#this doesn’t even include the caption this video!

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as an england nt historian could you pls provide background for john/joe hart as both an irl working partnership and a fictional ship? bc i have been deep diving 2016/2018 internationals content to forget about the upcoming one and i see there is a lot of....well intimate touches and looks going on. not on a disgusting and marital level as with stonesford but still noticeable. the 'caption this' vid john did with dele ft. harty walks and lallana (remember him lol) is a strong blatant example. sidebar but my deep dive has also taught me that dele and walks had some animosity at england camp back in the day which does not seem to come up much in fic of the time, kind of funny to me. how was this our 3lions squad and our vibe only 4/5 years ago too? it feels like over a decade, completely different times

Joe Hart was an England stalwart and wore the Number 1 jersey for nine years from 2008. He was with City and a double premier league winner for 12 years from 2006.

For John coming up through the England youth teams, Joe was iconic. He has been vocal about the fact that he was a fan growing up and how special it was for him to get his first call up in 2014 to finally play alongside Joe:

“I couldn’t believe it; I’d watched Harty for years as a young guy; playing for England. Obviously training with him was something special.”

John didn’t get a whole lot of time playing for the senior team when he was first called up, but it didn’t matter - he was there, and Joe Hart rated him. At the World Cup in Brazil, Joe said:

“I think we’re all incredibly excited. We’ve all worked really, really hard as a unit – I include John Stones and Jon Flanagan in that, they’ve been absolutely fantastic and a great example of people who want to be involved in this World Cup.

“We want to make them proud, we want to make the people at home proud as well.

“I’ve got a role whether playing it’s John Terry playing in front or whether it’s Stonesy starting his international career,” he said.

“I’m always going to try and fulfill my role in the team.

“But I trust every single one of these players at this level. They’ve proved it at their Premier League clubs and deserve to be in the squad.”

Joe took John under his wing and they absolutely clicked from the get go. At a time when John wasn’t too highly rated and was extremely junior in the England NT, the goalkeeper that he’d looked up to for so many years was determined to see him succeed.

Things changed in 2016 when Man City hired Pep Guardiola. Hart was excited that Pep wanted to sign John but he didn’t know that he wasn’t to be included in Pep’s plans himself:

“Joe Hart personally convinced his friend, John Stones, to join City and the “ambitious project” in 2016 - only to be shipped out on loan to Torino the same month.”

Still, when John arrived at City - very nervous and without people like Kyle Walker - Harty was there for him:

“John Stones on the first player he met at City: “I think it was Joe Hart. I came in with Harty, I didn’t know the way to the training ground. So I rang Harty asking if I could come with him.

I was nervous. Very nervous. I had friends from England, Raheem Sterling, Fabian Delph and Joe Hart - he especially made it so much easier. It's a big period as you know where nothing is, like the canteen, where to be, what time to get there and he coached me through, putting an arm around me. I've still got a note in my locker from him when he went to Torino - I won't read it out as it has some naughty words - but he told me to just be me and not change who I am.”

Joe was gutted to leave City but he didn’t anticipate that he’d then be let go from England. He was part of England’s qualification for the World Cup in 2018, but after an injury ruled him out for a game, Jordan Pickford was given a chance to step in. He did not fumble his audition and was given the number 1 spot for the World Cup. Harty said:

“Not going to lie, I'm gutted. After two years of trying to make the most of a really tough situation, this is hard to take.”

A few months later, he posted on Instagram ahead of the World Cup:

John smashed it at the World Cup, and so did Pickford, and arguably it was the way they played together that made them do so well. It is unfortunate that this connection is what would ultimately cement Pickford as number 1 and see Harty dropped for good:

“Jordan’s positioning allows the team to stay spread and dispersed a lot wider. When we have the ball, he becomes what you might call a ‘second-pivot,” explains Dittmer.

“When you play with a back four, you can use the goalkeeper as the pivot to bounce the ball around. When you play with a back three - like we have done in Russia - you already have that pivot there with the central player which has been John Stones.

“As a goalkeeper behind a back three, you need to become the second pivot.

“You have to position yourself between the central defender and one of the two outside centre-halves to offer receiving positions to help the team play out.

“Those positions are quite complicated and complex to take up but he’s done that really well.

“Jordan’s positioning stops the centre forward from just closing down one option.

“If the forward runs towards Jordan, he’ll play through the pressure. If the attacker presses the central defender, there’s an option to use Jordan and get out round the other side.

“It gives the team more opportunities to play out from the back and retain possession.

“His understanding of positioning has really helped the team stay dispersed, rotate the ball and play forward in a positive way. It’s great to see and it has given confidence to everyone.”

But Joe and John stayed obsessed with each other. When they met at Tottenham years later they were physical and friendly, and Joe always has kind words to say about John - never once has he not been John’s biggest cheerleader.

Joe will always be John’s first England number 1. He was pivotal in John’s City career and the love between them has never dimmed. They will always be famous. The end

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hey can I request something that’s angsty to fluff and then smut for Oscar where reader gets a ton of hate for dating Oscar so she kind of ghosts him for a bit and they figure things out

𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐢 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐰/𝐨𝐩𝟖𝟏

📖𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: oscar really just wants to hear you laugh again. 📖𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴: 18+ only. angst. fluff. happy ending. reader is exhausted physically and mentally. reader's internal monologue is not not nice. bad eating habits. bad sleeping habit. self-deprecation. don't worry she's back on her bs at the end. reader neglects herself (?) and her relationship. implied self-sabotage. people are mean. don't worry oscar is meaner. oscar piastri is a good boyfriend. emotional hurt/comfort. tenderness. intimacy. baths and pampering. crying (non-sexy). implied sex. implied bath sex. logan and lando as plot devices. no beta we die like my will to live during finals. 📖𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: 5.1k words. 📖𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴: oscar piastri x fem!reader 📖𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲: oneshot w/ blurbs. 📖𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗸: best i ever had • drake

𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲: sorry it took me so long, i've changed this fic like multiple times :/ hope it fulfills you request properly :))) this is not my favorite thing in the world, i feel like if i went on a smaller scale i would've enjoyed this more but what can you do. this is also not very black reader coded? idk but feel like it's lacking there. i also apologize for my inability to write an oscar fic without including lando, he's such a willing plot device though even if he's a little ooc. i also couldn't find the mental space to write smut but there's smth for you at the end. dedicated to us women in stem! i hope you have fun reading this because i didn't have fun writing it :)

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oscar is worried. you haven’t responded to his texts for a week, he hasn’t seen your face for two weeks, and he hasn’t heard your voice for three weeks. four weeks ago, you told him you wouldn’t be able to fly out to see him at the austin grand prix, like you promised. you sounded exhausted and incredibly guilty when you explained that your course load this semester is extreme, and finals are rapidly approaching. oscar understood; he won’t ask you to sacrifice your education for one of his races, there will be plenty you can come to in the future. what he doesn’t understand is how you’re still functioning. it’s your senior year of university at an american ivy league school, you're pursuing an engineering degree, and you’re also working nearly five days a week as a barista. oscar thinks the last time he’s seen you relaxed is before your fall semester started, you spent your entire summer break with him, making appearances at the only three races you’ve been to this season (silverstone, hungary, and spa). the last time he recalls seeing your smile and hearing your laugh is in august—it’s the end of october now. 

you’ve been ghosting him. oscar wants to believe that it’s unintentional, that it’s just a side effect of the amount of work and pressure on your shoulders—but he can’t accept that. if you were unintentionally missing his calls, facetimes, and texts, you’d spam respond to all of them with a voice message or paragraphs of texts before you went to bed or class. you would send him daily or weekly recap videos of how life is treating you, like you used to do. you would send him stupid videos of you messing around on your shifts during a pause of customers. you would send him thirty reels a day on instagram of brain dead shenanigans with little captions of how you reacted, or if you thought it would make him smile. you would send him fit checks every morning before you went to class, even though your outfit consists of a hoodie and sweatpants. you would send him tiktok edits of himself and tell him that he needs to stop being ‘so hot’ because you almost barked in the middle of class. you would ask him how he’s doing, you would respond to his texts the minute you could even if it's hours late, you would leave him voicemails if he doesn’t pick up, you would make an attempt to communicate. 

except, you haven’t. so, he knows that you ignoring him is intentional, and that your lifestyle right now makes it easier for you to disguise your avoidance of him as accidental. 

you didn’t say ‘i love you’ back. 

“mate, what are you frowning for?” oscar jumps, eyes flying up from the phone screen and meeting lando’s. the brit is staring at him in confusion, the two of them are still in their race suits, tied around their waists. the sprint race ended an hour ago, and they’ve just finished celebrating oscar’s win.

“you’ve won a race, oscar—what could possibly make you sad after that?” lando says teasingly. but, the smile on his face is quick to fade as he must see oscar’s dejected mood.

the australian debates his next move for a moment, before deciding that telling lando isn’t a bad idea; they’ve been getting closer—they’re friends, oscar would say. he sighs, and hands his phone to lando, maybe he’ll tell oscar he’s worrying over nothing.

“oh,” lando says, eyes widening, “i’m sorry, mate.”

oscar brushes off lando’s words, and buries his face in his hands, “she’s pulling away from me. that was five days ago, and she hasn’t answered any of my calls. she’s only responded to my texts since then with one word answers or very dryly. she’s ghosting me.”

oscar feels lando fumbling for words, not needing to look at him to know that the older man has no idea how to go about reassuring oscar.

“look, mate, if it were me i’d go see her anyways.”

oscar huffs, “she literally said she doesn’t have time.”

“oscar,” lando stares at him in disbelief, “she hasn’t seen you in two months. i guarantee she’s probably dying to see you again, fuck whatever time she doesn’t have. she also can’t ghost you, if you see her face to face. you should go and try to fix whatever’s wrong, before you let her slip away.”

“maybe…maybe she’s just burnt out,” oscar suggests shakily, “i’ll go see her after the triple header–i’m probably just overreacting about this. she’ll be back to her usual self in time.”

oscar is enraged. he’s pissed off at his fans for attacking you in a sick twist of ‘defending him,’ ‘protecting him’ and the supposed ‘ownership’ they think they have over him. he’s pissed off at you deciding to ghost him instead of confiding in him about the hate you receive. he’s pissed off that his flight to you has been delayed for four hours. he’s pissed off at his race in brazil, if you can even call what happened a race. he’s pissed off at the fact that you can’t make time to see him before vegas. he’s pissed off that you lied to him about picking up extra shifts at the cafe.

he stalked through your instagram the minute after he was allowed to escape debrief, hunting down your roomates accounts from where you’ve tagged them in an older post. he innocently made a group message to the two girls, figuring it would be kind and proper to inform them of his impending arrival to surprise you. and the two girls you shared an apartment with responded eagerly to his message telling him that you’ve been extremely stressed and almost depressed this semester, and that hopefully his appearance will break through to you in a way they are unable to. oscar asked them if they knew your work schedule for the week, since you never told him when you're working–and learned that you lied. you didn’t accept any extra shifts, matter of fact, you got all of your shifts covered for the next two weeks. apparently, all you have been doing is going to class, working, studying furiously, and crying. when he asks if there’s any reason besides the stress from work and school that has you crying, the girls decline to speak for you, and strongly suggest that he asks you himself when he arrives. 

oscar’s no longer pissed at you for lying to him or for ghosting him–he’s hurt, but, he already understands your motive. you don’t want to worry him, so you bottle it up and distance yourself to not make him aware of how you're struggling. he won’t let you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders alone anymore, he’s going to see you and he’s going to take care of you, and then he’ll sort out the ignorant people on the internet.

when he’s at your apartment, you’ll be coming home from your last shift before your time off. and then, once he has you in his arms, he can make everything right again.

your hands are shaking; a result from the mix of stress and exhaustion that has been plaguing you for a few weeks. it takes you four and a half attempts to unlock the front door to your apartment—this is an improvement, yesterday it took you six times. a trembling sigh of relief exits your lungs as you shut the front door, triple checking that you lock the door properly. you remove all of your outerwear and slip out of your shoes, half-heartedly making an attempt to neatly place them in the organizer you have by the door. (you fail to register how there’s only two pairs of shoes stored away; yours and a pair of shoes that look too big to be one of the girls you live with—the usual sneakers the girls wear are nowhere to be seen.) you grunt as you tenderly put on your backpack and slowly make your way into the kitchen, off-handedly murmuring a “hi,” in the direction of the living room since you can hear the tv playing, but you don’t even spare a glance to see which roommate it is—you can’t stomach anymore human interaction today.

your walk is more of a waddle; your legs and feet are sore from working nine-hour shifts five days in a row, and also from going to class four out of those five days. you place your backpack on the small island, and continue to gently meander towards the fridge. your stomach aches at the thought of food—which is unfortunate, considering you’ve only had one meal today. regardless, you will shove a sandwich down your throat, you need the energy if you’re going to study for three hours before you go to bed. 

you pause before you open the fridge, a note is stuck on the door with a magnet. your roommates are gone; the two girls have spontaneously decided to go spend the weekend with their boyfriends—you’re not going to complain, you have the apartment to yourself. a brief wave of loneliness washes over you, you were kind of looking forward to venting about the week you had to the girls in the morning, and also, couldn’t they have texted you this earlier today? who leaves old-fashioned notes on the fridge anymore? you pull out your phone to send a text in your group chat wishing them a nice weekend, and see that they did, in fact, text you that they would be gone—three days ago. and, you never responded, because you never saw it. you shrug, and send the text anyways, you’ve been incredibly busy and you’re bound to miss a few texts (especially the eighteen texts from oscar that remain unopened). 

you're just going through a little bit of a slump, and you’ve had a bad day. you accidentally messed up three orders today (out of the hundred you fulfilled, so three isn’t really terrible), your running off of four hours of sleep (you’re more energized when you sleep less, anyways), and a customer accidentally bumped into you as you were walking to bring coffee to a table, causing the hot liquid to spill and burn a little spot on the back of your hand by your thumb. well, you know it wasn’t purely accidental, as the girl giggled to the group of friends she was with after she “bumped” into you. based on the way she was wearing a mclaren hoodie, you can make several guesses as to why she did it—you’re kind of shocked that she noticed you even though you wear a mask at work (you have for about a month, too many fans have noticed who you are), her hate for a relationship that’s not hers should be studied for science. 

incidents like these have made your coworkers start to…dislike you. the decrease in tips when you’re assigned to the register causes you to be forced to be hidden behind coffee machines the entire shift, only making drinks the entire nine hours you’re there. it’s better for you though, at least you can have a physical barrier blocking the prying eyes you feel are judging you the entire time. if anything, the recent atmosphere at work made you want to put in your two weeks—but, you have bills to pay. you’re just glad you managed to find a way to get two weeks off so you can focus on school and prepare for your exams—you can’t afford to fail, it’ll cost your scholarship and then you’ll need more than the job you have right now to finish school.

the buzzing of your phone pulls you back to the present—oscar’s calling. you squeeze your eyes shut for a few seconds, before you blink and silence the ringer. if you speak to him, you won’t be able to hide your troubles from him any longer; he reads you as easily as a kid’s picture book. he definitely doesn’t need to deal with your problems after whatever the hell happened in brazil. the noise of your phone startled you into a new thought, however. if the girls aren’t in the apartment, why the fuck is the tv on? who did you greet when you walked past the main room without a glance?

“i was calling to tell you that i’ve got takeout from the asian restaurant you like, if you’re looking for something to eat,” oscar says gently.

it’s a testament to how extremely exhausted you are: you don’t scream, you don’t fight, you don’t run—you just flinch slightly, and turn around slowly to face your boyfriend…the man you’ve been avoiding for nearly a month. at the sight of him (his fluffy hair, his soft sweater, the confused and concerned glint in his eyes) your lip starts quivering, and your eyes start watering. oscar’s gaze softens into something sweet yet empathic, and he says, “i know it’s been a while since we’ve last talked, but i didn’t think you’d cry at the sight of me.”

you burst into tears with a sob, and in a second oscar’s got you wrapped up in his arms, one hand soothingly massaging your back, while the other cradles your head on his shoulder. your borderline hyperventilating, your tears have started to soak his sweater, and you’re sniffling every two seconds to avoid getting snot on him too. oscar doesn’t try to quiet your tears, he doesn’t ask about what’s making you cry, he doesn’t even try to tell you that everything will be fine—he just holds you as you cry it out and presses kisses into your hair. eventually, the flow of tears dries and you focus on pulling in shaky breaths of air to calm down. oscar switches to holding you to his chest with one arm while he uses the free one to reach across the counter and grab a tissue. wordlessly, he wipes the wetness off your cheeks and under-eyes, he even uses another tissue to wipe your nose, clearing away the snot that managed to escape. you almost start crying again at the tender treatment and the matching look in his eyes, but you muster enough strength to keep the happy tears from falling over the waterline. 

oscar nods once, deeming his cleanup complete, and clears his throat, “i’m going to heat up the food. then, we’ll eat and you’ll tell me what’s wrong and if that has anything to do with why you’re ignoring me.”

there’s no attempt from you to keep the façade up any longer, all you do is nod and step to the side so he can grab the food from the fridge.

oscar has already cleared his plate and you’re still picking through half of yours. the two of you are sitting on opposite ends of the couch, teen wolf is playing on a low volume, and your eyes are tunneled on the screen even though oscar can see that you’re not paying attention at all. one of the characters is screaming about having to get his arm cut off (stiles, probably) and suddenly you start talking to oscar.

“it’s been a shit semester. if i wasn’t graduating in spring, i honestly think i would’ve dropped out or taken a gap-year. and, i knew what i signed up for as an engineering major, and i knew that working was only going to add more on my plate—but, it’s not like i can quit my job, i have bills to pay. so, juggling school and work is difficult, and i was managing fine. but, i guess i made the mistake of scrolling through twitter—which is truly my fault i think—and everyone on the internet was calling me a ‘terrible girlfriend’,” oscar watches you scoff out a choked laugh, “and, i obviously didn’t believe i was. in the beginning, at least. i mean, it’s like they expected me to be at every race by your side, like i’m not working my way through a hellscape of a degree. i watched every practice session, qualifying, and race—they’re literally the only hours i don’t spend studying or working. i brag about you to everybody who would listen, i missed hours of sleep just to speak to you on the phone for five minutes, i work as hard as i can so i can finish this degree early so i can be with you as early as possible, and they say that you deserve a better girlfriend.”

you pause and rub at your eyes furiously, mouth opening and closing as you take time to find the words to continue. oscar quiets the flare of anger at your distress, and stays silent, not wanting to interrupt your speech, this is the most you’ve said to him in a month.

“the thing is: i-i i let their words get to me. i think it’s because i was being kicked while i was down—or whatever the phrase is. i was already mentally exhausted, and i already believe that i’m not doing my best this year, i’m disappointing everybody who knows me, i’m a shit student—and just seeing everybody agree, even though they’re just randoms on the internet, tore me down. i even deleted all of the apps off my phone,” your voice has shifted into something desperate, “so i couldn’t see what they were saying about me anymore, but it’s like once i saw it, it never left my mind. i feel like everybody is staring at me with condescending eyes, like they all think i’m terrible. and, logically, i know that’s probably not true. but, this semester has pushed me past the point of being able to rationalize properly. so as a result, i have become a ‘terrible girlfriend’ to you; like a twisted self-fulfilling prophecy.

“i avoid your calls, i leave you on delivered for days, i respond with one word, i lie to my friends and say i was up all night talking to you on the phone when i was really crying and studying at the same time, i hold back from bursting into tears in the middle of my shifts when one of your ‘fangirls’ spills their drink over me for the third time. and while doing all of this, i was hoping you’d do the hard part and just break up with me,” your voice rings out sharply and you refuse to look at your boyfriend, afraid to see the look on his face.

“because…” you whimper slightly, tongue flicking out to lick at your lips anxiously, “you do deserve a better girlfriend.”

oscar is lost for words at your conclusion; seeing you, one of the strongest women he knows break down, is a sight he never imagined. a sense of guilt builds within him, knowing that he’s added to the deprecating thoughts in your brain by postponing this intervention for weeks. you may think that he deserves someone better, but he hasn’t been the best to you either recently. if oscar was half the man you think he is, he would’ve never allowed you to avoid him in the first place. oscar stands up, collects your plate and his, and places them on the coffee table. he turns and drops to his knees in front of you, resting his hands on your thighs, and squeezes them gently to grab your attention. it takes a minute, but eventually you allow your eyes to fall to meet his, and oscar breaks further at the lack of light in your eyes.

“i think,” oscar starts quietly, “that you expect me to break up with you and leave—am i guessing correctly?”

you blink down at him and shrug, biting your lip to prevent it from quivering.

“i also think, that if i flew all this way to see you, and that if i listened to your heartbreaking recollection of how this semester and how the world has been incredibly unkind to you, and that if i sat here and still broke up you—it’s not me that deserves a better girlfriend; it’s you that deserves a better boyfriend.”

stunned, you stumble over your disagreement, but oscar steadfastly continues.

“you did the right thing by deleting your socials—and that would explain why all three hundred of the reels i’ve sent you have gone unseen,” he laughs lightly, “and even if their words took root, you prevented yourself from being able to see more of it every time you used your phone; so even if my pride is not needed, i am proud of you for doing that. i’m even more proud that you sat here and told me that you aren’t doing well, that you didn’t make an attempt to lie, and that i didn’t have to force you to tell me,” oscar says seriously, holding steady eye contact with you to make sure you're hearing him.

“i wish that you would have mentioned the hate you’re receiving as soon as it started, and that you would have told me your mental health was suffering too. you know i do everything in my power to avoid reading anything with my name in it unless it’s a credible article—so imagine my surprise, when i learned about what people were saying about you through a twitter thread logan, of all people texted me about,” you snort out a laugh at the feigned disdain in oscar’s voice when he mentions the american driver. 

“you know i have no issues embarrassing people on the internet for their incorrect claims—and i’d especially tear them to shreds for trying to drag you down. we’ve been together too long for you not to come to me about things like this, even if it’s something that mildly upsets you—i want to know, because then i can make it better, or i can at least try to. you haven’t complained to me about the grueling lifestyle once, as i worked my way up to f1; if anybody could be perfect, it would be you. so, let me try to be as perfect as you, and support you properly and thoroughly as you finish up this degree, baby.

“we’re soulmates, aren’t we?” it’s a question, but oscar states it like a fact, “and i know i can’t magically make the self-loathing disappear with one conversation, but i'll tell you that you’re the best girlfriend i’ve ever had countless times, until you believe me unquestionably.”

oscar watches your nose scrunch cutely as you sniffle, unable to stop the tears that leak from the corners of your eyes. sweetly, he catches them with his thumb before they fall. he stands up and tugs you to your feet, pulling you into a tight, warm hug. 

“i love you, kanga,” oscar coos as he kisses your forehead.

“i love you the most, roo,” you answer back, leaning up to press a kiss to the corner of his lips.

“i’ve bought some lavender epsom salt and an embarrassing amount of bath bombs. will you let me take care of you tonight?” oscar asks quietly.

he sees the mix of awed-disbelief and confusion as you stare up at him, like you can’t imagine why he’d want to love you tenderly tonight, and that hurts him more—the words of his ‘fans’ online have done enough damage to cause you to doubt him. maybe he can convince you to come to vegas with him so he can keep you close, but first, he needs to focus on caring for you here and now.

oscar grabs his duffle bag and smiles as you hold his hand to lead him to your room and the attached bathroom (rent is ridiculously expensive, but at least you don’t have to share a bathroom with your roommates.) oscar sends you to grab pajamas while he starts filling the tub, epsom salt already poured in. he fiddles with the temperature for a while before it’s set to the boiling-your-skin-off hot you enjoy. by the time you join him in the bathroom, he’s added the salts and soap in the water and has placed the bath bombs out for you to choose one. oscar can’t help the small smile that rises to his face at the sight of the serious furrow of your brow as you pick out your favorite from the bunch. 

oscar hums as you hand him the jade-infused bath bomb, and asks, “can i wash your hair too? or will it mess up your schedule?”

“i actually really need to wash it,” you murmur with a humorless chuckle, “i’ve been so busy that i haven’t been taking care of my hair properly.”

oscar blinks and continues non-judgmentally, “i’ll give you an extra scalp massage to make up for that—you can start getting undressed now, the water’s nearly ready.”

he turns around awkwardly, he’s seen you naked before but he feels like it would be slightly perverse to watch you while you’re clearly in a more sensitive state tonight. he fumbles with the faucet for a few seconds before turning it off, and drops the bath bomb into the water so it can start dispersing. oscar faces you again carefully making sure he avoids staring at your body and locks eyes with you, he beckons you forward with an outstretched hand and holds your hand as you submerge yourself in the water. once you’re settled comfortably, oscar grabs your hair products (he holds up any bottle he thinks you may not want to use tonight, and you give him a thumbs up or down to decide), and then kneels at your side.

he starts to roll up the sleeves of the hoodie but your hand halts his motions, the water splashing loudly at the quickness of your movement, “you’re not getting in with me?”

“uh,” oscar stutters, “i-i wasn’t planning on it. i just wanted to give you a nice bath.”

oscar pinkens as you stare at him wordlessly and when your unimpressed gaze shifts to a slight glare, he finds himself shedding his clothes and sinking in behind you at an impressive speed. 

his heart began to race as the two of you shifted into as comfortable of a position you could achieve in a too-small tub, but calmed at your pleased hum as you settled between his legs with your back resting on his chest. this may be the most romantic experience oscar has ever indulged in. sure, it’s not a candlelit dinner at an obnoxiously expensive restaurant but, it’s him detangling your hair, it’s him massaging shampoo into your crown, it’s him scratching softly along your scalp as the deep conditioner sits, it’s you playing with the water innocently, it’s you whispering every detail of your life that he’s missed out on, it’s you gently directing him through braiding your hair, and it’s him pressing kisses to your shoulder when he finishes. there isn’t a single moment where the two of you become unsettled during lapses of silence; the intimacy of his actions is loud enough to fill the gaps. oscar can’t imagine ever being this comfortable with anybody besides you, he hates that he almost allowed you to pull completely away from him. moments like these, where you allow yourself to be thoughtlessly vulnerable with him, are exactly why he’s completely enamored with you.

your body has loosened against him, muscles syrupy and lax from the effects of a toe-curling scalp massage, and oscar gently guides you to sit upright while steadying most of your weight with a single hand splayed against your abdomen. the sound of the cap of your body wash clicking open startles you into the present, and you shift around to straddle his lap. it’s amusing; he inaudibly chuckles at the sight of you struggling to complete your change of position without sending water over the edge. you make a triumphant noise when you’ve managed to turn around to face him, and oscar’s hands cradle your hips when you rest on his lap. 

“can i–”

“shouldn’t you–”

oscar bursts into laughter and you into giggles, at the interruption of each other's sentences. it’s definitely not that funny, but oscar’s heart skips a beat at the sound of your laugh–he hasn’t heard that sweet noise in what feels like forever. he motions for you to speak, ever the gentleman, and eagerly awaits for our question with a smile still stretched across his lips.

“shouldn’t you fuck me before we wash up? so we don’t have to clean up twice?”

oscar chokes on his breath, his grip on you tightening in surprise, and he babbles, “what? no-i mean, yes, i mean—wait. i didn’t do all of this just to have sex with you, you know that right? i genuinely just wanted to pamper you–”

“oscar,” you cut him off, intentionally this time around, “after the semester i’ve had, and the less than kind words i’ve heard and thoughts i’ve had describing myself–i really do appreciate the bath, i feel reminded that you love me. however, i really think that having sex would help…solidify your devotion for me.”

oscar blinks up at you, he wasn’t quite expecting you to return to your normal sassy behavior as quickly as you did. but, he is thankful that you’ve opened up to him with no further hesitation–it’s actually incredibly attractive of you, how you’ve resumed complete comfortability in expressing exactly what you want to him. at least, that’s the excuse he’s telling himself to cope with being half-hard already.

“...at least let me take you to bed, then?”

“no,” you whine down at him, your hips sneakily twitching forward, oscar moans lightly at the light grind, “too far! saves time later if we don’t have to come back to shower.”

“you’re right,” oscar hums distractedly, moving his right hand off your waist to slip between your thighs and brush along your cunt, “i’ll fuck you here as long as you let me do all of the work.”

oscar’s blood heats at the sound of your whimpering moan and he takes his other hand off your waist to grab at your chin and he pulls you down for a kiss.

oscar groans when you pause before your lips touch his, and he feels the breath of your giggle ghost over his mouth, “mmm, i’ll never say no to that—and, didn’t i agree to let you take care of me tonight?” 

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© httpsserene2023

[whoistartaglia]

genshin men as types of influencers—part two

part one

cyno has a prank channel, but “prank” is a loosely-defined term. sure, he acts like everything he’s filming are pranks, but are they really? he laughs at them meanwhile the person being pranked ends up more confused than anything else. the ends of the videos include an in-depth explanation as to why the prank is funny and why the audience should be laughing (they’re still not).

dottore has a very bland account dedicated to his research and experiments. this includes hours long, unedited videos of him going through the procedure, and barely explaining anything at all. he doesn’t get a lot of views, except for one random video with millions of views, likes, and comments. it’s definitely not pinned on his channel either.

albedo also has an account dedicated to his experiments, except that his videos are more like tutorials. he’ll explain the procedure, what materials you’ll need, and go through step-by-step on how to set up and complete the experiment. struggling high school and college kids love him, and he even takes his time to respond to some comments.

heizou is the host of a true crime podcast. what started out as him bragging about his escapades turned into biweekly uploads about true crimes around teyvat. sometimes he’ll bring on co-hosts, other times it’ll just be him. heizou knows the ins and outs of the detective side of things, and he’s such a naturally-gifted narrator that he’s swiftly amassed a legion of loyal fans.

tighnari has an account dedicated to nature and the environment. you’ll find several videos of animals, wilderness survival guides, and even a glimpse into his own day in the life. he most certainly has a couple rants about travelers and adventurers getting a little too friendly to hostile animals—he tells his audience to learn from their mistakes, no matter how funny the story may be.

kazuha posts pictures of short videos of his travels over teyvat, and his account is very aesthetically pleasing. he has an overall neutral color scheme and the photos he takes breathe serenity and peace—even if his day-to-day life can sometimes be anything but. he always includes where he’s currently visiting and comments on the county in the caption.

lyney posts card tricks. he is able to captivate his audience with such tricks, even fooling the most keenest of eyes. his shuffling is also impressive; can he split the deck and have the cards arranged in whatever order he wants in under a minute. his audience begs for a tutorial that lyney will never give—a magician never reveals his secrets, after all.

[accio-victuuri]

this is pretty interesting, and i understand why OP is going 👀 over XZS using the same caption she did. so this cpf posted on their weibo about WYB’s Wild Aid trip in the wilderness. they used the caption 光而不耀，静水深流 // Light without shine, still water runs deep. to describe how WYB is, someone who doesn’t speak much and is silent/still but his actions show off who he really is. it can also be connected to the photo taken of him, he is close to the water. i’m grabbing the explanation from baidu:

The literal meaning is that although there is light, it is not dazzling. The surface of the water is calm, but one does not know how deep it is. These eight characters are used to describe people who appear ordinary but contain great wisdom. When people are in good times, that is, when they are glorious and proud, that is, when they are "powerful," "have money," and "famous," they should neither show off themselves excessively nor dazzle others with a bright light. They should keep a low profile with a normal heart.

which is literally yibo. i get why OP used that to describe him and what did for Wild Aid. also knowing that this is considered public welfare, so it’s unpaid. it was done 12/13, after filming his MV, he traveled to Shenzhen so he can do it. what a good boy. 🥹🥹🥹

as you can see from the screenshot, OP posted theirs 2/3 at 10:05 kadian. and then XZS posted theirs 2/4 at 00:30. Only a few hours apart. Tho I have to say that they could have used this caption too since the video taken had water in it, literally the beginning and end showed it. so it’s not like it’s out of place, and XZS is known to be good at making captions. referencing famous lines or sayings.

we also have to include the timeline, the AV show was filmed before the time OP posted their caption. waaaay before that. it’s why we had all the trailers, photos and other things coming out even before the broadcast. i’m not sure how early or planned out xzs captions are in this case.

but i’m not removing the possibility of the boys and their teams looking at things on the internet. whoever saw that and thought, they wanted to make that connection between xz and wyb 🫶🏼. because that describes both of them, people have prejudice against them and how they are “traffic stars” and “popular celebrities” but they have such wisdom in them. the good things they do, often done in silence.

it’s all a coincidence. 😌😌😌

BONUS: some are also saying it looks like his ideal life painting.

[randomprose]

“Can you make this?”

Mo Guan Shan frowns at He Tian’s phone when he angles it in his direction. It’s a video of someone making cute rectangular layered cakes. 

He tilts his head a little, lower jaw jutting out in consideration, and He Tian knows Mo Guan Shan will make it anyway regardless of whatever he’s gonna say next.

"You into this shit?"

He Tian just shrugs. It's cute. He's into cute shit and he's not afraid to admit it. "It looks tasty."

"Hm," Mo Guan Shan hums with a non-committal shrug. "I'll try I guess."

'Try' he said as if that isn't as good as a yes. He Tian knows Mo Guan Shan won't just try. The second the question left He Tian’s lips Mo Guan Shan already took it as a challenge. He'll fucking do it and blow He Tian's mind in the process at how way better and prettier his version will be than the one in the video. Just like all the other times He Tian has shown him foods he thinks are interesting. It's as good as done at this point.  

See, it’s like this. Outside of work, the foods Mo Guan Shan cooks are just a rotation of his and He Tian’s favorite or any dish He Tian has mentioned even in passing that he likes. Mo Guan Shan has picked up on He Tian's picky eating habits and developed an instinct to mentally cataloguing He Tian’s niche food preferences and all the subtle ways he’s let them known. In his published cookbooks, at least half of the foods featured are a variation of what suits He Tian’s tastes and all of them have ‘For 贺天’ printed on the first page.

God. He Tian loves him so much. What the hell did he do in his past life to deserve such devotion?

The weekend rolls around and Mo Guan Shan presents He Tian with his own version of the cakes. 

He Tian, as he expected, is floored by how pretty they are that he doesn’t even say anything. He just stares at the little rectangular cakes in pastels decorated with intricate shapes made of fondant and meticulously piped icing.

"What's wrong?" There's worry in Mo Guang Shan’s voice seeping into defensive. "What? You don't like it?"

"No, its..." He Tian looks up at him, brows furrowed and a look of genuine conflict on his face. "They're too pretty. I kinda don't wanna eat them."

“Idiot,” Mo Guan Shan just scoffs and rolls of his eyes but the slight quirk at the corner of his lips lets He Tian know he’s pleased. "Just eat it. Food is meant to be consumed. I can always make more."

"These are definitely way, waaaay cuter than the ones in the video I showed you."

"They're okay. You're just exaggerating."

"No, I'm not," He Tian insists. "When have I ever lied to you?"

Mo Guan Shan stares at him. He looks to be considering He Tian's words for a moment before nodding curtly.

He Tian takes what seems like a thousand pictures and sends them to their group chat with Jian Yi and Zhang Zheng Xi, to his brother, and then to Brother Qiu with a very proud caption of 'Momo made these for me~. They’re pretty AND they taste great~.’'

He revels in Jian Yi exploding in the group chat and demanding Mo Guan Shan make some for him and Zhan Zheng Xi too.

‘Heh,’ He Tian types with a smug smile, ‘Eat your heart out, bitch.’

(He Cheng thumbs-upped his message while Brother Qiu’s reply was to tell Mo Guan Shang to bring some over the next time they come to the mansion. To which He Tian replies a very empathic ‘No <3’).

When he’s done gloating, He Tian turns back to Mo Guan Shan and knows by the look on his face that he’s already thinking about including the cakes in his next cookbook. He thinks that if Mo Guan Shan ever gets his own restaurant, he’ll make it so at least half of the menu will be to He Tian’s liking. 

"I love you," He Tian says and means it. Because he really does and because he doesn’t know any other way of saying it. 

"Wha—" Mo Guan Shan blinks, a flower fondant halfway to his mouth, and looks at He Tian weirdly. "Just because of this? You're too easy."

For Mo Guan Shan? He really is. Always has been and always will be.

"You take care of me so well." Mo Guan Shan's loudest love language has always been food and He Tian still can't believe how lucky he is that he gets to have this. “I’ve gotten spoiled.”

“You’ve always been spoiled,” Mo Guan Shan retorts as he bumps a forkful of chiffon against He Tian’s lips. "Shut up and eat your damn cake." 

I love you too.

[yarboyandy]

Please post the streamer Jenny headcanon <3 <3 <3

Ok it’s long sorry LOL. Keep in mind I don’t actually watch a lot of streamers and I wrote this probably while I was half a sleep.

Jenny would be a Twitch streamer thats kinda famous but is always involved in this crazy never ending drama that she won’t NOT interact with. Giles knows some of it but doesn’t undestand a lick of it because he can barely use the internet anyways and because like shes just saying shit like “uhg XxDARKREAPERxX raided us last night and tried to stream snipe me while I was doing a skyrim themed summoning subathon.” And giles is like “thats nice dear.” Its not until he walks in during one of her streams to give her dinner while still in his work clothes and is like “is this your internet friends? ☺️ hello everyone! Oh i cant see anyone. Tough crowd! Oh well, love you.” And kisses her. It’s literally over for her for the next 48 hour twitter news cycle as people find out like soft core manic pixie dream e-girl PA3G0N-VV1TCHH is dating a BRITISH GUY (we thought she was a feminist!) who is like ten years older than her and doesn’t know shes a twitch streamer. Its even worse when she makes an apology video and reveals his name is RUPERT and it makes everything way worse. Its only until they get him to play among us and he wins that someone takes a picture of him in Jennys cat ear headphones and posts in on twitter with the caption “can i say something?” Does he finally win the hearts of viewers. He makes periodic appearances to say shit like “oh yeah this is like at the academy when—“ and proceeds to say the most batshit traumatizing events ever. Her collab with GFUEL includes an earl grey tea pre-work out that he tries on stream and has to pretend to like before explaining off camera that that he read the label and that he isn’t supposed to have that much caffine because of the constant concussions he gets and then immediately passes out for like 15 hours. Jenny does a charity stream while he’s passed out (You can see him in the background on the guest room bed) and taking bets on when he’ll wake up. Buffy does a superchat or whatever to ask “is he alive? I need him. Big bad.” And Jenny ends the stream right away much to the confusion of everyone.

[orcinus-veterinarius]

I’ve seen this video circulating recently and was wondering if you had any idea what’s going on and why the orca is doing this. I don’t know much about cetaceans

Hello! Thanks for the ask.

So this gentleman is Nakhod, one of the adult male orcas at Chimelong Spaceship (which is in China, so it would not be even remotely affected by the SWIMS Act promoted in the video’s caption). Let’s preface by saying that since I don’t actually know this animal or the specifics of his care, I can’t come to any hard and fast conclusions from watching a 20 second video.

The Instagram page you linked is using this clip as proof of “mental health issues.” First off, animals can’t be diagnosed with mental health disorders as we understand them, but I think it’s safe to say they’re referring to stereotypies.

This could absolutely be a stereotypy, and I definitely don’t want to diminish that possibility. However, but its very nature, a stereotypy must be repeated. In this 20-second clip, we only see Nakhod smack his head once before swimming off, so this particular incident doesn’t seem overly stereotypical. Personally, I think it’s more likely he’s displaying misdirected aggressive behavior, particularly since he opens his mouth afterward. As for what’s causing him to be so frustrated, it could be he’s annoyed at the guests. But the fact that he very clearly smacks his genital slit against the acrylic really makes me think it may be sexual.

Chimelong is actively breeding its orcas (Nakhod himself has already sired a calf), so we know their whales are not on birth control (at least not all the time). It’s certainly within the realm of possibility that there was a female in estrus that he was either separated from or rebuffed by. From personal experience, male cetaceans tend to get a little crazy when the females are receptive, and that includes aggressive displays. If I had to go with my gut, I think this is sexual behavior. But again, that’s pure speculation on my part.

So, in conclusion, I don’t know for sure what’s going on. He could be developing a stereotypy, or he could be frustrated, sexually or not. It’s not a benign behavior, but it’s also not automatic evidence of extreme distress.

Note: Normal orca vocals sound sad and pathetic. They’re not screaming or wailing, that’s just how they are. Not sure if the video said “sound on” to hear that or the thuds from him banging the acrylic.

Another note: My overall feelings on Chimelong are really complicated. They purchased their whales from wild captures 8-10 years ago, but their current facility is by far the largest and certainly the most enriching orca habitat ever built. They’ve also had a lot of success breeding healthy calves, which indicates they’re at least doing something right. At the same time, the park is outer space themed for some reason, and since I can’t read or speak Mandarin, I have no idea what the educational value of the aquarium section is. But I hope the Chimelong pod does for China what Shamu did for the United States—inspire a passion for orcas.

[befemininenow]

Deconstructing the sissy in you (part 1)

Note: This note contains a lot of sissy captions from blogs that no longer exist. This isn’t meant for sissies who are still into the “lifestyle”; everyone has their thing. It’s for those who wish to distance themselves from something that does not correlate with their femininity, but has trouble shaking away their past. Being feminine is something rewarding and should never be humiliating. It’s part of who we are as people. However, take this note with a grain of salt. If you need real help, please consult an actual therapist in your area who is specialized in gender identity.

You ask yourself in tears “How did this all started? What can I do to go back?” as you’re viewing yourself in the mirror all dressed up in pink and frills, blonde wig, heavy makeup, and a cast down there. Your desire was to look as feminine as possible, not some kind of doll that others would poke fun at and admire. You know in your mind you’re a girl, a trans girl. But out of fear of being ostracized by everyone, you wish you can go back, burn every trace of the “sissy lifestyle” you were lured into, and come out to the world as a vanilla trans girl. Well, I’m here to tell you the truth: You can’t go back (theoretically speaking). However, there is a way for you to freshly start over again (realistically speaking). And it all starts by jogging your memory to the beginning.

You always had a thing for “feminization”, which is the process of incorporating feminine aspects towards any person regardless of identity. For a while, you enjoyed viewing others submit to “forced feminization” through transformation sequences because of a sense of dominance. It wasn’t until you realized that you deeply wanted to be like the “victims” and started to visualize yourself as a girl.

You secretly had feminine characteristics that you tried to oppress to avoid being called names. You know the ones: “sissy”, “f@ggit”, “wimp”, “pussy”, “girl”. That last word is what you hated being called, yet you did “manly” activities to prove your maleness. Outside, they saw you as a potential alpha. But inside, you were somebody else.

The MTF transformations in your feed weren’t enough anymore and suddenly you wanted something a little more real. Shortly later, you found out about trans women models and actresses in the underground scene and it threw you off at first. “They exist? I thought they were just fiction?”. Then, you started looking at MTF timelines, articles about trans people, and even a few videos about the transitioning process, including surgeries. It feels intense and scary; you don’t know if you want this. How painful would it be to give up “down there” for a rack “up there”? “Is there any alternative safer than that?”

Then, out of nowhere on your social feed, you see this image:

It resonates with you! That’s who you wish to be inside! She’s hot, and a dream babe! But more importantly, you wish to have a body like hers!

You click on the link and wonder where this image came from and you realize you’re in a blog full of “feminization captions”. You’ve always been a fan of TG captions and are open-minded for anything new. All of a sudden, you find another caption you like:

OMG! Another hot chick! “But why do I feel like I want to be her instead?” You look at the caption folder and they seem intriguing. Eventually, you found your answer:

“Feminization? I need that now!” You sent a DM to the caption blog’s inbox and asked how the “feminization process” works. The person behinds it send you this picture:

You thank the person so much and ask if they are this person or if they know them. Although their blog doesn’t exist anymore, they ask you to find a “mistress” who specializes in feminization. It took you a while, but you eventually found a sympathetic one and not too long after, the process slowly began.

At first, they’re quite innocent and truthful. You are a guy after all.

Then, they became a little more deep.

A little too deep...

Soon, they started to make you think deeper...

They’re right. Trying heels isn’t “gay”, nor is trying on her set.

Soon, your dreams became more “feminine” after several hypnos, captions, and training.

In a matter of time, your desires started to change...

“Wait, that’s not true! Or, maybe it is now, idk.”

“Sissy!? Ok, I need to stop this now. I am not a sissy!”

“Well, I do like being a girl, but I’m not sure about being called a sissy...”

“Umm.. mmm....”

Your sexuality started to shift. Men were suddenly so hot...

You never thought yourself with a guy, but then you started dating them, pleasing them, getting rammed by them, daydreaming of them. Your attraction to girls eroded as time went by.

But something has also been in your mind as you went deep into the “sissy lifestyle” these mistresses and besties encouraged you be part of. Something that resonates more with who you really want to be. Something more serious and life-changing:

You realize all what you have did was more of a distraction and less of what you deem “feminization”. Sure, the pleasure was great. The makeovers were amazing. The name callings were quite flattering. But what you really wanted to be was more in touch with your feminine side. What you really wanted was to become a woman:

(stay tuned for part 2)

[kusaka6e]

BOYS IN THE BAND

(aot ver) | mha ver | fairy tail ver

band!au

various aot x fem!reader

headcannons about aot men as hot band member boyfriends <3

sfw

includes: eren, armin, jean, connie

———

eren, the lead singer ;

we all know this mf had to be front and center LMFAOO

i think he also knows how to play piano but he doesn’t do it often, so whenever he posts a video of him doing it fans lose their SHIT

he loves playing for you, will def learn your favorite songs to surprise you with them

brought you out on stage to sing you something he wrote when he asked you to be his gf

seeing you front row at shows will make him put on one of the best concerts of his life

he is so mean to anyone hating on you LMAOO ‘if you can’t respect my girl than you’re obviously not a real fan asshole, delete all our music from your library’

loves when you come to shows but also understands that you have work and stuff to tend to; he sends you so many pics and videos during soundchecks to talk to you and feel like you’re actually there :(

if you surprise him at a show he’d probably cry his eyes out and make you swear to never speak of it “i just had sweat in my eyes from performing, i wasn’t crying!”

definitely wears your name around his neck at all times

corny mf definitely kisses you through the phone when he’s far away, like okay soulja boy

gets exclusive/one of one merch made for you all the time

connie, the drummer

there could not be a more fitting person to play the drums

is SO proud to have you, literally everyone knows you’re his like it or not

honestly probably has to your name or initial tattooed somewhere if you’re down with that

constantly posting you on all his socials, especially when he’s doing shows far away

definitely brings you to rehearsal and band meetings to sit on his lap while he plays

(not) jokingly refers to you as his wife all the time

like if the boys wanna go out to a club or something after a show he’s all “nah i don’t think the wife would like that, you guys go on ahead” and it’s not even that you’re insecure, he just wants to stay in and nap with you LMFAOOO

definitely has said “quit your job and come on tour with us, i’ll take care of everything else” and he’s not kidding

he just wants to have you around as often as he can :( he means it when he says everything is better with you present for it

would literally rather die than be away on your birthday/anniversary

he will look their manager in the face and say “well i guess you’ll have to find a new drummer for that show” LMAOOO like sir this is your career ???

he absolutely bought a build-a-bear with some goofy ass voice message in it for you and put it in one of the bands’ t-shirts, he now refers to the bear as you two’s child

jean, the guitarist ;

he soft-launched you two’s relationship and it caused HAVOC after

i don’t think jean hides the fact that he’s very much a hopeless romantic, so him constantly turning down advances from fans and people in general was odd

until

he posted a picture of you two holding hands across the table at a fancy restaurant, the promise ring he’d given you that night glinting against the flash of the picture being taken, probably captioned something simple like “my love <3”

he tries to protect you from the negatives that come from his lifestyle and sometimes that means supporting him from afar :(

don’t get it twisted, he loves when you come to shows but the idea of a fan or someone attacking you literally keeps him up at night sometimes, he’d never forgive himself if that happened

when you do come to shows in person he makes sure they have extra security everywhere that night, and he insists that you’re backstage to a.) have the best view of the show and b.) have you in the safest place possible

writes you love letters and sends them with little souvenirs/care packages all the time

loves sending you obnoxiously large flower arrangements

he’ll facetime you when he gets the notification that they got delivered so he can see your reaction in real time :((

everytime he gets a new guitar he has you write your name on it before he ever uses it, he swears it’s for good luck

armin, the bassist ;

okay listen here me out on this one

imagine the whole crowd losing their shit over eren or jean stealing the show and showing off, and armin just steadily playing the bassline, looking up and finding you in the crowd to wink at you

i just- something about him playing the bass sits so right with me

kinda likes being able to throw most of the fans’ attention to the other band members, doesn’t always do so well with people

all the fans know you’re dating him and absolutely love you two together

the boys get SO protective if someone has anything negative to say, eren and connie have already snapped on them before armin has even looked their way

you two are definitely the band’s parents

like if the boys are getting rowdy armin can literally say “if you guys don’t stop i’m gonna tell (y/n)” and suddenly they’re perfect angels LMFAOO

he 100% cried when you got a little bass guitar tattooed

even though you guys obviously call/text when he’s away, i think he likes to send you postcards from some of the cities they’re touring to with cute little lovenotes on them

i think he gets so wrapped up in trying to make sure everyone else is prepared for shows (and keeping eren’s wild ass out of trouble LMFAO) that he needs reminders to take care of himself too :( the boys love when you travel with them because they finally get to see armin loosen up and relax because you’re there

[lean-mean-demon-genevieve]

Who’s this Anson character? I took a step back from tumblr and now I feel like I need a book to figure out what I missed lol.

With him yet again leeching off of appearing with Jared this weekend, now seems as good a time as any to circle back to this ask because I too have been perplexed by Jared’s supposed friendship with this guy for some time. And as per usual, I brought receipts.

Anson Gordon seems to first be publicly linked to the Pads in Sandy Molinare’s Instagram in 2016. This looks like he has been a part of the wealthy, and fairly conservative circle that both the Pads and the Ackles use to run with at that time.

He clout-chased a few times in 2018 in his IG story and wanted to let the world know he has famous friends, with Jared and Danneel (in the background of a video) making appearances. He then started more regularly sharing pics of himself attending UFC fights with Jared in January 2020. And since then, his presence has only grown to include other Austin goings-on, more testosterone fueled events, some weapons safety and/or stuntman gig on Walker that included some brief screen time, meeting up with the Pads on their 2021 Italy trip, Jared’s car accident last year in which he and his son were passengers, and a spot on the Pads Family Feud team earlier this year. He is seen, and confused for Jensen somehow in the comments, in this IG post of Jared’s, sliding down a slide like best buds. He is regularly seen showcasing himself on socials interacting with Pads errand boy, Charlie Capen (you won’t convince me he didn’t record that slide video), as well as Clif and various Walker actors.

I will be 100% transparent here about my political leanings that run deeper than fandom. I don’t like this guy because I feel like he is the very conservative, aging frat boy of my nightmares. I don’t care that he’s rubbed elbows with other rich people at the Out Youth Gala, he is a salesman at the end of the day. I feel like he and I would strongly disagree on a lot of important (to me) issues/values, and the transference I feel when I look at him is strong. (That means he reminds me of people I know in real life.) He appears quite motivated to flex next to Jared at any opportunity and draw attention to himself. (Jared doesn’t showcase him nearly as often. The slide post kinda surprised me. Again, who’s a good boy? Charlie is!)

To me, Anson comes off as caustic, shallow, arrogant, and chauvinistic. Here’s the story of how I got bored and nosy during the pandemic and came to these opinions:

This post from February 2021 was deleted months later as Anson posted more and more with Jared and Walker actors and gained followers/eyes on him. Now why in early 2021, would some folks from Texas even joke about secession?? The most obvious answer: the growing uproar over covid, mask mandates, vaccines, general pandemic limitations on their gentrifier (sorry/not sorry, wealthy Austinites) rich-kid fun. Look out y’all this privileged white male is “startin trouble.” Somebody ask this guy where he was on January 6th.

Exhibit B is less damning, but it irritates me so imma include it:

A smug face and pose like this with a firearm captioned “virtue signaling” sure feels like a jab at the sNoWfLaKeS, given the rest of the context. No, shooting guns isn’t a crime, and in fact it’s this guys livelihood, but why add the snark if you’re not an ass and hoping to instigate? It feels like a safe bet that gun laws were also up there on the list of reasons for Texas secession dreams.

Exhibit C, posted to his story in August ‘21 just prior to his IG account going private for a few months and right about the same time the Pads themselves got Covid:

I would love to know how Jared responded to being tagged in this mess. No I’m not suggesting he gave the Pads Covid, but I do think someone from the Pads or Walker team told ole boy to cool it with the anti-mask rhetoric so as not to reflect negatively on Jared, hence the private account. However you may feel about mask mandates at this point, remember that this was late summer/fall of 2021. Covid was obviously still rampant as the Pads and Anson himself would soon learn after returning home from Italy. How dare the Uber peasant ask that he respect his safety as he provides a service. Fuck that guy, right?!

It was after this in November 2021 that Anson first seemed to try to redeem himself by attending the Out Youth Gala with the Pads and also with his favorite accessory, his wife, in tow. What I won’t include here are the gross IG story video highlights from a different event that this tool has conveniently saved in which he documents his seemingly intoxicated wife’s side-boob for an uncomfortable amount of time. Guys can dig their wife’s bodies, and even do so on their own social media, but you gotta trust me that the ick factor is palpable. Bodily autonomy being what it is, maybe she’s ok with the multiple posts of this type, and I can respect that…and he’s shared quite a few.

But for me the final straw was when, not 24 hours after the horrific Robb Elementary school shooting in Uvalde, Texas on 5/24/22, Anson’s IG story was plugging his firearm silencer business and hyping the launch of new products at the NRA convention that coming weekend in Houston.

If you followed the link early on when I called him a salesman, you may have already figured out that this man has made a sizable fortune off of engineering top of the line silencers for assault rifles. The IG account tells me that they sell for about $700-$750 each. None of this is a crime, but he’s not exactly reading the room in this moment. In comparison, Gen was sharing post after post to her IG story during this time about the need for reform around gun laws and sympathy for the victims. But this guy knew a big convention was approaching and he needed to capitalize. Then he went golfing.

Are you still with me?

So this is why I cringe whenever I see this Wish version of Jensen snuggling up to Jared.

He’s not deserving of the positive assumptions that some fans/Jared stans have made about him based solely on his proximity to Jared. And let’s be honest, with the great big fandom divide these days, a lot of Jared fans are just all too eager to root for anyone that isn’t Jensen. But, in my opinion, you don’t get to show up at an LGBTQ fundraiser claiming to be an ally when you have no doubt voted to protect your own interests (guns, money) and cast ballots for people who also support drag bans and an end to gender affirming care. It doesn’t work like that, especially not in Texas. He’s invested in Texas staying red, and if you recall or scroll up, there was a time when it wasn’t red enough for him. He’s certainly not voting for LGBTQ+ human rights, but he will write them a check for damage control in the aftermath. What a guy.

To clarify, this is NOT an anti-Jared post, although some may see it as such. There’s no suggested call-to-action for the fandom coming from me. Jared is not Anson’s keeper. But at the same time, to an extent, we are who we associate with and with whom we spend precious time. And Jared spends a fair amount of public time with this clown and allows Anson to attach himself to him and profit off of him. Leeching onto Jared is the best thing this guy did to get his face and his veneers seen by a larger audience. So Jared, I love ya, but it’s not a good look. This guy had no qualms showing people who he was when fewer people were looking, but deleting posts doesn’t delete screenshots. And I’ve got those, as you can see.

[selenacosmic]

Heyyaa!! Hope you're doing great!! I have an ikesen request, if you don't mind.

So we have this major festival called Diwali going on in my country and someone just sent me this video to which I've been laughing my as* off for the past few minutes.

https://youtube.com/shorts/oQX9rBcIfIA?si=-BQLPS5iXv4ZcN1E

Maybe mc wanted to celebrate it in the sengoku era or they got yeeted into the future in time for this festival.

How do you think the warlords would react if mc were to perform aarthi like that? I can already imagine Hidemama losing his mind XD. I'll leave it to you to decide whether you want to make it a hc or a short story/drabble but can it pls include Nobu, Hideyoshi, mitsuhide and Kenshin?

(Also, if you're curious about the caption, it says "perform aarthi in such a way that you burn down 4 people" /j)

Thank you! ❤

Ohh hello! This sounds interesting and cool, this will surely be a really fun hc to make XD Thank you for the request.

MC performs aarthi.

Oda forces.

Nobunaga Oda.

You had expressed your desire to celebrate the festival at the castle, as a way of showing more of your culture to the warlords, as well as a way to celebrate even when you are far from home. Nobunaga became interested and provided everything needed.

He wanted to know everything, so when you decided to perform Aarthi, Nobunaga was the first one to want to witness. Everyone retreat away the moment you begin performing, afraid of getting burned, except for Nobunaga.

He was actually smirking, unbothered by how close the fire got to him.

Hideyoshi Toyotomi.

Hideyoshi was the one to panic the most, telling everyone to move away so that they wouldn’t get burned. He will desperately try to stop you, he doesn’t want the whole castle to burn.

As to not make you sad and to continue the performance, he will suggest doing it in your place, since he was taller and had better control of his strength.

Mitsuhide Akechi.

Mitsuhide will have a wide grin on his face as he observes the others trying to escape the fire, finding everything entertaining, specially how oblivious you seemed about your surroundings.

To make it funnier, mitsuhide will suggest that he could also perform it, only to purposely scare the others with his performance.

Uesugi-Takeda alliance.

Kenshin Uesugi.

Kenshin will like the idea of a festival, and will want the whole town to celebrate it. He will make it so that everything resembles the festival. Once you begin to perform the aarthi, kenshin will actually get excited.

Seeing how close the fire was getting, he didn’t bother move away. In fact, he felt very energetic while dodging you.

[bizarrequazar]

GJ and ZZH Updates — July 16-22

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This is part of a weekly series collecting updates from and relating to Gong Jun and Zhang Zhehan.

This post is not wholly comprehensive and is intended as an overview, links provided lead to further details. Dates are in accordance with China Standard Time, the organization is chronological. My own biases on some things are reflected here. Anything I include that is not concretely known is indicated as such, and you’re welcome to do your own research and draw your own conclusions as you see fit. Please let me know if you have any questions, comments, concerns, or additions. :)

[Glossary of names and terms] [Masterlist of my posts about the situation with Zhang Zhehan]

07-16 → Yu Zheng, Zhang Zhehan’s former shithead boss (see 21-11-03), posted a video of himself wearing one of the Zhang Sanjian hats. @zhongwans​​ made a great post explaining how him being involved with the scam seems to be the final piece of the puzzle for how they got a hold of the Instagram account. Tweets about this: [1] [2] [3]

→ Gong Jun posted on Weibo: “Ridiculous! Yesterday was a good night, when did I get drunk?” and replied in character to a few fan comments under the post. The Gong Jun Outside Office account reposted this with the addition, “Replying to Your Highness, never. It’s just the beautiful scenery on the tree (deleted all the small ones [ie. videos/pictures of Han Ye drunk] that should be deleted, don’t worry)” Fan Observation: Gong Jun originally posted this at 11:05 (511 kadian), only to delete it and repost it a minute later.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted six gifs of Han Ye. Caption: “It doesn’t matter, anyway, His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon will make a move! Dropping a set of ‘ridiculous’ series of emoticons, you come be ridiculous!”

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted two promotional stills of Han Ye.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a compilation video of Han Ye saying “ridiculous”. Caption: “‘Ridiculous-ge’ has a stable output. Q: How many times did His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon say ridiculous?” They also posted a similar video to Douyin.

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a promotional video of Gong Jun and Dilireba doing tacit understanding gestures together.

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a behind the scenes video. Caption: “Dajing's ‘drama essence’ trio Ren Anle @ Dear-Dilraba Dilmurat, Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon, Luo Mingxi @ Modern Xiongdi Liu Yuning officially debuted as a group! Serious and focused in the play, a second of success outside the play, fancy and funny non-stop, hurry up and watch~”

→ Gong Jun Outdoor Office posted a video of Gong Jun resting in his trailer while filming Legend of Anle. Caption: “His Highness is back from a private visit, and is still a little bit reluctant to change from the little beggar’s costume. 🥺”

→ Gong Jun posted an image of drunk Han Ye. Caption: “Scored twice, I Ye am drunk...”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a video behind the scenes footage from Legend of Anle. Caption: “His Highness @ Gong Jun Simon’s daily business trip to the south of the Yangtze River 📹 The handsome and unrestrained Prince of Dajing, behind him is the disaster relief food that the people want. At this moment, it is reliable 😭” BGM is I’ll Do It by Heidi Montag and Why Would I Ever by Paula DeAnda. 

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a promotional image of Han Ye. Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon secretly arrived south of the Yangtze River, running to investigate the people's sentiments. As rigorous as Ye, never let the number of steps reveal your whereabouts!”

07-17 → Filming wrapped for Gong Jun’s upcoming drama The Truth. 

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a promotional poster. 

→ Fresh posted a promotional video spoken by Gong Jun. (1129 kadian)

→ Gong Jun’s studio made a post announcing that he and the other of stars of Legend of Anle would be doing a livestream that evening. 

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted another behind the scenes video. Caption: “Under the moonlight, Ren Anle @ Dear-Dilraba Dilmurat and Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon look at each other in circles, gazing at each other so romantically, and behind the romance there is this wave of operations, let’s find out together~”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted four images of Han Ye. Caption: “‘Ye’ is good at diligence, His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon’s daily motivational wallpapers are here, let's work hard on ‘Ye’ with His Highness!”

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted two promotional stills of Han Ye.

→ The Instagram posted a two photos and a video of “Zhang Zhehan”.

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a promotional poster of Han Ye.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a picture comic about Legend of Anle’s second story arc. Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon has successfully solved the Jiangnan corruption case! See how His Highness peels off the cocoon, appeases the victims, and punishes the corrupt officials. Tonight at 21:00, lock into the Weibo live broadcast and join the chess game!”

→ Gong Jun, Dilireba, and Liu Yuning did a livestream together to promote Legend of Anle. [full recording] [highlights thread]

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a promotional image celebrating Legend of Anle reaching 10,000 popularity index. The Legend of Anle Weibo also posted a video celebrating the milestone.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted four gifs of Gong Jun waiting for the livestream to start. Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon’s Exit Record 🈶️ Let’s talk again next time!”

07-18 → Gong Jun Outdoor Office posted a video from the previous day of Gong Jun singing Jay Chou’s Hair Like Snow. Caption: “Boss said it was good, but it was really good. Giving the very good song ‘Hair Like Snow’ to everyone”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a douyin of Han Ye acting properly vs acting foolishly. Caption: “If you brush it [the video], you will earn it, and quickly get the special ‘Ye’ term used by different units!”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a photo of him from The Truth’s wrap party. Caption: “Through the fog and reveal the truth, Ye Qian @ Gong Jun Simon breaks the situation and moves forward, waiting to meet you!”

→ Gong Jun posted two photos from The Truth’s wrap party. Caption: “All crimes cannot escape legal sanctions. Looking forward to meeting Ye Qian again.” This was reposted by his studio with the added caption, “Move with the wind, observe the traces carefully, and look forward to meeting Ye Qian @ Gong Jun Simon again!” It was also reposted by the The Truth Weibo account, added caption: “Looking forward to Police Officer Ye Qian”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes clip from Legend of Anle. Caption: “‘Ye’ is busy day and night ‘Ye’, click on the video below, and immediately get permission to view the work record of His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon ‘Ye’~”

→ 361° posted the gif of drunk Han Ye that Gong Jun had posted the previous week. 

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a promotional image of Han Ye. Caption: “Drinking games? The distinguished player Prince @ Gong Jun Simon has shut down the mic”

07-19 → The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a behind the scenes video. Caption: “The studio presents ‘accident’ footage, with professional equipment on rainy days, no real demonstration props, and hilarious play props ‘let go as soon as you say it’... The dense laughter makes people laugh from ear to ear, Come and watch and check the happy energy with one click!”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes video from a Legend of Anle photoshoot. Caption: “Jade robes and brocade clothes, eyebrows like an ink painting, His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon is full of elegance and nobility in every gesture”

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted two promotional stills of Han Ye.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted an image of Han Ye with an MBTI category (ISTJ). Caption: “Picked up an MBTI personality test card for His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon's special ‘Ye’ version, mentally stable, leadership qualities get 🧐”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes video from Legend of Anle. Caption: “Hidden Camera is back online! Follow the camera, let's find the special moment of His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon's studio camp ‘Ye’”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a promotional image for Legend of Anle. Caption: “The Prince's Mansion has good news for ‘Ye’! The Legend of Anle has reached over 10,000 [popularity index] on Youku for 3 consecutive days. Prince Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon thanks you for your support!”

07-20 → The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a behind the scenes video of the drunk Han Ye scene. Caption: “There is a lot of joy behind the banquet! Ren Anle @ Dear-Dilraba Dilmurat is shocked and continues to laugh, Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon sips ‘drinks’ non-stop, and bluntly said ‘fly to the sky’.” 

→ The Instagram posted nine photos of “Zhang Zhehan” and scenery. 

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted another behind the scenes video. Caption: “One second I said I could trust the props, but the next second the props were the ‘culprit’, after all, I failed! There is also Ren Anle @Dear-Dilraba Dilmurat who was unsuspectingly caught by Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon , and learned to draw inferences when he suddenly realized. 

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a video compilation of Han Ye acting commanding. Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon Dajing special anti ‘Ye’, respect Ye!”

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted two promotional stills of Han Ye. Caption: “The original intention does not change to what I want, and I will never give up if I devote myself wholeheartedly.“

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted two live photos of him doing calligraphy on a paper fan. Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon dedicates calligraphy, the ‘Ridiculous-ge’ who engages in creation is not ridiculous”

→ Gong Jun and the other main cast members of Legend of Anle attended a media conference to promote the show. [full video] Clips: [1] [2] [3] [4]

→ Gong Jun Outdoor Office posted a video of Gong Jun at the media conference. Caption: “Prince @ Gong Jun Simon comes to sprinkle some candy on the family”

→ Gong Jun posted seven photos of himself from that day. Caption: “#The Legend of Anle# and the other ‘Ye’.”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted nine photos from the same photoshoot. Caption: “Light and dark have quality, watch His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon guarding the temperature of his fingertips between square inches.”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes video. Caption: “Dajing etiquette class has started! Click to view Prince Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon’s public etiquette class, being taught by His Royal Highness, a rare opportunity~”

→ Gong Jun posted a douyin of himself doing a little dance. Caption: “After singing, enter the dance world.” BGM is 宝贝在干嘛 by Noisemakers.

07-21 → Gong Jun posted a commercial he did for L’Oreal. 

→ The stolen Xiao Yu account being run by Hewitt (see 07-14 last week) wiped all of its content.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted nine photos of him from the previous day’s event. Caption: “Follow His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon to realize the freedom of yellow (huang) sugar (tang*), oh ‘Ye’✌🏻” *“ridiculous”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a douyin of bloopers from the previous day’s dance douyin Caption: “His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon has practiced!” BGM is Leyla by Mesto.

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes video of Legend of Anle. Caption: “A record of the construction of the Dajing royal team! Click on the video to subscribe to the exclusive ‘Ye’ life vlog of the Prince Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon with one click!”

07-22 → Gong Jun’s studio posted the full airing schedule for Legend of Anle: 39 episodes, concluding on 08-06 for VIP (1 or 2 episodes a day), 09-01 for free viewers (1 episode every weekday).

→ QuelleVous posted a thread explaining recent findings about the Zhang Sanjian songs, showing evidence that many were either sampled from or completely bought from other songwriters. [Followup] Earlier in the week, Flora had also tweeted showing that on the most recent song, the lyricist and composer were only credited with a single initial on YouTube.

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted two promotional stills of Han Ye. 

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a video putting similar clips from Legend of Anle and The Flaming Heart side by side. Caption: “Even in parallel time and space, the trajectories of the stories will meet at a certain moment, colliding with a new ‘firework’” Gong Jun Outdoor Office posted two gifs of the same scenes half an hour later. Caption: “Regardless of past life or present life, he will choose to rush into the flames without hesitation, just to stick to the beliefs in his heart.”

→ The Legend of Anle Weibo posted a behind the scenes video. Caption: “Behind the scenes of the fire are Ren Anle @ Dear-Dilraba Dilmurat, Han Ye @ Gong Jun Simon’s vigorous ‘scaring’, matryoshka-style ‘princess carry’, and Luo Mingxi @ Modern Brother Liu Yuning’s desperation caused the whole room to burst into laughter...Quickly poke to watch the highlights~”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a video compiling Han Ye’s greatest hits so far. Caption: “‘Ye’ is full of heart, His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon's career is on the rise, and he is rolling up 👍”

→ Gong Jun’s studio posted a behind the scenes video of Gong Jun riding a horse. Caption: “The prince’s ‘driving’ school is open today ‘Ye’, click to watch His Royal Highness @ Gong Jun Simon begin class! 😎😎”

→ Gong Jun Outdoor Office posted a video of Gong Jun greeting fans from the balcony of the building where he had filmed an episode of Hello Saturday that day. Caption: “Thank you for all your hard work, love and motivation, thank you for all your patience, support and understanding, and thank you for your 100% love. Everyone be safe getting home!” [subbed fancam]

Additional Reading:  → #GongJun and #TheLegendofAnle trended on Twitter throughout much of the week. I haven’t been keeping tabs on Weibo hotsearch, sorry.

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[womanlifefreedom]

Shortly after he was released, Toomaj Salehi was arrested again. Prior to the arrest, he released the above video, in which he speaks about his experience in prison, including torture. I have copy-pasted YouTube's English-language closed captions below.

Hello friends, I hope you’re all well.

0:03

Today is November 26, 2023

0:06

This is the first video I am sharing of myself

0:09

Other videos being shared of me on social media

0:12

are from after my release in 2021,

0:19

when they imprisoned me for the song “Soorakh Moosh”

0:24

Sorry that I’m a bit late to pay my respects to you,

0:28

, there has been a little psychological pressure on me,

0:34

and I’ve been trying to fight it to get to a normal state.

0:41

In a picture you can show that you are doing well,

0:45

, it’s one second, you smile and take a picture,

0:48

but in a video, it’s very obvious how you’re feeling.

0:53

And I wanted to be feeling good, very good, when I came to speak to you, which I am now.

0:58

Firstly, and most importantly, I wanted to thank you all

1:03

for your spirit of support,

1:06

, not just because you supported me, but because you’ve supported anyone who has needed you during this time.

1:13

And you’ve shown a unity that I, myself, had never seen before.

1:19

Because you didn’t get tired, you didn’t forget us, , because you still haven't forgotten the people of Ekbatan

1:26

and you haven't forgotten the people who are still in confinement, you’re amazing.

1:32

This (your support) has been a huge thing, especially for me.

1:37

When I was in the detention center, where speaking is somewhat impossible, even with family,

1:50

because visits are very short and there is a guard next to you who doesn’t allow you to speak about just anything.

1:57

But even there, sometimes, I would hear some small news about your support of me and others

2:06

and this was very very very heartwarming for me, (it gave me) some fresh energy.

2:11

If these things didn’t exist, then just like the others who came there and were subject to psychological trauma, we wouldn’t have been able to tolerate it.

2:23

I speak of myself and the other political prisoners who came and went.

2:36

To be honest with you this is my first video, and it's a little hard for me.

2:45

There were a few points that I wanted to share after expressing my thanks.

2:50

One is that they are attacking me very very very hard now that they couldn't keep me in prison.

3:00

And it's because of you who saved me from there, and before that you saved my life,

3:06

, and one time in the year 2021 you saved me. You have saved me three times.

3:12

In a lot of places, they call me a hero even though I'm just a normal person,

3:16

but you are the heroes who saved me. I haven't ever been able to save anybody, anywhere.

3:23

So yes, now that they weren't able to keep me, they are trying like they have before, to assassinate my character,

3:32

by using slander but alongside lumpen suggestions.

3:42

Like, “he confessed” and “who did he snitch on?” Who did I even have to snitch on?

3:46

First of all, as for confession, what did I have to confess? Everything I’ve done has been on your phones, I wasn’t hiding anything to confess to.

3:56

Secondly I didn’t rap for them, the only thing I could’ve done is rap for them, which I obviously didn’t do.

4:04

No one I worked with musically was arrested before or after me, not directors, songwriters, or anyone else, no one who worked with me, no one.

4:15

I was severely tortured during the time of my arrest.

4:21

They broke my arms and my legs. They would hit my face and my head, so at first I would try to cover myself with my hands and they broke my fingers.

4:31

It’s not something fun to share, but the duration of it was very long.

4:36

One of the other political prisoners told me that the injection they gave me in my neck was most likely adrenaline

4:43

so that I didn’t lose consciousness and was made to feel the full possible extent of pain and to suffer it fully for the whole duration of the torture.

4:58

And regarding confession, I didn’t even give up my page.

5:00

On the last day my family was waiting for my release from 9-10am.

5:06

First they didn’t release me from Thursday to Saturday

5:09

which is not right according to the laws of the Islamic republic, they couldn’t keep me under temporary arrest for more than a year.

5:15

Even my 6 year sentence is against Islamic republic law, it’s illegal,

5:19

but when we would speak about their own laws to them, they would say “what are you saying?”, “what is the law?”, “we can do what we want”.

5:29

Anyway, on the last day, the Saturday I was released, from the morning for about 4-5 hours they took me to Mr Barati,

5:44

the judge for my case, and the investigator— although I don’t know what he does specifically, he was in charge of my case, or the highest person in charge of my case.

5:57

He was the one who gave the orders for my torture.

6:01

They were saying to hand over my page to them, now I don’t want this to be me storytelling,

6:08

but I was there for a few hours saying that I would stay there in prison and would not give up my page to them.

6:17

Although I should say that my pages still aren't run by me, they are run by Negin.

6:21

Negin is one of the people, just like all of you, who worked harder than anyone else, like as much as my father, for me, and for my freedom.

6:39

When I was gone there was a lot that happened, many people came forward and spoke on my behalf, claiming they were my relatives.

6:47

I came out with a message that I don’t have family besides my fans.

6:52

I was supposed to introduce a spokesperson, so I introduced Negin before my arrest.

6:59

Before I was arrested I had also chosen Mr. Raisian as my lawyer.

7:08

And I don’t think there are any more points, and I don’t want to talk too much.

7:14

Oh, but in regards to those who are upset that I am healthy now that I’ve been released,

7:18

if four months ago, when I was going from jail to prison, I had been released, of course they wouldn't say that.

7:28

My broken bones are from about one year and one month ago,

7:33

they have naturally healed by now.

7:35

Some of them are crooked

7:38

and they don't bother me that much but sometimes when i'm walking they hurt and shake and I limp a little in my leg.

7:44

Or my hands which bother me when exercising.

7:48

These past few days I got MRIs and went to radiology for x rays

7:53

and I’m going to get work done to fix my teeth over the next few days as well.

8:02

And that’s it, and it's ok, I hope this isn't upsetting for you, I don’t want to upset you by talking about these things.

8:11

They’re bones, they heal.

8:13

And so that I can start exercising again at a professional level and because I wanted to do some things with my boxing, I definitely have to have surgery on my leg.

8:20

Hopefully in the next week or the week after I have to have surgery on my leg and on my hand,

8:27

and after I’ll go back to probably that character that I wanted to be.

8:38

And that’s it, I want to thank you again once more, you’re amazing, you are the strength of our hearts.

8:46

I hope that really good days come for us, it might take time but I believe that we will reach it.

9:02

And I think we will build a very good and cool Iran.

9:07

You’re amazing and I love you a lot. I’m sorry for any sadness I may have caused you.

9:14

Oh and, I’m glad I remembered this before saying goodbye!

9:17

There was a video that I've seen recently being shared of myself, a video made by (IRI) Intelligence.

9:25

I’ll make one more point about the Intelligence agency after this…

9:28

There’s a video they’ve made and are spreading of me,

9:34

where it looks like I am looking at the investigator and saying

9:38

“first I’m sorry to you,”

9:40

even though I never said anything like that. I wasn’t talking to the investigator.

9:47

For 9 hours I was being interviewed and unfortunately it seems I've made one or two gaffs.

9:53

That person asked me something like,

9:57

for example, “if right now the mother of such and such person who went out (to protest) because of you and is in prison now, was in front of you, what would you say?”

10:05

and they edited it to look like I was apologizing to them, which is very laughable.

10:14

And that’s that.

10:16

I wont talk about my torture, to be honest it’s really traumatizing for me.

10:20

I made a complaint (sued them) in regards to my torture,

10:24

and one of the reasons for my complaint was to prove my righteousness so they couldnt say that I lied.

10:30

Because if I lied they could sue me again for defamation/slander.

10:38

I had other reasons for suing as well, like the side effects it could have, in my opinion.

10:44

I also complained about their media for the lies they told.

10:48

One of the lies was that Toomaj was sentenced to death but since he effectively cooperated,

10:53

they gave him six years instead. Why execution? What did I do to be sentenced to execution?

10:57

All that we did at that time was was stand up to the people who would torture people,

11:04

who would shoot people with ‘winchesters’ in the universities, as well as other things.

11:09

They shouldn’t have even arrested me.

11:11

They had no right to arrest me,

11:13

let alone keep me in solitary confinement for 8-9 months.

11:17

Subject me to white torture (sensory deprivation),

11:19

and in the beginning so much physical torture, and, well, other things.

11:25

And about the intelligence agency, i wanted to say, why should one organization be higher than the law?

11:31

The only thing above the law are only the people.

11:34

If they don't want certain laws they could change them

11:39

because the country is theirs, those laws have to be there to protect them,

11:47

and other than the people, no one person or organization should be above the law.

11:55

Intelligence is above the law in Iran.

11:58

Intelligence tortures people– I’m speaking of myself– illegally enters homes, destroys homes or whatever else that they want, and there is no one stopping them.

12:13

Intelligence comes to the investigator and tells them what accusations to make of me.

12:19

An investigator, who I won't name, but who comes to me in secret and tells me “don't write like that there, you aren't feeling well, you don't know what you're writing.”

12:29

In those first days when I was delirious.

12:32

I was unconscious for two days after they put me in a cell.

12:36

So that investigator, now I don't know if his beliefs align with ours or not, that's none of my business, but he has no will.

12:47

Why? Why should an investigator have no will? Why should intelligence tell him what to do/ not to do? Why should he be scared of intelligence?

12:53

Why should the deputy prosecutor be afraid of intelligence? Why should he have to come and ask how I'm doing in fear?

12:59

And ask me indirectly if they are torturing me there as well?

13:03

in jail, they didn't physically torture me but they did do a lot of emotional torture, which the explanation of is too detailed.

13:16

Why should intelligence be able to give orders to the head of the prison and say he has complained about us, make his situation worse in prison.

13:25

And be upset that the personnel in the prison like me, that they are my fans, 70-80% of them.

13:30

Now I'm not speaking about all of the personnel in all of the prisons in Iran, I'm just talking about the things that I've seen.

13:36

It is with pride that I say that 70-80% of the people working in prison are yours and my supporters.

13:44

They are one of us.

13:47

And that's it.

13:50

I think that's an important point that no organization should be above the law.

14:01

Thank you so much, there isn't more to say. you are amazing.

14:06

When the time is right I will come myself, take over my pages and be active again

14:12

but right now, I want to rebuild myself.

14:18

I hope you can give me that time and it doesn't upset you. You’re amazing, sincerely. See you soon.

[eatmangoesnekkid]

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Some person keeps reporting my instagram page and getting me shadow ban. This is the last time I’m going to mention it, because my higher self tells me that it is all good among other quiet things. “Let it be. You are busy anyway in atypical ways.  And this person is just trying to capture your attention and this was the only way it could happen.” I don’t need to constantly get energetically tied up in instagram in order to sell my new work, so posting sporatically is perfect for me. Always know that--whatever is the current harmony is perfect for the future to come. I really loved making this video,  playing and doing a little tai chi in the bath while filming. Also loved writing this caption to accompany the post:

Feeling grown because I’m turning 47 in 2 and half weeks. The universe knows how much I adore this body and coming alive in it and demonstrate that adoration by taking good care of myself. Been this way for 20 years now.

I wrote on my post that “my nipples are the size of large coins like my grandmums Abo and Louise that I, because of my female body and growing up in the West, unfortunately, have to edit out as if they are wrong. For those of us whose souls call for us to be more liberated and playful in our female bodies, when we are unconsciously editing out our nipples to appease the internalized patriarchy and white male mind (the origin of common programming and conditioning around our nearly everything, including the innocence of our female bodies), we are also saying to our bodies that this part of us is wrong and unsafe.” What happens when we become ‘good little girls” and always do as we are told, then we can only go so far in the true intimacy, innocence, and passion of who we really are and what our magical potential and quantum leaping possibilities really are.

Our work is to unravel ourselves from lifetimes of limits around our multidimensional creational abilities but that work will not always look the same for us all. But I know that my role in this specific part of the game of life is to disrupt and push boundaries. And I do this in many ways, including playfully in my editing (or intentionally lightly-edited reels).  The aim when I started doing this many years ago, even on myspace, was to strategically discover ways  to free myself (my actual cells) from the lies, distortions, and the constant bracing, resistance, and tension holding patterns held around my pelvis, womb, back, and breast/heart areas like a ball and chain lock because I was conditioned to perceive my body to be less than innocent and unsafe. What I noticed over the years was that doing so untethered the limiting distortions and widened my natural creational range for “more.” And being shadow banned sometimes is a potential consequence that I’m more than willing to accept.  Because until we can come into acceptance and approval for the wider range capacity of our bodies, we will never know our greatest potential inside these womb bodies that allow us to recalibrate, regenerate, and rebirth ourselves over and over again. Whether our wombs have been removed or we no longer bleed, doesn’t matter. 

Going on a rites of passage journey to reconfigure the colonization, internalized patriarchy, and straight up insanity out of my cells , tissues, and organs and what it means to live in this world in a (now) over 45 year old, copper-colored female body with mythical magical attributes have been my quiet daily (sometimes every waking hour) practice for 20 years. It  always begins with the body, and in the quiet, and in how we breathe, move, and love others, animals and nature included.  In our sex and how we show up in our lovemaking sounds. In our devotion to nourishment and beauty. In our reclamation of sensuous innocence from root to crown. And on and on. I knew that our world was/is unconsciously addicted to tragedies and pain cycles, all the overcoming and striving is like mold hidden in the walls, so I started recoding myself accordingly. Pain is real but if you are not in pain & look like me, you are not allowed to feel good in your body or be proud of yourself unless overcoming and working hard. I knew that so I tinkered with those inheritances. I adore this body & have made conscious choices to be good to it. Owning that audacity in modern culture is something I’m proud of. I am nervous system regulated, slow, relaxed, chronically at ease, and slow bathed. I don’t think anyone on this earth can say they heard me complain about anything or many things. Or blame or shame another human soul. I’m not pushing through. Not victimized. Not overcoming, not fighting karma or trauma, and taking care daily. Been on a tech, noise pollution, and bluelight pollution fast. No podcasts, no music, phone on airplane mode, unless connecting with my lover. Just listening to sounds of the forest alone in an eco-home. It has been really nice🥰. One loveliness 🙏🏿

[rz-jocelyn]

@ryuji_japan

This is actually video of Sato Ryuji’s IG Live. Please find the full video at Ryuji’s Instagram: HERE

Caption:

Talking about if there's a lag or not for about 40 minutes in [a stream of] 1 hour, it's that kind of broadcast.

Personal Comment:

This is an IG Live that Ryuji has been wanting to do, especially since performances for the "Live Spectacle NARUTO ~Ninkai Taisen, Kaisen~" were cancelled due to COVID-19.

Prior to this, he did a spontaneous IG Live from his car while he was on a break driving back from visiting his parents in Sendai, Miyagi. He didn't put that live on archive because people have been re-posting his IG Live videos on YouTube without permission, and because he was using his mobile data, so he felt that it had issues and was not up to par for archive purposes.

Archiving IG Lives is not common practice. Ryuji has actually been very generous in archiving his IG Lives for a limited period of time. It's an even bigger thing for Ryuji because, in the past, he has expressed how he's not always the most comfortable with live streams of personal events being left on archive.

And yet, he has put most of his personal events on archive, including The Brow Beat lives and the recent "Tada no Kai" event.

Thank you, Ryuji, for archiving your lives in the past, and for continuing to archive your lives despite the issues with re-posting ♥

For this IG Live, he did it from a hotel room because he's not in Tokyo and is travelling for work. He had been travelling/working on the same day he did the live, and did it as soon as he finished his work, which is why he hadn't had dinner yet.

Ryuji's IG Lives tend to depend on the time he arrives home from work since he usually does his lives immediately on coming home. This is because he tries to schedule his IG Lives as early as he can, so he doesn't keep his fans up by doing lives too late at night.

On an additional note about his caption, the reason why Ryuji has IG Lives is to talk to the fans, so he was really concerned about the time lag in him receiving fan comments. He has tried his best to solve the issue, and has said that he will continue to look into solutions because he doesn't want to do lives where he can't respond to fans properly and is just talking to himself.

Seriously, just when I think Ryuji can’t be more gentle and considerate, he goes and does things like this ♥ 

[cyarskj52]

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MR. KEKE PALMER'S BOYFRIENDUPDATED JULY 17, 2023

Keke Palmer’s Boyfriend Doesn’t Know His Place

Keke Palmer and Darius Jackson. Photo: Rebecca Sapp/Getty Image

Is this how a second gentleman should be acting? After a video surfaced of Usher serenading Keke Palmer at his Las Vegas show on July 5, her boyfriend Darius Jackson decided to share his opinion on the family matriarch’s dress. “It’s the outfit tho.. You a mom,” he wrote on the Elon Musk app. Mr. Keke Palmer’s Boyfriend was saying her outfit — a black sheer, long-sleeved polka-dot dress with a bodysuit peeking out underneath — was unfit for a mother to wear in public. According to his misogynist logic, moms shouldn’t have fun at concerts in cute little black dresses because that is a threat to the traditional family. “We live in a generation where a man of the family doesn’t want the wife & mother to his kids to showcase booty cheeks to please others & he gets told how much of a hater he is,” he added in his follow-up tweet. Mind you, he and Keke are decidedly not married. The couple have been dating since 2021, and their first child was born in February of this year. “This is my family & my representation,” he kept going, for some reason. “I have standards & morals to what I believe. I rest my case.” He has since deleted his profile and scrubbed photos of him and Palmer from Instagram.

Twitter, however, kept up the fight. The internet dug up Jackson’s old tweets, which include seemingly defending police brutalityand liking a post that calls Tracee Ellis Ross a “female loser” for posting a topless picture of herself at 50 years old. The petit-incel vibes combined with conservative ideas about family and policing isn’t going to get a lot of Palmer fans on his side. The two people at the center of Jackson’s ire appear unbothered through it all. Palmer posted a picture in the allegedly offensive outfit on Instagram with the caption, “I wish I had taken more pictures but we were running late!” Meanwhile, Usher liked a tweetwhere a user understood Keke’s behavior, saying, “It’s Usher like cmon now. I could see if it was Jacquees,” where Jacquees replied, “😂😂 Leave me out of it.”

Despite Jackson’s departure from the internet, Palmer is rightfully not letting his misogynistic words go. She’s now selling merch reminding moms that they can be hot as well as an empowered parent. “One thing is certain and one thing is true, IM A MOTHA, through and through! ‘IM A MOTHA’ and ‘Stevie to the bullshit’ shirts available NOW!” captioned Palmer on Instagram with a video where she sang to her baby. “To all my mom’s out there, how did your baby change you?? Mine empowered me! On such another level, my perspective changed because when my baby is good I’m GREAT! Look at that face! Gratitude galore.” Palmer is even alluding to the baby daddy drama in her live shows. At Broccoli City Fest Sunday, Palmer changed the lyrics of “Bossy” to reflect her mother status. “Lil booties matter, my son gave me some ass/ I’m my own boss and I got my own cash/ I don’t need a *****, only thing I need’s a bag.” A couple days ago, Jackson was just Palmer’s low-key man; now he’s generating enough online discourse to last for weeks. Embarrassing.https://www.instagram.com/p/CuVoiM5r_iF/embed/captioned/?cr=1&v=14&wp=744&rd=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.vulture.com&rp=%2F2023%2F07%2Fkeke-palmer-boyfriend-usher.html#%7B%22ci%22%3A0%2C%22os%22%3A17773%7D

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