#then have to wake up at 6:30-7am to get to my exam with time to spare and maybe cram a bit

[verystressedcollegestudent]

when you probably failed your IEA exam, took an accidental nap bc you were literally working from 8am-3am the day before except dinner BUT wake up from said accidental nap just in time to make your 2pm class

[metalbatandzenko]

All of them. All the questions.

oof

1. Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?

I have sliding doors on my closet so it’s one open one closed.

2. Do You Have Freckles?

Nope!

3. Can You Whistle?

Nope (:

4. Last Song You Listened To.

I...don’t remember lmao, I think it was 6 Inch by Beyonce

5. What Is Your Favorite Color?

I don’t know if I have one tbh.

6. Relationship Status.

Currently juggling seven reply guys bc rona has everyone acting out of line, but single.

7. What Is The Temperature Right Now?

46º

8. Did You Wake Up Cranky?

Yes sdkjfhdlkf

9. How Many Followers?

215.

10. Zodiac Sign.

Aries/Aries/Cancer.

11. What Is Your Eye Color?

Brown.

12. Take A Vitamin Daily?

No.

13. Do You Sing In The Shower?

Yes, usually it’s Mitski or songs from musicals because you know. Former theater kid.

14. What Books Are You Reading?

The Chronology of Water by Lidia Yuknavitch.

15. Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

“As in earlier days” from the poem The Walk by Thomas Hardy

16. Favorite Anime?

OPM is the only anime I watch. Being Japanese American and fem aligned means having. Not great associations with anime tbh.

17. Last Person You Cried In Front Of?

I honestly can’t remember the last time I cried in front of someone

WAIT YES I DO

It was November 23rd and my little cousin and I watched Over the Garden Wall. Both of us cried at the end.

18. Do You Collect Anything?

I have a knife collection and an old rock collection from when I was younger. I also unintentionally have a major makeup collection. My lipstick collection is borderline embarrassing. In my defense it started in 7th grade.

19. What Did You Have For Lunch?

I uh. I didn’t have lunch skfjhdsljfh

20. Do You Dance In The Car?

I do!

21. Favorite Animal?

Dude I fucking love crows.

22. Do You Watch The Olympics?

Some of them! My mom was really athletic growing up (as in one of those kids that plays a sport every season in high school), so she watches a lot of them. We tend to watch figure skating (which I know little about but have strong opinions on), gymnastics, synchronized swimming, track, and judo.

23. What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?

Usually I’m in bed by 11 but I don’t go to sleep until 2am. Recently I’ve been getting to sleep at 7am.

24. Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

It is currently three in the morning so no akslkjsahd

25. Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?

Ocean. I grew up in Northern California near the coast, and now I’m in a landlocked state. And you can kind of feel it, you know? The air doesn’t smell like salt and redwoods, the mountains aren’t there to hold up the sky so you just feel it pressing down on your chest. I miss the ocean.

26. Favorite Tumblr Blog?

I don’t know if I have a favorite. erikkillmongerdontpullout is funny and insightful, and I love dostoevskydocs’ poetry compilations.

27. Bottled Water Or Tap Water?

I grew up somewhere with access to really good tap water, so I’ll go with that.

28. What Makes You Happy?

Writing, spending time with friends, the feeling of dappled sunlight through the tree canopy.

29. Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

30. Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

With :)

31. Dogs Or Cats?

Dogs but I love cats too!

32. If You Were A Crayon What Color Would You Be?

Moss green!

33. PlayStation Or Xbox.

Xbox.

34. Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

Ocean. I don’t trust lakes.

35. Do You Believe In Magic?

I believe in the supernatural, I don’t know if magic’s the right word. It’s more like a belief that there’s something more to the world than what we’re able to perceive. 

36. What Color Shirt Are You Wearing?

Charcoal grey.

37. Can You Curl Your Tongue?

Yes! I can also make my tongue into a clover.

38. Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

A bit of both. I can be pretty frugal when I’m by myself but I inherited the need to pay for everything for my friends from my mom, so if my friends are around, I will try to muscle my way into paying for everything. This is usually unsuccessful bc my friends are in the same boat.

39. Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?

Yes. I’ve got a pink water bottle on my bedstand.

40. Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

I mean. OPM lkjshdflkjdh I’ve been hyperfixating on it, but I also am pretty obsessed with OTGW (I have been for years).

41. Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?

No but I’ve had a few land on me.

42. Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

Depends on the person. Overall, I’d say no, but my friends have significant sway over me.

43. Do You Have Strange Dreams?

Yes.

44. Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

I actually do. But only for short flights. Anything longer than 4 hours makes my body really hurt.

45. Name One Movie That Made You Cry.

Moana.

46. Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

Sunflower seeds!

47. If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?

Orville Peck or Carseat Headrest.

48. Are You A Picky Eater?

Nope!

49. Are You A Heavy Sleeper?

Yeah.

50. Do You Fear Thunder/Lightning?

No, I actually love them. I sleep best when it’s thundering.

51. Do You Like To Read/Write?

Yes to both. I’m a Creative Writing major so dkljfhljkdf

52. Do You Like Your Music Loud?

Yeah! Though not as loud as some people, my ears are sensitive.

53. Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

Wrap presents. I’m not a big fan of the smell of pumpkin, and wrapping presents is a tradition for my mom, brother and I. We’d put on some music, drink some hot chocolate, and wrap as many as possible. Then my brother and I would smuggle some wrapping paper to our rooms and wrap our mom’s gift.

54. Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

Somebody that I Used to Know-Gotye (listen the song still slaps)

55. What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)

Winter/Spring transition. It hailed for 15 minutes straight yesterday.

56. What Are You Craving Right Now?

A popeyes 5 piece spicy chicken meal with fries and ranch. Can you tell I’ve thought about this?

57. Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

I don’t wanna.

58. What Is Your Gender?

Nonbinary, but vaguely girl adjacent. 

59. Coffee Or Tea?

I think coffee. I drink more tea, but I also drink exclusively green tea and chai (like the traditional chai made with milk not the chai teabags) and I really am not a black/white/earl grey tea person.

60. Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

OOF Yeah I do

I’ve got a thousand word readers response to “The Other Boat” by E. M. Foster, a one thousand word journal about WWI, a reflective journal check in and a powerpoint I have to make for Sense and Sensibility for Brit Lit and I also am tutoring a few of my classmates

In my biological anthropology class I’ve got a Unit Exam and a few lectures to watch

For my internship/Teachers Assistant position I’ve got 17 10 page rough drafts to read and give in depth comments on as well as a portfolio I have to assemble for next year’s TA bc I’m transferring, phone meetings with the 17 students who wrote those rough drafts, and I’ve gotta compile some resources for my professor

I need to finish my memoir for my independent study and I have to present. my nonfiction memoir. to my classmates. on Zoom. I’m one of two people doing a nonfiction memoir for their independent study the rest are doing fiction, poetry or a literary analysis paper so like. My classmates are gonna be talking about their fiction piece and then I’m gonna be giving a 15 minute reading and Q&A about a piece that focuses on my trauma and being hate crimed so that’s fun.

I also gotta get some stuff done for my school’s lit magazine.

61. What Is Your Sexuality?

A known bisexual™

62. Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

I try to but I forget.

63. Favorite Pokémon?

Togepi, Blissey and Togekiss.

64. Favorite Social Media?

I hate to say it but it’s tumblr.

65. What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?

If it’s longer than six stories, I’m not watching it. Unless I know they’re gonna be fun or we’re really close then I will.

66. Do You Get Homesick?

A bit. I’m still really homesick for my hometown tbh because that’s where all my family except for my parents are. I’m really close with my extended family, so being isolated from them feels like there’s an emptiness at my side.

67. Are You A Virgin?

No.

68. What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

Redken Frizz Dismiss. I got those big fucking bottles you can get at Ulta where it’s like a gallon of shampoo so I haven’t had to buy any in over a year.

69. If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?

I’ve slept in my car before and I will do so again most likely. Also $60 is too much to spend for a motel room.

70. Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

Yes. Though I’m much closer to my mom than my dad.

71. Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?

Idk shit about movies tbh.

72. Do You Miss Your Ex?

One of them yes, the others no. But the one I miss I also acknowledge is someone who had their place in my life at the time and helped me through some rough shit, but no longer has a place in my life. I appreciate the hell out of him though, and we’re on good terms.

73. What Is Your Favorite Quote Right Now?

I’ve got two!

“I don’t know how to stay tender with this much blood in my mouth” –Ophelia, Hamlet

and

"Suffering feels religious if you do it right." –Chelsea Hodson

74.  What Eye Color Do You Find Sexiest?

Brown. Especially the almost black-brown eyes.

75. Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?

Yes to both.

76. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

Chocolate covered pretzels ljhflfsd

77. What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?

Toon Blast and 2048.

78. Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

Holy shit I hate this question. Yes, of course I would. I don’t know why mentioning that the person is homeless is relevant. Homeless people are not somehow less worthy of CPR?? What the fuck.

79. Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?

...yes

80. Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

I’ve briefly skimmed over someone’s page after meeting them but I don’t lurk.

81. Do You Like Meeting New People?

Depends on my mood.

82. Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

I hate my hands so this was pushing it.

83. Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?

Closed.

84. What Are Three Things You Did Today?

Corrected papers, walked my dog, did some writing.

85. What Do You Wear To Bed?

T-shirt and shorts.

86. List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

Dude I can’t do that I have too many, I’ve been buying makeup for 7 years and I used to work next to a sephora

My makeup routine pre-rona was:

Sephora brand moisturizer

Milk Hydrogrip primer

Fenty Pro Filtr Hydrating Foundation

Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer

Anastasia Brow Definer

Glossier Cloud Paint

Fenty Sunstalkr Bronzer

Fenty Liquid Flyliner

Fenty Flypencil

Fenty Full Frontal Mascara

Fenty Glossbomb

It’s...an expensive routine.

87. Are You A Day Or Night Person?

Night to early morning.

88. List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

I answered this one and I don’t want to reanswer it tbh ldkjfhds

89. Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

I genuinely can’t remember any of my dreams right now. I remember a snippet of one where I was in a cave and I looked at the wall and I could see water running down it, reflecting in the torchlight but that’s literally it.

90. Favorite Soda Drink?

I’m a big pomegranate person, so Italian soda’s my go to.

91. What Sounds Are Your Favorite?

The sizzle of meat hitting a hot wok, rain, hail, thunder, the crunch of dry leaves. I also love the sound of Simone de Rochefort’s laugh. It’s so good.

92. Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

Jeans.

93. How Do You Look Right Now?

Shitty.

94. Name Something That Relaxes You.

Skyrim ldskjfhd

95. What Tattoo Do You Want?

I really want to get my family’s mon on my ribcage and my mom’s Japanese name somewhere. I don’t know how my pain tolerance is but if I can handle it, I’d want to get at least a partial sleeve.

96. Favorite YouTuber?

Polygon and Watcher.

[gravihtyk]

What happened to my April 2020 Goals: My First Steps to Gaining Weight + My Goals for May 2020

For the month of April, I set three goals for myself:

1. To wake up in the morning each day.

My body clock has been pretty messed up since last year. I've always been a night owl, so when I was reviewing for SOA exam P, I got used to studying all through out the night and going to bed when the sun is almost up. I usually woke up at around 2 in the afternoon. I got enough of sleep and I got enough work done at night, but I missed pretty much most of the day and I felt like my days were going too fast. Last March, in the midst of quarantine and having no classes, I felt worse about my sleeping schedule. I thought waking up super late in the day made me unproductive and still left me feeling like I had no energy. I also felt like I was always running late especially when I had to meet a professor at school or needed to go to the bank. It also made me miss breakfast and lunch and even with that, I woke up not feeling hungry at all. I felt like I was losing weight again and I dreaded it. So I made myself wake up in the morning all through out April, still not early in the morning but at least before noontime, so I can do (and eat) more during the day.

2. To eat breakfast everyday.

As I've already mentioned, I kept skipping my breakfast because of my bad sleeping schedule before April. I know that breakfast literally means breaking your fast from sleeping, so any meal you eat after you wake up from a long sleep is your breakfast. But in March, I would wake up not feeling hungry at all so I didn't eat anything immediately and sometimes I didn't notice the time, it would already be dinnertime for my family and that's only when I would remember to eat. I was like doing intermitent fasting without even trying. I didn't get to eat 3 meals a day at all. I only ate twice and sometimes once a day, and it left me feeling so weak, all I wanted was to lay in bed all day. I often got headaches as well. So when April came, I told myself that I need to fix this problem if I wanted to gain weight. I have to eat after I wake up in the morning, fill my stomach with something and be energized for the day.

3. Eat 3 meals a day.

I realized that one reason why I did not feel hungry even when I missed meals was because I had no appetite. Even when I ate, even when the food used to be my favorite, even when it was so tasty, I could only eat a small amount. I told myself, this can't be. I have to eat a lot to gain weight. It had been like this for a long time now. I didn't get hungry after I woke up, I didn't get hungry when it was the usual time for a meal like during lunchtime. And I realized that it was because I wasn't always eating my meals on time and I kept missing meals. I did a lot of searches related to appetite on Google and Youtube and in every article or video that I read or watched, it was recommended to eat on a schedule so that your body gets used to it that when the time comes when you usually have a meal, you will feel hungry and you will have the appetite to eat. So I thought, I have to eat my breakfast, lunch and dinner on the usual times that most people eat them. But since I only made it a goal to wake up anytime before noon, I was content with setting around noon time as my breakfast time, anytime before evening as my lunch time and evening as my dinner time. I also only made myself eat 3 main meals even when it's usually recommended to eat more often throughout the day for weight gain (I eat some snacks too, I made myself a meal plan which I'll share to you soon!), because I thought that I might not be able to eat 4-5 meals a day since I was still used to eating twice a day, I might not be able to reach that goal. So I set a reasonable and achievable goal for myself.

The month had come to an end, it's actually already May 1st when I'm writing this, and I'm glad to say that I'd been pretty much consistent in working on my goals. I tracked my progress using the Habit app on my phone.

As you can see, I only really started getting consistent on April 12, because that was when I started my meal plan and I told myself that to be able to stick with my meal plan and eat everything in it, I had to wake up early to be able to eat my 3 meals, which were basically already my goals. I didn't do them every single day (some days I forgot to track them too 😅) but I'm already happy that I did them on MOST days. I also hadn't been waking as early as I wanted to. Although I didn't make it a goal to wake up early, I set my alarm clock at 9am every single day because to me that was an ideal time to wake up, but I just turn the alarm off and close my eyes again, promise to just get the dryness out of my eyes then I'll get up from my bed but I usually fall back to sleep. 😅 I'd get up right before noontime or when I wake up and it's past 11, I usually turn to my phone and check social media until it's way past noon and I'd only get up when I remember that I have a meal plan to stick to and goals to accomplish. It's been like that the past few days, but for the most days, I was successful in getting up before 10am.

There were days that I wasn't able to eat 3 meals, but note that what I consider my meals are the meals in my meal plan. So if I didn't eat the lunch that's in my meal plan because I got so full from the food that isn't in my meal plan that my mother gave me (like bananacue and boiled potatoes 🤤), then I skipped lunch even when there was an alternative. (Also, if you're Filipino, you know that any meal without rice is not considered a meal. 😂)

I was most successful in eating breakfast each day. There was just a day that I stayed too long in bed after waking up so I didn't consider that I ate my breakfast that day even when I did, a punishment for not getting up immediately. 😅

I'm honestly kind of still disappointed about myself for not doing all these every single day but as I've told myself before, this is enough. I have actually already made it a habit to wake up in the morning and eat my breakfast and I have an appetite and these are all that matters. My end goals are to wake up early and to eat my meals to gain weight, and I'm happy that I know I'm getting there already. I think what hugely contributed to my success is that I set achievable goals for myself. I didn't ask myself to wake up at 7am. I didn't ask myself to eat 6 meals a day. I didn't ask myself to gain these many pounds in a month. I made myself took baby steps instead of long strides that don't last that long because they're just very hard to do when you still have short limbs. I also looked for the root of my problems. I couldn't eat a lot so I couldn't gain weight, but that was because I didn't really have an appetite. I couldn't eat at least 3 meals a day, but that was because I wake up so late. So I worked on my appetite and getting up in the morning.

I've realized many things in the month of April and I'm definitely going to take those lessons with me through the month of May to be able to achieve my new goals.

For the month of May, I want to:

1. Wake up and get up from bed earlier, before 10am.

Having my lunch and dinner almost right after the other keeps my stomach very full and I feel uncomfortable. So I'd have to get up earlier so as to have more time in between my meals for my food to get digested properly.

2. Be more consistent in eating 3 meals a day.

I just hope I have all the foods and ingredients I need for my meal plan all the time. If that doesn't happen often, then I'd have to settle with alternatives, especially to my ulams, but I'll make sure I eat a full cup of rice every lunch and dinner.

3. Workout each day.

I know this might seem excessive but I want to try the 30-day ab workout challenge and see if it really works. Eating more food has me feeling bloated most of the time and I think doing ab workouts helps with that, so I'll try doing it everyday for 10-20 minutes. I'll also be dedicating alternate days for upper body and lower body workouts.

I hope to develop better habits this May and get nearer my goals. I also wish you success in your own journey, whatever that may be. Let's keep working hard and striving for the best for ourselves. 💕

[subroz-content]

30th March,2022

Got a big realty check and now i am scared. For CAT it requires 99+ percentile for general catergory male candidates on top of that only 35% of the seats are reserved for general category candidates. I have been reading posts of people who have got 99.99% percentile and still did’nt got IIM calls. I have this division of merit by birth but can’t do much about it other than accepting the reality. This truth has got me worrying.

Now, all about today. Woke up at 6. Sat idle for an hr cause i get headaches if i start studying as soon as i wake up. Studied from 7am to 8:15 am. Did 15 sums and watched a few videos. I think i should increase the minimum limit to 25 now cause this exam is hard and i am scared. I generally am a very cool minded person so when I feel the heat, You know its serious. After that from 9-11 did internship. Then probably read a few pages from RDPD and after that did’nt study at all. In noon i installed VS code for wipro bt did’nt do anything after that. At evening i went out with my mother for a bit of shopping and here i am now. Just feeling good after talking to the elder brother of my mother, its the first time talking with him over call and the second time talking with him at all. He seems to be a very learned and experienced person and I love the listen to lectures from such people . We two talked for a long time today, now i feel inspired,happy and very scared as well. 

I definately gotta step up my game and bring out my A game for my future.

i also need to think of alternatives other than CAT like XAT,XMAT,XLRI etc or career change altogether. But personally I do not want to stay with this technical background. I am not a very technical or a technical loving person to be specific.

That’s all for today. Its 11:30 pm rn. I will be sleeping late today compared to original plan.

[blossomjisung]

85 questions tag 🌸

rules: answer all 85 questions then tag 20 people!

tagged by: @blankunits 💗💗

♡ Last…? ♡

1. Drink - coffee

2. Phone call - my mom

3. Text message - a friend

4. Song you listened to - what is love by twice

5. Time you cried - uhm two days ago

♡ Ever…? ♡

6. Dated someone twice - yes

7. Kissed someone and regretted it - i don’t think so ??

8. Been cheated on - yes

9. Lost someone special - yes

10. Been depressed - yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - nope

12. Fave colors - pink, baby blue, pastels, kinda obsessed with pastel yellow lately

♡ In the last year have you… ♡

15. Made new friends - lol i cant make friends 

16. Fallen out of love - yes

17. Laughed until you cried - definitely yes 

18. Found out someone was talking about you - yes 

19. Met someone who changed you - mmh yes

20. Found out who your friends are - yes

21. Kissed someone on your FB friend list - nope

♡ General ♡

22. How many FB friends do you have irl - ugh i doNT HAVE FRIENDS

23. Do you have any pets? - yes! a cat, a rabbit, an hamster and an axolotl, i’m planning to get a dog soon

24. Do you want to change your name - no, not rlly

25. What did you do for your last bday - ugh i dont even remember 

26. What time did you wake up today - 7am,,, my cat woke me up

27. What were you doing at midnight lastnight? - already sleeping 

28. What is something you can’t wait for - going to university 

30. What are you listening to right now - nothing

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom - nope

32. Something that gets on your nerves - when people don’t listen to me

33. Mosted visited sites - tumblr, youtube, instagram

34. Hair color - dark blonde

35. Long or short hair - short

36. Do you have a crush on someone - nakamoto yuta and jung jaehyun ???

37. What do you like about yourself - my personality i guess

38. Want any piercings? - nope

39. Blood type - idk lol

40. Nicknames - ali, alichan 

41. Relationship status - single 

42. Zodiac - leo

43. Pronouns - she/her

44. Fav tv shows - dexter, mindhunter, breaking bad 

45. Tattoos - none

46. Right or left handed - right handed

47. Ever had surgery - yes

48. Piercings - none

49. Sport - lol

50. Vacations - paris, amsterdam, japan and korea 

51. Trainers - converse, puma

♡ More general ♡

52. Eating - nothing

53. Drinking - nothing

54. I’m about to watch - nct life probably

55. Waiting for….. - the end of my final exams

56. Want…. - a dog, a miniature pig 

57. Get married - its not in my priorities rn

58. Career - i hope criminal psychologist

♡ Which is better ♡

59. Hugs or kisses - ive been hating skinship lately but imma say hugs

60. Lips or eyes - eyes

61. Short or taller - taller

62. Older or younger - older

63. Nice arms or stomach - nice stomach

64. Hookup or relationship - relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant - idk

♡ Have you ever ♡

66. Kissed a stranger - nope

67. Drank hard liquor - yes

68. Lost glasses - yes lol

69. Turned someone down - yes

70. Sex on first date - no

71. Broken someone’s heart - ..yes

72. Had your heart broken - yes

73. Been arrested - nope

74. Cried when someone died - yes

75. Fallen for a friend - uhm yes

♡ Do you believe in…? ♡

76. Yourself? - not really

77. Miracles - nope

78. Love at first sight - no

79. Santa claus - nope

80. Kiss on first date? - yes

81. Angels - nope

♡ Other ♡

82. Best friend’s name - elisa

83. Eye color - light blue, but it changes depending on the weather 

84. Fave movie - american history x, mustang, trainspotting, fight club, donnie darko, the stanford prison experiment, the diary of a teenage girl and a lot more

85. Fave actor - idk 

tagging : @yukuwu @elizenaya @daehwifi @yuta-the-mountain-man @hansolstea @simsdork @poetichyuck @jellybeanmulti i dont want to bother anyone else lol you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to! 

[runawaywithalli-blog]

10 Lessons for Student-Athletes

It’s hard for me to remember a time when I wasn’t running around every day between school, practice, and other activities. It seems as though being a student-athlete has been in my blood ever since the first day of kindergarten and my first soccer practice and dance class.  Most people can’t imagine having places to be and things to do for 12 plus hours a day, but for me, and most student athletes, it’s a way of life.  Being a student-athlete isn’t always easy, especially in college.  I’ve learned a lot along the way as each season brings new challenges.  Here are 10 lessons I learned while being a student athlete.

1.    Time management

I think we can all agree that every college student learns better time management skills within their freshman year.  Student-athletes spent 20 plus hours each week between morning lifts, afternoon practices, team meetings, and weekly competitions.  Sometimes it seems like being a student-athlete is equivalent to having a part-time job.  I have learned how important it is to spend any downtime working on homework, even if it’s only for 20 minutes.  However, I don’t feel guilty if I spend those 20 minutes watching an episode of New Girlor Friends.  Sometimes time management simply means giving yourself a break throughout the day.  It isn’t easy to go from classes, to practice, and then right to homework.  Taking a few mental breaks throughout the day is important to stay focused and to be productive for a longer period of time.

2.    Sleep is important

Most of us learned the importance of sleep in our middle school health class. Coaches of every athletic team  preach on how important it is for athletes to get an adequate amount of sleep each night. Sleep refuels the body and aids in the recovery process, helping athletes reach their best potential. Growing up, my mom regularly told me that sleep will always be better than staying up until 2 or 3am studying.  She argued that sleep plays a key role in our ability to retain information, so it’s more important to sleep than to stay up late studying. This is a rule of thumb that I have learned to live by in college— I now struggle to stay up past midnight!  I’m sure most people will mock this rule of thumb and say that they need to stay up late in order to cram for an exam.  I’m not saying that you should spend less time studying for an exam, but it is best to spread out studying into a few days so that sleep is a priority.

3.    Practice becomes and escape

Not to sound cliché, but there have been days where my stress melts away while I’m at practice.  There’s nothing like running 12 repeat 200’s on the track to get the endorphins pumping. As Elle Woods would say, “Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people don't kill their husbands. They just don't.” Or in my case, happy people don’t let stress take over their life.  Practice is also where I see my best friends and teammates everyday who never fail to put a smile on my face.  Although I dread some days with repeat 200’s or repeat 500’s, I always look forward to spending time exercising and being with my team.

4.    Coaches and teammates are your support system

I’m going to be completely honest, I once spent 30 minutes in my coach’s office crying because I was so stressed out with school and I wasn’t happy with the times I had been running that season. There honestly isn’t anything more comforting than having a coach who will sit down with you for hours talking and getting your life back together.  My teammates have done the same for me as well.  There are days that knock me down, but I can always count on my coach and teammates to cheer my up and get me through the hard days.  I cannot be more thankful for the second family I have received as a student-athlete.

5.    Commitment and dedication

If you’ve made it to the college level, your hard work and dedication has paid off! Nothing says “commitment and dedication” like waking up at the crack of dawn (okay, maybe 7am, but that’s still early!) to head to Mitchell Hall for a lifting session.  I can’t count the number of times my alarm has gone off when all I want to do is turn it off, skip my lift, and sleep-in until class.  Playing a college sport is like having a job, and only commitment and dedication will get you to the performance level you want to be at.  Student-athletes don’t simply play sports, they dedicate their life to their sport and are committed to their success.

6.    There are days where you’ll hate doing what you do and there are days where you love it

I’d think you’re pretty crazy if you said that you love running until you want to puke or that you love getting “booty lock” after an intense workout.  I’m not sure anyone loves those feelings, but there are days when its more bearable than others. There are days when I completely dread workouts and there are days when I can’t wait for 4pm to roll around so that the aches and pain can begin. There will always be a love/hate relationship with anything that we do in life.  

7.    Mental and physical strength

Physical strength comes from the countless hours of workouts in the weight room and on the track. Healthy eating and adequate sleep also aid in the physical strength needed to be an athlete.

Mental strength isn’t as easy to practice as it is to preach.  I have learned a lot about mental strength each season.  I learned the most my freshman year after I constantly felt defeated after each practice and race.  That year, I didn’t have the mental strength needed to compete at the collegiate level. It was hard to go from a big fish in a little pond to a little fish in a big bond.  It takes time to learn the mental strength needed to compete at the collegiate level, but it is an important strength to learn.  

One thing that I like to do before my race is to repeat in my head, “speed, I am speed.”  You may recognize this from the movie Cars, because that’s where I got the line from.  It is a reminder to me that I am a talented athlete and that I am strong and fast.

Another tool that I use to stay mentally strong is to do mental imagery before every race.  I lay in bed the night before a race and image the track that I will be competing on the next day.  I go through my race from start to finish with the perfect execution that I desire—powerful start, quick turnover, excellent mechanics, and a strong finish. Visualizing my race calms my nerves and refocuses my energy into having the race that I desire.

8.    There are different types of leaders

I am a participative leader.  I enjoy providing guidance during practices and participating in the group.  There are also leaders on the team who may be silent leaders.  These leaders lead by example and send a positive message to teammates.  I have learned the importance of leading by example in order to set a high standard for the rest of the team to follow.  Leading by example is a great way to show teammates the importance of a strong work ethic, healthy diet, and adequate sleep.  

9.    There is no “I” in team—really

Although track is commonly known as an individual sport, no individual has one a team championship alone.  Not only is your team there helping bring home a championship title, they are there at the 7am lifts and countless 200 repeats on the track.  Teammates push each other to be the best that they can be in order to claim that trophy.  Sure, individuals may win an event, but it is a team that takes home the championship title together.

10. I’ve learned how lucky I am to play the sport I love

Four years will fly by before you realize it. I’m fortunate enough to have one year left of my collegiate track and field career.  After this past season, I realized how truly lucky I have been to continue my athletic career at a collegiate level.  I have met so many amazing friends along to way and have created countless memories with them.  I will forever cherish the morning lifts even when I don’t want to get out of bed and I hope that I never forget the feeling of “booty lock” after 200 repeats.  I will always treasure the Saturdays spent waking up at 5am and getting home at 10pm exhausted and ready for bed. This sport hasn’t always been easy, but it has created memories that will last a lifetime.

[kaptainandy]

okay so today felt like a week’s worth of events because god hates me and won’t let me rest. strap in folks because this was now slow ride and i’m here to vent.

(this ended up being so much longer than expected so i’m putting it under the cut)

so it’s finals and i have 3 finals and 1 video project in lieu of a final. so i was up until roughly 3:30am doing a majority of the work on our video project because the other group member who was doing most of the work along with me jumped ship last minute. so i edit 22 minutes of raw footage i have and give the rest of the group instructions on what i need from them. then the rest of the night is spent studying for my exam that i had at 7am this morning. 

i get what i need to get done and decided to do what i normally do which is go to sleep and then wake up early and do some more studying. i set 3 alarms on my phone for 15 minutes increments starting at 5:30 (the last one being at 6am) and i set my alarm clock on my desk for 6am as well giving me plenty of time for some last minute studying and to get ready and head to class. my dumb bitch ass wakes up to a clock that reads “7:08am.” my stupid hoe of a body slept through or somehow slept walked and turned off 4 fucking alarms!!!! 

i have never done cocaine, but waking up at 7:08am for a 7am examine probably creates a similar effect. i’m out the door before that clock even thinkg about changing to 7:09am. i grabbed my backpack (which thankfully i prepacked with everything i needed the night before), threw my keys and phone in my pocket, put a hat on and slip on shoes and ran out the door.

sonic the hedgehog and usain bolt got nothin on me in my anxiety fueled sprint to class. i end up getting to class at about 7:13am. thankfully my professor has a policy that if you arrive late to an exam, you can still take it as long as the first person has not finished and turned in there exam.

i get my exam and materials, sit down, and having not had time to take my meds this morning, am experiencing a heavy asthma attack. thankfully it passes and i’m doing my thing, when i graze my pocket to find it empty. i don’t think anything of it because i just thought that in my stupor, i must’ve thrown my phone on my desk or in my backpack. 

i finish my test at about 8:20am and get back to my dorm at around 8:30am. i look everywhere, flipping my room upside and cannot find my phone. so i retrace my steps to find my phone face down in the grass, getting a nice suntan. it was like that for an hour and a half, face down, meaning my bright-ass pink kirby case was very visible (i spotted it from a couple yards away). so somehow no one had stolen it. god likes to fucking toy with me at this point.

so finally i calm down enough to take a nap before my 4pm interview. i fall asleep around 9am, and wake up at 2:45pm, giving me plenty of time to take things easy and slowly make my way to the meeting place.

i get there a little early and it’s a group interview. so this alan rickman lookin-ass starts his thing and i already knew i was walking into something that was gonna be bullshit but fuck i was not prepared. it was for a company called southwestern advantage. in short it recruits college kids for paid internships to sell their shitty encyclopedia-like books and shit. i knew that going in but they promised great pay and i thought i’d give it a shot. 

but holy shit i could not have predicted the dystopian shit this wal-mart alan rickman would say. so if i was a “good candidate” they’d ship me off to tennessee by the end of next week where i would engage in an intense 1 week training program before going to work for an entire 12 weeks over the summer.

that’s not the worst part because after that, they ship you off to either wisconsin or tennessee (similar to a student exchange program, kids from that area would be shipped here) where you’d be placed in a small town to live with a “host family,” where your selling radius would encompass an entire county.

and oh god it gets worse. you’re expected to work 8am - 9pm Monday-Saturday and only get paid on commission. so this dude expects my gay, trans ass to make the decision to be shipped to some hick town  for the entire summer within like 6 days to work a schedule that could qualify as abuse for no guarantee of a worthwhile pay.

and dollar store alan rickman brought along some kids from my college who were already apart of this cult/internment camp and holy shit these people were like robots. they had a strong personality but it was layered with so much fakeness i was convinced they couldn’t pass the turing test. the whole time i was at this thing i was like “is this a recruitment for a summer job or a cult???” so yeah if a group called “southwestern advantage” tries to hit you up, it’s in your best interest to ignore it. it’s an hour and a half of my life i’ll never get back.

i’m fucking spent y’all. it’s almost 12am and i gotta study for my next final tomorrow. i’m stupid. i’m gay. and nothing feels fucking real rn lmao. 

[wannawrite]

The B In Baejin Is For Boyfriend Material

• who?: Wanna One's Bae Jinyoung • genre: 🌸 • type: bullet point blog navigator. • pure fluff of what Jinyoung would be like as a boyfriend on campus kdlsjskdjsj I'm honestly really terrible at the boyfriend type of content because I'm not good at speculating or assuming how people actually are in real life. But this was fun to do and I hope it isn't a total flop. Thank you for requesting this anon!! - Admin L 

• first of all, regardless of what college you apply to or enrol in, Jinyoung would be super supportive • even if your dream college and his dream college were 200 miles away • luckily, you guys somehow got into the same college • hell yeah • you wouldn't see your boyfriend for awhile because you're too busy packing and getting ready for college • but this is Bae Jinyoung we're talking about   • *ring ding dong* • you peel open the door to reveal a smiling Baejin, hands filled with packing materials such as masking tape • "yah ~ aren't you supposed to be getting ready as well? Why are you here?" • "i'm here to help!" • you sigh and raise your eyebrows at him • then again, you aren't actually complaining about it • who wouldn't want to have your boyfriend around • and helping you • Jinyoung's house is closer than yours to the institute so he doesn't have much to bring to his dorm • he can travel that half an hour every weekend • your situation is different • much different • a dozen of your things are packed and ready to be shipped to college with you • which is practical because you can't be travelling 5 hours up and down every day • you need everything in your dorm • literally • including that cute plushie Jinyoung gifted you on your birthday to sleep with • otherwise, you know you won't be able to fall asleep • your roommate is cool with you pretty much occupying the entire dorm since they too live extremely close to the college • you love your roommate already • let's not lie Jinyoung is probably decent at packing and being neat • sure, he's no Minhyin but he makes an effort to try and help • folds your clothing • realises it's his sweater he thought he lost last Winter • Baejin sighs but smiles and tucks it in your luggage anyway • his baby WILL wear his clothes • stops to observe the things you packed and realises you have like 500 boxes of household equipment • "....love, how much stuff do you actually need?" • "LovE hOW muCH STufF dO YOu acTUALLy NeED" you reply • *insert Spongebob meme* • "you will help me carry it to my room, won't you?" • your voice drips with honey, sickeningly sweet and begging • Jinyoung pinches your cheek gently, "ahh, I can't. I'm moving in two days after you, remember?" • "yah! is that your reason for moving in after?" • a cheeky smile spreads on his face but before you can retort something snarky, he presses his soft lips to yours • packing is forgotten • you are sad you're moving in before your boyfriend does • he doesn't forget your move in date • at first, your parents were going to drive you and your things over • surprise • on that day, it was Bae Jinyoung and  your parents who showed up in the car to pick you • you nearly melted into tears • he lives far away from you so any unscheduled meet up is rare and always makes you cry • bc he doesn't have to make that 5?? 6?? hour journey to and fro • but he chose to • well duh, it's for you • he's that type of person let him live • your parents were in on it too • the car ride to college is one of the more enjoyable ones you have had in your life • Jinyoung is so charming your parents fell for him immediately • he's talking about baking, politics and gardening all at once to both your parents • it's amusing • and you really wouldn't have it any other way • look at your boyfriend and family getting along so well • he bouta be part of the family soon • wink wonk • your parents love him as much as you do • maybe even more • as soon as the car is parked, your parents venture out to sip tea in one of the on-campus cafes, promising to see you before they leave for the long drive back • your legs are so wobbly you can't even stand up straight anymore • pins and needles are a PAIN • thankfully, you have an amazing boyfriend by the name of Bae Jinyoung to assist you in balancing • both of you make multiple trips back and forth, each time the load of boxes seemingly heavier • djosapdkdl you realise it's going to take the entire day even if you started at 7am • Baejin pulls out his phone. "Hi Jay, clear my schedule for today. I'm really busy right now" • eventually, you do finish up unloading and unpacking every box and bid your family goodbye • you let your lips linger on Jinyoung's for a few more seconds than usual • "it's never a goodbye kiss, Y/N." • of course, you are reunited on his move in day • the favour is returned by you helping to carry like two boxes of things   • he only needed three boxes and one bag • wow • don't you love staying nearby • college starts and your life is flung into a flurry • you barely catch a glimpse of Jinyoung throughout the first couple of weeks but you two decide on a schedule • he walks you to your first lecture every odd week • and you buy him coffee after his classes every even week • sometimes, he just calls you out of your dorm to grab a pizza at the restaurant on campus • college isn't like this irl but • picnic dates at the picnic tables outside the cafeteria • cloud watching, enjoying the sun, just conversing and finally! relaxing after all the stress from your studies • Jinyoung takes a ton of pictures to save as his wallpaper • you talk about your troubles and spill everything during those sessions • it becomes somewhat therapeutic • when either of you has a bad day, you call each other as soon as classes end • "babe..." • "hang on babe. grab your coat, we're headed out" • it happens all the time • you grab dinner together and then go for a nice night stroll • such romantic • 110% mood improved • study dates in the library when it's finals season • it's meant to be a date but you guys concentrate so much on your studies and nearly forget each other's presence • the library closes late for night study etc • you're wrapped up in his sweater and poring over your notes, frantically trying to memorise information • whenever you look like you want to tear your hair out, Jinyoung takes your pen from you and scribbles on a post-it before stamping it in your notes • "take care of yourself! i love you. :)" • your binder is covered in those neon stickers and they make your heart melt every time you see them • always reminds you to eat and stay hydrated • buys you 'cheer up!' stationery such as ramen shaped erasers or a pen with a cute design • you never actually use them and you keep them in a special pen holder on your desk • your roommate teases you about it, especially when more stationery is added • when Jin gets frustrated, you always remind him that he is worth it and that he isn't going to screw up • hyping him so his confidence doesn't fall to where it used to be • to Baejin, your smile itself is enough to make his day • it only gets better when you leave handwritten notes and sometimes a small snack in his bag while he wasn't looking • walks in and out of the exam hall exuding confidence • one night, you fell asleep at the library, surrounded by all your books • Baejin can't exactly leave you there yet he doesn't want to wake you up • so he took over the graveyard shift from the student librarian just to keep the library open and operating • so that you could have a good sleep • and so that half the cohort could cram a night before finals • in the morning, you are forced to literally drag him out lest he miss his final • you blush when your friends tell you about his gesture • how extra™ • you shake your head out of embarrassment but your friends find his care adorable • he gets really shy when you confront him about it • "really? was there no better way to solve it? you could have woken me up you know?" • "ahh but if I did, you wouldn't have gotten an A* on your paper? would you?" he teases • hahaahahaha true • since it's after finals, Jinyoung decides to take you off campus on a date • he goes out of his way to obtain a special parking pass for campus parking • idk we have that here so ^ • "jin, wasn't that cafe over there? why are we headed to the carpark?" • you feel a bit overdressed for your usual spot but he told you to dress your best • Jinyoung tightens his grip around your hand and beams with a wink • "we're going off campus tonight, sweetheart" • S W E E T H E A R T • by the way, I should mention that he looks absolutely dashing in his suit and maroon tie • you're practically drooling and thanking God for your amazing boyfriend • he's glad he heeded Guanlin's fashion advice • anyway • you can hardly contain your excitement as it's been awhile since you got a break from the college scenery • when he sees your mouth stretching into a giant smile, Jinyoung can't help but grin too. • he's happy you're elated to the point that it can't be hidden • since he lives in the nearest city which is 30 minutes away, you take time to admire the foreign scenery • wow....I can't believe Jinyoung lives here.... it's so pretty • ....maybe one day that will be your hometown too • MOVING ON • Jinyoung takes you to the finest restaurant he knows • his mum ONLY brought her clients there to eat so he knows it's serious • parks his fancy car right next to the entrance • you're wondering how he can afford it • he's still in college • maybe he's in the mafia? or a stripper? • okay i'm sidetracking again I'm sorry • with your arms linked, Jinyoung walks up to the host and confidently says, "I have a reservation under Mr. Bae Jinyoung, table for two" • A S D F G H J K L • dinner isn't as tense as you figured it would be • there's still laughter, jokes, and small talk about your school life • it feels the same - if you minus the fanciness of the place - as one of your regular dates on campus • no matter what, Bae Jinyoung is your boyfriend. the type of date doesn't change who he is • the walks to class • the on-campus dates • staying up late to cram for finals • helping him with his presentation slides • going to watch a movie at the media centre • visiting his dorms with food in the middle of the day when you found out he had been cooped up in there and refused to eat lunch • thank you Daehwi • you propped your head in your hands, sighing but beaming • one hand reached out to grab Jinyoung's, he didn't complain • your hands intertwined lovingly • "my college days are so much better with you"

[arrozcontoffee]

Toffee, i’m gonna be honest with ya about 9am classes, they can suck but as long as you know about how long it tends to take for you to wake up, get ready, ideally get at least a lil bit of food in ya like toast or somethin, and get to whatever class(es) you have that day, you’ll be fine.

some tips that i’ve found useful for college, especially dealin with earlier classes, in no particular order of importance:

1) get a map of the school you’re goin to, there’s usually one on the school’s website somewhere that you can search for, and use it until you know where the places that you need to go are at and don’t be afraid to go into a building and ask a person behind some sort of desk or table which building is the one you’re in right now. they’ll be more than willing to help you figure out where you need to go and once you know where one building is you can generally figure out where the other buildings are due to the placement of them in relation to the one you know.

2) try to minimize the time it takes for you to get ready and go in the morning, like having a good idea of what you’re gonna wear the next day and can find it with lil fuss for example, so that’s one less thing you have to worry too much in the mornin and can possibly let you sleep a lil more too.

3) a trick i’ve seen other people use is to not buy whatever ���required” book(s) and the like until they’re sure whether or not the professor actually uses it for classwork and homework or if it would be a waste of money to actually get it. if you actually need to get it/them tho, try to find it on sites like amazon and ebay first, you can get a major discount from previous students who don’t need the book(s) anymore and typically sell the books for a way lower price than even the used books in like the college campus store or a barnes n noble sell it to ya. edition-wise, many subjects have at least one edition wiggle room, like most maths, histories, and basic computer classes. these more often than not have very minor changes between editions like the ordering of events and subjects, what specific math problems are used, and facts that can only be worded in so many ways to make “enough” of a difference to call it a “new” edition. stuff like english, lab science that has handbooks that you use and tear out to give to the professor, and subjects that have legit new information comin to light or new rules come at a rate where a legit new edition of a thing comes and makes older editions be missin important things that there’s not much choice in getting the newest edition of a thing, so be aware of when the latter is a thing and when you can do the former thing. also if you have to go to the college campus store or a place such as barnes n noble, remember that rent is preferred over buy and old is (usually) preferable to new whenever possible is the next ideal scenario. be sure of whenever you rent to have written somewhere where you know that you can access it easily and turn whatever you rent in by the due date, which will generally be around finals week, to avoid bein charged with fees related to not turning in the rented book(s) on time or not at all.

4) the syllabus is your friend and will help you with pacing out assignments of your classes so that they don’t get too overwhelming for you to do. while professors may adjust some assignments in accordance to how the class is going, generally the syllabus will have everything that you need to complete and possibly turn in from day 1. if you need to, then make up smaller deadlines that you stick to that breaks down a big assignment into many smaller ones which especially helps with procrastination and somewhat with depression issues. also, there’s often things that go wrong at the last minute and it’s better to have at least a day or two before the actual deadline to put things back on course instead of no time at all. 

5) when it comes to sleep itself, make sure to get at least enough sleep that you’re very unlikely to konk out during class or worse on the road if you’re driving to and fro to your class(es). like, if you need to be up by 7am and you need at least 6 hours of sleep, then be prepared and in bed by 11pm with computer and phone off/asleep and headin off to sleepville. if you happen to need a nap later in the day, go for either the 20-30 min. power nap or the 90 min. single sleep cycle nap because much more than that can make it hard to keep up a good sleep schedule at night and can mess up multiple days where you want to sleep when you need to be awake or vise versa and that’s not a fun time.

6) know how you’re gonna be gettin to college and make sure to have some wiggle room in case minor shenanigans happen. like, i drive to my college campuses and i tend to put 10-15 min. extra in addition to the time it takes to get to the college for stuff like i’m running a bit late, traffic is a lil clogged up today for whatever reason, it’s my first time at this campus so i need to figure out where i am so that i get where i need to go, and the time it takes to get from the parking lot to my classroom etc. etc.. like, there’s nothing you can do about if your bus or car breaks down or there’s an accident that has traffic at a standstill on your route or the weather’s far too dangerous for you to go to class safely etc. but you can email your professor(s) and tell them that you can’t make it to class that day and see if they can email you at least the raw notes and any new assignments of the day or see about scheduling an appointment with them during their office hours so that they can go over the material that you missed without detracking the whole class to teach that same lesson again.

7) professors are there to help and they want their students to succeed so communicate with them, don’t be afraid to ask questions about stuff that you don’t/have trouble understanding. it can be in person or via email. sometimes they can help you after class if both of your schedules allow it, but if not scheduling appointments as needed during their office hours where they can have 1on1 interaction and help with whatever you personally need to the best of their ability or point towards someone who can help you better than they can.

8) make sure to know how many absences you’re allowed to have in a given class over a given semester before you’re withdrawn from the class and keep track of how many absences you have already used out of the max allowed. there really isn’t such a thing as an excused absence unlike in many high schools. i say that the occasional mental health day off of your classes is okay, but be sure to leave at least one or two absences for the vehicle breakdowns and the like that’s largely out of your control.

9) if you can and are willing, make some acquaintances out of your classmates, they can help you with any group projects your class has as well as possibly help ya with notes and stuff you missed on days where you couldn’t make it for one reason or another. you might even get some friends along the way. there are many different kinds of people from many different walks of life with different reasons for going to college, even if you never see them again, it’s more often than not good to have some friendly people to talk to when the class time allows it. just don’t yip yap or otherwise disturb the class when things need to be quiet or the professor or other student(s) are talking and y'all’ll be golden.

10) take notes as you need them, but if your professor is emphasizing certain points and repeating them multiple times, write or type them fuckin down because they’re nearly always important points that are likely gonna help on the next test and/or the midterm/final exam.

and that’s all i can think of at the moment. i hope it helps and that i didn’t sound condescending or anythin accidentally. i’m completely sure that you’ll do great in college, Toffee. i hope that your upcoming semester goes great. 0v0)b

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thanks bubby i love you so much u too good for me tbh

[lavidaatravezdeunavion]

Week One

June 15/16

The long and grueling travel is finally over;  I’m in Buenos Aires!!  Let me mention that my flight from MIA to EZE was delayed an hour but coincidentally, my roommate and another friend were also in MIA because their flight was also delayed...five hours. They had been there since 6pm so i couldn't really complain too much about my delay but I got on the next available flight and was delighted to get the aisle seat. I settled in with my free pillow and blanket, I browsed the free inflight entertainment and watched Captain Marvel (it was as tony the tiger would say “There GRRRRRRReat!”). I fell asleep soon after dinner was served around 2am and thankfully was able to sleep for about five hours, but that last hour and a half was full of turbulence.

When we finally landed, I was a little sad since it was rainy and dark outside. On top of that, there was a country wide black out (our taxi driver said that the dam that generates the power for Argentina was broken! He said it might have been an accident but he wouldn't doubt that someone might have done something to it on purpose...) We were in the taxi for about 40 mins; I was too tired to keep my eyes open and had fallen asleep! As we pull up to the residence, the taxi driver yells “levantase mija ya llegamos.” I got into the room and wanted to take a shower immediately; I felt like after traveling for 12+ hours you just feel so nasty. Of course I hopped into the shower using my phone flashlight to make sure I didn’t slip, but to be fair our shower is like 2ft by 2ft so there really is no room to fall. I got out the shower and then took a four hour nap, and thankfully when I woke up the power was back on.

I got ready to go to dinner with our group at a restaurant called “Rietti” (Jorge Luis Borges 2205) it was a cute cafe a couple blocks from our residence. I ordered a “Milanesa de Carne con Puree de Papas” - which I would rate about a 6/10. The meat wasn’t as flavorful as i thought i'd be, and the mashed potatoes were pretty plain. Thankfully I had a glass of red wine; I couldn't tell you the name but it was great!

After dinner we went back to our residence and made friends with other people who also live and go to school here. We met some Peruvians, an Ecuadorian, a Costarican, a Chilean, and of course some Argentinians. They were all studying here and had been away from their families for months but were determined to finish school so they could have a career and help their families after. I admired them for being brave and studying in a different country where they don't know anyone. Now being 2 hours from home doesn't seem too bad. This was the end of my first night here, I went to bed feeling excited that I had made new friends and that they welcomed me with open arms.

June 17

This morning we walked to the Subte, which is what they call their metro, and bought and loaded cards so we can be prepared for our first day of school tomorrow. We took the Subte to Las Heras and went to grab lunch at this cute cafe that had dog paintings all over the walls. It kind made me feel like I was in the “Dogs Playing Poker” painting. I got a ham & cheese omelet which was subpar; maybe because I wasn’t very hungry it wasn't that appetizing, but it was just not for me. On the bright side, I ordered orange juice and let me tell you it was BOMB.COM. Honestly, that was probably the best part of my meal.

After lunch, we went back to the residence and proceeded to take a nap. After the nap, my roommate and I went to a restaurant that a friend recommended about fifteen minutes from here and it was called “Chicken Bros”. As my roommate and I were deciding what to order, the guys behind the counter asked us where we were visiting from. Usually, I tell people I'm from right outside of DC just because people know DC. Anyway, turns out that one of the guys was from Woodbridge, which isn’t too far from where I’m from in VA! It was cool to see an American-owned restaurant in a foreign country. Besides the owners being really cool, the food was great and the ambiance of the restaurant was really amazing. The table markers they were handing out were people from american pop culture so it was funny to see that. After this, we went home and went to sleep since tuesday would be our first day in class.

June 18

If you know me at all, you know that I am NOT a morning person. I am THE queen of sleeping in and sleeping for hourssssss. With this being said, waking up at 7am was not the most exciting thing to do. We got up to eat breakfast, and I tried my best to eat something because I knew it was going to be a really long day. For transportation, we use the Subte (their version of the metro) to get to class. It takes us about half an hour to get to school which isn’t too bad; the only thing is that the Subte is really crowded with everyone trying to get to work and school so you kinda have to be aggressive to just push yourself onto the train. We got to Expanish which is where all of our classes are being held. The first two weeks of classes are a crash course of spanish, so they did an oral exam to make sure they were placing us in the right level. Being a native speaker, it wasn't too difficult for me so I was placed in the advanced class. There were only two other kids in my class: an Italian girl and a Swiss guy. I was kind of nervous that our class was so small but throughout the day it felt better because she was able to pay more attention to how we spoke and we were also able to have more in depth conversations about different topics. Today was an exception because we had to take the oral exam but usually class starts at 9:30 and went till 1:30 then we had an hour break then class started again at 2:30 until 4:30. It sounds excruciating, and it is, but the class is fun and time goes by pretty fast. As the class finished, everyone was drained and we all went home on the Subte.

Once we got home, my roommate and I decided we wanted to go find a snack so we walked out of the residence and just started to walk. If you didn't know, street art is a big part of the culture here and is legal, so here in Palermo everywhere you look there is graffiti on the buildings. We started to walk all over the neighborhood and just took pictures and looked at all the beautiful art around us. We ended up walking around for about two hours. Once we got back home we took another nap and then got ready for dinner. We went to this bar in Palermo called “Ragnar” I got myself a burger, and because im legal here i got my first mojito which was really tasty. I really enjoyed the view from the rooftop that they had. Overall it was a really long day but we were finally getting on some kind of schedule. After dinner we went back home and got ready for bed.

June 19

I had a normal school day today but since the women's Argentinian soccer team was playing in the World Cup, we headed over right after class to my teachers favorite bar to watch the game! I later went with Gloria (the italian girl from my class) to eat at a sushi place about a block from our school. I got myself a Mexican Poke bowl which was absolutely delicious. It was my first time eating a poke bowl so i didn't have anything to compare it to. After lunch, we went back to Expanish and waited for everyone to get out of class.

After class we all signed up for a tango class. We waited for our teacher to come and she taught us the basics of Tango; I learned that Tango is not a dance where the point is to move all of your body but it should be a continuous motion (not sure if this makes sense but its not like merengue where your hips, legs, and shoulders move). I think after this class I have more of an appreciation for tango just because I had never really been exposed to it and it didn't look that interesting to me, but dancing it was a whole other thing.

After the tango class we all hopped on the Subte back to the residence. We all took naps (as you can see naps are a crucial part of our routine here lol) and then got ready for dinner. We all decided to go to a bar and to be able to watch the Argentina-Paraguay game. Not sure what bar we went to but it wasn’t too special; I got a quesadilla and some nachos on the side. The most exciting thing about dinner was seeing everyones excitement when argentina scored. The bartender even had a vuvuzela! Since we didn’t have class Thursday, after dinner we walked about two blocks and went into a club. The thing about Argentinian nightlife is that things don’t start poppin till 2am. This is something that we all questioned but it makes sense because they eat dinner at about 10pm. A group of us were just hanging upstairs until about 1:30 and then finally the music started to get really good so we all went downstairs to dance, it was one of the funnest nights so far. We left the club at about 3:30am and got home and all knocked out. 

June 20

Waking up at 9:30 after a night out was not ideal, but you do what you gotta do right? Since we didn't have school today our professor from JMU (and our mom for the trip) took us to La Boca which is where the city of Buenos Aires first was established. It’s now very touristy but let me tell you... it is beautiful. All the buildings are so colorful, and craftwork and artwork they sell on the streets were mesmerizing.

We went to the“Museo de Bellas Artes Benito Quinuela Martin,” this museum was in Benito Quinuela Martin house that he lived at the time. The gallery is free to enter and I definitely recommend going if you have time.

The exhibits they had were really interesting my favorite exhibit was the one they had for Roberto Cortes. He is able to depict perfectly what La boca entails and also the struggles and oppression that argentina has faced. The museum also had the rooms made up like how Benito Quinuela Martin had them while he was alive and it was interesting to see how someone lived during the early 20th century. I'm not much of an art person but this entire museum was really interesting, especially to see how different artists show the oppression they have faced as a country.

After the museum, we went to lunch at a restaurant down the street called “La Perla”. I was not the biggest fan of this restaurant just because their service was bad, and the food was mediocre. 

We later hopped on a bus back to Plaza de mayo. I'm going to give a little back story for this next part:

During the 1970s, Argentina was facing a “Dirty War” where anyone who was against the government was persecuted. Most of the people speaking out against the government were college students, and because of this students started to disappear all over. Once mothers started to notice that their kids were not the only ones missing they started to organize themselves and want to get answers. This government was obviously very oppressive and because loitering was illegal, mothers would get into groups of two and march in circle in front of La casa rosada (equivalent to our white house) they would wear white scarves on their heads as symbols that these were mothers looking for their missing children. In total over 30,000 students went missing during this dictatorship. There is so much more to this but I personally do not want to write a whole dissertation on how horrible this situation is so here is a link to more information: https://www.history.com/news/mothers-plaza-de-mayo-disappeared-children-dirty-war-argentina

To this day, every thursday, these mothers still march on Plaza de Mayo. We all had the honor of seeing these mothers, family members and activists march in front of la casa rosada. There are now two groups from my understanding one group is still looking for answers for what happened to their children and so this group would walk around La Plaza de Mayo and they would read the names of the disappeared students outloud and after each name the group would yell “Presente” (Present) just to show that their kids will never be forgotten. The other group is now more politically active and strives to make more changes so that this never happens and they walked around the plaza saying different chants. It was remarkable to see that even fifty years later these mothers are still the front of the movement.

After seeing them march, we walked over to a cafe to get some coffee but I personally got a Submarine which is THE best hot chocolate you can drink. It’s basically a bar of chocolate that melts in the boiling milk its delicioso! After we all finished we went back home to the residence, and you guessed it, we took a nap. After our wonderful nap we went to go get dinner at a restaurant around here called “el Galeon”, not my favorite but it was a 6/10, to be fair I only got a salad but the chicken in the salad was a bit questionable. After dinner we went home and got into bed.

June 21

Today was our last day of having class till 4:30; we had two holidays this week since we had to make up for the class time missed. But I am so,so,so happy we do not have to be in class for seven hours anymore. Today in class, I realized that my vocabulary needs to expand more so now i'm glad that we were talking about topics I usually don’t discuss in spanish like the economy and politics. Other than that, class had been fun but I was a little sad today since my friend Gloria was graduating from the program and won't be in class but since shes still gonna be here for another five weeks we plan on hanging out so i'll update you guys when I get to see her again

After class we all went home and then later that night we got ready to go to dinner at a restaurant called “La Robla,” this was a spanish inspired restaurant in Palermo. I shared a Milanesa Clasico with Mashed Potatoes and we also got a side salad. This has been one of my favorite meals so far. The milanesa was to die for and those mashed potatoes really had me begging for more.

After dinner we went to a bar called “Chupitos,” we paid 140 pesos to get in and the entrance fee comes with two shots. I got a shot called “Poseidon,” it had tequila, lime juice and some blue liqour in it but i thought I wasnt going to like it but it was really good. I also took a picture of my friends beer because i mean just look at it...

After the bar we went to a techno club which was really cool to see EDM in a different country. We stayed out till about 5am with everyone and some of the guys from our residencia. After that we all went home and went directly to bed.

P.S.

I know this was a really long post so I may try and keep it to three or four day a post but I just am living in the moment an enjoying life right now so it might be a bit difficult so you all will have to bear with me. Thanks for your support!

Con mucho amor,

T.L.  

[chaerismatic]

“SHOULD WE KNOW US A LITTLE BETTER” TAG 📜

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 a couple people [im too nyervous n bad at tagging :C]

i was tagged by @moonbebe , @monbeboo and @monbabi~ tysm ily guys w my whoooole heart ♡♡

THE LAST Drink: water wow already off to a rly interesting start,, great job angie Phone call: my mumma  Text message: “still full from the chicken, don't know if i want dindin” [asldkfjs i still talk to my mum like a four-year-old ok yep moving on] Song i’ve listened to: from zero,, aka the bop of the century that probably wont ever be released ;; v ;; Time you cried: i basically spent all of last weekend in the foetal position cos of the p101 final and shine forever

HAVE YOU 6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nope 8. Been cheated on: nope 9. Lost someone special: yep 10. Been depressed: i guess 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope,, im?? an egg 12-14. List three favorite colours: green, yellow, cream

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. Made new friends: yess, especially here !! i don't rly deserve any of them and i love n admire every single person thats talked to me. ty ty ty ♡ 16. Fallen out of love: maybe, but idk if you could call whatever that was ‘love’ 17. Laughed until you cried: we had karaoke at my school today,, i nearly choked from screaming n dancing to the pokemon theme song 18. Found out someone was talking about you: don't think so eep 19. Met someone who changed you: for sure 20. Found out who your friends are: i think so 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: uhh yes

GENERAL 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of ‘em 23. Do you have any pets: OK ASDLKFJA I LVOE MY BABIES; so u’ve got miffy my v bouncy dog n best pal, my two rly chirpy but rly sweet birbs toro and newbert, and my two goldfish who are,,, both named huat,,, because that means prosperity n i need that $$$ 24. Do you want to change your name: hmm nope i like it, esp my full name even though i don't rly like it when people call me by it just cos it feels too formal 25. What did you do for your last birthday: probably ate a lot of mexican food and played the sims 4 for like 10hrs straight 26. What time do you wake up: 7am on school days n like 11pm on weekends 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: having a v mild panic attack about my history exam but also watching my babies sewoon/gwanghyun in their first vlive 28. Name something you can’t wait for: jung sewoon to debut jfc 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: maybe like an hour ago when i was washing the dishes 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: feeling more fulfilled and optimistic cos tbh ive got it really good compared to others n i hate when i forget that 31. What are you listening right now: why don't you know - chungha 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yep, a guy in my bio class that i barely know, he just asked for help w a question 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my academic incompetency  34. Most visited website: youtube or tumblr 35. Moles: none 36. Marks: two lil dots under my right eye, one on my upper lip n a whole bunch on my arms 38. Hair color: black  39. Long or short hair: long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: huygnown jks sorry 41. What do you like about yourself: my ??softness tbh 42. Piercings: nope 43. Bloodtype: idk but i really wanna find out !!! ;;  44. Nickname: angie is a nickname i guess, but a lot of my school friends call me angle 45. Relationship status: dating a pretty cool guy (who is not hw but its fine i still kinda like him asldfjsal that was a rly weird n kinda messed up joke im sorry) 46. Zodiac: cancer 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: orange is the new black, brooklyn nine nine, rick and forty, and a whooole lot of japanese dramas 49. Tattoos: nope 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: none 52. Hair dyed in different color: not currently but i had green ombre for a while last year 53. Sport: not really my thing if yknow what i mean hah im as active as an actual pile of garbage   55. Vacation: ive only ever had an extensive stay in malaysia but its like a second home n i love it so much c: 56. Pair of trainers: uhhhh one ? yes ? idrk what this is asking ;v;

MORE GENERAL 57. Eating: i had kfc for dinner mmmm 58. Drinking: water 59. I’m about to: pass out im so tired 61. Waiting for: monsta x’s first win !1!! 62. Want: to hug wonho,,, idk i feel extra protective of him today 63. Get married: for sure 64. Career: nursing/midwifery

WHICH IS BETTER 65.Hugs or kisses: hugs !!! warm n friendly or romantic n gentle,, you can't go wrong !! 66. Lips or eyes: both are v good, especially as a combination when someone smiles,,, smiling is rly rly nice 67. Shorter or taller: taller  68. Older or younger: older for now 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: asdfhasl both again !! both are SO good !!! esp soft tummies w comfy arms in hugs !! ;; - ;; 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive  72. Hookup or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER 74.Kissed a stranger: nope 75. Drank hard liquor: nope 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no but thats honestly my worst nightmare,, id be completely vulnerable 77. Turned someone down: yeah but in like the 5th grade 78. Sex on the first date: nope 79. Broken someone’s heart: maybe ,,, 80. Had your heart broken: probably fractured, not quite entirely shattered 81. Been arrested: nope 82. Cried when someone died: yessir 83. Fallen for a friend: way too many fkscifn times

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 84. Yourself: uhh probably not 85. Miracles: sure 86. Love at first sight: eh not really 87. Santa Claus: i rly want to cos i love christmas so much :cc but no 88. Kiss on the first date: mmm probably not 89. Angels: have u seen the all-white shine forever stage outfits amirite

OTHER 
90. Current best friend’s name: i have two bestest friends named annie and charlie 
91. Eye color: dark brown
 92. Favorite movie: WHY END WITH THE HARDEST QUESTION YOU COULD POSSIBLY ASK ME ??? ok um lets go w back to the future as one of many favourites

❀ tagging: @monbibi @peachminhyuk @cngkyns @chaesprincess @kukungie @bamethyst @omgxiaoch ! ❀ but feel free to ignore, this does take a really long time so i totally understand :) 

[reading-through-the-night]

Tag!

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

Thank you: @a-song-of-stars-and-dreams

LAST:

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone call: Momma!

3. Text message: Ben

4. Song you listen to: Brand New by Ben Rector

5. Time you cried: Reading Outlander

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Yup

8. Been cheated on: Nope

9. Lost someone special: Thankfully, no

10. Been depressed: I don’t think so, not diagnosed anyways.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Oh god yes. Let’s not talk about my poor choices.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Warm, sunshine yellow

13. Lilac purple

14. Cerulean blue, specifically the Crayola crayon

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes! :)

16. Fallen out of love: Not really

17. Laughed until you cried: So many times.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yea, but honestly it’s human nature, I’m too boring to have really good gossip for anyone to talk about.

20. Found out who your friends are: At this point I feel like my friends have grown past the point of being ‘friends’.     

21.  Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Nope

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: Umm, I think all of them? At least 99% of them.

23. Do you have any pets: Golden Retriever! Sandy!

24. Do you want to change your name: Nope, nothing else would fit me.

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Literally nothing, it was 2 days before exams.

26. What time do you wake up: Depends on the day, usually 7am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping yo! Grannas gotta catch her z’s!

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Finding my Rhysand.

29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: 3 days ago.

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish I had more self control.

31. What are you listening to right now: My fan and the street noises.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I mean, I have spoken to a person named Tom.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: People who take advantage of the system.

34. Most visited website: Tumblr, AO3, Google Docs

35. Mole/s: None

36. Mark/s: I have red hair, so I have 10 zillion freckles.

37. Childhood dream: President.

38. Hair color: Red

39. Long or short hair: Longish

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Not really.

41. What do you like about yourself: My intelligence and what I have accomplished so far.

42. Piercings: Just ears

43. Blood type: AB+

44. Nicknames? Sis

45. Relationship status: single

46. Zodiac: Aires

47. Pronouns: Her

48. Favorite TV Show: Friends, Outlander

50. Right or left hand: Right

51. Surgery: Never

52. Hair dyed in different color: Never

53. Sport: Swam in high school, used to play basketball, volleyball.

55. Vacation: cabin with the family!

56. Pair of trainers: in my state we call the tennis shoes, and mine are blue with pink lines!

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: cooking is hard and messy

58. Drinking: wine is da bestttt

59. I’m about to: listen to an audiobook and clean my apartment

62. Want: someone to cook dinner for me

63. Get married: would love to skip the awkward dating part and just have a loving husband.

64. Career: health care consultant, loving it.

65. Hugs or kisses: both

66. Lips or eyes: eyes,

67. Shorter or taller: Taller

68. Older or younger: older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms

71. Sensitive or loud: I’m so loud

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: I’m not really either, I boldy follow the rules?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: Yes

75. Drank hard liquor: YUP

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: both

77. Turned someone down: Very lightly

78. Sex on the first date: Nope

79. Broken someone’s heart: I don’t think so

80. Had your heart broken: Yea

81. Been arrested: Nope

82. Cried when someone died: Yes

83. Fallen for a friend: Yessss

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84: Yourself: Honestly, yes, so much.

85. Miracles: Yes?

86. Love at first sight: My inner romantic is screaming yes, but no.

87. Santa Claus: Somewhere he is real.

88. Kiss on the first date: If it’s there, it’s there.

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Why do you only get one best friend? I don’t like ranking my inner circle.

91. Eye color: Blue some days, green others.

92. Favorite movie: Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, always and forever. Or White Chicks.

YOU HAVE BEEN SUMMONED: I’m tagging anyone that read Rhapsodic, because I feel like we had an explosive book club going for a second. 

[byunparks-archive]

TAG MEME

Tagged by @baeksupreme and @chanyeolsabs !! Thanks for tag guys!!

To all those who I tagged, y’all don’t have to do it if y’all don’t wanna!!

THE LAST

1. Drink: caramel macchiato

2. Phone call: a friend

3. Text message: @achybaekyhearteu elderly

4. Song you listened to: Rumor by K.A.R.D

5. Time you cried: can’t remember..my mom said i was crying in my sleep 2 nights ago tho…

6. Dated someone twice: nope

7. Been cheated on: nope

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: regretted not kissing someone haiz..

9. Lost someone special: nope

10. Been depressed: yeap

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: definitely yeap

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

1. Grey  2. Black  3. Maroon

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: yeap

16. Fallen out of love: think so?…it’s complicated

17. Laughed until you cried: yeap

18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeap

19. Met someone who changed you: yeap

20. Found out who your true friends are: yeap

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: what is facebook?

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: not sure lmao

23. Do you have any pets: nope

24. Do you want to change your name: nope

25. What did you do for your last birthday: studied for my exams smh

26. What time did you wake up: 7am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: TOOMBLRDOTCORM

28. Name something you cannot wait for: to move out

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: an hour ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: idk actually

31. What are you listening to right now: ka-ching by cbx

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

33. Something getting on your nerves: the wi-fi in this place

34. Most visited website: tumblr, youtube

35. Elementary: done

36. High school: done

37. College: waiting

38. Hair color: brown and black

39. Long or short hair: between the both? 

40. Do you have a crush on someone: it’s complicated.

41. What do you like about yourself: is it egoistical to say i think my eyes are nice?

42. Piercings: 2 on each ear but one of them closed and nose 

43. Blood type: B+

44. Nickname: ok listen.. if i started this it’s never gonna end so let’s just keep it as maddy

45. Relationship status: married to byun baekhyun

46. Zodiac sign: scorpio

47. Pronouns: she/her../trash

48. Favorite tv show: wow…urm…teen wolf/the originals/skam 

49. Tattoos: had an air tattoo on my neck and arm for a week

50. Right or left hand: right

FIRST…

51. Surgery: never had one

52. Piercing: i think i was 7?

54. Sport: swimming

55. Vacation: either melbourne or india..idk which one came first

56. Pair of trainers: WHAT ARE THOSEEE

MORE GENERAL…

57. Eating: nothing

58. Drinking: green tea

59. I’m about to: clean my room

61. Waiting for: college to start

62. Want: to get my life together

63. Get married: maybe

64. Career: health sciences

65. Hugs or kisses: kisses

66. Lips or eyes: eyes

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: it’s easier when older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: baekhyun has both so it doesn’t matter

71. Sensitive or loud: loud

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. Kissed a stranger?: nope

75. Drank hard liquor?: HELL YES

76. Lost glasses contact/lenses?: don’t wear both

77. Turned someone down?: yeap

78. Had sex on first date?: nope

79. Broken someone’s heart?: i hope not

80. Had your heart broken?: it’s fixable

81. Been arrested?: nope

82. Cried when someone died?: do fictional deaths count?

83. Fallen for a friend?: ugh don’t get me started on this shit

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84. Yourself?: slowly getting there

85. Miracles?: yeap

86. Love at first sight?: nope

87. Santa Claus?: nope

88. Kiss on the first date?: depends on the date

89. Angels?: EXO exists so YES

OTHER….

90. Current best friend’s name: she will kill me if i mention her on this site

91. Eye color: dark brown

92. Favorite movie: wow…i thought for so long and came up with The Breakfast Club?

Tagging: @04gf @88gf @baekhyunsbabe @byunlucid @jongdaesi @junyixinqs @killeryixing @morningsdeer @pinkjonginie  @sekaisoosgirl  @smolchen @sooranghaes @yixseok 

[multifandom-hoes]

92 Truths

I was tagged: @saranghaextae >.>.> 92.... I am---

Rules: tag 20 people (literally 20 random blogs rn but whatever...)

@koneko14 @ask-mermaid-kwannie @bfjoonie @hobiga @hyamori @aegyo4me @ughtrashugh @157isa @taehyung-is-my-sin @vnrgaard @trashxma @jungkookfortunekookies @junghoeseokie @kpopfan-antics @kawaii-hedgehog @ask-kimdaily @lqhobi @kotkuro @pen1ag0n @nct-dork

THE LAST…

1. Drink: Coffee

2. Phone call: ????? Gotta check..... But I think my friend

3.Text message: GC; from @koneko14 and her denial stage >.>

4. Song you listened to: I am currently listening to a playlist by danielions

5.Time you cried: Dun remember either; basically a long, long, long time ago xD

6. Dated someone twice: I don’d do dates, soz xD

7. Been Cheated on: thankfully I wasn’t xD

8. Kissed someone and regretted it:  Urgh...... Yeah..... Ahahahahaha

9. Lost someone special: Halloween

10. Been depressed: I don’t really get depressed much, just horribly stressed

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I last got kind of half at St. Patty’s... I didn’t throw up tho xDDD I can handle ma drinks ;-)

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

1: Black 2: Royal blue 3: Orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: Not as much as a friend, but more like an acquaintance???? But if it’s online, then yeah, and a good one :)

16. Fallen out of love: Yeah, I began to hate French with a passion ;-)

17. Laughed until you cried: Everytime I meet ma friend, including last year of course

18. Found out someone was talking about you: They don’t try to hide it, tbh.

19. Met someone who changed you: I wouldn’t say so. I’m just as weird as ever xD

20. Found out who your true friends are: Oh yes. But I wouldn’t say it was in the last year, as much as it was after I came to Ireland. She’s a real sweetheart.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: Dude nah. 

GENERAL…

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: LoL.... I don’t even know how many I have.... But Like 30-40%??? 

23. Do you have any pets: A doggo and some fisho ;-)

24. Do you want to change your name: MA NAMEZ THE BEST BOI

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Bowling, Bouffet, Cake, Happy times

26. What time did you wake up: when to school at 7am, but in general it depends on how long i am allowed t sleep n. Nowadays, they try and not disturb me till 12pm... Though I like sleeping in till like 3pm...

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Stressing over ma french exam ;-) in the shower i think

28. Name something you cannot wait for : My psychology course

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: Couple mins. ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My constant negative outlook on everything; literally.

31. What are you listening to right now: This babeh ;-)

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yeah.... @ st. patty’s drinking party xDDD

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: People who get jealous of you after not doing anything and you get the result you want while they mop around you. Also people who will always be there to call you smart, but it sounds fucking mocking and disrespectful af.

34. Most visited website: YT, Tumblr, AFF

35. Elementary: ---

36. High School: Last year

37. College: I’M GETTING THERE

38. Hair color:  nATURALLY, they’re brown, but currently red 

39. Long or short hair: I’m growing them to be long... Their past shoulders, so I guess long???

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Only on a KPop idol.... If you can call it a crush???

41. What do you like about yourself: My eyes and ignorance at certain things. The way I handle situations... Not all, but the ones that require cold blood.

42. Piercings: 6- all in ears.

43. Blood type: I think it’s a C positive... I don’t remember ;-;

44. Nickname: Cathy, Kotre, Kotra,Quatro(???), Cath, Kitty, Kotryte.... Loads...

45.Relationship status: ;-; Y u gotta hurt me like this?

46.Zodiac sign: Aquarius

47.Pronouns: She/Her

48.Favorite tv show: Supernatural..... LoL ;-).... And maybe Goblin???

49.Tattoos: Not yet. Hopefully next year, tho... >.>

50.Right or left hand: Basic shizz; right.

FIRST…

51. Surgery: I had two major ones, tbh... One for when I nearly lost ma eye... And the other they took smth out to make me less sick but idk what it’s called in English so let’s just skip this xD

52. Piercing: My first two were actually at the very age of about 2???? But those were the basic earring ones. My first formal piercing was about 2 years ago.

54.Sport: Dodgeball... And dancing- don’t even begin telling me that it is not a sport.

55.Vacation: First... Idk?

56. Pair of trainers: ?????????

57. Eating: Noodles- spicy black pepper noodles- so good.

58. Drinking: noodle soup.

59. I’m about to: go to shower. After I get this bitch done.

61. Waiting for: The pain in my leg to go away or i’m going to cri

62. Want: Sleep ;-;

63. Get married: Dun wanna

64. Career: Forensic psychologist.

WHICH IS BETTER…

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

66. Lips or eyes: Depends on the person.

67. Shorter or taller: Taller >.>

68. Older or younger: Older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ;-))))) What a question... I don’t take only 1 tho. It comes in a package.

71. Sensitive or loud: Both, tbh... 

72. Hook-up or relationship: Couldn’t argue with one about the other, tbh

73.Troublemaker or hesitant: A smart dude who knows when to do his shit right.

HAVE YOU EVER…

74.Kissed a stranger?: Nah

75.Drank hard liquor? : Yupp

76.Lost glasses contact/lenses? : I drowned my sunglasses while conoeing just this summer and I nearly cri

77.Turned someone down?: Ohhhhh yeeeesss

78.Sex on first date?: Nah

79.Broken someone’s heart?: I guess.......????

80.Had your heart broken?: Not really

81.Been arrested?: Well.... Nearly???? Ahahahaha IT WASN’T MY FAULT THO

82.Cried when someone died?: Yeah.

83.Fallen for a friend?: Noe~

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84.Yourself?: Depending on situation

85.Miracles?: No

86.Love at first sight?: No no

87.Santa Claus?: SANTA IS REAL FITE ME

88.Kiss on the first date?: That would depend on my date, tbh

89.Angels?: Nah. I’m an atheist.

OTHER….

90.Current best friend’s name: Andzelika~~~

91.Eye color: Brown, with flecks of black and a bit of gold lining.

92. Favorite movie: The Crucibles, and I recommend you watch it. Gong Yoo killed it.

[itsmagnusbanebitch]

92 Truths

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose however many people you want to tag!

Tagged by the bae @malecisright Jocelyn :3

LAST…

[1] drink: water [2] phone call: friend [3] text message: friend [4] song you listened to: It Ain’t Me - Kygo ft Selena Gomez [5] time you cried: idk

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: no (still single) [7] been cheated on: no (still single) [8] kissed someone and regretted it: no (still single) [9] lost someone special: yes [10] been depressed: no [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no (I don’t drink much, maybe a cocktail every once in a while???)

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] black [13] purple [14] blue/red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes [16] fallen out of love: no (still single) [17] laughed until you cried: yes [18] found out someone was talking about you: in what sense? Because of something silly I did then yes [19] met someone who changed you: yes [20] found out who your true friends are: yes [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no  (still single)

GENERAL… [22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: less than 5 [23] do you have any pets: no [24] do you want to change your name: no [25] what did you do for your last birthday: studied ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ exams period, what to do [26] what time did you wake up: 11+am today, 7am on school days [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping, I’m sick :/ [28] name something you cannot wait for: SH 2B!!! [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: 10min ago [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ [31] what are you listening to right now: the radio [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes [33] something that is getting on your nerves: ME BEING SICK F OFF [35] elementary: what is this [36] high school: what is this [37] college: not in college yet? I’m in polytechnic guise [38] hair colour: hella fricking dark brown it looks black [39] long or short hair: short [40] do you have a crush on someone: no, but celebrity crush yas [41] what do you like about yourself?: my singing uwu [42] piercings: none [43] blood type: A+ [44] nickname: key [45] relationship status: single and available [46] zodiac sign: aquarius [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: shadowhunters [49] tattoos: none [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST… [51] surgery: none [52] piercing: none [53] best friend: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ don’t remember ever having a ‘first best friend’, but first conscious and legit bf was when I was 13 [54] sport: netball [55] vacation: Malaysia probably [56] pair of trainers: daheck are trainers? sports shoes? Some new balance shoes I think

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: nothing [58] drinking: water SICK AF PERSON BOO [59] i’m about to: finish this thing soon AHA [60] listening to: the radio [61] waiting for: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ [62] want: to eat snacks [63] get married: no [64] career: studying

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: hugs [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: personality [69] romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous [70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms [71] sensitive or loud: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ sensitive maybe? CONTEXT [72] hook up or relationship: relationship [73] troublemaker or hesitant: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ again, CONTEXT

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? no [75] drank hard liquor? yes [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? yes [77] turned someone down: no [78] sex on first date? no (still single) [79] broken someone’s heart? no [80] had your own heart broken? no [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? yes [83] fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? yes [85] miracles? yes [86] love at first sight? maybe [87] santa claus? no [88] kiss on the first date? no [89] angels? yes

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: rachel [91] eye colour: dark brown af [92] favourite movie: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

tagging: anyone who’d like to do it cause lazy af ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[lizziesquire]

You reblog and support menta health but clearly your own isn't a priority. sleeping 4 hours a night is literally crazy. Your life sounds honesty miserable but it's your own creation. We are not on this planet to spend every second working studying working running from one thing to the next then dying. You seriously should look at things from new perspectives. When was the last time you went to the beach, traveled, went to a park? Did something besides studying ...

hallo there!!

I was running off of 4 hours of sleep that particular weekend due to the fact that I am a part of running the model united nations conference for high schoolers here on campus, and that weekend happened to be our conference weekend (which means starting days at 7AM to make sure that all the committees/delegates/advisors have what they need before committee sessions begin at 9AM, and days ending at 1AM-3AM, with clean-up responsibilities and wrapping up logistics and whatnot). 

I usually get around 5-6 hours of sleep per night, provided it’s not the week preceding an exam--but you’re absolument right. The number of times I’ve said to myself, “I don’t have the time for self-care,” whenever I wanted to just crawl back into bed and lie there is... tbh countless. And I recognize that that’s such a f’d up thing to say to oneself every time that I do, yet I drag my butt to a library/the next meeting/etc. anyway, because I feel that I have to. 

There are multiple times a week that the thought, “is this normal?” flits into my mind--is it normal, to spend every waking hour in class, in the library, or in a meeting? The only time that I ever have to myself is a) the 30-40 minutes that I spend eating dinner with friends and b) the hour that I carve out for myself at night to go to the gym, every day. Walking out of class with friends, they head back to their rooms to watch Netflix once they’re done with classes for the day--and that boggles my mind. I don’t have the time to be binge-watching a show, let alone have time to watch even one forty-minute episode (unless it’s a Friday night and I’ve decided that I’ve earned it that week). 

On the one hand, I feel as if it’s the price I pay for having the goals that I do--and to be honest? My life isn’t miserable. I’m never happy with too much free time on my hands, as it is; I could probably be happy with being much less stressed, but... whereas I recognize that my schedule is probably a bit out of the ordinary, I also have to balance it with the fear that I’m not doing enough; not achieving enough. 

It makes sense, though, I think--to achieve the goals that I want to, it makes sense to have to work this hard. True, one should never spend every waking moment working, but I also think that it’s what I have to do (and ultimately what I’m happy doing) in order to get to where I so desperately want to be. I’m just pulling through by thinking about this time next year--I’m planning for senior year to hopefully be a chiller one than the last 3 years of college (and the last 4 years of high school) have been :-) 

I don’t know if this makes any sense but !!! thank you for worrying xx