#this is longer than 12:01 itself

[sparkleplatypuswriter]

“You still feeling alright about this?” Vic's voice is low so as to not wake Graci.  Aleida’d tried to assure him last night, after the kids were asleep, behind the closed door of their bedroom. The trip wasn’t a big deal. They’d spend a week in the bungalow next door, take in the sights, share a few meals. She’d already seen Margo. They’d already talked.  It’d be fine. 

Or, in other words, the Rosales-Diaz family visits Margo and Sergei in Brazil.

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[xxxnekomii]

title: highlight compilation of toji’s shy girl’s first time on stream!

description: toji invites his partner to join him on stream :3

category: amateur / homemade

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since this doesn’t have a lot of context, i’m thinking of streamer toji who doesn’t necessarily do full nsfw streams regularly, mostly he does gaming streams with a sort of nsfw twist :3

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toji’s fans have clipped a highlight compilation of your first time on stream into a 25 minute video. it’s more wholesome than some might expect. toji’s in his recording room, which fills the camera frame with soft ambient lighting and the gentle whirr of an electric fan. the title of the stream “introducing my girl on stream” is enough to send chatters into a frenzy as they flood into the chatroom.

timestamps: 00:50 she comes into frame!

when you do finally enter the camera frame in your soft pyjamas toji chuckles as the chat explodes in messages which moves too fast to read. money donations ping in but toji isn’t interested in reading them today. instead, he helps you settle in his lap with one arm wrapped around the front of your waist.

you introduce yourself shyly, a little overwhelmed by the various windows opened on toji’s monitors.

timestamps: 01:30 toji shows her the streaming set up

“see, i told you she was real,” says toji as you give a small wave to the camera. toji spends a short while showing you his set up, teaching you how to read the chat and when donation pings came in. his left hand finds itself under your shirt, rubbing your tummy as his right hand guides yours using the mouse. to the viewers, it’s strangely intimate and brings in a throe of donations saying “you two are so cute together”, or “i wish i had this”.

timestamps: 4:46 THEY’RE KISSINGNEJJG

at some point throughout the stream toji’s unable to keep his hands off of you for any longer after subtly feeling you up from under the desk. instead you’re now straddling his lap with your chest pressed up against his solid torso as he eagerly makes out with you. he’s turned his chair to the side, so while the viewers can’t see how he kisses you, they can see how his hands help rock your hips against his thigh.

timestamps: 6:37 THINGS ARE GETTING STEAMY

at this point there’s no stopping either of you. donations are pinging in are ignored as toji rolls your hips on his thigh, one hand lazily supporting your waist. soft moans begin to slip out as you grip the armrests for support.

“oh baby are you getting needy?” he says when you mewl his name in desperation. “come on gimme another kiss,” he says as he pulls you in. you whine as he gives you a slap on the ass over your pyjama shorts.

“let’s get you sorted then hm?”

timestamps: 12:55 HOLY SHIT THIS IS SO HOT i could barely focus while editing.

toji helps you out of your pyjama shorts and panties, tossing them to the ground and to your delight he finally pulls out his throbbing cock for you to sit on. it doesn’t take long for toji to be bouncing you up and down in his lap like a dollie as you squeal with pleasure.

“god baby you’re making a mess,” says toji as you hold onto his broad shoulders. “i guess it’s my fault for working you up under the table,” he says as you babble out something about him not being able to keep his hands to himself.

“you know i can’t help it baby,” he replies as he thrusts up once into you. “i just want everyone to know you’re mine.”

“you’re doing so good for your first time on stream baby,” he continues as your voice starts to waver - a telltale sign for him that you were getting close. he could feel you getting close too, your drooly pussy quivering.

toji’s barely keeping an eye on the stream, but he can still hear donations rolling in.

“hear that? they think you’re doing a good job too.”

he catches you in a brief kiss. your brain fizzes with pleasure.

“show them how good you can be, yeah? i know you’re close.”

timestamps: 19:04 shes so cute when she cums + toji fucks her through it

when you finish over toji, your back arches and your hips try to buck away from toji as you squeal his name. your hands push at his biceps.

“fuck baby, don’t run,” he huffs out, tightening his hold on your hips as he continues to bounce you up and down. his favourite part is fucking you through it, and your overstimulated reactions make him cum every time without fail.

“t-toojiii!” you whine as he lifts you up and down on his length like one of the toys he sometimes uses on stream. god toji loves hearing your voice when he does this. he wonders if you know that he holds himself at the edge just to see you twitch and mewl.

your nails have marked his biceps in short pink streaks by the time he finally finishes deep in your throbbing pussy. he lets out a husky groan as you squeeze around him and strokes your hair when you lean forward into his chest.

timestamps: 23:01 stream ending

toji tilts your head up into a gentle kiss again as he squeezes your ass in one hand. “that feel good baby? you made such a mess,” he murmurs. you nod lazily, rolling your hips once to surprise him.

“brat,” he mutters, pinching your ass.

“thanks for watching guys, sorry i couldn’t read out that many donations today,” says toji as he runs a hand along your back.

“i hope you guys enjoyed, we’re gonna go clean up now,” continued toji. “wave goodbye to chat baby.”

you try to sit up and give a weak wave and catch the chat messages in the corner of your eye.

nekomii: no round 2???

honoured_1: fuck that was so hot

jell-o_cat: you should stream with her more often !!!

“alright see you tomorrow night, bye.”

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woo i hope you guys enjoyed this!! it was super fun to write because i love streamer/cam tropes

halfway through i wondered if i should make reader the streamer instead but i told myself to commit haha

at the same time i kept thinking about how there would probably be some crazy parasocial responses in chat if this was irl, but luckily it’s only fiction teehee

[archivalofsins]

Spoilers ahead if you want to go in completely blind about Yuno's third trial song don't want to see the cover or the lyric snippet any of that. Then don't look under the read more because I'm about to discuss it after sitting with it for a while.

"Life, I wanted you to care enough to scold me and tell me I was wrong. Damn you."

Umbilical

"Am I a bad girl? Please don’t answer. What do you want to do? Please tell me." "I messed up. I found out." "Are we over? Please don’t answer. What do you want to do? Please tell me."

Really on some I'd put u and i together in every life time shit now huh. Really being that Stickybug.

"Gonna be a smitten mitten till the day you die?"

"Stop it, you always forget to close the door on hope!"

"I told you from the start don't even try."

Umbilical

"What type of girl do you like? I want to become like that, but that’s probably too hard for me." "Just the two of us. I finally found it." "Just me alone, it really is lonely."

"Little miss devotion, the exits over there..."

"Oh, so not going home after all...?"

Tear Drop

"The wanted wanting the wanter. The overlap, isn’t that some sort of perfection?" "If you want “me”, come marco, I’ll polo. Let’s just do it, please smile?"

"Hop, step, grrr, one more chance! Aha! Why don't you kiss up and shake your cottontail? A pop cuddle snuggle hum a tune why don't you?"

Umbilical

"But anyway, let’s be together till the morning. “Good morning” “Good night” I want to be with you as many times as I can." "Play-biting each other, warmth-giving each other. That is probably an amazing thing. Even this makes you happy right? I know you will respond that way."

"It's out of place put away your jealousy."

Umbilical

"Why are you here? You annoy me a little. I can’t smile well anymore. It’s because of you."

"If you get lonely, find anybody just get lucky."

Umbilical

"Just me alone, it really is lonely. Let’s reload the warmth."

Tear Drop

“Let’s just do it, please smile?”

"I loathed to love but it gave me life gonna be a smitten mitten till the day you die?"

22/01/17 (Mahiru’s Birthday)

Mahiru: My birthday…… the day I was born…… But was there really any reason for me being born? Lately I’ve started to wonder that. Do you ever think about stuff like that, Yuno-chan? Yuno: Eh? Not really. I mean, Mahiru-san, you’re really the romantic type, right? Not that I have anything against that. But isn’t it a bit much to think that everything in life has a meaning? If it makes you happy to think like that then go ahead, but if it doesn’t, then isn’t that in itself meaningless? Mahiru: : ……you might be right. I’ve always just lived my life like this, so I don’t really know. Yuno: We’ve all just gone through a bunch of things in life that happened to lead us here. It’s nothing more than a coincidence. Definitely not fate or anything. Probably. Even if there isn’t a meaning, you can still be happy that it’s your birthday. That sort of thing’s all you need in life really. So happy birthday, Mahiru-san.

"With this verdict of “innocent”, she’s turned her back on social interactions. It seems like she’s even contemptuous towards MILGRAM itself. That’s the real Yuno Kashiki, you could say. Cold and logical. Practical and unromantic. Getting her to interact is gonna be a heavy lift, I’d say. By the way, I love frosty girls like her."

"Fell in love with a meh and felt like dyin'-"

"So, I'm just smashin' over here OK. Roger that!""

"This feeling's been gone for longer than forever."

"I wanna drink up, but I just can't anymore."

"Fell in love with a blah, wanted to kick the bucket."

Yuno (-273.15°C) 13:17s

"Ahaha, ha! Oh! Also, that reminds me, there was one thing I'm curious about." What? Go ahead and say it. "Am I...really alive?" That's...what do you.. "Hm... if you don't know, then it's fine." Yuno? "Hey, it's time, right?"

Yuno (-273.15°C) 12:44s

"I mean stuff like forgive or not forgive- that's all made-up play! I won't get warm with something like that! Unless you embrace me, it's impossible, no way."

MILGRAM / Jackalope’s “Third Trial Commencement Notice” 2:31s

Your judgement was “innocent”, and as such, her ideas were affirmed. Hm. She seems calm and collected, but just look into her eyes. She can’t hide her inner turmoil. She’s conflicted. But, what changed her wasn’t MILGRAM, it seems. Prisoner No. 006: Mahiru. Witnessing her death was what brought about this change in Yuno.

"Not the judgements of MILGRAM, or being found “innocent” by strangers...... no. What a turn of events. Interesting, isn’t it?"

"Life, I wanted you to care enough to scold me and tell me I was wrong. Damn you."

"What do you want to do? Please tell me."

Tear Drop

"“Poor naive little girl”? So off the mark, what’s it to you? It’s just absurd Like really, who do you think you are?"

"I don’t need to be lectured to like that. Do you just want to make yourself feel even better?"

Hold up gonna derail my own post real quick why the fuck are you so unhappy here Yuno? That is the fakest smile you have ever smiled. This the customer is always right ass smile. This, I swear I'm not under duress ass smile.

This I'm fine ass smile. This I am biting back a scowl ass smile. This other me you better hold me back ass smile.

Ah, that's better never mind.

She fucking hates that guy across the table sooo much it is so funny she fucking hates that man and possibly the audience as well if the stuff rabbit was a stand in for the audience and that guy.

Fucking I can't say it,

"I don’t need to be lectured to like that. Do you just want to make yourself feel even better?"

But I am damn sure thinking it ass smile.

Ah, Yuno I- ya know I wish we could have several more trial I really can't believe this is gonna be the last one. I would like to do this forever with you because you are just that amazing that made my year. What the fuck were we talking about oh yeah- How she fucking hates that guy represented by the color yellow.

Yeah she more than likely does. Dearie me... Never seen a person so unhappy after being paid. The fuck did this man say to have her upset after he gave her a gift and money. Like I can't comprehend fumbling that hard. Fumbled so hard she started having a relationship with herself on screen directly after this interaction.

She's really went I wouldn't treat me like this,

And another version of her showed up and went you're so right babe is this fool bothering you,

Maybe her case is as a clear cut as Haruka's but it's still very fun to think about. Plus, life tends to be a lot more complicated than that so I'm really curious to see what happens. Maybe these mean don't matter at all, maybe those ribbons mean nothing. Who am I to say more than I already have. I will admit though it is always nice to see Yuno again.

Because it's always so fucking messy. Also all the merch and art is really good.

Like ridiculous if all the prisoners are getting straight facing mugshot like bust shots that call back to Undercover and seemingly have their obscured reports attached too for their cd covers this is going to get really fun really fast.

Oh yeah I've been curious about this and it could be me just being like that's weird and it's actually normal but what the hell is up with Yuno irises???

What's with the black curved lines inside. It probably means nothing but I found it interesting anyway. Maybe all the prisoners will have it I don't know. Overall really pretty to look at and fun to speculate about.

[stra-tek]

The Animated Series' weird takes on Trek history deep dive!

Check out S.S. Bonaventure 10281NCC from "The Time Trap", according to Scotty "the first ship to have warp drive installed"

Among the council we see a woman in a white Starfleet TOS-ish uniform with blue collar and a science insignia, presumably a surviving crewmember.

TAS is weird because it was out of continuity during the 90's, due to Filmation's bankruptcy and subsequent rights issues and Gene Roddenberry's supposed dislike of it. As a result, episodes and novels were forbidden from referencing it even if a few were snuck in regardless and subsequent Treks took things in different directions.

Now in 1993 the Star Trek Chronology was released, largely ignoring TAS. It featured this same named ship, which subsequently made it into a Deep Space Nine episode via this graphic:

And this Bonaventure design would be inspiration for the Phoenix in the movie First Contact

So how does TAS' Bonaventure fit now? Ummmm not so well. Fans speculated she was the first ship to have a Dilithium powered warp drive... until Star Trek: Enterprise nuked that. And then TAS nuked itself on those details a little later...

April's Enterprise

"The Counter-Clock Incident" is the first time we meet Robert April and his wife Sarah. Robert April was an early name, eventually changed to Christopher Pike for the 1st pilot episode of live action Star Trek and eventually James Kirk for the original series proper. Then retroactively made into different characters who commanded the Enterprise prior to Kirk.

Sarah comes out with "As the first medical officer aboard a ship with warp drive..." which is problematic to say the least.

TAS seems to imagine a universe where Bonaventure 10281NCC was launched shortly before the Enterprise, and warp drive and everything are all very new. The Star Trek Chronology and then the Enterprise series would move things back considerably, giving us the warp-powered Enterprise NX-01 with Dr. Phlox a century before Kirk's time.

Spock and the Enterprise's age

In "Counter-Clock Incident", weird stuff happens and the crew are in a bizarre reverse universe where they age backwards. April begins as a 75 year old man heading to mandatory retirement, but as everyone de-ages he ends up a young man looking much like Jim Kirk. At that time, everyone else is a toddler. Spock lasts longer though, and is still functional on the bridge as a teenager until the last few moments. This implies Spock is the oldest by far of the TOS crew, which makes sense due to the long lifespans of Vulcans. However, beginning with that 1993 Chronology book and made official in Star Trek Beyond, Spock is only 3 years older than Jim, born 2230 and 2233 respectively.

And how old does this make the U.S.S. Enterprise NCC-1701? This goes all the way back to The Making of Star Trek, which supposed the vessel is 40 years old at the time of TOS - something modern Trek would cut roughly in half. Strange New Worlds makes official her launch year as 2245, when Jim Kirk was 12 and Spock 15 (and in the Kelvin Universe, the Enterprise is launched much later in 2258 under Pike, but that's explicitly an AU where everything post 2233 is different)

The Man-Kzin Wars

I wrote a whole thing about the Kzinti in Trek here:

In Larry Niven's Known Space novel universe, the Kzinti were defeated when humans invented faster-than-light travel. In the 1970's, long before Star Trek First Contact, Star Trek Enterprise or the official Chronology book, I'd guess the 4 Man-Kzin Wars took place much as in Known Space, warp drive made the difference. But what does Sulu say?

"The Kzinti fought four wars with humankind and lost all of them. The last one was two hundred years ago..."

So despite "The Counter-Clock Incident" implying 40 years ago for warp drive and "The Time Trap" giving us a first ship with warp drive looking much like the TAS Enterprise implying it's not that old, now it's 200 years ago. Which in modern Trek would be around the time of Star Trek First Contact. I have a headache.

So in summery, TAS is amazing and it's continuity is utterly flawless and it's everything else made since that's wrong even when TAS clearly wasn't paying attention to what it itself had established.

[rainykthebroken]

Chapter 3: Celandine New ending!!!

Check it HERE!!! (it's more readable on ao3 than on Tumblr)

After years of being lulled by the music of machinery and the smell of oil and smoke, the gentle rhythm of the waves as they licked the sand seemed almost alien to Susie. The sea salt that filled her nostrils, though somewhat irritating, appeared to impregnate the essence of the beach within her, rather than the other way round as had been the case for so many worlds before this one.

The young CEO even found herself loving the beating sun, its radiant glow preferring itself to the sanitized lights of her office despite the glare. The froth that fell just in front of her tempted her to dip her hand in the cool water, to feel the torn seaweed and sand between her fingers. It was disgusting, unclean and pointless, and yet Susie found herself drawn to the prospect.

The years that had followed the end of her mechanistic madness hadn't been enough to make her fully understand why nature and its imperfections were so... pleasant.

Susie would have liked to continue losing herself in these reflections and perhaps even in the landscape that stretched to the horizon, but she knew full well she'd have to answer to the black monoliths that were spoiling her view.

"We've been very dissatisfied with our company's results since you took charge, Haltmann," declared the floating rectangle in front of her, a single red line vibrating at the sound of the voice disturbing its almost pristine surface.

'our'

Susie felt like throwing up. She was pretty sure that nothing could turn her stomach more today than rereading over and over those bold scarlet neon words that, as if carved in marble, read:

H-EC

12

At least, as the 'SOUND ONLY' ensured, Susie wasn't forced to see the condescending faces of her executive committee members.

Unfortunately for her, a monolith to her left put in another layer.

"The accident on Popstar a few years ago has severely hampered our plans, and your father's death has only made the situation worse. However, we would have thought that you would have been able to take on this enterprise."

         Although life had taught her to conceal emotions, Susie found herself grateful that her visor couldn't reveal how much she wanted to unload her blaster on the investor. H-EC 08, she thought? All their voices seemed to blend together in her head, and deep down, every one of them was as infamous as the next.

Taking a deep breath, and remembering that none of them were physically there to calm her nerves, Susie forced herself to smile. "Haltmann Company has grown 13% in the last six months alone. I doubt that without me, this company would have managed to hold its own in the market."

She suspected his barely concealed annoyance, but surely they knew as well as she did that she was telling the truth. If they took the rap, she'd still be the one holding the bag.

"And we're grateful," interjected another interface. Susie's headset, simulating the sounds as if the stockholders really were encircling her, informed her that it must have been one of the rectangles behind her speaking. "Even so, it's obvious that this company no longer has its former influence."

Susie tried to argue, but H-EC 01 gave her no time. "Under your predecessor's presidency, you were the example of the model employee for the corporation."

Amoral, cold, complacent? inwardly analyzed Susie. "However, you seem to have deviated from the pre-established models. Our business plan, however, was infallible and highly effective."

"The world is evolving, and customs are changing. We have to modify the way we do things if we want to keep an edge on the competition," Susie explained, stopping herself from raising her voice.

The mechanic was not in the presence of simple trainees whose demands she could brush aside with a wave of her hand, but of sharks as cunning as herself.

"We can't just enslave entire star systems anymore, it's far too resource-intensive," in addition to being immoral, but she doubted they gave a damn. "By helping primitive planets, we can raise their standards of living, and build up a new customer base that will really need our products-"

"That's hippie logic! I didn't pay for it!" yelled one of the black venta blocks curtly. "Since you've been head of this company, you've let yourself be guided by its frivolous and pointless ideas. Why spend billions finding renewable energies when so many resource-rich worlds exist?"

Nothing less was to be expected of them, and Susie knew it. Since becoming president, she had realized just how long-term the firm, and its creditors, were. Like a black hole, they were only thinking of satisfying their insatiable hunger now, without worrying about what would be left afterwards.

How she'd never seen beyond her own job and vengeance for so many years was beyond her.

"We're not in the charity business, Miss Haltmann," the twelfth member of the executive committee spoke again. "Our sales are at an all-time low." Perhaps you should erase a few zeros from your cheques, Susie restrained herself.

"We're all the more dismayed by your various risky projects, always in worlds so far from those that really matter. It would be best if you came back to us and to discuss your place in the corporation, face to face."

Their mistake was to mistake Susie's calm for docility, but she didn't betray her irritation.

She was no longer a child or a poor assistant who could be bossed around so easily.

With her hands still relaxed on top of each other, her face as erect as ever, Susie didn't let up. "I'm afraid you're the one who misunderstands who is vital to our interests."

"Is that a threat?"

The floating monoliths seemed to draw closer, trapping her between twelve wide, marble-smooth walls.

"Only a statement of fact," the woman replied coldly, without losing her composure. "I'm still in charge, and I remain the reason you see the money pouring in."

She hoped that no matter where they were, they could feel the look of defiance she cast at the interfaces piercing the vague thing they had left of soul. "Don't forget that what I'm doing here could launch Haltmann Works Company into a new era."

For a few seconds none of them spoke, and Susanna hoped she'd finally shut them up.

"We hope for your sake that whatever you're doing in this backwater place will bear fruit," unlike Susie, the voice didn't hide its displeasure with the conversation as well.

"Otherwise, I fear restructuring will be necessary to compensate for your failures. Remember, we founded this entrepreneurial marvel together. It would be unfortunate, given your talents, if you ended up behind a desk handling the accounts to make way for people who know so much about dealing with savages."

This conversation really needed to end as soon as possible, or Susie might say something she'd regret in the future.

Fortunately, a small light flashed on her visor, indicating the words she'd been waiting to read for two weeks:

SPACE-TIME FLUCTUATION DETECTED.

"I think this meeting is coming to an end, my collaborator is manifesting himself again. Better not to fall behind schedule. After all, time is money."

As Susie pressed one of the buttons on the sleeve of her glove, she had just enough time to hear, to her delight, gasps of indignation and a "Can we really trust this Magolor-" before her visor and helmet antennae retracted, the holographic monoliths disappearing with them.

And just like that, there was nothing to obstruct her view.

Susie Haltmann breathed out her frustration once more, letting the sea air fill her lungs. She regretted never having stopped for two seconds in the past to just feel the world around her. Once, she'd found calm outside the deafening work, now she was begging for it.

Massaging her forehead, the scientist regained her senses when, in the distance, the sky seemed to open up into itself, and a small dot emerged. The thing may have been moving miles from her position, but there was no doubt what it was.

Susie finally resolved to retrace her steps, to find Clawroline and welcome her friends. The short respite was already over, and the work began again.

As she left the white sand, trying to forget the humiliating reprimands to which she had been subjected earlier, she had to confront a truth that this little experience had just made her realize.

As much as Susie hated to admit it, maybe Zan Partizanne was right. Maybe a trip to the beach wasn't such a waste of time after all.

[druidx]

Her Countenance was Light - Chapter 12

CW: None AO3; Chapters: 01. 10. 11. Tag list (ask for +/-): @aquadestinyswriting, @hannahcbrown, @jacqueswriteblrlibrary, @babyblueetbaemonster

Elo lets herself into the chambers from a side door. Her footsteps ring out as she passes over the multicoloured marble floor. The giant semicircular window, against which the menfolk are silhouetted in the waning daylight, rests against the semicircular speaking floor like someone has taken an oblique wedge from an orange. From the curve of the speaking floor, seating rises like a lecture hall to meet the domed roof. She's always thought this room is beautiful – perhaps more so when it's not filled with bickering politicians. The wooden balustrades are lovingly carved with vines and mythical creatures, the domed roof is moulded and painted with cornucopias, and the speaking floor is inlaid with the Triumvirate's seal in shimmering brass and coloured marble. "Good evening, your Majesty. Acting Magister. Exchequer," Elo greets them. Outside the window, the orange sun is captured on myriad windows, making the city blaze. "Lady Toreguarde," King Storri says, inclining his head in greeting. "It is indeed a fine eve." He takes a step to the right and invites her, with a wave of a hand, to watch the sunset with them. "'Sargent' is fine," she mutters as she stands next to him. He flashes a smile. She hadn't meant for him to hear the comment, but after the day she's had, Elo can't bring herself to care. "It is a beautiful sight," King Storri says. "Yes," Elo replies, and it is. She can think of no fairer sight than her city; at any hour or in any weather, she loves the sight of it. The sun has dipped lower now, the sky turning from amethyst to navy. Along the canals, the bargemens' lights twinkle merrily along their darkling paths. The Exchequer clears his throat. "If you'll excuse me, your Majesty, I fear I have more work to do, ere our meetings tomorrow." "Of course," King Storri says with a dip of his head. With a mumbled, "Good night." the sallow man hurries away. Clayrmantle grumbles something to himself, then, "Alas, I should also depart. Early birds and worms, et cetera. Good night, your Majesty. Oh, your Majesty? Don't forget about tomorrow night." "Mm. God nat, Magister." "Elowyn, dear?" Clayrmantle says as he steps away. Elo pulls her gaze away from where the stars now glitter across the firmament. "Yes, Thazar?" "Kindly ensure the king is abed before midnight?" "I'll do my best, sir." With a fatherly smile, Clayrmantle nods and departs.

King Storri is deep in his thoughts, so Elo lets them gaze over the city for a few moments longer before calling him back. "Your Majesty?" He sucks in a breath, as though he has been very far away. "Dinner, sir." "Yes, Sargent."

Elo leads him out to the now deserted corridors of City Hall. "What's happening tomorrow night, sir?" "May we speak on it over dinner? I find I am quite exhausted and would prefer to broach the subject with a full stomach," King Storri says. "Of course, sir. Where would you like to dine? There are several Michelin-starred restaurants in the city, that your Majesty may find pleasing–" "Stop." Elo stops walking, looking at the King with eyebrows raised. "I find myself wanting a quiet evening. Where would you recommend?" "Um. I'm told chefs at the Emerald Star are excellent, if your Majesty wants to dine in your suite…?" "No. I wish to know where you would recommend," he says, pointing at Elo. "Sir, I'm very sorry, but I'm afraid I can't help," Elo says. "A copper's salary doesn't lend itself well to eating out. The rare times I eat out, it's at one of two pubs. Neither of which, I should add, are remotely appropriate places to take someone of your station." King Storri lifts his chin. "Tell me what they are called." Elo tilts her head incredulously. "Sir–" "Tell. Me." Elo keeps her glare up for a touch longer than is necessary, but the King does not blink, so she relents. "The Slippery Slope, and the Skiving Scholar." It comes out muttered. "Which is the cleanest?" "I really think your Majesty should reconsider. I'm told the fowl at Bourdain's is exquisite, and Passport Plates, though the name is a bit kitschy–" "Of your pubs, which is the cleanest?" Elo closes her eyes and takes a breath. "The Scholar, your Majesty." "It sounds like a fine establishment. We shall go there."

With that, King Storri turns and begins to stride away. "Your Majesty… Excuse me– Sir!" Elo calls after him. The King stops. "How are we getting there – have you been given use of a chauffeur? Or are we packing everyone onto a public bus?" King Storri tilts his head. "I was informed you have your own transport." "I have a motorcycle that barely fits two. Again, not really appropriate for a King," Elo gesticulates wildly. "Not to mention insufficient for transporting your security detail." "Are you suggesting I will need them?" "Yes. The scholars can get remarkably rowdy." He quirks an eyebrow. "You are suggesting that the fabled Lady of Toreguarde will not be enough to assure my safety?" "Correct. The fabled Lady of Toreguarde got her title by working alongside your Chief of Security, Meredeth Gruksdottir. Who, incidentally, is going to kick me into next week if I let you swan off without your security detail." "You are suggesting we may find ourselves in such a dire situation, I would need them?" "Abso-fucking-lutly! Toreguard is dangerous. Maybe not as much as other places, but still. And even if we didn't, that's not the point! They are your security detail. It is their job, as well as mine, to keep you safe. I will not have you risking their livelihoods and reputations because you want to go rogue. At the very least, I have to inform Agent Ironforge of your whereabouts, or she will eviscerate me. "So you sit your royal ass down and don't you dare move until I've returned, you emmerdement. Am I understood?" And great, she's shouting at him again. It's been mere hours since she was told she'd used her one free pass. His face is a rictus of shock, and cue declarations of war in three, two– King Storri beams. "You are everything they said you were and more," he says, the grin turning smug and self-satisfied. Eloquently, Elo says, "Who? What? Huh?" "Agents Ironforge and Copperheart, and your Mother." "Aunt," Elo corrects on reflex because he is surely talking about Alexis rather than Oakrose. "Your Aunt then, Alexis," King Storri inclines his head. He turns away. "Come. We have much to speak of over dinner." Elo crosses her arms. "Sir, I think you're forgetting something." The King turns back, an eyebrow raised. "I will allow you, this once, to take a quiet meal without the furore of your security detail. But Agent Ironforge will have me drawn and quartered if I don't report your intentions and whereabouts. Please wait here while I do so." "Very well," King Storri says, still smiling as he settles himself into one of the many chairs dotted through the corridor.

[p03swife]

Sacrificing Ouroboros every day until I get its stats to 100,003/100,003, Day 17!

Time: 3 hours, 58 minutes and 53 seconds

Progress: 51,000 out of 100,003

Date: 12/01/2024

Day: 17 out of 33

Sped-up footage under the cut, but flash warning!!

I really need to catch up on the uploads here... >.> The last two videos of this should be going up today on Twitter actually! :D

It's going to feel so nice finally getting this Ouroboros challenge off my plate, especially since it takes 4 hours give or take to sacrifice Ouroboros 3,000 times and about 20 minutes or less to run through Act 1 every time. But... would I go higher, would I do it again? yeah :3

BUT I want to pivot my Inscryption challenges to playing the actual game itself, and I already have multiple ideas for my next challenges! Some are much longer and much more challenging than others, like handicapped Skull Storm runs for example, which I am VERY excited to get to, I can't wait!!

anyways, my Andy the Apple plushie came yesterday!! I'm at work right now, but later when I can, I'll make sure to get a picture of P03 holding the Andy plushie :3 i love indie horror games!!

Again, flash warning! Please be safe viewing, this clip is VERY sped up to fit tumblr's media upload limit.

[inbedtomyhead]

#01.) New Years

1.1.25

The transition from 2024 into 2025

Today is officially the first of the year. It's 2025. I have mixed feelings on this.

2024 moved by very quickly. Much faster than I ever wanted it to. Many things could have played into this (most likely my lack of mindfulness and constant repeating schedule), but regardless of the reason, it still happened. It's very safe to say that I was not mentally prepared for strike of midnight and the start of the new year. Last night laying in bed as we drew closer to 12:00, it hit me harder that 2024 was truly over.

What happened in 2024 that made me have such a hard time with the fact that we're in 2025? 2024 treated me well for the most part. I went to many incredible concerts, played my first concert, and grew closer with people I love. On a down side, I struggled a lot with facing a past ex of mine that I never got over, as well as me and some friends struggling with shitty people in our life. Those two things will carry over into 2025, but the first issue has already started to get better (I think). Among those there are other, more (unfortunately) political and scary things that will likely be moving forward this year, but those are battles that we'll fight as they come. It's better to not go into this year being fearful, and I think staying grounded and mindful will be something incredibly beneficial.

New Years resolutions

I don't think New Year resolutions are necessarily known to be actually helpful to anyone (stereotypically being known for being dropped a few weeks-a month after they're written,) but we continue on with coming up with them anyways. I don't think this is a bad thing, I definitely plan on continuing to write them, but I feel like there could be a better approach.

Last year, I came up with a very ambitious list of New Years resolutions (or more-so tasks/projects I wanted to complete) that ended up failing in the end. I ticked a couple things off, sure, but the only place I really ticked off from was my list of concert resolutions/hopes that I wrote for 2024 (a list of bands I'd hope to see and anything along side, like trying to meet certain band members or get a setlist at a certain show.) Looking back, this definitely was not a successful approach. Sure, 2023 me had my best interests at heart when coming up with the list, but I seemed to overestimate how well I could motivate myself to actually complete anything. 2023 me would definitely not be happy with my progress- but current me isn't so unhappy about it.

My primary over-arching resolution for last year was to create more art. Looking at it, I think this was a fine resolution, and creating the list of projects wasn't a terrible idea. I actually was going to reuse the "create more art" resolution again for 2025 (just minus the project list) since I think thats always what I want to do, but then I realized there might actually be a step i'm missing.

I get frustrated with my art very easily. I don't commonly finish pieces even if they're something small because if I cant figure out one part of the drawing, I'll close the piece and then never come back to it. I'm also generally unsure of my art style, which that in itself can lead to numerous frustrations that lead to failure.

This happened to me when I was working on something yesterday, and when I realized it I sat back and thought. The reason my resolution to create more art failed last year was because majority of the times that I tried to create, I got frustrated and never moved forward. When I wrote the resolution to create more art, I wanted to do it because creating art made me happy and its all I ever want to do. But sitting back and thinking about this made me realize that as much as all I really want to do is create, I get too making art and I rarely ever actually enjoy the process. My goal no longer needs to be focused on creating more, it needs to be focused on not getting caught up in frustration.

So, with that, my New Year resolution for 2025 is to become comfortable making art.

I'm not gonna write a list of project ideas or tasks complete this. That project list I wrote for last year is probably what inevitably lead to my failure; it hung over my head in the back of my mind the whole year and hence never got completed. I don't want this to be something that hangs over me and stresses me out all year. I want to tackle this without stress. Rather than an expecting list of projects, I want to write a few ideas or suggestions on how I can do this.

Spending some time working on paper rather than doing digital. I think with digital it leads me to rely heavily on references; so if I can't use one or have a drawing i'd like to do without tracing over photo reference, I more easily get frustrated and drop it. With paper I can't just directly trace over a pose I wanna draw, and so in turn I can get more comfortable drawing without relying on a reference.

Play with other art style aspects. I don't love my art style, so finding comfort in creating drawings means I need to fix that, or maybe become more fluid in it. I can play with shapes, I can play with brushes. I can lean away from slight realism and look back at more cartoony styles.

Taking a break from doing standard drawing/digital or traditional art. Theres more than one form of art and I typically enjoy all of them. I can probably think of several other art forms I actually enjoy doing more than drawing. Sitting down with those and playing with them can potentially lead to something I can find more comfort and joy in.

I have an old (probably shitty) digital camera in the mail on its way to me. I am incredibly excited to sit down and play with photography. Along with that, I have motivation to sit and work on writing music (which is the true art field I want to dedicate my life to). I've started up this blog to write more and get comfortable doing that. Me getting comfortable creating art means understanding I don't have to commit myself to the art field I haven't really been enjoying. Getting comfortable creating art means committing time to other art medias that are important to me. Getting comfortable creating art can mean a number of things, and I feel good about this. Its open ended and non-stressing. I can approach this in a number of ways. I feel good about this.

Final Statements:

With a decided resolution and an aim to go into 2025 feeling grounded, i'm feeling a bit more ready to move forward into the year. I'm actually feeling a bit excited now, more motivated. I feel pretty confident that this won't fall through.

Thank you for reading

𐂯

BONUS: 2025 Concert hopes

I mentioned earlier that last year I had a little list of "concert hopes" for the year. I think it'd be fun to do that again, so i'll add it here for sakes of my phone storage not being able to handle another note in the notes app.

Artists i'd like to see live this year:

Bad Religion

Flowers for Emily

Just Friends (headliner specifically)

Home is Where

PUP

Riley!

Amateur Taxidermy

Shift Meal

Your Arms Are My Cocoon

The list in my mind is much larger but I think i'll focus this list on who I haven't seen yet (not including Just Friends, ive seen them before but only as an opening act,) and artists that I realistically think will come to my state for a show. I can list about thirty artists i'd die to see live but I know for a fact they'll be mainly playing their home states and will not be making it my way (RIP lol).

[implayingavideogame]

Super Mario RPG (12/24/23-01/12/24)

I've played games since Golf Story! Whoops, guess I need to make a bigger effort to fill this out.

Since i didn't own an SNES, I never played Super Mario RPH: Legend of the Seven Stars on its release. I wouldn't get a chance to play it until the Wii Virtual Console, sometime around... 2014? I did grow up with Paper Mario and its sequels, with The Thousand-Year Door being one of my top games. (I cannot wait for that remaster.)

As with a lot of older Nintendo games, I'd seen playthroughs and videos on YouTube prior, but I knew this was a game I wanted to try for myself. As the origin of one of my favorite games and a lot of other fun titles, I wanted to take a spin for myself. I played it, I loved it, I moved on. But when the remaster was announced, I knew I wanted to go back. All I really remembered about the game was how much I enjoyed it; I knew I wouldn't be bogged down by what felt like repeated story beats from my original playthrough. Super Mario RPG would be a fresh experience.

And man, was it! Even with what little I remember, I knew this was as faithful a remaster as one could ask for. While I never played the original in the 90s, I owned the original strategy guide from Nintendo and referred back to it for some of the later bosses, and it was 1:1 regarding the information. Super Mario RPG was a fresh coat of paint on a modern classic that many current fans probably missed out on. The humor that I personally loved from TTYD and even Origami King started with Legend of the Seven Stars and seeing it freshly translated over with the Switch's adorable graphical take was endearing. I think immediately of the remaster of Link's Awakening, another title series fans considered one of the better titles but I missed out on because it was on the GB/GBC, and another title that I lovvvvvved playing. (Man, Link's Awakening on the Switch was so good.)

I know the pessimism in me can point to the easy nostalgia bait and money grab from Nintendo to put a shiny exterior on a 25-year-old game: why is it $60?! It wasn't that expensive in 1996! But I'm also a snob. I would never have played the original Link's Awakening nowadays because of the graphics. Maybe there are fans who don't have access to Nintendo's Online catalog or don't know enough about the game to give it a chance without this remake. The optimistic side wants me to think that this breathes new life into games and characters folks may not know about, and that it increases accessibility for those interested in playing older titles but who don't have the proper hardware. (Personally, I checked out the copy I played from the library. I could not spend $60 on this knowing its length.)

I'm realizing I'm not commenting much on the gameplay itself, but there's really not much for this purpose to say. It's the same game, which is a great game. I loved playing it again with updated graphics, new cutscenes, and the same dry wit and humor I expected. As with a lot of games, it took me way longer to beat than it should have, and I didn't go the 100% route; I'm trying to be more chill with my gaming habits. But goddamn if Super Mario RPG didn't leave me with the same contented feeling I got 10 years ago playing Legend of the Seven Stars for the first time.

[theadventuresofawilddingus]

03/01/2024

So I told myself that I'd continuously write on this so I have something to look back on in the future, reading all about my adventures and what not but if I'm honest I haven't even written on this since November due to being so damn busy. So here's a recap of the last 2 months.

So, we went to Melbourne for about 12 hours on legit 4 hours sleep and fuck, it was very eventful. Seeing Paramore definitely excused the fact I was dying from exhaustion... oh and of course the starbucks and seeing my favourite pal Mickayla since I hadn't seen her in a few months after she started her new life journey in Victoria. Have to say my bed had never looked better after all that travelling that's for sure. I decided to spoil myself for Christmas this year since I'm single as all shit and don't got no women to buy presents for. I joked for weeks beforehand that I was going to go buy a telecaster and no one could stop me, literally it started off as a joke until I walked into a music store and walked out with a brand spanking new tele. Did I regret the purchase even though it killed my bank account? Hell no. The next day I said goodbye to two tattoos that were holding me back and as much as the pain was some bullshit especially on my wrist bone, I don't regret a thing and I am honestly in love with this new piece. Christmas itself came quicker than expected, and as much as it was a drunk filled emotional one , I was so glad I decided to go away instead of spending it in Adelaide. Safe to say , I didn't really want to come home. Lately all I have wanted to do is travel but of course not having my licence has meant travelling has been a little limited which of course means I'm going for my licence in a few weeks, how scary. New years eve was an eventful one, looking like I'm about to jump on my horse and ride into the distance while listening to country diddys. The night was filled with karaoke, drinking... lots of drinking and more drinking. The next day was definitely eventful, not. And last but not least, today. Today was a day of letting go of a lot of things, clothes wise but things that had some sentiment to them. So if you know me well, you know tight jeans were an absolute staple in my life. Note that I also haven't worn tight jeans since about a couple of weeks after my ex and I broke up. Well, they are no longer as well what I classed as my favourite hoodie and a few other items. I actually got rid of the majority of my clothes I wore back then mainly because I just wanted to forget that version of myself since he gives me the ick nowadays. (Fucking douchebag 🤮) . It was bitter-sweet, I won't lie but damn it felt good.

2024 is a year of doing things for myself and of course, actually living instead of being in survival mode. Travelling is definitely in the books as well as many more concerts, music festivals etc. So stay tuned because this year, well this year is going to be the true year of The Adventures Of A Wild Dingus.

[bizarrequazar]

12-31 (CST) Year in Review space notes

This was a Twitter space held by QuelleVous et al. to review the events and exposés from the past year. The recording can be found [here].

[notes I’ve done on previous spaces] [glossary of names]

We had a good start to the year with the interview between Zhang Zhehan and Li Xuezheng. 🥺 (recorded on 2021-12-30, released 2022-01-01)

Li Xuezheng was muted on 01-10.

The Instagram was reactivated three days later.

The Zhang Sanjian WeChat was made another three days after that, 01-16. This showed a SIGNIFICANT difference in “Zhang Zhehan’s” personality less than three weeks after the interview.

The WeChat account itself was registered on 2021-12-24 in Shenzhen. Zhang Zhehan’s police report was filed on the same day in Beijing.

Metadata of several of the hat photos dated them to 01-10, the day Li Xuezheng was muted.

Also on 01-10, Xie Yihua mentioned rolling out the brand in her group chat with fans. She didn’t respond to any questions asking about Li Xuezheng’s wellbeing. 

Xie Yihua has only met Li Xuezheng once, when she and Su Shifu tried to convince him to tell Zhang Zhehan not to sue CAPA in December.

The tea shop is the reason many people initially trusted the WeChat account. At the time most of us did truly believe that the shop was owned by Zhang Mama.  -  Zhang Mama’s company was the tea shop’s pu’er supplier, this is no longer the case. No one has yet shown any pu’er cakes that were produced by Zhang Mama’s company in 2022.   -  Zhang Mama only became a majority share holder of this company in 2021-04.  -  No one who went to the tea shop prior to 813 mentioned meeting Zhang Mama there, only Chen Ahyi who would say that Zhang Mama had just left / was there yesterday / would be there tomorrow.  -  The fake Lufei account (2021-11-14) also came from the tea shop, as did the rumor that Zhang Mama listened to the haizhes’ end of year livestream.  -  Some CP fans didn’t trust the tea shop early on. The biggest issue they raised what that it seemed to be using Zhang Zhehan’s elements as a marketing strategy, which they thought was out of character for him.

 An early essay the WeChat posted claimed to have gotten an antidepressant perscription from Zhang Peichao (aka Doc Creepy).  -  Zhang Peichao has no legitimate authority to do so—he has a PhD in philosophy with a focus on psychological theory, and he actually works as a counsellor (no medical training required, he has a bachelor’s in general biology) and writes self help books.   -  Standard doctor’s notes in China now include notes on whether the patient has had COVID, been in contact with someone who has had COVID, etc. This was not present in the photograph of the perscription included with the essay.  -  Zhang Peichao gave talks for an American university that does not have an APA approved psychology department (which also had a cult scandal a few years ago), and he is on a Hong Kong psychology council that is not well known or respected.  -  He made some troubling statements on his Facebook about mainland China which have now been deleted.  -  He’s primarily based in Shenzhen.  -  He also wrote an essay after Word of Honor aired saying that Wen Kexing was attracted to Zhou Zishu because he had mommy issues, and said rude things about Gong Jun’s acting. -  A lot of the early essays posted by Zhang Sanjian mirror his way of thinking and writing.

Zhang Peichao is offline aquaintances with Hao Jingfang, a sci-fi author who early on said similar things about Gong Jun’s acting. This year she encouraged whalers to attack Gong Jun and claimed she had tried to contact lawyers to sue him for encouraging cyberviolence against Zhang Zhehan. She’s currently muted for politically sensitive posts. She also had work of hers included in an anthology alongside Bai Ying’s boss.

Bai Ying is a reporter for Xinhua News.  -  On 2021-12-01 Xinhua published an article co-authored by Bai Ying interviewing  an unnamed CAPA representative who supported their immoral artist lists. Fans discovered upon digging that Bai Ying himself was a member of CAPA’s ethics committee and in fact had interviewed himself.  -  His career goal is to be a playwright, not a reporter, and he has written several plays funded by CAPA.  -  Fans found his Weibo account, which included posts that were sexually suggestive and critical of China and the CCP.  -  He has continued publishing similar articles throughout this year.   -  He has another online persona that was running with the righteous passersby, claiming to be a female retired CCBI official. He wrote a long essay in 2021-12 that was very sympathetic to fans. The account became known after it kept trying to gift Li Xuezheng money during one of his livestreams, which Bai Ying claimed was accidental.   -  He’s participated in nearly every activity smearing Gong Jun and related to Zhang Sanjian.

Another reporter, Han Dandong, has also written things for CAPA.  -  He has a side account on Weibo that liked and reposted both his own articles and things from righteous passersby.  -  That account also is used to sell homeopathic crystals and includes posts making sexual comments about young women.  -  He had an article about AI face changing technology published in Legal Daily on 2022-12-30. People realized that the Weibo post for this turned on comment selection and left a comment tagging Xie Yihua as the top comment. This was briefly pinned as Legal Daily’s featured post.  -  (Legal Daily itself has done a number of other sketchy things related to 813, including publishing multiple articles slandering Zhang Zhehan and implying the Instagram’s validity. It is likely that this is the work of only select people within Legal Daily, given the size of the organization.)

Many of the people on Weibo who have run away after being exposed are still active on side accounts liking posts related to current happenings.

Fandom is one of the largest markets in China, with huge amounts of money generated from it. This is why so much work goes into embedding fake fans in fandom, manipulating fan behaviour, etc. Our fandom is not exceptional in this respect.

The actions we’ve seen from the Zhang Sanjian scam gang have also been seen by scams aimed at other artist’s fans (badly photoshopped advertisements, peddling cheap merchandise, etc.)

Zhang Zhehan’s fandom was ripe for manipulation after 813 due to the trauma, confusion, and information blackout caused by it. The fact that his fandom is still so active despite his absense is astounding.

Lao Ahyi is a director at Songcheng, an executive unit of CAPA.  -  She was (likely still is) part of Songcheng’s strategy to expand Songcheng into doing online IPs.  -  She’s been planted since 2021-08. Her story was that she was an older lady who had just given birth and was fighting for Zhang Zhehan, and there were rumors put out by Umbrella that she was Zhang Zhehan’s cousin.  -  She has not been visibly active since she was exposed in July, but is still on side accounts.

The most recent person to flee was Shirley (the one who claimed that Zhang Sanjian had been specially invited to the Shanghai Theatre Academy performance), who deleted her Weibo account one hour after being exposed. Deleting a Weibo is a fairly lengthy process, it can’t be done this fast by regular users—the fastest method is by customer service, sending them pictures of your ID, and applying with them to delete your account, and even this usually takes at least 24 hours but can take up to a week. For Shirley to be able to do it so quickly means she is in direct contact with someone at Weibo who was able to do it for her. 

A lot of the people who have been exposed are from the education sector, which has suffered massively due to tutors no longer being able to work during the pandemic. 

If the scale of the current scam seems unbelievable, remember that 813 itself was a huge scam involving planted fans, water armies, bought out journalists, etc. If CAPA is capable of that, why not this?

Chinese livestreams are hugely profitable to both livestreamers and platforms, it’s a multi-trillion yuan industry. CAPA absolutely have the funds to be financing the scam.

Sophie  -  Was born to a not so well off family. In college she met a sugar daddy and became one of his girlfriends in Shanghai. He’s a very successful business man who has dated stars.  -  She wrote about this on an account that she seems to have lost the password to, on which she talked a lot about the other girlfriends and her life experiences. This is all information she posted publicly herself.  -  The sugar daddy broke with her after deciding to only date more famous women. Sophie then met a bank worker, known online as Umbrella, by whom she has a daughter. He refused to marry her until she had a son. The two of them have a Weibo account where they only talk about and post pictures with the son, never the daughter.  -  Umbrella has a get rich quick mentality but has horrible investment sense that has led to them being in debt.   -  They planted themselves in the Word on Honor fandom in 2021-03 after Umbrella was laid off.   -  She seems to listen to these spaces. 👋👋  -  Sophie filters people for Xie Yihua—no one talks to Xie Yihua without talking to her first.   -  Sophie tried to be on the CP side first but people didn’t like her lol.  -  Prior to 813, Sophie was involved in the Wang Peiwen fake girlfriend rumors. She private messaged Danny, one of the people in the yacht photo, asking if Zhang Zhehan had a girfriend. Danny immediately replied saying that Zhang Zhehan was single but did not deny that he was the person on the boat with his face covered in the photo. The fact that this was Sophie (posting on a side account) was unintentionally revealed by one of the big whaler accounts.   -  On her CPF account, Sophie helped to spread the fake girlfriend rumors: she was the one who identified the girl in the photo as Wang Peiwen. Screenshots she posted claiming to be Wang Peiwen messaging Zhang Zhehan’s studio on WeChat were actually of an account run by Sophie.  -  Sophie is very bad about giving herself away more through the ways she reacts to people exposing her.

A consistent behaviour with the scam gang is them shitting on Gong Jun and trying to blame him for the things that have happened to Zhang Zhehan.

Prayjane (involved in the girlfriend rumors) has likely been involved because her husband is not doing well financially. People like Lexus and Peter don’t have clear motives other than being clout chasers. 

Fake Uncle wrote an essay in 2021-07 (on the same day Sophie posted the girlfriend “clairifcations”) claiming to be Zhang Zhehan’s uncle.  -  He claimed to have been there when Zhang Zhehan made his hole in one in golf. Reciepts from the hotel do not support this.  -  He claimed to be a retired police officer who was helping Zhang Zhehan with research for Formed Police Unit. He never went through police training let alone was an actual officer, and the book on another police officer that he claimed to have co-authored was not written by him, the publishing house had never heard of him.  -  He’s friends with Lao Ahyi, she deleted one of her Weibo accounts after Fake Uncle was exposed.   -  The essay led to a lot of rumors against Zhang Zhehan post-813.   -  The essay included an entire paragraph about the tea shop.

We now know that there were people in Zhang Zhehan’s team prior to August who are not to be trusted, so it’s probable that they intentionally gave him bad guidance on how to respond to the various smears going on.

Like Sophie, Lexus’s entire life is online because he’s posted about it himself. Zhang Zhehan had basically everything that Lexus wants (fame, a singing career, good at golf, handsome, etc.). Despite the fact that he has gained some notoriety through his connection to Zhang Sanjian, he is openly resentful of the fact that people only pay attention to him because of that. 

Zhang Su (Susu)  -  His entire persona as fans knew him was basically created by fanfic authors and what he said himself. The only times he had publicly interacted with Zhang Zhehan were during the bike trip after they graduated (which Susu did not finish) and on Taste of Time in 2018.  -  He’s signed to an MCN connected to CAPA and his boss is friends with CAPA executives. He also has professional connections with Xie Yihua’s sister.

The way that some of the men in the scam gang (Lexus, Master Wu, Peng Lihu, Su Shifu, Zhang Peichao) behave with female fans is incredibly predatory. A lot of other fake fans have also been found to be middle aged men posing as young women. If any whalers do read these notes, please be aware of this and be cautious.   -  There was one point where they encouraged whalers who had bought the brand’s necklaces to post photos of themselves wearing them in revealing tops and bras. 

Candy break! Everyone’s favourite candy from this year:

The hexagon ring behind the glass in Gong Jun’s birthday “leave of absense” letter. 

Valentine’s Day, Gong Jun’s 1129 1314 511 kadian, and the photos from where Zhang Zhehan had once taken photos that can be overlayed to make them stand together.

The Anon account, in particular how Zhang Sanjian has reacted to the account regardless of the Anon account’s actual validity.

The fact that Xie Yihua still can’t get in touch with Zhang Zhehan meanwhile Gong Jun has been quite openly travelling with him.

How Xie Yihua never responded to anyone’s investigations until QuelleVous revealed that her Baidu Baike page had been edited on 813, when Xie Yihua panicked and posted a long essay refuting it. Her overreaction is the reason QuelleVous et al. became known to the Chinese side of the fandom.

The picture from Yunnan of “Gong Jun” from behind in a hoodie where the anatomical proportions of his height and shoulders match Zhang Zhehan’s more than Gong Jun’s. Other observations like the thumb, the photos being cut so that the butt isn’t visible, how illogical it is that Gong Jun would change outfits in the middle of taking photos. (It could have been different days, but why would you go to the same place at 5am on two different days?)

In Gong Jun’s belated birthday livestream he mentioned his parents going home the day after he got the cakes while he stayed in Yunnan, so who took that photo of him at the luxury hotel?

When Gong Jun was replying in the birthday AMA and there was two distinct writing styles being used. 

How Zhang Sanjian posted an essay a couple days later talking about watching the movie Gong Jun had mentioned in the AMA. Pick a narrative bro, do you hate him or not?

QuelleVous says Xiao Yu bought a motorcycle this year.

Gong Jun’s bodyguard (”Bond-dage”?) could probably tell a lot of stories lol. He appears in a lot of fansite photos but there are times when he’s absent, so there are rumors that the two of them share him. There was also a time during the Legend of AnLe filming where the bodyguard came over to look at the CPF in the mascot costume.

(This humble note taker’s favourite candy was the Ritz Carlton rumor, where Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun supposedly were seen outside the hotel on Zhang Zhehan’s lunar birthday. 🥺)

Back to serious stuff:

For the Instagram bike trip in August, plane tickets were bought for Zhang Zhehan, Zhang Mama, and Xiao Yu to go to where it started but none of them actually showed up for the flights. Xie Yihua and co. have stopped leaking flight itineraries since QuelleVous revealed this.

Some pretty well known paparazzi have been paid to spread the low quality “chance meeting” photos of Zhang Sanjian. (Fansites at least put up the pretense of being fans and showing fan loyalty, paparazzi just sell to the highest bidder. Why are you trusting them?)

The CPF who initially leaked the 03-01 airport photos that we all thought were Zhang Zhehan (they were not) deleted her account after being questioned about it.

Wendy was the one who told everyone to listen to Su Shifu’s podcast after 813, and she was asking everyone to spread it around. 

Sophie was the one who outed the fact that Su Shifu had been fired, using his real name.

Thank you to the Ding Dongs and everyone who has worked to share clarifications about Zhang Zhehan this year. Thank you to everyone who has stayed here and stayed strong for Zhang Zhehan. Thank you to Gong Jun for all the little rays of sunshine.

Let’s hope 2023 brings Zhang Zhehan’s official return, that Gong Jun stays safe and successful, that both of them are able to do whatever they want, and that many many people go to jail.

Happy New Year everyone! 🥳🥳

[simbouquet]

TS3: CAS Animation Edits

This is a 2024 revamp of my old CAS Animation Edits mod that I released a couple years ago.

The mod aims to resolve a couple annoyances with the behavior of Sims in CAS; I've edited the CAS jazz script file and tweaked a number of EA animations to make Sims move around less while you're working on them, plus a few extras.

It won't make Sims stand completely static! There are already some great mods out there which achieve that, so I decided to focus on giving them better animations to improve the overall CAS experience.

More info, preview and download under the cut!

Features

Gender-neutral animations:

"Greeting" animations when creating a new Sim are no longer different between male and female Sims; instead, they will play a custom greeting animation.

Female Sims no longer stand with their heads tilted to the side; they now use the same idle animations and reactions as male Sims.

Better idles:

Sims stand still more when idle, rather than constantly gesturing and moving around. They will only react to changing body sliders and picking traits.

Improved facial animations: less smiling, no eye movements when zoomed into a Sim's face. Much more comfortable for editing facial features and taking screenshots. :P

Toddler animations have been replaced so that they will stand up.

The camera needed to be adjusted to zoom into the toddlers' faces correctly; I've included an extra package that combines Buhudain's edit of Shimrod's CAS camera mod with the toddler values from @criisolate's Closer Camera.

Known Issues

Some trait animations will snap back to the standing position once finished. This is an EA bug and not caused by the mod itself.

Compatibility

This mod will conflict with any other mod that edits the ingame\sims\soloanims\cas\animation\cas.jazz resource in JazzData.

The camera mod will conflict with any other mod that edits the CASCameras and CASCamerasWS INI resources.

Download: SFS / MTS / Patreon

23/11/2024: Mod has been rebuilt from the ground up!

01/08/2022: Fixed CAS greeting animation flickering.

12/11/2021: Added extra flavors to the initial release version.

10/11/2021: Initial release.

Credits & Thanks

s3pe: Exporting/Importing resources, creating the package file.

SmoothJazz: Editing the jazz script.

Blender: Tweaking the animations.

No CAS Facial Idles by joninmobile: Served as inspiration for this mod.

Buhudain's edit of Shimrod's CAS Camera and @criisolate's Closer Camera in CAS: Combined both mods into one as a fix for the toddler zoom.

Adobe Photoshop: Creating the preview images.

@miikocc's Polaroid Graphics Bundle: Elements used in the preview images.

Franzilla's Handwritten Simlish fonts: Used in the preview images.

[razorblade180-heated]

Doom

Impending doom <- here

[warning it’s just smut]

“J-Jaune, slow down a little” A petite and quivering heiress asked while laying on her side.

“I’m trying.” His breath was pulled through between his teeth. Jaune carefully try maintaining composure, but that was nearly impossible when Weiss’s equally quivering pussy, opened up so nicely for his cock. “Hold on a little longer.”

Like she hasn’t heard that one before? That’s tune has been on repeat for the last hour. Now she was covered in sweat and biting down on a pillow while Jaune worked her over. One hand kept a leg in the air to open her perfectly; meanwhile, the other had the audacity to rub her clit painfully slow. Was shoving himself completely inside not enough!? He fully intended to have his way with her all night at this point, and Weiss was going to do nothing about it.

“You brute~” she whimpered. Jaune paid her no attention. He was too focused fucking her. Weiss could see his toned core flex every time he thrusted forward. Her hand grabbed the his wrist to brace herself a little better as he got more forceful. “You’re way too excited.”

“Of course. You’re cumming all over my dick.”

Her face became a deep red, “Don’t say that, you dunce.” She could feel herself squeezing down on him tighter, leaving no space around him. Weiss could feel him everywhere. “Why the fuck…are you this big?” She gasped.

Jaune smirked and kept his pace. “Don’t give me all the praise. To think think such a tiny pussy…could be this hungry?” He pinched her clit.”

“Nnngaaa! Jaune! That’s-” he kept his forceful thrust quick and rhythmic. Weiss could swear that Jaune was scrapping the very back. “Deep~”

“That’s it, take me all the way in. Want it all.” He lit her clit go and pressed his hand against her lower stomach. Immediately, Weiss jolted. Her face got even redder and she buried it in her pillow. “You feel it, don’t you?”

His lustful tone tore her mind and body to pieces. Jaune know all the right words to say to get her screaming in the pillow that muffled her voice. He kept her like this, stirring her insides for minutes on end. His hand slowly ran up and over her perky breasts until it wedged itself between her face and the pillow.

Jaune managed to pry those two apart to witness the lustful gaze of his girlfriend. His thumb grazed her lips for only a second before Weiss wrapped her tongue around it, sucking on it like if it was his dick; and now that they were looking at each other, they never stopped.

Weiss could feel him pulsing inside as she continued to give him a show. Her moans and hot breath made him fuck her harder than before. Weiss’s own mind got lost in the naughtiness of giving Jaune essentially, an imaginary blowjob. To think she was acting in such a way made her unravel the final threads keeping her tethered to what restraint she had left. Her body began squirming.

Jaune growled, “That’s it, cum all over it. Fucking fly Weiss!”

Her vision went white. Weiss bit down on Jaune’s thumb unintentionally as her orgasm struck like lightning, bringing Jaune to his own release inside of her. Thank the gods they were smart enough to go to a pharmacy before hand. Weiss slowly freed Jaune’s thumb and was left scarlet while her lungs desperately gained air.

Jaune fell forward, letting Weiss’s leg go free and barely catching himself before squishing her.

Flustered, Weiss pulled him down onto her chest to avoid that stupid, kind eyes. “Savage.” She mumbled. Weiss could hear him chuckle. It only made her embarrassment worse.

xxxxx

Yang:Sooooooo how was midnight last night?

Weiss:Absolutely uneventful.

Yang:*smirks* How was 12:01?

Weiss:…

Weiss:Not as good 1:01

Yang:*squealing* Yeah! That’s what I’m talking about! Up top!

Weiss:*red* Why do I tell you things?

She gives Yang a high-five.

[puttingherinhistory]

“Covid has unleashed the most severe setback to women’s liberation in my lifetime. While watching this happen, I have started to think we are witnessing an outbreak of disaster patriarchy.

Naomi Klein was the first to identify “disaster capitalism”, when capitalists use a disaster to impose measures they couldn’t possibly get away with in normal times, generating more profit for themselves. Disaster patriarchy is a parallel and complementary process, where men exploit a crisis to reassert control and dominance, and rapidly erase hard-earned women’s rights. (The term “racialized disaster patriarchy” was used by Rachel E Luft in writing about an intersectional model for understanding disaster 10 years after Hurricane Katrina.) All over the world, patriarchy has taken full advantage of the virus to reclaim power – on the one hand, escalating the danger and violence to women, and on the other, stepping in as their supposed controller and protector.

I have spent months interviewing activists and grassroots leaders around the world, from Kenya to France to India, to find out how this process is affecting them, and how they are fighting back. In very different contexts, five key factors come up again and again. In disaster patriarchy, women lose their safety, their economic power, their autonomy, their education, and they are pushed on to the frontlines, unprotected, to be sacrificed. 

Part of me hesitates to use the word “patriarchy”, because some people feel confused by it, and others feel it’s archaic. I have tried to imagine a newer, more contemporary phrase for it, but I have watched how we keep changing language, updating and modernising our descriptions in an attempt to meet the horror of the moment. I think, for example, of all the names we have given to the act of women being beaten by their partner. First, it was battery, then domestic violence, then intimate partner violence, and most recently intimate terrorism. We are forever doing the painstaking work of refining and illuminating, rather than insisting the patriarchs work harder to deepen their understanding of a system that is eviscerating the planet. So, I’m sticking with the word. 

In this devastating time of Covid we have seen an explosion of violence towards women, whether they are cisgender or gender-diverse. Intimate terrorism in lockdown has turned the home into a kind of torture chamber for millions of women. We have seen the spread of revenge porn as lockdown has pushed the world online; such digital sexual abuse is now central to domestic violence as intimate partners threaten to share sexually explicit images without victims’ consent. 

The conditions of lockdown – confinement, economic insecurity, fear of illness, excess of alcohol – were a perfect storm for abuse. It is hard to determine what is more disturbing: the fact that in 2021 thousands of men still feel willing and entitled to control, torture and beat their wives, girlfriends and children, or that no government appears to have thought about this in their planning for lockdown. 

In Peru, hundreds of women and girls have gone missing since lockdown was imposed, and are feared dead. According to official figures reported by Al Jazeera, 606 girls and 309 women went missing between 16 March and 30 June last year. Worldwide, the closure of schools has increased the likelihood of various forms of violence. The US Rape Abuse and Incest National Network says its helpline for survivors of sexual assault has never been in such demand in its 26-year history, as children are locked in with abusers with no ability to alert their teachers or friends. In Italy, calls to the national anti-violence toll-free number increased by 73% between 1 March and 16 April 2020, according to the activist Luisa Rizzitelli. In Mexico, emergency call handlers received the highest number of calls in the country’s history, and the number of women who sought domestic violence shelters quadrupled. 

To add outrage to outrage, many governments reduced funding for these shelters at the exact moment they were most needed. This seems to be true throughout Europe. In the UK, providers told Human Rights Watch that the Covid-19 crisis has exacerbated a lack of access to services for migrant and Black, Asian and minority ethnic women. The organisations working with these communities say that persistent inequality leads to additional difficulties in accessing services such as education, healthcare and disaster relief remotely. 

In the US, more than 5 million women’s jobs were lost between the start of the pandemic and November 2020. Because much of women’s work requires physical contact with the public – restaurants, stores, childcare, healthcare settings – theirs were some of the first to go. Those who were able to keep their jobs were often frontline workers whose positions have put them in great danger; some 77% of hospital workers and 74% percent of school staff are women. Even then, the lack of childcare options left many women unable to return to their jobs. Having children does not have this effect for men. The rate of unemployment for Black and Latina women was higher before the virus, and now it is even worse. 

The situation is more severe for women in other parts of the world. Shabnam Hashmi, a leading women’s activist from India, tells me that by April 2020 a staggering 39.5% of women there had lost their jobs. “Work from home is very taxing on women as their personal space has disappeared, and workload increased threefold,” Hashmi says. In Italy, existing inequalities have been amplified by the health emergency. Rizzitelli points out that women already face lower employment, poorer salaries and more precarious contracts, and are rarely employed in “safe” corporate roles; they have been the first to suffer the effects of the crisis. “Pre-existing economic, social, racial and gender inequalities have been accentuated, and all of this risks having longer-term consequences than the virus itself,” Rizzitelli says. 

When women are put under greater financial pressure, their rights rapidly erode. With the economic crisis created by Covid, sex- and labour-trafficking are again on the rise. Young women who struggle to pay their rent are being preyed on by landlords, in a process known as “sextortion”. 

I don’t think we can overstate the level of exhaustion, anxiety and fear that women are suffering from taking care of families, with no break or time for themselves. It’s a subtle form of madness. As women take care of the sick, the needy and the dying, who takes care of them? Colani Hlatjwako, an activist leader from the Kingdom of Eswatini, sums it up: “Social norms that put a heavy caregiving burden on women and girls remain likely to make their physical and mental health suffer.” These structures also impede access to education, damage livelihoods, and strip away sources of support.

Unesco estimates that upward of 11 million girls may not return to school once the Covid pandemic subsides. The Malala Fund estimates an even bigger number: 20 million. Phumzile Mlambo-Ngcuka, from UN Women, says her organisation has been fighting for girls’ education since the Beijing UN women’s summit in 1995. “Girls make up the majority of the schoolchildren who are not going back,” she says. “We had been making progress – not perfect, but we were keeping them at school for longer. And now, to have these girls just dropping out in one year, is quite devastating.” 

Of all these setbacks, this will be the most significant. When girls are educated, they know their rights, and what to demand. They have the possibility of getting jobs and taking care of their families. When they can’t access education, they become a financial strain to their families and are often forced into early marriages. 

This has particular implications for female genital mutilation (FGM). Often, fathers will accept not subjecting their daughters to this process because their daughters can become breadwinners through being educated. If there is no education, then the traditional practices resume, so that daughters can be sold for dowries. As Agnes Pareyio, chairwoman of the Kenyan Anti-Female Genital Mutilation Board, tells me: “Covid closed our schools and brought our girls back home. No one knew what was going on in the houses. We know that if you educate a girl, FGM will not happen. And now, sadly the reverse is true.” 

In the early months of the pandemic, I had a front-row seat to the situation of nurses in the US, most of whom are women. I worked with National Nurses United, the biggest and most radical nurses’ union, and interviewed many nurses working on the frontline. I watched as for months they worked gruelling 12-hour shifts filled with agonising choices and trauma, acting as midwives to death. On their short lunch breaks, they had to protest over their own lack of personal protective equipment, which put them in even greater danger. In the same way that no one thought what it would mean to lock women and children in houses with abusers, no one thought what it would be like to send nurses into an extremely contagious pandemic without proper PPE. In some US hospitals, nurses were wearing garbage bags instead of gowns, and reusing single-use masks many times. They were being forced to stay on the job even if they had fevers.

The treatment of nurses who were risking their lives to save ours was a shocking kind of violence and disrespect. But there are many other areas of work where women have been left unprotected, from the warehouse workers who are packing and shipping our goods, to women who work in poultry and meat plants who are crammed together in dangerous proximity and forced to stay on the job even when they are sick. One of the more stunning developments has been with “tipped” restaurant workers in the US, already allowed to be paid the shockingly low wage of $2.13 (£1.50) an hour, which has remained the same for the past 22 years. Not only has work declined, tips have also declined greatly for those women, and now a new degradation called “maskular harassment” has emerged, where male customers insist waitresses take off their masks so they can determine if and how much to tip them based on their looks. 

Women farm workers in the US have seen their protections diminished while no one was looking. Mily Treviño-Sauceda, executive director of Alianza Nacional de Campesinas, tells me how pressures have increased on campesinas, or female farm workers: “There have been more incidents of pesticides poisonings, sexual abuse and heat stress issues, and there is less monitoring from governmental agencies or law enforcement due to Covid-19.” 

Covid has revealed the fact that we live with two incompatible ideas when it comes to women. The first is that women are essential to every aspect of life and our survival as a species. The second is that women can easily be violated, sacrificed and erased. This is the duality that patriarchy has slashed into the fabric of existence, and that Covid has laid bare. If we are to continue as a species, this contradiction needs to be healed and made whole. 

To be clear, the problem is not the lockdowns, but what the lockdowns, and the pandemic that required them, have made clear. Covid has revealed that patriarchy is alive and well; that it will reassert itself in times of crisis because it has never been truly deconstructed, and like an untreated virus it will return with a vengeance when the conditions are ripe. 

The truth is that unless the culture changes, unless patriarchy is dismantled, we will forever be spinning our wheels. Coming out of Covid, we need to be bold, daring, outrageous and to imagine a more radical way of existing on the Earth. We need to continue to build and spread activist movements. We need progressive grassroots women and women of colour in positions of power. We need a global initiative on the scale of a Marshall Plan or larger, to deconstruct and exorcise patriarchy – which is the root of so many other forms of oppression, from imperialism to racism, from transphobia to the denigration of the Earth. 

There would first be a public acknowledgment, and education, about the nature of patriarchy and an understanding that it is driving us to our end. There would be ongoing education, public forums and processes studying how patriarchy leads to various forms of oppression. Art would help expunge trauma, grief, aggression, sorrow and anger in the culture and help heal and make people whole. We would understand that a culture that has diabolical amnesia and refuses to address its past can only repeat its misfortunes and abuses. Community and religious centres would help members deal with trauma. We would study the high arts of listening and empathy. Reparations and apologies would be done in public forums and in private meetings. Learning the art of apology would be as important as prayer.

The feminist author Gerda Lerner wrote in 1986: “The system of patriarchy in a historic construct has a beginning and it will have an end. Its time seems to have nearly run its course. It no longer serves the needs of men and women, and its intractable linkage to militarism, hierarchy and racism has threatened the very existence of life on Earth.”

As powerful as patriarchy is, it’s just a story. As the post-pandemic era unfolds, can we imagine another system, one that is not based on hierarchy, violence, domination, colonialisation and occupation? Do we see the connection between the devaluing, harming and oppression of all women and the destruction of the Earth itself? What if we lived as if we were kin? What if we treated each person as sacred and essential to the unfolding story of humanity? 

What if rather than exploiting, dominating and hurting women and girls during a crisis, we designed a world that valued them, educated them, paid them, listened to them, cared for them and centred them?“