#se loop

[starlooping]

the naming? ah, the naming. // what should we call them? // a birth? ah, i'm glad! // thank you for being born.

[wiltking]

i was in heaven

[loopscereal]

🎀 toddy 🎀 Daily doodle: #17

[annaanana44]

Do it Again

Do it all over again

(Nam-gyu is trapped in a loop and he is trying to break it)

-Se-mi~ Why are you running away from me?I don't bite...

A tall black figure with a sinister smile was walking closer and closer to player 380.

-Why are you so scared?AM NOT GOING TO KILL YOU!

Namgyu lifted his right hand as high as possible and with a swing stabbed Se-mi.He stabbed and stabbed until he couldn't recognize the body anymore.

"What a gruesome way to die"

The boy stood up and wiped the blood of his face.He had long stopped smiling.Now no one was left for him.He was completely alone.

Player 124 slowly walked up to a near by bed and fell face first.He was tired.Really tired.

As he thought that he slowly drifted into sleep.

That night he had a strange dream.

He was wearing an all white suit and had colorful bouquet of flowers in his hands.He didn't understand what was going on.When all of a sudden he looked up and saw,that one purple head dead guy was about to kiss him.

He woke up

<<WTF was that!?>>.Sweat fell down his forehead and looked around.Wait.

Namgyu adjusted his poor eyesight and what did he see?Se-mi.She was alive and well taking to Min-su.

<<wait.. didn't I kill her?Am I still dreaming!?>>

He was really confused.As he was about to go back to sleep.He heard someone speaking.That someone's voice made his whole body tremble to it's core.Namgyu jumped and nearly fell off his bunk bed going down.

Thanos stared at him shocked but when he saw a familiar face,his gaze soften.

-What's up my boy?

Namgyu grabbed him by the shoulders and started shaking him rapidly.

-Yo! What is wrong with you?

Thanos grabbed Namgyu's hands to stop the shaking and cursed him.

-Are you a ghost?Am I dead?

Thanos and the others who were close enough to hear looked at him with a strange expression.

Had he gone insane?

The purple haired guy looked at him with a serious face but then burst out laughing.

-What dream did you had to say such things hahahaaah.

This was not the first time this maniac was laughing so hard but Namgyu got really annoyed.He stayed silent and left them to go to the bathroom.

Inside the bathroom, nothing seemed out of place.Everything was clean.Even the mirrors were unscratched.

<<Did I really go back in time?How is that even possible>>

.

<<if the next game is Mangle..then it most be true>>

As he made that promise to himself,he opened the door determent.

The event's were all the same.Dancing with Thanos ,player 125 betraying Se-mi,Thanos choosing him out of all of them.It was all the same.Not even the words and dialogues were changed.

He really went back in time.Before Thano's death and all that bloodshed...It was all the same.

Everyone slowly walked and pushed the buttons or to stay or to leave.Namgyu will still choice to stay.He still needed the money.

Bip

Player 125 choose to leave...still the same.Namgyu now was sweating like crazy,as if his body knew what was about to happened.

-"It's all mine!Your money!Your girl!Your FUCKING life! It's all Thano's property now! You fucking son of a GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKER BITCH!"

Just like last time player 230 was eliminated

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Namgyu was being punched but still he did the same thing as before.Took the fork,kill the X and kill that Bitch.

When Namgyu snapped out of it.It was already to late.Se-mi was screaming from the pain of the stab.He managed to do the exact same thing as before.From all the adrenaline,he had killed player 380 twice.The only difference now was that he walked on Thano's bed to sleep.Forget that this ever happened.

Another dream:

Namgyu was wearing comfortable clothes,a little too big for him but still nice.The coffee on his hands smelled delicious and the couch he was laying on seemed quite soft too.

The television turned on making him turn his head to see.On the channel 'BiG nEwS'The famous rapper's name was plaster on the screen with golden letters.The rapper had come back on the spotlight with the help of his husband who helped him found ground.When Namgyu's eyes fell on the smaller letters below.He saw his name AS HIS HUSBAND!?

He woke up confused.

<<wait this is my bed?>>

Like last time,he had woken up in his own bedding.He quickly went down and saw the purple guy talking to his senorita.Just chilling like they weren't murdered last night.

Namgyu walked up to Se-mi and touched her chest.It was beating.

Slap!

A painful slap was sent from Se-mi's hand to his left cheek.Turning red.

-What the fuck is wrong with you?

-Yo my boy,be a gentle man

Thano's got up to prevent a fight between these two.Player 124 stood still finally understanding everything from that slap.

As the games begun.Nam-gyu had one thing in mind.Player 125 had to die.

After the few rounds it was time to make three pairs.Nam-gyu smacked player 125 and took Se-mis and Thanos hand to run.He managed to find a room from all the chaos.Thanos, Nam-gyu and Se-mi.

-WTF MAN

Thanos pushed Nam-gyu on the wall.Visible angry.

-Are you crazy!?

The other guy didn't looked at him in the eyes.Se-mi started crying and the guy infront of him was getting angrier and angrier.

Thanos was pretty high and being angry to top it off.He wasn't stable.He punched Nam-gyu in the face.Blood dripping from his nose.

-For FUCKS SAKE. YOU MOTHER F-

Another powerful punch was sent to his face making him fall down.Maybe killing Min-su was not a great idea.

Thano's couldn't understand what had gone into his friends head to do such a thing.

-You have gone crazy man.I shouldn't have given you those drugs damn it.

For the next rounds,Nam-gyu was paring with other players.Trying to avoid his precious friend.He hated the disgusted look ,he was giving him.

After the games ended.He saw Thanos and MG coin going inside the bathrooms.

<<It's your fault you will die>>

Nam-gyu closed his eyes, imagining how things would unfold.When he opened them back again.He saw a O player covered in blood, running and telling everyone that the X's started it all.

Nam-gyu sighed and pull the covers to sleep.

<<Fuck you..>>

He fell asleep and had another dream.This time it was more intense.Nam-gyu was laying naked on a big king sized bed and Thano's was on top of him,panting and flushed red.Whispering his name while thrusting....

Nam-gyu couldn't escape.The sweet sensation,his smell,his touch.It was making his mind go blank.

-Wake up my boy🖤

Nam-gyu woke up with a scream,seeing Thanos on top of him, trying to wake him up.

The one who was laying down became as red as a tomato.

-uh..um can you get off me?

The boy ot top of him listened and went off his bed.Leaving Nam-gyu thinking about the dream.

After a while.Player 124 went down his stairs and walked to his group.He looked serious.

-guys...I-I am stuck in a loop

All of them looked at him strangely.

-I know what games we will be playing next round.If I am correct and I know I am.You will have to believe me!

Se-mi looked at Min-su trying not to laugh.Had he gone crazy or what he was saying was true?

Nam-gyu walked closer and whispered "Mangle".

The purple haired guy stood up and stared at him up and down.

-You sure?

-AM SURE!

So the next games begun and as he predicted ,it was "Mangle".

-No fucking way you were telling the truth

-why would I even lie for something like this? Anyways can you please give me one pill

-..Sure why not your prediction was correct so

Nam-gyu happily took the pill <<and the games begin now>>

The familiar sound echoed inside the big room.The games went by as normal.Gyeong-su was eliminated and Thano's choose him for the last round.

All this time,Nam-gyu was quite and kind of timid.What was he thinking so hard?The guy in the same room thought.

-Yo my boy are you okey?He patted the others shoulder.A comfort gesture.

-Yeah....Do you trust me.

-?

-You know I am stuck in a loop right?In all of them you die.

Thano's eyes opened wide and pulled his hands off Nam-gyu.

-In the bathroom that damn MG-Coin bitch kills you with a fucking fork.Even if I try to change the outcome you still die.You still leave me alone.

Nam-gyu was frustrated ,why is he so worried about a man who doesn't give any damn about him?Maybe he had truly gone insane.

-Nam-su are you sure?

-what?

Thano's walked closer to him and touched his left hand.

-This might sound weird man but.I keep having this weird dream of always dying in the bathrooms.Did he stab my throat?

-...yes

Thanos jumped and hugged Nam-gyu tightly.The other party was really emotional and hugged him back while crying.

-please don't die again

-I won't.I have a plan

The games had ended and they both went in Nam-gy's bed.

-I didn't know my small potatoe will betray us like that.Maybe we should ta-

-No!That was the whole reason the fight broke out and you died,idiot.Just stay still,I need to finish your pigtails.

-wait what?HEY,I thought you were just playing with my hair.

Confused he touched his hair and felt two pigtails.

-hahaha you look so cute!

-No fair,let me do your hair,too

-Noooo

In the end they both had fabulous hair.One with purple pigtails and the other a hiperfixiation ponytail.

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Its time to vote.

The rapper walked with small jumps and pressed 0.After a while it was Min-sus turn and he pressed X,as expected.Lasty player 124 pressed to stay.

Thanos had told him he had a plan but still wouldn't tell him what it was.

After the votes which was a tie.Thanos grabbed Nam-gyu and they locked themselves in a bathroom stall.

-what are you doing?

-shh!

Thanos covered the others mouth when he heard chattering outside the stall.The chatters became shoutings and then chaos unfold.Even if Thanos death was prevented, the same outcome came.The bloodshed,O's attacking X's.

When Thano's was conformed that his dreams about his death were real.He knew the same implied about the other dream he had.About some X players taking the guards guns and fighting them.

-please tell me what is going on.

-Did you know I can see the future!

-...huh

-Dont be so judgemental.You were stuck in a loop.

-And I don't know if I broke it.If I sleep tonight and woke up in another day yes but I don't know now.

-well whatever happens I will always be by your side hehe

-... whatever.Now tell me!

-okey,okey.I know that from all this fighting in the middle of the night guards will come to break the fight.That is when some X players will overpower them and take their guns.Are you in,in helping them out and killing those bastards?

Thanos opened his right palm waiting for the other party to agree.

-...I trust you

Nam-gyu hold Thanos hand with a little hesitation.

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.

The X players gave the duo guns and bullets.

"This would be fun"

BANG BANG

Namgyu had a great aim and shot a lot of the pink guards.On the other hand ,Thanos was fast at dugging the bullets and staying calm which made everyone feel more at ease.

-WE NEED MORE BULLETS!

-I WILL GO

Nam-gyu ran back to the big bedroom to take more bullets.

While he was gone Thanos followed player 456 and his best friend to the main room.

After what seemed like hours.Player 124 came back with as much bullets as he could carry.

-LETS KILL THIS MOTHER FUCKERS HAAHAH

Everyone cheered.They saw Nam-gyu as their Angel saviour.They couldn't imagined what could have happened if they ran out of bullets.

-Hey were did Thanos go?

-He followed player 456 that way

-I will follow them.

Namgyu got up and followed the direction he was given.

Twists and turns,he finally saw a purple head.Excited he ran towards him but when he saw he was aimed by the front man.

His mind went blank.His legs thinking on its own.They ran and went infront of Thanos.

Nam-gyu pulled the trigger at the same time as the frontman .

BANG

His vision blurred and he collapsed.

<<Will I go back in time again...>>

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He slowly opened his eyes, trying to adjust to the brightness of the room.He was inside a hospital.<<a hospital?>>

-AHH Wah where am I??

-Nam-su!

Thanos woke up from next to him and started crying.

-You are awake,you are awake

-wha..what happened?

-You saved me don't you remember?

-yes but only that.. aren't I supposed to be dead what happened cough

-After you collapsed..That bastard was also shot.He died.Actually he was player 001 who beat the hell out of us in the first day.Funny right.We got our revenge for beating us hehe

-what the actual f-

-But to put in out shortly.If you hadn't shot him.We would all be dead by now.

-...how did we got out?

-easy we just burned the whole place down and the fire was a way for the police to find us.

-...didn't that erase evidence?

-yes but hehe.We had a chip

Namgyu's eyes widen and tears went down his face as he fell back down.

-uhhgh I cant believe we are free

-I know right hehe

They both stood in silence, smiling warmly.This would be one of the best memories for Nam-gyu.

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My notes😉

(First I have to say is that at the start of the story when Nam-gyu was having those weird dreams.They were actually real,like those moments will happen in the future 😏.

Also I don't know if the ending is rushed or not.I just didn't knew how to end it and was kinda bored too😅

Another thing.I got this idea from a fanfic I read on Ao3 before I made an account and now I cant find it😭)

Thangyu>>>💗💗💗

[alphabetcompletionist]

wait a minute, i was gonna be a bitch about my unwanted child i'm too afraid will karmicly punish me if i kill it, but this is what came up

didn't this button hide it from searches entirely before? what's 'discourage' supposed to mean? what changed?

ABCDEFGHI KLMNOPQRSTU WXY

23/26

[matrix-es-real]

Based on this fanfic:

On Such a Winter's Day

by crayfisher98

Timeloop stangst

[threepoint14art]

cosa que me encontre en twitter :9

[dangraccoon]

As Ever

Day 21 ~ time loop ~ (Alt. Prompt)

Fives

Word Count: 2097 Content: Bio Chip Arc, Fives dies, actually he dies multiple times, the time loop resets if he dies or gets reconditioned, so because time loops can get fuckin dark, so I'm saying a soft Mature 18+ (recommended), Sheev Palpatine is his own warning anyway

“The mission… the nightmares… they’re… finally over.”

“Fives? No, Fives…”

—

His eyes fluttered open, squinting at the harsh light of the medical room.

“I… what…”

“Do not worry,” AZI chirped brightly. “Brief confusion is normal when waking up after a surgery.”

“Surgery,” Fives repeated, his hand coming up to the side of his head.

The patch. From the surgery. The chips? “You removed the chip?”

“Yes,” AZI said, whirling around to pull the two slides from his drawer. “Identical in structure.” He held the slide up side by side. “However, it appears that the one I found in your friend had mal–”

“Tup’s chip malfunctioned, but mine was fine,” Fives thought aloud.

“That is correct,” AZI chirped. “There is no way of knowing what will happen to you now that we have removed your chip.”

Fives’ mind felt clearer in this moment than he’d ever remembered.

Hadn’t he done all this already? He could so clearly remember seeing the chancellor–you don’t forget when a seemingly kindly old man orders his guards to murder you–escaping, finding Kix in 79s, and talking to General Skywalker and Rex. Oh, Rex. The memory of his ori’vod holding him close, crying as the second of the shinies he’d practically adopted faded away. 

Is this what happens when you die? He thought bitterly as he scowled at the floor. You have to relive the worst parts of your life? What’s next? Umbara? The Citadel? Kamino?

“Are you experiencing anything out of the ordinary? Anything that could be a potential sign of the mental decline your friend experienced?” AZI broke him from his bitter thinking.

“No, no,” he said, waving him off. “I don’t… think so. Maybe–do you think he had deja vu?”

“There is no way of knowing what Clone Trooper Tup experienced before his death, however feelings of deja vu are not a common indicator of an impending mental break.”

Fives sighed, pushing off from the table to pace the small room. “I swear, it feels like I’ve done this before.”

“Like you’ve done–”

“All this,” Fives groaned, his hands gesturing vaguely. “You removed my chip, we go to the records hall. They take me to the chancellor, he–”

Fives went still, his mind working over his options. 

“ARC Trooper Fives?”

“AZI, I think this goes much deeper than the chips in our heads.”

—

“General, you have to believe me, I can show you–”

“You’ve gone too far, Fives.”

“Stand down, soldier!”

“No, Fives!”

—

“General Ti,” he said. The general came to his side. “The-the doctor injected me with something… I-I don’t feel well.”

“I’m sure it was just to help you relax, Fives,” she smiled sympathetically. 

“No, no,” Fives shook his head. “It… doesn’t feel like last time. This one… this one’s gonna kill me. Please–”

“Fives, I do not understand–”

“I…can’t see’i- ‘nym–”

“Fives? Fives!”

—

“Fives, what are you doing in here?” Shaak Ti questioned, still in her meditation pose. “You are meant to be completing the tests necessary to put you back in the field.”

“General, when we were cadets, you helped me and Echo find our place in our squad. You did us a huge favor and I have just one more to ask of you before I’m sent away.”

He could see the skepticism in her eyes, but she nodded. “What can I do for you?” 

“I need to know something about you. Something you’ve never told anyone before– something that you’d need to investigate if someone said it back to you.”

“Fives–”

“I know, General. But please, once I go back to that testing room, I’ll either be sent to the front to die or I’ll have my memory wiped. Either way, I know too well that I’ll be a dead man.”

Fives could feel something touch his mind. He let his eyes close, allowing the Jedi to prod him for answers.

“Something small,” he pleaded quietly. “Just something that would tell you to talk to me.”

As the general’s touch eased from his mind and she simply searched him with her eyes, he began to lose hope.

“Apologies, General Ti,” he said finally. “I’ll leave you to your meditation.” He gave a slight bow and turned for the door.

“Fives,” her voice reached his ears right before he opened the door. “Nannariums.”

He turned to look at her, finding a soft confusion still covering her face, but her eyes were curious. 

“They are my favorite flower. No one else knows this.”

Relief stole over him. He nodded his thanks to her, then walked to his seemingly inevitable death.

—

“Perhaps it would be best if clone trooper Fives and I discussed this without your presence,” the Chancellor said, his smile warm and sickly sweet. Fives fought the urge to punch him.

“Chancellor, I must object,” General Ti scowled.

“Please, Master Jedi,” the Chancellor cooed. “Trust me. I will not be alone.”

Whatever that aiwha-bait doctor dosed him with was fogging his mind. 

“N-no,” he protested, instantly sure that this must have been the pivotal moment. This is where everything went wrong. “General, please. Don’t leave me alone with him,” he pleaded, stepping towards the kind Jedi. “He’s not the one at risk, General.”

The General startled. “Fives, what are you–”

“This is obviously the delusional ramblings of a defective clone,” Se protested.

“On the ship, on our way here,” Fives breathed, all too aware of the glare boring into him from the Kaminoan. “The doctor injected me wi-with something and I can’t… Please just stay with me.”

Shaak Ti’s eyes scrutinized him. 

“You can… you could see if something was affecting me, couldn’t you?” he said, his eyes searching hers as much as she searched his. “Making my head all foggy?”

“Master Jedi?” Palpatine probed. 

He could feel the general’s gentle touch at the back of his mind.

Fives tried to calm himself, pulling only one memory to his mind. Too many would confuse her–he found that out last time.

A quiet meditation room on Kamino. The quiet confusion and curiosity on her face.

Her own voice.

“Fives. Nannariums. They are my favorite flower. No one else knows this.”

Shaak Ti gasped quietly, her eyes going wide. She thought for a moment. “If it would be a comfort to this trooper, perhaps it would be better if I stay.”

“Thank you, general,” Fives sighed, relief flooding his body.

“Of course,” Palpatine said, his voice still that of a kind old man, but his expression soured as he looked at Fives. “All will stay present, but perhaps we should all just let the man speak.” He looked to the general and the doctor, who both gave a nod.

Fives’ teeth ground together. “Thank you, sir.”

“Please, Fives,” General Ti nodded. “Tell us what is going on.”

Fives could feel his hands shake, his focus solely on the General. “There is a plot against the Jedi, General. There is a Sith in this–” his eyes nervously turned towards the chancellor. “In the Senate. They’re controlling this war from both sides.”

“This is lunacy,” Nala Se muttered. “Chancellor, this clone has clearly gone mad without his chip. He must be–”

“Doctor, we all agreed to let Fives speak,” the general said, fixing her with a stern look.

“The chips have… orders written into them to kill the Jedi. We would be forced to obey the order without a second thought,” he said, determinedly continuing to speak over Nala Se’s renewed objections. “It isn’t supposed to happen until someone triggers it, but Tup’s malfunctioned and it caused him to execute the general.”

Shaak Ti’s face betrayed her whirlwind of emotions. 

“Master Jedi, I find I must agree with the good doctor,” Palpatine muttered. “This is obviously a very, very sick clone.”

“General, I swear on- on nannariums, I’m telling the truth,” Fives insisted.

“I am taking ARC Trooper Fives to the Jedi temple for evaluation,” the general said suddenly. “He has made many… disturbing claims, yet I can sense that he truly believes them.”

The chancellor stood aghast, stammering “But Master Ti, I believe–”

“I will bring him to plead his case before the Jedi High Council and our temple’s best mind healers,” she said, her voice exuding confidence. “I’m sure we can all say that we want what is best for the Republic, yes?”

“Well, of course–”

“And what is best for the Republic is to learn the origin of this clone’s… delusions.”

Shaak Ti ignored the protests from the doctor and chancellor as she pulled Fives from the room by the arm.

“Thank you for believing me, General,” he practically gushed. “I don’t know how to tha–”

Before he could finish, Shaak Ti spun on her heel, her saber hilt pressed to his chest. “How could you know that?” 

“G-general?”

“That is something I’ve not told even my dearest friends,” she elaborated. “Clones are force-null; you cannot have seen it in a vision, yet the memory felt real.”

Fives’ eyes darted around the room. It was empty except for them, but he couldn’t shake the feeling they were being watched.

“Take me to the Council, General,” he pressed. “Please.”

She fixed him with a hard look but placed her lightsaber back on her belt. “I will.” She turned back to continue.

He sighed. “Thank you, again, General. I’ve been–” 

She stopped, eyeing him over her shoulder. “Do not speak until we are before the council.”

He tensed and she looked away and sighed. “I have already been… biased, but the rest of the council must receive the full story.”

A chill ran down Fives’ spine. “Yes, General.”

He sat in silence as the transport took them to the temple. Over the last… oh maker, he’d lost count of how many times he’d been through this–this was the first time in a while he started to feel that tiny spark of hope deep in his chest–perhaps a little further down than where Fox had shot him about half of these days. If he thought about it too hard, he could feel that hole burning into his chest, he could hear Rex’s anguish. He’d do anything to stop that from happening again, to stop hearing that broken cry of his name spilling over his brother’s lips. If all of this was real and he was being given so many chances to get this all right, he’d do it for Rex, for Tup, and for all their brothers.

“Your thoughts are… quite loud,” the general hummed as they arrived at the temple, her eyes–filled with curiosity–meeting his for the first time since leaving the Senate building.

He felt his cheeks flush. “Oh! I’m sorry–” 

“No, no, it is alright,” she waved his concern off. “Perhaps I should not have been eavesdropping.”

“That’s okay,” he murmured. 

“While I find your… situation… to be perplexing, your dedication is commendable… and perhaps a bit inspiring,” she smiled as the doors to the transport closed behind them. 

“Uh, thank you, General.”

“Fives, you are aware that the things you have claimed are extremely unbelievable, yes?” she said as they entered the halls. Idly, Fives wondered how many clones had entered these halls before.

“Yes, sir,” he nodded, adding that “it was unbelievable to me too, the first dozen times” under his breath.

She took him directly to the High Council Chamber, telling him–and the pair of guards by the door–to “stay put. I mean it, Fives. Do not lose this opportunity” before entering the chambers.

He glanced at one of the guards. “I’m not going anywhere, but if I don’t move my legs right now I’m going to lose my mind.”

The guard didn’t answer save for a small nod. He thanked them and began pacing.

“You’re not the first to wear down the floor out here,” Plo Koon said, the chamber door closing behind him. He couldn’t be sure, but Fives was fairly certain he was smiling beneath that mask. “And I am certain you won’t be the last.’

“General Koon,” Fives chirped automatically, standing up at attention. 

“At ease, Trooper,” Koon answered. “If you are ready, the Council is ready to hear your story.”

Suddenly, the weight of everything happening to him seemed to hit him. Not just his own fate, but the fate of all of his brothers rested squarely on his shoulders. The fate of Tup’s honor sat there, as well. If he could prove that what happened with General Tiplar wasn’t Tup’s fault…

“Fives?” Shaak Ti whispered. He hadn’t noticed her come out. “Are you ready?”

Fives took a deep breath, squaring his shoulders.

“Ready as I’ll ever be, General.”

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[strixcattus]

If I had a nickel for every video game I've played with a monochrome protagonist who had a small blade and was either trapped in or facilitating a time loop or time loop–like structure, I would have four nickels.

And that's actually starting to be a lot of nickels.

[aliusfrater]

What does the siren represent for Sam?

i've spoken about this adjacently before and quite frankly i don't think canon explicitly gives us sam's siren personification considering that the siren's victimisation of sam is very spur of the moment and immediately devolves into a singular scene of direct conflict between sam and dean before bobby shows up and we're released into a resolution. we don't get a direct acknowledgement of either who sam sees or what the siren is presenting to sam. it doesnt really help that sam spends 3/4 of the conversation on defense before he decides to rile dean up for a fight but i also think it's possible to extrapolate some amalgamation of a foiled role to the idealised Sammy that agent monroe is attempting to emulate for dean from sam's dialogue within their conflict by also connecting it to other specific developments from throughout the season—in order to pit sam against a dean that's already been taken advantage of, based on both sam's deflection away from his and ruby's relationship as well as what he says about dean, it's clearly a role that fills whatever lapses dean and/or ruby's play in his life, or at the very least is a role that simply provokes sam into wanting that fight for agent monroe's sake

[mbti-notes]

Anon wrote: Hello there! I wish you the best. I’m a 20 years old female and i believe that i’m an ENTJ.

I’m a student who is study at home alone for university exam. But i have problems about studying. I don’t have motivation and discipline enough. I believe there are several reasons for that.

1) I’m so pleasure oriented in general. And when it feels so boring and exhausted i’m just giving it up.

2) In the past, i was studying very well and enjoying it, i was so ambitious and always so driven. I was not alone that time. There was a circle, a group of people who i see them as opponents. And this was making me full of ambition and i was able to study.

For a long period of time, i have to study all alone and i don’t have anyone to see as an opponent. In this marathon, literally there’s nothing to stimulate me for study, for finding that ambition again.

Since i was a kid, i was so successfull, always the first at my classes. But after that, in my country whole system has changed just before two months left the high school entrance exam. There was a big exam ( for getting in high school, 5 6 years ago ) and i felt shocked for the first time. And i quit studying when whole system changed because of i believed i couldn’t handle in this short time. I was studying since 8 months and now the whole game was totally changed so I gave it up.

After that day, i couldn’t find any ambition or desire for study in me. And i became obsessed with that desire after this happened. I felt like i have to feel that ambitious for able to study again.

I believe that i can’t go anywhere with working only for a sense of responsibility, without have a strong desire to go. I can’t take to be avarage, i have to be the best at it. I think this might be the reason.

I also feel ashamed of being unseccessfull. And because of that i’m trying to not to talk to people. I stay away from them.

Of course, i’m aware of how unhealthy and silly all of this thought, feelings and beliefs. And i want to change them into something usual, i want to be able to study, work, do anything even without feeling like it. I want to stay disciplined. What should i do?

Any advice from you would be a treasure for me. Thank you.

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This topic has been addressed before, so do a search. There are two interrelated points to pay attention to:

(1) You are too extrinsically motivated. The only reason you do things is to obtain some external reward. The problem with this mentality is that, as soon as the reward is removed, your motivation disappears, revealing that your "ambition" was ultimately shallow and the reward ultimately meaningless. The remedy to this is to nurture intrinsic motivation, to be motivated by your own subjective or personal reasons. Intrinsic motivation doesn't disappear as easily because it is your own, precious to you, and under your control. I suggest that you read previous posts on the topic.

(2) Intrinsic motivation is closely related to Ni development in ENTJs. Through Ni development NJs deeply understand that it is important to live life with a sense of purpose. Purpose involves having a vision of the future and your future self that you hope to actualize. Ni vision acts as a guiding light or a north star to give your life meaningful direction. At 20 years old, you should have undergone substantial Ni development already. If you haven't, then you will become more and more prone to Se loop, which commonly manifests as having poor self-control due to constantly neglecting your future self. These are basic functional stack concepts that are already covered in the Function Theory Guide. I suggest you read the study guides as well as previous posts about Ni development.

[nach0]

ok i think i'm done for tonight but when i hop on tomorrow; i might need help

i've done the loop with helping everyone twice, sif is losing their mind (what else is new) and afaik i've gone and done all the quests and gotten all the information? do i just keep playing over again?

the main thing i can think of is odile's suspicions about the loops- or just something about sif in general- but i haven't figured out how to get her to act on them just yet

so yeah if anyone has any (preferably non spoiler but if that's unavoidable that's fine) tips on what i should be doing let me know <3

[marcmiauu]

VERANO A MEDIAS solo queria dibujar a benja y sus amigos en el cricket

benja lo llevó a elliot a verlo jugar y ni siquiera le dijo a los amigos que lo tenia de pareja,, y elliot se quiere hacer el misterioso.

BUENO CONTEXTO DEL GRUPITO DE BENJA

son 4, arthur roscoe, matthew dunn, lowell callingwood y benjamin scott (xd) tienen todos la misma edad menos lowell que es un año menor, calculo que benja es el mayor del grupo.

se conocen porque benja entra al colegio y se hace amigo de arthur, este ya era amigo de lowell y arman un grupito, después se une matthew al ser amigo de lowell!! aparte jugaban todos cricket así q xd

en resumen son 4 boludos (uno más que el otro) y se quieren mucho, se celan entre si (en joda (creo)) plot twist: a arthur le gusta benjamin y de hecho fue mutuo en un momento pero nunca se confesaron y benja lo superó </3

[loopscereal]

esta sangrando de nuevo el pobre

Daily doodle: #41

[lovealotgirl]

it’s me n my identity crisis against the world 💪

[raindropsofloev]

Ek Baar Yoon Mili Maasoom Si Kali Ho Khilte Hue Kahaan khushbash Mein Chali Dekha To Yahin Hai Dhundha To Nahin Hai Pal Jo Yeh Jaanewala Hai Ho Ho Aanewala Pal Jaanewala Hai Ho Sake To Iss Mein Zindagi Bitaado Pal Jo Yeh Jaanewala Hai

Good morning.

ek baar waqt se, lamha gira kahin

vahan dastan mili, lamha kahin nahi

thoda sa hasake, thoda sa rulaake

pal yeh bhi jaana waala hai

aane waala pal jaane waala hai

ho sake toh isme zindagi bitaado

pal jo yeh jaane waala hai

aane waala pal...