#the angel you knew is not me

[sygneth]

"The Fall of the Starmaker"

[spacebubblehomebase]

Happy birthday, Anthony! I just finished drawing this on April Fools and thought it fits. What better thing to post today than some queerplatonic Radioapple tomfoolery? And the fact that Angel Dust invited himself in it is just one big beautiful bonus! So please enjoy! -Bubbly 💙

[ineffectualbookseller]

The way Azirphale is underestimated and practically infantalized by heaven is so closely tied to his femininity and I think we should talk about it more because I just want to shout about how relatable the way he's treated in his workplace is as a woman working in a traditionally male field

It's in all the little niggling comments from your boss about personal things that hold no bearing on your work

and the assumption that what you're doing must be simple if it was assigned to you

your work is trivialized

and you get these the placating smiles when you're told plans and proposals are rejected and passed over

or when your complaints are dismissed

and you get more of the same from upper management

it all feels so frustrating and draining but you're at work so all you can do is take a breathe put on that mask and move on with your day

It is all so deteimental to your emotional well being and textually, so much of this is tied to Aziraphale's softness, his gayness - his femininity

The thing about working in an environment and gives you this feeling - of being simultaneously destrought watching your belief in yourself get chipped away but also just so irate becuase you know you don't deserve it - is how it builds. It sinks under your skin and feeds into this indignant dejection until you can have a moment of release - but Azirphale doesn't get to bitch about it over drinks with friends, he doesn't get a lunch break where he can go for a walk and listen to an angry scandi death metal playlist, he doesn't even get the chance to cry about it in the bathroom for 5 minutes before confronting it again

(And I talked a little bit about it in the tags of this beautiful photoset but this all comes into play whenever Crowley dismisses his plans or calls him an idiot. These are purely emotional reactions; I really don't think Crowley means much by it - he respects Aziraphale's opinion and genuinely thinks he's brilliant - but Crowley is so quick to use this terminology when Aziraphale is making a decision Crowley thinks is wrong and he doesn't know how much this hurts Aziraphale. Just like Aziraphale doesn't understand the true impact the Fall had on Crowley, Crowley doesn't understand the ways heaven has been tearing away at Aziraphale's self worth)

Aziraphale has been facing this constant drip of denigration since before the beginning of time and has never released the pressure valve. At this point, he's a bomb waiting to go off

[jeysuso]

#call me mrs. priest cause i just found my clerical collar

[cloudysarts]

this show would be good if literally everything about it was different

[soup-child]

Riz Gukgak is going to come out and everyone is like yeah we all knew and he will be upset no one told him

[whollyjoly]

in those heavy days in june, when love became an act of defiance

song - june by florence + the machine

special thanks to @xxluckystrike for getting me back into f+tm and to @panzershrike-pretz @ronald-speirs for giving me feedback/hearing my rambling brain thoughts as i made this!

[jameszmaguire]

Not the kids. You can't kill kids.

[katsubie]

also can we talk about the religious commentary. the chastizing of christianity. if hell is forever than heaven must be a lie. the rules are shades of grey if you don’t do as you say. hiding the truth about the fate of sinners while living in a cloud of delusion and lies. i love this show

[tangledinink]

my least favorite thing in the world is when people go "oh,,,, 🥺 god must have needed an angel,,,," in the wake of a loved one's death. like,,, fr???? the all-powerful god, lord of everything, maker of the universe or whatever the fuck, just,,, DESPERATELY needed a 25-year-old dumbass SOOO bad RIGHT NOW??? was there a car he needed someone to identify the make and model of without anyone asking???? like???? did they just REALLY need someone to drink bud light and play COD for him???? heaven just DEEPLY needs someone to come up and pet cats and this was the ONLY OPTION????

[goatbeard-goatbeard]

I don’t buy that Crowley is jealous in the coffee shop, he’s just amused and playing it up for the humans

✨ however ✨

when Aziraphale is absolutely determined to help a bouncy, innocent fugitive from heaven, and will not be talked out of it… if Crowley was only worried for his safety, he probably would have stayed

but I think he sort of senses why Aziraphale has to help this specific flavor of angel, why he stubbornly refuses to be swayed by fear (this time). and that, much more than the nakedness, gives Crowley feelings that he can only express with Lightning

because on the one hand it’s sweet that Aziraphale is saying “I was wrong to chicken out back then, I should have helped you” but then the you-insert in this situation is motherfucking GABRIEL lmaooooooooo

[tothepointofinsanity]

what are your thoughts on Madoka and Sayaka's relationship? I always thought it was underrated for how complex and tragic it is.

Madoka and Sayaka's relationship function similarly to that of a knight and a princess, so both their friendship or couple pairing are interesting to me. It seems to be intentional that Sayaka was crafted with a knight motif in mind to click with Madoka's vulnerability. The tragedy is that Sayaka was way too young and inexperienced to be shouldering such expectations in a friendship. Taking up the role of a protector at every turn because she wanted to protect everyone has always been a contributing factor to how fast Sayaka burned out.

Contrarily, Madoka's struggle with her own helplessness throughout the show was also part of the reason why Sayaka said a lot of terrible thing to her, but deeply regretted her actions to the point where she succumbed to Witching out away from Madoka. Madoka, at least in this "final" timeline, was not there to see her own childhood best friend change into something else. To, in a way, "die", and be reborn as the same monster that all magical girls were hunting after in a frenzy. Homura was right that Sayaka brings Madoka grief — it seems that in almost timeline, since Sayaka becomes a Witch as long as she becomes a magical girl unlike Mami or Kyoko, Sayaka is a consistent source of Madoka's grief. Whenever Madoka becomes a magical girl, then, her aspirations are based on Sayaka's sacrifice and ideals, except Madoka actually has the power to "save everyone". I believe Madoka loved Sayaka as Sayaka may not have been an "effective" magical girl, but she was the one who was willing to sacrifice her soul for her ideals, regardless of how naïve they were. To Madoka, who was so ensnared by her sense of uselessness, Sayaka was the closest thing to an idol or a star for the courage required to be a magical girl. Sayaka's desire to make the world a safer and justified place for people was so inspiring to Madoka that even when Madoka becomes Kriemhild Gretchen, the Witch's whole gimmick is "creating heaven on earth, a Witch content only if there is no more grief in existence". A prospect deeply held onto by Madoka that even Gretchen embodies it.

It's probably why Madoka's wish to save all magical girls would definitely sound equally impossible to he audience and the incubators, but Madoka herself says, "If someone says it's wrong to hope, I will tell them that they're wrong every time." Sayaka was often called foolish for her ideals and hopes, and Madoka was the only other person aside from Kyoko who understands Sayaka's struggles so much that she outright tells people that Sayaka was never wrong — this is how Madoka protects Sayaka. Madoka would never want anyone to say any of the magical girls' wishes were wrong or foolish. It was how Sayaka also found her peace at the end of the show: to be understood and not viewed as an object that would eventually be replaced in the cycle of magical girls and Witches.

Madoka and Sayaka eventually learned how to protect each other. Sayaka doesn't need to suffer from her own overbearing expectations anymore, and Madoka can finally be something even more to protect her angel: A God.

[alarrylarrie]

Just a thought… that quote about Louis disappearing and Satellite…

Anon. I want you think very carefully about what you’ve just done. Go to your room. How dare.

[thy-cocoa-doth-grow-cold]

“Crowley is Raphael!”

“Crowley is Lucifer!”

Ok your little theories are fun but have you considered the idea that Crowley’s name isn’t revealed for a reason? Yes, he was of a higher class in heaven but he doesn’t need to have been a super well known angel. We weren’t given his name as an angel and I think that’s because he’s Crowley and we shouldn’t think of him as anything but Crowley. He hates heaven and hell and being attached to them, he even distanced himself from hell by changing his name which is very much frowned upon. So if this demon went out of his way to change his demonic name, why would he want anyone to know or call him by his angelic one? The “Crowley was *insert angel here*” theories are cool I guess, but I don’t like them. My personal guess is that he was literally just some guy and even if he wasn’t, it doesn’t matter because he isn’t an angel anymore. Have your theories if you find them fun, but I just can’t think that Crowley’s angel identity is important.

[roxyandelsewhere]

Angels’ trueforms in their most memorable moments [23/?] - Endverse!Cas

inprnt | society6 | redbubble | ko-fi

[crowleys-bentley-and-plants]

the only thing keeping me from going insane is the headcanon that aziraphale's favourite colour yellow is because it's the colour of crowley's eyes. like ive seen the take that the reason aziraphale wants to make crowley an angel again is because he believes that angel crowley is better. but crowley's yellow eyes came after he fell so yellow being aziraphale's favourite colour is actually aziraphale seeing crowley for who he is and accepting him for who he is. like sure angel crowley was so happy the first time they ever met but aziraphale actually realizing that that isn't who crowley is anymore is so so so exhilarating