#to be viewed as worthy

[siriuslygay1981]

Always the artist, never the muse.

I love making art believe me. It has been a part of me since I could pick up a pencil. I like to capture the things I see, to show everyone how I see it and its beauty. Most of all, I really loved to draw people I adored, people who were a part of my soul. But at some point, after countless hours of drawing these people, spread out beautifully and in their element and then seeing others do the same online, speaking of their muse and just thinking of your own process you wish to be the muse. Even for a moment, for a single drawing...a doodle even. Doesn't have to be perfect, doesn't even have to be good...just has to be.

I have had countless artist friends, one IRL who has been my muse before. I had a s/o who did art sometimes who was and still is one of my biggest muses. I've drawn my sister a few times, she's an artist herself, I've drawn my mom who used to draw, I have never even been given art. I have given away art though, to friends and family. Never appreciated even when I'd spent hours on it.

Except a throw away drawing my baby sister did, she claimed she made it for me but I had caught her in the lie. she had drew stick figures and just added black hair so it could be me. I still have it tucked away in my box of mementos. Even though it wasn't meant for me at first...at least someone gave me something like that. She has been the only one. I don't expect to be drawn, I don't even ask it but maybe...for once I could be beautiful enough to want to capture. To someone I'll be beautiful enough to want to immortalize on a paper , in a drawing, something someone spent longer than a second on.

Maybe to someone I'm worth putting in effort, maybe to someone they think I'd be a beautiful piece of art.

[canisalbus]

I've been following you for years, and I love your art. Seeing you repost your older art pieces reminded me how much I loved the angry, bitter, miserable Machete art and how it resonated with me... but a part of me is also so happy to see the current art of him being happy. Cute art of him as a unicorn, or chilling in a bathtub with Vasco. Like, we're all growing and healing :')

[bg3heart]

I've noticed people saying things like how Gortash tries really hard to seem like a noble and not like the commoner he grew up as

(and of course everyone is free to headcanon what they like)

but I thought it was clear he hated nobility and saw himself above them

I think the best examples of this are the busts in his office, specifically Carric and Dame

*Carric started from nothing, built a financial empire and founded the Counting House. He refused to mingle with the other patriars, saying, "They didn't want me when I was an urchin, and now they can't have me."*

*Dame Amafrey, the Orphans' Friend, founded several orphanages in the Outer City, as the Lower City was no place for children (and the Upper City declined to sponsor an orphanage).*

The narrator gets passive aggressive when reading about the upper city declining to sponsor, and the line about being an urchin feels very directed

So yeah I think at best he thinks lowly of them, at worst he hates these fuckers

[nibbelraz]

Ooh, if we're discussing wild sqh theories I'd like to add mine! The reason why we never find out sqh's real world name is bc it's shang qinghua. And not bc he named the character after himself, but bc he has always been sqh. In pidw he was doing what he the character was supposed to, in svsss he doing what he can to save his life. Why else would he be transmirgated all the way back to his birth? Bc sqh is sqh. Idk if this is making sense Lol

I just mean that there was no one for him to replace. It's not like with shen jiu who had a life and story. There was no "other" sqh. I guess like a self insert? Like "if I lived in this world I would do xyz to influence the plot"? That's why there's no body for him to steal. It was always himself.

I think I understand what you mean! That's actually a really cool theory, and I'm totally on board because that would be a really nice thought especially when it aligns with the fact that why did Shang Qinghua have to go through from birth and not Shen Yuan

It also makes me think of like how Shang Qinghua assumed he would be acting like how he would in PIDW and of course he had to switch gears to survive but it makes me think of like when you think of how yourself will act in a certain scenario but then you're in that scenario and you react TOTALLY DIFFERENT

I think he might've overestimated how he would act when when actually faced with some plot points in svsss and underestimated some other elements, which is pretty interesting to think about!

They are one and the same

[objectstore]

glad2haveyouback

[kiisaes]

u ever just have some time to urself to think about bkdk (ur first mistake, bc u are now spiraling) and how it's the "[A] fell first [B] fell harder" trope and how that's like. more or less canon now. perhaps not romantically but how else are u gonna describe bkg's whole ... thing

[uncanny-tranny]

What I think is so important to learning how to truly appreciate life is learning how to appreciate the creatures and things we've categorized as "disgusting" or "gross."

When I learned to appreciate wasps, I realized how much they just... don't really care about anything, and they're not trying to be an asshole because they're uniquely cruel. If they have any wants, it is to live. Why would I punish that when I also want to live?

This isn't to say you need to fall in love with the creepy crawlies that stalk this world or to love what you cannot, but to recognize that in their arrangement of atoms, they are trying to persevere, and in the end... aren't we all?

[beaft]

today i went through my wardrobe in my childhood room and got rid of a bunch of clothes that i haven't worn for years. i used to dress very manic-pixie-dream-girl: lots of pastels and polka dots, glitter and sequins and ribbons and ruffles, babydoll dresses, rainbow knee socks, candy bracelets, trainers that lit up and flashed when i walked.

i got a little sad while i was bundling it all into boxes - i guess because a part of me still loves those clothes, even though they don't feel like me anymore. transition has been good for me and hard for me in equal measure, because it's forced me to examine who i am beyond my appearance. as a teenager, i was very wedded to the idea of being small and cute and elfin and non-threatening, and i got a lot of euphoria whenever people viewed or described me that way.

but was it a healthy sort of euphoria? some of it was connected to poor body image - i was terrified of being fat, terrified of looking ugly. i don't know if it's good to tie your identity and your happiness to something as ephemeral as prettiness. sometimes the things that make you happy aren't necessarily the things that are best for you. being told that i looked "fragile" made me happy once, but that doesn't mean it was good for me to hear.

when it comes down to it, i think my ultimate goal is to be myself, utterly myself, and for my sense of self-worth to be divorced from other people's opinions. i want to abandon my desire for the approval of strangers. it's the difference between an uncomfortable, itchy designer outfit that you only wear because it gets you compliments, and a boring, comfortable sweatshirt that smells like home.

[sukibenders]

When it comes to Penelope I feel like a lot of her fans take any valid criticism towards her and turn it into hate, which does her character a disservice. While some people do hate on her, a lot of it holds valid reasons. Admitting that she has hurt many people isn't wrong because she has, it's been shown on throughout the show and the impacts it can have. From labeling Daphne as "unmarriageable" during her first season and events that followed, her labeling Eloise as being part of a group of rebels, the terms she used to describe Kate [and Simon]-- which carried racial undertones no matter how you try to spin it, who didn't even know personally at that point, what she did Marina. All of these were very harmful and to say that none of these characters should feel angry, that they should just forgive Penelope without any work put into it is very laughable (especially because she's still writing as Whistledown and put many, namely women, at risk during a time where reputation is everything--something in which Penelope herself faces). With this being said, criticizing her actions, at least for me, doesn't come from a complete place of hate but more so from believing that she can be better if she puts in the work. By ignoring all that she's done and having her get her happily ever after so easily in the end, to be honest, would ultimately feel lackluster. I feel like she still has room to grow, but it will take a lot of work and, I personally, think seeing her renavigate who she is with who she wants to be outside of Lady Whistledown would be very interesting.

[yuri-is-online]

I’ve been skimming through fluff fics lately, and a fun little realization popped up in my mind. It’s not often people talk about the downs in a potential relationship with the twst boys. For the sake of a more realistic perspective, I’ve got to ask. Who do you think is most likely to unintentionally hurt Yuu and why? - 🦐

Hello my shrimpy friend! So nice to hear from you, hope you're doing well. Fan fic in general isn't very focused on portraying the negative parts of a relationship because it's a form of escapism. People don't necessarily want to picture themselves in a bad spot in a relationship if they already are in one in real life, yk?

That being said making mistakes is part of any relationship so I do have some thoughts! They/them used for Yuu as always, this is angst so proceed with care.

Azul- he doesn't have the healthiest mental framework surrounding friendships, and you do need to be friends with your SO to have a solid relationship. An actual relationship with Yuu would probably have a bumpy start as you two try to feel out what the dynamic is actually supposed to be. Take it slow and everything will be fine, but there might be some hurt feelings along the way. And a lot of assumptions from other people about your relationship that don't help either of you.

LEONA- he's a rude ass bitch who doesn't have great manners I am so sorry to this man. To be fair though I think a lot of that rudeness would be something that would take place before the actual relationship, because I firmly believe if it's pointed out to Leona by his partner that he has communication issues he's more than willing to work on that with them. He would be a good boyfriend! It's just all the conversations up to the actual going out that's painful and might ruin what he wants before he actually gets it.

Riddle- so I don't think Riddle's treatment of Yuu is what might hurt them exactly, his issues as always have to do with his mother. He needs to figure out exactly how he wants to deal with his childhood trauma and his adult relationship with her, but that's going to take a lot of time and personal growth. Mrs. Rosehearts seems like the type to try and continue running her son's life after he graduates so I can't see her treating Riddle's partner well. Going no contact with an emotionally abusive parent is really hard for their children to do, Riddle needs love and support but the journey can be emotionally draining for the person giving that support.

Sebek- again with the family thing. His parents sound like wonderful people but his Grandfather seems to only like his grandchildren because they're half fae and still actively hates his son in law. I can't see him treating Yuu any better, which I could see being very draining since Sebek and his grandpa are very close. It could also be a chance for Baul to change a bit, which would be nice.

Cater and Idia- I'm making them share a spot because similarly to Leona I think the major hurts would be caused pre-relationship, but unlike him I don't see their communication issues as being something that would affect the relationship in the same way going forward. Cater has a lot of insecurities and can be a bit shallow, but he is a good friend so once he accepts Yuu as a safe space to speak openly and honestly I don't see them as having too many issues. Idia is also shown to be very open and honest with Ortho, his self hatred, temper, and inferiority/superiority complex just get in the way of him letting anyone else in.

In general, a lot of the twst guys have communication issues which is something people can work through, but would still cause some pain. Something to think about I suppose σ(￣、￣=)

[fatphobiabusters]

This is a really great fat positive song. The two people in this video are a couple and they made this song based on their relationship. I don't know the identities of Olivia Barton (the person on the left). The singer on the right, corook, identifies as nonbinary and queer and goes by they/them. Apparently this song was viral on TikTok earlier this year, but I don't use TikTok, so I only just learned of this song. The song was so viral though that it was played on radio stations and written about in news articles. I'm glad that such a fat positive song was so widespread!

I'll put the lyrics of the song under the read more for anyone who wants them.

-Mod Worthy

Lyrics:

If I were a fish and you caught me

You'd say "Look at that fish"

Shimmering in the sun

Such a rare one

Can't believe that you caught one

If I were a fish and you caught me

You'd say "Look at that fish"

Heaviest in the sea

You'd win first prize

If you caught me

Why's everybody on the internet so mean?

Why's everybody so afraid of what they've never seen?

If I was scrolling through and I saw me

Flopping around and singing my song

I'd say "Damn, they're cute" and sing along

If I were a rock you would pick me up

And say "That's a nice rock"

Skippiest on the lake

Plop, plop, plop

I'm the perfect shape

And if I were a sock you would put me on

And say "That's a nice sock"

Happiest as a pair

I found you now I'm not scared

Why's everybody on the internet so mean?

Why's everybody so afraid of what they've never seen?

If I was scrolling through and I saw me

Flopping around and singing my song

I'd say "Damn, they're cute" and sing along

How lucky are we?

Of all the fish in the sea?

You get to be you

And I get to be me

Just let 'em be mean

We're as free as can be

To be the you-est of you

And the me-ist of me

If I were a fish

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

If I were a fish

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

If I were a fish

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

If I were a fish

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

[brinehater]

WARNING: FLASHING. DEFINITELY FLASHING/RAPID CUTTING.

the dragonsplague descends (aka plagued pawn enrichment)

ft. @edgier-than-a-diamond's Allen and @pawnguild's Hesperos (I promise I'll wash them later and give them worthy gifts!)

[faunandfloraas]

still want to know what they did to that old man in up all night video. why were only his pajamas left on the bed....

[seishun-emergency]

the other thing abt rei and eichi as they relate to specifically keito is that both of them as kids were raised in a way where they were praised almost excessively.... rei through being a source of advice and a "genius" that adults respected and almost worshipped, eichi for his position as the tenshouin heir and with the privilege that gave him... both of them are effectively asking and trusting keito to see them as more than just this elevated figure that other people refuse to criticize out of fear and wanting to appease them which is why they have the fights in quarrel fes/succession match... keito being someone that they trust to see the actual them instead of treating them like how everyone thinks they want to be treated with this endless praise and pleasing and coddling...

[rxttenfish]

you know that one post thats like "dragons dont know about the existence of glass, all they know is that sometimes the air around them erupts into glitter". yeah thats how miranda lives her life.

[hanicchy]

kdj telling ysa that he lives a "dokja's life" as a shorthand of saying he's an outsider even in his own life, and that while he has agency he'll never be able to truly make an impact on anything he interacts with, and all he's good for is watching the world move around him, and in response she tells him, "you say wonderful things, i suppose i have my own life as well, a sangah's life" because she believes him to mean that he's taking his life into his own hands, and that he's only capable of living as himself, as truly as possible, and she wants to do that as well. they make me weep.