#this is what being both overworked and bored at work does to a person

[lemonzestywrites]

ohhh hi, i absolutely adore your writing so so much, so here's two random words to choose from if either sparks joy: effervescent or commotion

i cant emphasize enough how sorry i am that this hasn’t gotten posted! life got ahead of me sadly- though i hope this can make up for it!!

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let me find some warmth inside this little love of mine

paring: buck x eddie

word count: 4k

tw: n/a

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His eyes cascade over Buck’s features, noting the serenity that washes over them. There’s no tension hanging from his jaw or furrow to his brow. And maybe it’s a little selfish, the way he so desperately inclines to note the curvature of his features, the slope of his nose, his cheekbones, the way his birthmark so beautifully blooms out along his temple.

And because he’s nothing short of a weak man, Eddie can’t help but let his gaze drift down slowly to Bucks lips- the reason most of his nights are left lying awake letting his mind wander.

God, he only wishes he could know what it’d be like to feel Buck’s lips on his.

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Buck and Eddie find themselves outside of the 118’s yearly New Year’s Eve party. And wish making occurs.

[read the rest on ao3]

[yonpote]

ok heres how i split up the dnp eras (loosely based on dan's timeline in his interview w anthony)

2009-2011: the Sillies era :3 dan refered to it as being a dumb teen just posting cuz he was bored, which is like, thats what all of youtube culture was at this time. they met and like fell in love or whatever you know the lore dont you. phil moved from his parents home to his first apartment in manchester, and dan technically moved to uni but really he moved into phil's apartment to take advantage of his washing machine and ps1 and. yknow. other stuff. they officially moved in together in 2011 yippee hooray, the phanchester apartment holds a special place in my heart

2012-2013: THE SHIFT. they started getting Serious about youtube as a career, doing more stuff w the radio, superamazingproject started in 2011 but THE SHIFT is very easy to observe when you compare the first season of sap to the last season. ALSO. they were NOT A DOUBLE ACT AND NOT GAY 🙄. it could also be called the No Homo era lmao idk this is when a lot of shitty things were happening wrt leaked information, harassment of their families, and just generally becoming more in the spotlight especially while still in the closet being a horrible experience. but also, they moved to london and got cool opportunities with radio stuff and were starting to actually make a living on this shit.

2014-2016: Peak Dan And Phil™ Era. at the height of their popularity. they realized oh shit, we ARE a double act and not only does everyone enjoy us best as a double act, WE enjoy working together. tabinof, tatinof, dapgo, still doing the radio every month up until they start touring, 7 second challenge app, gamingmas, what the hell DIDNT they do during this time period (what they didnt do was uhh take care of themselves and not overwork and not blur their work and personal lives so much to the point where they felt like the whole apartment was a film set.)

2017-2018: Gay Softlaunch Era (aka post-baking aka glass closet) the baby steps toward authenticity, moved to the double apartment to separate work and life, ii's whole theme, dan talking abt depression, phil getting the quiff, both of them being gay as hell in every way other than saying it explicitly. important things of note: TRUTH BOMBS dropped, Interactive Introverts happened, still uploading gaming vids and honestly by the end you could feel their fatigue. and then they hiatused dapg.

2019-2022: ok these four years each feel like whole eras in themselves, but also theres an overarching theme. THE GAY ERA.

2019: im gonna futher split this year in half. first half- dad left to buy milk so other dad is taking care of us. rough six months for dannies im sure. important phil thing of note- he changed his film set from his "bedroom" to a fairly basic but cute shelf backdrop. honestly prob didnt wanna keep pretending that was his bedroom considering.... second half- DAN AND PHIL GAY. dan uploads his magnum opus. phil comes out via tweet. they go to japan and its really gay and it's The Trip to japan for them like yes they first went in 2015 and again in 2023, but Japhan 2.0 Was The One. what does this mean? proposal? anniversary? idk exactly but it was gay as hell dude and theyve talked about that trip with such love in their hearts.

2020: Phandemic (sorry that was bad) but also where tf is dan again? even with the big C-word happening, it was business as usual for phil, regular vids but make em gayer, caught a pigeon nbd, and end of the year introduces the Stereo app show Phil and Phriends where he's had chats with pj, louise, his brother, seth everman?????, and finally. dan reappears. they reveal that they bought and FULLY PLANNED a house together and are ready to move!

2021: they don't move house for another like six months! basically their house was (and is??) still being worked on AND they were in lockdown AND turns out at the end of last year, they were kicked from their Life apartment and were now living in the Work apartment so you can imagine what all of this can do to their psyche and lowkey they were getting sick of each other like it wasnt just bordering on phivorce it was nearly Phurder. Phidow. but to fill the time so that DOESNT happen, my favorite fucking thing ever happens: Lockdown Lads (and all the other names). the first taste of what a dnp podcast would sound like, with the added bonus of chaotic listener interaction. oh yeah also dan wrote a mental health guide book whatever (IM KIDDING I REALLY LIKE YWGTTN I WROTE LIKE TWO REVIEWS ON IT NOW) and they finally become Homosexual Homeowners. theres quite a bit more dnp content this year, dan being on phils channel a bit more, the phodcasts, dan's gay and not proud special.... oh yeah and hometown showdown i guess AND TEXT VIDEO 2!!! my favorite and my namesake!!!!!!!

2022: Prophecy Year..... but they didnt get married. dan returns with another longass video to say: hey i hate being a youtuber and also youtube majorly fucked me over. but also fuck that im gonna do a weird talk show and ALSO GO ON TOUR WITH THIS APOCALYPSE THEME! phil actually... slows down this year. more dan uploads than phil somehow??? but also Dan Is Leaving me is posted and i go completely insane and become the deranged individual you see today. WHICH FINALLY LEADS US TOOOOOO

2023-present: The Unhinged Era. dan's tour was a huge Emotional success for him but uh not without its hiccups due to management and all that and i think he and phil finally realize. Fuck It Who Cares. dan flies back to england FROM AUSTRALIA to make sure he can be with his future ex-husband on his birthday. CAKE HEART EMOJI. YELLOW PLAID SHACKET. they go on a gamer date and post a picture of playing footsies in a cab. THE PHUDE HAPPENS. they go to japan again and while this one will never be The One it was still a well earned holiday this time with bryony! and they took a bunch of very cute film camera pictures.... THIS IS ALL JUST THE FIRST HALF OF 2023 BTW. in phil news, he talks about going to therapy and figuring out how to manage his anxiety!!!! he changes his hair again!! he hires an editor, phan is his otp, he teases about the gaming channel a couple of times but so many of us already dropped any hope of that returning- OH WAIT WHAT THE FUCK?!!!? HUH!??!? they returned, and more chaotic than ever before. the gayness upped to the max, the Weirdness on full speed, the Horniness at Very Scary Levels Oh God Stop Talking About Dogging, phil can swear uncensored now???? and this energy has continued into today...

[gothicada]

ꜱᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀᴄʟᴇꜱ

ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛ ⬎

ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ꜱᴇx

⟶ ꜱᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀᴄʟᴇꜱ ᴜᴘʀɪɢʜᴛ

��їɞ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ⟶ the meaning of seven of pentacles can talk about nurturing something, being a manifesting, things you worked on coming to fruition. being someone who always finishes what they started. someone who overworks themselves and sometimes has an 'over it' attitude.

ʚїɞ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ for romance, it could be about putting work into a romantic relationship. or the love being exhausting, feeling like you always have to be doing something, or both people putting work for the relationship could work out. a friendship turning into something romantic.

ʚїɞ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ⟶ this could speak about putting effort in a project. progress being made, could speak about over-working yourself. everything will be good in the end.

ʚїɞ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ⟶ slow progress being made, things that you have been planning for a long time is coming to and end. slowing down to take a break, aside from that it could advise you to take care of projects that you have put to the side.

ʚїɞ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ upright, this could mean putting effort to make bigger bank for yourself. if you're working towards something that has money at the end, you'll be able to enjoy your creation and rewards afterwards.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ for how someone feels about you, the seven of pentacles is about someone growing to like you, or their feelings for you is deep. they could feel comfortable around you, patient and committed. good card to get, could mean they feel great about you and that there could be lots of potential, romantic or platonic.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ they would be committed to you, will help you a lot. team-work could be in the relationship. could be someone who helps you heal, would put in much work within the connection between the two of you. could be curious about you, asking you a lot of questions, the two of you grow together.

ʚїɞ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ they could perceive you to be someone who is patient. someone who could have a resting bitch face. someone who could be nurturing and has much ideas and goals. would think of you to be someone who is very focused on their goals and does anything to achieve what they want.

ʚїɞ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ⟶ as a person, the seven of pentacles is someone who sees the potential in many things. could be someone who manifests and has hope for the future. they're someone who is patient and thinks about things a lot, could be in their head a lot. someone who could be laid back and very calculative.

ʚїɞ ꜱᴇx ⟶ could speak about having a lot of sex, or the sex being long. could imply that someone could be a grower, and a female's sex can become very puffy. if you're asking about a man, could mean that their dick could be long and they could even be proud of it. loads of orgasms.

⟶ ꜱᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀᴄʟᴇꜱ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴇᴅ

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴍᴇᴀɴɪɴɢ ⟶ in reverse, the seven of pentacles is about being unorganised, your mind being scattered feeling like you don't know what to do. the card in reverse could mean you could be procrastinating, not putting effort into something and being impatient.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʀᴏᴍᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ could be about the romance being un-requited. forcing it to work, and nothing comes out of it. could advise you to take time, or go to someone else. could mean getting into a relationship with this person. could get bored of the person.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴄᴀʀᴇᴇʀ/ꜱᴄʜᴏᴏʟ ⟶ in a occupation reading, this could mean that you could either be working too hard or too less, it depends what other cards are around it. but mostly it could be about not putting effort into your project. could speak about dropping out/quitting.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜰᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ⟶ in a future reading, this could mean you could become someone who doesnt do what they're supposed to be doing. a project you're doing might not go well, becoming lazy, advising you to manage your finances. doing something and not getting the rewards you're supposed to have.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜰɪɴᴀɴᴄᴇ ⟶ your finances not getting any better. could mean losing money. not a good card to get when you're asking about how your money is going to be, do handle it!

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ꜰᴇᴇʟꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ they could feel impatient about you, could want to rush things with you too fast. could misread some emotions or this could mean they could be easily bored by you. could be indecisive about you, could have another love interest.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ wont treat you well, could be a side-piece. the type to want to have a conversation over with you. might not be kind, might not really be considerate about what you think, what you want to say or what you like.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ʜᴏᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ⟶ could think of you as someone who is impatient. someone who is immature, doesnt take in emotional and internal growth. could think of you as someone who is lazy and doesnt do anything for themselves.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴅ ᴀꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ⟶ in reverse, the seven of pentacles as a person is someone who is easily distracted. someone who is not considerate or too lazy to get their life together. could mean they're a resnetful person and doesnt know how to handle their own finances.

ʚїɞ ʀᴇᴠᴇʀꜱᴀʟ ꜱᴇx ⟶ not good sex, might come easily, doesnt know how to fuck or get themselves up. could be someone who has a thin penis. could be someone who might find it hard to climax, could mean in reverse, that you or them, will not be satisfied.

ʚїɞ ɴᴇxᴛ ⟶ ᴇɪɢʜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀᴄʟᴇꜱ

ʚїɞ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ⟶ ꜱɪx ᴏꜰ ᴘᴇɴᴛᴀᴄʟᴇꜱ

[novemberfyshenuke]

Robotic Playtime

I may or may not have done something bad again....I'm not sure if this is ooc (This wasn't originally supposed to be Vash but I had to make it about him)

Summary: Turning off his pain sensors don't seem to affect his other sensations as you work on repairing his wiring. (Cy!Vash/reader) (This does have wire play; read with discretion) Shift in perspective from third to second for some spicier stuff.

Here again he sits on the cold metal frame. It tilted diagonally, almost hard to balance on when one was seated on the wider sides. The room was filled with walls of tools and machinery and gadgets. Elendira, being the occupant, was quite fond of tinkering with all things related to scientific reverie.

However, it was not the her who dragged Vash down from the airpad to the tech room. It was a this angry little creature who began dragging him along without letting him slip a word in. Stubborn to a point that rivaled Knives, they were someone Vash believes could actually stand against his prideful brother.

Many on this planet were odd. From all kinds of diverse backgrounds with troublesome pasts that chase them down.

And example was this individual that stood at the workbench a few meters away. They tinkered with all things there, mumbling jargon and other mumbo jumbo while they worked. Was this the first time they had done this?

Vash remained unaffected, or at least as he let on. That boyish smile never parted from his lips, or the child like curiosity that runs across his features as he observes them.

He doesn't remember when exactly they joined their merry bunch. His memory had never once failed him. It couldn't. Parts of him are still plenty biological, but for the most part...he's aware that he's a build of cogs and coded. So he asks;

"Uh, is this really necessary?"

The cyborg receives a silent glare from the mechanic. "Vash, what part of, 'Don't overwork your unit' did you not understand?"

There was something in them that made him want to continue pushing buttons. He'd never really found any interest to egg someone on like he did this mechanic of his. He leans forward, his smile twitching as he remembers to turn off the pain sensory nodes in his system. God, it hurt like a bitch.

"I was simply following mission orders. Evacuate civilians to the nearest relief site. They were endanger, and I have parts to spare. I wasn't even that damaged, I don't see why this is necessary."

With a low growl, the mechanic brings over the tools they were studying to the metal bed. The trolley squeaks, the wheels most likely uncared for by the owner. "If I don't do a general checkup or at least repair what need be, you'll just run off before the research department can make any proper repairs.

This way, you can atleast perform alright without leaving with deeper injuries." He tilts his head to the side, expression unchanging. Surely when he lets go of his next words, they would understand that he was simply a piece of scrap metal put together to fight for humanity's cause. "Damages." He corrected bluntly.

They lock eyes. As best as the they can that is. With the goggle in place of their sockets, Vash can only imagine what they were thinking under the layers. The silence breaks as they nod in agreement. "Right. Your damages. I'll fix them up temporarily."

They treated these robotic humanoids like their equal, something the association member, Meryl, and them share. Both of them are all too willing in acting as if they were human. All too willing. It made him question his humanity on occasion. Or at least the person who once handed control of this body to him.

He wanted to argue. It was so stuffy and terribly boring whenever he had to be put in maintenance. He craved excitement! Fun! But he just couldn't. For some reason, he always found himself following the whim of this particular person.

What was it? The air of mystery? The attitude problem? He can't begin to describe how his morbid interest wants him to inch closer to this particular being.

He lies back on the cool surface, staring up at the fluorescent light held up on the metal plates of the ceiling. The clinking of tools and the smooth touch of human skin on his arm were things he paid attention to, but didn't mind much of.

He glances at them from the corner of his eye. He had heard a number of rumors moving about in the busy SEEDS ship. It's a miracle they had time to gossip with how many refugees are still to be retrieved on Earth.

A part of an elite squad full of s-ranking units, this simple human had gone long and far compared to him. He wonders how much bloodshed stains their hands, how many times they had to pick up fallen comrades and desperately try and repair them.

What interested him right now though, wasn't their team or whatever other reason there needed to be. It was the clenched jaw that guided his eyes back up to the goggles perched on their face.

Gods, he was so curious to know what was under there. Hundreds if not thousands of images played in his mind.

They cuss, brow furrowing in frustration. Instinctively, he asks what's wrong. They shake their head, pressing fingers down on their temples.

"Your wiring might be fucked inside. I'm guessing it was fried when you went overboard during the switch. Usually, the Science Department has the tech to mend it without cracking you open. We should head over there."

That frustrated expression was one they made often. Especially around him. Did he cause such frustration? Could the grays in their hair be because of him as well?

His pupils dilate and shrink in a speed that was hard to catch. He closes his eyes, pausing his chatter for a while. Not that it mattered. He was quiet during the time he spent with them. Wolfwood would tease him about being shy, but it always was out of place coming from his aloof captain. Perhaps that's why he laughed along when the joke was mentioned.

The metal rubs up against the other, pulling open the compartment of wirings and other technology hidden away in his body. He nodded in their direction.

The weariness in their expression, puzzled him. He was simply doing what was best in the situation.

"You should probably power down for a while." They explained quietly. He could sense the insecurity in their tone. Was this truly the first time they had fixed up any units?

Vash shakes his head, all the more steady willed to stay online. "It would be better to have someone guide you, tiny. I can turn off my pain sensors for the time being so you can focus on the repairs."

His words don't seem to comfort them much. Their hands shook when they hovered above his open chassis; their teeth chattered louder than the built-in cooling systems in his body.

He slides his hand on top of their vacant one, winking playfully. He had enough trust in them to know they were more than capable to complete the task. Even if sweat started to build in their palms.

His grin was reflected back to him, the goggles glinting in the horrid lighting. Swirling with anxiousness but a determination mingles. Vash sharply inhales, hardening himself as well.

"...then I'll get started." You pull and move closer, almost scared to make a move. A few times, you would inform him of what part would be tampered with next. Through his guidance, the maintenance goes along much smoother than it started.

Vash jolts, his arm moving up to hold onto your wrist. A gritted apology passes along between the two of you. He had turn off the pain sensors in his frame, but for some odd reason his body continues to send signals to his central unit.

Good ones. He's aware of the difference, even if he's never really experienced those painful pleasures before.

"Easy." He hissed, flashing a lighthearted smile. It didn't quite reach his eyes, not that he was aware.

Had it always been so hard to focus when you had your hands on him? You slows their movements. That results to your palm hitting a particular module that causes a shiver to run down his systems.

He grunts, gripping onto the metal surface below him. "No fair, tiny. Are you teasing me?" He meets with your gaze slowly.

You don't even seem aware of what you were doing to him. Figures, he didn't even understand why he was feeling this way himself.

"Vash, is anything uncomfortable? Should I call Doctor Conrad?" You asked, dropping the wrench onto the trolley.

He gulps down his nerves, placing your hands back into the chassis. Vash smiles brightly, hunger dancing around in his eyes. He knows what it is. It was a curiosity to see where this would lead.

"It's alright. Keep going."

When the warmth of your fingertips glaze over his wirings, he almost let out a sound prematurely.

Your hands moved around, repairing a few disconnected lines and then going back up to the wires that hadn't been damaged. He guessed that you were ensuring that the placement was correct.

He grins, fighting the urge to squirm as his chest rises and falls. Sloppy engineer or otherwise, he loved the way your hands were delicate with their touch.

"Vash, I'm going to reach for an inner wire. That okay?"

He nods. If he said anything now, he'd be drooling like a dog. You pushed away a few loose wires, his back arching from the way they tugged gently at the inner wirings of his mechanical body.

"...shit." He murmurs when you squeezed his side for support. He moans softly, eyes wide while his lenses try and adjust to the hazy blur of his surroundings.

You rubbed your hand along the tubes, offering a few comforts as you continue to examine him. Vash jerks forward, grabbing hold of the small of your back.

"Vash! Hey! What's wrong?!" your words were distant. His head struggled to adapt to it. Funny, he had adapted to the harsh conditions of Earth many times before, yet he couldn't handle a simple mechanic running their hands through his wires?

Panting hard, he whimpers when you pull your hand away. The next moment those two warm hands were pressing against his cheeks, concern ever so present on your features.

"Tiny..." He leans in, pushing his lips onto yours. The other reciprocates without much fuss. He loved that about you. His spontaneous actions never surprised you by the slightest. Yet you never seem tired of his shenanigans.

"Tiny, I'm so...turned on right now." He whispers into your ear. And you give him a look. One crossed between confusion and intrigue.

He pants, grabbing hold of your hands to place back inside his chassis. "When you touch me here. It feels so good."

They follow the shape of his system, your eyes never straying from his. Just that look alone could make him melt. It wasn't far from happening. His cooling systems felt a little too hot for his liking.

"If I were human, I would have made a mess by now." He adds, moaning without much restraint. He wants them to know that it felt good. He wants them to feel good too. He puts out there like a young man who just lost his virginity.

...could this be considered as him losing his virginity?

"I see." your hands move away, retreating back to your side. Vash managed to noise out a complaint, pouting childishly when a hand was placed on his bicep.

A complicated expression fits on your lips. He knew this look. The researchers often eyed him just like that. Doctor Conrad being the most prominent in his thoughts.

To have piqued tiny's interest...that was definitely an accomplishment. The aloof responses from previous advancements he performed were more than a little disappointing for the cyborg. Perhaps this rather humiliating venture was worth it.

You scanned him, hand squeezing the fabric of his windbreaker in an attempt of a comforting gesture. 'Be patient' he could almost hear the voice in his head coo.

"Current theory, it's because of the advancement in construction technology. Hands on work with the wiring and frames haven't been done in forever." He could practically read your mind. You were worrying about mindless things. How units who defected survived on Earth, away from the technicians of the SEEDS project; What causes the tingly sensation that has him surfing above the clouds; why it took this long to be discovered.

He's sure you've come up with a few answers already. He's more curious on what you plan to do next.

His fingers drum onto the metal surface, watching as your hand cautiously drags over his wirings once more. "Vash. Please continue to be honest."

That artificial heart of his, whatever a human heart was a equivalent to, (he wouldn't know. Those scientists aren't exactly people he gets along with.) sends signals right up to his central control.

Whatever is to happen, he just hopes it won't end up with him overloading and breaking down.

Guys, is it obvious I reworked this from my PGR fic?

[sakuralovespossums]

Toki Wartooth x Mature Fem Reader

Warning: Mentions of abusive childhoods, trauma, brief graphic descriptions near the end

Unlike Toki, who always acts childlike and naive, your a lot more mature and calm

You always wear a resting bored face while Toki is beaming next to you. It’s a strange but kinda funny picture

You have a pretty smile tho (one that Toki absolutely adores seeing)

You actually also had a rough upbringing like Toki. You were the oldest sibling and your parents were pretty negligent, leaving you to have to take on the role of the adult around the house at a young age

While Toki’s trauma made him develop age regression coping mechanisms and develop a generally naive personality due to growing up in a heavily sheltered environment, yours made you mentally age a lot faster due to being exposed to so many stressful situations such as scraping for money, taking extra jobs, struggling with school, keeping your siblings fed.

Even after you and your siblings were old enough to live independently, the stress of having to care for another still never went away

It def shows in how you always take on chore duty around the Mordhaus. Cooking, cleaning, shopping, etc.

Toki can barely do any of those things, so he just watches from behind while snuggling you

Honestly he loves how domestic it all is since he one day hopes to live a simple family life with you

It’s such a jarring change to go from growing up financially struggling your whole life to suddenly living with a group of millionaires

You both struggle with talking about your families and childhoods, but try to slowly open up and support each other

Because of this, there’s a special deep level of trust between you two that Toki could never have with anyone else. Yeah he loves the other members of Dethklok like his family. But with you, it’s different since he’s never met anyone as patient and empathetic as you

When Toki sees you overworking yourself, he encourages you to stop and relax by grabbing your hand and taking you along on a trip to his favorite places like the zoo, park, mall, and other places. He never once lets go of your hand

He will easily lose his shit at anyone who even tries to antagonize you!!! If they value their life, they’ll know to just stop and fuck off. If not, well……..we all remember what he did to that one guy

The other bad members are no exception! They had better be damn nice to you!!

He always tags along with you whenever you go out to run errands, even if he’s needed in the studio. If he’s really busy, he’ll have tons of body guards go with you (no matter how many times you’ve told him you don’t need them)

The paparazzi and crazy fan girls say otherwise

Whenever Toki age regresses, you go along with it and play with/join him in whatever activity he’s doing

You make sure he never losses his deaddy bear

You have a rather soft voice that you use to sing lullabies or hum to Toki at night when he’s having a nightmare

Toki just knows you would make such an amazing mother and is determined to start a family with you. But only if that’s what you also want!! He knows you still have your own issues to work through first, as does he

Often times you’ll sit on his lap as he prattles on about his day or listen to you talk as he works on one of his models. Other times it’ll be him resting his head on your lap

Toki always goes to you when he’s super stressed, emotional, or having a panic attack. You gently hold onto him while rocking him back and forth until he regains his composure, then acts like he wasn’t just crying a minute ago

It was through this practice that you eventually realized that you also rather liked being rocked back and forth. Maybe it soothes your inner child who never received much comfort

You are one of the very few people to ever see and touch Toki’s back scars. That’s how much he trusts you

Sometimes you just take his hand and press soft kisses on his knuckles. His heart stops

You like to brush and braid his hair sometimes when it’s just you two. He also really likes it since your always so gentle

(It also kinda reminds you of when you would braid your younger sister’s hair as a kid)

You scold Toki about being less reckless with his pets and to be more careful. Thanks to you, Toki’s cat is still alive!

Toki loves to pick you up and carry you a lot. He just REALLY needs to have you in his arms at all times!! He can also never get enough of your kisses, touches, and comforting words

Always has an arm around you, especially when around other people

He boops your nose

His WOWEE is the cutest thing you’ve ever heard

A cute thing about you is that beneath your composed exterior, your actually easy to fluster and surprise, which Toki def takes advantage of just to see your adorable blush reserved for him

You don’t often get angry much. One of the few times you did was when the band pulled that kidnapping prank on Toki for his birthday in Tokyo. You quickly noticed how genuinely disturbed he was and yelled at the others about it

He fell in love with you a bit more since then

The band actually likes/respects you for always being there for Toki, who they see as their little brother

When the band rescued him from Magnus, you were so gutted to see your usual cheery boyfriend look so………broken

It took so many months of careful touching, talking, and so many tears for him to return somewhat to his normal self. You never left his side and always stuck close by him

Now he firmly believes your his soulmate

When you find Magnus, your gonna skin him alive

[highstakeweights]

The Blue Heron

A place for the odd few who aren't satisfied with just gambling their finances away. The Blue Heron offers a thrill like no other, with the promise of riches and your wildest dreams if you play well enough. The catch, you may ask? Petty things such as cash, expensive jewelry, or other tangible assets are useless to those who already have all they could want and more. No, The House only accepts much more personal stakes. The buy in for a game of poker could be a cherished memory, the love for your favorite food, or... a few inches on your waist~.

The Blue Heron is not only a casino, but a resort as well. While it has extremely pleasant facilities, the more one indulges, the greater their tab. The House is strange, fickle, and often vindictive. Yet, people still keep coming, even though some may never leave~. It isn't just The House you have to worry about, but the eccentric staff here to make your stay as memorable as possible. Dealers, bunny girls and boys, and food you never remember ordering lurk around every corner. All there to help you have the best time possible! Though, some want to make sure you'd never even think of going back to your boring life...

Meet Madam Diana Welstrom Anatolia Rhysford Mihaly, or Madam D for short. The Maître d' for The Blue Heron, ensuring that everything runs smoothly and that both guests and staff have a pleasant time. She ensures that there isn't any mischief afoot... At least, not of her own design. While bearing the title of master of the house, she laughs at the notion of being truly in control of everything around The Blue Heron. Her attention is usually focused on her cadre of bunny girls and boys, running a tight ship with little room for error. Beauties bashfully bursting out of their uniforms is a common sight when Madam D is personally overseeing their work. However, she has been known to don one of those skimpy suits herself to show her blubbery bunnies how it's supposed to be done. Regardless, she's far tubbier than any normal woman, and is known to throw off almost any gambler's groove with her enlarged assets.

Another common sight around The Blue Heron is Walter Romanov (no relation to those you might be thinking of). Walter usually handles any affairs relating to the plethora of dealers, bartenders, and kitchen staff. Like Madam D, he is strict, though he lacks her occasional playfulness afforded to diligent workers. His expression is always neutral, regardless of the situation, and his every move is done with unnatural precision and grace. Regardless of his stoic nature, he can still be seen threatening to brush both sides of a hallway with his hips, not immune to the effects of The House. Though, he is a peculiar sort in that his weight and size can seemingly change on a dime. And, he has been seen helping out Madam D's bunnies when they're particularly short staffed or overworked. Yes, Madam D does make him wear the outfit.

Finally, the most recognizable and enthusiastic bunny girl under Madam D's employ, Tracy Burns. Compared to the other staff, Tracy is by all accounts just a normal girl working as a bunny girl. Though, anyone who works at The Blue Heron is still far from what many would consider normal. And... Well, her proclivities make that statement rather apt. Despite being a fan favorite among many who frequent The Blue Heron, Tracy is often quite the thorn in Madam D's side. The ditzy blonde is always eager to see herself and others grow bigger. Outgrowing her uniform before the start of her shift on numerous occasions, she resorts to using pasties and bikini bottoms that cover precious little when the need arises. If she didn't generate so much guest satisfaction, Madam D would have turned her into a human food disposal long ago...

Of course, The Blue Heron has many more eclectic characters calling it home, but best to pace oneself when avarice could very well be your undoing~. Don't bother trying to find your way here uninvited, The House is very picky about who it welcomes inside. Though, you'll certainly know you're welcome if it wants you there. Once it has its sights set on you, it will never let go. Even if you make it out once, twice, five, ten, or even a hundred times... The House always wins~.

(First attempt at an rp blog! Likes and reblogs appreciated, asks always open, and more than happy to do scenes! Still very unfamiliar with all this, so I please ask your patience and understanding!)

[prettyrealm]

kentaro sakaguchi mini personality reading

positives + negatives edition

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+ positives

he is divinely guided. he’s always looking to do something new and pushes himself outside his comfort zone, he doesn’t want to be stagnant and bored and doing the some thing. he’s the type to work hard AND play hard, when he cares about something he takes it seriously but he also knows how to have fun and lets himself indulge in his interests. he’s there for people during bad times as well as good times, he’s very devoted to his loved ones and can push himself hard to be there for them even if it’s difficult or exhausting. but he’s also fun to be around, and if you know him you’d want to invite him to all of your parties and you’d want him there to help you celebrate your wins. he isn’t the type to gatekeep, he wants to help other people and share his knowledge. he’s good at getting along with people, but he’s also super serious and businesslike, he gets stuff done efficiently (almost like he can be good cop and bad cop vibe). he’s good at building the right connections. he’s quite generous and spoils people he loves with his money. he’s also pretty sexual, in a positive way, in a sense that he’s really respectful to and appreciates his partners. he’s pretty confident in himself and his abilities for the most part (probably because he feels guided). he very takes good care of himself (probably always smells good for example).

- negatives

not very independent and relies on other people to help him achieve goals (he uses his connections and social skills to advance him). he wants to be the center of attention and can be too fun-loving to achieve that (like he takes jokes way too far, can get too rowdy or perhaps is even into practical jokes). has trouble with being an extreme person in general, he works hard and plays hard, but does both to the extreme and can oscillate (he doesn’t know what a happy medium really is). he actually goes over the top a lot in all ways - takes jokes too far, when he overworks himself, he doesn’t sleep, when he gets angry he gets really angry (can have anger problems in general) he can be pretty overindulgent (could get drunk a lot for example). doesn’t take care of himself well (health wise, but also mentally). he can easily find himself in toxic relationships and he tends to be way too intense in his romantic connections (he can also enter sexual and romantic relationships too quickly, easily pulled in by looks and flirting). he’s judgmental, bigoted and can have a hard time being open minded. he doesn’t compromise easily. he’s impulsive, doesn’t think about the consequences of his actions and also doesn’t learn from past mistakes. he doesn’t know how to take blame for his wrongdoings (there’s people he’s hurt and he still can’t see how even a small part of it is his fault, can in fact even blame the other person intensely). he can lie a lot and keep harmful secrets. he’s quite arrogant and even tends to overestimate his importance in other people’s lives (can use his status to hold it over people too).

[angelicvigilante]

I got bored and made a few tierlists, please handle/enjoy my unhinged rantings. Probably out of character for some of these...my bad.

Barbatos- Far to committed to his work, nothing will stop this man from overworking besides the sheer will of god.

Lucifer- Does far to much work, although occassionally interrupted by his brothers, it does not deter him. The kind of guy to do something even after you tell him it's impossible just to prove a point.

Everyone in the committed category is being lumped together for this, but i wholly believe that all of them will get fully fixated on something and not stop until it's done, unless they get tired of it.

(I think Leviathan gets distracted easily, but gets it done more often then not so I don't count him in the easily distracted.)

Diavolo- Does his work fine, but finds himself distracted by bigger things, like the antics of another person.

Luke- Easily able to do things, unless you mention something he likes/someone needs his help, then it's al over.

Beelzebub/Mammon- Far to easily distracted by simple things to even have most of the focus on work/whatever in the first place. (Though can do things if they put their mind to it) Belphegor- I am projecting, I fully believe this man has executive dysfunction or something and no one can tell me I'm wrong.

Luke- Stole something on accident, cried in the courtroom; But thought it would be best for himself to learn by himself by representing himself. (was too scared to tell anybody.)

Solomon/Thirteen- Solomon somehow got Thirteen to eat his food, leading to Thirteen trying to kill him with a prank(something she'd do anyways.) Thirteen eventually gave up with her lawyer and the two fought so much the judge just threw them both in a cell.

Belphegor- Napped through it, panicked for a few moments, before realizing he'd probably be in trouble anyways and just went back to sleep.

Barbatos- Simply had better things to do.

Leviathan- Stole some limited edition version of a video game from another guy, the judge got so tired of listening to him talk about the nuances that he just gave up and let him off as long as he returned it.

Lucifer- Brought into court on false(real, he just lied his way through it.) claims that he killed a man, brought up by someone who witnessed the crime. Simply scared the other person so much they admitted to the crime instead and he got off with no trouble.

Diavolo- His lawyer was Barbatos, it simply doesn't matter what crime he committed.

Satan- Spends the whole time arguing with every single person in the courtroom, destroys the property; Just gets into worse trouble after being provoked.

Mammon- Stole something, on purpose. Every lawyer has given up on him, he simply gets himself into worse trouble.

Raphael/Mephisto/Simeon- I couldn't think of anything for them, but I just think it'd go that way. I cannot elaborate.

Asmodeus- Killed a guy, tries to flirt with the judge the entire time, it does not work out.

Beelzebub- Got mad at a worker, insulted and hurt them, almost cries in the courtroom, the judge just pities him at that point.

I have no explanations for these last ones, purely vibes.

[indouloureux]

I wanna talk about domestic eddie again and how after you guys move in together you start adopting little habits from each other. Maybe he becomes a little neater while a little mess doesn't bother you as much anymore. Wearing each other's clothes. You wearing his band shirts to sleep in while he throws on your oversized cardigan or hoodie that's still too small for him. Also going out in public and he's holding your jacket and purse for you. Always having to replenish your shampoo and conditioner more often but that's okay because you use his razors now. Having a sleep routine that requires one of you to get or receive back scratches. He's now adopted the sleeping habit of cuddling one of your stuffed animals. He sings in the showers way too loud and way too early in the morning. You cooking him the simplest meals but he acts like it's the best thing he's ever had. Both of you saving up your money and working extra shifts to buy each other a gift for Christmas.

sniffs. don't tempt me to date my fwb 🥹

okay but yes. what's his is yours, what's yours is his. you borrow things without even asking anymore. eddie would wear one of your shirts and it ends up being a croptop on him and you wearing one of his boxers because it's so hot.

he uses your shampoos and conditioners because he has no knowledge of which brand makes his hair more healthy so he uses yours and you comb his hair and make sure his curls are still intact right after.

eddie cleans up when you're at work because he got it from your habit of cleaning up (like me) so sometimes you come home to him vacuuming the floor or wiping dust off picture frames. but sometimes you end up being maybe messier than he is so he cleans up after you and he doesn't mind at all.

sometimes when you sing in the shower, he'll sing along as he cooks you breakfast or when he makes your coffee. he doesn't realize he's been drinking your preferred coffee, doesn't realize he'd like it enough for it to be his usual too.

and sometimes you use his van like its your own. a bunch of your shit in the glovebox that's just sometimes an absolute contrast to his own. he likes the music you like, plays them in his van when he's alone even.

eddie holding your things when you go out [sniffles]. him holding your purse, or tying your shoe laces, opening the doors for you, placing a hand on your back, cutting your nails, being your photographer. like a bodyguard/assistant that you love.

you'll be his emotional supporter. being there when he gets nervous for his shows like a mom, or like what his mom used to do for the talent show back in his elementary years. being his person of solace when everything gets too much, uses you when he stims.

when he's bored or thinking, he'll start writing on your arm bc sometimes he can't see the words he writes on his own arm bc of his tattoos. so unless you don't have tatts that aren't as big as his, he'll write lyrics on your arms.

EDDIE IN A CARDIGAN. he wears it when it's too cold. he does your laundry, gives you massages when you overwork. sometimes he ACTUALLY studies with you and helps you, makes you something when you pass a test.

sometimes dancing in the living room with nothing but a dim light maybe from the other room. he'd turn the radio on and dance with you just because he wants to. i think i'm gonna cry

[peachiseas]

i do wanna hear all you have to say about baxter and derek’s dlcs!! bc idk not to be a bitter bitch, but never fully understood baxter’s hold on everyone lmao, even prior to his dlc. but even after the dlc i was still kinda just like eh that felt both forced and kinda boring. derek on the other hand…. you’re right. easily the best dlc

AND JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH ANSWERING ASKS LMFAO (dw i love these please ask me more questions i love being asked questions on things esp this) Sorry anon but this is a Long one cause this ended up being a thinkpiece

But yeah... Baxter is a weird character you are admittedly not Supposed to like from his introduction. His introduction was essentially a stranger flirting with you so it gives him the impression of a victorian fuckboy. And then you play cove's hang and boating and he's polite and friendly but definitely guarded. Which doesn't admittedly make me a ton excited for him initially because he doesn't allow us to get comfortable in his presence.

However when I got into OL as a whole, it was end of January 2022 and the wedding dlc came out not even a week or so later and I was so pleasantly surprised by how... Humble Baxter became in step 4. You might ask "what does that mean?" but essentially beyond his professional enthusiasm, Baxter actively seemed miserable with his life that didn't involve work from what we could tell in his dance lesson with the mc and you know what! That's actually a compelling plotline! That sold me far more on Baxter than anything step 3 beforehand did Unfortunately, wedding DLC baxter before any revisions with the release of Baxter's dlc was the best Baxter's writing was going to get. What we got was a TON of Baxter monologuing at the mc and not an actual conversation between Baxter and the mc. There should have been way more points in the DLC where the mc should have interrupted him or done Something but the mc is so actively quiet that their silence is Palpable and that wouldn't be so damn bad if the mc wasn't the character we're playing as. We're just supposed to sit there and take a lot of the asshole behaviors Baxter exhibits in step 4 and then feel bad when he's in his pity party despite the fact he has done nothing but consistently step over his own boundaries with the mc. The whole dlc gets actively weirder if the mc is in a relationship with Cove btw, the platonic route with baxter is Awful and weird. There's also the fact that step 4 Baxter seemingly is now super well adjusted to being working/ middle class when I know for a fact that the change from being super wealthy to dropping down a few classes when that wouldn't be the case. Baxter should have stayed a mess in the mornings in Step 4 but he cleans up quick. Certain quirks like that actively humanize him in a endearing way. It seemed like the devs ironed out any of his nuances in favor for a more general easy to digest story that was also quicker to push out but the issue was that when they ironed out any nuances, they also ironed out what originally made Baxter soooo compelling in the first place. There's no theme or narrative writing that you're supposed to take away from Baxter's story. Cove and Derek's story was about growing up; Cove's more particular theme was growing into himself as a person and being comfortable in his own body and Derek's story was about the consequences of grind culture and overworking yourself at such an early age and where do you go after you realize you pursued a fruitless goal since you were a Child. Baxter's story should have been about self preservation after cutting off family that are actively awful and the errors of self isolating to the point where you hurt everyone else under the guise of "protecting yourself" but what we got was forced fluff.

TLDR; due to the devs wanting to push out his dlc fast enough, they glossed over so many aspects of Baxter that made Baxter interesting and what we got was just a watered down version of what Could have been.

[flowerprincesscherryblossom]

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pairing: Min Yoonji x Kim Namjoo x Female Reader word count: 1313 warnings: angst, fem!myg, fem!knj, polyamory, sexting, explicit language, dirty talk, mommy kink, brat reader AO3 A/N: Hope you like it and that you have a wonderful day wherever you are💜

What does one get when combining two girlfriends who spend the large majority of the day at work, so much so that sometimes you go weeks without seeing them, with a girl who spends the large majority of her time at home and gets bored easily? You get a needy you.

Sure, it wasn't a first-world problem, and you were probably making it a bigger deal than it actually was, but you couldn't help feel the way you did.

In the beginning, when you first heard that both Yoonji and Namjoo had gotten the job of their dreams you had extremely excited, giving both girls long hugs and insisting that a celebration was a must. In the beginning, they would invite you into their studios for the simple reason of wanting to spend time with you, sometimes while in the studios you would even sit on their laps. In the beginning, the older women would try their damnedest to be with you, no matter how tired or overworked they were, and you were more than happy to take care of them.

But it wasn't like that anymore.

Now, they barely made an effort to see you, much less talk to you. Now, whenever you were at their studio Yoonji and Namjoo didn't acknowledge your presence. One time you had even left without warning after hours of sitting on the couch in the studio, bored out of your mind and annoyed that they had invited you only to act as if you weren't even there.

The worst part about that day was that they hadn't even checked in on you until hours later, and it was only to know if you had had dinner and were already in bed.

You also didn't want to be that person who made everything about sex, but your relationship has been like that for a couple of months now and it was leaving you incredibly frustrated.

At first, whenever you felt horny you simply took care of it yourself, not wanting to disturb the girls, but slowly you stopped doing, there was only so much usage you could get out of your hands and toys before you started to miss the human touch you so desperately needed.

At one point you even felt jealous because you started speculating that Namjoo and Yoonji actually did fuck each other when they needed a break from the frustration of producing all day, something that made sense to you since they had been together for a couple of years before you had joined them and worked together, but that didn't stop the feeling of hurt that attached itself to you.

You missed everything about them, from their kisses to the way their skin felt against your fingertips.

You took all of this but yesterday had been your breaking point, you had tried again and again for them to at the very least talk to you but nothing had worked, so you had come up with a plan that would hopefully work in your favor.

As soon as you had woken up you got out of bed and strolled around the apartment, wanting to confirm that neither of your girlfriends were around.

Afterward, you went back to the bedroom, put on a white babydoll, their favorite on you, Namjoo would sometimes even say that it was because it gave you an air of innocence, and then you grabbed your phone and lay on the bed, doing various tantalizing poses.

You waited until you were eating breakfast - read brunch - to finally sent everything through the group chat the three of you shared, choosing the best pictures, the final one being a close-up of your clothed pussy with your hand inside your panties, giving the impression that you were fingering yourself before recording yourself where you gave your best pornstar moans.

Afterward, you resumed eating, a smug smile appearing on your face with every notification ping that came out of your phone.

Once you were finished you finally decided to check your messages and the grin on your face couldn't have been wider.

After letting a couple more minutes pass you finally decided to answer them.

Namjoo's dominating voice could be heard through the words, making you feel the familiar sting between your thighs just from reading them. You took a few minutes to recompose yourself before answering, the replies coming not long after.

At the mention of work, you felt as if a bucket of cold water had been dumped on you, but you weren't ready to throw in the towel just yet. You still had a trick up your sleeve, a somewhat old picture that you never to them.

You almost let your phone fall out of your hands at the disappointment you felt. You knew that your girlfriends had worked hard to be where they were now but after being pushed to the side over and over again for the last couple of months, your anger and frustration spoke louder than any reasonable thought you had.

You tapped on the voice message, already knowing what to expect from Namjoo. "Listen closely little one, either you stop this shit right now or I'll make sure to spank your ass so much and so hard that you won't be able to graze it on a chair, much less sit on it. Am I clear?" You simply rolled your eyes, knowing the words were nothing but empty promises.

It was a loaded question you asked, you knew that which is why you had taken a deep breath before asking it, but as the anger you felt inside was replaced with sorrow, the tears streaming freely down on your face, you couldn't stop yourself, you wanted to know if their feelings for you had changed but they were too stubborn to admit it.

The whole polyamory thing had been entirely new to all three of you, all previous relationships had been monogamous, but after meeting them you had fallen for them very quickly, a sentiment that had been reciprocated, so, not long after, all three of you had decided unanimously to take a plunge and see where this new type of relationship would lead.

The beginning had been amazing but it wasn't like that anymore.

Yoonji and Namjoo have known each other and have been dating for far longer than either of them have been with you, that's why, in your mind, if the relationship was to fall apart, you'd be the one to leave, a thought that had been slowly growing in the back of mind that started taking over every cell in your brain once it started to feel like they were pushing you away.

You had been wallowing in misery for quite some time that you didn't have the strength to reply to any of their messages, simply staring at the screen as message bubble after message bubble kept coming.

As you read through Namjoo's words more tears streamed down on your face, almost as if it were spring water. You cried so much that you started to feel a continuous pain in your head, leaving you with barely any energy to do anything else other than wanting to sleep for as long as possible until it disappeared.

You sent a final message to them, not wanting to worry your girlfriends with more of this conversation, one that left everyone hurt in the end.

You ignored Yoonji's message and turned off your phone, leaving it in the kitchen as you moved towards the bedroom the three of you shared.

You threw yourself on top of the sheets, not bothering to get under them, you just wanted to forget this day had even happened in the first place.

As the drowsiness started taking over your bones, your last thought turned towards Namjoo and Yoonji, making you wish even more that they were with you.

[tcfactory]

*gets annotations out*

What are northern marriage rituals?

How was the process of getting over his fears for sqh?

Couldn't mobei-mom pull a "dream demon" and come back that way?

Is tlj going to keep on being the sénéchal once moshang marry ?

Tlj and sqh ever get together to complain about everyone and everything? As a treat.

What do YOU wanna tell us about mobei-mom?

1. I have some thoughts, but since I put so much of a Mongolian influence into the Northern Demon Kingdom, I don't want to make up things without further research.

2. Mostly exposure therapy, in the sense that he spent time with MBJ when he knew he wasn't in danger/was in control. I'm fond of pillow princess MBJ - he plays up being lazy and spoiled and SQH gets a bit of an ego trip doing with him as he pleases.

But also just generally talking about things when they are uncertain about eachother's culture and often even when they are certain, because their personal history shows that they don't know nearly as much as they think they do. The reassurance that MBJ is now educated about human limits and will ask and ask again before doing anything that might harm him helped him overcome his fears eventually.

3. Okay, so my idea as of now for Mobei-mom is that she's lost her corporeal form and is now more or less permanently attached to her husband as something ghost-adjacent. Not really willing to try to interact with the world at large because gods know what that would lead to, but she's definitely there and she's trying to keep Mobei-dad from despairing, despite his quickly failing health.

The cheesiest possible end state for this is that she catches her husband's soul when he dies and then waits patiently for MBJ to do the inheritance ritual and gain enough power that he can open a big enough rift for her to go back to the Endless Abyss, spirit husband in tow.

4. (I'm going to assume this was meant to be LGJ? :D) They will discuss it, but probably? He doesn't hate his job as such. Not this job, at least. Not yet. The way I picture it, in a more canon-adjacent verse he would have to take on increasing amount of work as his brother slowly fades away from the strain of the ancestral power, without hiring more aids because they are trying to keep it under wraps. So by the time MBJ takes over, he's been doing like 5 or 6 high end management jobs with not even enough staff to properly do one and he's beyond resentful.

In In Tune's verse, SQH notices that LGJ is exhibiting signs of overwork and will find a way to help him out somehow, so he never gets to the point where he just wants to see the world burn so he can have a day off. Being northern seneschal is a good, respected position where he can showcase his smarts, but not so dangerous that he has to worry overmuch for his life and he can go and spend his free time trying to court LQG.

5. Oh they absolutely do. SQH supplies the alcohol, LGJ gets them expensive Japanese snacks, and they vent to each other for a whole evening every now and then. It does both of them a lot of good.

6. Mobei-mom is not beholden to a lot of things, but she's compelled to follow Fate. That's why she stuck around to 'die' when MBJ was young, despite having a few opportunities to return to the Abyss.

She would recognize SQH as Author God if they ever met face to face, but wouldn't tell anybody about it. She would enjoy reading PIDW, even the repetitive papapa, but she would think LBH is a very boring protagonist.

She has actually met TLJ before, but TLJ was too young to remember her.

[mysticstarlightduck]

Answers to the OC Two Truths and One Lie Posts:

Here are the answers to the two posts I made yesterday! Let's see which ones were the lies and which ones were true!

Spoilers below the cut.

PART 1 -

Seira Nivaine -

LIE: #2 She was raised by her godfather, though she knew her parents

TRUTH: She was raised by her uncle and never knew anything about her parents, that being the only subject her uncle never talked about.

Raelen Ashiren -

LIE: #2 Her necklace belonged to her mother, and it was given to her by her brother

TRUTH: Her necklace belonged to her father and it was his last gift to her before he left on the expedition on which he died.

Helios Maevel -

LIE: #1 When he was a kid he dreamed of being a pirate

TRUTH: He didn't know how to swim properly until he was thirteen and was terrified of water before that. He would never have dreamt of being a pirate - as well, that involves literally being surrounded by water. When he was a kid he dreamed of being some kind of trickster or magician.

PART 2 -

Julyan Ashiren -

LIE: #3 He has an easy time navigating his feelings and a healthy coping mechanism for his stress or hurt. He doesn’t think overworking himself is a normal thing.

TRUTH: He has a deeply ingrained difficulty with navigating his feelings, being the stoic kind of person that would rather just push through his hurt than to admit what he feels. Being the sole caretaker of his siblings ever since he was a teenager, in a very dangerous world, he often doesn’t realize he is overworking himself when he doesn’t need to and thinks its just normal.

Innara Renfelli -

LIE: #2 Growing up, Innara was resented by her cousins, who thought they - being older and more prepared - should be the heirs to their uncle's House.

TRUTH:  She was adored by her cousins, who became like siblings to her after the death of her own. He cousin Rhydian taught her many things, especially when it comes to sword fighting, archery, and poetry. Her cousin Nefeli taught her to dance, how to lie, and many things about nature, seeing Innara as her little sister. Eryx, the youngest of them all, looked up to her. Her relationship with her many other cousins was much the same as these.

Nethen Fahris -

LIE: #3 Nethen never quite showed much interest in poisons and sewing growing up, preferring to attend the lavish masquerades his family hosted each year.

TRUTH:  Nethen always had a deep fascination for poisons and was taught how to sew by his tutor and caretaker Elain. Sewing became a soothing activity to him that he still does today, especially after Elain's death. He always considered the masquerades to be nothing but a bore, and grew to despise them as a symbol of his family's social flaunting of power.

Lukan Velterin -

LIE: #3 He has a sense of deep respect and admiration for the work of the royal guard and the knights, being descended from a soldier himself.

TRUTH: He despises the royal guard and law enforcement in general, as both his guardians (his parents) were executed by orders of a Royal Guard. He grows up into a mercenary, thief and overall troublemaker.

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AHH! I love this list and could happily (and greedily!) ask the lot of them, but I'll try to keep things under control at least a little. 2, 6 and 11 for both Simon and Niko, and 16 for yourself, please, would be fab, all that? 💕💕

Thank you!! It's my pleasure!! Sorry in advance for rambling, because this is for sure what I'm about to do now... 🥲

2) What do they look like when they don't feel well? Do they dress up to cover up? Do they tend to look sick when they are?

Simon: He's so obsessed with how he's perceived. You bet you will not notice even the slightest difference. Maybe, in case he's looking suspiciously well dressed, acting more irritable than usual, you might be able to tell. Since he's prone to chronically overwork himself, a tired face is nothing unusual. Only few people are actually able to tell when he's sick. Rather by his actions than by his look though.

Nikolai: This is no suprise, but he's an open book. Him dressing in more than just one layer, usually involving turtle necks, scarf and sometimes even joggpants is a telltale sign. As is his nose, which he keeps rubbing force- and unapologetically.

6) Are they shy? Are they outgoing? Do they make friends easily?

Simon: Although 'shy' gives a somewhat wrong impression, he's certainly very introvert. People do not respond that well to him and he decided not to care. He would never open himself up to anyone he does not know, which keeps conversations very flat and boring. For that reason, he's not the type of person to make friends easily. Rather the opposite. Giving away the impression that he does neither care nor want to interact with people, other than on a professional level, he's not the center of the party, so to speak.

Nikolai: You might have guessed, is the initiative type of guy. He's always looking for reassurance from people and therefore seeking for their attention. He can come off as shallow sometimes. Still, people enjoy having him around for easy chat. Niko's the kind of person that really florishes in crowds and he'll always find people to hang out with. It's difficult for him to make lasting bonds, though.

11) Do they have a favorite place to be? Is it rather in the city or in nature? Does that change when they are unwell?

Simon: He would say that he doesn't - that any place is as good as the other. But that's in fact not true. There's no certain place he likes to return to, but he very much enjoys being in the countryside, since it stirs a certain kind of longing for easy- and calmness that he's unable to find in the city. Especially since his daily life and work can be overwhelming at times. Much more so, when he's sick. People annoy him and the fact that he has to cover up and pretend he's okay is draining. When he's not well, he really longs for his appartment, though: a place where he know every spot on the wall and where he doesn't have to expect any surprises other than his neighboor being noisy.

Nikolai: He's very easy to please and it's rather whom he's with than where. However, he really enjoys being in the Bar where he plays the Piano. It's being out in public and able to do something he really loves. He would even go to play when he's under the weather, only to avoid being alone. When he's really sick, though, he very much longs for his parents' home. He misses his mother's hearty soup and being pampered. Also, there's a certain smell and look to the place, the noise of a clock in the living room and his father turning a page of the book he's reading from time to time, that's really makes him feel safe and comforted.

16) Do you have a comfort OC? And if so why? What do you like best about them? Do you relate to them in ways?

Since I don't have too many OCs (Those two basically, the three 19th century students aside, I almost forgot myself), I can positively say that both of them are my comfort OCs. They both have qualities I really like. And especially because they both represent parts of myself that I can not get to terms with, so to speak. I feel much closer to Simon's awfull mediocreness and the horrible urge to be something more than just 'normal'. Still, I really relate to Niko's inability to focus on things longer than a few moments. The urge to shift talk with every word spoken - further away from the question asked (see? I'm doing it again...)

What I love about Simon is the stoic grumpiness with which he decided not to care for how he comes off to people socially. Not that he doesn't care what people think, just not if they like him or not. And I really do love Nikolai for being so careless and his ability to be easily fascinated by the smallest and most stupid little things.

Thank you so much for asking! I really love them both and it always makes me happy if they're loved by other's as well!

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BIGGEST STRUGGLES OF PHD STUDENTS

Starting a PhD is an incredibly daunting task. With PhD being the culmination of all your academic work, it is unlikely that you will complete the substantial, complex research project without encountering at least a few problems. It is necessary to understand most common PhD pressures and struggles before you begin a doctorate, so that you’re better equipped to deal with them in your own journey.

Below are some of the biggest and most common struggles that PhD students encounter during their doctorate journey:

1. Isolation

A PhD requires a significant increase in independence from what students may have experienced during their undergraduate or master's degrees. As a doctoral student, you should be able to set and achieve your own goals.

While this sense of freedom can be very exciting at first, once you get into the daily routine of a PhD, you may begin to feel isolated, especially if your research does not require much collaboration with others.

To help you fight loneliness and isolation, it is suggested that you meet other research students in a similar situation as you by participating in extracurricular activities like academic conferences and teaching or even by being a part of the institute's PhD community if any.

2. Overwork

PhD training commonly involves teaching, tutoring, and grading. You shouldn't let it stop you from conducting your research, though. It's completely acceptable to decline new tasks if you feel your workload is too heavy or that your boss is expecting too much of you. Although some pressure associated with a PhD is normal, it shouldn't have a negative effect on your mental health or cause depression and anxiety.

When you are nearing the end of your PhD, a workload that seemed manageable during your first two years may no longer be so. If your supervisor is requesting that you take on additional non-PhD work, let them know that while you welcome the chance to expand your experience and learn new skills, you don't wish your research work to suffer because of it.

3. Difficulties with Supervisor

Issues that develop between PhD students and their supervisors can also be a common problem. Most supervisor-supervisee relationships are constructive, successful, and advantageous to both parties. There's a good chance that your PhD advisor will be an expert mentor who is a specialist in their field.

Over the course of three years, some students may feel that they have to submit to the wishes of their senior and experienced supervisor when disagreements arise—and it is only natural. When such challenges arise, having a supportive network of PhD students around you can certainly help you navigate and boost your spirits up.

4. Loss of Motivation

It's difficult for anyone to maintain motivation throughout their whole PhD project. It is very common to become frustrated, bored, or dissatisfied with one's project. To complete a PhD, you must be dedicated, enthusiastic, and optimistic. Unless you find ways to keep things interesting, varied, realistic, and rewarding, your motivation will fluctuate like it does with everything else. It is important to keep in mind that you are pursuing your PhD primarily for personal gain. So, instead of waiting for someone to tell you what to do, take the initiative.

Consider taking a break for yourself when things aren't going well, and your motivation is low. It can sometimes be really beneficial to take a few days or even a week off from your project in order to recharge and approach it with new eyes.

It is unlikely that you will find all of the tasks necessary for a doctorate to be equally simple and interesting because they range so widely. Setting realistic goals and dividing up tasks into manageable pieces will be much simpler for you.

5. Work/life balance

At times, it may seem as though PhD students must constantly study, work long hours, and attend work every weekend. But such a cycle is not healthy in the long run. In order to perform at your best, you should also make time for your hobbies, friends, and family. Even though this may seem like a really obvious point to make, many students still experience the negative effects of having an incredibly unbalanced schedule.

For long-term success, students should always keep in mind how important scheduling time for interests outside of their PhD is. A stimulating and enjoyable lifestyle includes a healthy social life, regular exercise, and cultural pursuits.

No matter how challenging earning a Ph.D. may seem, know that it will give you access to a vast array of real-world career opportunities. Graduates can be assured that they have gained extensive knowledge in their field of study. It is a rare accomplishment that you should proudly accept.

Read more about the EDAMBA PhD Students Forum

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Kunikidazai - Sleeping in the same bed

Some Kunikidazai headcanons for y’all~

We all know that Dazai and Kunikida would have extremely different sleeping patterns and schedules. Dazai is definitely a not a morning person which Kunikida definitely is. They kept running into problems related to this, when they first moved in together.

Dazai is a night animal. He lives (loudly) when Kunikida is trying to sleep and sleeps (soundly) when they should be getting to work. No matter how hard Kunikida used to try and wake him up, it all usually ended in failure. Despite Kunikida having an alarm set for six o’clock Dazai never wakes up to it, despite usually waking up to anything. It also used to be a problem because he used to wake Kunikida up at night and the man is very particular about getting 8 hours of sleep. At times the thought their relationship wouldn’t hold through the obstacles of trying to coexist like this. It mostly bothered Kunikida. But over time they both adjusted to each others’ schedules and made some sacrifices.

Dazai would also sometimes not fall asleep at all. This would worry Kunikida enough to tell him off. Really, he just cares deeply and knows that Dazai can’t sleep due to his insomnia. He offered to try and consult someone for medicine, but Dazai always jokes it off. Doppo now brings his bf calming tea before sleep and watches this man’s caffeine intake in the afternoon. Dazai thinks he is being overly cautious and ‘Look at Kunikida trying to act all motherly again~” It doesn’t always help, but its nice knowing someone cares.

They both have nightmares. Dazai doesn’t really show it, or sleeptalk. When he does have a nightmare either he just silently wakes up in cold sweat, or its a dream-paralysis and he can’t even move. His nightmares are horrific, but he never really talks about them even when asked. Kunikida murmurs in his sleeps when he is unsettled, he breathes heavily and just overall has a reaction. Those are usually dreams about people he couldn’t save, or abstract dreams about feeling like there is too much responsibility. Dazai always knows when his boyfriend is having bad dreams, and is always awake for it, since he is a light sleeper. Sometimes he holds his hand through it, and when possible hugs him. Other times Kunikida won’t even let him close and will wake up screaming and later look guilty. Dazai makes sure he knows its fine.

Okay so - one day Kunikida overworked himself so hard he slept through his alarm, so Dazai called Fukuzawa and asked him to pretend that they have a day off. Kunikida woke up, panicked, only to find an email from the president saying that they are all off duty and a smug Dazai preparing them both coffee.

Kunikida sleeps in a full pijama set, and Dazai sleeps in his bandages and boxers. They rarely cuddle and when they do its Dazai wrapping his limbs in the most awkward ways around Kunikida. He is like a house cat, but his boyfriend doesn’t mind. Dazai watches tiktok videos in bed for a living, and Doppo just scolds him - “Are you a child? You are wasting your time”. He secretly knows all the current trends, because he watches them over his boyfriend’s shoulder. Kunikida sometimes reads in bed, only to end up with Dazai on his lap complaining about how the book is obscuring his view, or about how its boring.

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N-S-F-W part

“Can I please blow you?” “What? Now?” “Now.” Dazai has a tendency to want to do stuff in the morning. It usually happens on weekends when they actually wake up together. Safe to say Kunikida doesn’t have that tendency - or used to not have it. Now its just “You are hard” and what is Kunkida supposed to do its the morning and he is only a man.

Kunikida likes it at night and in bed so he is more likely to initiate something when they are both already there. He might roll over and start kissing his boyfriend, and Dazai has never before refused. So what if its missionary and he feels like a nun, his boyfriend is amazing and traditional and shut up.

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Feel free to add shit,, but yeah I love these two <3