#that's prolly not important rn tho

[amajorartattack]

I've been very happy with a lot of my art recently, though a lot of it has been Adonis, and he's my favorite character that I have but still. But like I just think it looks really good.

[999moreyears]

guys.... i think im mentally ill 😧

[notveevee]

NOT ANYWHERE

megumi x reader smau | masterlist

STUPID IDOITS

(yn, inumaki, maki, yuta)

Ln yn

history major

Yn!!! who could that be… *stares at u*

hates toge as a joke

loves maki as a “joke” (everyone thinks shes not statire)

busy (by busy i mean sleeping or procrastinating)

studys sometimes… but grades dont show it (yn has all c’s and b’s… toge makes fun of yn for it even tho its not that bad)

im projecting

inumaki toge

communication major (haha get it)

prolly the most popular one

“why is it verified but no one else is” i forgor 👽

my head hurts

bullys yn as a joke

AHHHH

in love with yuta, (its one sided)

zenin maki

business major

maki keeps autocorrecting to making

its annoying

mp100 pfp..??? (im going to make all the first years pfp nichijou)

sick of yn and inumaki, sometimes yuta (in a friendly way although she wants to make more friends, she will always be best friends w yn toge and yuta)

AH

idk

single mother of 3.. where is nobara!

very protective of her friends (more vocal about yn), since theyre her only ones she doesnt want them to get hurt

^^ is this foreshadowing

prolly not idk what im doing with this plot yet

okkostu yuta (i problly spelt that wrong)

lit major

least popular on of the group because hes not as active, he aslo get the best grades but im sure theres no correlation there….

my phone cant thpe this fast im at 2% rn

i should probably put what they major in…. i dont want tooooooo

i did it guys say yay

he defo goes grocery shoping the most, if yn or toge were to go they would 100% spend $500+ on unimportant things (very important trinkets)

goes grocery shopping for everyone even tho yuta & yn, maki live 10 minutes away (they live on different sides of the campus ,yuta lives with toge, maki is solo and yn has a unimportant roommate, but yn considers maki more of a roommate from how often she comes over and how little her real roomate is home)

[stas-land]

Ok concerning the Stardew vore mod I was gunna try to make

So I realized that I’m gonna need to start simple (bc I have NEVER done this before although I do have some coding experience)

So I’m prolly just gonna start with modding in events for Sebastian only, well actually only one event

I’m gonna try to do a couple things with it tho such as import my own sound effects and new portraits and maaaaybe add a few new sprites

If this goes well I’ll either try to commit to making more events or adding in more spouses n shit idk yet

(I have massive commitment issues when it comes to projects lmao I start a bajillion things and never finish them)

but ya that’s kinda my plan rn!!

[pumpkinsy0]

SHEPARD FAM CAREER HEADCANNONS?????

i just woke up so excuse me me if i read this wrong and gave u somethin u aint ask for</33

tim - butcher

•said it multiple times, rhis is just him, he wanted extra cash and wanted it to have a steady reliable flow of it

•he also wanted a job where still nobody could mess w him if the did come in, yknow????

•w his record, its a miracle, maybe the boss just dont rlly care that hes in the gang and just wants the job done or this is a job tim get when hes older, maybe its a mix of both, either way his boss thought he would be an important asset in he was hired

•hes oddly graceful w it, he finds in theraputic, its odd to witness but that nigga has a way w the cleaver and knife, its pretty terrifying, maybe tim shouldnt have a job no more

•yes btw he somehow uses what he’s learned in how he fights, im not saying hes out there KILLIN ppl w his knives btw, however when it comes to rumbles w weapons, hes truly on another level

•he brings home meat for angela and curly, its mostly bacon, but he brings other stuff too, curly loves eating meat (pause on that😭) so he dont mind but ik angela gets sick of it sometimes and just wants rice or somethin

curly - he’s had like several different jobs😭

•like i could genuinely see curly as that guy whos job jumping, he’s been a janitor, a airport baggage handler, camp counselor, rn tho hes a line cook/dishwasher

•out of all three of em, i dont know HOW THIS GUY GOT A JOB, but yknow what, he got it, hes that guy that always has a new job when u see him, was he fired or did he quit??? nobody knows, u just see him pop up behind a counter some place

•he’s that coworker whos always in the back fucking around, god forbid hes the one supposed to be training u, man he’s teaching u some tricks and then leaving u to the wolves mid way

•he NEEDS a smoke break, he hates staying in one place for too long, especially in that hot ass kitchen, hes getting overstimulated and accidentally snapping at ppl someone save him

•hes not a good employee, i promise u if u got a weird ass order, he will look at u strange, and if he can sense u got social anxiety he’d probably fuck ur order up a lil bit bc what r u gonna do??? come back and tell him he got it wrong🤨🤨🤨

•chances r the place he works at is some money laundering scheme hes clueless about, he just say they were hirin and thought “eh why not”

angela - retail or fast food worker but if she tried, she could be a model

•the only one w a clean slate, her getting a job is no hassle

•shes literally nicole from bistro huddy, need i say more, she never wants to work but honestly who does???

•shes that girl listening to this poor single mother of 4 in the break room venting about how badly she needs this money to support her kids, meanwhile angela just wants to buy some damn clothes and make up😭

•man she’s never came to work in a good mood, when she wakes up she sighs putting on that uniform, but i’ll tell u what, she WILL make that uniform look good, shes a good designer w what shes got

•the customer is never right when ur in her presence, shes very intentional w what she does

•if u wanna go the model route, its bc someone took a pic of her at work and it blew up n she got recognized by modeling agencies or somethin, shes def just got “that look”, curly prolly got it too tbh, someone take a pic of him and test the waters, they can be like a two for one deal typa twin models🗣️

[its-your-mind]

ALRIGHT IVE BEEN HOLDING ALL OF MY INSANE AND DETAILED THEORIES INSIDE FOR FOUR MONTHS AND THEY HAVE GROWN AND FESTERED INTO SOMETHING ENTIRELY THEIR OWN AND I’M MAKING THEM ALL YOUR PROBLEM NOW HERE WE GOOOOO

okay so anyway my current main theory is that Jon Martin and Jonah got schlorped into this other reality along with the fears but the way it happened led to EITHER their weird entrapment in mostly digital media (a lá the Leitners), which ALSO led to Jon and Martin and Jonah also getting stuck in whatever this equivalent of collecting fear-based stories shit is. So obvs they’re those three voices Norris (Martin), Chester (Jon), Augustus (Jonah) (Jon and Jonah are ENTIRELY guesses at present - if it is Jonah he’s the one with the v pretentious-sounding name for SURE tho) I have forgotten what those names are. Apologies.

Anyway I think it’s a weird fusion of whatever the Web was attempting with that website that collected stories, AND the role of the archive AND the creation of the panopticon by a man who was VERY. DEDICATED. TO. SORTING. AND. CATEGORIZING. So they’re collecting data, archiving stories for the Eye (Jon is still the Pupil and the Archivist, after all), but Jon and Martin prolly wanna help. Categorize. Give these people a fighting fucking chance. If I think about them too hard rn I’ll have an emotional breakdown so that’s a post for another time.

But anyway. The forced categorizing (dolls, watching / dolls, skin / all the subcategories under “Reanimation”). The voices reading them out. All of the computers and cameras and mics recording all these convos between the employees. The organization whose job is just reading and filing supernatural data and stories accurately which is important for some reason that no one can really understand or explain. Hahaha. Sounds familiar.

Anyway I’m obsessed with all of these new characters. I’m so excited to spend all of the time with them!! And be terrified of the horrors that are gonna come after them!!!!

[crimswnred]

I've just gotten back home from work so I'm a little late to the party, however...

LITG SEASON 8: TEMPTING FATE — VOLUME 2: thoughts, concerns and prayers

first of all yesss more hair booooo paywall, fusebox get it together??? (at least they are pretty but again that's the bare minimum)

anyway, here's my girl with her new hair

why do all of the girls' nightwear look like I'm on a strip club and they're asking me if I want something to drink

it's so over for you Theo

honestly she's too good for him anyway

okay kiss challenge!!!! let me snog everyone

I don't want any more of that "peck" crap we want FULL ON SNOGS, TONGUE AND CHAOS

Jin: "Nap, then results?" Hamish would be so proud of him

okay, so you rate me EIGHT just so I feel like I have to pay to have one extra kiss, your game is a dirty as ever Fusebox

date time!!!! going with Jin ❤️

LMAO Jack is kinda funny

so sad to see a baddie doing too much to keep a man in love island 💔 Luna I'm so sorry you didn't deserve it your only crime was being coupled up with the one guy I want

oh. so about the terrace scene...

first of all, super sweet gem scene. it seemed like a super important one for it to be a gem scene though. so idk I'm a bit lost.

Jin is a walking red flag 😭 this boy is soooo gonna flip on me when the next hot girl shows up!! but let's enjoy the ride

and Luna... girl... was it ever that serious?

the award for worst outfit design goes to 👇

and the one for BEST outfit design goes to 👇

like wow wowza mmmhmm yeah! this man is hot hot HOT 🔥🔥🔥

I had to kiss him HE IS SO FINEEEEEEEEEEE

oh, Jack is kinda sweet... if he looked more like Lewie/Alex he would be favourite boy of the season for sureeee

keep the compliments coming, darling

I had to kiss him too. you know, to be polite.

but it was just a peck, tho

okay, NOW JIN!!!

having a spicy conversation with the guy I want to fuck and his currently girl isn't how I planned to spend my afternoon but here we go

"You're adventurous. You're fun to be around. And you'd make every sight even more beautiful", "Okay. Where's the punch line?", "There isn't one :)" OKAY GAG ME WITH THE WRITING

FUNNY BOY WHO'S A HISYORY NERD? OH OKAY!!!! BIG T??? NO IT'S BIG J!!!!!! JIMOTHY!!!

lmao Sophie mixing the boys up she's so me

Claudia is a real one let me tell you that

she's nice, she doesn't force herself upon us, she's polite, she give us all the tea, and she even help us to graft on the boys behind their girls' backs. like, THAT'S MY GIRL

and if Theo doesn't step up she will DEFINITELY be mine

TIME TO PICK MY BOY LET'S GOOOOOOOO

so sad to see Luna go, I really like her :/

lmao???????????

I TAKE BACK EVERY GOOD THING I SAID ABOUT JACK WTFFFF 😭😭😭😭

he was so out of pocket ?? what's your deal man, are you jealous I picked Jin instead of you? we kissed ONCE. be sooooooooo for real rn

okay Sophie you can join your boy in this bullshit he still cheated on you with me when you weren't looking (and he probably would do it again)

no. I won't forgive you?? you were basically calling me a whore back then and now you are SORRY? don't say something you'll regret later that's not cute.

and he's supposed to be serious?

anyway, stressful night over. time to go to bed with my babygirl Jin

BITS BITS BITS BITS

29 gems to go all the way? what is this?

they could've make the scene a little longer but they have gotten way better ever since the writers dropped the word crescendo

MR TYLER WHO ARE YOU?

still not 100% sure if I'm going with Jin or Oakley but I'm leaning towards Jin, I'm not gonna lie 😁 I did some stuff that will fuck me over on movie night if fusebox finally learnt how to code (which they prolly didn't so I guess I'm safe)

I really enjoyed this episode except for the part when Jack and Sophie went full on villain mode but if the narrative made sense all of the time it wouldn't be LITG, right?

anyway, let's see what this Tyler guy is about... see you all next week 🫶

[nerves-nebula]

i have something to say about people who are suspicious of Palestinian fundraisers on tumblr saying shit like "why would they go to tumblr for help??? that's so weird??" like. they're probably not just on tumblr (and if they are its probably out of desperation. they're trying to not die).

but they've probably reached out to a lot of organizations and a lot of people. a lot of them have instagram accounts too, which you'd know if you glanced at any of the vetted fundraiser lists. it's not that they're inexplicably drawn to tumblr it's that (i'm assuming) they're on social media in general trying to get help across platforms. tumblr is still social media with a lotta people on it. i dunno what to tell you.

(i just continue rambling under the cut this is the main important part)

i'm also gonna say that there were definitely refugees on tumblr from all over asking for help before now, too. That's how i met Abdul, who i've known for like 2 or 3 years at this point. he sent me a dm asking for help and i was like this could be a scam but it could also be a real person. so lets see which it is. so i talked to him and he sent me his number and sent me photos of himself and his surroundings and the things he bought with the money i gave him. and i know a lotta people wouldn't have talked to him, cuz they DIDN'T talk to him. i'm his only point of financial support rn, as far as i know.

mostly they prolly would've assumed he was a scammer and reported him or something, cuz his english isn't 100% perfect. and i knowww you guys hate when people don't speak perfect english, you can't hide that shit from me. i know cuz i had to private a vent cuz people wouldn't stop being racist against my dad for not typing the way they wanted. who cares if he abuses his kid the REAL problem is that he Talks Weird, right?

i know cuz i was raised by a white woman who tried to train us to instantly be suspicious of anyone who didn't speak english well enough. i know cuz its obvious. i honestly don't even need to give examples. it's obvious within yourself too, if you look for it. it's something i'm still having to train myself outta.

idk. dont really have a point here. i feel like i'm drowning or something. i dont have enough money to help and i'm surrounded by people who refuse to help. i'm surrounded by rich kids too, at this college. rich kids, some of whom have allowances more than what i make all month, though i guess that might change now that i'm gonna be working two jobs. maybe i'm underestimating how much those kids get tho. i don't know how bad the course load is gonna be this semester. i hope it's not too bad cuz i don't feel All There enough to weather without, like, self harm or something. annnyyywayyy.

why even complain about it. i know you weren't going to donate anyway. you don't have to tell us your justification.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hi Cas!!!

Recently i wrote a poem and decided I loved it and send you an ask with it 2 days ago but i think it got lost or smth.

Little backstory here so I live in a family full of artists and very creative people so sharing my work always made me self concious since I always compared my work with theirs. Turns out I also have a problem with openly sharring my work with others which is a bit of a problem considering I need to do share my work for school. Because of that I've decided to share my poem with someone cause I'm really proud of it but I also want someone to tell me their honest opinion/feedback. So here it is I guess??? Also english is not my first language so sorry if there s any mistakes 🦖

Earth breaking beneth my feet

Hands holding my arms

While pushing me down

Sinking into the ground

Divine paintings flashing before my mind

Their meanings going up my mouth

Watching me choke down all the noble words

Blocking their way out

Only to laugh

As the Devil listens to all the broken sounds

Coming from my eyes

Crimson tears staining my cheeks

Honey dripping from my lips

Straight into a vase near my feet

Angles are gathering the golden liquid

Collectiong memories I missed

Reminding me things I did

That are straining my guilt

People I left forgoten

Are sitting faceless

Waiting for my jugement

God is listening to everyone

Except for me

As I bleed out on a light floor in front of him

Staining red everything I could see

While room fillds with blood

That's comimg from my wounded heart

Drowning me

Ending my tortures

While our outstanding preformance goes on

The capitol's laughing

The kids are dying

But why do I care?

About them when I'm away

Maybe these scary meaningfull portraits

Maybe paintings that left me empty

Are happening somewhere on Earth

Someones mother is dying

But all we do is drink honey

Someones child is fighting

But all we do is play a song

Song of Army Dreamers

And say 'scary things happened years back'

While ignoring the fact

That those things are also happening now

Somehow I made a poem about war with my religious trauma, Kate Bush reference and few Crimson Rivers references. Thats cute. When im rereading it now it seems a bit silly and kinda looks like i tried using 'big words' but i still love it.

Also the way you ate up last Caledenstine(HOW TO WRITE THAT????😭) chapter??? Ate and left no crumbs? Yessir. I support Regs rights and wrongs even if his wrongs are treaky(?) sometimes and make me want to hit him with a paper (just jk i would probably hug him and then make him some good soup)

Losts of love for you and your wife and your cat(s) (pretty sure you have a cat or two but maybe im mixing people???? Prolly should go to sleep but this was more important for me?????) Hope your sleep shedule is better then the rests of the fandom tho you are a teacher, an ao3 writer and a trumble user so its probably not the best while school year but still! 💃All the best ❤️

Hi hon!!! Your original ask was actually next on my list lol but I'm responding to this one because you added some things.

Damn, that ending though.

And say 'scary things happened years back' While ignoring the fact That those things are also happening now

This is SO real, and so poignant. You absolutely should share this with others, it's a very powerful poem. I love the imagery you have throughout. Please don't compare your work to others- art is supposed to be unique, you know?

hahah yeah Reg is in his Rep Era rn I feel. I'll not elaborate more.

My sleep schedule is...well it's 12:30am and I am not planning on sleeping for a while, as I need to edit and then post the next chapter. By the time this ask is posted (I'm scheduling it) the next chapter should be out! yay, summer?

Sending you all the love!

[octoxicash]

I has a question about the man built like a possum (Narrator). I get he is already sorta creature, but he is still kinda humanoid. So, my question is, can he go like full blown creature-creature, if that makes any sense.

literally packing for christmas travelling tomorrow morning rn but i had to stop and open my laptop bc oh my god i love talking abt my narrator thank u so much anon. get infodumped on. sorry

.↓

In my own tsp headcanon he literally has no physical form and just kinda loads a model in whenever he wants to actually interact w something? but its very much like the perspective of paying a video game to him.

At some point i just decided he kinda made his own custom "human" body out of convenience but its editable / customizable still however he wants it. I mainly just draw the same one out of habit/comfort but also I think he'd choose a similar form for Stanley's sake. In my head its also the first form he saw of Narr's so that's just kinda. him. so he looks like how i draw him for most of the time.

The reason he gave his form non-human traits (tail(s), extra set of arms, claws, weird eyes, yellow tones in claws / mouth / blush, bioluminescence, etc.) is that he felt being human didn't encompass him fully / felt too important to let himself look like one. Also he's just more fun to draw like that

an actually! most of the time he doesn't even have his full body loaded up! the only parts that r actually there are head/hands/tail bc he's lazy and sensory inputs a bitch! the clothes kinda just go around where his body WOULD be n act like its there but there's. nothing in there. like if u rolled up his sleeve boom he's hollow in there (doodles on right unrelated I'm too lazy to crop)

I do have a post-parable au as well that i haven't rlly done much with in which he's no longer able to change his form and is just fuckin stuck w how i usually draw him because that's just what he looked like when they escaped so that's silly. imagine ur just chilling irl and randomly some guy who lookes weirdly jaundice-d up and has a fucking. TAIL. comes asking you questions yet acts perfectly healthy.

in the parable tho he can look like anyone he wants or any Narrator design (or other character designs) out there I just have a few "preset" ones that i draw just cause that's how i view him :3

he can go full Thing™️ and one of the designs for him that i DEFINITELY need to draw more of is kinda angel-like (its literally based on how i draw the wtnv angels) an its one of my fav designs of him to doodle. same colors i use for my main design for him but shifted around some. ill draw / color him a shitty ref one of these days i prolly

tl:dr yes. and also im ill.

[narwhalandchill]

hsr 2.1 kit leaks

ok idk how but even w the preliminary aventurine kit leaks i didnt register before seeing a comment on how he would actually just shred in herta+himeko FUA teams for PF too and im just? obsessed actually i Love this

like PF is already in that weird place where sustains are kinda good still but kinda useless but aventurine being an actual FUA sub dps in addition to his shielding is just? so fucking good and will go so well with the never ending follow up after follow up death spiral that himeko and herta inherently bring to PF it should be a massacre 💀💀 i cant wait

anyway his kit looks sick i rly love how its designed. ACTUAL sub dps potential in a sustain finally 😭😭 and how much crit rate (40%) he gets just from reaching 3600 def is just? so delicious. obviously the fact that he will want crit, def, spd and possibly eff res too means you kinda need to invest hard into his build to rly get the most out of him but i love that blonde fucker so. yeah ill commit. i farmed my ass off for my fu xuan to be as stacked as she is i Will do it again 🫡🫡

the eff res hes giving to the team is actually massive too ?? CC immunity to himself when his passive effect is up? shields on skill no ult dependency and shield stacking on teammates being attacked and FUAs (and like. hes not dependent on FUA teams lmao its just going to boost him) just like that???

AND hes fast as fuck somehow like what 😭😭😭😭 bro looks stacked as hell i hope he stays strong. aventurine with that 106 speed rly out there running from the consequences of his antics 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️💀

anyway wow im hype for this bastard i Cannot wait for his animations

as for acheron im. somewhat interested? but not like too pressed abt it for now. her stacking mechanic seems interesting and ive already seen the asset leaks for her red ultimate state (which is like 700% better than her base design) but if you only see that design for a v short time idk how much itll motivate me to get her.

the lack of LC options definitely hurts like. all i realistically have for her is s3 GNSW but thats on kafka rn. ig if i got acheron i prolly wouldnt be running them at the same time but its still food for thought ig

also she really copied neuvillettes homework for that nihility team passive HSJSJSKSKF idk how i feel abt it like w our current cast it kinda feels pretty tricky to genuinely get a strong team going for an actual max stack team for acheron. like run her with pela and what? guinaifen? ig we will see what shes all abt

ig i just dont feel as much of an incentive for a lightning dps for now w kafka but eh i might go for acheron still. i do have a guarantee tho so it might be nice to save it for aventurine straight up bc then i could maybe go for his LC since it gets him even more sub dps potential but who knows

ig only gripe w aventurine (which isnt that big of deal rly) is the current lack of FUA charas like idm building ratio eventually even having daniel (and them having such heavy synergy is very funny. renheng could never 💀) n i could see myself maybe getting topaz even if im not a huge fan of her character (tho i do think shes well written; my mixed feelings r a result of her being complex) but idk. i hope we get more leaks for upcoming FUA charas.

obviously theres xueyi but her FUAs arent That frequent and unironically i wouldnt Want someone like aventurine w his likely frequent FUAs on her team eating away the toughness bar from her so itd only really work against enemies who are quantum weak but not imaginary. but worth thinking abt still. at least herta n himeko will be a guaranteed PF synergy for him so thats hype

and most important of all: def mainstat with double crit we are so back. relics with double crit that half rolled into def we are so back. etc etc etc

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

also 1. the youtube goths say all u need to be a goth is to know the music and 2. i would LOVE a list

OK OK BET (note in the middle of writing the list: i am Sat Up in my bed so locked in rn)

so like, first the classics duh:

i love love love the cure like that's an obvious one but rrrrr they are so good these are like my favs. i saw them in concert like a year ago w my dad and we fucking missed boys dont cry bc it was like. the last encore song and it was midnight and we wanted to get merch and run like the wind yknow (top two hoodies i own tho so i think worth it)

siouxsie and the banshees?? fun fact if you've seen the show hannibal she did the last song and said she interpreted as a love story so 😌 somehow i dont have a siouxsie playlist oh well

depeche mode i also don't listen to a whole lot but the bangers are fr bangers. could listen to ghosts again on repeat forever probably

bauhaus!! bela legosi's dead is such a song of my childhood tbh maybe that explains some things

cocteau twins.. ok gonna be honest i know maybe Two songs lmao but i know they're kinda important so still putting them here. i feel like my dad called them pretentious once and that was all i needed to hear rip (small slight con of having a dad who literally showed me everything to do with music is that his opinion of music is still very influential to me. but like he's also usually right so)

not a band, but the rolling stone had an article of the top 50 goth songs (idr if it was *ever* bc that's kinda crazy but whatev) and mcr was on it? for baby bats they said but i was still kinda surprised. and then i thought about it and like.. lowkey yeah. if emo is "the world is dark and horrible and everything sucks" and goth is "the world sucks but there's beauty in the shadows" i feel like mcr is smack dab in the middle. anyway i made the list into a playlist and added ones i thought were missing

ok!! these ones are newer:

varsovia is so fucking good omggg. found them bc one of their songs was the theme song for this AMAZING hbo show called los espookys ive prolly mentioned that lmao. theres a bunch of spanish (i say spanish and not latino just bc i don't actually know some of them might be spaniards lol) goth bands (including the next one) and made a playlist bc like. duh

twin tribes is another band that i kinda only know two songs by but like that's ok!! they are rlly good

ok so i found vision video on instagram randomly and didn't even listen to the music at first bc i didn't realize they were a band?? mostly it's just the lead singer posting and he has the persona of "goth dad" and is an emt and just generally a really cool guy (amazing makeup also). but have come to v much enjoy their music and if i ever see them live i will combust

[sapphosdickandballs]

It's me! Hi! I've got asks, it's me!

orchid, sage, nutmeg and papyrus :)

at tea time, everybody agrees

orchid - what’s a song you consider to be perfect - rn it’s ilomilo that song is so isighrisigk. Like probably my favorite or second favorite song from Billie.

Sage - what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is? I feel like they all have their place tbh. You’re gonna get a long answer so buckle in

Poetry - I’m actually not a HUGE poetry fan. I think some of it is good (I’ll forever rep my girl Emily Dickinson) and I think occasionally it will perfectly capture a feeling, an emotion, a thought. But it’s mainly that I have to be in the right mood for it. But when I am it’s the most important thing.

Music - Music is prolly gonna be my answer to this, tho I’ll break them all down. The emotions conveyed through music is insane. It can change my mood, can lift me or make me fall, everything from the beat to the lyrics makes me feel otherworldly. It’s just. Everything to me tbh.

Fiction - fiction is also really good. I think it is the thing that can just light everything up, even just for a bit. It’s a good lifeline, something to hold onto when things are tough.

Paintings and drawings - Both of these are so great cause it brings an idea to life, something you can physically see and obsess over. My favorite part of any art museum is the paintings. I do feel like they are a medium that you can see the love poured into it, which I love.

Nutmeg - How’s your room/home decorated - 🤷‍♀️ I guess just very lived in. I’ve got well worn books on the shelves, messily done art on the walls, overflowing boxes of things I probably don’t need, trinkets everywhere.

Papyrus - if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with? My on repeat playlist is called Scotty doesn’t know and literally being so fr that’s the song that just popped up. I love that. I like that song cause I always wanna belt the lyrics to it. It’s got a very 90s feel, and I just love it idk.

[mugiwara--ya]

heyyy hi a little life/med update !!

ive been super super busy these past couple weeks w a ton of socialization etc and ngl i think i burned myself out lol last night after we got back home from a con (and the bar stop after it) i had a massive shutdown that lasted hours and im still reeling from it, but ANYWAYS!! med update med update wooo

so! on top of the lifesaving bupropion ive been taking all year & the eszopiclone for sleep i finally !! got put on something for my ocd, lets give it up for fluoxetine to join my beautiful, beautiful cocktail, mwah 💖💝💗💕💞💓

i know it supposedly takes a few weeks to fully Work but im already feeling a MASSIVE difference right off the bat, like yesterday i was at the mall and i ✨ touched the escalator's handrail ✨ i was literally so excited i kept looking at my hand going yoooooo im DOING it im making it HAPPEN like even my friends congratulated me on it kdsfjhakjg it felt silly but massive at the same time lol and of course i still immediately disinfected my hands but the important thing is that I Did It

and idk its like!!! i knew it was BAD like especially these past few months its been just. VIOLENTLY out of control but god the absolute relief ive been feeling is making me feel like i was still grossly underestimating it, it had completely taken over my life. right now its like, i encounter any random trigger and i brace myself for the anxiety spiral to come and then it DOESN'T and its so ??? like i still have The Thought but then i just go "ok" and dismiss it like an annoying notification and thats IT, while the last time i was on therapy i literally described my ocd as having hundreds of those cymbal-banging monkey toys of different sizes just sitting there in my brain Waiting and every single time i got triggered one of them would start losing its absolute shit - for example if im at the supermarket, on top of the everything about existing as an autistic person at the supermarket, thered be like a dozen of them constantly going ALERT ALERT CONTAMINATION CONTAMINATION EEK EEK DANGER DANGER BANG BANG BANG- and now the monkeys r GONE. get turned into mostly-dismissable phone notifs, idiots !!!!!!!!!

the only monkey im willingly keeping!!!!! is the low poly 3d model of monkey d. luffy constantly rotating in my brain <3 kfngskjdfs

also like i still do like, say, my cleaning rituals when i get back home, but idk i just. i feel Normal about it?? like calmly wiping my phone bc phones r Gross and not bc i literally see a green film of Germs And Various Pathogens enveloping it lol. anddd i havent been attacked by violent intrusive thoughts in a minute !! lets see if it stays that way. im generally super sensitive to medications too so im on low doses of everything and i wanna keep it like that lol so heres to hoping it keeps goin like this so i dont have to up my dose 8)

uhh thats about it ! having a bit of Personal Issues tm at the moment tho but im so relieved abt my ocd i kinda have the bandwidth to deal with them lol. i prolly jus need some sleep quiet and to not be perceived by anyone for a solid week.

in other lighter and unrelated news my queue is completely empty rn so it'll be just a liiiittle quiet around here for a bit but ! yeah. also i just watched the latest op anime episode and urhgrhghrghrgh it was so good hhh <3333 so yah if you read this whole thing i am giving you a little kiss on the forehead, mwah, hope you have a great week !!

[wishesunderthestars]

Amongst the sea of amazing bts fanfics I keep coming back to Eunoia ever so often. It's truly one of those fics that you never forget about yk. It's amazing how you have created such an immersive world; that the length of Eunoia isn't intimidating, no matter how many times I read it. I am going into indulgent and fangirl territory next so I have a feeling this is gonna be kinda long (sorry for that TvT).

Ok sooooo... Starting with the amazing way you write such a relatable and human y/n. I know you don't always have to write relatable reader inserts since the point of these fics is to be able to experience stories and situations that you might (and prolly won't) irl. I know (us) the ppl reading this fic aren't world class producers who are friends with taylor swift but gosh darn it I feel like it when I am reading eunoia XD . The y/n feels so... human. They have their fears, insecurities, mess ups and they worry and overthink yet they also have their strengths and try their hardest no matter what. Their love hate relationship with their career and burnout, is honestly so refreshing to see becuz no matter if your career is your dream you are going to get tired at some point. OH YEAH AND THEIR COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH THEIR PARENTS! My gosh, it was so good to see someone acknowledge how hard it is to have a relationship with your parents where you don't hate them but you also don't get along because of your massive differences. It feels like you are stuck b/w a rock and a hard place. An argument that will never find it's peace...

Also, I feel like you absolutely nail the members' personality to a T. Ofc, tho you just HAD to give them such TRAGIC backstories ;-; (but yk I get it, the angst is what makes the fluff all the more sweeter). I adore the intricacies of their relationships with each other and also with the reader. All of them mean well but are hesitant to cross any boundaries. I hope we can see them get even closer and develop even stronger bonds so they don't feel like they are burdening each other with their problems and instead rely on each other <3 OK RAPID FIRE ROUND-

Namjoon- so charming, absolutely stole my heart with his rizz, emotional support bby, my anchor in the storm

Jin- absolute SWEETHEART, yes love how did you know the way to my heart was through the stomach, flustered jin is my kryptonite

Yoongi- OOHH gimme that angsty emo boy XD, No but for realisies BBY LEMME GIVE YOU A HUG! it's ok, we're gonna be okay <3 your past doesn't define you!

Hoseok- Sunshine Bby, You are loved, valid and just as important as all of the others, never a burden and always do so much more than you take credit for

Jimin- CLINGY BBY COME HERE & HEAL MY TOUCH STARVED SELF, His backstory made me genuinely sob, don't be afraid love you are safe here <3

Taehyung- ADORABLE LITTLE BABY BEAR, well since we haven't seen much of him I can't say that much but I hope to see more of him and his growth in the upcoming chapters <3 (Also since he is my bias I am even more invested! I am excited to see what direction you take him in :)

Jungkook- Bunny boy come here and tackle me to the ground with a hug >:) He is so cute, he just wants everyone to be happy together ;-; the juxtaposition of a cute bunny who is ripped *chef's kiss*

I feel like eunoia rn is at a midpoint. Things have settled and are not as chaotic but there is still so much to be done! So much to be said, done and so much to heal from. I feel like the story can go in any direction and I am so so curious as to what your vision is for the next chapters (ma'am can we have some crumbs please :> ). Also I was wondering; it was originally marked as smut so if you are still thinking of doing that? (I reallyyyy hope this does not come off as rude I was just genuinely curious; I love the story regardless and it's totally your call).

PHEW, OK THIS IS A LOT! I kinda feel bad for blabbering your ear off but what can I say, this fic is very dear to me.

(pls accept this cute kitty as compensation)

This ask made my day and I'm sorry for taking some time to reply but when I receive such long asks I usually like to think some more before replying. First of all, thank you so much for your words and the fangirling. I live fangirling!!

It is very important to me when writing the main characters in stories to give them their own personalities and make them as human as possible. I don't think it's as fun to write perfect characters or to read about them at that. The mc of Eunoia is very close to my heart because I can see myself in some aspects of her character and I'm happy that's true for other people as well. Relationships with parents can be very hard to navigate and she and her parents have a complicated history. They will never stop being her parents but their differences are so stark and they are nearly strangers by now. She was trying with them for the longest time and she didn't know when to stop trying. Or to stop pretending.

All the hybrids share unique relationships with each other. They might have tragic back stories but they are ones that led them to each other. They have had people crossing their boundaries so many times in the past that they are afraid of doing that to each other. They are all my babies and I adore them.

I was planning to write some light smut for it but I've been rethinking it. I don't have any experience writing smut and in this case the second person is throwing me off. I'll try but I don't know how it will go and if it will fit with the story well.

Thank you for sending this and thank you go the kitty💜 Sending all my love 💜💜💜

[onlyjaeyun]

hey my love <3

i don't remember if i sent an ask already today bc i read the chapter first thing after waking up (i did this yesterday too that's why there were 2 asks) so im sorry if you see two again😅

and yass he admitted it !!!! i knew it (and i bet everyone did bc i don't think you wanted to hide it in the prev chap) but i didn't expect him to admit it like that🤭

but his excuses were shit tho🤨 like no one believes you hoonie (or at least i don't)

i feel like even though yn did something bad (according to hoon i mean) that broke their friendship, he still couldn't help the care he has for her bc its rooted deep in his heart (even if he refuses to acknowledge or admit it to himself). and since he IS actually a decent human being who is only mean to yn bc of what she did (again, acc to sunghoon) he went and beat up jaemin. bcuz if you used to be close to someone, no matter how much you hate them there's still at least a tiny part of your heart that still cares abt them bc there's just no way you'll be able to completely not care or stay indifferent if smth bad happens to them if you've ever loved them truly (i mean this for platonic love too, speaking from experience 😌)

this makes me even more excited abt their relationship like i can imagine him being fiercely protective of her 🫣 and when they finally have sex without the hatred 🥴 knowing you, i can already predict my state upon reading that in the future:

_____________________ | | | RIP | | | | here lies | | | | selene | | | | dod: the day zadie posts | | ch!ynhoon making love | | | _____________________

(that was highly unnecesary and extra of me, but i am not embarrassed😌)

anw here's your daily dose of love🫶🏻: my amazing sweet talented angel baby i hope you had a good night's sleep (and a good day today too bc you're prolly reading this at night i think?) bc your health is very important <3 go to sleep with a happy mind my love

sweet dreams x

🌕

aaaah selene my moon baby 🥺🤍pls dont ever be sorry about sending multiple asks, i genuinely appreciate them all and the fact you take time out of your day to send me this means the world to me so thank you

i think at this point i made it quite obvious but i still wanted to give you guys the satisfaction of having him confirm it himself 🤭

i love love love your theory so so much and i think ive already saidnit once before (i cant remember tbh) that there's a misunderstanding on both sides so this is definitely possible but who knows 🤭

honestly i cant wait for the big reveal but we've still got a loooong way to go so buckle up and be ready for the angst baby 🤭🤍

thank you so, so much for your heartwarming words. you never fail to make me feel loved and appreciated and it honestly is smth i wont ever take for granted. i hope you have great day and know how loved you are. sending you such a big kiss rn 🥺💞🫧