#so im just labeling it as mature to be safe!

[beach-illustrations]

used myself as a model for these ones

[kj0ne]

Nct fic rec’s

A collection of some of my favourite fics i have read that are mostly nct but i may add some other groups!

Includes fics/series, smaus, oneshots,drabbles, headcannons and time stamps

S - smut | SG -suggestive | F - fluff

A - angst | M - mature

All credits to the writers! If you would not like your work on here please lmk!

*lm still new to posting on tumblr please lmk if anything is or looks wrong*

(Im a sucker for family au so please expect alot of that here 😅)

Nct wish are not included!

Nct 127

Johnny Suh

Lee Taeyong

Little taste of heaven | M,F,A - @taelme

Part 1 | part 2 | part 3

R U Ridin? | F - @writemekpop

Taeyong is a mafia boss, and he hides it from you... but what happens when his secret gets revealed?

Nakamoto Yuta

Dad!Yuta | F - @jwirecs

Kim Doyoung

Heaven, fallen | M,F,A - @wincore

6-7am | F - @nctinthehouse

You were beautiful | F,A - @jaelvr

Jeong Jaehyun

Kim Jungwoo

Hard to say goodbye | F - @by-soleil

1:18pm | F - @gyeomsweetgyeom

Part 2 ⬇️

8:25pm | F - @gyeomsweetgyeom

Mark and Haechan in dream down below ⬇️

Nct Dream

Mark Lee

4:26 | F - @gyeomsweetgyeom

Most couples use pet names for each other, some people would expect you and Mark to do the same, especially since you’re getting married

3:50 | F - @skyrohyucks

The cure | F - @mins-fins

mark shows up to your place bleeding red, and red is your least favorite color.

Madly in love | F - @p0ckykiss

mark had always been the hopeless romantic type

Huang Renjun

Beat you at your own game | F - @cafelattaes

y/n has a crush on renjun, who's not that great with people. despite his standoffish nature, she makes an effort to be friendly. but things take a twist when she starts to ignore him.

Lee Jeno

Glitter | F - @kyufessions

you walk in on your daughter giving your fiancé a makeover

All night long | F - @writemekpop

You’re pregnant, and the baby’s kicking makes it impossible to sleep. Luckily, Jeno knows just how to take care of you. 

Lee Haechan

Na Jaemin

Putting mascara on BF!Jaemin | F - @scarletwinterxx

Day in the life | F - @saturnznct

9:18pm | F - @gyeomsweetgyeom

In which jaemin does his own take of a trend | F - @lololololchips

in which jaemin does his own take of a trend that shows how he tried to confess to his crush over various instagram stories

One bed trope enemy!jaemin | F - @jenosbliss

Bittersweet | F - @polarisjisung

it's routine— you patch up his wounds and watch them heal, he salts your wounds but doesn't stick around long enough to watch them grow.

Love without labels | F - @mystverse

Zhong Chenle

Park Jisung

Naps with bf!Jisung | F - @ofdreamsnwishes

Motorbikes and melatonin | F - @polarisjisung

sleep doesn't find you in the comfort of your own home or under the covers tucked safely into your bed— sleep finds you in the warmth of park jisung's arms

BF Jisung text | F - @polarisjisung

Score that goal | F - @lqfiles

after your college had announced that all the students were required to join a club and attend it twice a week, you were planning on either a) dropping out, or b) join the art club and pretend to be sick most of the times. that was before you discovered that park jisung is a long time member of the football team. change in plans: you LOVE football.

or in which you mindlessly join the football club in hopes of catching your crush’s attention (and to maybe secretly check him out too) who cares if you can’t even kick a ball up in the air?

Sleepy Jisung talks | F - @wonbin-truther

Wayv

Qian Kun

7:16am | F - @theficblog

Ten Lee

In progress…

WinWin

In progress…

XiaoJun

In progress…

Hendery

In progress…

YangYang

In progress…

Units

Nct 127

Baby 127 calling dad on tour | F - @phoxphenex

Nct dream

Moon and enthusiasm | F - @handlemehyuck

Baby dream calling dad on tour | F - @phoxphenex

Boyfriend texts | F - @handlemehyuck

Orange peel theory | F - @hyuckswoman

7dream nicknames for their partners | F - @swee7dream

Dream on dreaming | F - @diorcities

WayV

WayV reaction to a pic of them sleeping | F - @tigermark

[sharpedgedfool]

Hello I was just wondering if we could get some more stuff and ideas about the sonadow future museum au (im just going to call it that cuz thats shorter)

heres a quick sketch cuz I really liked the designs👍

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YES YOU CAN AND IL OVE UR STYLE WITH IT???? I love how uncle-chuck-esc Sonic looks it's the exact vibe I wanted him to have 10/10

I'm in the process of writing this au as an actual story but I'm barely a chapter in yet, but I'll give some more snippets about Shadow and a page of sketches! (its a long read im so sorry but thank you for the ask!!)

Shadow goes by 'Oliver' as his fake name, he took it from a book he read once and liked the cover. They use He/They pronouns and identifies as something non-binary, he's not in a rush to label himself (they joke they've enough to label around the museum)

He lived as a vagabond until settling in Rainmeadow Town, and being taken in by the museum's solo-curator Beatrice, who's a field mouse with a physical disability and was unable to fully access the museum after she took it over from the previous owners.

Shadow adored museums as it was one of the only places he could visit freely so he has a soft spot, and Beatrice was so nice to him so he stayed to help restore it and got too attached he ended up settling down there. He was anxious at first, but its been five years and he's comfortable living there now

He lived with Beatrice for two years, before managing to earn enough from odd-jobs to buy out the small apartment above the local B&B

He has a stray cat he's taken in who wanders around town when he's at work. The cat is known to be vicious but is a sweetheart around Shadow, somewhat mimicking Shadows own demeaner

He dresses himself as unassuming as possible, and that sometimes makes himself a target for any outsiders of the village He gets tired out easily, due to them restricting their energy so much, but they can still fight viciously (almost feral after so many years outside of civilisation) for a short amount of time though would prefer to run. Shadow also needs rest throughout the day

Due to his tight inhibitor rings, Shadows red stripes and eyes have all dimed to a dull grey, his blood however remains a harsh green so he has to be diligent to ensure he doesn't injure himself in front of anyone. If he loosened his rings they would rapidly shift back to a red and he would regain energy to use his abilities, but he hides them and is extremely paranoid about his true identity

He likes to read and cook, and has a habit of reading while walking around even in the dark. He cooks meals for his cat and refuses to give them cat food from a can

He's a huge coffee fan, and loves brewing it himself with the manual machines at home (but also will still absolutely eat the beans straight if it's been a long day)

They haven't 'aged' but they've 'grown bigger' through mutation, their spines and fur are longer so they appear more mature even if internally he hasn't changed much.

He's always wanted a motorbike, but couldn't travel with one and can't afford the upkeep

Their glasses are generic reading glasses that he doesn't really need, but he finds it grounding to have them in his vision (he feels hidden behind them)

Rainmeadow is a known queer-safe town, despite it's remoteness, and the museum has a hall they regularly hold events in (Shadow is fond of the rollerskate hang-outs they schedule)

He has frequent panic attacks and extreme anxiety, they're selectively mute and uses sign (I use BSL when I'm drawing it out) and can't be around large groups of people for too long. He lets Beatrice work at the front of the museum and he lurks around in the back, people jokingly call him a 'shadow' often (and he's gotten used to the fear that shoots down his spine at the mention of his name)

No one knows of his origins, though Beatrice knows some of his vagabond experiences and topics that makes him uneasy

Shadow has met Rouge a handful of times. When he was saving money, he was contacted by her due to his experience in the museum. Due to his lack of background information, she assumed he had been involved in criminal activity and needed his knowledge on artefacts and assistance in restoring something. Shadow agreed reluctantly, but despite his uncertainty he enjoyed working on the things she brought and Rouge found his genuine interest in history and lack of concern for her intentions to be good company. Shadow became her main contact for these things (though she rarely needs his help) and the two are on good terms despite not being close

Rouge has worked with Team Sonic on occasion, and never worked with GUN. She's infamous but her identity is unknown to the public, except her name on her calling card. A few of Sonic's gang know what she looks like as eventually after knowing them for so long she doesn't wear the spy gear around them all the time, but felt strangely comfortable around Shadow rather quickly so he's seen her face

[painonthebrain]

Actually on the subject of trans man titties and tits in general im just saying but i feel like i shouldn’t have to mark them as mature or censor them but. I JUST WANNA BE SAFE

But seriously talking about breasts and how theyre perceived as sexual- i dont think its right to label them that way. I just do it bc idk how lightly i should tread here

WHICH IS SO FUNNY BC MY DRAWING IS NOT SEXUAL FLINTS JUST THERE. LMAO

Im not sure if posting two different versions is the right thing to do but oh well whats done is done

Also on the subject of mature stuff i have to say once im 18 the floodgates may open and this blog will most definitely become somewhat freaky so. Be warned i guess im gearing up for my birthday so i can finally post Nasty Sex Things

[ageless-soul-au]

HIHIHI OKAY. i absolutely love flicker. do you accept fanart (might be a silly question but im 16 and want to make sure before i actually draw/send in anything. im here for my boy /lighthearted)

but besides that. ive never seen anyone else actually hc that downfall hero of time DIED AS A KID and i am SO GLAD other people feel the same. like dont get me wrong everyone has their own opinions and none are wrong but. I LOVE FLICKER. i love that the gods didnt quite catch him in time to put him to sleep and he took the sword to ganon and held his own until beast ganon. it makes me do a little happy wiggle.

he was not a "valiant, noble man, tragically lost to evil" he was a misguided child told the world rested on his shoulders and because of that, he was killed. and i LOVE that kind of tragedy

so. flicker supremacy, thank you very much.

Hi hello!!!! Omg you had so many great points, thank you for the enthusiasm!!

Mostly for the 18+ warning, we're trying to keep minors away from the main fics bc there are heavy, potentially triggering topics and NSFW-ish things there. As long as you have your community labels set up right on the blog tho, it should be safe to browse/interact with (though main blogs are different, Kio's is strictly 18+). I'm not your dad etc etc, practice caution online, we really only ask that minors don't read the fic or view the NSFW. We'll still probably be writing ASAU by the time you turn 18 tho so maybe see u on ao3 then?? XD

TLDR, it's up to you if you wanna make art of the lil guy. We appreciate everything that comes our way!

The decision to keep Flicker 9 years old came from a discussion on why the hero failed in the downfall timeline. Bc if things progressed like they had in OoT, then Link would have still won! So what needed to change in order for him not to win? It wasn't bc the player just went out to play basketball instead of beating the game /ref

The sages put Link to sleep bc he wasn't ready to wield the sword. But nothing changed except his size. He was in a 17 year old's body, but his mind hadn't matured any. Somehow he was able to pull it off tho, and everything turned out fine (or... It depends on your definition of fine).

So the sword didn't put Flicker to sleep. He didn't get stronger. And he's a tough kid, but that only goes so far. He also rushed to get to the final boss, which Time didn't do, so Flicker got there underprepared in his haste. He died, then the goddesses went "oh shit, that shouldn't have happened!!" and reset the timeline. And as we know, a reset doesn't mean that the original timeline goes away, now there's just two versions of the story.

Poor lil guy... His Zelda (Aria) and the sages managed to pull it together, but the timeline was still pretty fucked. I can't wait for when we get to what happened to it in the fics, but that won't be for a while. Flicker is still out there tho... In the forest... Doing his little guy things....

Thank u for ur interest! Maybe we'll have gotten to Flicker's point in the story by the time you're 18 hchdhdj

-Kio & Mizu

[saltpepperbeard]

Im sorry about this i need to rant. I thought things were getting better but Izzy stan Twitter is at it again with their whining, truth bending and self-victimising.

'Do you like OMFD but wish the queer disabled hero didnt die?' IZZY IS NOT THE HERO OF THIS SHOW!!!!! He is at best a reformed antagonist. What an insult to the other disabled characters, and what about the actual heroes of the show??

'We've been betrayed by straight man writing queer stories'. First of all, way to dismiss the other writers. Also, its not his fault you project your personal traumas and mental health on a fictional character on a show with death in the title.

'GB's ending is comphet (?????) because 'we only need eachother' and theyre breaking away from their queer community' ED HAS BEEN WANTING TO LEAVE PIRACY SINCE LAST SEASON!!! also, its progress that Stede was able to resist basic flattery. And David made it clear that they still have work to do. This one truly broke my brain.

Im just sick of all this. Izzy stans have been coddled for the past week, being told its ok to grieve, but theyve crossed multiple lines. I do wish some things had been more explicit in this finale, only because David overestimated the maturity and media literacy of some people.

Sorry for this but i needed to talk to people here. Its beyond annoyance at this point. Im angry and sick of petty crybabies actively working to poison what we've built.

I'm a bit late to answering this, anon, so pardon the tardiness, but I think it says something that this still holds weight/relevancy even after a bit of pause.

I can totally understand the frustration because I too have seen some absolutely WILD takes. And I don't even go into the main tags, nor am I on Twitter, yet I STILL manage to see whispers of things in my peripherals. I have seen some things similar to what you mentioned that made me just...goggle. I could genuinely just do nothing but...GOGGLE. GAWK, GAPE, AND GOGGLE HSDJKLS.

I of course invite you to hang in this little Safe Spaceship Corner, because so many people are trying to maintain a steady course throughout all of this. But even still, it's frustrating that one can't even really go into the fandom space on Twitter or into the tags without being BOMBARDED. And I'm upset that it has to be that way. I'm upset that people are legitimately finding it difficult to interact with the space, or even enjoy the material now.

And again, AGAIN, I still maintain my opinion that his fans are allowed to be sad/angry/upset by his death. I totally get that. But what I do NOT subscribe to is attempting to pull everyone else down into that and painting it all to be some sort of "personal attack." Or just...throwing any sort of vitriolic label at it in an attempt to "justify" the upset instead of just...sitting with that upset.

Like...It's a story. You may not like it. And that's totally okay. There are things in this season I didn't particularly like. But that's MY opinion, and based off MY personal preferences, not the fault of those who decided to share their story with me. It's not some betrayal, or vendetta, or anything of the sort. And it's such a shame that it's being painted as such and THEN some.

[ill-either-live-or-die-alone]

hihi!!

so i’ve been, as always, doing some (understatement of the century, i didn’t know someone could learn so much about themselves in literally 42 hours) questioning

and i’m pretty sure that i am a median monoconscious system. as well as me, host, am blanketself (not sure exactly how to use that term, like, in a sentence?). also probably blurian and maaaybe cation :> so good detective work lmao!! thank you! <3 /gen

i’m going to go with these terms for a little while, while still doing research on and trying to talk to a psychiatrist about OSDD-1. question- could someone be monoconacious and blanketself while being a disordered system like OSDD? or are those solely endo terms?

anyway- aside from the labels, i think i may have started fleshing out who one of my headmates is? i still have absolutely no clue how to communicate- especially since we’re monoconscious. i did some thinking and made a little drawing, it’s based solely on my personal feelings about how he would look and stuff.

i think that he’s probably formed through trauma- and quite possibly the first fragment to form as well. i don’t know his name- but he’s a version of me that’s younger and regresses- i feel like he’s an age slider? maybe? 5-8 or 9? but like. the most mature 5yo you’ve ever met lmao. tbh maybe he’s just ageless. ACK dude please come out and talk to me and like. explain yourself.

anyway- 5-9 age ????, he/they pronouns and non-binary (tbh my only reassurance that i’m not just making a character or something because i wouldn’t choose he/him pronouns, i absolutely never use them for myself), he’s formed from age regression and pet regression (or my alter humanity? not sure which) i think. he comes out when i’m having a meltdown or when my dad is yelling or scolding us, since i’m pretty sure that’s the trauma causing our fragments, and he’s the traumaholder(?) for that.

anyway, enough nonsense rambling! i’m getting nowhere with this! i drew him a picture :3 he looks a lot like our body, i think we all do (except wednesday maybe, i think she just looks like wednesday), but kinda just a younger and much more androgynous version. and of course he’s got the fluffy floofy ears.

oh also i think he’s nonverbal- or at least very much prefers not to talk, likely due to his trauma and alterhumanity combined together. when he does talk, like, irl when he’s fronting(?) it takes so much effort to get him to talk, and when he does he jumps through hoops to make it baby talk or as indecipherable as possible ? i don’t really understand it, but it definitely happens.

i imagine him slightly different than this, but my drawing skills aren’t capable of depicting it so maybe i’ll find a picrew or something- also unsure if he has the tail but i kinda was getting a tail shift while drawing him so ???

all in all take this with a grain of salt, i’m still fakeclaiming myself :// but i wanted to clutter up your askbox!(/sarc)

in seriousness, thank you, what you’re doing for beings like me(us?) is truly amazing and indescribably helpful <3333 love you mutual!! /platonic, gen

woah boy my answers going to be kind long lolgen/lh

first off about trying to talk to a psychologist/psychiatrist about OSDD 1 we suggest making sure you feel safe with the psychologist/psychiatrist as theres alot of stigma about dissociative disorders in the field...aswell as maybe dont go into it be saying "so someone told me online-" cuz they may believe you are faking(wich isnt something they should be doing..claiming people are faking that is)/gen/lh

also you can definitely be a disordered system and be a Median+Monoconscious/gen(heck im a disordered system whose a gateway system and hydraconscious :3)/gen/lh

also smol you(is it ok for me to refer to him this way?) sounds very interesting/gen

also its really no prolem we love helping others(love you to)/gen/p

[pixiedoll2]

Tw: long vent post about my relationship with my mom

This might be a mess of words or really jumbled...I just really needed to talk about this

The way I feel like I can't live without my mom ,the content fear over my mom's well being, the constant people pleasing ,it's exhausting me ....

I hate being the "helper " of the family, the peace keeper ,the glue or whatever else you want to call it . I hate feeling like the family will fall apart if I'm not around, ,I hate being my mom's therapist for her relationship to my dad ,I hate the co dependent relationship I have with my mom( the only reason i know this is becausemy therapisttold me that me and my mom werecodependent)

.... I hate the mixed signals, passive aggressiveness, the tears, the fights . the way that I feel like I constantly have to please them to feel loved and welcome. the way I always had to help when I was younger . The making me feel like I'm simultaneously keeping the family together yet tearing it apart .

the way that if I try to be my own person ( figuring out my gender identity) she will get upset and tell me I'm wrong, or if I come to her with a problem like if she said something that hurt me she will defensive and deny she ever said it /say that it didn't happen that way or if I have different views than her she will get upset and angry at me ( well both my parents will ,my dad has actually threatened to kick me out onto the street before )

The way her actions don't match her words like the way she handled my trauma with my brother ( abuser) ...she says she wants me to feel safe but will continuously let my brother back into the house or how she said that me telling my family about the abuse " is a situation that could've tore the family apart " ....yet she says that she loves me and wants me to be safe and feel happy .

I don't know I have so many confusing feelings about my family.... they hurt me but I can't live without them ...

I'm like emotionally mature but also extremely immature and dependant on my mom to make decisions about literally anything I do and constantly look for her validation and love

My dad is emotionally immature and constantly walks on eggshells around him and I constantly feel like my mom is treating me like a therapist for their relationship problems and as well telling me things about their relationship that I shouldn't let my dad know that I know because it'll make him very very mad .... basically trauma dumping to me then have me keep quiet about it

I constantly feel like a parent and helpless child all at the same time and I want to scream and cry. I want to run away and never see my parents again while also being terrified of being an adult an wanting to cling to my mom for help at all times ,for all decisions .

I don't know how to get out ... I feel like im trapped with no escape from trauma or hurt ...like I'm helpless and hopeless ....

There's other problems I deal with and other forms of trauma I've gone through that make this all the more complicated and complex but it too much to explain....this is just me venting about my parents, mostly my relationship with my mom and the "helper " label that's been put over my head since I was a little child .

[domreader-headcannon-scenarios]

— Sometimes I wonder how a semi nude character art gets absolutely destroyed by tumblr the second OP posted it, but not a fully naked REAL human pics... Tumblr just recommended it to me and safe to say I almost had a heart attack ( it was not from bots )

~🍥 ( sorry for the sudden vent (?) When I saw that post, I instantly thought of ur blog that got shadow-banned twice cus of whb stuff T.T )

No fr!! It’s so disgusting that I cant post art that genuinely doesn’t have the genitalia visble (and when they are they aren’t being ‘used’ so in tumblrs on TOS it’s ok but they still reported me!) and ontop of that I WASNT THE ONLY ONE POSTING THISE EXACT IMAGES…

Im geninly uncomfortable with the ‘live’ porn of real people shoved down my throat on this sight if I go in ANY adult tags. How can they post themselves fucking un censored but I cant post censored artwork!!?

Like I went through just to make sure my post were showing in the bondage tag, first 16 post all real, naked people some actually having sex and those aren’t even LABELED AS MATURE? When I’m forced to post MY WRITINGS AS MATURE? What the fuck is this double standard bullshit? Then it was ‘a bug’ that marked me and it took TWO WEEKS for someone to look at my blog for five minutes and realize it was a mistake..

Im happy my blog is back but words cannnot show my distrust and anxiety towards this sight for that bs and in the end, I still got punished when every other wittier around me doesn’t need to label nsft stuff as mature I got singled out…

I guess it’s easy since my anxiety stops me from reaching out to mutuals so they thought I wouldn’t voice my issues. I think what’s funny is I had to GO ON REDDIT TO GET TUMBLR STAFF’S HELP.

And that’s genuinely terrifying that I had to go to another website for acknowledgment that my blog was wrongly marked.

Sorry to vent myself but I’m just…bitter with the fact I’m spammed with porn bots, and real people posting things against TOS while I get punished for it. Im how’s it’s over and staff helped me but…two weeks…bc of a goddamn bug…

[actualbird]

💻 about

the post version, because i realized how much gosh dang space the about portion takes up in my pinned post and making an about page isnt accessible on blasted mobile app ajhvkjshfas

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hi, im zak! im just some guy.

everything you need to know about me is in my bio, but i you want a Deep Delve of my personality and brain, check out this tears of themis post i made on "The Clockwise Strawberry Blueberry Triangle"

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currently on actualbird dot tumblr dot com:

life status: not as active as i used to be because irl things are quite busy right now :(

main fandom interest: Tears of Themis

fave tot ships: luke/mc, marius/luke, nxx polycule

fave tot non-ship dynamics: nxx found fam, aaron & luke, giann & marius

other fandoms im into: Skip and Loafer (anime and manga)

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what gets posted and how:

i smtimes rb/post not-safe-for-work writing, art, memes etc under the tags or keywords: “#nsfw” “n/s//f///w”.

those who do not want to see these for whatever reason should block those tags and keywords. minors must block these, non negotiable.

for explicit not-safe-for-work posts that come directly from me, i post them under the Mature Community Label. read more about how to hide/see those posts here.

all tot spoilers that are posted or reblogged will be tagged under "#tot spoilers"

if i respond to an ask you send off anon, i'll add the your url as a one of the tags so you can easily find it

if i respond to an ask you send on anon but you add a little anon nickname for yourself that has yet to be taken by another nicknamed anon, i'll use that for the tag in lieu of a username

all other ask responses will just be tagged as "#anon"

i rarely use read mores. woe, dashboard stretch be upon ye!

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some common non-fandom-specific tags i use:

#dootdootdoot - my tag for personal/life posts

#srb - my tag for self reblogs, aka when i rb i thing i posted so it can be seen by those in other timezones and give my stuff a little boost or if i cant be assed to make posts on a day so i just bump up another thing kjhvkjhd

#zak draws - my tag for my doodles

i also try my best to tag common content warnings/trigger warnings using the format "#cw [THING]" or "#[THING] cw" and off the top of my head, i tag these for blood, violence, and animal death.

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other things

replies on my posts are restricted to only allow replies from people i follow or people who have followed me for at least a week.

art on my icon is by my gf <3

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you have reached the end of this post, now watch him rotate

[quirkle2]

hey just a heads up in case anybody missed my recent posts and Do actually wanna see them (they contain nudity and scars), i set those posts to have the "mature" community labels and i thiiiink tumblr hides those completely on all accounts by default, which some people might not know. so if y'all missed that and wanna see it u might have to change ur settings; of course, if that stuff bothers u, be safe and go on abt ur day and im giving u a cool sparkly rock :]!

[a-scummy-hybrid]

Im going to be honest...

Ever since having post-covid and experiencing these odd and unusual symptoms, its only made me fearful and afraid that i have something else.... i find them both annoying and also terrifying that makes me afraid to get it again... i just hope that soon, someday, there is actual method in which it can be treated and potentially be rid of permanently so that no one has to ever experience this nightmarish condition of feeling unusual or off...

I tend to label these Post-Covid posts as Mature to make sure that i dont scare anyone or whatever...

In all honesty i just want someone to hug so i can just cry into their shoulder. Thats how i feel right now in all honesty...

I hope that by some miracle, scientists are able to quickly discover somerhing and figure a method to treat/eradicate post-covid entirely.

Anyways... i conclude this post with one request to EVERYONE who follows me.

Vaccinate.

Mask Up, no matter what.

Exercise and stay healthy no matter what.

Be safe.

And most importantly... keep fighting no matter what.

[sturnioloshacker]

okay! im sorry if that came off as rude i just was scared and didnt want to get attacked for no reason.. also my age range is 14-16 if thats okay(ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

-💤(is this taken yet?)

it wasn’t rude at all my love! i totally understand where you’re coming from. 🥀 anon won’t bite, you’re all good!

that’s okay with me. i do post nsfw content on here but i always put that under the mature content label that tumblr has so the minors don’t see it and you’re all safe and as far away as possible from that stuff.

the emoji is all yours sweetheart 🩷

[companionwolf]

hihi buddy. i saw your post about your invol regression and the shame that comes with it, so i wanted to give you my two cents (esp given we're the same age, and youre masc presen & im a trans guy)

i regress NOW in two 'situations' - for lack of a better term - both of which are involuntarily, one a positive situation (after i coped w the shame) and one a negative situation thats a trauma response. i was extremely fortunate enough to have someone to talk to about it at the time it was first happening, so i wanted to bank some ideas at you to see if i can ease you, if only a little.

thinking about my newfound regression (although it had happened before, but didnt have a label because i hadnt heard about this) when it happened made me feel super embarrassed, humiliated, and shameful. bringing it up to someone else - who i trusted - was even moreso... although i got lucky, and this person knew more than i did (and then we, eventually, learned together). i cried multiple times over it - how stupid i felt, how childish it felt, how humiliating it was to be in a space like that. It felt like a loss of myself, and everything i had worked for (considering my upbringing and maturity). but theres a few big things that helped me get over it and even let me start to regress in safe situations where i am comfortable. anyways, i dont know if your situation is similar to what i just talked about, but here's how i helped myself ...

I think the thing that helped me the most off-the-bat was familiarize myself with the community. learn some lingo, look at some moodboards, get a feel for it. see how others aren't shameful of their little sides. i felt REALLY alone. Seeing other peoples takes on agere culture, and their experience w regression helped normalize it as something that isnt shameful. seeing how others thrived gave me a reason to not look at it as something negative or uncomfortable about myself, but to look at it as something i cant control, yes, but i CAN try to shape it to make the trauma response more comfortable, but most importantly, SAFER for myself. it was a really long road of that. but yeah, seeing other people find joy in their community, and finding joy with others, in something i was absolutely mortified to be experiencing was really helpful in the long run.

the other big thing that helped me was trying to figure out, and really peg down, WHY it's happening - and by rhat, i mean two things. "WHY is it happening RIGHT NOW?" and "WHY is it happening AT ALL?"

So, why is it happening right now? This moment youre having where you are regressing. What caused it? Can you try to mediate those causes? Can you potentially eliminate some of those trauma triggers - and if not, can you work up a resistance to them? Its okay if you cant - but being able to at least ID it really helped me remove myself from situations i would he in danger in if I regressed.

And, why is it happening at all? If its a trauma thing... what caused it? I have a few things that I know contributed to my regression, and even with thinking through those, I can't hold back some moments... *but* it gave me peace of mind, and iver time, I was eventually able to regress differently - still involuntarily, but i wasn't scared and i felt safe, it happening in situations where i felt taken care of and safe rather than before when i'd get so terrified of something it would just happen. a lot of traumas that cause stuff like this - and similar things - can't be resolved... but I found great comfort in IDing them, understanding that it might be a reason, and thinking about why things ended up with THAT causing THIS. i hope that makes sense.

I guess the take-away that I want to leave you with is that theres no reason to be scared, or embarrassed, or shameful... it's normal, and you aren't alone. there are people out there who are going through similar things and are coping with their regression and turning it from something you hide to something you can talk freely and happily about in a small community 🩷 know yourself, know your causes, and try your best to feel comfortable even if its a trauma response - make it yours, and use others to help steer you into it, ig...

i hope this helped. i know its scary, but you'll get through it. i used to cry whenever i thought about how my body went against me and made me shameful, but now i feel much better after watching the community love e/o... which made me love that part of myself, which i can't be shameful of anymore.

good luck!!

hihi buddy same anon. another thig id recommend is making a side space for you to indulge in that - i made a sideblog and get to indulge myself there, normalize myself with that side of me in a safe space... i first did it as a way for no one to connect me to my main (after an ugly falling out with friends i remade everything, but the similar url scared me that theyxd find me - and then - find the agere stuff and harass me about it, because i had never shared it with either of them), but i realized very fast that it kind of helped me be FREE with it

Good morning (or evening, whichever it is for you),

I hope answering publicly is alright; please let me know if not and I can remove this. Thank you very much for the detailed advice-- it was very heartwarming to wake up and see your messages here.

I will try to understand more about this and identify the causes; I know what 'triggered' the most recent episode, and what causes regression for me/us in general, but further reflection is always good.

It's very nice to know that this is something other people have been through and come out the other side of as well. I will make a sideblog I think; if you would be willing to share your URL as you mentioned, I would like to follow you-- I am also somewhat introverted so I may not directly message at all, but it would help even just to know someone kind is around. I will leave anon on for you so please send at your leisure, if you are comfortable.

Thank you again; this was incredibly kind of you to do, and it is not lost on me. You give me hope, anonymous.

[bakurapika]

umm does tagging something ns/fw as a joke actually give it a community label. and follow up question to confirm, does that label the entire post or just the post on your blog. and does it risk either accounts being marked mature

edit: ok i just added the / so that the tag is not literally those 4 letters all strung together and it removed the mature label.

wtf actually

by the way, i'll post something ACTUALLY not safe 4 work below as a contrast:

yes those were tags suggested to me becuase i WAS looking at something ns/fw-coded. but these were full-on pr0n gifs just being suggested to me by tumblr itself :/

also do i really need to censor myself like im on proboards in 2004...

[oswlld]

Thank you Jessi for reminding me that I had “Under The Skin” in my (never-ending) watchlist >< Seeing your reblogs made me finally start it!

!!!!! omgYES 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

idk what is in the water but it's so addicting. if anyone reading this is planning to jump in as well, here's some cw i have come across so far (DISCLAIMER- i am only up to the first 7 eps so stay cautious and dont @ me if i miss one that happens later on in the series; SOME CW LISTED WILL NOT BE SPOILER FREE; lastly, please feel free to chime in with more if more happens in the later part that ppl should be cautious about) :

NOTE - its mostly a copaganda show, its not a full fledge CopagandaTM but im only seated because of the art/creative influence in the series; anyways, as a crime investigation series, it stands to mention that death/murder is an overarching content warning but specifically

visual depictions of su*cide in ep 5 and attempted su*cide in ep 5 and 7

graphic depictions of cyanide poisoning in ep 2/3

video depictions of non-consensual r*pe and threats of revenge p*rn in ep 2/3

(mild) visual depictions of drowning in ep 7 (to my knowledge there's more in ep 8 but i have not started yet)

visual depictions and further verbal trauma of s*xual abuse between an adult and a minor (teacher and a student) in ep 4/5

i know its implied, but most notably in ep 6, visual depiction of blood (not excessivly graphic but the tone was triggering enough)

+ more: guns, bullying, alcohol, emotional abuse, and body dysmorphia

i know there's more but this is all i can think of for now! i want everyone to stay safe going into it; i certainly went into this blind but have watched other shows of this kind so it didn't chase me away. there's still plenty of lighthearted moments and a hefty amount of art references that kept me glued, just enough to keep the series at a perfect balance

this will likely be labeled mature, just to be cautious. its still a really good show to me