#this went in a bigger direction that i thought it would lmao

[psychwxrdd]

could you write for dark!donnie with a corruption kink?? i’m so in love with him 😞

omggg me too babe 😭 i'd let him ruin my life tbh

corruption

🎀 warnings: 18+, corruption kink, innocence kink, dark! donnie, bimbo! reader, gaslight, rough sex, dub con, i could put a few more but just be aware that this is really filthy lmao i got way too excited while writing

donnie and you were dating for almost 6 months, and it was all going extremely fine. he was anything you always wanted in a boyfriend, he was protective, loving, treated you like a princess, was totally and completely obsessed with you. anyone knew better than to even stare at your direction cause they knew how donnie would react when the topic was you.

yet, you guys haven't had sex yet. you were still a virgin, not sure if you were ready to take a bigger step, and you were both only 18. it wasn't like you had a mature view of anything, needless to say, sex. donnie also told you several times that he would wait as much as it needed, because he didn't wanted his little girl to lose her purity. but that was what he told you.

it wasn't what he thought, tho. donnie had so many dirty, terrible thoughts about you. he was always trying not to get hard but you were constantly on his mind, teasing him. he wanted nothing more than to turn you into his own slut. he wanted to hear your sweet voice telling him the dirtiest things he could think of. he wanted you to feel desperated for him. and he decided he would have his dreams to come true.

"my day really sucked" you said, laying in your boyfriend's bed while he was searching for the dvd of an horror movie. it was friday night, it was halloween week and you were both not in the mood to go to any party, donnie said he much rather spend with you than in a "loud ass party full of assholes".

"yeah?" he stared at you, with a concerned expression. "was it anything in particular?"

"not at all, i was just really sad. couldn't wait to leave school" you spoke softly. donnie then stopped what he was doing to come sit by your side in bed, placing your head on his lap to give you a forehead kiss. "so glad i'm here with you now"

donnie smiled, you could see his eyes brighten with those words. he caressed your hair and your face, his fingers moving to your cheeks and jaw. "i'm glad you're here too, baby. i really wish you could be by my side all the time... i don't hear or see frank when i'm around you."

his fingers then went to your lips, pressing softly, and you didn't knew why, but you felt like opening your mouth in that moment. it was just intimate.

"but i do hear these...these voices in my head, that i-" donnie stopped for a moment and you stares at him, seeing his eyebrows frowning "i hear these voices telling me i should hurt you, baby."

you frozed slightly, not sure if you heard him correctly. "what do you mean, don?"

he sighed, looking sad. "i hear these voices telling me i should hurt the ones i love... that the only way i could stop something bad from happening to me is...to make something bad happen to a loved one instead."

he covered his face with both hands, as if he wanted to hide tears. you felt your heart so broken in that moment, you hated to see him suffering like this. you wish this could happen to you instead.

"baby..." you sat, in the middle of his legs, putting hours hands on his arms. "this is not your fault. really"

he looked at you with those puppy eyes you loved so much.

"is there something i could do to help you?" you asked, worried. donnie seemed to think for a while.

"maybe if i... if i did something bad to you, that you consented me to." he placed your hair behind your ears. you were curious about it, but you felt happy you could help him somehow.

"you have something in mind? i mean... you can give me a pinch, just not too hard"

he chuckled at your words. "i have an idea, actually. what do you think about giving me consent to ruin you?" he said with a slight grin, and you didn't knew how to respond. how would he even ruin you? was sex that sinfull?

you stayed quiet for a few seconds, avoiding eye contact with him, but he grabbed your chin softly, making you stare at his eyes.

"hey, it's okay baby... i promise i'll make you feel really good. and if you don't like it we can stop, huh?" he pressed a few kisses around your face, holding it with both hands. "but then i'll keep having these horrible thoughts, and i'll have to find a way to make something worse."

his words were awfull, but his voice was so sweet...it didn't sound like a threat to you. donnie would never hurt you, right? he promised that a thousand times. you trusted him.

"ok." you said almost in a whisper. his eyes widened a bit.

"ok? yeah? right now?"

"yeah don... i want you to feel better. you can do it to me."

he smiled big, so big. you loved his smile, so you smiled as well. he waste no time to give you a passionate, loving kiss.

he rolled you two on bed, him being on top of you. the passionate kiss didn't take long to become sloppy and hot. his hands that were just holding your face minutes before, were now holding your neck, not tight enough to choke, but enough to make you feel the pressure and gasp a bit for air.

his tongue felt so good against yours, kissing him like that... it made you feel things that you were ashamed to say out loud. felt likes butterflies all over your stomach, but lower, and better.

you wanted to let out a sound, to say his name, but you didn't.

he let go of your throat to move his hands all over your body, much different from you, he didn't seemed to feel ashamed about his own needs.

"you're so fucking sexy" he told you as he roughly took your shirt off "had to jerk off so many times just by imagining these boobs on my mouth"

he then put your bra down and quickly sucked your nipples, making you close your eyes and whimper. that felt extremely good.

donnie made pretty loud noises while sucking on your tits, you were worried that someone else would might hear it and ask what was it. but he didn't, not in the slightest.

"don-"

he grabbed your throat all of sudden, making you gasp, scared.

"shut the fuck up, baby, you talk when i ask you something" he made an intense eye contact, know you knew that he wasn't playing. his blue eyes looked pretty more dark, it was scary. "come here, get on your knees."

you felt scared of what he would do if you didn't, but at the same time, that fear turned you on. you did as he told, hearing the sound of him unzipping his pants.

"look so fucking gorgeous like this..." he could groan at the sight of you in your knees for him, so close to his cock. as he pull out, your eyes grow big at his size.

you didn't said anything tho, remembering you were supposed to stay quiet unless spoken to.

"open that pretty mouth f'me"

opening up as wide as you could, he caressed your chin. "thats my good girl"

he shoved his tip inside your lips and groaned, he wanted to be nice cause he loved you, but there was no way he could held himself back. what a pity.

donnie's cock hitted the back of your throat and you gagged so hard you thought you would throw up, but you didn't. your eyes were full of tears.

"shhh, it's okay baby. breath through your nose, fine?" you nodded slightly, saliva and tears running all over your face already. donnie loved how even your gag sounded lovely, he wanted to get you to make more of these.

he fucked your mouth harshly, and you would be lying if you say you weren't enjoying. it was uncomfortable, but so hot at the same time. so hot that you started moaning.

"like sucking my dick?" he asked, slapping your cheek softly, staring at your pretty eyes full of tears and lust. he couldn't hold any longer. "shit, fucking slut"

he came deeply inside your throat, and you had no choice other than to swallow. you didn't liked how it tasted, you wanted to spit it.

when donnie noticed it, he held your cheeks tightly "uh uh, swallow all of it"

tears were still falling, but you did as he told you. "good girl."

donnie carried you on his arms, placing you roughly on his bed, ass up and face down. "fucking nice ass, goddamn it"

he grabbed and slapped your ass, stroking his cock. he caressed his fingers on your clit to make sure you were wet enough.

"i wanted to eat that soaked pussy but my dick is still too hard right now honey, have to break you"

you were ready for the pain, considering you were still a virgin and he was fucking big, but as he put it inside, you could tolerate it.

"go slow, donnie" you searched for his body, placing your hand on his chest, and he held your hand sweetly.

"won't move till you tell me to"

you breathed, feeling so horny... you wanted him to move, but at the same time, you knew if he did that in that second it would make you feel a lot of pain.

donnie, behind you, were controlling himself in the best way he could to not rail the shit out of you. he wanted to corrupt you, and he wanted you to feel pain, but in a way that it would have you begging for more, screaming his name and turning into a slut. he didn't wanted it to hurt in a bad way.

a few more minutes and you were telling him to move, as it started to feel really good. donnie groaned when he hitted all his way inside you, feeling like this was the closest he would ever be to heaven.

"oh my god... move, donnie, please" you moaned in a desperated, slutty tone, and that was it for him. he started fucking you as if there was no tomorrow.

he rammed your head against his pillow and held your hair and throat, going harder and harder in each thrust. you were moaning, whimpering, crying, almost screaming and laughing at the same time, you didn't knew anything could ever feel this good.

your pussy was extremely wet, mixing with his pre cum, so everything felt even better. thats when you thought if he had a condom on.

"donnie..." you tried to say, but it was impossible. he was also groaning and too fucked out in his own pleasure to answer.

you also thought about his family, what if they were still upstair and heard this?

but if you still had any upcoming thoughts, they easily gone away when donnie hitted a very sensible spot inside you, making you scream in pleasure.

"yeah, right there!"

"fuck baby, your screams are driving me crazy" donnie was now against your back, holding your face to give you a messy kiss. he played with your clit in a fast rhythm, it was all too much. he was trully fucking you dumb.

"tell me your mine, y/n" he whispered in your ear, and you put your hands on his hair.

"i- i'm...yours..." you say, struggling.

"whats it, sweet thing? already cock drunk? got you addicted?" he smirked, not remembering the last time in his life that he felt so happy. "first time being fucked and i already turned you into my little slut."

you camed so hard you thought you would fall down, but he held you strongly. not even a second later, cumming inside you.

"shit..." he groaned. it felt so good to come inside your pussy. he mocked you saying you were already addicted, but in reality he was the one who already could never lever live without that pussy anymore.

you both felt on bed, hugging each other and breathing harshly. he held your head on his chest, caressing your hair. you chuckled, feeling relaxed by your orgasm.

"i still wanna eat your pussy, baby... been fucking starving from how much i wanna taste you"

"don, i'm fucked out."

he laughed at your words. you weren't one to say bad words, ever.

"i'm sure that any bad thought could go away if i gave you enough orgasms to pass out."

[tonowaritrash]

LMAO okay i’d like to apologise in advance for this fic. i have no idea what happened but it went in a completely different direction than when i first planned it. it’s different from what i usually write but i was thoroughly entertained.

pairing: tonowari x reader

tags: mean ao’nung, divorced wari (it’s vague but it was on amicable terms i promise!), p in v sex, gentle wari, oral (fem receiving), reader is 23/24, inexperienced reader…

summary: tonowari approaches reader at a celebration

minors dni

you were not a warrior.

born as the middle child, your head just wasn’t made for stalking and killing large animals. a spear felt heavy in your hands, and it felt uncomfortable to wield over time. it made it difficult to make friends and growing up you were teased by ao’nung and his ilk even though he was three orbits your junior. you took his insults in stride and valued yourself for being the mature one and walking away. but he challenged you at every opportunity because you were an easy target.

names were thrown your way. when you were eight he called you dumb. when you were thirteen he called you weak. when you were eighteen he called you a bitch. but now that you were twenty-three he called you unmateable. that no man in the clan would ever consider bedding you unless they were insane, because you were incompetent. it made your blood boil.

you’d wanted to go to others to complain about his behaviour. but you’d thought that approaching them would only solidify ao’nung’s words and the teasing would only increase.

anyway, you were useful in other ways; you could identify kelp quickly, you knew exactly which coral in the reef was dangerous to touch and on more than one occasion you’d been able to successfully figure out where to find fish based on their migration patterns. the clan praised you each time. but ao’nung? he called you a new word.

nerd.

it was aggravating to be treated like this for years by a man younger than you, to be undermined because you found it difficult to swim as fast as the others. most days you took it in stride. but some days, oh, some days you wanted to do everything in your power to wipe that smug smirk off his dumb face.

you really hated him. you needed to teach him a lesson.

you wanted revenge.

you didn’t have a plan though. not really, anyway. there wasn’t much that could be done. he was bigger than you and had tons of influence as the son of the olo’eyktan. girls flocked to him just to have a piece of him, guys were jealous of his natural talent. no one would believe you if you told them how he was like behind closed doors.

you sighed, looking at your empty cup as the fire roared in the middle of the village. people were singing and dancing and some were more than a little drunk. you were alone, your friends having left already. you enjoyed the warmth of the fire, the steady thrumming of the drum and the rhythmic pitter patters of dance steps. they offered a welcome distraction to your thoughts.

although, you noted looking up at ao’nung who was laughing with his friends, drunk already, the company could certainly be better.

“all alone?”

you turned, snapping out of your reverie to see who’d interrupted your musings. a small gasp escaped your mouth and you stood up immediately at the inquisitive blue eyes that looked at you.

“tonowari, i didn’t see you there, i apologise.” quickly you introduced yourself, giving a gesture of respect.

he shook his head and motioned you to sit. “please, no need to stand on my account.”

you blushed as you sat, trying to suppress a smile. you’d liked olo’eyktan for months now. after he and ronal had separated a few years back you’d slowly become more and more fascinated with him. what first started as a girlish crush had blossomed into admiration and now a deep longing.

he sat down next to you. “no one should celebrate alone.”

“my friends just left,” you explained. “i wanted more time to take everything in before i turned in for the evening too.”

tonowari nodded. “nothing wrong with breathing in the atmosphere. a good atmosphere is good for the spirit.”

“and your company makes for good atmosphere?” you ask and he smiled.

“i should hope so. it wouldn’t be good for the leader of the clan to sour the mood, would it?”

“no, i suppose it wouldn’t.”

you looked at him, now. his eyes were full of mirth and he had smile that looked so much like his son’s. but his was a lot warmer. friendlier. inviting, even. it was such a soft expression you wanted to caress his face.

it took everything in your power to stop yourself.

“i’ve seen you somewhere before but i just can’t seem to place it,” he muttered. “that’s the reason i came here, actually.”

your heart skipped a beat. you didn’t know tonowari. not really, anyway. and he’d never seen you together with ao’nung, that much was certain. but, could it be a possibilty? perhaps he did know you? maybe he actually knew the tension between you and his son and he wanted to smooth things over?

“i don’t see you on hunts, do i? or fishing?”

that…was surprising. you shook your head. “i don’t…i’m not good, actually… spear never felt quite right in my hands.”

it was embarrassing to admit. mortifying, even. but you couldn’t lie to him. not about this, anyway. it was something that could easily be disproven.

there was silence afterwards and you wanted to crawl into yourself. he probably thought of you the way his son did. that you were an insult to his people.

“you don’t hunt? i could have sworn i recognised you.”

you shook your head again. “i’m afraid not. i just take care of things here; help with foraging, direct the fishermen to the right spots…”

his eyes flashed in understanding. “you told us where to look for ttryll last year, when we’d thought they hadn’t come to the reef for the summer.”

your blush deepened and you hoped he didn’t notice. “yep, that’s me. you remembered that?”

he laughed. it rolled through him, starting deep in his stomach and it was a beautiful sound. you’d found that you wanted to hear it forever. “ao’nung had said we should give up. when it turned out you were right he was miserable the whole day.”

you frowned at his name leaving his lips, but you couldn’t help but feel happy that you’d proven him wrong.

“i should have thanked you then,” he said now. “we thought we’d have to rely on other fish then. you really helped the clan.”

a shy smile graced your lips at the praise, the words making you feel warm. you never knew hearing him say things like that made you feel so good and you wanted nothing more than to hear more.

“i have many talents. if you need me to identify kelp or tell you the difference between teal moss or turquoise moss, i’m your gal.”

you laughed together softly and you noticed that you were a lot closer than when you’d started chatting, at how easily conversation flowed. talking to other guys always seemed so difficult for you but despite your nerves you found yourself enjoying chatting with tonowari. maybe it was the cup of alcohol you’d emptied before he’d arrived, maybe it was the casual setting of the celebration, maybe your attraction to him far outweighed your nerves. you didn’t know. and frankly you didn’t care.

this next question would either make or break whatever vibes were being made here. your heart was thrumming in time to the drum but you figured that you’d never get a chance like this again.

to hell with it. you lose all the chances you don’t take, right?

“do you want to get out of here?” you asked.

his eyes widened and you held your breath as he regarded you for a moment. maybe you were wrong. you could never look at him again if that were the case. you hadn’t thought this through. stupid alcohol.

“yeah. my marui’s close.”

your heart skipped a beat and it was a wonder how you managed to take the hand he offered you to help you up without falling on your face.

what the fuck?

what the fuck?

the two of you slipped away without being noticed by the boisterous party behind you. the waves washed over the noises pretty quickly as tonowari led you to his home.

bioluminescent seaweed lit your path and you noticed a few creatures scuttle across the sand in surprise as you tried to suppress your giddiness. or was it nerves? it was impossible to tell and by the time you did get there you still felt like your brain was scrambled.

“water?” he offered after welcoming you in. you sat down as you took in his home as he walked around.

you shook your head, too nervous to drink anything. you were scared you would spill it on yourself or, with your luck, on him.

he sat down next to you after having fussed around his home a bit. it was oddly adorable.

“about earlier…were you being serious about what you’d said? i don’t want there to have been any misunderstandings.”

“no!” you said abruptly. “i mean, yes! to your first question. no misunderstandings here.”

he looked down and you followed his gaze, slowly getting more mortified as you realised you’d grabbed his hand. he hadn’t pulled away though. instead he started rubbing your hand with his thumb in soothing circles.

“good to hear,” he said softly before leaning in to kiss you.

the initial surprise of it melted along with you into the kiss. this wasn’t the first time you’d kissed someone. despite what ao’nung thought there were many heated moments you’d had with some boys you knew in your teenage years. but as you got older and more mature you’d wanted something more than frantic groping and coral reef quickies.

you crawled into his lap, breathing heavily as you straddled him and hands shaking like a leaf in a hurricane. you felt him smile against you and ask “is this okay?”

you nodded enthusiastically, stroking his biceps, feeling him chuckle as you gave them a firm squeeze.

he kissed down your neck, surprising you and—oh.

…oh…

he chuckled against you and you only realised then that you had moaned aloud. it was embarrassing and you were going to apologise until he sucked the sensitive spot on your neck softly.

you hissed, squeezing him, gasping, the feeling shooting straight to your core. you bit your lip, feeling your skin light aflame with a pleasure you didn’t know was possible.

this was nothing like the coral reef quickies.

“you sound so pretty, sweet girl,” he said softly, making you shiver. your breath hitched at the praise and he seemed to notice if the sly smirk you started to grow to love was of any indication.

he moved his mouth away from you and tilted his head. “do you like that? when i say things like that?”

you nodded dumbly, not trusting your voice to stay steady. he kissed you again in earnest, helping you undo your top.

“you’re beautiful,” he breathed, kissing your shoulder. “and so smart. so, so smart sweet girl. helping out the clan when you did.”

you moaned as he kissed lower, until he was at your inner thigh. you bit your lip as he removed your loin cloth with his teeth and gasped as softly bit your thigh.

“tonowari…” you moaned.

“wari,” he muttered.

“what?”

he looked up at you. “i prefer wari with my friends. and since we’re…” he thought for a moment, “more than acquainted at this point, you might as well call me that too.”

“okay, wari,” you said.

he grinned. “good girl.”

the praise shot right through. you had no idea two words could make you feel so good. you blushed and looked away only to gasp when you felt his tongue lap at your clit.

“w-wait! what’re you doing?”

he paused again and looked up inquisitively, another thing about him you’d found adorable. “what do you mean?”

“you can’t…do that.”

he rubbed your thighs with his palms thoughtfully. “you’ve never had sex before?”

the question was so out of left field you would have fallen if you hadn’t been lying down already. “what? no, i’ve had sex.”

he frowned, as though what you’d told him confused him. “but you’ve never had someone do this for you?”

“no! i mean, no that…no one ever…we just…you know…and sometimes i’d…with my mouth….when they’d asked but….”

“and you enjoyed it?”

you avoided his piercing gaze. “it’s…sex is sex. right?”

he sighed and kissed your thigh. “the boys in this clan have a lot to learn it seems,” he muttered. “let me take care of you, okay?”

you bit your lip, and nodded, trusting him. then once again you felt his tongue graze your clit and you gasped. an indescribable pleasure burst through you, way better than any tryst you’d had before.

his tongue skittered around your bud, making your thighs tremble on their own volition. you moaned as he licked your cunt, letting out a soft sob when his breath blew softly against you. you’d never been so wet in your entire life.

he guided your hands to his head and you bit your lip again as you grabbed his hair threading between your fingers. your hips quivered and you panted, swearing when you felt what could only be his fingers enter you.

he sucked your clit softly and you swore, fucking yourself against his fingers and grinding into his mouth.

you came quickly like this, shaking and moaning against his face. he moaned too ad you realised he’d been touching himself the whole time, his fingers now squeezing the base of his cock as though trying to stop himself from coming.

when you relaxed, panting, he came up to kiss you, making you taste yourself. you pulled him as close into you as you could, desperately wanting to feel more of him, drunk off the feeling of pleasure he’d given you.

“you did well,” he said softly. “my sweet girl.”

you looked at him, still horny as hell even though he’d given you the best orgasm of your life. you squirmed under his hands and he chuckled. “yes?”

“need you inside me,” you said shyly.

he looked at you for a moment and sat up, kneeling in front of you. “since you asked do nicely.”

he lined himself up and you clenched your fists in anticipation. tonowari first slid his cock between your lower lips, not entering you but teasing.

you took a shaky breath you didn’t know you were holding and tried to relax as he slowly sheathed himself inside you. your walls eagerly took him in and they fluttered at the gentle friction, sending bolts of pleasure through you. your eyes shut tight as you took him in and you felt him flush against you, panting. holding still.

“wari…” you whined.

“sorry,” he said softly. “give me a moment, sweet girl. i almost came right then.”

fuck. fuck, that was hot.

he leaned down to kiss you, thumbing your clit as he did so and making you squirm. you panted, back arching when he nipped your nipple.

slowly he began to thrust deeply. his muscles rippled as he connected his hips with yours rhythmically, and you sighed under him. it felt nothing like what you’d had before. he made your toes curl, paid special attention to the kind of movement you seemed to like and genuinely seemed to enjoy it himself.

“fuck,” he muttered, “you feel so good, sweet girl. i’m barely holding together as it is.”

“harder,” you said. “need it harder. please.”

he swore again, your begging clearly his weakness before he picked up the pace. you held on to him, nails scratching his back as he fucked you into the bed, moaning for all the clan to hear.

soon it all erupted and the pleasure rocked through you, making you milk his cock with your walls. he bit his lip, clearly at his limit before he gave two particularly hard thrusts and came inside you.

he kissed you everywhere as his orgasm rolled through him, and after it ended until he collapsed next to you, panting with you.

he rolled over, threw his arm over you and nuzzled into your neck with a happy sigh. you stroked his arm, sleep dangerously close to taking over.

“i honestly just wanted to have a conversation with you when i first approached you.” he said softly.

you snorted. “what changed?”

“we continued talking.”

your heart flip flopped. “really?”

he chuckled. “you are a compelling person. i hope…” he paused, choosing his next words carefully, “i hope this isn’t the end of it.”

now it was your turn to chuckle. “are you kidding me? you’ve ruined me for all men.”

he sighed happily and closed his eyes. “good.”

-0O0-

the next morning you’d woken up before tonowari and walked around his marui to find food for the both of you. you couldn’t help but feel giddy as you placed some dried fish and grains into a bowl along with a fruit you’d found just outside.

noticing the water jug was empty, you exited the marui quickly to go to the communal water hole to grab some more for breakfast.

you hummed as you opened the door to exit but as you left, you bumped into a very hungover looking ao’nung who looked like he was coming back from a long night of partying.

“watch it, nerdy bitch,” he muttered, not in the right state of mind to insult you properly.

you frowned, but chose not to retaliate until he called for you to stop.

“what’re you doing here anyway?” he asked

you gritted your teeth and counted to ten, forcing yourself to relax. one day he was gonna learn. one day he was gonna get his comeuppance. one day—

wait.

you grinned as it hit you. this was it.

“i said what’re you doing here with our water jug?” he asked again, more firmly.

“what am i doing here?” you asked innocently. then you took a step closer to him, and whispered into his ear.

“i fucked your father last night.”

you felt him freeze and you cackled, turning and leaving without another word. you didn’t even look at his face. you didn’t need to.

“eywa thank you for rewarding me for my patience,” you sang as you skipped to get water.

[lizandbo]

Izuku and katsuki crushing on you hcs

katsuki

lawd have fuckin mercy💀🖐

Ohhh boy

Mans is in pure denial at first 

Like oh maybe it’s for how admirable y/n is and that’s why I get so giddy whenever I see them lmao katsuki wishes

POOR BABY DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO DO BUT LIKE… WONT GO TO ANYONE???

like he perks up so fast when he hears your name 

Or like whenever you said something you like or interested in something he tries to think about what he could do in that category of your interests

Bro I totally think he’s gonna be fucked up tho like…

After a while he comes to the conclusion he may PERHAPS semi really likes your everything about you ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

He’d get so mad at himself for acting like a ‘creepo’ even tho 99.9 of the human population has dealt with thinking and dreaming about a crush

In the worst places too

Maybe while in the shower too many times but we might not need to know that🤡

But like when y’all become friends and actually get to know each other he MIGHT ask you out

BUT BUT I HAVE A FEELING HE WOULDNT WANT TO

It’s like too embarrassing yk? And he also wants cherish the friendship he has with you:(

Sometimes he acts like an asshat but his acts of service makes up for it <3

Speaking of acts of service he would totally do shit without you even knowing 

Like putting tape/sticky note writing your name on your leftovers in the fridge so it won’t get eaten 

Making your favorite meal

Leaving your laundry folded on your bed while your out doing something

He’s petty enough to not put it in your wardrobe but alrighty

Feel like his bro Kirishima has to be his support dude yk

Always checking up on you through Kirishima 

This mans ego…. Dude idek if it can get any bigger when you talk literally anything about him

But man does he get pissy af when you talk remotely anything negative bout em

He’d have this smug look kinda like at the music festival or some shit 

like dis bad boi right here

BUT HES SO CUTE WHEN YOU CATCH HIM STARING AT YOU

which isn’t often but broooo he gets so red 

Like a damn strawberry

Or a skinned squirrel 

Who knows

Izuku

oh mah gah he’s so bad with crushes😫

Like he’s not even trying to crush on you

It just so happens to be crushing on you so hard that izuku might shit his pants whenever he sees you

He just a flustered little baby that’s all

Izuku just wants to kiss you but loses his shit whenever you go near him in a five feet radius 

Everyone knows he has a crush on you

Like it’s so fucking obvious 

Can’t hide his feelings for shit

Bros kinda a stalker ngl 

But in a good way yk

He talks to allmight about it to see if he could help 

Tries to point him in the right direction but he’s also a single as a Pringle so he don’t really know what he’s doing lol

He’s like those cheesy parents when having a ‘crush’ conversation

Later on izuku just kinda goes his own way 

He takes down notes about you

Sometimes there are really really weird shit he notices

Just the random gestures, reactions and habits makes you wonder how in the actual hell did he learn this information??

One of the seven world wonders 

Izuku himself is a world wonder💀

Anyways, he tries to accommodate your unspoken desires by small gestures 

Like warming up a towel in the dryer right before you get out of the shower

Gets gift cards for your favorite places

Hands you a water if you don’t already have a drink 

He’s just a thoughtful stalker /hj

Izuku doesn’t realize how personal his actions can be or how he mentions something that you do

He snitched on himself one too many times

It kinda made you suspect he had some feelings towards you 

And when you questioned it bro went flying

You may never see him again

[frogchiro]

No but imagine this, dottore with an s/o or crush that was nice and friendly with him during his academia days that he grow so attached to them he became obsessed 👁👁 bonus points if when they meet again years after graduation (in his case getting kicked out lmao) but they no longer view him in a positive light that it becomes enemies to lovers(?) with dottore being a full on yandere

IDK there's just something so satisfying with the trope of mf who's willing to burn down the whole world for their darling while darling either hardly notices them or is oblivious 😭😭😭 especially this trope with the fatui 🤭

A 1000x yes to this😭 also the trop of a villain who's ready to burn down the whole world for you is one of my absolute all time favorites <3

gn!reader, yandere!dottore, mention of a panic attack, a tiny bit of cursing and violence but really nothing major

ok so i think it's canon that dottore while still studying at sumeru academia was terribly bullied and called a heretic? so i imagine that his darling was a star student, very well liked among both peers and teachers and as a side hustle/hobby has been researching about khaen'riah but that's for later

so when they were walking at night around the school grounds they saw someone getting pushed and cursed at and darling being curious went over to investigate and saw a young man getting beaten up by three much bigger men

after interrupting the petty squabble by threatening with calling for a teacher and being called a 'bitter bitch' you help the sage haired man up and ask if everything is okay.

the first thing you notice about him besides his hair color are the rows of razor sharp, shark-like teeth that he clenches, from pain perhaps? he did take some pretty strong punches, moreover he's not the biggest around.

your worry from dottore's point of view was pointless and annoying, a pain in the ass, really. besides come on, just how much more cliche it can get? the star student of sumeru academia, the up and coming researcher who will certainly 'shake the world of scholars' and come up with something that never-well, you get the gist; he really thought that what were you doing here was some pathetic attempt at a lousy pity party to gain *good person* points from teachers and peers so he rudely brushed you off with a sneer and a cold 'piss off brat', and that was the end of it.

but oh how mistaken he was. here he was, a few weeks later, sitting with you in the ancient academia library, listening intently to your recent research about ruin guards. what? can't he listen to someone finally making sense in a place that supposedly was to be filled with the most knowledgeable people? and the fact that you were so...nice to him? was a very pleasant change in pace with all the dirty looks he got from everyone.

you never looked at him in disgust. you never sneered at him when he told you about the various experiment he'd perform with what limited resources he had. you never berated him or called him insane, a disgrace to the arts of magic and scholarship. you...you were something else, something that somehow managed to move the stone cold void that was his heart.

so he started to observe and learn. dottore knew that although you two were friendly enough as it is, direct approach could scare you off. he wasn't stupid, he knew that if he outright told you 'i'm obsessed with you and sometimes i feel like ripping my heart out and giving it to you on a silver plate if that was what you'd wish for'. he watched you almost every second of your day; studying, attending lectures, laughing with your silly little 'friends'.

speaking of which, he found that your classmates irritated him terribly, especially when some of them would stand so disgustingly close to you it made dottore's skin crawl with barely concealed fury. but could he afford making a rookie mistake and made your frinds dissapear one by one? no, no he unfortunately couldn't. he had to maintain status quo if he wanted to get even closer to you, his love. everything would turn out just fine.

well it was going just fine until he got kicked out of the academia for 'performing heretical acts of indescribable cruelty'. cruelty his fucking ass. in short, after a few months of observing you and getting even closer, he overheard some boy talking with his friend about wanting to confess to you and he saw red. sharp teeth clenched almost painfully, red eyes blazing with anger and hatred as his fingers tangled into his blue-green hair and tore at his hair.

'no no no this can't be happening' dottore heaved, breaths coming out in quick panicked puffs, he felt his chest contracting painfully. no no, he can't loose you like this, he just can't. he's well aware of his reputation, both in the academia and probably in this whole god-forsaken country. you'd surely reject him, leave him for some goody-two-shoes and live your happy ever after, far away from a abomination like him, dottore.

the only thing that tore the man out of his self-destructing thoughts was an idea. something so simple yet so lasting and effective that he felt plain stupid for not coming up with it earlier. he'd simply kill that little pest. yeah, kill the golden boy and the problem will solve itself, besides his research concerning the creation of the perfect enhanced human was almost complete, all he needed was a live subject, what could go wrong?

well, as it turned out-everything. anger and jealousy clouded his logical mind and made some rookie mistakes that ultimately led to teachers and guards find his secret makeshift laboratory and the gory mess of the student, or at least what remained of him.

so dottore made the only logical choice and ran as fast and as far as he could from the guards. his only regret was not to be able to see you one last time before his untimely departure. soon after he met the lord harbinger the jester who offered him basically unlimited research opportunities if he agrees to create an enhanced human that could withstand a god, and well, as they say-the rest was history.

yet he was completely unaware of the tears you shed of many nights to come, crying quietly for the man you came to love and lost so quickly.

it wasn't until many many years later that dottore overheard some fatui agents talk about a known magician and khaen'rhia researcher, (y/n) (l/n). the man would lie if he said he didn't stop dead in his track, his genius brain almost overheating from that one simple sentence.

'so you're alive and well, huh my dove. it looks like destiny is on our side after all. don't worry, i'll make your stay extra enjoyable, just you wait my sweet~'

[lemonykoo]

burnt out - tighnari

Pairing: Boyfriend!Tighnari x Student!Reader

Genre: Angst, I guess? Comfort later, though. Female reader.

Word Count: 2.5k

Notes: You’ve been working toward your degree at the Academiya for four years now, and as the days go on, Tighnari starts to notice that your diligence to your studies has gone by the wayside. Just when he thinks he has to have a talk with you, it’s brought to his attention that you aren’t just slacking off, but that there’s a bigger problem at hand. (Very self-indulgent lmao.)

Warnings: mentions of burnout and all the things that come of it! Tighnari is unaware of the situation so he’s a bit brash at first. (He also might be a little OOC im so sorry.) Vomiting is also mentioned – not graphically, just mentioned a few times. Also not entirely for sure how the Academiya runs in genshin but I structured it kind of like college to make it easier for me :)

“So, I got the exam, right? And I looked at the first page and was like, ‘Whoa, I know this stuff!’ And I just went through the whole test like that, so I think I did well! There were a couple I was confused about, but I think I got them, so I’m not too worried.” You stood from the crouched position you had been in and sighed, wiping the sweat from off your brow as you waited for an approving response from your boyfriend.

“You always study hard, so I would expect nothing less from you,” was the response Tighnari gave and oh, how damaging to you would it soon turn out to be.

It was a slow process, of course. It wasn’t like you just woke up one day and decided that you had no urge to even step foot on the premise of the Academiya, let alone even gaze in its direction. It was a gradual feeling that started to bubble within after four years of diligent studying and research to graduate and obtain a much sought-after degree in biology. This was a goal you had always been passionate about. Ever since you were young, you always wanted to learn more about the world around you, specifically nature’s role in it. You were still in the process of trying to write your thesis, with the help of your just as diligent boyfriend, Tighnari. Of course, the thesis work was all you – he was just there for support and to help out when needed. A lot of your time together was spent outside in the rainforest, collecting data and observing nature do it’s thing.

You spend a lot of time at Pardis Dhyai, since a lot of your research revolves around botany, but you also travel to Gandharva Ville not only to see your lover but also for research purposes. Your time spent in the rainforest with the forest watchers was always brief and you’d return back to Pardis Dhyai almost as soon as you left, but your stays have gotten longer. At first, you said it was because your work that needed to be done back at “home base” as you referred to it as didn’t have to start as soon as you woke up in the morning but then you changed your story to “Gandharva ville has more materials I need for my research.” Either one was acceptable; after all, students do tend to travel all over the place to gather material and data for their research topics. It wasn’t uncommon for you to even go someplace else in Sumeru for a couple days. The only problem with your second excuse was that you spent more time in Tighnari’s abode rather than outside inspecting plants and their habitats.

“You’re still here? I thought you said you were going to go out in the field today,” Tighnari said, seeing that you sitting at his desk, a notebook opened in front of you. The pages were blank except for a few scribbles and doodles. When he had left earlier, you had told him you needed to go into the field and see how the plants you were observing were doing since you hadn’t since last week. But it appeared that you hadn’t even attempted to leave.

“Oh, yeah, I had a lot to do this week so I thought I’d take it easy today, actually,” you answered.

“Understandable,” was all he replied with, a feeling of doubt surfacing that was quickly shaken away.

This theme of your “I need to blah blah blah” statements and then never actually doing what “needed” to be done became a very frequent occurrence. “Didn’t you say the test this week was super hard? I haven’t seen you touch your notes once in the past two days,” Tighnari noted as you ate lunch one day by a stream.

“It’s not until later in the week so I have time,” you said, shrugging. He decided not to press the issue further, putting his trust in the fact that you’d most likely just study when it came closer to time. Though, he’d really suggest starting now, but oh well.

And it continued like this, but you’d come back and explain that you didn’t do as well on that test as you thought you would followed by, “I should’ve studied more, but I just felt like I couldn’t.” Tighnari asked why you would return so late to Pardis Dhyai when you had work to do there, but you’d just brush it off and say that you could take care of it, you just might have to work longer one day. He’d stand at the entrance of your little “home base” and wave at you, telling you to have a nice rest of the week with a voice in his head saying that something was up with you but he just couldn’t put his finger on it.

You were always so diligent with your schoolwork. So focused and never missing a due date. You were always in the field, ready to learn and make observations. You’d go through notebook after notebook, filling the pages with endless pieces of knowledge and experiences you had come across, completely immersing yourself in your work and loving every minute of it. But now, you were different. Things had changed over these past four years. You weren’t as eager to go out in the field with him and when you were, the enjoyment didn’t last long and you’d get restless and distracted from the tasks at hand. Your stays at his place consisted of basically just you sleeping over until you stated you were ready for him to walk you back to Pardis Dhyai. You didn’t have your nose in books or notes anymore or ask him to quiz you for your next test. It was almost as if you weren’t even a student anymore. Were you just… becoming lazy? Surely not, as that was so unlike you. Perhaps… you had grown to dislike your degree choice, or realized that you just didn’t like it as much as you thought.

Tighnari decided he needed to address this concern of his to you and figure out what was going on. Maybe you just needed a little push to get going again! If that was the case, he was always there to encourage you. Hopefully you hadn’t forgotten all the times he’s helped you with your research, because if you were stuck and didn’t know how to continue with it, he’d totally help you out just as he had before.

When Tighnari entered Gandharva Ville, he was approached by Collei before he could reach his home. “Master Tighnari!” the young girl greeted. “I was waiting for you to return. I was wanting to ask you if there’s anything I could do to help (Y/N)? I didn’t know she was sick and I feel bad for not keeping her company while you were gone.”

“Sick?” Tighnari echoed. “I didn’t know she was sick, either.” His brows furrowed and gazed off into the distance, looking at his home and wondering what he had missed while he was out.

“Oh?” Collei bit at the inside of her cheek as she followed the male’s gaze. “I figured (Y/N) hadn’t ate yet, so I made her a couple pita pockets so she could take a break from her studies. When I walked in, though, she was sitting on the ground with her head in her hands. She said she had just thrown up.”

A lot of thoughts were running through the forest ranger’s mind. At first, he had wanted to retort and say that you probably weren’t studying earlier, but rather drawing meaningless doodles in the pages of your notebook that should have your work written on them instead. But you had thrown up? Tighnari didn’t even waste another second, but instead headed straight to his home.

Upon entering, you were seated on the bed, braiding a series of small flowers together into bracelets, something you’d always do when you were little and out playing in the forest with your friends. You had made several of these for Tighnari in the past, all of which were dried and turning to dust somewhere in a vase in his house. You looked up before going back to your braiding. “I know, I know. I’m not studying. You don’t have to say anything this time,” you said softly, a bit of strain in your voice.

Ouch. “That’s not-“ he sighed, “Collei said you were sick?”

“Huh? Oh, yeah. I just threw up a little. My throat still hurts a bit, but I’m fine,” you responded, a bit of what he assumed was embarrassment written on your face.

Your boyfriend observed the space around you. A half-eaten pita pocket lay on a plate, discarded on his desk, cold and stale. Next to it, your books were open and your notebook was out and he was surprised to see that you had actually been studying. “Why did you throw up? Had you eaten something previously that upset you?”

“No,” you replied. “I hadn’t eaten anything all day until Collei made lunch. I had been doing work all morning since you left.” As Tighnari observed you, he made note of the redness of your eyes. He remembered when he left this morning on his forest ranger duties, giving a hasty kiss on your cheek before he departed, hoping not to wake you up since you were still asleep. That was another thing – you’ve spent a lot of your time taking naps or just laying in bed until it was time to eat, but sometimes, you’d even skip that. More pieces started to fit together in his mind.

Before he could hit you with another round of questions to try to deduce why you had gotten sick earlier, you said something that tied it all together for him.

“I was just doing some of my work and I got overwhelmed. Before I knew it, I felt the need to vomit and thankfully-”

The rest of your statement about how you got out and away from Tighnari’s things just before you vomited didn’t matter because it suddenly made sense now. He just… he just didn’t know how to tell you because it was obvious you weren’t aware of the situation.

“I’m glad you’re feeling better,” he said, coming to sit next to you on the bed. He picked up one of the carefully made bracelets and ran his hand through it before taking it off and laying it back down. The silence was unbearable to him. “About what you said earlier, though, I’m sorry for always getting onto you for not studying. It’s really none of my business. I just know how much you want this degree and I don’t want to see you give up on it.” Maybe he could ease you into this conversation to make things easier.

You exhaled a tired sigh. “It’s okay. I know I should study more. I just… don’t always feel like it and when I do go to study, like today, I just get so… sick. I threw up last week, too, in Pardis Dhyai. I don’t know what’s going on, to be honest.”

“Do you think that maybe you’re just burnt out?”

Your eyes widened a bit, and you peered up at him as he looked at you, his eyes full of concern and worry. You quickly looked away, your fingers fumbling with the flower bracelet in your hand. “No. How could I be burnt out when I love what I do?”

“I understand thinking that, but (Y/N), it’s more common than you’d think.” He shifted his position to be a bit closer and he gently grabbed one your hands to still your fidgeting. “You’ve worked so hard for so long, it’s normal for this to happen.”

“Yeah, but I always take breaks,” you retorted. “I shouldn’t be burnt out already. Not like this.”

His thumb rubbed gentle, loving circles into the back of your palm. “Even before you joined the Academiya, you were working on what your thesis would be and what research you would do. You’ve put in so much time for so long.” He paused, watching a tear drop from the corner of your eye. “You haven’t mentioned your thesis in a while, either.”

“They keep getting rejected,” you hiccupped, pulling your hand away from his. You turned away, feeling a sense of shame because of the position you were in. You pulled your knees up to your chest and let out a shaky breath, feeling the sick, overwhelmed feeling from earlier settle into your stomach again. “I keep trying to come up with something new and interesting, but it’s never enough. I want to keep trying because I love this – I love the research, the new things I discover, the people and places. But ever since my third thesis was rejected, I just felt… I just felt sick every time I think of doing field work.”

Tighnari didn’t know how best to comfort you in this situation. If it was him, he would just want to be left alone to regain his composure, but he knew you didn’t function like that. He moved his position to sit beside you once again and he placed an arm around your waist to pull you toward him. “It’s not uncommon to get your thesis rejected, y/n, so don’t let that discourage you-”

“But it keeps happening,” you cried, your tears dropping onto his clothes. “I don’t feel like this dream of mine is even meant for me anymore. Maybe I’m not cut out-”

“Hey, hey,” Tighnari interrupted you, his voice firm. “Don’t even begin to think like that, because it’s not true. Some of the smartest people out there have gotten multiple theses rejected. That doesn’t mean they weren’t capable of achieving what they wanted. It just means it took a little extra time. And there’s nothing wrong with that. But there is something wrong with you discrediting yourself and your abilities, because you are more than capable of reaching your goals and everyone around you can see that.”

“I’m just worried that if I don’t achieve this, I’ll let you and everyone else down,” you murmured.

“You could never let me down,” he said, sincerity clear in his words. Your lips quivered and you felt more tears surface as you turned to hug your boyfriend. Those were some of the exact words you needed to hear at the moment, and you would most likely need to him say them again at a later time, but right now was all you needed to feel a spot of hope begin to grow inside you. Once he was sure your cries had calmed down enough for you to listen to him again, Tighnari planted a kiss on the top of your head before he pulled back to give you another on your nose. “And you know I’m always here to help you, no matter what it is. I’m rooting for you, Collei is rooting for you, and I’m sure the other forest watchers are, too. We all know that you’re capable of accomplishing this, now you just have to believe in yourself.”

[bondsmagii]

Same anon here that asked for you to elaborate on being hit by a trains and stabbed. Gonna need you to elaborate on the being trapped in a room that didn't exist for hours too dog

oh man that was a culmination of a lot of bullshit in that place. I mean it when I say that reading House of Leaves is bringing it all back to me lmao.

context: the house was a small chalet in the middle of the woods, near a mountain that had creepy shit living on it and people vanishing and stuff. with this setting, what could go wrong? the house had five small bedrooms, an open plan living/kitchen area, a small shower off the hall, and a bathroom/shower/toilet at the end of the hall. no other rooms. no other space. the hallway was an upside-down L shape, so the longer bit first, then the shorter bit to the right. actually fuck it I'm gonna draw a map of this shit.

I was in Room 1, for context. outside rectangles show the window placements. anyway, some of the shenanigans that went down in this house before I got trapped in Interdimensional Purgatory:

strange noises all the time, like footsteps running up and down the hall, fingers tapping on doors, nails scratching on the outside of the house. at first we all thought one of the others was fucking with the rest of us but it happened when we were all in the same room as well

whispering, growling, muttering, etc, usually by the doors or at the bend of the hallway

shadowy figures often glimpsed at the bend in the hallway, moving quickly around to the short hallway but never visible when I ran after it with my camera (I was big into Marble Hornets at the time if that gives anyone context)

the hallway was longer in one direction than in the other. we tested this multiple time. I first noticed because I have OCD and frequently count random things, so I would count my steps as I walked up and down. I have a long stride and it was 12 steps up and 14 steps down. later, we measured this with string and a bunch of tape measures, and we kept getting different numbers. sometimes shorter, sometimes longer, but always in excess of the initial number going up the hall.

when I was sitting in this hallway livestreaming once, everyone in chat freaked out and mentioned that they saw something moving behind me, by the bend. when I asked what it was they said it was just some mass of black shadow. locked myself in my room for the rest of the night.

rooms got bigger and smaller. we hung string up around the rooms and the hallway to keep an eye on this, so it looked like we were living in a fucking laser maze. sometimes the string was taut. sometimes a little slack. sometimes several different strings in different parts of the house were found entirely snapped.

one time my friend (only a door down from me in Room 3) was calling back and forth with me and it sounded like her voice was getting further and further away

so this is the shit we were dealing with. now to move on to my Dimensional Imprisonment.

this happened about six months after we moved in

I was completely nocturnal at the time so I was up all through the night, and therefore the most frequent witness to the house's bullshit

maybe that's why it tried to eat me idk

anyway it's early in the morning, probably like 1am, and I go to the bathroom to pee. as you can see from the map, I have to go the whole length of the hall. my housemates had recently asked me not to turn on the hall light because it woke them all up (it was admittedly obnoxiously bright) so fine. whatever. I'll just fucking walk up the demon shadow person growly-scratchy hallway in the dark. it's fine.

it's always consistent on the way up (or so I thought) so I count out my 12 steps and then turn right

there's nothing blocking me, as it should be

I step forward

immediately walk into a wall.

OK no biggie. I misjudged. I turn back.

immediately walk into a wall.

OK a moderate biggie now. I put my hands out and feel around, and there are walls on all sides.

ah! wait! the tiny shower room! it's no biggie after all!

search for a lightswitch

search for the shower

there's nothing

HUGE biggie

it's just plain walls on all sides of me and no. fucking. door.

I check for some time and I am telling you there is NOTHING. there is nothing but smooth wall. it's completely dark. there are no seams, no grooves, no switches, nothing.

finally I accept this and think well fuck.

I sit on the floor for a bit and ponder my fate

for some reason I am not actually that worried at this point because I figure the house does creepy shit all the time so maybe if I wait it'll just... release me?

it was also essay time so I was probably also thinking that if I get eaten by a fucked up house I won't have to do my essays

not sure how much time passed

eventually something just... changes. I look up and nothing has visibly changed but I can Sense something

I get up and feel around

I find a door

I open it

I am standing halfway down the hall (I should have been outside Room 5, but I'm standing between Rooms 2 and 3)

it is daylight

upon returning to my room I see it is just past 8am

stand there puzzled and unnerved for some time

remember I need to pee and go back to the bathroom

no shenanigans this time

hallway is still 14 steps on the way back

fuck this house

[golbrocklovely]

so i went to the mall today and my mall has a zumiez in it. i did in fact see snc's merch in there, which was interestingly surreal.

i'm still taken aback by how popular they are sometimes.

that being said, i need to set the scene for you.

first off, i haven't been inside of a zumiez since i was in high school. where i live and when i went to school, you didn't go in that store bc the workers were kinda douchey and literally would call you a poser for not being a skater/stoner kid. it was odd times in the early 2010s lol

plus i've never cared for the styling in that store so it's never been on my radar. but i went in. and… it was odd.

it was me and this young couple looking at shoes. next thing i noticed, dead fucking quiet. like no music at all playing. which was very odd bc it made it feel like i wasn't supposed to be in there.

snc's section was all the way in the back. i go, i see it, i sneak a pic. here's proof of that:

then a worker, the only one btw, comes up to me and tells me "sam and colby's merch is selling like crazy"

this manlet of a guy comes over and starts talking to me. he kinda looked like argyle from stranger things, except white lol

we start talking and he very casually tells me that he actually met colby bc zumiez flied him out to some meeting thing for when snc were gonna drop their merch in stores, and he accidentally met him without realizing who he was. colby was nice and talked about how he was excited to drop xplr, and it wasn't until he (the worker) was telling the story to someone else, that that's when the person pointed out who he met.

he then said "those guys….. are very interesting". and it was in a bit of a tone of like amusement and questioning. i agreed with him on that one.

and then he asked me if colby got cancer from the conjuring house….

even in real life i can't escape that place lmao

i told him that no, he didn't get it from the house. he was already in remission when they went there. he said he thought he heard that that's where he got it from. and i said, "no. but some ppl think he got it from robert the doll. the haunted doll you're not supposed to make eye contact with or take pics of in florida."

midway thru me talking to him that couple came up and asked for some pair of shoes. fun fact, the guy was asking for like a size 7 or 8 shoe and i became extremely aware in that moment that i had bigger feet than that kid so… that's fun.

i wear a size 8.5 in mens, 10 in womens.

after that the guy asked "why would they make direct eye contact with the doll?" i said it's believed that if you do that bad things happen to you, then he said it's not worth it. i agree. and then i left.

i'm actually shocked at the idea that other ppl near me know of snc. i know that sounds bizarre but i've never met someone that liked them. well, i did have the one coworker years ago that thought colby was hot, and then someone in the supermarket pointed to my xplr hoodie and said they liked it. but other than those two random instances, i can't imagine what an snc fan even looks like lol

[kal-culator]

I didn't expect so many people to want to hear about my theory ramble lmao

But here you go, I honestly tried my best to make this as tidy and as easy to read as possible ngl.

As usual, trigger warning: A lot of cursing, I'm getting a little into it, kinda, mentions of biological experiments, mentions of death, and honestly dark stuff in general.

Theory about how Sky Kid are possibly just a current of energy keeping the broken Kingdom 'alive':

So my theory came from the discussion about the experiments that are happening in the Abyss area. I was discussing about how the 'Scientist' there were perhaps trying to biologically modify light creature to unbelievable sizes.

So then I ask myself, "Why would they even want to make mantas bigger?" Which loops to an idea that I heard once, where apparently the Kingdom have been using light creatures as sources of energy. So it would make sense if they have an entire laboratory to research, grow and experiment on light creature in general, right?

Then the talk about energy made me think about the small, diamond shaped trinkets that Sky Kid collected throughout the season. Those are worth a treasure, right? Then I ask myself what the hell are those things anyway?

When you look at the shape it's definitely a diamond, right? And diamond shaped stuff like that are often used to power things up, (door, the elevator in vault, etc).

So then I suddenly remembered this one guy in Sky discord server that said Diamond in general are symbol of power in the Sky Kingdom, like how we use bolts as a symbol of electricity and stuff.

And then THAT got me thinking, aren't Sky Kid's wings are diamond shaped in default? Don't they have a slight, diamond shaped outline around their 'heart'?

So that got me thinking, what if Sky Kid is just a being of 'power'? Not power as in strength that they're really powerful, power as in energy.

What if Sky Kid is a creature of Energy?

What if they're, and the shiny boys (wing lights) are just energies? What if wing lights are the energy and Sky Kid's body are just.. The thing that can contain and carry this energy?

So where does the Sky Kids take their energy to? To the Diamond in Eden.

What happens after they give away their energy? They came back to gather more. What came after they get more? They gave it away again and they get more before giving it away again.

Then my thoughts went back to a few steps back: Electricity.

What if Sky Kid are just energy current used to keep what's left of the Kingdom alive?

What if they're just a current of energy, surging through a specific path, to a specific direction, only to act as a spark of energy to keep the empty world alive?

What if Sky Kid are just fucking batteries made by.. Whoever it is that made them to keep the world running?

Are they alive out there just watching these children running back and forth to face death nearly everyday to keep the remnant of their world alive so that they can return whenever the hell they want after they deemed the world suitable for living?

Then there's also this question about whether Spirit's are actually alive or not. If they're dead, how come their Spirit can interact freely with the Sky Kids? Hell they even ask for their help and stuff and GIVE them more power if Sky Kids reached certain level.

Look I get that they probably doesn't have a say in the whole thing and that they can't really do anything to help the children but.. The whole idea that they CAN'T do anything just made this whole thing more depressing.

I don't know, the thought that these supposed adults just watching children died repetitively to keep their world afloat while they just spectate up there from the Orbit, giving Sky Kids pretty accessories they used to wear when they're alive as a form of 'entertainment' and 'compensation' because they're children just sounds a lot messed up for me.

Don't forget Willy (the giant dark dragon in the Abyss). He was an experiment, possibly an amalgamation of mantas and dark dragon itself that gone rogue. He was put inside an aquarium with observation chamber for God's sake, these are the equivalent of trying to recreate fucking.. Manticore, stuff.

Don't get me started on the possibility their God damn messed up science experiments —

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

after the first military announcement for maknae line + nj, i started distancing myself from jm and began to get into another group i used to stan (bc i am weak willed lmao i just always need something to obsess over but admittedly this has helped with softening the blow of jimin leaving, i feel like if he was the only person i stanned rn it would have hurt a lot more) but now i just feel so exhausted bc im noticing some of the same problems within this other fandom that also exist with armys, and ofc that's something to do with shippers lol.

there's this member who i bias in this bg who gets basically almost the same exact treatment as jimin gets from taekookers all because he supposedly threatens the status of the group's most popular ship; he gets accused of being an attention seeker, a bed hopper, of trying to insert himself into the ship, he gets slutshamed and treated like the other woman etc.

ofc this all isn't as big of a thing as it is with jm + taekook simply bc bts' fandom is so so much bigger and bc for the other boygroup, those comments are harder to see if you only speak english (their western fanbase isn't as big as their asian one). despite that, it's just sad to see. i didn't realise how much all the hate towards jimin affected me until i returned to stanning this other group and seeing that same kind of hate being thrown against another person that i love. idrk what the point of this ask is tbh sorry im just tired 😭 stanning these kpop boys shouldn't be this hard lmao

Yeah, but it's true... everyone's the same in all fandoms. There is a certain behavioral pattern in people who are part of fandoms, I mean the ones that are really really involved; and even more so with shippers.

The only other group that I ever liked was one direction, and though my time as a fan was short (like two years), all those things happened as well with larry and their girlfriends. The hate, the conspiracy theories, the "they're sending signals". It was all there.

The difference tho, was that everybody liked larry. It wasn't like the fandom itself hated one of them. It's ironic that BTS are closer friends all with each other than 1Dever was, yet in the 1D fandom there weren't people who hated another member. And the few that existed, they kept quiet mostly, it wasn't a huge thing and they didn't run hate/defamation campaigns against the member they didn't like.

The stans of different members only started fighting each other once they went solo.

Then, last year during November 2022 - January 2023 I watched Big Brother (Argentina) for the first time in my life, and there were a few ships (both straight and gay) that the public liked. The guys from the gay ship both had girlfriends inside the house, like they had sex with them and everything. And I kept seeing the same discourses I see in the fandom lmao. It really was a surreal experience to see people saying the same things the say about celebrities ships, but about real people this time.

I mean, people (shippers) getting angry at their girlfriends, and some even turned to "solo stans" (not with those words) because they thought A was hurting B, so they stopped supporting B. I'm not kidding.

It was even more surreal that the same thing was happening in Big Brother Italy, literally at the same time. They also had two male friends who like, flirted with each other and had a strong friendship and they even kissed too. Though in Italy one of them was actually a gay man out of the closet, and the other had a girlfriend.

It also kind of desensitized me a lot to jikook or BTS ships in general and the skinship. And it also made me realize that there's only so far "cultural lenses" go.. because millions of people were watching the same show everyday, but it was only a few thousands who were like "these two guys are totally gay and in love with each other".

Mind you, they even kissed each other on the mouth and yet nobody (except the shippers) were calling them a couple or saying that it was serious. More than anything because they both already had girlfriends inside of the house.

Well, and this year's season just started this week and I've watched a couple of hours but I'm still not hooked. I'll probably keep watching though because it was really distracting last year, so that'll be my drug of choice lol. There really isn't any other group I like, so I'll settle for watching movies and tv shows and maybe reading.

[applesfallingfromblondehair]

I haven’t had a chance to do a second full read through and get my thoughts in order, but I loved how you brought it all together and had Matty apologize to Ross on stage/through their music especially since the most of the fic has been structured around their shows and interactions onstage. Loved the moments between george/matty (george being the bigger man for once) and between george and Ross. Loved Ross bottoming for matty, ridiculously hot as always and so satisfying especially after you hinted about it many chapters ago. I also 100% thought you were laying the groundwork for the much-anticipated raughy one shot with Ross saying he’d been fucked before but not telling matty who it was, at least for a hot second until the end of the scene, and I was a bit shocked you would go that direction but in the end very happy with how you did it haha

I’ve also been here since the beginning and following this story so closely for the last 6 months has had a non-negligible effect on my real life and mental health (some positive, some negative probably lmao) so a heartfelt thanks for that ❤️ can’t believe we’re almost at the end!!

As someone who waffled between team Ross and team George a few times, even though I knew where we were headed more or less, I would love to read anything else you care to write about matty x george, especially more about when they were younger and first getting together or more lockdown bliss/angst. Or also more ratty/moss. Basically, I will be eagerly awaiting anything else you choose to write about the guys 👨‍👨‍👦‍👦

My apologies re: the Raughy teasing! Fun fact, I was actually going to go with it until I went back and reread what I'd writte approx 150 years ago re: Ross being very shy and insecure about not having done anything other than hands stuff with anyone, and I couldn't find a way where lying in that context would have made sense, so I scrapped. Which means I can officially confirm that all Ross and Waughy did in this universe was: flirting, making out, give each other handjobs, and maybe perhaps there might have been one (1) bj that Ross received because Waughy was obsessed with the idea of doing it. 👀

You've also been here since the beginning and decided to stick around for so damn long! Wow. Thank you so much. I am so happy to hear this story seems to have been worth your while. I genuinely worked so hard on it, pulling all the string to make it all make sense and bring it to a satisfying conclusion, and I can barely believe we're almost at the end now. I'm going to miss this.

I'm definitely going to be back after the summer with more content, and yes it's quite likely going to be Matty x George to quench everybody's apparent thirst for more of them (and I understand, some of the stuff in the tag lately has been fucking tragic, sorry to anyone who disagrees but I'm appalled). Stay tuned, it's going to be fun xx

Thank you so much again for the love ❤️

[all-the-people-are-fake]

Young Royals s2 spoilers warning !!!

So thoughts on Season 2 after my first watch:

Honestly, I don’t really know how I feel about Season 2, I loved it but also maybe I’m kinda disappointed? It had a completely different feel to it compared to Season 1 and I enjoyed it but it wasn’t what I initially expected

-I didn’t like that there was way too much screen time for August and Sara. Them being together was obviously essential to the plot, but I felt it was unnecessary to have that many ‘cute’ scenes between them. Maybe the point of it was to make the audience like or ship them or whatever but honestly, I was just annoyed every time they were on screen. Also HATED the August next in line arc but it is what it is (it just doesn't make sense, he's literally not even a first cousin)

-I liked Markus and Simon at first ngl and they were cute at karaoke, but I definitely feel like it was dragged on too long and it could have been wrapped up earlier in the season. Like it was good for Simon to have the chance to try something new and not be held back by Wille, but when Simon told him he wasn’t ready it should have ended then instead of having Markus be some manipulative weirdo and after that have Simon cheat on him

-There was basically no Wilmon. Like at all. Most scenes they were on bad terms and barely even talked the whole season. I really would have liked some fun/nice scenes between them, even just getting along or laughing together or something (instead of the 10000 we had for August/Sara ew) because it just feels rushed that they suddenly are back on after having like no communication for months

-I’m really disappointed in the direction they took Felice’s character. What happened to her storyline from Season 1? They referenced her hair and her quitting horse riding in the first 10 minutes and then she was basically reduced to a supporting character. I wish they had went more into her relationship with her parents, especially her mum which had been prefaced in season 1, and shown more of her moving away from her parent’s expectations and becoming her own person. I was also kind of disappointed in the Wille/Felice friendship, I mean it was good but it could have been better. I wish they had gone more into their similar upbringings and how perhaps the pressure they both had from their parents was something they could both relate to instead of Wille just whining to her about Simon. And don’t even get me started on the kiss lmao

-The whole Micke storyline was completely wiped. It would have been interesting to see how it would have played out between Micke and Simon after Lucia, if Simon would have confronted him for showing up, or if Micke would had reached out after the video. It’s just like he completely disappeared, despite his name on the bottles, even though he was a main component of Simon’s storyline in the first season and it could have been utilized for the audience to learn more about Simon’s background and family instead of him being essentially reduced to a love interest, like the love triangle was basically his primary arc this season

-I know Edvin said Wille was gonna be dark this season but I felt like he kind of wasn’t really, well not how I expected anyways. Like yeah he was angry at the start, and had some good revenge era moments with August and the Queen in the beginning but I feel like he was pretty tame after that, apart from the gun scene, but it definitely wasn’t the villain era I expected. I would have loved to see him more rebellious, it kind of felt like he just started doing what he was told to do after the first few eps

-I wish there had been a bigger Simon and Sara confrontation. I’m sure we’ll get it next season (if there is one) but I feel like Simon should have found out earlier and held Sara accountable but maybe I’m just impatient lol

This is just first impressions though!! I still did really like it (I’m just a hater first lmao) it was just different from what I expected in some ways and I feel like there were some missed opportunities. But honestly writing this I kind of get it, like I guess the focus of the season was on how teenagers act and react to heartbreak and love and jealousy, so things are gonna be messy. Some parts were done really well, I’ll do a post on those after my rewatch and my overall thoughts will probably change after I’ve fully taken it in idk. I wanna see where they take Season 3 if there is one (fingers crossed!!!), hopefully they draw on more stuff from Season 1 but yeah <3

[thelreads]

They're planning to deal with Queen because they want to save Pop before she gets arrested or dies, and Pop is in this situation exactly because of all the underground stuff that flew under the heroes' radar. The Villain Factory and Six *are* things that flew under the radar in this universe, that's literally the reason why AFO and Ujiko with his Nomu weren't discovered until after Shigaraki's debut at USJ. I dislike a lot of Furuhashi's writing choices, but starting with smaller scale issues and ending up dealing with bigger scale issues as the result is a pretty common story direction. I'm not sure I understand the critique about what vigilantes are in Vigs either, since it was made clear fairly early even in the original manga that in this universe anyone who's doing "hero" jobs or even just simply using their quirks without having a license (for different reasons) are criminals in the eyes of the law, and that's why they're either "vigilantes" if they're not doing anything harmful to society or "villains" if they do.

No no, I am not complaining about the stakes going up, I'm more miffed over the way they went up. How did the story starts? Fighting Low level criminals taking a booster drug to try to get it out of the streets, then a vigilante that kills criminals and is a risk to society, we escalate to some low level villain that is spreading the drug, then said villain try to kill a whole bus full of civilians, later we discover said villain is the daughter of one of them being brainwashed into being a villain- see, this was a nice and smooth curve. The stakes are going up, the danger is rising and the heroes have to adapt to bigger dangers, but even so they are still at a level where it makes sense for amateurs that want to do good (not counting Knuckles of course)

Then suddenly everything gets thrown out of wack. The villains are super bioengineered indestructible weapons, things are blowing up left and right and even pro heroes are struggling to fight back. It's like we were going up 2 by 2, then out if nowhere we jumped in 80 points. The enemies are no longer things that make sense for the development of the story and the characters, because they are too far ahead.

I think it would be fine if eventually the monsters were proto nomus, but those should've been late-stage foes, not things we're seeing right at the start of the story. Actually the fact that thise things are flying under the radar don't make any sense, considering that people are investigating it, and even Phelps is involved; he eventually became All Might's closest confident, how did All Might never knew that AfO was still out there? Or at least a connection to those events once the USJ was attacked? Sure, you can say that since the story was written after that Horikoshi hadn't thought about it, but that's a thing, when you write a sequel you can't go around punching holes in the main story, you have to respect what happens later on, or at the very least come up with some pretty strong reasons for them to never come up, least you want assholes like me complaining on the internet lmao

And my complaining about the definition of vigilantes ties it up to the talks about escalation of stakes. Vigilantes were supposed to be solving crimes that the heroes are either unaware of, that are so below their radar they have no idea what's going on, things that happen on the streets and that only people that are close to this underworld would be aware of, and would be able to deal with due to the lack of restraining laws and rules, but after a while we only saw Vigilantes doing actual pro hero stuff. And what's worse, all the heroes are absolutely chill with them around, even though they were supposed to be criminals.

Now sure, that could be actually a fascinating world building piece, that publicly the heroes belittle the vigilantes as criminals but resort to them for help when things might stain their hands, but that's absolutely not what we've seen. Koichi is completely public figure like any other pro hero, everyone in the neighborhood knows him and even the cops and heroes know who he is, what he's doing and even where he lives, and nobody cares. Phelps you could understand, since he had a personal debt to him, but others? Nah.

Actually, the more I think, the more I realize that for a story that was about people that weren't pro heroes, pretty much all the conflicts were solved because of heroes. Tensei, Aizawa, Fatgum, Midnight, Captain Celebrity, All Might- even if koichi helped a lot in most of those cases, the ones that actually solved things were always the heroes. Hell we eve had an entire arc about the backstory of a hero from the main series! Sure, it was awesome as fuck and I loved it, but, why here? Why not make a spin-off solely a out Aizawa's past? That arc had zero impact on this manga besides getting Aizawa out of the story, and if the idea was to answer questions about Kurogiri in the main series then why A) didn't they made an special spin-off solely about them, or B) PUT IT INTO THE MAIN STORY?!

It is a bunch of small nitpicks, the problem is that they keep piling on and on, and I can't ignore them. I am really passionate about story structure and writing in general, even if I'm not the greatest at actually doing them, and although I can ignore minor problems if the story is entertaining, if those minor problems keep multiplying I start to climb up the walls and spit venom at everyone passing by lol

[o5-the-daughter]

Mod question time!

At what point in their life was your muse at their worst? Be it in terms of mental or physical health, emotional stability, general mindset? How do they look back on this era nowadays?

Bonus: what put them in this state and how did they get out of it again? What kind of lasting effects or habits still stick with them?

OOC:

Heed the tags, for obvious reasons!

Seven:

To no one's surprise, losing Mary and, soon after, Mirjam was when Seven was at her worst in just about every sense of the word. For weeks, even a few months after the breach that killed Mary, the responsible units were searching through the wreck that used to be Site-11 [new lore: where it happened lmao] to look for potential survivors and, after a while, bodies and body parts. Because of this, Seven/Clara did not get closure over what actually happened to Mary for quite a while, as the higher-ups refused to declare her dead without evidence. Because of this, the Foundation also didn't pay for a grave, which became an even bigger issue when no body was found and Mary was (and still is) declares missing in action instead. Clara ended up financing the grave mentioned in one memory herself because of this.

This alone was already insult to injury - she was heartbroken on an entirely new level, having never truly lost anyone before, while also trying to get used to the thought of having to raise her baby by herself. And then things got worse, of course.

I won't go into much detail towards the loss of Mirjam since I think I've already described this as best as I can here, but the aftermath.. didn't make things any better, to say the least. The miscarriage (or stillbirth, rather) happened fairly late into the pregnancy at approximately twenty-eight weeks, with no direct rhyme or reason behind it - other than that Clara's mother herself had faced similar struggles, meaning it was, without Clara's knowledge, a genetic risk. Life kind of just went "fuck you" at her. :/

Seven absolutely hates to look back at this time of her life, for obvious and understandable reasons and does her best not to think about these events. As for lasting effects, she developed PTSD from these events, which she only managed to deal with better around the 90s. She is still incredibly scared of losing the people she is close to to the point of occasional paranoia, and even more scared of falling in love again for the same reason. Even, or maybe especially now that she's finding herself slowly falling for Four, these fears are back, stronger than ever - after all, a relationship between them is forbidden and would very likely cost Four, as the newbie, his position.

Eight:

Eight was at his worst in a rather different way between approximately 1945 and 1953 - so including the downfall of The Lesser and Eight's own promotion to his current position. During this time, he was more under Ten's/the Foundation's control than ever before or since; and he came closest to being an actual monster as he has to this date.

It was mentioned once or twice in the past, but in the mid-40s, SCP-3000 and, with it, amnestics were first discovered in 565, with Two/Stefan being one of the main researchers to work on the project from then on. And Eight, relatively early on, took a dose against recommendation because he had been experiencing much greater distress (including nightmares) than before from his past, namely his childhood and the early years with the Foundation in which he was pretty greatly manipulated by Ten. The main cause of this episode was, ironically, that he was starting to realize how bad things actually were - the even greater irony is that Ten nudged him to pressure Stefan into giving him the amnestics.

Fast forward to the aftermath, it was.. not ideal. Due to how new amnestics were at the time, the dosage was higher than it should have been, and erased a very large majority of Eight's memories, including things he wanted to keep. This, of course, made far heavier manipulation on Ten's side (disguised as him 'reminding' Eight) very easy. He was somewhat kept away from Two as well to further help with this, too, and ended up becoming far, far colder than he was before, as well as straight-up cruel at some points. For a good few years, he didn't question a single order from Ten and even found a certain kind of joy in his position as one of the Foundation's henchmen.

Only after his promotion, after he finally became close with Two again, did Eight find back to his 'true self', so to say. While the worst was over by about '53, he was never the same, and a lot of the aftereffects of this time still linger to this day. This namely includes his heavy idealization of Two as his savior, pretty much, but also the way Eight views himself. He knows how he behaved back then was entirely inexcusable (which only gets made worse by the fact that he still struggles to realize just how badly Ten manipulated him) and he will see himself as a monster for the rest of his life because of it.

He also has, on multiple occasions, snapped at people who were close to him for a while and used this part of his past to scare them off from coming too close to him, out of pure fear that he could hurt them since he 'clearly' has this monster hidden inside him. This is why so few of his friendships last longer than a year or two.

[troidatoi]

Day 4 - 8/30/2023

Dawg, I can't believe August is almost over. Today was okay. I went to USC to return my laptop and id card but I forgot to bring back the laptop charger. lmao. I asked my manager if she can send me a shipping label and she was like lol, no worries and that she can send me another one or USC can just provide another one. I'm pretty sad they couldn't keep as I know my manager wanted me to stay but onto bigger and better things! Disney rejected me today which is fine. I'm still waiting to hear back from Warner Brothers. I don't understand why they won't pay their writers. I had my interview with Fox Sports yesterday and I think it went well. It was more like a conversation but it was cool because it felt relaxed and to be honest, all interviews should be like that! I would love to work for them because I love sports!! Lakers ride or dieeee. It was nice talking to him about favorite sports teams and players. When they hire me, I'll take it on the spot and yes I said when because I need a job asap. I'm being delusional and manifesting it because it works. LOL. *By the end of September, Fox Sports is going to hire me. I claim it with so much love and gratitude.*

Anyways, my USC manager bought me Starbucks and we got the same drink. She wanted to get me lunch but since I'm fasting to heal my leaky gut, I didn't want to risk it. It was nice seeing her again and talking. I was lowkey scared that they were going to give me a ticket because I only paid for an hour and we went over an hour. I know she fought hard to keep me and I am forever grateful that she hired me and that I got spend the time working at USC and having that on my resume. Learning a different form of digital media is cool. So now I can say that I have video and photography background. She thanked me for all the hard work even said I got more done that she thought I would have. Hopefully, I have a full time job by the end of September.

I'm on day three of the bone broth fast and it's not too bad. I'm not sure if I should do a month but I really want to heal my gut and have all the nutrients get absorbed into my body again. I was talking to my gut health dietician and I told her that it was so hard for me to eat because I can feel every fucking symptom and it's so hard because I go somewhere and I have to figure it out if I can eat it and I don't want to risk my body feeling like shit so I just starve so I can drink broth at home. She told me that it's okay to feel like everything sucks because I'm on a healing journey but I'm going in the right direction. She said I don't need to feel positive all the time and I was so happy to hear her say that. I try to not sound negative all the time but this process sucks ass. LMAO. I know I'm doing everything I can and I'm following the treatment plan but I wish I found the dietician sooner. She explains what I'm going through better than my holistic doctor now. LOL. No offense to her. She said I can take biocidin with the treatment plan but like don't tell my doctor. lmfao. I do find that it's helping with the bloating and inflammation a little but not sure if I should start eating real food. I so badly want to eat again and eat all the things I love with gluten, dairy and sugar like my gut needs to heal!! And I believe it will and I know it takes time. I know I'm doing something right and I know I'm going to be okay and the bloating and inflammation will go away and my clothes will fit again!! I BELIEVE.

I had to break up with my therapist yesterday because I can't afford her anymore and I'm so sad. lol. I teared up when I told her and then I had my Fox Sports interview after. I love my therapist. I think she's helped me grown so much and even when I have setbacks, she's always reassuring and telling me that it's okay to have setbacks and that doesn't erase all the work I did!!! I'm obviously going to go back to her once Fox Sports hires me and I have the money for her. I was talking to her about my health and it was hard being positive all the time because it's such a shitty thing to go through to not be able to eat anything in fear of getting a reaction. And my therapist says being positive is overrated and I was very shocked but also like fuck yeah!! LOL. I obviously don't want to be negative about this as I know I'm doing everything I can to heal my gut but omg does it fucking suck ass LMAO. Like I just want to vent and scream and destroy something. And not having a job on top of going through all this makes me want to off myself. lmao BUT IT'S OKAY BECAUSE I'M GOING TO BE OKAY. God really giving me his toughest battles because for some reason he thinks I'm his strongest soldier but I hope that after everything, something amazing is going to happen to me and it is because I said so and what I say goes. It sucks having to cut out some things in order to save money but I got to do what I got to do.

I also tried on a pair of shorts and I didn't struggle wearing them so that's a plus! It didn't feel tight so I assume the fast is working but the bloating and inflammation is there. I see it going down though!! I just can't wait to eat again and not feel these symptoms but I know I'm doing it to feel better and not having to deal with it in the future. I also got my period yesterday which is like yay cause last week I had a health scare but the holistic doctor said it's cause of the treatment plan so my hormones would be off for a little bit but glad it came back to normal this week. Small wins are still wins and I'll take these as small wins. And like La Roux said when I messaged her on Instagram when I was feeling sad and shitty, whatever it is, I got this!

[beldaroot]

did i hold off on watching the last episode of buddy daddies for a whole week because i was scared of how it was going to end? yes.

but……… did i finally force myself to watch it and then proceed to sob for a solid 10 minutes afterwards? ……. yes 😭

OH MY GOD !!!!! i don’t even know what to say,,, honestly i went into it expecting the worst & expecting a sad ending, and so when rei and kazuki were fighting the organization & creepy last words guy i was SO STRESSED OUT !!!! i was so relieved when they were okay after the fight because honestly i had no idea what direction they were gonna take for this ending!!!! also, after, when kazuki says to rei “i knew you’d be here, partner.” HELP T^T

AND REI’S CONFRONTATION WITH HIS DAD!!! AHH!! honestly i was expecting it to be a lot more brutal tbh i felt like it was sort of…. not a lot? i mean rei’s speech standing up to his dad was amazing (“miri, kazuki, and i share a bond stronger than blood. i want to become a real family.” OTL) but i was definitely expecting a bigger showdown…… BUT i mean im glad at in the end he and kazuki were able to get away unscathed (well apart from their bullet wounds lmao) and make it to miri’s show :’) when they walked in in their santa suits i SOBBED !!

AND !!!/?/))/&/)/ OUT OF ALL THINGS I ABSOLUTELY WAS NOT EXPECTING A TIMESKIP ????? OH MY GOD ??????? seeing miri all grown up and healthy and happy warmed my heart more than u can even imagine 😭 AND KAZUKI OPENING A DINER!! AND REI WORKING THERE!!! AND REI STILL COOKING HIS FRENCH TOAST!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHHHHH im literally sobbing into my pillow right now because of this perfect little family oh my god,,,,,, seeing them 10 years later happy and safe is just :’) such a sweet ending!!! absolutely not what i was expecting,,,, but im not mad about it!! as long as this family is together, i’ll take anything T^T except now i need an timeskip ova of the papas’ journey of dealing with a teenager daughter haha!

anyways thank you again anita for indirectly influencing me to watch this anime <3

omg no, sunny you're actually so strong for waiting a whole week to watch the episode bc i was literally refreshing my screen like a crazy person bc i wanted to avoid spoilers haha! but i totally understand where you are coming from! i had this weird anxiety over the final episode bc the previous episode felt so rushed so i wasn't sure if they would handle it properly, but i think it was a great finale considering everything!

the whole fight scene at the organization kinda blew my mind like the animation was soooo good and brutal and kept me at the edge of my seat bc it was that nerve-wreaking!! like i knew the creepy last word guy had to die but holy shit! stabbing him in the throat so he doesn't get a chance to say his last words was pure genius! and the whole "partner" thing had me smiling like an idiot lol they really are partners in every sense of the word and always got each other's back :')

yes, i was also expecting a bigger showdown between rei and his father and i did want rei to kill him too! but the more i thought about it (especially after reading this post), it definitely made more sense that rei wanted to stop the cycle of violence and allow vulnerability and care to enter his life! that's the change he was desperately asking kazuki about! that whole montage had me crying as well - the "warmth of sleeping three to a bed" was the one that got me the most emotional OTL

i actually was expecting a timeskip! though i never thought it would be 10 YEARS in the future! i assumed they would do like a year later at most... so getting such a far out future timeskip was a real surprise! i think they wanted to go out that far to imply that miri is old enough to actually know the truth about what happened to her mom. but regardless, it was soooo lovely to see how domestic they are together! running a diner was the perfect idea bc i definitely think food has always been the center of their relationship dynamic; the cake was literally what got miri into their life :') the way it ended showing that they've been a family for 10 years and that they'll be a family for many more years to come is honestly what made the ending so sweet and delicious!

i'm happy that i was able to influence you into watching this show hehe and thank YOU for talking to me about it! it made my whole watch experience even more enjoyable and delightful <3

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

y’know the wildest thing still to happen to me on this hellsite was my first experience of sexting, sans nudes, that was done in front of at least 250-500 followers because of those horny anons i had in early 2013 when i was 17. instead of being exposed to it on my phone privately with a partner at that age, it was done publicly for the internet to see lmao. i remember begging the anons to stop and “come off anon” because i was “losing followers” at the time too bc i was so insecure about my follower count lmao. and then yeah when they came off anon they were both 28 years old.

to write the responses, i just consulted cosmo mag sex pages for ideas hoping that the anons would like the options i chose. in one i detailed doing anal- a sex act i hadn’t even done yet irl- let alone every other thing i suggested in them (head, idek long, drawn out foreplay, some stupid fancy sex moves that cosmo was all like “use these moves to spice up your sex life 🔥🔥”, sex in a bath, i’m pretty sure i had some lines about tying or handcuffing them to a bed (????) etc etc etc)….

when again, i had never even done any of those above sex acts in real life. i was a naive teen who was incredibly shy in regards towards her love life because she’d “never been kissed” and had never had the “hot emo boyfriend whose in a band and is covered in tattoos” she’d always wanted, let alone even a boyfriend that she had actually fucking liked (ie clear braces boy, for like a month in year 9/2010 vs the popular boys that made fun of her, that she always had unrequited crushes on)…. hell, my blog title when i first started on here in 2011 was “the perfect epitome of being forever alone” because of these very reasons. but here she was, writing explicit sex acts to strangers like she knew what the fuck she was doing, to an audience of 250-500 people- and then to fucking grown ass men in inboxes. i was just parroting the shit i’d read in cosmo (both sex advice and sometimes excerpts of erotica/“sexy, steamy reads” they had some months) and also heard repeatedly in the porn that my high school stalker/creeper at public school loved to show (harass) me with to flirt with me, whenever we were alone together at school in 2012/2013.

like you could tell how naive i was….. because i used ridiculous lines like “like a gentleman entranced, you lead me to the bath for our next foray” and dumbass prose-y things like that. because what the fuck does that even mean 😂😅????

and this is why i think minors should be careful with their online experiences. like yeah, you could say that i wasn’t a minor anymore- more of a “young adult”- who should of made the smart decision to not engage with these anons. but i was a kid. i thought it was fun. and when the dudes came off anon, i thought to myself “it’s not like i’m ever gonna meet them if i ever go to the US or puerto rico at any point. it’s not like that they’ll ever recognise me in person or ever reach out to me again in the future. i might as well do it.” and i did eventually end up ignoring the guys in my inbox, due to my mental health kinda plummeting from the middle til the end of 2013 because of my end of high school exams and stuff… and also the puerto rican guy’s infamously inappropriate “hot PE teacher fucks HOT female high school student in the girls change room showers” fantasy which fucking disgusted me, when he full well knew that i was STILL IN high school.

and obviously again, there’s the point about using the “block” button function. but as i’ve stated several times over my years on here, back in my early days of tumblr, i never wanted to block or unfollow people (even if they were trash like these two men), because it seemed so “mean” and “final”. obvs now i have no qualms about blocking people, and actively encourage younger people on here to use the block button with reckless abandon towards creepy people or people who can hurt them in some way. but to high school teenage me, the whole “using the block button” thing seemed to go against me being a “nice girl/person” so i never used it, no matter which social media platform i was on.

this is why i’m hella scared for young teen girls on tik tok wanting to have onlyfans accounts: because it’s where they’ll be exposed to ACTUAL CREEPS AND PREDATORS incredibly quickly; all because they can make money off selling images of just their feet or eventually their body….. depending on what these creepy strangers demand from them….. and they’ll feel like they’ll have to do it…. but to do it before you even start experimenting properly with relationships and sex is even worse. like. yeah. i’ve admitted before that i originally started this tumblr to possibly post nudes, to see if i’d get the positive feedback that i so desperately wanted/craved from the boys in my year at catholic school- eg. to be called “sexy”, “hot”, “fuckable” possibly “beautiful”- like some of the so called “popular girls” got on their hella basic bikini photos back then (like i remember one girl i knew ended up with like 500 likes and a fair amount of comments on one of her bikini pics and i was INCREDIBLY BITTER because not even a pic of me with a nice outfit on, my hair done and makeup on could EVER get those numbers, let alone even break over the double digits).

but i decided posting nudes or other explicit images on here was an absolute no go, because i realised that i never wanted people that i knew digging up barely clothed/naked pics of me and sending them to me all like “hey, is this you?” and then possibly mocking me, all because i would’ve been dumb enough to put my face in them probably at the time. now when i take nudes and send them, i never show my face. because i know now, that even in relationships, your partner can use nude pics as leverage for arguments or to abuse you in such a way that they’ll upload your pics without your knowledge to god knows where on the internet probably as a way to get back at you in a horrible breakup.

this is what i sincerely hope some young girls who ever contemplate starting onlyfans accounts take some time SERIOUSLY CONSIDER. please know that if you share shit on onlyfans, it can shared and re-shared (i think idek how OF works tbh) to god knows who- and eventually end up in the hands of people you know. i don’t fucking care if it’s a “good way to make money!” or if people think that im trying to stop teen girls from being “girl bosses” and the other dumb as fuck internet memes you want to throw at me. because this shit isn’t “haha internet meme funny” material. it’s some fucking serious stuff. and also, i’m not saying “don’t become a sex worker when you’re older” or whatever either. you’re free to make that choice when you’re in your 20s (no i even mean 17-19 year olds in this post as “young teen girls”- sorry you’re basically kids to me at almost 26). just please consider where the fuck your stuff can be shared to. who it can end up being shared with or to.

this is why i was so fucking adamant with my infamous old follower mr adelaide fuckboy/MAF that i personally would NOT consider becoming a camgirl for him or just generally… because i had no idea where the fuck my images or videos would end up. and do you know the places i’d never want them to fucking be??? in the hands of my high school stalker/creeper. in the hands of those two 28yo men from 2013 (who’d now be in there late 30s or early 40s). i absolutely don’t want them in the hands the mid-to-late 20s and early 30s men that that girl i met at public school in 2012 who was pissed that i didn’t believe that were “adults” because we were finally over the legal age of consent (16) in our state of australia, and so we were apparently fine to “fuck” literal grown ass men because “just fuck them and they’ll be nice to you!!” which i knew was fucking bullshit.

i absolutely don’t fucking want explicit videos/images of me ending up in “why the fuck won’t you let me give you “sex lessons” in the back of my car as a “favour” and as payment for teaching you how to drive you stupid, stuck up & frigid, virgin bitch!?” guy’s hands from 2014 (when i was 18/19 at the time and he was 25… he ended up being the first person of many i’d EVER block on social media lol). or i don't want them in the hands of those weird early 20s dudes (one of which was trying to set me up with his friend) who hit on me at 16/17 (2012) who were angry that i didn’t like and watch porn as much as they did…. and who promptly asked me at the end of their period of harassing of me: “do you know any sluts we could add?” because i kept refusing their suggestions etc.

hell, quite frankly i don’t even want them to go to mr adelaide fuckboy/MAF either, but the very few and far between nudes that i sent on snapchat to him back in 2016 are some nudes that i’d rather forget lmao. hell. i don’t even know if MAF ever deleted my nudes or shared them somewhere else or not, after he fucking wheedled them out of me with “i’ve followed you for 4 years, don’t be a shit! you owe me nudes!” so he’d just shut the fuck up about my social life decisions and leave me the fuck alone.

i don’t want ANY ONE of the guys i mentioned above to get their hands on photos of minors either…. because i definitely know my hs stalker/creeper would… because his fave “make her jealous” tactic that he’s always used on me is that “hey…. i’m dating a *insert teenage girl’s age here*! be fucking jealous that you don’t fucking have me and feel guilty that you won’t fuck me like this girl does!!!” just like he did in 2015, when i ran into him on the home from uni… when i turned 20 the next week and he turned 20 that december. at that time it was a 14yo girl he used as an example of him “dating”/“fucking” to make me jealous. instead, i was completely and utterly fucking disgusted. like any fucking sane and normal human being would/should be at that horrible age gap. that is literally a fucking child that he was fucking grooming. and we were literal adults. back the fuck away.

just please. PLEASE CONSIDER the types of people that trawl these kinds of sites and their intentions. please consider that you are young. very fucking young. you literally DO NOT need to upload nudes to the internet because it’s apparently a “lucrative” business. fuck the jokey “boss babe” rhetoric around it all the way to fucking hell.

because if you’re a minor: i do not want you to have your first experience of sexting or sending explicit images literally in front of god knows how many total strangers for the whole world to see (okay i know only fans is like subscriber/follower based or whatever. but i don’t care)…… even when you (depending how good you are with relationships etc) haven’t reached the common supposed milestones of your “first boyfriend/girlfriend/partner” or “first kiss” or have even “lost your virginity” (which isn’t real anyway- don’t buy this fucking bullshit)…. just like i stupidly did with my exposure to sexting here on my tumblr back in 2013. these people don’t/won’t give a flying fuck about your privacy or safety. they don’t/won’t give a fuck about your boundaries either.

please don’t possibly scar yourself for life, just because you’re being told that it’s a quick & convenient way to make some money for weirdos on the depths of the internet. you will regret it in future. just like i do now with mine. it should’ve been something personal between me and and a guy i trusted and liked at the time. not to some random 250-500 random strangers on this hellsite (okay the notes on these posts were literally single digits or non-existent, but still… and also some of my irl friends who had tumblr saw these posts as well) for a show….. and then privately with two 28yo literal grown ass men…. who should’ve been fucking hitting on women their own goddamned age and in their own countries and NOT a 17yo high school KID (at the time) from australia; who, now in her 20s, needs therapy to sort this shit out lmao. mind you they both reeled me in with the “you’re so mature for your age” bullshit line…. which i fell for a little bit, even if it did make me feel kinda gross at the time, too. don’t fall for that bullshit either.