#scribbled ink

[ho1y-water]

Toweling off and dry rot. Small shiny things, pink things, red things. Fascinators, attention-grabbers, wind catchers, butterfly catchers, dream catchers. Sore feet. Red things again. Working hard under a boss who hates you for no reason, all for the paycheque to disappoint you.

The problem is caring. If I didn’t care I wouldn’t be doing this. The problem is that I was a kid who no one looked at, so when you look at me, I want to do everything to keep you looking. Shiny things again, small things. Tokens. I blow it. Money, men. I blow.

Sharp things. Toenails, razor blades, the sting of waxing one’s pussy. Soft things. Things I can’t get anywhere else. A cornered market. Sore feet again.

Heat like danger. Heat like dead leaves, dead grass. Dead girl. Dead girl loves you. I love you.

I love you. I love you.

I know later on I’ll be embarrassed I ever felt this way for you but I love you.

Sweet things, like your tongue in me. Tender things, like the bottom of your foot or sleeping on your chest. Hard things. Rough, scary, boring, grating, thankless things. Bad things. Red things again. Claspers, pincers, tweezers, pliers. Screwdrivers. Screw drivers.

Back in my childhood bedroom like I never left. How vertiginous it is to change so much and so little.

Plain things, pills and such. Little things, like pokes or like blinks.

I love you.

[kiwi]

anybody else feel that being human is like being a long-time syndicated cartoon character watching the world get more complex while your own design stays the same until youre incongruous with the reality around you??

[a-mind-in-ruins]

"You handled it so well'

No, I didn't. I went insane, lost my spark, bled in silence, shattered in private, and wore a smile that lied better than any mask could.

[ghostlypinkbiscuit]

will the hunger ever end

[homoquartz]

just practicing trying to loosen up poses. still stiff but getting there!

i always feel halloweeny about this show

(ko-fi here)

[blurredcoffeeforme]

Let my soul be soaked in the moonlight for a bit longer as I am the moon's child, and she understands my solitude. June can wait.

[wouldntyoulichentoknow]

and now the "budget" consists of pocket lint if we can find it. but who's counting

[starrymothwings]

drew the boyfriend’s favorites from kingdom! really tricky style to mimic

[surreal-duck]

havent filled out a sketchbook in years honestly

[corruptimles]

redraw

2019 art:

[thiccsys]

can i be cured of art block?!!

[389]

Ink Drawing by David Moreno, 2003

[unfadingtragedy]

And then it hits you, like the stomp of a foot in murky water.

Nothing has changed. And nothing will ever change, and hoping that it will is foolish.

But you’ve been foolish since you were a child. Bandaging the knuckles of those who hurt you in the hopes that your kindness would bleed into their bandages; so the next time they had to hurt you perhaps their hands would be a little softer.

But it never works. Maybe you did something wrong.

You try to change. You harden your heart, but you forget a brittle heart is easier to break than a soft one. You hold out to the hope that they’ll change, but forget you can change too. You never do, though. In fear that whatever comes next will be worse.

Or.

Or you bandage your own knuckles.

You bleed ink onto paper instead of kindness on the people that required those bandages in the first place.

You recognize you are not a variable factor of others actions. You change yourself instead of hoping they will change.

It’s not a happy ending by any means, but you’d rather a soft epilogue than a short book with a hard cover.

— in another universe you learned love instead of how to clean up blood.

[a-mind-in-ruins]

I tried to give you the love you never had,

and in return you gave me the pain I never deserved.

[peculiarmarsu]

What if it wasn't at the middle of the night that we brought the darkness back.

Inspired after doing this one quest about kids now suffering from the fear of dark at night :D

[homoquartz]

my multi-fandom halloween scribble is done! 😊 i gave myself a lot of challenges with this one but it was so fun ❤️

if you don't recognize some folks: crowley and aziraphale, luz and amity, ed and stede, charles and edwin

ps: please sign this to help save dead boy detectives! queer-positive shows are canceled twice as often.

(ko-fi)