#sometimes you need an outlet

[spinningbagel]

Erm,,, blood warning for the drawing and warning for implied/mentioned murder & suicide for the writing.

Timeloop!Sheriff is not sane 🫶🫶

When you’re forced to relive the same day over and over, one loop or another you’re bound to snap, not caring if your bullets hit your comrades or your enemies. You don’t listen to their pleas, only watching as you paint the white snow red.

And when the fog in your mind clears you’ll stare at the bloodbath you’ve created and you’ll weep. You’ll weep for the allies you killed, you’ll weep because no matter what you try or what you do, you’ll be doomed to repeat this god awful day.

And then, you’ll laugh at that realisation. You’re doomed, forced to repeat this day over and over and this entire thing is pointless crying over. You can just put a bullet in your head and this entire thing is over.

So that’s what you do, your body joining the others only to wake back up in the safety of your room. You etch another mark into the wall and get on with your day, wondering what else you can do to keep yourself entertained.

[loving-delusions]

yknow what

if sebastian's legs weren't, like, severed off in the start of his physical changes, then that would mean that his legs fused together

and so i cast: he has fucked up mobility in his lower half.

since some of his lower half is still human-like (headcanon, because i dont think a whole ass xray of Sebastian exists in-game or canon anywhere) so the start of his femurs connected to his pelvis are still where they are...

just imagine your legs squeezed together, like almost painfully close to each other, and i think that's how his tail was basically formed. like his leg bones just melted together starting along the middle of his femurs.

so, when he would move his tail from side to side (since that's how sharks/angler fish/sea snakes swim. also since those are the only physical features i could see on his model) his movements get a little janky or awkward since humans aren't really meant to swim like that. maybe if he has a more whale-like lower half, or a mantis shrimp, then maybe he could move better. ah, but oh well :)

either that, or his legs were severed and he grew a whole new skeletal structure for his lower half (somehow. just pretend this is possible since it's all fiction anyways)

both are equally painful and agonising. but i like putting my fav character thru shit, so..

[glitterghost]

I'm sorry but I should be lying on the floor at a friend's house, enjoying their company. In silence or in insanity.

[freakoutgirl]

i love my bi friends but i truly do need to make at least one irl lesbian friend, i can't keep hearing about men all the time i just can't

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the problem with not having any new fics to read bc they havent been posted yet is that when Invisible Tigers Are Hunting You, there is no distraction

[fictionadventurer]

There's a story here. I don't know what it is, but it fascinates me.

[objectum-culture-is]

plushum culture is being one of the apparently very few who doesnt percieve their plushes as sentient and. also im like. demi toward people i think and on top of that i find it super hard to make friends or anything so i. just spend half my time sad im probably never gonna like someone who has the capacity to like me back and does. also a corner of my brain is CONSTANTLY making fun of me for liking plushies. man sorry i realize now this was a bit of a vent idk if thats. allowed or not im sorry

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[alaraxia]

Lotta art frustration for me is knowing I need to practice anatomy and quicker, low-impact sketching more, but I physically can't because I need to be allocating a ton of recovery and rest time to keep injuries manageable.

Consistent struggle of balancing wanting to draw to improve vs having to do what feels like re-learning and warming back up constantly when skills rust due to the prolonged rest.

[halfdeadwallfly]

hello i just wrote a poem and for some reason it feels important

[autumnwyvern]

iiiiiiiits nova! and also the ship

[jemmaredgravewhore]

coming back home from uni is just like.

everything that meant anything to me here was actually the people. most of them have moved on now too. idk the last time i saw my childhood best friend.

i used to see her everyday.

i know every single quirk of this house by heart but i’m just a guest here now. everything is the exact same as i left it. everything feels ever so slightly different. i notice every everyday object. i’ve missed this specific mug, and carrying my tea upstairs to work in my room.

i used to do this everyday.

[witherbythesword]

and I feel the oral fixation being so so strong in this chilli's tonight.

[allalrightagain]

Oh no. I’m fighting back sequel ideas.

[amerasdreams]

hey!

I think I'm going to take a break from this blog for a bit. Perhaps it is good to do that periodically. I can't totally leave bc i would miss tumrblt and I would miss you bc there really are a lot of good people on here. Mutuals 😊 💕

Nice despite my . Instability I guess.

There are good things on here and less good things. I don't think mindless scrolling is good for me; I get easily snatched and held by something negative and then-- I spiral downward.

So I have to learn to be more deliberate somehow. Not let social media rule me. Spend less time on it. And be able to go off when i need to bc it often doesn't help when I'm on it at night but it's hard to get off... and my mind isn't working well, and emotions are crashing.... to be able to control my self when I have less control,less capacity to decide or decide well...

Tumtblr is nice for spare time tho....

[vacantgodling]

there needs to be more ways to express anger in a non-confrontational environment. like you should be able to visibly and physically let out your anger in a safe way

[ladyelainehilfur]

hm...ngl, I think a lot of modern popular opinion and trend is pretty degenerative. How is it progress if you're just going backwards?