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[stateofgraceanddreaming]

failgirl (gn) moment on functional website

[sungbeam]

𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐰 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧

nonidol!choi san x gn!reader (no prns mentioned)

turns out your upstairs neighbor has a cat who adores climbing through your window — oh, and said neighbor is also fine as hell.

3.7k words, neighbors au (2 lovers), fluff, maybe like two swear words, drinking, lots of mentions of food

a/n: low-key just read this like ur watching the highlight reel of a romcom lol but @jaehunnyy for u 💖 i hope u like it :'))

It all started about seven months ago when a gorgeous Thai cat waltzed into your apartment via the open window. It was a late July afternoon, stiflingly hot and sticky, meaning you had your window opened and the mobile fan set up to blow cool air into the apartment.

You were, for once, not at work. Because the art museum you worked at downtown was currently undergoing reconstruction, you were stuck in your apartment trying (failing) to sell prints off your low-traffic Etsy shop while also trying (failing) to make popsicles.

“Why is this so complicated?” You grumbled aloud as you sat on top of your kitchen counter with your knees pulled beneath your chin. You scrolled down the recipe again on your laptop screen, nose wrinkled at the amount of convoluted steps listed. “Too fancy,” you decided, slamming your laptop lid closed.

Immediately, you hissed, lifting the lid to make sure you hadn't cracked the screen from closing it too hard. Thankfully, there were no cracks visible and you breathed out a sigh of relief. You could not afford a broken—

“Holy shit!” You nearly fell off the back of the island counter at the sight of a light gray cat with black tipped ears, paws, and tail seated on the floor before you.

The cat meowed an innocent greeting.

You pressed your hand to your hammering heart and shifted to get a grip on your position atop the counter. “How—? Where…?” Your eyes drifted to the open window.

Oh. Well, that would explain it.

You glanced back at the cat, who peered up at you once more. “Meow.”

Carefully, you climbed down from the counter as to not scare the creature with any sudden movements. “Hey, baby. Where did you come from, hm?” You cooed, extending your hand out as an offer to be sniffed.

The cat unfurled its tail out from around its body and crept toward your hand. With an experimental sniff, you were deemed safe, and the cat rubbed the side of its face affectionately against the back of your knuckles.

Your chest nearly exploded from the cute interaction. You lowered yourself to your knees, gently taking a peek at the silver charm attached around the collar. There you found the engraving of a star in the metal circle.

“I'm guessing this has something to do with your name?” You hummed, reaching up to scratch the feline behind the ears and head. At least you had an inkling that this little one belonged to someone. You just didn't know how to find out who they were.

“I guess you can hang out with me,” you sighed and stood up with your hands on your hips. You didn't mind the company, after all, and maybe this could be a point of inspiration.

About three hours later, the summer sun still hung relatively high in the sky and you were trying to figure out what to feed the cat when there came a sudden knock at your front door. Really, the “sudden knock” was a series of rushed, panicked DUDUDUDU sounds. You nearly jumped out of your skin for the second time in one afternoon, and even the cat seemed to leap.

Well, the cat only looked mildly annoyed that her nap was interrupted, but she seemed content to give a languid stretch and join you in seeing who was so alarmed at your door.

When you peered out the peephole, your eyes shot open.

There was a pretty man at your door.

You glanced down at the cat who looked back up at you. You mouthed to her, pointing at the door, ‘Do you know this guy?’

As expected, she did not answer. Lovely.

You weren't exactly in appropriate garb to see people. You had thrown on something cool enough to not make you melt like one of the popsicles you weren't able to make earlier, and enough to cover any necessary areas. You were sure your hair looked about as luxurious as a barn, and there wasn't a lick of cosmetics on your face.

It was fine, you told yourself. You probably weren't even going to see this guy ever again.

You opened the door. “Hello? Can I help you?” You asked through the chain linking the door shut.

The man flashed you a flustered, dimpled smile at you. His dark hair was damp, like he just came out of a shower, and he had on a muscle tee that was definitely doing its job, and a pair of basketball shorts. “Hi! So sorry to bother you, but I was wondering if you've seen a Thai cat wandering around here about yea high—?”

“Meow.” The cat at your feet shoved her way between the gap you made with the door and out into the hallway.

Your eyes widened another smidge, until the man outside released a gasp of relief and bent down to scoop the feline up into his arms. You unlatched your door and opened it fully now, the man holding the cat to his face as if he was communicating with her telepathically.

“That's the cat, I'm guessing?” You mused.

He tucked her back into his arm and his smile became sheepish. “Yes, I am so sorry about her. I came back home from work and she wasn't in the apartment, but thank you for dealing with her for however long she was here.”

You waved off his concern with your hand, sending him a kind smile. “Don’t worry about it, really. She's adorable. What's her name, by the way?”

“Oh, this is Byeol,” he cooed, lifting Byeol's paw up to wave at you.

Swoon. Your smile widened as you waved back at them both. “Well, it was nice to meet you, both Byeol and…?”

“San,” he answered. God, he was gorgeous. That smile… “And you are?”

“Yn.” You shook each other's hands in the dim hallway light.

“Nice to meet you, too, Yn.” He lit up, pointing up to the ceiling. “Hey, I'm pretty sure I'm your upstairs neighbor!”

You opened the door to your apartment wider so you could show him your open window. “Well, that would definitely explain how she got down onto my fire escape,” you chuckled.

He whistled lowly. “Man, cats are scary sometimes. I'll definitely try to keep an eye on whenever she's near my window now.” He ran the back of his knuckles down Byeol's spine. “I don't wanna take up any more of your time, but thanks again.”

“No worries! Have a nice night.”

“You too!”

San began walking back toward the stairs at the end of the hallway, and you were about to close the door when you thought you heard him chastising his cat in hushed tones. You laughed to yourself as you locked up your front door. You wouldn't mind if Byeol came traipsing down your fire escape again.

And she would. About three times a week when San had a later shift at the boxing gym he worked at (yes, a boxing gym… good lord). Byeol oftentimes expected you to have your window open, and if you didn't already have it open, she would sit out on the fire escape until you did.

Two months into the fire escape escapades, you gave up and left the window open just enough for her to squeeze through while you returned to work.

San would always come down to your apartment to retrieve her, and at some point, decided to swing by your apartment on his way up instead just to make sure she wasn't already here.

By month four when the days were shorter and the nights dragged longer and colder, you couldn't exactly keep the window open, lest you wanted to freeze your ass off in the safety of your apartment. Byeol would hop down the fire escape in the evenings when you were back so you could let her in, only for her owner to come barreling down the stairs, dimpled cheeks flushed and exasperated.

“I swear she likes you more than me,” he guffawed from where he stood out in the hallway as he always did. He shook his head as he watched the Thai feline waltz around his legs once, then circle back into your apartment. He arched a brow at her. “Look at her strutting. She knows exactly what she's doing.”

You swore there was a dash of red gracing his cheekbones now.

You bit your lip through a smile. “Well, you're welcome to come in. I was just about to eat dinner and I don't really think I can finish this roast chicken alone.”

“Ah, I don't really wanna impose,” he drawled, scratching the back of his neck and peering at you from beneath those lengthy lashes of his. He knew what he was doing—he had to know what he was doing. If Byeol could strut, then so could Choi San.

He promised to take you up on your offer as long as you let him run upstairs to grab a bottle of wine to contribute.

The last thing you expected to happen was to hear a knock on your window less than ten minutes later. You nearly jumped out of your skin at the sound, folding over in laughter when you saw him waving to you on the other side with cold-bitten cheeks and a red-tipped nose. He clutched a bottle of red in one hand and gestured furiously to the window latch. “It's fucking freezing!”

“Okay, okay,” you grinned, walking over to let him inside. “Just so you know,” you said as Byeol welcomed her owner into your apartment, “usually it's just cats who come in this way.”

“Well, you might have to get used to a cat and a human coming in now,” he teased. San presented you the wine bottle with a flourish. “Milady, your beverage.”

“Why, thank you, good sir,” you jested and accepted the offering. “Make yourself at home!”

What you didn't expect was for such a statement to be taken so literally, and yet, you had no complaints.

Three months further along—making it seven in total since that first hot July day Byeol came in through the open window—you and San (and Byeol) were cooped up in your apartment as usual. It was a Friday night with dinner on the table, a TV show playing in the background, and a pair of wine glasses for the pair of you. Over the past few months, sharing a dinner together had become a weekly event wherein San would come in via window, and the two of you would have the evening together.

Sometimes it was just dinner, sometimes it was dinner and a movie, and sometimes it was even dinner, a movie, and drunk Pictionary. But every Friday night was yours and San's night.

Plus, he turned out to be a much better cook, so you definitely couldn't argue when he somehow wrestled his entire Le Creuset pot down the fire escape to feed you the most divine lobster mac 'n’ cheese you had ever tasted. (As if you'd ever had lobster mac 'n’ cheese before…)

“I feel like it would just be more convenient if I came up to your apartment instead,” you said with enthusiasm, your free arm flailing around as you melted dark chocolate on a double boiler upon the stove top. While San had the right side of the stove for his chicken and gnocchi soup, you had the left to prepare tonight's mousse for dessert. If San made dinner, you figured you could at least learn a thing or two about a dessert course.

He chuckled, “I mean, I'm not opposed if you ever get tired of hosting. I'm kind of a creature of habit though, which is why I don't mind coming down every week, but it's up to you, sweets.”

Oh, right. And the nickname. You couldn't even pinpoint when that started, but again, you weren't complaining.

“I don't mind hosting either,” you told him, “it's just that it's either you leave your super expensive cookware here or I go upstairs. I don't think Le Creuset has fire escape insurance.”

“You're not wrong about that.” You felt his hand gently brush against your waist as he slipped past you to get to the spice cabinet on your left. “Behind you,” he murmured by your ear before grabbing the jar of Himalayan salt (also his) and returning to his station behind his pot.

You couldn't deny the pitter-patter of your heart around him either. Things were coming to a point that you didn't know how to label. But perhaps that was the beauty of everything slipping into place. You carried on, “I think I've seen your apartment once, and that was when Byeol wouldn't stop meowing until I followed you guys.” You laughed to yourself at the memory. That had been an interesting night.

“If it's any consolation, your apartment has much more life in it than mine.”

“That's a lie,” you said pointedly. “Yours is just more meticulous.”

He snorted. “Meticulous. Might as well be as barren as a clinic.”

You passed him a glance. “I offered to paint your walls…”

San beamed back at you, dimples creating divots in the apples of his cheeks. “And I never said no! But—I do think that it should be something the both of us do together.”

Your brows creased as you took the chocolate off the stove to fold into the other mixture you'd set aside. “You wanna paint with me?”

“Yeah,” he said, almost bashfully. “I think it'd be a fun bonding and learning experience. And it would be cool to see you in your element, besides when you're drunk.”

The latter comment had you turning away to laugh. “Fair enough.”

When dinner was ready to be dined, and the mousse was freezing in the fridge, you and San sat at the kitchen island with your matching bowls of hot soup and glasses of lemon water for the night. Neither of you had remembered to buy wine for the week (surprisingly), but one week without alcohol wouldn't hurt.

The two of you clinked your glasses together, toasting to another week survived.

You took a sip, then spooned the soup into your mouth, wiggling around on your stool in a little happy dance as the flavors did their own dance on your tongue.

San smiled around his own bite. He swallowed, then said, “You know, I always know I did well when you do that.”

“Do what?”

“That cute little dance,” he chuckled. “I’m glad it tastes good, is what I'm saying, sweets.”

Your skin warmed, and you managed to convince yourself it was the soup or the heater or something and not the beautiful man beside you. “Then get used to the happy jig, because everything you cook tastes divine. You should be a chef, San.”

“I could've,” he shrugged, “but I kind of like this little life.” He gestured to you with his spoon, a twinkle in his eyes. “Don't you?”

For a moment, you let the smile slowly unfurl onto your lips. You lifted your own spoon in agreement. “You're right. It's a lovely, little life.”

Now that you were in agreement, you fell into a comfortable silence as you both enjoyed your dinner in one another's presence. Byeol was hunched over her own bowl of food just by the foot of your stool, against the adjacent side of the island. You'd gone out and bought her a pair of food and water bowls, as well as her preferred food. San had been touched by the gesture, and Byeol most definitely appreciated it.

San wiped his mouth with his napkin. “Oh, by the way, next week.”

You hummed. “What about it?”

“Are you doing anything?”

You perked up, eyebrows lifting to your hairline. “Why do you ask?” It was usually unsaid by now that Friday nights were set aside for the two of you to share an evening, which was why you were confused by his question.

And then he explained, “It's Valentine's Day, so I just wanted to make sure I didn't interrupt or assume anything.” He'd said it so casually and easily that you nearly missed the slight nervousness in his voice, or the minor intonation of hope. “I mean,” he fumbled, “if you do have something planned, then it's no worries, really. There are plenty of other weeks—”

You shook your head, finishing off your water after having scraped your bowl clean. “I'm not doing anything,” you said. “Well, besides what we usually do.” You chuckled to yourself, “To be honest, Valentine's Day completely slipped my mind this year.”

And if you were truly being honest with yourself, every Friday felt like Valent—no. You shouldn't think like that. It would only make things worse about how you felt for him now. Plus, these past few months with San felt far too casual, too domestic, to be like Valentine's Day. Was Valentine's Day not for grand gestures and romance? This wasn't grand… though, you could probably argue about the romantic part…

“No, I feel the same way,” he nodded. “My friend Wooyoung just asked today if I was up to go to a single's party, which was why I suddenly remembered.”

Ah. “Oh, are you planning on going?” Wine sounded pretty good right about now.

He grimaced. “Probably not. I—I was kind of hoping you wanted to still do dinner next week—but, like, it doesn't have to mean anything besides how it usually is. If that's what you're comfortable with.”

It doesn't have to mean anything besides how it usually is. What if you wanted it to mean more than how it usually was? There was nothing inherently wrong with how it usually was, but you couldn't deny that a part of you yearned for more. That part of you imagined what it was like if San didn't have to come see you via fire escape, and he was always in the same space as you.

There was a pause as you wrestled with your own conscience about how or if you were going to admit it to him.

He pressed his lips together. “I've made you uncomfortable.”

“No, you haven't made me uncomfortable,” you assured him swiftly. “I just…” You sighed, pressing a hand to your forehead then returning it to your lap. “Of course, I would love to have dinner with you next week, but I’d like it to mean something else—if you are comfortable with that.”

You watched as that beautiful smile you'd come to grow more fond of blossom onto his face. “I'd be more than comfortable with that—I’d be really happy with that, actually.”

“Good,” you said softly, unable to bite your own smile away. “Then dinner next week, it is.”

There was something fundamentally different about this next Friday night compared to the others. Specifically, the context by which you and San went into the Friday evening of Valentine's Day was completely different. The apartment was aglow with the same warmth as it usually boasted, but there was a bouquet of blood red roses in a glass vase on the kitchen counter beside a bottle of red wine.

San was at the stove, finishing off the last bit for dinner before it needed to simmer for a good thirty minutes. You were in the living room portion of your apartment, flipping through the vinyl records to play before you pulled one out and set it up. As you moved the needle onto the record, you placed the empty cover back into its slot and turned toward the kitchen.

You froze in your spot, skin warming at the sight of San leaning over the island counter with an adoring look in his eyes as he watched you. “What?” You laughed, subconsciously adjusting the sleeve of your blouse.

“Nothing,” he smiled. “You're just—you’re gorgeous.”

You were sure if your face didn't give it away, there must have at least been hearts floating around your head. “You cannot just say that,” you chided weakly as you walked over to where he was, your expression growing shy.

His smile widened and he rounded the counter to stand in front of you, your back pressed against the edge of the counter. “I can, too,” he teased. He stepped back once and held his arms out, fingers flicking toward him to beckon you forward. “C'mere. Can you dance?”

“Some.” Your eyebrows arched upward as you stepped forward and took his hands in yours. “Dancing and romancing, Choi San? What magic do you hope to enchant me with tonight?” You joked, moving your left hand to his shoulder.

“Perhaps magic that will leave your window open for me on nights other than Fridays,” he said sheepishly as the two of you began to sway to the music waltzing out from the record player. “Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your fire escape—”

You let out a laugh, ducking your head toward your chests. He did the same, an embarrassed grin coming onto his face as his nose nudged against yours.

“That was god awful,” he winced in apology.

“It was,” you agreed teasingly, “but I'll let it slide because you're cute.”

He shot you a bright smile. “Oh? So I'm cute? I guess that makes two of us.”

You weren't really sure at what point you realized you had fallen for this man. It was sometime between the Himalayan salt lectures and the dancing like an old married couple in your kitchen, maybe. You thought about the day he showed up at your door panicking about a missing cat, and to a future where you might have found yourself in his living room painting murals on his walls. Or perhaps… not his living room, but both of yours.

As you danced with your chests pressed together, hearts beating rapidly in sync, you gazed into those beautiful, dark brown irises of his and sank further and further into those feelings. They were gradually making themselves a home in your chest.

“What're you thinking about, sweets?” He murmured as you tucked your head against his shoulder and the arm he had around your waist rubbed the small of your back.

The smell of his cologne made you inhale deeply. You could get used to this—his smell, the feel of his body under your fingertips, his presence intertwined with yours taking up space in the best possible way. “I'm thinking that Byeol is a good matchmaker.”

His chuckle rumbled through him and softly into your ear. “You're definitely right about that.”

a/n: pls remember to reblog and comment if u enjoyed!

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[dragon-wolfie]

I've been completely cursed by the idea of a fnaf au and it's chewing at my brain from the inside Me and my BF came up w this by accident after finishing playing wandersong last week, so you get this curse leveled at you as well

Au details and more doodles under the cut, there's a lot of text.

Yes the protagonist is Gregory again, yes it's kinda security breach plot for this one, no i never saw the ending of security breach, and don't remember the plot very well. I apologise if i get it all completely wrong, i'm just having fun.

Also when has me not knowing the plot of something stopped me from making an au, lol.

So, we eneded up with Kind of 7ish areas in this complex, the main of them being presided over by the Overseers, they act kind of like the Ai overlooking the way the area runs.

There are a bunch of smaller free-ish roaming animatronics that sometimes stick around certain areas, sometimes they don't, depending on their role and attitude.

So we have:

Kiwi - Cockatoo, they're a singer in the band (the fellas from Delphi). They were meant to be in Order's area, Chismest, initially but, but then they didn't fit and as such their primary location is Delphi, Wind's area, with the rest ofthe band.

Miriam - Grey cat, she's a magician. Was probably meant to be a singer as well, but then her Ai didn't really work for that so they stuck her w the magic act. She and Kiwi are friends (obviously, lol).

Audrey - Badger. She's a 'hero' and her roaming ground is some rides (like that one foxy pirate ride in security breach, there's more than 1). She's probably the most popular singuar animatronic in the complex, cuz idk kids love heroes. She has a sword that lights up (has batteries and a cord to charge it) which isnt sharp but. You know, lightning sword and pointing it at robots goes so well, doesnt it :)

The rest of the Delphi band: Ash -Tiger, Manny - Weasel, Viola - Rabbit.

The overseers are mostly not free-roaming over the whole complex, but all that has a catch. Most of them have some sort of limited mobility thing going on that prevents them from leaving their designated area (as such they cannot chase you outside of their area if they're chasers). This has 1 exception.

Wind queen is not energy efficient, either because something in her batteries is broken or she was just built like that because her tech is older, as such she cannot be away from her charging stations for too long or she'll shut down. She presides over the broad 'entertaintment' section (Delphi), which incudes a show stage (for the band) and Miriam's magic show and maybe other kinds of acts. She's meant to be a chicken i guess.

Chaos queen is a giant Whale that's mostly hung up on wires and can only move like that, there is no roaming to speak of, she can only move a little. Her area is the waterpark, because idk indoor waterparks are a thing i guess.

Queen of Order has no legs and moves by a rail embedded into the floor, obvious limited mobility there. Her area (Chismest) is the crafts section (such as workshops and stuff) as well as the main maintenance area (which isn't accessible to te customers obviously). She's human shaped.

Sun king & Moon queen share an area. They're both permanently in go-karts and cannot get out of them (i cant draw car-shaped anything to save my life, forgive me). Their area is an outdoors area off-of the complex building, they have raceways and maybe a playground and like a party area i think. They have a rivalry in their programmed lore. They bicker at most opportunities. Meant to be a Salamander and a Moth.

King of Hearts is hard-coded to not leave his area, it's one of the few things about his code that's Completely stable. His area (Mt Ichor) is the rides, he and Audrey are the two 'protagonists' of that area, although the kids love Audrey a lot more. He's a white wolf.

And finally, Dream king. He's lazy so he doesn't walk around basically ever, but he can just do that. He can free roam if he wanted to (and does leave in plot just like in cannon) he just usually doesnt get off his throne. His area (Langtree) is the daycare, cuz dreams and sleep. He's a cat, obvi.

The fairies are helper AI! Helpy-like. They're just software, appear on help termnals and the fazwatch equivalent maybe.

Mask is a human tech, they're chill. They teach ppl (and animatronics if they wanna listen) to dance in free time.

Maybe ditto for Eyala, idk abt her yet.

(ignore the 'idk who this is' note, it was an early sketch before i decided it was Gregory)

Some things go to shit. The plot still has Gregory hinding from a security guard and wanting to leave the complex but unable to do so through the front door. As such he has to go through all areas in one way or another.

Kiwi is much like rockstar freddy here, except they never have the % chance to kill you, they're just a sweetie. Miriam is an enemy you have to run from for a little while, but Kiwi convinces her to help instead. So you get 2 ally animatronics in this one, be it one of them is begrudging.

Audrey. Goes off the deep end at some point. Her role is partially to report if other animatronics are bugged out, broken or acting like they shouldn't, but eventually she decides that deactivating them herself is the better idea, but the way the deactivates the ones she judges as defective is hitting them over and over with an electrified sword till they stop moving. She's also actively hunting for Gregory to give him over to security.

Kiwi and Miriam both get hurt by Audrey, as in canon. idk what exactly the plot is beyond all this yet.

Jesus fucking christ this is a lot of text.

Ask me abt this au if you want. I'll draw for it more unless i burn out immediately.

[kosomolski-dolls]

New youpladolls in the house

Say hello to Ruka on V3 body.

Thoughts and more photos under the cut.

So first of all, the carrier bag was exchanged with a box.

Personally, I'm not a fan of this decision, I loved the carrier bags, they're practical and take up less space than the boxes. I assume they're cheaper? Idk. Well, can't be helped, I guess.

The new body... Hah, I both like and dislike it ^^' First thing to mention, she now has magnetic hands and feet.

If you've been following me for a while, you know my take on magnetic feet, but if you're new here: I hate them with passion. I think the only magnetic feet I don't hate AS MUCH are on my Littlefees, and that's because they lock in a bit, so they don't come off as easily. They still get stuck in shoes all the time, and in this scale, even the thinnest socks can be too thick to make a shoe fit.

That being said, the magnets are pretty strong! (Will get lost in shoes nevertheless)

The new feet are bigger than the old, which was a deliberate decision so they'd have the same size as Minifee feet and it would be easier to find fitting shoes for them (I know because I took the Minifee measurements for Marie)

The heel feet are a bit steeper than Minifee, so they won't fit actual Minifee heels (on the right), BUT they now fit perfectly into slim MSD heels like these He-Meife (left and middle). They are officially for Minifee, but everyone who owns a pair knows they're too steep for them (it works, but not greatly tbh).

The hands are a bit bigger now than the old hands, especially around the palm, which I assume is due to the magnets. They're ok, but tbh I prefer the dainty hands of the old body.

The waist joint. Eh. Exists? I know I won't be using this a lot. I was skeptical, because these joints tend to be slippery and often make the doll's torso bend in unwanted ways due to tension, but these don't move that easily, so no stability is sacrificed. But that same thing also means it's not super easy to move, at least when dressed, so... yeah

(I'm not one who is super obsessed with getting the dolls to slouch, so idrc about this joint tbh)

The knees are double jointed now and I think a lot of people will like the new aesthetic, because I know a lot of people didn't like the old ones. I personally liked the old ones and the ridges that made them very easy to pose in in-between-poses, while also still being stable.

The new one is ok, but despite it providing more mobility, I think I still prefer the old one a bit for the inbetween poses. Plus, I'll probably sand down these ridges because they make it really hard to bend the knee...

Now to the elephant in the room (well, in my room): the thighjoint.

Eh, I'm not gonna lie, I'm a bit torn on it =')

(Photo from Youpladolls)

On one hand, it's definitely more aesthetically pleasing than both v1 and v2 bodies. The stability is similar to v1, it's easy to balance and stands pretty stable. v2 gives me a bit of a headache to balance because of the double ball joint, more moving parts means more parts to keep in mind when balancing. But the big advantage of v2 was that you could raise the knees to the body without much effort, even in pants.

This is not possible with the new body, because it has the pullout system. I hate it, I never use it, this joint is non existent to me, because it's not possible in even slightly tight pants, it's too much effort even in dresses, and it isn't as stable because the tension can easily snap the joint back if you touch it in the wrong way.

So... yeah, idk. I'll see how I adjust to this in the future lol

Lastly, Ruka and Meilin (Yoon), I hope they will work out as sisters in the end. With the blank face she looks so weird next to her haha. (She also looks tiny... I think the heels Meilin is wearing have a higher sole)

[the-mountain-flower]

Was listening to "Victim or Survivor" by Citizen Soldier and Icon For Hire (for those who haven't heard it, it's a song about re-framing trauma for personal growth, specifically in the 'preferring the label "survivor" over "victim" bc of personal empowerment' way) and I realized my interpretation of the line "crutch or a crown only you decide" is probably uncommon bc of the prominent societal implications of both (which is a very big thing in this song) and now I really want to share my interpretation of it so:

I feel like the common interpretation of "crutch or a crown" would be that the crutch is referring to something that holds one back, while the crown is referring to being empowered by the survival. This interpretation is obviously valid (tho I'm not a fan of it personally), but I think of it as the opposite.

The crown is heavy. It could be made of a ton of dense metal, or the symbol of a puppet ruler, or made of thorns. A symbolic heaping of praise for someone's strength to dismiss their need for help (which happens IRL all too often). In this context, I think the crown is something that weighs one down, that makes one a victim, and the crutch is the empowering one.

This is because the entire purpose of crutches are as mobility aids. Literal crutches help people get around where they might otherwise be stuck, or have to move but in a way that harms them because of the lack of help. Metaphorical crutches fill the same purpose, of helping people do something they wouldn't be able to or have trouble with otherwise. Temporary or permanent, crutches aren't a sign of weakness, but are made to help. Crutches are important in healing from many physical injuries, and in this case, mental. It means you've surviving.

I guess there's also the interpretation that both are meant to be a good thing, just in different ways, like how this song is about the "survivor" being preferred over "victim" but I def know people who feel the other way around, who need the acknowledgement of the term "victim" in order to heal, so it could also be that they're empowering in different ways. Though I only thought of that one while writing this post lol

So yeah ❤️

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

tag game :-)

tagged by @sophieswundergarten . sort of. i did it on my ted lasso blog i hope you dont mind :)

what's the origin of your blog title? i'm going to assume "title" is url and not the like, little header text. it's just a pun because i love trent and puns and also i think he's gorgeous

favorite fandoms : well, currently ted lasso, but the mysterious benedict society continues to hold a special place in my heart

OTP(s) + shipname : uhhh my current top ships are tedependent and roytrent, but nicholas/milligan (tmbs) also of course sneak into my brain and my old beloved malec (shadowhunters tv only not the other version) will always hold a special stubborn little place in my heart. also, the doctor/river. love them so much

favorite color : hmm dark greens with warm undertones, but like, that kind of forest/jewel green not olive/army you know

favorite game : ohhh that's so hard. hollow knight, disco elysium, the legend of zelda: breath of the wild, and pokemon mystery dungeon: explorers of sky are probably the top ones, but i also love bug fables: the everlasting sapling, turnip boy commits tax evasion, goat simulator 3, minecraft, the legend of zelda: phantom hourglass, the legend of zelda: link between worlds, new pokemon snap, pokemon platinum, a short hike, haunt the house: terrortown, and so so many more. i'm a big video games fan. i'm also currently obsessively playing hello kitty island adventure which is fun

song stuck in your head : uhhhh nothing right now but i think the last one was like. maybe "Bad Memories" with MEDUZA, or "SATANIC PANIC" by IDKHOW? Oxford Blood (Autoheart)? I can't remember

weirdest habit/trait? ummmm my whole personality probably. idk man i'm a weird little man i can't think of any particular specific habit other than my lack of filter i guess. uhh i dont like hot drinks usually, even tea, despite half my family being british? and i really really love soda. oh, i can't drive despite being in my twenties lol

hobbies : oh mostly artsy shit. writing, drawing, comics, zines, beading (mostly bracelets and lizards), stickers, that kind of thing. also: video games. mostly playing, but i dabble in making/design also

if you work, what's your profession? no job rn :( got into an MFA program i'll hopefully be starting soon though!

if you could have any job you wish what would it be? hmmm. either creating something (like making my own dream game, writing a book, directing or acting in a tv show, maybe even running a youtube channel or podcast) or like, just something simple but fulfilling that didn't leave me exhausted for my free time. that pays well. you know

something you're good at : writing, i like to think

something you're bad at : um, gender. taking compliments/praise. not having really intense feelings over things that dont matter. typing on mobile phone

something you love : stuffed animals and soft pillows. soda, particularly colas with weird fruity flavors (currently drinking blackberry dr pepper lol) although pibb xtra will always be a fave. loaded fries. hand-cut fries (not loaded)

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff : hmmm any of my beloved case of the week shows (there are too many to list), TMBS, trent crimm

something you hate : people being stupid/wrong in a way that is annoying to me specifically but i know isn't a big deal so i just have to simmer with it and the intense feeling of wanting to correct them somehow but like i'm not a dick so i don't do that but like i'm just simmering in it going hhhhh>:(

something you collect : pins, pens, magnets, beads, stickers, keychains. i love me some little trinkets

something you forget : everything, always, all the time

what's your love language? ummm idk. love languages are kind of bullshit but they're fun to talk about anyway and i guess it'd be like. thoughtful actions and gift giving you know. i do love little gifts i cant help it and people being thoughtful and helping you for no reason is just really nice

favorite movie/show : oh man, i have no idea. there are too many good ones that i rewatch all the time, or ones that are bad but im super attached to one character, or whatever. i can't really decide.

favorite food : fries, particularly either hand-cut fries cooked just right (a little crispy but not crunchy) or like fries loaded in some interesting way (not just slapping cheese and bacon on). also see: cajun/spicy burger with mayo

favorite animal : uhhhh so many good choices. cats. frogs. moths. lizards. dogs. birds. etc. i cant choose im sorry. can i cheat and say dragon for now

are you musical? oh yeah! i haven't played the flute in ages so i'd probably be bad at it but i love to sing

what were you like as a child? extremely annoying, alternating between loud hyper little ball of garish colors (attempted class clown, but too annoying to other children to truly succeed) and extremely quiet forgettable little know-it-all bookworm (attempted teachers' pet, but too annoying to adults to truly succeed)

favorite subject at school? uhh, english and art

least favorite subject? biology, probably

what's your best character trait? i like to think i'm kind and helpful and maybe even funny

what's your worst character trait? i can be selfish and spiteful even if it's mostly internal, and also annoying & persistent when i don't catch a hint. and since i can't really read people well i consistently don't catch the hint. and the not reading people means i also often get defensive and read hostility where it might not be

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? a delicious meal that isn't leftovers

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? oh, i have no clue. i think someone random. not anyone famous, just an everyday (but hopefully nice) person from a chosen period

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love!) :

oooh only one?? here, let's. i will settle for three

to seek solace by @andillwriteyouatragedy

slowly, gently, with love by @fade-in-the-dark

Just like bull riding by @itsonlydana

tagging: uhhhhhhhh anyone. who wants to. bc im lazy

[huh-1260]

So the LU gundam AU continues and

Wind and Twilight the only non clone children of the Chain! Bow I've shared some details from the LU Whumpever server, so I shall make a separate post for those details, BTW I just realized I forgot to mention Four on the server.

But, back to Wind and Twilight. Wind is a regular person (for now) but he's a space pirate. At first I was going for something like Mobile Suit Crossbone Gundam, but my ass is so unfamiliar with it, so I'm leaning more into the Gundam Astray story. So for Time's finally fight with the government, before he goes into the Fierce Deity equivalent of a Gundam (maybe I'll draw it later) to fight Skull kid/Majora (spoilers: Skull kid dies). With Legend's creation, which only happen because they found the arm of Time's original Gundam. So for Wind, he found the rest of the mobile suit. And because of certain details, aka the Time travel ability of the Ocarina of Time, the time ability goes to Wind to be the Phantom Sword (Lol I might call Wind's Gundam the Phantom Gundam). But for Wind's windwaker, that's where Wild comes in. Now it was very easy for me to say Wild and his team/Champions were abandoned to die but bot the state of the mobile suits. Now the Champions are dead, because it was a suicide mission. And for Wind's replacement arm for the Phantom Gundam, is Revali's mobile suites arm because fuck yeah Gundam Astray Gold frame with the Blitz arm. And with Wind basically not repainting the suit for some time that's how the Governemnt knew Time was alive and just deserted the army, so Time is considered a traitor to the government.

Which leads me to Twilight. Twilight is Time and Malon's son. (uh I forgot the two people that are Twilight's adopted parents in some people's fics so they're babysitters/godparents for Twilight because I feel bad for leaving them out) The Fierce Deity mobile suit was repurposed for Twilight's mobile suit, much to Time's argument against mobile suits because killing Skull kid and reading his older brother figure file of him dying in mobile suits still haunts him. (Hehehe Warriors isn't actually dead but hehhehhehe that makes the reunion more angsty along with the HADES system, ill probably rename it to SPIRIT or FOCUS if i figure out a way to make the system based off the HADES with those letters.) Twilight is a rebellious kid. Gotta keep the Gundam tradition alive by having children in Mobile suits fighting in a war they have no idea about. Also I'm going to have more than just Witch from Mercury reference be stuck to Time, I'm going to let baby Twilight sneak out and bond with the Gundam. And have Twilight get his markings from the suit too. But I'm going to let the suit transform into a wolf so I can have wolfie without any potential animal deaths in the future in case I want more angst. So because Time is a deserter, Twilight had to move around a lot and staying in Ordon for the longest time was his norm until, he meets Midna. A mobile suit designer, (well I can make her like the daughter of a mobile suit company which I guess can consider her a princess in some way) Midna helps with the Wolf Gundam (because it's no longer the Fierce Deity) and when she has to leave, their location is pretty much compromised. Which eventually leads to Twilight and Time going to space and meeting the rest of the chain, aka Twilight's uncles and Wind.

BTW designs are not final!

[ask-postcrash-curly]

hello, curlster! It's been a while.

I completely forgot about soci.. I mean, this headspace!!! Yeah uhm I went quiet for a while, but a lot of things happened when I was gone.

I heard you're in recovery? That's nice, I suppose. Hope you can get those badonkers back, heh.

Well, I've been through a lot, too.

I have discovered I am, in fact, not a human, (who would've think 🫢🫢) but an alien.. more specifically alienkin, an alterhuman identity, so I'm still stuck in this human body (not for long, I hope.)

Ive also decided to become a Satanist, for I no longer can see myself attached to God, nor do I hold any loving memories from his kingdom. I also agree with all of the Laveyist principles, making it basically undeniable that I am one

But I guess those aren't that great of surprises, lol

I have narrated for a documentary on my great-great-grandmother and great-grandmother made by my uncle grandpa - an actual screenwriter and poet (mayhaps not a greatly known one, but I digress-), this may look good on my curriculum, considering I've been training for 7 years to be a voice actor.

Im working on making my own mobility aid, since my family has decided not to get me one. Hope you wish me luck!

Also, good luck with recovering from your state, physically and emotionally.

Anyway, here are two songs I'm currently obsessed with;

https://open.spotify.com/track/7Bj4wIqRzM6vx278EFYoBh?si=o56UnCH6QPOmLY7PVUazqw

https://open.spotify.com/track/0rFWuqFgHAfuzE8uSB9TWR?si=3iNR9hmNSBmYcDkWuvRbQw

Goodbye for now, cowboy.

-🍓🌠 ( @astrounderrated ) (to clear things up, yes I do tect people like that sometimes. when I'm tired I kinda don't want to think of how different ppl prefer to be interacted with and just go colloquial mode lmao)

Hey again! How are you doing?

I am, yeah. Thank you. (Shut.)

You're an alien? Ah, hey, good for you! I'm no expert on any of this, but I'm glad you figured it out for yourself.

Wow. That's pretty neat. The concept of the documentary and your role in it. Good for you!

Making your own—? Huh, maybe I should look into that. Though I suppose I'd probably need to have mobility aids in order to make one... Hah. Good luck, of course! How are you making yours, exactly? I'm interested.

Thank you. I may need it.

Thank you for the music! The first one's pretty dark, jeez. I like the second a lot.

Heh. Goodbye for now.

[aghastro]

Lifey Updatey

My computer has been broken for a while- Things I need to replace in it, but I'd rather just build a whole new one that's suited for what i need right now. I've been dreaming of experimenting with video, doing more streams- Right when my computer broke, I'd just begun doing exactly that!

As it stands, I do all of my computing from a cracked phone with a broken camera, an aging chromebook, and an android tablet. I just.. I want a proper desktop again, man. I'm tired of mobile view.

The tablet is the fanciest thing I own, and I COULD feasibly attempt video using any of the free apps available, but this thing... this thing is agonizingly slow for something I bought new years back. Huge regret- I wish i had that money now LOL

Drawing on a screen-tablet is also difficult in terms of my posture. I miss being able to sit in a nice chair and draw without looking down! I have to take very frequent breaks while drawing on tablet to make sure I don't hurt myself.

I'm still unemployed, and given my recent ER visit and brand new disabling conditions, I see that remaining the same. Art is kind of the last thing I have going for me...

You'd think that means I'd draw more? But i've mostly been depressed at how limited my tools are. I already made a piece about this- I'll work in my limits, I will! But I am very depressed.

I need to replace my phone before it dies, I need to replace my computer, I need to pay my medical bills when they finally bill me. You know, a bill just passed in my country that is going to probably take away my insurance? Just today! Time will tell but, Ah. Aw man.

Will saving up and buying a computer secure futher funds in moving forward in my art career? I hope so. Despite my depression I feel like Finally willing to dive in and really create things- I've been in contact with a lot of cool communities that have reignited a lot of my passion for creation that I hadn't even realized was quashed.

BUT! I have to work in these tiny confines with finnick rules until I can monetize myself enough to afford to do bigger projects. Frustrating.

Well I mostly hope I can just keep affording meds and maybe get this weird new condition finally figured out.

Eh.. sorry this is so depressing! Since my device is so shit I can't even backspace a lot of this? Well I guess sometimes it's useful to be sincere even if the sincerity is "I am very defeated"

I'd like to work. Gud grief I'd like to work.

Opening commissions on here proper style. I'll be slow since I'm sick, but I'm desperate and determined to escape this vortex I'm stuck in.

[ludrii-shenanigins]

lud i cant copy it on mobile but answer all asks from that ask game pls

ALL QUESTIONS??? YOU MONSTER XDDDDDDD

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? tea cups, though wine glasses are fun too if you put other stuff than wine in it

2. chocolate bars or lollipops? chocolate 100%

3. bubblegum or cotton candy? neither xD

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? aither as the perfect student, or as the lazy problematic child, depending on whether or not my neurodivergency inconvenienced them

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? I don't drink soda lol

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? hmmm, pastel, tomboy, goth

7. earbuds or headphones? headphones 100%

8. movies or tv shows? Both. Both is good

9. favorite smell in the summer? sea

10. game you were best at in p.e.? uhh, none lmao, I was the worst in everything xD

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day? Pie of some sort (my mom makes them), or a yogurt

12. name of your favorite playlist? "songs" xDD

13. lanyard or key ring? key ring, lanyards are annoying

14. favorite non-chocolate candy? licorice <3

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment? hmm, Spalovač mrtvol (a Czech book)

16. most comfortable position to sit in? changes constantly lol

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes? crocs at home, sneakers outside if it's warm or boots if it's cold

18. ideal weather? 18-22°C, sunny, with a gentle breeze

19. sleeping position? on the side, hands crossed on my chest like I'm buried in a tomb

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? on my laptop

21. obsession from childhood? dinosaurs xD and collecting random crap

22. role model? none I can think of tbh

23. strange habits? Clicking my tongue randomly, growling when getting out of bed, baring my teeth at myself in the mirror for no reason, sniffing the air if I'm looking for something ..am I an animal? xD

24. favorite crystal? I guess amethyst, it ourple

25. first song you remember hearing? I don't remember a thing xD

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather? hole up in my room and game or draw

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather? hole up in my room and game or draw

28. five songs to describe you? Yes I'm a Mess Psycho Oh no! Masochism Tango The Code

29. best way to bond with you? hang out doing the most random crap lol

30. places that you find sacred? tops of mountains, graveyards, tombs, other planets

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? black dress with ouija board on it, chains, fingerless gloves, fishnets, metal claws

32. top five favorite vines? 1. "..and they were roommates" "Oh my god they were roommates" 2. "Two bros chillin' in a hot tub, five feet apart cuz they're not gay" 3. "Road work ahead? I sure hope it does" 4. "Even the babies are one of the most dangerous animals in the world, so I build this cage to keep them secure so there's no possible- oh my god" 5. Completely Giving Up, starring: Me, Me, Me, Me, and introducing Me

33. most used phrase in your phone? either "I don't remember" or "btw you're cute" lol

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head? Bobika

35. average time you fall asleep? around 22:30, though on the weekends it can go all the way up to 2:00 xD

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing? I don't remember anything xD

37. suitcase or duffel bag? suitcase

38. lemonade or tea? both. both are good

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? both. both are good

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? hmm, a band of boys bought pink girl underwear and put it around the school xDDD

41. last person you texted? you Noodle lol

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets? BOTH. BOTH IS GOOD

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? hoodie, leather jacket, jean jacket

44. favorite scent for soap? lavender

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? sci-fi or fantasy

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in? pajamas

47. favorite type of cheese? uhhhh, string cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be? mandarin? brain said ananas though

49. what saying or quote do you live by? well, I don't live by it, but I try "Take it easy, but take it"

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have? I can't recall

51. current stresses? school exams, Christmas, school exams

52. favorite font? comic sans B]

53. what is the current state of your hands? dirty from drawing xD and dry

54. what did you learn from your first job? I never had a job

55. favorite fairy tale? About the 7 ravens

56. favorite tradition? hmm, I really don't know, sorry xD

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? finishing high school, reaching out to a therapist on my own, uhhhh surviving uni so far??

58. four talents you’re proud of having? drawing, poetry, making stuff from random crap like cardboard and wires, understanding computery stuff

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? "Anyhoo- " "I don't remember" "Sorry, I zoned out" "See ya later, alligator!"

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? something with powers and stuff

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? hmm I have the high ground

62. seven characters you relate to? William (Who's Lila?) Stolas (Helluva Boss) Hiccup (HTTYD) Ranboo (DSMP) Alphys (Undertale) Anakin Skywalker (Star Wars) Ahsoka Tano (Star Wars)

63. five songs that would play in your club? oughhh these song questions xD literally the same 5 as before lmao, although switch Yes I'm a mess for My way

64. favorite website from your childhood? uhh, Friv.com lol, gamez

65. any permanent scars? one on my knee

66. favorite flower(s)? allium, sunflower, lilac, rose, dandelion

67. good luck charms? a necklace from my girlfriend, a handmade bee from England (I wear it on my pants)

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? beer. HATE that stuff, never having another sip. Closely followed by dill

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? I got a lot of fun facts but with all of them I know how I learned them so xD

70. left or right handed? both handed lol

71. least favorite pattern? dots, I hate them for some reason, and vertical stripes

72. worst subject? P.E.

73. favorite weird flavor combo? cheese and chocolate

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? 4 or 5

75. when did you lose your first tooth? When I was like uhhhh 7?? my first year in elementary school lol

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? baked I think

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill? any and all, I love plants

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? I don't drink coffee so ig sushi it is xD

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? I don't have either so uh yeah lmao

80. earth tones or jewel tones? What language is this?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs? Fireflies

82. pc or console? pc pc pc, but I love me some good PS2 gaming every now and then

83. writing or drawing? Drawinggg although I love writinggg although I love drawinggg although...

84. podcasts or talk radio? Neither, it distracts me xD

84. barbie or polly pocket? Huh? What's a polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology? Both. Both is good

86. cookies or cupcakes? BOTH. BOTH IS GOOD.

87. your greatest fear? That nobody cares about me and will end up leaving me behind when things get tough and I'll die alone and lonely

88. your greatest wish? Peace and love on planet Earth and end to capitalism. I just wanna live a nice life without the looming threat of not being able to pay rent and stuff

89. who would you put before everyone else? Either myself or my girlfriend

90. luckiest mistake? I don't remember xD

91. boxes or bags? BOXESSS *crawls into one*

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? Sunlight is great but FAIRY LIGHTSSSS

93. nicknames? In kindergarten they called me a crybaby, in elementary school this one dude called me a "Makyman" which was a mix o superman and my name, in high school one of my friends called me midget (am smol ok), and rn one of my other friends calls me Moonling And my girlfriend calles me Birdie :}

94. favorite season? I'd say spring Not too cold, not too warm, flowers bloom and everything gets back to life..

95. favorite app on your phone? uhhh, my beloved camera I think. I love taking pictures

96. desktop background? Screenshot from Ori and the Blind Forest (Definitive Edition)

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized? 1. My own xD and barely at that

98. favorite historical era? Dinosaurs!!!! Closely followed by Victorian era, and I also got a soft spot for 1920s

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this took way too long xDDD

[ask-nurse-curly]

So, our base is completely mobile! It allows us to go on research missions in the field without straying too far. It's safer to keep everyone together, and we can travel wherever we need to be throughout the year.

At perihelion (Northern Winter/Southern Summer), we shelter in the lava tube caves of Arsia Mons because the planet is almost completely uninhabitable: the atmosphere in the North freezes, and month-long dust storms blot out the sun in the South. We thought we were safe to leave the caves, but last week our instruments failed to pick up a dust devil in the North that we then got caught in.

You'd think that a base designed for a planet that is consistantly hit by dust devils and planetary storms would have a sophisticated method of dealing with solar blackouts, but the truth is that we only one type of back-up power generators. It's not an unexpected problem - it's well known by everyone here, in fact - yet nothing is being done about it. The back-up hasn't failed us so far, but if it does… it'll be too late.

It's quite ominous to say you could be hit by an asteroid-! Do you have an emergency plan if it happened? A way to get help..? The thought terrifies me… I mean, at least we're in orbit here. A ship could end up anywhere in space :s

…on a lighter note, what revelation did you have? It can't be easy if someone confessed to you, or you confessed to them, and then you got stuck in close quarters with them for the rest of the trip - that could either be the most awkward time of your life or a massive relief (depending on how succesful it was) lol

I wish I could say mine went well, yet I haven't found the time to fall in love. I don't know if I'm around the wrong people, or if there's a right person.. but nothing has panned out so far. Do you think there's someone out there for everyone?

Also, you're right… I suppose I should feel entitled to privacy, but if you're happy to continue talking then so am I!

- xoxo, Pheobe

Hi Pheobe,

You say that my situation is ominous, but in all honesty your description kind of made me glad we’re freestyling it through space rather than being planetside! At least here, we can manoeuvre out of the dodgier situations. Although the more I think about it, the more I suspect that our sets of conditions are more similar than they are different, just a matter of…scale, I suppose.

It’s chilling to think about the back-up systems. Though I’m finding that, broadly speaking, you want your emergency systems to be as unsophisticated as possible. Too many moving parts, and it becomes too brittle to function. Even if it’s unrelated to emergencies — I still keep a mercury thermometer on board, for example, because that’s the only one that doesn’t start wigging out on me five tests in…

I’m rambling, sorry. Point is, I hope everything holds on your end. I think even megacorp should be incentivised to keep scientists safe and sound.

Hm, well, I can’t give you a specific play by play as I’m not en engineer, but let me try. First of all, it would be far more likely for us to hit an asteroid rather than the other way around, which would mean a navigational failure, which has an extremely low probability of happening — even if, say, both our pilots were incapacitated, the autopilot would kick in and correct the course. It would cost us a pretty penny, probably, but losing credits wouldn’t be the end of the world.

But if we were to collide with something bad enough to breach the hull…there are pockets of expanding foam between the insulating layers, so if the seal were to break, a chemical reaction would kick in, and the foam would instantly patch up the breach, so we would just continue on our way. If the engines were damaged, I guess we’d have to radio in for assistance and wait for a tow ship to reach us. We just have an oxygen tank instead of algae filters, so I suppose technically we would be limited by our air supply, but it’s not like there aren’t any hubs or refuelling stations along the route, so I doubt we would have to drift for too long. I fear our biggest problem would be boredom, haha. But now even that isn’t an issue. :-)

Hah, I wish it were that clear cut… There weren’t any confessions per se, but some things were cleared up, and… I’m sorry, I don’t really know how to talk about it. My main revelation is that I don’t think I’m meant for this. But to answer your question, I do think that there is someone for everyone, and that person is your own self. Every other relationship, romantic or otherwise, is secondary to that, and some people feel the need for these connections, and others don’t. So if it’s something you are looking for in life, I hope that you find it when the time is right. :-)

Stay safe,

-Curly

[chaoticjoke]

ooc: meet the mun

NAME?: natalie

PRONOUNS?: she/her

MOST ACTIVE MUSE(S)?: the joker. obviously. he's stuck in my head and i guess i'm destined to write him... for-everrrr. there's also a catwoman blog i've recently made but it was probably a mistake lol

RP PET PEEVES?: minor stuff like people not cutting their threads or, alternatively, cutting everything off in a thread except their own reply. i can guess they do it for their blog aesthetic reasons but, when i do my drafts, reading my own previous reply is a must. also threads being started but never finished or even moved forward. i can really say that, if we write together, i'd rather we had one major thread or plot instead of lots meaningless memes and nothing more.

EXPERIENCE / HOW MANY YEARS?: circa 2015... so let's say 9 years of the clownery

FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: angst. AAAANGST. like a perfect genre, natural for my chaotic muse

PLOTS OR MEMES?: i love both but most of my threads and connections come from memes. okay, let me tell little secret here though -- if I follow someone first i already have a raw plot written out in my head, like what joker might do with your muse and how he would act, because whereas he claims he's not a schemer, he has everything figured out and he's always a few steps ahead. i rarely share his intentions or plans because it'll ruin the rp experience for me and my rp partners. and, this can be added to the pet peeves, but there were times when people would drop threads without telling me, and i would be genuinely upset because we didn't finish and they bailed too early, never knowing what was in stock for their muse. kind of discouraging, but that's fine :D

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: long replies because i feel i can bring more context and meaning to his replies, plus i'm a sucker for writing his twisted train of thots

TIME TO WRITE?: joker's muse mostly comes to me at night. or late evening. most of my replies are written at that time. i envy those who can write their muses everywhere -- at work, at school/uni, while watching a TV show or being at a party, etc. i can write him only: 1) when i'm not tired, 2) when my mind isn't occupied with irl stuff, 3) when i'm most comfy and isolated -- in my room, with a cup of strong black coffee on my table and his playlist on. god forbid i get interrupted in mid-reply... oh, and i never do drafts on mobile -- i always need my laptop's keyboard to tap on lol

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)?: lol nO. absolutely not. except probably for owning a purple suit and for my big love for the batman. i wish i could read people like joker does and as well as turning their little evil plans upside down.

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[daychiie]

For the manga ask: 1, 11 and 17

HIIII HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

AND ALSO THANKS FOR NOT ONLY SENDING ME A ASK BUT SENDING ME THIS TWICE SINCE I ACCIDENTALLY BLOWED UP THE FIRST TIME TEEHEE <3 <3 <3 odeio escrever coisa pelo celular augghh

Anyway I'm answering those questions here!!!

1. Your top 5 reads of 2023

Meme for symmetry lol

No Home - NO HOME MY BELOVED MY BESTIE NO HOME,HOW IT CAN BE SO WELL WRITTEN IT MAKES ME INSANE BRO... COMICS OF ALL TIME. I have no words to explain... I do want one day stop being a coward and write out some analysis on it, buuut--oh well~~

Dungeon Meshi - I got into the party almost "too late". Well, I don't really believe that starting something after if finished is getting into it too late,but I do get that you lose some experiences if you get into something late than other... And in my case I got into it some weeks before it officially ended lmao. Always heard about it and finally gave a try, it's extremely funny and charming, can't wait for the anime this week :]

Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun - I saw the anime back when it was releasing, enjoyed it and...that was it. Hoped for season two (kinda still wish for it),but yeah... Then finally said fuck it and OHH IT GETS SO MUCH BETTER. LIKE ITS NOT THAT THE ANIME IS BAD BY ANY MEANS BUT WELL...it only covered one part of it and it always keep getting funnier and funnier! Wakamatsu is so much more insane and dumb... The characters we never got to met there. I do have some issue here and there but in general I have a pretty fun time :]

Ikoku Nikki - yeah maybe sometimes see that something gonna end next week really pushes me to read it lol. Anyway I do want to re read again sometime soon,but it was a very emotional read!! Makio women of all time, a aro icon <3 she everything!!!!

After School Lessons for Unripe Apples - another fun read!!! Don't think I have too much thoughts but I really enjoy Mi-ae and Cheol dynamic <3

Just making clear that in this top 5 I put stuff I started reading in 2023,so like ... No Skip to Loafer here lol even thought I enjoyed the new chapters that were released in 2023,in the rules my head made it didn't count lmao.

11. Your favorite covers

Suddenly I actually never read anything in 2023 :) GJJSAJFN ok guess Hirayasumi covers are very neat!!! I love the painting of it.

But yeah I noticied I remember chapter covers much more than I remember volume covers, so originally I was going to show some of my favorite chapter covers...but then 10 photos limit. Even thought I was sure nowdays is 30 idk if its because I'm stuck in mobile but whatever,I spend two hours looking covers on my phone I gonna show it on a rb or something lmao

17. A manga you didn’t expect to like

Hmnm ... I don't remember lmao. Like at least not anything that I felt that extremely "omg what pleasant surprise!!!!!" ? The best I could think of is kisses x kiss x kisses that ...well does have a cringe name that kinda put you expectations at low I guess lol

It's nothing amazing, it's a finished romance comic, that is very sweet. I liked the contrast of the protagonist and his love interest being like, boy with big family all living together and boy that lives alone with parents in another country lol. It is a cliche and not gonna pretend they do anything groundbreaking with it, but it's still a nice storyline. Lowkey big spoilers ahead I guess but: I liked that while the protagonist dream of living completely alone changed a little (cause come on its a fluffy romance lol), he still got separates room cause he does want be able to experience and enjoy not sharing a room,having more privacy and stuff. It's kinda small overall, but it's nice that his dream and his goals didn't do a complete change because of love.

[ohgodmyeyes]

so i have this story i've been "writing" since before the pandemic (lol) where Anakin just keeps getting fatter and fatter with essentially no limit, and 50-60k words in, it's to the point where he's basically stuck on the upper floor of the house, and i am genuinely conflicted on whether i want to extract him or not.

on the one hand, i think accessibility and accommodations are super sexy, and the reader being willing to fight to maintain some of his autonomy is really endearing...

...but on the other hand, i also adore the notion of anakin not WANTING any of his independence back. i love that he's happy to be fed and washed and walked around at his caregiver's leisure; i love that he doesn't care what happened in the news yesterday, or whether it's raining outside. because at the end of the day, the hottest part of him being so dependent is the trust he's placing in you by doing so.

a story about helping him recover from an injury might be nice, and it's heartening to give him palliative care... but there's something about knowing that he's going to be existing for a long time in a state of utter helplessness where "recovery" isn't necessarily the goal that just drives me wild for him.

because i guess whether i like it or not, his brokenness is integral to who he is... and truthfully i hate changing him, even in the interest of giving him a happy ending... so why should those two things be mutually exclusive?

i think i'm probably going to move him to a main floor, partly because I am excited to write about reader having to hire a private contractor to break down the wall and hoist him out ... but in doing so i don't think i want to give him too much more mobility or autonomy than he already has, if only because he doesn't want it.

actually maybe it'll even make him anxious, and then you can pop a few nuggies into him to make him feel better — promising him that, no, you don't expect him to take care of himself just because he can; that room to move doesn't mean you expect him to move.

people have expected too much from poor ani his whole life, starting with his mom tbh... and part of me wanting him essentially fused to his bed is absolutely a desire to absolve him of those expectations.

like, no anakin, you don't have to save the world. it's great if you want to and i'll help you do it if it'll make you happy, but you're also just a person, and i'll still love you even if you never want to do a single thing for anyone else ever again — your disillusionment is part of who you are too, after all, and even if i'm a bad person for wanting to indulge it, is it really so wrong that i can't imagine you without it..?

because maybe my baby doesn't need to be fixed. maybe all he needs (all he wants) is cake and love and more cake and bacon fat.

[estakes]

Another question~!!

Thoughts on the Five Eccentrics group?

ohoho~ here we go!

as a whole, i don't really mind them much? eccentric party night is overplayed as hell though. it's been constantly in the top rankings of the yearly enstars song poll on twitter, and by god does it piss me off. just let of go... it's been years. twilight pentagram is the same, it's in the top 5 i think. ugh, enough already. and it doesn't really hit that certain spot for me. just not a fan of them or their music (which is just two)

individually though? i have many thoughts, especially about certain members

starting with rei. i think you already have an idea about what i feel about mr vampire mullet here. i don't outright hate him, but i don't like him either. i find him a bit annoying, to be honest. why's he always acting like a know it all wise guy? for the whole mysterious spooky vampire image? sir, you're 20, calm down.

and don't get me started with the obvious favoritism that the company has with him! gee rei, how come happyele lets you have two global exclusives?! why? what the hell, what is the purpose of it? imo, i think every character should be limited to one global exclusive card. again, how is this guy's happyele's best money maker?!

i don't have much thoughts on wataru though, i think he's fine. though sometimes, his voicelines irk me a little. i would be reading a story with wataru in it and all of a sudden i'm going to hear him moaning for some reason. wataru, what the hell.

kanata's fine too. i like his vibes. i think out of everyone in the eccentrics, kanata is the only one that i really have no problems with. good job, mr fish, you're not as annoying as everyone else! i guess i just like how laid back he is.

then there's shu. do not let the shu pfp fool you, i am no valkP, nor am i a shuP. ngl, when i first started playing enstars, i saw him on the loading screen and thought that he looks like the most pretentious and annoying bitch i've ever seen in a mobile game. and i think i was right. almost every story i've read with shu in it, he's snobbish and looking down at everyone else. while he does have some scenes where he's not like that, the whole bitchy attitude just stuck with me.

also i think i have such a negative perception of shu, because most of his producers are so, so irritating. there would be someone out there saying that they don't really have much positive opinion about shu or valkyrie in general, and you would have several valkPs there private quote retweeting. i would not be surprised if i hear about someone getting doxxed by a shuP.

now natsume, the eccentrics' "precious" little brother. i'm going to start out by saying that, absolutely not. i do not like him at all. along with shu, my first impression of natsume isn't really positive. lol, i think my first thought was "ew why is he ugly" and then went to, "looks like an asshole". i just really don't like him. i hate how he treats tsumugi. almost every interaction between them is natsume either insulting or berating tsumugi or just straight up hitting and throwing things at him. what the fuck? and no one in the cast calls it out, and it pisses me off! they just play it off as natsume being a tsundere or something.

the fact that some natsumePs just disregard how much of a bitch this guy is just irritates me. at least a few have a functioning brain to point out that natsume is a dick, but those guys? nope, would rather ignore the fact that natsume is just as flawed as every other character in this game.

[frainteso]

lee insoo, artist & owner of barracuda inc. / mobile navigation

hi everyone! I'm so happy to be here and looking forward to writing with you. my name is char, she/they pronouns (i genuinely don't have a preference) and est timezone. neurodivergent with adhd that goes stoopid and crazy so apologies in advance if it takes me a while to get back to you!

i haven't roleplayed on tumblr in forever, so forgive me if i seem lost as all hell. i've been wanting to play this particular muse for years now, so i'm excited to finally see him come to life. click under the cut for personality info and a (very rough) bio!

personality:

the best word to describe insoo would probably be eccentric. he kind of gives demon but he really can't help it, his upbringing molded him into how he is today

that being said, he's trying to be better and redeem himself from past wrongs. it's hard though when he refuses to change a bulk of his personality and is kinda stuck in his ways LOL but i guess...?

it's more about how he treats people than who he is as a person. like, maybe he would usually blow off plans with someone by acting like he died, but now he'll be honest and just say "yeah, i don't feel like seeing you today, sorry"

he is also the type that your muse would probably see trying to walk up the escalator that goes down or digging in the trash for some undisclosed reasons

idk, he's just really weird and used to be a very dangerous person, but now he's fairly harmless. he's still dealing with dangerous people, though, so it's hard trying not to get sucked back into things

backstory:

he left home at 16 and started living with a friend's family. it was supposed to be temporary, but they fell in love with him and treated him like their own son

he started auctioning his paintings anonymously because he was a minor, using the simple moniker 'art' and a false age

he saw success rather quickly, the mysteriousness behind his paintings becoming a talking point amongst some of the most renowned critics in the art world

his paintings began selling for way more than they were worth. it was almost a trend for rich people to buy his super minimalistic, expensive paintings just to say that they owned it

(and when i say minimalistic i mean like, a black dot on a white canvas with a question mark underneath that would easily be auctioned off for well over $10,000 USD)

he decided to do something with all of this money, eventually buying barracuda inc

the tattoo + piercing shop is the first thing in his life that he took seriously fr. that includes his family, past relationships, his own life, everything. he cherishes it like it's his son

this is kinda long, i'm sorry but that's all for now! feel free to IM me or ask for my discord (pref) to plot, i would love that! also please excuse any errors i'm rushing this rn. talk to you soon!