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gidyolf · 1 year

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a girl in my class (who I don’t know very well) came up to me and showed me a picture on her phone and said, “I thought you’d appreciate this.” It was a picture of a bonfire with the wooden sticks falling in the shape of a pentagram. She was like, “my friends and I were having a bonfire, and the sticks fell this way, I thought you’d like it.” I was like, “oh haha that’s cool” and didn’t think much of it. Told my friends later offhandedly and they thought that she was trying to see if I was into witchy stuff and it was a hidden invitation, but I thought she was just being friendly

#i thought this was funny #I felt the need to share #my friend was like “’yeah u with ur polo shirts very witchy 🤨’#I was like ‘I thought she was being friendly’ 😁#I also didn’t think too hard about the pentagram just vaguely recognized it from something #I was mostly like ‘new friend?’ 👀#there wasn’t a lot going on in my head

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ropes3amthoughts · 2 months

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Fanart for my own fanfiction that I may or may not finish idk. I have no idea what happened to the quality and I couldn’t figure out how to fix it so it’s just really blurry now 😭

#playing with my toys #would you believe me if I said this wasn’t intended to be Labru and I just like to put them in situations #I just like to play and have fun #basically what happens in the fanfic is Kabru is like oh shit I turned into a vampire who’s gonna kill vampires now #then he’s like I bet I can convince Laios he knows a lot about the supernatural and he’d probably be really good at killing them #then he’s all like Laios I’m a vampire and Laios is all like huh why aren’t you like killing people then and then Kabru’s like I’m not feral #so I’m still sane and I don’t pose any danger to humans and then Laios is like what no way that’s so cool can you bite me pretty please #and Kabru at first is like nuh uh bevause he’s got his morals and all that but then he’s like wait a minute maybe this can help convince him #and so he’s like ok I will and then he bites him and he’s like WOW&@39:&;&:99: like crazy nuts in a trance meanwhile Laios is like I thought #it would be way easier if he tilted his head more to the right but if he’s doing it like that then I guess not #then Kabru snaps out of the trance and he’s like wtf I was totally out of it that’s so weird and probably dangerous oh man I’m freaking out #and Laios is all like wow that was so cool I learned so much stuff :D and then he nearly passes out because he’s lightheaded as hell #Kabru is all like hell nah he needs to leave I feel like I’m going insane and I don’t want him to be here if I go feral or anything #then Laios gets vampire aftercare (bandaids on his neck + orange juice + cookies) and Kabru is like ok you’re all good now bye #and then Laios is like ok bye and then Kabru goes back to his room and freaks out some more because he’s worried he’s losing his humanity #yeah basically it’s like vampire shenanigans and Laios is like :D and Kabru is like I’m going to go insane and I need to die.#delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #kabru #kabru dungeon meshi #kabru of utaya #kabru dunmeshi #laios dunmeshi #laios dungeon meshi #laios touden #my art #doodles #digital art #rope/spider post #rope/spider art

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mayasaura · 1 year

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ntn spoilers ahead

Question!

I appreciate that you champion Harrow's schizophrenia, and I had a thought that I'd like to run by you. It's intended with full respect for anyone with the disorder, and is also related to the neuro-bio-psych elements.

When Nona, Cam, and Crown are visiting the Captain, Nona hears Varun speak through the Captain. Afterward, she references the incident and realizes that neither Cam nor Crown had heard this happen. I was confused *how* Nona-lecto had that sort of experience, but...

If Nona-lecto is in Harrow's body, is it possible that she's experiencing schizophrenia symptoms? I'm not wanting to imply that it's a full hallucination, though perhaps since Harrow's 'meat' is schizophrenic meat, there are effects. Would mental health/illness be tied to the soul? Personality certainly seems to be, and some forms of memory.

Just rolling this around in my head a bit, and have no thoughts more advanced than this. Thank you for all your theorizing and writings about the books 💀 - heedee

I've been wondering how or if Harrow's schizophrenia effected Nona since the cover first dropped, and literally speaking, the way you're wondering about? I'm still not really sure. Brain stuff is complicated, even before souls are part of the equation, and everything about Nona is already so goddamn weird. I do think Nona is thematically schizophrenic, the same way she's thematically intellectually disabled.

Like the scene you're talking about here:

I think you're absolutely onto something, seeing this as related to psychosis. Reading this scene with that framing in mind, Nona's experience is so clearly about hallucinations. She was just trying to change the subject, and fuck. Turns out no one else heard that! Camilla and Crown's reactions, too.

But to your point about neurobiology, and the relationship between soul and body, it doesn't really tell us much. Nona wasn't hallucinating, because it turned out Judith wasn't just screaming. Varun was speaking to Nona through Judith in the language of a murdered planet, a language that sounds like screaming to human ears. Like Nona's uncanny knack for human languages, that's a product of her soul, not her brain.

We get proof of that later when Nona is pretending to be Harrow, and faking being effected by the blue light. She imitates the way Judith screamed, makes her mouth make the same shapes Judith's did, and her words come out in italics; just like Judith's words that Camilla and Crown heard as screams. She calls for help, in the screaming language she'd heard from Judith, with Judith in the room to hear her, and Varun answers by attacking the planet.

To your question about whether schizophrenia would be connected to the soul or to the body in setting, I don't think there's a dichotomy there. Body and soul aren't separate things, even when they're separated.

Lyctorhood, for example. You'd think muscle memory would be a clear cut case of living in the body. It's muscles. But when Ianthe chowed down on Naberius' soul, she got his reflexes with it. His swordsmanship, his stance, his training. The soul brought the body with it. And when Harrow literally cut Gideon out of her brain, it removed Gideon from her memory even when her soul was elsewhere. She spent half that book in the River, but didn't remember Gideon until her skull construct failed and her brain began to heal. So I would say that, just like memory, it's both. Harrow's schizophrenia is tied to both her soul and body, and there's not really much point in trying to separate the two.

#ntn spoilers #nona the ninth #nona palona #the locked tomb #harrow's schizophrenia #also hi Heedee!! big thank you for the big juicy question to roll around in my head #and thank you for liking my meta!! 💕 I love making it and it really means a lot to me that you like reading it #sorry it took over a fucking month to get this one back to you #it kept picking up new questions and implications #like a snowball rolling around a yard #like #so how does the non-dichotomy of soul and body work re: Pyrrha?#I think its partially the eightfold word and partially maybe bc Pyrrha's soul has had ten thousand years to acclimate to being Gideon's bod #Pyrrha isn't surprised to hear that Nona is dying in chapter 24 because (to quote):#'It takes a lot to acclimate a soul to a body it wasn’t born in if that original body’s around for it to miss'#and this is while Pyrrha still thinks it's probably Gideon in there #we know bc she tells Nona later in the same conversation that she thinks the body they're going after might be hers #so that means even the eightfold word isn't sufficient to acclimate a soul to a different body #Gideon and Harrow have done it as completely as Pyrrha and her Gideon ever did #but the eightfold word DOES lay the groundwork #or at least I'm pretty sure it does #because Ianthe in Naberius' body was nothing like Wake in Cytherea's or Palamedes in Naberius #Wake and Pal's movements were awkward and jerky while Ianthe moved with the same grace and fluidity as Kiriona inhabiting her own dead body #speaking of Ianthe and Naberius I am eyeing that line about 'if that original body's around for it to miss'#what happened to the bodies of the other lyctors' cavaliers is a long standing mystery #and Pyrrha seems like she might be implying there that her original body ISN'T still around to miss #can't just be that it's dead; Gideon's is dead too and Pyrrha was talking about Gideon's body when she said the line #so maybe there is something in the theory that the original cavaliers were cremated #I can see the lyctors doing it if they thought it was the only way to prevent complications or later failure of the process #kinda makes me wonder what kinds of complications might arise from Ianthe keeping Babs around to play play with

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lionpars · 18 days

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Genuinely though I can’t stand when people try and make javi a villain

#⸻ ❛ 𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐨𝐰 » ooc.#// guy had his own stuff to deal with too and he got lost on the path of life for a bit there.#// I’d like to think he surpressed and buried things so bad that he was numb for a while and just seemed indifferent #// but having someone from his past ( Kate ) be upfront with him and remind him who he really is is just !!!! something I’m emo of #// there’s a lot of things in my head but javi wasn’t a villain. he just had a lot going on himself #// he knows he was wrong in several instances but he never actually meant harm on anyone or anything. he just. got lost in it all.#// guy lost his real self for a good while there sorry. is this making sense or am i just talking bullshit that only makes sense in my head

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acebytaemin · 6 months

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happy bday to my number one guy, king of my heart and the true big boss, M @linoguy 💖🤎

#uhm. little cough to clear throat hope ur ready for the elaboration.#us at planet idiot is kinda funny and kinda apt i think. wasn’t going specifically for them two but it comes naturally i think #wanted a parallel of me being a wildcat on your shoulder who hisses at everyone but likes u <3 #car pic obviously me bringing you bday flowers. too many to fit in the backseat. also i choose red roses bc ❤️#one bebito one leather lino and two of your ladies! good ratio in my head #<- btw he’s certified bebito! M approved (don’t ask if i went through your engine blog to Make Sure)#ENTIRE* not engine #and middle pic is you <3 #i hope you like it if you knew how nervewrackinv this was for me for SOME reason. ANYWAY thank you so much for being my friend i really #really really appreciate you a lot and though I’m not like skilled at editing or a content creator or whatever else i wanted to give you #Something at least even if it’s small & silly 🫶🏻

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billdenbrough · 3 months

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caroljess + stardust

microfic monday

CAROL/JESS • marvel • STARDUST

saz sent in caroljess and i immediately started thinking about carol as a cosmic entity and jess, while super, as a largely grounded kinda hero. then i started thinking about carol’s memories and getting sad again and then i was just wailing over them in general and this happened lmao

#marvel #jessica drew #carol danvers #caroljess #marvel fic #microfic monday #jane microfic monday #mm4 #jane writes sometimes #THANK U SAZ!!!!!!#this was going in a different direction in my head at first but then i thought abt how carol like #keeps losing her memories recurringly esp w jess #like her amnesia was how jess met and saved her #but then once carol sacrificed a lot to save the world and lost like. herself and her memories and stuff too #which fucked jess up understandably even if it wasn’t about like. the personal small things #but they matter too. ykwim. ANYWAY. i miss them so bad THANK U i miss u too 😭#also the challengers one totally counts HAHA i will have to tell u the dilemma that led me to watching it #fun fact! this is my 19th microfic so far

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mabaris · 4 months

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alright so now that we’ve gotten some actual crumbs, it feels like it’s a good time to lay out my prediction for what da4 is going to look like. writing this in a letter and mailing it to myself

we are part of an underground organization formed from the ruins of the inquisition to stop solas from ending the world

meanwhile the wardens have been researching the blight/the location of the archdemons and discover some secret about the location of the black city/what is actually contained in it

we’re supposed to be shocked at the reveal that the evanuris are trapped in the black city and the maker doesn’t exist

the ancient elves were in control of some crazy mutating technology (like in hormak) and that was the original source of the darkspawn. the whole thing about them being from the deep roads and a dwarf concern was actually just a red herring, they’re just underground because they’re powered by lyrium and this has ALSO been an elf thing the whole time :)

anyway, now we need to Double Make Sure the veil stays up because the evanuris have something even worse cooking up in the black city and we need to prevent them from unleashing a super blight and destroying all life, and our job is to convince solas to give up, not because we disagree with his plan but because his actions will have unintended consequences. even if he doesn’t care about everyone else and wants to rebuild the world, he won’t even be able to do THAT because the super blight will kill elves too. so although we WERE enemies we will have to band together to defeat the greater threat etc. it will be optional to recruit him as an ally/advisor, or you can just fight him directly and take control of his forces

we will have to cross into the fade AGAIN and storm the black city directly to put a stop to whatever’s going on in there

#i feel fairly confident about this but i hope i’m wrong honestly.#i’m a little disappointed that it’s probably going to turn out to be ‘elves are the most important people and also the cause of everything #and their lore is the Correct one’#i hope to god that they give you the option to fight him and don’t just force you to make nice for no reason lol #ESPECIALLY if this is a new protagonist with no history with him #it’s pretty much the same formula as inquisition and origins. two-step problem where the thing we initially set out to fix turns out to be #the least of our problems and we’ll need to put aside our differences for the greater good #it will probably also come out that the tevinter gods are also an elf thing. like how flemythal can turn into a dragon #and then the archdemons were the original hormak style experiment. or something #and we won’t have an explanation for the maker bc that’s just humans being silly. but see everything has a neat scientific explanation :)#or maybe the maker is like. elgarnan in disguise lmal #i am perhaps being a little ungenerous but also. i feeel in my gut that this is what they’re planning #mine #dragon age #da4 #ghilannain feels like a possible candidate bc of the lore abt how she created halla. but there was that trailer with a mans voice #so it will probably be elgarnan because he’s the head of the pantheon especially now that mythal is gone #GOD i hope that comes up #they’re pulling so much from trespasser. a dlc that wasn’t even the main game and lots of people may not have played #they’d better reference the stinger ending of the actual game and give some resolution to that #maybe it’s going to be like. solas’s plan to take care of the evanuris when the veil comes down is to just absorb them #but we need to convince him that they’ve had time to set other contingencies up so even that won’t stop whatever they’ve started

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frnkiebby · 4 months

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As a Thanky for the suit Fronk pics on Saturday a drawing of me and my bestie/crush from prom

(And a bonus pic, that neither of us were expecting, of him giving me mints because I keep stealing his also dw he said I can post this)

THAT DRAWING IS ADORABLE AMD YOU TWO ARE ADORABLE AND YOUR OUTFITS ARE SO FUCKING NICE JFC~🎃

#i never went to prom #but i did go to my jrotc military ball which is pretty much the same for my school #it was a lot of fun #wasn’t stoked about having to wear a dress but i still fucking killed it #i’m so glad you had fun #bc in my head you had fun so #frnkiebby #rosethrorn #prom #art #drawing #artist

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calamitydaze · 6 months

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long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao)#so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still)#plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say!#i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶#bella talks

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vampiremansionpoolboy-moved · 2 years

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going insane over the fact that happiness and care and concern and love is underneath every interaction between newt and hermann in pacific rim

#HEAR ME OUT. they’re introduced and newt and being a groupie and behind him hermann is all huffing and rolling his eyes and shaking his #head but he’s Not Angry. no. he jumps to defend newt albeit in a somewhat mocking and sarcastic way BUT THE THOUGHT IS THERE. and then when #hermann is rambling on about numbers being the handwriting of god newt is in the background smiling and laughing and making silly #hand motions and yes the hand motion was a bit mocking BUT THATS THEIR WHOLW THINF. anyways i’m not done. when newt drifts with the kaiju #and pentecost is there talking to him and hermann and newt r yelling back in forth u can hear the unease and shakiness in their voices and #especially the frustration in hermanns. he’s frustrated abt newt risking his life and is worried abt that which translates out in anger.#and yeah maybe he’s salty abt being proven wrong too lmao. BUT CONTINUING ON. stacker could have just told newt to go to hannibal chau and #he would have done it. but instead they watch the film of him on HERMANNS computer as HERMANN controls the computer to look at the film. if #thé film was shown it was for a reason. newt doesn’t seem like the type to need reassurance abt chau before he goes. he was willing to die #for his trash drift. and stacker gave him the card and info so there’s no need to do anything else. the video is most likely there for the #viewers but it needs a reason to be there in the show. hence my reasoning that HERMANN asked to see it out of concern for newt who would be #doinf this alone. hermann demanded to see some proof to reassure himself. stacker having the card on him makes sense. him having that bulky #tape doesn’t. meaning hermann pressured him into leaving getting the tape and coming back to show him. anyways one more bit. so the drift.#hermann is clearly scared out of his mind and thinking abt the impending triple event. yet he still drifts with newt he does it to protect #him to take part of the neural load. and it takes a toll on hermann it makes a big enough mess of his brain that he ends with him bleeding #and shaking and sweating and coughing and throwing up. and he knew it would take a toll. he knew it would be a lot he’s seen the jaegers.#he’s seen what happens. he knows it will be rough. he knows it’ll be much worse for him who wasn’t drifted then for newt who has. yet he #still does it to help newt and to show his care and trust and concern and love and THEYRE DRIFT COMPATIBLE U DONT UNDERSTANDABLE HOW #EMOTIONAL I AM OVER THIS FUCKING OVER THEM #anyways one last thing. the way that they full body slapping each other on the back bear hugged when the throat collapsed (they were behind #herc and tendo so it was a little hard to see. i missed it the first time) in pure adrenaline happiness before we see the quiet tender hug #when they know everything is over for good (for now at least) when it’s time to celebrate when it time to think abt their drift and their #bond and their relationship and their LOVE. i’m so ok abt them rn actually #toad.txt #i wish i wrote this in a keep reading bit and not the tags now. anyways #pacific rim #pacific rim spoilers #newton geiszler #hermann gottlieb #newmann

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lanternlightss · 2 months

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guys i keep thinking about loop and nameless bard being friends. they are. rotating around up there

#doodling their meeting wasn’t enough i fear #holds out my hands. i need to show you all the vision /lh #i think bard would be friends w sif too #actually would ven…#ven is just as emotionally shut tight actually 😭 beloved. he is very emotionally intelligent but like hell he will Say anything abt his #problems #how many times have we even Gotten to hear abt what’s bothering them #okay digressing #ven would get along with a lot of the party honestly ?? hed be so fond of mira #AND bonnie #okay okay anyways #i keep Saying it but like. loop and bard would enable each other so much #puts my head in my hands. do you think theyd talk abt their gods/universe …..#how their divinity upset them #how it went so wrong …#also why did i get on vens case like that 😭 bard i feel is like. even worse. good Luck getting him to show true emotions #<- voice of a guy who keeps thinking about bard telling loop theyre not that good of an actor (Very fondly mind you)#and loop. kinda. breaking over it #do Any of these make sense #i just think bard would try his damnedest to be there for loop and vice versa as loop warms up to him and finds another person to love #<- why do i keep going in depth over relationships and friendships over characters from two completely different series 😭😭😭#this is. not very spoilery yeah ?#lantern says stuff

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philsmeatylegss · 2 months

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There is nothing to being a mentally ill 14 year old fan of shane dawson in the 2015-2018 era. That man travelled to a town absolutely devastated by the 2018 forest fire, people who lost absolutely everything, and just turned to the camera and was like “a laser in space is the reason for this. The government did it.” And you would just be like yep. Checks out.

#to be fair I remember watching this one and knowing it was stupid but it was funny so I watched it #btw this is a real video that has probably 20+ million views #conspiracy era Shane Dawson is a cultural phenomena #I could talk for hours about the impact he had on young teens 2015-2018 #don’t be mistaken that an entire other essay can be written about his impact on young teens with his videos from 2008-2015 #two very different (and equally awful) people were involved there #I could talk about shane dawson and what his ‘cancellation’ did to me #I hate to use the word cancelation because what happened was so much more than that and what he’s done is way worse #but it’s the best word to use #a micro internet celeb youtuber Jake Dolottle will hate watch his newest videos every now and then and I watch every single one #I will have a physical reaction if I head the name Shane Dawson #the impact on my psyche when it was revealed how awful he is #and the livestream #it makes me genuinely upset #blah blah blah it’s your fault for being parasocial blah blah blah #girl I was 14 and wanted to kill myself #I had no good adult figures and this was a person I thought understood me shut up #I wasn’t even going to write in the tags I just can’t help myself #I know people joke about ___ is my Roman Empire but shane Dawson’s impact on young teens 2015-2018 including his past is my Roman Empire #by a lot too #I’m getting a degree in history at college and I am more interested in that topic #rae’s rambles

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pepprs · 11 months

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im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol

#i know i know. and i need to let the anguish motivate me to get out of here. but it feels like i dreamed it all #purrs #chicago #i had a rough time getting out of the hotel and through the airport to my gate and also im bad at math so i fucked up the calculation about #when my flight lands bc of the time zone change and i gave my parents the time in central time not eastern time so my dad was waiting for m #for like a half hour and texting me and i wasn’t answering bc i was still in the air and he was pissed at me and snarky in my texts with hi #and i was sitting there on the plane and could just feel his words ripping into me and the horrors rushing back in and i still haven’t #recovered from it honestly. it wasn’t that big of a deal he just said something that i misunderstood as him saying he was giving up waiting #for me and going home bc id already wasted his time and even though that was not what he actually said it just kinda burrowed into me that #my parents were mad at me and were probably also mad at me for not communicating with them AT ALL the entire time i was in chicago. and it #just was eating me alive. im home now and we haven’t talked about it but they did say things disapproving of the fact that i did a lot of #stuff by myself which i probably shouldn’t have told them. idk. it’s not even that bad i just am torn apart by their rejection of me and #utter inability to just like be happy for me without criticizing some part of it or restraining me. plus the house is just as much of a #biohazard as it was when i left and all the broken things are still broken and it’s like. a lot. i miss the hotel LOL #i think im just sleep deprived and not in my head right today but i do not want to be here. sinking in quicksand unable to breathe. but i #have to be the one to get me out of it and i should have learned how in chicago but i didn’t it was just a break and now im stuck again #delete later #kind of terrible that instead of being so proud and happy about what i did my immediate reaction is to be miserable that im home now lol

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sucrose-soymilk · 1 year

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hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic!#anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!!#so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

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cryptvokeeper · 1 year

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Man. I wanna talk abt Rise Leo again now

#I’m SORRY it’s not my fault I picked the one everyone gets really annoying about as my favorite #No bro I’m different bro I swear bro wait please-#It’s like. I got bait-and-switched SO HARD with Leo on my first watch #I went in essentially blind outside of like. Basic knowledge of what a teenage mutant ninja turtle IS from cultural osmosis #But I didn’t know these characters I had no expectations #So I watched Minotaur Maze & I see the cocky blue jokester character whos worse than the rest of the cast and has a hint(TM) of insecurity #and I went “oh. Ive seen this character type before. This is the Lance voltron. This is the early-seasons sokka. I know how this goes.”#And I’m sort of at the point in my life where I’m over that trope Yknow? It was cool when I was 15 and hated myself but now that’s old hat.#So I didn’t care for Leo that much #And then I get to Many Unhappy Returns and that whole perception gets FLIPPED ON ITS HEAD #I REALIZE IVE BEEN PLAYED #TRICKED #BAMBOOZLED #The confidence wasn’t a ruse at all! and that reframes so much from season one and so much going forward!!!#He’s a cocky magnificent bastard and would probably be a badass hero if he gave a shit but instead is only here to be silly with his fam #And that’s AWESOME #But anyway I feel like most people never had that bait and switch moment #They just moved forward with the belief that Leo’s is a bit of a loser and hates himself for it #And then fandom does what fandom do and hyperfocuses on that one trait to the point of mischaracterization #And I’m sitting here like “I love all the content for my blorbo but oh no a lot of it’s weird and off”#Rottmnt

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couslie · 7 months

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learned partially how to make head mods for bg3 finally (clothing next????) but I think I’m going to keep them for personal use… nexus has turned into such a shit hole for bg3 modding. I don’t think I’ve ever witnessed such a toxic modding community

#ashlyn rambles #bg3 #&& this has nothing to do with the amazing mod creators !!!!#mostly the people that steal mods or reupload them #and the ai audio bullshit #really just the bullshit modders who don’t ask for permission and take other ppls resources #and… there’s a fucking lot of them #ALSO THE RACISTS….#like… good lord #reminds me almost of dragon age but I wasn’t there during peak #if anyone is curious & I know you I’ll send you my mods tho !!!#but… I’m going to refrain from posting #until the twatwaffles get weeded out at least #I have a plan for what heads I wanna try and make but I need to get better at blender unfortunately #I gave up like 4 months ago after 3 hours but hey #never say never right?

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