#ugh i'm sorry for being negative

[argonapricot]

your tags on this post tumblr(.)com/argonapricot/729580866921218048/yo-baylan-just-up-ditched-shin-after-putting

encapsulate perfectly how i feel and how i wished they handled the relationship between baylan and shin. especially given that this is the only performance we’ll get of ray. i’m so so bummed. i guess i had my expectations set too high :(

Thank you for saying so! Yeah, it just breaks my heart and I definitely wouldn't feel so strongly about it if Ray Stevenson were still with us. It would honestly make sense if the showrunners had been trying to hold back on Baylan's plotline so that it could be explored in a movie or in the following season... but it's just such a misfortune.

I'm worried that there won't be enough time in the last remaining episode for Baylan to get the conclusion that he deserves. But I'm still grateful that we have had such incredible scenes that showcased his performance and character in previous episodes.

[mysticalcats]

what can i even do to make myself feel more like. comfortable. i can go by he/him here but a lot of the problem lies in how i look and feel. what can i even do that doesn't alert people irl

[riddlerosehearts]

...did disney just announce a moana 2 on twitter?? to come out this year??? when we're already supposed to be getting a tv show this year and a way-too-early live action remake next year?? 😐 i really enjoyed moana and have been excited for the show, and yet i'm honestly not the least bit excited at all and a little frustrated and confused because just... what. i literally had to check if this was a parody account when i saw it:

because it is SO WEIRD to announce something like this so suddenly like this and i don't understand where it came from when, again, we were supposed to be getting a disney+ show in the works this year?! is that canceled in favor of this or what (edit because i added this in a reblog but i wanna make sure people who only come across the original post see it: the answer is yes. yes, this is a disney+ series that got canceled and turned into a movie)? 😭 also the only real sequel films, not counting stuff like package films, that walt disney animation studios has actually ever made are the rescuers down under, winnie the pooh 2011, ralph breaks the internet, and frozen 2, and the latter of those just gave me an inherent lack of faith in any future sequel WDAS would create because i don't like either of them. i'm half-expecting moana and maui to be really OOC and then go their separate ways because they're just too different for some reason at the end of this movie.

[secondstar-acorn]

not to be angry on main but to the person who was very loudly complaining about "just for once" and started making fun of me for handing out bracelets in the queue for starkid. why the fuck were you there

[rutadales]

I would rather spend time with any hick I grew up with who is genuinely accepting and understanding of queers but uses faggot bc he doesnt actually understand the weight behind slurs than a leftist who absolutely does but decides it's okay for people you don't like

[artemistorm]

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[silverselfshippingchaos]

man.. shipping with characters from movies is so hard..

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

i think anyone going into psychology should be forced to take basic math courses and some kind of seminar in data organization.

"oh i went into psychology cause i don't want to do math lol" I don't know how to explain to you that this is a scientific discipline. you need to know basic stats at least.

also to the actual university level researcher who designed this database where the text files are labelled so terribly that I have to open every single one of the over 1000 files individually to check the single number inside, I am going to strangle you with my bare hands

[cobrajuincy]

what stampede has done to elendira is unforgivable. much of stampede is like, deeply annoying and disappointing to me as a huge fan of the og anime and manga, but taking a canon trans woman and turning her into one of those classic & deeply disturbing "adult woman in a child's body" tropes is a bad bad decision

[daz4i]

suicide and general negativity ig

i hate that english doesn't have a good word for מיואש (filled with despair. hopeless? ig) bc this is how i'm feeling fr

there is just. nothing good. and there is so much bad - both BAD bad bc of the war but also mundane bad bc yknow, Life - that i'm getting so overwhelmed i can't handle anything

my whole month is filled with medical shit and there's probably gonna be even more bc i need more tests and they're all just. such a pain to do (it sounds whiny but genuinely i can't handle them. just thinking abt them makes me so anxious bc they all require lots of painful preparation, sometimes for a few days, and they're so gross and require being poked with needles which my medical trauma certainly isn't helping with. and even tho i did so many already they can't find shit and i'm so tired i'm so done with this body

and like. it'd be one thing if i wanted to live. if i wanted to make my life better or thought it was possible. but by now i know it's not and i know i won't so it just becomes infinitely harder. like if i compare life to being in prison, it feels like the warden decided to torture me just for fun to make it even worse

but there is nothing good there is nothing to look forward to bc everything is shit and nothing's worth it and i hate when ppl tell me to enjoy the little things bc there is nothing to enjoy about them either. i can't have most of them anyway. i wish i could. but this shitty ass body and fucked up brain won't let me

there is no future for me i know i'm never gonna amount to anything when i can't even do the most basic shit about being human, literally how am i gonna be able to fulfill my """"potential"""" when i can't even do stuff like eat or sleep normally. when i can't go outside. when i can't handle being around people. when my body crashes and burns after standing for a few minutes or walking for more than a couple hundred meters. what even IS there for me to achieve in such a state. the only win i can have is getting out of bed and it doesn't feel like a win because i don't. want. to live. i have fucking professionals, people getting paid to help me do at least some of these things, and i can't bring myself to even take the first step bc just thinking about it makes me clam up so bad i can't move or talk and everything starts hurting so much more

there's not even. mundane fun. or joy. bc no one i know has time or energy for that. bc that's just what being an adult is ig. not that there's much to do in order to have fun anyway. like i said nothing to look forward to everything is so shit and nothing actually brings me joy anyway and it's not like i can handle being around people enough to help with that

i was not meant to be alive i am not designed to exist and like at this point I'd assume my who knows how many near death experiences may have been the universe trying to correct the mistake that is my existence and for some reason not managing to pull through the final stretch

i'm so tired i'm so done with this i wish i could be killed in some certain quick way bc i can't. i can't handle any of this. this is too much

[mollymarymarie]

sending lots of love!!! I just finished bird set free and it was fabulous! Ur an amazing writer!

Thank you so much! Needing some extra love right now, so I will take all I can get! 🥰

[fallen-regentarc]

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[thotsfortherapy]

bruh I had a social for my club and my housemate ruined the vibes so bad like. The way I feel like I need to send out a mass apology for their behaviour now :////

[musical-chick-13]

*sigh*

[neverendingford]

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[thebibliosphere]

Okay, I'll admit it. I'm one of those people who priates books. But only because I've bought so many books that disappointed me! I need to flip through a bit of it before buying.

Sometimes, if the author has kofi or patreon or something, I like to just give them the full price of the book. That way they get it all. But I also know that this isn't the perfect answer because it messes with stats and actual readership and therefore advertising and the platform they are selling on promoting it....

It's complicated. Maybe I should buy the book normally and tip the author what the publishers/printers/distributors take? But that can get really pricey fast. Ugh.

Books are often a luxury when you have no money. I’m very familiar with that. I've saved up for several months sometimes because I wanted a $5.99 ebook and didn't want to steal from the author. That’s just what being poor is. Wanting something doesn't entitle me to it.

That said, most books these days have a reading sample on purchasing sites so you can see if you like the style. Most sites also offer refunds, at least on digital books, before you reach a certain point. (please be sparing with refunds if you can. The refund is taken from the author/publisher, not Amazon. Same with audible. My audible funds are often close to zero or negative because people just return and reuse their monthly credit.)

You can also check and see if the books are available at your library, and if not, request them. Honestly, library sales are so, so, so good for authors. Libraries pay higher lending license rates to authors, and also, depending on the country, every time someone checks out my book via Libby or the local equivalent, I get a little tiny amount of money (we’re talking literal pennies, but it can add up), and it increases the library’s likelihood of re-purchasing the library lending license the following year.

You can alsp sign up to be an ARC (advanced reader copy) reader through places like NetGalley or by checking if the author offers ARCs as well. In a world of algorithms, books live and die by reviews. Some of us are quite happy to give out ARCs for new and upcoming titles.

Failing that and you have absolutely no other option... Yeah. Ko-fi or whatever is an option. Even if I wish they didn't do it because it fucks my sales metrics, I still appreciate when I get a little ding on ko-fi for the exact amount of the book. It's always telling. I even sometimes get little anon messages going “sorry for pirating your book it was really good.”

Like thank you. Please buy the next one properly, lol.