#silver linings I guess...

[castawavy]

tumblr just congratulated me for making 3000 posts 🧍

[livvy-art]

some morrowind doodles. first one was inspired by a screenshot i took and the second is of my character, Niv.

[beneathsilverstars]

been thinking about the differences between SASASAP and ISAT lately. because looking just at ISAT and the two hats ending, you'd think loop went through the exact same house as our siffrin, but looking at SASASAP, it's different. it's mixed up. it's obviously a condensed prototype.

but. that doesn't have to mean it's a different universe entirely.

maybe that's just what happens after a thousand loops.

the house warped in act 5. siffrin lost their shit and the house got changed and corrupted, far past its baseline king uncanniness. so it wouldn't be too out-of-the-question for it to be able to warp in more subtle ways as well, due to a more subtle breakdown.

like a jpeg uploaded and downloaded a thousand times, siffrin changed, and the loops changed. over a thousand loops of efficiency, the house got more efficient. rooms combining. items moving. data compressing. and of course, run in a changed house, the script changed as well. it did so slowly, one bit at a time, over a thousand loops of zoned-out half-listening – and by the time siffrin would have noticed each difference, they were already used to it. (and in the moments that they did look at a room that was less familiar than it should be and realize that they had no idea where to find the key, well. that's just classic siffrin, isn't it.)

through sheer repetition, siffrin was corrupted, and the loops and the house along with them. all purpose lost, all signals distorted, until finally they couldn't recognize the meaning in any of it. it was all noise and despair.

so they made a wish. and the loop restarted. not just a reboot, but something more complete.

the data was backed up onto a star – a guide, a warning, a reference – and the loops were factory reset. and for the first time in a thousand loops, siffrin woke up to a clear mind and the crisp sound of birdsong.

[bisexualcroissant]

thinking about how similar jeremy and jean are in their violent grief over lost siblings. jeremy’s regret and self-loathing and inability to forgive himself for not being more present, for being so messed up that awful night, for not stopping noah from jumping. jean’s regret and self-loathing and inability to forgive himself for not protecting elodie, despite being forced away when he was still a child himself. jean’s parents failed him and elodie through violent neglect and lack of protection when they were only kids. while jeremy’s entire family still treats him as responsible for noah’s death. and you can see how both of them internalise the loss as happening through their own lack of action and doing more, rationalising it as if only they had done more, noah and elodie might still be here. obviously jeremy and jean’s situations and circumstances have been wildly different, but they are surprisingly similar in the way they cope with their complicated grief. the way they can’t talk about it, the way they push down the hurt and move forward because thinking about it, feeling it for too long hurts too much. the way they clearly believe losing their sibling was their own fault, and not the tragic outcome of a number of factors outside of their control.

[laughhardrunfastbekindsblog]

I've been thinking a lot about the scene involving "Clone Force 99 died with Tech" and trying to figure out why it STILL doesn't sit right with me even now, 5 months after the Bad Batch finale aired.

Because really, looking at the line and how Hunter and Wrecker respond to it from an in-universe standpoint, it does fit the specific scenario well. Crosshair is getting ever closer to Tantiss with a severely wounded Wrecker refusing to give up, and he's worried. So Crosshair drops that bombshell of a line, reminding his brothers that the squad has permanently changed, in an attempt to try to save Hunter and Wrecker by convincing them to leave him and find a way to contact Rex as he storms Tantiss on his own, because it's "what he deserves." Hunter responds by saying Omega and the clone prisoners need all of them - which (being generous with my interpretation) is likely meant to address the "I deserve to die alone" sentiment Crosshair expressed by instead providing him another purpose. Then Wrecker responds by saying they know the risks and aren't charging in recklessly - addressing Crosshair's original concern.

So I think I would ultimately be fine with this scene as-is if 1) it didn't end up being the last time the brothers ever reference Tech, and 2) it didn't come at the end of an entire season's worth of complete mismanagement regarding the Tech storyline.

Now, I admit my perception will likely permanently be colored by the fact that when first watching the finale and hearing Crosshair say that line, part of me still clung to hope that Tech would show up before the end credits, but in between heaving sobs the analytical part of my brain was going "...Really? A full season of baiting us and THAT'S how you're going to tell your audience Tech isn't coming back? If that's really the case so help me..." And we all know that really was the case 😫😤😭

(Screaming into the void. Starting to realize I do a lot of void-screaming when it comes to season 3, especially with everything after "The Return.")

But even setting aside how soul-crushingly painful that line is, what continues to drive me absolutely bonkers about it is:

1) Tech sacrificed himself so that his squad COULD carry on without him, whether that meant fighting or not, and yet again the narrative itself refuses to openly acknowledge this. Even if Crosshair isn't at a point where he can really accept this (and that's a valid stance for him to take), it would have gone a long way for the show (via Hunter or Wrecker in this case specifically) to still definitively highlight why Tech had done what he did, especially after an entire season that ended up only implying that Tech's sacrifice held the squad back from achieving their goals.

(Another fan told me that they believe the line was a good way to acknowledge how important Tech is because the squad will never be the same without him. While I see their point, I think if the show really wanted to push that sentiment it would have landed a lot better if worded a bit differently and stated during, I don't know, a memorial for Tech. With all Tech's family there. Not desperately thrown out there by Crosshair in the middle of a mission as an attempt to shock/guilt Hunter and Wrecker into saving themselves - after all, as noted above, the purpose of the line in context isn't specifically to honor Tech anyway.)

2) There's no follow up to address the fact that Tech sacrificed himself, in part, so Crosshair could still be saved - nothing to provide that vital reassurance to Crosshair that he was/is WORTH saving.

3) After an entire season of being excruciatingly vague about whether each Bad Batcher has fully grieved or not, they're STILL keeping it vague and robbing the characters of any cathartic moment to acknowledge Tech in a way that actually respects his sacrifice and shows his family - his squad - is acting to honor his memory.

4) Above all, IT'S THE ONLY TIME TECH IS REFERENCED IN THE FINALE OF THE SERIES IN WHICH HE IS A MAIN CHARACTER and it's not in a way that highlights his positive influence on his brothers, nothing to indicate that this mission to Tantiss would have been just as important to him as it is to the rest of them so they're going to pull together as much to honor him as to accomplish their objectives, nothing to make that reference anything more than a knife to the heart. (Oh, sorry, there is that goggles reference in the epilogue. With Omega, alone. Yet again, the brothers have no meaningful interaction about Tech.)

And the thing is, even if when Tech does come back (and I firmly believe he can), the show that is specifically centered around the Bad Batch should not have ended without providing meaningful closure for all of them. (Yes, I'm still banking on another clone-centric show being in the works; but Rebels clearly left the door open for further stories while still leaving things wrapped up for all the main characters at the end of that show, and that could - and should - have happened here.)

...Anyway, now that I've gotten all that off my chest, maybe I'll be a bit calmer during future rewatches of the finale 😅

... Scratch that, I'll probably need to spell out all my grievances about the CX plotline before I reach the point of watching the finale with relative calm 😬

[supersecretmetalocalypseblog]

The only way Charles could be safe from Salacia is if he died, and once he does, he learns about the prophecy, and The Church of the Black Klok. So... does that mean that MMA beating Charles in Dethrelease/Black Fire Upon Us not only drives me insane, but is a crucial moment in the prophecy?? Idk if it HAD to be MMA or if it could've been anyone who "kills" Charles. I am of the personal belief that MMA's role in prophecy is to guide (albeit accidentally) Dethklok towards their destiny. It's when he's first hired to kill DK that the metalocalypse begins, according to Cardinal Ravenwood. it's only after his attack on Mordhaus that CFO learns of his role as The Dead Man, it's through rescuing Toki and Abigail that the band first uses their powers, the Dethlights. Without ever realizing it, he's caught up in this ancient prophecy, actively being a pain in the ass for everyone involved, inching towards the precipice of an apocalypse. Listen to me, waffling on about prophecies n shit. Fire alone will save our clan, or whatever, amirite,,

[livlocus]

my bf just came home from what was supposed to be a four day camping trip with a bunch of his buddies but instead turned into three days because MY BF got lost in the woods for SEVEN hours on the day that they got there, another guy cut his finger open with a machete within the first hour they were there, and another dude burned his hand in the fire pit to grab someone’s shoes out of it (they got wet and they were trying to dry them over the fire and the shoes fell in ???)

a literal disaster of a trip but now i’ve been inspired to write a little pjo/hoo boys go camping based off of this haha

[gael-garcia]

productive work day! [watched 2 movies and giffed one of em]

[xxplastic-cubexx]

As a med student most doctors are shit just give me 6 more years to finish and ill treat u

If im still alive in six years ill be sure to ask you why i cough when i eat

[stardew-bajablast]

will say with regard to the tik tok ban, it is probably for the best in the long run that it’s being banned rather than being sold. like if it’s banned, that will get a ton of zoomers pissed off at the government (and maybe even get them off their phones enough to organize about it), rather than having some right wing oligarch buying the US portion of tik tok and turning it into a MAGA propaganda mill a la twitter or facebook

like still sucks that this is happening and no doubt tons of people will be negatively impacted, especially artists who run their whole business on the app. a tik tok ban should never have been on the table to begin with, but i can’t help but think it’s better this way than if someone were to buy it

[novasorbit]

jfc.

[psychictimestone]

'This is the Knave said to ravage thy kingdom? surely you jest, Sire!?'

[herearedragons]

what if I named Selene's home temple the Temple of the Silver Tide

[gargelyfloof118]

The horses snapped the top rail of the hay manger by leaning on it too hard. Le sigh. We should have supported it better, but we have learned. No one has been hurt.

I spent some time tearing off the front and salvaging what screws I could so that we can fix it.

I'm waiting on Hubs to get home from getting meds from the vet so we can fix it up.

[astrology-bf]

Life Update: Been dealing with a health scare that ended up being a health issue and maintaining multiple platforms simultaneously is kinda hard given my limited energy so sorry if I haven't been on tumblr as much compared to bsky. >.<

[sillylittlerock]

the state of the world is so bad we get a hunger games book and a gaga album in the same year