#so maybe illl like this lol

[gifti3]

I don't know anything about zentico past whats in the current event, All I know is Rafael is very cute :^)

[motherforthefamicom]

wait check out this shitty animation i made the other night

[science-lings]

I cannot believe I spent weeks and months agonizing over the sword trials and then here I go beating the final trials with four fairies to spare in one try

[cultofsappho]

20 questions for fic writers

Thank you so much @myheartalivewrites!! i feel so guilty getting these tags when I haven't posted on ao3 in a hot minute haha

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently, 16. but i orphaned a lot back in the day. I think i've probably written closer to 25-30 total in my life.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

300,037!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Red, White & Royal Blue mostly but i've been thinking baout branching out soon. I've also written Snowbaz, Cemetery Boys, and Jonjay

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Family Lines

How To Be Friends With The FSOTUS

With All The Air In My Lungs

Asking For Permission

Décollage

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to but i'm not the best honestly, working on getting better and replying to more! I always feel guilty when I can't think of a response haha

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Definitely I'm Taking A Ride With My Best Friend. It's bittersweet to say the least. When you've gone through hell and back with your person, and he's hurt you, but he's also the best part of your life... how do you move forward? how do you re-learn to coexist when you're no longer running for your life? I somehow thought I could answer those questions in one epilogue chapter....

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of my endings are very very happy, but probably Family Lines. Adoption, and family, and recovery, and ahhhh adorable family being adorable things!!

2nd place might be Poison in His Blood bc i wrote this angsty ass chonic illlness werewolf au fic and the fluffy (lol) ending took all of us by suprise I think

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really, but i've had a few like "i really wanted it to end like ____ :( " or "I think there's more you could have dug into with ____ :(" which i know aren't hate, but disppointing readers feels similar.

And once, a trump supporter got mad at me in my Superman and Lois fic's comments. Which is still fucking hilarious to this day bc for some reason they thought a literal alien wouldn't support immigration reform... and this was a comic book fan fic about superman's son being bi as all hell... fascinating...

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yes and no. Have I written smut? yes. like, twice total. Do I enjoy writing it? no. I read a ton of it but, it's not my writing niche.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not yet!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not yet! very open to it tho!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No and I don't think I would. I'm too much of a perfectionist

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

alex and henry 🥺 the best boys of all best boys

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

the spiderman one. I had an idea for Henry being Pretty Darn Sure that Alex is spiderman and putting himslf into situations where he'd run into him but... if across the spiderverse didn't reignite my love for spiderman enough to write it then idk what will

16. What are your writing strengths?

probably dialogue, including internal dialogue, I think. It comes much easier to me than ambiance/setting descripitons.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

smut for one. definitely need to work on pacing too.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I avoid it heavily. I took 4 years of french in high school but it's been years since then and my knowledge on it is preschool at best. another thing to work on tho!!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I can't even remember anymore and I never want to know. trist me, you want me to repress that shit even more than I do.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

jesus how could any writer pick??? Maybe I'm Taking A Ride With My Best Friend. It's my longest fic, and was definitly my biggest challenge. And, although there's things I'd change about it if I could, i'm still very proud of what I made! my traumatic little baby...

oh my no idea who to tag here so i'm going for the mutuals again, so sorry if you've already been tagged and no pressure!! @penna-nomen @cosmicalart @sherryvalli @jesuisici33 @14carrotghoul @cha-melodius and open tag to anyone who hasn't shared yet!!

[medicasino]

SINCE I KNOW THEM.... 3 and 15 for da hyacinth please

HEHEHEHHEHEH the Cinth......... okay this will be long as hell im so sorry bestie

SO.

3. Their playlist. Drop their playlist (or, if it's extremely long, the most fitting songs on it) and include specific lyrics from each song you consider to be the most fitting. Explanation not required but you can if you feel like it! Do not care about cringe. It is fun.

MUSIC TIME???? indulging me???????

okay her playlist is SO long but illl drop a couple of the Most Fitting ones! i think i've done something like this before but i never did an explanation. im shy sharing explanations on main bc i dont want ppl to think im cringe or get super inspired but fuck it lets go

"Sensitive to fate, not denial / But hey, who's on trial? / It took a lifespan with no cellmate / The long way back" and "You've come to love me lightly / Yeah, you come to hold me tight / Is this motion ever lasting / Or just shutters pass through the night?" - Evil by Interpol (Very great song with super fun lyrics,,,,,, basically a reminder of "ah, i can't love anyone or be loved, it won't last because i'll have to hurt them")

"Winding down our emotions / Family and friends becoming ghosts to dream of / And pass on, time will erase / Every faith, every name / We are alone, no one to blame" - Bernadette by IAMX (another banger! this one is slightly loosely applied EXCEPT for these lyrics because wuh oh ur not allowed to have friendships, ur evil remember? thats ur only purpose in life to cause ruin and be alone)

"I know that you mean so well / But I am not a vessel for your good intent / I will only break your pretty things / I will only wring you dry of everything / And if you're fine with that / If you're fine with that / I will poison all your happy thoughts / I will love you like the ashes in my cigarette box" - Tongues & Teeth by The Crane Wives (See above stuff . im getting very shy now so the following may not have as many explanations im shyyyy and i dont wanna be crucified for music choices)

"Is it all just smoke and mirrors? / Am I a victim of your theatre? / Retribution for your bliss / I consumed it all, just like a tick / You're me improved, it makes me sick / You turned my heart into a fist / You need to know how I have felt / I'll drag you down with me to hell" - Scroll of Sorrow by Machine Girl (no more explanations sowwy i got shyyyyy ;w; but this song is WILD and i love it. very Hyacinthcore)

think thats about it for lyrics i feel inclined to share im. very shy about sharing lyrics actually bc i dont want to disrespect the creators of the songs but i did look into these ones to make sure theyre not super personal before i shared (if they are and i missed that i apologize ;;w;; and i will remove them if so)

Okay now time for my original ideas

15. What would their theme song/leitmotif be titled? What would it sound like, if you have an idea?

UM GOOD QUESTION i havent really thought of that yet! But since her story is gonna be turned into a video game hopefully I should probably think about what her theme's gonna be called LOL. Maybe something relating to her role as the literal embodiment of evil or like a reference to how she doesn't really have free will but definitely HAS the ability to think and hates what she's forced to be. as for what it sounds like, OH DEFINITELY orchestral-style breakcore with glitches. Very volatile and unstable but surprisingly sorrowful with melodic areas, if that makes sense?

[tessbev]

Day 1 Ha Giang Loop

Wow gonna do this in parts because there’s just so much to say about this trip. We woke up around 830 and had some breakfast. Seems like an egg banh mi is the standard. It’s basically a mini baguette with egg tomato and cucumber. Pretty good but nothing amazing. Does the trick. We had a little orientation, went over the route and talked about what to expect and what we were going to see. Afterwards we chose our helmets (of course none fit me but I found a little red lone with Anna and Elsa from frozen on it that did the trick. Felt perfect for the passenger princess that I am). We met our drivers shortly after, mines name was bang, pronounced like bung and he was wearing a sweater that Paige and I tried on a few days earlier, it was such a funny coincidence (I’ll post a pic). He was awesome, most of the drivers were. They didn’t speak much (if any) English and some of them couldn’t read so you couldn’t even give them the phone to google translate but mine could and he knew the basics “you okay” “so beautiful” (the scenery, not me) “let’s go”. He also taught me how to say “let’s go” in Vietnamese. I heard “knee toy” (phonetically) but when looking up it’s actually “di thoi” but we said it all week so I must of been pronouncing it okay. He also said beautiful was “tem” but when looking it up it says it’s “xinh đẹp” so maybe it’s their slang who knows there was a big language barrier lol.

We all paid for drivers but there were about 70 people starting the loop when we were and they didn’t have a driver for nick so he ended up driving himself the first day (this gave me major anxiety because I had heard the roads were pretty intense but he did fine and had a blast).

The first day was pretty cold, about 12 degrees and super overcast and wet. I had on a tank top, two long sleeves, a t shirt, a sweatshirt and a windbreaker and then leggings and joggers overtop. Like mother like daughter lol I was the perfect temp. We stopped lots along the way at all the amazing viewpoints and also to stretch the legs and give our bottoms a break. The motorbikes were “crotch rockets” as dad likes to say and by day 3 my butt was so sore. The price you pay for being a passenger princess! We stopped at this one place where you could watch the women making clothes and bags. They were weaving and painting and I wish I could have bought so many things but we only brought our day backpacks and it was already bursting so I just bought a keychain. We were told all about how Vietnamese women are known for being extremely hardworking. They had to be because historically the men were constantly at war. The day was amazing, such a cool experience.

We made it to our hostel finishing the day around 430. We were there with about half the group so 35 ish people and we were the only ones at the hostel which was super fun. The room had 14 mattresses on the floor and not an inch of space in between. Crammed like sardines but it was only for a night and I’m no diva I can sleep anywhere (foreshadowing a bit here... ) We played some card games and pool before dinner was served. It was done family style and we split up our group and sat with new people (not intentionally but super happy we did). The food was so good, rice, tofu, spring rolls, salad, rice chips, beef and pork. We traded our meat for the next tables tofu. There was also this chilli garlic soy sauce and a sweet chilli that I poured on everything. Ugh so yummy. They also fed us happy water shots all dinner. I could do a whole post about happy water but illl just give you the jist.

Happy water is basically corn wine. Because northern Vietnam is so mountainous it’s really hard to grow food so they started planting corn to sustain themselves. The consistency is just like water but it tastes like alcohol lol. They gave it to us in water bottles (like you would with moonshine) and you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference between it and water by just looking at it. They taught us a Vietnamese chant and fed us shots all throughout dinner. Let me tell you it lived up to its name. Maybe the best drunk I’ve ever had? Actually a tie with one night in Australia drinking goon but anyways it had me, a person who typically hates karaoke, grabbing the mic and screaming the classics. The vibes we immaculate, it was so much fun. Nick sang brown eyed girl (little homage to yours truly).

We made some friends from the states and tried to teach them our card game rules, but they were pretty stubborn and annoying about our variation. Ended up having a bit of an argument with them as they wouldn’t shut up about New York City being the best and greatest city in the world blah blah blah. They were pretty arrogant and it was a shame cause they were so cool at first. Would it shock you to know that they’re from New York? If that’s the hill they want to die on so be it, I could never make such a blanket statement having never of even visited BILLIONS of cities out there. Oh well. We put ourselves to bed around midnight and recharged for our next day.

[simpyduneslittlething]

Fema's masterlist

Lego monkie kid:

Mk:

Mei:

Redson:

Sun Wukong:

Macaque:

Yin:

Jin:

Syntax:

Spider Queen:

Tang:

Pigsy:

Sandy:

Nezha:

(I may make exceptions depending on the day, but For the most part the guys are all I'll write for at the moment.)

ROTTMNT:

Leo:

Donnie:

Raph:

Mikey:

April:

Casey Jr:

Cassandra:

Big mama:

(Again, all I got at the moment. I put Casey cause he needs more fics on him.)

Invader Zim:

Zim:

Dib:

Gaz:

Prof. Membrane:

Tak:

Zib:

Red:

Purple:

(All I got For now, maybe if I forgot a character just let me know.)

Epithet Erased:

Giovanni:

Molly:

Mera:

Indus:

Zora:

Percival:

Ramsey:

Sylvester:

Cookie Run Kingdom:

There too many characters to list, i'll do most so Just request it and i'll get to it when I can.

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What I will do:

Fluff

platonic

Familial

smut ( i'm not fully confortable with it but i'll try ┐⁠(⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠)⁠┌)

others (I have no idea what else lol)

What I won't do:

age gaps (like kids and adult, thats just gross.)

Angst (My weak heart cant even consider sad stuff.)

Others (again no idea, illl know if I see it tho)

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My mainly active times are from 8:30am to 8:00pm from monday to friday, I don't go on during the weekend since thats my time off of everything. Please don't spam the ask box, that'll stress anyone out. Have fun and don't be scared to request something I don't judge. 😘✌️

[videostak]

my steve reich double sextet/2x5 CD came today so everything i had ordered arrived so im gonna go downtown again someday soon :D i think ill go like monday or tuesday once ive gotten more used to taking care of dendy and am comfortable leaving him for a few hours. it’s rly awesome how chill cassette is w/ him tho it makes me so happy cause i wanted to keep him but was worried cassette would try to fight him or be uncomfortable and snap at him but shes rly ok w/ him and like doesnt freak out at all its rly great. so like i can just leave them alone together and she wont attack him and will just mind her own business tho i think she gets annoyed when he starts meowing to get out of his box lol. anyways i wanna go downtown again soon now to find some jazz CDs from herbie hancock, wayne shorter, sun ra, ornette coleman, albert ayler, ahmad jamal, pharoah sanders, and maybe some miles davis if they have any ones like round about midnight or any of his electric stuff that i dont have yet. then i wanna also look for blue cheers first album cause i wanna get some heavy 60s hard rock but dont like zeppelin or sabbath that much rly lol and i heard some of blue cheer and liked it oh and i also wanna get some of like the british electric blues stuff like john mayall and early fleetwood mac. and then some normal blues hopefully can find a good compialtion of like muddy waters or those compilations of robert johnson. oh and i wanna look for sunflower by the beach boys or surfs up bcuz ive been putting off those albums hoping to find them at a CD store but keep forgetting lol. tho mainly sunflower cause thats a great album especially deirde and slip on through w/ the cool effect on the cowbell lol. OH and wanna look for those reissues of the shaggs two albums that light in the attic did especially their second album! oh and maybe some dub specifcally lee perry cause ive been wanting to get more of his stuff cause i only have two compilations of his. well im obv not gonna buy all that cause i think i only have like 40$ in my acct  there and i rly doubt im gonna find all that or even most of it but thats my main list of things to look for but i also have more stuff but illl see cause im only gonna buy stuff i rly feel like getting at the moment

[forsworned]

waaaahomygoshh thank you for answering my requesttt i looove ittt thank you thank you and that sleeping positions fic was so cute too!! gahhhhh i want a hug from that man i need a gyomei where can you even find one AHHH ; _ ;

you're very welcome anon!! i just thought i would throw another thing out there since i haven't posted a writing in sooooo long i feel like gyomei would give the best hugs he's literally my comfort character sooooo idk maybe illl make one of how they hug you LOL JJAJF

[snickiebear]

Hi snickie, for the questions game how about: 02, 26 and 34?

OMG HI BIRK!!!! ok so apologies rn bc i yam just a uhhhhhh intoxicated so i am rambling so sorry <333333 i hope u are having a great weekend!!!! MWAH

02. who did you last day "I love you to"

outloud?? um. i think my friend when i was leaving her house in the rain and i shouted it but im not sure if she heard me,, illl be honest: i don't really say i love you outloud too much, which idk. i say "love you bye" when hanging up the phone but other than that,,, it's hard?? for me to tell people i love them

online of course it's easiar but also not? like i tell my online homies i love them all the time like everyday bc i genuinely do!!! but even then i was hesitant,,, so idk it's just hard for to tell people i love them i guess? jfc this got sad LOL MOVING ON

26. what are you craving right now

freedom and money LOL the freedom to do what im passionate about and enough money to where i can afford to invest in my passion (aka writing, the dream would be to publish a book, but i plan on majoring into psychology and then to neurology and maybe??? phd depending really on everything lol). i still want to work for my mom but enough to keep me on my feet and spend wisely and invest in stocks and all that shit you know?

32. what is your favorite color?

GREEEEN. i LOVE green. the darker and paler shades of green not the neon or bright ones but like GREEn. i love it. idk why just calls to me and i am in love with it!!!

[doolkat]

overall review of eurovision this year? i can tell you hated moldova and switzerland and said maneskin looks like the type of group to do drugs (which is... weird) but other than that what did you actually like

Good question anon! Also wow people really still read my esc posts from may.. huhu bit embrassing looking back at some of my reactions but I was in the moment ahahah. plus they are justified in my eyes pftt

Maybe I expressed myself too strongly on some things so they came off as very negative.Oops well I got a change to clean that all up now.

I didnt hate maneskin tbh I just dont get the hype.

Only one I truely hated was Moldova lmao cuz the song was geniuely so bad it shouldnt been in finale at all.

Switzerland was bad to me cuz of extreme sensory over load and I dont like french language. Idk I guess I dont have romantic ear but I honestly just dont like the language.

Also I enjoyed almost all songs besides the ones u mentioned!

Personal favorite song and unpopular af opinion is that I enjoyed Australias song technicolor. Also I somehow enjoyed Azerbaijan mata hari, idk it was catchy af!

I felt emotinal connection to Australias song and Azerbaijan was just catchy and kinda funny to me. Idk why it reminded me of Floppa lmaoo

Best stage performance with intresting song to me was Ukraine!Really cool visual and dance. SONG SLAPS WITCH ENERGY

Cool movie like performance and touching entry was by Norway to me.

Finland had some good emo rock song imo. I liked it much more than Italy actully maybe I dont like Italy that much cuz Im bitter that Finland didnt get super high place lol.(Im half finnish so I stand by my finnish emo rock boys)

Lithuania my fellow baltics friend did good performance too this year. I enjoyed their funny performance. If u want some thing funny check Germany and Lithuania. Germany seems kinda like troll entry this year. Lithuanias song was good plus it was funny too kinda.

Speaking of funny DENMARK! they didnt do very good but I loved their song and its catchy af and doesnt take itself too seriously plus if u read the lyrics its a NONSENSE. xd

Hosts this year - absolute ass. My least favorite part about esc this year. Nikkitutorials was there.. yeah but I feel like the hosts didnt make any funny comments and I felt like all the songs came on so so fast cuz there werent really any breaks. My ass had Hard time fully focusing on all songs because of that. I think some people can relate to that. I dont know if I didnt understand the jokes but the host imo didnt have any connection with the audience or viewers. Too many of them anyways to me. I missed Jon Olan Sand too.

Visuals and performances-

very cool and OVERWHELMING. I had at least 3 moments where my head hurted a bit. Could be cuz of the visuals itself being so flashy or just how eyes couldnt catch a break cuz the pauses this year were nonexistant or very very short so for my brain and eyes it was hard to progress. Nothing too Crazy happend on stage tho this time. Giant finger and Greece performance.

Greece performance was pretty cool btw. viusally at least. The song imo was alwful. lol

Voting - AS usual with few suprises. Our estonian host told us in begging of esc that fortune tellers say Italy will win.. and then quess what. So that was kinda boring maybe thats also why I cant seem to like their song. I wish the fortune tellers would be wrong sometime or I wouldnt know but our host Marko Reikop literally always tells us who fortune tellers will think will win so yeah. That always comes AS dissapointment if they are right.

Opinion on Italy : Typical rock stars who happen to bisexual so tumblr and other lgbt communities can pump them up but this time the song happens to be good. Thats what I think please dont take this AS offence but the hype is so overrated like yeah their good and HOT but like we get it.I havent seen this much hype over a winner in a while I dont know why they are so different from every other winner. I just feel like some of this is queerbiting.. idk some thing about lgbt community going so Crazy about bisexual performing is Crazy to me. I just dont get it. IT was good song tho ill give them that but not that much better than other songs in contest.

Over all it was good eurovision imo! I dont rember having this much songs that I liked and saved in my playlist in many years.

I liked the songs and performances I feel like lot of them were high quitaly this year with expection of few countries. The crowd was really seemed to enjoy esc and everyone here on tumblr and on esc reaction communities really seemed in the element! Which made me more hyped and excited to watch esc. IT was very enjoyable event to enjoy with other people from all over the world this year and everyone felt connectef after the pandemic! Thats whats best about it this year imo. Every really seemed to. enjoy themselves and I did too. Eurovision is connecting people and everyone was happy to have it back after last year it didnt happen.!

I dont know anon if u wanted me to do review on all the countries performances too. If yes please do let me know. U can be anonmyous. Illl gladly tell and can even make different post about it.

I know my Italy comment probaly is controversial but I just wanted to get it out.

Thanks for the ask! 💓IT was nice reflecting back on esc!!

[transrightsjimin]

lol i finished the introduction to my policy proposal, got to the part where i realized i had to include theory abd thus have to concentrate on reading articles, got a headache amd panicked, went to my friend's room, bothered him ab t it, somehow ended up stressing out abt life after university, had an existential crisis abt not knowing what my capabilities are besides drawing (which i also rarely do nowadays) and i dont want to lie about being capable bc i hate lying unless it is to protect someone, i just cant lie anymore since i stopped living w my parents and i especially dont want to lie abt things i cant do, but apparently you need to in order to make it in life but i just consistently make so many mistakes bc of autism nd adhd (clumsiness / bad concentration / forgetful, like i dont even remember most of c my colleagues' names / lack of insight / being slow / taking very very long to learn practical things / issues with processing sensory input timely / panicking when not given clear instructions / fatigue from social interaction) and they just wont get better and i dont want to lie abt it bc i a. dont want to be a dishonest person, b. i am not that confident to pretend im someone skilled, which im not and c. i will never get better at these things bc illl have these issues for life. and i really dont know what profession ill end up doing in the future bc i dont have much knowledge in any arts discipline or field or whatever, and especially contemporary art and entrepreneurial stuff is big in the arts where i live and i just dont know shit abt that aside from general trends / conventions and it doesnt interest me anyway. i dont know any arts field tht rly interest me that much and the most interestung stuff is prob what depends on mainly volunteers. idk man. i just feel depressed and keep crying bc ill either end up with a parttine job and financial struggles, a typical working class job like my current mail delivery one bc thats at least something i know im somewhat capable of, or ill end uo on welfare but idk bc the last time i applied for welfare as an adult they sent me in this course for people to learn how to make resumes and job motivations, which i know how to do, but i cant do the shit that comes after that. i just dont know what i can do bc ive never been able to do anything well except drawing but i cant make it as an illustrator bc that takes a lot of entrepreneurship which i just dont have nor want to have. i just want to be able to live. im also worried bc of the fusion between PostNL and SANDD bc we still have no idea whats going to happen but colleagues are very sure that people will be fired / wont have their contracts prolonged and since im now at the age for adult wage and work only 4 hours a week in my contract, i dont know how much they would want to keep me as a worker for them. i rly worry that ill lose this small job bc it still creates a small additional income of 175-300 euros per month (depending on the amount of extra hours) and i rly need that income bc the loan i'm taking for studying is almost the maximum of what is allowed (my loan is 920 euros) and i will by the end of 2019 / early 2020 not have the right to free usage of public transport in midweeks anymore. though i can get discounts for students itll still get so expensive? or maybe i should cycle to school, which is another possibility but idk. everything is just so expensive and im overwhelmed and just keep sobbing since an hour agi and i feel bad for bothering my friend w my sudden existential crisis

[lemonlimetoast]

Being me on tiktok is just *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches account* *switches accoun

[fuckstaying]

Mate fml idk I feel like either tomorrow or tonight is gonna be sooo fucking long like I can’t stay like this man idk what it is but I think I’m slowly falling apart idk honestly I can’t tell if I’m good or not or what like is it just me or is this all like fucked like I’m fuckeddddd like also wonder what happens when u die this show on Netflix with Natasha Lyonne the oitnb legend who I wish was like my mum (that’s harsh my mums good ngl but idk she probs has her problems cause like people think I’m great sometimes and I’m pretty terrible) honestly idk mayb I’m just freaking out and I’ll feel better tomorrow (lol probably gonna make some plans to help that if I’m not cause cbaaaaa for this I’m tired and not well but ok for now I think) sometimes ya gotta do watcha gotta do to survive and I think survival is great when it’s not me having to do it. I heard and remembered something I heard very much earlier tonight “everyone feels pain but suffering is something you create, you can either live and suffer with the pain or just try and take the pain” and I’m not sure if that’s right cause I’m in fucking pain and I don’t see a choice in this suffering man yoooo deffo gonna delete this when I’m high or some shit cause it’s embarrassing but rn I can’t honestly like honestly fml fuck me for honest to god messing myself up and if God’s real fuck him or her (I’m not sexist I love woman too Ay I am one idc black white asain man woman whatever whatever god looks like) fuck them for letting me fuck myself over soooo much n ruining my body and my mind and idk god if I die soon (better not be before I delete this lol) but if I do u never kno, remember I’m an asshole it was probably my fault ok be happy ugh now I’ve gotta try and sleep through this shit and pray I can sort shit out or if I can’t sleep I’ll try some shit I’m very malleable and good at trying to help myself to the point of hurting but we shall see I love basically everyone as long as ur idk empathetic or nice just be nice man we’re all fucking hurting even tho tomorrow’s gonna probs be fucked but hey ho have a good night sleep well illl be here dying (not really fuck I wish it was that easy) that’s a little deep but this shall be gone soon unless I do die but probs won’t hasn’t happened yet and I’m pretty fucking tougj but another de ja vu moment once at a birthday party someone told me I was kinda like a cockroach cause I couldn’t die and that happens in the show with Natasha and I got shook for a Sec like I guess it’s a normal metaphor to some extent but idk it made me remember something I didn’t need to remember but it’s not too deep I’m just tired and ill but yesss I’ll probs go reblog some crazy shit now so yhghghgggghhhh let me b and be u mate love yourself and love everyone elseeeee