#talking to people is hard

[the-goodkhush]

you ever talk to someone and want to fast forward through the conversation so bad

[the-abysmal-and-aberrant-bard]

3-28-21

I can never communicate right. I am always a sorry sight.

So, I leave your text on read. As I lay there in my bed.

Wondering. What is wrong with me?

Don’t know how to reach out, I wish I could talk  instead of shout.

[yourlocalwoodlandcreature]

You ever just message someone but then they dont respond so you just delete the message you sent? No? Just me?

[averys-happy-space]

club penguin rambles

there are a LOT of images bc the post is abt cp outfits. but also a ton of text bc i talk way too much. also I POSTED THIS ON THE WRONG ACC. I POSTED IT ON MY THEME TESTING BLOG BY ACCIDENT SO I HAD TO REPOST THIS. its the 11pm brain fog getting to me

okay so club penguin released a new clothing catalogue for november and here's my hippie fall outfit i came up with. it's designed around the sweater bc i thought the sweater was super cute but there wasn't any other hand item except guitar that really matched with the outfit. and like yes i could have it without the guitar (which i did do to take the 2nd pic) but i wanna equip a hand item!!! which sounds really stupid bc it is stupid but i'm picky and idc. the sweater IS adorable tho like look at it, its got little puffles on it and shit!!!! fucking adorable!!! and the colour is so pretty and nice too :3c i would buy that sweater if it existed irl. also look at the cool ass ghost puffle!!! their name is goober LMAO i dont rmb why i named them that. i think i was thinking like goofy goober but i already have an orange puffle named goofy ah so i guess thats why i just named this ghost puffle goober? genuinely i have no fucking clue. but i'm gonna keep them around cuz they look dope as fuck and also they match my penguins purple skin colour which i think is neat.

other outfits

since i am making a post abt cp outfits i also decided to add my previous outfits (that i have screenshots of) to this post too just to archive them so i can come back in 10 yrs and be like wow 16 yr old me had horrible fashion taste. (i hope tumblr is still around in 10 yrs. i mean, its lasted 15 yrs, so like whats another 10 right?)

for context:

the first one is one of my earliest outfits which i made with help & advice from moose bc i suck at fashion (thank u moose). i think it looks cool, tho there wasnt like a theme or anything that i was going for. i just liked the hair + jacket and wanted to make an outfit with it lol

the pizza one is from the pizza party event. do not ask me why they had a pizza party event. i have no idea. anyway it was really stupid but fun and i suck at the pizzatron 3000 minigame. i wanted to use a mouse for it but my mom took my mouse when she took my gaming pc so i had to use mac trackpad to play and boy it was Not good. also i gave my puffle jellybean a sombrero which i know is mexican and pizzas are from italy but i didnt know what else to give him!!! plus he looks really stupid cuz the sombrero is massive which i think is cute. oh yea, also i met rookie during the pizza party and i wanted to equip his background but my penguin covers half of rookies body and it didnt look good so i ended up going for this bg instead. its kinda lame but whatever, i still got to meet rookie and thats all that matters <3 (btw, for context, theres lots of npc mascots in the game and every so often they "come online" (its just a bot walking around really) and if u join the same area as them, u get a stamp + bg gift. i met rookie & jetpack guy during the pizza party and got their stamps and gifts but i love rookie more lol, hence why i wanted to use his bg. its too sad it didnt fit nicely bc i think its a p cool bg but oh well)

the bottom two are just variations of each other. basically for the sept or oct catalogue (i forgot which), the cp team added a bunch of punk stuff and i bought all of it bc it actually looked dope as hell. the one on the left came first but i didnt rlly vibe w the hair which is why i ended up changing it. also, the wings are a neck item which is why the first outfit doesn't have the dog tags even tho i wanted them. couldn't have both ): anyway, the second one came about after i got to meet cadence during the music party and i LOVE cadence (i had a massive crush on her when i was younger. like literally shes so pretty?!!) so i got rid of the raven wings so u can see her face in the bg. i can't lie i do think the bg is a bit lame bc its completely empty on the right which makes it feel kinda unbalanced, also u can see i have the cadence signature pin equipped. u can't change the positioning of the pin which sucks bc i would've put it on the right if i could but oh well. and yea i added the dog tags since no more wings. i accidentally clicked jellybean before taking this pic so it sent him home LMAOOO and i couldnt be bothered to get him back at the time so thats why hes missing from the pic. overall i think this outfit is def my favourite, the vibes are just so good. i love punk. oh and also the vampire teeth are bc the catalogue was mainly a halloween theme and well, they looked cool lol

for the record, jellybean is my favourite puffle hence why hes in all these pics. idk why but i just love white puffles, theyre so adorable and smiley despite being shy. also white puffles are slightly smaller than all other puffles which makes them 10x cuter. but i'm gonna keep goober around for a while just cuz they look cool as fuck. but i'll prob switch over back to jellybean when its closer to xmas. anyway its now 1120pm (i spent like half an hour writing this) so im going to sleep. goodnight

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

god i love my friends. shout out to people who love their friends. this is a post for friend lovers

[loganwritesprobably]

Me: asks if anyone wants to talk about something People: yes Me: wait shit now I have to start a conversation..

[sincerely-angel1]

Friday, January 5, 2024

I am bad at confrontation.

Always have been. Always will be.

I just don’t think fast enough. Everytime someone confronts or says something to me, my mind just goes blank. My breath hitches, and anything I could’ve said just stutters out.

Then, later, after the conversation is long over, it finally comes to me, and I think of what I should’ve said. But by then, it’s too late.

Confrontation doesn’t necessarily scare me, it just is one of the things in this world that can stop me fully in my tracks. I envy those who can effortlessly handle confrontation, whether that’s by yelling or just quickly coming up with smooth replies.

And I dunno, maybe it’s a skill I’ll acquire with time, or something that takes practice to perfect.

For now though, I’m reserved to my thoughts and repeating what I could’ve said over and over in the bathroom mirror, hoping that one day, the words will easily find their way out without getting lost in the tangled mess of my nerves.

[bli-o]

hey autistic people who get overwhelmed by large groups or noise or conversation or etc etc etc you’re not evil for wanting to leave a family gathering. just so you know.

[oobbbear]

I want to post this here too because I’ve seen it happen a few times

Please understand that there are cultural differences and language differences, if you see this happening let the person clarify what they meant, that person might just not be familiar with words the western side of the internet use

[binkboinkbonk]

oh to have friends to play video games with

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

Got all this love to give and no one to give it to :(

[ruusaanrambles]

Sometimes due to social anxiety and mando nerd brain I’ll be scrambling to remember how the heck you’re supposed to greet people and then brain goes “Su’cuy!” And I respond no you di’kut that’s mando’a and then I forget that hi exists. I have not thus far greeted a random person irl with su’cuy gar but I’ve come far too close for my liking

[dontletmanagementfindme]

It's easy to joke and say I know how it is but the second someone asks do you really HELP THE THINGS IM LED TO SAY LIKE HOW DO I RESPOND

[caffeinatedopossum]

For all my fellow ADHD and soft voice-havers when we get interrupted/can't say anything constantly

[riteaidparkinglotvibes]

My toxic trait is that I feel like I need to have a reason to talk to people or else I'm bothering them, but also I don't want people to think I only talk to them when I need something, so I just never talk to the people I love the most.