#this probably doesnt make sense

[kanaiow]

Suegiku is the ship for me because

We have Jouno ex criminal now hunting dog trying to be a better person despite his sadistic tendencies finding fucking happiness and belonging saving people.

Then we have Tetchou whose whole ideals stem from justice, accepting Jouno, acknowledging the good in him and his efforts and their unity as partners and growing to care about him. Someone who doesn't exactly fit in his parameters of justice and morality. And changing because of that like???? AAH

He constantly affirms Jouno's efforts and just, is there for him when he feels like it'd be easier to be the sadistic manipulative guy he's always been. Tetchou calls him out on that and makes him realise the purity, the effort, justice and shit requires

Between the respect, the care, Tetchou putting Jouno above justice, them learning and growing from each other–its just brilliant.

[mdawgswizzleinthehizzle]

okay im definitely reading way too much into this but whatever.

during this scene when joel confesses to tommy all that he has been going through (god bless pedro and gabriel for their amazing acting), joel talks about his dreams. he says “i have dreams, every night… i just know that when i wake up, ive lost something”. and in episode one and six we can obviously see and hear from the muffled screaming when joel sleeps, that he doesnt sleep well. he has nightmares of sarah, and after meeting ellie, he most definitely now has nightmares about her too (like in episode six, in the cave where he immediately sits up and looks for her).

and now to my point. in his monologue here with tommy, he refers to these nightmares (yes, they are most definitely nightmares or maybe even worse), he still calls them “dreams”. i thought maybe that was a little weird because dreams are often thought to be good, positive thoughts and the term nightmare is used for the scary, negative night terrors that your mind conjures up to deal with trauma.

yet, joel calls them dreams.

why does he do this? maybe its a way to cope. he can’t possibly associate any more negative thoughts, words, actions, etc. with his daughter sarah. he already relives the horror of her death and his “failure” every night when he sleeps. calling them dreams instead of nightmares allows a smidgen of positivity. whether he does this consciously or not, im not sure. even though these nightmares are horrific for him to have to endure every night, its the only time he will be able to see sarah again. so maybe they are dreams. a good thing in one sense. its the only way he can see her again, even if she dies every. single. time. and every. single. night. sarah is his dream. she couldnt possibly be a nightmare. and now ellie is too. he cant think of sarah, or ellie for that matter, as nightmares. they’re his only dream.

[jaymesdoodles]

Like. Back to dndads. I think all them are completely fucked up. Like we KNOW that are amazing wonderful dads or something. Because if everything was fine and got fixed we'd see at least the s1 kids grow up to be semi well adjusted. But they isn't the case. You're gonna traumatize your kid whether you want to or not. Obviously after the doodler was released there was only so much s1 dads could do. So do I think dadkids are wonderful or perfect. No. They are very traumatized people who had kids and than traumatized them too. "They fuck you up, your parents, they may not mean to, but they do. They fill you with faults they had and add some extra just for you"

I think that that dadkids are INCREDIBLY flawed and I honestly to gd don't blame any of the teens who don't wanna talk to their parents again. And I think there is lot of change that needs to happen before a lot of them do.

This story is about the hardships of being a parent and being the child. Those relationships are the most complicated thing in existence. And this story won't cover all of it. But I think that it has conver a lot of nuance of being someone's kid and being someone's parent. They are as cut and dry as everyone wants them to be. It's a complicated relationship that needs work like any other relationship and maybe even more.

So I think that the s1 dads and the dadkids are complicated. They are people with flaws and faults and are messed up. They are human. Undeniably so. And I think that's why I can't get mad at a single one. Not fully. Because it's so much more complicated (much like life) and there is always more story than what's on the surface

[fancy-fangs]

TMA spoilers ahead

Relistened to the season 4 QnA and came to a realization on Jon becoming an actual avatar. (I'm just throwing up thoughts here i have no idea if this makes any sense at all pls keep that in mind while proceeding)

Obviously at the point of the season 4 finale Jon was already non human and on the direct way of becoming an avatar (well technically he has been since he joined the archives but you're getting my drift) BUT this has been happening very slowly, very steadily and was started by his coma. What i feel needs to be talked about more though is how this transformation ended.

He crossed this border by killing peter Lukas. His last bit of humanity was lost when he killed him to get to martin and kill the bad guy that's been manipulating him for months now.

And i feel like i realized this when listening to them talk about how becoming an avatar "needs" a "death" (metaphorical but often direct) and in Jon's case this was peter Lukas. It wasn't himself, because while he was non human after the coma he wasn't actually an avatar yet. He was just in this weird in-between space of walking on the line. What actually made him an avatar of the eye in full was what happened in the lonely with Peter Lukas.

Jon crossed this line for martin and his rage.

ON TOP OF THAT there was a massive talk about conscious choice. About the person consciously making this choice to give up their humanity and become an avatar.

I don't fully know where I'm going with this my brain is going way too fast but what I'm trying to say is: Jon in his anger towards Peter Lukas and also worry for Martin fully became an avatar of the eye by killing Peter Lukas. Jon gave up his humanity and fully gave himself to the eye for Martin in a heartbeat.

[gameboy-berry]

I think Treasure Chest should get much worse actually.

[justewil]

Why do you talk about selective mutism so much??

because i Have it hope that helps ^_^

ok Actual answer uhhh it's. i feel like projecting onto characters i like helps me deal with actually Having it. if that makes sense? it's like,, if i think about Them dealing with it, it makes me More okay with dealing with it myself ^_^ and i just Happen to post about that Here

i'm always Nervous posting about it because i don't want it to look like im,, Making it seem like a Good or Fun thing to have when it is Neither, i would Know (i don't Think it comes across like that but . it Might??)

uahh i am So bad at explaining i hope this makes some sort of sense :3

[sadowlswriting]

I sat alone at that party, on a chair that was the dog's, the blanket was covered in fur, but the dog was curled up on the floor.

There was a spider on the ceiling, and someone used my boot to kill it, and at the time I didn't realise, but thinking back now, I hoped my shoe didn't smell.

There was this girl there, who I'd never met before, yet everyone else knew her from school; I ate a crisp from between her chest and we took pictures that I don't think I have anymore.

We drank WKD and strongbow, filled plastic shotglasses with it and pretended we were somewhere else, or somebody else.

I was the first one to jump over the fence of a locked park, and we pushed each other on the swings; someone got stuck on the climbing frame.

Someone cried for nearly an hour, they were afraid we'd never see each other again; someone comforted them, reassuring them that it wouldn't happen, that we'd schedule dates to meet and hang out.

It would have been nice to believe the things they said as they held them, but as I write and remember, it's hard to deny that they were right.

The person that was afraid we'd never see each other again, is nowhere to be seen anymore.

I went home, carrying a box of leftover pizza, and with the knowledge that I'd never know who anyone at that party would become.

-Owl.

[lupon]

The way Mike's character acts implies he's bisexual, but the way he's coded is gay

[kellyscowboy]

modern day jack kelly dramatically singing "make a man out of you" to himself after the boys want to give up when they find out brooklyn isnt with them

[posixiety]

When you’re not feeling okay and the only option you really have is to just.. exist I guess? I dunno. I feel like I’m lonely. But I wanted to be alone because I’m socially drained from the holidays. There’s just a lot of things going on and I’m begging for a day where I don’t feel so heavy.

[tuna-sandwich----b3]

sometimes i forget that there are people on this silly sight that can see what i post and reblog and see when i like their stuff, it a huge scare to see them like like interact with me because im all like "wow omg im a person oh geez wow hi there fella oh wow hi" you know its like scary to remember that youre not alone an people will notice that you are like alive

[frogsdrinkingtea]

I was reading The Ivory Tomb and realised something

So we all know that Whisper tries to always be neutral, and he knows there can be devastating consequences if he doesn't. But death itself also always remains neutral. Death waits for no one and will always come, no matter who you are and what decisions you have made. So it would make sense for Whisper to also be neutral.

[pessimistic-gh0st]

I think I could just disappear or just fade away right now and become nothing more than atoms and it wouldn't matter. People wouldn't care. And life would continue. And it would be like never existed in the first place

[ozymoron]

i want someone to carry me around like im a strange foreign object they dont know what to do with

[its-an-inxp-again]

As long as my mutuals put tags in their reblogs and let me know what they think of the dumb shit I share I am able to live by without anything to eat or drink. Yes. I am completely normal about this. Mutuals' tags are enough to keep me alive into the next year.

[sttoru]

“ryo,” it rolls off your tongue. naturally—as if you’ve called him that thousands of times before. you don’t realise it until he stops his movements.

sukuna narrows his eyes. you turn your head and look up, oblivious to your slip-up. the sorcerer doesn’t utter a word and instead glares down at your short frame. he looks irritated, or more annoyed.

“oh,” you realise why only a few seconds later. you bow your head at him and try to explain yourself in a hurry. normally, you’d address him with respect like everyone else does. ‘my lord’, ‘lord sukuna’, or even ‘master’.

you nearly fall to your knees. you don’t know how or what sukuna’s going to do now that you’ve dropped the honorifics on accident and called him by a nickname. you hold your hands together, “my deepest apologi—“

“again,” sukuna demands in a rough voice. you freeze for a second before tilting your head back. you catch a glimpse of his expression; he’s amused, intrigued and perhaps still a bit annoyed. he repeats, “call me that again.”

sukuna isn’t annoyed by the fact that you’ve called him by a nickname for the first time. he’s annoyed, because your sweet voice makes him feel stuff he’s sworn to never feel for a regular human. that warm feeling in his chest. . . he hates it. yet he yearns for it. from you.

you hesitate for a second, unsure if the firm tone in sukuna’s voice was a bad sign or not. you decide to just comply and hope for the best, “. . . ryo.”

sukuna grits his teeth. you think he’s mad, but in reality, he’s trying to eliminate the feelings of love from within him. your voice calling him so affectionately—so intimately; it makes him feel that warmth in his chest.

no one’s dared to call him anything like that before. everyone’s formal with him. it’s a must. sukuna’s used to everyone acknowledging his superiority in the conversations he holds. it’s a given.

no one refers to him so casually. no one dares to.

you’re the first one to break that pattern. the first one to make sukuna’s cold heart tremble. if it were anyone else, they’d be his dinner by now. but it’s you so it’s. . . fine, he assumes. an exception.

silence falls in the hallway. luckily, not another soul is around to witness the king of curses struggling to contain his own ‘foolish’ emotions. sukuna clicks his tongue and sighs before continuing to walk ahead of you.

you scurry after him—keeping your head low. you don’t wish to upset sukuna any further. you feel like you overstepped a boundary just now. the silence continues for a couple seconds, both of you deep in thought.

sukuna’s the one to end the quiet atmosphere. his voice is as deep and cold as ever, though there’s no denying the subtle softness that creeps in whenever he talks with you.

he takes a deep breath and sighs. sukuna keeps walking and doesn’t spare you a glance, however his voice and words tell you enough;

“from now on, that’s the only way you’ll address me until i say otherwise, understood?”