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thekidsarentalright · 7 months
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how my bracelets for 2ourdust are coming along so far :-3
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bvidzsoo · 4 months
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Love Me Like A Rockstar (9)
ー☆ Chapter 9: You (Show Me Where My Days Went)
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Author: bvidzsoo
Pairing: Song Mingi x female reader
ー☆ Warning: cursing ー☆ Word count: 9.8k ー☆ Genre: university!au, enemies to lovers!au, rockstar!au ー☆ Rating: sfw ー☆ Summary: Love. You wanted none of it. You had already been heartbroken very badly once, you didn't wish to go through that ever again. But the Universe works in intricate ways and, somehow, you found yourself webbed up in a local rockstar's life, Song Mingi. He was everything you expected him to be, yet nothing like you imagined him he would be. What happens when you find mutual understanding and have heartful conversations? Will he be able to break down your walls? Will you be able to chase away his darkness?
A/N: Hi, lovelies!! LMLAR is BACK!! I am sooo happy I could finally update and just write, y'all have no idea! I am so sorry for making you wait so long for this update, but finishing my thesis was super important! I still have to study and such this month, but I promise next update won't take as long as this one did! (I'm writing other stories too while writing this one, so that kinda backfires sometimes lol) I am forever grateful that you are patient and stick around for the new chapters, this story is so dear to me you wouldn't even believe it. I am also super grateful and happy whenever you leave feedback, so please, keep on doing just that!<3 This chapter only exists because I was randomly inspired, and I'd like to apologize if it's a little rusty, I always have to get in "character" when I write this story lol. I am soo excited for next chapter, I think it's going to surprise you hehe. PLS PLS imagine that airport look from Mingi when reading this chapter, the pics from the moodboard, you'll see during which part! I also have a very small surprise at the end of this chapter hehe. I hope the time jumps aren't too confusing:(( Please, listen to the song called You before or while reading! Enough yapping, I hope you enjoy and leave feedback! (Taglist is always open for those interested! ^^)
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Later that day
I hate him: hey…just checking in that I got home safely what are u up to?
I blinked, fingers tightening around my phone before I locked it, leaving the message on unread. My mother’s shuffling outside my door caught my attention, bringing a smile onto my lips as I watched her struggle while bringing all the dirty laundry to the bathroom. Then, I got off my bed to go help her.
Friday (11:30 am)
I hate him: i see u still haven’t checked my message… nothing too worrisome u certainly know how to make a man yearn for you lol that was a joke…dont freak out on me pls (lowkey true tho)
Friday (12:50 pm)
I hate him: lol, wooyoung has been bitching about seulgi’s professor for half an hour now mr. kwon u know him? i mean…i suppose he also teaches u i should take a sneaky video for u…wooyoung looks like a clown hanging upside down my bed and pouting like a damn child too (dont say im also one, thanks)
Friday (15:26 pm)
I hate him: well…ik my messages are going through so uh… why tf are u ignoring me???! *cries and dies in loneliness* entertain me dollll!!! im so bored pls oh…u said u had an important assignment…i bet u’re busy with that sorry for spamming u (text back tho when u’re done, im dying here…wooyoung is with seulgi and so is seonghwa with hongjoong…the single life sucks, bestie…lets be single and depressed together<3)
My jaw clenched as I heaved a long sigh, falling back on my bed as the sun shone brightly through my open window, the light breeze making me shiver as I only wore a t-shirt and sweats. Autumn was slowly turning into winter; the weather wasn’t so warm anymore. I threw another look at my phone, unlocked it, and stared at the received messages from Mingi for a second before finally deciding to delete them from my notification center, rolling over in bed to muffle a frustrated scream into my soft, and purple, pillow.
            Saturday (9:09 am)
I hate him: i had the weirdest dream and im not even sure i want to tell u about it LOL but uh…a grisly was chasing me??? and then u appeared on a fucking white horse like a prince LOL and threatened to like…slay it if it didnt leave me alone??? honestly…what a slay, bestie good morning, btw, doll hope u had a better night’s sleep than me (and dreamed of me ehehehe)
            Saturday (17:40 pm)
I hate him: i cant believe i allowed myself to be fooled like this back in highschool yuyu and i used to play baseball for shits and giggles and hongjoong (that rich prick) rented a whole ass baseball field for us for the afternoon and let us play with some of his (rich af) friends and uh… i think i wont be able to walk straight for another week with how much running i did… hongjoong kept scoring homeruns…i wish yuyu was here to kick his loser ass (dont tell hwa or hong i said that PLS) yo doll…everything’s alright with u? uh u…really havent answered me since… yk…i stayed over and waited for the rain to stop… have i done something wrong?
I sighed and put my phone on ‘do not disturb’, suddenly having lost all of my appetite as I forced the rest of the lettuce down my throat. My mother was sipping her kiwi and apple smoothie, eyes narrowed as she muttered to herself while trying to memorize the recipe of a dessert for later. Desserts were never her forte, unfortunately.
“Is it Seulgi?” She asked absentmindedly as I took a large gulp of my own smoothie, staring down at my salad, steak pushed to the side in my plate.
“Huh?” I asked distracted, eyes still glued to the dark screen of my phone.
“Texting you, your phone keeps buzzing, my starlight.” I rolled my eyes at the nickname, but didn’t bother to comment on it. I took a peek at my mother and her eyes were narrowed at me already, video on YouTube paused. Fuck, I had to answer her now or else she’d pester me all day long. And that would be a nightmare.
“Yeah, it’s Seulgi.” I lied, trying to make my voice sound convincing.
“Well, answer her then, don’t be rude.” My mother chastised me, pressing play on her video again, pursing her lips as she shook her head at whatever the man baking was saying.
“Later.” I whispered, biting my lower lip as my eyes remained glued to my phone, stomach clenching and heart dropping.
But I couldn’t.
            Sunday (1:01 am)
I hate him: …you’re ignoring me, arent u? im sorry, y/n, i dont know what i did wrong, but we can talk about it we’re friends, after all…right?
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『When you came along, I knew what was wrong
If you want to know exactly what I've missed』
            Monday (present time)
            It truly would have been a missed opportunity if Seulgi and I wouldn’t have grabbed coffee and went to sit in our usual spot in the back garden. The campus of our University was huge and that was perfect, because it meant people migrated and didn’t stay in one spot for long—at least long enough to irritate me to no end. Last week deemed to be rather rough, and I still didn’t feel like completely myself. To be honest, I thought about staying home today—and for the rest of the week—but I couldn’t afford missing any of my classes as exam period was slowly nearing, and so, I had to force my ass out of the house this morning before my mother could come and nag me about my weirdly unusual broody mood that has been going on for the past few days.
I hummed as I took a sip of my sweet coffee, enjoying the taste of warm caramel as Seulgi sighed loudly next to me, both hands cupped around her own coffee cup. The scent of cinnamon wafted from her cup and I scrunched up my nose, not too fond of the ingredient’s smell. Our classes started early in the morning today and we’d be here for at least four more hours, caffeine seemed like our only hope to stay awake and aware at this point. Given the fact that my baffling thoughts kept me up all night yesterday, I felt grateful that I was still on my feet at two o’clock at noon. As Seulgi fidgeted again, I chuckled and finally turned my head to look at her. She had a sheepish look on her face, and I tried not to laugh as I knew she was bursting to tell me all about her date with Wooyoung on Saturday.
“Well,” I started as I took a sip of my coffee, prolonging the suspense for her, “how did your date go?”
“It was amazing!” I had barely finished asking as Seulgi exclaimed, her cheeks turning rosy—and it wasn’t due to the cold air, “Wooyoung is—everything I thought he would be. He’s sweet and up for anything, he makes me laugh until I feel like passing out, and there’s just never a dull moment with him, you know?”
“One would expect that from him.” I muttered against my cup, laughing as Seulgi nudged my side, not looking too happy with my comment, “Oh, come on, it would be hard for Wooyoung to be different than the way he mostly presents himself; don’t you think?”
Seulgi grumbled something against her cup as she lightly bit into the carton, shooting me a pointed stare, “Well, yes, but…he makes me happy. Treats me well and all that, you know, he’s the perfect embodiment of what a boyfriend should be like.”
“Boyfriend, huh?” I teased with a smirk, wriggling my eyebrows at my best friend as her cheeks flushed an even darker color as she bit her lower lip, trying to mask the huge grin expanding on her lips. But as soon as I started giggling, Seulgi also broke out in a fit of giggles, hiding herself behind her wavy hair, pressing her cup of coffee against her face.
“God, I’m so down bad for him, Y/N, I don’t think you’d understand.” She mused, voice airy as she threw her head back, leaning back against the back of the bench. I chuckled and took another sip of my drink.
“Maybe I’d do.” I muttered, memories of my relationship with Yunho resurfacing. Thankfully, however, I managed to repress them as quickly as they came. They didn’t feel so gut-wrenching anymore, and to my surprise, didn’t leave a bitter taste in its wake either. What has changed? Certainly—certainly getting closer to his best friend didn’t influence the way I feel about Yunho, right? Right.
“So,” I glanced at Seulgi from the corner of my eyes as she swung her legs, looking down at her feet in the process, “how are you?”
“Fine, why?” I asked confused, angling my body to face Seulgi better.
“You’ve been…distant the whole weekend. I could barely reach you.” Seulgi’s voice sounded small and I gulped, feeling bad for making her worry about me, “You know…the last time you pulled away and disappeared, it was bad.”
“I promise you I am doing completely fine, Seulgi, you’d be the first person to know if I was in a bad headspace again, alright?” I reached out and grabbed her hand, squeezing it reassuringly. Seulgi sighed and then raised her head to look at me, lips pulled into a thin line.
“Promise?”
“Of course, I promise.” I smiled at her warmly and she hummed in contentment, squeezing my hand back as she took a sip of her coffee. I followed suit before removing my hand from hers to fiddle with my half empty cup, “I’m just dealing with some things right now. I think I’m confused.”
“About what?” Seulgi asked curiously, leaning closer as I continued to avoid eye contact with her.
“I’ll tell you once I have my thoughts sorted about it.” I chuckled, making Seulgi roll her eyes in displeasure.
“You know, I tell you absolutely everything about myself and how I fell, and you always shut me out and tell me how you felt about a situation when it’s been over for years.” Seulgi pouted, narrowing her eyes at me, “How’s that fair, Y/N?”
“Hey, we work differently, don’t try to guilt trip me now.” I chuckled and took a sip of my coffee, making Seulgi roll her eyes, “Anyways, what did you do on your date with Wooyoung?”
“We went to the cinema,” Seulgi’s face lit up once again, grinning from ear to ear, “He bought me roses, a big bouquet. And after the movie we went for a walk and ended up stargazing in his cabriolet. It was really romantic.”
I smiled, feeling happy for my friend, she deserved someone like Wooyoung, “That actually sounds really amazing…and romantic.”
“Oh, my God, are you really Y/N? Where is my friend that hates anything that has to do with romance, cute stuff, and love?!” Seulgi’s shocked face was mocking and I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms in front of my chest as I leaned back against the back of the bench.
“I don’t hate it, I’m just not a huge fan of all of those things, okay?!” I shrugged, letting my arms fall from my chest as I pushed them inside my coat’s pockets.
“Who’s the culprit?” When I raised my eyebrows at Seulgi, a sign that I didn’t understand her question, she chuckled and leaned closer, “Who’s the man that’s changing your views on life, huh?”
“Man?” I asked with a scoff, giving Seulgi a deadpanned expression, “Does it always have to be about a man? Can’t it be just the fact that I had a change of mind?”
“Sure, because of someone.” Seulgi had a smug look on her face, acting as if she won the argument. But there was no argument here and she had no idea what she was talking about.
“Whatever—” But I got cut off as her phone dinged loudly. Seulgi, very comically, scrambled to reach for her phone and as she opened it up, a wide grin stretched onto her lips. It didn’t take two braincells to realize who had texted her, and thus, I chuckled and turned my head. I sipped my coffee, taking in my environment while Seulgi answered her boyfriend, giggling quietly every now and then.
The campus was finally silent and not as busy as it usually was in the early morning hours. The cold weather also helped in keeping the garden a little quieter as most people preferred to stay inside the warm corridors and classrooms. But the chilly air was good, it soothed my nerves and erased thoughts that weren’t productive. Similar to that, were the emotions that I didn’t want to deal with again, like the guilt that’s never left me ever since Mingi walked out of my house wearing Yunho’s old clothes. It felt wrong letting him take them without knowing the truth about them, but I didn’t feel ready to tell him yet about the truth. I was scared, surprisingly, of what he’d think of me once he found out about Yunho and I. I was scared that—he’d walk away, like Yunho had once done. And that was a very frightening thought. But when had I become so attached to Mingi? When has Mingi managed to infiltrate himself so thoroughly in my life, that the thought of completely losing him became scary? And why was I taking the past few days so badly? It’s not like we were as close as Seulgi and I, or him and Seonghwa and Wooyoung, yet, ignoring him felt like the wrong move to do. However, the reasoning I always circled back to was the fact that I needed space. I had to clear my mind, to find the purpose of this whole friendship that’s been blooming between us, and to make sense of everything. I had to figure out first why Yunho barely scraped my thoughts now, and why was it was Mingi who I found myself thinking of so often. In case you were wondering, no, I still haven’t found the reason, and it was becoming frustrating quite quickly. That near kiss was a—mistake. Yet, it could have been so much worse—it could have been a real kiss. And a real kiss would have ruined everything. I didn’t want to open up to anyone just yet, not when the memories of Yunho still haunted me in my dreams and drawings. Drawings that now more often than not consisted of Song Mingi.
And to my horror, the flipping of paper sheets is what alerted me back to my surroundings as I had been lost in my thoughts, oblivious to Seulgi putting her phone down and grabbing my sketchbook that lay between the two of us on the bench. As I turned my head, my eyes widened as Seulgi’s expression held surprise but amusement as well. She chuckled as she looked up, making eye contact with me. I lunged forward in an instant, trying to take my sketchbook out of her hands, but she leaned back and away, putting it behind herself.
“Bitch, I’m not the only one who’s down bad for a man.” She said with a laugh, making me groan as I gave up trying to snatch my sketchbook back from her.
“I’m not down bad for a man, Seulgi, stop this non-sense.” I hissed, cheeks burning in embarrassment as she kept flipping through my drawings.
“Please,” She scoffed, turning my sketchbook around and making me grimace as I came face to face with an exact replica of Mingi, sitting in his chair, at his studio that one time he invited me inside, “Who the fuck draws so many drawings of one single person if they aren’t in love with them—”
“I’m not in love with Mingi, stop it!” I exclaimed, heart beating fast as Seulgi raised her eyebrows at me, looking unimpressed, “Don’t ever again say that, Seulgi.”
“Okay, calm down, whatever. You’re not in love with Mingi.” She chuckled, closing my sketchbook but she didn’t hand it back yet, “But let’s face it, Y/N, you have a thing for Mingi. It’s super freaking obvious even without the drawings.”
“What the hell are you talking about?” I hissed and finally snatched the sketchbook out of her hands, clutching it to my chest. I knew bringing this along today would turn out to be a mistake, and here I was, facing the repercussions of my actions.
“There’s this glint in your eyes whenever you look at him—”
“Yeah, it’s called dislike.” I scoffed, rolling my eyes.
“And I see how you struggle to refrain yourself from smiling when you’re around him—”
“Bitch, be for real, Mingi and I aren’t even often together around you for you to notice that.” I scoffed, completely appealed by whatever absurd claims my best friend was making.
“So you’re not denying it—would it really be so bad if you liked Mingi?” But Seulgi ignored all my interruption as she raised her eyebrows at me, smiling softly, “He’s a nice guy. Very well-mannered and with a big, and good heart. Wooyoung loves him a lot and is always worrying about him. He says Mingi hasn’t been the same ever since his best friend moved away for college—”
“Mingi is Yunho’s best friend!” I blurted out before I could stop myself, finally feeling like a stone was taken off my chest as I bit my lower lip, averting my eyes from Seulgi’s shocked expression, “Mingi is the best friend Yunho had always talked so much about while we were together. I—do you understand why it would be so bad if I ended up liking Mingi?”
“Y/N,” Seulgi whispered, eyebrows furrowed, “for how long have you know?”
“Long enough.” I muttered before clearing my throat, “So please understand that I’m not ready for whatever the hell me drawing all those sketches of Mingi could mean. A month ago I was close to bursting out crying even at the thought of Yunho, and now I fail to remember his existence on my best days.”
When I dared take a peek at Seulgi, she was smiling softly, almost proudly, “Fine, I’ll pester you about this later on, when you’ve figured things out, but until then—you can’t deny Mingi isn’t hot—”
“Can we stop talking about Min—”
“Hi, girls!” I jumped in fright at the overly excited and shrill greeting as both Seulgi and I turned our heads to be met with…Wooyoung and Mingi. Speak of the devil. Suddenly, there was a lump in my throat, and my heart started beating just a little bit faster as my eyes fell on Mingi’s tall form. It didn’t help that underneath his coat he was wearing Yunho’s sweater—the one I had given him.
“Hi.” Seulgi giggled as Wooyoung leaned down to press a kiss against her cheek, the two looking sickly in love. It was actually endearing, but I’d never admit it out loud for my own sake as I knew I’d get teased about it by Seulgi. I averted my eyes from Wooyoung and Seulgi as they were muttering things to each other, and so, had no choice but to look up at Mingi, who looked—expressionless. Something in my stomach dropped at his cold demeanor, and it was worse that I wanted to assume it was my fault that he looked like that. But just as I was about to look away, he cracked the tiniest smile ever, and I exhaled, licking my lips.
“Hi.” My voice was small as I gulped, eyes trans-fixated on the tall man as his smile became just a little wider. I don’t think I had the power to ignore him anymore, not when he was standing right in front of me, looking like he wished to be anywhere but here.
“Hi, Y/N.” Having not heard his voice in days, it sounded even deeper and raspier than usually, making butterflies erupt in my stomach as my grip tightened around my sketchbook. I felt a little awkward, perhaps even tense, as Mingi didn’t say anything else, just continued gazing down at me with his sharp dark brown eyes boring into my own. I had so many things that I could’ve said to him, but I felt tongue tied. I didn’t know what would be the right way to approach him after I ignored him for so many days. Would he understand? Is he mad at me now? Does he hate me now? Will he forgive me—
“Okay,” Wooyoung chuckled, syllable drawn out and sounding amused, “I feel like I’m interrupting something here, yet they are basically just staring at each other.”
“You’re right.” Seulgi giggled, and I finally looked away from Mingi, throwing a glare at my best friend as she had leaned into Wooyoung’s side, who stood next to the bench and her.
“Shush, you two.” Mingi beat me to telling the two love-birds off, and I couldn’t help but smile, “Don’t poke your nose where it doesn’t belong to.”
“Look who’s lecturing me about poking my nose where it doesn’t belong to—”
“Wooyoung.” Mingi’s tone held a warning, and it made Wooyoung giggle as he leaned down and pressed a fat kiss against Seulgi’s cheek—again—making her push him away playfully.
“We’re headed to class, are you coming over later?” Wooyoung smiled down at his girlfriend, playing with a strand of her hair.
“Maybe, if I get to finish my project.” Seulgi said with a pout and Wooyoung hummed, leaning down to press a kiss against her lips this time around. I averted my eyes, not a fan of seeing couples kiss, only to catch Mingi already looking at me. He was expressionless once again, but he was fidgeting with his fingers, looking almost nervous. And as Wooyoung stood up straight and ruffled Seulgi’s hair affectionately, Mingi took a deep breath.
“Will you come to Outlaw this Friday?” He asked in a rush, sounding almost reluctant as his eyebrows furrowed slightly and he chewed on his lower lip. To my horror, I found my eyes fixated on his plush mouth and I gulped before I quickly averted my eyes, praying that nobody caught it.
“Yes.” I answered before Seulgi could, and nodded, smiling a little bit, “I won’t miss it.”
A beautiful smile spread on Mingi’s lips and he nodded once, looking too happy for something so little. I don’t think I’ll understand anytime soon why he gets so excited and happy when I listen to his songs or watch him perform. I’m no expert when it comes to music, my feedback is merely amateur and I’m not even a fan of his band yet.
“Cool, see you then.” And Mingi didn’t wait for Wooyoung as he turned around and walked away, steps hurried. I didn’t miss the confused glance Wooyoung and Seulgi shared before Wooyoung was off, chasing after his best friend. And maybe I would be soon able to make sense of my thoughts and feelings around Mingi, figure out what they meant and why they felt so real at times.
            Monday (16:58 pm)
I hate him: hi Me: hi I hate him: would it be a lot if i asked to meet u tomorrow? Me: no, im free in the afternoon I hate him: cool, me too so uh…we can hang out in my studio? Me: or we can go to that new café with pottery I hate him: really? Me: u did say u wanted us to go… I hate him: i certainly said so i’ll pick u up around 4 Me: u don’t have to i’ll meet you there I hate him: come on, y/n…let me drive u Me: u’ve driven me around too many times by now i’ll meet u there and that’s final. I hate him: okay, boss, see ya there Me: :))
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            Getting here before four o’clock and having to wait in front of the cute café had no business being this nerve-wrecking. Yeah, Mingi hasn’t shown up yet—but perhaps that’s because there were still ten minutes until it’d be four—and I knew I had no reason to think he’d bail on me, but we hadn’t spoken since yesterday, when he had asked me if we could hang out. And so, waiting for him shouldn’t have had me breaking out in a sweat despite the cold weather, making me bite my lower lip harshly as I tried to smooth down the wool, green, brown, and beige patterned coat I was wearing. First of all, why the hell would I be so nervous about meeting up with Mingi alone at this cute café? He probably wanted to talk about that near kiss, and once we had that cleared, things would go back to normal—right?!
And maybe that was the reason which made me want to vomit on the sidewalk, the thought that I knew Mingi would demand answers—answers that I wasn’t yet ready to hand out. Why did I even agree to this? Because I missed him? I should have just stayed at home and done the project I’ve been procrastinating on—again. But when I heard the rumble of Mingi’s old Honda’s engine, I knew there was no turning back, catching the bus and running home to hide underneath my blanket.
As Mingi took his time to parallel park, I took a deep breath and gripped onto the strap of my tote bag harder, looking down at myself. My apricot orange sneakers matched the color of my blouse, the top two buttons out of five undone, but not showing too much skin. My blouse was tucked inside my washed out high waisted mom jeans, the black belt matching the color of my tote bag—I know black isn’t a color, I’m an arts major after all. My hair was pulled in a low ponytail just to prevent the wind from blowing it in my face, and I was thankful that I chose my wool coat as it kept me warm enough. I have opted to wear quite a few rings today, and because my neck felt too exposed, I decorated it with three necklaces of different length. I gulped hard one last time as Mingi got out of his car and took a few seconds until he managed to lock it. However, those few seconds were exactly what I needed to prepare myself to not pass out at the full sight of him.
Mingi, in true fashion to him, wore all black, except for his jeans that were a very dark shade of blue, almost black too. His turtleneck was tucked inside his jeans, a black coat with a hood keeping him warm from the cold late autumn weather. It almost made me smile upon seeing his own tote bag, black, and funnily matching mine. Except that his was plain, while mine had Claude Monet’s Water-Lily Pond painting painted on it, done by none other than yours truly, me. Mingi’s eyes were concealed by black sunglasses, and I snorted as he almost splashed himself up by stepping a little too enthusiastically into a big puddle. Two necklaces hung around his neck, reaching down his chest. A very obvious and sturdy silver cross necklace, and another longer chain that had pearls scarcely strung on it.  And in true Song Mingi fashion, his rings weren’t missing, only two of his nails painted black on each hand, almost as if he didn’t have time to finish doing them. My heart racing in my chest so fast just at the mere sight of him, certainly wasn’t healthy, right?
“Hi!” I squeaked out and wished to burry myself instantly as Mingi chuckled, a very charming smile spreading onto his lips. It was a little annoying that I couldn’t see his eyes, forced to stare at his plush lips instead—let’s be real, nobody forced me, I did it because I couldn’t help myself, “The sun is quite blinding today, isn’t it?”
And of course, in good old fashion, my mouth worked before my brain would agree to saying something out loud, and my cheeks were burning as I knew Mingi saw me look at his lips. I had to divert the attention somehow, and teasing him was my best method, actually. It always worked.  
“I’m trying to make a fashion statement,” Mingi grinned as he gripped the sunglasses and took them off in a very unnaturally hot way, “but hello to you too.”
“No need for a fashion statement when it’s just the two of us,” I narrowed my eyes, finding Mingi’s hair very soft and fluffy looking, almost as if he had recently washed it, and it wasn’t completely dry, “I’m not one of your fans.”
“Pity,” Mingi hummed, stepping slightly closer to me, “I thought I might just finally wove you.”
I scoffed, and as I was about to tell him off, he grabbed my tote bag and pulled me after himself, headed for the entrance of the café, “Did you have to wait long for me? Traffic was busier today, I had to take a few detours to get here in time.”
“Don’t worry,” I smiled as he opened the door for me and let me walk inside first, “I only waited half an hour for you to arrive, runway princess.”
“Runway princess?!” Mingi’s eyes bulged for a second before he started laughing loudly, making a few customers glance our way as we made it inside the café. I elbowed him in the stomach gently, not too keen of having people glare at us as he disturbed their peace.
“Don’t like the nickname?” I asked with a raised brow as we neared the front desk. The cashier had a friendly smile on her face while she greeted us as Mingi and I looked up at the menu, trying to decide what we’d like to have.
“Never said that,” Mingi answered with a chuckle as he threw me a quick glance, “it’s just surprising coming from you.”
“Why, can’t I call you a princess?” I chuckled, turning to face the cashier as I have made up my mind about what I’d like to have.
“Up until now you seemed to prefer the term ‘bro’, but I’m fine with whatever you decide on calling me, doll.” The look the cashier gave us made my cheeks flame up and I cleared my throat loudly, shooting Mingi a look that told him to shut up.
“Sorry about that,” I muttered embarrassed, smiling at the cashier, “can I get a strawberry cheesecake?”
“Sure, right away, and you, sir?” Her attention was on Mingi now, cheeks flushing the longer she looked at him. Okay, I could totally understand why. Mingi looked quite good right now, it was hard not to ogle him.
“A mint-chocolate cheesecake and a cappuccino?” Mingi hummed, eyebrows furrowed in thought as he looked down at the cashier.
“Plain cappuccino or with vanilla?” The cashier typed in our orders as she asked Mingi, averting her eyes shyly once he looked at her, pursing his lips.
“Plain,” He decided at last, turning to look at me, “are you not getting anything to drink?”
“An orange fresh will be alright.” I said as I reached inside my bag to fish around for my wallet.
“And would you also like to paint some pottery?” The cashier asked, pointing behind herself at all the displayed options. Mingi and I shared a look and I smiled as I nodded at him, making him grin from ear to ear.
“Yeah, we’ll paint some pottery too. Can I have a cup?” He asked, pointing at one on the higher shelf. It was a smaller cup, specifically made for drinking coffee. The cashier nodded and then looked at me expectantly.
“Uh, a mug will do for me.” I said and thanked her once she handed us the pottery and the paint that was used for painting these. Then, she tapped a few more on her tablet and told us the total. I opened my wallet to pay for my purchase, but Mingi had a card in his hands, the cashier already typing in the total sum for him to pay.
“Mingi,” I hissed quietly, looking at him with a frown, “what are you doing?”
“It was my idea to come here—”
“No, it wasn’t.” I cut him off, fingers curling into the scratchy fabric of his coat as I reached out to hold it, “I suggested we come here instead of going to your studio.”
Mingi sighed and pocketed his card, already having paid, then turned his body to face mine. I didn’t let go of his coat just yet, “Yeah, but when I drove you home during that downpour I asked you if you’d come here with me. So technically, it was my idea. Initially, anyways, it really was.”
“Mingi—” I started, but soon swallowed my words as he stepped closer, invading my personal space. My fingers tightened more into his coat and I gulped, suddenly feeling nervous due to our proximity. He faintly smelled of vanilla, it was a fragrance I didn’t except to smell on him.
“Can you not fight me on this one, please?” Mingi’s eyebrows slightly furrowed and his eyes softened up and I—struggled to breathe for a second as I stared up in his pleading eyes, mouth going dry. He looked—adorable like this, and I did not like the way I felt myself getting lost in his soft gaze.
“Let’s find a table.” I muttered, forcing myself out of the trance he placed on me, and grabbed my mug and the painting supplies. Mingi followed suit as he took his own cup and followed after me closely. We walked further inside the café and found a smaller table in the next room, closer towards the window. The walls were painted a faint orange and were decorated by white stripes that created abstract shapes. The chandeliers were white and hung low, the place well-lit for those who wished to paint pottery.
I placed the things in my hands on the table carefully, and then discarded my coat on the back of my chair and my tote bag by the leg of the table, pulling my chair out for myself. Mingi followed suit, however, he managed to almost send his cup tumbling to the floor when he took his seat. His eyes were wide as he just barely caught the cup, and I giggled as I watched him while opening the box that held all the paint. Thankfully, the table was spacious enough to harbor both our pottery and paints as the cashier brought out our delicacies. She threw Mingi a lasting look before she hurried back to the front desk, glancing our way at times.
“This is going to be a tough one.” Mingi said before scooping up a bit of his cheesecake with his little spoon.
“Why?” I asked with a chuckle, choosing a thin brush to start painting some flowers on my mug. My cheesecake could wait.
“Because I’m literally sat at a table with an arts major, having to decorate some cup by painting.” Mingi sounded stressed and I chuckled as I looked up at him, amused by his expression. His hair fell in his eyes a bit, and I found myself absentmindedly reaching over the table to brush it to the side. Almost as if realizing at the same time what I had done, we both froze. It felt like time stilled around us as I watched Mingi with a gaping mouth, slowly but surely, my cheeks becoming the color of a fire hydrant. But Mingi wasn’t better off as he bit his bottom lip, averting his eyes shyly as his cheeks turned the faint color of pink. Clearing my throat and accidentally choking as I hastily pulled my hand back, I averted my eyes and fought for my life to not choke. Thank God the orange juice was right there, I quickly took three large gulps.
“Th—thanks.” Mingi stuttered, staring at the table as he licked his lips, “Uh, it’s gotten long, my hair, I mean, I have to cut it when I get the time.”
“Yeah.” I nodded, grabbing my mug and chewing on my bottom lip in embarrassment—God, could the Earth swallow me up right now? Why the hell did I do that?! “Yeah.”
“Do you think I should change it up a little?” I paused as I had dipped my brush in red paint, and slowly looked up at Mingi, “Do something fun with it—like going blonde?”
“I hate blonde hair.” I blurted out before I could stop myself. Nice one, idiot. Yunho was blonde while we were together, and thus, yeah, I’ve hated blondes ever since. And to be fair—and this is not me shitting on my ex—but that hair color did not suit Yunho at all.
“Oh, noted.” Mingi whispered, pouting a little. I sighed and looked up at the ceiling, hating myself for the weird atmosphere I have created.
“Mingi, you can do whatever you want with your hair.” I spoke up, leaning down to try and look him in the eyes as he was busy staring at the table, “My opinion shouldn’t matter. It’s your hair. Go crazy with it, have fun, try out something new. Really.”
“But do you think it would suit me?” Mingi was still pouting as he finally looked up at me, looking quite crestfallen. My eyebrows furrowed and I tried to imagine him with blonde hair. He was quite blessed with his skin complex as most colors looked good on him, but perhaps I preferred Mingi with dark hair—black hair, more specifically. Like he had it right now. He looked—good. Handsome, even. Completely gorgeous. Fuck.
“I think it would suit you.” I settled on saying that. He didn’t have to know my train of thought, like at all. Mingi hummed in appreciation, and I watched as he reached inside his tote bag, pulling out a case that held his glasses. He took it out of the case and put it on, pushing it up on the bridge of his nose. He grinned when he looked at me and I chuckled, shaking my head as I looked down at my mug, finally starting to decorate it.
“There goes the cool, mysterious, hot celebrity act.” I teased under my breath, not expecting Mingi to hear me. But he did, and he started laughing, giving me a cheeky grin.
“Not quite a celebrity yet, but at least you admit I am hot.” Of course he was smirking as I gave him a deadpanned look, about to argue him on his statement, but he didn’t let me as he continued talking, “By the way, let’s exchange our cups when we are done. The mug will be mine and the cup will be yours.”
I tried to fight the smile off my lips, “So that you get the artwork of a talented artist for free to sell for an outrageous price later on when I’m famous?”
“I fear you have misjudged my character, doll.” Mingi’s eyes narrowed playfully, but there was truth to his words. I might just have misjudged his character.
“I still think you’re arrogant and selfish.”
“Of course you do, didn’t except anything less from you.” Mingi winked and then looked down, his cheesecake forgotten as he started decorating his cup, tongue just barely sticking out as he concentrated hard on whatever he had in mind to paint onto the cup. I chuckled and shook my head before focusing on my own mug, the silence that’s settle around us comfortable, as always.
            Mingi and I were the quietest table in the café as we worked in silence diligently in, painting our own pottery. Mingi, at times, would hum along quietly to the songs that were played on the radio. Despite his cup being smaller and easier to paint, I finished painting mine before him, and so, I took the time to savor my cheesecake even if it had gotten warm and a little too soft. Mingi was hunched over in his seat, glasses low on the bridge of his long nose, with his full lips either pursed or with the bottom one bitten as his eyebrows would furrow every time he almost made a mistake. It was a funny sight, and I grabbed my phone without thinking much, and snapped a few pictures of him, leaning lower and even closer to his face to get the funny angles, all while Mingi remained oblivious to it. I chuckled as I looked at the pictures I had taken of him, looking at him when I felt eyes on me.
“What’s so funny?” He asked curiously, eyeing my phone for a second.
“You.” I chuckled and stuck my tongue out as Mingi rolled his eyes, leaning back in his chair as he heaved a long sigh.
“I’m finally done.” He grinned and I looked down at his cup, taking in the yellow chicks he had painted quite—clumsily. Well, not all of us had the skills of a painter—not that it was an issue or anything—it’s just that it’s been long since I had seen someone have the skills of a—kindergartner, “It’s pretty sick, huh?”
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from giggling and nodded with my eyebrows furrowed, “I’d give it a seventy out of a hundred mark.”
“Hey! That’s too low!” Mingi said, looking offended. I chuckled before shrugging.
“You’ll have to work on your skills for a higher mark.”
“Fine, next time you come to the studio, I’ll make you sing.” Mingi raised his eyebrows, making me narrow my eyes at him playfully.
“Oh, I didn’t know we are in a competition.”
“We weren’t, until now.” He winked and then stood, grabbing my mug and his own cup carefully as he took it to the front desk for drying. I gathered the items we had used to paint the pottery with to place them back in the box, and couldn’t help it but sneak a glance at Mingi. He was leaned up against the front counter, grinning widely at the cashier as she spoke to him, using her hands for big gestures as she was probably explaining something. My eyes narrowed as Mingi leaned slightly closer to her, only to detach himself from the front desk and walk back towards our table. I looked away and busied myself with my glass of orange juice.
“So, we’ll get them delivered to our houses once they are dry and all.” He said with a smile, sitting down, “I hope you don’t mind I gave her your address too.”
“I don’t.” I muttered, chewing on the straw for a second, “I didn’t think you’d know my address.”
“Well,” Mingi flattened his hands on the surface of the table, “I’ve been to your house twice now. I think it’s only right I remember your address, doll.”
“Right,” I muttered, “you’ve been to my house.”
Mingi’s eyebrows furrowed, and I figured he didn’t like the tone of my voice. But before I could correct myself and explain that I had nothing against that, he spoke up, “Y/N, I—I didn’t mean to scare you or—I don’t know—make you think that I want anything from you. I mean—we are friends, and I respect you as a woman and as a friend, and I know we almost—kissed. But I—I don’t want you to think that I’m playing some sort of game with you to get—to get in your pants. I’m your friend. And even if I wasn’t, I still wouldn’t do that to you.”
Hearing him say all that felt wrong. I didn’t deserve any explanation from him. I was the one that’s overreacted that day, and Mingi was the one that deserved an explanation and apology from me for the way I have acted. I knew I couldn’t completely open up to him right now, that some parts of the truth had to be omitted today, but he also deserved to know why I had pulled back. And I wanted him to understand that it wasn’t his fault for the way I reacted to everything.
“Mingi,” I offered him a small smile and gripped my empty glass for some support, “If you think you are the reason why I ignored you, please, stop thinking that. It’s—we both leaned in, okay? We were both about to kiss each other, it’s not like you initiated it or forced me to do something I didn’t want to. And nothing even happened, for God’s sake. I reacted that way because I—”
When I paused, Mingi’s eyebrows furrowed, and he leaned over the table, gently poking my hand with his ring clad fore-finger, “You don’t have to tell me anything if you’re not comfortable sharing it, Y/N.”
“But I want you to know this, Mingi.” I averted my eyes and took a deep breath, embracing myself for what I was about to tell him, “I had a boyfriend back in high-school who completely broke my heart, shattered it into pieces. And I know that happened a long time ago, and yes, I am over him, but I—I am scared people will treat me like he had treated me. I’m scared that if I let you close, you’ll just—leave. Like he did. And I know ignoring you for days was very shitty of me and I shouldn’t have done that—because quite frankly, Mingi, you deserve better—I just didn’t know what to do. I needed a few days to myself, to figure things out. It’s a bad excuse, but it’s the truth, and I think you deserve to know it. Since we are friends.”
Mingi’s face conveyed no emotion for a few seconds and I gulped, feeling nervous all of a sudden. Did he figure it out now? That I was talking about Yunho? That maybe I have started feeling something for him too, for Mingi? Would he stand up and leave? But to my surprise, a wide smile stretched onto his lips and he hummed, adjusting his glasses on his nose.
“Thank you for trusting me, it means a lot that you told me all that.” I bit my bottom lip, looking down at the table abashedly, “And I was never mad at you for ignoring me. I completely understand you, Y/N, and for the record, I have zero intentions of leaving you. And your ex is a fucking asshole for breaking your heart like that, tell me who he is and I’ll beat him up when I cross paths with him.”
There was nothing funny about what Mingi had said, especially since he was talking about his best friend, but the comically tough look on his face made me snort loudly as I shielded my mouth with my hand, trying to stop myself from laughing too loudly. Mingi started grinning like an idiot, his giggles deep, and making something coil in my stomach. When has Song Mingi become adorable instead of annoying?
“I doubt you’d want to kick his ass once you find out who he is…” I grimaced once that was out of my mouth, regretting it instantly. What was it about today that I couldn’t keep my thoughts and mouth in check? It was turning really frustrating.
“So, you plan on telling me one day?” Mingi wriggled his eyebrows, making me snort, “Like real besties gossiping and shit.”
“You never fail to make me cringe when you call us besties, Mingi.” I shook my head, taking a glance at my wrist watch. Oh, the time had flown away, it was well past five now, and the sun was going down. I’d probably have to head home soon to have dinner with my mother. I was becoming hungry too.
“Well, that’s what we are so…” He cleared his throat before slowly standing up, making me look up at him, “Did you know today we’re celebrating the Festival of Light?”
“Nope, I had no idea.” I shook my head, standing up too as Mingi wore his coat, “I don’t follow the events our city organizes.”
“Pity, it’s really pretty.” Mingi pouted, waiting for me as I grabbed my tote bag and pocketed my phone, “Should we check it out?”
“I mean…maybe?” I shrugged and Mingi beckoned me over as he crossed his arm with mine, making me chuckle as I looked up at him. He wasn’t much taller than me, but his sneakers had a thick sole and they made him even taller, “Where is this festival held at?”
“Just down the street, at the Citadel.” Mingi smiled as he led the way out of the café, waving at the barista as she blushed again, making me chuckle as I subconsciously nuzzled up against Mingi’s side, the air chilly as the sun had set by now.
“That barista totally has a crush on you.” I found myself saying as we walked down the sidewalk, trying to avoid crashing into the people that came towards us. Yeah, there certainly was an event on-going in the city, otherwise you wouldn’t see so many people out and about around this time. Everyone preferred staying inside after the sun had set, not keen of the cold nights.
“You think so?” Mingi mused, bottom lip jutting out as he narrowly avoided a child that was running around, “I didn’t notice.”
“You must be really dense then.” I snorted, eyebrows furrowing as I looked up at him, “She was constantly blushing, and she was totally looking at you with hearts in her eyes.”
“How do you know when someone is looking at you with heart eyes?” Mingi’s question threw me off, and I detached myself from his side, clearing my throat as I looked ahead, pushing my hands in my pockets. He was warm, it made me realize as the cold bit at my skin now that I wasn’t nuzzled up by his side anymore.
“Well, they have this look in their eyes, you know? It’s warm, and soft, and it lasts.” I explained, feelings my cheeks heat up, “And their eyes always linger on you when you aren’t watching them. It’s like…puppy eyes, I suppose? I wouldn’t actually know, Mingi, nobody’s ever looked at me like that.”
When there was no response, I looked back to find Mingi looking at me intensely. My eyebrows furrowed as we have arrived to the Citadel, the gates open for the visitors of the festival. The place was packed, this wouldn’t be so fun anymore. I would’ve turned around and walked back home if I didn’t see how excited Mingi was when I agreed to come check it out.
“There’s lots of people here.” Mingi muttered, and then walked closer to me as I led the way inside, a little baffled by his reaction to my answer. I just merely gave an answer based on my beliefs. It was him that was acting weird now. But as I looked at him, I could see it in his eyes that he didn’t want to talk about this topic anymore, that he wanted us to drop the subject. His last comment was a way to veer the conversation in a different direction. What was it about us today making everything weird? I sighed and just walked further inside, trying to avoid the big crowd which seemed almost impossible as it stretched on and on. The Citadel, however, was beautiful as it was coated in darkness, only the little paper lamps and fairy lights illuminating the place. It had a certain aura to it, almost romantic, and I soon found myself smiling as we walked down the cobblestone path, still trying to avoid people and stick close to each other’s sides. The air was chilly but the walls of the Citadel did a great job at keeping the breeze out, and the crowd certainly kept the place warmer than it was outside the stone walls.
I found myself admiring the décor in wonder, my mouth hanging open as I took in all the little lamps placed down on the ground, following the cobblestone paths, illuminating our way. It was truly beautiful, it almost felt like the scene was taken out of a fairytale. I found myself filled with excitement and happiness as I turned to grin at Mingi.
“This is so beautiful!” I giggled, absentmindedly grabbing the sleeve of his coat and dragging him away from the path and into the dying grass as there was a panel covered with paper, and people were writing on it. Mingi remained silent, but as I searched around for a pen or pencil, I felt him watching me, “What, do you not want to write something?”
“If you manage to find a marker or pen, I will, sure.” He said with a shrug, adjusting the strap of his tote bag before he pushed his hands deep in his pockets. I chuckled and looked around for a marker, but it was hard to see it in the darkness whether they were laying around in the grass or not. To my surprise, a little girl standing next to me looked up at me with a small smile on her lips, and offered me her purple-coloured marker, saying she was done with her drawing. I thanked her with a chuckle and turned to face Mingi with a grin.
“I found one!” Mingi chuckled and took the marker from my hands, being able to reach high up where the paper was still empty, due to his height. The panel was illuminated from the inside so you could actually see what was written on the paper. I watched him as he wrote on the paper, hesitating for a second, before he stepped back and handed me the marker. I raised up on my tip toes curiously, and craned my neck to see what he’s written. ‘The moon is beautiful tonight.’
I felt a smile spread onto my lips as I looked back at Mingi, who’s expression was serious and almost sad-looking as he adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his tall nose. I craned my neck back once more to gaze at the dark sky, at the moon, and indeed, there she was, beautiful and shining brightly. It was a new moon. Taking a swift glance at Mingi, I raised back on my tip toes and stood close to the panel, reaching up, just underneath Mingi’s writing. Thankfully, I could reach just bellow it, and I grinned as I quickly drew a new moon, adding a little shading to it and dents as well, creating the illusion of a real moon. Mingi remained silent as I took a step back, admiring our work. I handed the marker to another child as I fished my phone out of my pocket and snapped a picture quickly of our artwork.
“The moon turned out beautifully.” Mingi commented once we had stepped away from the panel to let others draw too, headed back onto the cobblestone path.
“Still, it’s not as beautiful as the real one, but I tried my best.” I chuckled as I crossed my arms in front of my chest for a second, avoiding a man as he wasn’t looking in front of himself as he raced down the path. Mingi threw him a displeased look before looking down at me.
“Your drawings and paintings are always beautiful, Y/N.” Mingi said and I found myself blushing, thankful that it was so dark he wouldn’t be able to see it. I uncrossed my arms and turned my body a little to face him. There was music coming from one path, the one which led to the southern part of the Citadel.
“Are you nervous about Friday?” I found myself asking him as Mingi veered us towards where the music was coming from. He looked at me for a second, and then shook his head.
“I’m rarely nervous when we have to perform.” He said nonchalantly, the back of his hand brushing lightly against mine. My heart did a somersault against my ribcage, but I ignored it.
“Oh, you’re such a cool guy.” I teased him with narrowed eyes, making Mingi chuckle.
“I rarely get nervous, to be honest, even less when it comes to performing.” He hummed, looking up at the dark sky for a second, “I trust myself and my bandmates that everything will go well, so, there’s no actual reason to feel nervous.”
“But I’ll be there on Friday, that still doesn’t make you feel nervous?” My question was meant to be teasing, part of our playful banter, but the way Mingi gulped and quickly averted his eyes told me that perhaps I hit the nail spot-on. Well, now I have turned things awkward again. I sighed loudly, chewing on my bottom lip as Mingi remained silent, the two of us walking down the narrow path as the music became louder as we were nearing the stage. Jazz music was playing, the lady who was singing had a powerful and smooth voice that carried over the crowd neatly. There were a few people dancing in the crowd.
“Perhaps having you there will make me nervous.” Mingi’s voice was barely above a whisper and I tensed when I felt his pinkie brush against my own, making me clench my hand into a fist. But a very quiet voice inside my head demanded me to accept Mingi’s subtle request, and willing my heart to stop hammering so hard in my chest, I relaxed my hand and slowly slipped it into Mingi’s. If he stopped walking for a milli-second, I didn’t say anything about it, and he also ignored it. His grip turned firm as he intertwined our fingers together, gently pulling me closer into his side as he smiled at a mother who apologised for his son almost running into us.
I gulped and kept my eyes ahead of me, too nervous to look at Mingi. Holding his hand like this meant nothing in particular, but it was a nice feeling. It made my cheeks warms and heart race. And I didn’t have to look at Mingi to know he was smiling like crazy, his cheeks just as red as mine as we came to a stop behind the dancing people.
Have I started falling for Song Mingi?
『It's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
I'm just saying it's you, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
You, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
You're what I've been chasing
Show me where my days went』
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so...the festival of light scene was totally inspired by me and my bestie attending it in our city lol; it was sooo beautiful and the pictures in the moodboard were actually taken by us; also, her and I kept laughing about the romantic vibes we were getting, all in all, we had a nice time...and OFC we make everything about Ateez so :))
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I wrote that LOL I'm like Mingi, tall enough to reach the top where people haven't scribbled onto yet lol
also, this is what y/n's outfit looks like for anyone wondering, except for the colors as they are the way I have described them in the scene ^^
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solefae · 6 months
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pairings; jey uso x fem!internent personality!reader
faceclaim; scotlynd ryan
summary; Scotlynd's life turns upside down when wrestling star Jey Uso starts liking her posts. Fans are quick to judge, branding her a homewrecker. Little do they know, Jey's marriage ended months ago-a truth hidden from the public eye.
notes: here’s part 2 to this trash ass series🙄
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trinity_fatu I’m getting a divorce just for u 😫
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imessage!
trin❤️
scotty now.. why u letting these ppl call u a homewrecker?
scotlynd🩵
imma js let ‘em keep
thinking what they wanna think.
trin❤️
but u know u not a homewrecker so
why not defend yourself babe?
scotlynd🩵
i’m js not ready to tell this toxic ass world that I’m dating a man that js freshly got out of a divorce, not yet.
trin❤️
whenever you ready boo
ily.
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This is going to be HUGE so for simplicity I will not add big summaries or CW/TW but please check the tags on the fanfic before reading! Also all are completed unless I state otherwise.
I'll keep updating this, there's still a lot more to add :) 01/16/2023
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❣ actual good plot not just mindless fluff:
We'll Have Dancing, Meanwhile by whatdoyoudesire :. or accomplished tourney knight, Eddie Munson meets the breathtaking King Steven of Loch Nora at the festival for his twentieth name day
One need not be a House by OhlioOh :. Or: The one where Steve Harrington is a ghost, and Eddie is a paranormal investigator. (THIS IS BEAUTIFUL, NOT COMPLETE THO)
We'll Know for the First Time by KikiZ :. OR: Eddie gets to have a good life.
Date me instead by Zhuletta :. Or: Eddie proposes a crazy idea to see if there's something wrong with him, Steve finds the fact that it works is even crazier.
We Should Just Kiss (Like Real People Do) by OonionChiver :. ‘I’ve never loved anything the way I love you, Steve Harrington,’ Eddie says, dark brown eyes moving between Steve’s own. ‘This isn’t the moment, sweetheart.’ (this has lots of porn but like emotional bsdm porn WITH PLOT)
The Worst Mixtape Ever Made by nbfutureboy :. There’s an art to making a mixtape - and Steve Harrington has decidedly ignored all semblance of art in creating a mixtape for Eddie Munson. Too bad Eddie’s fascinated with how impressively terrible his song choices are. (you need an ao3 acc to read this one!)
❣ fluff. that's it. that's the plot.
Paint Nights by AnnetheCatDetective :. Steve is looking for something for Dustin, but when he walks into the game and hobby shop, he sees something he likes.
you got a lot on your mind (and your heart it looks just like mine) by picklebaby :. Steve wakes up with a migraine and Eddie knows just how to take care of him.
All That You Ever Wanted From Me Was Sweet Nothing by t1red_gay :. Five times Eddie tells Steve he loves him, and one time Steve lets himself say it back. (I'm not sure if this fits in this section but I'm putting it here)
run my heart through your gentle cycle by cheatghost :. That’s how Steve finds himself doing his laundry at the college laundromat every Sunday night. It's how he ends up stumbling upon a metalhead with dark brown curls and even darker eyes, sitting on top of his machine. (the angst is like for half a chapter so its in the fluff section)
you're my sunshine (and I want you to know) by througheden :. Steve tries to right that wrong and gets something unexpected in return.
you’re just like a dream by joehardys :. Or, Steve, from Eddie’s point of view.
and here we are in heaven, for you are mine at last by obsceme :. Or: 5 times Steve steals Eddie's clothes, and one time Eddie returns the favor.
i'm your man (don't you know that?) by thatsadorable :. 5 times that steve and eddie go on a date +1 time that eddie realizes that they are dating
when no one's there (please take my hand) by coupe_de_foudre :. "You look good. Do I need a reason?"
❣ want some angst with a happy ending? I gotchu
Take a Joke by towardthesun :. Steve has spent his whole life trying to learn how to take a joke, trying to figure out how to not take everything so personally. His first big fight with Eddie shows him he might not be the only one struggling
All's Well That Ends Better by througheden :. Vecna dies, but Steve nearly goes with him. An AU where Eddie drags Steve out of Hell.
i've got you. by througheden :. He sighs and drops his head to stare down at the carpet beneath him. It breaks his heart, seeing Steve hurt like this.
palm split with a flower with a flame by laundrybiscuits :. Steve and Eddie take a roadtrip. (hanahaki au)
Press Those Honeyed Lips To Mine (And Call It A Lullaby) by StarlightDreamer16 :. There were upsides and downsides to hiding his and Eddie's relationship for the past decade. (check this out, one of my favorites)
in the blood orange sun by ghosttotheparty :. or; Steve is scared of water, and tries to just deal with it.
hope i cross your mind by rogersharringtons :. After a messy breakup five years prior, Eddie sees Steve for the first time with a date that looks a little too similar to a certain metalhead from years ago.
uh-oh, love comes to town by 96tears :. So, when Vickie and Robin set Eddie up on a blind date with Vickie’s cousin, Steve figures he feels weird about it because he’s the only one without a date.
Keep It Secret, Or It Won't Come True by NoBinoDino :. Or: 5 times Steve Harrington felt alone on his birthday, and 1 time he didn't.
Three Shots by steveharringtoned :. Steve Harrington watches his own blood pool and trickle over a series of hands pressed against him, small and large, soft and rugged, and for a moment, wants to stay like this. He can’t. (SO GOOD READ IT)
Support Local by Ijustlikereadingcutefics :. Or: the one where Steve is obsessed with watching Eddie play the guitar.
it’ll be fine by dusk light (i’m telling you, baby) by Anonymous :. "You leaving?" Eddie gives him a smile, sad around the edges where it reaches his eyes, says, “Yeah,” and Steve knows he doesn’t just mean for tonight. (cant believe I didn't put this one here sooner ITS SO FREAKING GOOD)
my way, your way (anything goes) by rogersharringtons :. Rockstar!Eddie Munson au set in the summer of 1988 where Corroded Coffin opens for Guns N’ Roses after Eddie ran away from Hawkins. Steve sees him for the first time in over a year and old feelings resurface.
❣ got stuff for the horny bitches too don't worry
i'm not busy (this is what I was prepping for) by whatdoyoudesire :. Or Steve walks in on Eddie cockwarming a dildo and can't help himself.
Don't Let Your Gaze Linger by scrunglebungus :. Thus, the Prince and Consort play their favorite game. (very hot, I gotta say)
Just a Taste by AnnetheCatDetective :. steve thinks virgin!eddie is straight and tries to help him out with sexual advice
Heaven's On Fire by oscarwilderobbieross :. eddie and steve accidently meet up in a BDSM bar and hookup (there's a little more to it but don't want to spoil)
Fall Morning by KxxxFrost :. A fall morning to enjoy because certain metalhead woke up a little bit too horny
i'm not busy (this is what I was prepping for) by whatdoyoudesire :. Or Steve walks in on Eddie cockwarming a dildo and can't help himself.
Don't Let Your Gaze Linger by scrunglebungus :. Thus, the Prince and Consort play their favorite game. (very hot, I gotta say)
Just a Taste by AnnetheCatDetective :. steve thinks virgin!eddie is straight and tries to help him out with sexual advice
Heaven's On Fire by oscarwilderobbieross :. eddie and steve accidently meet up in a BDSM bar and hookup (there's a little more to it but don't want to spoil)
Fall Morning by KxxxFrost :. A fall morning to enjoy because certain metalhead woke up a little bit too horny
you're the singer and i'm the song by ruinations :. After hearing a rumor that Steve's fantastic at eating pussy, Eddie asks Steve to prove it to him. Steve is more than happy to oblige.
i'm not busy (this is what I was prepping for) by whatdoyoudesire :. Or Steve walks in on Eddie cockwarming a dildo and can't help himself.
Don't Let Your Gaze Linger by scrunglebungus :. Thus, the Prince and Consort play their favorite game. (very hot, I gotta say)
Just a Taste by AnnetheCatDetective :. steve thinks virgin!eddie is straight and tries to help him out with sexual advice
Heaven's On Fire by oscarwilderobbieross :. eddie and steve accidently meet up in a BDSM bar and hookup (there's a little more to it but don't want to spoil)
Fall Morning by KxxxFrost :. A fall morning to enjoy because certain metalhead woke up a little bit too horny
i'm not busy (this is what I was prepping for) by whatdoyoudesire :. Or Steve walks in on Eddie cockwarming a dildo and can't help himself.
Don't Let Your Gaze Linger by scrunglebungus :. Thus, the Prince and Consort play their favorite game. (very hot, I gotta say)
Just a Taste by AnnetheCatDetective :. steve thinks virgin!eddie is straight and tries to help him out with sexual advice
Heaven's On Fire by oscarwilderobbieross :. eddie and steve accidently meet up in a BDSM bar and hookup (there's a little more to it but don't want to spoil)
Fall Morning by KxxxFrost :. A fall morning to enjoy because certain metalhead woke up a little bit too horny
you're the singer and i'm the song by ruinations :. After hearing a rumor that Steve's fantastic at eating pussy, Eddie asks Steve to prove it to him. Steve is more than happy to oblige.
down down down on my knees by Anonymous :. Steve Harrington was a fucking beefcake. Soft fat over layers of muscle, thick thighs and biceps. No showboating shit, Steve was an actual powerhouse. He could bench press Eddie, easily. It was so fucking hot. (there's more plot than it seems)
Why is Eddie Munson at Your House? by MeaMeaAudio :. Eddie is used to it being fast, quick, and dirty. But this. This is not something he’s familiar with. Steve The Hair Harrington pushes him up against a brick wall in a dark alley. His mouth soft and tenderly kissing him as if asking a question over and over again.
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Someone (you know who you are) asked me to do a full story of the little short I did where eddie came back to life so here it is. This will be like a onshot but I might do like a full story on wattpad if I can be bothered. So enjoy I guess
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'Alive and happy again' eddie munson x male!reader
Summary: after Eddie's death you move away but since some of your relatives live in Hawkins you have to go and visit, (the little short I did will be included in this, some things will be changed tho)
Cw: metion of death, blood, biting, (if I missed any please tell me) fluff and angst
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Your pov
That day was one of the worst days of your life. The day you lost a friend that you loved so damn much. You loved eddie, and no one but you knew. You wanted to tell eddie so bad but you never did and now it was too late, now you'd never get the chance to tell him.
It was hard to stay in Hawkins. You started to have nightmares and overall just couldn't sleep. But it wasn't like the others where doing amazing either. You rarely talked to them now. Most of the time they where running around helping where they could and so where you.
But in the end acoulpe weeks after eddie's death you and your family packed up and moved. It was to much of a pain to stay in Hawkins. Besides it started to look and feel like a ghost town. You didn't move far but far enough so the memories of what you witnessed wouldn't haunt you. It was hard to leave everyone behind but what other choice did you have. To stay and remember what happened, to remember what a coward you where to never tell eddie how you felt.
Dammit if you knew he wouldn't make it out you would have spilled your heart out to eddie right then and there.
It was hard to sit in that car. Driving in silence with only the occasional cars driving past. You didn't even get to say goodbye to your friends but you guessed it was better that way.
Eddie's pov
Eddie shot up looking down at himself to only see a ripped shirt and some scars. No open wounds or blood. It was like that pain he felt just minutes before had faded or never even happend. He felt weird. He almost felt like his skin wasn't his and he felt this hunger. A hunger that couldn't be satisfied with normal food. It almost burned. He had to stop this hunger. But he also had to get out off here. Here being the upside down. But was that even possible?
The answer was yes. It was possible. He was now sat infront of the people that thought they beat vecna. Well almost all of them. Max was nowhere to be seen and so was robin as the same for m/n. Everyone told him max was in the hospital and robin spent all of her time helping around. But in general most of the group wasn't there. But when eddie asked about m/n they couldn't give him and answer. No one knew where he went. It's was like he just vanished. One day they saw him and then the other poof, he's gone.
Eddie was heart broken and now it was his time to have constant sleepless night. I mean literally he didn't sleep, he didn't even feel tired. Well physically at least.
Don't get it wrong tho, eddie was over the moon to be alive and to have what he called 'superpowers' now. He was so glad all his friends and his uncle where okay but every time he felt happy his mind would drift back to m/n. His dear friend and the guy he was head over heels for.
He couldn't even go out and look for you. Everyone that was left in Hawkins thought eddie was still missing or dead. But still that didn't stop eddie going out as night and looking. It was really easy to look around at night since it seems that one of his 'powers' was that he could see in the dark. That was one of the perks but there where non perks. The hunger was getting to damn bad to ignore. It was almost impossible, and if its even possible it got worse every time m/n came to his mind.
The only way he found he could keep it at bay was eating meat. Not like cooked meat but raw meat. He hated it but if that ment stopping the burn in the back of his throat so be it. But that didn't mean the hunger wasn't there.
Big time skip (still Eddie's pov kinda)
It was months later now. Hawkins was quiet now and the families that did stay struggled. Eddie was presumed dead. And only the gang and his uncle knew he was alive. M/n was presumed to be dead by the gang aswell which broke everyone's hearts.
Life was hard in Hawkins now. Harder than before. The giant portals where always gaurded and getting over them was a pain in the ass. It was hard to get life to flow in Hawkins again. Everyone Normally stayed home. But some went back to their jobs and some (but barely any) kids went back to school.
The gangs visits to see eddie where becoming more and more rare and since his uncle went back to work he was alone 99% of the time. He hated it. He hated the damn silence, it made his thoughts wander which was something he hated even more.
His thoughts would normally wonder of and you would come to mind. He didn't belive that you where dead he just didn't want to. He tried to think of a way he could prove to the others that you where still alive. That you weren't dead and your body was simply missing. And then it clicked.
You had living relatives in Hawkins. If anyone knew where you were it would be them. His eyes lit up with the realisation that there was still a possible chance that you where alive that you could still be okay. He shot up out of his bed but stopped himself. What I'd someone saw him? Hawkins isn't exactly the kindest town. The rumour of him, eddie munson being alive would spread like wild fire. He took a step back from the door and bolted back into his room searching for anything that could cover him.
He tied his hair up and pulled up his hood to hide his face and wore the baggiest pants he would find and took of his rings and anything that could get him easily recognised. After checking everything he bolted out the door not even bothering to lock it. He ran like hell to you aunties house. He's been there once or twice so he knew where abouts it would be.
He ran almost the whole way if he doesn't count the amount of times he stopped. When he got to the house his heart skipped a beat. It was you and your parents except you looked uncomfortable and like you didn't want to be here.
Eddie stopped right in the middle of the road which caught your attention. You didn't recognise him at first but when his hood slid down revealing him, eddie munson (kinda??) Alive and well you almost fell from what it looked like.
Eddie ran to you and jumped into your arms. He squeezed you tightly crying into your shoulder. When all of a sudden his hunger went crazy. A smell. A smell that could only be described as godly. It was coming from you. He tried to ignore it and just be happy that you where alive but the hunger over powered and emotion he was feeling at that moment.
Your pov
He was alive. I couldn't belive it. I thought having to come back here was going to be hell. My life was going good and I almost forgot about Hawkins. But when my parents told me we had to go back for a little family 'get together' my world almost crumbled. But all that sadness was long gone cause now I had the love of my life in my arms, crying into my shoulder. I was so happy almost at tears myself when I felt something. A bite.
Eddie was biting me. No, not just biting me but drinking my blood. I could feel it. My legs where becoming week and eddie had to hold me by the waist to make sure I didn't fall. I was in shock. I didn't speak and didn't move. I just kinda let him drink from me.
The moment he stopped I snaped out of it and gave him a 'wtf look' but when I saw his face he looked like he just solved the worlds hardest problem. He looked up at me with a grin that faded as soon as he saw my expression. He gulped before taking a step back.
He proceeds to explain how the last few months where uter hell for him and that he did indead died but in some way shape or form he didn't but now he was always hungry and turns out his hungrer was for blood.
After explaining he looked up at you agian to which he found your expression has softened. You pulled him into a hug and chuckled "wow it looks like you've been throught hell and back eddie" you said pulling away and smiling at him. "Ya it felt like it... I missed you m/n" he said moving his hand to your face.
You paused. This was it this was the chance and you where gonna fucking take it. "Eddie I wanted to tell you this for so damn long, and if I knew you wouldn't make it I would have told you already" as you said that Eddie's expression changed and he look abit more serious. You look a deep breath.
"I love you eddie, more than a friend, more than anything". Eddie's expression changed and a blushed creeped on his face. Before you could say another thing he kissed you. A soft and gentle kiss. You pushed him away blushing like crazy. "Eddie dammit we're outside!" Eddie grind and looked around "I don't see anyone" he pecked your lips again before traping you in another hug.
"I love you too m/n I have for a while" after you heard those words you couldn't help but smile and tighten the hug. You finally did start crying. Both hugging each other you cried in peaceful silence. The mystery was finally solved. Both of you where alive and you both found each other again.
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To celebrate the DeanCas100k on ao3 here's a list of my all-time favourite Destiel fanfictions:
CANON VERSE
A turn of the earth Dean’s your typical half-orphaned, monster-killing 22-year-old until a trenchcoated stranger crashes into his back windshield one September night, claiming he’s an angel that knows him from the future and that he’s on the run.
Early seasons!Dean keeps meeting Cas at the most random moments, till he isn’t anymore... Definetly a must read.
In the shadow of your wings
Set after the S11 finale. Dean kinda breaks Cas’ heart. Because sometimes he can be thick SOB. The Cas finds a new shiny and witty italian boyfriend and Dean’s not happy about it. and now Sam is missing, Mary is back and Dean has a mixed bag of feelings he has to deal with. Probably my favorite canonverse ever.
Like moses and batman and James Dean dean used to turn tricks. over a decade later, he met cas.
A masterpiece in characterization by saltyfeathers. I loved everything, The dialogues, the flashbacks, the way Dean and Cas emotions are portrayed. There’s angst and internalized homophobia but also confort and IT IS JUST SO GOOD OK?
The best bang for your buck It’s not like Castiel knows who this GotImpala67 person is. There’s no personal information listed on their profile. Except that they’re male, thirty-seven, from Kansas and, apparently, they like inserting things inside themselves.
Cas plays dumb even tho he really is not and I love him for it. Dean is the kind of buyer who leaves detailed reviews of the products he buys (which is the best kind if you ask me) I love the writer’s style and their sense of humor. It’s short although I never get tired of re-reading this one. Also Bring up the deep & Till the juice runs from the same author are with mentioning.
Kisses by sunflowers beds by fanforfanatics & Watched by K_K_TiBal
This two fics have a on thing in common: At the end of both you’ll be asking yourself how can less than 5k hurt you so much?
I cried, then I smiled and cried some more. This fics will crush you in the best way possible.
Take me home country roads The most IC Deamon!Dean I’ve ever read. It’s a rollercoaster of emotions.
What’s missing is found (our souls can exhale now) by sobsicles aka queen of post S15 fix-it fics
That black dog ache A simple case turns Dean upside down as he attempts to deal with the effects of a particularly strange love spell.
The perfect gift Castiel has a big problem concerning Dean... thankfully, Sam is always around to help
Really short Crack!Fic about Cas being clueless and adorable.
So says the sword by komodobits
Actually I suggest to go on their ao3 profile and read EVERYTHING.
The profet must die
Dean starts reading Chuck’s book out of curiosity and ends up having a epiphany about his apparently not so much platonic relationship with a certain angel of the lord.
A room of one’s own All Dean wants is a little privacy. Cas doesn't understand.
It mostly smut with a bit of healthy angst and great amount of humor.
My Roots Take Flight After forty years in Hell, Dean’s more than willing to accept the offer: become a guardian angel and earn his freedom. But his new ward seems destined to hunt alongside Sam, and there are secrets in Heaven that the angels don’t want found out. Dean’s going to have to choose between his duty and the people he loves- and to work out just where Castiel fits in.
Reverse!Verse set in season 4. It’s interesting to watch their relationship develop even if the roles are reversed.
The hands that bind me Dean is struggling with adjusting back into the civilized world after a year of fighting for his life in Purgatory. He's going to need some angelic assistance reining in his darker impulses.
If your’re into BDSM/Sub!Dean/Dom!Cas/Hurt/Confort/Dark themes then that’s the fic for you.
What has eight tentacles and isn’t allowed to eat pie? Dean is an octopus 🐙 and it’s weird but also kinda sweet.
Cuckoo and nest For a long time, Castiel thought that every earthly possession other than the immediately necessary was excess to requirement. But Dean – Dean who named his car, who keeps a photograph of his mother in his wallet, some thirty-plus years after her death, who still has the crumpled ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign with a sleeping pelican emblazoned on it from the Microtel outside of Roanoke where he first kissed Castiel, clumsy and unsure, under the unsteady fluorescence of an exhausted bathroom bulb – is sentimental. it puzzles Castiel, where Dean draws the line between what is meaningful and what it is worthless.
Established relationship/ they’re really bad at communication/ fluff / hurt confort
Put up your dukes Dean can't sleep. Cas offers to tire him out.
Along my restless palms Ever since Cas started staying in the bunker, Dean’s been having these crazy dreams—dreams that feature him and Cas in absurd, tawdry scenarios like something out of a filthy paperback. Dean chalks it up to exhaustion, or some monster messing with his head, anything to ignore the real cause: Cas in his personal space, in various states of undress, and, wow, way more muscular than Dean would’ve expected. But if it’s just physical lust that’s the cause, then that’s an easy fix, right? No big deal. There’s definitely nothing else that his subconscious is trying to tell him. Absolutely not.
last but not least Pretty much anything by xylodemon. The atmosphere and the way characters are portrayed are *chef kiss* There are a lor of case fics and they really feels like actual episodes from supernatural just way less omophobic and more fun.
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Let Me Do The Work TEASER [t.h.]
MASTERLIST
Pairing: Tom Holland x Fem!Reader
Word Count: ?k
Posted: 11/16/2020
Warning(s): Fluff, smut, unprotected sex (wrap it up kids), oral sex (f receiving), maybe too much plot? and definitely a whole lotta lazy sex sue me.
Summary: Tom thinks you deserve a reward after a hard few days at work.
A/N: First smut in the bag lets go. Also, the point of view makes no sense but continuity is not in my vocabulary so. Anyway, the full part is almost finished so lmk how you guys like this!
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When Tom got home on Wednesday night the last thing he expected his girlfriend to say was “Wanna have sex?” He had asked a few times before if you could and your response was usually something to the effect of “Sorry babe, another time, I’m just exhausted.” He knew your job was taxing and took a lot out of you and, frankly, Tom could survive the work week without getting any. He also knew that once Friday night rolled around it was all systems go; the weekend was yours to fool around as much as you wanted. And he was willing to wait.
Asking never hurt, though. Tom wasn’t annoying about it, at least he hoped he wasn’t. And for all the times you’d asked to have sex after he had a particularly exhausting day on set and he agreed, he didn’t feel super guilty about asking now and then.
It was unusual that Tom would be so exhausted from working that he didn't have any energy left to have sex. There had been some rare days when Tom could barely keep his eyes open even though you were right there, naked and sweaty, and riding his cock right on the living room couch. Your hands would be resting on his broad shoulders, your fingers digging into the muscles beneath his freckled skin as you bounced on his cock and his hands could barely stay put on your waist or hips to help you move. Sure, he liked watching you rise and fall on his lap and he liked seeing himself disappear inside of you and he liked the way your tits bounced with every movement and he liked watching your face. God, he loved your gorgeous face.
Your eyes would flutter open and closed the closer you got and you’d look at him with your big, beautiful eyes that were dark and lust blown and your jaw would go slack and you’d throw your head back in pleasure. Your movements would get sloppier as you’d start shaking and convulsing while you came. His arms would lazily wrap around your waist to pull you closer and you’d nuzzle your face into the crook of his neck, breathing hard against his skin as you came down from your high. But Tom couldn’t find it in himself to even worry about his own orgasm, he just wanted to sleep.
So when he came home to your shared flat around 7 pm from walking Tessa on a particularly boring Wednesday, now that he had a break, and saw you lying on the couch with a glass of red wine in one hand and your other arm thrown over your eyes, he figured it was pointless to ask. You had gotten home sometime while he was out, didn’t bother changing out of your blouse and jeans just yet, popped a bottle open, and poured yourself a glass.
Tom unclipped the leash from Tessa’s collar, allowing her to run free around the flat. Immediately, she trotted over to you, nuzzling your legs with her nose until you caved and gave her a few scratches behind her ears. Tom slipped off his sneakers, padding over to you, causing Tessa to run off in search of her favorite toy. The couch sank under his weight as he sat down next to your head, your eyebrows raised at the shift.
“Hey, stranger,” you muttered, removing your arm from covering your half-lidded eyes. Your eyes sparkled in the dim living room lighting as you looked up at Tom. He couldn’t remember a single time they looked dull. Not during a fight, or when you were sad or tired or sick, never. They reminded him of stars. No matter what, they kept shining.
“Hi love,” Tom leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on your wine-stained lips. The upside-down angle was slightly awkward, but you’d be lying if you said you two hadn’t done the Spider-Man Kiss before, per his request.
You smiled up at him as he pulled away and closed your eyes. Tom threaded his fingers through your messy locks and you relaxed, even more, leaning your head into his hand.
“Long day?” He asked, continuing to run his fingers through your hair.
“Don’t even get me started,” you huffed out, dramatically throwing your arm back over your eyes, which made Tom chuckle at your antics.
“Tell me what happened?” He asked, and as you lowered your arm, you raised a single eyebrow at him.
“You sure?” You asked cautiously, “Because I wouldn’t wish the shit I dealt with today on my worst enemy.”
Tom scoffed, shrugging his shoulders, “Try me.”
You sighed before beginning your story. Today had been insufferable. From the minute you clocked in, to the minute you clocked out, it had been hell. One coworker in particular, with whom you were not super close or friends with in any way, kept nagging you about your relationship like she did every single day.
The incessant questioning and probing was getting old and, quite frankly, rude. The questions started out harmless, like everyone else’s when they found out the Tom Holland was your boyfriend. Some asked for autographs or pictures and you declined, saying that if he ever came in Tom would be more than happy to do that. And Tom agreed; you playing messenger was weird and not the type of thing either of you wanted people to get accustomed to. And most people understood; except for one.
The more she asked the worse they got. Personal questions were the norm now. Questions about family members and life together and sex. God, the sex questions never ended. ‘Is it good?’ and ‘What are you guys into?’ were some of her favorites. Sometimes she’d get creative with them and switch them up. And every time, you refused to answer. And you relayed this information to Tom like you did most days, and he rolled his eyes in annoyance at her ignorance before leaning down and pressing a soft kiss to your forehead when he saw you were getting riled up.
You softened immediately and sighed. Tom had a calming effect on you. Just being around him was relaxing. After so long together he still could calm you down. And he was cheaper than your copay for therapy, so hey why not vent to him?
“Just forget about her for now, babe,” Tom sighed out, continuing to stroke your hair, “she’s not worth your energy.”
“You're right,” you said quietly, “I’m home, I got my wine, I got my boy, I can relax.”
“Exactly,” Tom said, laughing at your words. He didn’t feel the need to say anything else as you both relaxed, his fingers still threaded in your hair, until a few more minutes went by, your eyes opened, and you turned your head to make sure you were setting down your not yet empty glass on the coffee table.
A soft “hey” escaped Tom’s lips as he watched you use your arms to lean up and turn to face him. He would’ve spoken more but was cut off as your lips pressed to his, the kiss awkward since you had caught him as he was speaking. His lips were slightly chapped and he tasted like spearmint gum as you hovered over him and moved your lips against his.
Tom sighed into the kiss, bringing one hand up to cup your cheek. You clumsily clambered into Tom’s sweatpants clad lap to straddle him and his other hand sat high on your thigh. The kiss was slow and passionate, neither of you in a rush to go further just yet. You melted into the kiss as his tongue slid along your lower lip to ask for permission to enter. You parted your lips immediately, allowing Tom access. After a few moments of lazily making out like teenagers, you pulled away to catch your breath. You closed your eyes, leaning your forehead against Tom’s as you both panted, trying to catch your breath.
“Can we go to our room?” You mumbled, just loud enough for Tom to hear. Your voice was low, soft, and a little shaky from being so tired. His eyes opened at your words and his ears perked up. Tom pulled his head away from yours and your eyes returned to their half-open state.
“I thought you were tired?” He questioned teasingly, tucking some strands of hair behind both your ears and resting his hands on your cheeks. You reached up and wrapped your fingers around Tom’s wrists, smiling sweetly at him. He was sure his heart damn near melted in his chest at the sight of his sleepy girlfriend asking to have sex with him.
“I am,” you said softly, smirking as Tom ran his hands down your sides and settled over your hips, “why do you think I wanna go to our room?” You joked, wrapping your arms loosely around his neck and ducking your head down to place soft kisses along the side of it. He sighed, tilting his head in the opposite direction to give you more room as your fingers carded through the short, soft curls at the back of his head.
“You sure?” Tom asked breathily, as you continued laying kisses across his jaw and below his ear, “Because I don’t want you to do it just because I want to-”
“Tom,” you huffed, pulling away from his neck, your hands migrating to rest on his shoulders. He straightened up and opened his eyes as the feeling of your soft lips disappeared from his neck. “I’m sure. Now shut up and take me to the bedroom.”
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FULL PART
A/N: AAAHHHH ok I mean I definitely put words on the page lol. Fr tho this is the first time I’ve ever posted anything so lmk if y’all want the rest! Feedback is always appreciated! <3
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hansoulo · 5 years
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Interrupted
Pairings - Javier Peña/Reader
Warnings - cursing, allusions to sex, spicy timez (no actual smut tho i'm a child of the lord 😤)
Word Count - 1.2k
Request - "With the sudden surge of dad!Javi fics, please bless us with some dad!Javi softness if you can? Something like where they're tired af parents tryna bang but they keep getting interrupted, and ultimately they do bang but it's all laughs and kisses and argjakdhjakjjdjf my heart 😭"
(A/N: I hope you like it anon!! dad!Javi makes me all kinds of soft so this was fun)
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Javier got as far as the third button of your blouse before you heard a soft wailing sound. Groaning, he pressed his forehead into the flushed skin of your chest, his hands coming to rest down at his sides. You stood between his knees as he sat on the edge of the bed and he could make out your face against the faint light of the hallway, your eyes rolling back with the last ghosts of his fingers.
"Your turn or mine?" you asked, your voice still breathy and keening. Javier kissed the bare skin of your neck and stood up, letting his hands drift down to grip at your thighs. Swatting him away, you raised an eyebrow and pushed him back slightly with your hands on his shoulders.
"Javi," you warned, "María's crying."
"It's my turn," he admitted, giving a light squeeze to your legs before moving beside you to walk to the nursery.
"Later, okay?" you promised, pressing your lips to his cheek. He nodded, eyelids already growing heavy.
You sighed as he stepped out, letting yourself fall back onto the bed with a soft thud while trying to suppress the growing pulse between your legs. You loved your baby daughter, but she also made life damn hard sometimes. If she wants siblings, you thought, she needs to start sleeping through the night.
You waited for a few moments, listening to the sounds of Javier's voice as he soothed her. Smiling slightly when you heard him whisper in Spanish, you rubbed at your eyes and pressed a palm to your chest, trying to calm your quickened heartbeat. It was unlikely María would settle down any time soon, proving fussy and easy to wake. Javier would probably fall asleep sitting by her crib again, so her future siblings would have to wait. For tonight, at least.
Unbuttoning the rest of your top, you tossed it into a pile with your pants and climbed underneath the covers, burying your face into Javier's pillow. It smelled like tobacco and only served to heighten your ache for his touch.
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When you said later that night you didn't think it would mean nearly two weeks after the fact. 
"She's sleeping now," you said quietly, walking back into your bedroom with a click of the doorknob.
Javier practically ripped your clothes off, enveloping your lips in his with a needy groan. His hands were everywhere, hot and scraping where the calluses of his palms met your skin, and it felt so damn good. Gasping in his mouth, you tugged at his shirt, face growing flushed with anticipation.
You felt him lift you up by your waist and press you to the wall. The plaster was rough against your back, but you couldn't give less of a shit. For the six months since María had been born, all you and Javier had time for was kissing, maybe a quickie if you got lucky. This was an extremely limited window of opportunity and you sure as hell weren't gonna waste any time.
You almost had the buckle of his belt undone before a high-pitched scream broke through the air, cutting your panting breaths short. More followed soon after, falling in a quick, piercing succession that was impossible to ignore. Cursing under his breath, Javier dug his fingers into your hips and pulled his lips from where they had attached to your jaw, looking up at you with heated eyes.
"Can't we just let her, I don't know, cry it out?" he mumbled, reaching down to the waistband of your pants. Smacking him lightly upside the head, you protested.
"No, you dipshit," you said, untangling yourself from his arms, "We can't just let her cry it out. I don't think her screaming makes for a great bedroom soundtrack, either."
Javier cocked his head, pretending to consider for a moment.
"We could just ignore it," he proposed, eyes latching onto the light hickeys across your neck. Rolling your eyes, you smiled and dove underneath his arms to settle the baby, hair still mussed and one bra strap falling down your shoulder. At this rate, the pair of you might as well just take vows of celibacy and make the whole thing official.
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María cooed as she chewed on a plastic teething toy, smiling as she was being strapped into the backseat of your parents' car. You stood near the trunk, loading in her bags and making sure nothing was forgotten. Wiping your palms on the front of your jeans, you stepped forward to meet Javier, who was leaning against the hood talking to your father. He was wearing those yellow aviators he knew you liked.
"So we'll see you next week, then?" your mother asked, her English tinged with a slight Colombian accent. You nodded, leading Javier's arm to wrap around your shoulders.
"We'll be back by next Tuesday," Javier said, looking over at María. You had both been called to Medellín for a week or so, him as a DEA agent and you at the Embassy as a program analyst. You didn't have to leave for another few days, but your parents had offered to take María earlier and both you and Javier had jumped at the chance. You weren't glad to be rid of your daughter, per say, but you weren't upset at the prospect of some time alone with your husband. You were over the fucking moon about it, actually.
Leaning over the backseat, you tickled at María's stomach and smiled.
"I'll see you soon, okay?" you promised her as you moved away from the car towards the door of your apartment. Javier stepped into your place and set his hand on her head, stroking his fingers through the down of her hair, dark and thick, just like his. You could see his eyes soften beneath the reflection of his sunglasses and your chest swelled when he pressed a light kiss to her forehead.
Your mother reached in for a hug before climbing into the passenger seat while Javier and your father shook hands. Waving as they drove away, you turned to him.
"So…" you teased with a grin, reaching up to fiddle with the collar of his shirt.
He looked down at you, amused, and before you could blink Javier had lifted you up by your legs and led them to wrap around his middle, surging forward to press his lips into the slope of your neck. Laughing at his impatience, you threw your arms around him and gripped his hips with your calves. You weren't entirely sure how he managed to get the pair of you back inside your apartment, but you were too preoccupied with the feeling of his mouth to care. So much for that vow of celibacy, you thought.
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milkttea · 4 years
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𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙗𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙐𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙆𝙣𝙤𝙬
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𝘉𝘢𝘬𝘶𝘨𝘰𝘶 𝘹 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
Warnings: angst, slight Dabi x reader, hero turned villain, blood, guns, bullets, uuhhh if you don’t like it don’t read, read some fluff but if you want angst and a sad Bakugou >:)
Notes: this wasn’t requested I got the idea from a tik tok by kyaasan it really brought on the angst hehe have fun y’all
What the readers costume looks like.
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Nausea.
Nausea was what you first felt.
Nausea and then anger.
Anger at him or at yourself you didn’t know, but seeing him— seeing Bakugou there with that girl and talking without an ounce of hostility only light banter had just filled you with rage that hit you in your heart and soon filled your mind.
It was overpowering and made your mind fill with an inky black that slowly took over and only filled you with more and more sadness.
It was all you could focus on— it was too much you needed to leave before you did something awful. Something un-hero like, that wouldn’t exactly make you a very good hero now would it?
Attacking an innocent girl for interacting with Bakugou, with him looking at her with such adoration, such kindness. You only wished he could look at you that way.
Your quirk soon became making its way out of you and filling the surrounding area with a blood lust and making the metal workings around you creak and bend. A blood lust that was not unnoticed by a villain from a certain group that has caused nothing but pain for your class.
Fragments of buildings were breaking and groaning, causing citizens to panic as they wondered if this was the workings of a villain. This panic didn’t go unnoticed as the watching eyes of a villain were settled on your form as you stared at Bakugou and the other girl.
If only you knew that the only reason Bakugou was looking at the girl with such love in his eyes was because he imagined it to be you. Maybe it was the workings of her quirk that made him believe it was you, you’d never know.
He truly did love you and it was this love that blinded him from seeing your form crumple to the ground like leaves from a tree. The reason he was speaking to this girl— if you looked close enough there were some parts of her that resembled you— to work up the nerve in holding a meaningful conversation with you. In doing so however, he found that he enjoyed her company and completely forgot about his purpose of bringing her to this spot to chat.
Sometimes love could break you.
It sent you running.
Running far away from him, far away from the girl, and far far away from UA.
For the longest time you wondered if UA was truly the right place for you, the more you worked with the Heroes and fought your peers you truly wondered if Heroes were in the right. They left destruction and pain behind while taking in people and ruining their lives.
Yes there were people who did truly awful things but there were also those who had to do those things because these Heroes failed them when they needed them most.
The word left a bad taste in your mouth, making you gag as you ran away.
Heroes made you sick to your stomach sometimes. The things they did and the way they affected lives, everyone depended on them and would only accept their help— no one else’s.
You found yourself at an alley hiding in the corner from other peoples eyes. People were always so nosy, getting into business they don’t belong in.
“Well, well if it isn’t a UA student. What’s a small hero doing out here by themselves it could be dangerous you know, with all these villains running around.”
Looking up, the tears in your eyes fell against your will once you locked eyes with one of the most dangerous villains you’ve ever encountered. Dabi. A villain with a fire quirk and flames that burn hotter than Endeavor and Todoroki. The presence of him was enough to make you freeze in your spot— ironically.
“You trying to pick a fight or something cause I’m really not feeling it,” you say in between sniffles as you wipe your eyes.
He walks closer to you, towering over your crumpled form and tilts his head as he looks at you. His eyes narrow as he looks deep in your eyes as they avert from his gaze, and sees the hatred you have, not directed at him, but at someone else.
A look he knows all too well.
“So you hate someone? That’s it?”
Shocked you look up and properly look him in the eyes.
“How did you—?”
With a wave of his hand, blue flames escape and fly slightly towards your face in the shape of All Might then Endeavor.
“I’ve seen my fair share of hatred, but the hatred I see in you reminds me all too well of myself. How about we make a deal?”
He smirks at you as you furrow your brows and think about what this could mean for you.
“Look I’m not the most patient person, but I’m willing to help you get revenge on those heroes.”
You waited for a few more seconds and finally nodded your head, an evil grin appearing on Dabi’s face as he took your hand and led you further down the dark ally where you both disappeared from the public.
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Weeks had passed since then, and during those weeks life had been hectic for the staff at UA and your friends.
You had been named missing and your teachers had been left to wonder if you were kidnapped or worse. Your parents were worried and asked for your safe return wherever you were, you saw the news at the League of Villains hideout where the news had been playing.
The heroes had been searching for you at every possible location they could imagine and your fellow classmates had been questioned on if you’d been feeling weird the past few days before your disappearance.
“I don’t know where the extra could have gone, do I look like I know them?!”
Despite his brashness Bakugou was worried, he hated to admit it but he was concerned for your well-being.
Where could you have gone?
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“Huh... so they care now. How disappointing.”
Dabi put an arm around you as you sat on a couch playing with a piece of metal and forming it into different shapes.
“Well today will be your debut day. How do you feel?”
You stopped with the metal in your hand formed into the shape of an explosion before you crushed it with your hand and let it crumble to the floor.
With a smile on your face and your eyes glowing you responded, “like I could take on the world.”
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While the students were on their training with their respective heroes, a few had gathered together to discuss the recent events and what may have happened to their classmate.
“Deku, do you ever wonder what could have happened to Y/n?”
Midoriya looked at Uraraka who was fiddling with her fingers and he thought for a few seconds before looking at her.
“I wonder everyday what made her disappear and what could have been done differently had we known that she would disappear.”
Bakugou couldn’t help but overhear the conversation as more students began to converse and speculate what could happen. It made him frustrated that he didn’t have any idea what could have happened.
Before they could think more about what could have happened, screams rang out from the crowd as a fire broke out with Dabi in the center, his hand around the neck of a hero as he burned them alive and threw them aside.
The hero course students, having their hero licenses took to action as they worked to get the civilians out of range of Dabi who merely stood there watching as they did what Heroes do. The trio of boys who threw themselves face first into danger were the first to act as they attacked Dabi, only for more villains to emerge and stop them as they began to fight.
More heroes joined the fight as Nomu began to emerge from out of no where. Wreaking havac while the heroes were doing their best to keep damage to a minimum.
Dabi only smirks at the destruction in his wake, satisfaction written on his face. He puts a finger to his ear and presses on the ear piece hidden by his black hair and speaks into it, words unheard by the students, but the actions noticed by Midoriya and Bakugou.
“Hey! Bastard who you talking to?! You have a fight right in front of you!”
Bakugou lunges forward palm extended as he makes an explosion in Dabis face. He prepares for another when a stinging pain emerges in his arm.
He grabs his arm as he winced in pain, noticing a hole and a very faint red light set on his person. He looks up to where the source is coming from only vaguely seeing a person upside down, legs wrapped around a wire with a gun aimed at him.
He quickly runs from your view as you take more shots at him. Noticing Bakugou running from the area and going behind a car, Midoriya and Todoroki follow suit.
“What happened?”
Bakugou clenches his teeth and rips a piece of his costume and ties it around the wound.
“There’s a shooter on the building, damn extra got me in my arm. I’m gonna get ‘em don’t follow me half-and-half bastard! You too damn nerd!”
“Kacchan wait—!”
Bakugou already left exploding his way to your location.
You already left tho, the wire suspending you reeling you up and on top of the building as you run, gun in hand planting metal canisters with metallic vapors around the area.
Bakugou soon found himself in front of you as you smirked and aimed your gun at him, he let out an explosion in front of your face thinking it would blind you as he ran around to attack you. What he didn’t know was that the special headset you had target locators in them and infrared lighting, meaning you could see him.
Still he was able to get a hit on you and blast you away and towards the edge of the building. He lands another punch on you as you block it with your metal brackets on your arm.
“Who the hell are you?!”
You ignore him as you throw a canister in his face momentarily surprising him as you shoot it, letting out a miniature explosion and commanding the metal shrapnel inside to form together as needles and enter Bakugous body.
He cursed at the pain and you make your escape.
Smirking you jump off the building to a smaller one and continue shooting at the heroes with your bullets. Not killing them but injuring them enough as you manipulated the bullets to let out paralytic toxins.
Bakugou eventually comes to his senses, grunting in pain but continuing after you. You hear this and turn around briefly only to come face to face with Bakugou who tackles you to the ground.
“Shit—”
He kicks your gun away after you drop it from him colliding with you and he grips your hands as you struggle.
You let out a grappling hook to pull you away from him, but his reflexes kick in as he grabs the hook and pulls it to wrap around your hands.
“Who the fuck are you,” he seethes as he rips off the headset on you and freezing as he sees your eyes glaring at him.
“(Y/n)— but you, why are you—”
With perfect timing a portal opens behind you and Dabi emerges, ready to burn Bakugou but you grab his hand to stop him.
Bakugou in shock just falls to his knees mouth open in shock as Dabi stares down at him with a sickening smirk. You look Bakugou in the eyes and say these parting words before you leave with Dabi’s hand in yours.
“I’m just someone you used to know. I will always resent you Bakugou Katsuki.”
Bakugou let’s tears fall from his eyes as his heart clenches in pain, feeling the pain of heartbreak settle in he screams in anguish as he sobs.
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kpopblurbs · 5 years
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Pairing: Jae/Wonpil Word Count: 3.8k Tags: Porn With Plot, Sex Shop AU, Sex Toys, Anal Sex, Anal Plug, Hair-pulling, Vibrator, Slight sub!Jae, Sungjin is there for banter A/N: owo whats this? a sex shop au written by someone who actually works at a sex shop?? Real talk tho what wonpil does is exactly what every creep that comes into the shop i work at wishes i would do Smutmas Masterlist AO3 Link
Wonpil sighed as he paced around the store, fixing the items that customers had messed up and making sure that everything was as it should be before returning to the front counter. "Morning shift sucks," he said as he propped an arm up on the counter to rest his chin on.
"Yeah well, better this than dealing with the drunks." Sungjin responded without looking up from his book.
"I dunno I think that's fun, they at least laugh at my jokes," Wonpil pouted.
"They're drunk, their judgment is impaired."
"You're crabby in the morning."
"And you have too much energy."
Wonpil opened his mouth to respond when the door chime rang out indicating the arrival of a customer. Immediately the smaller boy walked in the direction of the door spouting his usual, "Hi, welcome, looking for anything specific today?" upon seeing the boy who had entered. He was much taller than Wonpil, a bit thinner too but above all else he seemed very nervous.
"No, I uh, I'm just looking," the boy said and Wonpil smiled.
"First time in a sex shop?" Wonpil asked.
"Uh- yeah," the boy said, refusing to make eye contact with Wonpil.
"Well if you have any questions at all don't hesitate to ask, this is a judgment free zone I promise," Wonpil said in his best reassuring voice.
The boy nodded, mumbling a "Thanks,'" before wandering off into the store. Wonpil let out a sigh, he had been hoping for something to do but it seemed like the boy was going to be one of those customers that wanted to be left alone and likely didn't buy anything.
"Why don't people want help?" Wonpil asked with a pout as he returned to the counter.
"Sex is an awkward topic for most people," Sungjin responded, still not looking up from his book.
"Whatcha readin'?" Wonpil asked, peering over the counter to make his best attempt at reading the words on the page though it was upside down for him.
Sungjin sighed, "A very interesting book that I would love to read in peace."
"But what else am I supposed to do if not continue to bother you?"
"Go clean something," Sungjin said, grabbing a rag from behind the counter and tossing it to Wonpil, "Preferably near the guy who came in, make sure he's not stealing."
Wonpil sighed overdramatically but grabbed the rag and headed off in the direction of the boy. He picked a section where he could keep an eye on the boy before beginning to dust all the merchandise in that section.
It wasn't long until he was interrupted by the sound of someone clearing their throat. He looked up to see the boy standing next to him, "Can you, uh, help me?" he asked and Wonpil smiled.
"Of course!" he said, stuffing the rag into the pocket of his apron, "What can I help you with?"
"Well, I was, uh, looking for something to help me, yknow..." the boy trailed off awkwardly before making an awkward jerking motion with his fist.
"Oh we have a ton of stuff for masturbation," Wonpil said, his straightforward tone making the boy blush slightly. He led the boy to a wall stocked full of various fleshlights and masturbators and began to explain the differences between all of them.
Wonpil could tell the boy was getting a little overwhelmed and stopped himself from continuing to overexplain the wall, opting instead to grab a smaller off-brand fleshlight and hand it to the boy. "I know you're new to this so trust me when I say that's the one you want to start with, if you like it you can invest in a better one, if not, throw it out like nothing happened," Wonpil explained.
"Do you, uh, do you have one that doesn't look like a..." the boy started, trailing off and allowing Wonpil to cut him off.
"Vagina? Of course, do you want ass or mouth?"
The boy blinked slowly, "The first one," he said and Wonpil nodded, grabbing the toy out of the boys hand and replacing it with the correct one. 
"Anything else I can help you with?"
“No, I think that’s it,” the boy said, giving Wonpil a small smile that made his heart flutter.
“Alright, well feel free to wander around for as long as you want but if you’re done then Sungjin up at the counter can help you check out,” Wonpil said with a smile, waiting for the boy to nod before turning around and going back to his cleaning.
He watched as the boy headed up to the counter and waited for the sound of the door chime indicating he had left before making his way back to the counter. “He was cute,” he said with a pout as he leaned on the glass countertop.
“Why do you insist on leaning on the counter when you know that means I’ll have to clean it?” Sungjin asked exasperatedly, finally looking at the smaller boy since helping the customer meant he had to close his book.
“I’ll clean it later, didn’t you think he was cute?” Wonpil asked.
“I mean yeah but he’s much more your type,” Sungjin responded with a shrug.
“You think?”
“Yeah, I mean you being all heart eyes over him is proof enough,”
“Fair point,” Wonpil sighed, “You think he’ll come back in?”
“He seemed happy when he left.”
Wonpil smiled, “Good.”
It was about a week later when the boy returned, once again stopping Wonpil from continuing to harass Sungjin out of boredom. This time he headed straight for the counter, surprising Sungjin and Wonpil who had missed the sound of the door due to their bickering. “Hi,” the boy said, catching both boys’ attention before settling his gaze on Wonpil, “I don’t know if you remember me but I was in here about a week ago?” the boy said asked.
Wonpil nodded, “Yeah, I remember, how’d that masturbator work for you?” 
The boy cleared his throat awkwardly, “That’s uh, actually what I was hoping to talk to you about, can we maybe uh..” the boy trailed off, tilting his head in a direction away from the front counter.
“Yeah of course,” Wonpil pushed himself away from the counter and lead the boy to the other side of the store, “What’s up?” he asked.
“Okay so,” the boy started, “I don’t even know if this is something you can help me with but I used the thing and it was like... disappointing?”
“Disappointing?” Wonpil asked, tilting his head curiously.
“Yeah, I dunno, it’s like I was expecting something but it just felt like..” he sighed, “It kindof just felt like using my hand but maybe like a little different?”
“Maybe you just need to get more comfortable with it?” Wonpil suggested.
“Like just use it more?”
“Yeah, like try again but, and I don’t know how you did it the first time but, try making like an experience out of it.”
“Like... how?”
“Well, yknow, drag it out, don’t just make it like a few strokes and you’re good, tease yourself with it.”
“I’ve, uh, I’ve never done that before,” the boy rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly, “I’m sure you have a lot more experience than I do,” he mumbled.
Wonpil was trying his hardest to keep himself from potentially making the boy uncomfortable by offering up some assistance but that task was proving incredibly difficult the more this cute boy talked. "I mean, I had to learn this knowledge too, though I will say it helped having my boyfriend at the time walk me through it," Wonpil said with a shrug.
"Oh so you're, uhm, you're gay?" the boy asked
"Yup," Wonpil responded with a smile.
"Oh, I uh, that's cool, uh, same," the boy mumbled awkwardly.
There was that little devil on Wonpil's shoulder again, pushing him to offer up his services, this time it was shouting at him too loud to ignore so he decided to test the waters. "Yknow, toys like this can definitely be more fun with a little help," Wonpil said, putting on his best customer service voice just in case the boy was less than receptive.
"I-I mean I don't really have anyone to help me so.." the boy trailed off with a shrug.
"Do you want someone to help you?"
"I mean, that'd be nice but finding someone is easier said than done," the boy responded, clearly not picking up on what Wonpil was implying.
"I dunno, help could be closer than you think."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You're dense," Wonpil said with a sigh, "Lucky you're cute."
"Hey!" the boy said before actually registering what Wonpil was saying, "Wait you think I'm cute?"
"What's your name?" Wonpil asked, preparing to make his offer perfectly clear.
"Oh, uh, it's Jae."
"Well, Jae, I’m Wonpil and I'm offering up my services and knowledge to help you figure out your new toy," Wonpil explained, enjoying the way Jae's cheeks turned pink as he talked.
"O-oh."
"Feel free to say no, but you're very cute, and I'm very gay, and I'm really good with my hands," Wonpil said, punctuating his last statement with a wink.
"I-I-" the boy started to talk before stopping to take a breath and collect himself, "I think that sounds nice."
Wonpil beamed, "Good!" he said happily, "Just wait right there for a second."
The boy nodded and Wonpil scurried off to the counter, "Gimme a pen and a sticky note, I'm trying to get a cute boy to dick me down, " he said to Sungjin as he slammed his hands down on the counter.
"Too much information," Sungjin said with a sigh before passing the requested items to the smaller boy. Wonpil scribbled down his phone number and grabbed the sticky note, tossing a "Thanks!" over his shoulder as he rushed back to Jae.
"Text me when you're free," Wonpil said as he handed the paper to Jae.
"Thanks, yeah, I will, is there, uh, anything I should buy, yknow while I'm here?" Jae asked.
"I can bring options, we'll experiment before I make you buy anything," Wonpil responded with a wink.
"Sounds good, I'll uh, I'll text you then," Jae said and Wonpil nodded, smiling brightly as Jae turned to leave. 
Wonpil waited until he had left the store before scurrying back to the counter, "Mission get cute boy to dick me down is a success,” he said happily.
“Congrats, buddy,” Sungjin said before reaching behind the counter and grabbing a basket full of items, “Now go put all this back out on the shelves.”
Wonpil sighed as he grabbed the basket, “You’re no fun,” he pouted before heading off to do what he was told.
Jae wound up texting Wonpil that day, the both of them settling on a night that week to meet up at Jae’s house. Wonpil was perfectly punctual, knocking on Jae’s door exactly when they had agreed to meet. The door swung open a few moments later, revealing Jae in casual clothes, his hair still wet from the shower he had to have just taken. “Oh, Wonpil, sorry I totally lost track of time, please come in,” Jae said, stepping aside and allowing the smaller boy to walk inside.
“You’re fine, I mean if all goes well we’re only gonna get messy right?” Wonpil said with a wink as he slipped past Jae.
Jae chuckled as he closed the door, “Fair point,” he said before taking a breath, “So, I’ve never done this before so like.. Bear with me.”
“No worries, we’ll move at your pace,” Wonpil said as he stepped closer to Jae, “That just means you’ll have to be the first to kiss me,” he continued lowly, looking up at the taller boy.
Jae gulped, “Can I kiss you?” he asked at a near whisper.
Wonpil nodded, “Please do.”
Jae closed the distance between them, bringing his hand to Wonpil’s cheek as he leaned down and pressed his lips gently to Wonpils. Jae was about to pull away when Wonpil reached up and grabbed him by the back of the neck, keeping him there to deepen the kiss. Jae squeaked in surprise but recovered quickly, falling into rhythm with Wonpil and even opening his mouth slightly and allowing the smaller boy to slip his tongue into Jae’s mouth. 
Wonpil moved his hand up from the back of Jae’s neck and into his hair, tangling his fingers into the strands and tugging gently. Jae let out a soft moan into the kiss before breaking it off, pulling back just barely enough to speak though their noses were almost touching. “What happened to moving at my pace?” Jae asked with a slight chuckle.
“I’m a very impatient person,” Wonpil responded with a shrug.
“Well maybe we should move at your pace, then,” Jae suggested.
Wonpil smiled, “In that case we should move this to your bedroom,” he said with a wink. Wonpil loosened his grip on Jae’s hair, allowing him to pull away and lead Wonpil to the bedroom.
As soon as they entered the room Wonpil dropped the bag that he had brought to the ground and pushed Jae onto the bed before climbing on top of him to reconnect their kiss. He brought one hand back to Jae’s hair to tug on it gently, Jae put his hands on Wonpil’s hips, squeezing gently as he tried to hold back the whine that bubbled up in his throat. This time it was Wonpil who broke the kiss, “Where’d you put the toy?” he asked as he sat up still straddling Jae.
“Drawer,” Jae said, gesturing to the bedside table. Wonpil crawled off of Jae, moving across the room to grab his bag and pull out a couple of items before returning to the bedside table and pulling Jae’s toy out of the drawer.
He tossed the items down on the bed next to Jae, “Yknow, in order for this to continue you’re gonna need to not be wearing pants,” Wonpil said with a wink. Jae was quick to react, shimmying out of his sweatpants and tossing them to the ground. He paused for a second before realizing that he hadn’t been wearing any underwear and bringing a hand up to cover himself shyly. Wonpil chuckled, “You’re cute, here, I’ll make it fair,” he said before shedding himself of his clothes. He reached down to pull Jae’s shirt up, the older boy lifting himself up to allow Wonpil to tug the fabric up over his head.
Wonpil tossed the shirt to the ground before crawling back up on the bed and sitting himself next to Jae. He brought a hand to Jae’s chest, using a finger to trace gentle patterns across his skin while his other hand went back to Jae’s hair. Jae squirmed awkwardly like he was unsure of what to do with himself, Wonpil decided to take mercy on the boy and moved his hand down. Jae gasped as Wonpil wrapped his hand around his dick, he stroked him a couple of times before realizing what he had forgotten and pulling away. Jae looked up at him with hurt in his eyes, “I brought some things,” Wonpil said.
Jae looked at him curiously, “Should I be nervous?” he asked.
“Only if you’re afraid of feeling good,” Wonpil said with a wink. He reached for the items on the bed, picking up the bottle of warming lube he brought and showing it to Jae, “Step one of my genius three step plan.”
Jae watched as Wonpil cracked open the lube and drizzled some over his hand before moving back to wrap his hand around Jae’s dick. Jae hissed at the cold sensation of the lube as Wonpil stroked him before he felt it start to warm up. Wonpil continued to stroke him slowly, his clean hand still tugging on Jae’s hair gently. With a particularly strong tug on his hair, Jae couldn’t hold back the low moan as his hips bucked up into Wonpil’s hand. Wonpil smiled, “So you like having your hair pulled,” he hummed, “We’ll play with that another time,” he said with a wink.
Wonpil pulled his hand away from Jae’s hair to grab the soft silicone fleshlight, “Let’s see if I can make you fall in love with this,” he said. He held it up for Jae to see before positioning it over Jae’s dick, using the hand that was already there to line Jae up with the opening before lowering the toy onto his dick. Jae let out a moan as Wonpil began to move the toy up and down, his pace quickening until he had Jae squirming beneath him.
“Pil -ah- please,” Jae gasped.
“What do you need?” Wonpil asked softly, not slowing down the pace of the toy.
“I need to cum, please,” Jae begged.
“Aw, do you need my permission? That’s so cute,” Wonpil cooed before pulling the toy completely off of Jae, “But I can’t let you cum so soon.”
Jae let out a whimper as his hips bucked desperately, “Please, no, please I-” he whined, cut off by Wonpil hushing him.
“Shh, baby, you’ll get to cum just not yet,” Wonpil soothed, waiting until Jae calmed down before sinking the toy back down on his dick. This time he picked up the other toy he had brought, a small vibrator that he promptly switched on and pressed to the outside of the fleshlight. Jae moaned loudly as the vibrations traveled through the silicone surrounding his dick, his hips bucked wildly as he tried to get more stimulation.
Eventually, Wonpil just held the toy still, letting Jae fuck up into it at his own pace, enjoying the way the older boy was falling apart in front of him. It didn’t take much longer for Jae to reach the edge again, he wasn’t subtle about it in the least, the movement of his hips was getting sloppier and his moans were louder and more desperate. Wonpil waited just a few more moments before turning off the vibrator and pulling the toy away.
“Come on,” Jae whined desperately, “Please, Piri, I need to cum please.”
“Wouldn’t you rather have the real thing, though?” Wonpil asked.
“Fuck, wait, seriously?”
Wonpil laughed, “You didn’t think you were gonna have all the fun did you?”
“I-I don’t know what I thought,” Jae responded.
“Cute,” Wonpil hummed before setting the toys down and moving back to straddle Jae. He grabbed Jae’s hand and moved it to his ass, “I try my best to think ahead,” he said as Jae felt the jewel on the end of the plug Wonpil had put in before he had arrived.
“Holy shit, Wonpil,” Jae muttered softly, “Can I?”
“Go for it,” Wonpil responded with a smile. Jae grabbed the end of the plug gently, pulling on it slowly and watching the way Wonpil’s brow furrowed as the plug moved. Jae experimented a bit, pulling it out just enough for Wonpil to feel the stretch before pushing it back in. “Now who’s a tease?” Wonpil said cheekily, trying to maintain his composure though there was a slight tremble to his voice.
“Karma’s a bitch,” Jae responded, wiggling the plug around gently so it brushed against Wonpil’s prostate making him let out a moan.
“If you -ah- if you don’t quit teasing I’ll never let you cum,” Wonpil said between gasps as Jae continued to wiggle the plug around.
Immediately Jae relented, pulling the plug out of Wonpil’s ass slowly and setting it to the side, “Not even gonna risk that,” he said making Wonpil let out a chuckle.
“Good boy,” he hummed, not missing the way Jae bit his lip, a hint of a blush ghosting his cheeks, “God, you’re like an endless list of kinks to explore,” Wonpil said with a smile.
“S-Shut up,” Jae responded quickly.
“Oh don’t worry we’ll experiment with that later,” Wonpil winked at Jae before reaching behind him and grabbing Jae’s dick gently. He lined Jae up with his hole before sinking down, letting out a low moan as he lowered himself down fully. He paused to let himself adjust to the intrusion, the plug had helped to prep him but the stretch still burned slightly.
Jae brought his hands to Wonpils hips, “Fuck, that toy sucks,” he gasped out.
“Hey, that’s not fair to the toy, I’m incomparable,” Wonpil said with a giggle.
“Yeah, you really are,” Jae responded. Wonpil winked before lifting himself up slowly until just the tip of Jae’s cock was still in him before sinking back down. Both boys let out a moan as Wonpil continued to ride Jae, he set a quick pace from the start. Having not gotten any attention yet, Wonpil was feeling particularly needy, his pace was sloppy from the start, paying no heed to accuracy as he chased his own high. Jae’s grip was tight on Wonpils hips, “Wonpil, please I’m close,” he whined desperately.
“Hold it back,” Wonpil instructed, stopping his movements to grind himself on Jae’s lap, maneuvering himself until he felt Jae’s dick brush against his prostate. Wonpil cried out as he kept that angle, going back to lifting himself up and sinking back down quickly so that Jae’s dick brushed his prostate every time.
“Fuck, shit, Wonpil please I can’t,” Jae gasped.
“Just -shit ah- just a little longer Jae,” Wonpil managed to get out between moans. Jae bit his lip, his face scrunched up as he did everything in his power to hold back his orgasm. Wonpil brought his hand up to wrap it around his own dick, jerking himself quickly until he felt his orgasm rapidly approaching. “Okay, I’m close, you can cum,” Wonpil gasped quickly. Almost immediately Jae was letting out a broken moan as he came, Wonpil following close behind, his release landing on Jae’s stomach as he worked himself through his orgasm. 
Wonpil waited until they both caught their breaths before lifting himself off of Jae, biting his lip at the feeling of Jae’s cum leaking out of his hole. “Shower?” he asked hopefully.
“Definitely,” Jae responded, waiting for Wonpil to get up before following suit and leading the way to the bathroom. Jae turned on the shower and they waited for the water to get warm before hopping in. Both boys helped each other get clean, Wonpil giggling occasionally as Jae ghosted his hands across the smaller boys body.
Once they were clean they hopped out of the shower, drying off quickly before heading back to the bedroom. “Tired or hungry?” Jae asked as they both collapsed back in bed.
“Hmmm, both,” Wonpil said with a smile.
“How about we order take out and then you can stay here tonight?” Jae offered.
“That sounds great,” Wonpil responded happily, snuggling into Jae’s side as the older boy grabbed his phone so they could pick a place to order from.
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              ・゚☀   good   morning   to   everyone   except   those   who   hate   on   legend   of   korra   !   skskskks   i’m   teddy   ,   i’m   a   lil   ole   baby   swinging   back   into   the   rpc   heart   emojis   a   -   blazing   !   this   is   my   lil   sunflower   chaos   seeker   known   as   ripley   ,   a   newer   muse   for   me   but   i’m   really   excited   to   flesh   her   out   here   with   some   extra   spooky   elements   .   i   have   a   god   awful   sense   of   humor   and   too   much   enthusiasm   for   angst   so   tbh   ?   come   get   y’all   PLOTTIN   JUICE   to   distract   me   from   thirsting   over   avatar   kyoshi   !  disc / ord is @𝐤𝐲𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐫 !#6439 since i’ll be mobile for the afternoon !
* [ bruna marquezine + cis female + she / her ] —— have you met tallulah ripley ? they are a twenty-two year old senior currently studying biology & music theory. they live on decker house, and word around campus is that this leo is vibrant + gregarious, as well as hedonistic + philophobic. i wonder if they’ll make it out alive. trailing sand in on the hardwood with bare feet , running late to meetings ( and asking forgiveness with a mere flash of a grin ) , tucking a greta van fleet album among the family collection of concierto classics .
EDIT : wanted and current connections can be found here ! 
youngest   of   four   ,   born   into   an   old   money   surname   ,   her   mother ,  an  international   student  from  sao  paolo  ,  brazil  ,  and  american   father   meet   as   competing   pianists   at   holloway   ,   falling   in   love   ,   marrying   ,   and   beginning   the   next   generation   of   the   ripley   virtuosos   soon   after   graduation   .   her   childhood   is   privileged   and   uneventful   ,   strict   and   stifling   as   early   as   she   can   remember   ,   tallulah   causing   trouble   enough   as   if   to   make   up   for   her   perfectly   behaved   siblings   .
her   father   becomes   one   of   the   most   prolific   modern   composers   of   his   time   ,   and   splits   his   efforts   between   composition   and   teaching   music   theory   at   julliard   as   his   wife   continues   performances   as   a   famed   pianist   .   though   her   siblings   branch   out   into   other   instruments   ,   tallulah   is   the   only   one   stubborn   enough   to   weather   the   callouses   on   her   fingers   ,   figuring   if   she’s   going   to   be   forced   to   play   an   instrument   of   any   type   ,   it’ll   at   least   be   something   she   likes   .   thus   ,   the   only   stringed   instrument   in   the   ripley   household   becomes   hers   as   she   takes   on   the   cello   by   storm   .
practicing   cello   is   perhaps   the   only   thing   lu   truly   commits   herself   to   —   charming   and   sociable   as   she   may   be   ,   her   selectiveness   with   her   efforts   makes   her   sluggish   with   schoolwork   as   if   to   give   her   family   a   hard   time   .   her   siblings   ,   all   honor   scholars   and   first   chairs   at   their   respective   instruments   ,   pick   on   her   for   her   unmotivated   wild   child   ways   at   the   encouragement   of   her   mother   .   the   only   person   who   takes   the   time   to   sit   with   tallulah   and   keep   her   on   track   is   her   ever   -   tired   (   but   endlessly   generous   )   father   .
her   world   is   turned   upside   down   her   freshman   year   when   her   father’s   occasional   stumble   turns   into   a   more   regular   struggle   to   keep   his   balance   ,   an   ultimate   diagnosis   of   a   degenerative   disease   rattling   their   family   as   they   know   it   .   tallulah   ,   wild   and   only   tamed   by   the   kindness   of   one   man   ,   starts   acting   out   in   an   effort   to   ignore   the   world   around   her   .   the   rift   between   herself   and   her   family   only   multiplies   when   she   discovers   her   mother   having   an   affair   as   her   father’s   health   continues   to   decline   .
he   passes   away   on   a   vacation   he   and   tallulah   take   to   the   ripley   summer   beach   house   ,   something   they   had   done   to   have   some   quiet   time   together   away   from   the   judgement   of   her   siblings   .   having   to   be   the   one   to   break   the   news   to   the   family   ,   she   feels   herself   shut   down   and   lose   whatever   desire   she   had   left   to   live   the   perfect   life   her   mother   and   siblings   tried   to   force   on   her   .
she   starts   going   almost   exclusively   by   her   surname   ,   making   it   into   holloway   more   as   a   favor   to   her   family’s   generous   donations   to   the   music   program   than   on   grades   .   she’s   barely   hanging   on   by   her   involvement   in   the   university’s   symphonic   orchestra   ,   where   she’s   a   first   chair   cellist   that   shows   up   late   to   every   damn   rehearsal   and   somehow   can   cold   sightread   well   enough   to   piss   everyone   off   ksksksk   .
given   this   ,   she’s   only   minoring   in   music   theory   to   stay   in   the   orchestra   ,   and   partially   to   feel   close   to   her   dad   .   though   her   dream   is   to   write   music   scores   for   films   ,   she’s   majoring   in   biology   to   have   a   respectable   backup   plan   .   if   she   can’t   do   music   forever   ,   she’ll   disappear   onto   a   beach   somewhere   in   costa   rica   and   be   a   marine   biologist   and   never   be   heard   from   again   lmao
PERSONALITY   :   ripley   is   happiest   shotgunning   a   white   claw   before   piling   into   the   squad   car   and   calling   aux   immediately   !   loves   her   friends   and   sees   her   circle   as   found   family   that   she   would   do   anything   for   .   
she’s   laid   back   and   observant   ,   one   of   the   quieter   in   the   group   as   she   tries   to   suss   you   out   but   is   the   first   to   approach   a   newbie   and   act   as   if   you’ve   been   friends   for   ages   .   she   makes   an   active   effort   to   not   judge   others   on   the   basis   of   first   impressions   and   tends   to   be   rather   open   minded   when   meeting   others   ,   which   makes   her   a   sort   of   universal   friend   -   to   -   all   ;   given   this   ,  when  wronged  ,  she’s   a   stubborn   little   shit   and   though   she   wont   let   them   live   rent   free   in   that   headspace   ,   she’ll   go   full   send   to   making   sure   they’re   aware   they   don’t   exist   to   her   !  
she   hates   petty   drama   and   tends   to   skirt   most   responsibility   by   sweet   -   talking   her   way   out   of   things   ,   giving   the   impression   that   she   can   be   lazy   or   unmotivated   .   this   is   true   to   some   extent   ,   such   as   with   her   grades   or   her   timeliness   ,   but   those   who   strike   the   right   balance   will   see   a   side   of   ripley   that   is   laser   focused   ,   whether   its   drunken   ramblings   about   the   brilliance   of   the   chord   progressions   on   fleetwood   mac’s   rumors   or   an   astute   observation   about   the   emotion   behind   a   certain   cello   movement   .   though   she   prefers   to   skip   the   hard   thinking   and   just   enjoy   the   moment   ,   ripley’s   admittedly   a   clever   girl   ,   simply   needing   the   right   push   to   unlock   her   truest   potential   .  
she’s   incredibly   relaxed   (   sometimes   a   bit   too   much   for   the   preference   of   some   )   and   tends   to   try   and   avoid   over   -   complicating   issues   in   order   to   not   have   to   face   them   .   especially   considering   the   infidelity   of   her   mother   ,   ripley   is   a   staunch   believer   that   relationships   are   a   waste   of   time   and   is   the   annoying   bitch   who   argues   that   being   in   love   is   a   scam   made   up   by   the   simps   to   feel   valid   !  
acts   as   if   she   isn’t   FULL   of   feelings   and   emotions   24/7   n   listens   to   emo   70’s   power   ballads   when   the   person   she   likes   doesnt   confess   their   love   for   her   under   the   moonlight   like   they   were   supposed   to   in   her   fantasy   …….   smh   .   she’s   too   busy   trying   to   be   ~cool   and   effortless~   that   she   sometimes   sabotages   the   things   that   would   bring   her   the   most   happiness   ,   then   blaming   herself   in   a   vicious   cycle   that   just   leaves   her   trying   to   distract   herself   w   crazy   antics   to   avoid   focusing   on   her   feelings   .
RANDOM BLURBS :    hates   men   n   regrets   all   attraction   to   them   .   thinks   all   women   r   too   good   for   her   .   convinced   she   will   be   a   useless   bisexual   forced   2   be   forever   alone
plays   guitar   as   a   mental   break   from   cello   and   loves   it   .   i’m   still   deciding   a   vc   for   her 
knows   the   beaches   in   maine   are   cold   af   but   wants   to   go   every   weekend   anyways
drives   the   most   impractical   soft   shell   jeep   which   sucks   in   the   east   coast   wind   and   snow   and   yet   it   is   somehow   exactly   an   embodiment   of   Her   Brand tm
like   5′9   tall   and   hates   wearing   real   people   shoes   she   said   berks   or   nOTHIN
wishes   she   could   go   vegan   but   is   so   bad   at   keeping   track   of   her   meals   she’d   forget   instantly   and   down   a   20   pack   of   chicken   nugget
too   mellow   &   apathetic   to   be   a   chaotic   neutral   but   too   adventurous   to   be   a   true   neutral   so   she   lives   somewhere   in   that   lawless   grey   space   skskskks
acts   REAL   california   for   someone   who   grew   up   exclusively   on   the   east   coast   ....   hm   .....   🤔
grew  up  disconnected  from  brazilian  culture  due  to  her  mom's  whitewashing  and  she  resents  it  greatly  .  can  understand  scattered  portuguese  but  took  spanish  in  high  school  so  that's  as  close  to  the  language  as  she'll  get  .  wants  to  take  lessons  online  tho  !
inspos r lila from umbrella academy , wynonna earp , beverly marsh from it , michelle manlon from derry girls , korra from lok , adora from she ra and the pop ,  and that ugly yellow overtone used in outer banks  💖 skskskks 
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talkfastromance4 · 5 years
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sooo here what I was thinking (and if you don't like it or it's kind of weird or complicated,you can completely ignore this) for Michael's single mom universe: reader has an one night stand and ends up pregnant,she doesn't want to tell best friend!Michael bc he's getting ready for a huge tour,so when she's 3 months along (and still hiding the pregnancy) he goes on tour and when comes back he finds reader with a 4 month old baby boy and struggling to bc she's all by herself and +++
+++ he is kinda angry she didn't tell him bc he could've helped but he's overwhelmed with this woman keeping everything together and caring so much for this tiny baby (I imagine him being called Daniel??? Like the lion??? Or maybe Theo??? It's completely up to you tho) and wants to be in the baby boy's life bc he can't help the immediate love he feels once he meets him and asks reader to move in with him so they can take care together of the baby+++
I. LOVE. THIS!
This got a little long because I want the first blurb of michael dating single!mom to cover all that you wrote!
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Three months you’ve been keeping this secret. From your family, your friends, your coworkers and from your best friend Michael. You decided today was the day you were going to tell him. 
You were going to tell him about your one night stand from that cute guy at the bar you poured your heart and soul to about how she’s in love with her best friend and because of alcohol and heightened emotions and the need to feel close to someone, you brought him back to your place. 
Now, three months later, you’re carrying the only evidence that it ever happened in your belly. Your baby is the size of a plum but your love for it is the size of the sun. You didn’t tell the father because you never got his contact information and you doubt he’d stick around, it was a one night stand after all. 
You walk into Michael’s house, dogs greeting you happily as you venture down the hall to his bedroom. When you come inside it’s a warzone.
“Did your closet throw up?” you ask tugging on your oversized shirt. You’ve opted for larger clothes to hide your growing belly, it’s not that big yet but still. 
“No. I’m trying to decide which clothes to bring for tour,” he mumbles.
“Tour. Right, that starts . . . holy shit, tomorrow doesn’t it?” you ask becoming nervous. Since becoming pregnant, you’ve gotten a little more forgetful. There’s no way you can drop this news on him now. 
“Yeah, has been for the last three months,” he chuckles tossing a sweatshirt in his suitcase. “What’s up? Want to do one last night of switch and pizza before I go?”
“Sure,” you smile. 
The rest of the night is spent trying to act normal for Michael as you play mario kart and eat pizza. The dogs are cuddling you a lot more than normal and Southy keeps sniffing at your tummy and you hope Michael doesn’t notice.
You’re woken the next morning to Michael gently nudging you awake, it’s still pretty dark outside. 
“Hey, I’m heading to the airport but you can stay sleeping,” he whispers and you sit up rubbing your eyes. “I’ll call you when I land, okay?”
“Okay,” you sigh holding your arms open and he gives you a tight hug.
“Love you,” he kisses the top of your head.
“Love you too, Mikey.”
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The next six months were even harder keeping your pregnancy from Michael. You finally told your friends and family but had them swear not to tell Michael because he needs to focus on performing. When he’d call it was easy to hide it, but when he wanted to facetime you really had to come up with clever ways to hide your belly. 
Ironically, after you gave birth to your baby boy Theo and you spent the first couple months building his routine and loving on him, it was when Michael was the busiest on tour. It was nearing an end soon, so would your secret.
You’d stay up most nights thinking of his reaction and so many different scenarios played out in your head. He’ll scream at you and never talk to you again. Or he won’t say anything and just leave. 
When Theo turns four months old, that’s when Michael will be home again and he’ll be by to pick up the dogs. You always watched them when he went away and they’ve been amazing with Theo. 
Theo is in the living room in his tiny bouncer when Michael said he’s just pulled up. Your hands are clammy and your stomach has flipped upside down as you wait for him by the front door. 
When it opens, the dogs start barking and attack him as he falls to the floor letting them. He pets them the best he can while saying hello then looks up at you, he gives you a funny look. 
“You look different,” he muses standing up to his feet and pulls you into his arms for a tight embrace. 
You melt into his touch, breathing him in and feeling his presence. You hadn’t realized how much you missed him and you hope this won’t be the last hug. 
“Your hair looks longer,” you smile tousling his blond locks. “Um, so I am different but in more ways than my looks.”
“What are you talking about?” he asks in confusion when you pull away. His hands are still on your elbows. 
“Um, there’s someone I want you to meet,” you say nervously and back away to the living room. “Stay here and let me explain before you say anything. Okay?” You hold up your pinky for him to take, a serious pact between you two. He links his pinky with yours. 
You lift Theo from his bouncer and he wriggles in your arms until he’s nestled comfortably in your arms. You appear in the kitchen and Michael’s eyes get wide as saucers. 
“Three months before you left on tour, I hooked up with a guy and I was going to tell you but you were literally leaving for tour the next morning and I couldn’t drop that bomb on you and I didn’t want to do it over the phone and please don’t hate me. But this is my son, Theo and he turned four months old today and I really don’t want you to hate me,” you say all in one breath. Michael just stares. 
And stares. And stares. And stares. 
“Please say something,” you beg adjusting Theo in your arms. 
He takes a careful step forward, looking between you and Theo over and over again. He keeps stepping until he’s right in front of you and brushes his finger on Theo’s small forehead. 
“He looks just like you, Y/N,” he says softly. “The only thing I’m mad about is that you’ve been doing this all on your own. Where’s his dad? Did he kick you to the curb? I’ll kick his ass right--”
“I never told him. I don’t even know his name or got his number. It’s better this way, Mikey. Me and Theo. . . we’re doing okay,” you smile down at your beautiful baby boy. 
Michael watches you rock him gently then holds out his arms. “Can I hold him?”
“Yeah! Yes, of course you can,” you smile and place Theo in his arms. He rocks him carefully, his long finger touching his nose. He coos at him gently and smiles at him even though Theo’s eyes are closed.
“Move in with me.”
“What? Mikey, no, this isn’t your responsibility--”
“I don’t care. I want to help, and he’s so amazing and I love him so much even though I just met him. Let me help you take care of him, you’re my best friend.”
Your heart jolts, both at the sight of him holding your son and at the fact that he wants to help you even though Theo isn’t his. And just like that, you agree and you’re more in love with him than before, which basically was how Theo was conceived.
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trensu · 5 years
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Episode 26: The One where the Rain is Actually the Fandom’s Endless Tears
We start off the episode with the awful reminder that su she exists; it’s terrible, we all hate it
Lwj is the one who reminds us, which makes it both better and worse
At least lwj is looking nice in his pale blue robes
Non-wangxian nonsense happens
Brief moment to admire jc’s fashion 
More non-wangxian stuff happens
Ooooh, now we get to watch jin zixun be an asshole again, but with the bonus of having a little bit of wangxiantics!!
Jz goes to our lan bros and starts talking to them
(how dare he be anywhere near their presence?? YOU ARE UNWORTHY OF BREATHING THE SAME AIR AS HANGUANG-JUN, YOU ASSHOLE)
He tells lxc to take a shot with him even tho everyone and their mother knows lans don’t drink alcohol
Alcohol is Forbidden
But there he goes, peer pressuring the heck out of lxc, like, oh, if you don’t take a shot it’ll be an insult to me and my clan blah blah
And everyone agrees with him?? For some reason??? As if forcing someone everyone knows doesn’t imbibe into taking a shot isn’t rude af??? FUCK YOU JZ
Lxc capitulates way too easily imo and takes the shot
Lwj watches this go down out of the corner of his eye, and when lxc drinks, his eyes flick away (as if ashamed? Disappointed? Idk, but it wasn’t a positive feeling i know i was definitely disappointed)
Then jz goes and does the same to lwj
It’s awful but LET’S TAKE A MOMENT TO ADMIRE LWJ
LWJ looks at the offered drink just long enough to make sure EVERYONE KNOWS HE KNOWS IT’S THERE
AND THEN RETURNS TO GAZING STEADILY FORWARD
like, yes, i’m ignoring you aND I WANT YOU TO KNOW IT
I LOVE YOU HANGUANG-JUN!!!!!!
And just before this becomes a diplomatic incident, we see a hand reach out and take the shot glass from jz!
Wwx: i’ll drink for him. Is that okay?” 
And he downs the shot before anyone can say anything (showing off the lovely expanse of his neck and we all appreciate that or at least I do)!!! He even flips the shot glass upside down to show that he emptied it completely!!!
WWX PULLED AN LWJ-MOVE AND SWOOPED IN TO SAVE HIS SOULMATE FROM HAVING TO SACRIFICE HIS PERSONAL IDEALS
THAT’S ~TRUE LOVE~ BABY
And lwj’s expression, omg. I can’t even describe it?? Awed gratitude bc of the rescue?? Stunned attraction bc of seeing wwx expose his neck so indecently?? I’m totally not projecting that last part, maybe, i think
For real tho, it looks like lwj was walloped with the strength of his love for wwx
As if seeing wwx do that for him gave him an abrupt reminder of how overpoweringly in love he is with him
It’s beautiful
Now there’s a jz vs. wwx showdown
It’s super stressful and Important to the Plot
So we’re glossing over most of it!!
But let's MARVEL how wwx totally owns the jin clan
Jz: you really think you’re so invincible you can overturn the heavens?
Wwx: are you comparing yourself to the heavens? With all due respect, you have a really thick face
Lol, “with all due respect” = 0 respect. Jz you deserve ZERO RESPECT YOU ASSHOLE
Wwx is putting these gold-robed bastards on the spot and it’s AAMAAAAZZING
Wwx: do you think that now that the Evil Wens are gone, the Jin clan should naturally take over? So that everything should be given to you and everyone should follow your orders??
I LOVE MY BOY. LOOK AT MY SUNSHINE BOY BURN THE FUCK OUT THESE DOUCHEBAGS
HE’S ALL “WHY ARE YOU BOOING ME?? I’M RIGHT”
BECAUSE HE IS. HE IS RIGHT.
Lwj says his name worriedly here; he knows wwx is getting himself into some deep trouble here
More Plotty Confrontation happens…
And then wwx loses his patience, and gets ready to draw his demon flute
Everyone in the banquet hall jumps to their feet and readies their swords bc they are scared shitless. Wwx doesn’t even acknowledge them. His focus is all on jz
Wwx: if i kill you today, won’t it be justified by your standards?
(for the viewers keeping track at home, that brings the score to wwx = 3, jin clan = 0)
LOOK AT MY BOY GO
Lwj: Wei Ying!
Lwj calls him practically in a panic
I mean, he only says his name slightly more forcefully than usual, but in lwj-speak that means PANIC
Ahhhh, i LOVE this next line. It's a great line. I mean, it’s an absolute terrible line for wwx’s future wellbeing, BUT STILL
Wwx: if I, wei wuxian, want to kill someone, who can stop me? Who dares to stop me?
HE IS FURIOUS
RESENTMENT IS FLARING EVERYWHERE
Lwj: wei ying, put down the demon flute!!
He’s so worried for his soulmate!!!!
wwx starts a countdown to get the info he wants
🎶IT’S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN~!🎶 Sorry sorry, not appropriate but i’m stressed, LET ME HAVE THIS
Wwx: everyone knows i’m not patient. You have until the count of three…
He makes it to two until jz gives in and finally finally tells wwx the info he’s looking for (aka where the wen labor camp is)
Wwx: why didn’t you say so earlier?
Lol, he says it all calm and easy and leaves the banquet hall with a confident swagger (which brings the final score to wwx = 5, jin clan = 0 AND THE CROWD GOES WILD, AHHHHH!!)
BUT you can see on his face that he knows how badly he handled this situation
He knows he’s just screwed himself over
Depressing Plot Things happen
So lets see lwj defend his soulmate to make us feel better!
Jgy: wwx is too impulsive. How could he say such things in front of the gentries
He says that to lxc, trying to turn him against wwx!! That scummy bastard!!!
Lwj: isn’t what he said right?
I LOVE YOU HANGUANG-JUN
Jgy: well, yeah, i guess, but he can’t just say that to everyone’s faces!!
Lxc: wwx’s temperament has changed a lot recently
LXC I AM ASHAMED TO KNOW YOU. YOU GIVE IN LIKE A WET PAPER TOWEL. GROW A SPINE (i still love you tho)
Lwj bows to lxc right after that and lxc dismisses him from the banquet hall with a sad smile
Lxc: go and do your best
BC HE KNOWS HIS LITTLE BROTHER
HE KNOWS HOW MUCH LWJ LOVES WWX AND HOW MUCH HE WANTS TO PROTECT HIM
MORE DEPRESSING PLOT THINGS HAPPEN
Like, Super Depressing
Like, “violating Geneva Conventions” Depressing
It’s really really awful
Because now we’re at a labor camp
We get to see wq lose her mind as she finds her little brother’s body
AND BECAUSE I VALUE MY SANITY WE’RE NOT GONNA GO INTO THAT ANY MORE 
I HATE THIS. I HATE THIS SO MUCH
THEY DIDN’T DESERVE THIS
THEY’RE GOOD PEOPLE. WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO THEM
*SOBBING*
WEN NING STILL HAD THE PROTECTIVE CHARM WWX GAVE HIM IN HIS HAAAANDDD
WHY IS EVERYTHING TERRIBLE ALL THE TIME
We do get a badass scene where wwx STEADILY WALKS BACK THROUGH THE CAMP PLAYING HIS DEMON FLUTE TO CONFRONT THE JIN GUARDS
CALMLY CONTROLLING ALL THAT RESENTFUL ENERGY THAT’S JUST POURING OFF OF HIM
The jin guards are begging for their lives and still have the gall to lie about killing their prisoners??
“Do you really think I can’t tell that you’re lying?”
Wwx is so angry here, he isn’t even raising his voice
Some idiot here has the nerve to remind wwx that his clan and their clan are allies
And wwx’s all “bold of you to assume i care about clan politics”
Throughout it all we see resentment curling and misting around his shoulders
God damn, it looks so cool
“Since you won’t admit to it, i’ll let wen ning point it out himself”
AND THE GHOST GENERAL MAKES HIS FIRST APPEARANCE IN HISTORY BY SLAMMING INTO THE SCENE LIKE A BOSS
LOOK AT MY DARLING ZOMBIE BOY GO, TOSSING THOSE JIN BASTARDS AROUND LIKE NOTHING
Stuff happens and those jin guards make a run for it
Outside the camp we see lwj walking with his umbrella in the rain and he knocks one of the jin bastards back with his sheathed bichen and demands to know what happened
While he’s getting the rundown, wwx gathers up the wen prisoners and mounts them on horses to flee
THERE’S NO TURNING BACK FROM HERE
OH GOD MY HEART
They’re riding off and SUDDENLY WE SEE THEM RUN INTO LWJ
LWJ WHO IS STANDING THERE ALL ALONE IN THE RAIN WITH HIS UMBRELLA
AS ~THEIR SONG~ STARTS PLAYING MOURNFULLY IN THE BACKGROUND
SHOW WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME, WHY DO YOU HURT ME THIS WAY
Oh god, the way the camera travels from an overhead view downward to slowly reveal lwj’s face under that frankly beautiful umbrella
MY HEART MY HEART
HIS FACE, LOOK AT HIS FACE AS HE LOOKS AT WWX AND THE PRISONERS HE RESCUED
HE WANTS SO DESPERATELY TO SAVE WWX FROM WHATEVER IS COMING NEXT BC HE KNOWS IT’S NOT GONNA BE GOOD
BUT HE HAS NO IDEA WHAT TO DO HERE???
This shot is beautiful in a heart-rending way
Wwx on his black, agitated horse, soaked to the bone, restlessly moving and placed farther away from the audience
And lwj, practically glowing in his pale blue robes under his pale umbrella, standing still and strong as a statue, placed much closer to the audience
Wwx: lan zhan, are you here to stop me?
Lwj: wei ying, where are you going?
Wwx: i have no idea but the world is wide. There must be a place for us.
“US,” HE SAID “US”
WWX HAS ALREADY CHOSEN HIS SIDE.
HE’S FOREVER WITH THE WEN REMNANTS NOW
MY SUNSHINE BOY IS TOO GOOD FOR HIS OWN GOOD
OH GOD WHY
Lwj: you need to think again. If you do this, it will be considered a rebellion against the orthodoxy with no way back.
LWJ CAN’T SAY WHAT HE MEANS. JUST SAY THAT YOU’RE WORRIED FOR HIS SAFETY, DAMN IT.
HE KNOWS HE’S LOSING WWX AND HE’S TERRIFIED
HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO
Wwx: a rebellion against orthodoxy? What kind of orthodoxy is that?
Wwx: lan zhan, do you still remember that promise we made together?
THIS IS WHERE THE EPISODE ENDS
I AM DROWNING IN MY TEARS
MY HEART IS SHATTERED ON THE FLOOR
LWJ WAS TEARY-EYED THROUGHOUT THAT ENCOUNTER
HIS WORLD IS FALLING APART
AND WWX IS DOING WHAT HE THINKS IS RIGHT
BUT YOU CAN SEE HOW SCARED HE IS OF WHAT HE IS DOING
BC DOING THE RIGHT THING IS NOT ALWAYS EASY AND SOMETIMES IT’S DOWNRIGHT TERRIFYING
I HATE THIS SHOW
STOP MAKING ME FEEL SO MUCH!!!
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a/n my first (kinda) deaky fic!! IT’S A LOVE TRIANGLE LADS!!! i just kinda needed to write this? it has been a work in progress since february and i haven’t found the push to finish it until recently when i looked through my google docs and started finishing some wips. this is wild as hell man. kinda sad i cut it off right before THAT japan trip tho… part two anyone??
masterlist here! 
people who asked to be tagged: @jd-johndeacon-or-jackdaniels​​ @johndeaconsgf​ @cowparsleys​
warnings : angst, curse words, some partying, briefest suggestion of infidelity, the whole shebang. 9.1k words baby
enjoy :)
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john had always loved your smile. the way your eyes crinkled at the edges and your dimples showed. the hint of white teeth behind your plush lips. he would walk heaven and earth just to make you happy. 
now you were smiling that beautiful smile, but it wasn’t for him. it was for your newly minted fiancé. 
you had met john the first day of secondary school. you were placed in the same french class, seated diagonal to him. the first time you heard his voice was about an hour into the lesson when the teacher said something you couldn’t remember, and deaky muttered a dirty comment. you snorted out of laughter, drawing his attention. when your eyes met his, john knew he was a goner. 
from that day onward, the two of you were ingrained in each other’s lives. from birthdays to holidays, sickness and health, he was there for you as you were for him. it took it an almost ridiculous amount of time for him to realize his feelings for you.
the kicker was that he couldn’t tell if you felt the same. you were almost inhumanly hard to read, with a devilish grin and sharp wit. you treated most with the same cool attitude, same suave confidence that drove him insane. it didn’t help that you were also devastatingly attractive. 
every time you showed interest in him his heart would race and cheeks flush, stumbling over his words to find a response somehow as witty as you. you were unafraid of eye contact, able to make deaky crazy with just a smirk and eyebrow raise. 
for years, john had convinced himself that you were harboring feelings for him just as he was for you. it might have been true, you were always quite affectionate towards him and particular, giving you an unproportional amount of attention when around other people. but sometimes that would flip, and you would ignore him all together for hours. that didn’t stop him from twisting each bit of witty banter into a sign that you were in to him. only you knew your true feelings, but that didn’t stop deaky from speculating. from what he could tell, you were also horribly oblivious and most likely didn’t have a single inkling of his feelings. 
despite this, your friendship was still good and sincere. john could put away his feelings to keep that alive, tiptoeing around the idea of being something more.
through either a strain of luck or misfortune you ended up going to the same university, growing even closer through shared classes and drunken nights. by then, deaky’s feelings had only intensified, while yours stayed a closely guarded secret. who knows? maybe you did have feelings for him. you sure as hell wouldn’t admit anything, and neither would john. so the two of you stayed in that limbo for ages. 
until john joined queen. your world and, by association, his flipped upside down because of a certain blond haired drummer. 
his first official queen gig. july 2nd, 1971. it was a college gig in surrey, and the first time deaky introduced you to his bandmates. he had joined the band in february of that year, but hadn’t let you meet his new bandmates quite yet. when the day finally came, you dressed up much more than you would for a typical rock concert. when you rolled up to deaky’s flat, john swore that his jaw hit the floor. 
distressed leather jacket and tight black skinny jeans, with a low cut, patterned tank top. you wore high heeled, stained white combat books and silver stud earrings. your smoked out eyeliner just added to your addicting mystique, as did your blood red lipstick. compared to you, deaky looked like a broke college student, which he was. you looked even more like a rockstar than he did. john could barely believe his luck when you ran up and gave him a big hug, confessing how excited you were for him. it assured deaky that you were still his.
right?
you chatted excitedly during the ride about one of your various passions while he stayed quiet. it wasn’t like he was bored, quite the opposite actually. deaky could listen to you talk for hours and hours. he adored the way your voice changed pitch as you got more excited, the way you acted out your thoughts animatedly with your hands, and that goddamn smile you would offer him after pausing for breath. your eyes would show that rare glimmer of emotion. and it was all for him. 
once you reached the venue, john was having second thoughts. he didn’t want to share you with everyone, which he was embarrassed to admit. he knew that the magnetic nature of his bandmates would draw you away from him, which was almost debilitatingly terrifying. he wouldn’t be able to stand growing apart from you. so he devised a small scheme to hold off the inevitable. 
“hey y/n? how about you stay out here. i can meet you backstage after. i think it would be better to experience it from the crowd.” your face fell slightly. you were excited to be part of the behind the scenes experience of a rock band, it was one of the few things you had yet to do. but you understood his concern. it made your heart flutter just a bit. you gave him a quick embrace and kiss on the cheek before going off to find some alcohol.
he breathed a sigh of relief as he watched you weave your way in between the crowd. he still had you to himself, even if it was just until the end of the gig. shoving down his feelings, deaky made his way to the backstage space where his bandmates were lounging around, going through their pre-show rituals. 
roger was sitting on a drum case, a cigarette hanging precariously from his lips. his thin fingers tapped away on his thighs, cycling through the drum patterns he had memorized. brian sipped from a half empty beer bottle, eyes trained on the ceiling. freddie was hunched over a mirror, fluffing his hair with a frown on his face. 
freddie turned to john, looking at his outfit with lips twisted in a look of disapproval. freddie was dressed quite extravagantly, while deaky had opted for a simple t-shirt and jeans.
“dear god deaky, what are you wearing?” john frowned, looking down at his outfit and then back up to freddie.
“uhh, clothes?”
“oh no, that won’t do.” he shook his shoulder length curls, waving a black nailed hand at deaky’s gig attire. 
“please tell me why it won’t.”
“it’s so… plain. we’re queen for god’s sake! we have to look the part!” freddie waved his hands dramatically, showing off his tight leather jumpsuit, one leg in white and the other in black. his dark eyes were lined with smoky eyeliner, making his strong features pop even more. deaky just had his hair brushed, wearing a ‘the who’ shirt and bell bottoms. 
john had to admit, he looked quite plain compared to the rest of the band. brian was wearing a sequined black top with batwing sleeves, and tight leather trousers. roger opted for an open floral blazer, with zebra stripe patterned trousers for no discernible reason. john looked more like a concert goer than a rockstar. but he wasn’t about to back down. 
“i’m alright with the plain then.”
“one day… i will change your mind, mark my words.” freddie said with a mischievous grin. john just rolled his eyes, trying to suppress a smile. though he had only been a part of the group for a few months, they already felt like brothers to him. 
deaky walked over to his bass, resting it on his lap. he absentmindedly plucked away to a random beat, letting the music cycle through him and calm him down. his eyes fluttered shut. he fell back on a memory to soothe his nerves. he thought of you, sitting with your head on his shoulder as he strummed softly on his bass. he could almost feel your hair tickling his cheek as you shifted to sit up and look at him. 
“that’s beautiful.” you had said, toying with the ends of deaky’s long hair. your chin was rested on his shoulder, nose just barely touching his jawline. 
“think it has potential.” your closeness drowned out any rational thought he could scrape up, but each brush of your skin against his brought him back to earth. you were a drug that sent him reeling with his head in the clouds, heart pounding at every sly look and smile. he was far, far gone for you.
“that’s some grade a bullshit john.” you pulled his hand from the bass and laced your fingers with his, tracing small circles on the back of his palm. that was his favorite memory of you. you were so relaxed and peaceful, which made him feel the same. it was always the last thing he thought of before he ever had to confront a crowd. 
“you alright deaks?” roger asked, pulling john back from his memory into the gritty reality of the cramped backstage in that tiny pub. he nodded, taking off the strap of the bass and resting it against the arm of his chair. roger offered him his cigarette and deaky gave him a gracious smile, taking a long drag before blowing the smoke out through his mouth and nose. after a couple more puffs, they got the signal that it was time. john took one last pull before stubbing the cigarette out and picking up his bass. here goes nothing. 
the small main room was packed, people standing shoulder to shoulder to watch them play. it was flat out electrifying. they cheered raucously as brian strummed the opening note of liar, freddie joining with vocals not long after. john scrunched his eyebrows in concentration during his solo, skilled fingers rapidly plucking away at the four strings of his bass guitar. after his part ended, he looked up, searching the crowd for you. 
after just a moment, he caught a glimpse of you near the center of the crowd, dancing and singing along wildly. your face almost immediately brightened when you caught him watching, and you shot him a bright smile with some enthusiastic thumbs up. it made john’s heart swell, and he returned your smile. soon freddie’s iconic line “mama i’m gonna be your slave” and deaky rushed to his side to sing the “all day long” line.
every time he sang, he locked eyes with you, which gave him just enough confidence to sing in front of the crowd, especially since he had always considered himself a bad singer. you had always vehemently disagreed, saying that you absolutely loved john’s singing voice, but he couldn’t really tell if you were humoring him or not. for the record, you weren’t.
but only one song later, when john had nothing to play, he looked back at you, hoping to see you smile one more time. but you weren’t focused on him. you were focused on the drummer right behind him. deaky whipped his head around, stomach twisting when he saw the look in roger’s eyes. one that he had seen during practices whenever he would bring along a groupie. a lustful, dangerous look now aimed entirely at you from across the cramped stage, you being barely close enough for roger to see you with full clarity (he had atrocious eyesight). and you seemed to be returning his coy smile, even grinning and breaking his gaze when roger gave you a cheeky wink. john was so busy looking between the two of you that he almost missed his cue. this was going to be a long evening. 
the rest of the show passed in a blur, one filled with sly glances and flirtatious gestures from across the room. but they weren’t for john, on the contrary. they were all for roger, who you were basically eye-fucking from the crowd. and he was certainly enjoying it. deaky was decidedly not. he could feel the regret pooling in his gut. you were just too irresistible to deny, and when you begged to go to his first gig, he couldn’t say no. 
but now you were completely enamored by that blond casanova, one of john’s closest friends. that was when he knew that it was the beginning of the end. he could feel you slipping through his fingers. and it was absolutely terrifying. you had been by his side for so long, that a world without you next to him was unfathomable. 
after the show, you came straight to deaky, almost jumping into his arms. he let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding in, placing a hand on the back of your head to hold you close. that was the same position you had been in after your highschool boyfriend broke your heart, or when your grandma died. deaky had held you close and let you weep into his jacket, whispering soothing words. 
“deaks! you did so amazing!” you pulled back a little, placing a hand on his cheek. he melted into your touch, consciously aware of the goofy grin he must be sporting. you had such an intoxicating effect on him. 
“i’m very proud of you, don’t you forget it.” your thumb slowly moved back and forth across the skin of his cheek, leaving a trail of warmth in your wake. john pulled you closer, wrapping his arms around your back. he wanted to drink in that moment for as long as possible. but he felt you start to back up, and he knew exactly why. because over his shoulder came a cloud of cigarette smoke and expensive shampoo fragrance, and john let you go, even though it felt like you were being ripped away instead. 
roger clapped john on the back, startling him. deaky looked over his shoulder and saw roger looking you up and down with a dangerous look in his eyes. he glanced between the two of you for a few moments, heart rate steadily increasing as time went on. 
“you must be y/n, i’m roger, the drummer.” he took your hand, raised it to his lips and placed a soft kiss on the back of your palm. you were frozen in shock for a moment before responding. 
“nice to meet you roger.”
“so you’re not a myth?”
“what’s that’s supposed to mean hm?”
“well, john always talks about you like you are some sort of goddess. we didn’t believe him for a long while, but now that you’re standing here? he certainly wasn’t exaggerating.” roger looked you up and down, wetting his lips with the tip of his tongue. you smiled, genuinely smiled at his words. john had never seen you so instantly smitten. roger had you, you of all people, in the palm of his hand. 
“well aren’t you a flatterer.” you gave him a sly smile, giving roger a quick once over and a cocky eyebrow raise. deaky felt his heart crack just a little more. the two of you were so charismatic and confident that it was almost unfair. two people that bewitching should be forbidden from flirting with each other, in john’s opinion. 
“only with gorgeous women.” john’s stomach flipped and churned, and he felt lightheaded. seeing you so clearly enamored with his best friend sent deaky reeling. he and roger had always had a special connection being the two youngest members of queen. they were extremely close, and roger was john’s best friend second only to you. john couldn’t imagine having both you and roger separate from him. it would break his heart.
while deaky was silently spiraling, roger had taken a step closer to you, nudging john just a little bit further away. as if he was no longer inhabiting his body, john took another step back, though every cell in his body was screaming to take you by the hand and head to his flat for one of your impromptu movie nights. but it was too late, even though john had yet to accept it. 
after a few more minutes of lip bites and silver-tongued words, freddie waltzed over, announced there was an after party at the nearby pub, and pulled john to his side for the walk, leaving you next to roger. the door swung open as the small posse walked out, high on post-show adrenaline. john was standing in front of you, harnessing all of his willpower that wasn’t swept away by the cool summer night to not look over his shoulder, because he knew he wouldn’t like what he saw. 
from what he could hear over freddie’s rapid story about some debaucherous party in his uni days, you and roger were pulling each other in ever so slightly as the seconds passed. every time he heard your airy laughter deaky could practically see the gorgeous smile that would adorn your features, the way your eyes would crinkle at the edges as the conversation drew on. 
soon enough, they reached the pub, all primed and ready to get drunk in celebration of their first queen gig together. that would surely take the edge off of john’s steadily growing headache at roger and yours closeness. when he turned around, what he saw made him want to down at least three tequila shots to purge it from his mind.
you were bundled up in roger’s plush fur coat, despite the mild temperature. his arm was slung dangerously low across your back, nimble fingers tracing circles along your hip bone as you strode through the pub’s creaky wooden doors. you were laughing at something he said, a painted nail trailing down his chest. it was almost like no one was in the room. 
what really hurt deaky’s heart was your myriad of traditions the two of you shared on every night out ever since his eighteenth birthday, that you had decided to ignore. one shot of cheap tequila, then a gin and tonic for the both of you. but while john was walking toward you with two shot glasses in hand, you were leaning into roger heavily while he whispered something in your ear, a glass of whiskey and a cigarette in one of his hands, the other on your thigh. 
before you could see the hurt in his eyes, john turned, downed the shots, and walked towards the dance floor, determined to forget your awe-struck eyes as you looked up at roger. and it was just his luck that the song playing was “how deep is your love” one of your’s and deaky’s favorite songs to dance together. yet by some cruel twist of fate, he was alone, shuffling to the beat while stealing brief glances at you whenever possible.
two gin and tonics later, he had nearly forgotten about you and roger just across the bar as he bobbed his head to the music, sipping his drink every now and then. he was so distracted by the music that he barely noticed a tug on his long wavy hair, a habit you had picked up to draw his attention since he was a good few inches taller than you. it was clear to see you were a little tipsy by how heavily you were leaning against the bar, one hand gripping deaky’s bicep. 
“deaks, i’m gonna head. it was a long night, and i really need some… rest. but i can’t tell you enough how proud i am of you okay? you are an amazing best friend and i am so happy for you. good night johnny-boy.” your words were a little too airy for his liking, and as he bid you goodbye, he could see why. 
wrapped in rogers fur coat, you smiled as the drummer whispered something in your ear. john nearly dropped his drink, but instead stood back and stared as you left the bar under roger's spell. he could feel you slipping away, into the embrace of his best friend and bandmate. 
that was the beginning of the end.
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“whatcha thinkin bout deaks?”
“huh?” john mumbled, eyes closed as your fingers slipped in between his wavy hair, forming a long braid against his back. he always loved when you played with his hair. it calmed him down immensely, which was desperately needed. he had tried to ignore that you were at queen’s recording sessions more often than not, cooly ignoring him- or at least in john’s mind - in favor of watching roger. 
he could only hold on to the sick, twisted hope that you would see roger’s youthful promiscuity and let him go, sending things back to how it was before. but john was kidding himself. it felt like he had been from the start. 
“you seem a little… distracted,” you mused, resting your head on his shoulder as your gaze shifted to the quiet tv program inching by on your beat up box telly. there was a stillness in the air, sharp and cool, sticking to your skin. 
“‘m busy, that’s all. band is getting more popular, starting ideas for an album,” he murmured after a minute or two, placing his head against yours as an olive branch to break the alien tension surrounding the room. john couldn’t get the image of you in roger’s coat from his eyes, a smile he knew so well etched on your lips. 
“that’s amazing john. i am not kidding when i say queen might be the greatest band ever conceived.” he just laughed, nudging your shoulder playfully. the same old pattern reborn once more. 
“even more than the bee gees? marvin gaye?”
“okay, maybe not gaye,”
“you wound me, love.” you just smiled, slowly untangling yourself from the pile of blankets, tip-toeing over to the record player tucked in your bookshelf. john shifted to watch as you flipped through the impressive vinyl collection filling the empty shelves. you quickly turned once the needle was gently placed on your chosen song, holding out a hand to deaky with an eyebrow raised. after a few seconds, the song started playing, and john matched your soft smile.
listen baby, ain’t no mountain high
ain’t no valley low, ain’t no river wide enough baby
he pulled you gently into his arms, with one hand in the center of your back, the other gripping yours so tightly as if he was holding on for dear life. you either didn’t notice his desperate hold or declined to mention it. you just kept on whispering the words, slowly swaying back and forth to the relaxed beginning of the song. 
‘cause baby there ain’t no mountain high enough
ain’t no valley low enough 
john drew back, twirling you along with the rising tempo. your smile only grew, growing more goofy as your dancing continued. he could barely register the music, focused solely on the feel of your warm hand against his, the sweet scent you carried everywhere you went. you giggled at his dance moves, mirroring the exaggerated slow dance 
ain’t no river wide enough
to keep me from getting to you babe
without warning, john dipped you, fingers intertwined. a beat passed as he simply looked at you, eyes scanning your face hungrily as if he would never see you again. you were so close, his warm breath tickled your cheek. your heart skipped a beat, and he could only hold tight as the song spiraled to its end. you cleared your throat and flicked your gaze from him to the record player. getting the hint, he slowly, deliberately lifted you back up onto steady feet. 
deaky watched as you hurried to the record player. he could feel his stomach drop to his feet at your quick change in posture. did he make a mistake? did he overstep his boundaries? with each hypothetical his doubt and anxiety rose, rooted to one spot, incapable of moving while your back was turned. you cleared your throat, head lifting with you still facing the records. 
“you should…”
“yeah, see you later then?”
“goodnight johnny-boy”
“goodnight” 
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deaky was on his knees in the crowded backstage, various screws and wires around him as his deft fingers worked on adjusting his amp, making sure that everything was just right for the last show of their very first american tour. there were supposed to be more, but brian contracted hepatitis so the tour was cut short. 
may eleventh, 1974, just under three years after john’s first queen gig, and your first time meeting the band. meeting roger. things had continued as he had expected. you at every gig, on rogers arm whenever free, often disappearing and returned some time later looking noticeably disheveled. time had made the pain less sharp, but the ache was still there. the ache for you to be by his side instead of roger’s. 
john missed being close to you. they were across the atlantic ocean, muscling through long rehearsals and, as the evening before played out, two gigs in one day. in his distraction, a sharp edge scraped his thumb, drawing a thin line of blood that glistened under the lights. he muttered a soft curse, considering wiping the blood on his pants before hearing freddie’s voice in his head. “go change deaky, we can’t have you drawing too much attention!” john smiled to himself at the thought, winding his way through the faceless crew, searching for the dressing room. once he reached the door and reached for the handle, a noise came from the door that caused him to draw back his hand as if the handle was a thousand degrees. 
it was a name. roger’s name. high and giggly, and certainly not in your voice. deaky wanted to throw up. he knew it. roger was like a brother to him but he couldn’t shake the wave of anger that coursed through his veins. john expected this to happen, though he knew it was wrong- so very wrong- to think the worst of his bandmate. your tear stained face filled his mind’s eye, bringing with it crippling waves of guilt. he didn’t want to get involved, it was your business. but goddammit john wanted you to see the truth.
his internal debate was cut short when you rounded the corner, absolutely stopping any brain activity in its tracks. you weren’t supposed to be there. they were in new york for god sakes, and you weren’t supposed to be there. his internal monologue snapped back into action, keenly aware of the activities most likely occurring behind that closed door. 
“deaks!!! i’ve missed you! how has america been?” john barely registered the action as you threw your arms around him, squeezing him tight. every muscle in his body was tense with anger, guilt, sadness, that squishy feeling your presence always brought him. you loosened your grip after noticing his lack of reciprocation, but john quickly moved to pull you close, burying his face in your hair. 
“missed you too love.” you drew back, bright smile on your face. but your focus was clearly no longer on john, eyes scanning the hallway behind him for a certain someone. a certain someone who deaky suspected wasn’t being as faithful as you. 
“hey where’s rog?”
“he’s uhh… look, love, i think he might be with someone else right now. through that door. i’m so sorry. i’m here for you.” he had to force the words out. they scorched his tongue and hung in the air like thick, harsh smog. his heart dropped as your eyes widened, hands coming up to cover your mouth. some sick part of john was almost joyful at the prospect of your relationship with roger ending. you would certainly come to him for comfort, you would hang out more, and then his highschool fantasy would finally play out.
right?
“are you… but… john…” the way your voice wavered hammered a crack in his heart. a sharp stinging picked at his guilty cheer, slowly dragging him down to earth. this wasn’t anything to be excited about. 
“i’m so sorry love.” deaky stepped forward, arms open to embrace you, but your hand went up to stop him. your other hand was clutched tight to your chest. it was dead silent in your small section of the corridor, save for your irregular breaths and deaky’s heavy ones. your gaze was focused on the crack at the bottom of the door, breath hitching as your bright eyes followed another shadow. there weren't many words he could discern through the dressing room door, but that uncertainty only made the doubt worse. what could have caused the sudden quiet?
“don’t. i need to see him. right. now.” your spine straightened and you held your chin high. though you still sounded shaky, john could tell that your temper was about to boil over. 
“alright, i’m right here if you need me. that menace doesn’t know what you can do.” he watched your expression as you took a shuddering breath, slowly lifting your eyes from the floor. tears clung to the corners of your lashes, stubbornly refusing to fall. deaky reached out a tentative hand, and you waited a moment before taking it. your shoulders relaxed as his fingers intertwined with yours, and john felt his heart swell just a little. maybe there was hope for him yet. 
“thank you john, i mean it. you are the only thing i can depend on, apparently.” your weary tone made his hand squeeze tighter. deaky brought your clasped hands up and pressed a soft kiss to the back of your hand. the soft smile that appeared on your lips gave him another boost. you were strong enough to not be broken by roger, and even if you were hurt, john would be there to hold you. with another deep breath, you reached for the door knob and pushed the door open, ready to see what john had been anticipating. 
both of you were wrong. 
freddie fucking mercury stood in front of a sitting roger, eye pencil in hand. they were both laughing, freddie clearly mocking some critic or interviewer he encountered. freddie stepped back, taking hold of roger’s chin as he admired his handiwork.
“gorgeous rog, our dear y/n won’t be able to keep her eyes off you.” freddie had a mischievous smirk, everything clicking together as john surveyed the scene. roger’s eyes widened, and he turned towards the doorway where you stood. the fear drained from your eyes and was replaced with anger. anger reserved specifically for john. you dropped his hand, curling it into a fist by your side. 
“love! what are you doing here?” roger immediately hopped off his stool, racing to sweep you off your feet with an excited squeak from you. he held you in the air for a moment before placing you back down, making sure to pepper your skin with feather light kisses while he waited for an answer. 
“freddie flew me out here for the rest of the tour…”
“something wrong love?” roger asked, genuine concern in his soft voice. deaky’s guilt was mounting by the second, manifesting as a dense weight collecting in the pit of his stomach. oh lord. he really messed up now. the look of seething contempt on your face was enough to make his entire world crumble. 
he fucked up. he really, truly fucked up. john's growing fixation on yours and roger's relationship was driving you farther away. in that moment, he felt something break. your trust. 
"nope, just waiting for a fascinating discussion with our dear john here. i love you little drummer boy." roger grinned, leaning down to capture your lips in a passionate kiss. he seemed over the moon just to have you by his side, gazing at you with a childlike wonder. and john selfishly doubted that devotion. though an outsider would shrug off this fumble and move on, the dynamic that formed since you had met roger wrote this severance in stone. 
roger wasn’t oblivious as john assumed when it came to your relationship with deaky. he noticed that john was in love with you, even if you couldn’t see it. so once the drummer picked up on your scorching glare, and john’s palpable guilt, his heart broke as well. there was no need for him to say the words. roger wasn’t mad, just disappointed that deaky would think so low of him. 
“mind if i listen in on this fascinating discussion my love?” 
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you decidedly avoided john until the gig began, and roger followed suit. deaky was wracked with guilt, stumbling through the show. his fingers slipped across the strings without much reason, causing fred to occasionally shoot a glance to get him back on track. the drums seemed a bit… louder than usual, aggressively perfect timing contrasting with john’s fumbling performance. the crowd didn’t seem to mind, but the band members were far from alright. 
after the show, things weren’t much better. brian tried to catch deaky on their way off, presumably to give him an earful about their “god awful performance john, good lord” but he slammed the door to the bathroom shut and locked it before he had to face anymore reckoning. freddie was the next to demand an answer, taking the slightly more conservative route of screaming “pull that shit again or so help me god of rock and roll, i will break every…” and so on. 
you didn’t bless john with your presence, but your absence spoke wonders. roger didn’t show up in front of the bathroom door either. once deaky crept out a vague amount of time later, the boys were far from calm, but there was no longer a threat of being burnt alive from their anger. the energy in the dressing room was horribly tense. brian and freddie seemed clueless to the reason for roger’s anger, both just focused on the show. 
“wanna give us an explanation deaky?” brian muttered, leaning against a wall where multiple mirrors stood. john could see himself reflected in one of the smudged surfaces, brown eyes dark with a storm of emotions. roger was reflected in another, sitting with his elbows on his knees on a beat up couch. his face was a stony mask; completely unreadable. 
“well uh… roger and,” john attempted to explain, but couldn’t seem to grasp the right words. each time he reached for something cohesive, it slipped through his fingers and he was left at square one. while deaky struggled with his words, freddie was getting impatient. 
“i cannot deal with this sober. you two stay here and work out your fucking problems. better now than tomorrow morning. we’ll be at that bar across the street.” freddie declared, grabbing brian by the arm and pulling him out the door to mumbled protest. freddie silenced him with a loud hush sound, pushing brian out the door and slamming it behind him. 
“so uh…” john started off, still not able to look roger in the eyes. instead, he focused on the reflection, dingy fluorescents shiny on roger’s dirty blond hair. but he didn’t seem angry. his body language spoke more of defeat and disheartenment. somehow, that hurt worse than your harsh words. 
“look, i’m not mad. just disappointed that you think i would ever do that to her. i know she’s your best friend, but i love her and i would never hurt her like that,” roger was so sincere, locking eyes with john through the mirror. disappointment was certainly a word to describe the look in his eyes, along with sadness and just a hint of guilt. roger was guilty because as a younger student, there was a bit of infidelity present, and there was some weight to john’s concern. but he had grown, and he really loved you. 
“i know, and i’m so sorry. you’re also one of my best friends, and i just got ahead of myself because…” john ran a hand through his long hair, gearing up for a confession of what he had known for years, but never had the strength to say out loud. 
“you love her too. i know. i can’t and won’t try to change your mind, because i get it. and yeah, i haven’t known her nearly as long as you, but i love her so much,” roger’s voice cracked at the end, sending a similar crack through john’s heart. roger leaned back on the couch, a distinctly sad smile on his face. this was really all deaky had ever wanted for you. someone who loved you unconditionally, and just wanted you to be happy. someone who would never hurt you. john desperately wanted to be that person for you. but that ship might have sailed. 
“yeah… i- i do. but now i think she wants nothing to do with me.” now it was john’s turn to break. losing you would hurt him irreparably, but maybe it would be the best for you. he wanted you to be happy more than anything. however, john’s selfish side yearned to tether you to him and never let go. 
“just give her time, i’ll talk to her. you still are her best friend, she’ll forgive you.” roger felt weird to be comforting john when he was the one hurt. and it really hurt. because one: you were hurting, two: john, one of his best friends, caused it, and three: said best friend though he was capable of cheating so blatantly in such a serious relationship. roger watched deaky in the mirror as the moment stretched on, mind buzzing with all the events of the day. 
“time… i think she still might be mad at me for breaking her calculator when we were seventeen, what if she never forgives me? because oh boy, she loves you, and i don’t know if she could let this all go…” john began to pace, messing with his hair even more. his gaze was unfocused, eyes sweeping back and forth across the room as he tried to gather his thoughts into some cohesive train. 
“well, i forgive you. this tour won’t get any easier if we are at each other’s throats.” john nearly slumped to the ground in relief. he wouldn’t be able to stand losing two friends. roger got up from the couch, walking over to deaky. without hesitation, he folded him into a hug, clapping john on the back. conversation over, friend forgiven, and now you were the only uncertainty in deaky’s life. 
“now come on, let’s go find y/n and head to the bar. after today’s gig, i need a strong drink or two.” roger sounded relieved and ready to move on from the days events, and john was all for it. but he knew that you would be in no mood to see him, and that would definitely put a damper on the evening. truthfully? he wanted to sleep. sleep, and forget the entire day preferably. 
“you go on ahead, i don’t think she wants to see me right now.” john muttered, roger’s hand on his shoulder after stepping back.
“alright, take care deaks.”
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true to deaky’s word, you were not quick to forgive. it took six months for a major step towards healing took place at their “night at the rainbow” shows in late november, where roger infamously trashed his drumset on stage.
you had decided to accompany them for the uk and american legs of the sheer heart attack tour, so there had been a handful of shows you were present during where deaky was soundly ignored. he did an alright job of ignoring you, no matter how much it pained him. he had adopted freddie’s flair for the dramatic clothing wise by that point. roger was always ready to go all out, and you were almost always up for helping him get ready. john had walked in on you two in compromising positions multiple times, which definitely didn’t help your frosty attitude towards deaky.
but at the rainbow theater those nights, something was off between you and roger. from what he could hear, there was some wild misunderstanding before the first show, resulting in a major shouting match while the rest of the band waited outside the dressing room. some time later, you stormed out, leaving roger alone inside. freddie glared at john aggressively until he got the message to follow you and fix his mistakes.
deaky found you right in the wings of the stage, sitting on a spare amplifier while the roadies were doing a soundcheck. your shoulders were slumped forward, eyes trained on the dust streaked stage while chaos whirled around you. the sad eye of the storm. 
“i know you’re there johnny-boy. and no, i don’t want to talk.” his heart unconsciously skipped a beat when you used his nickname, before plummeting back to earth from the gravity of the situation. you sounded more hurt than angry, and as to why deaky didn’t know. but he had waited so long for a chance at reconciliation, and this was the best chance he had gotten in ages. he wasn’t about to let it slip by.
“that’s alright. i’ll wait.” john took a seat on a box just a few feet behind you, crossing one leg over the other while he waited. he knew you long enough to understand that you would immediately clam up when interrogated. so he waited, letting you relax into his presence. after five straight minutes of silence, you finally spoke.
“he can be so stupid sometimes. all i wanted was to know how long he would be gone tonight, and he just snapped. i know you guys are under a lot of stress, but he was the one who asked me to come. i just want to spend time with him.” you sounded so defeated, but john couldn’t be more excited that you finally decided to really talk with him. 
“yeah, he can be a real arse.” you chuckled to yourself at his response, lifting your eyes from the floor to focus more on the stage lights and various instruments being towed around. 
“you could say that again. but… he really loves you. i’m sure you’ll be alright.” deaky had to force the words out, no matter how deeply he knew them to be true. he still was crazy about you, and jealousy ripped through his body when you mentioned roger.
“thanks for listening john. i know things have been a little… iffy between us. maybe a lot iffy. and don’t take this as forgiveness. but i miss my best friend. i am not ready to let your mistrust go just yet, but consider this… progress.” john’s heart swelled at your… well… acceptance of his mistake. 
“i’ll take anything at this point.” you laughed lightly at his words, going quiet again right after. the moment was over. progress was certainly made, but the conversation just made john miss you more. that evening, roger trashed his drum set, fuming as he walked offstage when the show was done. you were there waiting for him and the two of you made up. the next day, things were essentially back to the way before the rainbow theater. but you would actually talk to john now. you would laugh at his jokes, tease him; progress.
things weren’t truly, totally, alright between the two of you until the very last show of the american leg, right before they went on stage. after the show, things were a little up in the air. 
but before, everything became perfectly mended. john was getting ready in the dressing room, in the back of a venue in seattle he did not know the name of. the rest of the boys were there, goofing off as usual. brian was taking photos of roger posing with ridiculous faces, occasionally calling out directions for how he should look. roger was just laughing, fluffing his hair in front of a tall standing mirror.
john sat on a low sofa pushed against one of the cracked brick walls, you sitting on the other side. there was a tense silence in your side of the room, both you and john doing anything to ignore each other’s presence. they were heading to japan the next day, which means you were heading back home to the uk, and the boys weren’t going to be back until may. 
john fell back to his pre-performance memory of you and him. without even knowing it, his gaze shifted to you. just as beautiful as ever. he could almost feel the soft brush of your hair against his cheek, the comforting weight of your hand in his. your whispered words from that day prickled his skin, sending a brief shiver down his spine.
“something you need from me, john?” you caught john staring at you with a wistful look in his eye, breaking his gaze almost immediately after making eye contact. you focused instead on the soft curls of his brown hair until he responded.
“just… antsy i guess.” john wouldn’t look at you once caught, glancing down to his fidgeting hands, freddie preening in front of the mirror, brian fiddling with his camera. he wanted to avoid a potential blowout, no matter how nice it felt to casually talk with you. 
“you’re gonna do great. you always do great johnny.” he still couldn’t face you, but the sincerity of your words eased his spirit. no matter how much time passed without speaking, you would always find each other. and deaky was pretty sure he had found you once more. 
“well i have my best friends here, i can’t in good conscience give less than my best.” john spoke as casually as possible, gathering the courage to finally look you in the eye. what he saw almost made him melt. you were looking at him with a soft smile that made his world right itself and revolve around you. 
“you’re a good man deaky. and i forgive you. truthfully, i’m sorry as well.” a beat passed before you scooted closer to him, tension slowly building in the shrinking space between you. it was broken by you surging forward and wrapping your arms around john’s neck, inhaling his scent with deep, calming breaths. he fell stiff for a moment before embracing you back, almost shedding a tear as he tightened his grip little by little. the room fell away and it was just you and deaky. 
“never apologize to me, love. i’m just glad to have you back.” john whispered breathily against your neck, closing his eyes for one long moment before he felt you soften your hold and pull back, stolen from the moment by roger taking a seat on your other side. he couldn’t help but feel a pang of disappointment of rejection, but the feel of you in his arms chased away the worries he might have clung to before the show began.
“so you two have finally made up?” roger said, wrapping an arm around your shoulder. you leaned into him, resting a hand on his chest through the open vest he wore. the peaceful, dopey grin john had fell just a tad, but for the moment, just for a moment, he was content. 
“i think we have, my love.” you responded lazily, pressing a kiss to the underside of roger’s jaw. that was john’s que to leave. he playfully ruffle your hair just like he once did to you as a teen, then reluctantly got up, walking over to where freddie fussed over his leather jumpsuit and shimmering wristlet. 
after just a few minutes of having freddie fuss over john’s appearance, the band was called to the stage. you followed them to the door, giving roger a deep kiss and the rest of the band tight hugs. you whispered faintly in deaky’s ear before pulling away, to which he responded by just squeezing you tighter. he heard roger cough, and slowly released his grip around your waist. 
“i’m very proud of you, don’t you forget it.” you smiled after john released you, somehow feeling bold enough to place a hand on his cheek. for a second, a river of unspoken words flowed from him to you, deflected smoothly by your emotional walls. john sighed, taking your wrist between his calloused fingers. he squeezed your hand, then let it fall to your side.                                              
“never. i’ll see you soon.” he waved on his way out the door, sneaking one look over his shoulder just before turning the corner and being rewarded with roger kissing you in one last goodbye. splendid. 
that show might have been the jewel in the crown of sheer heart attack’s american tour. john and roger were shockingly in sync, brian’s solos sounded better than ever, and freddie’s voice was clearer than it had been in weeks. they hit their groove, and the crowd could feel it too. their undeniable energy just raised the band’s spirits, and their last songs were met with cheers for an encore. after jailhouse rock, the second to last song, john was poised to start playing “god save the queen” until brian caught his eye and mouthed an agressive “NO.” note taken, but john shot him a questioning glance. with a huff, brian strode over to deaky, taking him by the upper arm and pulling him to the far side of the stage.
“what the fuck brian?” john angrily whispered, yanking his arm back once they were on the other side of roger’s drum kit. speaking of roger, he was standing by freddie in the center of the stage. you were standing clear across on the other side of the stage, mouthing a similar “what the fuck?” towards john, who just shrugged and looked confused. he was very, very confused. 
“just shut up. you might want to hold on to something.” brian mumbled, clutching his red special a little tighter. deaky was about to bite back until freddie cut him off. 
“before we go lovies, roger has a little something to say. so pretty boy, the stage is yours.” freddie spoke plainly, a teasing lilt to his words. he wriggled his eyebrows at roger, who simply swiped the microphone and stuck his tongue out at the singer. freddie retaliated by blowing a kiss and prancing over to where john and brian stood.
“fred, what the-”
“oh just be quiet and listen. our boy has a lot on his mind.” freddie cooed, still not dropping his playful tone. john was understandably agitated, while brian just stood to the side with the smallest of smiles on his lips. something was going on. just before john was able to demand clarification, roger piped up and handed john an answer on a golden platter. 
“hey lads, so you know me, of course. who doesn’t?” roger joked with the crowd, sending a ripple of laughter throughout the ranks of their adoring fans. john was slow to catch on, still glaring at freddie and brian at equal intervals. both astutely ignored him, smiling at roger speaking downstage.
“but i’d like to introduce you to someone very special to me. y/n, can you come one out here?” uh oh. it all clicked for john. he knew what was happening, he knew what roger was going to ask. he knew what your answer would be. john knew that he was extremely close to running offstage and throwing up. but life had other plans, and life’s name was roger. he surged on, smile brighter than the sun as you slowly stepped onto the stage. 
“this is y/n, my gorgeous, intelligent girlfriend,” roger spoke to the crowd, before turning his attention to a highly confused you. a wall of glass rose up between john and you; he could only stand by as roger got down on one knee in front of their cheering fans, all going ballistic at the prospect of what was happening to their idol, right before their eyes.
“honey, dearest, angel, my love. i was such a mess when we met. university student, head full of dreams and too much shampoo. but john brought you to his very first show with us and from then on, i knew it was over for me,” roger talked directly to you, the room falling away until everyone could only watch one of the most important moments of your life. your hands went up to cover your mouth, tears visible in the corners of your eyes. roger seemed a little worse for wear as well, blinking rapidly to keep tears from falling. john wanted to wake up from this terrible nightmare, but there was no stopping what was already in motion.
“you are the light in my life, my rock, and i don’t know how i survived that long without you. i am so ridiculously, embarrassingly in love with you y/n. and there is no one i would rather share my future with,” roger reached into his back pocket and pulled out a small, blue velvet box. with one smooth motion, he flicked it open, letting the burning stage lights glint off of simple diamond ring. your happy tears finally spilled over, and roger’s soft smile brightened as he spoke his final words. 
“so, would you please accept this ring and, oh, i don’t know… marry me?” you nodded rapidly before he even finished talking. roger started to stand, but you ran into his arms, sinking to the ground with your arms desperately wrapped around each other. the microphone rolled away from the happy couple, squealing with feedback before a roadie came and swooped it up. 
john could barely stand as he watched you hold out a shaking hand to roger. he slid the elegant ring onto your finger, smiling all the way. you pulled him in for a deep kiss, nearly toppling roger over with your excitement. once you pulled back from him, john was nearly in tears himself. he had a tragically perfect view of your tearstained face. and there sat the biggest and brightest smile in the room, one john would march heaven and earth to see. 
except that moment. he wanted to give into every selfish desire and break your heart so you would never want to see roger ever again. but he couldn’t. he just couldn’t. john loved you way too much to ruin your moment. roger’s proposal was something his good heart refused to ruin. but that smile.
that goddamn smile.
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first “deaky” fic (team deaks or team rog??) so yeah. hope y’all enjoyed. i actually liked writing from the boy’s perspectives. lmk if you’re down for a part two ;))))
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junmyeoneyesmile · 4 years
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you can’t stop the flood pt 2
summary:
en·e·my
/ˈenəmē/
noun
    a person who is actively opposed or hostile to someone or something.
irene never thought one day she would live in the enemy’s side. but when a mission goes wrong and everything turns upside down, she wonders for what she was really fighting for.
(or, the one in which x-exo’s scientist irene falls in love with exo’s leader, junmyeon.)
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part 1 / part 2 / part 3
genre: obsession AU, EXO vs X-EXO, romance, slow burn, angst (with a happy ending?), fluff (maybe if you squint), smut (be patient, tho)
relationships: irene/junmyeon, past irene/sehůn, implied chanyeøl/wendy, side baekhyun/chanyeol, one sided taeyeon/baekhyun.
length: three shot
chapter word count: 9.583
author’s notes: quick note for this chapter, something I would like to explain. you’ll notice that exo members (and people at the elyxion) uses honorifics when talking – that’s because they’re always acting with their hearts, and well, they consider everyone as family. people at the exo’rdium and x-exo don’t feel the need to that, because everything is very logical and done with only work in their minds, so.
also, I used two poems in this part and I wanted to give the credit because they’re not mine. the “lavender poem” is by emery allen, and “always” is by lang leav.
that’s it for now, enjoy!
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It was hard for her, to get used to the bright fluorescent lights, the white walls and the clean smell that all the rooms had. She was used to dark places and old stuff.
“Why do you think they called all of us here?” Seungwan asked, sitting next to her.
Joohyun was also not used to the talkative girl who had arrived the same day as her. Even though Joohyun remained isolated, making the other girls not want to get close, Seungwan insisted on being next to her.
Joohyun didn’t answer, and an older woman entered the room. She was one of the doctors, Joohyun remembered. A red hat hid her eyes.
“You were gathered here because you all passed our initial exams. Now, you’ll be able to start your training to be a future help for the Exo’rdium.” the woman said, looking at a sheet of paper. “All of you will undergo tests that will determine your area of aptitude. Now, you’re part of the Exo’rdium and will start over with new identities.”
Future help.
Start over.
Joohyun didn’t think or care much about the future. She didn’t have anyone or anything. But those people were saying she could start over. That she had a future.
The woman got close to her.
“Bae Joohyun?” she asked, and when Joohyun looked at her, she gave her an identity. “Here. Your tests will be performed in room 3 of sector B. Welcome to Exo’rdium.”
Joohyun took the identity, staring at it.
“Hey, what’s yours?” she heard Seungwan ask. “Mine’s Wendy. Kind of cool, right?”
Joohyun put her card on top of the table, and looked at the girl next to her.
“I’m Irene.”
And after that, she never looked back again.
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 “…ever should’ve brought her here.”
“Don’t be like this, Channie. Junmyeon hyung said she was going to die if he left her there.”
For a second, Irene thought she was still dreaming. But the voices were too clear, and her body was starting to realize that her consciousness was coming back.
“Still. This can be a trap to us, Baek. Don’t you think it’s weird?”
Irene opened her eyes, even though it was hard. Her lids were heavy, begging her to just close her eyes again and go back to sleep, but Irene fought the feeling, blinking a few times.
“Hey, she’s waking up.”
The lights in the room weren’t bright, which made it easier for her to adjust. From there, things gradually came into focus.
There was an IV in her arm and her right leg was immobilized with a splint. Her dirty clothes were gone, changed into some clean, fresh ones, and she was in a room with old walls – with two men looking at her from a distance.
Irene tried to move, sit on the bed.
“Oh, don’t mind us.” the silver haired one said, and she stopped. “I’m Baekhyun. But you probably know this already.”
It was weird, seeing the original Baekhyun this close. Irene never thought she would’ve had the opportunity.
They were exactly the same, but the feeling this one passed was different – a lot more soft, kind. Baëkhyun could pretend he was soft, but there was always a wicked feeling behind him.
By Baekhyun’s side, the original Chanyeol was serious. His pink hair was hidden under his beret, and it looked like he was ready to attack her if Irene made the wrong move. She could’ve easily mistaken him for Chanyeøl, if it wasn’t for the dark eyes.
“Where am I?” she asked, her voice hoarse.
Baekhyun tilted his head.
“In the Elyxion, of course.”
The Elyxion.
Irene blinked, not really believing what she had heard.
She was in enemy territory.
“I finally found you two.” a different voice came from the door. “What are you guys doing here…”
The red haired man walked into the room, noticing Irene.
“She woke up, hyung.”
They continued to stare at each other. Irene's mind was still a mess, and she didn't remember much of what had happened while she was in pain, but she did remember him.
“Because I can’t leave someone to die like this.”
“Hyung, shouldn’t we take her to the investigation room?” Chanyeol asked. “She has to answer some questions…”
“It’s ok, Chanyeol.” Junmyeon interrupted. “I’ll talk to her.”
“But hyung…”
“Jongdae is looking for you two. Go there and talk to him.”
Chanyeol looked like he was ready to protest, but Baekhyun held his arm, and the two left the room. Junmyeon watched them leave, before turning to Irene again.
She sat on the bed with some difficulty.
“Are you ok?” he asked.
Irene ignored the question.
“You brought me to the Elyxion?”
Junmyeon didn’t answer immediately.
“There was no other place for me to take you.”
“Yes, there was! You could’ve left me at the border!”
“The situation is unstable for both sides. Jongdae’s clone has drones all over the perimeter, and I was alone. Do you think they would have responded well to this scene?”
Irene didn’t answer. Of course not, if Chën saw him alone with her, they would’ve been there in a matter of seconds.
Even though, it still didn’t make sense that this man had taken an enemy to their base. Wasn’t he their leader, too? It was most likely they wanted to keep her there to some kind of purpose. Maybe they knew she was a scientist at the Exo’rdium.
“When are you going to interrogate me?” she asked, feeling like she could get this over with quickly.
Junmyeon frowned lightly.
“I don’t think you fell under a wall on purpose.”
What was that supposed to mean?
“You can't be sure of that.” She said, trying to intimidate him. But it was obvious she was acting up too much.
“Get some rest. You clearly need it.”
Irene was taken aback by that, and he didn't wait for her to answer, leaving the room. Shocked, she continued to look at the door for a long time after he left.
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 It was unnerving to stay in that room with no idea what was going to happen, but in the end, Irene was used to waiting. She was a patient person.
In the middle of the day, a teenage girl came into the room, bringing her a tray of food. Irene wasn't sure if she should trust the food in this place, but she was hungry, and really, she had no other option. Unlike the food at the Exo’rdium - which was always well thought out about all nutrients and functionality - here, it seemed so much simpler: rice, soup and meat.
The taste of homemade food started to bring some past memories to her, and Irene didn’t eat everything.
Late in the afternoon, a doctor came to see her. She was blonde, wore round glasses and looked young, probably just a year older than Irene. The badge on her lab coat read “Kim Taeyeon”.
“Hello,” she said, looking at the clipboard she held. “How are you feeling?”
There were various answers to that question.
“Fine.” Irene said, in the end.
“Does your leg hurt?”
She shook her head.
“Alright. Then I’m going to take out this IV for now, it had some painkillers. If the pain comes back, you can tell me and I’ll bring you something.”
The blonde got closer, and Irene held out her arm so she could remove the IV.
“How long will I have to stay with this splint?” she asked, already thinking it to be uncomfortable.
“The situation was quite serious when Junmyeon brought you here.” explained Taeyeon. “I did my best, but... Well, our technology is not as advanced as yours.”
Yours.
Of course. They thought of her as a member of the X-EXO team, too.
“I believe you’ll need to be with it for at least a few days.” Taeyeon continued.
Irene sighed, knowing she would say that.
“I can’t be here…” she said, mostly to herself.
If Taeyeon heard that, she chose not to comment on it.
“There are some crutches here, in case you want to walk.” she told Irene. “But it’s better if you don’t force this leg, or it could get worse.”
Irene nodded, watching the doctor leave the room - and not really understanding how all of this could be happening to her.
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 The next day, nothing different happened.
Irene stayed on the bed, mostly because she couldn’t do anything besides sleeping and thinking about the situation she was.
Nobody went to the room, except for the girls that brought her meals and Taeyeon, that came to see how she was. Irene asked herself what they wanted, taking care of her like this.
Was she a hostage? She wondered what they would do if she left the room. The door wasn’t locked, and apparently no one was keeping watch. That thought remained in her mind, but Irene quickly pushed it away. She couldn't go very far in that state, and adding to that, she knew that the less she forced her leg, the faster she could recover.
So, she tried to bear with the boredom of those hours.
At some point in the night, after she had eaten dinner, it started to rain. Irene listened to the sound of raindrops on the window for a while, until she decided to get up to look.
She’d already gotten used to the crutches, having used them to go to the bathroom a few times, so it wasn't difficult to walk to the window. The view didn't say much about where she was - just the deserted landscape that was common in the city. She leaned against the wall, watching as the rain increased.
There was a knock on the door, and Irene turned to look.
Junmyeon was standing at the entrance, holding something.
“It gets pretty cold when it rains at night,” he started to explain. “so I brought this blanket.”
Irene said nothing, and he entered the room, leaving the blanket on the bed. He looked at her, and seemed almost hesitant - which was extremely unusual for her, who was used to Suhø’s confident posture.
“How are you?” he finally asked.
She still didn’t understand why he cared about that.
“I’m fine.” she paused, and looked at the bed. In truth, it had started to get cold. “Thank you for the blanket.”
Junmyeon nodded, and then came over so he could look out the window too - but he kept his distance from her.
“I heard you don’t eat all your meals.” he commented. “Don’t you like the food? We’re not putting anything inside it.”
Irene glanced at him.
“That’s not it.”
Junmyeon didn't press her, and once again, Irene wondered why he was acting like this.
“You can walk around if you want. You’re not a prisoner.”
Irene frowned.
“Are you sure of that?”
“You didn’t invade or territory. You were left to die-“
“I wasn’t left to die.”
They stared at each other for a few moments, until Irene looked away.
“Baëkhyun knew I was there. I just… I just don’t know what happened.”
“Well.” Junmyeon shrugged. “If that’s what you say.”
“Will you let me go?”
Junmyeon looked at her.
“I can’t do that. It’s beyond my hands right now.”
Irene shook her head.
“I don’t understand this.” she looked at him. “You won’t let me go, but at the same time says you’ll not interrogate me.”
He watched her with interest.
“You seem quite eager to be interrogated. Chanyeol would really like that.”
Irene frowned.
“I’m responsible for you.” Junmyeon continued. “I’m the one that has to gather information, but I was going to wait for you to recover a bit more before that.”
“Will you force me, if I don’t tell you anything?”
He shook his head.
“No.”
Irene looked at him, incredulous.
“Do you call this an interrogation?”
Junmyeon lifted the corner of his lips, and she was taken aback by the act.
“I'm not interrogating you right now.” he said. “We're just talking.”
That conversation was extremely disturbing to her.
“Can I ask you something?” Junmyeon kept looking at her, and Irene had to force herself not to look away. She didn’t answer, and he probably took that as an incentive to keep going. “Can I know your name?”
She blinked. Her name? It hadn't happened to her until now that he didn't know that.
She thought about lying. Scientists hardly ever left the Exo'rdium, and it was unlikely that they would fall into the hands of EXO - so there was no protocol for that situation.
But Junmyeon was looking at her, waiting for an answer, and Irene felt like she didn't want to lie about it.
“Irene. My name’s Irene.”
Junmyeon nodded.
“Irene.” he repeated. “It’s nice meeting you.”
And in that moment, she knew that yes, those days would be weirder than she imagined.
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“Do you know physical therapy exercises?”
Irene looked at Taeyeon, who was at her side watching what she was doing. The doctor came to visit her earlier that day, and found her doing some leg exercises.
“Yes. It's the basics in one of our classes.”
Taeyeon adjusted her glasses.
“I'm sorry for asking you that, but I've been noticing in some of our conversations that you know a lot about medicine.” She hesitated, before continuing. “Were you a doctor there?”
Irene should’ve been alarmed by the question, but in reality she thought it was about time that someone cared about what she did in the enemy territory. Besides, there was no point in hiding it.
“Yes,” she said. “but in our case, we’re called scientists.”
“Because you take care of… The experiments.”
From the way she spoke, it was obvious she was curious about X-EXO.
“We’re responsible for their health. But I wasn’t there when the cloning process took place.” She made it clear. “So I don't know how the procedures happened, if that's what you want to know.”
Taeyeon shook her head.
“We’re not interested in making clones. Actually, this is the last thing we want to know.”
Irene sat on the bed, tired. She was trying to take a few steps without the crutches, but it was still difficult.
“Don't force yourself. It’s good to take a few steps during the day to train resistance, but too many can make the situation worse.”
Irene nodded, but the topic of the conversation they were having remained in her mind.
“Wouldn't it be a smart move to find out how your enemies were made, so you can fight them?” she asked.
Taeyeon looked at her.
“Is that what you do?”
“We don't need to do this anymore. They’ve been cloned, we have real copies to study.”
The doctor closed her lips in a thin line.
“They’re not the same, I'm sure you noticed this from the little time you spent with them.” She frowned. “These boys have suffered a lot being experimented on.”
To that, Irene couldn’t say anything. She remembered when she had arrived at the Exo'rdium, and no one was allowed to enter the building where the subjects were. But sometimes, when they had classes outside, she saw the flash of some young boys in the building next to hers.
It wasn't until Irene was in her late teens that students were allowed to live in the same space as the boys. They were training to be scientists, so they had to be in contact with the subjects.
Sometimes she forgot how they were made – and how other people were involved to make this happen.
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It was raining again. It did nothing but rain on those days, and they were running out of buckets to put under the leaks in the ceiling.
“Mom, I want to go somewhere else!” Joohyun whined. “Why do we have to stay here?”
The woman looked at her, stroking her hair.
“Because here is our home, my darling.”
“I hate this house! Everything is wet, and I can’t sleep on my bed!”
The woman sat next to her, and smiled. Joohyun couldn’t understand that. She was upset, she wanted to leave. Why did they have to live like this?
“Joohyun, we’re very lucky to have a home. Some people in the city have nowhere to stay in this rain, and they suffer from the cold. Here, we’re safe.”
The little girl wiped her tears.
“But mom, everything will be wet here too.”
The woman shook her head.
“There’s always a place here where we can be protected.” she pulled Joohyun closer, hugging her. “If we stay close like this, we won't get wet, huh?”
Joohyun sniffed, snuggling into the embrace, nodding.
“All that matters is that we’re together, do you understand? Together.”
 xx
 “We love you, my darling. Now go. Go, Joohyun.”
Go.
She ran.
Her legs ached, her lungs were burning.
Everything was dark. When she opened her mouth, there was no air.
She couldn’t breathe, she couldn’t see, she couldn’t-
Irene opened her eyes at once, breathless.
She sat on the bed, feeling dizzy.
She was used to the dreams, but they’d never been so real. She was shaking.
The room was dark, except for a faint light coming from the hall. It was probably still late at night.
Irene looked at the nightstand, seeing the empty water jar they had left to her earlier. Her mouth was dry, and she needed to drink something.
Getting up slowly, she took the crutches to walk. It was the first time Irene would leave that room - which made her a little nervous - but she had no other choice. Besides, Junmyeon said she could walk around, didn’t he?
The hall was long, but everything around it made it feel like a home, different from what looked like hospital halls in the Exo’rdium. Irene wandered, not really knowing where to go. If she saw someone there, she could’ve asked for information, but no one seemed to be awake at that hour.
It was obvious that she was on the ground floor of that building, and Irene wondered if the kitchen was on another floor. There were some stairs in sight, but it would be impossible for her to climb all of them in her condition.
Irene turned another hall, and then heard a sound. A large open door gave way to an outdoor space, and she approached it. Maybe whoever was there could help her...
She went outside, but then stopped.
A dark-haired man was practicing archery, shooting at a target, seeming focused. She would’ve interrupted him, if she didn’t know who he was.
Irene almost thought Sehůn really was there. Even his posture was the same, and she just couldn't move away.
The man made no mistake, all the arrows hitting bullseye. He seemed so concentrated, that Irene thought no distraction would make him go wrong. All his attention was on the target.
People at the Exo'rdium always tried to get Sehůn to use the bow prototype they had developed, but he always denied it. He insisted on saying that he would beat his original without the need of accessories.
But it was obvious how good Sehun was with it. He was so focused - which was probably why Irene didn't expect when he suddenly turned towards her, shooting an arrow.
It was so fast, Irene didn't even have time to scream. She sensed the arrow passing inches from her face, hitting the door beside her.
“Just because I’m not looking at you doesn’t mean I’m not seeing you.” Sehun said.
Irene couldn't move, her heart beating too fast. She only realized how much she was shaking when she was no longer able to hold her crutches, staggering to the side. She leaned against the wall to keep from falling.
“Were you spying on me?” Sehun asked, but the tone was obviously accusatory.
Irene shook her head fast.
“No. I was… I was trying to find the kitchen. I don’t know...”
Sehun moved, and she stopped. He got closer to her, and from that distance, Irene could see his face better.
Dark hair, dark eyes, face without a scar. It triggered a memory on her mind, from a time when Sehůn’s face was like that, too.
His expression was serious, and Irene thought about something people at the Exo’rdium used to say, about how they found Sehůn one of the most intimidating subjects, with that scar on his face. Irene never thought that, and now looking at the boy in front of her, she also couldn't find him intimidating. He just looked young and angry.
“What do you intend being here?” he asked her.
“Nothing.” Irene replied, because it was true.
Sehun frowned.
“Junmyeon hyung seems to think you have no bad intentions, but I still can't trust you.”
She couldn’t blame him.
“I wouldn’t do anything. I can’t do anything.” she paused. “You’re all taking care of me now. I really wasn’t spying on you, I just wanted to get some water. I… Junmyeon told me I could take a walk, if I wanted to.”
Sehun watched her, and he still looked suspicious, but he flexed the arm with the bow on his back.
“The cafeteria is at the end of the hall on the right.”
He then left, and Irene kept standing where she was for a long time, trying to calm her heart, which was still racing.
When she turned to leave, she realized the arrow was stuck right in the middle of the door.
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Obviously, Irene couldn’t sleep when she went back to the room.
The adrenaline was still strong in her body, and she kept repeating the scene in her mind. If Sehun wanted, he could’ve killed her right there, without hesitation. She didn't think he would do that, though, but the thought was thrilling.
After much tossing and turning in bed, Irene managed to fall asleep when the first rays of sunlight were already coming through the window. She had no dreams, but when she woke up it seemed like she hadn't slept at all.
Irene blinked a few times before opening her eyes, and saw someone standing next to the bedside table. Junmyeon seemed startled when he saw her looking at him.
“Oh, I’m sorry. Did I wake you up?”
Irene frowned, sitting on the bed slowly. She still felt tired.
“No…” she said, and then paused. “What are you doing here?”
Junmyeon scratched the back of his head with his free hand - in the other, he was holding a book.
“I came here to give you this.”
He held out the book, and she took it. It was old, the pages were turning yellow. There were flowers on the cover, and the title was peeling off.
“I didn't know what you liked, so... Well, it's a poetry book.” Irene looked at him. “You must be bored spending your days here with nothing to do, so I figured it would be nice to have something to spend time with.”
There he was again, being considerate. Irene didn’t know how to react, because really, that wasn’t a normal situation. That man had every reason to be indifferent to her, but against all odds, he came up to her room and brought her a book.
“Thank you.” she said, meaning it. “I… I’ll read it.”
Junmyeon nodded, but remained standing where he was. It seemed like he wanted to say something else, and Irene thought that maybe the book was an excuse for that.
“Hm, Sehun told me you spoke with him last night.”
Of course.
Irene turned on the defensive mode.
“I wasn’t spying on him…”
“I know.” He told her. “I know. Actually, I wanted to apologize for his behavior. But I think you understand.”
Irene left the book on the nightstand.
“Of course I do. I’m the enemy, am I not?”
Junmyeon seemed a little bothered by that question.
“You must’ve been startled because of him.”
She remembered the scene again, and almost flinched.
“Well, I wasn't expecting that. It's not like I'm used to being shot with an arrow in the middle of the night.”
“Sehunie has very good reflexes. He would’ve never hurt you, unless he wanted to.”
Irene raised a brow.
“Isn’t that the point?”
Junmyeon gave a half smile.
“I guess it is.”
That made Irene even more confused. Was he really playing with the situation they were in? This man was messing with her mind.
A knock on the door stopped her from continuing that trail of thought.
“Excuse me.” the girl that used to bring her breakfast said, entering the room.
“Well, I’ll leave you to eat your breakfast in peace.” Junmyeon said. “Feel free to leave the book there if you don’t like it.”
“I don't think I have many entertainment options here.” She said, and stopped for a second. “I'll definitely read it, thank you.”
Junmyeon smiled lightly before leaving, and Irene kept telling herself that the warm feeling that remained with her during the morning was because of the soup.
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Unlike the others, that day really seemed more productive for Irene - as far as it was possible, of course.
Taeyeon came to visit her, to check on her recovery and help with the exercises. Irene even walked a little in the hall, even though she had to lean against the wall a few times.
She also took a few naps during the day, to recover from that bad night's sleep - and incredibly, she was hungry enough to eat all her meals in full.
But the main point of that day was the book.
Irene liked to read, but most of the books she had in her room at the Exo’rdium were about science, medicine, and some on mathematics. She couldn't remember the last time she took a book and read it just for the pleasure of reading.
So, through that day, she read. Irene didn’t expect that she would like a poetry book so much, but found herself rereading a few pages several times, just because the poem was interesting. She didn't want to stop reading it, and at the same time, she didn't want it to end.
At night, after eating dinner and taking a shower, Irene picked up the book again, to finish her reading. She wondered if Junmyeon would bring her another one, when she finished this one. The thought, somehow, excited her.
It was well into the night when Irene heard the commotion.
People were talking loudly, there was a mix of voices - some that she recognized. Through the open door she saw people rushing by, and she frowned, finding it strange. She got up, going to the door.
Two girls were running holding clothes that looked stained with blood.
“Hey, hey!” Irene called, and the girls stopped. She recognized them, they were the ones that brought her meals during the day. “What happened? Why is everyone running?”
The girls looked at each other, probably not sure whether to say anything.
“It’s just that…” one of them started.
“Don’t say anything to her!” the other interrupted.
“But I heard her talking with Taeyeon unnie! She’s a scientist!”
“Yes I am.” Irene interrupted. “What happened?”
The younger girl bit her bottom lip.
“There was another fight at the border. Junmyeon oppa...” she stopped, starting to cry, being comforted by the other girl.
“What?” Irene insisted
“He’s hurt.” the girl that wasn’t crying said. “They took him to the medical floor.”
An alarm went off in her mind, and Irene started to move before thinking about what she was doing.
She knew it was better not to get involved in this, that it was better to go back to her room and pretend she hadn't heard any of it. But Irene just couldn't do it. It was as if her body acted on his own.
Irene remembered that in a conversation with Taeyeon, the doctor told her the medical rooms were on the first floor. With the crutches, it was difficult to climb the stairs, but Irene didn't hesitate. She tried as hard as she could, and was sweating when she got to the floor.
There was a room at the beginning of the hall, and through the glass, Irene could see the EXO members inside, looking at a stretcher - where Junmyeon was lying, and Taeyeon was opening his vest.
She didn’t knock before coming in.
“What are you doing here?” Chanyeol asked, but Irene ignored him, trying to look at Junmyeon on the stretcher.
He was lying on his stomach, and when Taeyeon removed his vest, Irene saw that his back was completely burned. He groaned.
She tried to get closer, but Sehun stopped her.
“What are you doing?”
“Just let me...” she tried to move again, and this time Chanyeol pushed her away from the stretcher.
The move made her lose balance and the hold on the crutches, falling on the floor.
“Get out of here!” Screamed Chanyeol.
“I can help him!” Irene said, almost desperately.
“You’re kidding, right? Your X-EXO did this to him!”
“That’s exactly why I can help him!” She didn’t back down. “He was burned by Chanyeøl, wasn’t, he?” Some of the boys looked at each other, and Irene kept talking. “I developed a serum that helps the process of healing. I can help him!”
There was a moment of consideration between the boys.
“How can we know you’re not lying?” Jongdae asked.
“She is lying!” Chanyeol interrupted.
“I'm not lying! You must have seen Sehůn today, haven't you? Wasn’t he fine? It's because I applied the serum the day that you burned him!”
The room was silent.
“Hyung.” Jongin started. “He was fine. We all saw him… Maybe she can help.”
Chanyeol growled, moving away. No one else said anything, and Jongin came closer to Irene, helping her to her feet and handing her the crutches.
“Can you really help him?” he asked, and Irene nodded, getting closer to the bed.
Junmyeon's back was raw, probably worse than Sehůn’s that day. He seemed unconscious, but was a little agitated.
“They gave him one of the pills.” Taeyeon explained. “But I... I've never seen anything like this. Can you really...”
“Yes.” Irene answered. “Do you have a lab in here?”
Taeyeon nodded. The two didn’t wait and left the boys in the room, going to the lab.
Irene didn't have to make much effort, she knew the formula by heart. She had spent months working on it, and Chanyeøl had enough fun burning his colleagues in the tests. The formula had been done for a purpose - but Irene never imagined she would use it for the opposite reason.
Taeyeon helped in what she could, bringing everything Irene needed. There was only one ingredient that the two had to ask Jongin to get - which was fast enough - and in half an hour they were leaving the lab with the serum ready.
Chanyeol and Baekhyun had left the room when they returned. Sehun was on the side of the bed holding Junmyeon's hand, and Jongin and Jongdae were standing further apart, watching.
Irene went to the side of the bed, and Taeyeon kept her distance, trusting what she was going to do. She opened the bottle with the serum, and slowly poured it on the man's back.
Junmyeon screamed, fidgeting on the stretcher.
“What have you done to him?” Sehun asked, nervous
“Even if he's half asleep, it still hurts.” Irene said. “But it's normal. Tomorrow, he will be much better, and in two days there will be no scars on his back.”
“Should we cover the wounds?” Taeyeon asked
“Let the serum work for a few minutes, and then you can treat it like a normal burn.”
Taeyeon nodded and walked away to get what she needed. Jongin got close to the stretcher, looking with sad eyes at the unconscious man.
“Is he really going to be okay?”
Irene looked at him.
“Yes. I can assure you that.”
Jongin nodded, his expression full of concern.
Irene looked at Junmyeon, who had calmed down. She was always a logical person, she knew that the serum would work, there was no doubt.
But in that moment, that knowledge couldn’t stop the tightness in her heart.
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The next three days seemed to drag on.
Even if Irene wanted to, she didn't go back to the medical floor. She knew that the boys would be there all the time, and the last thing they would want was to see her there. She respected that.
Taeyeon came to visit her normally, to see how her leg was doing, and told her about Junmyeon's recovery. He was getting better every day, and knowing that at that moment was enough for Irene.
Jongin also showed up, one afternoon. He talked to her for a while, told her how Junmyeon was doing.
“It's incredible, noona.” he said, referring to the effect of the serum. “The marks are almost gone. And I know it's not easy, because I still have some scars on my arms from when Chanyeøl burned me that day.”
Irene told him she could make a little more of the serum for him, and the boy smiled, excited. Jongin had started calling her “noona this, noona that” and she didn’t find it in her heart to stop him. Something about him being so young and innocent was growing on her.
He also said that she could go to the medical floor if she wanted to. Irene refused it, but thanked him for coming to see her.
In that way, she tried to deal with her days. Irene continued to think about the incident, and always wondered what would’ve happened to Junmyeon if she hadn't been there. It was clear that the Exo’rdium had more technology, but were the people in the Elyxion really that vulnerable? Why did they continue to fight, if there were so many risks?
She couldn’t understand that, just as she couldn’t understand several things in this place.
In the rest of her time, Irene continued to read the book. Even when she finished it, she kept rereading it. There was something about that book that left her in peace. Especially that one poem, which was stuck in her mind since she had read it.
                                                                                   Bring me warm rain
                                                                                              and lavender
                                                                                                      and you
                                                                              I want you most of all.
She kept staring at the page. Irene had never thought about that, of how the lavender flower was so small and discrete - but you only needed one to make the whole place smell like it.
That made her think of him.
There was a knock on the door, and Irene turned her head – just to see Junmyeon standing at the entrance of her room.
“Can I come in?”
She couldn’t find the voice to answer him. She wasn't supposed to be that surprised, but Irene really wasn't expecting him to show up there. Her heart was beating too fast.
Junmyeon didn’t wait for her to answer, entering the room. He wasn’t wearing the combat clothes he used to, but something similar to hers - sweatpants and a cotton shirt. His hair was damp, as if he just came out of the shower.
“You’re still reading this?” he asked, looking at the book on her lap. “I can’t tell if you liked it or are just reading it slowly because it’s so bad.”
Irene put herself together.
“What are you doing here?” she finally said. “You should be resting.”
Junmyeon looked at her.
“I think you know better than everybody that I’m fine.” she didn't answer that, and his expression softened. “Do you want to take a walk?”
She should’ve said no - she should’ve - but Irene couldn't find the words to deny it. Especially when he asked her that way. So she nodded, and got out of bed.
Irene imagined that the Elyxion compound was large, but she had no idea how much, until Junmyeon took her out of the room. Close to the training area she saw Sehun the other night, there was another common outdoor area, with a huge garden. There were several people around, walking, talking, playing. With each step she took, Irene was even more surprised.
“It’s nice, right?” he asked, noticing her expression.
“It’s beautiful.” she said, looking around. “How do you maintain it?” That was a very honest question. With the city destroyed by war, places like this were hard to find.
“There are some people responsible for looking after the garden specifically. Everybody likes this place, so we try our best.”
Irene nodded. They continued walking and looking around - Junmyeon slowing down to keep up with her pace with the crutches.
“Thank you.” he said, suddenly, and Irene looked at him. “Jongin told me what you did.”
She looked away, feeling a bit nervous.
“It’s ok.”
“No, it's not.” He touched her arm lightly, to make her stop. “It seems impossible that my back is almost completely healed after the state it was. I'm sure you saved my life.”
Irene shook her head.
“You did the same for me.”
They looked at each other.
Irene wasn't sure what was going on. She wasn't even sure if that was supposed to happen, whatever it was. But maybe she was thinking too much. He’d saved her, and she did the same.
Two children ran between them, and Junmyeon gave her a smile, scratching the back of his neck.
“Should we keep going?”
Irene nodded, a hint of a smile on her face.
As they continued to walk, she saw, not far from them, Baekhyun and Chanyeol sitting on a bench. The silver-haired boy was saying something and the other was laughing, almost falling off the bench.
“He's always overreacting.” Junmyeon commented, looking in the same direction as her.
“I never thought he was capable of laughing like this.”
Junmyeon smiled.
“Chanyeol isn’t a serious person in any way. He just gets pretty defensive when you’re around.”
Irene looked at Junmyeon.
“He can literally burn me to ashes.”
The red-haired man continued to look at his friends.
“Chanyeol suffered a lot, probably more than all of us. He hates anyone who is connected to the Red Force.”
Like Junmyeon, Irene looked at the scene. Baekhyun was smiling at Chanyeol, and he had a soft expression on his face, brushing the hair out of the other’s eyes. They were holding hands.
“Baekhyun’s a good relief for all of us, but he has always been Chanyeol's strength. They like each other very much.”
She could see that. It was obvious in the way they looked at each other. Irene never knew much about love, the feeling being foreign to her - but she was sure that was it.
“I've been thinking,” Junmyeon continued, and Irene looked at him. “maybe you could come and have your meals in the cafeteria.”
Irene blinked. That was random.
Going to the cafeteria? The thought was actually nice - getting out of the room, doing other things. But at the same time, that was part of their routine, and she wondered if it would look like an intrusion.
“I…” she hesitated. “I don’t know…”
“You’ll be welcome, don’t think otherwise.” Junmyeon assured her. “Everybody’s grateful for what you did. Chanyeol too, even though he would never say that.”
Irene had to laugh at that, and when she looked to the side, Junmyeon was already looking at her. She felt her cheeks heat up and looked away - the two of them continuing to walk.
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Irene looked at herself in the bathroom mirror for the third time that morning.
That was ridiculous. Why was she so worried about going to the cafeteria? She would just eat and then leave, there was nothing more to it. It wasn’t like they would throw her away… Or would they?
Irene shook her head, pushing those thoughts away. The girl who usually brought her breakfast was late, and she wondered if Junmyeon had told her to be late, to give Irene a chance to go to the cafeteria.
“Don’t overthink it”.
She picked up her crutches, and before she could change her mind, Irene left the room.
People at the Elyxion seemed to be getting used to Irene's presence there, not caring too much when they saw her walking down the halls. She couldn't say she didn't like it - doing things without looking like she was being watched was nice.
Despite that, her going to the cafeteria wasn’t a common sight, and all eyes turned to her as soon as she walked in. In the middle of the room, the EXO members were sitting at a table, bodies turned in her direction. Junmyeon looked pleased, but she didn't wait to see what he was going to do, moving quickly to get a tray.
There was just one problem. She didn't think it would be so difficult to do that while she leaned on her crutches.
“Hey, noona.” Jongin appeared on her side, startling her. Did he teleport over there? “Can I help you with that?”
She didn't really say yes, but he was already picking up a tray for her. Irene blinked, a little taken aback as she answered him when he asked her what she wanted to eat.
When they were done, Jongin started to move to the EXO table, but Irene stopped him.
“I’ll sit over there.” she told him, pointing at an empty table a little far away.
It looked like he wanted to protest, but Jongin just nodded, carrying the tray to the table. When Irene sat down, she saw Junmyeon leaving his spot and approaching them.
“You came.”
It was just a fact, but his expression was so bright that she couldn't think for a second.
“Hm, yes. I don't think it’s going to hurt.”
Junmyeon sat in front of her.
“Of course it won’t. I said you would be welcome.”
Irene glanced at the EXO table, who didn't look so excited with her presence.
“Don’t mind them.” Jongin said. “They’re just jealous.”
Irene turned to him. “Jealous”?
Junmyeon cleared his throat, and the younger said nothing more.
“So,” Junmyeon changed the subject. “Taeyeon said she would examine you today to see if you can remove the splint.”
Irene sighed.
“Yes. I can't take any more walking with these crutches. I can't wait to get rid of them.”
“But are you sure you're okay? Don't you feel any pain?”
“Just a little. But I think it will be fine if I continue the exercises. Anyway, we will only know when we remove the splint and analyze the situation.”
Junmyeon nodded.
“Noona,” Jongin started. “if you’re ok, will you be able to make that serum for me?”
Irene smiled lightly.
“I’ll speak to Taeyeon about it.”
Junmyeon looked confused.
“What are you talking about?”
“Irene noona said she would make me some anti-burn serum, to get rid of the marks left on my arms.”
The red-haired man frowned.
“You shouldn't be bothering her.”
“Come on, hyung. Your back is completely healed.”
Junmyeon said nothing, and Irene looked at him. As a doctor, she would’ve liked to see the healing process, to see how he was doing - but in that situation, she couldn't just ask him to take off his shirt and show his back.
“It's all right.” She assured him. “It's not too difficult, I can do a little more.”
Junmyeon smiled slightly and Irene looked away, paying attention to her food.
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In the early afternoon, Irene went to Taeyeon's office. It was a little earlier than they had scheduled, but she was so eager to remove that splint that she couldn't wait in her room.
The office door was open, but when she got closer, Irene saw that someone was already inside. Baekhyun was sitting on a stretcher, and Taeyeon was taking care of what appeared to be a cut on his arm.
The boy kept talking nonstop, but even when she concentrated on what she was doing, Taeyeon paid attention to his every word. She smiled a few times, the smiles discreet, looking at his face when the boy wasn’t paying attention.
Maybe Irene was seeing too much of some things because her mind was so free these days – or maybe it could be because of that poetry book – but she was sure at that moment that Taeyeon liked Baekhyun.
Taeyeon finished what she was doing and Baekhyun moved his arm, flinching a little, probably because it hurt.
“Don’t move too much or you will open the stitches.”
“Alright, sorry.” Baekhyun touched his arm. “Thank you, noona. You saved me again.”
He smiled at her, and Taeyeon shook her head, looking down. Her cheeks were a soft pink, and she adjusted the glasses on her face.
“It’s alright.”
Someone passed Irene by the door, entering the room quickly - interrupting the scene. Chanyeol stopped beside the stretcher, looking at Baekhyun with concern.
“What happened, Baek? They told me you were here.”
“It’s nothing.” Baekhyun reassured him. “I was just training with Sehunie.”
“Did he hit you with an arrow on purpose?”
“Well...” Baekhyun bit his lower lip. “I did tease him that he wouldn't be able to hit me when I was running.”
Chanyeol sighed, shaking his head.
“But I’m fine now, Taeyeon noona took care of me.”
“Just make sure he doesn’t move his arm too much.” she told Chanyeol.
“I will definitely make sure of that.” Chanyeol said, and Baekhyun got off the stretcher.
“Thanks again, noona.” he said to Taeyeon, before following Chanyeol out of the room.
The two stopped when they saw Irene at the door, but Chanyeol just continued on his way without saying anything, while Baekhyun smiled and said a "hello" before leaving. Only then Taeyeon noticed she was there.
“Oh. Irene, I'm sorry to keep you waiting...” she said, and then hesitated. “Have you been here for a long time...?”
Irene thought about saying the truth, but that would mean she would’ve seen the previous scene, with Baekhyun - and she was sure Taeyeon wouldn't want to talk about it.
“No.” she shook her head. “I just got here.”
“Alright…” she paused. “So, let’s see if you can take off this splint?”
Irene nodded.
She had a feeling that her leg would no longer be swollen, and when Taeyeon removed the splint, they could see she was right. It was clear the Elyxion didn’t have as much technology as the Exo’rdium, but their techniques were also good. Irene could feel that her leg was much better.
They still did some tests, pressing her leg and walking, and although it still hurt a little, it was tolerable. Irene could walk normally, just limping a little, but without the help of crutches.
“You know you need to continue exercising daily to be completely well.” Taeyeon told her. “Also, I don't think you're going to do that, but don't push yourself too hard, and don't run around or anything.”
Irene nodded, not believing that running could really be an option now.
“I won’t. Thank you, Taeyeon.”
When she left the room, Irene felt the best she had ever been all those days.
Being restricted was terrible, and now walking through the halls was much easier and much more satisfying. Irene suddenly thought of Junmyeon - she wanted to tell him, show him. It was such a strong thought that she didn't stop herself from looking for him in the compound.
Unfortunately, he was nowhere in sight - and Irene didn't want to ask anyone, because she knew it would sound strange. In the end, she just walked through the garden, feeling the late afternoon chilly breeze, and thinking about the last time she walked there with Junmyeon.
She was so lost in thought that she almost didn’t see Jongdae, playing chess on a table not far from where she was. Irene stopped, the familiar scene startling her for a moment.
Of all the boys, she would say that Jongdae was the most different.
Where Chën had a perfect posture, with perfectly fitted clothes and slick styled hair, Jongdae just seemed more carefree - practical and simple, with curly hair covering his forehead in a messy way.
He suddenly looked to the side - at her - and Irene didn't know whether to stay there or leave.
“Do you want to play?” he asked, surprising her.
That scene, too, looked like a deja-vú. Despite that, she nodded.
She sat across from him, watching the boy put the pieces back together. Chën never did that, he liked that she played from where he left off.
“Do you know how to play?”
Irene nodded.
“Yes.”
“Then you can start.”
Irene wasn't sure why he wanted her company. It was clear that he was more open to her presence than Chanyeol or Sehun, but he never seemed to express that - until now.
She moved a piece.
Jongdae looked at the board for some time before moving one, too.
The two played a few rounds in silence, until he seemed surprised by a move Irene made.
“Nice play. I didn't think you guys would have time for trivial hobbies like this one.”
Irene watched him play.
“It's a logical game, it helps with mind control. We all had some lessons on that.”
Jongdae was silent for a moment.
“Does he play too?”
Irene didn't expect him to ask about Chën, but then, nothing was being predictable here.
“Yes.” she said. “It’s one of his favorite things to do.”
Jongdae raised the corner of his lips.
“Besides stalking people with his cameras?”
He had made a move that Irene wasn't sure how to overcome. She thought about it and moved a piece without answering the question.
“Why does he never show up in combat?” Jongdae asked, and Irene looked at him. He was frowning, and she knew that matter bothered him enough for him to ask her.
“Chën is very smart. He prefers to use his mind in strategy than his body in combat.”
Jongdae was still frowning.
“He doesn't use his thunder?”
“Yes, but only if he needs to. I believe that Chën wants to win with something that...” She paused “Well, that’s not someone else's.”
Jongdae seemed unbothered by that.
“Good time to have these principles.” he murmured, before moving a piece. “Check Mate.”
Irene looked at the board, seeing how fast he had changed the game - and wondered what would happen if him and Chën faced each other.
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The night came, and Irene still hadn’t seen Junmyeon.
She hoped she would have met him in the cafeteria at dinner time, but he wasn’t there. EXO's table was also not full - only Baekhyun, Jongdae and Sehun were there. Irene sat down with Taeyeon and a few other people from the medical center, but wasn’t hungry to eat all of her dinner.
Later in her room, Irene thought about trying to sleep early, but she didn't feel tired at all, and decided to take a hot shower and try to relax. As she was leaving the bathroom, there was a knock on the door - and her heart skipped a beat.
Her whole body was telling her – was wishing – that it was going to be him, but Irene tried not to put her hopes up when she went to open the door – and saw Junmyeon standing there.
“Hi. I wasn’t sure if you would be sleeping... You weren’t, right?”
Irene shook her head. She didn't know why she was so pleased to see him there, and they continued to look at each other - but Junmyeon was awkward, holding a plate with what looked like cake in his hands.
“Do you want to come in?” she asked, and he nodded.
Junmyeon entered the room, Irene closing the door behind them, and it was the first time that the two were alone like this. The realization hit her, and there was a moment of tension in the room.
“This is a cake from the cafeteria.” He explained, breaking the silence. “It's my favorite, so I stole a piece, but... I don't know if you'd like...”
Irene watched him.
“I ate a lot at dinner, today.” she told him.
“Ah.” Junmyeon blinked. “Ah, it's okay. I just... Well...” He frowned, looking down, and seemed to notice her leg. “You removed the splint.”
Irene followed his gaze, moving her leg.
“Yes, this afternoon.”
“Are you okay? Doesn’t it hurt?” She shook her head “That's good.”
There was another moment of silence in the room, and Irene didn't really want to say that - but it seemed that she was unable to contain her curiosity those days, especially when it came to Junmyeon.
“I haven't seen you in the building all day.” She commented, without really asking.
“I had to attend some meetings today.” he told her “They went outside the compound, so... It was a little far away.”
Irene knew that the Red Force was the one who determined everything in the Exo'rdium and controlled X-EXO - but it was a mystery to everyone who was behind EXO. She felt like if she asked him, Junmyeon would tell her, but Irene was actually surprised to realize she didn't want to talk about it with him at that moment.
She walked around the room, past him to the nightstand, where the poetry book was.
“I think I should give this back to you.”
Junmyeon looked at the book, and shook his head.
“You can keep it. I have plenty of books in my room.”
Irene didn’t know why, but that didn’t sound strange.
“Do you really like poetry?”
Junmyeon gave her a half smile.
“It's kind of ironic in the times we live in, isn't it?”
She looked at him, feeling something deep about it.
“Not really.” she said, meaning it.
Junmyeon seemed taken aback by that, and the mood in the room changed.
“Can I ask you which one is your favorite, if you have one?”
Irene hesitated, but sat on the bed and opened the book, looking for the page. She noticed when Junmyeon sat next to her, leaving the plate with the cake on the nightstand.
She found the lavender poem, and showed it to him. Junmyeon looked at the page with a light smile, and Irene was unable to look away from him.
“I like this one a lot, too.”
“Do you have a favorite?”
Junmyeon eyed her, and started flipping through the book again until he stopped on a page. Irene saw the title, "Always".
“Do you mind if I read it out loud?” Junmyeon asked.
She shook her head.
“No.”
Junmyeon seemed to concentrate, and Irene watched every detail in his expression as he read.
“You were you, and I was I; we were two, before our time. I was yours before I knew, and you have always been mine too.”
It was such a small poem, a quick reading - but the depth it had, the depth she felt from Junmyeon was so intense, it was almost too much for Irene.
“That was my parent’s favorite.” Junmyeon said, before finally looking back at her.
Irene knew she should’ve moved, that she should’ve said something, but it was impossible. His voice still reverberated in her ears, and now that he was looking at her, everything around seemed out of focus.
She didn't notice her body leaning towards him - or maybe it was him who was approaching her? Irene didn't know. But they were close, and she could see every detail of his face.
Junmyeon had a small scar on his lower lip. It was so small that it couldn't be noticed unless you were close, like this. His eyes were almost hidden behind the red hair, and Irene’s fingers were itching to get it out of the way.
“Irene...”
Hearing the soft tone of his voice made her realize what was about to happen, all the warnings in her mind going off.
Were they about to kiss?
Irene moved away, getting up from the bed. Her mind was still fuzzy, but she had to get a grip of herself.
What was going on?
“Irene?”
She looked at Junmyeon. He looked confused, still sitting on the bed.
“I think I need to sleep.” She said, suddenly. “I... Thanks for the cake. But I'm tired, I... I need to sleep.”
Junmyeon kept quiet for a few moments, but then stood up, without pressuring her. He also knew what would have happened, so why wasn't he questioning her? This confused Irene even more.
“Alright.” He said, leaving the book on the bed. “You can send it back to the cafeteria if you don't want to.” He continued, referring to the cake.
And after looking at her one more time, Junmyeon left the room.
Irene sat on the bed again, feeling weak.
What was happening to her? She wasn’t like that.
Even when she was involved with Sehůn, Irene knew it wasn’t right. She knew that being with a subject wasn’t good for her job. But Junmyeon? That was even worse.
He was EXO.
He was the enemy. She used to do her best everyday to develop things that would help to destroy him.
And now, against all odds, she had almost kissed him.
And she wanted to.
That’s what scared her the most.  
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ache - bbh : [2/2]
ache
/āk/
noun
a continuous or prolonged dull pain
genre: angst
paring : baekhyun x reader
word count: 4.6k
A/N: hey guys, so part 2 of ache is looong overdue but it’s finally here! thank you all for the lovely comments on part 1, i felt so happy reading all of your thoughts and feedback seeing as it was my very first fic i posted!! i really hope part 2 will be up to your expectations hehe. i might be posting a mark lee fic soon or writing another baek one but i don’t wanna promise anything seeing as how bad i am with keeping my updates consistent LOL lmk if you guys would be interested tho!! it will probably be another angst fic because you can never have too much angst :)) btw italics are flashbacks
if you haven’t read part 1, you can read it here! enjoy:)
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“Excuse me, sir! I think you’re looking for this?”
Your hands clutched the dark green booklet as the man in front of you turned in your your direction. The first thing you noticed was his black face mask that made him practically indecipherable, the second was his dyed silver hair that looked extremely soft. Through his bangs that hung in front of his eyes, your gazes locked together as his warm brown eyes widened just slightly and stared deep into your soul. Your heart skipped a beat, it was almost as if you couldn’t look away. Seconds passed as the loud whirl of the coffee machines broke you out of your trance.
Quickly blinking away and clearing your throat, you gestured towards the book in your hands, “Your passport?”
Seemingly flustered (which you thought was really cute), he shook his head a few times to recollect himself, causing his whole head of hair to follow along his motion. His hands that were frantically patting his coat pockets just minutes ago thrust forward and grabbed the passport, easily covering your fingers that gripped the book.
He let out a slight chuckle along with an eye crinkle, “Thank you so much, definitely could not have lost this today.”
His voice caused shivers to run down your spine, cheeks blushing furiously as his gaze remained locked on your face. Although half his face was covered, there was no denying that he was attractive. It also didn’t help that his hands were still covering yours as he made no indication in letting go,
“No problem, are you flying out today?”
His sheepish grin already gave you an answer as his other hand awkwardly reached up to ruffle his hair. The jazz music in the background along with the light hitting his face created an angelic atmosphere around you two.
His eyes roamed around the little coffee shop, Potted. “Welcome!” signs were placed everywhere along with green and purple flowers pots lining the window sill, as well as growing across the walls. He spotted an empty table for two and quickly plucked a purple flower off the wall and turned towards you, giving you a boyish grin as he placed the flower behind your year. Your heart fluttered at his flirtatious actions.
“I have a few hours before my flight. My name is Baekhyun, can I buy you a drink?”
“Noona, please open the door. We know you haven’t eaten all day. Please.”
Donghyuck’s worried voice resonated through the door and into the dark, quiet room. Followed by three consecutive knocks and a sigh, his footsteps shuffled away from your door. They slowly fainted away but was followed by quick murmurs and hushes.
You didn’t pay any mind to it as you curled up underneath your covers, mind blank and body consumed with the feeling of numbness. It’s been three weeks since the night at the bar, three weeks of radio silence as Baekhyun has not bothered to call or text you since then.
In hindsight, you should’ve seen this coming. If he could ignore you for three months, what’s stopping him from cutting you off altogether? Deep down though, you couldn’t deny the feeling of disappointment and hurt bubbling up, you thought that he was at least decent enough to apologize or properly break up with you. You shuffled a bit in your sheets, ignoring the murmuring outside the door that keeps getting louder.
The phone beside you lit up and you instinctively flitted your eyes towards it, meeting nothing besides a few Instagram notifications. Your lockscreen behind it shined glaringly in the dark at you, a generic couple picture of you and Baekhyun hugging each other in the mirror, his lips pressed lightly against your temple while your phone obnoxiously covered half your face. It was annoyingly affectionate that you didn’t have it in you to change your lock screen after all these months.
It’s odd how the heart still wants what hurts them the most.
You heart continued aching as you kept staring at the picture. Feelings of hurt overshadowed by sudden anger made you flip the phone upside down and curl your face further into your pillow.
All you could wonder was why?
Why did he have to say such hurtful things?
Why did he break your trust?
Why were you still hoping for that one phone call even though he’s already shown that he doesn’t and will never care for you?
Another round of tears started stinging your eyes again. Why, why, why? That word kept popping up with endless possibilities after it. You two were so happy, so in love. How did things end up this way?
You laid on your side and pulled the covers up to your chin, staring outside the window. The room was bathed in the cold evening light, the in between of sunlight and darkness. Your thoughts matched the clouds outside, constantly and silently moving but never getting anywhere. You quickly began to dislike the peacefulness as it rivaled against what was going on inside your mind.
A sudden knock at the door interrupted the unsettling calm. Your head turned just slightly towards the noise as the person outside began vigorously jiggling the doorknob. Your eyebrows furrowed as it started shaking more violently, your body slowly moving up from your spot.
What are they do–
The door being thrown up made your body jump up from the bed, the force of it knocking into the wall behind with a big thud. Your mind was reeling at the fact that whoever was outside just easily picked your door lock.
“What have you been doing for the past three weeks?”
Jaehyun’s voice registered in your mind before you were able to decipher his face. You winced as your eyes were met with a stoic and somewhat angry expression. You see Donghyuck behind him making a face at such an intrusive greeting but dismissed it as his eyes fell on you, cured up in a defensive position. Your heart ached at seeing such a worried expression on his face, it looked foreign on such a usually carefree ray of sunshine.
Your heart keeps aching at everything and it's come to the point where you’re tired of it feeling this way.
Jaehyun’s voice once again grabbed you out of your thoughts as he swiftly moved to your bedside and started peeling the covers away.
You gasped quietly as the cool air met your bare legs, making a face and moving to yank the covers back.
His mouth gaped at your actions and his whole being became rigid as he snatched the covers away. “No. No. You have been staying in this room for far too long not talking or even eating. If you’re not ready to talk to us, that’s completely fine, we can wait. But if you don’t start taking care of your body then we will literally drag you out of this flat every single day until you do.”
Jaehyun has always been overprotective of you. Your platonic affection towards each other has grown from ever since you were kids and remained till this day. Being best friends far before his debut, he was the reason why you knew most of the idols you did now.
Including Baekhyun.
Jaehyun’s tone left no room for argument. His eyes stayed on you as he waited for you to make your decision, either get out of this bed yourself or be dragged like a mop.
You muffled out a small “fine” before slowly getting up from your indented spot in the bed. Jaehyun stepped back a bit to let you have your space as you padded across the room and walked up to your bedroom’s door knob.
You snapped your head towards the clear culprit, not missing the way he held back his grin at your disbelief towards the lock. “How did you even get into my room?”
“How else did we get into your flat?”
“Noona! No need to worry about the details, let's just hurry and get some food first!” Donghyuck’s hands hastily placed themselves on your shoulders and steered you out the door, pushing your sluggish self into the kitchen. As he let you go to check what’s in the fridge, your hands grabbed at the first hoodie you saw hanging off a kitchen chair. Clearly, having stayed in bed these past few weeks have made the cold air of your flat become sensitive to your skin.Your fists barely pass the sleeves as the hoodie sagged downwards, enveloping you in warmth and with a scent that was distinctively Jae.
Donghyuck turned towards you while he closed the fridge door and gave you a pointed look. “You have basically nothing in your fridge.”
“Oh well, guess we have nothing to eat. You guys can go along your way now, I’ll make sure to order takeout for–”
A pair of jeans thrown into your face cut you off as the rough denim plopped against it. You quickly clutched the fabric and turned around to glare at Jae.
“Why are you being so excessively mean tod–”
“Go get dressed, we’re taking you out.”
Donghyuck’s arm was swung around your shoulders as you 3 walked down the dimly lit street. Snuggling further into the hoodie and underneath Donghyuck’s arm, your eyes nervously darted around the various shops.
You felt uncomfortable to say the least, Seoul was only so big that there was a possibility that you would actually run into him. Your stomach churned at the thought of seeing him, your gut telling you that something bad was coming and your fight or flight instincts kicked in.
“Guys, I don’t know about this. Can’t we just order in some noodles and call it a day?”
Jaehyun shook his head and peered down at you, “Some fresh air would do you some good. Besides, there’s this cute coffee shop we wanna bring you to.”
You continued following Jae as Donghyuck talks about what’s going on with the Dreamies lately. Only half listening, your hungry eyes roamed around the possible food places you could go. Okay, maybe you were a little hungry.
“I see it!” Jae excitedly grabs your hand as you looked ahead at the shop tucked in between an alleyway and a bagel shop. Your eyes widened at the familiar green and purple flowers lining the brick walls, a golden plaque with Potted written across the top. You immediately stopped in your tracks causing Donghyuck to look back at you curiously. Jaehyun also noticed the commotion behind him and glanced down at your pale face. Your fingers start fiddling with the cuffs of Jae’s sweater as they waited for you to say something.
“Can’t we go somewhere else? I’m not really feeling coffee at 6.” Your voice slightly wavered at the end and you inwardly cursed at yourself for being so weak. It’s only a coffee shop for goodness sake, and a cute one at that. Why should your relationship with Baekhyun stop you from getting your intake of overly sweet lattes?
Still, your feet remained rooted to the ground, your heart hurting at the mere sight of the welcome sign. Jae’s and Donghyuck’s questioning eyes turned towards each other then back to focus on you. Donghyuck was the one who moved first, gently grabbing your hand and leading you to cross the street.
“I’m craving some noodles, Jae, let’s go eat some r–”
The sound of a bell ringing loudly made 3 heads turn towards the swinging doors of Potted. Out came a man, adorned with ripped jeans and a plain black shirt, your heart stuttered at the sight of his arm loosely wrapped around the waist of a petite woman. Even with a face mask, you could could recognize without a doubt that it was him.
How could you not? After dating for so long, loving him for so long, recognizing him was hardly a struggle for you.
The couple didn’t see you and continued walking down the street, opposite the direction you were facing. You didn’t miss the way the woman looked up at him, with love and adoration. The way you used to look at him, the way you still looked at him. Your heart shattered with each step they took and your whole being felt like it was being swallowed up whole. Your shaky eyes trailed the way he tightened his arm around her waist and pressed a soft kiss to her temple, making her snuggle against his side more.
You felt like you couldn’t breathe, even when Jae snapped his head towards you, you couldn’t bring yourself to face his hard, yet questioning eyes. The puzzle started piecing itself together in the two male’s eyes as they began staring holes against Baekhyun’s back.
Almost as if he knew, Baekhyun at that second turned around and his eyes landed on you. His steps immediately faltered along with his arm dropping and eyes widening. He was completely turned to you then as you continued staring at him, eyes constantly flickering between the couple before you.
The woman looked confused and reached for his hand to tug him along, not noticing the tension brewing between the four people behind her. He stayed rooted in his spot, eyes never wavering from yours. That’s when she finally noticed you, eyebrows furrowing and thin lips pouting, she stared at you curiously and proceeded to wrap her arm around Baekhyun protectively.
So this was what he was doing for three weeks? While you have been moping, crying, being an absolute wreck these past few weeks, he was parading around with a new girl?
How dare she hold him protectively? How dare he let her hold him like that, right in front of you? He didn’t even try to shake her off and continued staring at you like the idiot he was.
Baekhyun began walking towards you with small, hesitant steps. He was blinking rapidly and if you looked close enough his eyes were brimming red.
But you didn’t want to look close enough, you didn’t want to remain eye contact with him. If you kept staring at him it would just remind you of how hard you fell in love with him at first sight. How his warm brown eyes were so inviting, so enticing. Instead. hurt and anger flushed up as your eyes remained on the woman, her eyes also steeled as if you were taking her man.
How funny.
As Baekhyun came closer, Jae instinctively stood in front of you. Baekhyun’s eyes flew towards Jae’s tall frame, eyes hardening as he took in his protective stance against you. Donghyuck’s hand remained closed around yours as he pulled you to stand slightly behind his back.
“Hyung” Jae’s voice was blunt and rigid as his eyes distinctively pointed at the woman behind Baekhyun. Although he was younger than the man before him, he couldn’t help but be overprotective of you.
Baekhyun seemed to finally catch on as his eyes darted back and forth between you and the woman. He closed his eyes and had the audacity to look frustrated. Frustrated at the fact that he got caught, not that he never bothered to contact you since three weeks ago.
That seemed to snap you out of your trance. Why the fuck did he look so bothered at the fact that you caught him? Why is he treating you as if you were an inconvenience? As if you were a bother on his evening rendezvous?
Why did it seem like you were the only one hurting and he was happily moving on with his life?
It wasn’t fair.
Out of anger, you harshly let go of Donghyuck’s hand, avoiding his somewhat hurt expression. Starting towards Baekhyun, you narrowly missed Jae’s arm to pull you back and stared straight into Baekhyun’s warm brown eyes as they softened immediately at you. You felt so vulnerable in the position you were in, being not even two feet apart from him.
You wanted to see what he would say. You wanted to give him a chance, because right now, looking straight into his eyes you felt so weak. So desperate for his voice to say something you wanted to hear. You knew you were only placing false expectations on him but, God, you were so weak.
Upclose, his eyes looked tired, worn down. His lips were trying to form something to say after your bold and unexpected stride towards him. If you didn’t know any better he seemed almost nervous.
With expectant eyes, you waited.
“Baby, I– I can explain”
“Then explain”
He nervously looked around after your curt response. At that moment, the woman behind him thought it was the perfect time to intervene as she stood next to him, hand clutching his arm.
“Baekie, who is this?”
Her shrill and accusing voice instantly made you roll your eyes and let out a sarcastic laugh. You turned away and was about to walk away when Baekhyun’s hand flew out to pull you back.
“She’s not who you think she is”
“Then care to explain who exactly she is, then?” You tried ignoring his burning touch sending sparks up your arm, settling for listening to your more angry side instead.
He didn’t say anything as you prompted forward, “Who is she then, Baekhyun? Was I interrupting a date?”
“Yes, you were actually. It’s our 100-day mark today” The woman piped up and gave you a pointed glare.
Your eyes widened at her words as your heart stuttered once again, head becoming hazy as Baekhyun flung her arm off of him and frantically held both of her hands.
100 days? Memories of waiting up for three months flashed back in your head. Three months of cold words and silence, and he was spending them with her? At this point, should you even be surprised?
Baekhyun tried crouching and catching your eyes as he hectically spoke to try to justify himself, words coming out in a ramble. “Don’t listen to her, please, she doesn’t know what’s she saying. Baby, please, it’s not what you think, I would never do that to you”
His words triggered you even more as you were brought back to the night you caught him with the first woman. I would never do that you, everything coming out of him was full of lies.
Your hands flew out from his grasp and slapped him sharp against the cheek. The woman gasped as Donghyuck was suddenly next to you, pulling you against his chest. You felt the tears that you didn’t even know had fallen soak up the shirt against your cheek.
Through your hazy mind you could vaguely make out Donghyuck’s soft voice telling you that you should leave. You absentmindedly nodded as he didn’t miss a beat and proceeded to drag you back to your flat. Away from Baekhyun and his lies but not from the ache settling deep in your heart.
Your phone was ringing incessantly as you looked blankly at Baekhyun’s number staring back you at for the past two hours. Coming back from the coffee shop, Jaehyun took your phone and deleted his contact but it didn’t help as you already has his number ingrained in your mind.
Your eyes felt dry from all the tears that you’ve been shedding for the past day. Donghyuck and Jae were currently in your living room spending yet another night in your flat in case you decided to do anything stupid.
Not that you were but hey, you appreciated their love and support.
You looked down at your phone as text messages started flooding in.
2:07 AM >> please answer my calls
2:07 AM >> please
2:07 AM >> i love you so much and i know that everything looks extremely bad right now but please let me explain
2:08 AM >> you mean the absolute world to me and i know
2:08 AM >> i know that it doesn’t seem that way but all i want is to hear your voice and explain why
2:08 AM >> why i have been so distant, why i didn’t ever call back, why i was with that woman and with the one at the club
2:08 AM >> fuck, everything sounds so bad but please
2:09 AM >> i won’t hide anything this time, please let me explain and tell you how much you mean to me
2:09 AM >> just one phone call and i won’t bother you again
2:09 AM >> please
You wrapped the covers around you once again. Everything hurt so much, you didn’t know how your heart was still intact.
Of course you wanted to call him. Fuck, even after seeing him with that woman you still wanted to hear his voice. To hear his explanations that could possibly justify his actions.
You were so tired, you knew you deserved better but you fell so hard that your heart kept yearning for him.
In your moment of weakness, Baekhyun decided to call again. You knew you shouldn’t, you shouldn’t. You could blame it on the late night thoughts or possibly your love for him but you couldn’t deny the uncomfortable hope settling in your throat as you answered the call on the last ring.
“Baby, is that you?”
You closed your eyes in disappointment at your actions but stayed on the call.
Rustling was heard on his side as Baekhyun breathed shakily through the phone. His words came out thick as he spoke again.
“I know that you don’t want to speak to me. Fuck, I wouldn’t either if I were you. Just, please let me talk before you hang up.”
You continued to stay silent, not having the energy or heart to actually answer him. He took that as an indication to keep going.
“I know I’ve been distant lately and I’m so sorry for that. I’m sorry for not talking to you and I’m sorry that I broke your trust and loyalty. Please, if you decide to hang up right now just know how sorry I am for going behind your back and hurting you like that”
You covered your mouth with your comforter as you clutched the phone to your ear. His voice was becoming shakier and thicker. You could hear him take gasps between his words.
“That day at the club, you deserve to know that that wasn’t my first time with a woman and baby I am so sorry. I’m so fucking sorry, you don’t know how much I hate myself right now. You don’t know how badly I want to take back everything I did.”
Your tears were endlessly dripping down your pillow. As much as he had hurt you, hearing him cry and plead hurt too much. He was full on sobbing now as he let out an empty laugh.
“I feel so pathetic right now holding our promise rings as I keep remembering your hurt eyes over and over again. I know that everything is my fault and I’m not expecting you to forgive me but please just know how much I love you. That woman today, she was lying about the 100-day mark, I only started seeing her this week after feeling so worthless after that day in the club. Baby, please, I know it doesn’t make it any better but I wasn’t in a relationship with anyone else besides you”
There was silence for a bit as you could hear him sniffling in the background. You wanted to tell him that it was okay, but how could you lie to yourself? Nothing is okay, it won’t be okay. Him apologizing does not make this situation okay, it just makes reality more real.
Both of you didn’t speak for a while, was it five minutes? Twenty? You didn’t know. There was one thing you needed to ask though.
“Baekhyun”
“Yes, baby?”
His response was immediate, his ears hanging onto any words that you speak. You didn’t have the heart to correct him for the pet name anymore, this whole situation was just too heartbreaking.
“Why? Why did you cheat? Why didn’t you talk to me, why are you just now calling?”
You heard his breath hitch as there was silence on his end. He didn’t expect you to speak so softly, after the slap earlier he had expected you to yell at him. Somehow, this was more heartbreaking than you throwing insults at him, hearing your voice sound so insecure and small.
If he had the chance to do it over again, he would take it in a heartbeat.
“It hurt too much”
What?
“What do you mean?”
“It hurt too much to love you”
What did that mean? Hurt too much to love you? What the hell does that mean?
“I– I don’t understand”
He sighed deeply as he tried choosing his words carefully. Though, nothing could’ve braced you for what he was about to say next.
“I felt like I would break down every single time I talked to you. Every time I hung up on the phone the feeling would come back, every time I texted you it just reminded me of how far apart we were. I was selfish and I only wanted to protect myself”
“What about the times I was there, Baekhyun? When you came back, why didn’t you just come to me?” You were pleading now, you didn’t understand. If he loved you so much, why would he put you through this pain. Why would he meet another girl knowing you were at home waiting for him?
His voice sounded desperate this time. “I– I don’t know. Please. Baby, I promise this time I’ll do better this time. I’ll answer all your calls, I won’t go out with any other girls, I swear on it. Just please give me a–”
“That doesn’t help anything though, how can I trust you again? How can I trust that the same thing won’t happen again when times get rough? This isn’t your first or last tour, Baekhyun”
“No, I swear on it, I know I can do better. Please just give me the chance, I love you so much, please.” His voice started wavering again, desperate to convince you to give him a chance. But there was just something, something that made you hesitate no matter how much you love him.
“Baekhyun, why were on date with another girl even after I caught you?”
Silence. He didn’t have anything to say and you knew why.
“See, that’s the thing Baek. Why, even after I caught you, why didn’t you even try talking it out with me?”
It was so silent you could hear a pin drop.
“No matter how many times you say you can do better, it’s not true. You’re not ready. If you were ready, you wouldn’t have gone out with that girl. You wouldn’t have to wait to see my face until you start fixing your mistakes. You’re too scared and the real issue is that you gave up on us a long time before I even caught you.”
“No, just listen to me, I–”
“I love you so much, more than you could ever know. But, I need time, you need time. Loving someone isn’t an easy task, Baekhyun. Both of us will just end up hurting each other if we got back together.”
“Baby, please!–”
You wanted it so badly, but you just couldn’t do it.
“Goodbye, Baek”
“No, wait!–”
With a heavy heart, you hung up before he could say anything else. You let out a loud sob as you firmly pressed your hand on your chest, losing all strength in your body and dropping on the bed.
Eventually, you felt warm arms wrap around your body and the smell of Jaehyun flooded through your senses. You buried your face in his chest as he held you, sobs racking through your body as your heart yearned for the boy you would would always love so dearly.
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