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yakocchi · 4 years

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Our Prenuptial Nightmare // Eisuke

hooray, finally the end to this dumb season LOL but i like this one a lot…… maybe it’s even the one from this season only worth reading (i havent read all of them tho)

well this one is actually kind of refreshing bc as i posted before, it’s abt the MC losing her memories. she’s not just a season 1 blank slate… she doesn’t remember anything after getting a job at the Tres Spades, so she barely remembers her own friends as well. yikesu

my rambling behind the cut

so eisuke honestly treats her the same as he always does, just obviously more distanced (im gonna read the His POV after this so idk rn). shes pretty spooked about this scary guy, maybe even more than she was in season 1 since he’s way more caring about her health or w/e despite being a CEO and all. for a pretty long time, he keeps her stuck in the hospital. he brings her a dvd that contains a media appearance of him publicly introducing her as his fiancée and she’s like “tf, is this a prank???” and all sorts of ppl visit her and stuff. shes still pretty much in disbelief about the whole thing until her parents come visit and they clearly know who this weird guy is

eventually she gets stuck in his penthouse instead. tbh she’s probably not “healthy” enough to work rn given that she doesn’t remember anything about her job, but she can’t even step one foot outside the room without soryu and his goons (appointed by eisuke) being like “HEY WAT U DOIN” so it’s kind of dull and jarring for her haha. later she finds a diary that she wrote in before her memory loss and she’s like “oh wow……. i was simpin that hard for this guy huh” (ok more like “wow, i really love this guy huh”… but i mean same thing). she also wants to make food for him and cooked up a risotto but since eisuke’s been busy af, she ends up falling asleep before he comes home (late) to eat it.

then eventually she presses forward about learning more bc she feels that eisuke is hiding a lot about himself, esp. in terms of what he does. and shes right abt that bc hes purposefully not saying anything abt the black market auctions, etc. eventually eisuke gives in and explains to her the whole 20m bid thing that started this whole romance. she tells him she wants to learn more, and so eisuke turns it into a whole date. They have a date that’s the “type of date for a first date”, and then it concludes with the inn at Kobe.

PART 2 eisuke makes it sound like hes gonna bone her but obv the guy is just teasing for the most part and it ends p cute bc he’s sweet (sweet for his standards) about it. later they go to that same petting zoo or w/e with the cute bunnies. lol eventually the same bunny that doesn’t seem to hate him shows up too. they end up bringing the rabbit home (the rabbit’s name is Maron, as in “chestnut”) to take care of. i guess maron is their animal bebe now it’s been like a month, so she returns to work eventually. hikaru notes that she’s doing pretty well for someone who doesn’t remember how any of this works. but then later, she passes out while remembering the strange discussion she overheard the day she lost her memories. eisuke goes WAH MC and then when she eventually wakes up and he’s like “it’s ok, dw abt it” while she’s like “bro i got something to tell u”. next day he tells her that he’s made her the Floor Leader of the eventual “Tres Spades Maldives”, but then she realizes during the flight that the man with her is not Eisuke, but Yuuma sent there to comfort her and also to do the Maldives business stuff. it’s obvious eisuke’s trying to separate from her. after all, it’s been a month and there’s no sign of her memories returning. he’s pretty blunt about organizing all of it without her realizing (wow what’s new). she’s really sad about it but relents and goes with it anyway. i mean eisuke is obviously pretty sad about it too since he parts with her with that genuine smile and says along the lines of “Don’t forget… that I’ve always loved your dumb face.” why i QQin BRO

well hikaru and yuuma are here in maldives so not too bad. also the penthouse bedroom is pretty good, it’s an aquarium lookin thing anyway so obv eventually the “generic gangster model” guy has to show up and kidnap her. well yuuma comes to the rescue and blahblah they want to murder her bc eisuke knew too much abt business nonsense going on again and then she dives into the sea. before she drowns, the real eisuke miraculously shows up to save her blahblah everyone else comes to save the day (2) and then they return to the Maldives suite. eisuke is like “smh i should’ve taught u how to protect urself” (…) “swear to me that u will not behave like an idiota ever again” and her memories come back after she goes “I can’t promise that (…) if you put yourself into danger, then I will continue to do the same” and has a flashback of his confessions from various seasons. HUGS lol that cg really has him going :I before a : )

everything goes back to normal, she finds a ring on her right hand and they’re wearing like… couple rings..... boi you guys are supposed to be married soon, just wait for those well fin. i skipped a buncha stuff in this “ramble” but yea my first impressions and all

#SORRY had to reup i posted a weird unedited one #kbtbb #kissed by the baddest bidder #eisuke ichinomiya #pretend this neva happened

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fumiko-matsubara · 4 years

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AssClass Rewrite: How Kaho should’ve been portrayed instead

I’m just transferring what I’ve proposed in the discord server to here for easy access UwU.

I hate how Matsui oversimplified Kaho’s character until she’s literally being portrayed as Maehara’s overly unsophisticated bitch ex-girlfriend and left her like that, implying that it’s okay for fans to put her under the same level of being horrible as Seo.

Haha how about NO?

With all the red flags that are just plain obvious throughout Kaho and Seo’s interaction in the chapter, Matsui had the chance to write her as the unfortunate girlfriend of the school’s rudest student. But noooo, he just went “it’s too complicated so let’s just end it like that” and it’s pissing me off smh

So, here’s my take on her character UwU:

Kaho is like the BIGGEST SIMP for all the Ikemen in school, and she will go out her way to get close to them, even asking them out (Zaina and I headcanoned that she’s from the Tennis club, but only because Isogai was also a member and she didn’t think that the club is separated by gender lmao). She’s basically Ikemen crazy, a pursuer, and does all the chasing.

If that’s the case then, how did she ended up dating Seo, of all people, with his ugly rude shitty ass self being the opposite of what the traditional Ikemen is?

Let me add a defining personality trait of hers then: Kaho is very un-confrontational.

Because of this certain trait of hers, she couldn’t say “No” when Seo asked her out, especially since the guy has a really good reputation at school as a virtuoso and for his “exceptional” (yeah right) English skills, that his family is said to be stinking rich, and that his outrageous personality in general makes everyone in school uncomfortable.

As Zaina, who is @dreaming-of-assclass, have pointed out in her tea spill post about Seo, there is an obvious power imbalance between the two, that it’s beyond uncomfortable to think about what could’ve happened to Kaho had she rejected him when he asked her out, broken up with him when she had enough, or especially had she got caught cheating on him behind his back. Paired that with my take of Kaho being un-confrontational, she’s literally trapped and it’s heartbreaking.

Her crush on Maehara is definitely genuine, from what we’ve seen in the chapter of how happy they are together and the fact that Maehara is very popular with girls in school pre Class E and is considered as an Ikemen, brushing aside his “fast-dating” trait.

Background and background:

When Kaho and Seo first started dating, she briefly stopped her pursuing habits, but then suddenly went back to it after seeing more of how shitty Seo really is in general (As previously mentioned, she couldn’t just call the relationship off, considering Seo’s reputation in school and how much power he has in the relationship along with how un-confrontational Kaho is). So, I’m gonna assume here for a bit. Kaho “unofficially” broke up with him, by keeping a distance from him until they, hopefully that is, drifted apart that they’re no longer together without the need of an actual declaration of breaking up or something.

So by that logic, to Kaho, it’s now okay to go after other guys since she already “unofficially broken up” with Seo. Then we have Maehara: handsome, athletic, fun, good personality, and very popular among junior high school girls in Kunugigaoka town. Despite his fast-dating playboy trait, he’s considered by many as an Ikemen. Kaho loves Ikemen, especially the very good-looking ones. So after him she goes lmao. Of course, with your girl being both a simp and a pursuer, she’s the one who asked him out. And Maehara, being your everyday fast-dating playboy, of course, said yes.

Now we have the retaliation chapter:

Kaho and Maehara might have been dating for a few weeks at this point, considering that Maehara knows of her daily schedule and how she commutes to school. They’re chill with each other and just happy together. All good.

Then Seo showed up.

With all the points I’ve stated earlier about their power imbalance, with Kaho being un-confrontational, she’s beyond panicking at this point for getting caught. (Let’s be real, Maehara kind of made things worse by pointing out the sudden change in her schedule as of lately. Important point: I’ll address this too shortly).

Cue the big mistake she had made that day: using Maehara as a scapegoat just so that she wouldn’t have to deal with facing Seo’s wrath, especially with how horrible his temper was. Yes, it’s wrong for her to do that, but you can’t exactly hate her for it since poor girl is beyond scared, that she had to do it.

To quote what Zaina and I have discussed months ago, about the café scene:

Fumiko – “I’ve also noticed something in the retaliation chapter. It’s only Seo who actually insults disguised Kayano and Nagisa. Kaho was more like, reprimanding them angrily rather than explicitly insulting them. And when they were talking about what happened with Maehara, it was Seo who was carrying the whole. Kaho was more of “I know right?!” rather than expressing her thoughts.”

Zaina – “EXACTLY!! It’s so clear that he’s the way ruder one!!! And she’s just going along with things to please him.”

Fumiko – “She even looked scared when Seo asked her if she had previously brought other people with her to the café. If 3E were that empathetic enough, surely the recon team would realize the way Kaho was just trying to go along with Seo’s rudeness to please him.”

Zaina – “I feel like in canon, none of 3-E was thinking very straight, or open-minded like they usually do. Because of Maehara’s humiliation and the direct insults towards them, it felt personal and they didn’t want to see it any other way. This was unfortunately exemplified by Koro’s encouragement. He really wasn’t a good role model at all for supporting this. Because you’re right: how did none of the recon team, or anyone notice how the two interacted?? How scared and stressed Kaho looked?? Especially Nagisa, who specializes in reading people and is sitting right across them??”

The last point made a lot of sense. We should really make Nagisa notice Kaho’s obvious cry for help, and even Kayano too for how obvious Kaho was faking it to Seo.

So now, we have the whole revenge thing:

Zaina – “You know, the revenge that 3E got on Seo and Kaho was super harsh. But it’s even more messed up when you remember that Koro encouraged and helped planned it.”

Fumiko – “I don’t like how they managed to get away with that with little to no witnesses. The lasy who asked the three to cut the branches should’ve noticed that large branches fell on two kids in front of her.”

Zaina – “The problem with AssClass is that they never acknowledge the consequences of their actions ever, which makes it hard to be realistic sometimes.”

Fumiko – “Another thing I don’t like about the retaliation chapter was that Kaho and Seo thought it was just a very unlucky day for them. No one else knew that 3E did all that shit. They literally got away with it with 0 consequences.”

So here’s how I think 3E should face the consequences of their actions in this chapter, which involves adding the scene of where Seo shoved Kaho just to get inside the restroom from the farther convenience store, it may have not been explicitly shown in the manga, but it was implied.

Until we get to Nagisa and Kayano noticing the huge red flags in the café, to 3E initially, both Kaho and Seo are equally in the wrong and deserve the same punishment. All the canon process in the revenge can still remain here, if y’all fine with that. After noticing the red flags and witnessing Seo shoving Kaho out of the way, wouldn’t it be best if they started to reflect on their actions from that moment? Like “did we go too far? Is she really that bad as we all initially thought? Was this even the right thing to do in the first place?”

It’s also a good chance for them to reflect on the fact that Koro encouraged all of this and is one of the most involved in planning, considering the fact that he is still a teacher, and he literally encouraged them to humiliate two kids in public. At the same time, even Koro might reflect on what he teaches them.

Also, Zaina pointed out that Maeheara literally did not learn anything from this in the end and just went back to his fast-dating habits like the whole thing never happened in the first place.

So let me addressed what I’ve mentioned earlier, then.

Maehara and Kaho dated for quite a while if he already knew about her daily routine, and it’s showing that they really do like each other and enjoy each other’s company. No bad blood whatsoever. So after finding out that Kaho is dating him behind Seo’s back, also known as the rudest student in school with such a horrible temper, don’t you guys think it was a very bad dick move of him to expose Kaho, the very girl who he was just having a great time with, just like that while it’s beyond obvious at how scared she was of Seo and is trying to save herself from getting in big trouble? Couldn’t he just have helped her with making her excuses more believable so that both of them could get out of trouble?? He’s good at talking, so he can definitely make it work. So why did he choose the option where either him or Kaho could the brunt of it, when it obvious that he’s gonna take it considering he’s from Class E?

We’re also definitely gonna make him learn something out of this in the end smh.

And that’s the end of my long ass essay UwU

#assassination classroom #ansatsu kyoushitsu #assclas rewrite #target on #tsuchiya kaho #kaho tsuchiya #maehara hiroto #hiroto maehara #seo tomoya #tomoya seo #korosensei #class e #my characterization #please let Kaho break up with that abusive clown #Free Kaho

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two-baes · 4 years

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pwnyta replied to your post “*galaxy brain idea* after Jack & Joker are split into separate people,...”

never heard of Punchline but ... what a lame design...

She's like...brand new (yet another shitty thing 2020 has cursed us w/) so I ain't surprised u haven't heard of her. But god, yeah, her design sucks.

def leaning way too fucking hard into the edgy goth phase lmfao (tho she's like??? 18-22(at the oldest) so like...not surprised.

whereas White Knight verse Marian Drews was a classy lookin' bitch...Lookit dem shoes.

(also similar color scheme [purple/black] but rocking it WAY the fuck better and w/o the extra unnecessary colors)

smh dc should've brought HER over into main verse instead of making up rando-mc-fucking-goth up there....

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alewyren · 4 years

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tumblr is dead but I’m gonna post my thoughts on Inuyasha here too for archiving purposes. cw for (non-detailed) discussion of sexual assault and suicide wrt kikyo

OKAY. SO. MY THOUGHTS ON INUYASHA. warning for some INCREDIBLY hot takes.

it. sure was a journey. I am not sure if I liked the series overall or not. It had some legit good/touching moments, but it dragged SO LONG and there were a lot of things I thought could've been handled better. But it was fun liveblogging it for sure. And I got NarKik out of it, which snapped me out of my year-long creative dry spell, so it was at least a net positive time investment LMFAO.

I liked... mmmmost of the characters? sango, sesshoumaru, kagura, kanna, naraku, kohaku, K I K Y O, and even kagome were all Good. On the flipside, Inuyasha himself is FUCKING TERRIBLE and he sucks and I hate him. Emotional immaturity ain't cute, he gets everything handed to him on a silver platter, rarely apologizes for being a selfish prick, and the other characters are WAY too forgiving of his bullshit. I got tired of the tsundere het romance cliches between him and Kagome pretty fast, as well as how often he was jealous of her. Like, Kagome's insecurities over Kikyo I can legit understand (despite being #1 Kikyo Fucker). But whenever she's so much as civil with Kouga and Inuyasha's all HANDS OFF MY WOMAN I'm like... dude shut up you two-timing hypocrite. If You Like It Then You Should’ve Put A Ring On It. Credit where credit is due tho, they did chill out over time and some of their moments together towards the end of the series were legit sweet. I'm pretty meh on Inukag overall, and iffy on the resolution of her moving to his era permanently, but that last panel of him greeting her as she came out of the well gave me a Feel.

(Actually, on that note, it... would have been legit kind of hella if the series had ended with Inuyasha himself permanently moving to the modern era? Aside from their friends he had far fewer attachments in his world than she did hers, and there's so much more potential with him having to adapt to the modern era, lol. ALTERNATIVELY, kikyo lives and she switches places with kagome and makes a new life for herself in the modern era. thus letting her truly live as a normal girl. But I'll Get To Kikyo Later. smh)

The premise of the series is actually pretty strong, though of course you can poke holes in it. To my knowledge it was the first isekai anime that really took off, and the driving plot of collecting the Shikon fragments is excellent monster of the week material (though I'm not really a monster of the week fan myself). Also, youkai are awesome. Focusing the series on real-world mythology makes my Shin Megami Tensei heart very excited.

I know the series runs on emotion rather than logic, but I REALLY have some questions here. The fact that the well is explicitly stated to take Kagome back in time rather than to another world makes no sense at all. First of all, where are all the youkai in the present day? Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru are at least a couple hundred years old, right? What happened to them in that 500 year timespan? Surely some creature or another from the series would have naturally survived that long. So what happened? Was there a mass-youkai extinction somewhere along the line? Shouldn't this be cause for concern? Also, do Kagome's time-traveling actions create a stable time loop or a branching timeline? If Naraku won in the past, how would that affect the present? The two eras are just completely isolated from each other and I really don't get it. That kind of stuff. Yeah yeah I know MST3K mantra and all but MAN this bothers me.

Which brings me to Exhibit A of stuff I think should have gone differently: Kagome should have stayed the protagonist, and the modern era should have gotten more focus. Not as in her day-to-day school shenanigans, but stuff touching on the questions listed above. There's just a lot of untapped potential regarding How This Shit Works, rather than confining the story pretty much entirely to the Sengoku Jidai With Youkai. Also there could be plenty of shenanigans with characters OTHER than Kagome and Inuyasha hanging out in the present. LIKE KIKYO. okay yeah my kikyo bias is showing but it would be the perfect opportunity to 1. hide her from naraku (unless he found a way into the present, but that just ties into my previous point), 2. develop her friendship with Kagome. Which would have done both of them wonders. BUT I'LL GET TO KIKYO LATER. (I'm dying imagining Kagome introducing Kikyo to her schoolmates as her cousin and taking her shopping though..... teaching her how to ordinary human... like..... HHH.)

Anyway, Kagome as the protagonist. She was very much the protagonist at the start of the series--she took a more active role in a lot of the monster of the week conflicts, and just had a lot more focus and screentime in general. Then Inuyasha got his sword upgrades and her role in conflicts became reduced to sensing Shikon fragments and occasional use of arrows. It took until the last hundred chapters for her to get ANY sort of substantial power-up, and it felt... unearned? I had been looking forward to her developing her miko powers alongside Inuyasha's youkai powers, and getting bow upgrades to match his Tessaiga upgrades, but it just... didn't happen. Her miko powers having been sealed all along felt like an ass pull, and I wasn't really a fan of the test of character she had to go through in order to get the fancy bow upgrade being solely focused on overcoming her feelings of jealousy towards Kikyo... again... like it's valid for her to feel that way but we've been here already! Surely there's more to her character than this! I think it would've been awesome if she actually got some fights of her own too, and maybe Kaede and eventually Kikyo mentoring her growth as a miko? But as far as canon went, it just felt like she got shallower and less interesting over time as Inuyasha slowly took over the protagonist role and that was a damn shame. Let Kagome be the plucky isekai protagonist she was always meant to be! This, of course, ties in with my assertion that the modern era should have gotten more focus too.

okay, so. it's time. kikyo. Kikyo. I fucking LOVE kikyo, absolutely my fave chara, I was not expecting to love Kikyo this much lmao. All that ship war propaganda was a big fat lie. She has an ASTONISHINGLY mature narrative about the effect of tragedy and trauma on people and relationships, but it was SO under-utilized and shafted in favor of the Love Triangle and Inuyasha's Manpain and I'm FUCKING UPSET. Kikyo was (or at least had the makings to be) the best character in Inuyasha but she was not done justice at all, in this essay I

Like, sit down and think about it. Here we have a woman who lost her parents at a young age, taking on the responsibilities of her household, and training to be a miko on top of it--which in the world of Inuyasha is a very emotionally demanding position that requires her to basically devote her entire life to her duties, ESPECIALLY once she's entrusted with the Shikon Jewel. All while being required to live a life of asceticism and suppressing worldly desires. In short, she basically never had a chance to actually, like. Live. Keep in mind that she was a child/teenager throughout all this (she was 17/18 when she died). That's a LOT of pressure on someone that young.

At this point, she's understandably lonely and depressed, and then along comes Inuyasha. She falls in love with him, gets a taste of a life that would truly make her happy, and has it ripped away. Like, there's some really fucking dark subtext to the whole Onigumo plot. She shows kindness to a random stranger, who proceeds to make a deal with the devil to LITERALLY RAPE HER, and her life is ruined as a result. No, Kikyo wasn't literally raped in canon, because even though Onigumo wanted to rape her Naraku's intentions towards her were... more complicated if still incredibly fucked up, but good lord the subtext is THERE. And as a result of the ensuing incident, believing Inuyasha betrayed her, she straight up KILLS HERSELF. Yes, it was partly to protect the Shikon Jewel, but she did not want to come back to life. Let that sink in. Kikyo was driven to suicide by an incident incited by a man who took advantage of her kindness in order to rape her. (nostalgia critic voice) FAMILY PICTURE!

I'm not gonna pretend Kikyo was the only victim here, though. Inuyasha has pretty clear PTSD from the event too, even after learning Kikyo is innocent. But through his relationship with Kagome, he begins to heal and move on. Then Kikyo gets brought back as a clay zombie, fucks up his whole grieving process, kickstarts the love triangle, you know the story. Kikyo's perspective is actually really interesting to dig into though. She didn't want to be brought back. She's PISSED. Even when the dust settles and she learns that Inuyasha is innocent, the anger and trauma have changed her. She's got a good ol' dose of PTSD herself. She's colder, harsher, engages in risky/self-destructive behavior, and distances herself from her loved ones. Like, think about it. Was there any logical reason she had to separate from Inuyasha and his group to fight Naraku on her own? To keep them in the dark about why she surrendered the Shikon Jewel to Naraku? No. That's a character flaw on HER part. And all this puts real strain on her relationship with Inuyasha. They still love each other, but their mutual trauma has completely changed their dynamic. Their love is based on their past relationship rather than their present chemistry. They don't make each other happy anymore. Neither of them are at fault for that. That's REAL AS FUCK. That's what trauma DOES to people and relationships.

So, yes, I'm a hardcore Kikyo stan who supports InuKag over InuKik. We exist. InuKik does not work as a relationship in the present because they've both changed due to trauma and that's the GODDAMN POINT. It's not a story about true love, it's a story about moving on from first love. The problem is that Kikyo's character is largely confined to her role as a love rival to Kagome. Inuyasha's side of the InuKik narrative, of letting go of the past and healing, is resolved. Kikyo's is not. And boy, I was ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LIVID that the love triangle was resolved through Kikyo's death rather than Inuyasha just... fucking, PICKING KAGOME OVER KIKYO BEFOREHAND RATHER THAN HER NEEDING TO DIE. She can still die after that! I swear, I'm not just salty because my fave died. At least 70% of my favorite charas are dead. I literally don't care anymore. I'm mad that she was killed off in a way that reduced her to being Inuyasha's Woman rather than getting a chance to heal and grow apart from him, as he did from her. And this in turn cheapens the narrative around why InuKik doesn't work as a present relationship to begin with, because he never actually picks present love over past love! He just keeps committing emotional infidelity until Kikyo gets killed off to wrap things up in a neat little bow with no character growth on his part! This shit is why I hate Inuyasha (the character).

Kagome's kindness towards Kikyo also plays a part in why she softens up by the end, yes, but that kindness is entirely depicted as "I want to save her because she's important to Inuyasha and I love Inuyasha." Kagome's character growth in these moments hinges on her picking love over jealousy, NOT through actually bonding with Kikyo. On top of that, Kikyo saving Kohaku over defeating Naraku struck me as out of character (have to show she's not a bad person after all? which she isn't, but still). It definitely made her death feel even more pointless. How come Kohaku gets to live and not her!!! Seriously, the fact that Kohaku gets to live and Kikyo doesn't REALLY rubs me the wrong way. She barely even knew Kohaku! He was willing to die to defeat Naraku! NOT killing Kohaku to defeat Naraku almost cost MORE lives! It could've been a poignant resolution to her character arc, but there wasn't enough buildup for it to be a convincing decision for her to make.

And oh my god, there's SO much wasted potential here. Kikyo's resentment towards Kagome is super understandable, and it's never really explored. Kagome replaced her. Kagome is filling the role she should have filled. What's even left for her except her hatred of Naraku? She asserts that Inuyasha cannot forget her (her being lowkey possessive of him is *chef kiss* my wife is a bitch and I like her so much), and he doesn't, but she still straight up tries to kill Kagome lmao. Like I said they do reconcile, but it's kinda half-assed. Kikyo's feelings are never explored in-depth. She's never truly given a chance to heal and realize that she does have a place in the world beyond her decaying relationship with Inuyasha and hatred for Naraku. That her scarred, flawed existence is still just as fucking valid as Kohaku or Rin or Jaken being able to live after being brought back from the dead. Like lemme stress again that the girl experienced INTENSE trauma and COMMITTED SUICIDE. The notion that she's the only one who needs to die in order to restore the natural order, that her death is beautiful and tragic but necessary, is..... gross, tbh. :U

Like, she can still die, lmao. IMO it'd be legitimately more interesting if she lived, if she had an opportunity to carve a place for herself outside of Kagome like Kagome did Kikyo, but it IS possible for her to die without it making ME want to die. Just resolve the love triangle shit first, flesh out some of her relationships outside of Inuyasha himself (ESPECIALLY Kagome), show her healing and softening, and then she can die protecting everyone or some shit. That would've been fine. But No. She just gets killed off for the service of Inuyasha's character, so he can hook up with Kagome guilt-free, with NONE of this addressed. Because it's more palatable for a woman to be dead than broken up with, I guess? I Hate It Here, You Guys.

her (near) last words being "I've finally become an ordinary woman" rubbed me the wrong way too... it like, tried to wrap her character arc up in a neat little bow while ALSO entirely confining its resolution to being Inuyasha's Woman and discarding the narrative of trauma driving them apart. I love the narrative of the girl forced to be inhuman who just wants to be normal. This just felt like... a really cheap way to go about doing that, at the disservice of her character being about OLD love, for a forced (and false) sense of closure. Didn't like it. God fucking damn, typing it all out just made me even MORE pissed off.

tl;dr: kikyo had the makings of an amazing trauma survivor narrative but it got shafted. she deserved everything. thank you for coming to my TED talk.

SIGH. okay. there are other characters I wanna touch on too. Uhhh I actually thought Naraku was pretty cool, though he became way less interesting after Mt Hakurei (for the most part--he was cool again during the direct lead-up to Kikyo's death as well as the final battle). His identity crisis was pretty neat, as was the way he specifically targeted other people's emotions and relationships as a way to compensate for his own utter lack of a sense of self. Not to mention the cold, detached way he regards his own emotions ("my pp stands up whenever i look at kikyo, wish it wouldn't do that :/") and how this leads him to succumb to the influence of the Shikon Jewel, in contrast to Inuyasha and Kagome breaking the cycle. His lack of motivation is actually kind of the point, and I think it's neat as hell! Things got boring once The Baby entered the picture, and I got the sense Rumiko wasn't really sure what to do with Naraku for a while. His style of villainy got a lot more distant and "just as keikaku," when it was the way he got up in everyone's business and pushed their buttons for his own shallow amusement that made me like him in the first place. His fragments aside from Kagura and eventually Kanna were way less interesting, and I think it would've been neat to go more into his role as basically being an abusive dad, but it's fine. The Baby was a fucking boring and atrocious villain though, jfc. The /idea/ of Naraku's own heart rebelling against him was cool enough, but it means jack shit when The Baby is just a bland-ass villain who doesn't remotely represent the character traits that make up Naraku's "heart" in the first place, even aside from Kikyo.

Speaking of which, his fixation on Kikyo is a LOT of fun. Their interactions (which he was apparently secretly into), how he rejected his own humanity and destroyed both himself and the object of his desires, etc. Which is another reason he got less fun after Mt. Hakurei tbh. I fucking hate the way Kikyo's death was handled overall but I liked that he had to reclaim his human heart in order to overwhelm and kill her. That was neat. Something something toxic desire destroying both yourself and the person it's directed at. Then at the very end he realized that his entire existence was completely pointless and empty and his complicated feelings towards Kikyo were the only thing that ever made him actually, like, give a shit. Pour one out for this absolute dumbass. He's a relatable villain because I too would go to absolutely insane lengths to get over a girl I never even dated.

Uhh who else. Sango and Miroku. Sango was my favorite character in the main party. She's the most level-headed of the bunch, has a super cute design, and her story with Kohaku was responsible for a lot of the emotional moments in the series that really landed for me. Her friendship with Kagome was actually super cute and heartfelt. That scene early on where she broke down crying in Kagome's lap because she was scared of being alone again HURT. Also, Kirara is fucking precious. Miroku I've got mixed feelings about, since on the one hand he's a legitimately interesting character and some of his scenes with Sango did hit fairly hard, but DEAR GOD I hate the quirky pervert trope with a burning passion. If it were played seriously, I'd stan him to hell and back a la Adachi. But it isn't, so it's not. I've got mixed feelings about MirSan too. Their resolution was really sweet, but I was kinda like "wha" when Kagome said Sango had a thing for Miroku in the first place. Like, sure okay, but I think more time should've been spent showing her falling for him in the first place lol. Also the butt-grabbing joke got old fast. And when he proposed to her and basically refused to stop flirting with other women I facepalmed so hard. Can't have character growth when you have unfunny running gags! To his credit, he did chill out for the most part, but still kept making jokes about flirting/scoring that clearly made Sango unhappy and I'm like. Why. Then the bit with Hirai-Kotsu needing to be fixed. I liked their mutual resolve to protect each other, but I thought Sango's comment about how she couldn't live without him was..... a bit much. Like what about Kohaku??? But anyway I'm just glad Sango got a happy ending even if I'm still super *SQUINTS* at Miroku.

Sesshoumaru was pretty neat, I get why he's popular, though wasn't really My Type. Sure he's cool, but his /personality/ was a bit lacking and I think we should have gotten some more insight into his relationship with his father for how much focus his quest for the Best Sword got. His development was pretty good, but I've kind of got an issue with how Rin was more of a plot device than a character. Like, okay, one of the reasons I decided to start reading Inuyasha was because the announcement of Yashahime sparked a wave of Sessh/Rin discourse and I wanted to form my own take on it. And, yeah okay I don't like Sessh/Rin either and I say this as a certified Nasty, lmao. Less because it's problematic (though I find it kind of offputting myself, even aged-up) and more because it's bland. Rin has no character whatsoever outside of being a vehicle for his development and I'm REALLY not a fan of girls being objects for male charas' development. Still, I'm not gonna boycott Yashahime if Sessh/Rin is canon or anything. I prefer him with Kagura or even Kikyo but they're dead, so. If Rin has to be his cum dumpster to make this happen, then that's how it's gotta be.

Thats about it I think. I'd put it a rung or two above Naruto in terms of overall quality, but BOY am I still mad abt Kikyo. 6/10 probably wouldn't recommend, but it WAS fun.

#musings

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blissedoutphil · 6 years

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Post-Tour Agenda

I haven’t written a new fic in 4 months?? smh. Had a nice break from my WIPs tlic and jat by writing this fic! Thank you for the prompt @ticktockondabloc :) And the (**) leads to a nsfw link so be careful if you wanna click it!!

3551 words of switch!phan (who’s top/bottom here?? idek both have their moments), sybian (it’s like a fuck machine that you sit on), nipple play, blowjob, fluff

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The first item on their post-tour agenda: Sleep. They don’t miss much from back home while on tour, but the one thing they can agree on was that they miss their bed dearly. They did have fun sleeping in their tour bus, especially after their crew decorated their bunks for them. The hotels, however, weren’t as fun. And after five months of sleeping in random hotels and tiny bunks, Dan and Phil craved nothing more than their big bed at home, where they could stretch out comfortably and in familiar sheets. And despite being together for almost nine years, five months of sleeping in separate beds was too long; they’d missed being tangled up in each other and falling asleep in each other’s arms.

So that’s exactly what they did first thing when they reached home. They each took a quick shower then hurriedly plopped into bed. Phil hummed happily as he squished his cheek against Dan’s shoulder, he’d missed being engulfed by the warmth of his boyfriend. Dan hooked his leg over Phil’s and they drifted off to a peaceful sleep listening to each other’s heartbeats.

They spent the next few days mostly in bed, sleeping off the jetlag and lazing around. Catching up on all their shows and only getting out of bed when absolutely necessary. There was nothing to stress over, no rush to go anywhere or deadlines to meet. They enjoyed being able to just lay cuddled with each other - something they rarely got to do during tour.

When they finally filled up their quota of sleep and cuddles, it was time to move on to the next item on their post-tour agenda: Sex.

“Remember what we bought before we started tour?” Phil recalled in amusement, looking up from where he was resting on Dan’s chest.

“Oh my god I still can’t believe we did that!”

Phil’s loved feeling Dan’s chest rumble from laughter as much as he loved the sound of his laugh itself.

“Do you wanna...?” Dan trailed off, looking at Phil inquisitively.

“Ready whenever you are babe,” Phil answered, silently hoping that they could try out their new toys right then.

“Alright, so how we gonna do this?” Dan smirked knowingly.

“Don’t pretend you forgot the plan,” Phil poked at Dan’s chest before he sat up, getting excited already.

Almost nine years together and they’re still as competitive as ever, they could still turn every little activity into a game. This game was conjured when they were packing before tour and realising the amount of things they had to bring for being away from home for so many months. It was simple - whoever came first on their newly bought sybians(**) loses and would have to unpack and do the laundry. The winner would get to use the loser in whatever way he pleases to come.

Phil scrambled out of bed and retrieved their new toys, still tucked away in their boxes under the bed. Dan looked on in amusement. Of course he remembered their little plan.

“You better not cheat!!” he warned as he watched Phil set up the two sybians to face each other on the floor.

“Hey I’m a fair player!” Phil said indignantly.

They both quickly undressed, all the while teasing each other about how they’re going to win and the other would have so much work to do.

The sybians were machines that had a dildo that could move at the seat, and a ridge in front of the dildo that would vibrate when turned on. The machines were controlled by remotes. The catch of the game? They’d have each other’s remotes, so they’d be controlling how soon their boyfriend would get to come.

They hastily fingered themselves, not trusting each other to help lest they purposely prod on each other’s prostate. They stopped as soon as they felt ready, not wanting it to get too pleasurable too soon.

“Ready?” Dan asked, hovering above his lubed up dildo.

“Yeah,” Phil nodded eagerly.

After a quick countdown, they both sat down on their sybians, shins flat against the floor.

Dan groaned as he bottomed out on the dildo. His balls rested perfectly on the ridge. He looked over to Phil whose eyes was scrunched shut as he adjusted himself on the toy. He grinned, an idea to catch Phil off guard crossing his mind.

He turned Phil’s machine on at the lowest setting. Phil squealed as he felt the dildo in him start to move slowly. The ridge also started vibrating lowly, stimulating his balls. Phil glared at Dan for starting even though he wasn’t ready yet. He clutched onto Dan’s remote and raised his eyebrows in a challenging way.

Dan merely smirked, prepared to win. He honestly had no idea what Phil was thinking by suggesting this game, he should’ve known by now that Dan was good at controlling his orgasms when he had to.

Phil turned Dan’s machine on, vibrations much higher than his. Dan’s composure broke only for a few seconds before he caught his breath. The vibrations on the ridge spread through his balls, quickly getting him hard.

“Hey I’m playing nice here, building you up and making you feel good. You’re just gonna go straight to the higher settings for me?” Dan questioned.

“It shouldn’t bother you since you think you have such good control, right?” Phil retorted, pressing a button so the dildo inside Dan started moving.

Dan moaned as the dildo started thrusting into him. His cock was already harder than Phil’s, the vibrations on the ridge felt so good on the base of his cock. But he wasn’t going to let Phil off so easily, so he quickly turned up the settings of Phil’s sybian. He watched in amusement as Phil gripped the front of his machine to steady himself as his dildo started thrusting faster.

When Phil regained composure, he fiddled with the remote to turn up the settings on Dan’s machine more. Dan bit his lip to stifle his moan, and Phil looked on in satisfaction as Dan’s cock leaked the first drop of precum.

Dan panted a little. Phil wasn’t going easy on him at all. But honestly, two can play at that. He turned the vibrations of the ridges on Phil’s sybian to maximum, smirking when Phil moaned loud.

The vibrations against Phil’s balls spread through his whole cock, and he started grinding against the machine on impulse. He curled his toes in pleasure, gripping the sides of the machine tightly as he moved his hips.

Dan chuckled, confident that he’d win. Once Phil started grinding his hips involuntarily, there was no way he could control himself.

Phil wasn’t about to lose himself in the pleasure, though. He made sure to match Dan’s vibrations to his, and he stared at Dan full of lust as Dan moaned out loud. He watched Dan’s dick quiver along with the vibrations on the ridge. But Dan was still composed enough to sit still as the dildo fucked him. Phil cursed under his breath, afraid that he was going to lose this game.

“Aww is it getting too much for you, baby?” Dan asked teasingly.

“Shut up,” Phil huffed, feeling his cheeks heat up.

“You look gorgeous grinding down on that thing though, can’t wait to replace your dildo with my dick,” Dan added cheekily.

Phil groaned, he doesn’t know how Dan can sound so hot even when he wasn’t attempting to dirty talk properly. Phil wasn’t good at dirty talk himself, so he had no chance to turn Dan into a flustered mess like Dan was doing to him.

“N-no, it’s gonna be my dick replacing your dildo,” he countered weakly, grabbing the remote and turning Dan’s dildo to the highest setting too.

Dan braced himself on the machine, he knew that if he moved the dildo might hit his prostate and his orgasm would approach sooner. So he stayed as still as he could and gulped as the intense vibrations spread through his crotch. He tried focusing his attention on his boyfriend instead.

“Look at your poor cock leaking precum, bet you wanna come so bad already,” he continued speaking in the low voice he knew Phil couldn’t resist.

“Could say the same for you!” Phil panted when precum dripped down Dan’s cock not long after.

“Aww c’mon, if you come you’ll get my dick and to be honest I think that’s more of a win isn’t it?”

Phil huffed, it did sound tempting but he was absolutely not going to do all the laundry. He pressed a button that made the ridges on Dan’s sybian vibrate in pulses that matched the movement of the dildo. Finally, Dan lost his composure and couldn’t help himself as he started to bounce lightly on his dildo.

Phil would laugh triumphantly if he wasn’t already bouncing desperately on his own dildo. He was so overwhelmed with the combined pleasure from the vibrations on his balls and the dildo fucking him. He angled himself such that the dildo wouldn’t hit his prostate even though he desperately wanted it to. He would not let himself lose like that.

“Please,” Phil uttered under his breath, so quiet but Dan didn’t miss it.

“Hm please what babe? You want it up even higher?” the vibrations on the ridge were already the highest, but the dildo wasn’t. So Dan turned it up all the way til it was thrusting into Phil as fast as the dildo in his own ass was.

Phil moaned brokenly, his hips grinding down onto the dildo as it thrusted right into his prostate.

“Nooo slow down please,” he whined, not caring how desperate he sounded.

“Aw why would I do that when you look like you’re having so much fun,” Dan teased, albeit with a bit of difficulty as he kept breathing heavily between his words.

“Daaan,” Phil moaned out, feeling his orgasm approaching already.

He briefly wondered if unpacking and laundry was that bad. He needed release so badly, why’s he letting that stop him? But then Phil thought about Dan’s smug winner face, and that was certainly enough to bring back his A game. He didn’t care so much about the forfeit, but he did care about his dignity and desire to win.

“Mmm Phil, wish this was your cock I’m riding, don’t you wish it was my cock you’re riding too?” Dan continued, knowing that his words pushed Phil closer to the edge just as much as the machine did.

Phil groaned and lifted his hand to wipe off the sweat on his forehead. He was really tempted to bring his hand to wrap around his dick. It was achingly hard and in desperate need to be touched, but he knew that if he so much as laid a finger on it he would be done for.

Dan was also getting dangerously close to his orgasm with every grind of his hips down onto the machine. He continuously rubbed his full balls against the vibrating ridge, exhaling shakily as the pleasure spread all the way to the tip of his cock. The noises his boyfriend was making weren’t helping him either; he so badly wanted to fuck Phil’s ass, or his mouth. He didn’t even know or care which he wanted to do more. He just needed Phil to come already so he could get himself in him one way or another.

“C’mon Phil, I know you need to come, don’t hold yourself back,” Dan encouraged.

“Why don’t you come first? If you do I’d let you suck me off,” Phil tried to sound hot but he just sounded desperate.

“That sounds tempting,” Dan managed to laugh, “but I’d rather have you on my cock. I know that’s what you want more too, don’t you?”

“Fuck,” Phil swore as the thought of sucking Dan’s cock crossed his mind and aroused him even more.

Dan’s cock was fully hard, standing right against his stomach and smearing precum all over his lower stomach. Phil was a liar if he said he didn’t want it in his mouth.

“If I give you a blowjob then you’re doing the laundry,” Phil tried to negotiate, already on the verge of coming.

“That wasn’t the plan, baby,” Dan just knew Phil would pull some shit like this, but he wasn’t angry. In fact, it somehow made him more fond of Phil.

Phil whined as he smacked his ass down onto the sybian with the force of his thrusts. Heat was pooling in his abdomen, his full balls feeling like they were going to burst any time soon.

Dan watched intently as his boyfriend struggled to keep his composure, watched the way his thighs trembled at the sides of the sybian, the way his head was down and eyes scrunched shut, mouth open as he elicited nonstop strings of moans. Any moment now, he thought.

He really needed Phil to come already before he does; he could feel his own orgasm pooling deep in his groin. With a lot of effort, he managed to slow down the movement of his hips on the sybian, smirking when Phil glared at him. He knew Phil wished he could slow down too, but Phil was too far gone to control himself.

Dan realised there was one thing his sybian was doing that Phil’s wasn’t, and his smirk morphed into a grin. Phil’s glare turned into wide eyes, afraid of whatever it was that Dan just thought of. He bit his lip, accepting his inevitable defeat coming soon.

Dan made a show of pressing the remote; holding it out, pretending to examine it and showing Phil what he was about to press before he did anything. Phil groaned and rolled his eyes, if Dan wanted to win he could just get on with it already!

Finally Dan pressed the button that made the vibrations of the ridge on Phil’s sybian pulse in time to the dildo thrusting into him, exactly how Dan’s sybian was working.

Phil threw his head back, thighs and hands clutching onto the sybian for dear life as he finally came all over the machine and his lower stomach.

“Yes!” Dan squealed the moment Phil ejaculated the first string of come.

Dan quickly got off of the machine, not risking coming. He definitely wanted his reward.

Phil ignored Dan’s cry of victory and enjoyed his orgasm as best as he could, vigorously riding the dildo as he came. He closed his eyes as he wasn’t prepared to face Dan the Sore Winner yet. But at least Dan had the decency to slowly turn the vibrations of his sybian down and to a stop when he was done coming.

He panted as he came down from his high, hands braced on the sybian as he attempted to catch his breath. He felt a hand on his shoulder and forced himself to look up at his boyfriend.

“Aww didn’t that feel good?” Dan cooed at him.

Phil sighed and pouted, “I can’t believe I lost.”

“Ohhh dear, who would’ve thought,” Dan teased, and laughed when Phil scowled at him.

Phil couldn’t be mad at his boyfriend for long even though Dan was still having fun teasing him. Dan looked so silly swaying his hips about while mocking Phil since he was still rock hard, Phil couldn’t help but giggle.

“Whatever, how do you want me?” Phil asked as he got up from the sybian, wobbling a little.

“Would that frown disappear if I let you decide how you want to get me off?” Dan asked without any hint of being a tease this time.

Phil squinted his eyes, disbelieving that Dan was done gloating at first. But Dan only smiled at him sincerely. Phil bit his lip as his eyes flicked down to Dan’s erection. His ass felt thoroughly fucked by the sybian already, so he decided to give that a rest.

Dan didn’t miss the glint of mischief in Phil’s eyes as Phil pounced on him, sending him tumbling backwards to the floor. Dan’s squeal of surprise was cut off by a kiss so fervent it knocked the breath out of his chest.

He didn’t get a verbal answer to his question, but from the way Phil started to kiss down his jaw and neck, he could guess where it was going. He moaned and wrapped his arms around Phil’s back as Phil started sucking a hickey on his neck.

Another thing Phil had missed doing during the tour was marking his boyfriend up. Now that the tour was over, they wouldn’t have to go outside for a while and he could finally bite down on his boyfriend’s perfect pale neck, could finally relish in the breathy moans Dan would let out when his sensitive skin was caught between Phil’s teeth.

Phil took his time lapping and nipping, leaving sloppy kisses and tasting the saltiness from Dan’s sweat slicked skin. He felt Dan’s cock twitch against his thigh when he breathed over Dan’s nipple and smirked. He might not be good at dirty talk like Dan was, but he didn’t need to be. His mouth can also reduce Dan to a needy mess just like this.

Phil licked over Dan’s nipple and nipped on it, tweaking the other nipple at the same time. Dan whimpered at that and his hand moved to the back of Phil’s head, fingers tangling in his hair to keep him in place there. Phil continued sucking on his nipple and pinching the other for a bit before switching, making sure both nipples received the same attention. He only stopped once both nubs were fully erect and Dan couldn’t stop whining and writhing under him.

“Aww is it getting too much for you, baby?” Phil mimicked Dan’s voice from earlier.

Dan couldn’t even think of a good comeback, he was already desperate to come. So he just replied sincerely, “You’re way better than the sybian.”

“Of course I am,” Phil proclaimed proudly before going to kiss down Dan’s tummy.

He licked his way down Dan’s happy trail, carefully avoiding Dan’s dick that was lying hard on his lower tummy. Dan was breathing heavily as he peered down himself to see what Phil was doing.

Phil gave teasing licks on Dan’s dick, tasting precum on his slit and licking down a protruding vein. He smiled when Dan started moaning his name urgently. He was determined to make Dan as desperate to come as he was on the sybian earlier.

“I know I said I’d let you decide but can my reward not have so much teasing oh my god,” Dan said desperately.

“That’s what you get for being such a sore winner,” Phil answered.

“Am not-ahh,” Dan’s answer was cut off into a moan as Phil swiftly went down on him.

Phil got Dan’s whole dick in his mouth, his lips wrapped tightly around Dan’s base. After Dan recovered from the initial sensation, he sat up a little to be able to look at Phil properly.

Phil let his boyfriend adjust above him, he was satisfied lying on his stomach with Dan’s dick pulsing in his mouth. He propped himself on his elbows and started bobbing his head when Dan fully sat up and had his legs bracketing either side of his body.

“So good, Phil,” Dan moaned, and Phil hummed happily at the praise.

He sucked on Dan harder, and they both knew that Dan wasn’t going to last long. He’d been needing release since he was on the sybian, and Phil’s talented mouth was only helping him chase his orgasm even faster.

Phil fondled Dan’s heavy balls while he licked the underside of Dan’s shaft, his other hand grasping the base of Dan’s dick that wasn’t in his mouth. Dan was gripping onto his hair and moaning loud above him. Phil had missed hearing how loud he could make his boyfriend moan, missed all the beautiful sounds that couldn’t be made at all during tour.

“I’m close, Ph-,” Dan tried warning, his hand in Phil’s hair pushing Phil’s head down on him more.

Phil sucked even harder, and one hand snaked up Dan’s body to twist his nipple. Dan moaned, and another tweak of his nipple finally sent him over the edge.

Phil swallowed around Dan as he came, bobbing his head and not coming off until he couldn’t feel anymore come spurting down the back of his throat.

When he heard Dan exhale a sigh of contentment, he finally pulled off with a pop. Phil sat up and Dan immediately pulled him into a kiss, tasting himself as he licked into Phil’s mouth.

They broke the kiss only when they needed air, and Dan collapsed onto Phil similar to how Phil pounced on him earlier. They laid on the floor tangled in each other as they caught their breaths.

“Third post-tour agenda: you’ve got lots of unpacking and laundry to do,” Dan cheekily said after a while, poking Phil in the ribs.

Phil groaned and shoved at Dan a little, his signature pout returning to his lips.

Dan wouldn’t tell Phil now, but of course he’d help him with the laundry later. Sure he’d won their silly little game, but how could he resist the need to wipe that pout off his boyfriend’s face?

#phan #Smut #phanfic #phansmut #My fic #phan fic #phan smut #post-tour agenda

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subparsanta-a · 6 years

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weiwuxiian replied to your post: (( Two peas in a pod smh))

Liri and I are actually the same person in alternate dimensions

((I should’ve known!! It’s all so obvious in hindsight-Light and Liri are secretly twins, separated at birth, reunited through the mysteries of fate-))

#weiwuxiian #ooc

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sombraglaze · 4 years

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Lexember 2020 - Kmitmuk ksu

I did Lexember 2020 but I only posted it on twitter, and I thought I’d be a good idea to archive all my posts on tumblr as well ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ

so I’ll put all the pictures in this post and write the transcriptions underneath each pic for ppl who prefer seeing it in that format or are blind.

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(the first 4 entries were posted the 4th of December)

I decided to do #Lexember kind of late 😅 but here are the first 4 entries, it's my first lexember and I'm a beginner conlanger so pls don't be too harsh if I mess up 🥺🥺

entry 1! 😊

tucir [tʊ.ʔɪɾ] Noun. emotions, feelings, energy.

from *tʼoɛːluː meaning blood, because it was believed that one's emotions where in their blood, they thought of it as a soul, so that's why corpses didn't emote or move, their emotions dried up.

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entry 2! 👍

ksu [ksʊ] Adjective. good, correct, important.

from *kusʼu meaning big, the autonym of this language is "kmitmuk ksu" which basically means "the correct way of speaking" and also implies that it's an important language.

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entry 3! 🐍

pi [pɪ] Noun. evil person, "monster."

from *pɛː meaning snake, it's a pretty severe insult, you wouldn't hear it in a civil conversation. it implies "murderer" but isn't always used this way.

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entry 4! ⚔️

pira [pɪ.ɾə] Noun. royal guard.

from *peθæː meaning star, they thought of stars as deities whose purpose was to protect humanity, so the word started to be used for guardians or sentinels and eventually became more specifically used for royal guards.

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day 5! 💬 kmitmuk [kmɪt.mʊk] Noun. language, dialect, speech.

from *kɔmytʼemokʼɔ the diminutive of fog, they live in a cold area, so this references the condensation that comes out of their mouth when they speak.

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day 6! ☝️

qer [qeɾ] Noun. four, index finger (archaic).

from *kʼyːθyː meaning index finger, their words for counting inanimate objects come from the names of their fingers and names of parts of their arm, these words are almost exclusively used for numbers nowadays.

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day 7! 😪

tugh [tʊɢ] Adjective. dull (blade), exhausted.

(originally I romanized [ɢ] as <gg> but eventually changed it to <gh>)

from *tʼuːxiː meaning dull, it's used metaphorically to say you gave it your all and now you need to sharpen (rest) before you can keep going or you won't be quite as productive.

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day 8! 🌨️

nsaqf [nsəqf] Verb. to focus, to pay attention.

from *nusʼoxɔ fe meaning to freeze, referencing the fact that if you're concentrating you're probably not moving a lot, so it's like you're frozen.

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day 9! 👑

muciqxn [mʊ.ʔɪqχn] Noun. king.

from *moy xixæːnɔ meaning great father, the ancient word for great *xixæːnɔ lead to many modern words ending in qxn, which got reanalyzed as a suffix that can be added to words to make them related to royalty.

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day 10! 🐟

nicaqf [ni.ʔaqf] Verb. to be dead, to float (archaic).

from *nyːaxɔ fe meaning to float, referencing fish, that tend to float when they die, it can still be used to say float but it's very uncommon.

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day 11! 🗂️

magheqf [ma.ɢeqf] Verb. to group, to classify.

from *mæːxexɔ fe meaning to cut or separate, the meaning of separating was more and more commonly used and eventually acquired the characteristic of separating based on specific traits that things have in common.

also I misspelled acquired in the image, oops 😅

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day 12! 🌬️

qorazdoqf [qo.ɾaz.doqf] Verb. to howl (wind).

from *kʼolæːsuːtɔxɔ fe meaning to blow (wind), in their culture, the wind howling is seen as a bad omen, it's a warning from the wind God (who is actually a wolf) and everyone must stop what they're doing to pray.

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day 13! 🗺️

nzu [nzʊ] Noun. north.

from *nɛːso meaning north, this language doesn't have words for left, right, up, down, etc. instead you have to use cardinal directions and reference things like landmarks and the sky.

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day 14! ✨🌙

tfpik [tfpik] Noun. star.

from *tøfæːpʼykʼɔ the diminutive of sun, this word is also used for planets that are visible to the naked eye, but not for the moon, which is "ksor" [ksoɾ] from *køsʼɔɾuː also meaning moon.

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day 15! 🔪

put [pʊt] Adjective. new (for tools).

from *pœːtʼo meaning sharp (like a knife), this word is pretty much exclusively used for tools, the generic word for new is "not" [not] from *nɔtʼɔ also meaning new.

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day 16! 🐛🤬

pik [pɪk] Noun. worm, bug, phallus (vulgar).

from *pɛːkʼɔ the diminutive of snake, it can be used as a swear word depending on the context, but it usually means worm and sometimes bug in general.

I realized I had never really made any swear words in any of my conlangs so I thought I'd give it a try 😆

also sorry if this one is a bit too edgy lol I'll return to normal vocab tomorrow 😅

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day 17! 🌲🌲🏔️

terrag [te.rag] Noun. forest.

from *tʼœːræː ki meaning many trees, there's also a word for forest that is more fancy and tends to be used specifically for montane forests "tir" [tɪɾ] from *tiːlyːo meaning forest.

also, this word is always interpreted as being plural because of its etymology, so if you wanted to say "small forest" you would say:

"terrag tacakig" [te.rag ta.ʔa.kɪg] (forest small-PL)

as opposed to:

"terrag tacak" [te.rag ta.ʔak] (forest small.SG)

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day 18! 🐌

kudipaduw [kʊ.dɪ.pa.dʊw] Noun. snail.

from *kutiːpʼæː topɛː wet/sticky animal, meat is "mxa" [mxə] from *mɔxo w/ same meaning & container is "kitek" [kɪ.tek] from *kitʼøkʼɔ diminutive of lake, so bucket of snail meat is "kitek kit mxa tugudipaduw."

based on this meme:

https://twitter.com/Fordsmender/status/1335178530284564480

btw, the gloss is (container with meat snail-LOC) where the locative case is being used to mark inalienable possession (maybe I should've used alienable 🤔)

also kitek is mainly used for things that typically have water in them but it can mean bucket or tub in general.

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day 19! 👹🐕

mzgha [mzɢə] Noun. beast, monster.

from *muːsuːxœː the augmentative of dog, the word originally meant wolf, but the meaning expanded to all dangerous animals and big mythological creatures, and the word for dog is mzu [mzʊ] from *muːsuː

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day 20! 🌋🔥🌲🌲🔥

teqsnubz [teqs.nʊbz] Noun. volcano, burning place.

from *tʼøxœː sʼœːnu pɔθy meaning mountain with fire, that word for "with" was specifically for animate nouns, it came to mean "accompanying" and mountain was the augmentative for hill.

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also, a bonus because it's 20:20 20th-(12 😔 smh)-2020

ke [ke] twenty (animate, base 4) from *kœː meaning twenty.

pipaa qer [pɪ.paː qeɾ] twenty (inanimate, base 8) from *pe pæːyː kʼyːθyː (2 eights (and) four) or more literally (ring finger, forearm, index finger).

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day 21! 🌲🗡️

putfmeterra [pʊtf. me.te.rə] Noun. felling axe.

from *pœːtʼofe mø tʼœːræː meaning blade for trees, blade is the nominalized form of sharp *pœːtʼo and in fact, the modern word for blade or knife is putf [pʊtf]

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day 22! 😇

kidiweqf [kɪ.dɪ.weqf] Verb. to be believed or trustworthy.

from *kytɛːpøxɔ fe the passive form of to see, there is no adjective for trustworthy, it is seen as an action rather than a trait that a person can have.

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day 23! 🌒☀️

napirqf [na.pɪɾqf] Noun. solar eclipse.

from *næːpʼœːθiːxɔ fe meaning to be un-burned (or extinguishing), basically they believe their sun god can extinguish himself at will, eclipses are referred to as "extinguishings" and are seen as a sign of their god's dissatisfaction.

lol I actually ran out of space in the first tweet, that hadn't happened before. this one was inspired by the recent Great Conjunction! 🔭 I'll probably make the next few Christmas related.

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day 24! 🎅🎁

nicirrogi [nɪ.ʔɪ.ro.gɪ] Noun. expensive gift or present.

from *nɛːirɔ ki poruːpʼuː meaning poem, or more literally: beautiful/colorful words (or even more literally: flower-like words) high class people could afford to commission poems, generic gift is msu [msʊ] from fruit *miːsʼo

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day 25! ❄️

kucugitugh [kʊ.ʔʊ.gɪ.tʊɢ] N. snowflake, hexagon, complex shape.

from *kœːo ketʼo xo tœːpʼumæː meaning snow with(ɪɴᴀɴ) six(ɪɴᴀɴ) tips/points, since the word was too long it got shortened to the first four syllables and it's now also used to refer to complex shapes and patterns.

idk if there's a term for words getting shortened, I just figured I could do it since english does it in words like "net" for "internet" and stuff lol I don't know what I'm doing 😂

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day 26! 🗻

teghop [te.ɢop] Adjective. solid, hard.

from *tʼøxœːpʼuː meaning mountain-like, originally it was used to mean huge (anything that was around the size of a building or more) but it started to imply sturdy, and the meaning slowly shifted to being anything solid.

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day 27! ⛰️

mudurus [mʊ.dʊ.ɾʊs] Noun. coal, fuel, inspiration.

from *muːto θøsʼo meaning black/brown rock/stone, it's used metaphorically to talk about how inspired someone is to do any form of art or craft.

today's post was kind of late because I didn't have any inspiration 😅 running a bit low on ideas atm.

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day 28! ♒

tacup [ta.ʔʊp] Adjective. energetic, always moving.

from *taop‘uː meaning river-like, it can be used negatively to mean someone is annoying, but generally it's used in a more positive way.

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day 29! 😡

qo [qo] Adjective. angry / upset (informal)

from *k’uː meaning red-orange, it originated as a metaphor but eventually the word stopped being used for the color altogether.

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day 30! 👋

mukigii [mʊ.kɪ.giː] Interjection. see you, bye.

from *muːk’ø kɛːyː meaning be-ɴᴘsᴛ.ɪᴘғᴠ well, the word for "to be" is now archaic and the word for good/well now means holy, so the meaning of the phrase is a bit obscure for most people.

wow I can't believe #Lexember is almost over, time flies! :o tomorrow is the last day already! but I think I'll keep posting about my #conlang-s, maybe just not as often :) and I might use my tumblr for longer posts in case anyone is interested in checking that out.

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🎇🎆this is the final #Lexember2020 entry! I had the idea to make a "book ending" and end it where it started, with four proper nouns related to the first four entries I posted on the first day, thanks for all the ❤️s and RT's everyone :D transcriptions below:

day 31! 🙂

Txurr [txʊr] Proper noun. (joy, happiness).

from *tix’oruː meaning joy/happiness, this word is used exclusively as a name (typically female) and most people no longer know what it means.

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also day 31! 🗨️

Kmitmuk ksu [kmɪt.mʊ.ksʊ] Proper noun (correct speech).

literally “speech/language correct/important” from *kɔmyt’emok’ɔ and *kus’u meaning fog(diminutive) and big, both previous entries, this is how this language’s autonym is written.

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also day 31! 🐉

Pigh [pɪɢ] Proper noun. (dragon).

from *pɛːxœː the augmentative of snake, used exclusively as a name (gender neutral) most people think it means resilient/wise because of a homophone that comes from *p’yːxi meaning old, only scholars know better.

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also day 31! 🌟

Pira [pɪ.ɾə] Proper noun. (royal guard)

from *peθæː meaning star, this word was featured in a previous entry but this is how it’s written if it’s used as a name, proper nouns have their own writing system, based on an ancient syllabary similar to cuneiform.

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That was a lot, that’s a lot for reading everyone!! ヽ(o＾▽＾o)ノ I’ll start posting more stuff on Tumblr starting in 2021!

#Lexember #Lexember2020 #conlang #conlanger #Kmitmuk ksu

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oodlyenough · 7 years

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i was wondering if you could talk about your choices playing before the storm? like did you defend nathan, did you take the blame at wells' office, did you stay with mikey when drew was attacked? also how did the play work out for you?

Hey sure! I’ve done most of choices on replay so I’ll just talk about my initial choices which I usually consider my “real” choices

–I defended Nathan. I didn’t really want to, because fuck Nathan honestly I don’t feel like defending him when I am playing a girl he will literally murder, but I wanted to do the backtalk challenge, so… i did. I guess this means he does well in the play? So that’s…. fine… lol I’ve defended him twice now and both times I do so grudgingly. The worst part about this was that it made Sam tell Chloe that Nathan is ~just like her~ and now Samantha is my sworn enemy for life.

-I took the blame for Rachel. I was perfectly happy to let Rachel take the fall until they threatened to remove her from the play, and I was like, but I wanna go see the play. (I should’ve realized this would happen regardless.) Chloe getting expelled to save Rachel makes sense enough to me – but I found it odd that the consequence of this doesn’t really play out in any way at the Amber household? After all Chloe said about being a bad influence and coercing Rachel and stuff it was super weird to have the Ambers be like :) Hi Welcome To Our Home :)

(Sidenote, I now know that if you don’t take the fall, Rachel will drug Victoria to get her role back, which is FUCKED UP, Deck Nine. I mean Victoria doing it to Rachel is bad enough but at least we already know Victoria is an antagonist and a bully. Rachel is supposed to be the love interest??? For all people argue about her being manipulative or not this is the single worst thing Rachel canonically does/can do thusfar and it is weirdly swept under the rug, I think because mostly everyone gets Chloe expelled.)

–I intervened to go help Drew which meant I gave the money to the guy, and Frank is happy with me. Drew and Mikey are mad, and Mikey’s arm gets broken, but like… I still feel like taht was the right call. (Part of the problem with playing Chloe Price is that the right call isn’t always the in-character choice for Chloe … but this whole sidequest imo felt weird for Chloe from a character POV so I dunno.)

–The play worked out fine? I’m not sure how many variations on this there are. I’d said I didn’t believe in love so the background was the stormy sea. I got all but the first of her lines correct (I didn’t cheat!! SMH @ everyone else) so people thought Chloe did good even though she delivered them all so poorly lmao.

–I chose the kiss… even though I am personally quite conflicted about the direction Rachel and Chloe’s relationship has taken. I don’t really think it lines up with LIS if Chloe and Rachel are girlfriends… but… that’s kind of a separate post I think (lol, and incidentally it’s the reaction post I made when ep 2 dropped). My “ideal” choice here would be the tattoo.

#anon #you've got questions we've got answers

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conflictedrabbit · 7 years

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2* the AvPD

Conversation w/ my friend I mentioned earlier. With their name / identifying characteristics edited out and some chopping here and there.

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I made a post abt avod once tho and it got like A few rbs and I thought "if this isn't irony idk what is" Trje

66ccff: ekjal;kdjd;

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me: why do, so many avoidants want to pay for being alive avpd Tumblr: hm . I relate

66ccff: ekleja;ejdl;k

___: me: I'm glad to know people relate but are we fucking ok

66ccff:

LOL i mean mood tbh

___: HINESTLT like I noticed i do it cuz of you NFBNSBDKSBDKSS

66ccff: though do you mean pay as in like. pay the medical system or pay as in guilt

___: Guilt

66ccff:

kejk;ldj;L yes ok that is definitely me me: i breathed 5 gallons of air within 3 hours i am so sorry world

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me: [realizes it's not entirely religious trauma and also probably just Guilt over taking up space and needing to help ppl otherwise Why Live?}

Oh god me

66ccff: (this is not even ironic i get like this multiple times a week)

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hdjhdjsd I've been having a bad ep lately actually and like I think I failed to look 5-6 people in the eyes today CUZ IM JUST [WALKS AROHND] WOW . TERRIBLE

66ccff:

omg it's ok i nearly cried in class today b/c i didn't have a good eng translation for this jp sentence

i was like.... no.... don't....

i stabilized cuz the teacher went on a tangent for a second but like forcing myself to look in his eyes and act normal was so hard i looked away so many times i wa slike. oog my god. end m i love it when walking around where there's other people makes me really nervous and irritable agoraphobia is great!

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GOD yea It's so awkward for me I'm fine if I have a safe person or I'm walking to class but like

66ccff: i came back from class today and took a 6 hr nap cuz of my shame and agoraphobia

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Rip Wish I could do that...

66ccff: well i haven't done my homework so

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I just. Cry a lot NDKSJDJDNSKDNS rip me: I'm strong Me: spent the last 5 days like crying over nothing

66ccff:

dkjle;ajd i mean... i used to cry but then i got mad at myself for crying so now i just Repress (tm) and sleep and then. the joke is that sometimes it doesn't work self harms... oops... that didn't work either better nap again

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zz Pillows keep u safe Idk what I've been doing lately but I thought I was getting better til I realized I was like Abstaining from feeding myself BFBJSBFSJJFD

66ccff: o h my god

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And I was like "oh fuck I'm a terrible person bc someone told me I should eat and j Didn't Do It I Failed Them"

66ccff:

ahahahahaahahaha i thought i was getting better too but it was actually because i was just forcing myself to study to give myself an illusion of doing my part and then i went to school and my actual performance is like bad b/c i avoid so many activities that would make me better and i just

___: samd

66ccff:

Wow i want to die!

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hdjsjdjs

I think I only managed to eat cuz my brother was expecting me to

66ccff: tavpdfw you want to be punished constantly so you don't have to have anxiety about existing

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Cuz he bought me dinner like 6 hours ago but I didn't touch it til now BFJDJD MEEEEE

66ccff: dkja;eljd;

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GOD me: ah I feel good today Me like 3 hours later: oh my God I shouldn't feel good abt myself that's so Selfish ? I am trash

66ccff: oh Mood

___: Avpd solidarity

66ccff:

honestly i love my environmental soicology class but liek it talks about how we're all consuming and putting things back into the environment

___: Idk how I manage to have avpd and __pd but that's how it is on ths bitch of an earth

66ccff: and i was literally contemplating if death was the only way to take myself out from the cycle

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Me Bhhjsfjd

66ccff:

i was like holy shit. it's not just consumption i forgot i also put bad gases into the air with everything i breathe i am Bad

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All day today I was hearing abt what happened in Vegas and we were like. Talking in my apologetics class abt the Nature of Evil

66ccff: the true environmentalist take is death

___: And I was just thinking "why must I, exist if all I am is bad"

66ccff:

oh my god same! i looked over my abt page and i was like this looks fake tumblerina

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apologetics: so mankind is basically evil Me: great! I'll die so there's less evil in the world

66ccff:

me ME

MEMEMMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEME

___: HHDHSBDJSHD

66ccff:

sometimes i have fantasies of like going backwards and apologizing to everyone i've ever talked to and to everyone who ever had to work to produce what i've consumed

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M. E

66ccff:

and then hoping that they forget about me and then like disappearing forever i jsut can't see how some people can be like oh yeah factories in china and mexico earn less than 2 dollars an hour to make our stuff and not jus twant to kill themselves

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I'm just pathetic and compulsive if I feel bad about stuff I apologize til like 2 weeks after God. Yea

66ccff:

the joke is that people hate if you overapologize so you jsut damned if you do damned if you dont :upside_down:

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me: uh sorry for being sad People: don't apologize for that Me: Avpd:. They are mad that I am apologizing also that I am sad Hhhfjjejd

Me:

ME WKJD;LKD "can you stop saying sorry" "sorry"

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me: oh God I'm so miserable Someone: oh im sorry Me: I wish I could accept this but Pity is too much for a lowly worm like me

66ccff: "what did i just say"

___: MMSNDNBHHHHHHGGGGG

66ccff:

:smile: :gun:

MOOD

___: avpd feel when you don't deserve to be pitied ?

66ccff: pity is too much kindness ___:

God yea

LIKE probably just a conflicted feel but I prefer ppl being active than pitying me but then I'm like

"that's selfish I don't deserve that ?"

66ccff:

someone tells you to watch where you're going feel like you're unable to go outside for the rest of the day

___:

m. mebdbdhdhdjs

66ccff: oh yeah the joke is that i want people to like. be kind to me but also i don't

___: hell brain

66ccff: so i can't say what i want

___: GGG YEAH

66ccff:

be kind to me except don't because i'll feel invalid either way so maybe just don't talk to me >feels worse anyway

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Hhhhhhhhhhh me Me: talk to me ? But I don't know what to talk abt ? But I am also not good enough for pity you could just sit there maybe But then the presence of another person will overwhlem me and I'll go cry again/s

66ccff: feel free to entertain yourself, and forget about me, ___:

Mebdndmdkskdjsja god [looks at all cluster c disorders] you are all bitches and I hate tou

66ccff:

tavpdfw u gotta depersonalize to make it through the day of talking to other people and acting like ur a normal human bean MOOD

___: GOD yea

66ccff:

i have a question though if im depersonalizing why do i still feel terrible even if i feel ilke im fake smh

___: God me

66ccff:

me: i'm not real so heres me acting like i am chill and cool person that is interesting maybe or maybe not me, inside: this sucks and i hate this but im not real so it shouldnt affect me but damn i hate this when u feel separate from your auto-pilot but you still experience all the shame you would without it :thinking: avpd is stupid and contradictory and evolutionarily useless

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__pd isnkind of the same but like if you manage it well you can get stuff done but you still breakdown over the TINIEST DETAIL I hate it And I waste more time thinking abt what I'm gonna do and not actully DOING MT SHIT

66ccff: cripes

___: LIKE A NORMAL PERSON

66ccff:

me in high school UGH i'm ahving that problem right now dude in high school i used to just waste my days reading manga and thnking i should do my homeworka

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me: I'll spend this hour scheduling [2hours later] Me: [stressed nbdjdjjsjdjsjdks

66ccff: and then i'd like. start at 10pm and fuck myself over ___: rip 66ccff: have a crying session at 4am every time an essay is due the next day ___: I actually didn't do one of my assignments tonight 66ccff: bad coping habits ___: Rip me I got discouraged over something lame JFJSNFKSNFD 66ccff: oh mood

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relationship issues: occur Me: well, I can't, do anything ever again

66ccff:

i shouldn't even be discouraged abt my classes bc i'm here to learn and i'm just like. i know nothing i deserve to die kejd;kakejd friend, disagrees with you on something you feel unsure about: WELL I GUESS I AM BAD AND THEY HATE ME NOW time to ghost them

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me: [perceives someone not caring for me] me: and Now...what is Mine Purpose...what do I live for...my Friends....have all abandoned m MEEEEEE avpd sounds super dramatic when you separate it from yourself but like In the moment I'm always just [jdut starts Fucking Crying

66ccff:

i just want to manage to some kind of social work, give my wealth to some impoverished family, and then kms before 30

yeah my therapists in the past are like why... so soon

___: Jfjdjfjdf 66ccff: and i'm just like "why not i need to minimize all my ills on the world and also on the emotions of my family" ___: That reminds me of like. One of my mutuals talking abt how early he sleeps and he was just 66ccff: this is the optimal time look my life plan

___:

"why be awake longer than necessary"

Hdhdhfjsjfdjdjdband. I was just . Me

66ccff:

because you hate yourself too much sleep :^)

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God yea That's true. Me rn

I should've been asleep like an hour ago but [plays secret of Mana and then mopes]

66ccff:

dude i used to have bouts of insomnia b4 i got drugs that knock me out (and help me w/ anxiety) like.... i would lay awake and every second of being awake was just making the situation worse

___: I feel like I should get meds to balance out my bipolar eps but

66ccff: but then i couldn't sleep anyway so it was a damned situation ___: my parents r so anti meds 66ccff: rrghbh

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also like Internalized ableism That I don't Needthem and So Many people don't need them

66ccff: oh yeah, why do my essay when i can read an hour of garbage romo manga and feel slightly less bad during that time and then hate myself more

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So I Can do it cuz I'm like Everyone Else and not like Those "crazy" people Rifp

66ccff:

man i don't wanna encourage meds if your side effects r bad but honestly how did i get the fuck through high school other than triggering intense anxiety about all assignments

like... i was so nonfunctional i shouldn't have even been in school

.....

66ccff:

all accessibility problems are solvable humans are so bad

___: caring ? About others ? What a concept 66ccff: except sometimes they are good but that is definitely not me

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Ok I try to overcompensate w good to make up for inherent badness THANKS RELIGION

66ccff:

the US is like: here's a pricetag for your life pay up

___: AAAA

66ccff:

yeah i can see how christainity wouldn't help there w/ the "original sin" and stuff that doesn't quite exist in other abrahamic religions iirc judaism doesn't even have hell

___: it's really weird

66ccff:

i'm guessing its bc of jesus like.... y'all binches killed him so now this is life - christainity

___:

Like. Christianity makes the most sense to me probably cuz I grew up w it but fuck Man

66ccff: o yeah i grew up w/ some christianity too ___: It's FUCKED!!!!!! 66ccff: i actually have agoraphobia issues w/ going inside of churches ___: Oh same 66ccff: :^) ___: I'm actually fairly anti-church just because the current state of them is very bsd 66ccff: oh yeah

....

66ccff:

how can someone like me, who is literally not deserving of life, raise someone else

scrumbles

___:

Me Hdjehdsk

66ccff: ___ we are so fucked ___:

It's true Life is fucked We, are fucked

66ccff: existence is violence

#1-#2-#3-#4-#5-#a bloo bloo bloob #avpd #ok done editing tumblr posted it b4 i was ready but yea

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fthisimkmsing · 5 years

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My notes cause I don't need them anymore (not a hail Mary attempt)

To the girl I've spent countless hours and days with I still love you more than life itself even though I may not need you i want you in my life your cute little smile when you fuck something up or when you can't reach something and you need my help your laugh and smile is euphoric and your character as a whole is amazing i love spending every waking moment with you you have been so helpful and kind to me hell you got me through many tough times and I'm sorry I am so inactive and don't like going out much I'll try to work on that but i just wnant to hold you in my arms forever and keep you close to me and safe you are absolutely drop dead gorgeous you will make a wonderful mother one day to our children or otherwise and I envy whoever you end up choosing if it's not me there's a couple of things i want to do again with you like another concert where it feels like just you and me or another round at the fair itd be wonderful i love you Rebekah so much I hope you know that and I miss you a lot too its 2 am so im gonna go to sleep goodnight i promise if i have anymore to say ill come back and add on sleep well my beautiful angel <3 funny thing is im typing this to make myself feel better like im talking to you even though you probably won't ever see this i pray that you will find what you need in life you mean so much to me i told my new coworker about you and how gorgeous and smart you are i really wish i could just tell you all of this but you want me to stay away i really hope we find our happily ever after whether it be together or apart but you will always be so many of my firsts and so many of my fondest memories <3 today I told my new coworker how proud I was of you getting your car and how you bought it yourself i really miss hugging you and cuddling you and seeing your gorgeous ass self you are really amazing and i love you so much I'd die/take a bullet for you in a heartbeat but today i really came to a realization you probably won't like to hear if you get back together with me i realized that even though im a little chubby and should really work out more i am the whole package I will be a great husband and have a great future and whomever decides to come along for that ride would really enjoy it i feel so if you weren't to come back you're missing out on a guaranteed great husband and great future which yes i know confidence much maybe almost downright cocky but I'm happy with what the future holds for me and whomever decides to come with me and if I've said it once I've said it a thousand times i wish it could be you i really do cause despite my being scared of you potentially cheating I have faith and deep down i know you won't cause you are honest and real with me (unless you weren't in which case awwwkwaaarrrdd) but yeah you'd be a great mother and whoever you marry will be lucky and happy they have you and same thing for me :) you know the funniest thing anytime i text anyone and so ok i love you too your name pops up first in my next word choice box cause that's what I did i loved you hell i definitely still do and for some reason if you asked me to marry you there would be no hesitation no i need time to think just one word yes cause that's who i am and that's how head over heels i am for you i want to hug you bad hell I'd give away my paycheck to fucking see and talk to you again and make you fall in love all over again you did something no one and nothing could do you made me truly happy like true true happiness i love you so much Rebekah sleep well baby girl I hope you have a fantastic day tomorrow you are the bestest ever forever <3 lol today was my first ever college football tailgate with my church college group in Greenville today was also one of those days I was sad but i wasn't at first i was fine just felt a little out of place but quickly threw myself in and i got away from everyone for a bit and checked snapchat and saw that you finally got your tattoo and I was so happy for you but sad at the same time cause I wanted to be with you maybe get one with you but sadly i missed that milestone

Im sorry for missing your first tattoo I wish i couldve been there for you and with you im so proud of you cause your tattoo couldn't be truer you are coming from nothing and making big strides that's a big accomplishment I love you hell maybe I'll get a tattoo soon you never know i saw the flirting posts that i "liked" so i unfollowed you on everything cause it hurt so much i like instantly started crying and what do they have i don't you are killing me it broke me all over again i did everything I could to make you happy i tried so hard and it feels like you're really not fighting or trying to better yourself it feels like you just want to get with someone else cause I wasn't enough for you my efforts meant nothing today a Sunday night i was with my small group and you "accidentally sent me a video of you showing off your new tattoo the day or so after i removed you from all social media since i found out unfriending doesn't make me disappear on your end so i blocked you sorry but i have to thank you for understanding and being respectful so recently I've really been going after God and it came to my attention that i was wanting you to be something you can't be and weren't designed to be aka i wanted you to satisfy me completely which is impossible only God can do that also i lusted after you so much even though i had so much love for you aswell but my lust being me using you for my benefit aka my happiness and stuff was wrong i should've been more loving aka sacrificial of myself to benefit or help you and I'm so very sorry about that i wish i couldve been a better leader for you sadly for right now at least it seems i am too late hey i just wanted to say even if we don't get back together I'm really glad i met you you were a wonderful first also you'd be proud of me i was gogogo for 17/18 hours from 4:50am to 9:53pm thats kinda insane for me lol I'm so happy today like i feel hella blessed and loved and it's not necessarily from a person i just feel so in touch with God rn i know ur probably like smh but for real im like on fire its awesome but i just wanted to let you know even though you might never see this and if you do its been a hot minute lol but it's not to hurt you it's to show you i guess my self improvement slash progression of life in general i suppose also just wanted you to know but im sure u already do you are a really beautiful woman and I am saying that cause i can appreciate a beautiful woman you don't have priority anymore but i just wanted to let you know that god bless that was hard to explain but even that is obscure IM NOT HITTING ON YOU IM JUST APPRECIATING GOD'S CRAFTSMANSHIP BAM there we go ok so just looked at pictures of us on my phone and hot damn you fine lol (still appreciating the craftsmanship) hey its been a bit i went on a retreat with fuse and it was amazing i met a lot of guys and girls and am continuing to talk with some of the girls but the more i talk with them the more i miss talking with you i really wish we could at least be friends again but i guess not :( I'm glad I met you Rebekah you were a fantastic first girlfriend I just want you to know im not mad with you i respect your decision wholeheartedly you were great and hell I'll say it I miss you you were really fun to hang with i wish to tell you this but alas I'm here and you're nowhere to be seen in my life and I can almost guarantee you're not as affected and definitely not to the degree I am (it's not so bad for you you have to journal your experience of life without me) part of my heart is with you and always will be because the sex we had same thing with you part of your heart will always be with me and im sorry for that today i thought about you and when you told me that you imagined us sitting on the porch in rocking chairs and it kinda made me think and i was like you probably gonna come back and I hope you do but if you don't that's highly unfortunate it's felt like months since we saw eachother last but it's only been like 1 and a half longest month of my life tbh

Its 9/23/19 I'm gonna talk to your mom tomorrow after i get off work to check up on how everyone is doing you will probably hear a little or everything that's going on with me it may not attract you in fact it's very possible it'll repel you but hey it really doesn't matter you're an awesome girl and I'm a pretty cool dude lol if you decide to go separate ways that is your choice and I'll respect it even if it saddens me because I'm moving forward which is something else I never thought I'd be where i am today this early but I hope you you do come back you did make my life happier but now I'm happy even without you which is awesome I swear to never rely on you for my happiness I will look more towards the Lord and walk towards him with you by my side and no more big mistakes oh btw I talked with your mom and I'm glad I did your mom is a good mom I really miss you and your family and I keep praying for you guys and for clarity of who I'm meant to be with or if im not supposed to be with you at all and last night I dreamed about you so I think that was God telling me i need to be with you but I don't know I want to be with you don't het me wrong but I don't want to misinterpret my dreams it's now 9/27/19 and it hurt me to hear you were dating someone tbh but I'm glad you are getting out there and I'm happy for you regarding how well you are doing at church what I don't think is good is that you're dating someone that doesn't know the lord he has someone for you that knows and loves him thus you shouldn't be in that relationship in my opinion but as i said I just want the best for you

" we do bible shit"

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ravenvsfox · 8 years

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Can you do pynch for the ship thing please

YOU BET YOUR SWEET ASS I CAN

(god FINALLY)

SEND ME A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

who is more likely to hurt the other?

I mean. Adam doesn’t usually get hurt by ronan so much as he gets annoyed. disappointed. pissed. He never lets ronan’s venom actually get to his veins, he’s too busy telling him how unnecessary the flash of fang is. ronan on the other hand. like. he’s easy to hurt. adam would never in his life want to hurt ronan (it’s his honest to god nightmare) but I think ronan works himself into such a despair at the smallest jealousies and perceived injustices that adam could make one careless comment and ronan would fixate on it

who is emotionally stronger?

ohhhh adam. it’s adam. He’s been dragging so much emotional rubble for so long that he’s built up a tolerance. strong is like The Most adam adjective that I can think of. ronan never had to get to adam’s level of detachment and dissociation bc the first 15 years of his life were gorgeous and easy, and he’s still growing into his protective shell. Adam had to be born in his

who is physically stronger?

it’s ronan tbH he has the upper body strength of a boxer and the broad shoulders of a lynch (but also adam has clever hands and muscular thighs from years of biking everywhere and he can handle himself)

who is more likely to break a bone?

ouch. They’re both capital R Reckless when they’re together and they have some brutal years under their belts. adam has some poorly set knobbly fingers and ronan has an old snapped clavicle that took forever to heal and constantly bruised knuckles so like. idk. In the future, when adam parrish has escaped from his childhood prison, I’d like to think that they both get ugly minor injuries from doing joyful ramp and dolly and shopping cart type activities only

who knows best what to say to upset the other?

surprisingly difficult question to answer bc I mean. It’s ronan. but is it? he systematically winds people up and adam is so deeply irritated by him that he straight up walks away, but also adam can be ice cold?? it’s so easy to get to ronan. They both fumble and call each other mean names when they want to compliment each other it’s a big mess

who is most likely to apologize first after an argument?

holy shit would you believe neither??? the most stubborn humans on this earth!! record holders!! we got some emotional repression folks! hooooo boy

adam never starts arguments for no reason so he’s always thinking it through and coming to the conclusion that he’s in the right?? surprise he ain’t apologizing

meanwhile ronan can’t stop being cruel even though he knows it’s hurting people, it’s this vicious self-protective instinct that hurts so good and so wrong. and then his pride gets in the way once he’s cooled down. but he will come to st agnes on his knees and grab adam’s hand and try to make it clear that he’d step on his own pride on the way to adam’s door

who treats who’s wounds more often?

sad & unfortunate :(( adam treats ronan’s solely bc ronan doesn’t know how the fuck to treat an injury and also ‘none of them wanted to hurt adam parrish’, so ronan’s got his stupid pointless anger related scrapes and adam’s got his anti-bacterial gel and they are a dream team

who is in constant need of comfort?

neither of them come out on top here man. They’ve had some shared harrowing experiences, and some separate trauma that they’re trying to tell each other about (if their stories could just stop. sticking. when they try to say them out loud). in v different ways, neither of their families are families. Ronan doesn’t let himself fall asleep, and he doesn’t let himself go through things, and the repression starts to calcify into cruelty like it did right after his father died. adam can’t stop thinking about gansey on the roadside, and he can’t be touched some days, most days. he can’t stop swimming or he’ll die. He can’t keep swimming or he’ll die. The gangsey is a critical support system made of so many weak beams

who gets more jealous?

are u fucking serious,,, it’s both of them pal. remember when every combination of his friends that didn’t include him made adam like. sick with jealousy. remember when ronan saw gansey talking on the phone with adam and wanted to put his hand through a wall. or when adam brought blue along on their quest and he spouted nasty shit the whole day. they both deeply want each others attention and they don’t seem to realize that they already have it? always?

who’s most likely to walk out on the other?

ohh god. oh man. oh boy. Here’s the thing. adam’s gonna walk away from ronan, but he’s not gonna walk OUT on him. he’s going to walk away because he’s not on a leash, he’s gonna spread those beautiful fucking self-made wings. And ronan is too!! in his own time he’s gonna build his own spaces that aren’t the barns and he’s going to realize what home means to him and they’re both gonna walk out the door and back but never close it behind them

who will propose?

a controversial topic! I’m on team adam for this one pals. I was on team ‘adam’s gonna kiss ronan first’ for a while before trk like a FOOL and I realized the error of my ways bc ronan is physical as fuck! and a risk-taker! of course he kissed adam smh. But a proposal? That’s a contract. That’s a speech. That’s a chess move. Ronan wouldn’t corner adam like that. Adam knows how ronan feels and more importantly he knows how HE feels himself, and I think one day ten years into their relationship the practicalities are gonna beckon and he’s gonna look ronan in the back of the head while he’s sleeping and roll over into the curve of his spine and tell him he wants a ring on his finger

who has the most difficult parents?

omg... fuck off

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public?

tactile bastards! both of them! ronan especially wants adam’s hands...., any which way he can get them. I mean. He will kiss adam’s hands when they’re at dinner at nino’s and he’ll hook their fingers together even for the 20 second walk from the BMW to monmouth’s front door like he LIVES FOR IT (adam feels nervy and exhilarated every time it’s gay)

who comes up for the other all the time?

i mean they’re always together so they don’t really bring each other up. if they’re not together they’re with gansey/blue/henry or even fox way babes/vancouver crowd etc and those ppl get real tired of it real quick. adam usually keeps his ronan related musings to himself though like he has self-control unlike... R.N.L. himself

who hogs the blankets?

ronan does tbh adam has never hogged anything in his life and ronan is a shit

who gets more sad?

an unfair Q, man. They’ve both had a super rough time, especially right post-trk?? those few months are hard. Ronan cries a lot. Adam gets numb and far away a lot. They have a lot to be sad about. (But more to be happy about. They made it. They honestly just stare at each other and laugh breathlessly and touch foreheads and hands and scars and can’t believe their luck)

who is better at cheering the other up?

I sorta said this with ronsey but I think ronan is THE BEST at doing dumb shit to take his mind off of things. Like all that stuff about making adam quiet and turning off the lists and anxieties in his head so that they can do smth mindless and dangerous? yeah that. memes and songs and poor decisions. depression whom?

who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

this never happens wtf they’re not really ‘playful slappers’ HOWEVER adam will glare at ronan so hard that it probably feels like a slap

who is more streetwise?

it reeeeally depends on your definition of streetwise?? Like if we’re talking survival it’s unquestionably adam. He can fix your car and bandage your wounds and figure out your taxes and make himself invisible and blend his accent into whoever’s around him. He’s wicked sharp and fast on his feet. But i mean. he can’t quite drive stick. and he wouldn’t be caught dead in the sort of underground that ronan ends up in. ronan is streetwise in terms of the actual street, and he knows the most brutal avenues a person can end up on, the real life nightmares that feel closest to the ones in his head. Ronan is smart enough to navigate the chaos, but adam is smart enough to avoid it altogether

who is more wise?

adam. easily. ronan is intelligent and instinctive and talented (or adam wouldn’t get him as well as he does) but adam is a genius and that look behind his eyes..... he’s lived about 1 billion times more than he should’ve by age 19

who’s the shyest?

neither of them are shy exactly they’re just buried under 9 surface level personalities that you have to crack open with your bare fuckin hands

but if you met either of them in the hallowed halls of aglionby you would think adam was shy and ronan was a rampant fuckwad so based on appearance?? adam. he keeps his head down.

who boasts about the other more?

as soon as adam is officially his bf ronan takes a ten year long victory lap he’s so embarrassing

who sits on who’s lap?

y’all. we all know ronan sits in adam’s. it’s a fact of life. he probably had a sexy dream about it when he was 17 and took his morning shower in holy water

#this is long as fuck!!!!!! what's up!#trc #the raven cycle #pynch #ask meme #long post #hc #Anonymous #ask

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decoding1432 · 8 years

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Anons opinions

I’ve got lots of opinions in my inbox. I decided it was better to put them all in a text:

On the situation in general...

Anon 1:

My Theory: Everything is PR. EVERYTHING. In the entertainment industry, if something reaches my eyes and ears, I consider it PR. Most of us don’t work or know anyone in the industry so if it gets to the point where we know about certain things (scandals, relationships, social media posts) than that means that those within the industry allowed it to be made known to the public. I don’t know if it all should be technically considered “PR” but either way, public information is going to affect an artist’s public image one way or another. Even if the situation is actually ‘real’, the public display is done in order to gain a certain portrayal of the entertainer, therefore I define that is PR.

Anon 2:

The girls and their families definitely knew before hence why they were doing the therapy bullshit. Camila just handed in her notice in November to make it official but they always knew she was leaving.

Anon 3:

We need to remember that right now is not even about mngmt, the label controls every move and they are gonna milk left and right what is left of 5h.

Anon 4:

"And for Camila, she’s lucky because the higher ups saw her as one of their golden child and value her more than the others." True. But I'm afraid as a young establishing female artist, she can be taken advantage off easily now that she's solo. She can be manipulated into considering deals that the people in authority (whom she trusts) like her manager think is right. She is Not safe compared to Dina Lapolt representating LAND as Roger is also her manager/Lawyer right? Risky for unbiased opinion.

On the iHeart Radio video...

Anon 5:

Someone put that audio there. All the girls said one part of the text. ...Why Camila doesn't have nothing to talk? It's super fucking easy put her voice in that video. Camila isn't there!

Anon 6:

Guys. Calm down. The girls film lots of things separately. Camila was doing promo backstage that day. There are so many videos, including full interviews, with four, three or two of the girls. Especially radio adjacent clips and videos. Having a video with just OT4 doesn't prove anymore than the video with just Ally and Normani announcing the Japan concert did last week. Smh. We do waaay too much sometimes. Young fandom probs. 😩

Anon 7:

Them cutting Camila out is kinda embarrassing. They should've made a new video. Or not one at all.

Anon 8:

its kind of obvious c was cut out, it's an awkward shot with laurens shoulder being showed but almost half of dinah cut off.

Anon 9:

Idk if it’s just me, and please don’t kill me for having a different opinion, but if I was in charge of 5H affairs, I would also crop Camila out of the video. Not because 5h is bitter. But because Camila is technically, legally, officially, IG-legit, Twitter-verified, out of the group. It’s already established that 5H is without Camila, so everything they do now is without Camila. Except maybe a few shout outs and stuff like that.

Anon 10:

the girls know nothing it's about the management and label but I believe they suspected it happen. anyway camila was there in the video but they cut her out. I believe the girls/management were hopping that she will stay. if u look at the snap of some of the JB u will see that Camila was there with them doing things for valentines day announcement in feb "lauren, dinah and camila" a radio thing. the thing is camila was prepared she didnt speak a lot always at the end so its easy to cut her out.

#anonymous #opinions #fifth harmony

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lionzkingsview-blog · 5 years

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luna-pun · 8 years

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Why “Planned Parenthood” is a bad thing

-and that you should feel bad for even thinking of supporting it.

I hope everyone has ample hearing+reading comprehension, because boy howdy do I have some info here:

A video disproving the “3%” notion that they keep trying to peddle

And here’s an article

And another dispelling the “3%”

Here’s why “but women NEED PP! It’s the only place for care!” doesn’t work

There are way more alternatives

I mean PP doesn’t even have mammograms

“But if we close them down, women will get back alley abortions!” won’t work either

Another supporting the previous

and another for good measure

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“But the videos are heavily edited!” you say?

No, they’re not

The company that PP hired even admits there were no “malicious edits”

Here’s a non-biased report on it as well

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“It’s only tissue!”

They’re parts from an actual baby. What do you think “tissue” is?

PP has been audited in 9 states, with all nine showing fraud.

Don’t believe it? Here you go

Here are the videos, by the way. Warning for gore and disturbing subjects/material

And a few more links, because it can’t be stressed enough

That PP

doesn’t “stand for women”

and never will

They’re also incredibly petty

so there you have it

They think you have the right to give others HIV btw

Masterpost just because

Oh and science proves that a fetus is a whole other human life fyi

PP is pretty much PETA, but for humans. Both are full of lies, slaughters innocents, and will do anything for money. Anything.

Please read through everything before commenting.

As a bonus, here are some rebuttals of already-made arguments;

“The woman should still be able to choose! It’s not your body!” - You’re telling me that even though science has proven that life begins at conception, you think murder is okay as long as the woman thinks so. She should’ve chosen not to have sex, in that case. That’s what sex does. Make life. Doesn’t matter what reason a person tries to stick to it; you can’t change nature. Your body doesn’t care about your reason. It’s also not your body that’s being killed. Science has also proven that.

“But rape!” - Is it the baby’s fault? No. (1)If you don’t want it, put it up for adoption. There are a lot of places that can and will help if you reach out to them. (2)In most cases, it helps the victim to heal by keeping the child. (3)Rape cases make up an incredibly low %. (4)There are good people that were born from such horrible, sickening cases. As horrendous as it was, there is still a chance that something good can come of it. Again, it’s a whole other life. It didn’t ask for such things to happen either. I am fully for getting all victims as much care as they can get, though, and having the rapist get sent through hell + making them work for the rest of their lives.

“But the woman could die!” - Do you know how low that number is? If there truly is no possible way to save both, then a decision can be made. Sometimes, nature can be very cruel. That’s a sad part of life. I can admit that much.

“PP helped me/someone I know with some other thing!” - Good for you/them. Still doesn’t change what PP has done, though. It’s like saying “Hey, that serial killer saved my life!” Doesn’t make him/her a saint, and doesn’t deter from the fact that she/he killed people. And just because one location did something, doesn’t mean that suddenly the whole organization is cleansed of its wrongdoings.

“No uterus, no opinion!” - …excuse you, rude one, but I am a woman, and thus, have a uterus.(Shocking, I know) Plus, if that were true, then abortion would be illegal. Since, you know, it was men who made it legal. Men who tricked Norma McCorvey into thinking that abortion was a good thing. I believe there’s a post floating around documenting just what went down in that case. (Hint; she’s now very pro-life and regrets what happened) Also; you should discuss it thoroughly with your S.O. if you want a baby or not. If one of you want a kid, but the other doesn’t (or vice versa), then maybe you should look for someone else. Communicate.

“A baby will ruin a woman’s life!” - Again, rude. I, as a woman, thoroughly dislike being made out to be some weak, pathetic being that constantly needs “help”/to be coddled. (1) Around 97% of abortions are out of convenience. Meaning that 97% could’ve decided against having sex/”invoking the ancient ritual of reproduction”. (2)If you’re so sure that a baby would ruin your life, then you need to choose not to have one in the first place. Sex creates life. You really can’t do anything about it. As I said; nature does not CARE for your reasons to get freaky. It just sees you doing the do and go “You want BABY!!! OKAY! I’LL GET RIGHT ON IT!! MAEK THE BABBEY!!!” (3) It won’t ruin your life unless you let it. Positive thinking goes a long way, as corny as that may sound. (4) Look around you. How many mothers have you met that say they regret ever having kids? How many have said that their lives have been ruined?

“It’s just a bundle of cells!” - Science has proven that it is, in fact, a whole other life. Age and location does not a worthwhile life make. Or lack thereof, for that matter. You skin is not a separate entity from yourself. A fetus is still human, and will always be a human as it grows.

“It’s a parasite!” - What did I just say? It’s cells make up an actual human. It needs help to live even after it’s born, and so do some people with certain diseases. You want to say that all newborns, coma patients, and others are parasites?

“There are too many people already!” - There aren’t, actually. Earth can hold even more. If you’re that worried, however, you can just not have sex. Not needed to live, after all. You understand that your body can and will try to create life once you’ve taken part in intercourse, right? And way to think little of the human race. 2edgy4me.

“Consent to sex is not consent to-!” Let me stop you right there. Do you know what sex is naturally for? Do you know how the human body works? You are literally arguing against nature itself. It’s like eating raw chicken and complaining when you get salmonella or something smh.

“The baby won’t live a worthwhile life! It’ll be painful!” - You do not, and will never, be able to decide whose life is worth living or not. Any time you try that excuse, you just basically insulted anyone and everyone who’s gone through strife. You just told people who have lived through horrible times, that it would’ve been better if they had been aborted. That their life isn’t worth living. That is not for you or the “mother” to decide.

“But disease! Some parents can’t afford/handle that!” - And now you’re telling me that disabled people aren’t worth it. It is costly, and it is mentally taxing, yes, but it is never worth it to kill them because of it. A lot of disabled people enjoy the act of living, fyi. +A lot of times (and I mean a LOT), the doctor(s) is/are wrong about whether the child will have/develop problems. (2)If your family has a history of bad health, it might be better to lay off having sex (and just adopt if you want a kid). There are also programs out there that can and will help, should you look.

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Many thanks to those who made this post possible. You’re all remarkable people.

Feel free to add on and whatnot. Resources, science facts, links, etc.

(And anyone who tries that “car wreck” comparison will be side-eyed into oblivion.)

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Reposting because this still needs to be spread. Also did a bit of editing.

Remember to read everything before commenting. E V E R Y T H I N G. This cannot be stressed enough. I have addressed several commonly used arguments already, and will not be repeating myself. If you can’t read, or try to make assumptions, you will be blocked. You can also search my blog for other posts/refs/sources/etc. There should be more well-thought-out posts hanging around that can better explain and source the arguments that I have typed out above.

#planned parenthood #prolife #abortion #women's march #feminism #defundpp #sources

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