#thisispersonal

[driedclementine]

It’s okay, you’ll be okay. I’m right there, right here. You’ve got me. As long as I’m here, so are you. I’m right here with you.

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[subculturemedia-blog]

MATILDA ROSE - This Is Personal Interview

[muzachio]

Haunted by Hamilton, the musical.

If someone told you that Alexander Hamilton is a great inspiration to them, I guess it wouldn’t be that surprising. Historical figure, did a whole bunch of important stuff, died young. Then became the main subject of a famous musical, finding fans all over the world. Checks out. Personally, I can’t say the man in history is the source of my admiration because I know very little about him, but the art created by Lin-Manuel Miranda made me interested. The musical itself I absolutely love. I can listen to the soundtrack almost every day - it makes me cry, so I need breaks. 

Now, what if I told you that ever since I saw the musical I have been feeling a bit haunted by it too? Because I honestly am. The entire idea of a legacy greatly worries me. I believe that being cursed with the plague twice also had a hand in that way of thinking. “What will I leave behind?” was the thought making me shiver after the fever subsided. 

The only thing I know I can do and share with the world is writing. I have no fantasies of publishing books, getting famous or having a name that stranger recognize. For some reason I think that my time has passed, and I should settle for smaller goals. Which is fine, I just need to know that I will not die when I’m gone. 

In an effort to find a way to mark my existence in the world, I came back here, to this place where I used to collect my favorite things. Recapturing the sense of wonder I had as a teenager might be an exercise in the futile, but my heart still feels warm with memories of compulsive writing when blank notebook pages and a pen was all I had. Perhaps the relaxed nature of publishing whatever was on my mind will stir me back to the correct creative headspace. Also, consistency. I used to be able to write every single day because it brought me joy and I didn’t judge myself for the result.

So this is the closest to a safe space as I can get, but that still forces me to deal with the public eye. I want you to read this, I want you to read what I write, but I need you to understand how afraid it makes me feel.

“Why do you write like you’re running out of time” is a great quote from Hamilton that hits me differently now. Without realizing, I was that person, I used to write like I was running out of time, and I am now afraid I did. To be fair, at the time I only had my mother language to express myself and a few dozen friends to share my writing with. My stubbornness forbids me to give up, so this is a new time to start, to carve my legacy with the pain of doing something nobody is asking for. I allow myself to create a new beginning in which I prove my self-doubt wrong. There is so much more I can do, and even if it’s not that great of a legacy, it’s still something. 

[genolexis]

This has been happening for a long time... Smarten up. Do your own research and be the leader in your own community. This is a global push for truth. #MedicalApartheid #SpreadKnowledge #nurembergtrials FOR ALL OF THEM WHO CONTINUE TO PLAY ALONG WITH THIS WICKED BEAST SYSTEM. #GENOLEXISTALKS #THISISPERSONAL https://www.instagram.com/p/CNpV7chlboE/?igshid=1k0jqv17mlh4n

[luminalqueen]

Well. Here it is. 😬 #Repost @historiaobscurala • • • • • • Well, well, well. It looks like today comes with a little gift (and reliving some terror). Who's in?? #historiaobscurala #thenightstalker #richardramirez #netflix #truecrime #serialkillers #predators #murderers #losangeles #darkhistoryoflosangeles #1980s #thisispersonal #truecrimedocumentary #docuseries #picoftheday #photooftheday #potd https://www.instagram.com/p/CJ_9LrFjIxc/?igshid=1lnwptiwx58kn

[aliyahcherrisse]

|•#NOPE 💁🏽‍♀️PERIOD•|🥀🌷🌹👑❤ ... Aliyah can we...NOPE Aliyah are you...NOPE Aliyah will you...NOPE Aliyah do you...NOPE ... 😩YOU WON'T GET A FULL SENTENCE OUT BEFORE I CUT YOU OFF WITH THE 💁🏽‍♀️NOPE!!! IT'S MY MOOD, IT'S PROTECTING MY PEACE, & I'M JUST NOT HERE FOR ANYTHING ANYMORE 🤷🏽‍♀️Tunnel vision so if I WANT TOO, FEEL LIKE IT, or CAN THEN I WILL...Otherwise 🗣NOPE! ... I AIN'T GOT IT I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT I CAN'T AFFORD THAT RIGHT NOW I'M NOT IN THAT SPACE THIS ISN'T GOING TO WORK FOR ME RIGHT NOW IS NOT A GOOD TIME I'M FOCUSED RIGHT NOW NOT RIGHT NOW HOWEVER YOU WANNA TAKE IT: NOPE SUMS IT UP🏌🏽‍♀️😘Can't do for or give to you what I haven't done for or given myself!😌 ... . . . . #ACChronicles #ThatsAll #Distance #ThankYouNext #NotRejected #Released #ThisIsPersonal #LovingMe #HealingMe #GrowingMe #BuildingMe #IOweMyself #MommaOnAMission #RaisingMyTribe #RaisingAQueen #RaisingKings #GenerationalWealth #BreakingGenerationalCurses #Breakthrough #BreakEveryChain #LiveYourBlessedLife #CreditBuilding #FinancialFreedom #LawOfAttraction #SpeakingItIntoExistence #Affirmations (at New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0HnoB-g4Wz/?igshid=q906xtizzolq

[pkprettykitty]

#NewMusicMonday #Sayless 🤐 Prod by #BigBeatzBanga Been feeling some kinda way so I hit the #Studio yesterday. Best stress reliever EVER!! I get so caught up being a #CEO, #producer, #photographer, #videographer, #engineer, etc i forget I’m an #ARTIST🥰 Visual #comingsoon! 🎥🎞 S/o to @djnikoli being available short notice! #BGSEntertainment #BGSFilms #MnMMediaProductions #flgang #flstudio #cubase #beatmaker #ThisIsPersonal🧨 #ShotsFired 😈🔫 #FYS #FckYoShyt #global_hotshotz #coast2coast #worldwide #hiphop #femalerapper #femaleemcee #femaleproducer https://www.instagram.com/p/ByiS_aEnzlk/?igshid=11vltnunhkv2l

[willbreault-blog]

In clearer scribbles: I could never lie And say That there is only One love for you; And that is of me. I can’t I mange that I could be all of Everything you will need - Or desire. But, if you will have It be, I will be Here, or there, or Wherever you need Until whatever is Better than me Arrives. I will be yours As long as you Will have me. #thisispersonal. As a human - as a me - I don’t feel that I am adequate for anyone’s love. Strange, isn’t it, that we want for others what we don’t believe we can obtain ourselves?

[nocturnalwenchy]

In aid of raising funds to #FightAgainstCancer #CANcer - Mail your bid to Mrs SA Finalist, @candice_robbertze candicemrssa@gmail.com . #thisispersonal #ForMel #myperson #nowords #cancer #cancersucks #hatecancer #fightlikeagirl #hatecancersomuch #fuckcancer #cancerawareness

[driedclementine]

You make me feel like I am hard to love

I don’t even know how hard it could be to love me

I don’t even feel like I matter at all, like I am even part of your life

Im tired of asking questions and never actually get an answer

So I think I’ll just go, I don’t even want to talk about it anymore

Because I can’t feel hope anymore

I can’t feel the sunshine anymore

So I’ll just go

Blue

[aishaholly]

Only in NYC do you walk out for lunch and find a shopping cart full of lovely flowers on the sidewalk. @spring launched their new app today! #apppopup #thisispersonal #ilovethisplace #nyc #flatiron #innovation #marketing #brand #nycliving #blooms #flower #colors #pretty #supportsmallbusiness #celebrate #homegrown #ittakesavillage #details #photography #branding #statement #getinvolved #pr #publicrelations #socialmediamarketing (at Flatiron District, NYC)

[gorillahittt848fm]

💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽#womensmarch #womenempowerment #equality 💯💯💯💯💯 Mood 145WoRK MAGAZINE ♡ #working #GCWU #shaderoom #letsmakeithappen #ourworld #makeithappen #thesource #HitList #xxlmagazine #blossip #complexmagazine #fresh #wshh #company #businesswoman #itainteasy #themarathoncontinues #crwn #HoodKnewGlobal #whatareyoudoing #HRDCVR #press #thisispersonal #letsgo #makeachange #vibemagazine #DC

[bigjimwright]

I'll show you better then I can tell you... #thisispersonal (at London, United Kingdom)

[killemwithkindess]

LEAVEMEALONE THISISMYVENTINGBLOGIJUSTWANTPRIVACYANDPEACELEAVEMEANDEVERYPERSONONEARTHALONE.

ThisisPERSONAL

Ok my secret is that I LOVE PRIVACY THERE I SAID IT. PEACE

Go away with your cameras GO AWAY WITH YOUR CAMERAS I SAID GO AWAY

I HAVE GONE INSANE BECAUSE OF THEM EVERY SINGLE THING THAT IS HERE IN THUS PLANET HAS BEEN CURRUPTED YEAHI WANT TO BE ALONE LEAVE ME ALONE BELIEVE IN YOURSELF LEAVE ME ALONE

[hiphopla1]

#repost One of the best #posts I saw on #Instagram . This $#it is #profound . #rapper #poets #writers #lyricists #gettingold #neverquit #funny #humor #rapbattle #hiphop #music #life #MCrandom #thisispersonal #humor When I was a kid, I never imagined life becoming a middle aged man. I will just leave you with this #pieceofwisdom from #grandma "Getting ain't old, ain't about Shi!" #California #LA #LosAngeles This #photo made my day. Thanks. #nevertoolate (at South Los Angeles, California)

[driedclementine]

Purple, Blue

Orange, Red

Dermot Kennedy