#tone it down.... wow

[ladylooch]

Our Little Family [Miles Wood]- Chapter 18 Honeymoon

A/N from 👢 anon: Hey guys, here is another little family update. I hope you guys enjoy it. Still having time jumps, and you bet there is smut here. Also, the woods have some important conversations.

Enjoy.

Everything after the wedding was a little crazy, Miles went right back into hockey mode after you guys went to the courthouse to make it official. 

Now you're watching from home as his season comes to an end. He's not going to be thrilled once he gets home from the road. That's not how you wanted things to go for him. 

You wait for him. Lily's sleep schedule is getting better and better every day. You appreciate that very much. You are watching the news when you hear his keys at the door. 

You rush to the door, and as soon Miles open the door, you're holding him in your arms. Miles sighs, feeling your body against his. He hugs you tighter. You play with his hair as you say that you got him. 

Miles nods. That's what he needed. You push the door behind you two. You hate seeing him like this. You say that you'll prepare him a bath, and you peck his lips. 

Before lacing your fingers, you close the door and move his bag to the side. You lead him to your room. You ask him to sit while you prepare his bath.

“Do you want me to bring Lily ?” You ask him over your shoulder. 

“No, not yet.” Miles' voice comes out so low and defeated. 

You nod, get the water running in the tub, and grab all the salts and smells. The ones he enjoys. When the water is at a good temperature, you move to grab him.

You strip Miles gently. You're pretty sure he's sore and has a lot of bruises. You watch him move inside the tub. It makes you smile hearing him sigh. 

You kiss his cheek, and you move to get up to separate his suit for the dry cleaning. But Miles stops you. He rests his hand on top of yours. You kneel beside the tub, you watch him. You hate seeing your husband like this. It sucks so much. Hopefully, he doesn't mope for too long. 

“I don't think I'm ever going to win the cup.” Miles says what he's really thinking. That hurts you more than it hurts him. 

“Babe, that's not true. It's going to happen, I know your name is going to be there. I promise you that. And I'm not going anywhere if it doesn't happen.” You show him your rings, which brings a soft smile to his lips. 

You peck his lips before letting him have his moment. You move to make sure the bed is comfy and you grab him some underwear. 

Miles stays in the tub until you're back. He's disappointed that he couldn't move forward in the playoffs. But seeing you doing everything for him, without asking or saying anything. Just being there for him, means the world to him. 

You move to help him get out of the tub. You wait until he dries himself before you give him the underwear. You empty the tub while Miles stares at his reflection in the mirror.

You hug him from behind, kissing his back. Miles rests his hand on top of yours, and you ask him to come to bed. You guys can deal with his beard in the morning. 

Miles nods, and you lead both of you to bed. Tonight, you're the big spoon. It's a little hard because he's a big man, but you guys make it work. 

Seeing your big, strong man like this breaks your heart, but Miles needs you, and he'll be okay soon. You know that. 

The next morning, you take Lily to cuddle her dad. Miles' appreciation for you only grows. Yeah, that's his wife. He stays mopey for a couple of days, and then he's back. He watched every move you made, everything you did for him. 

When he's better, he wakes up early. He prepares breakfast and a whole day just for you. Lily will help her daddy. She's having fun with him at home. So chatty, waddling around, keeping him on his toes. 

You wake up to Miles, boosting Lily into bed. She calls for you as she crawls to you. You smile seeing your two loves. Miles smiles, holding the tray of food. 

“What is this ?” You ask him as Lily settles beside you. You kiss her head after saying hi baby, while you wait for Miles' reply. 

“Breakfast for my girl.” Miles replies moving around the bed to place the tray in front of you. 

“You didn't have to do this.”

“I did. Now it's my time to take care of you.” 

You shake your head, pulling him into a kiss. 

Lily giggles seeing you guys kiss. It makes you so happy that she can see you both showing affection and love to each other. 

You motion for Miles to sit with you to have breakfast. You feed Lily more than eating yourself, but it's fine. 

Miles looks at you with his “I'm sorry” look, but you brush him off, it's fine. 

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You're across the room, talking to Cheryl and Miles' sister during your wedding reception in Massachusettes. You keep feeling his gaze on you. 

Miles can't keep his eyes away from you, having you as his wife around the people that he loves, his family and friends makes his heart so happy. 

He crossed the room to meet you. Miles rests his hand on your lower back and kisses the side of your head. Your body leans against his touch, needing more. You chuckle, seeing Lily having a hockey player wrapped around her little finger.

Miles follows your gaze and groans a little. 

“I'm going to be in trouble when she grows up, aren't I ?” He asks you. 

“Yeah, probably. She's your daughter, after all.” You reply with a chuckle. 

Miles groans before saying that he needs to steal you, to introduce you to a few people. That's what happens the rest of the day, Miles shows you off. You guys have your first dance in front of everybody, and Lily has her daughter daddy moment too. It makes her so happy. 

You're so happy. Being married to a hockey player has its challenges, but so far, it's been the best thing. You and Miles have come a long way together. 

Later that night, you're getting ready for bed when Miles show up at the bathroom door, shirtless making you want to jump his bones. 

He crosses his arms, watching you go through your skincare routine. 

“We leave in the morning.” Miles says, locking eyes with you in the mirror. 

“But, I thought we were going to spend more time here.” You're so confused right now, that was the plan at least. 

“We are, but you and I, we have a honeymoon to attend to.” You blink a few times before turning to face him. 

“What do you mean ? What about Lily ?”

“We're going to the Bahamas for a couple days, mom will take care of her for us.” 

“But….” 

“Babe, we need a honeymoon. You need a honeymoon. You didn't ask. You were so understandable after our wedding, with the season starting to get harder...” Miles moves closer to you. He laces your fingers together, bringing your hand to kiss.

You watch him with teary eyes. You really thought that a honeymoon wasn't going to be in your plans. And it was okay with you. 

“You deserve this, and I promised you I'm going to do anything for you.” 

You nod as Miles brings his hand to clean your tears, and then he pulls you into a hug. You just can't believe he's taking time off his training to take you to the Bahamas for your honeymoon. 

“What about your training?” You ask against his neck. 

“Don't worry about it, I'll find a way.” You nod, hugging him tighter. 

“I love you.” you say softly. 

“I love you too, sweetheart.” 

Next morning, you dropped Lily at Cheryl's. It's hard for you to leave Lily, but you need time with Miles before the season starts. You don't want to get in his way. 

So your goodbyes with Lily take a little time, Miles keeps reminding you that Lily is going to be okay and you guys will be back soon, plus if you take too long you guys will miss the flight. 

You thank Cheryl again, she assure you that she'll update you guys. While you talk to Cheryl, Miles talks to Lily, saying that mommy and daddy will be back soon. She'll have lots of fun with grandma and grandpa, but they need to do this for Mommy. You ease your mind, and you let Miles lead you to the car.

You are resting your eyes when Miles squeeze your hand. You look at him, Miles says that you guys are there. You nod before looking around. 

You guys are at another part of the airport, the private one. You look at Miles a little shocked. 

“Are… we… going… private ?” You struggle a little bit to say the words. 

“Yep, everything for my wife.” 

You squeeze his hand, you don't know what to say right now, your brain is not working properly. This is so new for you. Not only the private jet, but the way Miles is taking care of you during this summer. 

Miles gets out of the car, he opens your door and helps you. You smile thanking him. You have a feeling Miles will treat you like a queen for the next few days. 

The flight is smooth, as soon as you land, Miles has everything planned. First, you will stop at the hotel for check-in and change clothes, then lunch. The first day is more to settle in. 

After lunch, Miles decides that he would like to take a nap with you. You join him but can't sleep, so you just stare at your husband sleeping. Still feels like a dream calling him your husband. 

Half an hour later, you decide to go to the pool and enjoy the sun. You leave a note telling him where you went. 

Sitting at the pool chair, it's time to relax. You lose yourself in your book, the peace and quiet, the distant waves sounds. It's so peaceful. Then there is a shade blocking your sun, looking up, you see your man in his shorts shirtless. What a view. 

Miles hands you a drink before pulling the chair beside you closer. You thank him for the drink with a kiss. That makes him very happy. 

“Thank you.” You say to him softly.

“You don't need to thank me for anything, babe.” 

You nod, taking a sip from your drink. You stare at him, not really knowing what to say. Life changed so much, and for the better. 

Miles smirks at you before leaning in to kiss you, and then he gets up to get into the pool. He knows what he's doing, and you know too. You're not going to complain about it. 

You watch Miles swim around. When he comes out of the pool, your panties turn into the pool. Those water drops dripping down his body, the ones in his V line that you want lick it. You squeeze your thighs, turning your gaze back to the book. 

“Do you like the view, babe ?” Miles asks as he runs his hands through his wet hair. 

You lick your lips before answering. 

“Yep, loving it.” Both of you chuckle with your reply. 

Miles makes you scotch for him to lay beside you. You rest your head on his chest resting your hand on his abs. Playing with his hair, running your thumb up and down his V line. Miles hums at your touch. 

This moment is so peaceful, even if you're turned on right now. 

“Babe ?” You bring Miles' attention to you. He looks down with those gorgeous eyes. 

“Yeah ?” 

“I would like to be fucked and lick that water from your V line.” 

Miles smirks as he gets up from the chair, bringing you with him. 

“I think we can do something about that.”

That's what you like to hear for sure. You guys rush the room. As soon you ] are inside, you're pushing Miles against the door. 

You kiss those lips, right now you just need him. You lick every inch of Miles chest and abs. When you get to his V line, you take your time. You can see that it's driving him insane. His little whines show you that he's going to make you pay later. 

Both V lines are taken care of. You lick his happy trail just to hear Miles hiss. And it gives you confidence, a lot of confidence. 

You pull his shorts down, smirking at the sound of his cock hitting his abs. Miles whines 'baby' seeing you lick his tip, gathering some pre-cum. You look at Miles as your hand plays with his balls. 

Miles is a mess, and you love it. He holds your hair with both of his hands. You lick his length, locking eyes with him. It brings the most primal moan from his throat, and it's the sexiest thing. You take him inside your mouth, and with the help of your hand, you jerk him. 

You take him as deep inside your mouth you can, gagging around him. Miles curses as you dig your nails into his thighs for support. You pull back to breathe, but you continue jerking him with your hand. 

“I want you to fuck my mouth.” You smirk asking him.

“Are you sure ?” 

“Yep.” 

Miles closed his eyes. He almost came with your request. He takes a deep breath, he puts his thumb in your mouth, you suck his finger with a pop. 

Miles puts his cock back in your mouth as you prepare yourself by holding his thighs. He slowly starts to thrust inside your mouth, with time he starts to speed up and you know he's seeking his high. 

You just hold his thighs, your eyes are getting teary, and you're gagging a little bit. Miles grunts that he's going to cum, you swallow as much cum possible. It dribbles a little on the corner of your mouth. 

When Miles stops his movements, you pull back to jerk him through his high. You look at him, heaving, breathing against the door all blissful. You smirk when he looks at you with soft eyes. 

He helps you get up, he leans to lick the cum from the corner of your mouth before kissing you deep and hard. Miles hums against your lips, your hands rest on his sides. 

Miles scoops you up without breaking the kiss. He carries you to bed, placing you gently in the middle of the bed. After placing you in the bed, he just stares with an awe look. 

“God, I'm so damn lucky.” He murmurs under his breath. 

Your cheeks burn a little bit; that man is really in love with you. Miles licks his lips before connecting them with yours again. Miles' hand wanders over your body. He unties the knot from your bikini top, making you sign into the kiss when his hand reaches for your boobs. 

You arch your back so he can take the top off. His weight is so welcomed on top of you. 

Miles attacks your neck as you run your fingers through his hair. 

“Babyyy” you whine a little. “I'm going to need you to rebound faster, I need to be fucked.” Miles nibble your skin before pulling to face you. 

“Angel, you need to be patient. Things don't work that fast.” 

You pout, looking at those gorgeous blue eyes. Miles winks as his hand moves to your bikini bottom. 

You wiggle trying to help him take your bikini off. Miles chuckles as you pull him for a kiss. Miles starts to explore your body again, he moves a finger to your pussy. 

He hums feeling how wet you're for him, he rubs his thumb over your clit and then slides a finger inside you. You moan, it feels so good even if you want his cock. 

He pumps that finger in and out. You're a mess under him. Miles makes you cum with his finger, instead of working you through your orgams as soon as he's ready. He's sliding that cock inside you. 

You curse, then you adjust, and it's heaven. Miles holds your hands above your head. His thrusts are deep and hard. 

“That's what you wanted, babe ?” He asks as he is deep inside you. 

You nod because you can't speak right now. 

“I need to hear you.” He states.

“OH fuck.” You say at another deep thrust. “Yeah… that's exactly what I wanted.” Miles smirks, slamming his hips against you. 

“Good girl.” 

That praise does things to you. Your eyes are rolling back inside your head. Miles knows what he's doing, and you knew you were going to pay. 

You want to touch him so badly, but he's not letting you touch him. Maybe later. Miles praises you as he goes deeper inside you. 

You call his name a few times when your orgasm starts to build up. As much he wants to make you wait, he's not going to. He moves his thumb to rub your clit. 

Your orgasm hits hard. You scream his name and get so tight around him that Miles struggles to keep moving. You tell him that you want his cum, that's the motivation he needs. Miles pumps for a couple more minutes before he's giving you all his seeds. You dig your heels on his thick ass to hold him there. 

He drops himself on top of you, trying to put most of his weight on the bed. You smile, running your hand through his hair. Miles smiles against your neck.

“That's the best way to start a honeymoon, being dicked down by my husband.” You say out loud. 

“Yeah, and we have five days to do that as many times as possible.”

You like that idea a lot. Miles pulls out of you before bringing you on top of him. You stay like that for a while before you need to pee. 

You decided to shower while you're in there. You call for him to join you, and that's exactly what Miles does. 

You guys have a soft shower together. You guys take turns cleaning each other, Miles lets you take care of his curls,and it makes you so happy. You're on a mission now, taking care of those curls. 

Miles dries you gently. You grab one of his big shirts and lay in bed. You and Miles go through the menu to order something to eat. 

While you wait for your order, you both call Cheryl to know how your baby is doing. It makes you so soft seeing her face on the screen. She still doesn't understand the screen, so it's a little hard. 

Seeing her happy makes you happy. You thank Cheryl again. While Miles go grab the food, you guys talk a little more. Cheryl does everything she can to assure you that things are okay.

You let Miles talk to his mom for a while. After he hangs up, it's time to eat, and you enjoy that a lot. 

This is how you want to spend the rest of your life with him. Great sex, better communication, just being together. Miles smiles at you and occasionally steals some kisses. 

………

For the next couple of days, you guys have sex in the morning, have breakfast, go sightseeing, nap, pool or ocean, more sex and cuddles. That's life. 

By day 3, on your post sex cuddles at night, Miles decides that he needs to talk to you. 

You have your head on his chest as he brushes his fingers over your arm. 

“Babe…” He calls to you, and it sounds a little distant. 

“Yeah ?” You say as you lift your head to look at him. 

“I think we need to talk…” Hearing those words makes you hold your breath. You shift to sit.

“Okay.”

Miles can see that you're going through a million scenarios in your head. 

“Babe, everything is okay. You can relax.” He squeezes your hand, trying to assure you that things are okay. 

“Okay.” You take a deep breath and wait. 

“I know, both of us are loving this routine and having as much sex as possible without Lily here. But the last time we did that I used you basically as a cum dump. Lily happened…” 

You close your eyes because he's right, but you don't want to stop having sex with him. God knows how long it's going to take for your next time. 

“... and I really don't want you to feel bad because I know you're not ready for that. I was an asshole and I don't blame you for not being ready....” Miles lifts your chin to look at him. 

“....If and when we have our baby number 2, I want you to have the best pregnancy possible, with all the good moments. The ones that I took from you.” 

“Yeah, you're right. I’m not ready, and Lily is so perfect after everything. I want that, too, if it happens. But I don't want to stop having sex. I missed this so badly.” You drop your gaze. 

“Hey, we're not going to stop. Maybe just tone it down a little and not look like rabbits.’ You chuckle, bringing Miles in for a kiss. 

“I love you, and thanks for looking out for me.” You whisper against his lips. 

“I love you too, always, baby.” You both cuddle until you're asleep on his chest. 

The next day, you guys do tone it down. Miles takes you for a boat ride with the sunset view and after you guys have dinner at the beach. Having one more day at paradise, you're taking advantage of everything. 

On your last day there, you try to have morning sex with Miles. You guys start making out, but it is taking Miles more time than he normally does. 

“Babe, I think you broke my cock.” He says with a chuckle against your lips. You cup his cheeks to make him look at you.

“That's not possible, Woody.” You chuckle “Now, answer me this. Do you want to have sex ?”

“Yeah ?” His answer doesn't convince you. 

“Miles, for real, are you feeling it ? Are you turned on ? I'm not going to be mad or disappointed, but I need you to be honest with me.”

Miles sighs. “Not really, turned on yes, but I'm not in the mood.” 

“Okay, and that's more than okay. You can say no to me, babe.”

His gaze drops. “I don't want to disappoint you.” He mumbles. 

“You're not going to disappoint me. The only way you can do that, is by doing a half job just to make me cum. I want you…” you lift his chin to look at you. “... You're worth the wait, dude. I need you fully in and not just going because I want to. You can say no, baby.” 

“Thanks…” He kisses you “ And you know you can say no to me too, right ?” 

“Yeah, I do.” You kiss him before shifting so he can lay on your boobs. 

And that's how you guys spend most of the day. Cuddling, some time in the pool before getting everything ready to head home. You guys leave first thing in the morning. 

…..

The trip was amazing, but nothing beats getting home to your baby girl. Even if she wants her dad first, Miles sends his 'I'm sorry' look. But that's okay, you're used to it. You talk to Cheryl and catch up until Lily decides she wants her mama. She calls for you, and you take her with open arms. 

Her soft cuddles are the best. It makes you feel more loved than you're already feeling. You hold Miles hand. 

“Thank you for our life. Thank you for this amazing gift.” You look at Lily. Miles smiles

“ You don't have to thank me, sweetheart.” He kisses you with all his love. 

Things were rough for a while, but the last couple months are the best you ever lived. You can't thank him enough.

[kaeyachi]

Kaeya had always been an efficient and hard-working individual (he had to be to support Diluc in the background as his brother rose thru the ranks after all).

He has so much free time because he completes all his work way ahead of schedule. And if he still has enough time, he adds more to the workload in secret.

And once all of that was done and over with, he makes time for everyone. He has to. He feels as if every moment has to be given to someone else.

No one knows how he does it. No one has to know.

Every mission has a dozen strategies in line, and every battle plan is made with efficiency in mind. His perfect record will not be tarnished. He can't risk it (even if it baffles others that he would willingly activate a ruin guard just to prevent a failed mission. Jean disagrees with his methods, but Kaeya can say that the results say otherwise)

He needs to be quick.

Efficient.

Perfect.

And so he comes and goes like the wind.

Kaeya values time because he knew every second counted. He can't just stand there as if he were frozen. Time could run out in an instant.

Kaeya had only been late once his entire life.

He'd rather he never be late ever again.

It took one day of being of being imperfect for everything to fall apart. On that tragic day...had he gotten there on time... then maybe...

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" Come on, let's get moving, traveler. We're not frozen in place after all. " Kaeya teasingly says. He stiffles a giggle at the traveler's exhasperated sigh.

"Yeah yeah, we've heard enough of you calling us a slacker. Can't you be a bit more patient?" Paimon whines at him.

Kaeya snorts, but acquiesces, hiding the shaking of his hands at the thought of being idle.

He imagines hearing a clock ticking.

Kaeya knows that that is his own problem. He tries his hardest to relax as he waits for the traveler to finish whatever they're making on the alchemy table because, seriously, it is supposed to be a relaxing day. There's nothing major going on, and his schedule is once again empty as intended. What's the hurry?

Kaeya taps his foot on the ground as he waits. He wishes he could take his own damn advice when he tells others to relax.

[batrogers]

Lemme also just say, to those worried about their writing....

The "Worst Mary Sues" I have ever read, in terms of people loving them for no reason and them getting to be perfect and adored and never do anything wrong....

And the "Worst woobification" awards....

Both go to published novels. Which were parts of series.

These tropes exist because people enjoy reading wish fulfillment fantasy trash, because reading novels.... Is for fun.

Let's not forget that, kay? You're allowed to have fun.

You're not obligated to read a bad story, but neither is the author obligated to write for YOUR taste.

Practice better tagging, and practice curating your experience both.

[keeps-ache]

wink blink look !!

[7roaches]

chat is this real 🙁

[ebonytails]

Some lionsona design work WIP’s!

The bust is final, and the shoulders down are in the works. The pink mane is going to be the default look, while the dark brown is just the natural mane color behind the dye. The other colors were just thrown in there for fun!

[rrrokamoka]

BOOK 2 WHEN.

and that's how you make a live-action adaptation!

sufficiently different so it's still interesting for longtime fans

but keeps the core style and theme

and changes the tone just enough so it's also/better suited for a different audience

i'm genuinely impressed, this was amazing.

[krenia]

krenia made another idiot !! yes it's a skinny fucked up dude how did you know Anyways

severe scarring under cut - acid to the face kinda deal || also the colors burn a bit but maybe my eyes are just sensitive

he came into my brain randomly while I was going through my procreate folders and wouldn't leave until I made him a ref

I never want to look at antlers again fuck my brain for making the Jackie -> Jackalope connection

Oh yeah blank of the tags also

[throttlegainwell]

Believe it or not, sometimes I actually do cut details just because they feel too mean (or in poor taste, sometimes).

In Iconoclast, in the flashback where Joyce buys Jonathan's camera, it's implied that he recently turned ten ("kid that just hit double digits"), which is, uh, a significant birthday for him. So there was a line about Joyce noticing that he'd been kind of glum lately and the camera being, in part, to cheer him up. But I was like, you know what, there's so much other stuff going on here that we don't need that one, too.

[tinogiehd]

i think it’s only fair to take george’s words on his sexuality as fact until he officially says otherwise. it’s not really anyone’s place to try to look for hints. time and time again people are made to talk about their sexualities before they’re ready because of people digging and making assumptions. like to be honest some of y’all are starting to sound like leaktwt at this point. he’s okay with the shipping and that’s great keep going with that and the jokes are very funny but when it comes to truthing his actual sexuality giving him labels he hasn’t claimed yet is invasive

here are my thoughts on george's sexuality if you want to give it a read 👍 it's from a bit ago but my take is pretty much the same however with recent developments I think that there is nothing wrong with taking things said at face value. I hope that when you say his "words on his sexuality" you are including the "I like guys" moment. if you are, then I think we are on the same page with it

[frazzledazzlin]

thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie

[bonestrouslingbones]

full disclosure i am 100% hatewatching this thing and its Not Good but i will say. i have seen so much drama around that 4th episode and now that i've just watched it. that shit was the best episode in the series so far and frankly im a little mad about it

[chillichats]

GE!Tommy’s identity issues. and how they’ve been resolved (kind of)

Readers of guided evolution have watched the trials of a superhero life take a massive toll on tommy and his sense of identity. 

First is the obvious: as a superhero, he has to separate his superhero identity from his ‘normal’ identity. This is both to protect himself and the people in his life from the people he fight’s as a superhero. This sort of split in identity takes a toll on even the most resilient superhero figures; like superman. it’s common for superhero stories to explore the limits an alter identity puts on someone, on how it limits the way they can interact with the people around them and express themself. Tommy can no longer tell Wilbur what’s wrong, he can no longer tell his best friends everything he’s done over the weekend. this puts a strain on many of his relationships, and so tommy loses some of the sense of self he has related to interpersonal relationships. E.g. much of how he described himself in the beginning related to his closeness with Wilbur, which as time progresses he is no longer able to do due to the secrets he’s keeping from him.

Gaining powers also means he suddenly has to pay much more attention to everything he does, not only to keep his identity a secret but because he suddenly has the ability to seriously hurt people if he’s not careful. He can no longer just be, for fear of accidentally hurting someone. Constant awareness of oneself is never a good thing, and in Tommy’s case means it’s very hard to miss the differences between how he acting before the bite and how he acted after. 

There’s also the matter of WHO he was before the bite. Tommy views the night he got his powers as a sort of centrepoint of his life, and repeatedly and consistently compares his life after he got his powers with his life before he got his powers. Before the bite, his life was relatively free of strife. Now, suddenly, everything is spiralling out of control, he’s gained multiple trauma cards in a short period of time, and his mental health is down the drain due to the toll simply existing is taking out of him. Suddenly, he’s acting out in ways he NEVER would have done before, and while he started superheroing for the express purpose of helping people, he finds himself sometimes regretting the choices that led him to where he was. To Tommy, who holds himself to a perfectionist standard, the differences between himself cause him to doubt who he’s always considered himself to be, which is a good person, and the disconnect between who he remembers himself to be and the way he’s acting causes him to distance himself from who he thinks he's become as a person now (someone who acts out in anger and resents ‘having’ to save people). The scars he’s gained from his time superheroing serve as a physical representation of his loss of identity; in his minds eye, his body is still soft and unhurt, while in reality his body is filled with reminders of the events of the past few months, and he can’t reconcile the two.

So, tommy has identity issues. it’s one of the major struggles he goes through in the later chapters.

..and then dream kidnaps him and he ACTUALLY has no sense of identity

The way his identity issues are resolved is very symbolic and ties into a lot of the points from above. (well, ‘resolved’, i say, because he still doesn’t know he’s Tommy).

As Theseus, his entire life and identity is a lie. Nothing can be trusted as real; his name, his face, and his memories are all lost to him. Tommy had despaired that as life went on, he’d lose every part of himself he viewed as integral to himself (his family, his friends, and the ability and desire to do good). Theseus already has none of these things. He has no concept of a life before he was Theseus, before he had powers, before things were messed up.

And it’s in this white room, as this blank slate, with no anchor in sight, that Theseus - that Tommy - solidifies who he is as a person.

His relationship with Wilbur, which he had once thought was struggling, is the lifeline he finds to hold himself afloat. His powers, which had once hindered him as he went through life day-to-day, are a bargaining chip he can use to protect himself and Puffy. He’s never known a body that wasn’t scarred, that didn’t have web spinners on his wrists. The snippets of life outside the bright white rooms dream has put him in are re-examined by his otherwise memory-less mind and found to be anything but lacking.

And the most important thing he learns about himself, about who he is as a person, is that despite not knowing his name, or his face, or who he was before the white rooms, despite all the pain he knows is coming his way, he IS a good person. he CARES about people. HIS PURPOSE is to protect people, and defend people, and save people.

Despite everything, he is and always will be a hero.

@fathermooshroom

[mellohimelody]

i really think it would’ve been super cool if jrwi altered their intro to have a black background instead of a purple one or dulled the colors or smth for the black sea arc

[perenlop]

ok i have to put aside my iris apologism real quick. i think flanderization is setting in bc the kid joke is getting a little too frequent

[tuiyla]

“You can’t sing like that about somebody you don’t love”

And you, Sam, can’t sing like that at all