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chanyouchan · 6 months
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⌕ isto não é um clichê sobre basquete, feat. @xmaeve
⚠ em caso de inspiração, me credite.
📆 22/12/23 | ✎ @mnini (psd)
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arkive78 · 2 years
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SKZ Fanfics/Headcanons to swoon over
When you click the links make sure to read the content warnings!!!
Headcanons
Breaking up with you but regretting it eventually by @stayswriting
SKZ on the morning after your first time together (maknae line) by @stayswriting 
SKZ on the morning after your first time together (hyung line) by @stayswriting 
SKZ as your first boyfriends by @hwajin 
First times with SKZ (18+) by @hynjnhwng 
When would skz f**k you senseless (hyung line version) by @lixhues 
Moments they realized they were in love with you by @myjisung 
how they would comfort you by @myjisung 
dating stray kids by @aemoonie 
bang chan ideal type by @hanjifuck 
Kisses with Felix by @myjisung 
Kisses with Hyunjin by @myjisung 
Kisses with Bang Chan by @myjisung 
sitting on their lap while they’re gaming by @cosmic-railwayxo 
stray kids as: different ways they show their love (hyung line) by @chanslovebug 
how they act after an argument and how they would make it up to you by @myjisung 
things best friends don’t do by @cosmic-railwayxo 
kissing them for a challenge by @cosmic-railwayxo 
sleeping on the couch after an argument by @minlustre 
when you aren’t dating but aren’t just friends either by @cosmic-railwayxo 
boyfriend things skz does by @minlustre 
An absolute amazing fic you need to read is the Stray Hybrids fanfic by @ / HoratioK on Ao3 !! They have it in 3 different sets of pronouns: she/her, he/him, and they/them. It’s quite a read and it’s really well-done for the AU it’s insane. 
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awrkive · 1 year
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breezybangtanbebe · 4 months
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❤️🥹 shout out to my fellow black writers on here!
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stargaz3rlily · 2 years
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~ Candy shop confessions ~
Main characters ~ Pt 1
Dami rose AKA Taehyuns crush and main leading lady
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And her close group of friends
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Ebony Tate ~ basically her second sister girlfriend of lee Felix
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Bang Chan ~ The brains of the friend group
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Carmen sandiego ~ Dami’s manger/ friend
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Amaris Grimmr ~ Dami’s unofficial mom
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Raven Rose ~ Dami’s little big sister
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Marcus Locwell ~ Designated driver to almost everyone, greatly loved and appreciated. 
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sizzlingpatrolfox · 4 months
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looking back, my experience in this fandom was mostly based on shipping jikook, reading conspiracy theory blogs, and mostly watching their moments, all of that was first for me, and BTS as a whole was secondary. I could say that jikook always kept me in this fandom, and I was waiting for concerts or other content with their "moments". I think that bts' popularity is partly based on the shipping community, just the fact that I knew bts members from wattpad fanfics long long before I joined the fandom
Yeah, that's something that just happens in kpop. 70% of the kpop experience is the content that's not related to music. There are so many groups that would sell only a couple of thousands albums if they were as inactive as Jimin... but I wholeheartedly believe that they sell that much because of their "close relationship" to fans.
The more time passes, the more of these groups exist. I genuinely can't believe anyone listens to stray kidz or NCT and enjoys it😭 but that's another topic. I'm sorry if anyone reading is a fan, but I just can't. They don't really perform well on charts, but still loyal fans will buy millions of their albums just to "support" them, and collect pretty pictures. It's not really about the music, and almost everything is about the fans liking the idols as people or entertainers, more than musicians.
Part of BTS popularity is definitely thanks to ships, and to the "ot7" agenda. The same as it is for literally every other kpop group on earth. After BTS blew up after winning their first bbma social award, they doubled down on the "we're a family we're so close" stuff. I'm not saying it was fake, but it was also a tool. The way two famous people dating will mean pr moves for both of them in spite of how genuine their love might be, BTS started putting their relationship as a group on the forefront of what being BTS meant, and it was also a pr move.
Bighit made a survey for fans in late 2017.
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It was a study market but most of the questions weren't about music. There were a couple that were something like "what do you like about BTS" and relationship between members was one of the options.
I don't know if you were around, but here's a link where you can see the questions, since I can't find screenshots of the survey itself.
A moment that stuck with me was in 2018 when news said that Jungkook had bought his own apartment. Before that, there had been news about Jin, Yoongi, Hoseok and Taehyung buying their own places. Silence from the company. But when JK bought trimage, bighit immediately issued an statement denying it. Even though Jungkook did have his own place there 😭 but him being the youngest was sort of the glue that was supposed to keep the family together. Half of BTS lore is how Jungkook was raised by all the other six members. He couldn't possibly be independent.
A lot of that obviously goes under the radar because BTS music is actually good, or at least they had some outstanding stuff.
The 2020 - 2022 period was particularly "worse" in that sense... All there was to be enjoy was ships, and the members interactions or their "relationship" with fans. The music was bad, no tour, no performances in general, and the behind the scenes content was lacking too. The whole "we didn't want to do solo songs we wanted to sing all together 🫶" they pulled for their last concerts.. it was all about the same narrative of "being together". The LA and Las Vegas concerts were a whole other level of fanservice.
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nonuwhore · 2 years
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📝escrevo: smut, fluff e angst. escrevo sobre: seventeen (todos os membros exceto seungkwan e minghao e esse é o motivo) nct (taeyong, johnny, jaehyun, doyoung, mark, jaemin e haechan), stray kidz (bangchan, minho, changbin, han e seungmin), ateez (todos os membros), exo (baekhyun, chanyeol, d.o, kai e sehun), monsta x (todos os membros), got7 (todos os membros), b.i. e txt (soobin); posso escrever para outros idols, dependendo de quem for, você pode confirmar antes de pedir.
escrevo fanfics (médias e longas) e cenários, mas aceito pedidos apenas para headcanons. soft e hard hours são sempre bem vindas!
🙋🏽‍♀️a ask vai estar sempre aberta para bater papo! assim que finalizar a entrega do evento de aniversário provavelmente abrirei para pedidos de headcanons.
🙅🏽‍♀️ não escrevo de jeito nenhum: rape play, age play, wax play, omorashi, podolatria, kinks que envolvam líquidos que não seja lubrificação natural, esperma e saliva; fear play, knife play e pet play, relacionamentos sexuais entre pessoas da mesma família, non con e dub con, violência, abuso, chantagem e sobre pessoas psiquicamente doentes ou menores de idade. consumo alguns outros temas como daddy e mommy kink, mas ainda não me sinto confortável pra escrever sobre eles. qualquer outro tema que me deixe desconfortável será recusado primeiramente e ignorado caso persista.
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sunfoxny · 9 months
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I have a google slides with my friends full of aus and matz by ITSELF has 7 slides full of fanfics
We have other groups like seventeen, bts, txt and stray kidz but ateez is dominating the slides rn
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Huge vent incoming so
I dont know what to like- say here but
Potential trigger warnings: Friend issues and stuff, feeling “KYS” (yk), wanting to SH, self-isolation (srry if that’s not the right term)
I feel like I’m a bad friend. Nothings really happened over the summer, and lately, I’ve been ignoring my friends.
They try calling me, and I don’t respond. They send me snaps, and I avoid them for as long as I can. I avoid texting them for as long as possible.
My first online friend (someone here on tumblr), is a really cool person. We bonded over AO3 fics about Tokoyami, but now that I’m focusing less on writing fanfics, and more on animation and art (and mha in general), it feels like we’ve grown apart.
I isolate myself from family as much as possible, but when I come downstairs I don’t feel good.
It makes me want to KMS. To be completely honest.
I’ve struggled with those thoughts alone for a while, my dad knows that I’ve been su!c!dal, but I dont know if he knows that those thoughts may be coming back.
I honestly don’t know if it’s because my period might be starting soon, or if it’s because I don’t want to interact with people, but I find myself getting angrier, easier.
I’ve been considering resorting back to SH recently, for a while now. But I’m scared that someone might see the scars.
I feel empty, the only people I have rn, are online moots and friends (yall are awesome, my reason to live rn🙏), my friends don’t feel like my friends.
F, is sort of my friend. We went from just classmates, to suddenly dating, to enemies, to friends, to Idek. We kinda just send eachother snaps, and that’s it. I only go over to talk to her for a moment when I’m bored before leaving.
M, my current “best friend”, is kinda- i dont know. Becoming annoying to me. She kind of just nags me about downloading genshin impact so we can play together, even if H, already has it. I like the game and all but I’d prefer to just watch play throughs or random videos of it rather than play it. I’ve never really done well with story games, and I really want to tell her I’m not interested. And (this is a bit petty but) she made a “Bestie handshake” with my other friend H, without even considering me. And they did the handshake infront of me, and I just kinda stood there. Feeling left out.
H, my other friend, I find her pretty annoying. She’s kinda rude, and the only thing we really bond over is our friend M and liking stray kidz.
I, I don’t even know. I don’t want to talk to her, because we don’t have much in common. When she found out about my YouTube channel, she was like “Omg, I’ll help you get views! Let’s make videos!” And I didn’t want to, I wanted to do other stuff, so I tried steering tha conversation away from that but she insisted and I don’t like hurting peoples feelings. Or making them mad, so I went along with it. I thought it’d only be one video, but she insisted we’d make more.
A, is barely my friend. We know eachother through being classmates, and having I, as a close friend. We’ve had one deep conversation with eachother but that’s it.
I’ve actually considered going back to my ex friend T, but she’s fucking toxic and makes me uncomfortable. She’s lied so much, and been so fucking toxic that I don’t even know what’s real with her anymore.
I’m too scared to make friends with people of different grades, schools, or anyone really.
I’ve considered hanging out with the guys, but they’re sexist and childish most of the time.
I’ve considered going to the “Mean girls” (they’re just kinda annoying, and rude, nothing rlly up with them) but I’m scared that they’ll back talk me. (Which, fyi, T has done)
More on T. She was my best friend of SEVEN YEARS. We met in kindergarten, and we just bonded over something. But even in kindergarten, she was…off.
She got pissed when I tried making friends with V, which set the first buzzer in my brain off. But I (unfortunately) ignored it.
(Again, something petty, but) Whenevr we played fairies or house or smth, she always made me the bad one. Idek why.
When I told her “No” she would never accept it. No matter what. She whined, and nagged, and whined. Until she gave up and said “(sigh) Okie…🥺” like what? And when I expressed discomfort to doing something, SHE got pissed at ME. Not the other way around, until I got fed up, and yelled, and left the classroom.
And she’d do things without asking. When my school tablet was out of battery, I told the teacher, and T just scooted her desk over to mine and said “We can work together!” And the whole class just stared. It made me so uncomfortable.
When i introduced my friend M to MHA, infront of T mind you, the next fucking day, T wouldn’t shut up about it.
And I’ve always been scared of sharing things I like. And she ruined MHA for me even further.
This is so long, I’m leaving it here.
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x-woozi · 4 years
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Sugar, Spice, and Everything.. else?
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Female Reader x Stray Kids
Genre: College au, social media/text au, fluff-ish, maybe a little crack
Summary: After a very public embarrassing moment, y/n manages to make a few new friends. Though in trying to make those friends there is a bit of a complication in winning over the group.
A/n: This is my first social media au, I always enjoy reading these and I thought that I’d finally try and make one myself. There will also be some written parts as well.
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Start date: August 27, 2020
End date: October 26, 2020
Updates: Thursdays, Saturdays and Mondays at 5:30 CST
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Profiles
Part 1 : A video?!
Part 2: Brownies!
Part 3: Replaced
Part 4: Next victim
Part 5: A plan?
Part 6: on a mission
Part 7: acceptance
Part 8: it’s a mess
Part 9: Friday night
Part 10: jokes
Part 11: A BEAST?!
Part 12: one tough cookie
Part 13: freedom
Part 14: a favor
Part 15: Racha inc.
Part 16: an accident
Part 17: Family Dinner
Part 18: bro zoned
Part 19: I’ll handle it
Part 20: a skirt.
Part 21: after..
Part 22: cuddles
Part 23: time bomb
Part 24: rumors
Part 25: waiting
Part 26: are you alive?!?
Part 27: confessions
Part 28: ‘my scary emo boy’
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mymoonmin · 2 years
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“You are my carol” - HYUNSUNG 
Fandom: Stray Kids 
 Chapters: 1/1

Pairing: Han Jisung / Hwang Hyunjin

Genre: Canon Compliant, Friends To Lovers, Fluff

Rating: General Audiences

Summary: “Jisung is Hyunjin’s Secret Santa for this year, and he takes the chance to make Hyunjin more than just a gift...” My Twitter: @ MyMoonMin 
LINK TO THE FIC ON AO3
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minhothebighoe · 4 years
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2:03 pm I Love You
Requested: yes: “Hey babes, hope your doing swell❤ What about Felix ( stray kids ) with a self conscious s/o? Like, she just doesn't thing she's good enough for him + so he hard core comforts her. Cuddles her until she gives up type thing. Possibly smut but if you don't write smut for him just fluff is fine.”
Word Count: 3.1 k
Summary: Your relationship with Felix was great at first, but when you two got caught in public it changed your life for the worst.
Warnings: mentions of feeling depressed, mentions of sex, small amounts of smut (just don’t blink), a mention of degradation kink (AGAIN DONT BLINK). And a cute/ sexy Felix
**also I haven’t proofread yet so hope it’s not too bad lololol, also maybe pt. 2 ???***
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“Babe please tell me what’s wrong”
Felix sighed deeply, before laying a hand on my bare shoulder, gripping tightly at the exposed skin that poked out of my sweater. He looked and concentrated on me with worry and sadness that was clearly displaying on his soft features; his eyes showing nothing but pure and utter remorse. I turned away and stared at the floor silently with pure guilt and anxiety that was building and starting to weigh heavily on my chest. I hated myself for the fact that I was the one causing him to feel this way.
Things have been shitty for a while now, and I’m not talking about Felix or anything about him. Felix is literally the light of my life, and it’s not an understatement when I say I would literally take a bullet for the boy or give up my life to save his. Everything that is wrong is because of me, myself, and I.
Things were more than amazing in the beginning when no one knew of us together. When Felix could visit or hang out we would mostly just Sneak around and hide the fact we were an item. It was definitely hard most times,especially for him; he wanted nothing more than to show me off to the world, but at the same time it was oh so exciting. Even though Felix wanted to come out to the world as more than close friends he also loved concealing our relationship. He being the dirty Aussie boy he is admittedly ached to fuck me in public anywhere that he could get his hands on me, and shit, it was our dirty little secret.
However, things mostly took a toll for the worst when dispatch caught us together, and stays all over found out about the relationship.
It was late at night, Felix and I were at a park close to my home, and me being the dumb ass I am, was not thinking coherently. All I was thinking of was the lovely night me and my beautiful boyfriend were having, and the fact that he was physically there with me. At no time did it occur to me to think that other people would be up at the god awful hour.
In the moment, Felix was chasing me on the open grass field, and we were both happy and content. We didn’t need much more than each other to have a good time or have fun.
“You’ll never catch me!” I laughed, running faster away from my playful boyfriend who was right on my tail. I however, knew for fucking sure he was definitely gonna get me, I just wanted to tease the poor lad and get him all worked up.
Not even 10 seconds later he caught a hold of my hand and before I knew it, we both came to a dead halt. I turned around to face him and capture him at the moment, it almost felt like one of those cheesy kdrama moments where everything is in slow motion. His beautiful dark eyes stared lovingly and deep into my own. His chest was heaving up and down and all I could hear was the sound of his heavy breaths parting from those big beautiful pouty lips. He leaned his forehead onto mine before speaking with that sinful voice of his,
“God you have no idea what the fuck you do to me.”
That beautiful playful smile was now a wicked and sexy smirk, and god did I love it.
He pulled me closer to where my chest was touching his long lean frame; I felt his hands slowly travel and make their way down to my hips, it was almost teasingly unhurried. I felt a soft squeeze on the flesh, and a painful chill make its way up throughout my body. I thought I forgot how to breathe at that very moment.
Meanwhile felix’s eyes had never left mine, causing a certain feeling make its way through out my core deep within. I was aching for him to touch me, and I could tell he couldn’t wait any longer as well.
God you have no idea what you do to me, Felix.
He continued to smirk at me before impulsively bringing his lips down to my neck with such vigor and pure lust. I brought my hands instantly from his chest and placed them at the back of his head running them through and tugging on his sexy red locks. I gasped for air as I felt his teeth nip slightly at my flesh, hitting that sweet spot just right below my earlobe. He slowly proceeded to run his tongue over the bite mark before sucking ever so mercilessly. I could feel the heat rapidly making a pool in my underwear, and I didn’t know how much longer I could wait for him to touch me.
“F-Felix please.” I pleaded.
He detached his lips from my neck, and I could instantly feel a cool breeze attack the spot where his mouth once was.
He stared devilishly at me, his pupils getting blacker, before speaking
“Awe is my baby girl getting impatient…. don’t worry darling I’ll fuck you right.” I gulped; He leaned in again, and I could feel his hot breath hit the inside of my ear causing goosebumps to arise and my complexion go pale.
“I just wanna play with you first.”
I stared at Felix as my mouth went dry and my mind buzzed. His words alone were enough to get me off, and all I wanted was for him to rip my skirt off and fuck me right then and there.
But Then…..that’s when I heard it.
**click**
I snapped out of the trance like state, and forcefully pulled myself away from Felix’s body. I automatically knew exactly what that sound was and it was almost an instant shock of anxiety that rolled throughout my body. I looked over to Felix and I could tell he felt the exact same way.
“C’mon babe we have to go.” Even though he was trying to rush me, he said it as calminglyas possible.
** click **
As we moved quicker away, the more rapid the noise was becoming. Felix and I moved speedily, giving even Usain Bolt a run for his money, trying to get away from the situation. However, we both knew it was too late and the damage was most likely done. We were already caught and red handed at that.
“People are going to find out” I thought, anxiety filled my entire being with the thought. What will they think? This wasn’t no ordinary fan base I was going up against, these are kpop stans the most frightening yet loyal fans to ever exist. They were going to completely and utterly judge me.
and that they did.
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It had only been 1 month since the pictures had come out of Felix and I embracing each other at the park, and let’s just say the backlash was worse than what I was expecting. Each day was more shoddy than the last, it seemed as each hour passed the more shit I was getting and the more comments filled my Social media telling me I wasn’t good enough, or that I was too ugly, too fat, and so on. At first it didn’t really bother me, I had hoped changing my profiles to private would help, and get people to calm down about the situation, and it did for a while. However me being me, I couldn’t help myself to search and see what the fans were saying,and as much as I wanted to ignore it, I couldn’t fucking do it.
“Ugly bitch, Felix deserves so much better.”
ugh.
“Where the hell did he find her? Probably some whore.”
Woah.
“Fat ugly bitch should lose some weight, she’s going to crush our poor Felix.”
Ow.
“They’ll never last SHE'S just another slut I mean look how short her skirt is in that picture, such a sleeze”
Okay then.
A couple more months had passed and I thought it would die down but for some reason it never did and as the number of comments and articles grew, I felt my deepest insecurities grow as well, drowning out any ounce of confidence I once had.
The fat comments were an especially hard pill to swallow as I had always been insecure about my weight. Even though deep down I knew I wasn’t “fat” I still had trouble looking at a mirror and being happy with the way I looked. And having a boyfriend who is an international heart throb did not make things easier to say the least.
“Why aren’t you eating babe?”
“You‘ve lost some weight love since the last time I saw you, I’m a little concerned”
“Babe please eat something, are you okay?”
Felix had seemed to have asked these questions quite a few times in the past months, and I would always reply with the same short answers along with a fake smile.
“Lixie I’m fine, I promise.”
“I’m just not hungry.”
“Ohh I just ate I’m okay.”
It wasn’t just the fat comments not causing me to eat, it was everything that was sending me into a spiral of self hatred and let’s just say: my very own demise. I had lost all appetite because all I could think of were those millions of fans telling me how ugly and disgusting I was, and, oh yeah, that I should do Felix a favor and just kill myself. And the most annoying thing was, I had no idea why it was even getting to me so much. It just hurt knowing that practically a whole fan base hated you because you loved someone so unconditionally, and you couldn’t do a thing about it or change their mind.
And I started to believe every damn word that was thrown at me.
I was too scared to even leave my home knowing that people knew who I was and how I looked. I didn’t want to risk it. I was scared, point, blank, and period. Sadly, I didn’t have anyone to confide in. I had always been mostly independent and an introvert so friends were very few and far inbetween;I didn’t want to worry my poor parents, as they would be devastated and heartbroken to know their little girl was feeling this broken. And, I couldn’t tell my boyfriend because he was busy most of the time getting ready for a fucking world tour to notice, and there was no way in hell I was going to distract him from that, so me being very discouraged to bring this up to anyone, kept to myself and thought being alone was the best option.
At least that’s what I thought I could do.
I guess I was naive thinking I could hide and push away my own feelings, but every negative thought, moment of regret, and all my insecurities were starting to show and make their way from the dark abyss and pile to the surface. I wanted anything but to worry Felix with my issues, however everything was becoming way too hard to mentally bare and I was reaching above my boiling point.
“Y/N, please for fucks sake talk to me, don’t you understand I’m here for you? Don’t you understand I can tell when something is wrong?”
Felix, who was sitting next to me, quickly got down on his knees in front of me. He placed a hand lovingly on my cheek, softly rubbing soothing circles with the pad of his thumb on the skin, causing me to feel somewhat calm.
I didn’t want to tell him how I was feeling partially because I didn’t know how to explain it. There’s just so much going on inside my head that it feels as if I’m at war with my own consciousness.
“I-I’m fine baby I p-promise I ju-“ tears were threatening to spill and I couldn’t even look him in the eyes.
“Bull fucking shit (y/n). You for the past 8 months have been anything but yourself, you’ve lost so much fuckin weight to the point where you’re skin and bones, you’re not eating, and I- I don’t know what I’m doing wrong, and it fucking hurts to see you like this and I-“ tears streamed down Felix’s face, and he cupped my chin and forced me to look into him.
Everything was accumulating and it was starting to reach a point where hiding these demons was not in the question anymore. Seeing Felix in this much pain because of me, tipped me beyond off the scale and I felt almost angry that all this bullshit had happened. Am I weak for wanting to tell him?
Would he be able to handle it?
As I was building the courage to speak, I turned my head away again hearing my phone vibrate. I could see the notifications building up from Twitter on the screen from the previous hour; Felix noticed too and instantly shot out his hand to grab my device.
“Felix baby no do-.”
I tried to grab the annoying hardware before Felix could see anything, it it was too late. His eyes widened.
“Kill yourself you stupid bitch,
you’re so unworthy of a man like Felix like actual filth lmao,
You’re an ugly fat whore who will never amount to anything ,
Watch out Felix, she’s only with you for your money”
As Felix read the words aloud it felt as if thousands of knives were being stabbed into my body over and over again, but all I could do was stare at the floor in front of me, and not dare to look at Felix. I didn’t want him to know things were this bad, I tried to shield him from the pain I was feeling because he didn’t deserve to be included in the affliction. My heart hurt but I wasn’t going to let him be included in that agony.
I loved him too much.
“Baby….” I could feel his eyes bore into my figure and at that moment I couldn’t hold it in anymore. Everything that had pent up over the past months finally spilled out into the open atmosphere, and holy shit I was a sopping mess to say the very least. I huddled over as the sobs poured out of my mouth, they were mixed with so much vexation, sorrow, and panic as I didn’t know how to feel. Felix quickly sat next to me and put an arm over my physique, pulling me in closer to his broad frame. My head lay atop his lap while I cried as much as I could. He peacefully stroked my hair with his fingers, and every once in a while layed some soft kisses atop my head.
I leaned my head to fit in the crook of his neck,taking in the scent of his cologne. He held onto me tight, as if he was never going to let me go again.
“Baby, all this time…. why didn’t you tell me?” His voice was almost quivering but I knew he wasn’t going to cry.
“I- I didn’t want to worry you, you had so much to do for the tour and I thought it was dumb an-“ he stopped me.
“(Y/N) it’s not dumb that people are harassing you and making you feel this way. Listen, I love my fans each and every single one of them. However, you have to realize that in every good person there are another 5 evil ones who don’t respect mine or your feelings for one another, and those people are not true fans.”
He brought my face to look at his.
“Listen darling, I love you and if some people can’t respect that then, that’s their problem. Our love is stronger than this and I know we will overcome this hurdle. That’s all it is, these comments don’t matter they’re just people who have no respect or no life to worry about and all they want to do is take that anger and hurt into other people. But holy shit, I just thank god nobody hurt you or physically or came after you….I don’t know what I would do.” Felix kissed my nose and stroked the top of my hand with his very own sending small impulses of electricity up my body. The heat of his body comforted me and I had never felt more love for him than in that very moment. For once I could finally breathe again and smile.
Felix brought a hand to cup my cheek, the palm of his hand felt so reassuring as he brought his soft lips down to mine gently and with such passion. He kissed me as if we had all the time in the world yet it also felt as if it was our last moment together. The world could’ve ended right then and there and I would’ve felt content being in his arms.
I guess I learned it’s not good to hold things in, and now I know if I’m ever feeling sad or hurt that there are people who love me and are willing to listen. And as much as I wanted them to be, my problems were not small especially if they had me feeling the way I did. I don’t have to be alone even in my darkest thoughts or weakest moments.
All I know is Felix lifted a weight off my chest that was too heavy for me to even nudge. And for him I am more than thankful.
“Also those comments are bullshit because if anything darling you’re to good for me princess .”
I smirked at him.
“Oh really now.”
“Yeah but let’s get one thing straight.” I eyed him as he bit his lip, he coyly took the soft skin in between his teeth as his eyes went dark.
“ the only person who can call you a filthy whore is me. Got it?”
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flwrkisses · 4 years
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I’M BACK!
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After so many years, I am finally back on this account to write on here again! so requests will be opening! Along with major construction being done to both mobile and desk top themes!
See you all soon!
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stargaz3rlily · 2 years
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Since Star has already introduced herself, Hello! I am Lily of Stargazerlily! Just a few things about myself, I love to write and to sing. I am pretty new to kpop despite being on and off with it for years...but! Star has gotten me back into a few groups such as Stray Kidz, TXT, Ateez and she's going to probably push me further down the hole 🥲. I quite enjoy it though, so now, here I am starting to write fics and all that good stuff. There shall be a few stories up pretty soon and maybe even changes to our profile picture, since I also draw and would love to make little cute characters of us. Anyways, before I ramble further, I am excited to be writing for you guys!
Lily 🌸
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every1studio · 5 years
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“high profession + spoiling” [stray kids]
genre: FLUFF
ficstyle: bulletpoints + reactions 
requested: “ If that’s the case, then may I request a stray kids scenario/reaction to you being a noona and working in a high pay occupation (you can vary them for each member; like doctor, lawyer or engineer, etc) and you ALWAYS spoil them with food and gifts. (You can take out the occupation part its fine too) thank you so much in advance if you decided to pick it up and if not that is TOTALLY and EXTREMELY fine dear! I love your blog and I hope it prospers and becomes successful💗💗💗💗💗 “
note: FINALLY WRITING SOMETHING THAT’S NOT ATEEZ LOL / idk if this is what you wanted but it’s definitely not noona-themed, sorry ):
WOOJIN
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(type: would take him a while to get used to it) 
his main love language would be: quality time
you were a lawyer who had a fluctuating schedule; which was why spending time with you was so important to him
he was a little skeptical at first when you started to bring him expensive gifts and take him out to glamorous places on your free days
his idea of dating was a little different than what he imagined; he didn’t expected to be showered with gifts  
he wanted to spend more time with you since you are so busy with your job so he would just go with the flow
he was sometimes a little frustrated when you would bring work home because that would just mean you spent less time with him
especially when you would be stressed from work and yet you still managed to go out of your way to pamper him 
might bring it up that you didn’t need to spoil him so much 
tells you that he would be more than satisfied with just cuddling on the couch and asking about each other’s childhood 
would give small reminders everyday that he doesn’t need materialistic things to be happy 
BANG CHAN
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(type: would be glad that he isn’t the one paying for once but feels bad)
his main love language would be: words of affirmation 
you had an important vibe to you since you were a well-known research doctor for unknown diseases; but that never broke away from being equal to Chan
because of your occupation, you barely had the time to be with him 
and because of that, you focused on coddling him; maybe a little bit too luxuriously 
at first, he liked it a lot since he didn’t have to use his wallet for once 
but then he felt more and more guilty for letting you spoil him
he’s usually the one doing the spoiling; whether that be with materialistic things or with his heart-felt words 
he always makes sure that he appreciates you because of how hard you work to be able to spoil him the way that you do 
you would babble about getting him some new limited edition NIKE shoes that had just been released for practice 
but he stopped you right there, telling you he didn’t need it 
and that overly-spoiling him wasn’t a good stress-reliever
he would go on and on about how hard you worked and how stressed you were and how proud he was to have such a strong independent lady like you in his life 
LEE KNOW (MINHO)
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(type: dom sugar baby)
his main love language: physical touch 
you were a psychiatrist; it was a fairly tiring job but the pay was good 
but that made you go on a little spree; not for you but for your boyfriend, Minho 
he loved being pampered by you; when you weren’t at work all of your attention was on him 
but to him, it felt like you were trying to win him over with materialistic things 
he would start giving you massages or pull you into a cuddle right when you got home instead of taking the gifts you would get him on your way home from work 
would tell you what he thought about spoiling him
would make you compromise something along the lines of, “I’m not going to accept your gifts if you don’t cuddle with me right when you get home..”
don’t get him wrong he LOVES getting gifts, but he wants to pamper you in some way too 
CHANGBIN
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(type: wants you to rely on him; promises you that he’ll be the one to be spoiling you soon)
his main love language would be: acts of service
being a computer network architect wasn’t the easiest job to; especially staring into a screen all day could make anyone go crazy
Changbin knew how stressed you’d be and how you would turn release this tension by spoiling him 
getting him equipment for his own studio, buying him expensive clothes, etc
he wasn’t going to deny that he appreciated the gifts you got him 
but seeing you work like crazy, just to go home and try to do some house work AND spoil him?
he had to do something
always tells you that you can lean on him for ANYTHING
jokingly flexing his muscles
would make sure he can get as much house work done as possible so that when you get home, you wouldn’t have to do much or anything at all
does little things for you; doesn’t want you to lift a finger when you are at home
because when you’re home, you shouldn’t be pushing yourself too hard and that he’s there for a reason; he would say
when you try to argue with him about splitting the work, he would shush you up with a kiss and then continue to finish the house work 
HYUNJIN
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(type: unsure if you are okay with spoiling him so much; worries about your health)
his main love language would be: words of affirmation
you were a chemical engineer; so you always paid attention to details
speaking of attention to details, you noticed how Hyunjin always liked looking at clothes and fancy places but never said anything out loud 
you took it upon yourself to treat him to these things
he would highly treasure the things you got him
he knew you received a lot from your job but he was kind of uncomfortable with it
it was like using money that wasn’t his 
and seeing that you were always working hard, he was scared that you might have been focusing on everything but yourself 
he tells you that he really doesn’t need these things; because they are wants 
he tells you that he cares about you and your health 
after this conversation, he would always remind you to take care when he isn’t there 
would make sure that he compliments you and tells you how happy he is to have you in his life; being with you is all he needs to be happy 
HAN (JISUNG)
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(type: extremely grateful baby boy)
his main love language would be: physical touch 
you were a surgeon so during work, you would have to be calm and focus 
it was relieving to have a hyper and loving boyfriend like Jisung to balance out your life
you wanted to do something for him; so you spoiled him like crazy 
as much as he loved it, he was worried when he notice that he was the one initiating the physical affection and was worried that he did something wrong
he would pout every time you forgot to hug him after work or hold his hand while you two were on the couch 
you were big spoon one rare night and he asked you if you were stressed 
you told him that it was just usual work stuff and that it wasn’t a big deal
when he brought up the physical affection, your smiled faltered a little bit 
you reassured him that you wanted to show your love for him with gifts
he turned to face you, pulling you into his chest
he told you that he wanted to show his love for you with physical affections; he didn’t need those gifts he just needed you
but if you were to gift him with anything, he would be extremely grateful towards you and would return the favor with his usual kisses or hugs
showing you how much he cared for you and loved you
FELIX
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(type: extremely happy, wants you to spoil yourself as much as you spoil him)
his main love language would be: gifting
you were a registered nurse; working long hours stressed you out
but you loved your job and you got good pay
with all of hardships you had in your life, Felix never left your side and he was your support system
you always brought him something he talked to you about before; he never really thought you would get it or anything, he just wanted to share these things with you 
to his surprise, when you bought stuff for him, he would thank you with his version of gifting 
like getting you your favorite tea a couple minutes before you got home so that by the time you do get home, it would be the perfect temperature 
unlike you, he didn’t have LOTS of money to spoil you like the queen that you were 
although he wished that he did, he would get or make little things for you 
make your lunch for work, work on earning some money to get something that he thought would suit you
the more you gave him, he gave you just as much back
it didn’t matter to you that it wasn’t luxurious items or dates, but it meant everything in the world to you knowing that it came from Felix 
SEUNGMIN
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(type: worries about how much money you’re spending on him and in general)
his main love language would be: quality time
you were a physician; it was a good-paying job with long, demanding hours
Seungmin loved that you were happy doing something you loved but sometimes, he just wanted to have some quiet 1 on 1 time with you 
but you thought that the more glamorous the gifts and dates, the better
because you thought that you had to make it up to him for the long hours you would spend on work
but Seungmin would question you the moment you took him to one of the most expensive cafes in the city and presented him with a camera he wanted for a long time
he wants you to save your money for the future
it’s not like he doesn’t appreciate your efforts with the gifts but he just wants to be in your presence 
you toned down the amount of luxury gifts you got him and focused on just socializing with him
it didn’t matter to him where the two of you were, as long as he was with you 
I.N (JEONGIN)
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(type: isn’t used to it, can’t get used to it; feels extra bad)
his main love language would be: acts of service
you were an orthodontist; that was actually how you met him 
you were a student when he was getting his braces 
now that you were a full-time orthodontist, you were making good money 
the moment you got him a new laptop a day after he told you that he dropped it from being clumsy, he was in shock
the laptop that you got him was an expensive gaming laptop, he was worried about how you were spending your money; especially on him 
the more you spent on him, the more guilty he felt
because of how he felt, he began to help you out with anything at all
whether it be house work or personal stuff  
it took him a while to confront you about how he was feeling 
you assured him that it was okay but you didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable so you limited it to only going full out on special occasions 
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almondeyes-biased · 5 years
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Hi 😊 Can I request a Bang Chan x reader in which he can’t sleep (a fluff one please)?? Thank you❤️
Sure! Sorry it took me so long to upload it, exams are slowly taking over 😔 thanks for requesting, I really loved writing this ❤️
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That night found you in a state of complete insomnia. You couldn’t really tell the reason why, but a certain uneasiness wouldn’t let you settle your thoughts and go to sleep. You tried numerous times to just focus on your breathing, to calm your body down, you even got up and made some tea, but nothing could ease your tension.
You sighed and checked the time once again, although mere minutes had passed from the last time you did. 04:36. You left your phone on the bedside table and rested on your back to stare at the ceiling, the only light in the room be the moonlight that trespassed through the window pane. Deep down, you wanted more than anything to give him a call. You knew he was the only one who could tame your demons and get you to sleep with just the sound of his voice, but on the other hand you wished he was sleeping himself. What happened to you that night, happened to him every night, His case of insomnia was just so frequent and so consistent, that you hated the fact that you would bother him in such a case. But that night, you needed him more than any other same night.
It however seemed that he needed you as much.
You jumped slightly by the sound of your ringtone, and you quickly picked up.
“Y/N? Are you awake?” Chan’s voice echoed in your ears from the other side of the phone.
“I am, yes. I was hoping you were not, though,” you said and he laughed.
“That’s not usually the case, you know that. I tried, I failed. Nothing different than any other night,” he said, and you smiled. “You?”
“I don’t know. I just can’t sleep. You know it happens from time to time.”
There was a pause there, and then he said:
“Put your earphones on.”
You smiled widely when you saw him on your screen, as he pressed the video call button.
“Woo, it’s pretty dark there.”
You turned the lights on, and when he saw you he stuck his thumb up.
“That’s much better.”
He sighed as you both stayed some moments there to stare at each other.
“I wish you were here.”
“I wish so too, Chris. But you know how it goes.”
“I am so tired of hiding. That stupid contract screws it all,” he said, a hint of indignation in his voice. You smiled bitterly at him.
“I know. But we both knew how it would be when we started this.”
“We did, but I never said I agreed with the rules. You know I like making my own rules-
“- just like you make your own music. I know, Chris. But you know I’m here, anytime, even as your secret.”
“My most precious one,” he whispered and you smiled.
“You’re that. So tell me, what is keeping you up?”
“Apart from just my mind, I am currently working on the new mixtape, and I also have to edit Han’s and Felix’s parts in some of the new songs. So I can easily say I caught up in work.”
“No use when we both know,” you said and he chuckled.
“At least I tried.”
You rested in silence, a silence you broke first.
“You’re doing so good, Chris,” you whispered. He smiled, and you could feel the butterflies in your stomach float around like vultures. It had already been a month since it all started, but the emotions were the same as if it was the first day you met him.
“It’s one of the things I question when the day is done, you know. Sometimes I can’t tell whether I’m enough or not.”
“You’re more than enough. This you should know. Not because it’s me who says so, but it’s what the facts show. You couldn’t do better than you already are.”
“In nights like this, I am so grateful I am not asleep.”
You smiled, and blew him a kiss. He formed a punch with his hand as if he caught it and then he held it on the side of his heart. Then, he brought the cell phone near his mouth and kissed on the camera, making you chuckle.
“Tomorrow after dance practice I’ll give you a real one.”
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