#thank u for the ask ^_^

[lodish]

🎸 :]

THIS ONES EASYYY definitely something from the oh hellos i think its a mix of our venti bond and because you have often been a source of comfort for me!!! this one is a personal fav of mine i just love the lyrics so so so so so so so so so so much

[neolxzr]

shu for the ask game :0❓(my question mark key wont work)

OF COURSE

Sexuality Headcanon: hes attracted to whatever mika is idk

Gender Headcanon: im very fond of genderfluid or agender shu but i also find him interesting when hes like. cis but gnc. he can be just some guy who wears full victorian gowns if he wants methinks. i like transfem shu as well but its not really my personal hc? but i think its neat. alllsoooo i tend to use he/she for her :]

A ship I have with said character: SHUMIKA. i dont necessarily consider myself a monoshipper but in my mind i can barely picture him with anyone else. like they just have a Thing going on and it feels just slightly off to me to ship him with other people?? big fan of narushumika though

A BROTP I have with said character: ALL OF THE ECCENTRICS theyre so beloved and dear to me,,,,,,,,,,,those r his best friends,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i especially really like his friendship with kanata i think theyre sweet

also also nazuna because i want them to properly be friends again. that one 8th anniv interaction between them was such good crumbs i need more

A NOTP I have with said character: its not necessarily a notp but im not very fond of romantic shunazu because i think its funnier when shu is just Like That to him even though he was not in love with him

ᵃˡˢᵒ ᶦ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ʳᶦⁿⁿᵉˢʰᵘ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵐᵘᶜʰ ᶦᵐ ˢᵒʳʳʸ ᶦᵗˢ ᶠᵘⁿⁿʸ ᵇᵘᵗ ᶦ ᶜᵃⁿⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵉᵉ ᵗʰᵉᵐ ᵃᶜᵗᵘᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᵃᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᵍᵉⁿᵘᶦⁿᵉˡʸ ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ʰᵃᵗᵉ ᵐᵉ

A random headcanon: his casual outfits are Not Canon to me. i choose to ignore them because they are bland and he makes his own clothes he does not dress like that!!!! make him fancier!!!!! i think he wears a lot of hats and big earrings. also i think he carries a parasol. both open when its really sunny and closed kinda like a cane

General Opinion over said character: im so mentally ill about this guy its kind of a problem. hes just like me fr and i mean that in a concerning kind of way. i love her though

[emilesmithrowes]

39 for the wrapped ask game ^_^

what did jarvis cocker mean by this

[cutestrival]

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

She clutched at her blanket. Held it so firmly she hoped it would rip apart. Her tears were stained red: not with blood she had spilled, but blood she shared.  She knew that the wish would revolve around her mother. For too long, her mother had been her beacon of hope in the desolate landscape. The ash that had clouded the air had seemed a little less opaque with those feathery wings around. The familiar sounds of a lance striking through flesh, knowing it meant another night alive. The warmth of her hand. That name, Severa, that would never be uttered again. A name she coveted dearly, yet so despised. Her heartbreaking title.

But the tears eventually dried. She remembered the loathing of Chrom she had felt, under the thin blanket that night her mother had not returned. Surely that emotion was stronger. She thought of Lady Camilla, who had rescued her from her turmoil. Her savior in a foreign land under a foreign name. Her brightest memories, re-lived? That cannot be her wish. She squeezed her pillow once more, and rolled over back to sleep.

[evildilf2]

rant about something to me your opinions are intriguing

Hmmm let me think… I think most of the people who participate in media/art discourse on here… at least the kind of people who make those incredibly pretentious, over dramatic posts that lack consideration for nuance (and also fun)… are deeply insecure about their intelligence & feel like they need to take it out on people who like romance novels or something. I think that’s a part of why there seems to be an increasingly higher number of people (my age at least, I’m not TOTALLY ignorant about the history of art discourse but I’m also not an expert so don’t ask me to elaborate on this vague disclaimer) who believe that there is a correct and an incorrect way to engage with art, as well as this idea that every time you engage with or evaluate a piece of art you are making a moral decision (example: someone involved with this project has done something I disagree with, so those who engage with said art work support said statements/beliefs/behavior). I think insulting the intelligence of others is a tool that should be used in moderation. Because like… if I say “if you don’t engage with this type of artwork/literature/etc then you’re stupid”… it’s not going to motivate a lot of people to engage with said media, and the people it DOES motivate will be motivated for the wrong reasons (insecure people wanting to appear intelligent, rather than seeking to develop understanding of the subject). So like. Yeah… hope that wasn’t too incoherent or anything LOL

[daltonblaine]

16

16) are there any characters who haunt you?

YES. LITERALLY BLAINE i wrote a character study on him back in may to "get it out of my system" <- literally my own words. And then i made a glee blog not even 2 months later and now i have 7 wips all centered around blaine he's haunting me for real 😭 WHAT A GHOSTLY SCENE

get to know your author !!

[para-socialist]

horse game Star Stable !! I'm pretty sure its a free

it's like wizard101 where only the first part is free i think but this is definitely on my list!! thank you

[foolsocracy]

Hi, I love your art! Would you ever consider drawing the Fab Five as adults?

hell yeah

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[skiploom]

tumblr ate the ask before i could publish it 😭

[hiraeix]

to hold me like water,

or christ, hold me like a knife

[surgeofcrimsonshouts]

what is the best fruit to eat?

RED GRAPES and TANGERINES

grapes are easy to aquire and easy to eat. also in my personal experience red grapes are usually much sweeter than green ones so i like those better :-)

tangerines are like oranges but small. easy to peel. theyre good for sharing with a friend. tangerines is like a love language. ok?

close third is mangoes because they make me feel like a ravenous wild animal whenever i eat them, which is something i think more fruits should do

[dazzlingworld]

thought you'd like :3c

pinches his cheeks. he is so sweet (´,,•ω•,,)♡

[my-chemical-rot]

opinions on against me(duh) and you guys have been going insane about fob so that one too :)

AM!

favourite song: walking is still honest

least favourite song: don’t have one because they’ve never released a single bad song 

have i ever seen them live: not yet :(

favourite band member: I feel like saying LJG would be the obvious option but I also really love James Bowman. 

least favourite band member: don’t have one!

how many of their albums you have: none yet, can’t find any in the used book/CD stores I go to

favourite album: transgender dysphoria blues. or white crosses. or reinventing axl rose. or new wave. or as the eternal cowboy. or—

FOB

favourite song: from now on we are enemies 

least favourite song: hard to choose since I like all their songs. probably Growing Up

have i ever seen them live: once! And I might see them again this summer!

favourite band member: All of them. probably Pete 

least favourite band member: none of them :(

how many of their albums you have: Three! AB/AP, IOH, & FUCT 

favourite album: Either Folie or FUCT. Or maybe IOH

[disgustinggf]

Is everything ok

nothing has been ok since i turned 12 but thank u for asking!

[inkskinned]

so while i was writing the book, i became violently suicidal.

this was mostly due to the fact that i had a very bad reaction to some meds and my brain stopped producing any serotonin. also i was in the last semester of grad school where it's actually illegal to feel anything but dread. so it wasn't going well.

somewhere in the fog of it i became aware i needed help. nobody was taking clients or my insurance. i didn't want to do inpatient care - it wasn't right for my needs. there's not really an "in between" stage between "inpatient" and "no care," but i was trying to do the right thing. i was trying to activate the chain of command that was my emergency plan. i knew i needed help now.

i used betterhelp.

i know, i know. i'm a straight-A student and so smart and so clever, how could i ever use something so blatantly bad. to be honest with you, i didn't feel particularly keen on it from the getgo - things that seem too good to be true usually are. also, if something online is free, the price is usually your privacy.

the thing is that there was kind of a global pandemic happening at the time and i worked 5 jobs alongside of being a fulltime student and also like writing a book on the side. it is a miracle that i even thought about getting help. i would love to tell you i had the mental wherewithal to like, process whether this was the right choice for me. mostly i was desperate. i was so suicidal that i was trying to find a reason to stay inside of fortune cookies. i was the kind of suicidal that looks like splatterpaint. i hadn't been that bad in an entire decade.

they took my data. i gave them it freely. somewhere out there, they have a dossier on me. on everything i survived. my story in little datapoints, scattergraphed beautifully.

the first woman told me that really i should be grateful, because (and this is a direct quote): "at least you're not anne frank." i said that i felt that statement was antisemitic, as anne frank's life and experience shouldn't be compared to like, a nonbinary lesbian in western massachusetts. the therapist said that i should try to use lucid dreaming to try to picture myself in an actually scary situation, like running from nazis.

i applied for another therapist. i was willing to accept the possibility that there was a bad apple in the bunch. the next therapist and i even laughed about how inappropriate that statement was. and then, in our next session: the new therapist said if i was struggling with body image issues, i should just work harder on my appearance. she spent 3 sessions in a row talking about how she was grieving, and made me memorize facts about her grandmother so "she can live on through my clients."

i am a three's-a-charm kind of person. okay, so what if the last person made me uncomfortable. i figured it was just a misunderstanding of priorities - she had felt she was sharing with me, i had felt like i had to take care of her. i applied for another therapist.

the last woman asked me to help her pray. she bowed her head. i stared at her, frozen, while she said: lord, i beg you: cure her. take the pain of being gay away from her.

i spent somewhere between 2.5 and 3 months on betterhelp. in that whole time, i was not getting the professional help i so desperately needed, even though i was fucking trying.

in the end, i survived this because i finally could get off the meds that were literally killing me. a request for a real therapist finally went through. i survived because my friends saved my life. because nick let me sob myself dry in his arms. because maddie took the razors out of my room when i asked them to. because grace slept over in my bed for like 3 weeks in a row since nobody trusted me not to hurt myself when i was alone. i survived because i got fucking lucky. because even when i was desperately suicidal, i was too old and too self-aware to take "you need to be prettier" as good advice.

the thing is that there's a 19 year old me who isn't like that. who would have heard "just think about how grateful you should be" and said - oh, i see. i would have assumed that is what it means to be in therapy: the same thing my abusers used to tell me. that i am just pretending and lazy. that i am ugly and unworthy.

betterhelp positioned itself to take advantage of an incredibly vulnerable community. it preys on desperation. it knows it is serving people who are not doing well mentally. it saw that there is a huge need for real, immediate, compassionate mental health care: and then it fucking takes your money and privacy.

i still get their ads on instagram. last night i watched as a woman in a pool pretends to talk to a different woman. they discuss her anxiety.

there's a 19 year old version of me, and she didn't survive this. she was too tired, and drowning. i almost fucking died. this thing almost fucking killed me.

in the ad, the woman playing the therapist takes a note on a clipboard and then nods once, sagely.

i have to admit it's a pretty scene. the steam and light coming off the pool water lands on the actresses. like this, it almost looks baptismal, holy.