... so maybe one reason why i haven't been getting a lot of notes on my art is that i was hidden from search results so i wasn't showing up in any fandom tags
the more you know
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Nah man, I really gotta stop doing certain things
If you don’t wanna read you don’t have to, I’d say it’s KIND OF a vent but not really because I can’t take myself seriously like at all-
First things first there is one major thing I gotta stop and it is I HAVE TO STOP SAYING SORRY 24/7 my PARENTS have told me to STOP BUT I DONT- ITS INFURIATING. It’s like- you ever like try to go cold turkey on a habit that you do but you end up still doing it even if that cold turkey didn’t last for even an hour? YEAH ITS LIKE THAT- it’s a habit that I’ve built slowly upon and now it’s become a problem because anytime I DO say sorry over something minor my parents tell me to stop. I get they’re trying to help me, I love them for that, but it’s difficult when you assume anything you do and that you get a look for is your fault. Not their fault either if anything it’s mine for creating the habit but I’m telling you I just can’t stop it. It’s hard, and I hate it 💀
Second, I am a yapper. And there ain’t anything wrong with yapping first of all it’s just a problem and issue for me because I realize that I ain’t a multitasker. When it comes to be narrating to myself while doing something, chances are, I ain’t getting anything done because im too busy telling my life’s story to A WALL. And it’s especially become a problem because my mom (although is very interested with what I have to say) always tells me that I really just need to get stuff done and over with. I respect that, so im REALLY gonna try and just shut up. And I gotta be honest here I talk way too much for one person dude I just need to stop 😭😅
AND FINALLY, something I’m really trying to stop but it just keeps coming back to me!
Listen if I had the ability to clone myself: I would sit her down and give her a lecture on what she does sometimes ain’t very smart and I REALLY gotta stop doing it.
But I gotta wait, cuz time does take a little bit and I know it’s gonna be a slow process getting these habits to stop. But you know what, that’s okay. I’ll be patient with myself, I’ll try to be. I’m gonna be okay. We’re all gonna be okay together.
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oh my god, I'm so glad you mentioned the "steals your girl" thing as to why people hate on Zote
even as a joke, it still weirds me out! stop talking about her like that!!!
RIGHT. The entire argument makes me seethe and spit and snarl so bad. Like I'm coming from a Zote bias perspective, but the way that whole thing frames Bretta too is literally. So Gross.
She was never "yours." She is not a got damn possession to be lost. Her romantic interest in Ghost is never even implied to be anything other than one-sided, mostly because Ghost just. Doesn't Emote.
And the whole "stealing" shit makes it seem like Zote flirted with her or pursued her romantically literally at all, when we get Nothing to support that other than Bretta's fanfiction, which I would take with a huge helping of salt. All we ever see Zote do is tell her his precepts. Like. Lol
Bretta forming a crush on him is a Her thing. Based on him lying a whole lot about how cool he is, sure, but nothing we're given suggests he did it specifically to win romance out of her or "take" her from Ghost. Someone who. Again. Didn't. "Have" her to begin with.
I don't think Zote even knows or cares about any of that. Per Precept Thirty. But that's just me and my aroace Zote headcanon. I Guess. Kicks a rock.
Anyway hey HK fandom stop treating Bretta like a trophy to be won that Zote "made off" with. You're all annoying. God bless.
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Anyway I got notified that I'll be getting a nice $$ bonus from work today and I wish that I could celebrate with someone in a way that didn't just feel like obnoxious bragging. Like beyond the financial aspect, it's just nice to be recognized for good work and I actually feel... good?? about this job??
But it feels so silly to say I want to celebrate when I just got back from what felt like my first real vacation in a very long time and am doing cool comic con stuff this weekend and am scheduled for a new tattoo next weekend. I am already doing lots of things to try to make myself feel good! It feels selfish to want more!
But I guess even with all of that, there's just still a hunger for external validation from trusted sources. Will I ever grow out of wanting someone to be proud of me?
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i have such painfully bad fomo :[
literally seeing my friends’ posts about the blorbos that i missed n seeing my friends interact with each other through the posts actually makes me sad ‘cus h friendssss!!!!! and special interest!!!!!! i like friends!!!!!! and i like that thing!!!!!! that looks like pleasant fun times!!!! i wanna do the friending and the talking too!!!!!
but i’m busy!! and i can’t and shouldn’t be in every interaction my friends have and see every single post my friends make about my special interest!!! but i seem to have a huge problem!!!!
i seem to be all or nothing with friendship!! i used to be willing to take or leave friends. i vibed with people but if we stopped talking i would be totally chill. and now i’m like “hhhhhhnhhhhhhh friemnd? what is friend doing???? having a great time and i am missing it???? is there a topic i’d absolutely love to talk about happening and i’m not there???? 🥺🥺🥺” which is SO unhealthy!!!!!
i’ve got college assignments, irl friends, friends from secondary school that i’m meant to keep up with through text, a discord server, and tumblr, and i try to keep up with all of this whilst wanting to not miss every single interaction from these that i think i’d enjoy. i’m dooming and damning and hurting myself. h.
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one of the most important aspects to be learnt of being a political thinker online, a passive or active viewer of sociopolitical discourses and marginalization, is that just because you find someone to be “wrong” on a subject, have a bad take on a words definition or have shitty political/strategic takes, or just be fucking annoying to you personally, doesn’t make them stop being from the same marginalized group or group-of-groups as yourself. tragically sometimes a comrade-in-arms also just fucking sucks without it being a cishetero bourgeois psyop or a more-particularly-advantaged-yet-still-marginalized-group punching down. like there can be “self-hating” people from demographics actively trying to oppress said demographics but 9 times out of 10 Kaleb from My Discourses isn’t a Dennis Prager rubbing elbows with literal nazis he’s just that dipshit who thinks Judaism as a social category necessitates matrilineal affiliation (even though the people that actively hate Judaism as a social category don’t conceive of it as such). For example I mean.
this should really go without saying but good fucking god my own time in the ‘strangers with a word or two in common trying to kill each other online’ trenches neeeeded
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i love being an age regressor ૮ᴖﻌᴖა ♡ tonight it feels very affirming and comforting. I've kind of always had to look out for myself and be my biggest supporter, and there are a lot of strange ways this feels like a second chilhood at times.
like i regress to being younger, but I'm also a girl now in a completely different place with completely different circumstances/social circles etc. yk?
but when i feel rly small and my reality feels so big, it makes me happy that older me is there for me to make the important decisions and guide us there :3 it's like i am holding my hand through this, i haven't had an adult rly look out for me like this and it's so nice to have one now!!
i don't have to be scared of big changes, I'm doing good and I'm here for me and i can take it easy. i have someone who is helping me ♡ i have someone who is keeping me safe. they work hard so i can be little ^.^ thanks big sis hehe ✌🏾
ouggghh im not little anymore but (。ノω\。) ♡ yeah. when i am little i can still like.. function as an adult n talk to ppl n stuff. but it's also like, well like i said before ig 0:
like im smaller but different‚ subtly. still me‚ but someone else since I'm like.. a teen?? that i never was. my childhood was nothing like my adulthood so this rly is a whole new thing little me has needed to learn 2 navigate emotionally/mentally.
but as i become more aware of when I'm in a little headspace and not, the difference in perception stands out to me a lot more. i can't articulate it very well... oughh. this is giving me very specific questions, but on that note — i am happy to feel so safe and looked out for when I'm little 😌💕 i used to feel scared and helpless but it's different now. we're doing this together 👩🏽🤝👩🏾 i got ya lil sis
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