#thats giving me dopamine

[sluckythewizard]

'I wont cry for you, I wont crucify the things you do. I wont cry for you, see, when you're gone, I'll still be BLOODY MARY'

[galpalaven]

why is taking a speaking test for english so scary i am always like oh god theyre gonna know i dont speak english

i do. i do speak english. i only speak english.

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

[zeena-athena]

I don't know how to explain to anyone that my search for an all in one planner that gives me everything i need in a planner is killing me slowly and i'm about ready to say fuck it and make my own design because finding something that works shouldn't be this hard or cost me over $70 at best

[ungodly-amounts-of-godly-trauma]

should i come back to this. do that twist or whatever

[saltinesinsoup]

aughh man its like. i want to watch something but nothing on youtube is good and everything being recommended to me feels like mindless slop but also i dont feel like there's any good shows out right now that i could watch and i also dont really want to rewatch anything and at its core i think im bored and a little bit creatively unfulfilled

[misfortunegirl]

obligatory photo to sum my feelings up

[red-dyed-sarumane]

omg hi i went insane and decided to go thru every single mushoku toumeisai entry (theres about 4800 songs this time!) one by one until i found null's entry! after going thru around 600 songs over 2 days & finally caving & going thru ones i didnt already on the ranking I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

shiawasekai!!! recognized null instantly i was yelling. its got null's signature emotionally charged sound with the guitars & and the tuning on teto. not to mention the word play in the title, fusing shiawase & sekai like that. it's only null's 3rd upload thats why i was so desperate to find it & see if they're keeping the same direction both redraw and ai wo have and it sounds like they are!!!! very cool go give them some love!

[baeshijima]

ive just gone down a massive rabbit hole of youtube videos explaining and answering questions abt love in its biological and scientific form and wow i feel strangely enlightened

[ozymoron]

this enrichment chamber isnt very enriching :(

[immaterial-girl]

everyone talks about how your frontal lobe finishes cooking at 25 but maybe they are on to something bc i have been suddenly struck with inspiration to live a more fulfilling life?? like mentally.

to try and work toward self-improvement and to stretch & do yoga and meditate and read more nonfiction and do research about things just because i find them interesting and journal more and commit time to creative projects and actually commit to the languages i’m learning and just like invest good things in myself because if i feed my brain garbage it will output garbage.

like i am generally very happy & have been for a minute, and that is fine but it makes me worry that as long as i am happy i won’t have any reason to work toward becoming the kind of person i would meet and want to aspire to be more like. so anyway

TL;DR: if anyone has any thoughts on concrete ways to improve life and being a person i would very much like to hear♥️ in tags, replies or comments

[fairyfrenddeaf]

meal prep is a fancy way of saying eating leftovers all week

[irrigos]

fanfic update: i am bored with nanowrimo and probably wont be really actively trying to write every day. i have like. 2-3 things left to write and im still gonna try to get it done before the end of the month, and count that as a win if i can do it

(2 of those should be pretty short and one might be. quite long. or it might not if i manage to actually make a montage that doesnt feel SUPER awkward and unnatural)

but i copy-pasted everything ive written so far this month into my actual Scrivener document and we did it!!! we officially broke 100k!!! current wordcount is 103,146 words. wowie!!! thats so many words. thats so many more words than anyone needs to read. and yet. here we all are.

anyway i wanted to take a break from just working on writing so i could work in the art project i have been picking at for ages

[scolek]

once every six months on average i invent strange and beautiful new ways for anime people to express affection

[xartus]

Observations:

Sometimes I get horny as in, just a physical sensation. This sensation is very annoying to me. Sometimes I just ignore it, other times I rely on manual stimulation

The "taking care of it" part isn't exactly fun for me. Its less like scratching an itch and more like taking off a band aid or putting aloe on a sunburn. It feels "good" in the sense that the sensation is relieved and I can focus on the rest of my day

I notice that, if I just go for it, that's when I get the uterine cramps. Now, before T, I could just take care of it and be done. But now, going from 0-100 kinda sucks. Problem is, it takes time to get myself worked up, and I just don't have the patience. I'm rarely even aroused when this happens, I just feel horny. Just wanna get it over with

In fact, I'm swiftly losing the ability to be aroused just by physicality. I need at least some type of thought scenario involving another person, at best another person to explore and connect with for an extended period of time

I've been more aroused by just flirting with this girl I'm interested in over text than like the last I don't know how long of jacking off. Masturbation reaaaaally does not do anything for me anymore. And for it to do so, I have to read like 12 billion fanfics. I don't even really like to do it anymore and I wish it wouldn't happen since its an annoying expenditure of time and energy

I've mentioned this to lots of people and they've said I'm on the ace spectrum. I don't think I am since I definitely DO experience sexual attraction. Quite intensely. But only in the realm of reality and tangible human beings. I see sex as way of connecting with another person and the act of self-stimulus is boring, tiring, and unnecessary to me. Course I can't help my urges and I'm only human!! Certainly not mad or ashamed of myself for it. It's just akin to a minor hassle of existence then anything else. The physical embodiment of having to put air in your tires or go to the post office

[scarysanctuary]

idk how ppl tyhpe well wiath long nails i want to kill myself rn I CAN TBE ARSED WITH correcting this shit NO MOER. ALSO i got naikl glue in my hair and it almost fucking splooged in myn eye instead actulALLY!! jesus .