one and be there for the last one. (I headcanon that she had prepared her last words years in advance, finding small pleasures and comfort, on the back of the wave of despair anticipating Akira’s death, in rehearsing the declarations of passionate love she would address to the dying man.)
The Cat’s companion attended her partner’s deathbed, seemingly very composed, even cold, as seen in Kazuma’s memories, while Ren, deprived of her husband’s last moments, that she felt were “stolen” from her by Akito (in reality by the maids :@), was mad with grief.
"The only one who can save him"
Those parallels make me wonder whether or not the Cat’s companion might not have developed a saviour complex, like Ren, both believing that they were the only one able to save this lonely, condemned person they were taking care of, and relishing it.
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“I love you” vs "I pity you"
On Ren’s side though, it seems that she believes she truly saw Akira, as the person hiding behind that otherworldly aura, filled with sadness and fearful of death. Seeing that Akira agrees with her ("Ren noticed I was lonely"), fought against the Sohma leaders and regretted on his deathbed that he and Ren couldn’t reconcile, I believe this is not a delusion of hers. Her love was genuine and passionate, and she and Akira were happy. Unfortunately, that happiness didn’t survive her pregnancy, for she was also jealous and obsessed.
Kazuma supposes that his grandmother believed that she was doing something good. I wonder at her expression. It is shadowed, enigmatic. Is it a smirk or not, is she sad or not? i wonder whether she was selfless in her pity, like Kureno, or selfish like Kagura, perhaps feeling better by «sacrificing» herself in associating with the Cat for the sake of a miserable soul.
(Whatever you can say or imagine about her, Kazuma doesn’t seem to suffer from the stigma of being the Cat’s grandson, nor does he bear any trace of an abusive upbringing - in fact, he was among those doing the abusing - or even the echoes of the previous generation’s, so my guess is that she was an okay mother and grandmother... which would have made Kazuma’s disappointment and hurt at her words all the sharper... Like Tohru thinking of the zodiacs members she finds so kind and adorable secretly looking down on someone else she realizes she cares about more than she thought.)
There is no way to know how the Cat reacted to a pity-love. But considering Kureno and Akito’s relationship, this might also have been but a superficial balm, and potentially just as hurtful. Then it depends on the interpretation. Kureno’s pity cocooned Akito and kept her from moving forward, but the Cat was condemned anyway to an eternity of imprisonment. Moving forward was forbidden to him. And if his self-worth was already completely destroyed as his role and his treatment are meant to do, he might have just felt grateful towards the attendant. There’s no way to say for sure whether he would have been hurt or not by the truth, and I don’t know which option is the saddest!
... but I know what could be sadder. Because is the maid entirely to blame? We know that in Fruits Basket, love requires a measure of selfishness. The one cursed with the Cat has no self, no existence, no wants and no future, and they accept this fate. They believe they deserve it. (Which is why the Cat's Room doesn't need bars in the manga, nor locks. Rin was under lock and keys because either Akito didn't completely trust her to keep her word or she didn't want someone to discover her.)
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It would be very difficult for someone to fall in love with a person who has renounced to everything, perhaps including love. Because who's to say that the Cat loved the maid too?
Recognition vs indifference
How depressingly fitting that we don't even learn the Cat's name, while Akira’s is remembered by all and echoes back and forth in the later part of the story.
Ren marrying the Sohma family head was such a big political deal it provoked a family schism. The Cat’s story with the maid gets completely ignored. It is probably known, just not "officially recognized", says Kazuma. Like everything related to the Cat, it was relegated to the back of the minds, in the dusty closet of the things that are uncomfortable to think about but that you tolerate if it doesn’t upend your little world-view. Ugh, some maid is being inappropriate with that monster! Well, as long as she doesn’t free the loathsome creature, who cares. (And she wouldn’t, because she’s no Tohru.)
In contrast, the maids of the main family thought that Ren was stealing Akira from their grasp. Ren didn’t seem to care for the family, and in a way, her love allowed Akira to also escape from them, "snatched away" by "that woman”, for the old attendant. Unlike the Cat’s attendant, Ren felt like a threat to the Sohma strict hierarchical system. (Fortunately, God will be born to bring back the right order of things, phew! Certainly she he will accomplish what Akira-san was momentarily too misguided to do and rid us of that woman!)
Inheritance.
Both women's profession of their true feelings deeply marked their progeny and the way they view relationship, whether personal or not, romantic or filial.
While her mother affirmed that "a woman only needs one man", Akito leaned on the love of the zodiacs ; Kazuma viewed and loved Kyo as a human and dreaded that his son would find himself in the same situation as his grandfather but also with the same kind of companionship. (His reaction to Kagura speaks of a long-held anxiety). But Ren's hatred for Akito coloured the way Akito interpreted her words, while Kazuma’s grandmother’s declaration shook Kazuma, his personal relationship with his grandmother notwithstanding.
This comparison isn't about good or evil, neither to judge those characters. Furuba isn’t about that. Obviously, they are not blameless. But it is very difficult to say whether or not Kazuma’s grandmother was wrong to act out of pity if it provided a bit of comfort to a prisoner. And is it surprising that Ren developed this saviour’s complex when it seems she was the only one willing to breach Akira’s isolation bubble?
Anyway, Takaya-sensei is really good at making foils. Either because she does it on purpose or because her characters are so deeply intertwined with the themes of the series the parallels appear on their own. But in this case, I don’t think it’s for nothing that the chapters recounting Ren and the Cat’s attendant stories follow each other (chapters 114 and 115).
Of course, this meta is less an analysis and more suppositions and conjectures (frankly, I wonder if I might not as well have written a fanfic). From the little we see, the Cat’s companion and Ren work as distorted yin-yang mirrors, their differences highlighting the similarities of their situations, from the ugly effects of the inner workings of the Sohma cult to the messed up inner workings of the heart. Genuine but obsessed, jealous love... Pity, perhaps self-serving, in the guise of martyred love.... One thing I can say for sure is that these two both gave me chills in their own way.
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