#that can't happen i can't lose him

[no-one-hears-me]

I really truly genuinely do not want to let him go

[ofswordsandpens]

its funny because Percy has been spiraling ever since pjo and whenever he has a particularly bad episode you have other characters actively worried about it and you think to yourself surely they're going to intervene, surely someone is going to talk to him about it, and then like no one ever does lol

[foxstens]

the mental fortitude and determination it must've taken for kevin to learn to play with his right hand

[lelslizzylebs]

I have two (2) Chilchuck thoughts:

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 184

“Well damn.” 

Jason wrenched his gaze from the mess of red and green spattered across the room, searching for the source of the voice. His head hurt, he wanted his Dad. He wanted Bruce. He… his head hurt. His everything hurt. 

“Honestly, didn’t expect them to find another half-breed. Didn’t think there was another halfa out there…”  

He tore his gaze away from the floor- when had it gotten there- finally finding the other… person? The person giving him an empty smile through some sort of muzzle and missing an entire arm. Well, he couldn’t judge, he’d torn his nails off while digging out of his grave before… this. 

“Hey, kid, don’t sweat it, it’ll grow back,” the man apparently noticed where he was staring, shoulder twitching as he shrugged and more green pouring out. Jason couldn’t stop staring, eyes slipping from the growing pool to the rest of the chains apparently keeping the person on that side of the… room? Cage? Cell? 

“Shit, hey, kid, kid, don’t cry, uh, fuck, shh, kid don’t cry-” the person made a noise, some sort of hum or croon that caused him to relax. To his already brain-damaged confusion. “C’mere, away from the door now, shh…” 

Oh, when had he started to move? It was like he blinked and was stumbling away towards the chained person, practically tripping over a limb before the person managed to catch him. “Ope, oh you’re just a little baby-” a hand, clawed, carefully ran through his hair, tucking him against a rumbling chest that nearly made him tear up again. He wanted Bruce. 

“It’s alright kid, shh, they won’t get you,” the man rumbled, everything about him green to his rapidly closing eyes. Pale skin like a corpse, black scales like rot, hair white like snow, all stained green with blood.  “They’d have to kill me again for that.” 

[arthursfuckinghat]

Me, hanging around camp to find interactions and conversations that I've never heard before:

Everyone at camp: go away

[mellowthorn]

Do you all ever think about how Fitz must have felt immediately after the Fool's Fate breakup? Like, before he begins properly courting Molly and using that as an escape, back when he still lives in Buckkeep? He largely speeds through this era in his narration, but how was it actually like for him, living through it day by day?

Waking up in the bed of Chade's workroom, expecting to feel the Fool's back against his, but then realizing that no one's there. Listening to nobles and servants gossip about Lord Golden and when asked, having to come up with some sort of an explanation, all the while trying not to show just how much even the mention of him hurts.

Walking past the door to Lord Golden's chambers and resisting the urge to try to pull it open, just in case the Fool might still be there (even if he knows that it would be impossible). Reciting the poem the Fool left him over and over in his mind, searching for any clue that might hint to his return, yet finding nothing. Drinking apricot brandy alone.

For the first time since he was a boy, having to live without either his Wit-bond to Nighteyes, or his Skill-link to the Fool. All by himself, entirely disconnected from the two beings who made him whole.

[journey-to-the-attic]

there's a moment in lesson 45 of nightbringer where mc falls off a thing (again?? is this foreshadowing?? i'm going to rule-of-three this and wait to see if it happens again) and satan tries and fails to grab their hand to catch them, but now i'm imagining the same thing happening with satan and ik except he does succeed, but it's her right hand and the prosthetic just POP comes straight off

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo. (pt. 6)

I think the main thing we were supposed to see as Star's character flaw wasn't that he was acting proud/arrogant/reckless/badass (I mentioned that it's fine for him to act that way because he deserved it after everything good he did and obviously I still mean it 110%), but how that proud, charming guy was never the real him. He literally lost himself trying to feel worthy and please everyone in town. For years he's been acting the role (for a noble cause) but the price was him losing touch with the nerd he is.

Yet STILL, if only everyone had been a bit more gentle with him, I bet he'd have toned it down during the WE section, and even before that. But they all decided to let him know the truth at the worst possible time, right when he was supposed to make Clover his deputy. Right after they attacked the kid because they were jealous. It was supposed to be the PEAK of Starlo's day and they randomly threw the "we never liked any of this" bomb at him instead of trying to talk it out BEFORE things escalated. I'd be pissed too.

Oh yeah...

... his brother doesn't take him seriously apparently and doesn't realize that staying positive and strong 24/7 is tougher than it looks, especially with Starlo's insecurities (and yeah being a farmer is hard work, but so is being in Star's position; on the contrary, it's even TOUGHER) ...

Orion should try being an entertainer for a day and see what it's like, let alone doing it for years

...Solomon says how Star thought him and Crestina didn't support his life choices...

... and how he rarely talks to his family...

...and it suddenly came to me: in all these years, they didn't ever bother telling him that they did support him? They didn't bother trying to reach out to him more? Understand his passion (Ceroba doesn't get it either; once again, I don't blame Starlo for caring about Clover so much, that kid understood)? Have an honest talk?

No wonder Star stopped interacting with them for the most part. Maybe him feeling worthless came from his family? Who knows (or he was bullied as a kid for being a nerd). In any case, he clearly had to deal with these feelings by himself.

This man's been through some stuff.

P.S. I know he has flaws like everyone, but you've gotta ask yourself the important question: WHY? where did all this come from? But clearly nobody in his life ever asked themselves this. So it all kept building up till he almost killed his deputy for... status. He was SO desperate to feel valued and get his friends back (who made him feel less alone.. but ultimately just left when he needed someone the most, at least ONE person) that he was ready to go all the way to achieve what he'd been lacking his entire life: *feeling like he MATTERED.*

I wonder If he'll ever go 100% back to being his true self. Slim chances :'( this is him now. Half farmer half sheriff

[tsutsumi-kurose]

some thoughts about the yugi twins and trust, recently

I have been reeling over this display of trust hanako shows tsukasa in 108 since it came out…

like, he barely even thinks here!! nene is in immediate danger, so what does he do to keep her safe? he throws her to tsukasa. he throws her without confirming a plan, knowing and trusting that tsukasa will catch her. he designates tsukasa as a safe place for nene to land (at least comparably) without hesitation. there's so!!!! much trust in this moment, no deliberation, just pure trust in tsukasa like it's the most natural thing in the world!! for all the attitude hanako gives him this chapter and for all the history between them, there's still trust all the way through, at the foundation of their relationship and right there at the surface, ready in waiting for when it's needed.

i've also been thinking a lot about this moment in 110:

for... similar but also different reasons? tsukasa looks right at hanako in that top panel. if tsukasa was wiping the floor with akane (quite literally... rip sorry akane) while he was in clock keeper form in his own boundary, i think it's very unlikely tsukasa couldn't have dodged hanako when he was handcuffed, drained of power, and tsukasa was looking right at him the whole time. tsukasa didn't move out of the way even though he could have!! he let hanako come at him with his knife, and he let hanako pin his wrist to the ground. he has questions, but he doesn't block any move hanako makes toward him. whatever hananko is about to do to him, he trusts it.

or at least, he’s fine with it, for the moment. of course... with tsukasa, that doesn't necessarily mean he trusts hanako not to hurt him... it could just be that he'd let hanako do whatever he wanted to him, whether it hurts tsukasa or not. which raises the question of whether that's a form of trust or a form of love in which trust isn't required. does tsukasa trust hanako's decision making? does he trust him not to hurt him? or does he love him so much that he'd rather hanako do whatever he wants no matter what? does tsukasa trust hanako the way hanako trusts him, or will he simply accept any form of attention hanako gives him, even if it's hanako coming at him with a knife?

will we get to see, soon, tsukasa's trust in hanako tested?

[transdimensional-void]

the new sigiswald POV short story in hanne5 just convinces me further that he and dietelinde would've made the perfect couple. oh my god, they would've been so good (terrible) together. *sigh* i've tried so hard to create the AU where it happens, but kazuki-sensei plotted this thing too tightly!!! things just fall apart too quickly if i try to make it happen. XD

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

[quietwingsinthesky]

AU where rose gets shot by the dalek instead of the doctor and she survives long enough to be brought back to the tardis and he's saying he can fix this, he can fix this, he can fix this. and rose says it was worth it (it was.) and when she stops breathing the doctor just. stops. period. so so still. frozen over her.

and i think it takes just long enough for jack to get close and take her hand. because he needs to. before it goes cold, he needs to.

and that's when rose breathes again.

[zukkaoru]

sorry i'm thinking abt megumi's incessant desire to be the first to die vs. the narrative keeping him alive despite and how the most tragic ending for him is not actually dying, but being left behind. for megumi, the worst fate is living a long life

[arthursfuckinghat]

1899 Arthur Morgan, chronically exhausted, ill, afraid, and working himself to death trying to save what was left of the gang.

1911 John Marston, tired, frustrated, and running himself ragged trying to get enough help with taking down the last of the gang.

1914 Jack Marston, alone, depressed, and not stopping for anything or anybody until he avenges his father. He is the only true remaining tie to the gang.

Arthur didn't care strongly for revenge, but it was important to John, then it was important to Jack. Whether they realised it or not, they fed the cycle of revenge and damned themselves in the process.

[duncanor]

We are all so focused on Vash VS Legato that I don't feel like we really acknowledge how Vash pretty much asked Livio to kill Elendira.