#thoughts between coffees

[thoughts-between-coffees]

January 12, 2025

All you need to do is say the word and I'll be there to pick you up in 25. I do know better and you know as well.

[andi-o-geyser]

a full SAGA of chaos choices at the diner in the centre of your mind

[authenticity2025]

There is a life and there is a death, and there are beauty and melancholy between. Albert Camus

[sainz100]

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[bunnakit]

my stand in ep 4 thoughts, feelings, etc

WOW WA WE WAA THAT SURE WAS AN EPISODE HUH - happy to report i went back through the episode slowly this week and took notes and really tried to gather everything i wanted to say (but i will inevitably forget something)

🌸 ok disclaimers because i have a lot of them for this particular episode 🌸

i'm just a silly guy on the internet, i'm not an expert in mental health, psychology, body language, whatever. most days i can't even take care of myself. i'm just saying things recreationally.

PLEASE do not put novel spoilers in my replies, reblogs, or tags without a warning notice. i've got an itchy blocking finger for it these days.

i am treating ming and joe and everyone involved in this show as if they were real life human beings. ming was not born some mustache twirling villain sent from hell to make joe miserable. joe is not some pure angel descended from the clouds to do no wrong. everyone in this show exhibits very human behavior and that can be distressing under certain circumstances. i'm just going to comment on them as humans. i'm not interested in a round table discussion on why a character is irredeemable, the scum of the earth, etc. i'm just putting my thoughts out there and you can take them or leave them.

🌸 alright yucky disclaimer time over 🌸

the episode really just picks us back up where everything left off - and yet joe still made ming breakfast, and ming isn't stupid (well right now at least,) he knows something is off.

i am confused why tong needs to get married on this specific day. and like bro how fast are you getting married? relax. the whole thing is just unstoppable force (trajectory of this producers career) meets immovable object (tong's fuckass stubbornness) and the collateral damage is massive.

and then there's the question of did joe ever want to play a lead? or did he let his impulsiveness and hurt put a target on his back? (only emphasized by the fact that everyone assumed joe would turn down the role)

i DO apologize for all my doubt surrounding wut. he, ja, and may are the only people in this show with any god damn sense. maybe jojo and yim. we'll see.

getting into the confrontation at joe's work, i really don't think it's that surprising when we keep in mind ming genuinely has no fucking clue what is going on. all he knows is joe woke up, was acting weird, didn't come home, and then told him to pack up his shit and leave with ZERO explanation. like, joe's completely in the right, but i'd also be confused as fuck. (i wouldn't go to someone's work about it but, y'know, we know ming acts in extremes.)

and to me this is where it really became obvious that joe has always been able to overpower ming, to get away from him, as we have seen joe's physical prowess, we've seen what he's capable of, but he never uses his body to move ming away from him - that's not who joe is, he's not someone that would put his hands on another person like that. it's just another way ming and joe are the direct antithesis of each other.

it's my thought that the argument escalates because ming is used to getting everything he wants - except for tong, and now joe. when joe begins to push him away and deny him his substitution for tong i think ming lashes out in his hurt with a thought of "it's happening again, why doesn't anyone want me?"

i will say while i do believe sol has good intentions for the most part his white knighting is getting a little irksome. while convenient, it just shows how much he's still hovering and laying in wait for a chance with joe - he, too, is not respecting joe's wishes. no is a complete sentence, sol.

and then things continue back at home and joe finally, finally throws ming's words back at him: if i'm so terrible to be with, if you're so great, why are you wasting your time with me?

and ming doesn't have an answer. what ming DOES have is another back embrace, arms wrapped around joe as he asks "don't you love me anymore?" but is he asking joe or tong?

"although i'm not as good as tong" even now joe's rampant self worth issues are still at play but at least he finally knows he's worth more than whatever this is.

then the phone rings and to me, ming looks skittish. he looks shaken. he's never seen joe so angry and he's scared and as the call progresses that fear morphs into rage when sol calls joe. and the thing is, regardless of who played the main role, ming was never going to be happy. it was either going to be joe or tong playing opposite sol and neither of those things would have been acceptable.

and then i said, out loud, in my quiet office: OH! and promptly lost my shit in the group chat.

ming doesn't look wholly present after his act of violence. his face is vacant, like he isn't completely seeing or grasping what he's just done. i get the impression that ming isn't mentally well; stress and fear and anger have a way of making people do really fucking stupid things and as these things happen you risk falling into the sunk cost fallacy - you've already gone this far, you can't stop now - which all aligns with the obsessive behavior we've seen from ming in the past.

as joe wakes up and they talk once again joe doesn't blame ming, he blames himself for not seeing the writing on the walls even though it was written in invisible ink.

"all these times we were together did you ever love me?"

"you can't tell?"

again, so much of the blame and emotional responsibility of their situationship is put on joe and ming refuses to communicate any of his feelings, perhaps because he doesn't know how to after repressing everything for so long.

WE DIDN'T GET HOT KINKY CHAINED UP SEX THOUGH, WHY DOES GOD HATE ME SPECIFICALLY

but the way joe looks at ming as they linger there in the wake of joe's request looks like a goodbye, the way his eyes soak in every detail of ming's face. despite all of this and the nightmare it has turned into he did love ming, perhaps still does, and he does have some of those good memories he was so desperate to keep.

though like.. joe.... maybe we could consider a different career path??? instead of just jumping to risking our lives? like sure food service sucks, cashiering sucks, etc. but you aren't in danger of falling off any cliffs, you know? and let's be real, he could just go into modeling with those looks.

it's my impression that when ming calls joe he looks haggard, like he's lost numerous nights of sleep (and we really don't know how much time has passed) but either way it does seem like he's at least done some amount of reflecting. his voice comes across soft, subdued, and sincere.

and after everything, back in the present, we see ming. he's still in the apartment, desperately calling joe's name all these years later, still unable to sleep and waiting for joe to come home just like he asked him to years ago.

maybe ming never wanted to enter the entertainment industry before, but he has now. perhaps it was never for the attention or the money, maybe he chose to promote those watches because it was a reminder of the gift from joe. and maybe this job, in this specific industry, is the closest he can feel to joe now. and maybe with new influence and connections ming can find out why he was never able to tell joe he loved him before he lost him.

WHO KNOWS, NOT ME, CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT THO

[timegays]

Finally watched that coffee town movie

[micheldechevin]

I think the thing that isn't really mentioned is how Solas wouldn't know the inquisitor anymore. I mean any inquisitor, theres a big difference between watching movements of a person and getting to know a person. Having intel on someone isn't the same as sharing a meal and stories. It's not the same as knowing their favorite color. It's not the same as learning how they react when they're angry. 10 years is a long time and people change in 10 years.

What if your inquisitor likes something they wouldn't eat before? What if your inquisitor decides they hate the color yellow but used to like it. That's not the person Solas knew.

Even inquisitors who hate him change, their anger might strengthen or lessen but he doesn't know what that means like he would know before he left. A lot changes in 10 years no matter who you are and what relation you had to him.

Maybe your inquisitor decides to help him and then changes their mind or vice versa.

Idk I just think it's interesting.

[delusionaltoma]

I wanna blabber on more stuff but I don't wanna spam my account, like. I wanna keep it for art but then at the same time I do like my blog to feel authentic to me, but I don't wanna spam. That's why I like questions sometimes so I feel like I can blabber for a reason. Those are my thoughts of the day

[hsslilly-blog]

huntclaire divorce au. everything is exactly the same but wait i was going to make a joke here but i’m actually very invested in this

[thoughts-between-coffees]

This song always gives me goosebumps by how good it is. The mix between John's lyrics and the string arrangements makes this one special.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

just read the most sugucoded poem ever i’m lying on the floor like a sad gutted fish </3

[henswilsons]

going on a date today and actually cannot think of anything i want to do less. if anyone wants to come hospitalise me so im unable to attend please do so very quickly

[reallygroovyninja]

Cafe Between Worlds

This was inspired by a prompt by writing-prompt-s on tumblr.

You run a café on the edge of life and death. Souls who have been departed from their bodies temporarily, such as in comas or near-death experiences, can relax in your quaint cafe for as long as they need before they can either return to their bodies or begin their journey to the afterlife.

[deadn30n]

🌿、· ⋆ 。 starter call ╏ @loveheir

“    …   h-hello?    ”   Eden's   just   a   tiny   bit   shy   as   they   stick   their   head   through   the   shop   door,   wondering   if   they   should   just   turn   back   now.   the   place   looks   a   little   bit   empty,   but   to   be   fair,   it   is   nearing   the   end   of   the   night   on   a   Tuesday.   Eden   imagines   that   closer   to   weekends   are   a   bit   more   busy    –    it's   certainly   like   that   in   their   coffee   shop.   after   a   moment   of   silence,   they   decide   to   work   up   a   bit   more   courage   and   actually   step   inside,   clutching   their   hands   together   as   they   look   around.   they're   still   dressed   in   their   work   uniform    –    a   coffee   stained   purple   apron   covers   a   black   turtleneck   and   plaid   shorts,   complete   with   black   workboots.   their   footsteps   aren't   exactly   soft,   but   they   aren't   loud   either.    “    i   was   just…   ahn…   wondering   if   i   might   be   able   to   set   up   an   appointment?    ”    they   sound   hopeful   as   they   speak   into   the   quiet   air,   still   glancing   around.   it's   close   to   their   daughter's   fourth   birthday   now,   and   they've   always   wanted   to   get   her   name   tattoo'd   on   their   hand.   amongst   the   many   other   gifts   they   plan   on   getting   her,   they're   certain   she'd   be   delighted   to   see   her   name   on   them,   especially   since   she's   just   learned   how   to   write   it!

[maddy-ferguson]

having a failed talking stage in your class of 13 people is so unserious