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[shayberri789]

Y'all.... we're going to see Captain Neil in action in the second kevin book. We're going to see robin. We're going to see the foxes through kevins eyes. I am not ok

[hl-obsessed]

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[shayberri789]

Jean makes me so sad and I've been turning over his aggression/threat responses in my head since I first read this book in April, and haven't been able to put it in words. Thanks op for the nudge

Jean's so interesting to me because he fawks all the fucking time—this is obvious. He was literally trained into submission, because fighting back always yielded a worse punishment. But what's up with his insults? He acts antagonistic (verbally, he's so so careful never to act on them unless he falls on raven drills) to Neil, Kevin, the foxes (incl the coaches and drs), the trojans, and only occasionally his housemates (incl Jeremy). And I realized, hes FAR more antagonistic when he's with the foxes than he was when he first moved in with Cat and Laila.

And I think this is his old fight response. This comment from Abby:

Always rubbed me the wrong way. Because Jean DID fight and he DOES fight:

But it was beaten out of him. (Even Neil talks about how the fight was beaten out of him in tkm). I think the only bit of that fight he was ALLOWED to keep was his cursing and his insults, so long as they never were directed at his Jailors. We don't even know if he treated Kevin this way before Kevin left (and he curses kevin out far less than he does Neil).

And does it in 2 situations: where he feels confident in his role/what he's supposed to do/feeling in control (being a shit to neil in literally every encounter) and when his other means of controlling a situation/threat are unavailable (crippled and bedridden at abby's: he's already fawning—trying to get back to tetsuji and riko in hopes they'll be lenient with his punishment—so he can't fawn at Wymack/Abby (besides, they're not threats, his incarnation is). He can't flee, because he's bedridden. Freezing won't do shit either. So what does he do? He fights them. Verbally. And acts stubbornly. What little refusals he can get away with).

When he moves in with the trojans, he doesn't understand the situation anymore. He doesn't know who to appeal to, how much power these people have over him. He's oddly compliant with everything they ask of him. He's uncertain. He's scared. And his vitriolic tongue almost vanishes.

It reappears on court, because this is something jean can understand. He's confident he's better than basicslly all the trojans on court, and that confidence brings back his sharp tongue and insulting epithets for the other team members

I'm not sure what greater point I'm getting at here except Jean IS a fighter, WITH a fight response, but it's been beaten out of him and submission/fawning taught. Freeze is the compromise between them (like when he has panic attacks). Jean's insults are what little of his fight he was allowed to keep, and they're most common when jean is confident in the situation/his role/his ability to best his opponent. Jean's ability to be a shit to his housemates is evidence he's growing closer to them, because he no longer sees them as a threat with power over him

Okay I’m awake again and something that really stood out to me with TSC was how different jean and neil are as protagonists. I expected they would be, but the thing I really noticed was how distinct their reactions were.

So, these books are HEAVY. There are many many traumatic events and the characters spend a lot of time in high-stress situations. Even when they’re not being attacked or threatened or XYZ, they’re often in a state of heightened physiological arousal (their sympathetic nervous system is going haywire). As a psychologist, the thing I find really interesting is that we see very different reactions that are all aligned with different adrenal responses, and I wanted to talk about it.

As a baseline, when your sympathetic nervous system is activated, you typically experience what some psychologists call the four Fs. Fight, flight, freeze, and/or fawn (some people use another word here but I don’t like it and think it’s less accurate to the situation). These can occur simultaneously or alone. And of the four characters who are most showing this response are the ones who are consistently in the highest stress situations, but who are also traumatised in such a way that even when they’re not actively in danger their sympathetic nervous system is overreactive and heightened.

So first off, we have Neil. He’s pretty clearly shown to have two responses: flight and fight. For his entire childhood, he’s been fleeing from danger and in the earlier parts of AFTG, we see this response - he tries to run as far as he can possibly get from anything that might be a risk. As a side point, this is pretty clearly a learned response from his mother. As Neil begins to feel more secure and his flight response is impeded (he can’t run away) we see the emergence of his other primary adrenal response - fight. I don’t feel like I need to explain this one, tbh, we’ve all seen how he runs his mouth. Fight is also typically shown when you believe you can defeat whatever’s threatening you, so I love what this says about how his confidence develops across the trilogy.

Then you have Andrew. He’s not a POV protagonist but I feel like his response might be the most obvious. His primary responses are fight and freeze (Andrew Minyard runs from/fawns for no man). Fight is pretty obvious - he’s a very violent person - but I feel like the most clear example of this is stopping Riko from attacking Neil. Andrew is obviously wired and his instinctive response is to protect. I love that for him. His other primary response, unfortunately, is freeze. Based on the most obvious time we see it (during Drake's attack), this is probably a response he developed as a child, before he felt strong/safe enough to fight back. God, these books make me sad sometimes.

Next is Kevin. He has a slightly more varied response - i can see the argument for him freezing, although i wouldnt say it's a primary response - but his main two responses are fight and fawn. Fight isn't necessarily literal, btw - the most obvious example is covering his tattoo. His fawn response is slightly more expanded on in TSC (mild spoilers if you haven't read that yet) when we see him responding to Riko's attack by begging first Riko and then Jean to intercede and stop the violence. he's trying to appeal to their affection for him, which is absolutely heartbreaking. Kevin i love you.

And finally, we have Jean, whose primary responses are only really made clear in TSC, although they are backed up by his appearances in the trilogy - freeze and fawn. We see freezing in Jean's response to sympathetic nervous system arousal, often from hearing about or recalling upsetting events/information. He closes in on himself and becomes unresponsive. Fawn is slightly more complicated, as we see it somewhat throughout AFTG. when he's loyal to riko and doing things he thinks riko will like in hopes of reducing any potential pain/threat he will experience, i'd call that fawning. an example at usc is him getting on his knees and handing coach rhemann his racket - he's not just submitting to punishment, he's trying to be helpful and well-behaved in hopes of lessening it. it's honestly a really strong response from him and it absolutely breaks my heart. jean in tsc is really struggling and i hope the last book brings him some peace. i also find it really painful that he's the only one of these boys without a fight response - he's never felt capable of winning against his abusers. i really hope the trojans and bee are able to help change that.

[vulcanmourns]

was fucking around on mspaint and got this masterpiece.

[especiallyhaytham]

Assassin's Creed: Rogue | Complete Timeline

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A comprehensive list of all important dates and events related to Assassin's Creed: Rogue.

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**I did not go into great detail on Haytham's POV sequence in AC3, and I also excluded events from Forsaken/Haytham's Journal. It was way more than I wanted to do at the time. However, I do want to expand this in the future to also cover AC3, and when that happens I will be more thorough. If for some reason you need information that I left out, hopefully this document at least makes it easier for your organization!

I will make a pinned post soon where this will be permanently linked. Thanks!

[crsssie]

proposal - professor!simon riley x professor!reader

"Hope dinner's been good." Simon hums, checking in with the table as everyone nods. He feels like he should be surprised that they scored and kept track of the bingo for class, but it isn't the first time anyway. Every now and then a student who really wants a good dinner hops on by.

"Professor Riley, you said we could ask questions, right? How'd you propose?" One of the students scooches over to make space for him as he sits.

"Propose?"

"Yeah!"

"Not the secret to a healthy marriage?"

"That's my next question. We wanna hear how you proposed."

"We or you?"

"We!" Another student yells.

"Proposed to her at my graduation, but I forgot the inner box with the actual ring so I had to improvise." He hums, presses his drink to his lips.

"Being?"

"Bit the base of her ring finger hard enough to leave indents when she agreed."

"WHAT"

"Oh... that explains why you have her teeth under your wedding ring."

"He has what."

Simon loosens his wedding ring, showing the tattoo as he shows the table.

Someone mutters a 'freak' under their breath that Simon raises a brow at.

"And the secret to a happy marriage?"

"To love your spouse even unto death." He raises a brow as the diner door jingles, his expression softening. "There's the missus."

"Wow he's down bad."

"keep it down!!"

[habibisagi]

age gaps make the pussy eating sooooooo much sexier and feels gross in a reallyyyyyyy hot way sorry

[shayberri789]

Thanks for tagging me 😁

Last Song: Odysseus by Jorge Rivera-Herrans (Epic the Musical)

Favourite Colour: Pink! (No surprises there), tho pale blue and lilac are close seconds

Last Book: just finished Blackflame by Will Wight, currently reading Skysworn (same series) and The Sunlit Man by Brandon Sanderson

Last Movie: Princess Mononoke!

Last TV Show: I think it was arcane? Can't remember if I watched something after that dksbzksn

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: do I have to choose? I love them all. I've even managed to combine them a couple times into some v good meals

Relationship Status: aroace as fuck and happily single (also, Orion, you're married?! Didn't know that. New lore unlocked)

Last thing I googled: Creeper Overhaul Mod Minecraft wiki (I am getting my ass whipped in the current modpack....)

Current Obsession: beyond the usuals? Epic the musical and Heaven's Vault

Looking Forward To: building my new mc base, the peanut butter chicken satay dinner I have planned for tomorrow evening, my Heaven's Vault books arriving (!!!) And finishing SLM (also seeing my friends next month but since that cooccurs with the start of the uni trimester, the excitement is dampened somewhat sksjssks)

Tagging.... @too-old-f0r-this-shit @dead-immortal @totallyawesome123 @aethtalon @damiemontclair @rooftops-are-for-towels @jellypear @perihelion-crew-lounge @itsyaraz @ka-binko @karlathewitch

little tag game

Hehe thanks for the tag @goethesgroupie!

🎧 last song: Trouble by Valerie Broussard (I’m not counting the sleep playlist I put on overnight to block out sad pathetic kitty noises)

🖍 favourite colour: yellow if I have to pick

📚 last book: last finished was The Language of Thorns by Leigh Bardugo and the currently reading is Six of Crows… also by Leigh Bardugo… for like… the fifth time?

🎥 last movie: Glass Onion!

📺 last tv show: *hiding my face* Bridgerton

🍜 sweet/spicy/savoury: spicy but my stomach disagrees

👧 relationship status: married!!!

🌐 last thing i googled: “how many acres is Los Angeles” (don’t worry about it)

💓 current obsession: does my own OC and also my spouse’s OC count…?

🔮 looking forward to: Upriver, Downriver tonight! Also getting the PDF of Legend in the Mist in a couple of months!!!

tagging uhhhhh @alwaystheview @shayberri789 @calciumsoda @tecobonobo @prophecyofgray

[shayberri789]

MURDERBOT FANDOM. TAG THE FUCKING TV SHOW

[thatcrazycrowgirl]

I know some of y'all have missed my text post nonsense, so here's the glorious return of the silliness!

[ultima-waffle]

Duneposting on Twitter because I have SpiceRot (spice brainrot)

[fanfenomenon]

poor shay

[vulcanmourns]

"AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YEAH CHAT" -Imp, probably.

[thou-babbling-brook]

Smth smth endless cycle of war for a purpose that exceeds your understanding smth smth

[dailypj]

✨Day 105

Another older doodle, splattertale meets pj’s resolve 🤍✨some months ago me and shay aka @sketchingstars03 had a convo about how many parallels our stories have (mostly between the main/title characters) so I wanted to draw them together

Og pj - 7goodangel

Og ink - comyet

ST ink and splatter - my friend as tagged above

Pjr ink and mc pj - mee

[shaibonbon]

I need to draw witch bonbon like this, watch, get ready for Halloween 🎃