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#my art stuff#beetlejuice#cartoon#toonjuice#digital art#bugs#emoji#I made my own brush for the bugs so I can use them in the future#I’m trying to make art more enjoyable for myself and that means making it much less complicated and take less time#so I’m hoping to use this brush more in the future when drawing beej#or things in general#I’m getting better at lightning the weight I put on myself with my art#but it’s an upphills battle and I am STRUGGLING#I’ve been using this eene inker randomly for a while now and it’s making art so much easier to do for me somehow#but it looks so disgusting in my art. not cus it’s an ugly brush. I think it’s really nice-looking actually#but I have such a strong need for all my art to look clean and for every line to be intentionally put where it is#I have a tendancy to go in and fix singular pixels in EVERYTHING when I draw. even if just to make it intentionally look unintentional#but this brush does it on it’s own and I haven’t felt this relaxed while making digital art in MANY years and it’s STRESSING ME OUT#but it’s good that I can relax. That’s the goal. I want to be able to rnjoy drawing again.#The biggest hurdle is my autism hating change but once I’m past that I know I’ll be right as rain#in the meantime I hope people can still enjoy what little stuff I mannage to crank out randomly#also don’t ask me what the style is. my hand just went off with the “whatever just get it down real quick” mentality#I really need to draw the sweetheart more… I say when he is all I draw besides myself anymore-
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journey’s end au where the doctor tries to kick everyone off the TARDIS and they just go, ‘???? no?’ and won’t leave. can’t be stupid and think everyone will leave you when they won’t get out of your house.
#the doctor is simultaneously so happy about this and SO annoyed. get out of his house!!! this is his tardis!!!!#(tentoo voice) OUR tardis. (doctor voice) MY TARDIS!!!!!#rose and martha and donna and jack are literally having a girls night in the same room as this argument#sarah jane was invited but did not join them. autisms.#however mickey and her have been bonding and the doctor feels so betrayed. sarah jane is supposed to be on his side!!!#can’t even complain to the metal dog. k-9 is still busy.#(sarah jane voice) oh i should invite luke and his friends- (doctor voice) NO CHILDREN ON MY SHIP#((tentoo voice. from the other room.) OUR ship)#jack manages to sneak ianto and gwen on board before sarah jane gets the bannerman gang in simply because torchwood is easier wrangled than#literal children (not saying much)#how does gwen manage to sneak rhys on that one time? no one’s really sure. he didn’t stay on very long but it was long enough for jack to#lose a bet.#i think only jackie leaves but NOT before she and tentoo and rose have established interdimensional facetime so that she can phone her#daughter and her son-in-law and her guy-who-her-son-in-law-is-cloned-from#(doctor voice) donna i need to erase ur memories ur brain will explode otherwise (rose from across the room) hey didnt i absorb something#that would explode my brain once. i still have my memories. (donna voice) YEAH DOCTOR CARE TO EXPLAIN THAT????#donna metacrisis is solved because jack says ‘fuck it let me eat the metacrisis somehow it probably wont kill me’ and then he glows for like#a week but he’s fine.#he is literally never getting rid of any of them. get found family-ed idiot#(god wait funniest fucking thing if end of time happens here and the master’s plans are completely derailed because he gets tackled by seven#different companions. kicking him while he’s on the ground while the doctor goes D:)#doctor who#tardis family au
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Tsukuretai Onna to Tabetai Onna Favorite scenes - Part 1
I am rewatching the show following the current rebroadcast to prepare myself for the second season, and I picked my favorite moment in each of episode 1 to 3:
Episode 01: Nomoto getting overwhelmed and happy crying at Kasuga polishing off the plate of food she cooked.
Episode 02: Nomoto and Kasuga falling into the easiest domesticity when cleaning the dishes/making tea.
Episode 03: Getting distracted from the gyoza by the other woman enjoying the food.
Bonus: Nomoto excited little wriggle-dance after Kasuga invites her on a date to the farmer market ❤ ❤
#she loves to cook and she loves to eat#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna#tsukutabe#it was SO hard to choose only one moment for each - to the point I keep forgetting that the episodes are only 15 min!#I am also delighted to find that the show brings me as much comfort and warmth as the first time I watched it last year#and I somehow love Nomoto and Kasuga even more#gifs#mine#ragongif#(debuting a creator tag for easier tracking)
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Zelenskyy awarded Zaluzhny and Budanov the title Hero of Ukraine
#what a nice moment#with everything that happened in the past its hard to say of its genuine or just show#maybe because Zaluzhny came to his senses and wants to protect ze#maybe as a gesture of good will after causing so much trouble chaos and drama#maybe to make the transition easier#maybe to minimise the outcry#or maybe Zaluzhny still is a good person and just a lot of things went wrong and made some bad decisions#the way he hugged ze was very nice no matter why#also the second hug and how he initiated both#kudos to him for that#also with how much force he hugged him almost lifting him from his feet#budanov was as hilarious as expected#you can see the joy about that honour in his eyes and his eyes only 😄#makes we wonder if Budanov will also go in the near future#or if he just got the award because it was about time#overall a really really really nice moment that was necessary#and with the statements yesterday a good end to a really difficult and problematic situation#they both somehow found that one way out of this mess#if on purpose and willingly from both sites and on good terms or not we'll see in the future#Zaluzhny for sure collected some plus points with this end#for now#lets see what hes going to do now that hes out
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More misc. daily life pictures and such
#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that --#1 & 2 - Very bright pretty looking sky !#2. HUGE icicle that looked like you could kill someone with it or something.. Pulled from near a gutter on the side of a building#3. & 4 & 5 - various images from a silly party I had where I pretended to be some elf king turning like 204 years old lol (also not like#a REAL party. Only my roommates were there really and we're all in the same household bubble.#just to clarify. I would never dare have a large party anyway given#my hermitous nature but on top of that.. didn't want there to be some implication that I'm having a Party while covid is still ongoing lol.#NEVER.. But I do love dressing up as some fantasy character so much.. The only thing that could ever bring a true hermit wizard#to engage with others socially is the prospect of connecting it somehow to fantasy worlds and costumes lol. One must simply dress up#as a silly 200 year old man from time to time and pretend you've never seen a balloon before in your life. etc.#6. bapy boye... feets#7. The main food that I made for the elderly elf man 'party'. which was a Deconstructed Beef Wellington (kind of as ajoke since I watch s#o many silly cooking competition shows and they always make stuff 'deconstructed' at the last minute when under time limits or whatever.)#I've wanted to make beef wellington a few times but Ithink to do it well I'd need like..an actual kitchen and a lot of time and#an oven that fully works to bake things and etc. etc. So I thought this would be an easier method. A thick steak cut round to kind of mimi#c the round tenderloin or whatever it is in a wellington. instead of the puff pastry being wrapped around - I just did star shaped cut outs#of pastry and baked them and put them on top (to go with the star theme). instead of mushroom duxelles being wrapped around in pastry#its in a little circle under the steak. and instead of mustard being brushed onto the meat I made a mustard gravy sauce type of thing#Then of course asparagus on the side.. my favorite... Though I know some wellington#also has a layer of prosciutto I think. or I saw one person use crepes. I didn't feel it was necessary to incorporate that too lol#8. bapy son helping me do a giant puzzle that took me hours and I had no idea it was actually that large of a puzzle#until I started putting it together and for some reason it made me stressed by the end instead of relaxed lol.. puzzle fatigue#photo diary
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Pikmin 2 is literally everything everyone said it was, it feels like I’m being beaten with a hammer over and over again for simple mistakes I can typically get away with and just expands it so it’s just SO MUCH WORSE
#I sweeped by the first game#okay sweeped by is too much but it’s easier bc I know what to do and what not to do basically#the second? oh my fucking god#I’ll be real honest#I’ve only ever seen the iconic bosses for the second game#the caves and enemies and rest of the stuff? no clue bc I don’t have the time to watch someone else play it for HOURS#i have no many clips of me staring at death so many times and somehow winging it#this game wants ME SPECIFICALLY DEAD#pikmin#luca textpost
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out
#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying 🫶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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august | sastiel (+destiel)
August sipped away like a bottle of wine, 'Cause you were never mine
#sastiel#sam winchester#castiel#spn#samcas#im sorry it was inevitable im surprised this didnt happen earlier#destiel#im tagging it with destiel bc it is KINDA BOTH so i find it appropriate#look this was so tricky but this song is so essential sad!sastiel that i haD to#I HAD TO#them in s14+15 has the vibe of old lovers who thinks about the old times and the what-if's#like their so soft and yearning and so MUCH with each other and i wanted to capture it in this somehow#idk if i did it but im glad i tried#now i can work on easier songs in the future#and yes another tswift spn edit THIS IS THE WAY!!#also man i sometimes think i should get on tiktok for my shorter edits but god is it wORTH IT
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One of the most uncomfortable experiences of autistic adulthood in my experience truly has been- either relationships/friendships, and the process of building them, need to be easier to navigate or I need to want them less because this no man's land is a special kind of lonely.
And it's not a vague post or pity post, it's just an observation re community building in a local sense. We're told it's harder when you're older, harder when you're sober, harder when you're xyz. But that doesn't take away the need for community or help with navigating the process of building it.
#its a bad brain day lads for many many reasons but im hoping to getnone or two coherent thoughts out#this is v much not a cry for pity just something im seeing over and over as i settle into my year 30 and my audhd#and talk to other ppl with tism . building real community is such a struggle and we aren't given clear guidance on social cues#which we knew going in from a life time of figuring them all out. but somehow i thought itd be easier by now. and it isn't#im still working on it I'm trying to get better and braver but how much of the work is my responsibility to carry#and how much can i hope someone else will bring tk the table#idk. might delete because ill get sick of looking at it#also might cross post and regret it immediately. we'll see.
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have had a bit of my crash after flying too close to the sun this past week and you know what, it’s very annoying and also very good for me in a stabilizing way.
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Yeah, I did fill 4 sketchbooks in 4 months so far this year. Huh? Am I gonna post even an ounce of it? Well, you see, I am allergic to my phone, so you will have to come CATCH ME
#da#nooo but I am so saddd it's so much easier to show stuff off irl 😭#if it could look even halfway decent I've considered doing flip throughs of sketchbooks on video#except I draw in pencil and cameras hate that and want me to explode#idk it is truly just better to somehow gain access to my terrible trove of sketchbooks#no but man that sounds like such an ideal hang out. get all my oc lore by sitting on my floor with me as we go through the archives#gosh I should count how many I've filled up at this point#I love that the number increases exponentially as the years go on#like I think 2018 began the precedent of 4 a year minimum which was kinda wild#another ridiculous difficult project I have given a lot of thought to: combing through every sketchbook and either redrawing#or printing off important story related bits and compiling them all into a convenient binder. maybe binding them into a book.#anyway it's pretty much all a drag no matter how you slice it#come to my HOUSE and look at my CREATURES#u don't know this bc I've learned to be silly sneaky but I have stayed up wayyyy too late AGAIN#but I've scheduled this to post at a normal time so you'll never know. unless you read the tags. but that's its own punishment isn't it#hey bonus enticement to look at my boo stuff that doesn't get on the blog. there's smut. and you KNOW I'm a coward who shan't ever post that#actually we'll be lucky if I'm not the same coward in real life too#it's only Dick and Vinny. they get rights. i don't care if anyone else has sex. I don't care if I have sex.#the one song I hope I don't have sex. I hope we both don't have sex. that's actually Vinny though.#I'm more sex favorable and sex positive than he could ever be#y'know this is a very 4am convo to have and actually how prepared am I for this to live in a pm afternoon time#welp. maybe I should stop being addicted to tags and letting loose all my secrets#I shan't grow I shan't do better and I shan't ever change. this is the da promise <3
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my birthday week is like a fight for my fucking life.
#like i dont like my birthday bc i dont like attention and also bc the fact i am still alive when i never planned to be is so heavy#which makes it feel like all of a sudden i have a timer and i need to kiilllmyself#but mostly. The biggest issue is i think of my exbest friend bc it was our week always even if they treated me horrible#and i would just go along with whatever they wanted even if i hated it and i just think about them think about them think about them#and i dont want them in my life but i will talk myself into missing them#and feel guilty like its my fault like i deserved everything they did to me like i should never be allowed to move past it#and then i get so embarassed over how i let them rule my life and ruin so much for me and made me break away from people i care about#but then its like im so lonely at least they were always there even if they hated me#even if they wanted me to be so miserable even if they just wanted to know they would always have someone to push around#And i still have trouble when it comes to food im still scared of opening up to people im still scared of my friends of buying new clothes#somehow everything they said to and about me was true even though none of it is and it hurt me and ruined so much#but i must have deserved it. they were supposed to know me best. and i never have known myself#so everything they had said about me has been true for so long.#every time i have the thought that i miss them i think i need to crash my car#every year it gets better every week it is easier but its been so bad recently its been so bad i feel like pieces of me are falling apart#i dont want to manifest this year it being bad bc its just starting to get easier after my total depressive state but god#im looking at are they made for me years ago and i want to rip it apart but i cant every time i try i almost throw up.#i think im going to throw up right now.#deeply pathetic.#news with isaac
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ive given up on learning how to draw over a year ago but now i had a thought "if they ever make JRWI into an actual series, they'd need animators" and suddenly im back to having motivation to do art
#jrwi is somehow making my life so much easier and also difficult at the same time#forever happy that i clicked at that first bitb episode while sitting in a bus
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can't stop thinking abt how the fact that declan mattered so little to his father that the asshole couldn't even be bothered to keep the memories of the day his son was born was supposed to make up for declan's whole shitty childhood
like hey kid u know what u just weren't worth the pain. do u feel better abt it now.
#like. for years he made declan feel like he didn't matter.#and then it gets confirmed#and that is somehow the emotional resolution?#trc#declan lynch#the whole getting rid of memories storyline was so unnecessary#such a poor attempt at artificially increasing the poor meow niall factor#like. it's like saying to every kid who got fucked up by the divorce 'oh but u parents suffered more! suck it up'#his parents lacked the emotional maturity to go through the break up and take care of their child at the same time and that's okay#happens all the time#it's okay to say that they fucked up.#u don't need to shift the blame to the child for refusing to see all the love he was supposedly showered with#yes he did that. because it's easier for a child's mind.#the conclusion wasn't supposed to be 'omg my father loved me so much i just refused to see it! now that i see it im happy and healed'#it's 'yeah my father was an asshole and my feelings abt it were valid but he was also a complicated person who did love me in his own way'#'it just wasn't enough to make him a good father and it wasn't my fault'#oh and i am forever mad abt the moth scene at the end#why are we making it abt niall? again#i have had enough of this dude#all that needed to be said abt him was said in dream thieves#he's just not intresting enough to keep bringing him up all the time#this is niall lynch hate blog
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Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20′s The Ravening War episode 2
#dimension 20 spoilers#dimension 20#d20 introductions#the ravening war#acoc:trw#first time i've ever watched an episode at 2x speed#somehow made it.... easier to digest?#(ha food pun intended)#no shade to the players or the fans or anyone it's just.......#when i set mercer narration to 2x speed it feels the same speed as anyone else narrating literally anything#anyways this was fun :)#although what was honestly much More fun was watching people go insane over onion ring knight and raphaniel#(i am mostly kidding i was very much one of those people going insane over those two)#also EXTREMELY funny given sir allium has like 2 minutes 5 seconds of total screentime in this episode and has not shown up yet since#i've also taken the executive decision not to look at dishless too closely if i can help it. for personal reasons
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vitalasy going WHO IS INFLUENCING YOU ? DID YOU TALK TO MAPICC? as his immediate reaction to the zam betrayal and you can hardly even hear him say this because his mic cuts out is top 10 craziest eclipse moments to me
#this in combination with subz telling zam that he's proud of him for being able to betray them because it means that they did help him#bizarre things going on here like 1) subz is coping so hard. he is saying that to make himself feel better#2) i would argue that subz overstates mapicc#as a responsible party for zam's behavior at times because it's easier that way & so much weight gets put on subz being zam's savior in bot#of their minds#and Also zam is never able to fully work through his mapicc baggage because despite everything he still wants to hang out with mapicc and#this will just always be true but he also knows that it's somehow wrong and weird of him to still want to hang out with mapicc after all of#that because everything subz and vitalasy signal to him about it is 'FUCK THAT GUY!!!!!!!!!!!' (reasonably so)#my thesis statement. 3 million reasons for why zam is not capable of being honest and vulnerable with them ever and this is one of them#and in place of being honest with each other they all form this habit of performing a grand gesture (trust apples etc) to reaffirm their#relationship but it's suuuuuuuuuuuuch a bandaid over a crack in a wall that is about to fall the fuck down#and a lot of his behavior can be attributed to mapiccissues yes but it's about the way subz frames it#can i say also why was vitalasy scheduling meeting times to speak to the dude he sleeps in the same bed as every night. minecraft roleplay#logistics create the funniest situations on earth. i'm only pro 'its a coherent world and not a minecraft server' when it's funny#m#lifesteal
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