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archive2394934 · 2 years

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I am not trying to defend anyone. I am a person who loves character analysis and I try to understand everyone's point of view. The post you mentioned where the person tries to defend one character but seems to criticize the other stems from a rather deep frustration. That blog in particular that wrote that post has often been attacked for being a bipoc Billy fan. Some have even said that there are no poc fans and that they are a fabrication (which is absurd). Way too often Billy's fans are attacked for simply relating to him. Dacre himself defends Billy. Thus they attack him, too. These same haters who attack Billy's fans and Dacre, however, are often reveiled to be fans and defenders of Henry Creel. (Now, in my opinion both fans should not be attacked or offended simply because they love a character. Seeing humanity in characters is not a crime.) However, I can understand the frustration in being called racist, bad, evil or whatever bad word by fans who nevertheless justify Henry. It is a bit of a nonsense and a contradiction. The solution still isn't attacking Jamie or his fans. It would be nice, though, if they would cease this unnecessary war. Understanding a morally dubious character does not mean agreeing with his actions in real life or condoning crimes in real life. This is what everyone should learn in order to have a healthier fandom. At the moment, however, all I do is see hatred, so I stay in my corner and do not interract with anyone. So I hope you understand if I remain anonymous.

I'm sorry for all that and its depressing that this fandom is attacking Billy fans and Billy's actor as if thats some normal good conduct. Yikes. But that being said its still worth pointing out that drawing such negative attention to Jamie in defense of Decre is not the way to go.

Jamie's just a sweet guy doing nothing wrong. Hes just doing his job of acting. He doesn't deserve hate to take the heat off Dacre and Dacre doesn't deserve hate either. Neither of them do. From what I can gather the things people have said about and directed toward Dacre are just evil and unhinged. Definitely not okay on ANY level.

And thats really where a lot of my alarm here is coming from. This fandom has some serious issues with media literacy and with separating fiction from reality... Among other things. Currently, we literally have people in this fandom on their pedestals working so hard to convince people that Henry/Vecna is not just a "bad person" but things like that he's a P*dophile and a N*zi. Like its real crazy out here atm. So to draw attention to Jamie saying he loves and relates to Vecna as a shady/weird thing and not as something that rather proves these things aren't what Vecna/Henry is, is really just kind of sacrificing Jamie (even if accidentally) to the ignorant masses of this fandom who will likely start to see HIM as those things rather than understand that those are genuinely not the messages Jamie and the D*ffer's were trying to put across with Henry/Vecna. I'm not saying these are OPs intentions by ANY means. Its understandable if OP was just trying to make a point on this fandom being a bunch of weird hypocrites. But unfortunately as it stands it reads a lot like "THIS IS WEIRDER/WORSE THAN ME/US, YOU SHOULD HATE THEM/IT MORE/AS MUCH"

Which I can promise is NOT gonna help Dacre and Billy fans. Its just gonna make shit more awkward for Henry fans and more importantly probably for Jamie. Thats my concern. I don't want him getting hate, I don't want people to suddenly decide he must be a N*zi sympathizer or a P*do because of this fandom's suspicious and delusional reads on his character and their outstanding immaturity.

And I'm also sorry to hear Henry fans were shitting on Billy fans. That definitely takes some very weird cognitive dissonance that I don't possess!!

#henry creel #vecna #001 #billy hargrove #sorry billy fans!#sorry op!#but I gotta defend jamie here bc Im literally gonna throw up and combust if I see anyone in this fandom #calling him any of those things bc they been eating those wild headcanon/theory posts about henry being a N*zi or P*do #and given the way they've treated Dacre for defending Billy I really dont think its unlikely!#also its perfectly ok for u to be anon! Youre very valid and thanks for reaching out!#i understand what youre saying #im just very worried about jamie and that post could have been put waaay better.

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sweetescapeartist · 2 years

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SONIC FRONTIERS

Before I'm a DB fan, I was a Sonic fan. And Sonic The Hedgehog still important to me but now I want to see what direction the games could be headed. So heres a unorganized review of what I thought from watching the cutscenes.

Watched the cutscenes for Sonic Frontiers. I think its a good story. The problem is that it felt stretched out because SEGA wanted to stretch out the gameplay and story. A shorter story would've been better. Sonic Team was a bit over ambitious and did too much. Which isn't a bad thing if they didnt always try to release games within a holiday season. It makes them rush some things.

°spoilers°

As for the characters? Pretty good. Gonna take more for me to get fully on board from the terrible character interpretations from 2010 to 2017.

Sonic was cool again. Just need to better balance the jokes with this more serious tone. Some of his attacks were stupid tho. Like giant fists and giant feet when Duper Sonic? Just no.

Amy was great. Not obsessed with Sonic but obviously likes him still. Her compassion is handled well.

Knuckles was great. Really liked what they did with him. Showed his compassionate side as he has opened up to his friends more. And the fact that he wants to go on his own adventures is great. Looks like we'll be getting a globe trotting, treasure hunting Enchidna! And no more butt of the joke either. 🙏

Tails? Thank you Sonic Frontiers! They saw the mistake that was the terrible writing of Forces. But instead of pretending it didnt happen, they correct it masterfully. I also love the references to Dark Gia and other previous adventures Tails was on with Sonic. And the Tails development is something we already saw before, but since the 2010 games ruined Tails' character, he had to become who he was from Adventure 1 to Unleashed. So hopefully we get to see him.become a hero in his own right.

Eggman? I really enjoyed his story. The relationship he has with Sage is great. And idk if anyone else has said this yet, but this felt like Gerald Robotnik and his granddaughter, Maria. But instead of becoming a mad scientist after having his beloved granddaughter taken from him, Eggman has become kinder due to Sage whom he views as his daughter. And when she "died" he managed to bring her back in a post credits scene. Never thought there would be character development for Dr. Eggman. And for it to be that he might become who his grandfather once was? Man, that's just smart.

Cant wait to see where their story leads them with Ian writing for them. Felt like a continuiation of Unleashed a bit.

The story was interesting too. The ancient race were the Kocos who once held the Chaos Emeralds. And they're aliens I believe. Their whole cyber space thing makes sense at the end. And the fact that they look like tall versions of Chaos is cool too. Because Chaos is a Chao that absorbed a lot of energy from the Master Emerald.

Character interractions are good too. Im interested in what Sonic Team does in the future.

But the gameplay? Too repetitive. This is part of the overambitiousness comes in. Why give Sonic certain combat moves? And why not have him make use of the spindash and homing attack more? Like when Sonic parries an attack, he should do it by getting into a ball, not swatting it away with his hand. Knuckles would do that because thats where his strength comes in to play.

And boss battles were very repeditive and too long. Could have been better with better quick time events where you press multiple buttons instead of 1 singlular button.

Thats it. Time to see what Sonic Team does next. Kinda hopeful bht also very cautious.

#sonic frontiers #they did my boy Tails right!

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monkeyparasite · 2 years

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Hey my good pal ! It would make me really happy if you made headcannons of the Gorillaz members + Ace about how they would interract with a S/O who's autistic and do stimming a lot, because i'm autistic myself and i do stimming A LOT. If you don't want to do this with all members, i understand, but if you could do it with at least Noodle, 2D and Ace, it would be cool !

Awhh of course! Anything for my buddies! :D

i might actually also need this holy fuck hfgsgsh-

Murdoc

Lightly pokes fun of your hyperfixation(s) unless its something he is also interested in! But will throw hands with anyone else that does that

But after 2D got onto him, explaining why thats EXTREMELY wrong and disrespectful (poking fun of your hyperfixations), he apologized profusely and sobbed into his pillow calling you while also eating it being like "I-Im SZO ZSORreERrYy!!! PLLLalpl3aEAsE DioNt LeBaevebM MeeeeEEee!!! WAHHAAHGAGc YoYOU CaNN TalTALk ABoUT AnYAnYTHING yOUyoU WANT!!!"

Anyways. Isn't all that informed but says he is. He just gets his information from 2D cause he knows he has ADHD(?).

When he first saw you stimming, just went "oh, yeah, thats cute. 2D wtf are they doing? Did i do something wrong?" After having to be explained what stimming is, Murdoc fell down a rabbit hole of stim toys while looking online because 2D suggested to learn more about Autism online

Next thing you know, you meet up with him, and he gives you a stim toy and continues on the meetup or date like its normal. Then its its something that's your hyperfixation(s). Then its both. Then its just himself with a bow on his head

Understands and sympathizes with you when your overwhelmed, offers to take you somewhere else. Does his best to help out, really!

OMNE MORE 4 HIM I SWEAR!! He tried to cosplay Scott Pilgrim but failed horribly, still went to go see you though!

Ace

I have no idea what this man gots going on with him but I know it's something funky, I swear! /post /aff

I also like to imagine when you told him that he was like "Bada-boom-bada-bang baby!" And just had Noodle get him a library book about autism because he is literally banned from his town's library (again)

the next day mfer was telling you facts about Scott Pilgrim to try and swoon you plus buys you merch of it and always does the fuck boy face after he gives you em

Calls your stimming "jazzy". Probably offers you his knife to stim with, just says to be careful because he doesn't want you or it hurt

Will stab anyone that overwhelms you. Idk man he's a lil uh, funky, I think

This man has ADHD, i think(?) idk, but im pretty sure he's neurodivergent! Anyway, because of this, he understands incrediblely well!

Sometimes, when you stim, he joins in. He can't really help it and its not a bad thing either, really! It's just.. whenever he sees someone else stimming or hears a funky noise, he stims (yes, i do this, yes im self-inserting or whatever the word is, and yes i will stop if anyone wants me to!)

He actually enjoys hearing about your hyperfixation(s) too! But, he might space out or dissociate randomly, so just a fair warning, if he doesn't remember some of the details. He is also forgetful on top of that, so you might have to refresh his memory on that stuff

Might also develop the same hyperfixation as you because the way you make it sound so cool and interesting, and correct me if im wrong, but isnt it Scott Pilgrim vs the world? I think he would be way into that ngl, same with Murdoc, maybe?

Gets you matching stim toys because he thinks its cute, but he never uses his unfortunately, mainly because he lost it in one of his pants pockets as well as his leftover lint balls

Tries not to overwhelm you and plan dates that fit your schedule, while he does have a bad habit of wandering off or staying too close to you, at least he occasionally remembers to either: look behind him OR ask you if he needs to move a bit

Russel

Surprisingly is very well informed! Offers to get you stim toys and take you to the movies if they're playing it

Very chill and understanding about it overall tbh, just a thoughtful kind guy!

If you ever need him to, he will lay on you like a weighted blanket

Just smiles at you when you stim and pats you on the head,

Offers to show you cat videos when your overwhelmed that helps him

I cant think of any more headcanons for him, I am so sorry

Noodle

Extremely supportive and interested in your hyperfixation

Understands when you stim and even tries to help you or change things for you incase you need to

Has offered to beat up anyone that makes fun of your stimming, definitely will

Also very supportive! Uplifts you a lot

I also have no ideas for her either, all I know is she is just.. so supportive and protective of you

#gorillaz #gorillaz band #murdoc niccals #2d #russel hobbs #noodle #stuart pot #gorillaz headcanons #russel gorillaz #skippys friends #knife #mentions of knife #stabbing #mentions of stabbing #stabbing mention

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dykesprentiss · 4 years

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ok so. i know a lot of this has probably been said before, but i wanted to put my two cents in. very rambly and disorganized because i am just like that.

i think everyone in this fandom needs to examine the way they interract with male vs female characters. why is it easier for you to focus on and create content for male characters that have appeared in 2 episodes maximum, then it is for the women that are in the main cast? why do you gravitate towards ships between two male characters who have never met (specifically jonah and like. his harem of old british men. usually based on one single line of dialogue) then the actual, canon wlw relationships?

like dont get me wrong, when lonely eyes first started cropping up it was funny! i enjoyed it, i enjoyed the multiple divorce jokes, because it was a small fandom in joke that made fun of some old bastards. and now its the second most popular ship in the fandom. now its so popular, people think its canon before they start listening. why are you unable to muster that same kind of enthusiasm for any of the female characters? gertrude and mary have very similar appeal to lonely eyes, and yet its a fringe ship that nobody ever talks about. gertrude and agnes have very significant moments and mentions in the podcast, and yet the only people i see talking about them are wlw.

or we could talk about michael and helen! helen who, as of this moment, has become a key player in the storyline. helen who yeeted michael out of existence, who took over the power of the distortion by her own choice, and with her own strength. and so often i see her relegated to "vodka aunt that coos over jonmartin" is that a bad take on her? of course not! but having her only purpose be to comment on the male characters rubs me the wrong way.

lets talk about elias and mary. elias gets praise, and love, and devotion, regardless of the horrible things he does. the entire fandom has the reputation of eliasfuckers now because everyone goes so crazy for him. mary is just as evil, has just as sexy a voice (i assume lol cause tbh? eel eyes does not do it for me and never will), and people just. hate her. full stop. why is that?

it seems like manuela has been. completely forgotten. i Never see anyone talk about her. she has just as much appeal as the male avatars, so why are you so uninterested in her? sasha and tim have the same amount of importance, and both have died, but there is So much more focus on tim. why.

daisy/basira and melanie/georgie are incredibly well developed relationships, their stories are as beautiful and tragic and intimate as jonmartin, but the f/f and m/m fic ratio on ao3 is abysmal. because it seems to me that the only people writing about them are wlw.

which happens.....a lot. het relationships and gay relationships are for everyone, but lesbian ships? thats just for gay women. everyone goes head over heels for mlm movies, regardless of sexuality, but wlw movies never receive the same kind of treatment. why.

this isn't even touching on the. blatant and disgusting fetishising of mlm. elias is evil because hes gay and skanky. tim is bi so he must sleep around. tim and martin are both mlm in the same vicinity of each other so they must have had a friends with benefits relationship. jon/elias and peter/martin have significant age differences and power disparities, so they must have an incredibly fucked up sexual relationship. jon is ace, but yall just fully ignore that so you can write horny fic of him. (and im going to be completely honest, if you get legitimate joy from writing manipulative r*pe fic involving these characters, Especially involving an ace character, ( edit: i apologize for my wording here, i didnt intend to compare trauma between ace and non ace ppl. my point is that jon seems to be the main target in these fics, and that they seem to be a direct response to his asexuality. fic like this is bad regardless of who is targetted). than that is a big problem. you arent "exploring dark topics in a meaningful way" youre writing fucked up porn for your own sick enjoyment. get angry at me all u want lmao but i stand by that)

i could go on about this forever, but what im really asking is for people to look inward and ask yourselves why you are so against connecting and interracting with female characters? no one is saying you cant like the men, but if theyre the only ones you care about? thats a problem. there are more women in tma then there are men, but they still feel like the minority because of the way the fandom acts. this isnt just a tma problem either! you can put as many rounded out female characters as you want into your content, and every time without fail they will be pushed to the side in favor of the men.

and dont come at me with "oh if you want content of the women you should make it" like we fucking are. the issue is that wlw are the only ones doing it. just take a second and think. are you ignoring the female characters in favor of the men? why? why is that your first instinct? why do you not feel the need to go against that instinct?

#the magnus archives #tma #i used to have so much more love for the male characters too but now im just tired lol #long post #ok to rb #rape mention tw

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hugsfromdad · 3 years

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I've been mia on here, but not mia in the disaster bisexual front. So lemme fill you in

Okay, so idk if I've talked on here over the past few months about a cute cashier, but I can't seem to find it on my blog, so imma assume I haven't.

Back in mid August, I got my kitten. I got him 2 weeks earlier than expected, so the day before I picked him up, I had to run out and get his supplies. My friend was coming over that day, so we decided to hang out (outside) at my house, go get ice cream, and then go to the pet store for my stuff. after we got all that I needed, we went into Market Basket to buy some snacks so we could sit out in the parking lot and talk for a few hours. Well, that's where this story starts.

I looked hella fucking gay that day. (Striped button up UNbuttoned like halfway, my huge choker chain, and then my white washed levi's with a white 'Sisters' belt, and white converses. I can post a pic later if y'all want) so anyways, I was expecting to get some looks and stared. I did. Whatever. Well, were checking out at the speed aisle, and I notice eyes on me. I normally glace around when I'm checking out to see who is working, but I was met this time by the gaze of a cashier two rows back. I glanced down cause I didn't want to be rude, but when I check again, she was still looking at me. So I intentionally held her gaze for a few moments as I took note of what she looked like. Then I finished checking out and left with my friend.

While I'm a disaster bi and will focus and freak out over the smallest interraction with a cute person, I have become aware that most people (my friends) don't read into moments like that and will make fun of me if I do. That being said, I told myself it was probably just in my head and not that significant; that she was just checking out my outfit and clocking me as either a gay guy out with his girlfriend, (which was pretty much the case) or a couple getting some things.

WELL, so right as I was trying to not make anything out of it, my friend turns to me and goes. "Did you see that cashier staring at you? Like, she kept looking at you." And I was like "OKAY SO IT WASNT JUST ME" and she was like "no, she was really looking at you. She's really cute, too." And thus it began.

She's got a great style (also gorgeous even with a mask on, but I was more intrigued and attracted to her style). I told her that I liked her style a couple months ago and she repeated it back to me. She wears multiple necklaces, rings, and somehow makes her store uniform look cool. When I first really took note of her, my immediate thought was "she gives me west coast vibes." My best friend agreed with me when we were in the store together and she was there. And she might not be from the west coast, but if she told me she was from san Fransisco, I would believe it in a heartbeat. She got like a modern Marissa from the OC style. (I didn't watch the show, only those couple gay scenes with her character in it, so don't come for me)

So anyways, for the first 3-4ish months, my brain would short circuit as soon as we would lock eyes. Like, I can't describe it besides just a fog or a mental lockdown. I could like make eye contact, but I would just be in constant panic. I also couldn't imagine what to do next. Thus, I would panic and choose to go in a different aisle than hers for the first while. I didn't know what to do with a gorgeous woman who had eyes on me. (ALSO; I would like to state that her vibes and style are so immaculate, that I almost expect her to be gay. I thought she was clocking me as another gay person at first, but then I realized that we gays don't stare at someone of the opposite gender THIS much. So she could be gay. Idk. I'm good either way.)

Back to the panic: so it took me awhile to actually get the nerve up to choose her aisle when I could. Then we finally like interacted. I finally got her name, and I like asked her how she was. This happened like twice, and then there was a time I came in right after seeing my nephews(socially distanced). It was a slower day, so I didn't feel hurried in moving along. I asked her how her day was, and she answered and asked how mine was. I mentioner being happy cause I finally got to see my nephews after months of not. She then asked how old they were. We talked for a moment before I knew I have to go. It was as I was picking up my bag that I paused and looked at her and said "I've been meaning to say, I like your style." She like paused and said thanks, and that she liked mine as well. I then said something like "see you next time" and left.

From then, I'd see her when I went in, but almost every time she was in the wrong lane. We'd lock eyes as I walked in, and as I checked out and left, but we didn't get to like talk. That is, until I was tagging along shopping with my mum the day after fucking election night.

I don't think I need to say that I was more anxious and distracted than I had ever been when going in, and glued to my phone; refreshing google and watching the numbers come in. I don't think I even looked up when I walked in. I was in another place. I should also mention that I had noticed that the cute cashier (that's literally my nickname for her) usually worked on the weekends. This was a wednesday. So I was NOT paying sttention. I just followed my mum around the store while watching my phone and trying to do the math to see if there was a possibility that biden could win. Well, my mother eventually stuck us in line to check out, and asks me to get off my phone and help her unload, thats when I lift me head, and I'm staring directly into her eyes.

She was bagging for our aisle, so she was just standing there in my direct line of sight. And she has been watching me, waiting for me to fucking finally look up.

I'm sure I looked beyond stunned. Because I was. I honestly was so braindead from the day, that it took me a moment of staring back at to her process as to what was happening. I got it together quickly tho and bantered and talked with her a bit as she bagged and I helped load. She definitely was doing more than most, if that makes sense. I challenged her to fitting all of the groceries onto one cart cause she said she could. It was fun, and I think I again said "see you around* or something like that as we left.

And once again, once we got outside, my mother now goes "oh that bagger was cute." And I told her that that was the cute one I had mentioned before. THEN SHE GOES "oh yeah I picked up on that vibe of y'all." And I WANTED to ask her what that MEANT, but I didn't want to push it and then have my mother know/be able to make things awakrd.

ANYWAYS, 3 chapters in, lemme get to last months. I fucking got in anxiety meds. AND MY WORLD CHANGED. my mental block and fog was GONE. I could finally see a pathway through to like actually talking talking to her. SO, I pulled out a receipt, wrote down my number, and stuck it in my wallet for the next time I saw her.

Welp, the next time that was, she was in the wrong lane and teaching a new cashier what to do, so there was no way I was gonna try and insert myself into that situation. BUT, as I was walking both in and out, we locked eyes as usual, but this time as I was leaving, I did like a quick smile which caused me to squint my eyes for a half second. It almost looks like when a cat does their slow blink at you. I saw her respond to that and like smile back at me as I left. It was the first time I had ever done anything that was direct and nonverbally flirty.

So, I had to go again last night. And my parents were putting us in strict lockdown for the next 10 days, so we had to stock up. Before we left, I rewrote my note. And I told my best friends what was happening, and no matter what was the situation, I was gonna give her the note.

Well, she wasnt there. I was extremely disappointed.

Annnnd that leaves us here. It's gonna be a good 10-14 days before I'm allowed to go out, but youd better fucking believe it when I say that imma be giving her my number the moment I see her next. So wish me luck.

And also in case anyone asks; I don't want to try any dating apps cause I hate them. Also I'm half asleep now she don't have the energy to go back and edit this. Hopefully it's coherent.

So I guess I'll update y'all when I eventually get to leave the house and see her again

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ltfad · 6 years

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How We Write (part 3) - the actual writing part

Anon asked: I was wondering what your writing process is like. How much do you each contribute? How long does it take you to write a chapter? Do you do many rewrites?

This is easy to answer compared to the other stuff.

Step 1:

We bounce plot ideas off each other in chat usually until we’re crying about something. Haha. I’m not kidding. We also might ‘rp’ the concept of a scene to see whether it leads somewhere that works or in a direction we’d wanna go.

Step 2:

Once we’ve got the concept of the plot of the chapter down and how the chapter works in the picture of the bigger plot, Rae writes the first draft. Sometimes Rae writes the whole draft before I get to see it, sometimes I read it scene by scene and we sort of work the direction as its being written. Sometimes the first draft just isn’t coming out right even as a first draft, and that’s usually when I’ll do some writing. This usually happens if I have a clearer idea of whats going on in this chapter than Rae. This happens in particular with Echo chapters. I haven’t literally written the words of most of LTFAD, but I have written a good deal of the content in the Echo chapters (as well as a lot of the content in chapters in Anaxes) cause I have a clearer idea of the chip stuff and the technical side of that. I also just write stuff sometimes if I have a stronger opinion about how it should go than Rae, or if there’s just something I really want to see that would be easier for me to write than explain to Rae.

Step 3:

Once the first draft is done, I look at it. My real work when editing is to read it as a reader first and see if i’m getting the scenes my brain/heart wants. So if I read a scene and think “nooo why did it end there right before they got to talk” or “okay i really wanted ot see those two interract and they didn’t...” then those scenes will usually get put in. Like, I hate watching a show and feelings like disappointed cause something really feelsy seemed like it was gonna happen but then didnt. I try to always make sure the feelsy stuff thats suggested actually makes it in cause thats what I’m reading for too! Anyway that’s like, step one of editing, and step two is just making sure the plot of the chapter is going smoothly, and to make sure the pacing is on point (I can’t explain how I do that, its just intuitive for me when I’m reading).

So between these things, sometimes the whole chapter just isn’t working and needs major rewrites or to be replotted (last Kix chapter was one of these). Usually it doesn’t need that much rewriting though cause Rae’s a great writer and storyteller. Sometimes scenes need to be expanded or cut out, and sometimes I’ll do that or direct Rae in how it would be better. I also do just a lot of little edits like wordchoice, sentence structure, getting rid of stuff that makes a weird mental image (lol), shortening stuff thats dragging or deleting stuff thats not adding anything.

And part of that is so when Rae writes the first draft they can really just write whatever and not have to worry about whether its perfect or the best vocab or sentence structure, they can just get the words onto the page and then we can mold it together from there.

So those are the three main steps to a chapter.

As for how long it takes to write a chapter, it really depends on whether it needs major rewrites or not. If it doesnt need any major rewrites, it can be done in a few days to a week. If it does need rewrites, it can take weeks, especially cause we have to keep returning to it with fresh eyes to see if the rewrite is working on an intuitive level, and sometimes it takes a few days to get fresh eyes for a chapter again.

Other things about our writing process just have to do with, like, our notes and stuff. I know Rae has a lot of notes, especially about all the many many many ocs that show up in the various battalions, their ranks, what their current injury status is, whether they’re even still alive or got killed off in some chapter... if they have a platoon, who’s been mentioned as being in their platoon, etc. Who’s Jesse’s lieutenant (it’s Singer) and who’s his sergeant (it’s Copper). There are, I assume notes on their appearances too especially for the really minor ones. BUt I never really get to see these notes lol.

On my side I keep track of the passage of time, and it looks like this:

This is up through the published chapters but the timeline extends through O66 at this point. This is how we keep track of how much time is passing and when the plot threads interract, if it makes sense temporally. etc etc, and any time a passage of days or weeks is mentioned in a chapter, and how much time the chapter itself covers, should be reflected here. I only really started doing this after the 4 plots diverged. The sidefic, which is really a fifth plot thread, is on the side of this because the timing of that is important to ltfad, but if course i cut it off because spoilers.... also the timeline of RotS is on this too from this point down so that it all works together.

I think that’s all I really have to say on this, sorry it’s all so long! If anyone has any further questions about something specific, feel free to ask! It’s really a collab that wouldn’t work without us working together. I know Rae is more vocal about it when working on a chapter and more visible so they kinda end up getting more of the credit for the story often which is kind of frustrating for me since, beyond the editing and writing I myself put into it, a lot of the plot stuff has been my ideas... just know it’s absolutely an equal team effort.

Thanks for the questions anon!

#ltfad #writing advice #ask

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beryul-blog · 6 years

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so i’ve reached a milestone . ive loved luke ever since i first watched the movies when i was seven years old and??????honestly my love for him hasn’t changed????? having said that , my love and understanding for his character would not have been where it is now without you guys. im just so grateful and balled over at the talent , creativity , and passion of everyone i follow and idk expressing emotions is not my strong suit so uhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhh ilu<333 im way too adh.d for this i stg ZOOM ZOO M TO THE SPECIAL MENT I O N S

THE BLUE MILK ( the duplicates --- some id consider friends )

ooOooOh boy . you guys i cant even bE GIN to explain my love for y’all . i have the biggest duplicate angziety in the world . its in my nature i cant help it and honestly??????/all your interpretations terrify me bu t in a good way i promise bc theyre all so unique and well thought out and amazing and what makes it even wor S E is that all of you ( even the ones that i dont speak to all that often ) are the sweetest, most talented , sensitive , passionate individuals ive met online????? EV E R. also all these comments are genuine not sarcastic aslkjaksdnasl (forgive me im british i thin k everything sounds sarcastic)

@horizonwept : charlie????mY. G OD. your understanding and enthusiasm of our Son is unparalleled and?????? ik we dont speak that much recently b u T I WANT TO MORE????? everytime you post something i press mah lil face up to the screen and weepe t h . you’re also kind and funny and people just????? love u?????AND I lov e u too????? al SO you convinced me of lukes characterisation in tlj and tfa and honestly????im so s O glad u did<3 everythign u post is just so thought out and intelligent and i just. wish. i could do wht u do??? keep being amazing sweaty :’) @lstjedi : KAY!!!!!!! the founder of the lu k e slywalker group chat *g a sps* mah love. now i know youve been feeling a lil insecure recently about ur age and ur mental health has been acting up (belief me i know<3 ) b u T HUN NN Y listen up: you ar e the symbol of dont-judge-by-age policy bc honestly???? u have the skill, dedication, and maturity of people who are twice ur age. ur passion????? unbelievable. ur kindness????? one of a kind. ur maturity?????? uhhhh more than me. ur writing???? delicious. if youre feeling insecure about your age, dont. you are amazing and talented and dont u d A RE forget it<3 edit: also i love how you come onto the chat being the first person to talk and ur like ‘hi guys!!!’ and idk i just find u really sweet and friendlyasjdna,nda @skyhcpped : ro!!!!!!! henlo there my frond. first of all wh ERE DO U FIND ALL THESE MEMES?????? im loving it keep going. we havent spoken much b U T the groupchat has brought us Together and thats the best thing ever bc i think ur just?????? so talented and ur understanding and love for luke (eveninmemes) is unparalleled. i love talking about our mutual Hate for re/ylo and a L SO i hope ur not still freezing on hoth?????if you are cold, wrap up warm, grab urself a hot chocolate if u like that sort of thing, run a bath, uhhhhhhhhh create a pillow fort, find a tauntaun and sit inside it. that was my survival lecture thanks for coming to my ted talk :))))) also the fact u are. literally. daredevil???? taking a s hot of vinegar and terrified a boy??? my hero, mah idol. i did a reverse thing where i dared (2) boys to take a teaspoon of vanilla essence and they did it (s o empowering ;)

@lightswept : riceeeeee. honestly how can anyone ever hate you???? we havent been talking for v long but omgskdnf you are so sweet and lovely and u deserve The World????? haters need to back tf up bc u are so Pu re. and ur also really attentive????? your writing is just so fluent and honestly??a full course meal. remember that i love and appreciate you and thats NEVER going to change<333 if u ever need to talk, i am always here even tho im shit at advice i will send u metaphorical cake and hugs xoxo

@hopegave : mY ITALIAN BEAN. look at us europeans yesiknowbrexit, awake when all the ‘muricans are sleep i n g asljdaksl ur honestly adorable??????like i cant even begin?????on the group chat youre so enthusiastic and capiTAL LETTERS and asjaklsdlka so Pu re??? and both of us gushing about snow ??????? iconic, truly. you, being the first person to call ne w york hoth????? also iconic. ITALY IS ONE OF MY FAV PLACES ON EARTH I GO THERE A LOT IN THE SUMMERASFJHSD b U T thats off topic. what i need to say is that ilu and ur enthusias m and friendliness and yeah?????? stay awesome

@dualsuns : LIAM IDK WHY IM TELLING U THIS BUT WHENEVER I THINK OF U I THINK OF WINE??????? m aybe its bc ur prose is so damn sophistica t e d????? its so fluent and makes s o much sense???? ur so good at narrating lukes thoughts its so obvious you have this amazing understanding of his character its !!!!!!!! and i seriously admire that/? like your voice is uhhh h on point . i can tell you take this seriously and care so much about luke (boi me too) and it shows???? in all ur hcs and ooc posts its all backe d up with quotes, love and analysis like damnnnnnnnn. i know ive only really interacted w you a couple of times in passing but id love to more????? ur amazing everythings amazing wow<3

@didntturn : hmm mMMMM Mm kylie. have we ever spoken????? i dont think so. i just admire u from afar :’) g U RL first of all ur hilarious???? idk i think we’ve got a similar sense of humour aklsdnanm its very british. also ur hcs t a KE MY BREATH AWAY. so muc h detail and love????? u clearly have a deep understanding of luke only us mere mortals can d REA M of<3 hope we can start talking bc i uhhhh adore ur characterisation and id love to discuss????? idk im gushinggggggg

THESE ARE ONLY SOME DUPLICATES I COULD GUSH ABOUT EVERY SINGLE ONE OF U UNTIL THE DAY I DI E

THE DROIDS ( mah main cretins )

@guiltslut : yh idk who u ar e :/ j K BINCH IK UR WENDO!!!!! mah main cretin :’) youve been by my side for 8 months (or was it seven???? i cant rememberasdkajsdk) which is an,, ,, , achievement. your writing is tasty af and ur enthusiasm unparalleled. i will always love and appreciate you<3

@smuglr : i have to put u on here bc we’ve known each other for over a year and thats kinda mcCrazy??? im sorry i havent kept in touch as much as i probably should have, but im more sorry for making u think i was on bath salts when i was quoting bad lip reading :/ honestly ever since the beginning ive admired ur prose so much???? its so good and attentive and poetic and fluent i just???? could gush about it all weak tbhhhhhh your graphics and aethetics are also ?????? amazing?????? im so happy that i know u and even after all this time i still love and appreciate u<33 Stay groovy mah frond

@primdoe : sO ik i havent known u for very long at all n this is probably like?????? a lil Extra?????? but im already in love. i could gush about ur oc for Yonks and just how passionate and attentive you are to her????? shes so detailed and cared about by many and you inspire me to put more detail into my own ocs askdjasmnd???? ur graphics and ps skills are just????? they water my crops honestly???? and the fact that you gave me one of your psds is the sweetest ilu??

SPACE SHIPS ( the i-admire-from-afar-but-also-interracted-with-in-the-ims-and-loVING IT-so-far-even-tho-im-shit-at-replying???? category )

@aequitia , @astrmech , @awokeforce , @baelnc , @deadlymarch , @elanere , @hopehrt , @rystolo , @scintist , @sunworn .

SUNSETS ( the i admire and havent interacted with yet *__* )

@dynste , @entropiet , @ersoic , @flypulse , @forcebled , @galasymph , @greysistance , @jaigsight , @midlapse , @tiefighting , @resistijo , @roseared , @starkniight , @theforcetm , @rotichor , @scorpyre .

#ik ive missed a to n #b U T if ur my mutual then #hmu :*#this too k me all da y #but i need everyone to know that yall water my harvest<3 #✫ * . THIS IS THE DOLLAR STORE . HOW GOOD CAN IT BE ? / * OUT .

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flower-zombie-rob · 1 year

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Hello flowers! Just gotta tell you something.

You are one of my favorite artists on tumblr, i enjoy seeing any art you post while joining on the chaos without feeling like im being too weird and it's a lot of fun when this blog just bursts into chaos and seeing you have a good time out of this and question all of the anon's sanity is very enjoyable. I hope you continue to make art and chaos!

I have a very similar sentiment myself!!!

As someone who definitly had a hard time coming to terms with niche intrests and still struggles a lot with self confidence off the internet, its been really nice and fun to meet so many funny and likeminded people. Not only that, but getting the chance to chat and be mutuals and friends with creators who are really huge and talented in this community has been amazing, its even lead to me meeting some irl! I really feel like im kind of known in the jse fandom(on tumblr at least) and its lead me to this feeling of creating my own follower community. I feel like ive tried hard to make my blog a safe space for people like me (or who were like me when i was a younger user). I dont like to tear people down or call them cringe(unless they do something legitimately that makes me uncomfortable) because the chaos is fun and quirky and its a thing i feel my blog embodies that other bigger jse blogs cant or dont. My cutesy art style serves as a way to welcome people to my blog, but i love the dynamics i get to form between you guys and the fact that youre always so open with my in my ask box and dms is really sweet and makes me feel like ive really gathered a kind and sweet collection of people who now get to meet and interract with each other through my blog as a platform, encouraging them to interract with others more too. I love you guys snd this friendly and supporting mini-community we've made around my blog and i hope it stays like that because this blog really is safe for anyone from all walks of life to enjoy if they want to without fear of judgement.

Just dont be getting all parasocial on me guys thats the only thing im affraid of with this little vibe we have. Remember you dont know me and i dont know you so dont blindly follow and agree with me on everything and definitly dont confide in me as this therapust friend for venting and traumadumping and such. But i havent had that happen too often due to how dearly you all respect me and i respect you all the same!

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teamkaiforever · 7 years

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Give Me A Chance

(requested by @selma-prq) BONKAI word count : 1 824 summary : (after Damon leaves 1994) Kai has feelings for Bonnie and she has some feelings for him too , but she keeps trying to deny them. * not my gif __________________

Ever since the first time Kai saw Bonnie there had been something about her that drew him in. He didn’t know if it was because she was the very first person he had seen in 18 years or because of her personality or because she was his ticket out of the Prison world. He just knew he liked her. Being a sociopath , emotions rarely bothered him but things with Bonnie were different. She was brave , loyal … Kai liked that about her. He had never had anyone like her in his life. After the officially met , he tried flirting with her and it was all going perfectly fine until she found out what he had done. For some reason she couldn’t forgive him for that the same way she had forgiven Damon’s many sins. Yet the more she resisted the more he wanted to get her to like him. Even after she had killed him and crossed him not once but twice , he still wanted that.

Kai hadn’t seen coming Bonnie giving up her magic. Part of him had hoped they’d get out , maybe somehow he’d get her to go out on a date with him or something. Instead things never seemed to work out in the way he wanted them to. He had spend so much time alone in the Prison World , his human interraction skills have gone into a deep slumber. Kai couldn’t understand why Bonnie didn’t like him. He was nice … ish. When they had first met he had felt something and he rarely felt anything towards anyone , specially strangers. Kai found himself unexplicably drawn to her , thinking about her all the time even when he didn’t want to. “I can’t believe you chose to send away your magic. That has to be the stupidest thing you’ve ever done. ” said Kai , his hand holding onto Bonnie’s arm practically pulling her after him in the direction of the Salvatore house. “You spent 4 months trying to get it back only to give it away …” “It’s a small price to pay too keep you from getting out.” said Bonnie , wriggling her hand out of Kai’s grasp. “I’d do it all over again in a heart beat.” Kai clenched his jaw for a moment , his eyes piercing into hers. Then he started laughing. ‘Or maybe ’ he thought. ‘she is finally starting to like me and just wanted to be all alone with me.’ Bonnie looked at him confused , unable to figure out what was so funny. She had basically doomed both of them to spend eternity alone together … and then it hit her. Maybe Kai was right. By dooming him , she doomed herself, but there had to be another way out , right ? If such a thing existed , she planned on finding it and getting out on her own. “Ugh … You are unbelievable.” she said turning on her heels and walking away from him. The less time Bonnie spent around Kai , the easier it was for her to shove all those feelings she had for him. Sometimes she wondered if she had gone crazy spending four months only with Damon because before that , she never would’ve fallen for a person like Kai…even if he was one the hottest guys she had met. Bonnie got to the house first , walked upstairs into Damon’s room , tossing herself onto the bed. “Never thought I’d say this … but I miss you , Damon.” she muttered to herself.

“Morning.” Kai said hovering over Bonnie who had fallen asleep on the sofa the night before after she and Kai had been playing monopoly because Kai kept insisting ‘it will be fun’. “I made you breakfast.” he said , pulling her up and dragging her towards the kitchen. “Pancakes ! You will love them , they are much better than Damon’s.” Bonnie sat on the table , a plate with pancakes landing in front of her alongside a glass with orange juice and a cup with coffee. “Why are you doing all this ? I will never like you or enjoy your company … ” “Can’t you see I am trying to be nice ? We will be stuck here for all eterntiy , I just want us to get along.” he said , sitting on the opposite side of the table , digging in his pancakes. Bonnie just stared at him. “Oh come on , Bon Bon. You can’t hate me forever. What would you have done in my place ? Let your only chance to go home slip away ? ” Bonnie sighed , glancing at the pancakes. She was hungry and the pancakes looked incredible - fluffy , the perfect shade of golden brown and very appetising. Kai looked at her expectantly. There was something about his eyes this morning that was different and for a moment she actually considered their etenity together. ‘Maybe it won’t be that bad.’ she thought.

“Only because I am hungry.” she said taking a bite from her pancakes. “MMm those are … awful absolutely awful.” Kai squinted his eyes for moment , knowing fully well Bonnie is lying. “Whatever , I know you like them.” he said. “You don’t have to pretend , Bonnie. I see everything that’s going on here…” Bonnie glanced at him , took a few sips from her juice and without a word walked out of the kitchen. “Where are you going ?” “To pick my half of the world..” she called out. “…so I don’t have to listen to you for another second.” she muttered to herself as she walked out the Salvatore Boarding House. It was really hard hating Kai when he was doing gestures like this but it also wasn’t enough to get her to forgive him for shooting an arrow in her abdomen or chasing her in the hospital , nearly choking her afterwards. A minute passed before Kai got up and ran after her , quickly catching up with Bonnie. “Slow down. It’s not like the world is going anywhere.” “Ugh.” “Oh , come on Bonnie. Damon is gone , you don’t have to pretend you don’t like me anymore.” “Who’s pretending?” Bonnie kept walking towards town with Kai at her tail , not slowing down for a second. He took a few steps ahead and blocked her way. “It’s OK I like you too… you are not the ‘most annoying person in the world’ as Damon said. You can teach me to be good.” Bonnie rolled her eyes. Even if what Kai said was true , he was still a psychopath who at any moment might turn on her and kill her without anyone realising it had even happened. “You don’t like me. You are just afraid I’ll find a way out and ditch you behind.” “Oh-kay. That may be partially true but ..” “No 'but’s , Kai. You are not getting out of here , I am not getting out of here. The fact we will both be stuck in this 'wonderful magical world’ doesn’t mean we have to talk or see each other. ” “Ouch.” “Yeah. Ouch. Now move out of my way.” Kai didn’t move an inch and Bonnie pushed her way past him. He grabbed her wrist making her turn around towards him. “You can deny it all you want Bon Bon… but I know the truth. So do you.” Bonnie wriggled her wrist out of Kai’s hands and continued on her way to Mystic Falls , fighting off the butterflies in her stomach and the feeling she had gotten having Kai look at her the way he had.

The next few days were hard to say the least. Kai was annoying as hell , never shutting up. A few times Bonnie actually found herself enjoying his company. When that happened she usually just up and left wherever they were just to stop herself from showing him that he is starting to win her over. He was acting more charming by the minute making it harder for her to deny how his smile was able to make her heart flutter , how his blue eyes could send butterflies in her stomach with one look. That night she went to sleep thinking about him.

Kai smiled to himself. He hadn’t had a clue how interesting and fun it could be watching someone sleep. “Morning sleepyhead.” Bonnie opened her eyes , widening in shock at seeing Kai laying on the bed next to her , his hands behind his head. “Sleep well?” “What the hell are you doing in my bed ?! Get out !” “You were drooling in your sleep. Were you dreaming about me ? That would explain the drool.” said Kai grinning , reaching to touch her face. For a moment Bonnie didn’t pull away , then she grabbed his wrist squeezing tight making Kai flinch in pain before pushing him off the bed and onto the floor. Kai got up , a slight smirk on his face as he got onto her bed again. “You like me.” Bonnie sighed in frustration , rolling her eyes.Heart skipped a beat at his words but she quickly shoved all the feelings away. “No , I don’t. What do you even hear when I speak to you ? I DON’T LIKE YOU.” “But you were dreaming about me. I know you were. You said my name in your sleep.” Bonnie froze for a moment , clenching her jaw. She had been in fact dreaming about him. He had been lurking in her dreams a lot the past few days but she didnt plan on sharing that with him. “No , I haven’t. Why would I dream about you ? Find something else to obsess about.” she got up from the bed , briskly walking to the door. Kai got up after Bonnie quickly catching up with her , gripping her wrist making her turn around. He quickly backed her against the wall , his hands on either side of her boxing her in. He was breathing heavily , not because he had been running , but because he wanted to kiss her. “Kai …” Bonnie’s heart racing , her eyes trying to avoid his. He was standing too close to her , so close she could feel his breath on her face. He was leaning in and a part of her (she was no longer sure how dominant that part had gotten) wanted him to. “Give me a chance Bon Bon.” he whispered slowly backing away from her. “It is all I ask. We can be friends , I know we can.” It took her more than few seconds to recover , for her breathing to stop being shallow and for the sound of her heart pounding to disappear. “If I do , will you stop following me everywhere ?” she said crossing her hands on her chest. All she wanted was to get him to stop with all the sneaking behind her back and if she had to pretend , she would. Though she wondered if thats what she’d actually be doing. A moment ago she had nearly thrown herself at him. Kai put his hands in his pockets and winked at her. “It is possible , yes.” “Okay then.” she said heading downstairs towards the kitchen. “What are you making me for breakfast ?”

MASTERLIST March / April 2017 MASTERLIST MAY 2017

#fanfic : mine #kai parker #bonkai #kai parker fluff #bonkai fluff #malachai parker #tvd #the vampire diaries #vampire diaries #bonnie bennett #vampire diaries imagines #vampire diaries imagine #I SUCK AT BONKAI STORIES 🙈sorry #fanfic #fan fic #fiction #fanfiction #fan fiction #fan fic writing

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autisticteru · 7 years

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Hey there!! I don't really know a lot about autism, so it would be super cool if you could share your reasons for headcanoning teru as autistic? I think it would be interesting to read about your views on it and people like me could learn a bit more about autism as well, if youre up for it!

okay so basically!! people describe autism as a lot of things but tbh i dont think anyone ever defines it in a way that makes sense. i personally like to think of autism as an amplified world. sights, sounds, touch, emotions, all of that is amplified with autism. its like the volume in ur brain is turned all the way up and that really affects how u develop over time because u wind up thinking and coping with that differently

everyone with autism is different! but there are basic symptoms of it that lots of autistic people share to some degree. mob has shown many of these symptoms in canon. very blatantly, in fact. i would go as far as to say hes autistic-coded. but so many people have written about this so i wont go into too much depth.

teru, on the other hand, feels like he has a type of autism that i sort of resonate with a bit more!

i like to think that teru’s special interest is film and movies. special interests are basically like this Thing that u get so fuckin obsessed with and u have to know everything about it and u only want to talk abt it and in a way special interests are Hell but i digress. teru would often mimic a lot of what he sees on tv, including the way that characters interract with each other. in fact, characters were probably his guidebook on that. hed mimic this to the point of him actually playing the role of “protagonist” (before mob came along at least)

teru uses social scripts to a blatant degree. but hes good at them. in fact, he even enjoys doing them! he loves being the center of attention so much that he often feels as though hes an actor on a stage. it isnt his real self, because truthfully, teru isnt that great at social interaction without putting on a mask and acting like his Character™ that hes developed in his head.

but terus autism slips through the cracks. for example, when reigen offered to pay everyone for their meal in that one iconic omake, teru didnt really have any respect for that. but reigen talked himself up, so teru probably just thought “if he doesnt want to pay why should i bother?” teru does kinda need people to be a bit specific about their needs and honest because reading those social cues is a bit difficult for him. he probably didnt even know that was rude. teru actually does a LOT of things he doesnt know are rude, because nobody is being explicit abt it.

anyway thats all i got for now, but this is just a few things that show up in canon that lead me to hc him as autistic! of course, u dont really need any evidence to hc anyone as autistic. but! teru has a lot of evidence there if u ask me!

#shark speaks #teruki hanazawa #mob psycho 100 #headcanons #porfoct

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systematicallyinsanetoday · 7 years

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Who’s Who?

Ok so time for some introductions. Im the host, you can call me Ma as everyone else does. Im 37 and a mother, trainee medical secretary, cleaner and seller of posh chocolate. I like reading, drinking tea, and occasionally actually having a bloody clue what Im doing...covered in tattoos and has trichotillomania. Very sensitive to sugar.Sarcastic and very stubborn but slightly softer than she lets on. Holds trauma memories, but mostly later ones. Tends towards masculine appearance or androgeny, but mainly as too lazy to really pay attention to fashion.

Elliot is our protector. Hes in his 40s, southern and also known as grumpy cat which gives you an idea of his disposition. Likes Dallas Cowboys, Coffee, rare moments of quiet and the rarer moments when ‘people actually listen ta what Im tryin to tell them for their own damn good’. Married to Ma. It works, mostly,but anyone who thinks its a ‘happy ever after invent your perfect partner’ thing has never heard them bicker. Holds violent trauma and displays PTSD symptoms on occasion but triggered less frequently these days.

Parker is our little. She age slides, but generally shows up at around age 6-10.She has been as young as 3. She loves animals, unicorns, glitter, sugar,drawing, Elliot and her ‘squishster’ (Ma’s biological daughter). Energetic and happy for the most part, she is shy around new people and has tendancy to type ALL IN CAPS!! We dont know why...need to be heard?! Holds trauma but does not care to talk about it and cannot fully recall details. Her original name was a trigger so she chose Parker after watching ‘Leverage’ and deciding the lady who plays Parker has hair like hers and she wants to hang off the side of building and steal things too one day. Seriously. She also named Elliot, who was previously known only as Grey or occasionally Asshole...for the record, they are not fictives and do not particularly resemble the actors, Parkers hair and Elliots grumpiness notwithstanding..

Dylan is our other little and Parkers twin. Also an age slider, she mostly fronts at around 10 but has been much younger. Unlike Parker, she holds a large amount of trauma and when she fronts will often do so in hypervigilant mode. She is also very quiet, and speaks as beiefly as possible. Othertimes she is entirely mute, and Parker translates.We suspect PTSD even though she has never fronted during therapy to make diagnosis. Physically, she strongly resembles Parker, but her hair is shorter and darker blonde, and her eyes are darker. She resembles Ma as n older child, whereas Parker looks like Ma did when around 3 in terms of colouring.She is much less girly than her sister and prefers gender neutral clothes. Loves her elephant stuffie, Elliot, Parker,lockpicks, dark chocolate, all shades of blue and subdued glitter.

Miss Ellie is our resident southern belle. She is younger than the host, but treats her like a little backward sister who hasnt quite mastered femininity yet. Girly, confident,organised with a secret weakness for chocolate and Brad Paisley, she kind of resembles Tami Taylor and is our ‘work face’ when we need to appear polished, functional, normal and interract with other people. No trauma memories that we know of.

Gaia is our resident hippie. She is a reiki master, dreadlocked, yoga loving zen voice of calm (a rare thing in our family). Chilled beyond belief she is a vegetarian lover of the universe. As far as we know she holds no trauma,and her role is generally being the carer and open minded sounding board.

Cat was the host for the last few years until she got burnout caring for her and Mas 4 yr old son and the man we were in a relationship with. She is an aussie who is normally laid back a bit surfey and very sarcastic with a good line in dirty jokes and a quick wit. She suffers from periods of depression and has issues surrounding sex we do not wish to go into.

Lena is an insider, and a protector who seems to have come about specifically to care for Wolf. Quiet, pretty and holds most of our linguistic skills, speaking both Russian and English with smattering of Finnish. She can pick locks and is very good with technology...much to the confusion of the host who,on the rare occasion Lena fronts is often left with pieces of tech and pages of cryptic notes in russian...which the host cannot read...she likes a good cup of tea and very dark chocolate. Spends most of the time in the innerworld with -

Wolf. Male, in his 20s at a guess,but was once a little. Lenas appearance seems to have helped him grow up to a certain extent. Holder of worst trauma memories, has C PTSD, and exhibited self harming behaviour until recently.Is very quiet and introverted. Is extremely intelligent, and has a passion for the deep web,physics and technology. Does not front, but when he speaks in the innerworld has a soft scottish accent like several of hosts paternal family. Is closest to Lena, will interract with everyone else in system on occasion,but is skittish around Elliot owing to nature of trauma,alpha male types often trigger him. Elliot is aware of this and tries to keep interraction with Wolf to minimum to avoid triggering him.

Ruby. Sexual alter who is currently on ‘lockdown’ in the headspace owing to her manipulative and disruptive nature. Attempts were made to rehab her, but she wound up attempting to hurt Parker and so was locked down by Elliot. Cannot currently front. Is known to several people in the hosts outer life, with varying degrees of fondness.

T is a recently occuring fragment who apparently ‘went to sleep’ when the host was 17 and thus seems to be a copy of the host at that age. Does not recognise the body and does not recognise time has moved on. Smoker and drinker as host was at that age, she wants to travel and has no interest in being maternal or forming family bond. Presently unknown whether or not she is permenant or alter or fragment and ongoing work is being conducted to find out more.

So thats us...our eldest daughter calls us ‘the fam’ and it seems to have stuck. Always happy to chat to other systems or singletons alike but we have no interest in engaging in any kind of one upmanship or bullying and dont go around telling people what their system should and should not be.

Currently we are very happily stable and functional, nut havent always been that way so enjoying it while it lasts ☺

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