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kairiscorner · 1 year

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a request for you, if its okay!! you've been such an amazing writer and kind to others, its amazing!! ! again, IF its okay with you!! ! just friends to lovers with noir and an oblivious reader who gets flustered a lot by noir?? have a lovely day!!!

OH HI ANON :DDD ofc it's okay !! i love hearing y'all's requests, sorry i haven't been accepting them for a little while ! and i hope this is any good :'DD

(reblogs are greatly appreciated, it helps get my content out there! if you guys like what you see, please reblog it too <:D)

summary: you didn't understand just what this feeling meant, why you would freeze up and lose yourself when you were around him. it wasn't uncomfortable, but you didn't want to feel like you were going crazy over him.

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oh the things this man does to you, you can't even begin to describe--because you never realized it was because of him, or that your feelings were anything but platonic for him. you were a very dear friend to peter benjamin parker, and he was a dear friend to you, too. you both knew each other from inside and out, knew each other's little habits, noticed little changes in each other's appearances, could tell what the other was thinking just by glancing at their face--you two were just the closest to each other.

he was always a sweetheart towards you, no matter how aloof he appeared to others. he always offered to carry your things for you, asked you how your day went, complimented you in outfits he'd never seen you in before, snapped photos of you when you let him because he's genuinely never seen anyone who looked as amazing as you do naturally. and you could say it's just butterflies in your stomach because of how intense his gaze towards you can be, but you swear you feel a little tingly when he looks at you like that, when he does things for you, butters you up just a little when in reality he truly does means it.

you couldn't tell why you felt so different around peter, like you were a lot more self-conscious before you'd meet up with him--fussing over such little details about your outfit, your hair, your everything. but that self-consciousness would met away when he'd smile at you and flatter you with praise about how lovely you looked that day. and then, you'd feel that familiar light, airy feeling; that feeling you get when all his attention is on you, when everything in the world slows down just a little to prolong the time you two have together.

this feeling drove you a little mad, it kept you up at night for days on end at times, with you asking yourself just what changed? what changed in you that you'd notice peter's dimples a lot more when he grinned? what changed in you that you felt a shiver up your spine when he'd accidentally put his hand over yours? what changed in you that you found yourself gazing at his lovely red lips when you two were face to face?

you tried convincing yourself you just missed him was all, but how could you miss him? you two met up every day before and after work as much as you could, you two spent every weekend together, for goodness' sake! it was more than just missing him, you... oh, you couldn't find the right word for it. you ended your nights with the bleak hope that this feeling that confused you so would leave you be the next morning. but alas, it worsened.

you'd wake up searching for him, and you realized, you've been dreaming about him. it got to the point where you stopped hanging out with peter before work, then it extended to not hanging out with him after work. during weekends, you excused yourself to him, saying you had errands to run, things to do. altogether, you two stopped hanging out for a week, all in the hopes that you wouldn't feel this way about him anymore. but you longed for him even more now that he wasn't with you.

neither of you could take it anymore, you had to tell him how you felt. it was a heavy weight on you to deal with these feelings alone, and despite how difficult it seemed, you had a feeling that telling him would lessen the burden. so you picked up the telephone one evening and called him, and immediately, you heard his voice on the other end. "hello--" "peter, i think i'm... i think i'm crazy about you." you confessed, leaving peter confused on the other end.

"doll, what do you mean?" he asked, perplexed, causing you to become even more frustrated. "look, even i don't know! i just know that, for a long time now, i've felt so... so weird about us." you explained in a soft voice as you twirled the cord of the telephone on your finger. "i find myself staring at your dimples when i catch you smiling, me freezing up when you accidentally touch my hand, and when you look into my eyes... i find my gaze going down to your lips. i've gone nights without sleeping because i always find myself thinking about you!" you admitted, feeling a ton of embarrassment rushing through your veins.

peter was silent on the other end for a little bit, when he realized you were finished, he chuckled a little. "are you saying you... feel the same way i do for you?" he asked with a slight crack in his voice, evidence of his flustered expression. your eyes went wide as he said that. "the same way you do for..." "yes, doll, the same was you do for me." he finished with a tone of embarrassment, similar to yours.

"i think i... i think i love you, doll. i've loved you for heaven knows how long." he said with an awkward slight chuckle. you felt incredibly flustered when you heard him say that word, that he loves you, that he's loved you for a long time now. "...i think i love you, too, peter." you replied bashfully, with a grin on your face that just grew the moment you heard him put down the phone on its side as he rejoiced in the background. "well... can we... go back to hanging out like before? it's just that, you know... we'd be on a date then?" he suggested, trying to sound cool, but ended up sounded so, so flustered.

"i'd love to, pete." you said, to which he rejoiced again away from the phone. "meet you tomorrow at the station at 6:30, i'll be there with a big bouquet of violets." he promised, and you giggled. "you called the poppies we saw on the way home from work last time violets." you reminded him, which caused him to blush from the tips of his ears down to his collarbone. "r-right... right, why not i get you a big bouquet of poppies? you're prettier than all of the flowers we've seen, though. i know you know it." he complimented you, which made you giggle a little. "stop it, pete..." "never. not when i have the sweetest lover in the whole world with me on the phone. brace yourself, love, you're gonna go another restless night thinking about me, because i know i'll be dreaming about you all over again."

tags !! @thecoolerdor @miguelswifey04 @sabcandoit @binibinileonara @k4tsu3 @luvstarrstruck @connors-cumslurper @maxoloqy @fictarian

#spider noir #spider noir x reader #spider noir x you #spider noir x y/n #spider noir fluff #atsv #atsv x reader #atsv x you #atsv x y/n #atsv fluff #atsv imagines

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kaiserkisser · 9 months

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mutuals appreciation post <333

hello, everyone. this is my end of year mutuals appreciation post to thank each and every one of you here, who has put up with me enough to be friends with me. I simply can't put it into words how much I love yall and how much im grateful to all of you for being here, but I'll still try. I wish all of you a very very happy new year ❤

@delusina kaz, thank you. thank u sm for everything. you were my first mutual and i love you sm for that. almost all the friends i have right now, they're thanks to you. i still remember sending you cat pics every week in the beginning (im sorry i forgot to continue that 😭) and you and vi are the reason ✿❀ anon exists <3 ilysmm <333

@floraldresvi VIVI. ILYSM. ik ive already sent you a new year ask but still i can never express my appreciation for you enough <3 thank you sm vi for literally always being there for me, and i hope i can return the favor whenever you need :) i lovelovelove seeing you in my notifs :)) also baivi rules <333

@chosokisser mai my bbg my love /p again, ive already mesaaged you, but still, im so glad i have you in my life. if you need absolutely anything, if you just wanna talk to smn, or anything, ill always be here. in fact, we can even commit arson together if you want :DD and remember that me and choso adore you to heaven and back <333

@haithamvoid again, thank you sm for being friends with me. <33 im literally so glad for the day i opened tumblr to find mai forcing us to socialize XD we seem to have a bunch of shared interests and i remember the times we sent each other a bunch of kaiser (and gojo??) pics ehehe (also if you play genshin then on which server-)

@damyoujackson uhm thank u sm for being my irl bestie. I mean it. honestly i dont think ive actually had a friend i clicked with as much as i did with you in a long time. ik its probably not easy putting up with someone weird like me so erm tysm.. in all seriousness im really glad we're friends <33 ( we do NOT talk abt this in school OKAY.) (<- me being awkward)

@noomon you are an absolutely amazing, warm and pleasant person to be around! (And i love your aesthetic too omg) anyways you're very caring and nice and i always perk up whenever i see you in my notifs or inbox <33

@mikacynth mikaaa its been agesss i hope you're doing alright and uni is treating you well </3 again, one of my first mutuals that i interacted with bc you were a 'mutual in law' of mine hehe :) you're also an awesome and fun person to be around, so remember that me and kaeya love u <333

@yinyinggie yingg! You're such a big blog, so thank you sm for interacting with me! you're totally wonderful, and im so glad i got to participate in the ebg hosted by you hehe that was SO much fun <333(and it hurt my heart too but nvm-) anyways ilysmm <33

@alexisomnias aaah alexisss we dont interact much these days but still, i love you so so much, you are someone i always love seeing on my dash or in my notifs <3 and i adore alekav too its so cutee <333

@kitorin omg yes soutaa you're another person who shows up on my dash often and i love that you do <3 i hope you dont mind all the times ive tagged you in smth ahshshdhb i also always smile whenever i see u in my notifs so thank u smm for being moots with me <33

also to @ilyuu @m1shapanda @supernova25 @chooodles @camvrin @meidnightrain we havent interacted much this year, but ive loved seeing you guys often on my dash so i hope we interact more this next year <333 please dont mind me tagging you dhshsh

Happy New Year to all of you!!!! I hope you all have all the joys of the world and that all your wishes get fulfilled, because you guys totally deserve it 💕

I found a little something too here that i wanted to share with all of you since i thought you guys might like it <333

#🔮rambles~#🔮beloved-mutuals<333

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taavisplushies · 4 months

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Hey Taavi! I'm sorry that ye're doing bad right now, *offers ye a hug* /nf 💙💙💙

Love ye a lot and ye should know that ye're so, so strong <333

Here's some plushie photos to hopefully help distract ye <333333

Here's Light!! She's a Hannimations Colorful Kitty, and she saw a shooting star with me :3 her name is Light because of that, and because she brings light into my life hehe

Here are some of my pokemon plushies!! Only some have names: Hot Spot (the charmander), Phoebe (the shiny/blue mew), and Scout (the skitty)! I haven't named the others yet fgdb Phoebe and Scout go with me nearly everywhere :3

THE ORB I got for Hannukah!! He's super soft and a HUGE comfort plushie for me :D

Ava is a plushie I colored on to look like one of my characters! They're blind, but that doesn't stop them from running forward and exploring everywhere they can >:3 I thought of them to cheer me up/on about my own disabilities <333

HERE'S TEAM RWBY!!! + Little! They're all very soft and I try to bring Ruby and Weiss around in my backpack whenever I can dgsb :DD

Chat Noir with my baby llama plushies!!! Chat Noir cheers me on often, be that writing or roleplaying, and the baby llamas are huge comfort plushies to me :'3 (they're names are TBH (the white one) and BTW (the blue one!!)) One time, my step-dad balanced the baby llamas on his shoulders for like. 20 minutes cause he knew it'd make me happy fgsvcv :DD

TADA!! Watermelon and King!! I snuggle with Watermelon every night, she's so soft :3 and I hug King a lot too hehe (he's special cause he's missing a tooth!)

That's all for now!! Hopefully this helps a lil <333

Thank you Cow Cow!! I really appreciate it 🩵👍 you are always so nice!!!

Light is so cute!! I love the colors. I can’t believe you saw a shooting star!!! That’s so cool :0

Ohhh so many Pokémon!!! I like how Phoebe and Scout go with you everywhere! Are they named after the comic characters?

I love The Orb!!!!!!! He definitely looks soft… and squeezable!!! I wanna give him a hug!

I love Ava!!!!!! I love how they cheer you up about your own disabilities :’) that’s so sweet. They are super cool. Disabilities suck but we can still find ways to enjoy life!!!!!!!! I recently got a plush who inspires me in a similar way… he has a big scar on his belly from surgery, and I have lots of scars like that too! So he inspires me to be more confident in my scars :)

RWBY!!! I didn’t know they had plushies :0 I always say I’m gonna try watching the show but I never get a chance to :( sorry! But I know if you like it so much then there’s a chance that it’s a good show and I’ll like it too!! This plush group is super cool!!!

Heck yeah! Chat Noir and llamas cheering you on and comforting you!! The story with your step dad is so silly too :3

Watermelon and King!!! Watermelon is so pretty!! I love her design. I’m glad she helps you sleep!! The King plushie is adorable!!! When I watched The Owl House, he was one of my favorite characters!!! Super silly fella. I love the plush’s big ole eyes!!! He’s like 🥺

Thank you so much for showing me your plush friends!!! I really appreciate it. I loved hearing about them and seeing them!!!! It was a great distraction and has definitely cheered me up 🩵🩵🩵

I like how you have such a wide variety of plushies!! I also like how you take some of them with you to different places :) I want to do that one day too!

#not my plush #ask #cat #Pokémon #llama #people #dog #plushies #plush #safeplush #plushblr

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catcrazyx · 2 years

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for the ask game...... KAITO!! :D

EHEHE MY BABY!!!!!!!!! :DD THANK YOU!! Of course my fav character of all time, like really :3 right up there with Chiaki eheh.

Favorite thing about them: Basically everything!! He's such a complex and interesting character, I feel like there's soooo much to him, he's so cool to get to know more of, and his character alone gives me the opportunity to explore a lot of deep interesting topics and seeing things more grey rather than black and white. Besides, he's not perfect, and even though I love him, I found myself disagreeing with him a lot, which is seriously so amazing, I love flawed characters which make them more relatable and human!! Now more into Kaito himself, LIKE HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING, LIKE HE ACTUALLY ALWAYS CARED ABOUT EVERYONE AND WANTED EVERYONE TO SURVIVE AND FOLLOW THEIR DREAMS AND BE HAPPY! He hides himself bc he's scared to be seen as weak, but also bc he's scared of not being relied on, and if nobody relies on him he can't help anyone. He always puts others above himself even if he appears a bit cocky sometimes, he shows to be very insecure deep down, when he said "you fell for a guy like me" I literally CRIED, he deserves so much love. When I first saw him I thought he was a bit out there, and his design was not my thing, apart from the space design on the jacket, but now he's like super hot, everything about his design is beautiful bc it's so unique of him and I love him, even that stupid goatee I wanna touch it so badly AHHHH Kaito with his hair down also >>>>>> -

Least favorite thing about them: Like I said Kaito is not perfect, and what I dislike about him has got to be how he treated Ryoma. I wish they had gotten a better treatment like in the manga we get to see how Kaito really feels about Ryoma and Ryoma would also surely appreciate that support. But in the game, Kaito was very insensitive for sure, I consider that there's more deep down besides the idol thing, like, everybody forgets that Kaito was already dying by that point and he knew that. Him seeing his idol giving up on life when Kaito thinks he has a "choice" (it's not a matter of choice, but following Kaito's train of thought here) but Kaito himself does not have a choice, he has so many dreams but he knows he's dying and I feel like that must have had some impact on why he treated Ryoma like that, relating again, with the fact Ryoma was his idol, someone whom he admired to follow his own dreams, so I know it must be heartbreaking for Kaito, but it was still very insensitive, and I really wish they at least had some better interactions in UTDP, bc I really think these two deserved to be on better terms. -

Favorite line: J-Just one???? Nah, that's illegal. Here have a bunch of lines: 1. "Being able to share your burdens with others… that's how you get stronger" 2. "Hey! Were you guys making out while I was gone?!" 3. "Hey! Who you calling NPC, you A-S-S!?" 4. "If you want to give up, wait until you've done everything you possibly can!" 5. "The impossible is possible! All you gotta do is make it so!" 6. "No matter how many times we fight, we smile in the end... that's what true friendship is!" 7. "Sometimes you gotta be a little reckless to make your dreams a reality!" 8. "That could have been anyone walking around in women's underwear! Even me!" 9. "That's because, limits don't exist unless you set them yourself" 10. "I believe in you." -

BrOTP: With Himiko!! Not actually related, they are best friends! I had made a "understand my friendship" in 5 minutes post where I showed a bit their dynamic. Kaito sending Himiko very cute memes and images, while Himiko sending cursed things just to scare Kaito, but in a lighthearted way! Kaito actually believed in Himiko's magic or at least on how she wants to make people smile with her magic and I'm sure he'd help her believe in herself more. Also Kaito would totally give Himiko piggyback rides when she's tired!!! Another BrOTP is with Kazuichi! They'd be such good bros! Ahh I wish they had interacted at some point, they'd totally bond! I love how some people made comics showing how Kaito would help Kazuichi get over Sonia, move on and become someone he can be proud of, learning to love himself and chase his passions. Also how Kazuichi would talk about rockets with Kaito, I love them so much!! -

OTP: SAIMOTA IS LOVE, SAIMOTA IS LIFE!! They support, admire, love, care, never judge one another. They are so sweet and so cute and adorable and they are also so gay, like... I could be here talking about them forever (I was, but CHARACTER LIMIT ON TUMBLR SOMEHOW??) Anyway, they fit so many themes and aesthetics, like, Saimota is literally SEASONS, like, spring, summer, autumn, winter!! They also fit so well either cottage core or even like city streets, neon lights, parties, they are perfect in every way. They hold hands to comfort each other. They switch their roles a lot, always support each other equally and communication is really their strength!! They already went through that development in the game, and it's perfect. Anyway, special other OTP mentions: Training Trio, Oumota, Amamota, Akamota, Momoharu, Gokumota, Cyberspace and basically yeah, any ship with Kaito is great. -

NOTP: With Junko. Keep her away from my boy. I saw some people make some headcanons of them interacting, no, no no no no NO. My boy deserves love and happiness! -

Random headcanon: Kaito never met his dad and his mom left him, so that's why he grew up with his grandparents. He was always dreaming and studying so he was actually a very lonely kid, but he'd always be happy and smiling bc he wanted to make his dreams come true! Also all of Kaito's clothes have some sort of space design or space related thing about them bc I say so. -

Unpopular opinion: Kaito is not homophobic or misogynistic. He has toxic masculinity traits, but he always respects women, he may have made some sexist comments, but it was never out of hate for women or for seeing them as less than men?? Kaito didn't see Maki as weak because she was a girl, he invited her to the meeting of who would fight Monokuma in ch.1, he also invited a bunch of other girls, he clearly respected their strength. Even if he says "a man shouldn't apologise so easily" Kaito does apologise when he needs to and he also says that to Kaede, he tells her to not apologise for something that's not her fault, clearly showing how he doesn't treat women differently. And he's not homophobic just because of a very misplaced word that came out of nowhere and didnt' mean anything for anything at anything in the story, characters, dynamics, relationships, plot, nothing. It was put there by the writers for nothing, it has no relation to Kaito's character at all, there's no other evidence of him being "homophobic", he's not homophobic!!! He may have some traditional views, and Kaito is stubborn about a lot of things, but he cares about others and I'm sure if they'd teach him more about it, he'd try his best to respect it, bc he can see the good in people deep down and that's always what he cares about the most! - Another unpopular opinion is that PG Kaito is not a bully, he's pretty chill actually, I consider him intimidating, but not physically violent!! I hate how everyone just decided to make him a bully to find an excuse to hate on Kaito. Kaito doesn't even have a canon sad face PG sprite in the wiki, for me he's even more chill than IG Kaito, he's just protective over the ones he loves. He'd NOT bully Kokichi or Shuichi, instead he'd be stepping in to protect them!! -

Song i associate with them: Oooo I have A LOT. I have already made a video for him with the song "Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots", but I have many others, which I don't want to reveal bc I plan on making a video with them in the future, so it's a surprise :) -

Favorite picture of them:

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SHU LIKE HE'S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING HE'S EVER SEEN, HE BELIEVES IN HIM AND IN HIS SKILLS AND AWWW HE'S SO PROUD

#ask game #kaito momota #ndrv3 #catcrazy #ask #saimota #saihomo #homosai

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rainbowsky · 2 years

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Hey RS!

This is not related to GGDD but I wanted to ask, what one thing you would take with you to 2023? and what would you leave behind in 2022?

Happy new year in advance to you! 🌟

Hi Anon,

Thanks for the question, I like this one!

What I'd like to leave behind

I think the thing I'd most like to leave behind in 2022 is the isolation and paranoia I developed during the pandemic. Of course the pandemic is far from over, but I feel like so many years of worrying about health and safety - and feeling incredibly uncomfortable around other people - has taken a negative toll on my life. I'd like to find a way to be comfortable integrating myself back into society a bit more. Step by step.

Somehow I managed to get through 3 years of the pandemic (and counting) without ever contracting covid, and that was due in part to my tendency to self-isolate long before there was a pandemic.

I tend to be a rather introverted, reclusive person even at the best of times, and was actually totally relieved during the pandemic to be able to live my life relatively normally without the constant pressure to go places and do things around other people, which I've felt burdened by for most of my life. It was actually nice to be able to feel like my perspective on all that was normal for a change!

For a long time I didn't feel like I was losing out on much because of the pandemic. If anything, I had gained a lot. Being able to now do a lot of things remotely that we used to have to do in person, for example, feels like such a gift. But gradually I came to realize that the extreme isolation I was experiencing was having a very negative impact on me.

I remember at one point my partner said despairingly, "It's going to take years to get you back out into the world!" and I don't think he's wrong. It will likely take me a year or two to be back where I was before, maybe even longer depending on how things go with the new variants and the progress of the disease.

In any case, that's what I want to leave behind. Let's see if the universe lets that happen... 😅

What I'd like to bring with me

I actually finished writing the first section a long time ago, but it's taken me many days to reflect on what I want to bring with me. And really the answer was staring me in the face all along.

I want to bring with me into 2023, GG and DD and my love for them. Not only has being a turtle really enriched my life in many ways, both of those boys are so inspiring to me.

They make me want to do more and put myself out there more, and to live a better and happier life. They make me want to learn more about the world and about places and cultures that I'm not familiar with. They make me want to love and be loved more.

More than anything, I just enjoy them and I'm charmed by their unique personalities and approaches. I am captivated by their intense, sweet, chaotic, bickery, sometimes dirty-minded, always deeply loving rapport.

I cheer for them, and for all queer people everywhere. I want what's best for them. I want them to be happy, healthy and free. I want them to know how much of a difference they make in other people's lives, and how much they inspire people who care about love, compassion and self-actualization.

They have brought a lot of good friends, good feelings and good experiences into my life, so I'm definitely bringing them with me everywhere I go.

I appreciate this question. It was a valuable bit of self-reflection for me. I encourage everyone to reflect on these questions going into this new year.

I hope all of you have a wonderful 2023, and that we all see positive change in the world in the coming months. 💖

#personal #ggdd forever #nye 2022 23 #ask

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shoutlikethewolf · 1 year

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*suddenly enters your ask in Simon by kicking the door so hard that it breaks in two pieces and my feet start to hurt so bad lol*

Hello my beloved and always amazing twin! I was gonna to do a post, but today I decided to visit you in your kingdom of hell.

Can you actually believe that I almost write: “Happy Birthday”? Because…you know what day is it today, right? Exactly, 10 months ago (precisely in August 18) we met each other and without my friendly ask, we wouldn’t be having this pleasant conversation. And since you are so much into little sweet Roger, and since I’m your Simon…here are some pics of them together (which I could find at this hour because it was 12:04am lol):

Thank you for being such a great friend and soulmate. I think I’ve said this many many times, but I appreciate you. I love you. Like you said once, maybe I need some of your calmness in my life. Maybe I need to be more quiet (because honestly, I CANT STOP TALKING). And some of your intelligence (BECAUSE EVEN IF IM SMART, IM NOT AS SMART ENOUGH). NOW I WILL STOP WRITING IN CAPITAL LETTERS BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

We have a lot in common (more than the things we already know we have, WOW THAT SOUNDS CONFUSING FOR ME). All I wanna say is…Thank you, Kai. Thank you. Thank you for bringing some calm to my stressful life

Let that our friendship will last forever 💙✨🌙

🧡❤️🤍Happy 10 months !! 💗💜💙

Ps: …sorry for your door :(

No worries, there’s no need for door in the depths of hell.

Of course I know what it is! (Or rather, was lol I was away yesterday)

Yes he is my long lost twin meanwhile you’re closer to Simon in personality Trust me you don’t have to worry about finding pictures; I’ve got thousands so it’s better that I don’t add anymore haha

The pleasure is mine, I must say I’ve missed our almost daily conversations over the last few months but im still here in case you need something. You couldn’t find more calm or quiet than me that’s for sure! Unless someone mentions dd. Then I don’t stop talking. And: who said you weren’t smart enough? Of course you are. And you certainly don’t need to compare yourself to anyone, you’re amazing as you are! (Btw when you said “it’s too late”… you know what song appeared in my head)

Yep it’s funny how our personalities are drastically different yet we have so much in common. Like Yin and Yang as we’ve said in the past! Thank you as well for your friendship.

Ps. Can you believe it’s almost been a year since we’ve met?! Not to quote someone but time flies!

Happy ten months! 💛

#why are you apologising for an imaginary door? 🤣#twin things #I’ll write you a post next month since I was busy this time!#love you too ofc

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doubleddenden · 3 months

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Pt 5 of DD rewriting the Pokemon anime- or mainly just sprucing up Ash's teams and giving ideas of my own for certain story beats.

Pt1 was Kanto, 2 was Orange Islands, 3 was Johto, 4 was Hoenn and the *Sevii Island* Battle Frontier, and 5 today will be a completely custom adventure set between Battle Frontier and Sinnoh, this one is an adventure in Orre that the anime never touched.

This may be a bit texty and definitely fan fictiony, but unlike some mortals, I am cringe and I am free.

So here's a sneak preview of Ash's team by the end of Orre, taking into account he has an Aggron and Quilava in this AU so far.

So to continue off, Shadow Lugia takes a boat- the SS Libra- from 4 Island in Sevii Islands. Sceptile and Aggron were still on the ship, as well as a bunch of captured and stolen pokemon, so Ash jumped after with Pikachu, but all were knocked out. Ash's grandpa, Silver (read the last post, the Silver from Chronicles) gives chase on Salamence, leaving Brock, May, Max, and the knocked out Slowking, Swellow, and Donphan behind with them.

Ash is out for a few hours, and his remaining Pokemon caged and stolen. Silver manages to break aboard the flying ship and fights his way through to get to Ash, and his Chikorita manages to save Pikachu as well. However, Sceptile and Aggron are too heavily guarded, and Shadow Lugia is getting testy. Silver makes a difficult decision to take Ash and Pikachu to safety on Salamence before someone gets really hurt.

They'd wake up at Crane's lab. Ash would initially yell at his grandfather for leaving Sceptile and Aggron behind, but after some tears and talking, he finally understands the situation. Professor Crane would fill them in on who Cypher is and what they'd want, noting that they probably went to the Sevii islands because its fairly out of the way and a rumored location for powerful legendary Pokemon like Lugia, noting that Cypher was initially defeated by a man with an Espeon and Umbreon a couple of years ago. Ash asks if the guy's name is Wes, remembering the man who defeated him in the Hoenn League, and the others seem surprised to hear Ash came close to beating him.

Crane and his lab decide to bring Ash in on their snagging project, telling him that they already have another kid about his age (I head canon Ash is 13 now) out doing something similar.

Ash is told about Orre and its harsh environments, and how everyone fights in double battles, so he'll need more Pokemon. He tries to call Oak, who in turn has been in contact with the others. There's currently a lot of interference on his end, so it wouldn't be safe to send more than one Pokemon over through PC, and Silver recommends a weaker Pokemon that won't immediately get recognized. Quilava volunteers and is sent over promptly, and Brock and the others tell Ash they're on their way to help him save his Pokemon.

Crane takes some pitty and offers an Eevee from their research lab as well. Ash notes he has an Espeon, but appreciates any help he can get. Silver would go his own way to try and track down Cypher and the SS Libra for Ash, vowing to help find his Pokemon.

It wouldn't take long for Eevee to evolve into Vaporeon after choosing to evolve via Water Stome after Ash was knocked off of Gateon Port during a storm. Vaporeon is calm and brave, not scared by much and always ready to defend his friends, and quickly bonds to Ash and the others. I chose Vaporeon because the Orre games have you start with an Eeveelution and XD gives you a choice in what to evolve it into, so I thought it'd be neat to justify that.

As far as bringing back Quilava, Orre has a strange bond with Johto, I'd argue giving Johto Pokemon a better chance to shine than Johto, and in both games you can receive a Johto starter- in Colo in particular, you can catch the middle evolutions for all three, so I thought it would fit.

Also you bet your God damn ass Miror B is here as a recurring antagonist, and Jesse, James, and Meowth would definitely be working with him for a bit.

Eventually Brock, May, and Max would rejoin Ash at Gateon, and the gang would start a new journey through Orre.

Eventually, Ash would run into Cypher grunts utilizing his Sceptile and Aggron- now Shadow Pokemon- on their teams. It's at this point, Ash Snags his own Pokemon back after an intense fight where Quilava even evolves to Typhlosion to help fend them off. Not without help from Wes, who reappears again very briefly to help save them both by teaching Ash how to Snag Pokemon. Afterwards, he leaves as quickly as he came.

It takes time and love to open their heard again. After a trip to Agate Village, Ash and Co would meet Eagon and HIS Pikachu, and they'd learn how to heal Shadow Pokemon. Because Ash and the others already had such a close bond with Sceptile and Aggron, and through gentle patience, they finally open their hearts again and are purified in Relic Forest, which brings tears to everyone's eyes.

Along the way, Ash would meet and befriend a kid named Michael- the protagonist to XD, who would help him get his bearings in Orre and help teach the others how to use the Tempo System from Crane Labs to help purify Pokemon faster, and even has helped the lab promise to rehome the purified Shadow Pokemon.

One of these Pokemon that is purified like this is a Sneasel, who is so grateful to Ash that- he steals his hat and tries to make a run for it, but ends up in deep shit when the meet Team Snagem and Gonzap for the first time. It's a tough fight, and Ash almost loses, but with Sneasel's last minute addition to his team, they pull through. Gonzap even mentions that Ash's Snag Machine reminds him of Wes- this is when the gang find out Wes is a former outlaw who turned traitor after gaining a conscious last minute. It would confuse the gang, but Ash would decide that Wes turned traitor for good reasons, so he's no longer a bad guy.

With a full team, Michael decides he wants to test Ash and they have full 6 on 6 battle.

This would be Michael's team, although Magmortar would be a Magmar for the majority of the story until about the last leg.

After following most of XD's story and snagging the Shadow Pokemon, Ash, Michael, and Wes would end up teaming up to fight Greevil and his two goons.

Wes's team would see some serious upgrades, including the rest of the legendary beasts after snagging and purifying them, and Mismagius, who he'd evolve after a brief trip to Sinnoh.

Together the three would defeat the last legs of Cypher, and Ash, Michael, and Wes would combine the strengths of their Snag machines to capture Shadow Lugia and the rest of the legendary Pokemon Greevil employs, astounding Silver and the others.

However, they make use of the Tempo System to purify them, then immediately release them back to the wild. The birds and Orre are all grateful and celebrate their victory.

To end the Colosseum saga, the Grand Colosseum opens- a grand tournament between some of the strongest trainers of the region, but it is open to everyone. In the semi finals, Ash and Michael fight in an amazing fight together, and Ash eventually beats him. No hard feelings, though, because it was a fun battle, and they're friends now.

The finals would be a rematch between Ash and Wes.

Wes actually released Entei and Suicune to live their lives how they wish, but Raikou has bonded so much with Wes that it refuses to leave him. It's a rare moment where Wes shows overwhelming joy from his team- and thus the rematch from Hoenn can begin in full.

To begin with, Wes tries to start off his Rain Dance and Thunder combo again, but Ash comes prepared with Sunny Day on Typhlosion and Solar Beam on Sceptile. Because of this, Raikou and Mantine go down much quicker. Wes's Typhlosion hits the field and wounds Sceptile, so Ash sends out Vaporeon with ITS Rain Dance to reduce the power of Wes's Typhlosion's Eruption. Mismagius hits the field and hits Vaporeon with THUNDERBOLT, but not before it gets a last minute minute on the enemy Typhlosion before swapping out for Sneasel. Utilizing strategy, Wes uses Perish Song and Pain Split between his Umbreon and Mismagius while swapping out to Espeon to survive Perish Song and take out Typhlosion, Sneasel, Aggron, and Sceptile before Mismagius finally falls down to Sneasel's Beat Up attack.

The final match up- Pikachu and Vaporeon vs Umbreon and Espeon- is intense. Wes shows off a new move called Dark Pulse, and the team work between Wes's Eons is tighter than even before. But, Ash utilizes the same Rain Dance and Thunder combo- this would then grant Pikachu the new move Volt Tackle, and with a Helping Hand from Vaporeon and Surf, Ash just narrowly beats Wes and wins the Orre Grand Colosseum cup.

Everyone is shocked, but in a rare moment, Wes smiles from the fun he had. Ash is offered a position as the Colosseum champion, but upon learning they aren't League Certified, he decides he wants to continue his journey. Wes, Rui, and Michael assure Ash that if he comes at the next league with the same guts as this challenge, he'll go even further than the Hoenn League.

With a handshake and goodbyes, the gang leave Orre, hoping to see each other again.

The Gen 3 Saga would pretty much end about as planned. Upon getting back to Kanto, Ash and May have a final contest battle and split the ribbon. Max is more than upset about parting from Ash and Brock, but they promise to see him again and always be able to talk if he wants.

Gary would show up as one of Rowan's research assistants as usual. Upon meeting Electivire, Ash would have a battle with it but this time come to a draw instead of losing (I hated that he lost originally). Ash and Gary have some time to kindle an actual friendship without antagonizing each other, and Ash tells him all about his journey through Hoenn, Sinnih, and Orre. Gary is more than impressed, and tells Ash a bit about Sinnoh, saying that THAT would be the place to really his mettle.

With that, Ash and Pikachu say goodbye to their Gen 3 teams again, although Sneasel refuses to be left behind. Ash decides to let Sneasel accompany him.

And yes, Sneasel replaces Aipom this time. Aipom was a neat Pokemon, but I don't like that it was traded only to be released after evolving, and honestly Ambipom... is ugly, lol.

And now, pt 6 will be in Sinnoh. That will probably (hopefully) be shorter.

Thank you for reading so far. Tune in next time

#pokemon #ash ketchum #dd rewrites Pokemon #or rather shoehorns another plot in? unclear.#orre

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theorist-influencer-untitled · 1 year

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8.2.23 Wednesday

12:58 am

I feel like dying hope not... My entire left body is aching.... My S-bones are aching even my shoulders.... Super stress...

7:23 am

Uncle Jun went out already going to forest??? As early as 6am??? Going to Georgia and BetsilogZ gang??? ( always wearing a plastics coat)...

Still, have windblow trap... Thank God for today but we have no meal or ulam but we have rice... Weird! Awakened by a weird dream... I dreamed of my friend Mariel/ Mayee... In my dream I was in the big house then Mariel visited me and she slept in our big house overnight ( this is a dream). Then, I told her if she wanted to go home, in my dream I have a car, I told her that I will bring her to their house and Mariel told me no! I'm fine here with you. Then, I said yeah! Sure....You can stay here as long as you want... Then, I prepared a clothes for her so that she can take her shower...

Weird dream... Then, there are 2 guys in my dream who fixed the other parts of the house and told me that they will go back for the payment but one guy said the money left by your uncle on the table for your dinner tonight.... Weird! When I checked the money it is 1k pesosee. Plus, in my dream I have a yaya and I told my yaya to buy us a food for tonight... Weird it is for food tonight. Then the 2 guys went away driving their white car... Weird dream...

Then, I prepared a bathrobe for Mariel and some clothes.. Then,I got up plus this windblow...

Weird dream! Where and how is Mariel/Mayee?? My friend that I met in Cebu Pacfic Air, a lasalita or lasalites as well but she was from La Salle Taft.

8:37 am

Well, this is nice most specially the "dinette" having the description of a window covering that you can "snap in place" and "unsnap smoothly in place" as well... So, sweet...

I dream to have an actual "van house" for a trip... I love nature and I wanna have friends and people that are genuine on me, I wanna do "van touring crusade"....A prayer trip, one day or someday...

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I love "benches and table"....Nice layout... I love to talk and feel the coffee... Literally perhaps beyond or just friendship or more or let's stick to the friendship and be genuine...

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9:43 am

This Nana is crazy as well for being too much concern on Neko, she asked me if Uncle DD sent a money for df...I'm kinda irritated....I said Neko is fine Nana... She can eat porridge for awhile coz we don't have shampoo, I don't have lotions....Neko is fine... Probably a vitamins for Neko and John, will be highly appreciated by me now...

But Nana told me even some kiloz of df just mixed it on rice... Well, I don't know, we have to wait... But it is a good idea, I think I will mix the df on the rice coz if it is only df, Neko will not eat it unless there is a wet food or ulam ( an another expenses on Ate Liza's and still Uncle DD didn't pay for the 2k of Neko).

10:19 am

One more thing they always gave-up on Neko in times of difficulties,even Uncle Jun ( those 2 Uncle DD and Uncle Jun ). I'm catching everything here coz I'm an adult and mature!

We are doing the classic symbolism here... You can't give up on your child, in times of difficulties... It is important to "own it"....But they can't do it correctly!

1:11 pm

RV just sent me message about the dasca cable and this Uncle DD is somehow weird....RV told me that Uncle DD sent him a question about wifi here or the dasca cable of mama Trining... Who will pay it?

What did I say about that,RV told me... I just said to Uncle DD that you and Janna ( RV and Janna ) went to New Zealand already it was a company expenses, that I believed them...

I texted RV that I already told Uncle DD that I don't know but RV and Janna already went out to New Zealand...

The last time Uncle DD called me I told him that RV left the wifi equipment and it is up to us if we want to continue it... I told Uncle DD that I can't answer for it coz I don't have my own money yet to share... RV just left the equipment..

Meaning RV and Janna appeared here to give the wifi equipment and told me that they are still on process going to New Zealand.

Uncle DD's character is "tuso" or spinner or foxy... Coz he knew it already that RV and Janna were not staying here anymore...

Me? I'm just being a professional member of this family though I still need a job of course... I really wanted to have my own space and money... Sometimes I wanna kill a man, a man who is stabbing me from behind...

I wanna have my own thing... I feel self-pity coz I wanna prove myself... I badly need a job ( in a lil while )...

I still wanna remove my "deep smile lines"... I still want to buy Starbucks and wanna have my xfactor back and gain good friends along the way and friends on the uphill...

2:06 pm

Still, have windblow trap... I need money and job ( in a lil while )... I have a very,very low self-esteem... I need a work space where I can gain friends and vent-out and in a way share my heart's content.. Where I can have my xfactor back... I have very,very low self-esteem... I feel fat, ugly and old... 16 years aging me for nothing...

4:17 pm

Drinking coffee while resting but still doing my laundry grrr!!!

Done,cleaning the bathroom ( my self-esteem is very,very low... ) no lotions and bottled shampoo & conditioner and some kojic and most specially my carrot soap.

This is an example of "do do" pronounced as duduh... But down there...

Doing do do or duduh must be something positive or going uphill... So, take a do do if it is something helpful on you...

5:46 pm

This Uncle Jun is here already... It is just late afternoon then he turn off the bright lights in the living room....

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mossy-paws · 1 year

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✨Introduction✨

Deciding to add some information as well as update this a bit as it’s a tad outdated! (Update part 8! Updating my links + art so nothing too extreme!)

💜 Some starter info!

• I go by (in order of preference): Cro/Mossy.Paws (or just Mossy)/Marine/Ocean; and if I know you in real life, you can call me Sea!

• I am an Aceflux potential-lesbian! I also use Any pronouns!

Current Fandoms: Phighting!, The Magnus Archives, regretevator, lethal company, little nightmares, Hollow knight, rainworld, Spider-Man, Warrior cats, etc.

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superwoman-n-beyond · 2 years

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A few years later…

Hello there. It’s been awhile. So much has happened. Some good. Some bad. As of now, I can’t complain. I’m in a better place, definitely content with all the blessings I’ve received and have been asking for years.

My man finally stepped up, he become the man I needed and the father my children needed. It’s been a long process. Still actively happening but I no longer have to beat it into him or pray as hard.

This past summer we tied the knot and had a wonderful wedding. It may have taken a long time to do our wedding but I believe it was perfect timing. We did it on our term and I haven’t felt so sure of us more than before. So I’m happy.

In 2021-2022, I lost some friends who claimed to be my long life friends. It hurt but what can you do when people change? It definitely made me reanalyze how I view friendship as far as what I expect from them and where do they fall in line of friendship. I also got to witness and deal with catty girls. That was a mess I never want to deal with again. The fakeness I experienced. Thanks to them they made me appreciate the real ones. Which is very few now.

I also started a new career in a whole new industry. I enjoy it and get paid well. Before that I was working two part time jobs and did a lot of hustle. One job the ceo really played me and the other workers. Under paying us and treated us like we were dumb. I definitely did her dirty, left that job on short notice after giving her my two weeks notice. I switched that shit up to one week and did not feel bad. It was a bittersweet moment. Heard she moved her company to a different location because she couldn’t keep any employees… I wonder way?!! Her pay was shit. The only positive thing about that job was the free flight and lodging I received to Vegas. The other job was DD. Sometimes I miss making up my own schedule but I don’t miss being broke.

My babies are in school now. They are so smart. Watching them grow amazes and saddens me. It reminds me that our time together wont last long. They’ll soon go off on their own and I’ll be left with memories. Self-note: always spend as much time with them while you can.

It’s getting late and I need to go to bed. Let’s hope I’ll drop in more often.

Good night and continue to thrive!

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kairiscorner · 1 year

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Hello and goodevening po!! Can I ask for a Miles x Gn!Filipino!Reader where the two have been bsfs since like middle school and they've just started dating and one day reader's family invites him over for dinner where they serve adobo and pork sinigang, and him and the parents are just casually talking while the little siblings are being complete chismosas abt y'all and stuff and when your finally only with him in your room and everything is romantic your brothers are lit just stalking y'all and suddenly teasing you and your just chasing them out embarassed 😭

(Aaah i'm really writing this in the notes app for practice bcs this is my first request but i just can't get this out of my head 😭😭😭, also pls take your time on this time, don't need to rush and gl on that miguel fanfic!! <33)

AH HI !! DWDW, thank you btw <:DD (mgee it's just sitting in my gdocs collecting dust LOL) BUT GOOD LUCK WITH WRITING THAT TOO ON YOUR END, I HOPE YOU LIKE WHAT I MADE <333

(reblogs are greatly appreciated, it helps get my content out there! if you guys like what you see, please reblog it too <:D)

gonna admit it? miles x gn!filipino!reader

summary: you and miles are just really good friends, but your family wishes you two were a little more than that–and your siblings are eager to witness how in love you both are with each other. word count: 1,184

you invited miles over for dinner, which was common practice in your family's household. he wasn't any stranger to this custom, in fact, he treated your family as if they were his own. he got along with your parents quite well, calling them 'tio' and 'tia' and extending his hand out to them to receive their blessing. he was who your parents wanted for you, a decent guy who was respectful, cheerful, helpful and loving–but you and miles swore there was nothing going on between you two.

"i just really care about them a lot, tio, tia." he said as he got himself another bowl of adobo. you pretended to gag as you got yourself a pork sinigang, which miles rolled his eyes and smirked at. you two had this silly little rivalry between you two where all friendships would be forgotten when adobo and sinigang were on the table; he always chose adobo, and you always chose sinigang–never the other way around. your parents chuckled to each other and shot a devious look at you and asked you if you and miles weren't lying, to which you chortled out your response. "siyempre naman po, i'd never pick a boy who'd choose adobo over sinigang, no..." you muttered as miles made a yapping motion with his hand that mocked your expression as you spoke, eliciting laughter from your younger siblings as he laughed along silently with them.

you shot them an intimidating look and kicked miles lightly in the shin to get him to stop being so smug as your parents smiled to themselves, finishing their meals as you and miles still bickered in a friendly way on how adobo and sinigang are better than the other. you loved miles, apart from his–what you believed–very twisted way on taking the adobo versus sinigang debate, and was extremely happy to be his friend. you have known miles ever since middle school, and since then, you two have never been anywhere without the other. most of your friends had shipped you and him together, going on and on about how cute of a couple you two would be.

your family was obviously no stranger to this incessant pairing between you two, and you were relieved they liked miles enough to treat him like he was family, but you absolutely hated how annoying they got whenever you mentioned him or they saw your posts on instagram with him in the pictures. like tonight, your parents kept asking you subtly (and not so subtly) for hints between you two, if you two changed your minds and were secretly dating now, or...? well, you didn't have to think about your answer too much, because the answer was the same as always: siyempre, hindi.

your parents pretended to believe you as you and miles were going to head upstairs to your room to just hang out, your dad stopped miles on the way and reminded him not to do anything stupid with you, and shot you a look of warning, as well, as your mother chimed in and told you the living room was a better option to 'hang out'. you tried telling your parents nothing weird or dangerous would happen anyway, while miles poked fun at you from behind to entertain your little siblings–making silly faces behind your back as you spoke.

you turned around quickly as soon as your parents finally let you and miles go, smiling a little at miles' funny faces. you rolled your eyes at him as you took him by the hand and dragged him up along the stairs. your little siblings followed you two up without you knowing, and they were giggling to themselves as they snooped around and watched you two, hoping you two would finally kiss.

you and miles just sat on tour bed together, not really doing much but just teasing each other. miles really refuses to let go on his love for adobo, and you refuse to let down your stance that sinigang is superior. amid your friendly argument, you started to tickle miles to get him to let up his side. miles cried out for you to stop tickling him through peals of laughter as you laughed alongside him and tickled him even more. your siblings were watching you both by the door and squealing in delight to themselves as they took out their phones to film and capture this moment, while also debating on which ship name would be better for you two.

your tickle fight with miles wasn't one-sided, as miles tickled you back with full force, causing you to squeal out in laughter as you tried to subdue him. your siblings watched the whole scene unfold, and their hopes that you two would get closer was fulfilled when miles accidentally got on top of you as his tickling got a little out of hand. you both quit tickling each other and laughing as you were both now face-to-face with each other so up close. "i... i can, um, sorry. i-i'll get off now." miles stuttered in embarrassment as he tried to get off you, but you held him by the shoulders and gently pulled him back down closer to you. "huwag, ah... please stay." you pleaded with him as your face felt hotter as you pulled him closer.

miles smiled as he got more flustered in the face and did as you asked him to. "alright, but you'll admit adobo is better, right?" he asked you in a teasing voice as you cursed him out playfully and smacked him lightly on the arm. your siblings couldn't handle it anymore and squealed loudly as you two got closer. they screamed in utter delight at how adorable you two looked, and as you heard them, you momentarily got off from under miles and creaked the door open slowly as your siblings celebrated your admission of feelings towards him--well, almost admission of feelings, at least.

you coughed loudly, which made your siblings turn to face you slowly, as a raging fire was kindled up in your eyes, you screamed at them and told them to hand you their phones and never to speak of what they witnessed to any living soul, ever. "SINASABI KO SA INYO, MUMULTUHIN KO KAYO, KAHIT PAG PATAY NA AKO, 'PAG PINAKITA NINYO SA KAHIT SINO YAN, HUMANDA KAYO SAKIN!" you exclaimed as your siblings ran away from you, with miles poking his head out the door as he watched you hunt down your siblings and see them begging for mercy from you as you waved your slippers around to scare them even more. he chuckled as he leaned against the door frame, calling out to them, "hey, send me the videos and pics! i gotta have a copy of them!"

you berated miles from a distance as you kept threatening your siblings never to tell your parents or anyone about what they saw. though miles doesn't mind if anyone else knew about you two like that... he'd like to know from you yourself how much further this 'friendship' between you two will go.

#miles morales #earth 1610 miles morales #miles morales x reader #miles morales x filipino reader #earth 1610 miles morales x reader #miles morales x you #miles morales x y/n #miles morales fluff #earth 1610 miles morales fluff #atsv #atsv x filipino reader #atsv fluff #atsv x reader #atsv x you #atsv x y/n #atsv imagines #spiderman across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse x reader

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uwaaa omg your writing skills are good! god bless i found another one writing for njsj's luxiem ; w ;

if it's not too much of a bother, may i request an artist/graphic designer reader x ike?

i haven't really thought much about it, but it's along the lines of them being a duo (like ike mixes and reader provides the graphics for the project usually).

thank you so so much! (i really loved your bf hcs hahaha)

- cookie anon

Of Songs and Bravery

pairing: Ike Eveland x Artist!GN!Reader

a/n: hi cookie anon!! let me be real with u for a good minute here. i had a bit too much fun with this fic bcs this turned more like a slow burn that it should've been fluff in the initial plan :DD i hope u enjoy it as much as i had fun writing it! i'm in tears rn

i wanna dedicate this to both cookie anon for the lovely idea and my proofreader best friend who is down bad for ike and an artist herself. props to yall for providing so much support!! <3

disclaimer: everything i wrote in here is 100% mine btw! you'll see why i said that after u read it all :3

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: hey y/n!

y/n l/n: hey, ikee what’s up?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: remember that new song i’ve been telling u about?

y/n l/n: yeah?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: it’s completely done now

y/n l/n: oh cool!! great work!! do you plan on publishing it like u did with ‘this nightmare of a tale?’

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: that’s what i wanted to talk to u about

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: can i commission u again to make the music video?

y/n l/n: ofc!! i’d be happy to work with u again, ike!

you and ike have actually been friends for a while, a little before he debuted even

the one most important thing that drew him to you was your impeccable art skills

your ability to weave together lines and colors so harmoniously, all to produce a single piece of art that can covet so many different emotions

and we all know how big of an appreciation ike has for good art

in fact, your natural artistic talents is what made him fall in love with you in the first place

ike was sure when he first met you, it was just mere admiration for your work

however, the more he frequently met up with you, seeing past your beautiful artwork, he begins to realize the artisan behind it was even more beautiful

your gentle nature, your firey passion, your determination and dedication to your craft, your attitude towards the world, your mutual interest in the art field

there was nothing about you ike would ever change

and there he was, what started as a simple admiration, to a silly crush, to an uncontrollable amount of affection he couldn't hold back

he was gonna burst if he didn’t do anything about it rly

but as ike sat there, half listening to you ramble about an annoying commissioner, he is being eaten alive by the thought of losing you

the thought not being able to listen to you complain about your early stage of kyphosis (relatable asf), a wonderful and supportive fan, the difficulty of one particular commission

your smiles, your laughs, your messages asking about his day

was relaying his feelings for you worth it?

he could very well lose you and there will never be another you to fall in love with

yeah… no

but it became harder for him to deal with you always dropping by his house, either to simply hang out or talk about collaborating on a new project

“it’s inevitable, i suppose,” ike thinks to himself, rubbing away at his face as he once again caught himself daydreaming about you

continuation utc!

y/n l/n: omfg

y/n l/n: this song is so good tskr??????

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: awe thank you y/n you’re so sweet

y/n l/n: i can totally work with this its soooo good

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: that’s good to hear! good luck!

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: like before, u can ask me anything about the song or anything else about the project

y/n l/n: ofc! let’s start with what meaning you want to tell here

y/n l/n: then i can start from there^^

hoo boy

here’s the thing, y/n

with the recent years, ike’s tendency to just think about you every waking moment getting worse, it becomes a bit too much

he had to word it out

not to you of course, that’d be disastrous

so what does he do?

he writes

he pours his heart out, about the nights where he stayed awake thinking, and about the times where he manages to sleep and only dreams of you instead

about the moments where he can hold you freely, where he can place a chaste kiss on your forehead to just express how precious you are to him

and even before ike could realize it, the clock shows him the numbers of the late hour

and the notes before him, his feelings sprawled out in his handwriting in a form of a poem

well, it was a poem that early morning of 1 am, it slowly became a song over the next few days though

“i’m doomed, i swear,” ike sighs, looking at his sheet notes and the lyrics above it

but he was glad

he was somewhat proud of himself for having able to finally word and sort his feelings out like this

although he couldn’t exactly send these words to you, perhaps he didn’t have to directly

so, ike decides to make it his new project

and he plans to post it to his youtube as a another original song of his

one, for the growth of his channel but most importantly, to get that indirect closure

in a way, he would be saying to the world how much he loved you

much like sending a letter to no one, without ever knowing who the recipient may be

it was slightly pathetic, yes, but… ike was okay

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: it’s about… well, it’s rly straight forward isn’t it?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: it’s about a boy who wants to confess his feelings to the one he loves, but never rly had the courage to do so

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: he’s scared he’s going to lose them if he says the truth so he just stays quiet

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: he stays in the shadows and keeps wondering what could be

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: and there he is with his unrequited love

y/n l/n: god fuck ike that’s too sad you’re tearing me apart T-T

you’re tearing him apart goddammit

“don’t you ever notice?” ike whispers to himself. “just… how much happy i am when i’m around you? how i wish i can just stay with you all the time without worrying you’d slip away?”

he’s both angry and sad

he’s so irritated by the fact you just don’t give him what he wants, that you poison him with such uncertainty

but he had no right to lash out on you either

ike would kill himself before he ever made himself do that

yet there you were, continuing to ask questions about the songs and the meanings he wants to portray so you could integrate it into your work

of course, like any good artist would! it was only natural that you asked as many questions as possible right?

ike understood that and now that he’s thinking about it, enlisting your help might’ve been a mistake

“oh dear me,” ike groans as he finally logs off discord from the mental torture

but he simply couldn’t resist

he loved what you did with his first video and with every artwork you release, be it of your own accord or the collaboration with other people, ike craved to see more

art was the amalgamation of one’s self, wasn’t it? looking at yours made him feel closer to you

how ridiculous it truly was

you were creating art unknowingly about yourself as well

y/n l/n has sent a file.

y/n l/n: okay ike, here’s my initial character designs and drafting for the entire video

y/n l/n: it’s super rough so it can be vague, so feel free to ask anything

ike opens said file, and like other works he’s seen, he’s once again baffled

even though they’re very simple and even messy lines of vague shapes, he can see the flow of the story

he can read how the characters will move about and narrate his song

ike falls again with every swipe of a new frame draft

one of the characters you designed he noticed was meant to be him it seems and the other…

in his mind, it was supposed to be you obviously

but why had you drawn it so very ambiguously unlike his own avatar?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: hey y/n is the other character not done yet?

y/n l/n: oh yeah

y/n l/n: i couldn’t think of a design straight up so i just went with a very simple shape, then i’ll just go along if i get any ideas

y/n l/n: are u okay with being the mc btw? i can always think of another design

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: no no it’s absolutely alright! u can keep it

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: and as for the drafting, it looks wonderful so far. i love it

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: i can still see the fluidity between scenes and even tho it’s very vague and i might be biased

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: i can see the story very clearly, great work!

y/n l/n: aweee thanks ike!!

of course, art can’t be rushed

but how will you interpret the other person ike wonders?

will you purposely draw it very vaguely?

will you design it in a very specific manner? meant to hint at a person?

would you ever draw the other character as yourself?

ike shakes his head

“no, no way,” he sighs. “but… i can always ask them to do that? it’s my project after all…”

but then you’d find out

“yeah, never mind.”

it had been a few weeks since, with great progress every time you or him mentioned the project

during calls, ike can tell how much of your passion is overflowing as you spoke about the designs or the illustration making so far

and it hurts him to know how you have yet to notice

it might just be him, but he’s been losing more and more sleep the more he thinks about the project and you altogether

ike might as well be digging a hole for his own grave

even the quilldren has started to notice with his shorter streams

“hey, ike?” you called out as you laid sprawled out on his couch

“hm?” ike hums, raising his head and stopping in the middle of his work to pay attention to you

it was another regular day of you dropping by his house, resting for the week before it began again

“have i ever told you that your song is what i’m going through too?”

what?

ike places down his quill, now properly looking at you as his heart continued to sink. “no, you haven’t.”

you laugh, not out of amusement but… bitterness. “well, i am. i’ve been listening to it so much because of the project. i’m not getting bored of it, of course not. but… i’ve come to realize just how much the main character reminds me of myself.”

you raise your hand up out of spite, wiggling your fingers around in the air

“i’m scared. i’m scared of losing them. i wanna tell them how i feel, but… yeah, i’m so worried that i’ll only scare them away,” you drop your hand again and look at ike

them? ike thought

in the slight glimmer of the room’s light, he can see your eyes glossing over and a great pain tugs at his heart upon sensing your distress

and despite the raising questions in his head, he gets up, a little too quickly as he approached you

he sits on the floor facing where you lay on his couch with the most hurt frown on his face upon seeing your sorrow

“hey, are you okay?” he gently asked you

“i wish i could tell them, ike,” the tears finally spill from your ears as you hiccup. “how much i love them. it’s killing me inside.”

i wish i could too

but there you were, pining over someone else that wasn’t him

as much as you were hurting, ike was torn apart inside as well

how he could aid someone who was hurting when he himself was broken?

what should he say???

“h-hey, i’m sorry you’re going through this right now. and i hate knowing my song triggered these feelings,” ike reached for your hand as he rubbed them softly. “do you want to take a break from the project? you don’t have to rush anything, i promise.”

you sniffled, wiping away a tear. “no, i’ll be fine. i just got carried away there. i can still work.”

but the pain was still evident in your eyes and no matter what you said, ike wasn’t going to let it go

“y/n,” he grips your hands tighter, making you stop to look at him. “i don’t want to see you hurt yourself like this. if you really are tired, tell me. i absolutely don’t mind. i value your health and happiness over everything else.”

i just value you as a whole person. you’re so important to me, y/n. why can’t you see that?

silence clouds over the two of you and all ike could hear was the wild beating of his heart

… had he said too much?

“mm,” you nod your head, spilling a few more tears with a tired smile. “maybe you’re right.”

okay he was in the clear.

“see? it never hurts to rest a bit. don’t push yourself, okay?”

“can i have a hug?” you mumble shyly

ike chuckles, opening his arms. “of course you can.”

you giggle and collapse into him

ike lets you nuzzle into his chest and his heart, though still uncertain, is at peace. because here you were, in his arms and well protected by him

and that smile he never wants to see disappear

“it’ll be okay,” ike tells both you and himself as he pats your head down

but it doesn’t

with your break, ike understood as to why you had to be quiet and been contacting him less and less

the project was a relatively long term assignment so it must’ve taken some toll on you

but how is it with you being silent, not asking questions about the song making him feel worse?

during streams, he’d often get lose in his own thoughts

were you okay? were you avoiding him really because of the break? were you still in a bad place?

who was this other person you wished you could confess to?

was there a chance it could be him?

he’d be gaming and continuously lose, always because of lack of focus

at first, chat thought he was just super bad at the game he was doing or if he’s just not feeling it today

but as he continues to randomly be quiet in free chat streams and other games throughout the week

chat was beginning to suspect something was terribly wrong

most times, the only way to bring him back would be to send him a super chat that could alert ike

“o-oh, sorry guys,” he’d apologize, shaking his head and continuing what was meant to happen that stream

it gets so bad that the quilldren resorts to calling other nijisanji members

“mysta, ike needs your help? what’s wrong with ike, chat?”

“milord, ike is in danger. oh no what’s going on?”

or whoever it was that was live with him at the same time

they’d notice after ike didn’t read their messages and have to alternatively call him on discord

“ike, buddy are you okay?”

“i-i’m fine! sorry to have bothered you guys…”

and ike never fails to feel bad for having his co workers and own audience snap him out of it when he should be doing his job

“ike, maybe you should take a break from streaming for a bit,” vox advises him one day on a discord call they had

at that time, it had gotten pretty bad with the streams being worryingly too short and him zoning out every ten minutes

“no, i’ll be fine. i just… haven’t been focusing enough.”

“is something wrong? bothering you?”

yeah

“lack of sleep i guess,” ike smiles through his teeth

vox on the other line merely sighs, “then you should get a few days off to get that sleep in. so long as you stream 3 times, you can rest until the end of the week.”

remembering the exact same conversation he had with you a week back, maybe it was for the best

else, he was gonna go insane

“alright, fine,” ike lets out an exhausted sigh, thanking vox for his company before shutting off his devices for the night

but there he goes, opening his phone and replaying his own song over and over again as if he hadn’t been bothered already

it was because of this damn thing he’s like this

it was because of you he’s messing up like this

ike then suddenly hears the doorbell to his apartment ring

begrudgingly, he gets out of bed and gets ready to curse whoever dares disturb him in his depressed state—

“hey ike”

“y-y/n?”

okay okay backtrack all those plans to ask shu for curse spells

“what’s up?” ike asks, scratching the back of his head rather embarrassedly

“i’m starting to notice how off you’ve been this past week,” you say, crossing your arms. “not much like the ike i know. so i wanted to make sure you’re not overdosing on red bull again and eating real meals. move over, buddy.”

despite everything, despite you being the cause of it all, ike still can’t help but laugh. he moves aside to let you charge in

“alright,” you say, plopping down on the couch. “for real, do you wanna start telling me what’s going on?”

and just like that, the mood changes over swiftly

ike isn’t sure whether to tell you what’s been going on

he’s so afraid of the rejection

he’s so afraid he was gonna lose you entirely, scared by his feelings

but all of this is killing and tearing him apart. he’s messing up his job, he’s worrying his friends and worrying you, the last person he doesn’t want to burden

was this it?

was this the moment he had to tell you?

“ike?”

it’s now or never

“y/n, can i ask you something?” ike inquires, his heart thrumming much too fast against his chest

you tilt your head, “hm?”

“what do you think of ‘unrequited’?”

“well, it’s a very beautiful song. the meaning behind it, every single word written like a story. it evokes so much emotion. hell, it made me cry,” you laugh, but ike fails to see how you being in pain amusing. “your voice too, it just helps bring out the story and feelings more. it… brings me comfort, despite the sad story. it’s like having you there with me when i listen to it.”

just go ike eveland

“that… that’s how you make me feel too.”

“huh?”

no turning back now

ike takes a very long breath in, one he wished could summon all the courage in the world before he faces you

“this song, y/n. you make me so happy. when i’m around you, i just want you to stay by my side.”

“i know it sounds selfish, but i just want to make you smile all the time. i want to be able to protect you. i want to be there for you when you’re sad. i want to be the first person you come to when you’re having troubles.”

“this song is about my feelings about you. how i’ve always loved you but never had the courage to tell you.”

hadn’t he originally planned to get the closure he wants from posting the song to youtube?

commissioning you for this project rly was a bad idea huh?

ike sits stiffly, his hands sweating from the anxiety as no one spared a word. not him or you

especially you

confession aside, it all starts coming back to ike

how will you react?

“i-“

but you close your mouth again and ike wonders if he’s made a mistake

you want to say something but once more, you don’t speak it

“y/n?” ike calls out

like walking straight into a nightmare, he sees you stand back up with your things. you frantically pace before turning to ike, clearly avoiding eye contact

“i gotta go! u-uh, rest up well okay? i’ll see you!”

and that was the last thing ike ever heard from you

you never spoke a word to him for the next week, not even about the project and not even to say hi

you could’ve pretended he didn’t say all those things to you and he would’ve been okay with it

“just please, say something, y/n,” ike watches the screen of his phone, his heart pining to see your name in a form of a message or a phone call

but that moment never came

he scared you off, didn’t he? he had lost you for good now

perhaps, it was for the best…?

ike cried that night, you know

sobbing in despair as he tried to deal with the loss of the one person he cared so much about, one he can share his passion and worries with

all because he decided to be brave

“it’ll pass, right?” he hiccuped, wiping away a tear. but he can’t imagine picking himself back up in the next few days

god, he was going to lose his job if he wasn’t professional about it

then, his phone lit up

y/n l/n has sent a file.

y/n l/n: hey!

y/n l/n: so, there’s the final video!

y/n l/n: tell me what u think about it ike

at the speed of light, ike’s tears dry up and he hastily clicks on the file

and there it was

his song

him as the main character

wait

was that you?

in turn with the song, he intensely watches the illustrations flash by, switching in coordination between him and you

were the tears blinding him?

no, that was your signature hair style, your skin color, your choice of outfits!

wait, what did this mean?

ike was so busy being mesmerized by your sudden cameo in the video that he didn’t even pay attention to the music video as a whole

“w-what?”

and the video finally comes to an end

and there’s this gaping hole in his chest, slowly being filled to the brim with something he can’t quite decipher

what the fuck is going on

well yeah ike thinks it’s absolutely amazing! the final illustrations, the typography, the animations, the effects, the storyboarding—EVERYTHING

BUT WHY THE FUCK DID U PUT YOURSELF THERE

y/n l/n: um, u there ike?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: sorry sorry! i’m here

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: i’m just… very enchanted by what u did

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI]: it’s so beautiful and gorgeous, y/n… thank you so much

y/n l/n: i’m just doing my work, ike. it’s rly no problem! you made such a beautiful song so i wanted to do it justice u kno?

like a true artist…

ugh, why did you have to give him a reason to fall in love even after everything that’s happened?

shouldn't he be letting you go?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: no rly it’s so beautiful, the art direction is amazing here

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: i might post this in a few days

y/n l/n: oh yeah sure that’s cool! so that’s it then? is that all? do i need to add or reduce anything?

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: no, y/n, it’s perfect

y/n l/n: well, if u say so then ike

y/n l/n: im glad i was able to work with you again ike, it’s always such an experience

y/n l/n: thanks for coming to me ^-^

Ike Eveland [NIJISANJI EN]: i only come to professionals, what can i say?

y/n l/n: hehe stop that

and just like that, even in the midst of his cries in the dead of night, he laughs

all because of you

you really were something, huh?

at first, ike thought you just messaged him to send the file

but you were asking about his day and asking if he’s eaten all over again

were things going back to normal? like before he confessed to you?

have you decided to just pretend nothing happened?

whatever the case

ike was glad he hadn’t lost you completely

Unrequited / Ike Eveland [original song]

Premiering now

just like usual, you drop by ike’s house to sit through the premiere together

yes, ike was nervous at first but you were right there next to him

interacting with him normally

though he was a little heartbroken

“there it is y/n it’s going to be live soon!” ike says, grinning

“yeah i’m so excited!! there are like 20k ppl waiting, ike, omg,” you exclaim in return

ike chuckles, “i know right? this is so insane. how do u think it’s gonna go?”

“it’s gonna go amazing ofc!! you did such a good job with the song,” your excited smile sends ike unnecessary butterflies but he tries not to mind it

“aren’t you going to credit urself a bit more? you did a beautiful job with the art!” he smiles. “and everyone loved the work you did on the last original song too. they’re gonna like it more now knowing you did the art, y/n.”

you turn away, evidently flustered, “oh, shut up ike you’re too sweet.”

ike can only smile, simply glad you’re here

you face the screen again and enthusiasm decorates your face, “OH SHIT IT’S LIVE NOW AHHHHHHHHH”

ike turns to the screen of his desktop once more, the first notes of his song coming into play as the title of the song appears, along with all the cast involved

the chat of the premiere rolls wildly with glowstick emotes, blue hearts and an emoji strongly related to you

whatever happened, it’s in the past

what you and ike have may not be what he wanted, but he still has you

and that’s okay

Unrequited

lyrics / arrangement / vocals

Ike Eveland

illust / movie

y/n l/n

his love sealed in letters

his letters hidden away under his bed

when will i ever send it? he wonders

will the words inside ever be read?

he thinks what could be

what he could grasp and what he could lose

the truth he truly wants to set free

but the answer he’s afraid will bruise

he looks up at the sky, tears in his eyes

he asks the world why and to you he cries

love, when will you finally smile at me?

like i’m yours as you are mine?

why is it that your beautiful eyes can’t see?

just how much i want our hearts to intertwine?

i want nothing else than for us to dance together

lost in the music, swallowed by the night

our steps forever unchanged by the weather

and your smile remains eternally bright

he sits with you, smiling at what you say

and he wishes to protect it with his life

but the uncertainty eats him away

his cowardice he curses with strife

“why can’t i just say it?” he screams

“why can’t i look at you and tell you”

“how many times you’ve appeared in my dreams”

but he sighs, crying again, “how i love you?”

once again, he gazes up at universe above

and he confesses to his unrequited love

love, when will you finally smile at me?

like i’m yours as you are mine?

why is it that your beautiful eyes can’t see?

just how much i want our hearts to intertwine?

i want nothing else than to hold your hand

braving storms and fires with each other

even through angry waters and dry land

i’d never imagine doing it with any other

the letters under his bed stay sealed

never to be opened and read aloud

his aching, wounded heart never to be healed

the love in him perpetually under a shroud

he’s still afraid

he’s still a coward

in the shadows he stayed

forever to be overpowered

he wonders if he’ll ever escape it

this darkness a black ever true

he sobs, “my love, i want to quit”

“but how can i stop loving an angel like you?”

love, when will you finally smile at me?

like i’m yours as you are mine?

why is it that your beautiful eyes can’t see?

just how much i want our hearts to intertwine?

i want nothing else than for us to dance together

lost in the music, swallowed by the night

our steps forever unchanged by the weather

and your smile remains eternally bright

love, when will you finally smile at me?

like i’m yours as you are mine?

why is it that your beautiful eyes can’t see?

just how much i want our hearts to intertwine?

i want nothing else than to hold your hand

braving storms and fires with each other

even through angry waters and dry land

i’d never imagine doing it with any other

the end credits roll once more, displaying ike’s and your name as the producers for the music video

by the end of it, ike received a huge amount of support from the fans

piling up in thousands of likes and views on the first day of premiering

but most importantly, he felt like he could finally be at peace with himself

and frankly with you too

“hey, ike?” you call out to him gently

“hm?”

ike turns to face you and he sees you fiddling with your fingers

“about what happened a while back…”

oh, so you haven’t decided to pretend it was nothing

ike takes a deep breath, “yeah, what about it?”

then ike hears an unexpected sniffle from you

“y-y/n?”

“you’re way braver than i am, you know that?” you look up and ike wasn’t mistaken when he thought you were crying

“you made a fucking song about me and then you confessed to me,” you smile. “yet here i am, too much of a coward to confess to you too.”

your cameo in the video

that was… meant to respond to him?

“y/n…”

“ike, i’m sorry i ran away that day. i ran away without telling you how i felt. i was too scared by my own feelings and by the time i got home, i thought i was so stupid.”

you inhaled, “but… i’m here to finally tell you. that your love isn’t unrequited. that the person i’ve been wanting to tell i love you to has been you this entire time.”

your hand reaches for ike’s as you look up at him, tears still in your eyes

“you were brave. so… i wanted to do the same.”

ike doesn’t know what to say nor feel

so all that pain and fighting through the dark

it wasn’t for nothing after all?

does that mean that all his dreams would finally come true?

was being brave truly the right choice?

“ike, say something.”

“oh, i—“ ike then laughs, lifting up your hands and up against his lips. he smiles, his own tears finally spilling

this time, it wasn’t out of heartbreak. for the first time, it was of happiness

“ike?”

“i want nothing else than for us to dance together. lost in the music, swallowed by the night,” ike sings in a broken voice, but to you, it sounded beautiful all the same

he continues, “our steps forever unchanged by the weather and your smile remains eternally bright.”

ike’s hands cup your face and everything finally, finally felt alright

for real this time

“i love you.”

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All of You

Pairing: Matt Murdock X F!reader

Warnings: Swearing, angst, a lot of angst, Matt being dumb and trying to apologize for it, and Foggy being a great friend to him, oh and lot of crying, a lot of crying, and Defenders spoilers

Word Count: 4,527-ish (I didn’t mean for it to be this long)

Summary: Takes place after the Defenders series and into season 3 of Daredevil and briefly mentions some events of season 2 of DD. Reader and Matt’s relationship survived Elektra’s return in season 2 and until Matt’s “death” at the end of the Defenders. She tries to move on with her life but when she hears rumors of the masked vigilante defending Hell’s Kitchen again she wonders if Matt could be alive.

A/N: So yes this takes place at the end of the Defenders and into season 3 of DD, however I did change the fact that Matt and Elektra kiss as the building comes down because, well, it’s my fic and I can do what I want, right? lol! And I apologize if this is a little extra with all the tears but it’s just what I was feeling. As always thank you thank you for reading, I really appreciate it!!

Watching the news, you heard the name Midland Circle. Why did that sound so familiar to you? You remember now, it’s where Matt said he was going tonight to try and save her…HER. He kept trying to tell you that’s she’s still in there, that she recognized him, and that he could get through to her. You weren’t going to try and stop him, not that you could anyway but that’s not who you are. Maybe you were a little too understanding but perhaps that’s why he loved you so much so you told him “Go…if you think you can save her, go. I’ll be here when you get back.”

Your relationship with Matt has survived a lot prior to Elektra becoming the Black Sky. After a battle with the Hand, finding her in the bed the two of you spent most nights in was quite the shock. She had been severely wounded, and could have died if Stick and Matt hadn’t saved her. He told you that you should leave, that you shouldn’t have to watch this. That was an interesting day to say the least, but again you wanted to be there for him. That one was a little tougher on your heart though, watching him pray next to her.

You wondered, does he still love her? Would he leave you for her? He did his best to explain what he was doing working with her and explained their past and that’s exactly what she was to him, his past. And always made sure to tell you that he was in love with YOU and wanted to be with YOU. Although at this point in your relationship, with all of this happening, you were more than a little worried.

Her name just kept playing over and over in your head….Elektra. You shouldn’t be jealous, why should you be? You know how Matt feels about you but something about Elektra made you feel like you might lose him, and it just didn’t sit right with you. After she died protecting him, you were grateful to her but also relieved at the same time. You felt completely selfish for thinking that but Matt was everything to you. You accepted him for everything he is. You’ve been the one to patch him up after his nightly activities, you’ve been there day after day just being what he needed, what he desired and him being the same for you.

He’s so in love with you and you’ve never been more in love with anyone than you are with Matt but you still felt guilty, guilty because he mourned her and loved her but you were relieved that she was gone and the two of you could get on with your lives together, which you did until she came back. You did until that fateful night at Midland Circle.

Pacing back and forth, you felt the ground shake as you turned to face the tv, you stopped and stood there horrified as the building started to come down. Your heart sank at first but you thought, he got out, he must have gotten out, he had to have gotten out. Hours had passed when your phone finally rang, the screen said “Foggy” so you picked up and that’s when he told you Matt didn’t make it back to the station.

“Wha….what do you mean he didn’t make it back to the police station, Foggy? May- maybe he found another way out and he just hasn’t come back yet.”

“Y/n…everyone made it back except for Matt. They said there was no other way out.”

Foggy’s voice was cracking, he was trying very hard to keep from breaking down but he sounded like he was going to lose it any second now. The phone dropped from your hand and you began to sob uncontrollably and you felt like you couldn’t breathe. All you could make out between sobs was him saying “I’ll be right there, stay there, we’re coming!!”

After the shock wore off, then came the despair. They didn’t find Matt’s body, was it possible that he did make it out? Is that why the three of you couldn’t bring yourselves to have a funeral for him? One word just kept going through your mind…maybe.

Trying to move on with your life in the months following the collapse of the building was difficult, and that’s putting it mildly. Even though you had your own apartment, before you lost him, you spent most of your time at Matt’s apartment. You even had a hard time being at your own place because every little thing reminded you of him and forget about setting foot inside his place without breaking down in sobs so you just stayed away. You found out Karen had been paying his rent and keeping the place up. She said she can’t accept that he’s gone either and she had been hearing whispers about the masked vigilante patrolling the streets again.

You told her that it was probably just a copycat and that it’s nothing. That was until one night you were walking home very late and three men sitting on a stoop started cat calling, nothing you hadn’t heard before until you heard them get up and start to follow you. They were getting closer and closer when one of them grabbed you by the jacket, put his hand over your mouth and said “this will go better for you if you don’t scream.” That’s when you were thrown to the ground and hit your head on the sidewalk and the last thing you remember seeing was a figure in black before everything went dark.

When you finally came to, you realized you were back at your apartment, most of the lights were off and you had the worst headache. Who brought you back to your place and how did they know where you live? There was a glass of water and two aspirin on your nightstand. One word…maybe.

Bolting upright in bed, you called out for him. “Matt?”

A voice comes from the corner of your bedroom “Hi sweetheart.”

You’re trying to adjust your vision to the darkness but you realize you’re still a little dizzy from the hit to the head you took. He walks over to the bed before you can get up “hey no, no, no, don’t get up, you hit your head pretty hard. You might have a slight concussion. Are you alright?”

Still a little fuzzy, you try to focus and your eyes finally adjust to the room and there he is, right next to you. He then hands you the aspirin and water, “take these, they’ll help, please?”

The last thing you wanted was aspirin but you did what he asked and afterwards you set the glass of water on the nightstand, cupped his face and said “Matty, can you just HOLD me please?!!!”

He wraps his arms around you, he smells like salt, blood, and black top, you start to cry. “H-how? You’ve been alive this whole time?!! H-how could you just stay away like that?! How could you do that to me? To Foggy? To Karen? To anyone who cared about you?!!! WHY!!? We thought you were dead!!”

He pressed his lips together and hung his head before he spoke again.

“Ok if you keep yelling, your head is gonna hurt more so can you calm down for me, please? I stayed away because I thought I was protecting you and because a part of me died that night at Midland Circle. I just thought it would be easier if everyone thought I was dead.”

“I did my recuperating at the church orphanage where I grew up and when I got better, I realized that I still need to finish this thing with Fisk. And…and I also realized that we…we can’t be together. I need for you to be safe and the best way to make that happen is for us to be apart. If Fisk ever found out who I am, he’d come after you and I can’t have that.”

That phrase gutted you and you felt like you had been punched right in the stomach. It felt worse than when you thought Matt was dead. “But I…I love you, Matty. We…we belong together, why are you doing this to me?”

Now you were getting angry and you started to feel warm, more like your skin was on fire because you were so mad. That’s when you snapped.

“It’s easier huh? Easier for who, Matt?!! And spare me the whole ‘I-don’t-deserve-it’ and ‘I’m-doing-this-to-keep-you-safe’ bullshit, please! I’m in love with ALL OF YOU!! I’m the one that stitched you up anytime you needed it, I’m the one who was SO understanding when I came back to find Elektra in the bed we fucked in the previous night, I’M the one who told you to go since you thought you could save her and that I would be here when you got back! No questions asked! ME!! It was ME!!”

You weren’t even sure you were even making any sense at this point but you felt like you needed to let out how hurt you were.

“And you’re telling me what? Do you not love me anymore? Do NOT tell me again that it’s for my safety because I know that is bullshit. Is it because you lost Elektra AGAIN that you think you’re not worth loving? OR is she alive too and you rode off into the sunset together?! Is that it?!!”

Even though you couldn’t see his face clearly, you knew he had tears in his eyes because he wiped them away but you didn’t care if you upset him. He was breaking your heart into a million pieces right now without even a second thought.

“Please just leave, Matthew…Leave, NOW!”

“Sweetheart, please, I—“

“GO!!!!!”

Without another word, he walked over to the window, opened it and left your apartment. You had a hard time recovering from that night, the chest pains you felt were excruciating like your heart was actually breaking apart and the next morning your eyes were so puffy, you could barely see. You didn’t leave your apartment for days.

What he didn’t tell you the night he rescued you was every night after his recovery, he would come to your apartment and just listen to you. He heard every time you had cried over him, he heard you praying even though that wasn’t really your thing, asking for signs that maybe he was still alive. In those months, he even heard you bring a date up to your apartment, it didn’t work out. He heard you tell your date that you weren’t feeling well, and you were going to call it a night. Matt knew that wasn’t true, he heard your pulse, it was completely erratic. After your date left, he heard you say “I tried, Matty…I tried to go out on a date tonight. He just wasn’t you.” His heart ached for you…he never stopped loving you. Still, he had to put that aside, his city needed his protection.

The night after he left your apartment, Matt fully threw himself into taking down Fisk, once and for all. Foggy and Karen were there to help him and even when Fisk found out who Daredevil actually was, you were safe because he had walked away from you. Since he fully committed to taking down Fisk, his protection detail at your apartment had fallen off until Fisk was finally back behind bars where he belonged. He spent some nights back at the church after Father Lantom’s passing, trying to figure out what to do next. Sister Maggie had some choice words for him also.

Amidst all the chaos surrounding Fisk, Matt realized he hadn’t been to check on you in a while. Later on that night, dressed all in black, Matt went to your apartment but he sensed something was off. He went in through the window and started walking around….it was empty. In that instance, all his feelings, all his emotions, all his love for you came flooding back to him with a force that nearly knocked him over. He remembered all the times you stitched him up, tended to his wounds, told him “I love you…”, made him laugh, read out loud to him, and every time the two of you woke up tangled up in each other’s limbs because neither one of you could bear to let the other one go. He knew you accepted him, all of him and he wanted you back, he needed you back, but would you take him back?

Once he realized you were gone, he needed to talk to Foggy. Matt showed up to the office the next day looking a little disheveled, tired and inconsolable. He barely got through the door before he called out for Foggy.

“Foggy!! Foggy, do you know where she is?!!”

Confused, Foggy asked “Who? Matt slow down, do I know where who is?”

“Y/n! Do you know where y/n is?!! Has she talked to you or, or called you at all?! Her apartment is empty, she’s not there”

“No she hasn’t but I don’t blame her.”

“Foggy, I really don’t need a lecture right now. I need to find her.” Matt’s pulling on his tie and pressing his lips together.

“Well I’m sorry you don’t want a lecture right now Matt, but too bad! Did you ever stop and think about why she left? Or think about how EVERYTHING around this city reminds her of YOU?! The restaurant near your apartment where you had your first date, or outside her apartment where you kissed her for the first time, the little diner where you took her for breakfast, among others. All of those places remind her of YOU!”

Foggy wasn’t finished yet.

“You ditched her for Elektra more than once, yet she was still there because she knew you loved her. And you weren’t there, Matt…you weren’t there to pick up the pieces of her heart when we thought you were dead and then we had to do it again after you left her.”

With tears in his eyes, Matt took in everything Foggy had to say and then completely broke down as Foggy continued to talk.

“Y/n, she didn’t want to leave but you left her no choice. And…I guess you were too stressed out to realize I was lying just now when I said I hadn’t heard from her. She did call to say goodbye.”

Matt finally spoke again.

“Wait, you HAVE talked to her? Did she say where she was? I need her back, Foggy.” His voice cracked and he fell to his knees. “I love her…I love…her.”

Foggy crouched to be eye level again with Matt. “No, she didn’t say where she is…but we’ll find her, buddy. Ok? We’ll find her.”

During the next few days Foggy was constantly on the phone with Detective Mahoney. Foggy called in that favor Mahoney owed him and found out where you were staying, he also found out most of your stuff was in a storage unit in NYC and when he called your employer, they told him you were on an extra-long vacation. The GPS on your phone said Mystic, Connecticut. Matt then remembered that you said your parents live there but they also have a condo in Florida where they go a lot of the time also, especially in the colder months.

Foggy was ready for the trip, he had packed up the car, and the snacks he got for the ride was like you turned a 9 year old loose in the grocery store, nothing but junk food but regardless of his food choices, Foggy was a great friend. Before they got in the car, he asked Matt…

“You ready to go, buddy?”

“What if she won’t talk to me, Fog?”

“At least you’ll know orrrrrr……you can fight for what you want, your choice. And if not, I hear Mystic is beautiful, we can go to the aquarium.”

“And just how am I supposed to see anything at the aquarium, hmmm?” Matt chuckled.

“That I don’t know but we can figure something out…hey I got it, I’ll bring you to the kiddie touch tank.”

“Thank you, Foggy….for everything.”

The car ride was about two hours, Matt had never really been away from Hell’s Kitchen before. During the time in the car, several songs came on that reminded Matt of you. He knew Tennessee Whiskey was one of your favorite songs and it was the first song the two of you danced to at Josie’s and the night he realized he was in love with you. The day after that date he had listened to the song on repeat for a good part of the day, he swears he could still smell your perfume on him. Now, he was trying to figure out what to say when he sees you.

Following the GPS, Foggy finally stopped the car in front of a small ranch house with a fence around the yard. The sun had set and there were a couple lights on inside the house, for the most part it seemed rather quiet when Foggy asks:

“You ready, Matt? I can go knock on the door first if you want.”

“Would you? I’m nervous. I can tell she’s in there, I know her heartbeat anywhere.”

Foggy gets out of the car, walks up to the front door and knocks. You open the door, see that it’s Foggy and say with a sly smile: “Damn, I thought it was my pizza. What are you doing here Foggy? And that better not be who I think it is in that car, I know he can hear me too.”

“Y/n, look I drove him all the way here because he really wants to talk to you and if you just—“

You hadn’t noticed Matt got out of the car and walked up behind Foggy.

“I can speak for myself, buddy…I appreciate it. Hey, sweetheart.”

“Don’t you DARE ‘sweetheart’ me, Murdock!”

Foggy is standing there, smirking: “Damn, Matt I forgot how feisty she is, give him hell y/n! I’ll be in the car, driving around town, so call me when she’s done yelling at you.”

Foggy got in the car, drove away and left you and Matt standing outside on the steps, damn him for looking so sexy in his jeans and button down shirt.

“No one else is home?”

“Well you would know, you would be able to hear their heartbeats if they were, right? My parents are in Florida for a while, they asked me to take care of the house. It’s a little weird sleeping in my old room again. What the hell do you want, Matthew?”

“Can we go inside?”

You opened the door a little wider and led him inside to the living room, it has a big picture window that you always did love sitting by in the evening hours.

“There’s a chair right next to you or we can sit on the couch.”

He asked to sit on the couch but you made sure you were on opposite sides however you did bring one leg up onto the couch and turned your body towards him.

“Now what do you want to say to me, Matthew? Also, how did you find me?”

“The GPS on your phone.”

“Ummmm, that sounds SO illegal.”

“Mahoney owed Foggy a favor.”

“Ok well whatever, you guys stalked me…I’ll make a note of that, you may continue.” Your voice is dripping with sass.

“Sweetheart, I—“

“What did I tell you about that?” Again with the sass.

Now you’re getting him flustered, he starts to adjust his shirt sleeves and licking his lips.

“Look…after my recovery, I started going back out into Hell’s Kitchen and hearing rumors about Fisk corrupting members of the FBI. Every night after I was done patrolling, I would stop by your apartment, on the roof, or outside the window. I’d listen to you for a while…I’d listen to you cry over me, I’d listen to you pray, I’d listen to you sleep and I even heard you bring that date home only for you to kick him out an hour later.”

Resting your hand under your chin and raising your eyebrows, you said…

“Oh…you heard that? I’m guessing you heard what I said after he left then. I…I tried, Matt. I tried to move on with my life but when you’ve had exactly what you’ve ever wanted,” you paused “it’s hard to settle for anything less than…well, you. And the night you saved me from those guys, I thought the pieces were finally going to be put together again…then…”

Tears formed in your eyes as you tried to get out what else you wanted to say.

“Then you left…you left me there alone with my heart shattered, I was completely broken. Why? I thought we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. And you can’t convince me it was all Fisk because I know it’s not. So let’s hear it, tell me why. Was it her? Was it Elektra?”

Saying her name finally caused your tears to fall from your eyes and you could tell that he had tears in his eyes. Matt knew sometimes you didn’t cry because you were sad, you cried because you were angry.

“Danny told me what you said to him down there before they all left…you just made up your mind to die down there without even a thought about me or anyone else that cares about you? You didn’t even want to try!? Do you think you’re that unworthy of love!? Tell me, please!”

Matt took his glasses off to wipe the tears from his eyes and set them on the coffee table in front of him.

“I accepted that I was going to die down there, and my last thoughts were of you, your voice, your laugh, your scent, and your sass. And then I started thinking of parts of you I’d never get to touch again like your lips, that sweet spot on your neck that you love, and little things like that scar you got as a child on your ankle from your bike pedal, the other scar on your finger from where the metal door cut you when you were four which is why your nail grows crooked on your right hand, the raised stork bites on the back of your neck that I kissed every morning and every night before we went to sleep, and just…you. ALL of my thoughts were of you, not Elektra, YOU.”

“You say your last thoughts were of me, but you stayed there for her, Matt!!”

You finally reached for a tissue, the mascara had to be all over your face by now.

“Because I thought I could get through to her that she isn’t who they want her to be but that’s not what she wanted. While we were down there, she told me ‘we’re together now, it’s everything I’ve wanted since I first laid eyes on you.’ I told her that might have been true for me at one point, but y/n is who I’m in love with, she is my heart and she is going to be my last thought on this earth when this building comes down on top of us.”

He paused for a minute and the tears continued to fall from your eyes, your breathing became hyper.

“And when I finally came to and realized that I wasn’t dead, then came the guilt. I felt guilty for leaving you to try and save her, I felt guilty for not leaving her down there to come back to you, and I felt guilty for not coming back after recovering from my injuries.”

It was your turn to come clean.

“You’re not the only one who felt guilty, Matthew! I felt guilty because I was relieved when Elektra died the first time, I’m not proud of it and I’m a terrible person for thinking that way.”

Matt interjected. “No, no you’re not a terrible person, you’re not.”

“And yes, I was grateful to her for sacrificing herself to save you but relieved because…because I thought I wouldn’t be able to lose you to her if she’s gone…but she came back and I lost you anyway, didn’t I.”

Matt shook his head profusely and he was fidgeting a little bit, he always seemed to do that when he was scared. This strong, fearless man that dressed up like the night and fought the scum of Hell’s Kitchen every single night, was actually terrified of losing you forever. Your expression started to soften from the anger and hurt you were feeling and you knew, you knew that he never wanted anyone else, just you.

“When the whole thing with Fisk was done, I went back to your apartment, something was different and I didn’t hear you inside. I opened the window, went inside and realized it was empty. I completely collapsed into myself and everything came crashing back on me…I need you, I love you, and I do not want to live another day without you. I really don’t expect you to forgive me, what I did to you was unforgivable but I will do whatever it takes, if you could just—“

Cutting him off and with tears streaming down your face, you moved across the couch and fell right into his chest, he wrapped his arms around you and buried his face into your shoulder as he fell backwards against the arm of the couch. The two of you just melting into one another after so much time apart, it’s like you were made for him because you fit so perfectly against him.

“Matty…” You cooed while rubbing his chest. “Did you practice that speech?” You were back to the sass.

“No…” He laughs a little.

“Was that the end of it because you may need to do a little more groveling, counselor?” You said with a slight smile. He laughed again. “I love you, Matthew.” He loved the tone of that “Matthew” as opposed to the previous ones.

Kissing your forehead and still holding on to you, he sits up and sprinkles kisses all over your face before finding your lips. Matt’s lips were a dream and the way you felt kissing him again, it didn’t have to be just a memory anymore, it was real…he was real. He was yours.

“I love you too sweet--” He smiled. “Can I call you sweetheart again?”

“I’ll think about it but in the meantime, you want to see my bedroom? My parents are out of town.” You say with a little bit of a giggle.

“You know I do….but what about Foggy?”

“Ooh shit, I forgot about Foggy! That was so sweet of him to drive you all the way here…”

Biting your bottom lip while looking Matt up and down, and raking your fingers through his soft hair, you bring him in close for a slow, deep kiss.

“Well, we can take him to the aquarium tomorrow to make it up to him. You’re mine tonight, Murdock.”

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