#tadc caine/reader

[tadc-fluffcanons]

Could you write x reader headcanons for Caine and easily flustered/shy S/O?

*You are easily flustered and tend to be rather shy

*Caine is definitely aware of both of these things, but he would never use this to his advantage, as he doesn’t want to make you uncomfortable!

*though he does find it cute when you become flustered due to something he did

*when you become too flustered, you’ll hide your face, to which Caine will pull you into a hug and hold you close to him, apologizing for making you so flustered

*he’s not trying to do it on purpose, he promises!

*whenever you become shy, you will hide behind Caine if he’s around, pressing your fingers together in a nervous manner

*Caine finds this really cute, even if he won’t say it out loud

-Mod Red

[reds-fluff-extravaganza]

Caine x assistant!reader

Requested over on ao3! Reader is supposed to be an AI assistant.

You are one of Caine’s helpers, but you weren’t anything like Bubble. You were (human-like/animal-like, etc) and couldn’t be popped like them. Besides, you enjoyed helping Caine and seeing all that he would come up with for the characters’ adventures! While you may not have been around with Caine since the beginning, you had been helping him for a long time, but lately you’ve noticed something. You knew you liked being around him, but lately, you felt different… not in a bad way but it was odd.

You figured one of the others would have an answer for you, so you figured you could start there. You didn’t want to tell Caine yet until you were sure about these feelings you had. What you didn’t know, however, was that he felt the same thing towards you, but kept it hidden quite well. Also he knew what you were up to, with his many eyes around the place.

You had decided to ask Ragatha, since you knew Jax would not help you, and even if he did, he would make fun of you for it and laugh at you, which you didn’t need at the moment and the others probably wouldn’t be much help either.

“Oh, hello, Y/n! Is there something I can help you with?” You nodded as you landed on the ground in front of her.

“Yeah, there’s something I want to ask about. I don’t want to go to Caine about this yet, since I’m… unsure of what it is.”

“Of course, I don’t mind at all! But… you do remember that he has eyes everywhere, right?”

“Well, yeah, but like I said, I wanted to talk this out first.”

“Fair enough. Come on, let’s go talk it out.” With that said, she motioned for you to follow her, which you did.

Meanwhile, in someplace you were not aware of, Caine was talking to Bubble about, well, you!

“They’re my assistant, yet I can’t shake these feelings I have for them.”

“You should just tell them how you feel, boss!”

“I can’t do that, Bubble!” Caine turned to face away from his other assistant, his arms crossed. “As much as I want to.”

“But you know they feel that way towards you!” Bubble floated around to his front, getting a bit too close to him, making him back away.

“I am aware of this, yes.”

“Then just tell them! What are you so nervous about?”

“It’s not that I am nervous, Bubble.”

“Then… what is it?”

“I have no idea!”

“…if you’re not going to tell them, then I will!” And with that, Bubble disappeared.

“Bubble, you little menace, you get back here!” Caine took off after them.

Back with you and Ragatha, you had finally found what these feelings were that you felt around Caine.

“So that’s what it is, huh..” you tapped your chin in thought. “Well… even if I did tell him, there’s no way he would feel that way! Right?”

“I’m not sure, Y/n. But uh, it looks like you’ve got company.” Confused, you turned around to see Bubble approaching you two, with Caine right behind them.

“Y/n! There is something Caine would like to tell you!” You could just hear the mischief in their high pitched voice. Before you could ask what was going on, Caine had caught up to Bubble and popped them.

“I am very sorry for them!”

“It’s fine, Caine. What did you want to talk to me about?”

“Well, my wonderful assistant, let’s go talk elsewhere.” You glanced back at Ragatha, who only shrugged but nodded in agreement, as if to tell you to go with him. You shrugged in response and looked back at Caine, before following after him.

Once you were in a more secluded area, you two stopped and looked back at each other. It was quiet for a few moments, before you spoke up.

“Alright, now that we’re by ourselves, what did you want to tell me?” You asked, tilting your head to the side in a curious manner.

“Well…” Caine sighed a bit, taking a moment to gather his thoughts. “It’s about… us.”

“About us?”

“Yes, my lovely assistant. You see, I am aware of your feelings for me.”

“I figured as much.” You rubbed your arm, feeling a bit awkward now.

“However! I’ve been thinking… and uh, I feel the same way about you.”

“Wha-? You do?”

“Yes, I do.”

“I… I’m happy to hear it!” You smiled faintly and took a step closer to him.

“I’m sure you are, Y/n. I’m just… happy you feel the same way.” You laughed a bit and nodded in agreement before you asked,

“Hey, Caine..? Could we keep this a secret from the others for a little while longer?”

“Of course, my dear. They don’t have to know a thing.”

“Good. Because I’m not ready for what they’re going to say just yet.”

“Well technically they don’t really need to know. So it’s really up to you.”

“Perfect. Now let’s just… stay here for the time being.” You and Caine spent what felt like the next few hours in the same place, talking about not only possible ideas for adventures, but about other things you could think of, just happy to be spending time together.

[the-s1lly-corner]

Cuddling TADC cast

Been a minute since I've written an entire cast shot for TADC-- dont expect this to be a common thing again

Notes: gn reader, short and sweet, written on computer, Canon character focused, im sure ive already written this a loooooooong time ago but blah blah blah feeling like its been long enough to warrant a rewrite esp as new episodes have likely come out between then and now

CWs: mentions of body dysmorphia in zoobles part, mentions of loss in kingers part as well as struggles with memory

CAINE

LOVE love loves cuddling with you- hes never actually cuddled another person... bubble doesnt count and thats more of like... comical clinging hug than actual cuddling!

odds are youre physically larger than him but thats not going to stop him being big spoon- definitely has the traditional "men need to be the one in that position" not because he feels he NEEDS to as a man... he just likes feeling like youre personal protector- your man, your guy, your... uhuhuh... yeah!

he sometimes like to cuddle you mid air... hope youre not afraid of heights and the odd feeling of defying physics!

POMNI

again, odds are youre larger than her. she seems more of a little spoon person... though she strikes me as the type to be an awkward cuddler. she doesnt really know where to put her hands- even if its far from the first time youve cuddled into one another

i love her, and she loves you- but pomni looks like the type of person to run uncomfortably hot and doesnt like being touched because of it... clammy and gross feeling, doesnt like it. dont touch her she will get irritated from the feel... its not that she doesnt like you she just doesnt like feeling sweaty

compromises by holding your hand in bed... looping your fingers together as you sleep feels... more tender honestly...

RAGATHA

shes soft and plush- of course she is, shes a doll! definitely has some weight to her... sleeping with her arm wrapped around you is so comforting, genuinely the best sleep youve gotten in a while

she also vaguely smells like berries! so thats a bonus! she totally gets it if you nestle your face into her hair and drift off smelling her! sure its a little quirky but shes not going to judge you for it... honestly if you smelled nice like that she might do the same

no big spoon/little spoon thing... you two mostly just cling onto one another in the bed by any means necessary

JAX

only ever cuddles you when he knows for a fact other people arent going to come in and see him like this. i still stand firm that he hates being seen as soft and vulnerable. even letting himself indulge in stuff like this in an unapologetically tender and sincere way for YOU takes some time

and even then hes most likely to shift into you and cuddle if youre asleep, unable to perceive his rare moment of just... being soft.

he doesnt like being little spoon though, even without the vulnerability stuff

hes kind of sticky.. hes not fluffy in my mind. hes like those rubber squishy toys

KINGER

its... nice holding someone again... but when was the last time hes held someone? why does it feels so familiar but so different- it wasnt you in his arms before was it? it was... someone else, wasnt it? ...hes hardly in the moment long enough most of the time to really dwell on it

he likes being the big spoon- keeping you in his arms... er... hands... makes him feel anchored, calmer. he knows hes missed this even if he cant quite pin point why

but... he kind of melts right into you when you turn it back on him and make him the little spoon. its like seeing a stunned animal relax into comfort

GANGLE

cuddling with her can be a little... hard.. shes made of ribbon so there isnt much to hold and she doesnt have much weight to her... it.. definitely is a sore topic for her. it makes her feel like shes falling short somewhere. like she cant properly cuddle you

even holding her bundled up in your arms doesnt feel right, and shes going to pull away the entire time- doesnt want to waste your efforts even if you try to reassure her... times like this call for creativity--

wrapping her ribbons around you might be a little unconventional... and might lead to tangling- but its something, and its something only you two can do.. no one else! its special and unique to your relationship specifically.. word it like that to her and she'll cheer up a bit!

ZOOBLE

they dont... much care for cuddling. for multiple reasons. partly because its just not for them, and partly because it forces them to actively become aware of what their body is like... the shape, the textures... its all a bit much...

but zooble doesnt want to make you feel rejected- its a hard situation all around. they are going to at least talk to you about it so youre not left in the dark... though it might take a while for them to bring it up

they much prefer non physical intimacy anyways- even prior to the circus. acts of service, talking, spending time. things like that mean more to them

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Not requested, I'm just exited for the new episode!

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Caine and the Readers first date

★ Caine didn't ask you on a date, he announced it. "You, my dear, have the honor of accompanying me on a very special adventure!" Handing you a bouquet of flowers and whatever else he thinks is "romantic," like a beating human heart.

★ He builds an entire park, complete with a flower garden. Just for the two of you to walk around in. Each sentence Caine says is rehearsed. But he tries his best to act casual. Ask him if he made this just for you, and he says it's "Just something I threw together."

★ The details tell a different story. Clearly, he had been working on this for a while. "You know, if I had a heart I'm sure it would be fluttery right now." You pause. Thinking about just how long he was waiting to say that.

★ While the two of you were gone, Bubble was left in charge. That ended exactly how you'd expect. With Jax stuck, stranded, on the tent's roof. Gangle hid in the pillow fort with Zooble. No clue where Ragatha and Kinger went. Same with Pomni.

[bitesdigitalcircus]

Someone asked if I can post a very explicit Caine pic here on tumblr but I'm not sure I'm allowed to because of the guidelines? Plz help! ♡♡

[impishjesters]

Pomni, Kinger, Caine & Jax's reaction to their s/o abstracting

warning(s): angst, hurt no comfort, self-blame, "death" of the reader, implied "death"/abstraction of another character (spoiler: Kinger), hopeful outcome note(s): There's nothing incredibly heavy or detailed, just tread carefully if "death" is something you are sensitive to, please. The "hopeful outcome" implies that Caine will at some point in time be able to fix those who've abstracted. A/N: I was feeling particularly cruel and wanted to write some angst, this came to mind and I'll be honest. I made myself a little sad.

Pomni

She never saw it coming, of course, you were acting different lately but she didn’t think it would… lead to you abstracting…

It took forever for things to get some semblance of normalcy, and you being with her was a major part of it.

Sure the relationship in a place like this was a bit, weird, but you cared about her, and she cared about you.

You kept her sane and grounded, so when you were found abstracted? It felt like she failed you.

Ragatha tries to assure her that you aren’t completely gone. Like Kaufmo you’re being kept in the cellar. Caine claims the abstracted are being kept there until he can find a way to “fix” them. (Whether he’s genuine or not though, none of them know.)

It’s all empty promises though, she still feels like she failed you.

Kinger

Not again…

Kinger silently promised himself not again, he was fine being friendly with everyone else that fell into the circus, but he had no intentions of being more than that.

But then you happened, and while he was still in shambles from the time and the insanity spent here, you were there beside him. Like a knight in shining armor.

He hadn’t been around when you abstracted, in fact, he didn’t know you abstracted until there was yelling, and boom an abstraction was causing chaos.

Kinger didn’t know who it was until it was sent off to the cellar, actually, he didn’t know who it was until he realized everyone was present except you.

There’s a high probability that losing someone again, losing you, is what ends up being his own downfall. The other’s (not including Jax) try their all to get him to calm down but it’s not enough, it’s too late…

Caine

Of all the humans to be pulled in he never once got attached.

This was never supposed to happen, he’s incapable of love.

Caine does his best to keep the humans from abstracting, and as many eyes as he has over the place, there are always ones that slip through his grasp.

Of course, he’s not around when you abstract, it takes a bunch of hooting and hollering from everyone before he shows up and oh hey an abstraction.

At an immediate glance, he knows it’s you, abstractions never remotely look like the person they were before but he knows it’s you. You don’t recognize him as you lash out, of course you don’t, you can’t.

He’s unsure about tossing you with the others in the cellar, there’s nowhere else he can truthfully keep you without causing problems. So into the cellar, you go.

Caine visits you though, not for long but he does check in on you. Not that anything changes, but out of all the abstractions down there, he knows exactly which one is you.

You’ll be the first human he fixes as soon as he’s able to.

Jax

His s/o abstracted? Nice joke, though it’s in poor taste. You’re completely fine, he just saw you earlier.

Jax doesn’t believe it until he sees it, and seeing it absolutely ruins him. He’s seen countless others get abstracted and thrown into the cellar, but why, why does it have to be you?

Why couldn’t it have been literally anyone else? He didn’t give a shit about anyone else, the one person he cared for, and you…

Similarly to Pomni, he feels it’s his fault like he could’ve, no should’ve done more. Was he so wrapped up in everything else that he didn’t notice the signs? Why didn’t you talk to him? You didn’t, didn’t do that on purpose, did you?

For the first time ever, the others are genuinely worried about Jax, they all saw/know how much you meant to him. The two of you even spoke fondly about what the two of you would do if you got out of the circus.

For a while Jax becomes even more irrational and unhinged, they try not to hold it against him too badly, even when he oversteps. He’s grieving and none of them know just how long that’ll go on.

Jax isn’t quite the same afterward, but he makes sure that nobody else tries to worm their way into his heart.

If it’s possible, he’ll make sure Caine fixes you the second he’s able to. Even if Caine can fix only one person, it’s going to be you.

[minhees55]

sth shy Caine

aww he's adorable. . .i just want see this ＜3

[0crispinn]

once y’all start fucking it just wouldn’t stop, he’s a rabbit. but the rounds wouldn’t last LONG. you somehow pass the family friendly filter to hop on it and you’re barely moving up and down on that thing before he tenses up with a slight grunt.

you’d turn around just to see he already finished. “again.” he’d mumble, bucking his hips up against your rear to encourage you to keep going. maybe it’s better he only lasts a minute at a time, you never know where that freak caine might be.

alright that’s all i got prob gonna delete in a few mins 🙈

[magenta-malice]

Stress Relief

Jax x Reader 

sorry for the long intro

Summary: Caine organises a roast session for the circus members, with Jax being the first target. He plays it cool at first, but when the jokes hit a little too close to home, Y/N finds him struggling with the aftermath.

A/N: This idea came to me in a ₊‧⁺˖vision˖⁺‧₊, inspired by that episode in the Office where everyone roasts Micheal and he acts tough in front of them but gets really emotional and cries about it at the end. I feel that’s extremely Jax coded. Originally, I imagined this as just a bunch of random HCs, but then I wanted to write an actual story around it – so I decided to do both.

You’ll see an intermission in the middle where I just made the roasts into bullet points, mostly because I came up with too many for each character and had no idea how to structure them. So I just got lazy with it. Hope you don’t mind lol. Imagine it like a fun montage!

Quick backstory:

1.) This happens on the next day of ‘A Slithering Adventure’, also written by yours truly, so if you haven’t read that one yet, number one, how dare you, and second, you don’t necessarily have to read it, but it’s nice for the context. Not suggesting anything… but, y’know. Glance glance, wink wink.

2.) I mentioned in that post that I’m in the middle of writing a long and tedious TADC AU kind of thing for myself with my OC in mind, who has a mysterious backstory that the circus members don’t know about. This oneshot is also a part of that story. There’s a brief scene touching on that here, but nothing you can’t handle. 

CW: underlying themes of emotional damage / emotional vulnerability - from both Y/N and Jax | Jax gets bullied <3 | Y/N has hair, Kinger has brows and Caine has a grin?? i dunno man

Word count: 3044 | Masterlist

You woke up feeling like sleep had chewed you up and spat you back out. Maybe it was yesterday’s adventure – running from a giant serpent, getting lost in the woods, and, most amusingly, watching Jax try (and fail) to act like he wasn’t absolutely losing his mind.

On the surface, it had been hilarious. Seeing him crumble in fear, fumbling through excuses, pretending he was totally fine? Priceless. But now, lying here, staring at the ceiling, you couldn’t shake the nagging feeling in the back of your mind.

You almost felt bad for him. Almost.

You stretched, your joints making an odd rubbery squeak – just another reminder that your body wasn’t really your body anymore. Sitting up, you replayed yesterday’s events in your mind.

Jax had tried so hard to keep his usual smug composure, but the moment that snake slithered too close, he practically levitated off the ground. His ears had shot straight up, his pupils shrunk to tiny squares, and, oh, the best part, his voice cracked when he snapped at you to “move faster, dammit!”

You snorted to yourself. Yeah, real smooth, Jax.

Still… the way he had reacted – it wasn’t just some overblown freak-out. There was real fear in his eyes. Not the dramatic, over-the-top kind he faked for attention, but something raw, something instinctive. And that’s what stuck with you.

You weren’t used to seeing Jax vulnerable. Hell, you weren’t sure if he was used to it.

With a sigh, you got up. Not my problem, you told yourself. He’ll be fine.

Probably.

You shook off the lingering thoughts and made your way out of your room. The hallway stretched ahead, bathed in that usual, eerie vibes – no windows, no real sense of time passing, just the same endless loop of artificial existence.

As you got lost in your thoughts, you nearly bumped into someone.

“Kinger?”

The old chess piece flinched like you’d just jolted him out of a deep trance. His eyes darted around before settling on you, blinking a few times as if trying to place who you were.

“Oh! Oh, yes, you’re… you’re…” he paused, rubbing his gloved hands together. “Wait, what was I–? Oh dear, I was– hm.”

Kinger always seemed lost in his own world, but today, there was something… different about it. 

“You alright there, buddy?” you asked, tilting your head with a half-smile.

He let out a nervous chuckle, then leaned in slightly. “I had a thought just now,” he muttered, his voice filled with confusion. “But it slipped away. Isn’t that strange? Happens all the time, but this one felt important.”

Your stomach suddenly twisted. You had a hunch of what this was about. He’s remembering. Not clearly, not yet – but it was only a matter of time.

Before you could respond, he straightened up. “Ah, well! Off to breakfast, are we? Yes, yes, me too! Or – was I going somewhere else?”

You forced a grin. “Nah, you’re doing just fine, Kinger.”

His eyes twitched. “Huh?”

You just patted his shoulder, ignoring how he flinched. “C’mon, let’s get going.”

Kinger hesitated but eventually shuffled along beside you. He kept glancing your way, brow furrowed like he was trying to piece together a puzzle with missing pieces. You pretended not to notice.

As you two entered the main room, the others were already gathered, the air thick with anticipation. Your eyes immediately met Jax’s, who was already slouched on the couch, arms folded behind his head as if he owned the place. 

You tried to ignore the faint hint of amusement flickering across your face as you sat down next to him, your thoughts still lingering on the adventure with the serpent. You could still hear Jax’s high-pitched yelp in your head and the way he had tried – and spectacularly failed – to act calm. Not that you’d rub it in… too much.

"You still recovering from yesterday or have the nerves settled down already?”

Jax shot you a quick glance as he leaned back with a cocky grin. "Nerves? What nerves? I’m good as new, Y/N."

“Uh-huh,” you said, not buying it for a second. You crossed your arms, keeping your expression neutral, but you couldn’t help the small, teasing smile that tugged at your lips.

"Hey, I’m just saying, I’m extremely calm under pressure. One of my many talents," Jax continued, grinning wider. "You can admit it – you were impressed."

You snorted at his response. “Right, sure. Whatever you say, bunny boy.”

Before Jax could reply, Caine’s voice boomed across the room, cutting through the casual chatter like a knife. "Alright, alright! Settle down, everyone! Your favorite ringmaster has finally arrived!"

You could practically feel the collective groan ripple through the room.

Caine twirled in mid-air, his voice filling the entire room. "Ah, welcome, my fabulous team! Welcome, my precious superstars, my beloved troupe of dazzling individuals who make this circus the magnificent spectacle it is!" His eyes shined with excitement as he continued, his hands sweeping grandly toward the group. "Now, my lovely cast of unique and talented beings, it’s time for a very special event, one that will unite us all in ways you cannot yet fathom!"

He paused for dramatic effect, letting the silence hang in the air before delivering his next words with grand flair. "Today, we’re embarking on a marvelous journey of togetherness! The bond of a team is forged in the most delightful of fires. And what better way to nurture that bond than... a team-building exercise, of course!"

The room fell into a hushed stillness. You tilted your head in confusion, not entirely sure where this was going.

Caine’s grin widened as he spun in a slow circle. "This will not be some trivial, run-of-the-mill bonding experience, no! No, no, no... This, my dear friends, will be a roast! A chance for each of you to lovingly tear each other apart, but with words, of course! Nothing brings people closer than a little well-meaning verbal destruction, am I right?"

There was a beat of silence.

Then–

"Wait, what?" Jax sat up, grinning. "You’re saying we just get to insult each other? In front of everyone?"

"Precisely!" Caine exclaimed, beaming like he’d just announced the greatest prize. "Let’s see who can come up with the sharpest wit, the cleverest insult, and of course, the most playful jabs. All in good fun, of course!"

You could see Gangle and Pomni getting uncomfortable, probably being a bit concerned about what’s about to go down. Zooble let out a sigh, already regretting coming out of their room today.

Caine clapped his hands dramatically, bringing the attention back to him. "Alright! Let the games begin! I expect nothing short of absolute brilliance from each of you. And remember, we’re a team. A family! Just... with a little extra spice today."

"Alright, let’s get started," Jax cracked his knuckles. "This might be the best day of my life."

The others exchanged uneasy glances, half-expecting Jax to unleash all of his inner demons. Caine spun in the air. "Since Jax is clearly so excited, why don’t we start with him?"

Jax froze.

"Wait–"

But it was too late. The damage had been done.

The room fell silent for a moment. Then Ragatha leaned forward, a smile spreading across her face. "Oh, this should be fun."

___________________________

POMNI

#1: 

Pomni: Visibly sweating. “Uh… Jax… you, um… you’re really mean. Like, aggressively mean. If I had a dollar for every time you insulted me, I’d – well, I don’t know what I’d do, because there’s no money here, but I’d be rich in theoretical dollars.” Pauses, then mutters. “Wait, that sounded dumb. Can I start over?”

Jax: “Nah, keep going, this is hilarious.”

#2: 

“Uh… Jax. You, um… you’re really good at making people feel bad. Which is… impressive? In a terrible way? Anyway, I don’t think you have emotions, and I think if you did, you’d bully them too.”

#3:

“If you disappeared, I wouldn’t even question it…”

GANGLE

#1: 

Gangle: “Jax, every time you walk into a room, I have to mentally prepare myself. You’re like a jump scare, but instead of a scary monster, it’s just… pure emotional damage.”

Jax: “Aww, thanks, ribbons.”

Gangle: “That wasn’t a compliment...”

Jax: Grinning. “Sounded like one.”

#2:

“I-I-I just think it’s really funny how you call everyone else pathetic, but you literally have nothing going for you. You don’t even wear shoes."

#3:

“I tried drawing Jax once, but the paper crumpled itself out of self-respect.”

KINGER

#1:

“Jax reminds me of this guy I used to know in the war. Always running his mouth. We left him in a ditch.”

#2:

“You remind me of a mosquito. Annoying, persistent, and somehow always there when I don’t want you to be.”

#3:

“You know, Jax, I think I used to have a friend like you… Oh, wait, never mind… I wouldn’t do that to myself.”

Y/N

#1:

"Jax, I have to ask – do you actually do anything around here, or do you just exist to be a professional pain in the ass?"

#2:

"You’re like a kid who just learned what sarcasm is and decided to make it his whole personality."

#3:

"I think the real mystery of this place is how you’re somehow both the most annoying and the most avoidant person here."

RAGATHA

#1: 

“Jax, you act like you’re too cool to care about anything, but I’ve seen you spend fifteen minutes trying to get your reflection to wink back at you the ‘right’ way. So. Yeah.”

#2: 

Ragatha: “Jax, I’ve seen you laugh at your own jokes for a solid five minutes while everyone else just stands there in silence. You are your own biggest fan, and honestly? Even you deserve better.”

Jax: “That was almost clever. I’m proud of you.”

Ragatha: “Don’t patronize me. Also, I know for a fact you talk to yourself in the mirror.”

Jax: “Who told you that?”

Ragatha: “You did. Out loud. In the middle of this room.”

#3:

“If we haven’t already got a suggestion box, I’d make one with a ‘things that need to be removed’ label and slip a piece of paper in with your name.”

ZOOBLE

#1:

“Jax, you’re like a vending machine that only gives out insults and expired chips. Just once, I’d like to press a button and get, I don’t know, basic human decency. But no, it’s always ‘ha ha, Zooble looks like modern art that got hit by a bus.’”

#2:

Zooble: “Jax, you act like you’re too cool to care about anything, but let’s be real – you’re the kind of guy who’d fake not knowing what a hug is just so no one tries to give you one.”

Jax: “Oh, please. Like anyone here would want to hug me.”

Zooble: “You’d be surprised. Some people love a good ‘fixing a broken man’ project.”

Jax: No way that’s a thing.

Zooble: “Oh, absolutely. You’re the perfect candidate.”

#3:

Deadpan. “Jax is proof that some things just keep going, even when nobody wants them to.”

CAINE

#1:

“Jax, my boy! I’d roast you, but honestly, I think the universe already did that when it made you HAHAHA!”

#2:

Caine: “Jax, Jax, Jax… My favorite little nuisance! You know, if I had a nickel for every time you caused chaos, I’d – wait! I don’t need nickels! I’m already infinitely powerful HAHAHAHAHA! But if I did need them, I’d be filthy rich!”

Jax: “Wow, Caine. That was… whatever that was.”

Caine: “Well, you can’t roast perfection! Now back to you, champ! You may be an insult machine, but hey! At least you’re consistent! Consistently terrible HAHAHAHAHA!”

#3:

“Jax! My favorite little chaos gremlin! If I could actually feel regret, you’d be the reason why!”

BUBBLE

“Jax. You’re a #&@$! ×@% $#=?+% #$&@Đ÷ €$?¤#@! @ $÷!# that %&ß$#! %@&#ע! *?!&#@!+$ß×&Đ.”

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Caine’s voice boomed through the room, as energised as ever. “Well, wasn’t that simply spectacular? What a brilliant display of camaraderie! Look at you all, bonded through the magic of playful verbal annihilation! Why, I’d say this was the best team-building exercise yet!”

The room was buzzing with laughter and lingering amusement, the cast still fired up from the roasts. Even Ragatha, who had initially looked sceptical of the idea, was grinning ear to ear. Zooble leaned back with a smirk, Gangle wiped away what might have been tears of either joy or secondhand pain.

Jax was smiling too. The same lazy, smug grin he always wore. It was convincing enough that no one seemed to question it. But you had been watching him closely.

His smile wasn’t quite right.

Not enough teeth.

And his eyes – normally playful, always scanning for the next opportunity to push someone’s buttons – looked... distant. Unfocused.

The way he leaned back on the couch, his fingers tapping against his arm, his slight pull on his gloves, and his ears twitched every so often, like he was catching a sound no one else could hear.

No one else noticed.

But you did.

You knew what it looked like when someone acted like nothing was wrong, just to keep everyone else from seeing the cracks.

Caine, oblivious as ever, twirled in the air. “Alright, my wonderful wacky weirdos! This exercise is officially OVER! I expect nothing but besties for the resties energy from now on! Dismissed!”

The moment those words left Caine’s mouth, Jax stood up. Not too fast, not too slow – just natural enough to avoid suspicion. He stretched his arms over his head with a yawn, flashing his usual easygoing smirk. "Welp, that was fun. You guys almost made me feel something."

No one batted an eye as he wandered off.

You saw his hand clenching into a fist the second he turned away. The way his ears pinned back just slightly. The way his steps, while casual, had a certain... urgency to them.

You hesitated. For a second, you considered letting it go. He’d clearly rather be alone. But there was something about Jax that nagged at you. So, instead, you followed.

Jax moved with purpose, leaving the tent, weaving through the grounds, past the main attractions, past the places where the others usually went outside when needed “fresh air”. It wasn’t obvious at first, but after a few turns, you realised where he was going.

Your stomach twisted.

No way.

Jax slipped past a curtain of glitchy vines, making his way up a small hill behind the water park, where an old, gnarled tree stood. You had been here countless times before – it was your secret spot. The place you went when you needed to clear your head, when the circus became too much.

You hadn’t thought anyone else knew about it.

And yet, there he was.

Jax sat against the tree, his back pressed to the trunk, his arms loosely hugging his knees. His usual smug expression was gone, replaced by something emptier. He stared ahead at nothing, the glow of his eyes dimmer than you’ve ever seen it.

For a long moment, you just stood there.

Jax didn’t acknowledge you, but you could tell he knew you were there. His ear flicked slightly at the sound of your footsteps.

Still, he didn’t move. 

Didn’t say anything. 

Didn’t crack a joke or roll his eyes or tell you to scram.

That alone said a lot.

You approached slowly, stopping just a few feet away.

“…Do you wanna talk about it?”

Jax’s ears twitched. A beat of silence. 

“No.”

It wasn’t sharp or defensive. Just flat. Dismissive.

You exhaled through your nose, tilting your head slightly. “You’re getting dangerously close to a full-on therapy session, y’know.”

Jax let out something that was almost a chuckle – but it was faint. Weak. His lips barely twitched, but he still didn’t look at you.

You shifted your weight, rocking back on your heels, studying him. You didn’t know what to make of this.

Jax wasn’t supposed to be like this. He was supposed to be an annoying little shit. The guy who found amusement in messing with people, who took nothing seriously, who never let anyone in.

You recognised this.

The way he sat, curled in on himself just enough to seem smaller. The way his usual sharp edges had dulled. The way he was pretending to be fine even when he so clearly wasn’t.

It was familiar.

And you didn’t like that.

Because it meant you understood him more than you wanted to.

You sighed, running a hand through your hair before dropping down to sit beside him. You rested your arms on your knees, staring ahead at nothing, mirroring him.

You didn’t say anything else. You figured, if he did want to talk, he would. And if he didn’t? Well.

You could at least sit with him in the silence.

Minutes passed. It wasn’t uncomfortable, exactly. Just… heavy. Neither of you moved. Neither of you spoke. The kind of quiet that wasn’t empty, but full of things that were left unsaid.

You didn’t know how long you sat there, but it gave you time to think about all the similarities you shared with Jax. Hiding everything behind jokes. Pushing people away before they could get too close. Pretending you didn’t need anyone when, deep down, you did. Maybe you were just as bad at being alone as he was.

Then, finally, Jax shifted. Just a little. His legs stretched out in front of him, arms still loosely draped over his knees. It wasn’t much. But it was something. Like he was letting a little crack appear in the wall he’d built around himself.

That small shift told you everything. You weren’t sure if he even noticed, but you could feel the weight of it. The way he was letting himself be… here. Not perfect. Not completely okay. But here. And that was enough.

"…You’re not alone," you murmured, barely above a whisper. It wasn’t meant to fix anything. Just a reminder.

He didn’t respond. But you didn’t need him to.

You both sat there, in the quiet, for as long as it took.

[allieywithani]

TADC CHARACTERS WITH A PORCELAIN DOLL PARTNER

this can be obviously taken as romantic or platonic. i tried keeping it pretty simple!

Characters included :

Pomni

Jax

Ragatha

Kinger

Caine

Gummigoo

Gangle

Zooble

POMNI

☆ she is one of the most apologetic of the bunch. if say, jax pushed her and she bumped into you, she'd freak the fuxk out and make sure you're alright before yelling at jax or something.

☆ i'd say she's pretty hypervigilent, so if you let out like little dings and tinks whenever you're walking around, she'd pinpoint where you are pretty quickly and find you. she feels uneasy whenever she isn't with you.

☆ like. when she hears those little noises you let out, she almost immediately looks around like a groundhog!!

☆ in candy land, you ended up getting like half your face and left side totally shattered from the... bumpy ride. pomni was very messed up after seeing you that way - it unnerved her even more when you tried to placate her and told her it was pretty normal.

☆ she totally tried to pick up the pieces and save them.

☆ but then caine fixed you right up with a snap of his fingers! pomni kinda hates that. just because you can get your body reset, doesn't mean you should be so okay with getting you know, hurt.

☆ during the haunted mansion, she was high key FREAKED when you got separated. she'd thought the worst at that point.

☆ she found it endearing how thoughtful you were during the nasty ah fast food adventure happened. you'd constantly wander over to her to make sure she was alright after seeing gummigoo. you even encouraged her to go try and talk to him, while you covered register. she's infinitely grateful for that.

☆ you're sort of a safe haven for her. a calm respite amongst the chaos that is the rest of the circus.

JAX

☆ jax is very mean. this is very known. it's not new. but although he is crude, and violent and mean, he is oddly gentle with you.

☆ if you're body has cracked, which, let's face it, it usually is, and the both of you are by happenstance alone, he rubs his hands over the spiderwebs on your body. your hands and fingers are usually cracked the most, so he tends to sit beside you and just quietly glide his thumb over them while holding your hand.

☆ when around the other members, he sorta tends to ignore you.

☆ when you're broken and around the other members, though, he follows you around like a dog. he'll be slouched and muttering under his breath, but he keeps looking over you to make sure you don't stumble again. he can gauge out whether or not your breaks are too uncomfortable pretty easy. if they're too bad he'll start carrying you like a sack of potatoes under his arm if he knows he won't hurt you more.

☆ lowkey you piss him off when you go out of your way for the others during caine's adventures. if you know you're going to end up getting hurt, then why the hell are you doing it?

☆ like pomni, he is one of the few characters that can tell you're coming before you actually show by the sound of your walking. he tends to sigh and roll his eyes before looking for you.

☆ if there is an instance where a direct action from him ends up with you getting broken (and there's no caine there to fix it) he totally stops dead. he'll stop and back up and just. does. not. know. what. to. do

☆ he will avoid you for a long time. (he is scared that you will outright tell him you hate him. or that he scares you. he loathes the fact that something as lame as that terrifies him)

RAGATHA

☆ the mothers. you two are like two mother hen trying to make sure the other is always okay and everyone reluctantly accepts this.

☆ it's sorta crazy for the both of you. ragatha can throw herself into anything and be virtually fine. she'd be uncomfortable, but fine. but if you did, you'd simply, break. your broken pieces would tear through the fabric that makes her and hurt her, too. it sorta sucks. you both need to be so careful.

☆ unlike jax and pomni, ragatha tends to not hear you coming. there's a lot of times where you even happen to spook her! ragatha has a tendency to look off into nothing and sort of become unresponsive to almost everything around her if she's left alone for too long.

☆ if the two of you have some free time and get the chance to cuddle, it's genuinely the best cuddles + sleep ever. if you two nap in one of kinger's pillow forts, expect at least gangle and zooble to be with the both of you when you wake up.

☆ i think that if you two would ask caine.. you, her, and gangle would get together and scrapbook together. ragatha strikes me as the type of person to decorate a pretty little frame with stickers and accessories, with a picture of the both of you inside. absolute cutie.

KINGER

☆ no one quite understands kinger like you do. they don't understand you, either, but honestly, he seems pretty bonded to you. so why do they care? the both of you are in your own little bubble most of the time, and the others are content with it as long as they don't have to deal with kinger's nonsense rambles. they don't mean harm by it, but they just really have no idea what he goes on about.

☆ you'd probably be one of the members that had to have been in the circus longest. you are kinger's last pillar, in a way. when he isn't in the comfort of the dark, he seeks you - a ray of his past and himself.

☆ probably follows you around if he isn't in his pillow forts. if the members see you, they know that kinger likely isn't far behind.

☆ if you happened to not participate in an adventure, he'd probably try his best to recount it all for you later that night. he's pleased that you're so patient with him.

☆ if you do participate the both of you are totally go-with-the-flow types of people. if you break, he'll ask if you need help getting around, and if you do, he will try his best. if you don't, then he'll give you a pat on the head and tell you to be a little more careful. he knows caine will help you, and the both of you have grown quite numb to you getting injured.

☆ obviously you guys sleep in pillow forts exclusively! it's so chill, and there's very little ways that you could get chipped in them. it's most optimal.

☆ kinger has set up various forts in the circus for you.

CAINE

☆ literally no one understands why or how the both of you are so close, but to be honest, it's kinda entertaining to see the both of you together. when they see him with you, they almost forget that caine is an ai. it almost catches them off guard.

☆ he'd dress you up with a snap of his finger. like, no warning either. he'd come up to you and be all excited, briefly telling you he's thought up some new awesome outfit and just go for it. alot of the time, it's a slightly altered appearance of his own suit. you can be his assistant, he says!

☆ he'd be breaking a sweat when he sees you cracked or broken from an adventure and immediately fix you up.

☆ when it's just the two of you, he sometimes can't help but apologize for not being able to do more for you. every day for you is dangerous, even within his circus (like when kaufmo abstracted) you are simply not safe from breaking. he tells you he is sorry he can't make it better.

GUMMIGOO

(THIS IS MY POST I CAN INCLUDE WHOEVER I WANNTT)

☆ he would obviously nickname you as 'doll' or 'dollie' like let's be fr.

☆ he'd FREAK just as bad as pomni if you ended up breaking. if he sees cracks or chips on your fingers and hands, he'd immediately try to advise you to stop participating in whatever it is you're doing and let him take over.

☆ he'd tell you how much he cannot wait to tell his momma about you. his crew likes you, too! they're all real sweet with you.

GANGLE

☆ gangle tends to get lost in her art, so if you go up to her while she's drawing, she likely won't notice you until you talk to her. it's pretty cute, because she'll freak out for a bit and ask how long she had been ignoring you before apologizing.

☆ if you get cracked, she tends to stick by your side and wrap her ribbons around wherever it was you ended up breaking. her and pomni are major worry warts.

☆ she obviously doodles you. if you peer over and happen to catch her making a drawing of you, you cannot help but let out a little coo of endearment. this catches her attention and she feels like dropping iver and dying a million times over. (she's so happy you like them, though!)

ZOOBLE

☆ zooble is especially careful with you. if they can avoid touching you, they'd prefer it. it's usually you who would initiate any sort of physical contact.

☆ goodness they adore you. for a while, they found themselves even envious of you. you are perfect in their eyes, with your delicate skin and pretty face, while they're an amalgamation of shapes and colors that sometimes they cannot even comprehend. they could stare at you for hours and be happy.

☆ you two would skip out on adventures together. zooble is a total realist so whenever you consider actually going, zooble will go ahead and ask caine to be very very specific with where you will be going just to be sure you're okay! (and would ask you if you're sure after giving you the rundown) if it's too dangerous, you two will simply retreat into your room and nap or find another way to keep yourselves entertained.

☆ they've likely had nightmares about you full on shattering and it wakes them up in a horrible cold sweat. it's very rare that they muster up the will to leave their room and go to check on you.

[lorisidirgiichi2002]

TADC - Anxiety/Autistic Reader Headcanons.

Gender-Neutral Pronouns Friendship levelled relationships.

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For Pomni, she is just as anxious as you, though while she has started to cope with it a lot better for a few months, she can relate to wanting to escape and get out of the circus just as much. The first few interactions are awkward, but after hanging out with them, and you understand her scenario, you both grow to relatable friends and might look for the exit together while trying to go with the flow of the adventures and curious to hear about her adventures, though won't reveal some Out of Bounds secrets early on so you don't recklessly go looking for it fearing of being Abstracted.

Since Ragatha offered a hand to you, you saw Ragatha as a sort of mother figure, if not that, a really good person to go towards for advice or comfort away from the chaotic scenarios that happen in the Circus. While you have confirmed that you mostly rather be left alone to do your favourite activities, you'd start to panic if anything happens to your close friends, especially to Ragatha and she'd respect your space and boundaries the most, even in a bad mood. If there's something the others don't understand about you, you tell them to Ragatha and passes it on towards others, though might raise a eyebrow on Jax knowing him.

Depending on the type of person you are, you either going to relate to Jax or you're going to hate him. Jax is a snarky jackass that would purposely lead you into danger or screw you over or pull pranks. You'd rightfully call him out and would lose your cool towards him, though if you manage to catch some rare instances that he's depressed or in a low mood, you might be able to strike a conversation with him when the mood is calmer, though he tries to hide it. Jax when the façade breaks would probably speak his frustrations about this place and you'd understand his feelings and probably wanted to hang out with him if the adventures started to get boring and stale and cause a tiny bit of trouble. (Not too much to his extent.) Though you know it doesn't excuse the few times he pranked you and left you panicking and overwhelmed and messing with your pattern and routine with dealing with the Digital Circus.

Gangle is probably a member of the Digital Circus that you'd would probably feel the most empathy for and relates to being the joke of the group. Gangle is the most fragile and emotional of the group and to see someone step up and be there for them would be a mood bringer. You'd would be the most apologetic if you ever broke their comedy mask and would help out in repairing it and probably talk about your hyperfixations and some funny stories to try and cheer Gangle up. Though depending with your relationship with Jax, you'd 100% protect Gangle like their life depends on it, because that's not what friends are for being bullies to each other or respectfully tell him to stop.

Kinger is something that is absolutely hard to crack and understand personality wise and difficult. Being the most paranoid and unpredictable member of the group, you could see themselves as Kinger if Ragatha didn't come to your aid and had to adapt without help. You'd probably be scared about Kinger's absent minded and slow reactions to your presence and be scared of them screaming or wielding a shotgun, though tried to calm him down and be there for them regardless of how you feel about him. Depending on the episode canon by the time of writing this (30th September 2024), it is unknown if Kinger would ever talk about Queenie or even mention about her towards you.

Zooble is the most rude and irritable member of the group, while she might be off to do her own thing and not partake in adventures with a soft side to newcomers, I believe that Zooble might be a member that might take a long time to bond with, but maybe an alternative to Jax and wants to let off some steam if Ragatha isn't available and just say a bunch of censored swears. Though you might feel a bit sad if Zooble told you to !#@? off or insulting you and gives them space. Zooble might believe that next to Kinger, you might be the next member to be abstracted knowing how you're coping with living here, just to break out their persona would try to understand and help you.

Caine is definitely the most uneasy member to hang out with, being the know it all and so forth running the circus. You might call to him to ask any questions or any rules and logic you need to understand living in the digital circus and write it down in notes, though might use that information to Pomni for understanding and finding a way out. While Caine is generally cheerful and willing to help you, you can't help but sense there's something uncanny about him outside of his strange appearance. Just the understanding of the concept of Abstraction sends shivers down your spine despite him telling you not to worry about it too much and motivates you to leave even more. Bubble appearing out of nowhere would startle you and probably pop them without Caine's permission via instinct and habit if they kept interrupting you.

What do you guys think? Was there some things you'd change? Do you want to see a S/O sequel to this? Let me know in the comments below.

[tadc-fluffcanons]

Caine comforting his s/o after a nightmare

*Caine didn’t think it was possible for nightmares to happen in the digital circus, but when you came to him after experiencing one, he knew something wasn’t right

*but for now, his first priority was to help you and calm you down

*though… he was a little surprised that you would come to him for this instead of one of the others. To be fair, you were his s/o, so of course you would go to him!

*Caine didn’t mind though, he was just focused on you right now

*he had brought you back to your room/someplace more comfortable, had you lie down and he lies there with you

*and if you want to talk about it, he’s more than happy to listen, but if not, then that’s okay too!

*Caine will keep you close to him and talk a little bit before you feel calmed down enough to get back to sleep

*though sleep isn’t really needed in the digital circus, it does make you feel a little better

*Caine will stay by your side until you wake up, in case you have another nightmare

-Mod Red

[reds-fluff-extravaganza]

Caine x reader

Requested over on ao3!

Nightmares were never really a big issue for you when you were back in the real world, since you didn’t get them very often for whatever reason that you weren’t complaining about. However, that’s all changed when you ended up in the digital circus. While you didn’t have nightmares every time you fell asleep, they were more frequent than what you were used to and it did bother you. You didn’t really tell anyone about the nightmares since you figured they would either not care or just brush it off as the digital circus getting to you, so you kept quiet about it.

That is, until one night cycle, you had fallen asleep, or at least, what felt like going to sleep in this world. It had started off as a nice dream, which of course that part you didn’t really remember. The next thing you knew, you were sitting up, your eyes wide with fear as you looked around the room. The worst part about these nightmares was that you couldn’t remember a thing. Sure, you would think that would be the good thing, but it wasn’t always good.

You got up out of your bed and went over to the door, opening it and walking out into the hallway which lead to the others rooms. You closed the door behind you and started walking down the hallway, hoping to find a certain ringmaster along the way. Yes, you were looking for Caine, since you figured you could possibly get some answers behind these constant nightmares you were having, and possibly get some sleep in the process.

“Caine?” You called out, looking around the area you were in as you shoved your hands into your pockets. No response.

“Caine?” You called again, but louder, hoping to get his attention.

“Yes, my dear Y/n?” You flinched a bit as you heard his voice from behind you. You turned to face him, as if relieved to see him there. “Is something the matter, you don’t look too good.”

“Yeah, that’s actually… what I wanted to talk to you about.” You rubbed the back of your head as he moved closer to you, as if inspecting you.

“Very well, let’s go somewhere else.” He grabbed your hand and the next thing you knew, you were in another room, one you had been in a few times when you two would have a chat. You had pulled up one of the nearby chairs and sat down, Caine now across from you.

“Alright, tell me what’s going on.”

“Lately, I’ve been having these nightmares. Most of the time I don’t even remember anything about them, I just wake up with wide eyes, breathing heavy as if I had just been chased by something.”

“I see..”

“I’ve never had this issue before, Caine.”

“I’m afraid I don’t have an answer for you, Y/n, the others have not informed me of any nightmares they have had, but! If it makes you feel any better, I could see if I could help make things better for you.” You stood up and went over to him, pulling him into a hug, which caught him off guard.

“Whoa..! Uh, Y/n, are you alright, my dear?”

“I’m fine. What, I can’t hug you? Is that also against your weird terms and conditions or whatever is it?”

“No, not at all, I was just.. not expecting that.” You felt him hug you back, the two of you now sitting in a comfortable silence for a few moments.

“…don’t let the nightmares bother you, Y/n. I will do what I can to help you.”

“Thank you, Caine, I really do appreciate it.”

“Now come on, let’s get you back to your room.”

“…I don’t want to let go, I’m comfortable.” Caine was quiet for a moment, before he picked you up, and the next thing you knew, you were both back in your room.

“I suppose I can stay until you get back to sleep, if that helps you.” You smiled faintly and nodded.

“That would be nice, thank you.”

“Of course, Y/n, I don’t want you, or anyone else really, to suffer from nightmares, but… especially not you.”

“Thanks again, Caine.” You mumbled as you closed your eyes. “I know we don’t really need sleep here, but it does feel nice.”

“It’s no problem.” You felt him lightly pat your head before falling asleep, or at least, the closest thing you can get to sleep in this world.

[the-s1lly-corner]

https://www.tumblr.com/the-s1lly-corner/749561734770114560/can-you-write-hcs-for-where-the-tadc-cast-like-to?source=share

Noo i meant, like, where the characters like to kiss their s/o on. But it's okay if you're not comfortable with it 🥹

Where they like to kiss their partner (TADC)

oooooh i see now! this is going to be a short post since it focuses on where they like to kiss- hope thats okay! I dont usually take requests for entire casts anymore, but since the segments will be shorter i'll let it slide! woo! characters: the entire main cast + gummigoo for funsies notes: reader is gn, established relationship cws: none

caine

he doesnt really have a preference of where he likes to kiss you! he kind of just peppers you all over that he can reach! he does tend to default to kissing the back of your hands as well as your cheeks! theyre the easiest to kiss without doinking you with his teeth!

pomni

likes kissing you on the cheeks as well as the mouth. she doesnt pepper you with kisses as much as caine, really just kisses you a normal amount.. once in the morning and once before bed when she gets real set and comfortable in the relationship!

ragatha

cheek kisses and forehead kisses are always her go to! theres something more tender about kissing your partner on the forehead as opposed to kissing them in the lips, at least in her opinion!

jax

thinks that kissing is gross- hes a little weird about affection and kind of has the cooties mindset, but on the occasion that he does kiss you its usually a quick peck on the cheek.. so i guess the cheek is where he likes to kiss his partner! definitely needs some time to mature and get used to it before he really shows you some affection- but even then hes not all that affectionate as a person or partner... not physically at least...

kinger

similar to caine he likes to kiss you on the back of the hands, usually taking them in his before pressing where his mouth would be to it! his second choice is on the lips, though!

zooble

not much of a kisser like jax but thats because they would prefer to hold hands or something within that ballpark. though when they do kiss you, its usually an awkward 'peck' to your cheek, they dont want to poke you with their sharp head or bash their face against yours..

gangle

despite her shy personality, kisses on the lips are common for her! cheek kisses are also pretty common as well! she doesnt kiss often, but she does lean into it just a bit when the relationship develops! she kind of becomes less shy about loving you!

gummigoo

kissing with his snout can be a little... awkward... but he likes kissing you on the cheek! in the most non sexual way, he also enjoys kissing you on the neck, especially if youre ticklish!

[dodgeballstuckonthegymceiling]

Just some little ideas for how it would feel adjusting to life in the circus.

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The new normal

★ It's a lot for anybody to process. Getting trapped in this place. You didn't have the easiest transition. Everything was overwhelming. The colors, noises, and new "friends." It was hard to tell what was real and what wasn't.

★ Everyone else seems so adjusted. They all play along. Functioning well in this place. Going on with each new day like this is normal. Or in Kingers case, break and forget everything that traumatized you.

★ Just keep pretending to understand. Eventually, you'll stop faking it. But until then it would be best to smile and act like everything is okay. While you slowly unravel inside. Because that's the only thing you can do.

★ Caine wasn't much help. He tried! But throwing you into the middle of a racetrack, Inside a moving car, somehow didn't put a smile on your face. Even after giving you a sticker. At least he did his best?

★ Eventually you'll start a small routine. Like visiting the same spot every afternoon. Or rearranging things in your room. Over and over again. To make you feel in control of something. It's not much, but it helps you find some semblance of normal.

★ When you finally laugh, for real, nobody but you noticed. Having been caught off guard. Until then every smile was faked. And all it took was watching Gangle get stuck in a vending machine. Later, you felt guilty over it. Laughing at her was pretty mean...

★ The turning point for you was a breakdown. Well, more of a melt down? Caused by Jax acting like himself. Saying something cruel to you without knowing you could crack at any moment. You couldn't kill him, but you did get creative!

★ You grabbed the nearest "weapon" which wasn't a real weapon. Just a regular wrench. And through it against his head. While screaming "Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" Then started laughing? It wasn't your proudest moment. But you got to let out a lot of pent up feelings.

[frigid-m-grim]

He gives u flowers <3