#sorry for vent i hope it wont happen again

[4arconinoma]

things stabilizing a bit now. i'm finally somewhere with power internet and water for the forseeable future but my house is completely ruined. we lost most things and will have to completely clean and refurnish it 90% of our furniture and belongings are ruined. im honestly heartbroken and not taking it well. im going to stay IA for a bit longer just for my own sake and to sort things out but i'll slowly try to ease back into normalcy again at some point. im just exhausted now. not to mention that it might flood again due to heavy rain so im just in survival mode at the moment sorry dont know what else to do for now

[genderdog]

chat is it normal to feel completely desensitized to feeling constantly sick that when you’re actually sick you feel like it’s not enough to warrant it

[tachibubu]

Hello again!

Can you write one with Aegon? Where his wife, who has just discovered she is pregnant, ends up being attacked by an undercover guard and nearly kills her, but her bodyguard kills the intruder. However, even injured, when Aegon returns to the room without knowing what happened, because she didn't want to tell him, he sees her injured and takes care of her.

HOW THEY REACT WHEN YOU WERE INJURED

∆ PAIRING ; Aemond Targaryen | Jacaerys Velaryon | Aegon II Targaryen x Pregnant!Reader/OC/Self-Insert

∆ SUMMARY ; In which the boys were unable to protect you while pregnant when an assassination had happen when he is not within your reach. (Takes place during the war towards late war.)

∆ WARNINGS ; angst with fluffy ending, youre pregnant, minimal violence, ooc characters, some minor/major(?) spoilers from the book (wont indicate what it is).

NOTE ;   I changed the concept to them knowing you're pregnant instead so that their intentions would be far more heavy! It's quite hard to write it fully so I hope it is fine! (got the askers permission to write it with Jac and Ae too!)

Aegon was content with the few things he had in life and would not want them stripped away. The war took a toll on his whole life, which is still currently happening to his dismay. He was trying to hunt with a handful of his comrades to alleviate his nerves before the Blacks made their move while still struggling with a foot injury. However, the peaceful moment was quickly interrupted when a squire hurried to deliver some news. He turned his horse to ride back to the castle in such a hurry that not even the knights and lords who had been riding with him could halt when he learned about the incident that had recently occurred while he was gone.

He yelled as he slid off the horse without assistance, "Who dares touch the queen? I will rip their limbs off!" He winced in agony but dragged his injured feet towards the assembly of knights despite the advice of the maesters, who sought to assist him but were met with a swat of his palm.

His gaze penetrated the bloodied man next to your sworn protector, Ser Criston Cole, "So you're the fuckin' bastard," he snarled. He was littered with bruises and wounds; Criston clearly took a toll on him, but he managed to keep himself from doing more harm, though Aegon remained unsatisfied. Rather, he gave the man a punch to the face, then spat at him before sneering at Criston. He was clearly unhappy with him for not having been able to prevent the incident straight away, but he kept quiet. "Ser Criston, I command you to amputate each of his limbs one by one."

"Try not to cut his nerve. I want him to experience it slowly," were his last words before he left and dismissed the pleas of mercy from the assailant, asking the servants to escort him to your shared quarters immediately.

You were covered in bruises and had a fresh cut on your lip when he first met you. He fought back tears as he demanded the healers to leave your chamber immediately and cursed at them for mistreating you while he was absent even if they were trying their best to alleviate your pain. When the room was empty, he had knelt down next to you, trying to bandage you, though his limited knowledge of such things frustrated him before he whimpered on your lap. Suffocating himself within his own tears.

He sobbed uncontrollably while you whispered sweet words of comfort to him, "I'm sorry, I'm deeply sorry,... " He doesn't know anything; he doesn't even know how to protect his pregnant wife and their unborn child. He became frustrated with himself as he bit his lip, drawing blood, and vented his feelings to you: "My sweet girl, I can't even protect you."

"I'm frightened," he confessed as he pecked the back of your hand before peering at you while tears gushed down his ashen cheeks, his eyes begging for forgiveness. "I will never leave you again, my love. I promise."

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Aemond had just returned from an expedition with Vhagar. He had received a notice from the Keep informing him that you had been the victim of an attempted assassination. No matter how he urged Vhagar to fly faster, she did not advance him far enough for him to be satisfied with the pace.

Vhagar landed outside the gates after entering the Red Keep's border. His dignity eluded him as he fled. Even though they paid no heed at Aemond, the knights were perplexed by the prince's unexpected action. Whenever a maester attempted to stop the prince's advances, he was silenced by the prince's gaze, too scared to face the wrath of the second prince as he lived up to his infamous reputation.

He gasped for air when he saw you laying on your shared bed and then walked cautiously over to you, as if not to scare you. "What happened to him?" he whispered, his voice cold yet soothing.

"Dead, Aemond," You immediately embraced the evidently shaken man, and he reciprocated the embrace, trying to ease his tremors. He felt disgusted with himself for not being able to even protect you through such a catastrophic event, yet he was also relieved that you were still alive and breathing and that your pregnancy was not affected. "I am afraid." You added before Aemond gave you a tender kiss.

He inspected your wounds delicately, asking, "Where does it hurt?" You pointed to the locations of all the injuries and recounted what had happened in extensive detail while he grunted in agreement. If it had been someone else, you may have assumed they were not paying attention, but Aemond had a different way of expressing it; after kissing you once again, he cleansed your wounds and covered them with fresh cloths.

His brows furrowed as he was plainly distressed and lost in thought. You smiled before placing your lips against his in an attempt to console him, and he moaned in surprise but returned the kiss deeply. He guided you with his hand behind your neck and did not rush the tender moment you two were sharing. He pressed his forehead against yours after several kisses and whispered lowly, "I'll kill them all, every last one of them."

"I'll win this war for you and for our child, my lady, my (Y/N)."

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Jacaerys, who seeks to control his emotions as advised by his teacher, couldn't help but spout incoherent obscenities when the information was presented to him. He had just completed sealing the partnership of the North when he received unfortunate news as soon as he arrived in Dragonstone.

He projected his voice into the room: "When did it take place?" The black council stayed silent. Mysaria, the acknowledged Mistress of Whisperers, spoke up with clarity, concerned that she might have disrespected the prince. She had just entered Dragonstone to deliver information when she was met by the prince's wrath.

"Just half a moon ago, my prince," she answered honestly, as Jacaerys clasped both of his hands together and took a deep breath. His anger is only just rising.

He hissed faintly, "And you told me exactly that now?"

Before Mysaria could respond, a Lord intervened, saying, "It is my duty to see you tended first before —"

The thud of the chair collapsing on the floor echoed throughout the room before the prince went out. Although he stomped violently with each stride, they were nevertheless somewhat elegant. The council members lowered their heads as he passed by them, but he didn't take note of it as he glanced at his protector and beckoned for him to follow.

However, once he had left the room, he developed a scowl, and his previous comfortable gait had been replaced with a brisker one. His breath paused as he witnessed you being treated for your injuries by the healers, after presumably having only just nudged the door partially open.

When you spotted him at last, you had the strength to smile at him briefly. He sat next to you on your bed and thanked the healers, pleased with their work, but it pained his heart to see you smiling even in your condition. He showered you with multiple soft kisses on your forehead, nose, lips, and neck before resting his head on your shoulder.

His palm massaged your growing stomach as his voice was low, and he said, "My lovely girls." Despite the fact that he longed for a boy, he caved in and accepted that his unborn child would be a girl as a result of the way you would correct him frequently when he spoke of the male pronouns for your child.

"You were so strong; I am very proud of you." He uttered it before giving you a peck on the stomach; his head is now resting on it as he sings a lullaby while both of you rest. "Do not worry; I am here now, and no one will lay a hand on you ever again."

[hellyesbro]

I am so fucking sorry that this happened to you. I hope your okay

ok ok ok honestly??? I am going to make vent posts about this for a while. But psychologically this is a minor setback because when I was a teenager dudes loved trying to physically assault me on the street (they were just normally too fucked up out of the skull to do anything other than collapse when i pushed them) and that fucked me up about as much as this in that I totally obsessed about it and revolved my personality around being a cisman murder engine but that took time and healing and i got better. So I know I can get better again. I think people are right to know that I'm tough and can deal with this but I think they are dead wrong to think I can do it without their compassion and care. Like I appreciate the folks who are proud of me it makes me feel better but I really appreciate the folks who make sure I'm okay. It means the world. And its tough because healing from bpd means understanding concepts like "you can't force others to care about you" but that doesn't mean I can't still think it's fucked when they dont. Like one of my friends did nothing and didnt check in, my other roommate "damn, that's crazied" me, I had 2 FWB do the same, my other roommate was very compassionate at first but then when the adrenaline and shock wore off and my trauma response got maladaptive she was like "I did NOT like the way you handled that" and I was like BRO A LITTLE COMPASSION THAT WAS THE WORST SHIT FR FR CAN I HAVE A LITTLE SPACE TO FREAK OUT...... but yeah when yr friends tell u they got into a fist fight thats not light shit!!! its no looney tunes!!! U should check in on them and see if they're okay!!! getting publicly beaten bloody by a transphobe was not something to be taken lightly!!! But I'll admit to all the people who think it was brave or cool or kickass I will take it. But yeah I mean I could have avoided it by just keeping my head down or tucking my tail between my legs and avoiding them entirely. But I needed to give that cunt a piece of my mind because I literally could not stand to live in a world where nobody stands up to trash like him. My therapist was like "Damn thats hardcore I kind of stand by what you did though it might legally be assault and battery since you poured your drink on him" but that doesn't really matter right now.

TLDR I'm doing a lot better than I was, I'm still kind of in the "please check in on me and be gentle with me" phase but I'm slowly exiting that end entering the "I'm alright but a little messed up so I'll take your compliments but please dont think it's past enough for you to be like 'damn thats crazy' and I wont take some offense" SO IM A LITTLE SENSITIVE WITH ME BE GENTLE.

[inanotherunivrse]

in another universe, i cut my nails and never grabbed your hand. i would've never accidentally hurt you with my sharp, almost claws. i love you. i love you and i love you and i love you. and i love her too. all platonic love. you're such a pretty guy and the only guy to ever be nice to me and listen to me vent and rant about my special interest and help me deal with the loss of my old friends by sharing your neutral perspective on all of this with me and i wish i never hurt you with my stupid nails. i wish i bit them off long ago. i wish it was that monday again and you, me, and eli went out to get boba and eat noodles together and went to the park. I wish i could've help your hand again, even thought you always complain that my hands are sweaty haha. but on that monday when you were helping me get on the shaky playground equipment, you didn't complain. you wanted to help me and make sure that i was safe and didn't fall. but in that moment, i realized that i fell for you instead.

in another universe, maybe i wouldn't try and continue to push you away. maybe I wouldn't throw up everytime i see the scars that I made on your right hand. maybe i could kiss it better. would you let me?

in another universe, i dont get jealous of Her when you're around her. i wouldn't have to listen to her laughter and her squeals. i wonder what would've happened if i never introduced you guys. maybe it could've been just the two of us.

in another universe, you will always be my friend. my boy best friend who i dont have feelings for. i hope you dont hold a grudge against me for scratching your hand. i hope we can still spend my birthday together with Eli at the mall, then we go to olive garden and then we go to my dads house and play jenga and. maybe i can hold your hand without feeling nauseous. maybe i can kiss your scars better.

i hope it doesn't leave a permanent scar. on both your hand, and our friendship. i love you kim. im so sorry. im sorry that my first instinct is always to defend myself, im not a violent person. i dont know why i hurt my friends all the time. i love my friends i dont want to hurt them ever.

i love you, my 4lifer. and i hope you know this even though i know you won't see this (because you don't have tumblr, lmao.) it wont leave a scar, i promise.

[tojisun]

hihi, im a mootie (i think i am???? idk even what that word truly means but we talk!) and im too worried to message u this normally, so im sending it anonymously. this way, u dont have to feel obligated to respond at all. and if ud rather i not be personal/emotional/vent like this, lmk and ill stop!!

but i hate it here so much. i matched w this dude on hinge, and he asked me if one of my friends in a group photo i had was single. and like dude i initiated it too, like i liked his profile first, so im never doing that again. i always felt like the uglier friend in the group, so honestly this experience just confirmed that. this worsened my already crappy self-perception and -esteem.

but whatever! i have to force myself to realize that i have low chances of ever experiencing someone attracted to me and in love w me

ok bye i'm so sorry !!!

hi my love!! im so sorry for just seeing this now :((

nono, im open and super ok talking to u guys like this! im glad and thankful that u trust me w this, its just that im.. not as equipped to talk about this without rambling bc this is smthn i carry around too

im the fat friend. ive always been the fat friend. if its not my weight, just the fact that one of my exes even used me as a rebound bc he cant get w my friend just sucks yk?

and it took soooo much effort to learn to love myself—im not even done learning it tbh. i still dont have the self-esteem to feel like im treated right. but along the way, i just gave up thinking about how others perceive me as long as im doing things for myself

i wore clothes i enjoy, decided to try different makeup styles, cut my hair as short as i want even if my mom said itd make my face look bigger bc i always wanted short hair. and somehow just doing things for myself made me feel pretty. and i carried this elation, letting it triumph over ppl’s perception

but thats also bc im not looking for relationship. it was a different battle when i was. i felt like i was always coming short of the beauty standard, and some men in datings apps would really make you compete with ur friends

this thing that u experienced? happened to me too—me and my friend even matched w him at the same time by accident. when my friend wont reply to him asap, he came to me and asked abt her. i unmatched right away and even deleted my profile LMAO

but uhm. ig what i want to just say to u (like what i told myself) is: dont let HIM make you feel that you’re ugly, or even the uglier friend. he just sucks, i promise you this.

there are probably other men im sure who are swiping for u. but dont let their attention dictate how u feel about urself too bc everything, i think, should come from urself. as long as YOU feel right in your own skin, with your own clothes, then yea you are beautiful

im so sorry u felt this way and i hope no one ever feels this way bc god we are all beautiful. not for any other reasons, just that we are

[pineappleparfaitie]

EDIT : this was 20 ish minutes ago (6pm atm for me) I made this post in a time of stress and anger and frustration. It was initially my fault that this was labbeled as drama and it rose from me not properly tagging a post (ie using SFW vore tags. my intent was to spread the post around however this made people only see THAT post out of context and label this as a drama and petty argument. Had I handled this situation better this would not have happened. HOWEVER with stuff calming down and stuff being more clear I urge people to no longer label this as drama as it quickly became a game of telephone and people didint want to look at the full story. if Grey is reading this thank you Grey i probably did need someone to tell me that. Im sorry again to the community for this blunder but please with everything being more clear now I just dont want this to be labelled as drama ANYMORE. the following is mostly a vent post and its why its under a ''continue reading'' line

am so grateful for this communities understanding now But you all have no fucking clue what the point of me tagging the post was. I should not have tagged a serious post with sfw vore tags. But the whole point was for people to be REACHED so they wouldnt let it SLIDE that I had someone wish death upon me, threaten to dox me, lie about me, harass me ect. The person manipulated a creator with a following twice my size and said creator (who im on good terms now) liked their posts. Imagine being called a NAZI , and going threw a SERIES of panic attacks and not knowing anything anymore-because someone you cut off for 10 DIFFRENT REASONS decided to call you a NAZI. And then out of panic and desperation (AND AFTER THE PERSON DELETED THEIR POSTS) you TRY to reach people, so they dont let this Slide only for 99% OF THE FUCKING COMMUNITY to say this is ''petty drama'' ''kids arguing'' ''just block them'' YOU DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND what its like for people to spread THAT MUCH MISINFO and for the potential of such a large well known creator to post about you if that person convinced them . Had my friend not helped me screenshot shit, had Zet not reached out I could have fucking been pumiled. You ALL worried more about ''dwama'' then me being fucking harrassed, you cared more about misstagging then someone calling me a nazi with no proof. You want your safe spaces but when it comes to KEEPING THEM safe you left me to ROT and said you wont engage because it fucking INCONVINIENCED YOU. There were maybe 5 or 6 people total (2 of which i considered friends) WHO DIDINT DO THAT.IN A COMMUNITY OF HOUNDREDS. I MADE A FUCKUP I HAVE SAID IT SO MANY TIMES BUT THE RESPONSE OF THIS COMMUNITY WAS SO AWFUL It fucking DISSAPOINTS ME. Istg you people dont give a fuck.You care only if it inconviniences you. You care more that something bad accured because it made you slightly uncomftrable, then the fact that bad thing accured and it hurt people. You had the rights to be mad at me for misstagging, the right to be mad . But NOT the right to label this shit as drama or arguments. And then not even look at the full story. I hope to God nothing like this happens again because almost no one in this community will respond properly and will instead just fuck off.

[sexisdisgusting]

(anon from before) im aware its partially because many women in my country think "hey we’re not really oppressed anymore" because we do have it better than women in many other countries, but i think a lot of women simply ignore the misogyny in our country and pretend its not a big deal. theres still no equal pay and mothers are systematically pushed to start working again immediately after birth, we have a high femicide rate and young men are somehow more misogynistic than the older ones. teen girls in prison dont get the same educational opportunities as teen males. i wish more women here opened their eyes and realized the conditions here are far from perfect and we shouldnt stop fighting just because others have it worse. i tell my mother about stuff like the 6b4t movement and we both agree that something like that is unfortunately unlikely to happen on a grand scale in our own country at the moment. im hoping we might make it happen one day though. we both prioritize the women in our lives, i discuss radical feminist points with her sometimes and recommend feminist lit to others when i can. i’ll keep doing my part hoping more women in my country will realize that many things are still fucked up and that we dont deserve that shit. sorry this turned into a vent but it breaks my heart when i think about these things and how many women just accept the cards men deal us. i wish better for all of us.

i love you so much anonita

never apologize for venting to me

i can give you words, but they wont equate to me letting you know i feel you, and love you with everything within me

one day we will be free, sister

i commend you for doing your best to educate the women around you

[compassionatereminders]

hello kat! i hope you are doing well 💗 i just wanted to talk about something i have (or haven't 💀) been doing lately and its botherijg me .. well, i do feel really guilty because of the same. i am in my second year of college and i've been really depressed and burnt out since last year. i kind of stopped attending my classes mid february (this year 😭) and havent gone back since. i feel like a horrible student. thats to sau that i do attend our online lectures whenever we have them. i just cant wake up at 4:30 am and travel for 2 hours one way and attend all classes since i have a stomach bug and now im on my period so its 2x stomach cramps for me and i guess im being TOO kind to myseld . it feels like all my prpfessors are mad at me for not being a good syudent (tjey were expressing how irritated they were that no one was responding to them fast enough or at all during our online lectures) but yes i did take it personally 😭 idk i just feel so guilty sometimes that its unbearable but at the same time i cant stop. i keep avoiding going to college. im even scared to travel by train now even though i have already doen it so many times in order to get to college. i know once i start doing ut again, i will get in the groove/the hang of it but alas. idk what will it take for me to get back honestly. this is unacceptable. i need to get back. i am starting to question if i even have an aim in life. a little bit of context: i was thinkinv of taking a gap year since one of my close friends did the same for mental health reasons but i dont think its going to happen becaude my guardians would never approve it. but at the sane time i think .. thats the onlu reason that keeps me going. i keep telling myself i just need to get through this semester somehow, thats all. but efen i know that even though i need therapy and a break so so bad im probably not going to get it because my guardians wont be on board w it and i will have to continue college anyway. im sorry its so long and my english is so bad, but thank you for listening, for your page, and for even letting me vent here. i needed this. 😭💗

Honestly? I don't think it's wrong of you not to be able to get up at 4:30AM to travel 2 hours each way while battling both a period, a stomach bug, burnout AND depression. I think you're being far too hard on yourself here.

[spacedhead]

homestuck reread #15 act 6 p6

this is funny . HE DID THOSE THINGS . he is so silly . he is the reason all of my faves just died gruesomely. i hope you die in a fire you fucking bitch

when you walkin

my son needs to be studied in a genetics lab . why would you ever say this to another human being

okay...... in dangerous territory of becoming a roxygen shipper... surely this will not happen to me

LOOK AT MY SON HE WILL LIVE UP TO HIS RESPONSIBILITY AND MASTER HIS POWERS

this is how i look in real life every day of the god damn week year month space time continue umm (thinkign of daeb stribur)

MY SON IS SUS HES VENTING SOMEBODY STOP HIM BEFORE HE KILLS US ALL

ive been converted to roxygen. sorry to all my fans. also this sequence um is the best and i love it even though the things that it is a reaction to were terrible and maybe the worst i love this part for some reason. it is like a break. like there is a plan in motion and things are getting fixed, but it also feels... quieter... the chiller if you will. maybe because i love john and roxy and they are the stars of this part

i wonder if he was saying things like gadzooks or shucky darn or ay chihuahua

ok i watched the vriska gram and it was awesome B) but look at THIS . wow they are getting along! awesome we love to see it

???

SO TRUE. i need to start saying this. or do i? no probably not .

awwwwww yeeaaaaaaaaa-

he is so funny

brother what are you saying... youre so corny lil bro... i cant believe i used to be like this when i was like 11 years old... SO CRINGE

yeah sometimes things are just really fucking gay. and is it a crime to point that out . like my friends? theyre all soooooooo gay its ridiculous. i think it makes them better

john egbert - subtle as a brick. i kinda love him for that though? like it is funny to me just how fucking oblivious he is to like EVERYTHING around him .

john being absolutely mind blown and own realizing he wants terezi so badly is so funny like LOL YOU WANT HER SOOO BAD AND KARKAT JUST CALLED YOU TF OUT LIL BRO

WHY DOES HE WANT TO FUCK HIS MOM

hes so over

god i love dave and arquius sprite. look at them . my sons. one of them is weird and sweaty

dave is so me (in my mind)

this is the funniest jake will ever be and the joke is on him and he said ONE word. great comedic timing buddy

i love this for karkat. defend your boyfriend!! i dont think vriska is necessarily trying to be mean here but i do like that karkat is willing to seriously defend his honor.

me every day . goodnight

this is really fucked up man

GOD.

okay reading this i dunno if i always thought this probably i did but ive returned to it again and definitively this time. this interaction between dave and dirk is the BEST interaction in the comic and adds so much more depth to both of them who were already GREAT characters. THIS interaction solidifies dave as my favorite character of all time. homestuck is many things but one of its major themes is just trying to become a better person. and i think dave personifies that theme so much. he has come so far and evolved so much as a person that looking back at his early interactions in the comic makes you think you are looking at a completely different character. sure he types the same and has a bit of the same mannerisms but it is so clear that he went from shitty bigoted teenager to a guy who actually cares about the things he says and does and a guy who is actually a good person. he even says in a previous interaction with roxy and rose that he has focused on being a half way decent guy so that when he makes a freudian slip (which he does ALL the time) it wont be anything insane of unforgiveable. i fucking love him and i am so glad this conversation with dirk exists

I MEAN LOOK AT THIS SHIT DUDE . PRE SBURB DAVE WAS A FUCKING ASSHOLE AND LOOK AT HOW FAR HE HAS COME . it seems so simple but it actually means a lot especially for someone having gone through all the shit he did and coming out the other side like this .

man so fuckin true

GAHHHHHH MAN THSI UFUCK

okay... so thats all the images i have for this one. i do think its a good place to end it though. this is def my favorite part of the whole comic. theres not much left! next post may be the last. just a few more conversations and little events to happen and then Collide. its gonna be great!!!

[something-named-vexxie]

"Just finished crying, have decided I won’t let a stranger that knows nothing about me or the way I process things make me cry again ☝️

Yall will NEVER be playing with me its over 😈

#i say this and its bouta happen again just watch lmao#fuckin bullies bruh i should be immune to yall by now#9-10 years and not being used to it is insane!!!#this is a vent post#please ignore this"

i really dont think this is the right takeaway to have. you went to a post about jazz music, which was pioneered by black people, just to talk about a pop song made white people. its like trying to buy clothes at the soup store. imagine talking about rock music and someone mentions bach in the notes. a song wont be considered jazz Just because it uses a saxophone. theres more that goes into genre categorization. like a guitar or bass wont make something automatically a rock song obviously, no one deserves to get bullied and im sorry you cried and felt any sort of stress for what happened. but i dont think "fuck them haters" is the right takeaway to have in this specific situation. what happened was you missing the point of what OP said OP responded with "you dont have to interact with this post if youre going to say that." thats mild criticism, not bullying a better takeaway would be "oh, looks like i dont understand what jazz music is. i could do some research and listen to actual jazz music to get a better understanding." bc youd be learning from a mistake youve made. instead of something that sounds defensive as "wow OP knows NOTHING about me." i have RSD (a symptom of adhd), so criticism can be a tough pill to swallow sometimes. but learning to accept it will let you grow into a better person. if you want to listen to some jazz artists, i recommend ray charles, cab calloway, louis armstrong, ella fitzgerald, lena horne, billie holliday, dizzy gillespie, miles davis, and john coltrane. i hope you have a nice rest of the day :)

Oh shit my bad, thank you for this information, i didnt know it had anything to do with race. I see why it came across as offensive, I’m sorry about that

I still feel like OP could’ve been a bit nicer instead of just telling me to “Get a grip” with no further explanation. I could’ve probably thought it through and made a rational response, but I can’t do that most of the time, so I just assumed the quote I used was somehow secretly really rude when I was just trying to agree while apologizing for not knowing shit in the tags (and I was right on accident unfortunately, I’m sorry)

I was trying to figure out what was wrong but didn’t get anywhere, so I kinda dumbed it down to pure bitchery and put it with the other stuff I’ve dealt with and that’s on me. (I’m not gonna use any of this as an excuse, but I’d also like to say that specific post I made wasn’t specifically about OP, it was mostly a general thing I decided after reflecting for a bit that understandably looks bad with only 1 of 50 contexts, sorry)

Shoutout to whoever this observant anon is, I would’ve been up all night for years trying to figure out what I did wrong! Sorry about that jazzy OP. And I will happily check out those artists, thank you <3

Have a delectably nutriocios rest of your day too, sorry if my initial post made you uncomfortable or mad ^^

[hearties-circus]

Hate how all my motor functions and sight just fuck off when I get tired

[barnes-n-nobles]

My Prisoner

Request: Can you do one very dark druig when the reader it's a resident in his comunity

She lives in his community, but always wanted to see the outside world, but he always manipulates her into not doing that, but when the deviants arrive she sees an opportunity to escape, but he doesn't let go and takes her with him and the eternals

I combined two asks as they were the same hope you kind anons dont mind!

Thank you for your request! Please reblog, like, and let me know what you think!

Warnings: dark themes, controlling Druig

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Waking up every morning and doing the same routine was starting to get boring. Yes, being with Druig was amazing, but you felt like you wanted to seek adventure. See new places, meet new people, at least have a say in your life. Druig was very protective of you, never letting you leave the community due to all the dangers that existed outside. This was the only place he felt comfortable letting you roam around because he could keep an eye on you everywhere you went. To him this was the perfect place for you to be in. You didnt feel that way often arguing with him over this.

“I told you y/n..we cant leave this is the only place where it is safe for you” rubbing his thumb over your hand, gripping it. Frustrated, you walked away going back to what you wanted, “I know that! You keep repeating it like ive forgotten, I HAVENT! Im just wanting to explore the world, there is so much out there. Please…lets just go together then” you offer, hoping he would change his mind. This wasn’t fair, he promised you a life of adventure, not a life of confinement. You needed some change. “Do you want to know what happened in New York a couple years ago?” Angry at your stubbornness, “i mean yeah, who doesnt” feeling a little bold with your attitude, “Say that happens when youre out, how will I find you. Whos gonna pull you out of a whole if you get a damn building dropped on you?Hm? Whos going to even care enough to help you when everyone else is looking out for themselves…youre not ready to be alone y/n and im not going to risk something like that to happen to you. Youre all I have, I wont let you dig your own grave. Youre.Not.Leaving…Ever” his hot breath fanned over your face, now realizing how close he really was.

“I dont want to loose you princess. Please dont abandon me. Think about us” leaning into you, kissing your fluffy soft lips. “Okay..im sorry. I just get frustrated…i do the same thing everyday, it gets boring” venting out your feelings. “I know darling..I know. We’ll try to change it up okay? I promise, just give me some time” he offered bringing you close to him.

Another month went by, he kept up with his promise allowing you to explore the outside of the community, under one condition..that you let him inside your mind the entire time you were out. You were so excited and immediately took him up on his deal, however he found a loop whole. He only let you explore the tiniest bit of the forest, blocking your body from going any further than a couple feet away from the community. This was fucked up. Growing bored of this again, you went back to the same old routine, wishing that one day, you would be able to leave…not only the community, but Druig as well. He was a great boyfriend but if that meant that you couldn’t have freedom, then maybe you needed to trade him for it. When you made your way back to his cabin, your pace started to slow as you spotted new people. The strangest creature was on the ground..dead. Not knowing what to do, you just stayed still observing.

You couldn’t hear very well, but you tried your best to make out what they were saying. Something about needing Druig to go with them to do something. Your heart raced, both in excitement and nervousness. Could this finally be what you were asking for. If he was gone then there wouldn’t be anything or anyone stopping you from leaving. You walked backwards, hoping to not get noticed, turning around you walked toward the edge of the community, one foot passing over the barrier of where your body couldn’t. Placing one foot in from of the other you were finally able to go forward. Your smile was hard to contain as you started walking further and further away from the community. Felling a jolt of adrenaline, you started to run like a maniac. Laughing and twirling like a princess, you felt ultimate freedom finally. Your legs carrying you away from what felt like your own personal jail.

As you ran, you twisted your ankle, falling hard on the ground. Then you felt excruciating pain, you could literally feel your blood start to rush down to your ankle. As you sat up you winced at the pain, you couldn’t even put the least bit of pressure on it, the pain was too much. “Going somewhere?” A his voice rang from behind you, “I’m honestly kind of offended that you would run off like that” a sharpness to his words. Pulling you up by your arm, falling into his arms, yelping at the pain from your ankle. “Druig, my foot” leaning more towards him for support. He sat you down at a near by stump, Druig just stared at you, as if deciding what he was going to do next. After some moments of silence, you asked, “how did you find me?” Trying to move your ankle in circles. “I told you y/n…I’m here to protect you, when i found out you were gone I had to go find you. Wasn’t a surprise that i found you hurt, alone in a forest. Just accept the fact that you can’t leave me, it’ll be so much easier that way” raising his voice at you. “Look…I don’t want this for myself. I can’t settle down with you in the middle of a fucking forest when there a whole world out there for me to explore. This isn’t for me Druig, why don’t you try to understand me for once” your words felt like hot daggers piercing through his heart.

All that he’s done for you and you choose to throw it all away in the name of freedom. “Have you met someone else?” He asked, chest rising up and down, now fully angry. “Don’t be absurd, I don’t have contact with the outside world, how would I have met someone when I’ve been a prisoner to you” that question clearly upset you, now saying whatever the hell you felt like saying, not caring for his feelings anymore. Druig scoffed at you, “prisoner? You better watch your mouth. All I’ve ever been to you was good, how dare you say that to me. Your alive because of me. Ive kept you safe for all this time and what do I get in return? A fucking brat that doesn’t know how to appreciate me” walking up to you in a brisk motion, making you instantly regret how you had pushed him. His hand wrapped itself around your throat, bringing you up off your feet. Your hands went to his, trying to get them off as you struggled to breathe. “I’m going to show you how a real prisoner is treated, how they are tortured, abused, defiled. Anything you could possibly think of, because that’s what you will be from now on, my prisoner. You had a chance to be with me the good way, but you clearly need me to fix you.” Smirking as he saw you staring to fade, eyes glowing gold, “You will never leave my side. You cannot stand to live without me, the only time you’ll feel free and happy is with me.” Your eyes glowed gold as well, taking in everything he had told you before your body gave out on you. He brought you down again, sweeping you up into his arms.

“Oh my god what happened” Sersi’s voice yelled from behind him, he changed his expression to show worry. “She’s coming with us, she can’t be left alone. No one can protect her like I can”

[thotsforvillainrights]

Hey, its me again, sorry i promise i wont spam, but may i also request some toya setsuno fluff (or smut, however you want🥰)

(also, i forgot this, but heres a obligatory teddy for the best villians blog out there🧸🎀❤️)

(Technically it’s not spam if it’s been sitting in the box for a while right??????XD Anywho, I hope it’s okay if I just take the fluff route for this one!)

(Also thank you for the bear because I needed it lol)

~Being an Adult is Hard~

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

“Heeeeeey yoooouuuu...” Toya’s voice softly called as he entered the back room where you were. You sighed and turned your attention away from the work at the computer. “This can only mean bad news. You only drag it out like that when it’s bad news so please don’t beat around the bush.” You chuckled lightly. He nodded and sighed with an apologetic smile as he went to sit on the carpet in next to your chair. He leaned his head onto your lap for comfort. “That house we were trying to out an offer on ended up selling unfortunately.” You sighed and placed your head into your hands. “This is like the 3rd time this month. It’s like we’re running out of options and the prices keep steadily rising more and more. On top of that, we’re going to have to get a second car soon because with my new job, our schedules aren’t linking up. Unless of course you’ll finally let me ride the train or at least the bu-”

“Shhhhhhh, absolutely not. Never. You deserve better than that.” He moved to look up at you with a pout. “There’s nothing wrong with public transportation. You’re not less of a person just because you don’t drive a car.” You corrected him but he shook his head. “Yes of course, but lots of dangerous stuff could happen and I wouldn’t be around to protect you like I want to.” You rolled your eyes and leaned back into the plush chair to think for a moment. “Why does being an adult with all these responsibilities feel like a constant vice grip all the time? I mean, it’s so exhausting. It feels like it costs money just to survive and we’re not allowed to complain and count our blessings at the same time. Prices on stuff keep going up and pay at jobs has been at a stand still for years. They’re literally charging out of the ass for houses that aren’t even in the best neighborhoods. By the time we’ll have saved more money for better homes, those houses will have then upped their prices even higher. It feels like an endless struggle. At this point Toya, I just want to be a kid again. Why can’t I just eat cookies and watch cartoons without a care in the world?” You vented to him and he listened, taking it all in with a caring ear as he always did. “Who says we can’t do that?” He replied curiously. You looked down at him and smiled softly before leaning down to lay a soft kiss on his lips. 

“I gotta go get ready for work in the morning. Since you’re off tomorrow, please try to handle the house search and the business stuff for me. I’m gonna go shower.” You pressed another soft kiss to him before getting up and heading into the bathroom. He sat on the carpet for a good while and lets your words marinate before he had a ‘lightbulb’ moment. 

The next morning while you were getting ready, he was plotting and planning things out in his head all while remaining composed and caring as usual. He kissed you a little more deeply before you left to work and began handling the business he was mentally prepping for. While he was doing his own thing, you were watching the time drag on at work. The shift today seemed never ending. Not to mention the boss was in a poor mood and taking it out on the workers...what little workers that came that is. You were short staffed with too many call-outs and that left pressure for those of you that showed up for the day. You even ended up having to stay at work for an extra 30 minutes. The drive home was so depressing and exhausting that you drove without music the whole way there. The only thing on your mind was Setsuno. He always knew how to make your days a little brighter when they were oh so bleak before. Tonight was no different. The moment you stepped through the door, your nose was assaulted by the smell of fresh baked cooking. You turned your head to see him setting up the living room table with snacks, drinks, and a lit candle of your favorite scent. Your eyes darted to the TV screen as you noticed your childhood favorite cartoon streaming. He looked up and smiled at you when he noticed you were home. “Welcome back Y/N.”

“What is all of this?” You laughed lightly as he approached you in his PJ’s. “I thought about what you said last night. Sometimes I think it’s okay to forget about being adults for a while yknow? We’ve both been doing so much with planning on moving out of the apartment, paying bills, getting another car and whatnot. This time is so valuable too. Come sit on the couch and get sick on cookies with me. Maybe we can both call out tomorrow huh?” He jokes as he led you to the couch and cuddled up next to you underneath your favorite throw blanket. The little moments like these meant the world to you. Seeing you relax a bit meant the world to him. 

[night-rhea]

I need to vent a bit, i really do. Its about my beloved Simping Server.

U may not want to hear about it, which is i respect. İf thats the case, have a nice day✨

İ love that server. Let me make that clear. I put a lot of affort for it and i had amazing time in there.

As a mod, i apologize if i let you down in some ways. İm trully sorry if i did. İm saying 'if i did' because honestly i have no idea if i did or not. İn my opinion i failed in some ways but no one reached out to me about it, so i cant be sure.

Server is really quiet for a long time. Many friends left.

Firstly i wanna say im glad they did. Because they choose to leave to focus on theirselves. Group chats are often overwhelming, and takes so much time effort etc etc. İm glad they choose to do what was good for them. İ really am. İ still love them and still support them.

İ am also not mad about server being quiet. Personally, the hphm game itself continue to ruin my motivation for creating a concept for my own oc's for it. Sometimes its really overwhelming that i want to leave it all. How can i be mad about people leaving when i myself started to moving on? Obv, i cant.

İts okay, i tell myself, they choose to move on and its okay.

That doesnt erase the good times we had together there, does it?

Ofc, i know only reason people left is not because of hphm itself, but the problems we faced.

İ am not here to bring it up everything again, but i really need to tell how i feel, i need to let it out.

Like all problems, the ones we faced also had many sides. And from bottom of my heart, i am sorry for both sides having to live through that. Misunderstanding, acting before thinking or simply making mistakes. İt was hard for everyone.

Somes decided to stay away from each other. Which is, i dare to say, the bravest choise. İ am proud of people being able to block someone. Now dont think im being dramatic. Fandoms are places to be enjoyed. İf blocking someone makes ur experience here a lot better, do it right away. İ swear im not mad at people who blocked me in past and i wont be mad if somes block me in future.

İ dont hate anyone. İm not angry to anyone. İ accept my mistakes. And i hope the ones that was mad at me can understand me now.

İ know most of us already moved on, so why bring it up again right?

İ have been in fandom for two years now. Not so long, but not so short either. All that time i was proud of myself for being calm and kind to everyone.

Well until today at least. I never know myself talking to someone like that, and that wasnt even so rude or anything!

İ know that person will understand im talking about them, which is good. And please dont make it obv that its you. İts not personaly about you now. İts about me.

Like i said today, i felt really angry. Maybe that person doesnt really understand why.

I was mad because i was failing to protect my friends from some drama again.

İ am not acting like there were no drama in that server. İm not acting like everything was perfect and "my" server was perfect. No it wasnt. İm not perfect, it cant be perfect either.

İ need you guys to at least know that the server stressed me so fucking much. Gave me anxiety attacks, made me leave tumblr for a while.

İm not saying it was your fault. İm saying it to let you know i was effected by it too.

İ came to understanding that i am looking like i didnt care much. That i "choose a side" in problems we had in there. That i am judging people. None of them was the case. None.

İ wish i can explain how guilty i feel about every single bad thing happened here. İt feels like my fault. Because i gathered people here i was the mod here etc etc. Even if i know not everything was my fault, i still feel like it. That has been eating me inside. Thats why i wanted to apologize over and over again.

İm trying to be a nice person, and i guess thats all i can do.

Only thing i feel sad about is how i lost contact with some people who left. But thats on me because im really anxious about dming people. So i cant blame anyone if im the one who doesnt reach out to them and let them know i still appreciate their friendship.

Thank you if you read all of that. İ hope i didnt make you even more uncomfortable, that definitely not what i am trying to do. İ just wanted to let it out, so i can move on.

I hope you guys will have an amazing day/night. And i hope i will see you with my not-vent posts 💜

[sakimybeloved]

Traitor

Hello!! This is one of mt first works! And this is a vent fic</3. I posted this on ao3 but later on decided to post it here too! Please enjoy! And please don't mind me struggling, idrk how Tumblr works😭

Warning this fic contains: One-sided love, Angst, Hurt no comfort, Swearing.

It's was a cold winter night when he broke up with me. We promised each other that once both of us healed we'd get back together and I'll be able to court him again.

I cried all night. I chose to trust his promise. I worked on myself, loved myself, i let myself heal. I held onto this promise. Rui never lied to me, he always kept his promise. "Will he really wait for you?" A voice inside my head said.

I told myself that he will keep his promise. I trusted him so much, he wont hurt me.. right? Am i starting to doubt him? I decided to brush those type of thoughts.

Me and rui still talk i always tried my best to check up on him. I noticed that he seemed to be cold or dry towards me, his mood changed whenever his "friend" was there with us, he is so moody recently.. i hope he feels better soon.

When i get home that type of thoughts flood my mind. I hate it. I don't like doubting him. But im getting suspicious of him. He won't break my heart.. right? The Rui i know doesn't lie or break his promise.. i'll just confront him about it!

He said he doesn't like anyone else, he said he likes me and im the only one he said. I trust him, i believe him. He won't lie and break my heart! "Keep telling that to yourself."

After months, i finally healed. He seem to have healed too! I decided to court him.. after months of waiting! I texted him to meet me at the park. I received a text from one of his friends it said "hey, Tsukasa i think it's time for you to know this but uh.. rui.. likes someone else. He doesn't like you.. he keeps ranting to me how tiring it is to pretend that he still likes you."

That message broke me. Tears started to flow. My sister, toya, father, mother looked at me worried. They asked what's wrong, i told them what happened. Saki and Toya were beyond mad at him. They all comforted me. I decided to continue my plan on going out with Rui but i'll confornt him about this.

Rui waved at me. I told him "Why? Did you do this to me?" He seem to took a hint on what i meant. He was quiet, so quiet. I kept on cursing at him and asking why. I said "why are you so cruel. Just why? After all i did for you. THIS IS WHAT I GET IN RETURN?" he seem shock that i shouted. All he can say is "I'm sorry." I ended up slapping him.

"I hate you. I hate you. Fuck you." I said that, while tears where flowing onto my eyes. I felt so betrayed. "How long have you liked someone else?" I asked. He didn't spoke after a few minutes he broke his silent "a few weeks after we broke up." He replied.

It hurt so much. we were together for 2 years and yet only a few weeks to move on from me. It just hurts i wanna cry more and the fact he has been lying for MONTHS. "We can stay as friends tho." He said, i replied with "okay. I need some time alone." I walked away from him.

When i arrived home, i went straight to my room. All i did was cry, and cry. I was right all along. He is a liar. I hate him so much. I wish he never finds happiness. I wish that he live a miserable life. I don't deserve to get treated like this. He is an asshole.

I have decided to forget him. After all my family will be moving to get more advanced treatment for saki. I heard that toya will be coming along because he got into a college there. I'll only focus on myself for now on. Spend time with my friends and family. I will forget about him.