#suicide ment in tags

[zennyzach]

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[mishkakagehishka]

get shu beamed i guess

also this is the first time i've noticed he has that stupid frilly thing like miles edgeworth ace attorney on his school uniform. girl.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S THE FIRST TIME YOU'VE NOTICED THAT

But quuqh1hnnwnsmamqkwllaoyhabq shhhhuuu...... itsuki.......

[lightningfilledsaber]

I'm just so fucking glad to be alive

[lorisystem]

Also on top of freaking out about the effects itll have on my personal life if nazism does happen here i have nice feelings of guilt since i wont be the one more harshly affected. So what right do i have to even freak out or make a song about how i feel. I know its dumb as hell to think that too

[naggingatlas]

my mom is suicidal, help me get her to a therapist

i won't go into details, but she's had severe depression since i was a little kid and it's been getting worse every year. our material circumstances not being great ever since covid finally got to her and she really, really needs help. she's the kindest, most talented, wise and wonderful person i know and i don't want to lose her to mental illness. i've been begging a lot these past two years but this time we need it the most. the appointments in my country cost only around 20$ so even the smallest donations would help immensely.

i obviously have commissions open ranging from 30 to 150$ with examples below but if you want to donate,

paypal: naggingatlas@gmail.com

i'll set a goal just so i can see progress. this will cover 5 appointments:

0/100$

[e101betamkii]

terminally online girl meets terminally offline boy

[fishyizm]

og dialogue vv

[spooksier]

some sketches for a piece im doing for class :-) i <3 freaks

[exmotranny]

the green carpet scratches at your pink heels. bile rises in your throat.

they talk about womanhood- but it’s not quite right. there is the pink and compliments and talk of boys

i am a beloved daughter

but there is also something else. it digs at your flesh, it feasts on your skin. your mother motions at your chest, bigger than hers and you're not even done growing yet! how lucky.

of heavenly parents

you pray to a man every night, finish it in another’s name. on your knees. you were sent a shady link as a kid. the woman on her knees, tears streaming out of her eyes, i don't want this, she said

with a divine nature and eternal destiny

blood on the inside of your underwear. you were told this meant you were a woman now. you were ten years old. what the fuck did you know about being a woman? your mom said you weren’t allowed to touch between your legs, but it's normal to want to. you didn't know what that meant, either.

as a disciple of jesus christ,

you wanted to be desired. you daydreamed of being the trophy for boys around you, of claiming that role one day as a wife. you came from a long line of women married young. you don’t know their names, but you were taught about their husbands in church.

i strive to become like him.

pressing your breasts down as much as possible, trying to give the illusion of a flat chest. badly cropped jpgs of jesus photoshopped to have top surgery scars are the secret currency you pay to get past the hours of church. you hold them like diamonds.

i seek and act upon personal revelation

you thought god was talking to you. you almost threw away everything you owned. you thought you were a prophet. total fuckin’ ego death! holy shit! god speaks through me!

and minister to others in his holy name

and then the next morning. when your faith crashed, when moroni abandoned you, did it feel unreal to you too, joseph?

i will stand as a witness of god

oh god, no. please. i don’t know what’s real anymore.

at all times

leg hair peeking from under your pretty sunday dress. they all stare. you ignore them and open up to D&C 132.

and in all things

emma, did you love him to the end? i don’t think you wanted him. did you watch as he married a 14 year old? did you tell him you burned the commandment? did you cry when he died for the church that he loved more than he loved you?

and in all places.

blood on the floor of carthage jail. this martyr will be remembered forever. do they talk about you, emma? or are you just joseph’s wife?

as i strive to qualify for exaltation,

when i marry, my husband will be a god, and i shall cleave onto him. when i marry, i will go to his universe and bear more of his children.

i cherish the gift of repentance

heads bowed low as the sacrament is passed. my hands clutch onto the bottom of my skirt. pleasure outside celestial marriage is forbidden. i apologize for loving the wrong way.

and seek to improve each day

i tried to kill myself, last time i got home from girl’s camp. i got home and cried and found the pills and shoved them into my mouth until i cried more and more until i was gagging. i hunched over the toilet. my hands on the grimy floor.

with faith, i will

forced to sing in front of the congregation. my head spun from anxiety. my stomach turned with nausea.

strengthen my home and family,

loving wife beautiful kids loyal husband church once a week work weekdays weekend mom monthly round on the business end of his cock forever and the vomit threatens to make an appearance.

make and keep sacred covenants,

an old man is in a room alone with me. he asks me if i masturbate.

and receive the ordinances and blessings

i tell the man no. i receive a card so i can be ordained.

of the holy temple.

that's just how it goes, isn't it?

all around are paintings of god and jesus. we learned about heavenly mother. why don’t i see her in paintings? did god have plural marriages? did heavenly mother make us? why don’t we pray to her? did she watch god marry a 14 year old? did she cover her eyes? when she saw blood on her underwear, was she told she was a woman? did she touch between her legs? did she ever believe herself better than god? does she cry when she cant talk to us? why do i cry? was heavenly mother scared of singing in public and did she press her chest flat and did she cry when god forced himself into her mouth? did she burn his doctrine too?

i am given flowers on mother’s day. i will be one eventually, after all. and i vomit in the church bathroom quietly like the perfect woman i am supposed to be.

[meowsticmarvels]

phi is such an insane character. shes just a girl. shes rude and blunt and won't hesitate to call you out on your bullshit. she's not good at expressing her emotions. typically, she's cold and unemotional, but there are a few times where this demeanor snaps and breaks under pressure - shes's not as invulnerable as she wants to be. shes lived through so many histories where it all went wrong. shes a living paradox. an unknown variable in the equation. she is everything and nothing all at once. she says she doesn't feel like a normal human being - what sense of self is there in a person so stretched and torn by the fates of time? she's named after herself. she raised herself. similar with her brooch, which has been given to herself in a paradox. this brooch carried a message -- not even jupiter can find a lost opportunity, which she memorized and recited like a prayer. it was all that was left of her dead mother, she thought. it's why she studied latin at all, but ironically, she's born with the ability to do what jupiter can't. her twin brother is the very man who caused the deaths of her and many, many others, and they will never grow to have anything close to a sibling bond. she's a clone of a clone. the only reason that version of phi exists is because she was part of an experiment as as infant. she's patient zero for a virus that has one of its most prominent symptoms be driving its host to suicide. in one timeline, this is how she dies. she dies many times - she's burned, stabbed, slashed her own throat, had her head blown off, what have you. shes had to teach herself how to die. does she even fear death when she's had to witness her own death so many times? maybe during the ambidex game, but in the decision game, it hardly seems to be worth anything to her anymore. what was it like the first time she SHIFTed? she's a girl who will willingly kill herself for the sake of humanity, and would have, had diana not wanted to let her live. shes one of the few characters to have never directly killed anyone. she could never bring herself to. she never wanted to kill q-team. that was delta's cruel decision - the decision of her own brother to leave her with blood on her hands and a virus in her brain. she never wanted to be patient zero or a paradox or an experiment or a being that exists between the stars and the sky and in spacetime. she didn't choose any of this. not the ab game, not the decision game, no matter how necessary. underneath the cold and inflappable attitude she harbors is just a girl. a girl who's just as human as anyone else even if she doesn't feel it. a girl with fears, wants, needs. she just has to find the timeline where it all goes right.

[transmasccofee]

[ TW for implied/referenced suicide, dehumanization, and temporary character death ]

this is why you dont talk to kusuke

[aquapede]

not even a near death experience and amnesia could make them stop hating each other

[werewolfetone]

[rosacarolina]

stop pretending you don't use ai photos. i know what a fkn flower looks like lol i go outside. i also know what ai generation looks like. this blog is ai garbage

i have literally never used ai to generate photos. i did sneak a skyrim screenshot in a while back though

[lockandkeyhyena]

Now I'm worried(/j), what did this polite looking skunk do wrong?

content warning for child sexual assault and suicide

he groomed and sexually abused an underage student under his care and killed himself when he was found out.

the story is about him slowly trying to become a better person and realising and reckoning with his past actions all while spending an eternity damned to hell

the narrative would tackle and ask questions such as; is there such a thing as being beyond redemption? what situation would an abuser have to find themselves in to prompt genuine inner change? is it worth it? are some people just incapable of change?

i know it’s a confronting and emotionally charged story, but it’s one i have been wanting to tackle for years. i’m well aware it’s going to illicit a strong emotional reaction from some audience members but i want everyone to know that everything will be tagged accurately, and while you will be made to sympathise with him (i believe being made to empathise with awful people is important), his actions will not be excused or justified in any way.

he is a horrible person.

the narrative asks- is it possible for him to change? where do we draw the line in the sand for what crimes are deemed unforgivable even when faced with eternity, and why?

[im-smart-i-swear]

doodles i did over the past couple weeks while writing a 6k words shiro & kuron centric fic! (MAYBE ill write a second chap someday but for now its a oneshot lol) still cant believe i actually finished this thing... i didnt know i had it in me...

god i have so much more respect for fic writers and writers in general now, this shit is SO HARD, you people are literally insane, godspeed