"Do we simply stare at what is horrible and forgive it?" for Thalia and Samson?
Hi, this burned a hole in my brain for months. Then I was feeling extra normal about Samson this week and here we are.
Awhile back I wrote a one-shot where Thalia goes feral on Samson after he wounds Cullen in a duel at the Temple of Mythal. This is a sequel to that I guess.
For @dadrunkwriting
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Thalia stood outside the damp cell. The roar of Skyhold’s foundational waterfall filled her ears, though nothing could be so loud as the pounding of her heart.
She did not want to be here. Everything in her screamed to turn and run, but she hadn’t been sleeping well since returning to Skyhold, the horrors of the Temple of Mythal fresh in her blood.
She stepped closer, peering in through the bars. “Samson?”
He was inside, leaning heavily against the stone wall. He looked worse than ever: skin a sweaty grey, face gaunt and emaciated. When she spoke his name, he let out a blistering cough that wracked his whole body. His feverish eyes met hers.
“Ah, m’lady,” he said, extending a weak bow. “We meet again, eh?”
Fury filled her, but also a plethora of other emotions: guilt, shame, even pity. She said nothing, remembering instead her agonized conversation with Mother Giselle earlier. The clergywoman had found her sitting by the shrine of Andraste off the courtyard garden, angry tears dripping down her face. Thalia bore complicated feelings for Mother Giselle, and had been outright hostile to her in the beginning. The Chantry mother never flinched, treating Thalia instead with gentleness and patience. Over time, Thalia had come to begrudgingly respect her, if not entirely what she represented. When they’d spoken this morning, Mother Giselle had listened to her frenetic ranting with a serene face, and offered calm advice. Not that it was advice Thalia wanted to hear.
“So do we simply stare at what is horrible and forgive it?” she had demanded.
“Yes,” Mother Giselle said. “Every time.”
Thalia laughed wryly. “But it’s hard.”
“Of course it is. You do not think we are called to do these things because they are easy, do you?”
She stared now at what was horrible: Samson’s trembling arms; his body, stripped of its armor, being worn away to nothing; the guarded yet curious gaze — the defeated waiting for the victor to speak.
“I’ve come to apologize,” Thalia blurted. Her hands tingled with the vulnerability laid bare, waiting for him to seize upon it and twist it to his own ends.
Samson quirked an eyebrow. “What for?”
Thalia inhaled sharply, straightening. Surely he hadn’t forgotten? No. He was making her spell it out.
“For striking you while in custody.” She kept her tone cool and formal, her best diplomat’s voice. “For… hurting you. That was unbecoming of any agent of the Inquisition, let alone the Inquisitor herself.”
Samson leaned his back against the wall, crossed arms over his concave chest. There was a hint of a smirk on his lips. “No offense meant to you, m’lady, and your—” he paused, eyeing her, “—surely sizable strength, but ‘hurt’s’ a bit of a strong word for what you did to me.”
Thalia narrowed her eyes. “What? What do you—”
The smirk widened, accompanied by a guffaw, which turned into another fit of coughing. As Samson bent over to hack into a fist, she understood: he was taller, wider, with decades of warrior training and the benefits of red lyrium, even as it ebbed from his system. She was a small, young mage who had slapped him with her staff in a fit of fury. She had split a lip, maybe blackened an eye, but he’d already been injured in the battle. He’d probably barely felt a thing.
“Are you mocking me, ser? For trying to make amends?”
The cough abated, and Samson righted himself. “No. I’m just saying, you needn’t worry your pretty little head about doing me damage, that’s all.”
Thalia dug her fingernails into the flesh of her palm. Of all the things she hated, being patronized by the likes of him threatened her composure the most.
Before she could think of a quick retort, Samson said, “Hey, m’lady, tell me something, will you?” He approached the bars and curled thin, bony fingers around them. “Cullen. He gonna be all right?”
Thalia nearly snapped, What do you care? Instead, she took a deep breath and tried to exhale her anger. “Yes. He’s expected to make a full recovery.”
Samson nodded absently, staring off into the middle distance. She couldn’t tell if he took this as good or bad news. Then his gaze snapped to hers and the wicked smirk returned. “S’pose you wouldn’t be here apologizing if he wasn’t.”
“You suppose correctly.” She wanted to inquire further, but another fit took hold of him, the coughing so violent she worried he might collapse if he lost his grip on the bars. When it finally subsided, she asked softly, “How’s the withdrawal?”
“How’s it sound?” Samson snapped. His chin had flecks of blood on it, or perhaps something else. She did not wish to think about what the red lyrium had done to him, that it might be calcifying his insides as they spoke. “Won’t be long now. Wait a few more days and you won’t even have to sentence me to death.”
Thalia pressed her lips together. “Perhaps my reputation does not precede me as much as I thought, or else you’d know. I don’t sentence criminals to death.”
“Ya don’t, eh?” Samson groaned, lowering himself into a sitting position. “Just my luck. Guess I’ll try and make it quick, then. For all our sakes.”
Thalia stared down at him as he raked fingers through his thinning hair. She felt as though something had reached into her chest and was squeezing her heart. It hurt more than even the revulsion she felt to behold him.
“There could be another way,” she said.
Samson laughed and did not look up.
“I’m serious,” Thalia pressed. “There’s ways to beat lyrium addiction. I’ve seen it.”
Samson shook his head. “Not the red. Not the blue, neither, far as I can tell — but never the red.”
“Cullen did.”
“Did he?” Samson squinted up at her. “Or is he just in between highs?”
“Currently, he’s in the infirmary with three broken ribs and thirty-seven stitches,” Thalia said crisply. “ All of it your doing.”
Samson grunted. “Lyrium would help with the pain. He’d be a fool not to take it.”
“And you’re being evasive.”
“What is it you want, m’lady?” Samson drew his thin arms around his torso, rocking slightly. “You’ve not offered me anything, just sweet platitudes. They said you were an idealist, but I must confess I am surprised by how much.”
“You don’t wish for a chance to start over? Free of addiction, of doing other people’s dirty work?”
Samson chuckled. “Now who’s to say I won’t be doing your dirty work instead, if I accept whatever deal you’re cooking up behind those lovely baby blues?”
Thalia gritted her teeth. “All right, you’ve got me there. But you’d be alive, for a start. If I understand correctly, leaving you here untended means you’ll be dead soon. That’s not an acceptable way to handle prisoners of war, regardless of what I plan to do with them later.” She stepped closer. “Let us treat you. If you survive, perhaps you’ll be grateful enough to consider repaying who it was that saved you.”
Samson watched her for a long moment, then smirked. “Whatcha gonna do? Put me in an infirmary bed next to Cullen?”
“If necessary, yes.” Thalia tried not to think of Cullen’s ensuing outrage, though any shouting would at least be tempered by the broken ribs. “But it would probably be easier on everyone if I didn’t.”
For the first time, Samson let out what seemed like a genuine laugh. “Ah, fuck it. Sure, m’lady, what else have I got to lose?”
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being a jujutsu sorcerer and a parent rarely ends well. sorcerers who have to fight for their lives everyday barely have any time and energy even for themselves. adding babies to the picture is hard to imagine.
but gojo was determined to balance his work and personal life when you entered his life, which is why he has a baby girl strapped to his chest as he holds up his hand and crosses his fingers, already to send a special grade curse into his domain.
"daddy~" his baby babbles, cheek squished against his purple uniform.
"yes, baby?" gojo smiles down at his baby and gently sweeps her hair out of her eyes. he pays little to no attention to the curse, who had already spread out their domain and is currently sending wave after wave of attacks, all of which gojo repels with a touch. "this is domain expansion," he gently explains to her, smirking at the curse who is obviously offended that he wasn't taking them seriously. "in a second, you're gonna see daddy's domain."
his baby blinks and shuffles around in the strap, whining a bit as she tries to get comfortable. for all she knows, it's too dark and hot and she misses mommy's smell.
before she knows it, the space around her begins to look like the night sky, and she can't see the curse anymore.
"this is my domain," her daddy says, but she misses seeing the sun. why is it nighttime all of the sudden?
"nooo" she whines as she kicks around. where's the ice cream he promised her earlier? and where is mommy? she doesn't want to go to sleep yet!
"not easily impressed, hm?" he laughs, protectively holding his baby's head against his chest as he closes up his domain after finishing off the curse.
"let's go get ice cream, yeah?" he ruffles her hair and holds up her hands, dancing them up in the air with a huge grin. the sunlight hits her face again and a smile quickly reappears. "you did so good today. did you learn a lot about jujutsu fights today? did'ja enjoy our little adventure together?"
"ice cweam" she smiles, doing a few happy kicks. and that's how the tradition of getting ice cream after missions started for the daddy-daughter pair.
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hmmm an open, deal with an emergency for TK while he walks your muse through it 'cause he cannot!
"Hey - hey. Hey. Hey, listen to me, okay." Panic was the last thing they needed. Panic was, absolutely, the least useful way to respond to a situation like this and TK was taking deliberate breaths to try to keep on top of it, even with this metal pipe lodged in his thigh (not through the artery - if it had nicked the artery he would not still be alive, so not the artery). "What you need is not. To move. Okay? We need to stop moving, it isn't steady, we're not in a rush and we don't want to trigger any more falls, you gotta stop, okay? Stop moving."
He couldn't think. Right now the vehicle they were in was balanced precariously on a cliff-face and threatened to fall further, and TK did not know what was below them just as he did not really know what was above them. He wasn't even entirely convinced he knew which way was 'up' right now. Just - just...
With a second to think he found that both hands were currently being used to press, firm, around the iron bar, and when the pressure relented or changed it was both ten times more painful and bleeding way too rapidly to be left unattended. It needed to be stabilised and wrapped up. The bar was only a foot long, at most.
Still impossible to move around with.
"TK?" the radio on his shoulder asked.
"Okay," he said. Okay. "Okay, I need you to radio back for me, all right? I can't move my hands." That was their first point of business. His team needed to know they were, both of them, still alive down here.
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