#thinking entirely TOO MUCH this morning

[ghastlytofu]

okay but wyll being extra cautious about relationships in part because mizora's literally spying on his life through the sending stone that is his prosthetic eye.

who wants to expose their lover to that, or risk being vulnerable when you know your abuser is watching your every move? and wyll with his admitted dreamer's heart, getting misty-eyed over mermaids as a boy, brave and generous and warm as a man, seven years under mizora's yoke but still aching for a fairytale romance.... esjfjsk;

[chiquilines]

Ochako my relatable academically exhausted queen

[alackofghosts]

they're so silly 🥹

[multicolour-ink]

This morning I felt the most depressed and most cynical I have ever felt in a long time.

I've honestly been feeling this way the last few days - just in a state of lowness where my depression was winning - but this morning it finally accumulated into the most abhorrent emotions.

I'm still not fully over it and I'm honestly not sure why I even feel better right now (something has calmed me down but I don't know what). I might feel bad again tomorrow - we'll see 🤷‍♀️

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

feeling weird mixed feelings atm and I can't really logic them away, ig? on the one hand I'm completely apathetic about it. on the other hand there's a part of me that's absolutely horrified that I could do something like that. the fact that it's still a consistent low-level pain the whole time also doesn't help. anyway those kinds of thoughts are then making me want to harm again to cope with them but also a) it's manageable and b) I currently have a deep horror of self-inflicted pain after the last few days apparently.

[magnoliamyrrh]

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[juriyuna]

There's something refreshing about how Juri's reluctance to make friends was less "What if they don't like me?" and more "I know I struggle with my temper because of my mental illness, and I know I'll inevitably get mad about something and end up hurting them".

Characters who are afraid of being disliked because of their personality, or who are socially anxious in general, are pretty common, but it's not often that I see characters who are scared of being the one to hurt others with their personality. I love how the story digs into that, with all of the ugly parts and anxiety that come with it-- especially where we get to see that Juri does end up making friends she loves, who love her in kind, and who help her learn to manage her problems.

[dayurno]

Oh your kevjeanthea in the pros is so funny because like. Jean will spend the whole night awake wondering what they are to each other and the next morning he opens his phone to see that he was added to Kevin and Thea's dogpark friends gc. Just fully introduced as like "oh this is Kevin and Thea's Jean"

ITS SERIOUSLY LIKE THAT. i think jean would have a very specific idea of what kevin and thea are like especially a few years into playing on a pro team together and he'll be very very very surprised it's not what he expected at all. he's going to realize he was wrong one day when he's sitting in (hand to god) pottery class (POTTERY CLASS, jeremy, do you understand how off in the head these people are) with kevin and thea fighting for his life to get any say in how their matching mugs are going to look like (kevin wins because he exhausts them) (they end up being trojan-red abominations and you can't even drink out of thea's)

just very! you know! sneakily domestic... i think jean would be fully in bed with his head on thea's chest thinking to himself what the fuck is going on here. who are these people. why do i feel so happy. i must be going crazy. I must hate them. i need to get the fuck out of here. like a nervous prey animal. but the sex is amazing. and trying to get moved from the houston sirens is going to be such a pain in the ass. and they have a dinner party with the neighbors in a week and why would jean miss out on free food. so you can understand the stress he's under

[micamone]

oh fuck ive repered the cussions . . . told a friend nah girl i can shovel the snow from your driveway even though i did mine too already. . . . my back can take it its cool

and fellas.... you'll never guess how I'm feeling this evening

[froshele]

today in the wild I came across a phrase to the effect "...And this [pair of ethical axioms about what constitutes quality of life for purposes of discussion about disability and coma prognosis, based on the opinion of one person who has not ever been in a coma or disabled thereafter] suggests that maybe, just maybe, [relevantly comatose or recovering or disabled] people may have quality of life sufficient to make them ethically relevant"

that's ... not, um, normally considered to be what makes people "ethically relevant" in the world where all the people are and there's sunshine and grass and things, but, you know what, ok jennifer, A for effort! :) gold star for you, philosopher extraordinaire, moral lodestar for people unsure what to do with granny, paragon of ethical conduct!

[outlying-hyppocrate]

(:

[ghostzzy]

gets stressed and sad and immediately starts dumping blood from my body

[bunnihearted]

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[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[cw: anti-NPD ableism, fictional child death, gore.]

you know. i can't believe it didn't quite click for me until now, but i knew there was a piece of the ableism puzzle missing with ivan, and i just realized that along with the audhd/dyslexia stuff he is a really violently hateful depiction of NPD.

pwNPD are all evil, stupid abusers who will only ever accomplish anything by riding others' coattails; anyone who believes they have worth or deserve love only thinks that because they're fooling themselves and denying reality, at the expense of the reasonable people who actually deserve the love and approval they're hogging; it's funny, satisfying, and their just deserts to take them down a peg by intentionally insulting and humiliating them; and you should cheer for their gruesome, frankly dehumanizing deaths. very awesome and cool

[polaraffect]

hyperfixations are all fun and games until it's 4 a.m. and you've been doing the same thing for 8 hours straight and you have to wake up in 5 hours for work.

[theemperorsfeather]

Messaged a former coworker (she left 5 or 6 months ago?) for potential networking and catching up and it was - hmm, what's the right word here? reassuring? affirming? augh - well anyway, she said things are going well and something like it's nice to be working at a more relaxed pace and, yeah. I'll bet!! (For the most part she was doing quite different work in the dept than I was but it's - well, it's sure SOMETHING when someone says more or less the same thing you're thinking.)