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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #346

“i was in a car crash (or was it the war?) / but i’ve never been quite the same”

Do you take lessons for anything? No. Has something really heavy ever fallen on you? Not to my recollection. If you wear makeup, what colors do you usually wear? I don't wear makeup frequently whatsoever, but if I do put some on, it's always black. Does your shower have curtains or a glass door/wall? Curtains. If you have more than one pet, do they ever get jealous of each other? Well, one is a snake and one is a cat, so no, they don't. Is there a room in your house that you don’t like going in? No. Do you remember the last question you were asked? What did you answer? Well, besides in this survey, Mom asked me if I wanted some shrimp she didn't finish. A true stunner, but I didn't want anymore. Besides salt and butter, do you put anything on your popcorn? Nothing other than what was mentioned. Are you lonely? To be totally transparent, I'm extremely lonely on multiple levels. What’s your favorite magazine to read? Don't have one. Do you like pineapple? Yeah. But keep it off my pizza. Have you ever seen fireflies? Yeah, they're common in the summer here. Have you ever trespassed? Not to my knowledge. My sister, neighbor, and I regularly visited this shack as kids, just exploring and checking stuff out, and someone eventually did approach us and tell us to leave, but idk if anyone ACTUALLY owned the property? We never saw any signs. Do you tell your parents where you are going? Yeah; if I live with them, they have the right to know. Do you agree with the notion that all people were created equal? Yeah. Do you raise your hand or participate in class? I did. Do you like visiting the mall? Why or why not? Not really, no. Too many people, too many stores I don't care about, too much walking. Have you ever purposely hurt an animal? I've given pets a pop when they've done something wrong, but seriously hurt, fuck no. Would you ever see a therapist? I've seen a therapist consistently since the 6th grade. Are you afraid of heights? Yes. I used to not be, but it's a fear I've developed over time for no apparent reason. Are you afraid of the dark? No. Are you a jealous person? I was literally just thinking about this yesterday how much I hate how I've developed a jealous and envious side. It's not a feeling I used to experience like at all, so it's very uncomfortable to feel. When is your birthday? February 5th. What are you listening to right now? A John Wolfe playthrough of The Sinking City. It's really interesting and is making me wanna read Lovecraft books, haha. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to be doing? Probably at some point. Are you still friends with someone from kindergarten? No. What is the most important thing to you? My mental health. Do you like whip cream? NO. The taste is fine, but I can't handle the texture of it. Are you close to your mother? Very. Are you close to your father? Yeah, but not as close as I am with my mother. Do you walk around bare foot when you're at home? Or do you wear socks? Yeah, I stay barefoot. Do you like chocolate popsicles? Yessss, I love them. Would you ever be your school’s mascot who wears that costume? Ew, no. Would you rather see the Great Wall of China or Big Ben? Probably the Great Wall. Have you ever written a poem? I've written loads. Would you ever be a tornado chaser? FUCK no. Never, ever, EVER. what is your favorite thing to eat with bbq sauce, if you even like that stuff? I hate barbecue sauce. Your parents tell you that this summer, you get to pick the vacation. Where do you plan to go? As a family? Maybe Alaska. What do you think is a good theme for a prom? Um, maybe princesses and princes? It sounds cute, leave me alone. Have you ever had to do a class in summer school? No. Do you get nervous when you go to the doctor? About what? Not very, but somewhat. I'm always terrified to get on the scale and am also afraid I'll find out I have diabetes with how heavily it runs in my family, and I'm not exactly healthy. Have you ever been to the rainforest? No. As cool as it would be, I would neeeever manage. The humidity would murder me. Have you ever created a website? Yeah, a few. Ever thought about writing a book? Yeah. Have you ever had a dream where you killed someone? I don't think so, but I have nightmares ALL the time where I'm fighting to defend myself. Do you ever make up stories in your head and wish they come true? Daydreams? Oh, yes. Which is worse: stuffy nose or runny nose? STUFFY. Having a runny nose surely isn't fun either, but at least you can have tissues handy. Which is worse: Sick to your stomach or sore throat? 100% sick to your stomach. I do nooot respond well to stomach pain. Do you think your last relationship was a disaster? Not at all. Have you ever solved a Rubik’s Cube? No. Who do you think is the easiest to talk to? Sara or Mom. Would you consider yourself to be emo? I don't care for stereotypes, I'm whatever. Do you have a favourite metal band or do you not like metal? I love metal, and my favorite artist is of course Ozzy Osbourne. What is your current desktop picture? My favorite picture of my late dog Teddy. Thick or thin blanket? I like thick ones. Cozier. Who are your favorite bands? Everyone knows my #1 is Ozzy, so I'll list some of my others that just fall behind him (in no order): Metallica, Otep, Marilyn Manson, Korn, In This Moment, Powerwolf, Motionless In White, Rammstein, A Day to Remember, Cradle of Filth, Mother Mother... There's a lot, really. How do you mark through your word search puzzles? It depends on what I have at my disposal, really. I think typically I would just circle the words with a pencil, but I'd prefer to use a highlighter. Have you ever sewn something? No. What did you eat for dinner last night? Mom made shrimp scampi with a side of white rice. It was delicious. Ever been grounded? If so, for what? Yeah, on multiple occasions. I think the longest was when I ran away from home. Have you seen all of the Jaws movies? No; I've only seen the first one with Tyler. I did, however, have the video game as a kid, and I LOVED it. I could never beat the final stage, though. :( When was the last time you played cards? (not on the computer) Months ago with my niece. She was hooked on playing Uno with me because I always let her win. Have you ever drank cherry Coke? Omg yes, I LOVE it. Have you ever had a black eye? No. Have you ever eaten a bug? No. Do you like pranking people? No. Did you ever take a cooking class in school? No. Do you celebrate St. Patrick’s Day? No. Do you use Skype? Only to talk to Sara. Have you ever participated in local magazine cover girl searches? Definitely not. Have you ever been called a skank/slut because of the way you dress? No. Is your ex sexually attractive to you still? Two are. Describe the most romantic moment you’ve ever had. I'd rather not because it'll really set off my PTSD. Have you ever cheated on a test? Nope. Have you ever been to couple’s counseling? No. How often does your employer ask you to work overtime? N/A Did you often read for fun when you were a kid? I read A LOOOOOT as a kid. I was a total bookworm. When was the last time you were scared? Excluding in nightmares that I don't remember, uhhh probably back when my PHP therapist surprised me by whipping out a poem I'd written and sharing it in front of the whole group. It wasn't the "bad" kind of scared, but I sure did feel fear. What’s your favorite song by Rihanna? "Disturbia" has always been #1. There's this '80s synthwave remix of the song that I adorrrreeee. Can you speak binary? Nope. Would you rather live somewhere that had hurricanes or tornadoes? I've dealt with hurricanes all my life and they don't terrify me NEARLY as much as the mere idea of a tornado, so. Have you ever had a pet that you disliked? None that were mine personally, but coincidentally, I didn't like two dogs my little sister had. The first one was just mildly annoying, and as much as I hate admitting it, I literally hated her last dog. When was the last time you saw hail? Maybe like... a month ago or something like that? Time is kinda blurry for me on this. We had an absolute downpour of hail one morning, then just... nothing. What is on your mind right this second: I have this at-home sleep study tonight and I'm pretty much obsessing over "what if I don't have a nightmare?" when, for ONCE, I want/need myself to. To be real, I don't know exactly what will change in my life if I do have a sleep apnea diagnosis or something that we're not already doing, but. Mom more than anyone just wants professionals to see that something is seriously wrong and needs fixing. Have you ever given a nickname to your pet(s)? Both have them, yeah. I think I call Venus "Miss Venus" more than her real name, then she's also "baby girl," "pretty," "beautiful girl," etc. I call Roman just "butt" a lot, haha, then there's "son," "Mama's boy," "bud"... When was the last time you shaved your legs? Not since last October. Nobody sees my legs, so I just don't care. Do you ever try free samples at the store? Sure, if I'm actually interested in the food. Do you like boys with long hair? That's actually my preference. Do you like rootbeer? It's not insufferable, but I'm not really a fan. What is the best fast food place, in your opinion? Sonic. Do you have faith in yourself? What a question to end it on, 'cuz I don't have a fuckin' clue these days.

#survey #surveys #questions #lyrics: ''down in the park'' by marilyn manson

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flirting-with-psychology · 3 years

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What’s the last vegetable you ate, and when did you eat it? Spinach today

What was your last Facebook notification for? Someone liked my profile pic

What bands have you seen live? Demi Lovato and some that my parents took me to

Tell me an interesting fact about your mother: She used to design exhibits

What do you think is the most important thing to happen to you before the age of 13? Make friends

What were you super against as a young child but aren’t anymore? Blow jobs (not young young obviously but in high school I thought they sounded gross)

What are your plans later today? Go to bed

Are you doing anything exciting this weekend? DnD

Who do you talk to the most? My boyfriend and my parents

What are some things you do regularly that make you feel old? Not do stupid impulsive things (although I kind of wish I did)

Who is your best guy friend(s)? Probably John

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? It’s fine the way it is

If you had a tiny scar on your face, would you get it removed or just keep it? Keep it

Have you had an x-ray in the past year? Yes, I thought I broke or dislocated my toe, but i did not

Do you think your first love still loves you? It was unrequited

What is something that is “going right” in your life? I got a car and the vaccine

When did you feel ready to start dating? Like 5th grade but it took till high school for people to be ready to date me (and till after college to get past a couple dates)

When was the last time your pet bit you? If you don’t have a pet, have you ever been bitten by someone else’s? Idk. She always threatened to bite but I can’t remember the last time she actually did

Where were you the last time you made out? My couch

When was the last time you cried tears of joy? Idk

How do you type your sad smileys? :( or :/ depending on the mood

Do you have “decorative hand-towels” that cannot be used in your house? No, but my mom does

What was the last soda you drank? Izze

What was the last thing someone made fun of you for? Probably being insecure

Have you ever had any type of surgery? Yes, to get my wisdom teeth out and pull down my canines and remove half my thyroid

Should kids be allowed to get tattoos/piercings without parental consent? No

Who was the last person to hit on you? My boyfriend

What was the last thing you decided not to do, that you were supposed to? Go to bed early

What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to tell someone? Idk

What do you put on hot dogs? I don’t eat hot dogs

Ever fallen in the shower? Probably

Do you think that things will get better? I hope so

Have you ever legitimately saved a person’s life? No

What’s your favourite book genre? Fantasy

Have you ever walked out of a movie at the theatre? No

Do dogs like you? I think so

Would you say that you project an air of authority? No

Have you ever jumped off a high dive into a pool? Maybe

Do you use one towel when you shower or two? (one for hair, one for body) One

Have you ever been to one of the great lakes? No

Who do you know that had a baby recently? My cousin

Do you like Usher’s songs? Not too many

When was the last time you went to a waterpark? A couple years ago

Have you ever ridden a train? Yes

What do you eat your French fries with? Garlic aioli sauce or nothing

Do you have family problems? Not really but I’m sick of living with my dad

What’s the last food you ate that was stale? Gummy vitamins

How do you like your grilled cheese? Nice and toasted but soft on the inside

What is the most challenging meal you have ever cooked? Idk, I don’t really cook What was your favorite thing to do as a little kid? Play with toy animals or play pretend

Have you ever been close to drowning? No

Have you ever had a panic attack? Idk

Do you like doing housework? No

Would you ever get implants? No

Do you own a robe? No

Do you have a little sister? What’s her name? No

Do you like crust on pizza or do you cut it off? I eat it but it’s not my favorite part. If it’s really hard from being reheated I cut it off

What was the last song you listened to? I'm listening to Forever & Always by Taylor Swift

Have any of your family members been to jail? No

Is there anyone that you feel you still need some closure with? Maybe, I haven’t been able to get in touch with one of my childhood friends and idk why

Can you remember when you first learned how to read? No

What event in your life has transformed your personality the most? Idk, it’s hard to pinpoint

Have you ever had any teeth pulled? Yes

Do you still want to be what you wanted to be in elementary school? Kinda? Idk. I wanted to be an artist, a scientist, and a teacher. I am still into creative things and I’m interested in science, and teaching might be fun if it didn’t have so much public speaking

What’re some TV shows that you would like to get into? How I Met Your Mother

How would you feel if you were drafted for the military? I would be very scared and angry, and probably try to find a way to dodge the draft

What is your favorite Queen song? Bohemian Rhapsody, I’m basic

Do you know how to use any foreign currency? I did when I traveled there

Been kissed by someone who you knew was “bad” for you? Probably

Ever taken an at-home pregnancy test? No

When was the last time you were at a loss of what to do? Always

What did you do on your favorite date with a guy/girl? Idk what my favorite date was. Probably just get a meal

What’s a movie you have seen in the theater more than once? Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

What is the reason you’re still alive? Luck, probably

Have you ever had sex in someone else’s bed/bedroom? Yes, the partner’s. And an airbnb

Do you ever brush your hair before you go to bed? Not usually

Have you ever had a dream about sleeping with a celebrity? (You don’t have to give details.) Probably

Has anyone ever told you that they needed you? Do you think they meant it? Not that I recall

How did you feel when you woke up today? What was the first thing you thought about? Tired, thought about my covid shot

Do you still tell your parents that you love them? Yes

Have you ever said “I love you” to someone you weren’t going out with? Yes

Would you date someone with a physical disability? Depends what it is

Think of the last person you had sex with. Do you think they’ve slept with anyone else since they last slept with you? I hope the fuck not

The last time you dyed your hair, what color did you dye it? Tried to get a red ombre but it didn’t really take

Think of the last time you went out to eat. Who paid? My boyfriend

Do you save at least 15 percent of your income? Lol no

Do you ever go on Reddit? If so, what are some of your favorite subreddits? Sometimes, mostly with my boyfriend. I like AmITheAsshole, AnimalsBeingJerks, and HoldMyCosmo

Were you ever a flower girl or ring bearer in anyone’s wedding when you were little? I was a flower girl in my uncle’s wedding and I think I was something in a babysitter’s wedding

Are your parents in good health? Probably about average for their age

Have you ever been a caregiver to a sick/disabled relative? No

Is there any type of medicine you can’t take? For what reason? No

Do you have a favorite pair of pajamas? What do they look like? Maybe my purple checked ones

Do you have any interesting pillow cases? Not really, other than some disney character ones from when I was a kid

If something on your body hurts, which part is it most likely to be? Headache or period cramps

Are you more afraid of spiders or bees? Spiders but both

Have you ever worn fake nails? If so, what did the last pair you wore look like? I tried a halloween themed set once

Is Russian or Native American history more interesting to you? I guess native american? idk

#survey

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eldritchsurveys · 5 years

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683.

[1.] Have you ever fallen in the toilet when you were little?: >> I assume not, that seems like something I’d remember if so. [2.] Do you know anybody who is having a baby?: >> No. [3.] Who are you IMing right at this moment?: >> No one. [4.] Where was your default picture taken?: >> I don’t have a default photo on tumblr. The only place online that I have an actual photo of myself as a profile pic is facebook, and that photo was taken in the VRBO in New Orleans this past October. [5.] Is your bedroom clean?: >> It’s clean, but it could be tidier. My executive function’s been wonky lately, and the fact that half the reason for clutter is a lack of dedicated places to put shit isn’t helping.

[6.] How about your car?: >> --- [7.] Have you ever had a brush with the law?: >> Sure. [8.] You just got hired to create new sundaes..what do you make?: >> I don’t want to make new sundaes, and whoever hired me is an idiot. [9.] What is the best kind of Mac & Cheese?: >> Baked, with multiple kinds of cheese, and spicy panko or some other kind of breading on top. There should be a spice element somewhere in it, if not the breading. [10.] What are you listening to right now?: >> Nothing. There’s plenty of environmental noise, though, because that’s life. [11.] Who was your best friend in 5th grade?: >> --- [12.] Do you get seasick?: >> Nah. [13.] How about carsick?: >> Nope. The only times I’ve been motion-sick is after this one Luna Park ride, and a couple of times on Megabus when I lived in NYC and had grown unused to long rides in vehicles. Even then I was just vaguely nauseous for a little while, not like, sick-sick. [14.] What is your favorite breakfast item?: >> I don’t know, I’ve never given it much thought. I just eat veggie burgers and chips for my first meal of the day, even though that’s not a typical breakfast food. It’s easy and habitual and delicious, and that’s all that matters. [15.] Do you sleep with any stuffed animals?: >> I sleep with like twelve stuffed animals. [16.] Does anybody hate you?: >> I don’t know, but it’s always possible. [17.] What is your favorite beverage of choice?: >> *shrug* [18.] Are you overweight?: >> I don’t know, I assume not. [19.] What was the first Beanie Baby you ever got?: >> --- [20.] Do you remember the first CDs you ever got?: >> Yeah, it was Something Like Human by Fuel and I stole it from Walmart. [21.] What is your favorite number?: >> 9 / 19. [22.] Who is your favorite Oldies band?: >> I don’t have one, I’m fond of a lot of old people music. [23.] Are you a good student?: >> --- [24.] Do you subscribe to any magazines?: >> Yeah, GameInformer through GameStop’s PowerUp membership thing. Also, every time we go to FYE we get offered that Backstage Pass reward club thing, and it comes with like a few months’ worth of subscription to three magazines. You can cancel the membership before the first time you get charged, and still get the magazines (yeah, I don’t know why that works either, or why they let you sign up multiple times if you’re just going to cancel without being charged...). We were at FYE in December so we’re still getting magazines from that. Fuck it, free magazines. [25.] Can you keep a spoon on your nose?: >> Doubtful. [26.] What is your favorite farm animal?: >> I don’t have one. Sheep are cute? [27.] Do you lie to your parents in order to get your way?: >> --- [28.] Do you like to play Monopoly?: >> No. [20.] What is your favorite type of chocolate?: >> I only like dark chocolate. [30.] Have you ever been to a club? Which one(s)?: >> No. [31.] What is the most fun restaurant you have ever been to?: >> Hmm... I’m not sure. I can’t recall having ever been to, like, a themed restaurant or anything. [32.] Do you prefer fried or roasted chicken?: >> Fried. [33.] Do you like your coffee hot or iced?: >> Hot. [34.] Do you remember which band Flavor Flav came from?: >> Sure. Also, they’ve been in pop culture news lately because of some beef between Chuck D and Flavor Flav, so it’s like, fresh in my mind. [35.] What does your name mean?: >> I’m not entirely sure. For all I know, it might have been invented by whoever wrote them King Arthur stories. [36.] What internet provider do you use?: >> Xfinity (so, Comcast). [37.] Broccoli, potatoes, or corn on the cob..which one do you choose?: >> Broccoli. [38.] What is your desktop background?: >> Surprise! It’s an Interstellar shot again. I swear, I have other wallpapers, I just have multiple Interstellar ones so the probability that that’s what’s going to be up on shuffle when I’m taking a survey is high. [39.] Do you have a significant other?: >> I have several. [40.] What is the wallpaper on your phone?: >> The lock screen is some Frollo art I got off tumblr and the home screen is still Quentin Oliver Lee as the Phantom of the Opera. Damn, it’s been a full year since that show. [41.] Have you ever stayed overnight in the hospital?: >> Yes. [42.] What size bra do you wear?: >> --- [43.] Do you drive an automatic or a standard?: >> I don’t drive. [44.] Do you have a ceiling fan in your room?: >> Nope. [45.] What color is the floor in your bedroom?: >> Tan. [46.] What kind of car does your mom drive?: >> --- [47.] What is the best kind of donut?: >> I prefer either glazed from Krispy Kreme, or apple cider from any nearby orchard. [48.] Who was your favorite Sesame Street character?: >> I don’t recall ever having one. [49.] What about Muppet?: >> ^ [50.] How was this survey?: >> It did the job.

#surveys #survey #random survey

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sunflowerchester · 6 years

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I’ve had on odd relationship with time in 2018. As I look back on events of this year I’ve found that most of them feel like they’ve taken place weirdly out of order. Upon discussing this phenomenon with Rach, I realized we both felt this way. Then scrolling through my feeds on assorted social media I came to the conclusion that a LOT of us feel weird about how 2018 unfolded.

I started this year by losing my Grandma but that feels more recent to me than when I started dating an ex again in August. I visited Anya in Seattle at the beginning of May which feels more recent than when I went to Canada at the end of June. Going to NYC with Rocky at the beginning of June feels like it took place last year as does when Rachael came to visit me this past March. However she also came to visit me last December for my birthday which feels more recent than her March visit??

When I looked back at my Instagram archive, I couldn’t believe my little cousin’s wedding was just in February, and while I was going through all these twilight-zone-like epiphanies about how distorted time feels in 2018 Thursday morning, I realized it hadn’t even been a week since I was at work last. Which of course felt like a whole other type of surreal, because at that point, I felt like I had been off work for a month.

So as this year winds down I feel this pressure from within me bubbling up telling me to write a year-end retrospective, and while I have been procrastinating the start of whatever this is I’ve been wondering what is it that I want to say, and I think it’s this: In our never-ending desire to already be Where We’re Supposed To Be or to have Learned Our Lesson and Checked That Box, it’s natural to want to close out a year as if it’s the end of a story or a chapter with all the ducks falling behind us nicely in a row, to find meaning in all you’ve experienced within it. But what’s more reasonable to expect is, like this ridiculous wad of tangled up earbuds masquerading as 2018, we are not linear, our journeys are not in a straight line, and neither is our growth or evolution, neither is our story arc. I mean, if time doesn’t even have to adhere to chronological order, why do we feel we have to? And maybe you don’t feel that way (congrats!) but I sometimes box myself in, so therefore sometimes I do.

This was a year where I got to participate in my 2nd Women’s March. I saw one of my favorite bands, The Killers, after missing them for four years. I settled into my apartment and realized I love my apartment (the amount of skyline pictures I post weekly that all seem to look like the exact same picture is proof of that). I got to see Lorde in concert in --like-- the 5th row and definitely cried. I attended rallies and marches for things I believe in even when I had to go alone. I received my 10 year plaque at my job. I voted in multiple elections. I saw Congressman O’rourke speak at least 4 times. I saw Michelle Obama speak. I made it to my 100th ride at spin and I’m still going and still loving it. I started therapy. I got to see Haim with Lizzo in concert across the street from my apartment. I danced with one of my best friends in the rain, then walked to get pizza. I asked an artist I respect, Bo Burnham, a question about a piece of art he created that really meant something to me, Eighth Grade, and he answered it. I got my first tattoo. I said goodbye when my boundaries were breached and I didn’t feel guilty about it. I walked around London by myself. I paid off my student loan. I also saw Paramore in concert and Sir Elton John! I stood on the tallest building in NYC and got to see it as the sun set. I played with other people’s dogs and even got to dogsit from time to time.

I shouldn’t end a year like that feeling I accomplished little just because there was no straight line to be drawn through my “progress,” a term I don’t even really know how to define or why it matters! Sometimes trying to quantify a year (Well, yes I did watch Rent last night, why do you ask?) or figure out What it All Means can diminish an experience rather than highlight it. In the new year, I plan to let myself be what I am, where I am, and how I am, only, and push myself in ways that don’t box me in but allow me to flourish naturally, be it linear or not. (Spoiler: it won’t be linear.)

The warped way 2018 exists in my memory has served as a reminder to me that I don’t have to have it all figured out yet because no one ever does, not even time. You never reach a truly enlightened point in life where you’ve leveled up so far, you no longer struggle. You just get better at adjusting and dealing with what you face when it’s time to face struggle.

I’m ready to say “thank u, next” to 2018 and see what weird time loop 2019 will be.

#2018 #that's a text post #it's personal whatever #my writing

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lunablues-juliet · 6 years

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30 Questions (but not really) Ask Meme!

Tagged by @razzberriezz! Thanks for thinking of me :) I can’t wait to get to know everyone a little better.

1. Nicknames I don’t have any cool irl nicknames haha BUT people on the internet have called me Yue since I was in middle school.

2. Gender Female

3. Zodiac Sagittarius

4. Height 5″0′ even :) or ~152cm

5. Time 8:46 AM, I leave for work in about an hour.

6. Fave Band(s): Relient K, Sleeping at Last, Supercell and Goose House

7. Fave Solo Artist(s): Ben Sollee... I don’t listen to a whole lot of solo artists, but I listen to a lot of composers like John Williams, Alan Menken, and Eric Whitacre

8. Song stuck in my head Currently Platinum by Purachina (Cardcaptor Sakura OP 3, because we all saw how I’ve spent my spare time this past week).

9. Last movie I saw Star Wars: Return of the Jedi

10. Last Show I Watched Cardcaptor Sakura... hahaha

11. When did I create my blog? About a month ago! And I’m having a lot of fun so far!

12. What do I post: This blog is exclusively Style Savvy :)

13. Last thing I googled: How to convert inches to centimeters

14. Do I have other blogs? That I do! @spacemama-spectretwo is my Star Wars blog, @yueyume-hajime is my magical girl, idols, and j-fashion blog.

15. Do I get asks? Never haha I used to when I was a mod for a Magical Girl Confessions blog.

16. Following: 33 (still searching for blogs I like)

17. Followers: 27! And thank you, it feels like every day I wake up with an email saying “You have a new follower!” Brightens my day.

18. Average hours of sleep: My husband and I will go to bed close to 10:00 (with the puppy) and then wake up at 6:30 so he can get ready for work and I can take care of the puppy. So a good 8 hours usually.

19. What am I wearing: A purple dress for work.

20. Lucky number: 42!

21. Dream job: Animator! I love all things animation and would love to get into the business one day. You can check out my art on my instagram.

22. Dream trip: Alaskan Disney Cruise. Can you tell I’ve thought about this for a long time?

23. Favourite food: Shamelessly going to say chocolate. I have so much chocolate throughout my week.

24. Nationality American, and our family immigrated here basically at the country’s inception - so I really don’t have any other nationality left in me haha

25. Favourite song: This is an impossible choice.

26. Last book I read: Thrawn by Timothy Zahn (yeah, I read the Star Wars novels and unashamed).

27. Top three fictional universes I want to join: 1. Star Wars - My friend and I are actually writing a fan comic in which we are basically self-insert characters, but not quite as 5th grade.

2. Avatar: The Last Airbender - What I wouldn’t give to be a bender *-* this show is my favorite. Watch it at least 1-2 times a year.

3. Prince of Tennis - Probably just because the Seigaku guys were my imaginary friends when I had none and I’d love to just go say thank you.

I tag @sekaiichihappy because they’ve been one of my favorite blogs to follow and @m-i-e-k-a as a fellow SS blogger ;)

#30 question ask meme #style savvy #star wars #avatar: the last airbender #prince of tennis

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reyarey · 7 years

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Rant below the cut. It’s pretty long and it’s extremely vent-y.

So, I was just randomly thinking about what’s happened in my past and I honestly just need to get it off my chest. So I’m gonna start where everything got interesting, which would be middle school.

For me, the first year of middle school was 5th grade. The first half of the year went by normally, nothing special happening. I had some friends I hung out with all the time(mostly guys), all was well. Then the second semester rolled up and that’s where everything got harder than I thought it would be and I just sorta panicked over everything from that point forward. That was when I started procrastinating to no end, trying my best to please my mom and be like my straight A’s older sister who went to a smartypants school. It was pretty obvious all the smart kids went there because it started with a 3-letter abbreviation and ended in “Academy.” But I digress.

That’s when my mom started scolding me for not doing my work, I tried everything to try and avoid doing my homework, and just overall trying to ignore the problem. Keep in mind, I’m ten years old here.

Sixth grade wasn’t a problem and seventh grade wasn’t really a problem either, until we got to the end of that year. In the beginning of 7th grade, I got my first boyfriend. He was a really sweet guy and I adored him. All was well, but when we got to that last history assignment of the year, my whole world crumbled.

My goddamn teacher(Let’s call him Z) gave us an assignment that felt like it was hell on Earth. To pass the assignment, you had to earn 50 points and there was a list of smaller assignments and small projects you could do to get said 50 points. There’s just one problem: The list is fuckin’ long and each choice gave, AT MOST, five points. And the five-point ones were hard as hell to do. It was insane, and that really drove me over the edge. My mom droned me to do the assignments and it was only after the year ended that she realized how bad that assignment actually was. And that was after all the damage had been done and couldn’t be fixed, no matter how much she apologized.

Eighth grade came up, and my boyfriend broke up with me midway through the first semester. I never thought my world could get more broken after that assignment from hell.

I did everything for the guy. He wanted to hang out with his friends at lunch but he also wanted to hang out with me, so I went with him. He pestered me about being so shy and forcefully tried to get me out of my shell, and I tried with him. I did everything for him and I thought we could actually keep the relationship going. Then, out of fucking nowhere, he just drops the bomb, giving the reason “I’m emotionally unstable and can’t be in a relationship with you.” I understood the issue and told him and tried to tell myself that I was okay with it and that I would be fine.

I was not fine. Not by a long shot.

I was extremely depressed. It became harder to make me truly happy. All the smiles I slapped onto my face during that time were fake, me trying to put on the facade that I was happy and okay. This was the point where I started writing my feelings out in stories and poems.

One day I wanted to print a poem, but I was at school and I was afraid that I would forget to do it later. So I asked my Science/Advisory teacher to do it for me. She was amazing, I love and miss her to death. She printed it for me and read it before she gave it to me. It mentioned that I was thinking of suicide. The moment she came up to me to give it to me, she asked if I needed to go to the counselor. I said yes and for two hours after that, I was in my counselors office as he talked me through my feelings and I cried my eyes out. It was not a pretty sight.

After that, I was relatively okay. Sure, my feelings would have random dips that would dig underground and I think about suicide again, but I never actually planned to do it.

Now to the high school transition. I left my middle school and went to high school, and the year started off fine. But as the weeks progressed, I found that I was talking to my friends from middle school less and less, until we stopped talking altogether. I was extremely lonely and I grew more and more depressed as that year progressed.

I can’t remember much from that year, because one of the only friends I made that year moved away and I guess I just don’t want to remember the times I spent because then I’d start thinking about her and oh my god I’m thinking about her now how about we move on.

My sophomore year was better. I got together with a bunch of people in my band class and I still talk to them to this day, and I met my best friend, @join-our-ackercult. Hanji.

Neither of us can recall just how we met, but I do remember our teacher telling us to get into groups of three and I was already with one other guy, and she was alone at her desk, looking around the room and we gestured her over. And it’s all a blur from there. I felt least lonely that year because my late ex-boyfriend and I got together and it felt amazing. Easily my favorite year of high school so far, but there are more memories to make because right now I’m a Junior and the band is going to Disneyland to perform and I’m super excited for that.

I’m not totally sure how to transfer into this train of thought, so I’m just going to come out and say it. People have left me randomly in my life, and I’m only going to turn 17 this October. I had a falling out with a friend my fifth grade year, I met a really close friend in sixth grade who I lost in eighth grade.

She had a birthday party and we hadn’t hung out for a while because she moved away. She invited me to her birthday party and I happily obliged, eager to talk to my middle school best friend again. Well at the party, two other girls were there, and all they would ever talk about is homestuck. They’d exclude me from everything. I’d try singing along to songs with them and my friend would sit back and watch as the other two girls told me to stop and just leave the three of them alone. Easily one of the worst nights of my life so far. I haven’t really spoken to my friend since.

After all my friends leaving me randomly, whether it’s without warning, for horrible reasons, or totally okay reasons, I’ve just grown numb to the feeling. This feeling of being abandoned, to the point where if it happens again - and it probably will - I’ll just brush it off as normal for my life and move on with few tears.

NOBODY should ever have that feeling. I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression my sophomore year and I still struggle with it. I regret not telling my therapist this and I’m going to print this later to give to them, but I have suicidal thoughts pretty often. The most often they’ve happened is two days in a row or every other day. I wish for ceilings to collapse and crush the life outta me. Hell, this past summer I was camping with my family and some friends, and we were going to beaches near Forks, Washington. We were going to cross the street and IN FRONT OF MY YOUNGER SISTER, a truck was hurtling towards us as we were on the side of the road(a semi-truck fyi), and there was that split second in my mind where I wanted to jump in front of it and let it break every bone in my body.

I’m saying this now, I am not okay. I’m not sure if I’ll ever be “okay.” I still don’t really remember what being truly happy is. Yes, I genuinely laugh with my friends. Yes, I smile and joke with them and have a good time in the moment, but it’s only in the moment. As soon as I’m away from them, I just go numb inside. The hole in my chest that was filled with the presence of my friends empties and I am not okay until I talk to them again or until I think about them or text them.

I can’t remember what being okay feels like.

#vent #abandonment #losing friends #middle school #high school #suicide #depression #anxiety

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metawitches · 7 years

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“Warning: This show contains feminine subject matter including teenage diaries, breast feeding, tampons, shadow puppets, pantyhose, menstrual cycles, slumber parties, menopause and maxi pads.”

Yep, this show comes with a warning label. Metamaiden and I can’t seem to escape daring female theater this fall, though Girls Only is only edgy if you get squeamish during random conversations about the topics in the warning label. Since the lone guy in the audience, who was sitting next to Metamaiden, left during intermission, I guess the label is warranted. I saw the house manager whispering in his ear before he left, probably warning him about the ramped up female content in the second half.

But, let’s go back to how we ended up at the Denver Center for the Performing Arts, again, walking to a show alongside all of the little Elsas and Annas who were seeing Frozen across the sidewalk.* It was a whirlwind 24 hour overnight trip. Mr Metawitches had decided to go to a Denver concert by Company of Thieves, one of his favorite bands, who are on a reunion tour. Metamaiden and I decided we’d tag along. I’d been eyeing Girls Only on the DCPA website, and this was the perfect opportunity to catch it. More on the concert at the end.**

It was worth the time spent in airports to get there. This was a fabulous, hilarious show!

Girls Only is an improv/variety show written and performed by two Denver artists, Linda Klein and Barbara Gehring. They originated the show in 2008 in Denver, and have been performing it around the country since then. Set in a typical young teenage girl’s bedroom circa the early 80s, the show is loosely organized around readings from the performers’ real teenage diaries. They elaborate on their diary entries with more of their own true life stories, which most women will be able to relate to. The diary sketches alternate with written comedy sketches, short films, a shadow puppet show, song and dance numbers, improv sketches, and audience participation. Because of the changing nature of the improv and audience participation parts, every show will be different.

It’s wacky, warm and wonderful. The focus is on what we as women all have in common, from childhood crushes to menopause. The duo start the show sitting on the bed, underneath a Shaun Cassidy poster, in just their bras and panties, looking through bra catalogs. They bring us into the conversation, mocking the models silly facial expressions and the unrealistic claims made by bra manufacturers.

Gehring and Klein put on more clothes before long, but they’ve allowed us to see their vulnerabilities right from the start, and that, combined with the lack of men in attendance, allows the audience to feel safe and open up. The laughs were loud, long, and well-deserved.

The bedroom set is remarkably well-used by the actors, who are two girls putting on a show, after all. There’s a small video screen on the right, and just enough room in the center of the stage for dance numbers. A closet in the back serves as the dressing room for multiple quick costume changes, and for the inside of the shadow puppet theater. The ladies race back and forth throughout the audience for various improv and audience participation bits, including an impromptu “just because” shower thrown for an audience member, complete with a condom as a shower gift, supplied by the audience.

Another bit involved the required puberty talk in the gym that all 5th/6th grade girls are subjected to. This one was given by two students, wearing the school uniform (see the top right photo). They regaled us with song, dance, cheers, and personalized advice for certain audience members. Some people just won’t listen. 😉

The second half of the show got even racier. My favorite was the craft corner, since I went through menopause myself not long ago. The crafters shared ideas for the pads and tampons we older ladies no longer have a use for, but still have hanging around the house. Examples include: as an eye mask, stuck to shoe bottoms to mop the floor, use a tampon to replace a wine cork (might have to try that one), tampon hanging by its string as a cat toy, decorate a maxi pad with essential oils as a sachet, and tampon turned into an angel Christmas tree ornament (for sale in the lobby after the show- for reals).

For the grand finale, Gehring and Klein put on panty hose. While dancing to the Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy from the Nutcracker Suite. In unison. Slowly. It’s a panty hose ballet. It’s a thrilling, exciting adventure, as you wait for the panty hose to run, or for them to realize they’ve pulled the first leg up too far to be able to get the second foot in. If you’ve ever worn panty hose, you know what I mean. This is why the guys can’t be there. I tried to explain to my husband why it was so hilarious, and his eyes glazed over after the first sentence. But the camaraderie in a room full of a couple hundred women was life-giving.

Both women are multi-talented performers, with many years of experience in comedy, improv, writing, and acting. I salute them for appearing in only their underwear, something normal, middle-aged women are discouraged from doing live. These two not only appear nearly naked, they run and sing and dance and are generally goofy, the way anyone would be at a girls-only slumber party. They take us back to the time when we were still (mostly) confident girls, who hadn’t yet learned to worry about how every detail of our appearance and speech would be viewed by men others.

Gehring and Klein work together seamlessly during the improv skits, whether it’s creating and singing a new song during the shower, or discussing items they’ve randomly pulled out of purses borrowed from the audience. They make light of their height difference during the dance numbers, playing it for good-natured laughs.

This show is by and about two good friends sharing some of their girlhood secrets with each other and the audience. The warmth and humor that they feel toward each other and their childhood selves carries through the show and out into the audience. It left me with a happy glow, like I’d just spent an evening with some of my best, silliest, most endearing girlfriends.

Girls Only runs through 10/22/17 at the Galleria Theatre in the Denver Center for the Performing Arts. For information on other shows, visit the Girls Only website. The website also has fun ideas for hosting your own Girls Only night. Here’s a drink recipe and a party game to get you started:

Pink Panties (an audience favorite!) 1 oz. Chambord Fill remainder of flute with Champagne and garnish with a lemon peel.

Pass Your Purse: All ladies should sit in a circle with their purse. Then, everyone pass the purse two people to the left. Look in the purse you received and pull out the most humorous item you find and make up the best reason you can think of for her to be carrying the item around in her handbag. Go around the circle so everyone has a turn.

Then, pass the purses two more people to the left. Reach inside and pull out the one item in the purse that most represents its owner and tell why.

The gals threw special tampons to the audience at the end of the show as party favors. I caught one. It better not mean that I’m the next one to get my period.

*Several were dressed in black. I have an evil sense of humor and find this hysterical. (If you don’t understand why, you must not have slogged through my Frozen reviews. I wasn’t happy with the way Elsa and Anna’s character’s were weakened in the adaptation.)

**Mr Metawitches is secretly the coolest member of the family and a music snob. He’s been a fan of the alt rock band Company of Thieves since 2009. This was his 4th time seeing them, in 4 different cities on both sides of the country. He says the band was energetic enough to power a city. They’re still awesome and even more intense than they were back then. Here’s a photo of the lead singer, Genevieve Schatz.

Girls Only photos from the Girls Only website, except the programs photo, which is by Metawitches

Girls Only: The Secret Comedy of Women (Denver) Review "Warning: This show contains feminine subject matter including teenage diaries, breast feeding, tampons, shadow puppets, pantyhose, menstrual cycles, slumber parties, menopause and maxi pads."

#Barbara Gehring #cabaret #Company of Thieves #denver center for the performing arts #Girls Only: The Secret Comedy of Women #improv #Linda Klein #metacrone #review

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liesfromalover · 7 years

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School Days

Genre: Slight angst, fluff

Word count: 8k

Drifting lazily above your head, you laid back on the grass and watched the puffy white clouds go by, finding the different shapes within them. One was obviously supposed to be a dragon, releasing a wisping breath of steam as if it were tired of holding it in all this time. It's eyes were the pale blue of the sky with the smallest fleck of white that seemed to be staring at you. You never tore your eyes from it. What am I supposed to do now? You silently asked the dragon. His eyes seemed to search yours as you waited for the answer to come to you.

‘You move on and find the kid that kicked you out of first place and you destroy him’ You imagined that was what it was saying and smiled a little at the thought.

You weren’t the average high school senior, at the ripe age of 16 you had skipped ahead a few grades because you found certain practices irrelevantly simple. Your classes were all AP or High Honors, nothing less because you felt that would be insulting. It wasn’t like you were stuck up or anything, you just loved to learn and didn’t like wasting your time on silly things that you already knew. To others you were, however, a know it all and a bitch but that was just because they didn’t understand you the way your best friends, Dylan and Kameron, did.

Now the way you became friends with them almost 5 years ago was kind of tragic on it's own. You see, they were helplessly in love with each other but seemed to be the only ones that didn’t know how the other one felt. It was really pathetic. So one day while you were studying in your usual spot in the library, all the way in the back where no one would bother you, Kameron came and sat down across from you. You hadn’t really spoken to her and you were absolutely confused because no one spoke to you, it was as if it were a rule people avoided it that much, but it didn’t bother you but gave you more time to study and learn more.

You looked at her nervously and put your book down. She had a huge grin on her face, eye looking over your face eagerly. By the way her leg was tapping on the ground and causing her body to shake ever so slightly you could tell she was excited. You watched her carefully, waiting for her to say something but it seemed like it was never going to happen. Clearing your throat softly you tried to make your voice sound normal and hide how nervous you were. After not talking to any of your classmates except for the casual discussions had during class, you realized you didn’t really have much to even talk about with them, so you left it alone. “Hello Kameron, what do you need?”

Her face changed from excited to confused. “You know my name?” Her voice was soft and sweet, like she could never do anything to harm anyone. “That’s really sad because I don’t know your’s.” She pouted and you felt your jaw drop.

You had been in the same class since you skipped for the second time in 5th grade, making you two years younger than everyone in your class. “I’ve been in the same class as you for the past 2 years. My name is ____.”

“Oh that’s right! You just look different, you got taller since then kid.” She smiled brightly at you and you blushed. Since you were the youngest, people used to make fun of you because you were also the shortest but not her, she was always kind to you. Well as kind as anyone was to you. “Can you help me with the math? I’m having a really hard time figuring out the pathogory theorem thingy.”

You giggled and covered your mouth. “It's called ‘The Pythagorean Theorem’ and sure, it's really simple once you ignore the letters.”

“But that’s not all. There’s also that other one with x equaling the square root of something that’s plus or minus-”

“X equals negative B plus or minus the square root of B squared minus 4ac all over 2a. I know it well, I’ll help you with whatever you need. I was mostly just reading this for fun, we don’t have any astrology classes here but there will be in high school. I’m really excited for that.” Kameron’s jaw dropped as she watched you talk and you felt your cheeks warm as you looked down shyly. “Sorry. Yes, I will help you.”

“No, it's just. I’ve never heard you talk about something you do for fun. I honestly thought you only studied.”

You frowned and looked at her. “I mean I do but I read fiction books and draw. I also listen to music a lot and have dreams of going to a concert for my favorite band.” You felt hurt that she thought all you did was study but you didn’t understand why. Everyone thought that about you.

She looked at you and smiled warmly. “Well maybe we can be friends. I can show you the world and you can help make me smarter.”

You looked at her sadly and frowned. “But you are smart Kameron. You always get high marks on the tests.”

Shaking her head, she ran a hand through her long brown hair and sighed. “Tests are easy, it's everything else that’s the problem. Look, you help me get book smart and I’ll help you not be the social pariah of high school when we get there.”

You smiled brightly then shook your head. “You don’t have to do anything, I’ll help you anyway.”

She reached over and grabbed your hand gently. “I want to be your friend, ____. Don’t push me away ok?”

And from then on you were super close to Kameron. A few weeks later you forced her and Dylan to confess their feelings for each other and they’ve been together since. He was actually a great guy for her. Kind of reserved where she was outgoing and crazy, keeping her from fighting off every threat that seemed to fall into your lap. Even though she was always nothing but nice to you, she had a reputation of being what people would call a “bad girl” while you were the nerd and Dylan finished it off by being the guy next door. Everyone looked at your friendship and wondered how you all would ever last in high school.

Yet here you were, all alone in the courtyard, staring up at the clouds. Sighing softly you closed your eyes and slid your earbuds in, letting Dean take you somewhere higher. You have no idea how much time passed, maybe about 4 songs, before you felt a foot nudge your own. Sitting up and opening your eyes, you eyed the person disturbing your rest after school. It was none other than Kameron, Dylan not too far behind her. You smiled brightly then frowned, taking the earbuds out. “You’re late.”

She huffed and smiled back, sitting down and rubbing your leg affectionately. Dylan sat next to you and in front of Kameron, completing your little circle. He spoke softly. “She was harassing that boy again.”

You frowned at her and pulled your knees up to your chest. “I told you not to bother him, it's not worth the trouble.”

“Listen babe, he took your spot as first for the third semester in a row. I don’t know where he came from but he needs to go back like last year.” Kameron spoke softly and looked at you annoyed. “There’s no one smarter than our girl.”

“I know that and she knew that before Jungkook came along but since then she’s been doubting herself.”

You smiled then frowned, looking down. “I don’t doubt myself. I know I’m smart but he belongs in this grade. Ugh, maybe I should just cancel my request for college classes.”

Kameron hit your arm gently and glared at you. “Stop it, you’re doubting yourself right now. Look, he may be a golden boy but you’ve been our golden girl much longer.”

You looked at her and smiled sadly. She was right about him being a golden boy. He was the captain of the varsity football team, he did excellent in all of his classes, even the electives that you struggled with occasionally like art and music, and he was really good looking. Every girl except you and Kameron basically threw themselves at him. He was a few years older than you like everyone in your class and he was part of the really popular crowd that only ever asked you for help with the classwork when they didn’t want to bother asking the teacher. “At least there’s no possibility of him going to my classes, they’re all full and I don’t think I could deal with him being there. There’s something not right about him.”

You scrunched up your nose in distaste, thinking about the boy that seemed so perfect but was really just a total ass. You hated every interaction you ever had with him, although they were few, every time he just made you uncomfortable and you wanted to punch him in the face. That was a lot coming from you. Kameron spoke up and smiled brightly at the sky. “Well at least we can agree on something about him. He hooked up with another girl yesterday and broke the poor girl’s heart.”

You reached in her bag and pulled out a bottle of apple juice, observing it carefully before cracking it open and taking a sip. They were watching you amused and you blushed. “What? I like apple juice.”

Dylan laughed and rolled his eyes. “We know. You’ve been drinking it for years instead of soda.”

“I don’t like soda. The carbonation hurts my throat.”

Kameron laughed and your cheeks deepened to a dark red. “Babe, what are we going to do when you start drinking?”

You stared at her wide eyed. “I don’t want to think about it. Drinking damages your liver and makes you act all crazy. No, no thank you.” You shook your head vigorously and looked at your apple juice. “I’ll be fine with juice and water for the rest of my life.

“Not gonna let that happen hun.” Dylan said through his laughter and you groaned and laid back down. At least you always had your friends to distract you from him, the golden boy. Silently, you vowed to take him down by any means ethically available to you and if that didn’t work, you could always beat him up after some lessons from Kameron.

Over the next few weeks you tried hard to get your average up higher than his, staying later and studying harder than you ever had before. It was hard but you finally did it after 2 months. You were proud and looked at your test scores that were posted in the hall. Kameron hugged you from behind and kissed your cheek. You frowned at her display of affection but patted her hand gently, letting her know you were just as happy.

“What the hell is this? Who the hell is ___?” Jungkook was frowning with a deep crease forming between his brows.

You tilted your head and looked at him. Of course he didn’t know who you were, you weren’t that special. You sighed heavily and raised your hand for him to see. When he noticed you he walked over and looked down at you. Blinking, you took a step back and frowned. “What do you want?”

You voice came off harsher than you were used too and Kameron noticed as her grip tightened around you slightly.

“How the hell did you score higher than me?” Jungkook spoke softly, holding back his annoyance.

You looked at him and thought carefully about how you should answer, then sighed softly and smiled. “Because I actually studied. You should try it.” Kameron burst into laughter and released her grip on you, coming to stand by your side.

Jungkook’s eyes narrowed and he leaned in closer. “I studied for 3 extra hours a night for weeks for this test. There’s no way you studied more than me.”

You frowned and blinked rapidly. “Well then I guess I’m just smarter than you. Goodbye now, I have to go to the library.” You started to walk away, arm locked with Kameron as she giggled at the side you didn’t even know you had when Jungkook called after you.

“I’m better than you. I’m smarter than you.”

You stopped and turned around, glaring at him. “I highly doubt you’re smarter than me for the simple fact that I am younger than you and will be taking college classes come fall. Also all my classes are either AP or High Honors and I skipped several grades before deciding not to skip again for the simple fact of not wanting to be too young. You’re seeing me here right now because I chose to be here right now. I could have been in my third year of Yale or Harvard if I so pleased.” You took a deep breath and looked at the boy. He wasn’t unattractive at all, well defined nose and jawline. Hair as dark as the night and large brown eyes that were growing in size as he took in your words.

Before he could respond and you could grasp why you went off like that, in front of everyone else no less, you turned and pulled your friend as quickly as you could to the library where you knew no one would bother you. Kameron looked at you with a wide grin on her face. “That was amazing babe. You haven’t spoken that much since Dylan made you mad last year.”

Your cheeks flushed and you groaned, hiding your face in your book. “Please don’t remind me. I want to forget I even opened my mouth. He’s just so arrogant and it bothers me.”

“Well it should. He sleeps with girls just because he thinks he deserves it because of his grades. You knocked him down and basically called him out.” Kameron smiled more and lifted your head. “You made me proud.”

You smiled shyly and nodded then started on your homework for tomorrow. Kameron joined you and laughed quietly to herself. She was right. You needed to stand up for yourself and put that cocky kid in his place. You earned your spot and no one was going to take it from you.

At lunch you waited at your table alone, looking for your friends as you ate your sandwich slowly. Frowning at how late they were you figured they must have gotten distracted in an abandoned hallway and would just meet you after. You sighed at the thought, partially upset that you never could find a guy that you would even consider kissing, let alone dating. Reaching for your apple juice, you took a long sip when you noticed Jungkook making a beeline for your table.

You looked around, slightly panicked and attempted to calm yourself before you started to blush from the memory of your earlier encounter. When he sat down with a smug smile, you immediately looked at your food and gripped the hem of your shirt tightly under the table. “What? You aren’t going to greet me?”

His voice was dripping with confidence and it made your skin crawl. You looked at him and frowned. “I don’t want you here. Go sit with your friends.” You picked up your sandwich and feigned confidence as you resumed eating.

He watched you for a moment, noticing the way you never quite met his eyes and smiled brighter before leaning closer to you. You swallowed quickly and bit your lip. “Why’s that?”

Blinking slowly you tried to understand what he was talking about. When you were able to think about anything besides the way his lips looked really pink and soft you spoke softly. “Because then people will start to notice me and I prefer to go unnoticed through school.”

He leaned back and ate slowly then looked at you. “You like me, don’t you? That’s why you yelled at me earlier because there can’t be any other reason.”

You choked on your food and sputtered out a laugh. “You… you think I like you? That’s the best joke I’ve ever heard.”

His face darkened and he looked at you with a mixture of disbelief and annoyance. “Then why the hell are you like this with me? Every girl likes me.”

You smiled brightly, greatly amused by his ego and spoke carefully. “They’re not me. I don’t like you nor will I ever like you because you are an arrogant pig that thinks he’s entitled to half of the privileges you receive. You think those girls want to get hurt every time they approach you? They’re actually somehow drawn to you and want to build a relationship with you but you can’t see that. You don’t see anything outside of your own simple animalistic pleasure.”

He blinked slowly then a slow smile crept on his face. “Do you want me to make you feel good like I did with them? I mean, you’re a bit younger than I usually go for but I could make it work if you back off and let me get my spot back.”

You blinked and felt the heat spread through your face. You stared at him with a mixture of disgust and shock at his vulgar offer. “If I wanted to be treated like a sextoy then I would have already thrown myself at someone but I actually don’t like you, no matter what you could offer me. Maybe if you were an actual human being then maybe, just maybe, I would consider even holding your hand.” Then you did something unexpected. Before you could stop yourself you stood up and leaned over the table until your face was mere inches from his. “Oh, and it was never your spot to begin with.” Gripping your apple juice tightly, you lifted the bottle and emptied the contents on top of his head, watching the shocked expression flood his face as you smirked and grabbed your bag and left the cafeteria. You heard him yelling for you but you simply walked away. If this is the way it has to be, then bring it on.

“I’m gonna kill that kid!” Kameron screeched as both you and Dylan tried to hold her back. Maybe telling her about your encounter with Jungkook wasn’t such a good thing but you had to. You told each other everything.

“Kam stop. I handled it. I wasted good apple juice but it went to a good cause.” You tried to calm her while mourning the loss of your favorite beverage. She looked at you confused and Dylan watched Kameron carefully, not believing she was calm enough yet.

“What happened to your apple juice?” She questioned softly.

You felt your cheeks flush and groaned loudly, dropping down to a squat and holding your knees gently. “I poured it over his head. I’m so reckless because of him. What if I get in trouble with the principal and he says I can’t go to college early?”

Kameron laughed loudly and pulled you up, holding onto you tightly. You were stuck in your turmoil but relaxed in her arms. “Babe, don’t worry. If the principal tries anything just tell them that he sexually harassed you. I’m so proud of you for taking care of yourself.” She released you and brushed your hair out of your face.

Dylan put a hand on your shoulder and smiled brightly at you. “What’s the plan, ___? Are we gonna give it all up or are we going to keep trying until you can go to your classes?”

You frowned in thought and looked at your friends. They looked like they were ready to do any and everything for you if you asked them. There was no hesitation in their eyes, no questions for whatever you wanted to do. They loved you and would always be by your side. Taking a deep breath, you smiled and grabbed their hands gently. “Let’s go study, we have a lot to cover before the next test.”

For the next two weeks you and your friends studied harder than you ever have. You decided to let them help you while you also helped them to catch up in their classes as well. “It makes no sense for only one of us to be at the top. We should all try to get higher test scores so ____ can be proud of us.” Dylan said it sadly but smiled at you sweetly.

Kameron didn’t object and you looked at them sadly. “Guys, I’m always proud of you. I know you try hard in your classes and you’re always there for me. That’s all that matters.”

“Yeah well, maybe we just feel bad for not being as smart as you.” Kameron frowned and looked at the ground. You sighed and smiled, inviting them both to come study at your house.

You were fortunate enough to not have another encounter with Jungkook. Although you know you should be happy something about his absence from you made you feel a little down. It didn’t make any sense, you hated the guy, why would you want to see him? You saw that there were cheerleading tryouts and Kameron had been saying how she wanted to be one for a while but never really tried out. Reading the flyer carefully, you smiled brightly and pulled your phone out of your pocket, sending a quick text to Kemron for her to meet you at your usual spot in ten minutes.

When you turned to head to the courtyard, you were blocked by a few girls. You blinked and frowned, looking at them confused. “Excuse me.” You spoke loud enough for them to hear, but still low enough that it wouldn’t be mistaken for rudeness. You tried to walk past them but they blocked your exit, cornering you. Feeling nervous for obvious reasons you avoided looking them in the eye, keeping your face down. “What do you want?” Your voice was small, defeated. All the memories of the seniors beating you up and bullying you before Kameron was able to get your schedules to match flooded back. This is never what you imagined your senior year to be like.

One of the girls spoke up, her voice was high all too familiar. “We saw you looking at the cheerleading flyer and were wondering what a bookworm like you would be doing looking at it.”

You thought quickly, knowing that telling the truth would be best but something was different. Maybe it was people always limiting you to only being good at books. You blinked a few times and looked at the girl in the eye. It was none other than Jieun, the girl that hated you the most after you tripped and pulled her top down in front of the class. “Well I wanted to try out. I thought the extracurricular activity would look good for college along with the academic accomplishments.”

Her eyes widened in disbelief. “You want to try out?”

You hated the way she said that. Like perhaps you trying out would be the biggest joke in history. That maybe you doing anything other than just getting good grades would be a disgrace to all humanity. It made you mad. Maybe Kameron was rubbing off on you but you stood up straighter and lifted your chin just a fraction higher. Confidence was rolling off of you. “Yes, I do. Bookworms can be athletic as well.” With that you pushed past her and made you way to the courtyard.

When you reached the location all of the confidence you carried vanished. Kameron was leaning against the tree, waiting for you and pouting slightly. She spotted you immediately and jogged over, hugging you tightly. “What happened? You’re never late.”

You took a deep breath and released it softly. “I ran into Jieun and now we have to hurry and go tryout for the cheerleading team.” You felt so tired and you haven’t even done anything yet.

She looked at you confused and put a hand on your forehead. “Are you sure you’re my best friend? I know I always said I should but I never thought about dragging you into it.”

You looked at her and smiled shyly. “I’m tired of just being the bookworm. I don’t want to be popular but I’m tired of just being known for being smart. You and Dylan are the only ones that know I like to play video games and go to concerts and everything other than just study and get good grades. I haven’t even studied that much until stupid Jungkook came around. I’m just.” You took another deep breath and looked down sadly. “I just don’t want to be the girl I was Freshmen year again.”

She watched you for a moment longer before a slow smile spread across her face. “Well then babe, we better hurry before we’re late.” You smiled at her and took her hand as you made your way to the gym. It was going to be a truly interesting tryout.

You walked in side by side wearing your gym shorts and tank tops, ready to do whatever necessary and show them that you were serious. You put your hair up in a messy bun that somehow looked stylish and looked around nervously. The football team were sitting up in the bleachers and you locked eyes with Jungkook. For some strange reason you couldn't look away, it was almost as if his gaze was paralyzing you. His lips curled into his signature smirk as he stood up and started towards you.

Kameron noticed and immediately tried to pull you away before he could reach breaking the strange connection between you, but she was too late as he jogged the last few feet and stood in front of you both, blocking your path. His eyes found yours again and were dark with something you couldn’t quite place but whatever it was, it made you uncomfortable. Your heart was racing, palms clammy, and you could swear that your face was on fire. However despite the many unpleasant feelings swirling around you felt a little better after seeing him, your stomach was lighter and you felt more ready for the event before you, if only to prove yourself to him and everyone else that you were so much more than just smart.

His voice was soft as he tore his eyes from yours long enough to look at Kameron distastefully. “Can you give us a second to talk? I’d prefer this be a private conversation.”

Kameron scoffed and crossed her arms defiantly. “There’s no way I’m going to leave her alone with you, you creep.” Your face deepened as you grabbed her arm gently, looking at her sadly. She looked at you confused then sighed and groaned loudly. “Ugh fine, but I’ll be watching from over there. Make it quick because we have to warm up before we actually try out.”

“Ok, I’ll be quick.” You smiled and watched her walk away, she glanced back with concerned eyes every so often and made a point to sit facing you. You looked at Jungkook and let your smile fade, your tone becoming cold and slightly annoyed. “What do you want?”

He raised an eyebrow and smiled. “You know, with the way you made her leave you would almost assume you actually wanted to talk to me.”

“I don’t want to, you do so what is it before I leave.” You said shortly. You didn’t have time to play games with him.

He took a deep breath and looked at the ground then back in your eyes. Your heart thudded wildly in your chest as you saw the sweet endearing look in his eyes. “Well after the incident in the cafeteria I haven’t be seeing you. I figured you were busy studying but I see you here. Why are you here? Did you miss me?”

You narrowed your eyes to fight off the feeling of elation. Why were you feeling this way? There was absolutely no way you were going to fall for his tricks. “I’m here to try out for the team, it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with me and my future.”

“Ahh, the whole extracurriculars thing. It does look good if you actually get on the team.” His arrogance was creeping back and you felt all the strange feelings leave you.

You crossed your arms across your chest and sighed softly. “Why do you think I won’t make it? Because I like to keep to myself?”

He looked at you and smiled bigger, leaning in closely. At the distance you could clearly see the tiny scar on his cheek and the faint little mole on his nose and under his bottom lip. You focused on the one under his lip and frowned slightly. “I don’t think you’ll make it because in the year that I’ve known you, you never even- Can’t you focus while I’m talking to you?” He pulled back quickly, looking at you amused.

You blinked and blushed then sighed softly. “I didn’t know you had a mole on under your lip, I was looking at it. And I know you didn’t know me then so please, don’t pretend like you did.”

Jungkook looked at you for a moment then looked around, sighing loudly. “Meet me later in the library, we’ll finish talking when we can really be alone.”

He started to walk away but you grabbed his arm. He looked at you confused and frowned. “I don’t want to be alone with you. If I go meet you later then it has to be on my terms with whomever I want to bring.”

He groaned loudly and closed his eyes, licking his lips slowly before looking at you again. “Then just forget it. I want you either by yourself or not at all.”

His voice was soft although his words didn’t exactly sound friendly, you wanted to know what he meant. Against your best judgement you released his arm and nodded. “Fine, what time?”

His face brightened and you started to regret your decision. He still made you incredibly uncomfortable but he also excited you in ways you didn’t know possible. “After this. See you then.” He jogged back to his friends and you sighed, walking over to Kameron and immediately started stretching your legs.

She looked at you carefully then sighed softly and helped you, her lips pursed tightly and you knew you were going to have to explain everything in detail later on. You started softly, smiling shyly. “I promise all details. It wasn’t that bad, just wondering the usual ‘why are you here?’ Thing”

“Then why did he have to ask you alone?” Her voice was tight. Crap, she’s hurt.

You tried to look at her but couldn’t turn your back that much. “Because maybe he thinks you would answer for me and end up talking to you instead of me. Which was likely to happen since I don’t talk much in front of others when you and Dylan are around.”

She looked at you and you saw the confusion in her eyes. “Why’s that? You know you could always just tell us to shut up if you wanted to and say whatever’s on your mind. We wouldn’t get mad.”

You smiled and shrugged, crossing one arm over your chest and pulling it gently. “I guess I don’t want other people to get used to talking to me. I don’t always want the attention but I Never regret not speaking up.” Once you were all stretched out you hugged her tightly. “You know you’re my best friend ever and you worry much too much.”

She smiled and squeezed you gently. “It's only because you’re the greatest person I know. If only these people knew everything you were capable of.”

Your voice dropped to a whisper and you felt so confident it was somewhat overwhelming. “They’re going to find out soon enough.”

“Great call on suggesting the cheer we made last year. Coach even said they might use it at the next game.” Kameron smiled at you and down at her permission slip. “My mother is going to be so happy to know that I get on the team.”

You looked at your best friend, absolutely giddy about making the team while you were still getting over the adrenaline rush. You had only ever done stuff like this around your families, no crowds of strangers, no on-looking boys with raven black hair. You neatly folded your slip and put it in your bag. Jungkook already snuck out and was probably waiting for you but something told you not to go. “Kam. Jungkook wants me to meet him at the library.” You spoke softly and looked down shyly.

Kameron stopped walking and looked at you confused. “Why the hell would he want to do that?”

Her words stung and you bit your lip hard, looking at her with hurt filled eyes. “What’s wrong with wanting to meet me?” Your voice was small and you felt like crying. Did she really think you weren’t good enough for a guy to pursue?

She hugged you tightly and shook her head. “Not like that, babe. I mean why is waiting for you when he knows you don’t like him? Usually he gives up if he actually has to work for it.”

You took a deep breath and shrugged, looking down. “I don’t know. I was gonna go find out why but I didn’t want to go without telling you about it. I have a bad feeling about it.”

She looked at you and tapped her foot. You waited patiently for her to answer, trusting her to just be honest with you like always. “Well, I don’t want to tell you not to because that wouldn’t be me being a good friend but, if you have a bad feeling about it then don’t go. You’ll be seeing more of the jerk anyway now that we’re on the squad.”

You sighed and nodded, taking her hand and continuing on your way. Whatever was going to happen will happen eventually.

Kameron looked at you and frowned, her hands on her exposed waist while she walked closer to you. It was the first game since you guys got on the team and you were nervous about wearing the outfit. It was a red and black one sleeved top that stopped at your midriff, the skirt was short and fitted and you just happened to be the flyer for the night. Your nerves were a mess for multiple reasons. “You can’t stay in here, you’re like the star of the show. Come on, let me fix your makeup.”

You pulled at your skirt and walked over slowly, trying to calm yourself by reciting the cheer in your head. It was about a half hour before you had to go out and you weren’t sure if you were more nervous about not seeing Jungkook all day or the fact that you were basically half naked in front of so many people. You sat in front of Kameron and closed your eyes., following her instructions carefully. When she was done with your lips you spoke softly. “I’m worried Kam. What if I’m not good enough?”

“If you weren’t good enough you wouldn’t be here.” The voice you heard wasn’t Kameron’s and you both looked at the boy, wondering what he was doing in the girl’s locker room. It was then that you realized you and Kameron were the only ones left in there. Kameron pursed her lips and tapped her foot, her signature annoyed move.

You looked between then and sighed softly, pulling on Kameron’s arm. “Come on, you have to finish so we can join the other girls.” You felt light and good. Seeing him always put you in a better mood, even if you refused to talk to him anymore. After realizing you were developing your first crush on him you quickly avoided talking to him anymore than absolutely necessary, which was hardly ever and you were grateful for it most of te time.

Kameron finished your eyes then grabbed her pompoms and bumped past him. “Make it quick babe, we’re on in 20.”

You looked at her and nodded, then stood up and went to the mirror, not looking at Jungkook. He sighed softly and followed behind you. He was wearing his jersey and a very annoyed expression. “Are you really going to ignore me? It's bad enough you stood me up, not once but four times.”

You blinked slowly and finally looked at him. It's not your fault he kept requesting you to meet with him privately and you happened to be busy. Sighing softly you waved your arm out, showing him that the room is empty. “What do you want Jungkook? What could you possible want to talk about so badly that you keep looking for reasons to get me alone? Do you just want to sleep with me? Ruin the smartest girl in school and prove that you’re actually smarter than me? Is that it? Because I can assure you that-”

“God just shut up already. I don’t want any of that from you, ____.” He glared at you and ran his hand through his hair frustrated.

You furrowed your eyebrows and looked at him confused. “Then what do you want?”

He looked at you for a moment then took a slow breath. “Forget it. We have a game in 15 minutes. It was stupid of me to come in here now.” He put his hands on your shoulders and leaned down to look in your eyes. His were so brown and soft you thought you could swim in them for hours. He licked his lips slowly and you noticed how close they were to your own, making your heart clench in your chest. His voice was soft and comforting. “Look, just do everything the same way you did during practice, ignore everyone else except the other girls, ok? You’re amazing and you’ll do amazing as long as you’re confident in yourself.”

You felt your cheeks heat at his words, your own voice came out as a small whisper. “Why are you saying this to me?”

He looked at you confused, eyebrows knitting together. “Why? Because I can see how nervous you are and you don’t need to be. If you guys don’t do well then how can we? We’re all one team and we all need to succeed.”

You nodded slowly and felt yourself relaxing with his words sinking deep into your bones. “Ok. I’ll give it my best.”

“Good. If you want, we can talk after the game?” He asked so uncharacteristically shy that it took you a moment to answer him. After opening your mouth several times you simply nodded and looked down. He released you and you felt the cold absence of his hands of your skin, frowning and grabbing your pompoms quickly, you both left the room and gathered with your groups.

Kameron looked at you, eyebrow raised and question written plainly on her face. How did it go?

You shrugged and smiled a little, mouthing a simple Later to appease her. She smiled and nodded, getting in line behind you. You prepared your heart and put on your best big smile.

When you stepped out onto the field you were met with loud cheers and bright lights but you ignored it all as much as you could. Yelling with the other girls and waving your arms happily at the audiences. You followed Jieun to your spot and stood, waiting for the rest of the girls to come before the boys exited and the game began.

Once the game started you followed along with each cheer. Your eyes were glued to Jungkook, number 9, as he ducked, dodged, and tackled his way down the field. It was amazing to watch him go and every touchdown he scored, you would cheer extra loudly. When halftime came around you were amazed at the score, 24 to 6. You were excited and ready to perform, although nervous about the main part. You had to do a double backflip into the two girls’ arms then be flipped up by the girl that was already cradled behind them and then flip over that girl and stand in liberty. Kameron looked at you and winked, smiling brightly. She was going to flip you and although it always went well during practice, you still felt butterflies. Before the other team was done you looked over and saw Jungkook staring your way, his hair was drenched with sweat but he smiled brightly at you and gave you a thumbs up. You smiled back and nodded. It was your turn and everything was going to go great, all you needed to do was ignore everyone except your team. When the Bulls were done and you heard the call for the Hawks your heart race increased as you ran forward, cheering loudly with your team.

You stood in position and waited for the music to start. Once it did you were a completely different person. There was nothing to fear, there was only your team and the music as you tumbled in sync with everyone else and popped your herkie in all the right ways. Your scorpians were perfectly executed and each and every dance move you did was in perfect rhythm. You were unstoppable. As your flips approached you did a few aerials to get to the front and smiled at Jungkook, who just happened to be standing right in your line of sight. You raised your arms above your head and flipped back once, twice, and landed perfectly in their arms. You grabbed Kameron’s forearms and was both pushed and pulled up and over her head, landing perfectly on one foot into Jieun’s and Suji’s hands then was promptly pushed up and executed a perfect liberty to end the performance.

When the music stopped you dismounted and hugged the girls as the crowd went wild. All of you left the field and quickly went back to the sidelines. Jungkook couldn’t take his eyes off of you and you motioned that he was needed on the field. You could have sworn you saw him blush as he pulled on his helmet and ran back out to the field. The game was child’s play after that, all the boys were ready to win to get in the good graces of the girls and probably take one back home to hook up with. You weren’t worried about that at all, however, all you wanted was to enjoy this moment while it lasted and be as happy as you could for the moment before you had to go back to being the bookworm.

The boys won the game, 54 to 21, and everyone was planning on going out to celebrate. You were getting reay to leave with Kameron when Suji stopped you. “Hey, aren’t you guys coming with us to get pizza? It's the first win of the season.”

You looked at her and blushed then looked at Kameron, who was smiling shyly. “If you want to go babe, we can. I didn’t know you would include us to be honest.”

Suji smiled and sook her head. “That was before, this is now. We’re a team and we celebrate as a team unless you really don’t want to. Just because we didn’t get along before doesn’t mean we can’t try it now.”

You smiled and nodded slowly. “Sure, we’ll go. We weren’t going to do anything special anyway. But can she bring her boyfriend? He doesn’t play football but I don’t want to leave him out.”

“Yeah of course you can, i bring mine all the time and he only plays soccer.” Suji laughed softly and walked away. Both you and Kameron eyed each other carefully before she took out her phone and called Dylan.

While waiting for him to come pick you guys up, Jungkook ran out the building and looked around sadly until he spotted you. Blushing gently you looked down as he walked over. His hair was still wet but he smelled sweet and slightly woodsy as though he just took a shower. “I thought you left already…” His voice was soft as he lifted your chin slowly, forcing you to look at him.

Your lips parted slightly and you felt your heart quicken at his touch. Pulling away slowly you sighed and crossed your arms as a sad defense against him. “Not yet, we’re waiting for Dylan so we can go eat with the team.”

“Ahh, I’m glad you’re going. It would have been boring without you there.” What was with him? Why was he always trying to talk to you and being nice to you? It just doesn’t make sense.

“Well I do like pizza. Most 17 year olds do.”

“Wait you’re 17? That means I missed your birthday.” He pouted. Your jaw dropped at the sight. Jeon Jungkook was actually upset at missing your birthday.

Thankfully Kameron came over and draped her arm over your shoulder. “You know, if you weren’t always chasing skirts then you would have known when her birthday was. It's too bad too, I made a really yummy cake.”

“I don’t do that anymore.” Jungkook glared at her then sighed softly, looking back at you. “I actually have only been chasing you since. Well since you poured your apple juice in my hair.” He grinned and scrunched his nose up like a bunny.

You looked at him confused, your heart beating a mile a minute. jIt was taking everything in you not to just punch him for some strange reason. There was nothing else you wanted to do. Kameron, however, did it for you. “What kind of nonsense is that? You fell for her after she humilated you?”

He rubbed his chest and frowned. “Yes. No girl has ever stood up to me and i like that about her. I also like how pretty she is when she smiles and how intelligent she is. I don’t want sex if that’s what you’re both wondering. I honestly think for once I just want the one thing I can’t have.”

Nothing was making sense, you world was literally turning as you looked at this boy as he confessed to liking you. You didn’t know what to do. You didn’t know what to say. “How can I trust you with her? She’s my best friend and you’re the guy girls go to to get their heart broken. I’m not going to put her through that.”

His eyes never left yours as your arms fell to your sides . “Because ever since I saw her coming out of the library last year with her hair in a bun and her laughter ringing through the air I knew that I wanted to be with her. The only problem was getting you to notice me. I tried everything, using my wealth, gaining popularity, being an athlete. None of it worked, you never noticed . But once I topped the class, you noticed. I didn’t know your name though and somehow through all that I lost the purpose of what I was doing. I hurt people, yes. But it was only because they weren’t you.”

Kameron’s jaw dropped and you, you stood there wide eyed and confused but somehow flattered. He just wanted your attention, your affection. Maybe if you could just use whatever leftover courage you had and told him that you liked him too then maybe something good would happen. You balled your hands into fists and looked down, biting your lip. You didn’t know what to say, what to do. All that you knew was that looking at him was too hard right now.

Kameron looked at you then sighed and walked away, knowing that you were debating something personal and wouldn’t need her help. Jungkook lifted your chin gently and looked in your eyes. He smiled shyly and rubbed your cheek slowly with the pad of his thumb. You looked at him and thought about how much you wanted to be with him. You thought back on all the dreams you had with him and how all of it could be a reality if you just said yes. Your eyes darted to his lips and you closed your eyes, leaning up slowly and closing the distance between you in a chaste kiss.

When you opened your eyes, Jungkook was looking at you smiling brightly. Dylan pulled up and honked the horn. You turned and waved quickly before looking back at Jungkook. “I swear if you hurt me I’ll have Dylan beat you up.”

Jungkook smiled and kissed you again, pulling you tightly against him. He pulled away slowly and looked at you warmly. “There is absolutely no chance of me ever hurting you.”

#jungkook angst #jungkook fluff #jungkook scenarios #noonanet #repost

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catboywizard · 7 years

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Ok so I know i said it do it like tomorrow but I didn't have anything else to do so I just did it now lol

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? -probably not but who knows

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? -nope

3. Have you taken someones virginity? -nope, I’m still a virgin too

4. Is trust a big issue for you? -definitely

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? -idk if it counts as “hang out” but we had like a 10 second conversation earlier today

6. What are you excited for? -I was excited for something but I found out yesterday I’m not allowed to go so now I’m in that weird empty period of trying to find something new to be excited about before I just give up and die tbh

7. What happened tonight? -tonight hasn’t really happened yet, it’s only 5pm

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? -no, people can do whatever they want, don’t be judgmental

9. Is confidence cute? -definitely but if you’re not confident that doesn’t inherently make you not cute

10. What is the last beverage you had? -milk tbh and now my lactose intolerant ass is dying

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? -honestly I don’t fully trust anyone but there’s one who’s pretty close

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? -yep, basically the only pants I wear

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? -I’m seeing my dad and I’m gonna make him watch interstellar with me because I saw it with my mom about a month ago and I’m obsessed, but we might do that Friday

14. What are you going to spend money on next? -well I’ve got like $10 but that’s supposed to be for emergencies so I’m gonna be responsible and save it. I’ll probably use some of my birthday money to buy the Steven Universe album that’s coming out and I’m so freaking excited but that’s like a month from now

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? -nope, I don’t even remember who the last person I kissed was considering the fact that it was 2 years ago during spin the bottle

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? -oh definitely

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? -honestly I’m an open book as long as you’re not my parents. If I have a story and you happen to be nearby when I want to tell it, you’re gonna hear it

18. The last time you felt broken? -ha! constantly

19. Have you had sex today? -as if

20. Are you starting to realize anything? -yep

21. Are you in a good mood? -kinda neutral, I am tired though

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? -totally, sharks are misunderstood sweeties

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? -maybe? Idk, I think so

24. What do you want right this second? -milkshake

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed someone else? -I wouldn’t really care because I’m pretty sure he’s straight and I’m definitely sure he thinks I’m a lesbian so there’s no chance there

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? -sadly yes, I really wanna go pink though

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? -I honestly have no idea

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? -probably something on parks & rec

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? -eh, not really

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? -almost everyone, depending on what they’ve done

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? -no

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? -no, I didn’t even realize it until like Monday (and like I said, he thinks I’m a lesbian)

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? -idk what you mean by “those people,” I don’t drink soda because my mouth is sensitive to the carbonation but I’m not like pretentious about it or anything

34. Listening to? -Pocket Full of Dreams by Hedley

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? -nope, pen & whiteout ftw!

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? -nope, like I said I can’t even remember who it is

37. Do you believe in love at first sight? -not entirely but I do think there’s a lot about a person you can tell by looking at them for the first time, enough to decide if you’d like to date them or not

38. Who did you last call? -my mom is like the only person I ever talk to on the phone

39. Who was the last person you danced with? -the only person I’ve ever danced with was my ex boyfriend at our 8th grade version of prom

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? -spin the bottle

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? -this morning actually! Because of AP exams and other big tests, the schedule is weird and I had 5th period for 3 hours today and my friend brought cupcakes

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? -nope, my mom just got home like 2 minutes ago while I’ve been typing this and I don’t see her in the mornings

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? -not that I can think of off the top of my head but I know I have at some point

44. Do you tan in the nude? -have you seen me? I don’t tan lol

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? -I’m completely indifferent about it

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? -nope

47. Who was the last person to call you? -also my mom

48. Do you sing in the shower? -totally

49. Do you dance in the car? -it’s kinda hard but I guess a little bit

50. Ever used a bow and arrow? -yes! Omg, it’s so much fun!

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? -my mom has us do family portraits every year or so and we did them sometime in late January or early February so we could send out family valentines cards since we forgot to do Christmas cards

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? -definitely not!

53. Is Christmas stressful? -no, I love Christmas so much (mostly just for the presents but also for just the whole atmosphere)

54. Ever eat a pierogi? -I don’t think so but I doubt I would know if I did

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? -Apple, 3000%!

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? -I remember I wanted to be a Vet for a really long time, and for like a day I wanted to be a firefighter, there are a ton more but those are the only 2 I remember right now

57. Do you believe in ghosts? -not really but I’m so paranoid that I do a little bit

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? -ALL THE TIME

59. Take a vitamin daily? -no, I probably should

60. Wear slippers? -nope

61. Wear a bath robe? -nope

62. What do you wear to bed? -pajama pants + whatever shirt I was wearing that day or nothing on the top if I’m hot

63. First concert? -honestly it was Idena Menzel

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? -definitely Tar-jay

65. Nike or Adidas? -I honestly don’t have an opinion either way

66. Cheetos Or Fritos? -definitely cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? -both gross but I guess sunflower seeds

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? -I’m not a huge fan but I guess I like Out of the Woods

69. Ever take dance lessons? -hell no, I’m so fucking uncoordinated and I have asthma so I would have died

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? -no?

71. Can you curl your tongue? -yep!

72. Ever won a spelling bee? -I am the worst speller that has ever existed ever, also my school has never had a spelling bee

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? -maybe? I don’t know

74. What is your favorite book? -the great Gatsby

75. Do you study better with or without music? -definitely with music

76. Regularly burn incense? -nope

77. Ever been in love? -I doubt it but I don’t really have any way to tell

78. Who would you like to see in concert? -tank and the bangas or 21p

79. What was the last concert you saw? -the only concert I have ever seen was Idena Menzel

80. Hot tea or cold tea? -both are gross but cold if I had to pick one

81. Tea or coffee? -coffee but only in cold form like a frappe

82. Favorite type of cookie? -probably plain chocolate chip, or the oatmeal chocolate chip ones from potbelly are really good too

83. Can you swim well? -I’d like to think so but I’m not very fast

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? -yep!

85. Are you patient? -not really but I can be

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? -Band

87. Ever won a contest? -once I won a random raffle for free movie tickets when I was like 7 but that’s it

88. Ever have plastic surgery? -nope, nothing wrong with that though

89. Which are better black or green olives? -definitely black, black olives are delicious, green olives are grown by Satan

90. Opinions on sex before marriage? -you do you (but wear protection!)

91. Best room for a fireplace? -living room? Idk

92. Do you want to get married? -oh dear lord I hope I get married

#long post #personal

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agalarianzigzagoon · 7 years

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gonna put this under a read more because sara wanted me to answer them all >_>

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? i honestly have no idea. 2. Are you outgoing or shy? i’m pretty outgoing unless my anxiety is acting up. 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? i’m potentially buying a ticket to RTX off of someone, so i’d be looking forward to seeing everyone there. 4. Are you easy to get along with? as long as you don’t give me shit, yes. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? i wholeheartedly believe yes (after being texted multiple memes). 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? funny, caring, basically as long as you’re a fucking memer like i am we’re gucci. 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? i hope so .^. 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? he knows who he is :p 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? sometimes? idk it’s weird. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? i’m p sure it was aidan because The Depression hit. 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “yeah this is the shit i come up with when i’m bored” to vix 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? everything is alright- motion city soundtrack, time won’t let me go- the bravery, breaking and entering- tonight alive, screw eyes- color therapy, the hills- the weeknd 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? i would literally melt into a puddle. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? absolutely 15. What good thing happened this summer? staying up way too late playing stupid fucking video games. 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? absolutely not he turned into such a scumbag holy shit 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? i dunno, but it’d be cool to find out for certain. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? nope, i haven’t seen him since my school closed after 6th grade. 19. Do you like bubble baths? don’t have an operational bath because the pipes are cracked, but i never really took baths. 20. Do you like your neighbors? my neighbors to the left of me (if you’re looking at my house) are weird as fuck, neighbor to the left is the sweetest person you’ll ever meet 21. What are your bad habits? biting my nails, cracking my joints really loudly. 22. Where would you like to travel? i really want to go somewhere cold. i’d love to see the northern lights. 23. Do you have trust issues? very severe ones. 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? when i’m at work, coming home and being able to destress because my work environment is shit. when i’m off, going out and goofing off with niko. 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? pretty much all of it, honestly. 26. What do you do when you wake up? flop around looking for my glasses. 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? i’m fine where it is right now. 28. Who are you most comfortable around? anyone from the discord chats i’m in and the few friends i retained from high school (aka sascha and inky). 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? it wasn’t even a breakup it was just “oh i moved away and mostly forgot about you” so i don’t even consider him an ex. 30. Do you ever want to get married? yeye. 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? that’s my hairstyle of choice. 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? bitch what. no. 33. Spell your name with your chin. kzasgtkied (could be worse) 34. Do you play sports? What sports? nope, but i like screaming at hockey. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? tv. i pretty much only keep it on as background noise anyway. 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yeah, and it sucked but oh well, things happen for a reason. 37. What do you say during awkward silences? “sooooo.......” 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? funny, willing to stick by even if things get bad, likes memes as much as i do. i’m not really picky and they don’t need to have the same interests that i do because i love hearing about things that i may not have any idea about. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? i really don’t have any? 40. What do you want to do after high school? well i’m already out of high school and all i know its not working this shitty minimum wage job. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? yes, unless they’ve already taken those chances for granted or done something severe. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? that i’m extremely upset. 43. Do you smile at strangers? i try to. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? outer space. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? usually the fact i have to go to work, but if not, the pup. 46. What are you paranoid about? the people i care about not actually caring about me. that’s my main fear. 47. Have you ever been high? that’s a hard no. 48. Have you ever been drunk? twice. once on new year’s eve 2016 and then in january for my birthday. 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? not that i can think of. 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? yellow. 51. Ever wished you were someone else? hasn’t everyone? 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? i wish i wasn’t so anxious over things. 53. Favourite makeup brand? i don’t really wear makeup but I like covergirl and prestige eyeliner. 54. Favourite store? as cringy as it is, gamestop and hot topic. but i don’t go out much. 55. Favourite blog? there’s a LOT. 56. Favourite colour? purple and blue. 57. Favourite food? chicken. 58. Last thing you ate? grape freeze pop. 59. First thing you ate this morning? bagel with cream cheese. 60. Ever won a competition? For what? i got third place in a spelling bee in 5th grade and got first place at both regionals and states for pjas (basically a pa statewide science competition). 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? i got an ISS for socking a kid who later became my crush in the nose in 4th grade because he was annoying me. 62. Been arrested? For what? nope. 63. Ever been in love? absolutely and it’s the best feeling i’ve ever felt. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? it was on the way back from a band competition, and we were all crammed onto a school bus. we were sitting in a seat together and i was tired so i kinda dozed off a little but when i woke up i was like “fucking kiss him god damn it you’ve been dating for like a month and a half” and i just DID. 65. Are you hungry right now? a little. 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i don’t really have too many “tumblr friends” that aren’t also my real friends. 67. Facebook or Twitter? facebook because i love reading the drama. 68. Twitter or Tumblr? twitter tumblr is a fucking cesspool. 69. Are you watching tv right now? just as background noise. 70. Names of your bestfriends? (most will be their online names) there’s like three sarahs/saras, vix, bonk, d, rose, rory, inky, james, aidan, quartz, bunn, hal, and cheese. (i have so many online friends holy fuck.) 71. Craving something? What? the sweet embrace of death. nah but for real like... watermelon or just fruit in general. 72. What colour are your towels? i have a blue one, a red one, and a yellow one. 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? two usually. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? not anymore. 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? probably a good amount but they’re all in the attic. 75. Favourite animal? i love pretty much all animals but i love dogs/wolves/foxes. 76. What colour is your underwear? white. 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? why not both? 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? chocolate peanut butter swirl or mint chocolate chip. 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? reddish-magentaish? 80. What colour pants? blue. 81. Favourite tv show? my favorite of all time will always be siberia. 82. Favourite movie? twister or edward scissor hands 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? mean girls. 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? I’ve never seen 21 jump street all the way through so mean girls again. 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? don’t really have one, but if i had to pick, janis. 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? crush because who doesn’t love stoner turtles? 87. First person you talked to today? i think it was my mom. 88. Last person you talked to today? one of the many sarahs i call my friends. 89. Name a person you hate? if i say it i’ll probably get arrested lmfao. 90. Name a person you love? @riones-lair :* 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? i’m always ready to punch someone. 92. In a fight with someone? not that i know of. 93. How many sweatpants do you have? probably 5 or 6. 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? an unnecessary amount. probably 17 or 18. we collect hoodies like they're going out of style. 95. Last movie you watched? probably one of the harry potter movies 96. Favourite actress? don’t really have one. 97. Favourite actor? johnny depp because of edward scissorhands. 98. Do you tan a lot? no, i burn and i burn badly. 99. Have any pets? niko who is a massive neapolitan mastiff that farts a lot. 100. How are you feeling? sleepy and in pain. 101. Do you type fast? when i get really into doing something i can type so fast you would not believe. 102. Do you regret anything from your past? a lot of things, but the past is the past. can’t do anything about it. 103. Can you spell well? i like to think i do. 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? of course, but they’re in the past for a reason. 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? a few times, my grandmother has a big backyard and we’d have bonfires back there. 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so. 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes, his name was macaroni and i loved him very much. 108. What should you be doing? SLEEPING. 109. Is something irritating you right now? the slight headache i have going on. 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? once but then i realized it wasn’t worth the pain. 111. Do you have trust issues? didn’t i get asked this before? but yes. 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? i don’t remember physically but while talking to someone it was quartz, aidan, and aidan’s girlfriend sarah. 113. What was your childhood nickname? usually only ever called kate. 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? farthest i’ve ever been out of state is alabama. 115. Do you play the Wii? i used to, not so much anymore. 116. Are you listening to music right now? i was but now i’m watching a twitch stream. 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yesssss. 118. Do you like Chinese food? certain types make me sick but for the most part yes. 119. Favourite book? the entire Maximum Ride series. 120. Are you afraid of the dark? not really? 121. Are you mean? really only if people are mean to me. 122. Is cheating ever okay? no. never. 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? for a while, all shoes inevitably get dirty. 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? yes. 125. Do you believe in true love? yes. 126. Are you currently bored? somewhat. 127. What makes you happy? drawing, writing, talking to people that care about me. 128. Would you change your name? if i could get my full first name shortened to my nickname that’d be good enough for me. 129. What your zodiac sign? capricoooooorn. 130. Do you like subway? sweet onion chicken teriyaki all the way. 131. Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? tell him i have a boyfriend and that he should have said something like a year and a half ago lmfao. 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? pretty sure i was asked this too? but yeah, aidan. 133. Favourite lyrics right now? “i am so homesick for someone that i never knew/ i am so homesick now for someplace that i’ll never be” 134. Can you count to one million? it’ll take forever, but yeah. 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? i’ve told a bunch of stupid fucking lies holy shit. 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed. 137. How tall are you? 5′6″, i’m short. 138. Curly or Straight hair? wavy. 139. Brunette or Blonde? dirty blonde. 140. Summer or Winter? winter. 141. Night or Day? night 142. Favourite month? october. 143. Are you a vegetarian? absolutely not. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk and white. 145. Tea or Coffee? tea. 146. Was today a good day? surprisingly, yes. 147. Mars or Snickers? you’re asking mars or mars. snickers, though. 148. What’s your favourite quote? as corny as it is, i love “don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” 149. Do you believe in ghosts? definitely. 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “Up!” - The Lake House

#here you go sara #cutesymikey

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astormyjet · 8 years

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December 28th 2016 - March 12th 2017. Hiroshima Part 2, New Year, A Visit From Some Old Friends, Birthdays and a Few Long ‘See-you’s!’.

Opps. I got lazy. What else is new? As per usual a bunch has happened since I last wrote. Things got busy basically as so as I started back after Winter Break and I haven’t had time to think. Or sleep properly. But hey, that’s being an adult right?

On the 28th I got on the Ferry and took myself to Hiroshima for a few days of shopping and just wandering around. I met up with an old Uni friend and her sister. We went out for dinner on my first night in the city, I took them to the big Okonomiyaki tower and then Hannah and I walked around the Heiwadori Illuminations.

We hit the Itsukushima Shrine on the 29th and I climbed up Mt Misen from the top of the Ropeway station. I had taken like three steps into the bush track when two Pheasants ran out in front of me. I nearly had a heart attack because at first I thought they were snakes, because all I saw were their tail feathers, but then they started clucking at me/each other and I spotted the rest of their bodies as they bolted up the hill. The view from the top of the mountain was pretty amazing. It would have been better if it had been a clear day though. There was snow on the mountains on the mainland, but the sky was pretty grey and you couldn’t see out to the other islands as well as you can when the sun is out.

On the 30th we got on the Ferry and came back to Matsuyama. We climbed up to the Castle for the sunset and then I took them out to my fave Izakaya. I think we went our own ways pretty early that night in prep for doing stuff the next day. On the 31st they explored Matsuyama a bit, and I sorted my life out before meeting them at their hostel. We watched the Kouhaku (Red and White Singing Wars) together with the other guests in the house plus the lady who was in charge. At a little before midnight we went up the road to a wee pub behind the Dogo Onsen and saw in the new Year with a beer, and then we climbed up the stairs to the Shrine on the top of the hill for Hatsumode.

On New Years Day Hannah and I met Jiovaane and a few other ALTs to go “Fukubukuro” shopping. Basically this is when you get to the mall as soon as it opens and the go and buy a pre-bundled lucky bag from a shop. You can pay anywhere from 1000yen to over 20000yen for a bunch of stuff. I got bags from Right On, Village Vangaurd and a sports store. I basically paid 25000yen and got over 40000yen worth of clothes and home goods. It was a cool experience.

Hannah left on the 2nd or 3rd and I celebrated my birthday on the 4th. I’m 24 now apparently. Probably should start planning what I’m going to do with my life from now on...

Nothing much other than work happened between then and the Tsubaki-Matsuri on the 3rd-4th-5th of Feb. I went down with my mates on the 4th. A bunch of my students were there and said hello. A group of my third-year JHS kids stuck around and tried to figure out what we were saying. During that weekend we went and saw a concert/live show that one of our Japanese friends was playing with his new band “Seaslugs”. It was pretty cool!

On the 11th of Feb, the Chuyo RA held a “Harry Potter” Murder mystery night which was a heap of fun. Props again to Jiovaane and his imagination for making the night enjoyable.

On the following weekend one of the other ALTs had a game night at his house, where a bunch of JET Program ALTs, Private ALTs, Eikaiwa teachers and University Students were massive nerds and played board and card games. We also ate a heap before going back into town and hitting the bar. The following night was also a game night, this time at Mat’s, as him and his girlfriend were getting ready to leave for travel. Both nights were a blast even if I was shattered by the end of the weekend.

On the 25th, my mate from Uni came and visited. She took me out to a wee station on the ocean front famous for it’s sunset. Shimonada was the name of the place. We got out there and enjoyed the view with a surprising number of other tourists. It was such a great day for it though. The sun was out and there was hardly a cloud in the sky. It was a bit hazy out towards the islands, but as the sunset drew near, it got easier to see out to where the islands were. There was lovely older couple who volunteer out at the station who made an effort to come and talk to us both. The old dude was super keen on photography and helped Misa out with a few cool angles and shots of the station and the islands. The Iyonada-Monogatari, a local sight seeing train, pulled up a little before the sun started to properly set, and everyone scrambled to snap photos of it. It was about twenty minutes after that that the sun started to do it’s thing. We snapped a few shots and then jumped back on our train to Matsuyama.

That night we went out for dinner and then walked into town to meet up with my mates. There was a birthday/farewell party on for Mat, Miku and Paul. It was a good night, albeit a bit sad. But that’s what happens when you live in another country. People come and go fairly regularly.

Misa and I went up to Matsuyama Castle in the morning and got some shots of the plum blossoms and the castle itself before we walked down to JR Station and parted ways. It was really cool to catch up with someone from Otago. It’s amazing how far everyone has come since graduation.

On the 4th of March I went and watched my Baseball boys play a game. Basically the pitcher had been bugging me to come and watch them play since I watched them lose a game at the fall tournament. This time they played fiercely and stole a last minute win. It was really neat to see how confident they’ve become since September. I’m hoping to catch the Girls Basketball team play next weekend. I havent watched them play yet, but a few of them have been bugging me to come watch since they heard I went to the soft tennis tournament to support their classmates there. Which is fair enough - and I am honestly looking forward to it. It’s really awesome that they want me there, and that even if the hate English as a subject, they’re not opposed to interacting with me in English outside of the classroom.

This Friday night, a bunch of us went and had nabe (hotpot) at Dillions in celebration of his birthday. Basically we cooked, ate, played card games and just enjoyed each others company. After how hectic the last few weeks have been, it was really nice. The food was fantastic too, Yukie made the soup base and it turned out really well.

Last night we all met at Pauls place for another game night/the actual birthday party for Dillion. We played Dixit (which is a fantastic abstract concept game), at a bunch of junkfood, watched a bunch of youtube and then got on our bikes and headed into town to continue at the bar. I got home fairly early bar.

Today I basically woke up and hit the ground running to get chores done before rolling out the door to do a bit of exploring. I finally stuck my head into the shrine by the castle park moat. It was super cute, and the lighting was really nice. There was also a part where you could hang over and photograph the fish from close up, which was really cool. I also went up to the big cemetery on the hill. I wanted to take photo’s of the cats that hang out there and live off of the offerings people leave. I found a few but wasn’t fast enough to get pictures. Still it was nice to get out into the sun and see parts of the city I hadn’t.

Basically in between the busy weekends, there’s been even busier weeks. I go to Karate twice a week from 7pm-9pm and I have a Japanese Lesson every Tuesday from 4.30-5.30pm. I study, clean and plan lessons on the other nights, so I haven’t really had much in the way of a proper break for a couple of months. Being this social really takes it out of me. Not that I hate it, I’m just not used to it after so long being a hermit Today was the first time in forever I had some time to myself and could ride my bike around for the sake of it.

I finished teaching my 3rd Year JHS students on Monday this week. I have one lesson left with all the other classes from ES grade 5 to 2nd year JHS. My ES kids have done so well over the last couple of months, the 6th graders surprised me with their creativity when doing the Momotaro unit of Hi Friends and also with their dreams for the future.

Graduation for my JHS kids is this week on the 16th. I’m going to cry so hard. I really hated teaching them last year, but something changed this year and they became really cool to teach. I think because I’ve known them for nearly two years now. that it will be harder than last year. ES Graduation is on the 23rd, but that’s not so hard as most of them come to the JHS. A couple of my favorites are leaving to other schools though, largely for special needs or sporting reasons. Which is really cool but sad at the same time. The teacher shuffle happens in April too, which will be interesting.

I’m going to Osaka South Korea with one of the other ALTs on the 25th of March. So I’m looking forward to that and the three day weekend next weekend. Hopefully the political situation will stabilize a little bit there so we’re ok.

This has been a bit drier/disjointed than the last couple of entries, but to be honest I am so tired. I just wanted to get everything down before I forgot it all and had some time to think.

#jet program #life on jet #teaching in japan #ALT life #Japan

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