#they're both on the same day and i hate them both
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tipsandtrixx · 3 days ago
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I think Remus is in on it to a certain extent, but for different reasons than Janus. I think Remus is just looking for acknowledgement. He's spent over a decade being forgotten and when he finally gets his chance to be acknowledged he's shunned. He's watched Virgil fully leave and be accepted, he's watched them listen to Janus and start to accept him, while he stands on the sidelines still being hated. I think that's what's driving him, he wants acknowledgement and he's willing to help Janus if that means he gets it.
But they're both hurting their cause by targeting Logan, because Logan is willing to talk and work with them. Logan tries to include them and is respectful towards them, he gives them a voice like he did with Virgil pre-aa. In DWIT he's willing to listen to Remus, he tells Remus that he believes that Remus has a place and a purpose, that he just wants one day to try and get through to Thomas. But Remus continues to ignore him, finally snapping him and costing Logan his goal. Logan is the only side (besides Janus technically) who is willing to work with Remus, they don't get along, but he's trying to be nice. Same with Janus, Logan is willing to listen to Janus and work with him, he doesn't fully trust Janus, but Logan wants to find a common ground. They can't get through to the main group without the trust of at least one of the Sides, but they're breaking the one side willing to be that bridge.
People should acknowledge the fact that alcoholism has become a part of Logan’s character in like a genuine way, like yes it’s used jokey in the show but GODDDD it just makes it so clear what direction his character is going in. He is falling apart, he is becoming more and more dependent on destructive coping mechanisms, he’s pushing the light sides away more often and being more friendly with the dark sides and especially Janus, who has showcased a lot of similar traits which Logan seems to be developing, he’s a HYPOCRITE, he’s an ASSHOLE, he’s got issues opon issues!! He is a spiteful alcoholic and the nickname “nerdy wolverine” is becoming a whole lot more literal these days!! And I FUCKING LOVE IT!! DESTROY HIM, MAKE HIM HURT AND HEAL AND DO IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN, ABANDONMENT IS NOT HIS ONLY ISSUE!! MAKE HIM HATE HIMSELF!!! WRITE HIM LIKE THE MESS HE IS YOU COWARDS
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nervouscunt · 3 days ago
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Back at it with my Elia posting this time featuring Rhaegar and including a nice sketch from a larger unfinished piece that will never see the light of day cuz i hate it. Now I know this is not the popular consensus but my interpretation of them and their relationship is that they did care for eachother while simultaneously having different perceptions of eachother, they both think they know the other fully and that they're on the same page but that's just not true. I'd like to think that Elia knew of the prophecy but always though that Rhaegar would but their family above the want to fulfill it, while Rhaegar thought that Elia knew how important the prophecy was and that he needed to fulfill it by any means necessary. This makes his actions so much more wounding for Elia because they make her realise that she never truly knew him, that the idea she had of him was never real.
Anyways transcript of the comic text that is most likely needed due to my horrid handwriting:
E: I know the realm desired a new prince.
R: Nonsense the first head of the dragon was a daughter, not a son.
E: Hmmm, while i certainly was never the most devote student of history I am most sure Rhaenys was the youngest.
R: True but look at our girl, she's already far too sweet to be a Visenya.
E: Then I'll endeavour to make the next one more sour.
R: that would be much appreciated.
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ichigopuddingmuslima · 15 hours ago
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Just wanted to say to all the Alexei haters as an Alexei apologist (I don't have an audience and I feel like you would understand)
Brainwashing ≠ Torture
This is vital for what I'm about to say..
All three super soldiers (Bucky, Alexei & John) have ALL been brainwashed one way or another.
Just because Bucky's form of brainwashing is more outwardly ugly, does not invalidate the brainwashing both Alexei and John have experienced. No one is immune to propaganda. NO ONE.
In fact, being aware that you're being brainwashed also doesn't make it less affective.
All three are soldiers. All three were trained in some form of military training. That alone already makes them vulnerable to other forms of suggestion. Bucky then proceeded to get tortured for decades. Alexei was puppeteered and praised as a hero. John was given a mantel he could never live up to.
All three discarded and left to pick up the pieces.
I hate when people only focus on Alexei giving up Natasha and Yelena as the reason to hate him. It's a shitty thing to do, but when you're bred and trained and ordered to believe something you do is right, you're not going to question it. At the end of the day, they're all broken people who's done bad things. Whether involuntary or they simply think it's what's right. Give. Them. A chance.
(I'm also 99.9999% sure Alexei is unaware of the human trafficking that Dreykov was doing but people aren't ready to hear that)
Alexei haters can kick rocks with open toed sandals.
Alexei is a victim. The same way that Milena, Natasha, Yelena, and the rest of the Red Room widows are. I thought that was extremely clear in the Black Widow movie but I understand that media literacy is a dying skill.
Alexei says he was thrown into prison for protesting against the government and I believe that. He's done bad things. Really bad things but he is far from a bad person. The Black Widow movie was his start to redemption and the Thunderbolts continues that story. Marvel has historically butchered their characters so I'm hoping to treat him better in fanfiction. I hope I'm doing a good job lol
(He absolutely was unaware of the trafficking!)
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witherby · 2 days ago
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I would like to request angst with Bruce and Hal 😇
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Feat. Bruce Wayne, Hal Jordan, and some light angst.
This is set in the earlier days of the Justice League and pre-relationship. They've got several members, but the smooth synergy isn't all there yet.
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In hindsight, if he'd just taken a minute to stop and think about what he was going to do before doing it, they would not be in this position. A fact that pisses him off just as much as it eats him with guilt.
"If you can give me time to map the pattern," Bruce had said, yelling so he could be heard over the racuous gunfire from Lex Luthor's latest machine designed to destroy Superman, "I can find the weak points for you to take it down."
And Hal...well. He never did like waiting for something to happen when he could seize control of the situation and handle it in his own way. He especially didn't like being told to rely on someone else telling him where and how to use his ring that the Lantern Corps bestowed upon him. That's how operating on a team works, though, which he's been trying his best to adhere to.
Mostly trying.
Kinda trying.
He's helped here and there, but mostly minds his business. He's a goddamned Green Lantern. This planet and a big-ass chunk of this galaxy are all part of his jurisdiction, and he guards it just fine by himself. Batman has no business giving him orders, what with that stupid pointy cowl, and that big flappy cape, and the bat-themed tiny boomerangs, and his huge feet, and those rippling thighs, and a jaw that could cut diamonds, and the fleeting sight of that ass when the cape is billowing in the wind —
Anyway, he can't be bothered to listen to some guy in glorified spandex boss him around when he can just take out the big, hulking machine himself. It's human in design, with some synthesized Kryptonite integrated into its weaponry. A simple construct is more than enough to take it out and make it back home before the newest episode of Project Runway comes on. He's been rooting for Jaques and his insane pleating techniques all season.
"I've got a magic space ring, Spooks. The whole thing is a weak point in comparison," Hal smirks. He takes to the air with a wink and a wave. He's about to fly straight at the weapon and smash it with a giant green hammer, but he's suddenly blasted by a beam of vivid, yellow light right out of the robot's mouth. His suit flickers and his stomach jumps into his throat, which is his only indicator that he's rapidly plummeting to the ground. The world spins faster than he can re-solidify the suit and orient himself, and the only thing he can think is god fucking dammit, I hate it when he's right.
He hits the dirt with a thud, blood roaring in his ears. His back is on fire and Bruce is rushing towards him, yelling something Hal can't make out. He's absolutely not in the mood to get scolded right this second. Give a guy some space to breathe, man.
" — up!! Get your feet under you, NOW!"
Hal jolts. The Bat's got an arm supporting his back and he's practically dragging the Lantern's body off the middle of the field. Hal's legs make an aborted attempt to get under him and support himself, but it's a useless endeavor when a huge, yellow cage springs up around the two of them moments later and knocks them both out of play.
Satisfied they won't be going anywhere, Lex's stupid machine turns away from the two of them and refocuses his attention on their teammates. Superman can't fly in close or the kryptonite the robot is armed with will take him down, too, which has suddenly turned this situation from a relatively low-stakes fight to a potential clusterfuck.
They're three men down — one rendered useless at close-range, one trapped by a stupid color, and one trapped for trying to rescue the guy that didn't listen to him.
Hal can't see Bruce's eyes under the cowl, but he shrinks away from his lethal glare all the same.
"...what was it you'd said," he mutters, "about watching for a weak point?"
"Shut the hell up."
"I — yeah okay. This one's on me."
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banjomelodies · 2 days ago
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I find it slightly funny that everyone on CRKs Tiktok fanbases immediately jumped on the hate wagon of ShadowVanilla .. but then proceeded to adore and praise EternalHolly as if they aren't the same pairing in different paint. They're the same ship. With the beasts being so very infatuated with their other halves that it's almost toxic. The happy ending for both of them is literally their other half falling victim to their respective shtick because they don't want them to die, they want their company for as long as possible, even if only one of them verbally seems to accept that as their truth (With Shadow Milk pushing Vanilla away when offered friendship, but Eternal Sugar just starts begging like crazy) Unlike let's say, Burning Spices relationship to Golden Cheese. He's not obsessed with her as a cookie, he's obsessed with the idea of something new. Challenge. And Golden Cheese gave him the perfect fight that he wanted.
Shadow Milk and Eternal Sugar are more attached to controlling and being beside their other halves than he was.
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THESE TWO COSTUMES ARE LITERALLY THE IDEALIZED VERSIONS OF THE TWO THAT THEY WANTED (Except I'm pretty sure Pure Vanillas just straight up happens! I can't get the game to run for longer than twenty minutes! So I don't know! Someone else made a really detailed thingy on all the beasts interactions and obsessions with their respective Ancients, so I'll try reblogging that at some point). THEY WANTED THEIR RESPECTIVE SOUL JAM HOLDER TO LIVE WITH THEM, IN THEIR HOME.
I'm not going to say that I am a super diehard fan of these pairings myself. Honestly, it's a 50/50 on how I feel. I think some days it's really up my alley, other times it's not, I think it depends on how it's written and shown to me. Like I personally prefer it when it has redemption arcs in it, as while I find the negative nuances of their relationship interesting to think about and dive into, I don't exactly ship the pairing in that light, personally. It's a "I absolutely love this when the toxicity eventually fades" type of love. But denying the fact that these are genuinely the same type of dynamic just in favor for which flavor of toxic gays you want is so weird. They're the exact same, you're just replacing the words Toxic Yaoi with Toxic Yuri !!! You can't say one is a bad ship because it's toxic just to like the wlw version of it !!
And obviously, I'm not saying these are the exact same, there's distinct differences in both, obviously, but generally? Yeah.
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rukafais · 1 day ago
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Got in an argument today and made a lot of people mad when I said I didn't care if Iran does have nukes, it's still no excuse to start blowing people up. Pointed out that, furthermore, if the nonproliferation treaty basically just allows certain (mostly western) countries to have nuclear weapons but not anyone else, what it really does at the end of the day is allows the imperial core to have the privilege and security of the threat of mutually-assured destruction while denying the same to the nations they openly exploit. If disarmament isn't happening on our end, why can't other countries have that same deterrent? Might get everyone to leave them the hell alone for a change. Also reiterated that the US especially shouldn't get to tell anyone not to play with nukes after what we did in WWII, and pointed out that Israel almost certainly has nuclear weapons of its own but refuses to be open about it. Boy did everyone hate all of that, both sides of the aisle.
Yeah it's absolutely wild how people are acting like there's any fucking point to this beyond greed and power flexing. And even if there was a point, bombing people because you THINK they're doing something bad isn't like, a good thing?? Nobody should be able to just do that shit!
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trampled-and-melting · 1 day ago
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cute odesta headcanons:
unconventional compliments are their jam. both because they're obsessed with everything about each other and because it can't bring up bad memories if those words have never been strung together by a human before.
it takes a really long time for them to admit to having feelings for each other
they're effectively living together and already sleeping in the same bed some nights before one of them finally works up the courage to be like "hey so um i think i have a crush on you"
they like to playfully manhandle each other. play fighting and play wrestling and grappling (they're both combat trained they gotta use it somehow)
there are days when finnick cannot stand to be touched, even when he's in an otherwise decent mood. on such days annie sometimes shows affection by lightly throwing small objects at him. a pebble, a wad of paper, a pen cap. just as a small, nonverbal "hey, i'm thinking about you," since she can't kiss him about it
on the days when it is viable, there is so much kissing. on the hand. on the wrist. on the shoulder. on the neck. they both do this. they use it to punctuate interactions, to signal contentment, to directly acknowledge each other when they just haven't in a while.
finnick particularly favors hand kisses, because they make him feel like a gallant knight swearing fealty to his lady.
annie particularly favors forhead and nose kisses, because they're chaste and sweet and they make him make cute faces.
in bad moments, sometimes, annie completely loses speech. for this reason, finnick always has a pen on him when they're out of the house. she carries one, too, but it's always good to have a backup.
once they had two pens and no paper, and he ended up letting her use his forearm to write down what she needed.
this turned into the two of them doodling on each other as a grounding exercise, which was surprisingly effective.
every time she falls asleep on him while he's still awake, she wakes up with her hair in dozens of tiny braids
finnick occasionally brings her gifts from the capitol (purchased by him with his own money, of course). because i hc annie as a stem girlie this usually takes the form of niche scientific nonfiction that you just can't get in the districts
they take their coffee opposite ways. finnick with lots of milk and sugar because he's a baby, annie black no sugar because she finds strong flavors soothing
they've each gifted each other multiple pieces of hand-made jewelry, which rhey both wear as often as possible
finnick was beginning to earnestly hate the color green until annie came along, and now he struggles to resent the color of her eyes
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mr-ladystardust · 2 months ago
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I hate revising !!!!!!
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isnt-that-wizardd · 3 months ago
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if you like langdon but hate santos or vice versa then i believe that you simply do not understand the characters
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virginreprise · 3 months ago
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if you slap joel miller and arthur morgan together, looks and personality, you will have created my dream man.
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labyrinthinesyndicatex · 2 days ago
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"Yeah, well, those drinking games were the only thing that made your terrible show choices bearable," he says against her mouth, grinning at the memory. The Georgetown reference hits him like a sucker punch to the chest - all those nights sprawled across her dorm room floor, pretending to hate whatever reality garbage she'd put on while secretly loving how animated she got during the dramatic parts. He'd bitched about every single show but never once reached for the remote because watching her enjoy herself was better entertainment than anything on television. Her comment about Mochi being a matchmaker makes him laugh even as she's grinding down against him in ways that are seriously testing his ability to form complete sentences. Only Mariana could manage tactical cat analysis while completely scrambling his brain. "Mochi's got better game than both of us combined," he manages, voice coming out rougher than intended. His hands settle at her waist like they've been waiting three years to remember exactly how she fits against him. The stubborn comment makes something twist in his chest because she's right - they're both too pigheaded to give up on things that matter. Three years ago that trait worked against them, both too proud to fight for what they had. Now it feels like maybe that same quality is exactly what they need.
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Her fingers tracing his jawline make him forget whatever clever response he was planning. The admission about missing his smart mouth hits harder than her physical proximity, which is saying something because she's currently destroying his ability to think straight. Three years of convincing himself that the connection between them was just college nostalgia, just his brain romanticizing what they'd had. But sitting here with her hands in his hair, her body remembering his like muscle memory, those rationalizations feel pretty stupid. "You want to know what I missed?" he says, pulling back just enough to meet her eyes. "I missed everything. Your laugh, your brain, the way you get excited about chemistry disasters. But mostly I missed this - us, together, not pretending we don't still want each other." The words spill out before he can second-guess them because she's looking at him like he's something precious instead of the guy who's spent three years nursing hurt feelings and too much pride. "I've missed you since day one. When you walked away from me, I thought my life ended. Don't ever do that to me again. I don't think I'd survive a second time," he said, pressing his forehead against hers.
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"Three episodes would've broken you completely," she says against his mouth, laughing when he admits he would've caved early. "You always were terrible at sitting through bad television." The memory hits her suddenly. All those nights at Georgetown when he'd let her pick whatever mindless reality show was on, complaining the entire time but never actually changing the channel. He'd make these elaborate drinking games out of the worst programmes just to make them bearable. His hands remember exactly where to settle and her brain goes a bit fuzzy around the edges. Three years of telling herself she'd imagined how good this felt, how perfectly they moved together. Apparently her body kept better records than her conscious mind did. "Oh please, Mochi's been planning this since you walked in," she murmurs, rolling her hips deliberately. "She's basically a furry matchmaker at this point." The way he says her name when she mentions their stubbornness makes something warm unfurl in her chest. He gets it. Gets that they're both disasters who'd rather dig their heels in than admit they want something.
Back then it meant they both retreated to separate corners instead of fighting for what they had. Now it feels like the exact quality that might actually work in their favour for once. When he pulls back to catch his breath, she feels exposed under his gaze. The teasing comment about not being shy makes her cheeks warm but she doesn't look away. "Maybe I'm tired of being careful," she says, voice coming out breathier than she intended. Her fingers trace along his jawline, thumb brushing across his lower lip. "I miss that smart mouth of yours. I miss everything about you." The admission hangs between them for exactly half a second before she's kissing him again, deeper this time. No more testing the waters or careful exploration. Just three years of wanting poured into the slide of her mouth against his. His hands sliding up her back make her arch closer, chasing the contact she's been denying herself for far too long. "Tell me you missed this too," she whispers against his lips, needing to hear him say it.
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spaciebabie · 6 months ago
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see i absolutely despise jimmy (and curly) as a character(s) but as a literary freak i can appreciate the way hes used as a story device with his relationship to curly. i could type this more eloquently but currently ive had a glass of champagne and i havent drank in like 6 months so my tolerance is low so forgive my writing but. jimmy cannibalizing curly. yeah.
theres multiple messages here, theres the message that jimmy is doing what curly (assumedly) did to get into his position and, employing another metaphor, taking the "dog eat dog world" saying to heart. and literally. devouring his competition. or maybe curly didnt do that. and thats what jimmy thinks curly did and so he aims to do the same. choose whichever one you like more they're both interesting storywise.
theres the message where jimmy "consumes" curly in some twisted expression of love. devouring curly so that he remains a part of him, an expression that he is the gold star captain and something to aspire to. admiration for something he'll never be and so he chooses to consume him in order to potentially absorb some of his skill or become more like him.
and then there is curly sitting there helplessly being devoured. its something he has no say in, not something that he chose to happen to him, its something hes become swept up in. he becomes devoured by jimmy in the literal sense of cannibalism, but also in the sense that he became so absorbed in his friendship w/jimmy he ignored his wrongdoings and ultimately led to anya's assault as well as the death of the whole crew.
curly and jimmy intertwined so that one is always consumed by the other. curly in a literal sense, jimmy in a more psychological one. i mean like its really quite crazy they did the "im consumed with thoughts about this guy and want to be him so i must literally consume him" thing quite well. when examining mouthwashing's narrative you find new things to admire every time. each little story element has a place in creating a wonderfully complex and heartbreaking story. its very well done and honestly something to aspire to from the perspective of someone who enjoys studying/writing literature.
all of this is to say i think that there should be more art of jimmy covered in blood and engaging in this cannibalism like the stupid little leech he is
#spacie spoinks#only post i will ever make about curly or jimmy btw. i genuinely hate the both of them with a burning passion#i think im just. projecting too hard but i just cant enjoy them. i have tried it doesnt work. and thats okay#my life experiences just affect me too much for that lol#this is all they'll ever get from me lmaoooo#i will enjoy art others make tho#im mostly saying this just so people dont ask me for any curly and jimmy stuff skjfskf you wont get it smiles politely#you can enjoy these characters if you wish no judgement. there is a lot to like about them as you can see by my post#see i can be a hater and introspective at the same time!!!#its not something that can be helped my Literary Analysis brain overrides any hate i feel towards those two#and when i view them as tools in a story they're easier to deal with seeing all the time#anyway enjoy this post. im sure someone has said it better than me but yeah jimmy x curly cannibalism for the win!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i love writing!!!!!!!!!! hope i can also do it some day#see but like my reaction is normal the narrative made me hate them b/c it wanted me to#this is why mouthwashing is a good story it made me *feel* something about these characters#even though that feeling is hatred!! and isnt that just so wonderful#characters did bad things and i hate them b/c of it!! wow. storytelling is awesome#none of this is sarcastic. hope it doesnt come off as that#whenever a narrative makes you feel something with this deep of a complexity it is worth celebrating#mouthwashing#okay happy new year goodnight
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heepthecheep · 6 months ago
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I'm not opposed to the idea of a, for a lack of a better term, 'moving on' arc, but doing it in this way is just bizarre. And it doesn't feel in-character for Tawnypelt either?
You know who it would fit perfectly? Poppyfrost. Daisy. Nightcloud. Sparkpelt. Brackenfur. Icestar. Sparrowtail.
Hell, this would be a more compelling plot for fucking Bumblestripe
Not to mention that this seems entirely antithetical to what Crowfeather has become post-Crowfeather's Trial
And even if you where doing this plot with her, it would make more sense for her to be crushing on Oakfur rather rather than mfing Crowfeather
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lala-blahblah · 10 months ago
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I will never make this because it would be for an audience of one (me) but ever since reading "If we Were Villains" (story about serious drama kids in college who perform shakespeare and deal with a murder) I have been entertaining the thought of a crack fic crossover with High School Musical The Musical The Series where the staff decides they will no longer put on shakespeare after the tragic accident that happened at Thanksgiving, because Shakespeare plays would only increase the tension and drama. So they hire Ms. Jen who decides their spring play will actually be High School Musical (which exists in the 90s in this universe) and it ruins the vibe so much that everyone gives up on being dark and mysterious because they're universally pissed at Ms Jen for making them learn choreoraphed basketball dancing.
#if we were villains is actually genuinely good and has actual literary worth and pulls from shakespeare in an intelligent meaningful way#but unfortunately all i can do is comedy so this is the only fan content i have to offer :(#THE THING IS iwwv is just hsmtmts if it hsmtmts was good and also they committed crimes#they utilize the same parallel of casting choices with real life drama which I love#umm so casting: Meredith would be Sharpay Obvi. I think it would be really funny if James was cast as Ryan bc they hate eachother and would#have to pretend to be siblings working together. And I think ashley tisdale and Lucas Gabreel actually didn't get along when filming#also i love the thought of Ms Jen looking at James and going “i know what you are”#HOWEVER it would be more interesting if james was Chad to Oliver's Troy (which is really just reversing their Romeo and Juliet moment)#bc chad is like nooo don't do theater... stick with me and do basketball... but it would be Coded Subtextually#Unfortunately Wren would be typecast as Gabriella and I don't think that would cause drama bc I don't believe James actually liked her!#I think it was comp het bc she was very sweet and nonthreatening as opposed to Meredith's big flirting energy so she would be a “safe” crus#lets lean into that actually. this gives Wren a chance to have a personality (bc I enjoy this book but it is not good at fleshing out women#So oliver and Wren spend more time together and kind of talk about James a little and Wren is like yeah James is very sweet#and I like him but it feels so hard to get him to feel comfortable with me... i guess he's just closed off and doesn't talk much#we also get to see more of her personality and interests maybe she's like I relate to gabriella because I also like to Read :) feminism#and oliver is like Hmm That Is Not My Experience With Him perhaps our bond is deeper and James does like me Hm#And then Meredith can flirt with him as Sharpay and James gets pissed and in character gets very intense about how Troy can't join THEATER#that's why he's upset and sad bc sharpay represents theater and only that reason and nothing else and he isn't in love with oliver At All#Alexander can be Ryan now since James is Chad (and he's also Gay) and Filippa can be Kenzie bc they're both queer coded#Anyway at rehearsal one day Meredith and James and Oliver are having their fighting over troy moment and then Meredith stops and is like#wait guys. This musical is so freaking stupid. why are we even doing this#and their mutual frustration at their art being turned into a farce is enough to bond them together and they're like#we need to focus on our REAL enemy: ms Jen#and then they hatch a scheme and it's probably like. They dump a bucket of fake blood on her at opening night a la carrie#and then put on their own rebellious production... it still has to be a musical because i like musicals#families with children are in the audience and they're like OK FOLKS! HERE'S ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW!#if we were villains#iwwv#hsmtmts#high school musical the musical the series
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bunnyboy-juice · 5 months ago
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#bunny rambles#i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed#and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF#cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy#this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those#scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown#my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell#that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year#ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so#capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an#Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now#i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as#well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent#but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad#like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve#held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE#(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me#a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist#system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta#talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront#them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff#but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna#clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done
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victorie552 · 9 months ago
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I'm warming up to the idea of Alastor and Lilith being work assiociates:
they meet during Alastor's early days when he's still slaughtering Overlords and Lilith's like "he looks competent, let's make him my secretary"
it doesn't start that way, oh no, but by a combination of threats, gentleman agreements and many open mic nights they basically become friends, and yes, Alastor is pretty much Lilith's right hand man in Pride Ring
the job becomes less and less visible with years, so most Overlords don't really remember Lilith and Alastor were work buddies. Zestial does, he joined them for a work-related outing sometimes
but Lilith stops looking after her job at some point for HH Plot Reasons and they kind of stop hanging out cause there's no reason anymore
then before their 7-year absence Alastor gets in trouble and Lilith jumps on the opportunity of getting a soul deal. It's not personal, she generally likes the man, she just needs to have him on a leash, it's just more practical that way
ownership of the soul gets transferred and for some time it seems it didn't change anything about their relations, Alastor does her bidding pretty much just as before
do you know how Husk and Alastor are? Husk hates that he's on Alastor's leash but he's not... very mad about it? Like he tried to warn Alastor about Mimzy in Episode 5. I think Husk IS angry with Alastor, but... no more than he already showed? If the deal got broken, that relationship could be salvaged I think
Lilith and Alastor are not like that. Alastor seethes. He hates, HATES that he's not his own man anymore. And he doesn't feel betrayed, no sir, it's just that they had a perfectly amicable working relationship before, why change that! (he doesn't think that he had opportunities to use Lilith to his own gain and took only about half of them. Lilith took every single one cause she's smarter than that Alastor)
he's still good at his job of course
then Lilith tells him to go to Hazbin Hotel and look after Charlie. he actually kinda does, huh
during Extermination Day he gets a pretty bad death scare we know and love
if there was a chance for them talking it out before it's out now, Alastor is OVER Lilith, he's NOT dying for that woman
then Lucifer comes to live at the Hotel and Alastor is told to look after him too
the fucking NERVE.
What I want to portray is Alastor and Lilith meeting to compare notes and talk plans, and of course Lilith hears anything about shennigans at the Hotel and is like "What are you doing"
And Alastor deadpans "Your job".
Cue Alastor flying through the wall.
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