#this isn't good

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Uh oh? UH OH?!

DON'T YOU "UH OH" ME MR DEE BRADLEY BAKER WTF IS THIS???

@eriexplosion help

@phis-writing this is gonna he a stressful ep...

[eidolons-stuff]

Enid: "What do we do?" *looks a Ajax*

Ajax: "She will be fine after a while. Just need for it to wear off"

Bianca: "Yeah.... isn't that only if you're a gorgon though?"

Ajax: "..."

[nervocat]

Guys. The obsession is growing.

[hellohellopumpkin]

Sometimes I want to get even

But to stoop to your level would mean losing a part of myself

I would lose who I am

I would turn into you

And I can't have that

So I won't get even

And you'll feel like you won

And though that stings

I'll know who you really are, and who I am

And just know

I'll never be you

[ginger-grimm]

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[madscientistfrank]

-bro keeps ramming into the lab door trying to break it down, it is not working- 

[thewomenofwindsor]

NEW ON THE QUEEN from Buckingham Palace: “After a full day yesterday, Her Majesty has this afternoon accepted doctors’ advice to rest. This means that the Privy Council meeting that had been due to take place this evening will be rearranged.” Royal sources say the Queen, 96, remains at Balmoral and has not visited hospital. As usual, Buckingham Palace says it will not provide a “running commentary” on Her Majesty’s health.

[awlumii]

okay so maybe heizou's kinda... y'know... kissable... give him a quick cheek kiss.. maybe... oh god my chest hurts, i don't think that's enough kisses for him WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MEEEEE

[ainyan]

[2030kamenriders]

Uh

I think

There's a chance

That this blog

might be ever-so-slightly

cursed

[creepedfinn]

WHERE THE FUCK

ARE THE USUAL END CREDITS

[moonlight-prose]

I'm going to see Wakanda Forever at 2am and I'm already exhausted from the day.

[introvertedfox]

Hum... why is Greg watching like is planning something?

[jeonghantis]

idk who in svt would love to have their nips played with but i do know jeonghan would scream his lil aaaaa scream when u play with his nips

the giggle i let out reading this because i can TOTALLY see this happening 😭😭

i can see jeonghan being So Sensitive to being played with.. is it just me.. oh just him jerking around, his face wincing, as he's letting out his aaaa's but it gradually becomes more sputtered out and he tries to suppress it by pressing his lips together but he Cant