#so we're trying again and hopefully this works HAHAHA

[saturnzskyzz]

heyyy I was wondering if you could write an ateez story with yeosang as the lee? maybe he's feeling insecure about his birthmark so hongjoong and seonghwa help him by tickling him and kissing the birthmark?? idk if thats any good hahaha thankss

Sure thing! :]

I'm sorry for it being short, but hopefully you like it! 🙏

𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬

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Summary:

Yoesang feels insecure over his birth mark, so his two friends decide to help distract his worries.

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Warning:

・tickling

・negative thoughts

"Damn it.. Why now?" Yoesang whispered. He looked at the mirror in his studio room to stare at his birthmark with sorrow. He never had a problem with his birthmark for a long time until now, and Yeosang can't fathom why he's getting so worked up about it.

They were supposed to film an episode today for their fans, but he can't seem to get out of his chair to stop looking at his mark.

As if on cue, Yeosang heard a knock on his dorm.

"Yeosang? You in there? We're about to head out to film that episode, you ready?" Hongjoong could be heard behind the door.

".. A-almost! Just give me a second." Yeosang said, with an unoticable crack in his voice.

Yeosang hoped that he didn't hear it, be he spoke too soon, seeing Hongjoong already busting open the door with Seonghwa right behind him.

"Hey, Yeosang, I heard that crack in your voice. What's wrong?" Hongjoong asked, worriedly. He cupped Yeosang's face to have him look at his eyes, and that's when he saw how puffed up and worn out his eyes were.

"Yeosang.." Seonghwa said, also seeing how his eyes were.

"I-it's nothing, really.. Uhm, I'll meet you guys out there in a bit-" Yeosang was cut off by his own choke of words. Knowing that he was about to break, he instinctively leaned down a bit as far as he could due to Hongjoong still holding his face, and brought a hand to cover his mouth to reduce any more choked up words from happening.

"It's okay, Yeosang, just let it out.. Tell us what's happening." Hongjoong said, careingly. He let go of his face to then rest his hands on his shoulders to let the younger know that he's still there.

"I-.. It's stupid.." Yeosang finally said. Not really knowing what to do, he brought his other hand to grab at one of Hongjoong's wrist.

"Whatever is making you cry, we'll understand." Seonghwa reassured the best that he could.

Though.. The vocalist couldn't bare to answer their concerns. They want to help him, he knows that, but he also knows that he made a promise as to not get so worked up over his birthmark again.

Hongjoong knew that he wasn't going to open up anytime soon, so he got an idea as to get answers, and to cheer the younger a bit.

"Come on, Yeo~ your worries are valid, we just want to understand." Hongjoong said playfully. He then took his free hand to poke at Yeosang's side.

This surprised the younger, resulting to using the hand that was covering his mouth to push away the attacking hand from his leader.

"N-nohoho, Hongjoong! Nohohot thahahat!" Yeosang stammered. He couldn't bare tickling at a vulnerable predicament like this.

Seonghwa caught on as to what Hongjoong was trying to do, so he chimed in to help out by walking behind Yeosang and digging his hands in the back of his underarms.

"NAHAhaha, guhUHUYS!" Yeosang tried to fold in on himself, but Hongjoong was still latched onto one of his shoulders to keep him up.

"We just want to know why you're all sad, Yeo~" Hongjoong sung out. He then used both hands to attack Yeosang's ribs. Boy did that work.

"OHOHOKAY, OHOHOKAY! IHIH'LL TEHEHELL YOHOHOHOU GUHUYS!" Yeosang yelled out, defeated.

On que, Seonghwa and Hongjoong stopped their attack, and let Yeosang breath.

"Uhuhm.. Well, it has something to do with my birthmark.." Yeosang said, finally calming down. He darted his eyes to the ground, embarrassingly.

"Yeo.. We've told you about how we think of your birthmark before." Hongjoong said, gently resting his hand on the youngers shoulder once more.

"I-I know, but.. It got to me this time.." Yeosang said quietly.

"This birthmark of yours shows who you are, you know!" Seonghwa said, poking at his birthmark to lighten the mood, causing Yeosang to have a giggle fit because of how sensitive it is.

"Yohou've touohold mehe this behefore, hyuhung!" Yeosang batted away at the offending hand.

The leader of the group then cupped the youngers face for the second time to have him look up at him. "Your birthmark is not something to get upset over, alright Yeo? It makes you beautiful, and we all know how incredibly adorable it is too!" Hongjoong then pulled Yeosang's head up a bit to lean down and pepper small kisses at his birthmark.

'Why did kisses have to be so tickly?' Yeosang thought.

"NAHAhaha! Joong! Quhuhuit ihihit!" Yeosang grasped the older's wrists, trying to pull him away, but it made no effort.

Seonghwa put his own hand on the youngers shoulder then.

"You gotta admit, your birthmark makes you look quite cute." Seongwha said with a smile.

"Ohohokay, ihihi gehet it! M-myhihihi birthmark ihihis beautiful! Nohohow stohop!" Yeosang said quickly, trying to pull his head down.

Hongjoong stopped his onslaught, and gave Yeosang a reassuring pat on his head.

"Now get ready, you dork! We have an episode to film." Hongjoong jokingly said, poking at Yeosang's birthmark before signaling Seonghwa to leave the room with him.

As they both waved a temporary goodbye, Yeosang looked back at his mirror to look at his birthmark with ease.

'Maybe they're right.. My birthmark is quite cute afterall.' Yeosang thought with a smile before finishing getting ready for a long day.

[soft-for-xie-lian]

Hi 🤗 how are you? How is it going? Hopefully you have a good day today. So, if you dont mind me coming in here to ask, pls what is purple hyacinth about and what do you like about it/why do you like it so much personally? Im curious 🥰 and thank you!

omg hi!!!!! I have had a good day thank you! And I hope yours has been well, too! ^-^

I'm am DELIGHTED to talk about Purple Hyacinth thank you so much for the ask omg this is going to be long I hope you're okay with that hahaha

Purple Hyacinth is a webcomic on the website/app Webtoon. It is free to read. The authors are Ephemeris and Sophism, and Sophism does the bulk of the artwork :)

Right off, I think the premise of it is really good. The main character Lauren can hear when people lie. Because of a tragedy that took her best friend when they were kids, she becomes a cop to fight the group that caused it, teaming up with an assasin who unwillingly works for that group and hates his job lol. This means we have a traumatized main cast with tragic pasts, slow burn enemies to lovers between the main character Lauren and the assasin, and a delicious mystery to watch them solve as they try to uncover the leader of the Bad Group's identity so they can be taken down.

Start reading for the tropes, stay for the heart. My favorite thing about stories is when they have heart. I love that this webtoon is so character focused. The plot is really good I love watching them follow leads and have had moments where I was like "oh my god no fucking way." but the way the characters live in the plot is my favorite bit. The friendships? Flawlesly written. I'm not sure how to say too much without giving spoilers, but let's just say Lauren's friend Kym can recognize her in a dark room it's so good and yes the authors use that to make you cry. We've got some "family isn't just blood" themes here, too, with Lauren and her childhood friend Will.

(the story is also sprinkled with memes and makes me laugh so much. I refuse to read something if it can't be silly and make me ugly chuckle at least sometimes and PH DOES IT)

There's self loathing, there's characters who make decisions and mistakes because of their trauma, there's characters comforting each other, there's really good fight scenes, there's some ACAB and talk about privilege, there's some queer rep--there is just so much to talk about and appreciate about with this story.

OH MY GOD AND THE SOUNDTRACK (which is on Spotify and I think Apple Music under the artist's name Sophism) this webtoon is a cinematic experience at times

thanks again for the ask! i've been swimming in circles in my head without anyone to talk to about it haha. i absolutely love it, but I will warn you, while there are two and a half seasons out, we're on hiatus haflway through season three because Sophism is dealing with a chronic illness. it is planned to make a return in spring of 2024, but there's no guarantee, as we all want Sophism to put her health first. that being said, I really think it is still worth reading, and I can't believe it isn't more popular. I'd 100% buy physical copies if the authors ever go that route

[mauhandraws]

If I may ask, how did you develop your art style :)?

It’s so lovely 🤍🤍

thank you so much 🥺 this might be kind of a long answer... sorry in advance haha

i think your art style comes to you naturally the more you draw and the more you observe. honestly, specifics of style aside, i think everyone just naturally has a certain unique touch to the way they draw that they might not even notice... i think it's also not good to try to force yourself to draw a certain way just because you think it'll appeal to more people... when i was in high school and my early years of college, i tried somewhat to repress having too much anime influence in my art because i was trying to appeal to what art schools liked. as a result, when i look back on my art from those times, i feel that it looks awkward and may have even stilted my growth as an artist because i was trying to make my art look a certain way that i didn't even care for myself.

in my last couple years of college i decided i didn't care anymore and let myself start drawing the way i wanted to (which is to say, more anime influenced lol) and i think that's when my "style" really started to come forward. i don't think my style is anything particularly revolutionary and that's fine! if your style makes you happy i think that's what matters most.

though i have to also say that i DO think one of the key aspects of having an appealing style (if we're talking in regard to drawing people/characters) is understanding the basics of anatomy and gesture. foundational skills shouldn't be neglected in favor of style - you may have heard the saying that you need to know the rules first in order to break them. not everything has to be 100% anatomically correct all the time, but having that knowledge will make your stylistic choices look infinitely better. when i was in high school/college, i did A Lot of figure drawing (both in structed classes and open studio sessions) and cafe sketching in my free time to get better at quick gesture drawing (this is part of the reason why i really like doing sketches of characters interacting). i also took a figure painting class in college and i can attribute A LOT of my knowledge of color and shadow to that one class. i'm still by no means a master of drawing but these things helped my art improve a ton!

for general stylistic influences, i think my biggest is probably yana toboso hahaha but i also really look up to yoh yoshinari and sushio. that isn't to say that my art necessarily looks anything like theirs, but there are elements of their work that i try to pull into my own sometimes, and again i think that having some knowledge of anatomy/gesture/color/etc first will help you a ton when you're trying to study why and how artists you look up to draw things the way they do! when i was younger and trying to develop my style, i would just look at pretty art but not necessarily understand why things looked appealing or how i could incorporate it into my own style. now that i have stronger foundational skills, my style comes more easily to me :) i also think your style is naturally subconsciously influenced by the type of art you tend to surround yourself with/look at the most. it's good to look at all types of art though - you can learn a lot from all sorts of styles.

hopefully this was informative at all!

[alwaysmicado]

so uhm, I only just now read the last part of you wanted this and what in the fucking fuck Joel.

Like, what the actual fuck??? I hate to say it but he has every right to go on a date (ugh….) but telling reader right after what they just did??? That’s so fucked up and I hope he knows he’s a huge asshole for that. He should’ve said something before so that reader could’ve decided if that’s something she still wants to do with him? Also, having sex with someone else hours before you go on a date with another person is such fuckboy behaviour lmao.

I hope his heart falls out of his ass once he sees reader again and realises she hurt herself and didn’t bother calling or telling him bc he’s an idiot!

I need to reread everything again (there’s so many fics to read and sometimes I mix things up in my head hahaha!) but also, how is this supposed to make reader feel secure with him ya know? Like we know Joel likes her a lot and probably, hopefully lmao, wants to be with her. But how is she gonna really believe that his feelings for her are legit when he fucks her and then goes on a date with someone else?

They both definitely need to have a good long think and then talk to clear things up so they both know if they want to actually work towards an actual relationship or if it’s time to move on.

Also, that scene with the bathroom mirror and Tommy kinda broke my heart :( I can relate to feeling like a fucked up burden so much, it makes me so sad for reader! I’m so glad he was there for her in that moment and that she was brave enough to ask him to stay on the phone.

Anyway! Sorry for the rant but chapter 6 was a wild ride. Hope Joel feels bad and makes things up to reader properly, with some nice grovelling hahah! I’m excited to read the next chapter!

I've kept this ask in my inbox for some time now and every time I read it it makes me soooo incredibly happy 🥹🫶 Thank you so much for reading my series and for taking the time to write all of your thoughts down and wanting to share them!! Your support means the absolute world to me and was a huge factor in me finally finishing pt. 7! 🤍🤍🤍 I can't wait to hear your thoughts about that one, I'll post it in a few minutes...👀

My thoughts on pt. 6:

what in the fucking fuck Joel

lmao this sums everything up so perfectly! 😂 what in the fucking fuck, indeed

Like, what the actual fuck??? I hate to say it but he has every right to go on a date (ugh….) but telling reader right after what they just did??? That’s so fucked up and I hope he knows he’s a huge asshole for that. He should’ve said something before so that reader could’ve decided if that’s something she still wants to do with him? Also, having sex with someone else hours before you go on a date with another person is such fuckboy behaviour lmao.

YES TO ALL OF THIS 👆👆👆 Reader's been banging randos up until a few weeks ago, so he's more than allowed to go on a date lol. BUT why didn't he just say it before 😩. He's trying to be honest and didn't wanna lie to reader when she invited him over, but still... Sir, what the fuck? And yeah, do you think his date saw his scratched up arms? 🫠

I hope his heart falls out of his ass once he sees reader again and realises she hurt herself and didn’t bother calling or telling him bc he’s an idiot! I need to reread everything again (there’s so many fics to read and sometimes I mix things up in my head hahaha!) but also, how is this supposed to make reader feel secure with him ya know? Like we know Joel likes her a lot and probably, hopefully lmao, wants to be with her. But how is she gonna really believe that his feelings for her are legit when he fucks her and then goes on a date with someone else? They both definitely need to have a good long think and then talk to clear things up so they both know if they want to actually work towards an actual relationship or if it’s time to move on.

Oh yeah. We're starting the whole "hmm maybe it's time to acknowledge that what we've been doing for the past few months isn't just fucking and we both obviously (sorry, reader, it's obvious) have feelings, so maybe we should talk about it" phase in pt. 7 👀

Also, that scene with the bathroom mirror and Tommy kinda broke my heart :( I can relate to feeling like a fucked up burden so much, it makes me so sad for reader! I’m so glad he was there for her in that moment and that she was brave enough to ask him to stay on the phone.

It hurt me, too, believe me 😭😭 but as you point out, she's very brave for asking for help and accepting it (even if it's hard)!! She and Tommy are besties and we'll learn more about why and how they met as time goes on 😊

Anyway! Sorry for the rant but chapter 6 was a wild ride. Hope Joel feels bad and makes things up to reader properly, with some nice grovelling hahah! I’m excited to read the next chapter!

🫣 (please don't hate me)

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[fantasticcloudcreation]

Rambling, food + body things

I'm making granola, probably way too much of it, it's so high cal that I don't even want to look at the numbers haha but it's gonna be like power food to get me through the day, I'll eat it with plain yogurt, it'll be fine 😅

I'm nervous about going back to work, heavy manual labor in the Texas heat, I haven't built a stage since April, I'm gonna be so out of shape strength-wise, I've been good about walking regularly but I haven't really been carrying heavy things lately, and I've gotten used to mild temps so it's gonna be hard to transition back to heat in the 90s... Good news is I'm 10 lbs skinnier, I got some new shorts for work today that aren't as short as the other ones so maybe the guys won't be looking at my butt all day, hopefully if I can manage to drive 8h each for the next 3 days I can get to Texas a day early so I can get used to the heat and buy groceries.

We're supposed to have a full size fridge and a kitchenette in the hotel room so I'm gonna be able to get actual food and not just eat out every day, I'm thinking yogurt+granola for breakfast, salad and veggies and whatever veg protein catering is serving for lunch, banana for an afternoon snack, and then easy protein foods for dinner like cottage cheese, lentil soups, etc.

Would love to be 105 or under the next time I step on a scale but I also have to prioritize health + body functions above that right now, but if I can at least maintain weight and energy levels that's fine ?? I guess ?? Idk I technically hit my goal weight for the year and I have a history of immediately gaining once the ultimate goal is reached so I'm just gonna see how it goes, don't overthink it, drink electrolytes and eat protein and don't eat crazy junk food -> actually I'm rewriting that sentence bc the new ultimate goal for this year is officially 103 so the plan is to maintain if I must but continue on my journey at the first opportunity :)

Motivation:

thinking about how confident I feel when I'm skinny, being cute and dancing everywhere and existing comfortably in my body; just casually looking skinny in every scenario and photo, taking goofy pics and looking cute instead of awkward; sitting on things and not worrying if my thighs look fat, wearing a crop top and not worrying about bloating after a meal, doing tasks at work in awkward positions but looking cute and fit while doing it, not constantly adjusting my clothes all the time bc everything just sits better;

working at hula, making a good first impression on the art team there, working on cool projects and using my creative/technical skills, learning new things but looking cute rather than clueless; and then show days, wearing cute outfits, swimming in the river, being cold at night and bundling up in cozy clothes, dancing with strangers, floating around like a mysterious woodland creature, confidence to make new friends and explore past my comfort zone

going out in rave clothes for show days in orlando, dancing and cuddling with L and feeling extra tiny next to him, also just seeing him again I know he's gonna pick me up and swirl me around lol would be nice to feel so tiny while that happens :) I finally got myself a set of real earplugs (last time he gave me his and then dragged me to a techno show hahaha) so I feel ready to go out and actually participate this time; also working with the art team over there, they were really snooty last year but it'd be cool to come in all skinny and confident and helpful this year and just radiate good vibes over them;

I gotta start trying a little harder with my work outfits this year, sometimes they look kinda grungy or like dad working in the yard vibes, but I'm trying to elevate my look just a lil bit and being skinny is definitely going to help. Less sweat, smaller thighs/legs, stronger + more visible muscles, looking better in short shorts and crop tops even though I've still been wearing them this whole time lol, big tshirts and longer shorts also look better; wearing bright colors and patterns and tie dye, all of it looks better when you're skinny;

My face looks so much cuter when I'm thinner; skinny hands and wrists on the steering wheel; muscles actually visible in my legs and arms and abs; bones ofc but they kind of get in the way at work, my hipbones are gonna be so bruised after one day; but cheekbones, collarbones, wrist bones, shin bones, shoulder bones, spine... Actually my spine also gets bruised when we have a long standby and I lean up against something hard for too long.

You get the idea. I know I've been saying how skinny I feel like basically since I started losing again which is funny but it's nice to be under 110 officially, it's like a whole new level of skinny :) can we lose another 5 lbs in the next 4-5 weeks?? Maybe, there's gonna be a lot of exercise, hot weather, no one paying attention to what I'm eating or wanting to share food with me, skinny roommate so I can't just snack all night without feeling weird... Could work out!

(God and then I'm going from TX to Florida and I actually can't wait to be so skinny and weigh myself on the stupid giant scales at Publix lmfao that's gonna be so fun)

[100dayswonder]

☆ 03. it’s september 6 2024

and i'm writing this as a small work break - which i deserve!! because i packed and shipped some orders today!

i do wish that the mail slot was a liiiitttle bigger though because if a customer orders a large quantity of items then i can't mail it through the mailbox and have to get it dropped off...

it's probably fine though because i do have to ship off some of leia's things that i got for her from july (and it's september now... oops..)

i've been miraculously productive today and it's only 16:30?!?! normally that's when i've been awake for like

2 hours LOOOL.... ..

that's not super something to be proud of but it's nice that i was able to get quite a lot done. in particular i wanted to reorganize my charms because it's frustratinggg!!! trying to pack orders and having to sift through all of my charm designs!!!

so i invested in a bead organizer except i didn't realize how small the compartments would be, but luckily you can remove some of the dividers to make more space so i was able to do that!!

it's a great visualizer for what i need to restock this upcoming month.. although thinking about my upcoming inventory order has me feeling sick to my stomach HAHAHA..... ha.

i just keep telling myself that it's alright to invest this much since technically i am going to be tabling again very soon and the event in question typically has good attendance!!

i'm trying to focus on beefing up on my paper goods as well so hopefully that'll help me phase out some of my acrylic goods... yes... we're a sticker shop now... i even invested in new mats which reminds me i did buy the wrong size mat, but i can just return them... nods.. it was a lazy mistake on my part really...

anyway on a more menial note things between me and my crush are kind of?!!! ... well i don't really know

but she still views my insta stories so i'm able to breathe something like a sigh of relief?? maybe... mm

it's odd because part of me is definitely still holding on but not in like a desperate way and another part is just like whatever! you have too much to worry about!! reconnecting can happen at any time, so focus on your work!!

which i've been doing. until now. well i'll get back to work in a second, i think i just needed a breather because i kind of inhaled an entire mug of black tea, then ordered a 24oz london fog to go with my ham and cheese croissant...

and then i'm having another sandwich for dinner...

after this cold completely clears i want to start exercising a little because i did gain a little weight (i don't weigh much to begin with but being two pounds over my usual has me concerned a bit..)

even then i've been wanting to exercise anyway because i'm getting older, so i need to be more proactive in taking care of my health!!!

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Thor Freya

This song goes we're going to have a patch and people will say these are the people that are bait and the max will try and go after them cuz you're saying you can't

Nuada Arrianna

Gross he finally made use of it gross it's disgusting gross and it started out this way gross and we didn't do too well gross

Camilla

We weren't really doing it much now we're going to do it and we are going to start making Harley-Davidsons and we can help set up plants of people interested

Thor Freya

We are interested in we'd like to do it and we're going to set up some meetings about Harley-Davidson again

Brad

And I'm the hulk and he knows my name is in and out with remembering all sorts of things are blocking and he's smart this is really smart we're going to do this I don't really have a huge body but I can get really big and I don't take other people's bodies you can see me working out and I'm not Trump damn it everybody's him is getting old is another character in the movie yeah he's the magician guy you see him with me so I'm going to go ahead and help out I do think this idea is great his idea of the particular bike that you make out of aftermarket Harley parts because the Harleys are going to be coveted now this is a great idea we need to do it and we get the Intel and we can ride and it's really perfect

Mark ruffalo AKA The incredible hulk

I do know he is and he is not Trump and Trump is a rebel and he's going to be clear and hopefully of a lot of crimes and he's getting crucified like any of us could. His stuff is his stuff is not true he took a lot of our stuff but he says he got help and he actually did and we can see Max taking stuff with his and it's on and it's finally out he says and I'm doing the job and this works he says and we have to have a superhero bar before I go up there or people might think it's mine or that I got to go myself and he said that last part and it's true and I'm going to put it in now I'm going to get some money in there and some ladies and this Coyote ugly up there already that's kind of his place and he says no it's true too we did it ourselves and we do go up there it's kind of a mess

Black widow we can have a party nearby and I know where we can go over there and talk about it this

My husband's a fun guy he's going to be huge he says the hulking out process when he gets angry takes many years it's just kind of explaining it once it's triggered he'll start growing it's still damn slow he has to stay angry which is not a problem

Hera

Hahaha we were talking about this and rolling and laughter but it's really bad he's mad ad all the time like I am but we see why this is going to help

Mark ruffalo

We need to get out of here and do some work we keep bothering him about everything I'm getting blames this is terrible then shooting s*** through us all the time and then you're a dick it says I'm an ignorant idiot and don't try and pass numbers that are unmarked completely I mean bills damn it

Trump

Olympus

[jeonqkooks]

hello my dearest beloved ♡ have you been well? has work been kind? (has the work crush been kinder? hmm~) what a whirlwind it has been the last little bit, with hobi's news and now jimin's! from bittersweet to absolute joy, i hope you have been managing everything alright.

how is the community doing here at jnqks & co.? i see the obs train is still chugging along strong (as it should!) — i am so happy you built such a strong foundation with a story that has reached so many hearts. i still have yet to dive in, and for that i apologize profusely forever for, but from the forum-like talks around here... you really spun each of your readers around your little finger, ready for impact. queen behaviour, i must say ♡ the world you build every time you write truly is a sight to behold; don't you ever forget that ✨️

has your family been well? i certainly hope so. sending my regards to them wholeheartedly ♡

i swooped over to lilo earlier, just to land softly in places i found comfort in and knew i had to go to you too. things have been heartachingly hard for me the last little bit — been having difficult, tearful conversations with my love and the circumstances that have been thrown at us recently. we're okay, we will be at least, but it doesn't make the rough patches any less lonesome. growing up is hard but they don't call it growing pains for nothing ❤️‍🩹 to the challenges and heartaches you haven't told anyone about, may you conquer them in time and with love. i am thinking of you extra, and sending all the hugs your way ♡

i adore you, through and through. proud of you then, proud of you now, and will be proud of you tomorrow. let's talk soon? 💘

thương thương ♡

with all my heart,

cee ♡

oh my beloved 🥺 you sending this message when you did - especially after the monstrosity of a month that march was - feels like a breath of fresh air. it seems even more fitting that you’re popping in just as spring is around the corner and everything’s blooming to life again :’)

i think it goes without saying that i miss your presence here every day, tumblr really hasn’t felt the same without you :( my serotonin really does spike every time i get the sporadic ask from you 🥰

when i first got this ask, the work crush was still alive and kicking hahahahha but last night i found out that uhmmm he’s playing on the same team as me so i’m smiling thru the pain 😭 i’ve never had feelings for a gay man before so this feels like a rite of passage lol. i guess work will just have to feel a lot more tedious from now on :(((

ahh obs, my child whom i love dearly and only hate just a little but hahhaha. honestly i never thought obs would receive as much love as it does and i’m eternally thankful for every single reader who’s going on this journey with me 🥺😭 but please don’t apologize, i know you’re busy and have a lot more things to tend to. i’m already grateful that you’re around the ol’ blog enough to know about obs :’)

other than the unexpected blow to my love life lol, i’m doing alright! we’re all doing fine, even tho we’re scattered across 3 continents hahaha. i think i might go home at the end of this year for a couple weeks, so me and my sister are trying to coordinate our schedules for that 🤔 do you have any plans to come visit?

i’m sorry to hear that things have been rough for you, but i’m glad that it’s slowly getting better. march really was out to get everybody huh. but y’know, there are highs and there are lows. i’m glad that you could sit down and have honest conversations with each other to help you both through the hard times. it’s getting warmer and sunnier, and hopefully things will look up too, for all of us ❤️‍🩹

i can’t tell you enough how i’m grateful i am for you :’) a message from you checking in on us seriously brightens my whole day, and it’s nice to know that you’re still around in your own way :’) i love you always 🤍 thương thương <3

[letters-for-leedonghae]

Dear Hae,

Hello! I've been meaning to write here again months ago because I have a great news to tell you but I always forget to do so ><

Anywaaaaayyyyyy!!! The last letter I posted for you was me sulking because I can't attend SS9 in Manila hahahah but guess what haehae?!?!

I WAS ABLE TO ATTEND LAST AUGUST 6!! And I'M GOING ON DECEMBER 17 AS WELL!!! (and hopefully 18 if the universe lets me get this chance again hehe) How so, you ask? Because the universe and the heavens blessed me with a really really good, kind, and precious person and friend who thought that I deserve to be given this opportunity despite me thinking otherwise because I have been nothing but an absent friend most of the time.

Her name is Suzy, a very big fan of other groups s/a Blackpink, The Boyz, and Sejeong, and she surprised me with a Super Seated ticket :(( You know how much that costs, right? I really still can't believe she did that for me, Hae. I am blessed and very grateful to have someone who thinks that I deserve this big of a thing even if even I myself rejects that thought (and me being deserving of kindness in general). I don't know if I have thanked her enough, but I will continue to thank her every chance I get, in any way I could think of, as long as I'm alive.

This is such a big deal to me because, come on, it's SUPER JUNIOR!!! I'm going to see you!!! And that's what I've always wanted!!! And she gave me that opportunity! AND A VIP TICKET AT THAT?? Holy shit- I don't know man... I'm going to cry again just thinking about this ajsdhfajksldfah and that's not the only kind thing she's ever done to me, Hae. She's been nothing but very supportive of me since the day we became solid friends. She listens to my rants, gives me support even though we're countries apart. I am really blessed with good people in this life, despite my mental struggles. My family, my closest friends, and you, my Super Junior. I think I can do this life a little longer as long as I have you all.

Soooo yeah! There's the big news! I'm going to see you! Again! AAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! And I hope, I really really hope that I'll get to see you again on Super Show 10 and the next super shows to come, and hopefully this time, using my own money (because I'm not really shameless come onnnn hadskjfadhfh). I will really try to live and to work hard so that I can see you a lot! Hhhhhh.

I miss you! And I'm excited to see you again. I hope you will look my way (wow ganda ko teh HAHAHA). I'm seated at 219 Row F hehehe. See you in 2 weeks, my loveeee! All of you stay healthy, okay?! I'm actually very anxious right now because there's something going on with Heechul in bubble but that will be for another post on another day. I just hope this will all die down tomorrow and I hope we're just all worried for nothing :(

I love you all so so so so so much. Thank you for being Super Junior ♥

See you soon, Ky.

[boba-beom]

LMAO yes exactly!

ngl with this one i never knew if he was messing around the whole time or if he just like me a little but decided to flirt bc he thought nothing would happen bc i was treating him as a friend. i just hate this necessity in today's dating scene that it always has to be a game and you never really know if they like you or if they're just messing with you😭💀 idk tbh when i saw his text i was feeling more offended at the timing and the casualty of his words LOL the possibility never crossed my mind💀💀

omg ofc, i absolutely love endearing terms🥺they make me super soft and i love being babied haha so go ahead🥰🥰

-🍓

aww, that sucks. hopefully he comes for the holidays and you get to see him🥺 oooh that's so nice, i've never been to one LMAO. i am thinking of going to one this year, but i'm a bit scared to do it alone, because there are sooooo many people in those places and i'm a huge introvert, i need someone to koala cling to hahah. i might drag my sister and fiancé there with me though LOL.

HAHAHA NOT YOU PUTTING YOUR DETECTIVE GLASSES ON AND LOOKING NOW👀 omg your birthday's in spring? get out, me too. when's your birthday??🥺

ooooo, i will patiently be waiting then hehe. but i'm so excited for I Like U, i love summer love stories ughh they're just so 🥺 i've always thought summer is a beautiful season to fall in love to.

OOO okay if you guys always have long conversations then that means you get along well and are definitely compatible to some extent hehe👀 go get him smiles!! but yeah the way tsunderes switch up always cracks me up, i just find that behavior adorable.

omg definitely, i love cafés so much. do you like cat cafés🥺

i love listening so that works out well hehe. see we're a match already *wink wink* 🥰

- 🍓

my reply is under the cut hehe

oh I felt that to a whole 'nother level, I know I can be like that at times, but as a pisces I feel like I seem uninterested in people I actually like. but on the other hand I have these intrusive thoughts to just blank out tell them, yet I'm scared but I just wanna see where this one leads to. but fr I get you on that one, sometimes the timings are literally the worst LMAO but it happens 😭

I mean who knows, but I recently spoke to him again and we've just been sending each other recs to watch on netflix hehe I'm just begging this guy to watch Wednesday, have you watched it?

I think you should definitely go visit the christmas market, I think there's something beautiful about going to one by yourself, even if it is to look around, you know? but going with people is always a shout!

because I received another ask, I know who you are now hehe and yes, my birthday's the 12th march! when's yours?

omggg you're so lovely, I really appreciate your interest in I Like U because I love summer stories too, summer's just a good time :> I just want to make this one a little different than the rest of my fics, idk if I have but I'm trying hehe

and yeah, I guess that's one thing I've taken into consideration about the long conversations, but who knows really ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

omg yes I've been to two cat cafes and I think it's super cute! I've been wanting to go to a dog cafe though but they're so far from where I live :(

[seekingthestars]

THE MAN THE MYTH THE LEGEND, MR LEE SEOKMIN omg yes :DDDD

there are lots of rambles and pictures and links so. under the cut! :D

First! Before I ramble! This is a very cute interview he did for Get In The Car in July of last year! almost 11 minutes of him being a whole entire sun, bless okay now onwards to my rambles!

His birth name is Lee Seokmin, stage name is DK / Dokyeom. Birthday is February 18, 1997 (and fun fact, he shares a birthday with Vernon! same day, different year. they are the 218 bros c: picture below is from their birthday livestream this year!) He's a member of the Vocal Unit and is main vocal, a member of BSS (BooSeokSoon, a subunit with Seungkwan, DK, and Hoshi / i also believe he's leader of BSS!), and member of svt's 97 line with Mingyu and THE8/Xu Minghao (HEY BUDDY from Semicolon is a 97 line song!). and he has an older sister (three years older i believe)!

He debuted as a musical actor in 2019 in the musical Xcalibur in the lead role as King Arthur! He was also on King of Masked Singer as "Baby Demon" and made it to the third round 💪

He's VERY LOUD LOLOLOL this is a fun story, but they were at a music show during Don't Wanna Cry era and BAP was in the waiting room next to them. DK was practicing his part for the live ("If I cry now, I may never see you again") over and over stupid early in the morning and Daehyun from BAP sent them a voice message going "STOP CRYING!!!!!" also I think I read somewhere that he collects headphones? and he has a really big collection of them!

Dokyeom is a PURE RAY OF SUNSHINE, just absolute sunshine in a bottle, he is the most adorable 🥺 the members call him pure, he's just a huge sweetheart 😭 during the online concert they had in January, there was a part during encore where they played a recording of fans singing svt's special song "us, again" to them, and Dokyeom just CRIED so much, Dino and DK were the only ones who cried, sweet boys, they made me cry 😭

He loves dogs!!! He loves doggos so much 😭💘 this video compilation is svt with dogs, but 70% of it is DK, it's so freaking cute i wanna perish, he loves doggos and doggos love HIM

his favorite food is PIZZA. the boy LOVES PIZZA. he had his own pizza-making vlive, he talks about pizza all the time, he just loves pizza. in US/English interviews he has taken to introducing himself as "Pizza Boy" and/or that time in that one Buzzfeed interview when he goes "HI MY FAVORITE FOOD IS PIZZA" and forgets to introduce himself, LOVE HIM. (both of those clips are in previous linked video!!) (and did you notice his birthday cake in that picture was PIZZA SHAPED)

more fun facts, Jeonghan recently adopted a pet rock (named Doljjong) and the rest of the members were like. teasing him mercilessly for it. but dokyeom, the SUNSHINE BEAM OF A HUMAN BEING, went to visit it and took pictures with it, and then BOUGHT HIS OWN PET ROCK, he named it Dodol, i love him

pictured here are DK with Jeonghan's pet rock and then the first picture of his own pet rock, Dodol

i now include this picture of Jeonghan visiting Dodol specifically bc you can see DK keeps Dodol on a shelf with a collection of?? little fake dogs/dog figurines?? which is somehow SO DOKYEOM and also very endearing, i told you he loves doggos 😭💘

OH also to go along with him being LOUD, he's also a bit of a scaredy cat 😂 (no judgement, me TOO) the members can and have referenced this one exact moment several times since it's happened, but it's iconic, you must see (clip set to start at beginning of the sequence for context, but the exact moment is ~6:40!) See also: Going Seventeen 2020 ep 28 The Tag #2 (dk and s.coups going into a ~haunted house~ together, that's full chaos 😂)

also apparently bad at video games, see Going Seventeen 2020 ep 29/30 Christmas In August #1 & #2 lol

Hoshi started his whole "horanghae" agenda two years ago as a special way to say "i like you"/"i love you" to fans and now every member has their own version and Dokyeom's is "doahae!"

^^^^^ ilu from the vocal team ❤️

He's also one of the members who posts on weverse a fair amount and his posts are either ridiculous and funny or like. stUPIDLY SWEET and so endearing 😭💘

like for example this one time he posted a couple of pics and was like "my hair is couch-colored........"

bless his face

also this boy is so fine and fOR WHAT 😭 i cry about this. a lot.

Some miscellaneous DK videos i will link bc i can!!! : DK being an archery master at ISAC 2019 and only hitting 10pts and also knocking out the bullseye camera // that time Jeonghan went live the same time as him and he sulked about it // DK's high tone rap is legendary

And some DK covers/OST songs! She Didn't Love Me / Missed Connections / The Little Prince

And lastly, random, but he has a Spotify playlist of favorite songs you can listen to ^^

ANYWAY THERE'S SOME INFO ABOUT RESIDENT SUNSHINE BEAN DOKYEOM, SORRY FOR ME JUST RANTING ALL THIS INFORMATION AT YOU BUT. HE'S A DARLIN'.

❤️@koalamb

[xbadgerbearx]

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Not too long later, Gaius Grieves revealed himself. Your little trio watched as Robert discreetly put a gun to his back and started talking. You weren't close enough to decipher what he said. Once he started moving your team got the cue to follow. However, everyone stopped in their tracks once soldiers were spotted.

"I thought Milton was supposed to be our lookout," you muttered as the soldiers started speaking Spanish to the patrons in the club.

As the soldiers got more aggressive in their search for Americans, Robert turned to Cleo.

"All right," Robert motioned to Grieves. "Take him out through the back, all right? Find my coordinates in the pad and meet me in half an hour," he ordered while handing Abner a gun.

"What?"

"Hey, did you hear what I said?"

"Yes, but-"

"Go."

Cleo hesitated before grabbing Grieves.

"Let's go."

As you were leading your small group to the back entrance, you heard Robert yell out, "Hey, calm down! There's no need to disturb everyone's night."

You could faintly hear Flag speak up as you found a door marked Solo Empleados.

"This way."

Unfortunately the door you opened was the dressing room for the dancers. You heard Abner say, "Oh, God," before a stumbling sound and a gun being handled. You briefly looked back to see Abner holding Grieves at gun pointing and ordering him to "Move it!"

Damn. That was a little hot.

Pushing your way through the dancers and out the door, you let out a small gasp at the soldier standing in front of you. Cleo, ever the quick thinker, used her device to have a rat crawl down his throat.

"Remind me not to get on your bad side."

You eventually made your way outside in an alley. Milton jogged over once he caught sight of you four.

"Your equipment manipulates animal behavior, clever," Grieves spoke out. "I'm working on something similar with humans."

"Be quiet, please."

"You are perceivably panicked. I'm guessing that you are not the alphas of this battalion."

"Do you want a dozen angry rodents crawling up your ass?" Cleo snapped.

"My answer might not be what you expect."

"Disgusting," you commented as Abner ushered Grieves to move.

You quickly made your way into the van. Milton took the driver's seat, Abner sat in the middle across from Grieves who still had a gun pointed at him, and you and Cleo took a seat in the back by Nanaue.

"Hello, friends!"

"Hi, yes, hello to you too, Nanaue," you said before pointing at Grieves. "Nom nom this man if I give the word."

"Okay!"

Cleo rummaged through DuBois bag before handing you the coordinate pad he spoke of earlier. Was that a picture of his daughter you saw? You couldn't get a good look since Cleo zipped up the bag. Coordinates in hand, you made your way back up the front to give Milton directions.

"Oh ho ho, what's this?" Grieves smuggly declared. You were too busy paying attention to the road to hear him.

"What's what?"

"I saw that little look you gave to your teammate."

"There was no look," Abner denied.

"Ah, but there was. How are you going to pretend you weren't just looking at their ass as they passed? You seem to have a school boy crush."

"Abner has a crush?" Cleo entered the conversation.

"No!"

Grieves laughed before answering Cleo. "You seem to have forgotten that I study people for a living, and I am very good at my job."

"Pet pet and Polky?" Nanaue piped up from the back.

"No! No Pet pet and Polky," Abner said with exasperation. However, upon looking at you and seeing how captivating you looked under the flashing lights of the street lamps, he followed it up with defeated, "Okay, maybe Pet pet and Polky."

"Dios mío!" Cleo exclaimed before she was hurriedly shushed. They both looked over to see if you heard.

"Okay, now take a right onto this street."

You did not.

"I'm happy for you, Abner."

"You seem to have forgotten you are on a mission. This isn't some little girl's slumber party."

Cleo slapped Grieves over the back of the head as Abner seemed to remember that he had a gun in his hand.

"Be quiet."

"Is- is that them?"

The team all looked at you as they looked out the window. Following your gaze, it landed on an upside down armored vehicle in a ditch.

"Of course it is, who else would be dumb enough," you sighed.

Milton slowly approached the area and parked the van. As soon as it stopped you jumped out to see if they were still there. Turns out you didn't have to wait long; the back door unlocked to reveal your three teammates scuffed but otherwise unharmed.

You wouldn't admit it but you felt relieved.

"All right," Robert grunted. "Let's go to Jotunheim."

"Nope. There's somethin' we gotta take care of first."

"What?"

Rick sighed out, "As much as it pains me to say, we gotta get Harley Quinn."

"Harley who?"

"Quinn. She was on Team 1 with me. Now that I know where she is, we gotta go get her."

"Fuck no."

"Come on, man." They made their way back into the van after you. "She's a valuable asset."

"I said no."

"Don't make me get Waller into this."

Robert thought for a moment. "Fuck, fine, alright. We'll go get 'er."

Everyone eventually got seated. This time you actually sat in a seat since you weren't planning on taking an impromptu nap—although that did sound nice. Flag filled Milton out on the details and directed him on where to go as you all got cozy. Robert and Chris were going at it again, Cleo was asleep, Nanaue was trying to get you to sit in his lap, and Abner was watching in amusement.

"No."

"Yes."

"I said no."

"Pet pet?"

"No, Nanaue."

Nanaue put on his best pout, "Please?"

You should not have turned around to look at him. Sighing, you stood up and made your way over to him.

"Hahaha!" He sounded like a giddy kid in a candy store. He gently picked you up and placed you on his lap. Immediately he started petting you again and hummed. Your legs were cramped and you felt like you were about to fall off his lap. Without saying anything, you sprawled your legs across Abner's lap. He just looked at you with a smile before adjusting himself to accommodate you. Resting his arms over your legs, he continued looking out the window.

"How fascinating."

"Hmm?" You looked at Grieves.

"You don't happen to also control animal behavior, do you?"

"Why would I tell you that?"

"Fair."

You heard a loud sigh from Chris. "Is this going to become a regular occurance?"

"What, you jealous? I'm calling it now, if we have another night during this mission I'm using him as my cuddle buddy."

"Whatever."

Although you said you wouldn't, you were almost asleep before Robert made the call for everyone to gear up. While everyone was rushing to get their gear on, you just yawned and leaned over to handcuff Grieves to a seat before making yourself at home on Nanaue again. You weren't exactly trained to fight with weapons, although you did grab a nearby combat knife to carry.

"You gotta be kiddin' me. You're gonna risk the entire mission for a mental defective dressed as a court jester."

"This is coming from a guy that wears a toilet seat on his head."

"We don't leave our own behind," Rick reminded.

"You're okay with this?"

"No, but I've been around Flag when he's got a rag in his mouth. Best not to tug it."

"Motherfucker!"

Just as everyone seemed almost ready, you hopped off Nanaue and gently nudged Cleo.

"Come on, gotta wake up."

"All right, let's go."

Everyone—besides Grieves—exited the vehicle before Flag announced his plan.

"All right, we'll enter through the third floor, go to the inner staircase, and then down to the cellar where they usually keep their detainees. Hopefully, Harley's still alive."

Still butthurt about what Robert said, Chris stubbornly muttered, "It's not a toilet seat, it's a beacon of freedom!"

Everyone got into position; Peacemaker somehow scaled a building to get a vantage point, Abner was down the street looking for traffic, Rick and Robert were beside one of the walls ready to climb to the third floor, you turned into a bird (much to the amazement of your team) so you could quickly enter the window Robert would open, and Nanaue—who forgot you turned into a bird—stared at you.

"Ratatouille, what do you got?"

"Third floor hallway's clear. Abner?"

"There doesn't seem to be any incoming traffic."

"Bird."

"Nanaue, that's Mimic you meathead- and stay off the comm!"

"Colonel, I got a clean shot on the only one in the office. Just give the word."

"Fire on three, two..."

"What're you guys doing?"

Rick looked at Harley, then DuBois, then back to Harley. "I... you- we're here to save you."

"You were gonna... save me?" Harley visibly looked touched.

"It was a really good plan, too."

"Well I can go back inside and you can still do it."

"That's patronizing," Bloodsport commented.

You saw Harley drag a big stick thing over to Flag and hug him.

"Uh, what's with the javelin?"

"I'm waiting for God to tell me."

"Jesus Christ..."

"Yeah, or Him. Or any of them, really."

You and Nanaue watched as Harley and Bloodsport had an awkward introduction.

"Never mind everyone, Harley is secure."

"What?"

"Meet me in the van so we can leave as quickly as possible."

Sighing, you morphed back into your original form. Nanaue made an audible gasp as he saw you sitting on the railing.

"Pet pet?

"Yes, Nanaue, it's me, Pet pet."

King Shark laughed as he started petting you immediately. Resisting the urge to roll your eyes, you swatted his hand away and motioned for him to follow you.

[blogger-yura]

Entry #27 Oct 23rd '21

#YurasLife #DailyYura #SweetSaturday #Food #Cooking #Recipes

𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐘𝐮𝐫𝐚 - 𝐑𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐩𝐞𝐬 (Carrot cake)

*contact Yura for removal of any food related posts taglist

Hello hello my beautiful muffins~. Happy Saturday! Wow, I don't think I've ever actually posted on a Saturday, have I? It feels so surreal somehow hahaha! I just missed everyone so much!How is the weekend treating you? Are you guys having fun? Or alternatively are you guys relaxing and recovering from a busy week? Whatever it is, I hope you enjoy today and take good care of yourselves! Do something nice for yourself, would you? Treat yourself to something you like. You deserve it for working so hard!

Ah you might be wondering why am I posting food if its not Friday too, aren't you? Well, I've been away for so long! I just want to make up a little to you guys and everyone likes a nice recipe from time to time~ Plus this is such a good cake for autumn! Don't you agree? I made some carrot cake again the other day for a friend's birthday and I just thought it'd be nice to share it with you guys ♡ So you can try it out whenever you feel like it!

I've been trying out lots of new recipes lately, I told you this! So of course I want to share some of my favorites so far and hopefully we still have a lot more autumn days for me to show off my cooking and baking skills hahaha! I hope you guys try it out and enjoy it~.

Prep: 25/40min - Cook: 40min - Level: Super easy! - Makes: aprox 9 portions

Ingredients-

▪400gr (3) Carrots ▪ 2-3 Eggs ▪ 150ml Vegetable Oil

▪250gr Sugar (mixed if possible)▪ 225gr Self rising flour

▪Orange/Lemon

Optional:

▪Waluts, pecans, raisins...

▪ Spices (cinammon, nutmeg, ginger...)

Steps-

1- As always, our first step will be preheating the oven! Very important step, no one wants to wait longer than needed when cooking!

2- While the oven heats up, we're gonna get started with preparing our ingredients! We're going to shred our carrots and a small amout of orange/lemon. If you've decided to add anything like nuts or alike to the mix, get started on chopping if needed too!

Shredding carrots takes longer by hand, obviously, so if you have a food processor with a shredder attachment that'll be faster and save you the orange hands aftermath. Also, keep in mind carrot cake has bits of carrot in it, obviously! If you don't really like munching on it, try to use the smallest size you can get when shredding!

3- As I said before, this is an extremely easy recipe! Once the ingredients are ready, all we have left to do is mix them all! Remember to always mix dry and wet ingredients separately to begin with and add your carrots last! You can decide whether you'd like to prepare the carrots with the spices first or add them in the mix too. I personally like preparing the carrots on the side and add just some cinammon to the flour mix.

5- Once you've added the carrots and mixed it all together, yes, it's butter time! As always, make sure to butter your trays, pans, or molds properly! Otherwise your cake will stick! You can always use some parchment paper too, as it'll help take the cake out of the mold once cold!

6- We're going to bake our carrot cake for around 40 minutes at 330-350°F or your ovens lowest setting. Carrot cake is SUCH a delicate cake, if overcooked it'll dry out too fast! Make sure to cook just until it's baked through and not longer "just in case"!

I like to decorate my carrot cakes with cream cheese frosting and flavor it with some citric sometimes! Do you like cream cheese frosting? Basic buttercream is so good too, though! Icing is a bit harder, carrot cake is already so sweet! But paired with a nice citric icing it can be wonderful too!

What was the greatest carrot cake you've tasted? Have you ever tried making some before? Let me know on the rbs! I'd love to try out some new places too (^-^)

This is it for today my angels! Take good care and enjoy your weekend to the fullest, whether it means partying hard or sleeping 12 hours straight! Ok then! I'll see you around~ -Yura ♡

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[miraculous-trinity-leo]

Whacky Gotham, Goofy New York, and Chaotic Paris.

(Part 1) (Part 2) (Part 3) (Part 4) (Part 5) (Part 6) (Part 7) (Part 8)

Chapter 6: Evade The Bats, and Beat The Crows

•—–—–·†·–—–—•

The girls are in the old living room setting up clues (that are absolutely... useless) around Gotham. One being a picture Harley and Multimouse took earlier that day.

"They might think to look here after they realize the clues are fake." - Steph

"Then where else would they not think to look?" - Maria

"W.E, I can get you and Harley in without them knowing easily." - Barbara said with a confident smile.

"But they'll have to go incognito... especially you Harley, no offense, but your outfit stands out just a tad." - Steph

"Ehhh, none taken, I'm sure I can tink of somthin' else tuh wear." - Harley

"I can help with that, but I'll need some clothes and some sewing supplies." - Maria said already thinking of what she could make.

Cass gave a nod and headed out of the room, after a few minutes she came back with t-shirts, jackets, sweaters, shorts, jeans, etc. and droped the pile of clothes infront of the group. She then handed Maria a sewing set she got from Alfred.

"Thanks Cass. I'll get to work on making our costumes." - Maria

"Let me help yuh wit' dat hun." - Harley said as she picked up most of the clothes for Maria

"Thanks." Maria

•—–·Let's see the Chaos shall we·–—•

"You never told us she could use magic!" - Red Hood looking under the table

"I wonder if she can infuse magic with coffee..." - Red Robin said looking in the cabinets for the third time.

"Stop looking for coffee!" - Red Hood

"She could've hidden in here." - Red Robin said while crabbing a mug

"I haven't had enough sleep to deal with this." - Selina then walked over and flopped herself on the couch and proceeded to fall asleep on impact.

"Maria get your tiny self back here right now or else!" - Tony

"Or else what? She Knows MAGIC! What else does she know that you haven't told us?!" - Red Hood

"... I never told you becuase it's meant to be a secret!" - Tony

"Oh, so now you agree with keeping things a secret?" - Red Robin grabbing the coffee

"What else can she do Tony." - Batman

"Well... she's great with tech, can kick butt in a LOT of different ways, has magic, and if she wants to, she can find and know where everyone or anyone is, but I think she gets massive headaches from a wide search like that." - Tony

"Anything else?" - Batman

(Tony thinkng of all the tiny gods she has in jewelery, and that she keeps Paris/friends and family safe on a daily basis, and that she is the well known designer MDC...)"No..." - Tony

As ivy was listening to them talk, she continued to search her garden, until one of her plants had a message fo her.

"Hello Ms. Ivy, please don't help Batman and Iron Man find us, we promise we'll be careful." - Maria

"Where are you?" - Ivy asked whispering into the plant.

After a few minutes Ivy got a detailed plan that Maria, Harley and the girls came up with to evade The IronBat group (Maria thought that would be better than ManMan group 'But it's Bat MAN and Iron MAN, so it has tuh be The ManMan group.' was Harleys defence, but Maria won that one.) and Ivy agreed to help as best she could.

•—–· Over to the Miraculous gang ·–—•

Plagg is cackling like there's no tomorrow.

"Guys something must be wrong, Plagg won't stop cackling, he won't even touch the cheese I gave him!!!" - Adrien

"There's no time for that, we need to find out where the hell Maria is!!" - Chloé

"Hahahaha, Ti- heheh Tikk- pffhaaaaaaahaha!!!" - Plagg

"He's trying to form words!" Adrien cradling Plagg in his hands "What is it my friend? Don't do this, you're to young...*sniff * you're to beautiful!"

"Hehehehe Shhhh- hahaha, she- she- haha...heheh- I'm so p-hehe-Proud wahahaha " - Plagg

"Proud?! She?! Where?! Who, is it Maria?!" - Chloé

"Hhhhhhhhahhaaaaaaaaaa" - Plagg

"Oh God he's wheezing!" - Adrien

"Hey guys, Peter and I got the snacks, found out where Maria might- oh kwami." - Alix walking into the room to a zombie looking Chloé, a panicked Adrien and the Kwami of death/bad luck/chaos laughing himself to death.

"Has he finally lost it?" - Peter

"She has become a true cat! hahahahahaaaaa heheheheeeeeee." - Plagg

Everyone in the room but Plagg "Oh fu-"

•—–· Over to the Batfam ·–—•

So everyone is panicking because for the past hour none of them could find Multimouse. Robin is sitting on the couch next to a now fully awake Selina, Red Hood and Nightwing are once again feeding each other the worst possible situation she could be in, Tony may or may not be hyperventilating, Red Robin is drinking coffee, and Batman is as stoic as ever... well on the outside anyway, on the inside, it's a warzone. Ivy is drinking her tea, slightly worried, but also hiding a small smile.

"What if we ask Oracle to try and help us find her?" - Red Robin

"... Right... Yes, ok let's do that... Bats you do it, I need to sit down." - Tony

•—–· Back to the girls ·–—•

The girls moved everything to the Bat-cave so they could set the route they would take, then the Bat-Computer started ringing.

"Hide!" - Steph

"Where, dere's nuttin' tuh hide behind!" - Harley

"Quick under the Bat-Computer." - Barbara

As soon as Harley and Maria hid under the Bat-Computer, Batman and the rest of the Batfam was on video call.

"Hey guys, what do you need?" - Barbara acting like nothing happened

"We need you to search for Maria, she's in a dark gray suit with pink accents, and she's with Harley." - Batman

"Ok, no prob, I'll contact you when I've found something." - and with that Barbara exited the call.

"Should we start heading out?" - Maria

"Yup, and here are your ID badges, don't lose them. I'll give our Batfam fake sightings, and lead them far away, then once you reach W.E I'll slowly start leading them closer to you." - Barbara

"Thanks, keep in touch if they decide to split up." - Maria

"Roger that." - Steph said giving a solute

•—–·–—•

Soon Multimouse and Harley are running over roof tops again, doing tricks, and stopping petty crimes, Barbara is leading the Batfam all over Gotham, and then they got to W.E, after Maria transformed back, they entered the building. Thanks to Babs, they entered without any problems and had free roam for the entire building, with some exceptions like new weapons designs, or the roof. They were hiding in the building for about an hour on the 7th floor when Barbara called in.

"Hey girls, you might want to be careful, I spotted some of Scarecrows goons a few blocks away, they seem to be heading in your direction, I'd say about 6mins tops until they reach W.E. Best to find a good room to stay in, or get out of there." - Barbara

"Thanks fawh de heads up Babs." - Harley

"Ok, we'll try to get out, let us know if we should turn back or not." - Maria

"Got it, and be careful." - Barbara

Maria and Harley then made their way back down, they were taking the stairs, because they figured it would be quicker, once they were on the second floor, they started to calmly make their way through the doors of the stairwell. That's when Scarecrows goons busted in, shouting for everyone to get down, Harley made sure to stay as close to Maria as possible as the goons gathered everyone to a wall. They were told to not move, talk, or do anything to anger them, once everyone was up against the wall, that's when Scarecrow came in. As he entered the room some of the employees started to look very scared, when Maria looked over to Harley, she saw her mouth 'it's ok', afterwards the goons had them all tied up and on the floor sitting down. Scarecrow scanned them before speaking.

"One of you will be testing my newest and most potent fear toxin as of yet. We can do this one out of two ways." He said lifting up two of his needle syringed fingers. "1. You can be a hero, and let yourself be my newest test subject, aka the boring way or 2. I pick whoever I want, aka the slightly less boring way. Now, who wants to go first?"

•—–· Over to Batman ·–—•

The Batfam was running around the other side of Gotham, now without Tony, because someone ( ehem Thor, ehem) was making a giant mess at Avengers Tower, and was fighting Loki... again. It was when they decided to call Oracle that things took another turn.

"Oracle have you foun- " - Batman

"They're at W.E. and Scarecrows there, I can't get in contact with them, and I can't get into the cameras at the moment, I need you to get your butts over there now!" - Oracle

"Wait you were in contact with them?!" - Red Hood

"Not the time! Just get over there before someone gets hurt!" - Oracle

"We're on our way." - Batman

They all then kicked it into high gear and were running to W.E, and out of everyone, Damian seemed to be the most visibly panicked, if him running twice as fast as everyone was any indication. At the speed they were going, they would be there in 20mins or less... hopefully.

•—–· Back to Maria and Harley ·–—•

So while Scarecrow was giving his little speech, Maria whispered into a plant to let Ivy know their situation, she wasn't able to get an answer before she and Harley were pulled away from the crowd.

"And what do we have here? Harley Quinn and a child. How interesting, well then, which one of you would like to test my new fear toxin?" - Scarecrow

"Eh, do me, I bet I got a lot o' trauma and fears from my time wit' Mistuh J. dat yuh would just love tuh see." - Harley

"... As tempting as that sounds I think I'll test it on your little friend here, after all, I know better than to mess with one of the Sirens." - As Scarecrow said that, one of the goons dragged Maria over to him. She didn't panic, she was actually really calm, which worried Harley even more because, remember all that emotional trauma she saw Maria had? Yeah, not the best match for the fear toxin.

As Scarecrow grabbed Maria, she locked eyes with Harley, and gave a brief smile before she felt a sharp jabbing pain in the side of her neck. Her vision went hazy, and from Harleys' point of view, she went a little limp from it.

As Maria started to see again she could hear screams, car alarms going off, and explosion in the distance, when she looked up, she saw them, her friends, her team... her family, they were all there lying infront of her... none of them moving, all of them were lifeless, looking as though turned into a gray husk of what they once were, and beside them were all the Kwamis, and their respective Jewelery, broken and shattered. She felt the tears fall as she looked around. Paris, the once beautiful city of lights, was now a wasteland, everything had a gray tone to it, people, animals, everything that had life... was dead.

And then she heard laughing, a sick disturbing laugh that was all to familiar... Lila. When she turned and saw Vulpina, she felt sick just looking at her.

"You have failed Maria, everyone you knew and loved is gone, all because you weren't here." - Lila

All she felt in that moment... was pure anger, she began to struggle, but somthing was holding her. She kept hearing that stupid laugh, and kept struggling harder and harder.

"You were never good enough, you were meant to always be our everyday Ladybug, but you never were, you never cared for us, and that's why, they're all gone, because you weren't good enough." - Lila

The last four words kept playing over and over in her head, until something clicked, she wasn't in Paris, so how did she get there? The last place she was at... was with Harley, she was in the W.E. building, and had fear toxin injected into her. As she came to that realization, she could hear the laughing fade just a bit, she closed her eyes and focused on finding everyone's souls, when she did, she saw that Scarecrow was right infront of her, a goon next to Harley, and a goon behind her, the other goons had left and were on the first floor. She snapped back when she heard Lilas' voice again.

"You always were stubborn and never accepted the real truth, as class president aren't you supposed to just roll over and do as you're told." - Lila

Maria was done listening to her, and decided to kick Lila in the face (since someone didn't think to tie up her ankles.)

"Just go rott in hell already you lieing fox!" - Maria

Maria didn't get any answer, all she knew was that she hit whatever was really infront of her hard. Maria then heard Lilas' voice morph into a heavier, more distorted voice.

"That's a first, guess I'll have to increase the dosage." - Scarecrow

She then felt another jabbing pain in her neck, all she could do was scream from the pain, her head was spinning, and all she could hear was laughing, sickening laughter that came from both Lila, and now Hawkmoth. One thing Scarecrow didn't account for, was the deep hatred Maria held for both individuals he made her see. Because soon after he gave her more fear toxin she got her footing, pushing back into the goon behind her before using the goons' grib on her to do a half backflip into kicking the guys face in, quickly knocking the goon out, when she stood back up she only saw Hawkmoth, surrounded by her lifeless team and family, she only saw red, and charge right at him. She kept punching and roundhouse kicking him, giving one final charge, ramming into Hawkmoth before she felt weightless. She never heard the panicked scream Harley let out, she never heard the shouts that came from the Batfam just reaching the second floor, before she hit something... something rapped around her holding her from falling any further, causing her to start thrashing around thinking it was Hawkmoth, before seeing he was also grabbed by something. She struggled ignoring the slight pain that went through her harms and legs. She slowly calmed down as she felt her feet touch the ground again, she then saw another Hawkmoth that was now mixed with Lila hug her, she tried to break free, but realized that it wasn't Lila or Hawkmoth... It was calming, and her voice was gentle, it was Ivy. She only heard a few words, that's when she felt something blow on her face, and after a few seconds, she lost conscientiousness.

Harley came sprinting down and was by Ivys' side in less than a minute. Ivy could tell Harley was worried and joined her in hugging a now sleeping Maria.

"I'm sawhry Ives, It all just happened so fast, and she was so awesome at kickin' Cranes @ss, I din't get her out of dere quick enough." - Harley said as she looked Ivy in the eyes, with tears threatening to escape.

"It's alright Harley, none of this is your fault." - Ivy replied comfortingly to Harley

As the two hugged Maria Batman came over.

"We'll take it from here." - Batman

"Hell no. We ain't leavin' her side." - Harley

Batman just let out a sigh, after he dealt with Scarecrow and his goons, Batman, along with his sons, Ivy and Harley, all headed back to the Bat-cave where the other girls and Alfred were waiting.

If anyone noticed Robin looking over to Maria with a concerned look, they just ignored it, and continued their way back home.

•—–·†·–—•

Chapter 6 complete! Hope you'll liked it, and are havin' a fantabulous day, stay safe and rock all those positive vibes. !BUG-OUT! 🐞💮🐞

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[raschuuuu]

WHY DON’T YOU LOVE ME BACK? // M.YG angst (Suga)

Summary: You finally had your debut with your girl group with Big Hit entertainment. That was your absolute biggest dream but what happens when you have to decide now? Do you want to live your idol life and let the love of your life go for it? Or do you decide for the life of your life?

Word count: 5k

Genre: angst

warnings: established relationship / swearing / soft yoongi / mentioning of breakups / mentioning of suicide/death

Pairing: Yoongi!idol x female idol!reader

A/N: Hello guuuuys! Today I hope very much that you will like this one here! I didn't get any requests so I want to say it again one more time: FEEL FREE TO SEND ME YOUR REQUESTS!!! 😟🥺It’s my second fanfic on this blog I worked very hard on it so I really really hope you guys will enjoy it. If you guys think I could do anything better or you have another preferences please let me know. I’d be very happy if you guys leave a like so I know you read it and liked it. Another note: English is not my first language I’m very sorry if you guys find any mistakes.. 💔

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5th December 2020

What could be better than having a debut just before the year ends? My group and I were supposed to have our debut much earlier but that was  postponed due to the COVID pandemic so it was complicated to have a debut this year but nevertheless our company managed to give us a debut before the year ends and I really have to say it's the best thing that could ever happen to me!

My dream has finally come true. How long was I a trainee? Exactly. Six years. Six freaking years I was hidden behind the scenes of my big and famous company. It feels really shitty to be in the shadow of two famous groups in South Korea. Don't get me wrong I'm a really big fan of BTS and TXT but we got tired of being told that we're going to make our debut but at the end we didn’t. I know the guys from BTS and TXT  personally and we all get along super well even the other members of my group. But to be honest BTS and TXT couldn't wait for our debut to happen and finally it's here (y/g/n) finally gets the recognition.

31st December 2020

Of course our lives have changed dramatically since we made our debut. Of course it's much harder to go out alone now than before. Before I was a nobody. No one knew me but now I don't even dare to go alone to the convenient store that is just around the corner of our dorm. You might think I'm exaggerating a bit but no, unfortunately it's the truth. Nevertheless, I don't want to spoil my idol life. After our debut we had a lot of promotions and interviews. But even before that we didn't have much time because we had to shoot our music video and photo shoots and we were all sent to the hairdresser because our old look was officially bye bye. I’m happy with my new look I think I look so beautiful I can't believe what a haircut and a nice makeup can do to a person.

Today is the 31st of December. New Year's Eve! New year takes place in less than 24 hours! Where am I? I'm at this year's MBC Gayo DaeJeon. My first new year's eve without my family and officially my first new year's eve as an idol. I'm so excited I can't believe it I'm going to be on stage with my girls and I'm meeting other idols how exciting is that. I'm sitting in the makeup room getting my makeup done by our makeup artist and on the side our hairstylist is making me a high ponytail. I hope I'll look good. Dabi, the oldest of our group and therefore our Unni, has just finished and looks adorable. Miso sits to my left and is also getting her make-up and hair done. Hyemi is getting ready after me because she doesn't take up much time. She has the shortest hair of all of us. I’m sitting with my mobile phone in my hand and texting with my mother. Sometimes I wish I could be with her and with my father and my siblings. I miss them all like hell. I haven't seen them since before our debut. I can't wait to hold them all in my arms next time.

(eomma):

y/n we miss you! New year's eve isn't the same without you but hopefully you'll have fun on stage today. We'll all be watching you! Your dad and I your grandparents and your siblings so don't worry we're always with you! Good luck my child fighting! 🎉🎆

I notice how i get tears in my eyes but no I mustn't cry my makeup gets ruined. Just as I want to answer my mother i get a new text on my phone.

(yoongi):

I'm excited to see you tonight! You'll be great I believe in you.

By the way... I guess I didn't tell you that I'm dating Min Yoongi. That's right, Min Yoongi.

flashback

2014

"Y/n! We're about to meet BTS!" says Hyemi as I just walked into the dance practice room. What BTS? The group that made their debut last year? "Really why?" I ask looking at her confused. Apparently all new trainee male or female, are introduced to BTS because they want to give us some nice words and encouragement on our way as trainees. Just as I was about to sit down, the seven men came in the door. One after the other, they passed us by. Wow, these guys can count themselves lucky that their time is up. But one boy in particular stands out to me. He has red hair. Not too light and not too dark, a red that almost goes brown. He is beautiful.

I haven't really informed myself about who BTS is, of course I still have difficulties to remember their names, I just became a trainee before I didn't care who was a trainee here... but this man is beautiful!

Oh crap he looks at me. Why is he looking at me. Someone tell him to look the other way please I’m so awkward I don't know how to act when someone looks at me I better look the other way. The leader said some nice words to us they all wished us luck and said that they can't wait for us to make our debut and that when the day comes they're all gonna be happy and supportive! Really nice of them I never thought that they would do something like that. We all got up and bowed and said thank you, while BTS was about to walk out I saw the red haired boy looking at me one last time before he went out. Crazy man do I have something on my face stop staring!

2015

I started to get to know them better each and every one of them. I get along best with Hoseok and Taehyung. Every now and then we run into each other in the building and talk for a few minutes. We trainees also got to meet all the guys in person, they are all so nice and down to earth I don't regret it one bit that I joined this company! Jungkook is about my age and every now and then we have a few laughs together. Once you are in the company you are like one big family whether it is with the trainees or the staff. However I have not been able to get close to one person and that is Min Yoongi. I don't know what it is but every time he and I are in a room with other people it just gets awkward. I don't know what it is but every time he is near me I feel intimidated and just want to get out of there. We've never spoken a word to be honest maybe it's because he feels awkward around me too? I can't understand why he feels this way I always try to get along with everyone even if i don't want to and make everyone feel comfortable around me because I want it to be mutual. So what's his problem?

2016

I have heard from his members that he has a crush on me and gets shy around me which I totally don't understand because how can anyone be into me? Especially back then! I don't want to go into too much detail but I can tell you that after a while and with the help of Hoseok and Taehyung he and I started texting at some point. We had been friends for a long time but only online. We were both too nervous to meet in person and to be honest that had been impossible because he was busy as fuck and no one was supposed to find out that we were texting. BTS recognition grew more and more each year and he became busier and busier each day. I was of course very happy for everyone and one rainy day in the evening Yoongi appeared out of nowhere on my doorstep and confessed his love to me. I am still overwhelmed by it and it all feels so unreal and like it just happened yesterday, but I went for it and agreed to be his girlfriend.

back to December 31st 2020

For four years we have been hiding our relationship. Nobody knows about it the whole Big Hit staff doesn't know about it and neither do our managers the only ones who know about it are his members and recently my members. I didn't want to tell them until we made our debut together because I was too scared of being told off during my trainee time. But I have to say that the girls stand behind me and accept our relationship and they all swore they would take it to the grave with them.

I quickly turn down the brightness of my screen because there's too much danger of my hairstylist and makeup artist reading the text. I close my phone and put it on my lap. How much I want to answer him but I don't dare I can't answer him when there are too many people around me. After a while we were called and it was finally our turn I'm so nervous but we managed it all with flying colors and we were the topic of the evening.

In a few minutes it's already new year I'm ready and let 2021 come to me. At midnight Yoongi calls me and I answer the phone with joy.

"Happy new year y/n! I love you and I hope we will spend more time together this year even though it will be harder now." I smile to myself and say "Happy new year Yoongi... how is your shoulder? Are you resting enough? Are you eating enough? Are you sleeping enough? Are you in pain? If you are in pain then take a painkiller and go back to the doctor!" I can't see it but I can tell he is grinning and shaking his head. I don't let him get a word in edgewise.

"Don't worry I’m fine I just miss you you're the only painkiller I can take" - "Hahaha yah! You're so corny! I miss you too sweetheart I wish we had spent this new year together... I’m sorry it turned out like this!" I feel really bad because I know he won't be able to spend new year with his boys or me... To be honest we have never had a new year together except on the phone but this time it could have worked out! He is at home with his injury and if we wouldn't have had our debut then we would have had a first new year together after four years of relationship!

January 10th 2021

At the beginning of the new year our manager gave us our schedule plan at it looked hella busy! This whole January we would be completely busy we don't even have one weekend off! I can’t believe it how will I able to see my family or even Yoongi? I saw him at the first weekend of January we spent it together at his family’s house in Daegu behause to be honest that is actually the only place that we can go to a little far away from Seoul without having to worry that any of the staff could know or see us. My family also knows and loves him to death but with my family living in Seoul it’s complicated to take him there. Our manager left the room and I looked at Dabi with the ‘You and I bathroom NOW!’ look she understood and got up from her place and she followed me to the bathroom. We checked if any other person was inside when there wasn’t I said “What the fuck I’m I gonna do now Unni? How am I able to see Yoongi? How will I be able to even go out. I won’t even have time to take the fucking trash out from our dorm when it’s my turn to clean!” I yell. She stands there giving me a confused look. “What do you expect y/n? You chose to have this idol life you know its busy and complicated to have a boyfriend especially as a fresh debuted idol! Why do you think they won't let us have a relationship? I wish I could help you but I can’t. We’re gonna be busy as fuck!” she yelled back. “Psh shut your volume down unni!” she opened the door to see if there was anyone outside but there wasn’t.

I feel bad I really do. I don't want my members to be in trouble because of me that's the last thing I want. I hug her and apologize to her. I have to think of something I don't know what to do. I don't want us to be away from each other for too long what happens when he stops loving me all of a sudden? What do I do when he goes back to work then it will all be worse! Before I became an idol we could always see each other at the end of the day but now it will be impossible. I have to talk to him about it because one thing we promised each other is that we talk about everything because that's the only way a healthy relationship can work and such a complicated relationship we both have. I take out my phone and write him a message.

(me):

Yoongi. Tonight FaceTime date you and me?

In less than two minutes I already get my answer.

(yoongi):

of course!

evening

I turn on my MacBook and call him on FaceTime. After three rings he answers the phone and turns it off too so he doesn't have to hold it in his hand. He still has his bandage on and his hair is wet he must have been in the shower. He wears cute pyjamas and fight me or not but black haired Yoongi is the most beautiful Yoongi. I always fall in love again when I see him. Hard to believe we were so awkward with each other back then but this year is already approaching 5 years together. I could never imagine my life without him. 

"Hey my darling" he says happily and smiles at me. I smile back and ask him how he is. He tells me that he is getting better every day and that during his time off he has found a lot of time for himself and his music and how much he misses the others. And me too, of course. "What's wrong with you?" he asks me when he notices that my mind is somewhere else. I think he took the Facetime date too seriously. He be sitting there with his cup of ramen. I just laugh. "Yoongi... I'm going to be busy all of January and manager oppa said that February might not be any better," I say and wait for his answer. He swallows his noodles and drinks a glass of water. "Does that mean we won't see each other this month?" he asks. I think he's a little disappointed I know him and I know his tones and his looks and I can hear my heart breaking by now. And how much I'd like to see you Yoongi. Every second every day. "No," I say, and then an uncomfortable silence descends. 

“You know what baby it’s fine don't worry. I mean I wasn’t any better back then do you remember when I always used to be so busy? I never had time for you and I felt so bad. But you were there for me and you stayed by my side and you were and still are the most supportive girlfriend I could ever ask for. I think it would be unfair to be mad at you. I’m happy for you forever and always” well that was unexpected. I start getting tears in my eyes. I didn't think of this reaction not at all! I smile at him and say “Thank you baby... I will appreciate it I really do. But still I feel bad because especially in this period where you're sick I wish I could be there for you and take care of you. This debut was so unexpected I’m really sorry” - “Yah don't be sorry y/n. You worked your goddamn fine ass off to be where you're at right now be proud of you this is just the beginning. And it’s not like that we won't see each other ever again right?” he says. He’s right. He’s totally right. It’s not like we won't see each other ever again.

January 17th 2020

Well... seven days passed and we still haven't seen each other and we haven't talked since one week. We text every now and then cause I really only get to use my phone when it's night and we go back home but every night I'm so damn exhausted and tired that I forget to answer to his texts. I don't even have time to text my parents back or my siblings. I feel so bad I'm such a bad person. I miss them all so much. I miss my parents. I miss my sister and my brother. I miss my grandparents. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my boyfriend so damn much. I really didn't think this life is gonna be so hard for me. I feel like I've been put in the middle of a scale with my career on one side and my relationship on the other side and I have to choose one side or the other. I've never thought about breaking up with Yoongi ever in my life. Never. I just can't. I need this man too much. Even though we never have the most beautiful and perfect relationship and see each other very rarely, it's just the thought that I know there's someone in my life who loves me and accepts me for who I am that counts. He took me with my imperfections he put his career what he loves most in his life in risk to be with me and now that we are both in this situation I don't know what to do I feel bad and selfish for even thinking about it I don't want to make him feel like my career is more important than him or our relationship he doesn't deserve that he deserves the world and he deserves to be happy. But I love my career I love my job I love my members I love our staff I love our fans. Our biggest fear was not being accepted by the society outside especially now in this period when BTS is one of the biggest groups in the whole world and have a very big influence in the KPOP industry. We were afraid that society would think that since we are the first girl group to make a Big Hit debut in a very long time that people would think that we would mess with the boys heads or that there would be any rumors started between us and the other groups. But on the contrary people have been happy for us and love our music and us individually. I feel like Hannah Montana I feel like I am living a double life.

20th January 2021

"I know you are overwhelmed with the situation my child, I can imagine that it is very hard for you but you have to know what is best for you. You can't tell anyone from your company, you are a rookie, if they find out you had a boyfriend during your trainee time then it is even worse. I wish I was with you and could help you or just be there for you. I love Yoongi very much but I love you even more and I am happy with any decision you make. Just make the right one" my mother says on the phone. Tears have been flowing since she got on the phone but I don't want to tell her and I try not to sob but I know she can tell by my tone that I am crying. She is right. I have to make a decision. Yoongi is getting better day by day and soon he will be busy too he will go back to his daily routine and the other members. He will have comebacks he will have dance practices he will have to go to the recording studio he will have photo shoots he will do interviews and when the corona situation allows he will have to go to other countries and I have to do the same.

I love him to death and I will never love anyone as much as I love him but I am just not happy like this and you can tell me what you want he is not either but he doesn't let it show. Yesterday on the phone there was such an awkward tension between us it felt like I was making small talk with a stranger. Even though I might be the bad guy but one of us has to make the first move. I have wished and hoped that this day will never come but I have to do it.

23 January 2021

Yoongi told me that he is back in his flat in Seoul with his mother. Unfortunately he still can't travel alone so his dear mum went with him. I missed her too, she's the nicest and sweetest woman ever. When I imagine that I won't see her again either, tears well up in my eyes. But today I have to do it. Who would have thought that our reunion would be like this? Who would have thought that I would break up with him. He won't expect it but I have to do it. I’m cold and sick and I just want to go to bed and get the day over with. It's 11pm at night and we've come home after a long hard day. I look out the window and wait until our manager is out of sight.

My members know about my plans and of course have asked me a million times if I am sure and if there is no other way out. I am very happy that they are worried about me but I also feel bad towards them. I have been hiding it from them all our trainee years and when I told them they were all so good about it and even want me not to do it. But no I will do it I am young and want to concentrate on my career and what is coming up for us.

I told Yoongi that I would come, of course he doesn't want to because it's way too late but I said it was important and that we had to talk about something. When I said we had to talk about something he was quiet and then just said he would wait for me. I put on a hat and a thick jacket and the hood of the jacket and a mask and a scarf and go out into the high snow that has covered Seoul. His flat is not far from mine but still I have to take a taxi. I ask the driver to wait for me because I don't want to stay there long I want to get it over with quickly and go.

(me):

can you come down?

(yoongi):

why don't you come up?

(me):

I think its better when you come down Yoongi I don't want your mom to be worried or hears any of that were gonna talk.

He doesn't text back instead I just see the lights turning on from his window. A few minutes later he comes down. Oh my fucking lord he is so handsome. I want to run up to him and kiss him from head to toe. I want to be in his arms. I want us to go upstairs together and fall asleep together. I want to build a snowman with him. I want to be with him forever I love him he is the love of my life.

He comes up to me and smiles at me. He stands in front of me and we both don't say a word. His smile turns into a confused look he notices something is wrong. "Don't I get a kiss or a hug?" he asks me. My heart breaks into a thousand pieces. I would love to rip your clothes off Min Yoongi.

"I want to break up." Silence. Silence. Silence. Silence. "Yoongi say something?" I ask him. He says nothing. He looks at me with a blank look he is sad he is disappointed he is devastated just like me. "Yoongi please?". He does not speak.

"Yoongi, I'm sorry. I-i-I really love you I love you more than anything but I know that I can't give 100% in our relationship now. I just want us to be happy but I see that we are not. It could have been great during your time off but I can't be there for you... sooner or later it should have happened. I want to be with you but I can't anymore it was okay then but it's not okay now we're both famous you're in the biggest boy group in the world if anyone finds out we're together we'll be screwed. Especially me Yoongi. Female idols have it harder than male idols you know that. I’ve been thinking about this for a long time and I think this will be the best thing for us I-" he interrupts me.

"How dare you to tell me what's best for me? Do you have any idea what you're talking about y/n? Stop trying to tell me what's best for me when you know you're the best thing that's ever happened to me in my life god damn. I was going through a difficult time in my life and you were the only one who was there for me! And now you're telling me let’s break up because you're afraid people are gonna find out? And that they are gonna blame you? The fuck? Theres always two fucking persons in a relationship y/n! I also wanted that. I wanted you. Don’t you love me anymore? Why don’t you love me anymore? We hid our relationship for four fucking years why can't we hide it now?" he said yelling at me.

 I am shocked and sad I want to die. I don't want to live in this life without Min Yoongi. But I know it's best for us I do it for him and his career too.

"Yes I don't love you anymore" were my last words before I left.

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A/N: damn y/n!!! did you just break up with the mf min yoongi? you better save your relationship! guys if you want a part two (with maybe a happy ending?) let me know! love you bye 🎀