Jane’s Pets Chapter 80: Violence
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“I bet you feel real brave right now. Really tough. I bet you feel like your time away made you stronger, better at taking pain. It’s going to be so fun to prove you wrong. Kneel.”
You kneel on instinct. You could stand back up, just to be defiant, but you decide against it.
“I’m going to kill you.” You tell her.
“No, you’re not. I have tried for millennia to find a way around my immortality, and you think that you can do what I couldn’t do within just a couple years of meeting me? No. I’m going to kill you. Liam, Ethan, whoever you think you are. I’m going to kill you and leave my Bunny walking around in your corpse. And then I’ll kill Bunny too, once I get bored of him.”
…She knows the name Ethan. No one called you that while she was there. Or… while you knew she was there.
She tilts your chin up with her finger, and you don’t fight it. “Any last words?”
“You’re going to pay for what you’ve done to us.”
She laughs. “I’m glad to see you’re still my stupid Bunny. And you’ll be all sweet and scared for me again within a matter of hours, too. Take off your shirt.”
Disobeying might get the others hurt, and it’s not worth that. You obey.
Jane’s eyes immediately go to your brand, slightly marred by you scratching the skin off during one particularly intense freak out.
“Ah. That’ll need a touch up. Come on, you know where the room with the table is.”
She vanishes. Yes, you know where that room is. You could never forget the room where you were branded and waterboarded in.
You pull yourself to your feet. You don’t want to be branded again, obviously, but you don’t have much of a choice. You could stand here and wait for her to come back and drag you down the hall by your hair. You could run and run and run until you passed out and she’d drag you right back. You could stay under magical protection for months and months and she’d still find you. And you’d get hurt worse for disobeying, and people you love would get hurt worse because you disobeyed…
You knew this was going to happen. It’s worth it, because you would’ve gotten hurt eventually anyway, and at least this time you learned from it. You saw how her healing powers work. It’s worth it. This is worth it. You walk down the hall and into the horrible room.
Jane stares at your from across the room, silent. You lie down on the table without being prompted. It’s going to hurt anyway, there’s no reason to make it worse.
“What a good boy you are. Even after trying to kill me. You’ve never been hard to keep in line, huh?”
She circles the table slowly, approaching your left arm. “No, not my Bunny. I’ll tell you what- I’m not going to bring Puppy or Kitty down here at all until you’re mine again. Until you’ve forgotten the names I don’t want you to remember and look at me with the terror you used to. I don’t want you to obey me just to protect them, not when I’m training you up all over again. I want you to obey because you know you’re too weak to take punishment. How does that sound?”
“…That sounds great, Master.” You really mean it. Now you’ll only have to worry about yourself.
You still won’t disobey just for the sake of disobeying, of course. But if you see another possible way to kill her or even hurt her, you’ll take it with hesitation. It’s only your health that’s on the line, and you’ll be dying soon anyway. Plus, the longer you stay down here, the longer Kit and Dollie won’t have to worry about punishment.
Jane straps down your arms, legs, and neck. You stare at the ceiling, trying to summon the numbness you’ve been feeling for so long after she killed your friends, your saviors, in front of you. You can’t.
You should be numb. You shouldn’t be able to feel afraid, this isn’t right.
Oh god. Oh god, she’s going to brand you. She’s going to brand you again.
“Wait- I’m sorry-“ You hear the crackle of fire. “Wait, please, I’m sorry, I didn’t ruin the brand on purpose! I know I belong to you, I know I’m your puppet, please-“
“Shh. Look at you, I haven’t even hurt you yet and you’re begging for mercy. Do you still feel tough? Do you still feel like you could kill me?”
You try to follow Jane with your eyes as she gets closer, struggling to see her with your neck strapped down. You can’t see the branding iron, but you can already feel the radiating heat.
No, no, you don’t want to feel this! Why are losing the numbness now?
“I didn’t- I wasn’t in my right mind- please, Master! I learned, I understand, killing them was enough, I won’t say the names you don’t want me to say, I’ve learned, I’m sorry!”
Jane is laughing, and you can feel the heat of the branding iron getting closer and closer. Jane presses it right on top of the old scar.
It burns, worse than anything you’ve ever experienced, worse than the first time she branded you. It hurts, it hurts, why won’t it stop? So hot it’s cold and so cold it loops back around to being hot again.
You can’t breathe. You can’t think.
You’d forgotten how horrible being tortured is. How could you forget? You dreamt about it nearly every night, the threat of it was constantly weighing on you, and you still managed to forget how bad this truly is.
You would do anything to make it stop. Anything, anything, anything. You’re not strong. You’re not a protector. Just a weak little Bunny, like Jane says.
“I’m sorry!” You gasp. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, please!”
Jane sets the branding iron down. “Liam… Liam, did you miss me?”
Can’t think, can’t breathe, you’re dying you’re dying you’re sorry you didn’t mean it, Master please!
“Oh, poor weak little thing. If only you’d been good, I wouldn’t have to do this.”
The smell, the taste of your burnt flesh is in the air. Your eyesight is too blurry to see what Jane’s doing, your ears are ringing too much to understand what she’s saying.
She lets you cry for a while longer. You decide she’s upstairs checking on the others, because the alternative is that she’s preparing something even worse and you cannot go through something worse.
It’s never going to end, is it? She’s right, you can’t kill her. It’s just going to keep going and going and going until she decides to make it stop.
The pain doesn’t fade, it just changes. Aren’t you supposed to stop feeling it after so long? Why won’t it stop? Why can’t you go numb or pass out, all you want is for it to stop, that’s all you want, that’s all you’ve ever wanted, please, please!
Jane swipes tears from your face. “That’s enough, come on. Liam, Ethan, look at me.”
You turn your head as far as you can towards her voice, but your neck is still strapped down and there’s only so much you can do.
She holds up a small square of fabric, about the size of her palm.
There’s a lighter in her other hand. She lights the fabric on fire and flicks it onto your chest.
“Did you know some fabrics will melt to the skin when burned?”
She’s held a lighter to your skin before, she’s branded you, she’s left you in the heat room to lie on burning hot concrete when you could barely move. You’ve been burned before, and usually over a much larger area.
That doesn’t make this hurt any less. It feels like lava has been poured onto your skin.
It feels like you skin is melting. Skin doesn’t melt, it cooks, Jane told you that once, but you’re having a very hard time believing that right now. Jane’s a liar anyway.
It won’t stop. It won’t ever stop.
Jane tugs on your hair. “Hey. I have a choice for you, Liam.” She’s holding something. You can’t tell what, you’re crying too hard. “You can open your mouth and let me take out one of your molars with some pliers, or you can keep your mouth closed and I’ll hammer at your mouth until something comes out. What do you think?”
The sound that comes out of your mouth is truly pitiful. You haven’t whimpered like that in a long time.
Your chest and arm are still sending radiating heat throughout your body and it /hurts/ and you don’t know if you /can/ keep your mouth open for long enough if there’s pliers in there yanking, but you definitely don’t want her to hit your face with a hammer.
You probably wouldn’t be able to keep your mouth closed, either, with all the screaming you’ve been doing. So you leave your mouth open.
She shoves grimy pliers into your mouth, leaving you tasting long-dried blood and trying not to choke or gag.
She draws it out, because of course she does. Gripping the tooth she chose tightly, she pulls it out agonizingly slowly. Little bits of the tooth break off onto your tongue.
There is no way out. If you try to distract yourself from the pain in your mouth, your focus is pulled to the burning in your arm and chest. Your wrists and ankles have rope burns, and your head is hurting in the way it always does before it gets /really/ bad, and there is no escape. Nothing you can see or hear or taste or smell or feel will bring you any relief.
When she’s finally done, she drops the tooth on your tongue. “Swallow it.”
You do. It’s actually a lot less painful now that the tooth is gone. The empty space hurts, but not as bad as the tooth being pulled did. And the amount of blood you swallow is more gross than swallowing the tooth, so that’s not a very big deal.
Jane releases the restraints keeping you on the table. You don’t sit up, you don’t want to move if you don’t have to.
Jane squeezes your shoulder. “What do you think they’d be doing right now, if you hadn’t gotten them killed?”
Your stomach drops.
“They’d be perfectly content and happy, right? Because for all the times they claimed that they knew the risks and you were worth it, ultimately they would be happier- and alive- if they’d never met you. You got them tortured and killed. They sacrificed their lives for you, and look at you… do you think it was worth it? Was their sacrifice worth it?”
You sob. Anything but this. You’d rather feel anything but this. “St-stop- I already know it’s my fault, I already know, please stop, please.”
“Just answer my question. Do you think their sacrifice was worth it?”
You shake your head. You don’t want to feel this, don’t want to think about this. Now the pain in your body is a mercy, keeping you from sinking too deep into the grief that will kill you when you fully feel it. Not yet. You can’t do this yet.
“You ruined their lives.”
You cry out as if she’d physically attacked you.
“You were warned. You knew what would happen, and you decided you were worth more than them.”
“No!”
“No? You were constantly afraid of me taking you back. You always knew it was a possibility, and you always knew what was going to happen to your friends if I did find you. You just… didn’t care enough about them. You weren’t willing to sacrifice for them, when they sacrificed everything for you. You never even considered giving yourself back to me willingly. And I would’ve let them go if you did, pet. They only died because you made the choice, day after day, to put them in danger.”
You clamp your hands over your ears. “Stop! Anything but this, please, please just burn me or cut me, please, anything but this!”
Your hands aren’t enough to block her laughter out. She grabs your arm and presses down hard on your brand, making your vision go dark for a moment. But only a moment. There’s no escaping this.
“Get up. I don’t want to hear anymore complaining after you just begged me to hurt you.”
You nod and scramble off the table.
“Do you want the crowbar or the whip?” She tugs you out of the room, still squeezing your branded arm.
“Whatever you think is best, Master.” She’ll do both anyway. Best to just make a show of obedience, after she agreed to hurt you in the way she asked. It’s the most mercy you’ll get.
“Well, if you say so. Kneel.”
You kneel. Immediately, a whip cracks against your back, and you yelp. It feels like a trail of fire down your back. “Sorry, sorry, I’m not complaining- I’m sorry.”
“Oh, you can scream. Just don’t beg for it to stop.”
“Yes, Master.” You choke out. It hurts, it hurts!
The whip strikes you again. Oh, everything hurts, your head aches and your mouth aches and your arm and back and chest burn, but the cold weight that had settled in your chest is gone. You couldn’t think about them if you wanted to. You can barely think at all.
Crack. Another strike. Your throat hurts from screaming and you try not to gag on your blood.
Crack. “Liam.” She says. “Liam.”
Crack. “Ethan.”
You push down the desire to beg. You asked for this.
Crack. “Kit.”
You think this might be the most physical pain you’ve ever been in. You think that pretty often, though.
Crack. “Dollie.”
Your body is screaming at you to move. You know that won’t help, but you feel the need to move like the need to breathe, and staying still makes you feel like there’s bugs wriggling beneath your skin.
Crack. You scream. Fuck, fuck, it burns and aches and stings and she’s opening up old wounds that had finally, finally healed and you can’t beg for it to stop and you can’t move away but you also can’t keep getting hurt and you’re trapped and there’s nothing you can do-
Crack. “Ethan.”
You dig your fingernails into your thighs. Don’t beg, don’t move, don’t fight. You’ll forget the names faster this time, which will hopefully make it shorter. She’s just got to trigger the fear of thinking those names back into effect, instead of creating the fear from scratch.
Crack. “Kit.”
You scream and scream. The pain feels… deserved, after what Jane said about you not caring enough.
Crack. “Dollie.”
The pain drags you out of that train of thought, thank god.
Crack. “Liam.”
Why is all the pain so hot? You hope Jane will put you in the cold room after this. Your insides and outsides are all burning and you just want it to stop-
Don’t beg. Don’t move. Don’t fight.
Crack. “Ethan.”
It’ll end eventually. It always ends eventually. Don’t beg. Don’t move. Don’t fight.
Crack. “Kit.”
Don’t beg.
Crack. “Dollie.”
Don’t move.
Crack. “Liam.”
Don’t fight. It’ll end. It’ll end eventually.
~~
Kitty is not doing well at all.
Puppy is worried, so so worried. They aren’t thinking straight, they don’t know what they’re doing, they’re going to get put in sensory deprivation for months and months again and there’s nothing she can do.
Kitty is slamming their fists against the basement door, screaming for Jane to stop hurting Bunny. Jane will consider it defiance if she finds out, and Kitty will get hurt. But Jane doesn’t have to find out.
She can’t be in multiple places at once, and the screaming from the basement is distant enough that Puppy knows Jane and Bunny are deep in the basement. Deep enough to maybe not hear what Kitty’s doing.
If Jane asks what happened today, Puppy will tell her what happened. But if Jane doesn’t ask, and then reveals she was watching the whole time and is mad at Puppy for keeping a secret, Puppy can say she assumed Jane heard it, and why would she tell her something she already knew?
Puppy can stop this. She can stop Kitty getting hurt, this time, if she can just get them to behave.
The door is not locked, and Puppy needs to stop them before they realize that and charge into the basement.
She’s tried dragging Kitty away, but she hasn’t eaten today and they have, so they have the advantage, even while drugged. She’s tried distracting them, but their focus does not waver. It’s hard to distract someone when you can’t talk, anyway.
Puppy is getting desperate. Jane could notice their yelling any minute. They know this will get them hurt, why are they doing this to her?
…to themself.
She grabs them by the arm and tries to yank them away from the door, but they don’t budge and easily squirm out of her grasp.
She has to stop them. She has to stop them right now, even if that takes drastic action, because nothing she can do will hurt nearly as bad as being tortured.
She slaps them, hard, across the face.
At this, they go still. They stop yelling. Slowly, they raise a hand to their cheek. “…You hit me?”
Their eyes, slightly unfocused, are full of betrayal. Puppy looks away.
“Oh. Oh, Jane told you to do that. Sorry, my brain… sorry. Jane told you to hurt me to keep me complaint if she wasn’t there… and I’ve been good, so it hasn’t come up until now. I understand.”
They gently cup Puppy’s face in their hands so that they’re making eye contact. “I know you hate… y’know. Hurting people. I’m sorry. I’ll be good, so you… you don’t have to, because you always feel so- so sad after she makes you.”
They let go of Puppy and collapse on the couch. Hopefully they’ll get some sleep.
Tears sting Puppy’s eyes. She shouldn’t have done that. There’s an understanding, between them, that they’d never hurt each other without being forced. Jane’s tried to trick them into thinking the other was hurting them by choice over and over, and it never worked. Because they knew Jane, and they knew each other.
She just hit one of the two people she cares most about in the entire world. She just broke a trust that was built over countless torture sessions, that held on no matter what. Someone she loves was going through something and instead of trying to help them she hit them.
Except it wasn’t instead of. That was the only way she could help, and it worked. A slap is nothing compared to what Jane would’ve done to them.
She regrets hitting Kitty. She really, really does. But it worked. Kitty is safe. And she will suffer any amount of guilt to keep them safe. She will let them believe a lie if it keeps them safe. She will hurt them without being forced if it keeps them safe.
Besides, it’s not that different from if Jane said “hit them or I’ll torture them.” Jane didn’t say it, but that was still the choice she had. It was still forced, right? It was still forced. She didn’t break their trust.
Puppy takes a blanket and drapes it over Kitty as they sleep on the couch. Puppy thinks they look different when they’re asleep, vulnerable and sad in a way they never are while their awake.
Yes, Puppy will do whatever she has to to protect them. Sometimes that will be violence. It doesn’t matter. Keeping them safe is worth any price she could pay.
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