#so my boss just gave it to me so i wouldnt have to give my personal number to people

[chaos-coming]

Allergies are a disability, full stop.

[parasolids]

look its been a year and two days since i started this job which is also my first real engineering irl job and its led to a lot of changes to who i am as a person bc ive never been someone with an irl office job before so im reflective so im posting.

ANYWAYS i think like. i do feel very lonely and isolated, bc i hardly have any friends at this point or people im close to etc etc. i miss dicking around with friends on discord and i miss study sessions and just hanging out with my friends irl in real life and i hardly feel like a person, but also when you get super lonely you really start to notice the way your life intersects with others'... i remember in 2018 i had just as little irl contact with people, and i noticed every little thing. a classmate steadying my desk when i almost fell out of it, etc. and now i think im sort of doing the same noticing the way my coworkers and i interact with each other. making fun of each other and stuff. we're all in our 20s so we're pretty much all just friends. the electrical specialist took the plastic spider off my desk while i had covid and put it on the industrial engineer's desk and was like hey just hold on to this; i got a good laugh out of it when i came back and saw it on her desk, and then again when he hid the spider in my backpack lol. we share ibuprofen, ask each other about our meals, we spend all day trash talking each other over imessage 8 ball on our work phones. i came out to my coworker as nonbinary, and then he was keeping my secret and encouraging me while i was trying to come out to our other coworker and gave me a fist bump when i finally got it out. my other coworker first asked if i wanted to go by a different name (i didn't, my legal name is gender neutral already) and then said "yeah thats totally cool, i understand, i still think the same thing of you though which is that you need more friends"

and im lonely and i think i want more friends too. and i think i'm ready to shed the skin i've been carrying for the past three years. become someone more confident, someone okay with being in their skin, someone who doesn't feel out of place among others. like that one song: come out of your shell, come into the light

[flamingthespian]

Dear 18 year old homophobic bitch at work,

[blackheart-6]

noelle holiday age progression chart

without height lines

explanations of designs:

hi yall

so, i actually finished this drawing like a week ago lol. but i didnt want to post a bunch of drawing in a row, and then i got sick, so i havent been able to post it till now!

its my imaginings of what noelle looked like as she grew up, and a potential adult noelle design! ill explain my thought processes about these designs below, if anyones interested 😁

i also plan on doing one of these with dess, but this one was pretty difficult, so it might be awhile before that (unless yalls are interested in seeing it?)

first off, im not 100% sure ill keep using all these designs. some of them im not that happy with (im no good at designing outfits 😔) but i just went with them so i could finish the drawing. so if anyone has any alternative outfit ideas for any of her ages, id be interested in seeing/hearing it!

secondly, something that may stick out to yall for all the designs is how tall she gets. its the same height i normally draw her with, but given how i usually draw her by herself you cant really tell how tall she is! i have 3 main reasons for why i headcanon her as this tall: deer are pretty tall irl, so having her be tall makes sense in my head; i just like the look of her being super tall, it makes me happy lol; and third, i personally also headcanon the holiday family as boss monsters (i think ive explained this headcanon before on here, so i wont explain again, unless someone is interested ^^). so yeah, she ends up being 7 feet tall as an adult, the second tallest in her family!

also, i gave all her children forms stripes in some way, as a reference to when monster kid in undertale says they can tell frisk is a kid because of their stripes!

now onto my explainations for individual drawings!

theres nothing really to say about her baby design. the only thing i did that might be new is give her faun spots! they are most plentiful on her baby form, but they persist until shes in her teens, i would say (on here you cant see them after age 7, but thats just because i imagine they are mostly on her back). and i gave her a cute lil onsie that says a-deer-able! if you guys cant read it ^^

this outfit i made for her toddler design is actually an outfit ive used in the past! i wonder if yall know what drawing it was? its pretty much the same as it was there, i just added a stripe to the shirt. i felt like overalls are so reminiscent of childhood, i had to give at least one of her designs them! i also added a little mistletoe to the front pocket, to make it more christmas-esque. and i gave her some bandaids, just cause.

7 years old is one of the designs i really struggled on, and im still not happy with it. i dunno if ive said this yet, but i headcanon noelle to be trans, so at 7 is when i decided she started realizing it. so here i gave her long sleeves and pants, to show how shes more hidden now because shes unhappy with herself, if that makes any sense? i was also trying to make her look a bit like a nerd, with the button up and khakis, just because its funny. but yeah, ill probably end up changing this design at some point :P

11 years old was one of the easiest to do, considering how ive had her design for this age for awhile lol. one thing i did change was going from 2 red/white stripes to one, but ive done that before, so it wasnt something entirely new. i also gave her a smile and closed eyes, cause shes happy being a girl 🥰. other that that, its the same, so yeah, thats it for this part

okay, this next design is a fairly different looking one than all the rest, but i have my reasons! at this point in noelles live, dess has gone missing, so i wanted to show her being sad and stuff. i also gave her shoes and long sleeves because she probably goes out looking for dess when she can, hoping to find a lead 😭. but outside of in-story stuff, this outfit is based off of an old one i drew, but its fairly edited, so i wouldnt be surprised if no one recognizes it even if they have seen my old stuff. she has straight hair here, to show how unhappy she is (idk what it is about straight hair it just feels sad) and because i wanted to give her different hair varieties on this progression chart. i gave her antlers 2 prongs each at this point, because the way i see deer monsters, their antlers show their growth/aging, so youll see them getting bigger and having more prongs as the chart continues.

this outfit for 15 is another one i dont like. i tried to make it similar to her current outfit, but still pretty different. im not even sure what precisely i dont like about this outfit, it just doesnt feel that good. for this one i gave her leg warmers because i used to (and sometimes still do) draw her normal outfit with them. i gave her the curly hair she has as a callback to when i used to draw her hair like that! but yeah, ill probably end up redoing this one too

for 17, i just gave her the normal outfit, so it was easy ^^. in game i think shes 16, but close to turning 17, so i just went with 17 here to fit the +2 age pattern thing i had going on. i also gave her an extra horn prong than i normally give her, just to show age once again

finally, her adult design! i dont like this one either lol. i spent so long trying to think of what outfit to give her, but i couldnt come up with something i liked >.< so i just gave her something simple. i feel like once noelle graduates high school and probably goes to college she branches out more and tries things her mother never let her do, which is why i gave her an outfit like that, that has a crop top and a shorter skirt. also, yalls might recognize the hair style i gave her, i drew a potential adult noelle before and i gave her the same hair ^^

i think thats all for the post! i probably have more thoughts that im just not thinking of, but its fine for now. i hope yall enjoyed the drawing, and if you have any question or comments or whatever, go ahead and say them!! if youve made it this far, have a cookie, you must be hungry after reading so much ^^ 🍪

[mesmir-ized]

*flipping through cue cards

ponysona…no……..my little persona……..no…………

(elaboratig on cutie marks below BC i thought about them a lot !!! ahhh so long)

(not spoiler free !!!!!!!!!!!!)(corn get outta here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

i wanted to keep these as simple as possible , and not cram too much imagery in to them , so they wouldnt look out of place in the show &c ! fun little challenge i gave myself , just for context :D

akechi: a white pawn chess piece ! my friend actually came up with this ! and its kinda genius ! to paraphrase what she said: white chess pieces move first ; akechi is always the one to (attempt to be) one step ahead of the thieves , having everything lined up for himself to succeed . 

     her words: “akechi sets the first gambit, the tone, and gets to begin laying out the chess board how he sees fit, and joker is the reactionary. but heres the thing. strategists differ on how you should play as black, like if you should automatically be on defense from white's offensive move. but the most famous black player of all time is magnus carlsen, who is WILDLY an offensive player and absolutely goes for it every time, to the point where white has been INTIMIDATED by him and played poorer statistically against him because of it . like thats CRAZY!! hes one of the boldest chess players in existence and he prefers to go SECOND! it was pretty much unheard of before him.”

    plus , (my words now) theres the idea of not only him manipulating others (the pawn) , but he himself becoming a pawn in a plan much grander than him . the p5 wildcards and their games of strategy a nd all !

joker: joker card(+mask !) i was actually trying to come up with something “better” , but the joker card really , really fits him . not only literally being a wildcard in the metaverse/persona sense , but also IRL , how he’s adaptable to every situation ! canon pretty much explains it , LOL ! but again bringing in the theme of classic games of strategy , joker with his joker card !

ryuji: EPIC awesome skull (literally his na,me...) , but i liked it with the idea of delinquency/pirates(YIPPY !) , as well as the lightning not only for power , but symbolizing speed~  hes just cool

ann: lipstick kiss mark ! this one actually came to me really quick , LOL ! it symbolizes her role as a model (makeup !) , but also has to do with how she reclaims her sexuality and looks for herself ! that , as well as her caring nature , especially to the little guys(like a mother’s kiss goodbye on your forehead..)

yusuke: ink brush + swirls !!! funny enough this one took me the longest to come up with . i wanted to avoid giving him a palette , since i wanted to focus on traditional japanese art forms above all else (since thats basically his whole tyhing !) and ended up going with an ink brush ! it’s not exclusively japanese by any means , but its recognizable , and we see him work with ink many times ! the little swirls are meant to be the golden ratio (beauty ?)LOL , but just kinda look like swirls.......maybe shapes found in his art ?

makoto: gavel and books ! also took me a weirdly lomg time to come up with , but i figured it out ! the gavel is obviously meant to represent justice/the justice system , but also wanted it to represent power as well (since makoto can often act like a secondary “boss” LOL , and her role as a leader at school !) . the books are for her intelligence (perhaps legal books) ? yippy !!!!

haru: a coffee cup with a plant growing out of it ! this is a bit on the nose , but i had fun figuring it out ! keeping her goal of opening a cafe (and coming up with new coffee blends throughout the game) in mind , as well as her love for plants and gardening ! the plant is meant to form a sort of heart (which can also look like steam coming fromt he cup).. , to also show her nurturing side !

futaba: computer and medjed eyes !!!!!! also a bit on the nose , LOL ! for this 1 , the computer is obviously tied to her skill as a hacker/her computer-focused life , but the eyes carry a bit more weight ! theyre literally the eyes of the deity medjed , who is known for those two eyes that look directly at you ! we dont see any medjed logo with graphics like this in game IIRC , but i added it for the double(triple?) meaning ! medjed in game carries the weight of being a part of the book of the dead , and connected to futaba’s palace themed around egyptian tombs , but i also felt the eyes could be tied to how she monitors everyone , and interacts with the world through her computer (almost as if shes looking out from it !) yippy !!!!!!!!! :D

sumire: magic wand/gymnastics ribbon ! as explained by my description , LOL , this mark is meant to look both like a magic wand (cinderella/fairy gdmother ...) as well as a gymnastics ribbon ! we see her with these in game , which made my job much easier ! the ribbon forms sort of an “s” for her name , and also looks kind of like a shooting star , to symbolize how she is always shooting for the top ! (and on a darker note , how shooting stars can often be meteors that fall apart)... kasumi’s mark is hers but reversed , and has an additional sparkle/star on it , for “3 stars”, 1st place ! the absence of this sparkle for sumire can represent how she lost her sister , and how she feels lesser (even if just as wonderful !)

okay yayyayy thats all bye bye !!!!!!!!!

[ciagent8]

UNDERTALE YELLOW TECHNICALLY NOT LIVEPOSTING. PART 2!!! SPOILERS BELOW THE CUT

part one here if you guys like my rambling

we're back! we must continue the journey after . killing a lot of people.

this reminds me of that thing in undertale with the uhh. lesser dog snowmans. HONEYDEW RESORT ENTRANCE!!:

interesting. i wonder who runs this place? it looks cozy

(will ruin the atmosphere via murder) oh my GOD WHY IS THE WIND BLOWING. thats horrifying!

What.

I KNEW THERE WOULD BE A HIDDEN ENTRANCE IN THE BACK AHAHAHHAHAH

oh my god

who the hell killed everyone LAST time???

well. not for long. (slowly pulls out gun)

you dont FUCKING say huh

how is coffee better than ice.... oh . it isnt. nvm

so wait why would i use the coffee ammo??????? is there a reason or

oh man, im so happy i finished that puzzle!

(realizes i have to do it again) fuck

we are struggling YAY WE DID IT martlet fight(?):

oh you poor poor soul

girlie we are a Homicidal Child

Killing you

WHY IS STILL TRYING HELP US. WE ARE GOING TO KILL YOU

unfortunately, yes martlet, we DO try to kill everyone

yeah

HER MUSIC IS SO GOOD??? BUT AHHHHHHHH WHAT THE HELL ARE HER ATTACKS AHHHH-

oh my god

it took me 7 TRIES!!!! YAHOOOOO.

fuck. she retreated. is that supposed to happen?? i feel like maybe im on a neutral route now. im not sure if she was supposed to retreat or not, she also mentioned how like. shes glad we attacked early cause she would've told us where everyone else is. you know what i think im gonna retry the battle

interesting... if i apologize multiple times i get new dialogue. is she gonna spare us?

nevermind it doesnt do anything special it just. skips her boss and puts on neutral i suppose?

im gonna try apologizing and getting to her LAST line of dialogue and just. shooting her . eheheh

update: almost gave myself spoilers trying to see if there were any strategys (specifically for the part with the falling objects. god i hate that part)

so i just wasted time repeating the bossfight AND almost gave myself spoilers!! ..uwahhh

so. since i wasted so much time on martlet. i'll give some personal insight onto how the attack is.

God awful

most of her attacks are easy, *especially* since if you look at the crosshairs, it shows you what direction the attacks will go in/come from.

so all you need to do is just stand there.

with the boxes, you just have to stick to the ground. its safest, just make sure not to get crushed by objects/incoming boxes. the WORST attacks in my opinion would be the feathers exploding into 3 extra feathers attack, and the wind attack with falling objects.

the first of the two is easier, just stay away from the big red feathers and treat it all like a bullet hell.

i still havent figured out a strategy for the wind attack, i honestly just hope i dont get a bad combination of objects and usually heal right before the attack arrives.

but, yeah! i also noticed if you apologize and then attack right after, she seems to skip a line of dialogue and also maybe an attack? its hard to tell.

so yeah! apologies for rambling

moving on!

i like the fact you can see flowey during this cutscene

too bad we. crash. the boat.

whoops

YEAHHHHHHHHH desert!

i'd also like to ramble once more; i like how all of these locations and characters clover meet are kind of implied to exist at the same time as the other monsters?

like, the dark ruins: frisk wouldnt encounter it because she never falls into the dark ruins.

the other part of snowdin? it makes sense it exists; we took a different exit out of the ruins, and if you look at the base game, you can overlook a HUGE forest. who knows how many more monsters there are around?

i think im gonna feel the worst about killing him. look at him. a little guy

OH NO I JUST REALIZED

HIS ATTACKS ARE AFFECTED BY HOW DAMAGED HE IS..

CAUSE ON THE ATTACK WHERE HE GOES UP AND DOWN THE SCREEN HE JUST. STAYS AT THE TOP WITH A SAD EXPRESSION..

NOOO-

also for some reason they remind me of. binding of isaac enemies. i dont know why.

one mORE thing i'd like to wonder: where is mo????

is mo gonna like.. come back? im just curious cause like he got a whole intro, theme song, everything. so surely hes gonna come back right??

you've gotta be kidding me

this. this is just sad.

the singular tree in the desert

on a lighter note i love the sprite artwork though!!!

OH MY GOD MO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MO- DID HE JUST RIP OFF HIS SLEEVES??

hes like. trying so hard to be cool. and its kind of cool in a way if that makes any sense at all

hell yeah mo time

wait does he know we killed everyone

hell yeah mo

love how he doesnt care that he killed everyone he just wants money. i love mo. fuck i do NOT want to kill him

damn i just realized he leaves when you buy his stock. i wonder if maybe on a pacifist route that'd be how you befriend him?

too bad he's gonna. erm. probably die. damn i do not wanna kill him

i have one again reached my image limit so i am taking a break. thats all folks! hope you enjoy my ramblings

[hanasnx]

no yeah i need more of the indy x beef love story!! add a cut if you have to (jokey joke i'm not trying to nag) i've got a cup of ice water and a bowl of popcorn beside me (also a joke. the popcorn, not the ice water. it is toasty rn) i'm invested, i'm seated, i'm tuned in!! much love xoxo

part one sorry this took so long

i had this sense of belonging with him. i was already comfortable with him even though we'd only had a handful of conversations. this was a big step for me seeing as how i'd only ever been with people that gave me that thrill in my stomach especially if i was doing something wrong. in this case, that thrill was completely gone, replaced with a sense of safety i'd never felt before besides a friendship that was very dear to me. so i thought i needed to be his friend. i wanted to hang out with him.

i think i decided this when i went out walking late at night because its my favorite thing to do and it started pouring rain so i went to the little mailbox garage to keep my phone/earbuds dry otherwise i wouldnt have minded the rain. but i was sitting there and i found myself wanting to run into him. i was wishing he'd, for some reason, come check his mail so that we could talk more.

now that its decided that i knew i wanted to be closer to him, i did not have a game plan. instead, i applied the logic i usually would apply to this situation: if it's meant to be it'll come back. because i was too scared to make a move when he came in for coffee in the morning. we said our usual hellos etc but i did not give him my number. i was disappointed, even though it was my own fault, because its rare that i see him twice in one day. so the "if it's meant to be it'll come back" was kind a way out for me, 1) i wouldnt have to do the thing i was dreading, creating a sense of relief 2) but that would mean i dont get to do the thing i wanted to do, creating a sense of disappointment.

i was working all day and my boss left early, which means that when i went home for lunch, i put on non-corporate dress code socks because my feet were cold. ones that her micro-managing ass would've noticed and told me to take off. but i was behind the desk, it was nearing the end of the day, no one would notice my crazy socks. my coworker that knew i liked this guy was sitting next to me, and my head maintenance guy who didnt know and could not know. we were all talking when beef came in.

like i said before, it was rare to see him twice in one day, so my stomach did a flip. it meant i had to give him my number, i made that commitment. i wrote it down on a sticky note, waiting for my chance. but my maintenance guy wouldnt leave, and beef was making his coffee. i was running out of time. i didnt know how to find a situation to give it to him in which my maintenance guy wouldnt see it because i knew his ass would report me or hold it over my head. and beef left before i could figure it out.

crestfallen, i hadnt fulfilled my commitment. i was really upset with myself, it was perfect. he came back just like he was supposed to, just like the mantra. if it's meant to be it will come back.

i was beating myself up for it tbh. "you always do this shit, indy, you always do this shit." which is so rare considering how kind i am to myself, which goes to show just how upset i was at myself for not manning up about it.

some time passed and it was probably the last thirty minutes of the day, so i was gonna go put the golf cart back. i was walking out when something told me to go back to my desk, so i went back, and i grabbed the sticky note with my number on it. to this day i have no idea why i did that. something came over me that i went back to my desk and grabbed the sticky note with my number on it to shove into my pocket to take with me. maybe it was because i didnt want other people to see it on my desk, but i couldve just thrown it away.

i drive around and i go the longways because i usually did that. its about evening time, the sky is orange, im still upset over earlier.

and i see in the distance a familiar silhouette. one i've seen a thousand times. it was beef roller blading alongside his running dog. i cant believe my eyes it was like magic. i was genuinely, to my core, shocked. a third time. a third time in one day.

he goes to the sidewalk to let me pass, but i turn in to a parking spot like a mad man. i am determined to get this over with. a third time in the same day, ive never seen him three times in one day, this had to be it. i have to give him the number and miraculously i brought the fucking note with me. i march up, i say "hi (name), hi (dogs name)" quick asf. "dont look at my socks" i tell him because im still wearing the crazy socks that dont go with my shoes or outfit and the first thing he fucking does is look down at my socks. he laughs at them. i hand him the note "call me if you wanna hangout sometime." i say and get back in the cart to take it to the garage.

an hour later he texts. "hi :) this is (name)" and we text for hours. paragraphs about our pasts and shows we like and what we do for fun, everything. at one point he texts that he feels like he needs to say that hes "not ready for a relationship, and hes happy being friends" and i said "thats fine because thats why i gave you my number. to hang out" which is true. i asked him if he wanted to go around the community yard sale on thursday with me, and he said yes.

around 11 o clock that day, we meet up, and i remember he looked me up and down. he gave me that scan. it was subtle but i was like oh?

we walked around together and i got a bunch of stuff for my roommates cats and a lemon soap dispenser for my roommate who loves lemons etc. beef hasnt gotten anything, but he helps me carry my stuff :) he had insisted on it. at one point we come across a collection of framed paintings, and he looks particularly taken with a small portrait of a snowy landscape with a man in furs. he sets it back down. i check the price, its $5 so i buy it for him. he looks touched.

we text a little for the next week, but he says hes really busy with work and has to focus on that so i give him that space. at one point i subtly try to hang out with him late at night using the excuse of putting our crystals out for the full moon, and he says that he'd love to but can't, and i had to backtrack and act like i wasnt trying to hang out 💀

towards the end of that week, i had started texted with an ex-best-friend of mine we'll call her EBF. ebf invited me to a kava bar, then asked if her boyfriend could come, i said no that makes me uncomfortable bcos i dont know her boyfriend, she says "oh then i cant go", im like wow i wonderrr why we stopped being friends u pos but whateverrr so i said "if you get to bring someone, i get to bring someone" and invited beef. i said "hey i know its short notice but im going out tonight at a kava bar you should come" he says "great! give me the address ill be there" so i do. while im getting ready, EBF texts to cancel last minute. fucking dick n balls, right? so i had to text beef to be like "hey man so sorry but my friend cancelled. do you still wanna go just us?" and he says yea :)

he picks me up and at one point i pay a compliment to myself, i say i've got nice curves. he looks at me while hes got a spare moment driving and gives me a little once over again... and says "yeah, you do have nice curves" i couldve died

we talk about anything and everything on the way here, at the kava bar, and then when we take a walk. we walk up and down that strip for like an hour and a half. we drive back to the community and we take another walk. when i look at my phone after all this walking and talking it realize its 2am and we started hanging out at 7pm. so i have to run back home bcos ive gotta get ready for work in 6 hours.

the next day my roommates rly wanna meet him, so invite him over to hang with them. after that, i walk him home, and spent a bit of time with him there. i tell him im cold, and he says "heres my favorite hoodie". i go home and spend a few hours apart at my place. we keep texting, and he says "let me know if you wanna play some games tonight" as in like online, but i was like "im literally packing up my ps3 to bring over rn" bcos he had mentioned he wanted to play black ops 2 and i was feeling spontaneous. around midnight im back at his place and we play games until way later, and im feeling too tired to keep playing so we put on a movie and we "cuddle" which was kind of spooning but he kept his crotch away from my ass. (he tells me later that the reason he did that was because he got a boner laying down with me)

we fall asleep watching rio, our first sleepover. he had set an alarm for me so that i wouldnt miss work and i didnt even ask.

the next day he asked me to come over again. he cooks me dinner. we have another sleepover. i got to work, and then i go right back to his place. that night we're sitting and facing one another in the dark, that invisible string is pulling us together. he's murmuring, "i don't wanna be friends. i wanna be your boyfriend." and we kiss. its soft and slow, and it marks may 7th our anniversary.

since our first sleepover, i did not sleep again at my own place, which means that before we were officially dating, we were technically living together first.

[hopefully-hellbound]

I liked what you wrote so much so I'm coming back, could you write about Wren with a PC who always gives but never get ? Thank you so much

Super late request fill, so sorry! Had my exams n stuff

M!Wren x gn!PC (side wren x remy)

Pillow princess Wren, defiant pc, argument, making up, oral mention, pretty nonexplicit tho

"I'm sick of you," you state, surprising Wren in his comfy seat on the couch.

"Eh?"

Maybe you've chosen the wrong moment, he is still coming from his high from the blowjob you just gave him... But you couldn't stand to keep it in any longer than you did already.

"Babe, what-"

"Don't you 'babe' me, you selfish bastard."

"???"

Wren really looks confused, realizing you're not joking as you stand up, and he reaches down to zip up his pants.

"What's all this about, you mad at me for somethin'?"

"You're lucky i didn't bite it off this time you absolute ass, or every time i do it!"

"Very grateful, but-"

"Have you ever thought of returning the favor??"

You finally have enough and explode at him, all your frustrations coming to the surface. How he always just lays back and lets you do the work. How he's a lazy bastard who gives you his chores at the farm at any possible moment, just because he knows you like him so much. How you'd be fine with all of that, you really would be, if you wouldnt be running chores last week and sneak into the barn after hours.

It seems Wren is finally starting to understand.

"Barn??? ... Wait, is that-"

"Oh but you'd suck him off, huh? Not a fucking pillow princess then, are you?? Nooo, not for fucking Remy you aren't, you actually put some effort in getting the big man off, but your fucking partner you just lay there like a goddamn sloth and mhhh!-"

His hands on your neck shock you, his kiss steals your thunder. It's rough, rougher than you're used of from him, and it leaves you quiet when he parts from you.

"You should've told me if you were jealous, babe..." He says, you're not used of such a serious tone from him. It makes words hard to come to your mind. "Boss' a control freak, needs someone to... Take care of him, every once in a while. To pamper him a little."

"i'm not jealous, Wren, not about you being with him, its just..."

Your gaze trails off, but Wren cups your cheek and brings you back, his eyes shining in the half dark of the cabin you two share.

"It's just that you want me to take care of you too?" He guesses correctly and you nod. It's all you wanted, for him to be the one holding you, for a change...

You find yourself pushed onto the couch, your legs on Wren's shoulders as he skillfully gets your pants undone.

"Oh babe, you should've just told me~ i can take care of you, can take care of both of you if that's what you need~"

He's so good with his lips as he kisses his way down your thigh, you shiver in anticipation as your anger melts away. You can't stay mad at this man and his stupid, stupid twinkling eyes.

"Is that what you want, baby?"

"...yes..."

"Good. Then i'll take you so well you wont ever think 'bout yelling at me again, understand?~"

You nod, but something in his grin before he dives into you tells you that you'll need to take tomorrow off.

[velvet-bvtterfly]

i feel like shit today

my (almost ex) boss texted me yesterday if I can come to work today from 8AM to 4PM and help with cleaning before new owners come with their stuff. i was like sure Why not, I still have many days off and I could earn some extra money + burning calories obviously

For breakfast I had a tiny portion of overnight oats so my stomach doesnt rumble in front of all the people lol. But later we had a lunch break and when my co-workers asked me what do I want to eat (fast food gross) I told them Im gonna eat at home (I Wouldnt anyways lol). And then one guy was like „Wtf dude you have to eat or you’ll pass out, you can’t go home blabla” so I had a small pita with falafel and some fries. I ate only half of it but still felt terrible.

Hopefully it was just 12PM so I thought Im gonna burn it anyway, but after I finished work I went to my boyfriend’s workplace (said fast food, there is only one Here lmao) to give him his phone charger and our roommate gave me a cup of icecream with chocolate bars and cookie like bruh

I didnt want to eat it so he kept asking why, and telling me that he hates doing it and now I want to waste it !! u g h

So I ate most of it and went for a walk to burn something and purged it later but I keep feeling disgusting and fat

Plus Ive got my period today, Im bloated as fuck and craving shit

Tomorrow I promised the BF that we’re gonna make some (low cal hihi) cinnamon buns so I’ll use that as an excuse not to eat dinner - profit

And the day after tomorrow BF is going to be at work so I’m planning to do a fast, preferably around 40+ hrs but we will see

Sorry for the rant, I wish u a skinnni night 🦋🤍🩵

[meatriarchived]

[boss music plays as a hp bar appears above my head] hi renee (: i just wanted to say i'm super thankful that i met you this year, and that we literally hit it off and have been vibing ever since. you're such a chill person to hang out with, and i am thankful to have unlocked the frienship dlc with you where we're silly goofy in video games.

i'm sorry but also never sorry for when we start goin back and forth doing critical psychic damage to each other with our unhinged aus and offshoot narratives. you have such a talent and range, and all the muses you have written are ones that feel truly built from the ground up by you. and like, they really are!! i love watching you take a character with little to no lore, and specifically ms maria wronged-by-the-narrative flores, and how you give them the love and care that their creators never will frankly-- danny-alejo osorio > danny gaines every day, mama luda our mom, thomas im scared of you. birdie ur humour and final girl swag. even when hoyt jumpscares us all and dunks on my son im like damn i respect that renee you were so brave and wrote that demon. and ofc maria written as the heart of the narrative doomed or not.

i love building dynamics with you, i love peeking into your creative mind through all your metas, you legit have a garden growing in ur brain. i love that you're willing to get on the insanity level w me w our sad little meowmeows and weave together a story that hurts my feelings every time. i love reading your horror especially, explorations of trauma and the difficult nuances behind it. it inspires me to get a little braver with it and i'm constantly trying to pick up things from your writing! you are funny and kind and a creative powerhouse and i am often simply like damn renee's mind for this…. u know?

anyway all this 2 say ily and i'm glad we're pals, and i hope the new year is kind to you <3!!!

didya enjoy the uno reverse i gave ya for this kels :)) hows that hp bar of yours huh?- FBNJk

you already got all my sappiness in my message to you but do know i so appreciate everything that you said here and in the lil response to the ask as well <3 truly means the world to me how much you guys enjoy where ive been taking my lil texas band of misfits esp with how little they have to go on so most of its my own unhinged nonsense and also just. my writing and characterizations and all of that. esp coming from my hiatus and truthfully feeling rather down and unimpressed with my own writing - knowing you guys not only enjoy it but even pull any little bits of inspiration at all from it warms my heart like you wouldnt believe. so infinitely thank you for that <3

im keeping this saved on here as my last lil posts before this blogs officially archived <3 ilu and thank you again and cannot wait for more of our texas nonsense this year!!! :))

KISSES TO THE SKY TO YOU & OUR FAVORITE JOCK <3

[a-shared-experience]

My boss called in sick today which means I’m next in line. The weekend drained us of medical supplies and food so the morning was spent running back and forth between the warehouse and food bank and then having to carry crates of water, snacks, bandages and a box of 400 narcan kits for distribution into the inner city.i was a sweaty mess. I asked my favourite Capricorn mom/ nurse to take on my client load for wound care and talked shigella outbreak with her. We held each other for a moment when the emails started pouring in for community members who had passed , some far too early to seem fair. One of them used to call me “sis” and tell everyone, “ Brett is the coolest girl I know”. He had a love for Bon Jovi and we spent an afternoon watching prodigy style drummers on YouTube one day when his best friend died. He was such a character. I remember finding him once with his nails badly painted in glitter and he told me he let his daughter give him a makeover. I ache for her loss. I know that no matter how chaotic my father was, ultimately he was my hero.

The old man who loved his booze always had a smile on his face and also fist bumped me and told me to have a wonderful day. His smile was infectious and he was a math genius with great one -liners.

The kid with the face tattoo, I had saved his life, if only for a short period of time, I tell myself maybe he had something important to accomplish. He was stubborn, caught up in gang life and didnt want my help at first but in the end I got him new shoes and roasted him for his tattoo. We laughed together each time that I saw him. You were too young my boy.

Rest easy beautiful souls.

It’s likely no coincidence that at 11:11 I noticed the hockey bag off in the distance. I know that hockey bag, I met the girl last night, the singer.

We rush across the street and find her hiding behind the bag. Thankfully she’s ok but needs wound care again. I tell her that I practiced singing when I got home last night and that it made me feel a lot better.

“ it really does make you feel better, this makes me so happy, god I haven’t sung a song in so long”

I play her a clip of my rod stewart rendition and she tells me to go buy a mic. “ it’s beautifully shy” she says.

I blush. “I played forever young at my dad’s funeral and wouldnt let myself cry because I felt I had to be strong for everyone else”. I share vulnerably. She tells me she loves rod stewart and shares with me the first time she ever stepped onto a stage to do karaoke. She told me she had a few drinks prior and felt like she’d cheated… so she went back again and made a vow to be sober. She said she was on edge as others went up to perform and all she could think about was dipping into the restroom for a hoot but she waited it out. “ it was the best night of my life. I sang this song for my mom that was heartfelt. She was abused really bad all her life and so she just drank. Every day I’d find her slumped over in a chair and my brothers had these busy lives so I just took care of her. I kinda gave up on myself to do anything for her. I loved her.. now I’m just out here doing fent and speed and sleeping rough. “

“Are you a Capricorn “ I jokingly ask

“ fuck yes “ she laughs, then asks if we can sing together.

She takes my phone and looks up a karaoke version of I don’t wanna miss a thing by areosmith and starts belting out the lyrics.

It’s a track I haven’t heard much since grade nine but the words come back and I join in. It’s so freeing to try and harmonize with my fellow earth sign. Class lets out at Grant macewan university and students pour out to find us singing our rock and roll hearts out. Some seem confused, some curious and lots of them smile at us and even woo us on.

We laugh when we are done and I notice tears sneak down her face.

“ girl that was awesome, can I hug you?”

We embrace for a weirdly long time and I tell her what I’ve learned about my beloved Capi’s… they have really hard lives as they enter the world but they age backwards. Once they have faced their pain , taken ownership for their own self love and stop trying to manage or save everyone else’s lives - they find their way back to themselves and get to be kids again. “I’m a Taurus babe , this was meant to be”

She tells me she feels like she should tell me she loves me and I laugh and say I love you too!

“ you’re one of those girls who will forever be in my heart , I’ll never forget this” she says

I squeeze her arm and thank her for inspiring me and helping me sing publicly for the first time ever. “ you have no idea how much this means to me”

I wonder if I’ll ever see her again.

I always watch this one YouTube channel with a guy who just plays guitar in the street and asks people to sing with him. I’ve always thought it was so cute and today was just that for me. Words can’t really explain how free I felt. So many people passed her by on the street and just dismissed her and I can’t even articulate how amazing it was to know her even for a moment.

[bbasmati-rice]

okay opinions time.

so i love the new sonic frontiers update. yes its hard as fuck, yes i wanted to give up multiple times, yes i even said it was impossible in the Master King Trial. But despite all of that, it was fun.

It gave me a huge sense of accomplishment when I beat the Master King Trial AND the new End fight that I cried out of joy and stress when I beat both of them! I was so happy that I didn't give up, and ended up just sleeping on it whenever I felt like I was getting angry.

It also gave me a chance to connect with the Sonic community, as I am a new fan (got into sonic around 2020). I was looking through community posts and seeing other people struggle and complain and call it impossible, as well as people asking for tips. And the people who responded with tips helped me out soso much, I wouldnt have been able to beat it if not!

I dont know about you, but I was hoping for a boss rush in Sonic Frontiers, and now that we have it, despite being insanely difficult, im pretty happy about it. Being forced to learn new techniques (speedrunning tricks) AND finding out about features from the boss fights that I didnt know before (parrying Wyverns rockets, and parrying Knights spikes) was really fun.

plus, the ending was so worth it. i dont think I could find it but before I beat the game I saw a post speculating about how the Original ending was the bad ending, and the Final Horizon ending is the good one, and idk about you guys but I agree. i like that speculation

Plus the story? The playable characters? Amazing. playing as amy and tails and knuckles were all really fun and I dont have much words about them but djdkdhdkdjdjfn ( also amys voice acting in that one scene if you know you KNOW)

despite this, will i ever fully complete this update? Absolutely not, I cant complete most of the new Island challenges or any of the portals, but that doesnt take my enjoyment away.

Idk, im rambling at this point! im about to replay the update saturday so maybe my opinion will change or whatever but I liked the update thats the post bye

[moss-selfship]

Hi! I saw your congratulations post thing and thank you for doing this.

I been having a rly hard time in life, I wanted to finish college but I have bad credit so no student loans I'm in debt for community college, so I just dropped out and gave up. I had dreams but I guess the universe said no. I been applying to jobs left and right but I'm not good enough apparently no matter how much experience I have, I'm not good enough because of a stupid piece of paper.

But I got an award earlier this week from my climate change volunteer org for being one of the top 3 editors of the year. So we're placed in different teams of writers and we're all nominated and all the writers vote anonymously and give reasons on the editors (it's really hard to explain).

I didn't care much about the actual award but hearing my team and other writers talk about how I never break them down and always push them to keep going and love hearing everyone's ideas, something in me just, I broke down sobbing like a blubbering mess when I was read everything that was said about me. My boss who announced it to me had never seen someone cry so much about this.

So yeah I been struggling to find a paying job but to hear my team and other people in my organization think I'm someone to look up to I just

Bro I'm crying thinking about it LOL. This happened on Monday and I logged in this morning to our portal and I have everyone's little notes about me still lol.

Honestly college itself can be hit or miss in alot of things and for some people iys just a better situation to not do it than it is to do it. I know that aint alot of help but still something to think about.

As fir thr job thing i wouldnt beat yourself up about that, the job market is FUCKED everywhere so i honestly wouldnt put to much stock in struggling to get a job.

And holy shit thats so fuckin cool are you kidding me!? I mean winning that award and by the sound of it you are an amazing team member its no wonder you got the award. That is incredible holy shit well done!! Im so proud of you!!!

[penguin--person]

my love i MUST hear about your rot moon au. when you awake from ur slumber

teehee!!

so, since i got the idea on fallen pebbles, or smth.. i think. he'd fall around artificers time, maybe..? since moon isn't avalible in its, pebbles wouldnt be in this one either, i think:( sad! first idea i had was, scavs start taking pebbles' husk apart like deep sea animals take apart a dead whale's body - which, i think could still happen? but they'd probs all evacuate or smth once he starts falling. maybe they move onto moons can, then... unsure... boss u caught me at the worst time i'm all talked out

i think tho. hunter's campaign would be the most diferent. maybe hunter and spearmaster switch places? idk. makes more sense for srs to revive pebbles, no? unsure . i have Nothing on this au dude . i have Nothing yet . you caught me at my all talked out stage. i can only hyopthetise rn

i can theorize that moon would ask riv to give a cell of hers to pebbles, but, i think she'd do that sooner. i think she'd try to help him sooner. even tho he gave her the rot. maybe hunter is hers? idk. i get silly with it ❤️and by that i mean. i dont know.

dont get me wrong, i DO like this au, and i DO have feelings about it . just not very coherent ones

like, in this, pebbles could use the excuse that moon not only interrupted him, she also willingly took in the rot. which. ough. n moon would feel foolish probably, and terrible that she let her little brother collapse. maybe she makes a scug to send him pearls? idk. im just silly.

[coachwhip]

song about how life can be an unfair son of a bitch. played on soprano ukulele.

lyrics under the cut.

i was a doctor

in the marine corps

i used to patch up

the soldiers who escaped

then we hit peacetime

and well it turned out

every goddamn clinic

wound up turning me away

so i had to work

for some two bit jerk

my boss he paid me

barely a penny

couldnt afford a

roof above my head

i was out living

in an old boxcar

curled up and hoping

i wont wake up dead

before the war i had a home

now im all alone

born on the mountain

raised in the plain

homesick for a place you see

but is still so far away

im at the end of my rope

dont know how much more i can take

maybe i should make like

sonny ‘the dog’ wojtowicz

and rob a bank

sold my dads watch for

a clunky junk car

funny the things that

desperation does

pulled up to the bank

pulled down my face mask

i thought this land was

made for all of us

before i stepped inside

i saw the flashing lights

the judge said that my record showed

a history of vagrancy

and debauchery

the hardest sentence he could give

was the one he gave to me

a century in penitentiary

didnt even have a gun

i wouldnt hurt no one

so i look across the bay

and imagine my escape

born on the mountain

raised in the plain

homesick for a place you see

but is still so far away

like that black rock alcatraz

out in san francisco bay

maybe i should make like

morris and the anglin twins

and sail away

into the bay

just float away

never to be seen again

uh huh

mm hm

okay

[ask-vinyl-scratch]

10/25/2010

WOW have I got a lot of bull to put down on paper. the voices in my journal seemed to have stopped too, just like Twi said they would, so Im feelin real good right about now!!!

so yeah its been like 5 days or something. (the dates on the top of the pages kept track of time, which, WTB??? gotta ask Twi about that—actually. maybe not, not after all the juicy gossip that I learned and gotta write down. AWWW BUCK IVE GOT SO MUCH I HAFTA WRITE ABOUT)

ive got so much to write about, but i really wanna write about what happened today... today...♡

ok ok so ill breeze through the other three days or whatever between the 19th and 25th

20th: First of all, Tavi hadda go to frickin' Manehattan by the express and wouldnt have come back until 10 so bleh. My day was going badly and i was a grumpypants, but Pinkie showed up and got me a whole-ass Chocolate cake so I was pretty good. I insisted upon saving 7/8 of it for Octavia's sake once she got back, much to Pinkie Pie's chagrin, but I simply had to, for there is no more romantic gift than Chocolate.

Otherwise, Pinkie took me to see her friends like she Pinkie Promised. eh. lemme give you the run down on em.

~Pinkie~ yeah she introduced me to herself and I buckin love her for it to no end!!

~Twi~ back to the weird-ass treehouse library thing and the purple unicorn who tried to take my journal from me. I swear that mare... she was in the middle of a very delicate experiment or something when we galloped in (literally) but that's not really important because she really DOES have a dragon for a little brother, and his name is

\_~SPIKE~_/ cool bro, y'know, just a chill wyrm. yeah, I'm kinda freinds with a dragon, but it's not like it's a big deal or anything. Pinkie wanted me to give him one of my bottles of Berry's Super-Squeezy Pan-Galactic Fizzling Champagne and I wholeheartedly agreed, but Sparkle said Spike's just a baby dragon and can't have alcohol. (but shouldn't dragons be able to drink way more than ponies...?) Spike protested and threatened to give me juicy gossip on Twi if she didnt let him have the bottle, and she didn't, and he did. HOLY BUCK. no i am not writing it here because that... euhg.

but yeah I would definitely invite him to my raves or to play at the arcade if only Sparkle did't say that Spike's too young to be out that late or to spend his bits on something so silly as an arcade game. i gotta find a way to get him a party of his own, at least, since he really is chill. only thing I can fault him on is that he has fingers and he talks about Rarity Belle a bit too much but at least he wasn't trying to scold me for 'corrupting a baby' like a certain somepony i know. I swear she's almost like a mother to that dragon, it's weird.

~Rarity~ Rarity Belle. Menace.

~Rainbow Dash!~ i did not get to bucking see rainbow dash. damn you, Pinkie! Damn you and your adorableness that makes me forget all about being angry at you and notn being able to find the rainbow mare... awwwwwww. I'd kiss you, but I'm 100% committed to Tavi. (especially AFTER WHAT HAPPENED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

~Applejack~ I get the feeling she didn't like me very much. Still gave me a free apple fritter that Pinkie forced me not to save for Tavi and had me eat right in front of Applejack, deliberately. kinda sus...

~Fluttershy~ Classic blushing wallflower. I bet Pinkie 10 bits she's a fillyfooler and that is 10 bits i intend to collect after I set Shy up with a nice mare. Maybe Tree Hugger? Well, by any means, Fluttershy sure is shy. Don't know what I expected, but it wasn't awkward manic conversation completely predicated on Pinkie Pie's motormouth. I loved it, as usual, as it meant I didnt have to talk a lot, and I think Shy loved it too, which was basically a prerequisite to being friends with Pinkie. Strangely enough, Shy knew I was a fillyfooler even before Pinkie brought it up...

I think she's the most sensitive mare I have ever met. She also rocks the emo hair-over-the-eye thing like a boss! I invited her to come hang with me and Octy since we weren't doing anything but she got real nervous and shaky like a puppy and made an excuse to not come, something about her animals. Which, fair. But I'm pretty sure her cheeks were blushing with the force of Celestia's sun under her pink hair, which is another Point in favor of the fellow fillyfooler fheory... She knew that me and Tavi've been fillyfoolers, so surely

Pinkie Pie really looked like she was 2 seconds away from hatching a harebrained scheme about herself looking after Shy's animals so Shy could come have a night with us but I made her back down. It's actually really easy, you know; all it takes is a hoof to her chest, closing your eyes, and shaking your head mutely. So we went from the cabin, Pinkie with unbridled joy in her heart and I, I with an evil plan to get my ten bits from Pinkie by getting knowledge of Shy's preferences through a straight conversation, a chat between girls, if you will >:)

Pinkie asked me what we were going to do that night, and I told her that we would be doing the same thing we do every night: trying to take over the world. By which I mean going back to my and Tavi's apartment and between us three, and a bottle of that Fizzling Champagne, making a party we can all enjoy. and yes, she did indeed bucking love the Chocolate cake i saved for her. (the parts Pinkie didn't eat, anyway :/)

21th: so i mean, well, when we were drunk on the 20th Pinkie Pie made me Pinkie Promise to 'spin my magic mare, make the music fly and we can have streamers and wubbalishious (sounds good to me) cakes flying around and we can give out kazoos (blashpemy) so ponies can humalong to the songs (even worse, but don't worry, l put a stop to it. too bad she just gave out free mini accordians to everyone...)' on this day.

this Pinkie Promise, though, was really a crazy idea, or whatever the right metaphor is. (i dont care, im tired as fuck and i wanna get to today AAAAAAA I CANT WAIT UNTIL I GET TO WRIITING WHAT I DID TODAY). anyway, A Pinkie Promise to have me hang out with a buncha ponies I dont know a thing about with totally incompatible tastes of music AND accordians???? in not just a rave, but a PINKIE-STYLE rave??????? BONKERS.

so I was setting up for the Pinkie-style rave and it suddenly like dawns on me that this is the perfect opportunity to finally convert the dishwasher so that it cleans dishes with wubs! heh lol. so I did.

aaawwww, whom i kiddin. it was a disaster. think of whatever disaster you're thinking of: technical malfunctions? angry drunks fighting? police intervention? raids against Lunar cultists? earthquakes? tornadoes? the CMC?

yes. multiply it by 10 and you get the party on the 21st

oh faust Tavi's askin me if I wanna go for round 2 rn. to whom it may concern, I think this is where I die. ill write about the other days tomorrowbutigottago