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serowotonin · 4 years

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𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿 ` sakusa kiyoomi ` 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 ` 1.2k ` 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 ` pure crack ` 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁 ` hcs `

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` umm idk what this is.. lowkey based off real events? midnight ramblings? yeah that kind of thing i guess... also big thank you to @kaguol for giving this a read (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) `

it was sports day at your school and most of the events were over and done with but the teachers didnt allow anyone to leave yet cuz,,,, reasons✨

which is why some of the students kinda just flocked to the gym to chill and maybe play around

that was until somebody suggested they host an unofficial, volleyball game

the net was still up nobody bothered to put it down so yeaahhh

rules of the game were simple: there were none, except keep the ball in the air and get it over the net…however you can

at first only a few ppl played… the “energetic” and “athletic” ones and it still seemed like a typical volleyball game

then more ppl started joining

and it slowly started getting more chaotic

it got to the point where the entire gym was the court

there were ppl running around chasing the ball, others just hitting it as hard as they can in practically any direction, then there were those who just stood there cuz everyone else was standing there so why not ??

now sakusa didn’t want to be there

he was tired because his class had signed him up for ALL the running events

why? well cuz he was tHe OnLy AtHLeCtiC PeRsOn in his class

utter bullshit btw

he plays volleyball hes not a runner

but still ended up winning tons of races just cuz… it was him💅✨ no explanation needed

n e wayss he was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nice long shower

but ofc the students of itachiyama wouldn’t let him

some of them dragged him into the game early on

again, because he was aThLeTiC ~

but this time they actually got the sport right lolol

honestly he was lowkey annoyed at how un-volleyball the game started to become but continued playing it anyway

it was hilarious how the others tried to receive even his weakest, half-assed spikes

sakusa always made sure to aim his spikes directly at ppl’s arms tho

not out of consideration for their pride or anything no no

it was cuz whenever the ball touched the ground the ENTIRE gym groaned rlly loud and there’d be ppl going “NOOOOOOOO”

and that annoyed tf out of him so he was nice with his spikes

then there was you

you were outside with one of your friends when the whole volleyball thing started and only came to the gym cuz the rest of your friends were in there

so you walked in, scanned the crowd, immediately noticed your crush *cough*sakusa*cough* and then found your friends standing in a group on the other side of the gym

now here’s the thing

sakusa has a crush™️ on you too. took him a while to realize and accept it but he did and now he officially has a crush on you

he just hadn’t really gotten around to the idea of asking you out or anything

mainly cuz he just very recently realized his feelings aka last night he was thinking about all the events he had to do for sports day and he groaned cuz ppl made him do it but then he realized ppl wasn’t actually ppl it was just you

you were the one who smiled at him and said “why not sakkun,, it’d be fun” and like that he agreed. then he realized further he actually thought about you a lot. like earlier he was thinking about how’d you look tmr since u weren’t gonna be in normal school uniform and you’d have your hair all done. and then he realized he was looking forward to seeing you which led him to realize you were one of the few ppl he actually enjoyed being around. THEN he fucking finally realized “oh… i have a crush…. on y/n……. oh”

somewhat conflicted abt it for the entirety of the day,,, bois experiencing feels for u ofc its gonna take some time >.<

he didn’t get to talk to you all day though,,,,,, he was busy with his own events and you were elsewhere

either way,, when he saw you walking past in the gym he kind of lost focus

lost focus in that the ball was coming to him and he jumped to spike it but only had his eyes on you causing his aim to mess up and well,,

he hit his target

*your head*

and because he wasn’t focused, it wasn’t a “soft” spike like all the other ones hes been doing

it was a full-blown sakusa kiyoomi spike

that hit your face

(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

sakusa just went: ᶠᵘᶜᵏ

you saw stars,,,,,,,, and fell on ur bum

like a split second later, you heard a calm voice asking if you were ok. you muttered out a yeah and felt arms helping you up

one of them was your friend you were pretty sure, but the other one’s hands were too big to be any of your friends’

“let’s get you to the nurse,” the calm voice said again.

“mkay,, thats probably.. a smart choice.. yeah….” and, vision still blurry, you were guided to the nurse by your friend and someone whose identity you weren’t sure of yet

sakusa was still standing there

all that, the spike hitting you, you falling, your being escorted to the clinic,,,,, that happened in like 2 seconds

he didn’t even have time to say anything yet

to make matters worse, some random ass guy was the one who came and swept you out of the gym

sure your friend was with you but to sakusa,,, that guy sus af

after they left, the game continued and sakusa rlly didn’t feel like playing anymore

he wanted to make sure you were okay and wanted to apologize

however,,,, the teachers came in shortly after and told them it was time for the closing ceremony

throughout the entire thing, his eyes flit through the crowds looking for you

he couldn’t find you tho>:((

big sad

after the ceremony was over,, he went to the clinic but you weren’t there

then he just kinda,,, /slump/

figured he’d just pull you aside tmr and apologize then

except,,, tmr came and he still hadnt found a good time to pull you aside for a proper apology??

you were just so… busy.?

finally,, at around lunch after you finished eating, you kinda just sat with your friends and were talking and stuff when sakusa decided now would be an appropriate time to apologize

he walked up to you and asked if you two could talk in private for a bit

your friends shot glances at each other. he saw,, but he didnt let it bother him

anyways,, he led you out into the hall and in the softest tone he could manage he says, “about yesterday… i’m really sorry, spiked the ball a bit too hard.. how are you feeling?”

you tell him ur fine,, just that it aches a bit but nothing serious

he nods and mutters another ‘sorry..’

then this happened:

“no it’s ok you don’t have to be so sorry. accidents happen.”

“it wasn’t an accident tho..? so im sorry, it wont happen again.”

“yeah ok,, wAIT WHAT?? wdym not an accident?!?? u spiked the ball into my face on purpose?!?!!?!?”

“WHAT NO- ofc not. i just,,, i kind of lost focus… on other things… at the time… and yeah”

“????”

*sighs* “i was focused on you when you walked past and didn’t consciously control my aim or whatever and ended up spiking it into your face”

“?!?!?!??…. why were you focused on me??”

“cuz i like you dummy” /it slipped he didnt mean to say this/

“oh.... wAIT WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?”

and that is the story of how sakusa confessed

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` honestly think it would be better as a fic but uh,,, my lazy ass cant be bothered to write fics rn so uh,, hope this was good for now? lol might mess around and write one later tho.. maybe `

#sakusa x reader #hq #www.pink-ink.com/writing #/hcs

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andromedarune · 4 years

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I’m Taking Requests~!

Hi! I’m really trying to stretch my writing muscles a bit more, so I’m gonna try my hand at taking requests for PKMN stuff. Lots of other people are doing it, too, right now, so I thought “why the fuck not? Lolol” I’ll be doing this on both my AO3 and my Tumblr (both under the same name, andromedarune), so submit your requests either to my ask box or in the comment section!

NOTE: I’m currently only allowing requests for certain characters. I am a picky, cruel bastard, I know. But I’d rather write about characters I actually care about rather than half-ass an imagine for someone. Just how it goes, mate. The list might change as time goes on, so please check before submitting your request.

Characters I’ll write: Leon, Piers (!!!!), Raihan, Nessa, Sonia, Hop, Bede, Gloria/Victor, Marnie.

Guidelines for Requests:

One request per comment. Send as many comments as you like, but don’t write every imagine idea you have in one comment, because I am an idiot and will most definitely lose track of that shit. Please keep it easy for my tiny peanut brain.

Feel free to get specific! I really want o flex my writing muscles with some ideas that I can’t come up with myself, so try not to just say “write a Leon story” - get saucy, my dudes.

Ask for specific gendered writing, if any apply. I generally write from the female perspective (just a personal preference), so please mention if you’d like a male or non-binary story. Otherwise I’ll just assume female bc that’s what I normally write.

If you find a prompt-list that you’d like to see me go through, send it my way! Make sure you let me know whose it is and where you found it so I can credit them, too!

If you want me to include canonically underage characters (which includes: Hop, Gloria/Victor, Marnie, Bede, Allister, Bea...), keep it pure. No ships between kids and adults, nothing NSFW with them. I can handle puberty humor, but nothing explicitly… racy. Does that make sense? IDK. Just ask if you ain’t sure, I guess.

I’m down for NSFW for the adults - I’d like to really practice it, so please feel free to request it! Let’s get kinky, bois.

I have the right to turn down any request for whatever reason. Please don’t get mad if I don’t write your request - chances are, I just might be confident enough to write it, sadly. But I will definitely try my hand at everything given to me so long as they follow my little guidelines!

What I’ll Accept:

Imagines, Drabbles, Headcannons, prompts, one-shots, AUs....

Reader-Inserts

Fluff, Angst… all that good shit…

LGBTQ+ stuff

NSFW content

What I’ll Most Definitely Refuse:

Intense gore

Problematic/conventionally gross kinks

Triggering content

OCs

For these, if you want to explain your idea a bit more to me, there may be a chance I could accept the idea. But otherwise, better luck somewhere else with your idea.

ANOTHER NOTE: I’m also writing a big SWSH fanfic right now, and school is just around the corner. So, it may be a bit of a wait before your request comes to fruition. But if I haven’t declined it, chances are I’m still working on it. Be patient, please, and I will do my best to get all my requests done in a timely fashion.

And, uh, yeah, that’s about it. So what the hell are you waiting for?! Send in your idea!

#swsh #pokemon #swordandshield #fanfiction #fanfic #imagines #drabbles #one-shot #reader-insert #headcannon #prompt #request #writing #we might be gettin kinky up in here lads #fuck yeah #but not the children

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chaotic-sinful · 4 years

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OTP Game

I was originally tagged in my STUCKY (FUCK ENDGAME STILL) account, thought I’d share :)

Pick top 5 OTP and answer the questions later! Tag some people to pass it on!

Kirishima x Yokozawa (Trifecta)

Isaka x Asahina (Mistake)

Ijuuin x Yuu (Sentiment)

Hiroki x Nowaki (Egoist)

Chiaki x Hatori (Domestica)

I’ll go with my Sekakoi JR OTP here but you can choose any OTPs from any fandom that you’re in :D

tagging @boyimtrash @yoshiunova @girlwithships @jadedadultritsu (if you want and have time) and anyone who wants to do it ^^

Which of your OTP would:

Have a grand GRAND wedding (2,4,5! ISAKA, HIROKI, CHIAKI WERE RICH AF)

Have burnt food for breakfast (1 when Kirishima tried cooking, 5 definitely when Chiaki goes WELL IMMA BE THE CHEF TODAY)

Argue over honeymoon destination (2 definitely lol, them badmouthing each other is my fav trope ajfhsjaf. ALSO 3 I KINDA HOPE? I wanna see Sentiment argue over small stuff but compromise later so finger crossed :p I feel like there’s possibility of 5 doing this too but Hatori seems to be following Chiaki in the relationship matter so hmm, idk.)

Forget their anniversary/each other’s birthday (3! Since both Ijuuin and Yuu work in busy condition, also deadlines!!!!!! And both of them seem to be the kind of couple that would forget their anniversary and realized about it later, probs at the same time, screaming lol)

Pick library for a place to date (4!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIROKI DEFINITELY WOULD NO DOUBT!!!!!!!)

Pick Titanic as their ‘Netflix and Chill’ background noise (um excuse me WHAT- Well...1? XD YOKOZAWA THOUGHT THEY’D BE WATCHING SO HE’S FINE BUT NU UH???)

Hold hands and screaming aloud during a haunted house ride (Oh God, I wish 5, and that’s Tori screaming and screeching while Chiaki goes, welp, Tori, it’s gonna be fine I’D BE SQUEALING IF THIS EVER CANON)

Have pillow fight instead of sex on their first night together after marriage (2, akslfasklfa, WHAT AN IDEA I WANNA WRITE THIS DOWN LATER!!!!!!!!)

Have intense snowball fight (and make snowman later,perhaps) (ALL OF THEM PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I feel like snowball fight is something fun and all of them deserve all the fun so hohohohohoho)

Hang a lot of mistletoe in the house for excuse to kiss (1 KIRISHIMA DEF WOULD! and 2 ISAKA DOING, ALL BUT 1 IN THEIR BEDROOM, THAT’D BE ASAHINA :3)

Have a lot of make up sex (AFHALSDFHA WHUT...2. hahahha.)

Wake up each other with kisses (3 FREAKING SENTIMENT BETTER DO THIS KIND OF CUTE SHIT OR IM LOSING IT, they seemed to be romantic people so yeah)

Adopt pet(s) (3 please! I’d love for Sentiment to have a puppy running around ruining their workplace lolol)

Be shaken because of love rivalry/third person (ok fuck Sentiment. don’t happen please. they just have too many possible third person, not even in the term of love rivalry, just ppl that could shake their relationship so no God)

Do candlelight dinner at home and throw rose petals on their bed for anniversary (4, NOWAKI WOULD WANT THIS!)

#tag game #otp game #otp #otp questions

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philip-seville-archive · 4 years

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Dinos at the Beach || Tap Texts

Summary: Party planning between Pip and Tad aka Pip asks Tad questions and makes 95% of the decisions

@i-am-obnoxious

Pip Seville:

okay hi

This might seem awk but i need like a detailed breakdown of all your allergies as i put together this birthday menuuuu

like most cakes have dairy in them but is that okay? or is like milk in batter fine? like once its cooked?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

uhhh

milk is just a no go in general my dude

Pip Seville:

right and eggs too right? is it all dairy

jesus u live like the saddest life

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

bro :(

Pip Seville:

I said it in solidarity!

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

I dont think its

I think it's the lactod thing

Pip Seville:

oh wow there's a difference? i had no idea

oh wow i googled ur right thats insane

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yeah. Sucks :(

sometimes I still risk it all for ice cream my dude

but it sure hurts

Pip Seville:

i understand. i too would probably risk it sometimes

but this is great news! we dont have to worry about dairy free, just lactose free!

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

!!!! :grinning:

Pip Seville:

any other allergies i should know about here

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

uhhh dont think so

Pip Seville:

great! okay so my og question: cake vs. cupcakes

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

hmmm

cake. More to eat! :laughing:

Pip Seville:

well i mean technically we can probably make twice as many cupcakes for the same amount as a cake but cakes are a classic

considering your guest list which is very long i would actually recommend cupcakes...

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

ohhh

I'm confused

Pip Seville:

which part was confusing

its just that people can have like two cupcakes if we do cupcakes but if we do one cake then it might actually be less cake

per person

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

just like if youre vibing with one why give me the choice my dude

Pip Seville:

i am giving you all the details! its your choice though, if you want a cake we can do a cake

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

ohhhhh

Pip Seville:

and you said you wanted more cake. so despite the fact that cupcakes are little cakes, you can have more of them

sorry if this is too complicated we can totally do a big big cake

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

nah it's cool bro

cupcakes n stuff

Pip Seville:

so thats a go on cupcakes

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

sure thing bro

Pip Seville:

great! so what about flavor of cake and frosting?

i think chocolate has more lactose, we can still get like a lactose free chocolate option but it might not taste as good idk

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

awww man 🤔

Pip Seville:

its possible! my aunt knows a lot about this stuff (she's going to make it) so if you want chocolate we can find a way to make it happen

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

wait ur serious? Broooo 😃

will others think its gross?

Pip Seville:

um idk i have not tried it because we have not made it yet lol

id say doing a vanilla or something might be safer if you're concerned

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

bro what if like

we did that thing where you like

test the vibe

Pip Seville:

a taste test? i mean we could

the only thing is my aunt is pretty busy soooo i would probalby have to follow her recipe and hopefully not fuck it up if we do a test batch

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

ohhh

could try at my place my dude. Gilly's kinda good at this stuff

Pip Seville:

yeah okay i'll ask amy to make a recipe. so chocolate cake. do u want chocolate icing too?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

ooo

yeah dude!!!!

Pip Seville:

got it, double chocolate

ok for drinks i was thinking we could do virgin pina coladas and margs and and then a sangria, plus like, we can buy a bunch of sodas does that sound good

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

oooo

does the UK have Dr. Pepper?

Pip Seville:

yes we do

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

duuuude yes

Pip Seville:

okay i will write down dr pepper lolol. any other drink requests

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

nah bro that's pretty good for me

Pip Seville:

great! what about snacks?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

uhhhh chips?

Pip Seville:

you mean potato chips right

of course you do

okay! i was also thinking we could do like cute little pigs in a blanket (but they'd be like pigs-in-a-towel lol, beach theme), and then fruit-kabobs for a vegetarian option

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yeah bro

not vibing with the piggies though

Pip Seville:

why not?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

dont really like the hot dogs

Pip Seville:

okay...

do you like chicken fingers?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yo yessss

does this place do those dino ones? Those are hilarious

Pip Seville:

we could get dino ones but i was actually thinking starfish

staying on theme haha lol

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

Pip Seville:

Ooooor we could do

dinos at the beach

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

😂 duuuude yessss

Pip Seville:

perfect!

okay any other must-have snacks? do you like goldfish?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

who doesn't like goldfish my dude? They got milk in them tho bro

Pip Seville:

wow really

rip

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yeah 😞

Pip Seville:

oh cheese DUH

okay here was another idea i had which idk about lactose options here but i mean they HAVE to make lactose free marshmallows and stuff right bc like

bonfires are very popular

i was thinking we could build one in your garden if your parents are okay with it

toward the end, you know? people can sit around and talk, roast marshmallows

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

ooo. Well you know we could do the regular mallows bro. I don't have to eat that stuff

Pip Seville:

are you sure? i mean i can get some

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

there are other kinds?

Pip Seville:

i dunno? i was just saying if there is a lactose free marshmallow, i can get you a bag and then we can get regular marshmallows for everyone else

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

if they exist my dude then yeah!

Pip Seville:

okay! do you think your parents will be ok with a bonfire?

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

hang on I'll go ask

[5 minutes later] yoooo we're good

Pip Seville:

brilliant!

okay i will send you a list of all the items i have to purchase for this party, without cake stuff (that will be part of my present to you) so your parents can approve bc like i cannot afford all this myself lmfao

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yeah that sounds good my dude. Thanks

Pip Seville:

my pleasure 😉 if you have any ideas yourself or other requests just text me

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

oh oh

so bonfires nice n all but uh I noticed it's still kinda

cold outside bro

Pip Seville:

well thats why we do the bonfire

it wont be cold around it

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

yeah. Could also like vibe with some extra blankets

Pip Seville:

yes, exactly! i was thinking we could do beach chairs and stuff but people could also brnig towels and blankets to sit on

this is as close as i can do for a beach in january lmao

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

duuuude youre so awesomeeee

Pip Seville:

i know 😎

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

😂 its gonna be so lit!

Pip Seville:

hopefully!

okay im sending you the playlist to approve too

and the draft of the new invite

we should probably arrange a time for the taste test sometime this weekend

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

sick

u got it

Pip Seville:

i'll text u my availability i have to get my new schedule

Samwise Theodore Tad Fiske:

sweet. Just let me know bro

#text #tap #i decided to stop working and to format this instead #good decision me

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lcnguor · 4 years

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO.

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK.

Are they underrated? YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main story? YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO.

How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.

How strictly do you follow canon? — Since she is an OC with her own lore I would say pretty much . Of course there are some heres and theres and she changed a lot from the first time I dragged her out of the void of my head . I originally wanted to make more of a gag character but ended up taking too much of the screen if I’m honest . but of course , since there is many other lores and crossovers are a must , some things change once or twice .

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals. — Nora is a mentor character , supportive and most likely to be the ace under the sleeve like a Kisuke Urahara from Bleach or Sinbad from Magi --- you know there’s something fishy but there is a charm that even thought they are slidding in the background for the main character , their relevance is vast . As a mentor characters , she would often help with insight , understanding of complex things , giving moral lessons and giving others a sense of security whilst also making sure to throw hints about a doubious nature . Keeping a character around her to keep their feet on ground while never shooting down their hopes and dreams .

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?). — She is not approachable unless you have enough guts to -- perhaps even looks intimidating or hard to come up with something plausible to make the meeting more natural . And honestly , she looks like a mainstream angst character at first glance --- even I myself believe this and start having second thoughts ... :laughs:

What inspired you to rp your muse? — An old project I had archived in my closet of memories (?). She was the main , nameless character of a journal about , well , her and the emotions she had to deal with in the everyday . I will be seriously honest ... it was a self insert :blushes: after all it was like a personal journal I was doing on my darkest days . But after that , she became Sable -- the first character on her own -- who also served as a mentor ( but the story was much more dark , seriously ) and then just came to this . I even used the pre-prototype name lol . The idea was to put the whole story into a RPG pixel game or a short comic series where she ( Sable ) and the protagonist would wander around a city called “Nobody’s Home” , a place were people with “thats” ( what now are called Stalkers ) got dragged into and either confront their emotions and solve / comes in terms with them or get eaten by them ( a metaphor for suicide or dead by mental illness ) . The story was more or less about Sable teaching Nona ( the genderless protagonist ) about different mental states , issues and others and helping people solve them so they can return to the real world . Needless to say , the story ends with Nona returning after coming in terms with their condition ( funnily enough , the protagonist had a bunny shaped emotion ) while on the other hand Sable stayed behind along with her closest friend , who she question why he keeps being around if he could return himself , to what he replies he doesn’t want to leave her alone esp since she can no longer return --- hinting Sable committed suicide but by sheer will power remained there to help others to deal with what she couldn’t . Voez , the friend I mention , is even Victor from her current lore . Haha , I like recycling I guess . When I came with Nora , it was mostly to kill time and altered her base story a bit since the original plot was way to close up to make an interaction .

What keeps your inspiration going? — How well received she became , I know it sounds a bit ... uh , bad . But I honestly never expected people to like her . heck I even have my doubts about myself liking her haha . plus I know it’s not easy to deal with a character with a somewhat meta power ... I still struggle from time to time but I’m managing and having the support I have atm is something that keeps me going . I love plot a shit lot . I love to come up with ideas with others . To expand what I already have . besides , there is so much I haven’t write down yet that is about her lore but I’m a bit insecure yet . I guess I’m too used to forums where everyon follows a general plot haha ... old habits die hard .

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO / EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Do you frequently write headcanons? YES / NO / 50-50

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO, I HATE DRABBLES.

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES/ NO.

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / .... UHHHH

Are you confident in your writing? YES / HAHA NO.

Are you a sensitive person? YES VERY MUCH A LOT / NO.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal? — I haven’t got any so far --- which honestly surprises me because well ... there is so much that can bother people . as I said , I received a lot of support and praise , which also surprises me haha ... I won’t deny I would love to hear what people think , even if I later end up riding the anxiety train to the moon but it’s also a way to grow up , I believe . god ... I sound like nora Uu

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character? — I absolute love this and need this . It comes easier for me to make a 20 word pages of information about stuff if I’m asking specifically about it . even add explanatory drawings with it lolol since I’m kinda bad with words . besides , showing me interest on a character would just fire the heck out of me to keep going . I mean , everyone likes to get some curiosity and a chance to develop more their characters , canon or not .

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why? — I would for sure . I’m not smart and I actually do a shit ton of research --- but even so I can miss a lot of shit people would say <nah that’s not how it works> and that would be helpful as heckie . but of course , needing the why also would tell me if the person disagreeing is doing it with a solid ground or just because they are being a piece of crap . I’m really tired of tumblr mentality and shitty people who aren’t mature enough to act decently .

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it? — you cannot like everyone or have everyone like you either . I don’t really care much ... esp since nora is an original character . if it constructive critisism , okay -- I will take it , but gimme a solid reason other than “ your character is / is not ... “ and then give a crappy critique because she doesn’t fit your agenda or standards .

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it? — you are fucking free to unfollow me and ignore me for the rest of your life . I really don’t get the point of hating on the internet just because and keep promoting your hate just to be a pain in the ass .

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors? — I fucking wrote in my rules that people are even fricking free to fix my grammar and english because holy heck , even to this day I still do some ugly shit . I’m dumb , help ...

Do you think you are easy going as a mun? — ehhhhhhhhhhhhh, kinda . I take everything with water . whenever it’s of ideology , people as it is , characters ... I am quite tolerant and try to keep the “okay this person thinks this way , fine .” but as long as nobody crosses the line where they try to spoil it for me or others , I get super bitter . I love OOC , getting to know the one behind the character makes me feel more secure about coming to them and just rambling about plots and hcs and whatever idea got in my mind . but if I see someone and , forgive me god for misjudging , see them as a person that will put me on my nerves -- I won’t even try . as for the friends I have and those who don’t know me as much ... I am obnoxiously sporadic and have a lot of ups and downs very often . one day I could be talking 100 words per second others I will just take a fucking week to respond . honestly , I had mined my social skills for two years plus several other irl stuff previous to that , so I’m always a bit too anxious around people , esp people I REALLY like . I’m insecure as heck , if someone is vague ( just because , idk , it was a lazy day for them ) I think at least 10 different reason why probably that person hates me now . I’m a bit dumb 26 year old baby .......... but I’m very aware that is completely on me . I’m a mess....... so , what was the question again ??? ... I , yeah ... it’s a kinda . but I try , at least haha.

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

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bluesweatersleeve · 5 years

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Aw, what's wrong? Are you sick?

for @corkcollector

from yur uhhh are you sick drawing :)

fitz/matt..???

tl:dr = fitz kidnap poor babey matt, gives him pill(s) and now matt has bad stomach ache :( oh cam? Uh cam not here… anyways…

Its bad and rushed because i had like 50 ideas for your drawing and i just decided “welp, whatever i wanna put in along the way ill just put oh well” lol ill have a list of what i wanted to put at the bottom

DAMNIT ITS FORMATTED DIFFERENTLY awhatever im too tired to fix it im sorry please forgive i might fix in the morning but i must sleep my leg tingles

The rope began to hurt his wrists, though his ankles became numb to the constant pricking of the roughness. The ropes little bumps and ridges scratched at Matt, going up and down, sometimes side to side. Being restrained to a chair meant non stop struggling, and the rope had begun to dig into his wrists, and even though Matt couldn’t see his wrists, he bet that they were red with pain, perhaps more red than Matt’s red flushed face from the humidity of the basement.

Even if Matt had been stripped down into nothing, the heat would still feel like as though it was personally choking him. Matt didn’t know if it was the heat or maybe if the wounds scattered across his body began to become infected from neglect, but he began to feel sick. And it was evident through his coughs.

Though the coughs felt more like than just a cough. They felt as though it was killing him slowly, and perhaps it was, but Matt refused to let himself die in a dusty, muggy basement. Especially a basement that didn’t even belong to him or a friend. The coughs only progressively got worse though, the outcome transitioning from nothing to blood. It was always blood, never anything else.

Matt refused to look at the small blood patches surrounding him. He knew it was there, and he knew it was from him, but the look of it made the coughs return. The smell was bad enough, but the look of the dried, and recent blood combined only made it worse.

Matt’s only release from everything was when he would pass out from lack of food, or when night fell, and he would be left alone to sleep for the next round of abuse. Though sometimes, his captor liked to interfere with Matt’s temporary feeling of freedom.

Sometimes, Matt’s captor makes Matt sick. But Matt would rather die than be sick.

The cold water splashed onto Matt, the water, although a refreshing feeling from the constant heat Matt felt, was still a shock, and it stung into Matt’s fresh scars from his captor’s lovely session of torture earlier in the day.

“Ah-!” Matt gasped, the pain and shock combining into a sound. Matt gasped for air as the water dripped from his hair, and began to cough, already feeling something build in his throat. “F-fuck!”

Matt coughed, the blood falling from his mouth and landing onto the floor with a soft splat.

“Disgusting.” The man that towered over him laughed, throwing the once water filled bucket off to the side. He moved slowly as he stood off to the side of Matt, narrowing his eyes when he saw another blood patch fall to the ground. Fitz scoffed as Matt’s coughs continued. A sly smirk played onto his face. “Hmph, look at you. Weak, puny, dying.”

“N-no!” Matt choked out, spitting the blood out from his mouth. The blood ran down his lip as he weakly glared at Fitz, the fighting spirit in his eyes beginning to stir again. “I-I’m not-”

Matt’s head dropped down as another coughing fit began, his throat beginning to ache as blood clogged up, feeling like it only moved a centimeter each hack he had. The blood came out in pieces, landing in the water coloring it red. Matt felt like passing out from the coughing fit, but his attention was focused on Fitz who smiled smugly at him.

“I-I’m not dying..”

“You so sure about that?” Fitz asked as if to mock Matt’s statement. He laid his hands softly onto Matt’s shoulders, holding it with a wicked grin. “You’ve been coughing blood for how long now? 3, 4 days? Oh! And how long has those wounds been on you? 6, or maybe a whole week?”

“No-”

“Oh Matt, how will you ever get better after this? Normal medicine won’t do..” Fitz said, looking at Matt who turned his head to the side to avoid his gaze. “Good thing I don’t use normal medicine.”

Matt’s eyes became alert and his head whipped around to look at Fitz. Fitz smirked at him and brought his hand behind him, pulling out a bottle of white pills. Matt’s tough persona broke, and he shook his head, lowering it, and feeling himself begin to break down. Fitz chuckled, and rattled the bottle as he circled Matt and stopped in front of him, looking at Matt’s lowered yet almost still head. The tears fell onto Matt’s already wet shirt, and FItz rolled his eyes.

“Stop crying, you fucking child.” Fitz grabbed a handful of Matt’s hair and pulled it up, forcing Matt to look at him. Fitz’s face scrunched up as Matt looked.at him tearfully. Matt snarled and glared at Fitz, who growled back. “God, you’re disgusting. Good thing I’m getting rid of you.”

Fitz opened the bottle, and took out a few looking at Matt who stared at the pills with fear. The white pills looked as though they were glowing in Fitz’s hand under the moonlight. The rest of the pills were thrown off to the side, close to where the bucket lay.

Fitz approached Matt, and time seemed to move slow, as if to torture Matt in what might be his last day alive. Matt stared at Fitz through half-lidded eyes, who stared at him back. Fitz managed to catch him off guard and grabbed Matt’s hair quickly, and pulled it again, Matt’s mouth hanging loose to which Fitz used to his advantage and dropped the pills in. Matt instantly tried to spit them out, but failed when Fitz clamped a hand over his mouth.

“Mm- mh!” Matt shook his head, trying to remove Fitz’s hand from his mouth. Fitz grabbed the back of Matt’s head and held him still, smiling as Matt’s half-lidded eyes turned wide eyed with panic. “Mmm!”

“If you swallow it, this’ll be over so much quicker.” Fitz said, tightening his grip on Matt’s head. Matt shook his head, but complied when Fitz began to crush his hands together.

Matt closed his eyes as he forced himself to slowly swallow the half dissolved pills, having to also swallow the bitter and gross saliva pool in his mouth. Matt opened his eyes and glared at Fitz when finished, but he folded when a sharp and sudden pain hit his stomach. Fitz let go of Matt and watched as Matt twitched with pain.

Matt breathed heavily and looked at Fitz, who smiled cheerfully at him. Matt lurched forward, and cried out in agony as the pain continued.

“D-damnit..” Matt heaved, dropping his head as the pain disappeared and reappeared. “F-fuck you!”

“Aw, what's wrong? Are you sick?” Fitz laughed, glancing back at the bottle of pills. He smiled and turned back to Matt “If you’d like, I can give you more.”

“N-no!” Matt writhed with pain, feeling it beginning to throb, as if it had a mind of it’s own and knew Matt hated it. “Please, no!”

Fitz cackled and stepped away from the view in front of him. Matt’s poor attempt at trying to stop the pain ended with the rope on his wrists digging deeper into him. Matt didn't know what to do, but all he felt was an extreme pain that seemed to spread all across his body. Matt wished he could scream, but his throat was clogged with blood and saliva, only letting whimpers and chokes out.

Fitz held Matt's head softly, trying to stop himself from laughing as Matt shook.

"Ah, don't worry Matt, by this night you should be dead." Fitz proudly announced to him, pulling away from him and walking to the door. "Keep coughin' Matt, because if you're not dead by tonight, then I'll kill you myself."

Fitz revealed a metal bat that rest just behind the thick wooden door frame, and tapped it on the floor, letting it echo, and sound over Matt's pained whines. He took one last glance at the soon to be corpse, and smirked at what he has made of Matt.

The door slammed shut, and Matt knew it was the last time he would hear it, thank god, because Matt could already feel himself slipping from consciousness.

Matt smiled weakly and looked at the door.

"I'll see you, Cam.." Matt murmured, dropping his head, letting the pain overtake him as his breathing slowed. "I'll see..you.."

WELP heres like all 50 of my ideas lolol

-fitz pretends to be cam, puts something in matts drink and turns him into a mindslave (and a 2nd one but matt dies instead)

-fitz pretends to be cam, puts something in matts drink, and matt begins to forget stuff, and eventually forgets e v e r y t h i n g, and is stuck in an neverending existential crises

-matt was gonna spit in fitz's faces before being forced to take the pills

-matt was gonna go crazy after taking the pills like "death? dont know her! fuck you!"

-there was gonna be no bloody cough before but i said yeah sure why not

-fitz was gonna wrap ropes around matt to increase his pain, or he was gonna let matt out of his chair but like, break his limbs (then i was like "wait a minute idk how to write bones!), and let him writhe in pain

-cams spirit gonna appear oOoOo (then i said no! this isnt wattpad!)

-idk in the basement theres a small ass window, and i was gonna have some weird ass connection to the moon but was like nah

-was gonna add a whole thing of cam being the next victim and matts dead body just in front of him the whole time, and fitz comes down and he's holding the pills

-^^if i was gonna add that, once cam died, fitz was gonna call his fukin goons and be like "alright the first couples down, get the next one. ah..swagger and toby was it?"

-i was too lazy

-bUt there was gonna be one where cam just breaks into the basement and beats the shit out of fitz and leaves with matt

-^^or it was gonna be fitz reacts like the fucking flash and beats his ass first and taunts matt with his bruised/dead body

-i was too lazy

okay im donee..its 4:02am im gonna sleep i hope you see this hahhxhhdha

bye sisters, respect the queen or i slice your peen

of course queen is toby.

#gay baby gang #goodguyfitz #badguyfitz #fitz #inotorious #misfits podcast #misfits au #??#do i put podcastt or..#idk how this works #writing/official #respect queen or i slice your peen

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one-eyed-captain-kinky · 6 years

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Reasons I Love Oliver Knight:

@ikemensegokufangirl @alloveroliver

Ahhhh ikemensengokufangirl started the tag, and then alloveroliver tagged me so it’s a thing now lmao! Omg guys my list ain’t nowhere near as sophisticated as yours, like I just love him. 😂

1) Sourpatch Kid:

Idk if they have these candies in your country, but omg I love these candies. Sour and salty on the inside, soft and sweet on the inside. Perfectly sums this man up! If you guys don’t know me, I love pretty much all otome guys, but these tsundere guys get to me! He acts like the MC and all the others are annoying, but he really does care. (Mini-Spoiler for Fenrir’s Route: Despite war coming, he complied with Fenrir’s wishes to make weapons that don’t actually hurt people. These two care so much about everyone, and it makes me so happy. Oliver, if he got annoyed with the war could make the weapons dangerous, but he complied with his friend’s wish and humiliates the enemy in the best and least harmful way possible. I’m living for it.)

Even the wrapper says, “Sour then Sweet!”

Also writing this made me crave them 😂🤦‍♀️

2) His Forms:

『Hey girl, don’t look down on me. Don’t treat me like a kid.』

Height: 145 cm (4’9) OLIVER, YOUR CHILD FORM IS TALLER THAN ME, I LITERALLY CAN’T LOOK DOWN ON YOU.

Yeah, I’m short. So what? FITE me lolol. I just understand that short people rage hahaha. You’re full of spite when you’re short. I just relate to him a lot on that note. Also his child form is cuteeeee AND HIS ADULT FORM CAN LITERALLY PUNCH ME AND I’D THANK HIM FOR THE CONTACT HAHAHA.

let’s see.... his character design in both of his forms exude a mature nature and he looks hella fine 💯👌

3) His Financial Situation?

Ah, this makes me seem greedy, plz hear me out 😭🤦‍♀️... uh so I’m growing up in a divorced household, I live with my mom Monday through Thursday, I stay at my grandparents’ after school and on Friday, and I live with my dad on Saturday. My mom is the only one with a good financial situation, so the rest of my family relies on her a lot. I want MC to be independent but also have someone she can rely on. I wouldn’t want her to be like my mom who has to help my dad out a lot, I want MC and Oliver to be independent financially, but dependent emotionally. I want there to be mutual dependence on each other in the relationship I guess. Like I know MC might rely on Oliver a bit more, but HDHSJSJSJ I’m rambling. Haha

4) The Duality Between Them:

Wow fancy ass title there lolol. MC is a patissiere who makes cakes, and the Mad Hatter is famous for his tea parties, soooo... I just thought it’d be cute if they had tea parties, and he’d eat her cakes and stuff and be hella tsun about how good they are lolol. Also he’s so sweet and I like imagining him in his child form leaning his head one MC’s lap and her stroking his hair. And in his adult form saying, “It’s your turn to be on my lap now” and just having her sit on his lap and ;) I’m a sucker for mutually dependence lolol

I WANT CAKE NOW, but like imagine the look on his face when MC says she made the cake

5) He’s Oliver:

I love him, the end. Like.... I just do! 😂 This list wasn’t nearly as good as the others, but I didn’t wanna be too repetitive, so make sure you check theirs out!! Anyways, I love Oliver and he deserves more love! Feel free to do the challenge for any IkeRev guy, just tag @ikemensegokufangirl and @alloveroliver lolol.

I Nominate:

@ikemenrevolution

@whysosirius-sirius

@lukapleaselovejonah

@lukaclemenceiseverythingamazing

@fenrirgodspeed

@fenrir-godspeed

@jonahclemence-stop

@acrispyapple

@nicolerevolution 😳😳😳

And if you aren’t nominated, but are a fan, please do it as well! I wanna read yours haha. This might not get many likes, but it was really fun doing this challenge!

💚💚💚

#otome #mc #ikemen revolution #cybird #oliver knight #10 reasons i love oliver #10 reasons challenge #IkeRev

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acilykos · 7 years

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Tagged by the dear @amakatarei~ Thank for tagging me ^^ lol Rules: 1. Post the rules 2. Answer the questions given to you by the tagger 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4 Tag 11 people! 1. What’s your star sign? Me? I’m a Leo. (Haha look at me making a Kagami reference in there lol) 2. What’s your dearest childhood memory? Probably all the times I spent in Greece during summer with my grandparents. At the start of my last year in Kindergarten we even stayed until October and it was so damn cold. I couldn’t believe this was really Greece, but it was really nice with the fire my grandpa made and everytime he took me with his motorcycle through our village or whenever I walked up to the village center with my gradma. I really miss those times, especially now where everything just kinda crushes me slowly. (Oof that went longer on and got deeper at the end than intendet sorry) 3. If you could change something that would affect the whole world, what would it be? I’m gonna make a selfish change the world wish and a actually helpful wish: My selfish wish would probably be to turn back time to the year 2001-2002 lol. I just have decisions I’d like to change in my life and around the world (tho as child, I won’t have much to say rip. (But I could make bets on stuff and people would think I have powers and then I’M R I C H (oh god I’m sorry))) but yeah, going back with the knowledge of what will happen in the future would be nice to emotionally get ready for it oof. My wish that would actually be good for the world, is probably that we have equality maybe or more intelligence (or that useless math themes would stop being a god damn thing), but definitelly a wish that would stop humanity from being as studip as it is right now 4. Do you have any celebrity crushes? Nope. (Anime doesn’t count, right?) 5. Is there something you used to post about on your blog and you no longer do? What is it? Heettaaa- liiii- aaaa.(yeah I stopped posting Hetalia (maybe once in a few months there will show up something, but I mostly don’t soo) 6. Which are your #1 otp and your #1 notp? Being honest, a few months ago I would have said Midotaka, but now it’s AoKaga (and generally Kaga ships, but AoKaga is first place lolol). And my Notp.. Aomomo with a very high chance and (PruCan, but I’m not into Hetalia that much anymore so, uh, yeah I don’t really count that anymore) But yeah, this is literally the only ship I don’t like (I think?) at the moment, but i’m chill if any of u like it of course. 7. Which was the last book you’ve read? Does Manga count, too? If yes then, Kuroko no Basket (surprise, surprise). But if we talk about real book, then.. uh.. some chapters of the knb replace novel..? Or the Attack on Titan light novel Lost Girls, I honestly can’t remember (I’ll add it later if I should remember the correct one) 8. Mention amovie you can relate to. Hm.. Maybe back to the future 2 and 3 (and the end of 1 lol) because of my wish to change whatever bad thing happened or will happen like Doc who helped Martin change the future of his children who would have end up in jail or when Martin went back in time to save Doc. Browns life twice lolol. You know? Just.. changing time. (Does this count? I’m not really watching many movies anymore so uh there’s that) 9. Is there anything about your style you wouldn’t change even if you got billions of dollars for it? Do I even have a style? I’m not even sure if I have one? So uh maybe I would change it? Idk lol. Or.. Does it mean I’d have to stop wearing black? Does it mean I’d have to wear pink? If yes, I’ll just wear really dark blue or dark grey (genius me) , heck I want that money #priortiesareset. 10. If you could change your name which name would you pick? Hm, probs a greek name lol. Let’s see… Asteria (star(s), Astra (from the stars), Eleftheria (freedom), Candace (fire white)… 11. What were you doing before you started replying this meme thingy? Uh, a mix of sorting stuff out and chatting and maybe having break down (what an end to this post xDD) My quesstiionns: 1. If you could be an animal, which would you be? 2. Would you rather live in the past or in the future? 3. If you could choose to live in an other country, in which one would you like to live? 4. Have you a favourite language? Or one you would like to learn? 5. Favourite ice cream flavour? 6. Do you believe in horoscopes or nah? 7. How are you feeling today? (A little small talk hehe) 8. Beaches, mountains or city? 9. Favourite movie genre? 10. What are you thoughts on today’s society? 11. Can you easily open up to people? I don’t know if I have enough people to tag so uh, @skystar720 and @mymistakewriting if you guys maybe want to, the rest just feel tag if you want to

#tag game

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cbocstar · 5 years

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hiiii it’s me colly!

Hii it’s been a long while since I wrote out my thoughts on here. I just wanted to recollect and self reflect on some feelings i’ve been feeling lately. SO it all started in march when I noticed I was beginning to feel more of myself again. Like I just felt more of me. Like the sadness is yeah its still there and the betrayal i felt from craig is always going to be there i think. And the trauma and the anger I have for him of what he did to me and put me through will always be there. But I found myself finally feeling like ready? Ready to take a leap of faith and get myself back out there into the dating pool/pond. AND LET ME TELL YOU!!! It is so fucking exhausting. I hate the swiping. And I hate feeling writing my bio to the point where I feel like i’m selling a pitch to shark tank. LIKE SEELLLING MYSELF AND MY QUALITIES of what makes ME special or what someone will get out of when they date me. LOL idk it’s so hard. I think that’s another thing I need to work on. Loving myself. And taking ownership on yes I am weird, yes I am shy. But yes I am awesome and I am beautiful. It just takes time to see that. Anyway I was losing hope on these datin g apps when i would get bomboarded with dudes asking me questions on if I live at home, or if i live alone. And it made me self conscious like. Is it bad that I live at home with my mom? It’s so expensive to move out. Like I cant even afford living in the bay area if i did try and move out and find a roomie. LOL. I guess i feel ashamed, because of that. And whenever I would match with someone they would either unmatch themselves right away after i message them. or they just never replied. So it was kinda frustrating i guess. Like whats the point? Anyway my school friend and my brother suggested me to try out the dating app of Meetme. And LOL i was skeptical because of the amount of messages I would receive the first time I downloaded it. And So i tried it again. And I just got sooooooo many messages from dudes. And the ages just ranged from 18-21; 40-60 year olds. And It just made my stomach sink. I just I cant see myself dating someone that’s 40 and me being 27. Idk I just I cant. ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE MESSAGING ME ASKING IF I WOULD LIKE TO TRY OUT LIMP DICK LMFAO?! HELLO? WHAT LOL or if i would like to be their substitution to viagra. creeper bye. And so it just made me really freaked out. And then at this time Steven messaged me and I was just cautious. But he made me laugh and he was the only one that was close to my age. So I felt like that was fine. But the overwhelming messages from 40-60 year olds creeping on my profile and asking me if i wanted to lick them or if i was interested in finding a daddy. Just I couldnt. So I decided to just delete my photos because ya girl just was creeped out at that point. And steven then messaged and asked me if I was quitting because he noticed I was removing my photos and i just explained to him and he was just really shocked. And i asked him if he ever experienced that on his end and he just said no. So I was just like LUCKY DUCK. Anyway, we talked more on the app of meetme messages. He made me laugh. I thought he was pretty charming and cute as well. He has a list of interests that is sooooo different from me which made me feel very insecure or uneasy. I’m not active and I have had bad experiences of camping and outdoors but I am always willing to try new things. And I feel like I just couldnt do long distance anymore. especially after the abuse I went through with craig and phillip. I just I can’t do that anymore. I need someone here for me physically. And steven is literally a few miles away so i was glad. SO we do have a shared interest which is anime c: and cute animals and food and books and gaming. And he asked me out on a date to go to Dave n Busters.

SO GUESS WHAT ya girl went to dave n busters. that was the first date. met him upstairs. I awkwardly walked over and gave him a hug while I shivered and we played a lot of games together. Then we had cheeese BURGERSS. There he let me have some of his beer which I took a few sips didnt enjoy it though. LOL and He just laughed. Then he mentioned about how there’s sea glass on the beach and how he wanted to show it to me. And I was just like uh i guess? I just have to be back at this time to get picked up. And he’s just like oh we will have time dont worry. SO I WENT IN HIS CAR (and my friend has shamed me for it lol saying how stupid i was to go in his car lol on the first date and how lucky i am to be alive and not killed and stuff) And I dont know It just didnt register in my head until I got to the beach so i did send my location to my best friend. so she knew where I was. even tho my girl is in texas and im in california LOl. so when we got to the beach we actually picked up sea glass and it just it felt like a movie. or something I read in books. It was soft and slow and I just felt safe. And we just huddled together as the wind pushed us together. And I asked to hold his hand and he just laughed exasperated and was like “OHMYGOD U DONT HAVE TO ASK just hold my hand its fine” and yeah so i got to hold his hand. After the date we talked on the phone and it just nice. Second date: Steven took me to the science museum playground for kids. It was so much fun we saw cute animals and interacted with the science experiments. There was a lot of sequin textures sensorys and it just was so nice. LOL he drew a lit hand sign while i tried to make an xD face, but failed. Then we were hungry so he took me to have poke (IT WAS MY FIRST TIME LOL) and it was delicious but i was kinda hungry still. After he took me to this old bookstore and we roamed the aisle looking at different books. Then he took me to his place where we shared our first kiss. I was really shy and scared but we took things slow and sat on his bed and cuddled. He was really upset when he found out that I never cuddled before. I didn't understand why he was upset but he just told me he felt sad that I never had that intimate connection. And at first I was bored but towards the last hour I felt really cozy and it just felt nice, the way his hands wrapped around my waist. I did get aroused which kinda freaked me out because I never really felt that sensation before. LOL so it made me really anxious. LIKE CALM DOWN COLLEENY. Third date: We did some shopping at TarzHay (target) lolol and daiso together. it felt nice. Then we went back to his place to have dinner. He shared his dinner with me and it was really good and after we cuddled and kissed and watched youtube videos together. And it just was really romantic. Fourth date: Went to a movie on a work night. we saw The saga of tanya the evil. And it was fun watching anime with him. And I was just soo shy i didnt hold his hand I just we just focused watching the movie together and enjoying each others company. Fifth date: went to fanime (anime convention) for the FIRST TIMEEE last saturday ( may 25, 2019) i met up with him there! I cosplayed as kiki from kiki’s delivery service. it was fun! So he was playing ddr well competing in the tournament. for a lil 3 hours ish. After we went to get something to drink so he bought me a drink...it was sweet but somewhat bitter but i did enjoy the sugar that was decorated coated around the rim of the glass. And i got hyper ish LOL And steven just laughed. But i let him finish it for me because I couldnt. Then we went to go walk to get food. in line there was a guy talking to him. And the guy asked us what we were and if we been here bfore. and steven said it was his first time not being alone. and i said it was my first time. and then I just stuttered and got shy because we havent discussed what we were to each other. Like we just only talked about us liking each other a lot. And how we both enjoyed each others company. So I replied with “we dd-d-d--dateing? We on a d ate. we dating. date. uh yeh uh” and then steven wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me in close to him and added “ yeah we are going steady.” AND OOOOOOO I BLUSHED SO HARDDDDDDDD. aaaa still blushing LOL Anyway lol food was delcious. i had a bento curry chicken box. Then we sat down and rested our feet in the hall and he took a nap on my thigh lol. it was cute and i just scratched his forehead bc i was too scare to scratch his head LOL. and then we watched the season 3 of attack on titan together and he held my hand and my arm and it just felt nice. I curled up against him and we just enjoyed watching 5 episodes together. Sixth date: today saturday june 1, 2019 is gonna be the sixth date. sooooo ILL JUST KEEP U POSTED On what we are gonna do. loool time for bed

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More Life

More Life. It’s been a while since I recap, and idk how much detail I will go in when writing this. Since, I’m kinda lazy, but I do wanna recap everything as well.

Friday, my first day back home for Spring Break! On Thursday, it was my last day of finals. But I wasn’t too stressed on Thursday tho, since it was an easy Greek Myth final. I could have went home on Thursday, but idk I was kinda sleep deprived after studying so hard for Wednesday final. I also wanted one last day to hang out with my friends, and I recall having a nice dinner with Brent, Brooke, and Elizabeth! Oh also playing some Sm4sh with Brent, since he finished with his finals on Thursday too. I actually saw Kai for the first time in like 2 months that day too LOL, since she had a Greek Myth final with me. I actually haven’t seen her in a long time, since she pretty much just stays at her bf’s place. But anyways, on Friday morning, I woke up early and packed for spring break! I was on my way home and texted Fyona that I was on my way home. She told me that she had a shoot around 3ish at Huntington Beach Pier, and asked me to come along. I asked who it was, and she linked me her instagram. I was like ehh sure why not, nothing better to do. So I picked up Fyona once I arrived in the OC area, she treated me to Raising Canes (which was really sweet), and then we went to Ikea for a quick ice cream run lol. Then we met up with Ali (model) at Huntington Beach Pier, and we shot. She was Laos, which is pretty rare uh ethnicity. I have a cousin that is half Laos and half Vietnamese haha, and him + his Laos mom + sister are really tan. So I was surprised Ali was so light skinned. Anyways, she goes to UCI and was fairly talkative/nice to work with! She was friendly and I’d work with her again in the future given the chance. I think I ended up dropping Fyona home after the shoot, and I’m not quite sure what I did Friday night tbh... Friday was a while back and became kinda a blur ;-;.. This is what I get for not posting about my recaps earlier.

Saturday was a pretty fun day. Since it was BEYOND!! I woke up and hung out with Catherine, if I recalled correctly. Haven’t seen her in a while, so we grabbed lunch together. I don’t remember what we got for lunch :I ugh, I legit can’t remember ;-; I feel bad when my memory lets me down. But yeah, I recall having a good time catching up with her, and I believed I said hi to her grandma when picking her up. Catherine told me her family misses me lolol, and I think it’s cute! Idk ;-; I think I’m not too bad with parents, but apparently Stefanie’s parents didn’t like me that much, and my first gf (well technically Kristy is first real gf, but 6th grade ‘gf’ Jennifer)’s parents didn’t like me and thought I was very spoiled boy since picky eater. So idk, I really I guess appreciate it being liked by parents :D I remember Kristy’s parents (her mom especially) liked me ;-;!! OH wait, checked google maps history and remember now LOL. We went to yard house, since she wanted to go there, and went to the Irvine Spectrum one. It was nice, we walked around, and yeah! Then after dropping her off, I grabbed the stuff that I packed for beyond, and headed to Redlands! I remember The Heirs kdrama shot at University of Redlands for Lee Min Ho’s campus haha. I arrived to the Airbnb at like 4:30 PMish, and it was pretty cute! It had enough beds + softbed for everyone (all 8 of us). Chloe was already there and Arthur. Kris (Rebecca’s bf and Arthur’s hs friend) arrived a bit after, then Bryan came, then Amanda(Rebecca’s HS friend), then Rebecca and Amy arrived. Originally group was just Rebecca, Amy, Chloe, Bryan, and me, but grew to include Kris, Arthur, and Amanda. Amanda, Kris, and Arthur seemed pretty nice and talked to them a bit. Then the boys pregamed while the girls were getting ready... They ended up taking over 2 HOURS to get ready holy jesus. Bryan and I were getting pretty tilted, since Beyond starts at 5, and some of the good acts were at like 6:45, but it’s like 7ish and they were still doing makeup... ._. Bryan and I were even considering just calling an uber by ourselves and get there asap first. But yeah, the girls finished, and we all pregamed a bit. I only took 3 shots, since Bryan and I were gonna roll O_O... I was gonna roll for my first time, and it feels like idk I’m a bad boy now :( but I’m a good sweet boy deep down maybe, I don’t smoke, rarely drink, and yeah... Idk how I got convinced, but Bryan was very convincing. He didn’t drink too much either, since we were gonna roll. We were gonna split half a pill each :O Anyways, ended up calling the uber and finally arrived around like 8ish lol... But got inside fairly quickly, Bryan and I bought water and split the pill to take it. Then we all as a big 8 person group went inside Queen’s Domain and listened to Ookay. Chloe was dancing with Arthur, Rebecca was dancing with Kris. While Amanda, Amy, Bryan, and I were just dancing to the music. Bryan and I slowly tried to shift away to uhh dance with scandalously dressed broads, but Chloe sees us kinda far away and drags us back to the group LOL and goes, ‘omg u guys are so far!’ T_T she did this 3x more LOL... Eventually they took a break to go to the rest room, and Bryan and I ditched. We had a good time dancing on our own, talked/interacted with strangers that were rolling too, and eventually the pill hit me like 45-1 hour later. Which is PRETTY late O_O apparently, since it generally hits ppl 30 mins in. I guess the way I could describe it is, you’re essentially sober tbh. It’s even hard to tell maybe. Like you’re not drunk or feel drunk, you have perfect hand-eye coordination, your not hallucinating or anything, you’re just happy? Like idk it’s like similar to being hyper or happy while being drunk, but yeah you’re just happy and can appreciate the shitty music (if shitty music is playing) and willing to dance to it. My feet NEVER got sore tho :O like normally I get tired and have to sit down occasionally. But idk I guess either the pill or adrenaline or idk, but my feet never got tired and I pretty much could go without ever taking a break! Crazy~ Ended up meeting some dude from SLO actually. Some Asian guy lost his group of friends, and we helped him find his group of friends. Then we dance with his group of friends, and they were nice and from SLO, and the dude lived in Rowland Heights and surprisingly knew my friend Harrison Tan! Kinda cool befriending random strangers even if it’s just for the night. I was supposed to meet up with my model friend Cindy or my HS friend Dana, but the phone reception was so bad lol... Dana’s text on where to meet up legit arrived THE NEXT DAY... Omg... I just thought she was too busy to reply lol~ Then Bryan and I met up with his group of HS friends that were there, and danced/hung out with them. Nice guys/girls! :) Stuck with them until the end of the night where Snails closed around 2 AM. Then Bryan and I met up with our group haha finally at the end of the rave. Turns out Rebecca and Chloe ended up rolling for the first time too, I think they got convinced by the guys. Uhm, then took forever to get an uber, since everyone was calling one -.- and the rates were insane legit $50 surge, when the price is originally $12. Got back to the airbnb around 4, and I knocked out in the bed.

Sunday, I slept alright and ended up waking up almost first amongst everyone at like 9:30 AM. Got changed and got ready to go, once everyone was up and ready, since check out was at 12. Bryan and I decided to get lunch together before we split off. Since he needed to head to thousand oaks, and I need to head back to the oc area. We got a nice lunch together, talked about how we both had a good time at Beyond, and wished each other a nice spring break! So I drove home and got back around 2ish I believe. I showered and changed, then chilled for a bit. I had plans to hang out with Catherine again after she finishes work at 3:30 PM. So I stopped to harass her at Icey Cream Roll (dumb name lol) which is a new ice cream place in the plaza next to my house. Came by to visit her and snapchat harass her, and she made me free ice cream ;-; and gave it to me so sweet. She didn’t eat lunch and wanted olive garden lol, so I took her there. I ate again T_T sigh two lunches omg... Since idk this is how I gain back weight I GUESS, but I didn’t want to make it awkward if she just eats lol. But yeah, ate again at Olive Garden, and when we were paying she tried to take out her card. But she couldn’t find it, so she wondered if she forgot it while paying at Yard House the other day with me, since she didn’t use her card since then. She calls yard house, but they said they haven’t seen it but will call back if they do. We drive to her house, I saw her grandma and mom, and said hi and they asked me idk smalltalk questions like oh am I home for spring break/etc, and yeah! She ended up finding her credit card in her bag at home, and she was very relieved. Then we headed out to Huntington Beach Pier to shoot, since she wanted to shoot with me. I obliged, since idk and we shot for fun, then she stopped by forever 21 to buy some clothes. She found clothes she liked and went to buy it, but she was like O_O where’s my wallet, and checked her pockets. So she assumed she left it in my car, and I was like oh my this catherine. I was a nice guy and just used my debit card and took the $70 transaction on my card ;-;. Then the wallet was not in my car at all lol... So we drove back to her house, and it turns out she left wallet at her house lol... Then I just chilled at her place, we watched Iron Fist first episode together, and her mom offered me dinner but I was way too full after the two lunches... After the first Iron Fist episode, it was getting late like 8-9ish idr, so went home chilled and passed out! I had plans to hang out with Hope the next day and Catherine told me to have fun~

Then Monday, was a day where I hung out with Hope!! I haven’t seen Hope in a long time and it was cool to finally hang with her. She wanted to shoot together in the morning, since she had a b-day party or something later in the day :( so I had to wake up early... T_T So we got chick-fil-a together since she suggested it and she actually treated me :D I was like waow friend so nice!! What did I do to deserve this LOL. Fyona asked me what I was doing today, and I told her I was shooting with Hope, and she wanted to come along. Fyona and Hope shot together before, and they’re kinda friends probably haha. I asked Hope if it was okay, and Hope was down since she likes Fyona and the more the merrier. So we picked up Fyona, since she lives near chick-fil-a too, and then headed to Newport Beach’ beach. I haven’t been to this beach in a pretty long time tbh, I mostly go to Huntington Beach pier or something. But I remember it was a fairly nice beach and I was right. I drove all of us, parked, and we tried to shoot around. It was really sunny, since we’re freaking shooting at like noonish or 1 PM if I recall correctly! So had to shoot in the shade, but I think photos came out okie :) despite the sun. Idk, I swear I always end up shooting at like non-golden hour times lolol.. When I ideally only want to shoot at golden hour ;-; I guess shooting at like 6 PM (since sunset 7:11 PM or something nowadays) isn’t convenient for most ppl :P Fyona didn’t model or anything as well, she kinda just tagged along and talked to Hope/me and it was fun. Since Fyona is really talkative and yeah~ We stopped by a boba place nearby for a break and I got a drink there, and the Thai Tea was actually super good surprisingly o.o... I pretty much only get Thai Tea or regular milk tea or iced/snow milk tea from places (sometimes Taro too I guess rarely tho), and the Thai Tea was pretty good! Was much surprised :O I generally expect idk not much from places that I don’t hear too much about haha. Anyways, after shooting together and talking, I drove back to my house, and Hope headed out afterwards to her friend’s b-day party. Fyona was still chilling and didn’t really have plans, but I actually had plans! I had plans with Jennifer (goes by Peach nowadays lol), who is an old HS friend and actually my good friend Kristy’s ex. I know I shouldn’t be friends with her, since Peach kinda wronged Kristy one of my close friends :( but idk... Peach has been really nice to me kinda like always, and idk... I guess it’s like yeah, I wasn’t dating Peach so technically she never did anything that should make me stop being friends with her. But I’m way closer with Kristy and she did wronged my friend by cheating on her. Idk, weird situation uhh idk Kristy happy nowadays with Jessica for over a year now, and they broke up maybe 2 almost 3 years ago. So maybe it’s okay? Idk. Haven’t really thought too much about whether it’s right to be friends with Peach or not, since maybe I should be taking a side or maybe I shouldn’t or maybe morally I shouldn’t be friends with someone who INCREDIBLY wronged my close friend even if I was never told to pick a side? SOOOO enough of that. Peach goes to UCSC nowadays and was actually in the oc area with two of her UCSC friends (one is her future bf - currently seeing him & other is her best friend at UCSC) and the 3rd person she’s with is her UCSC best friend sister. I think the names are Eric for future bf, Jen for her best friend, & Kathy for Jen’s sister. Fyona came along, since she had no other plans, and Peach said okie! We met up with them all at south coast plaza, Jen and her sister Kathy went to go shopping around south coast. Eric, Jen, and Kathy are all from NorCal and it’s basically a cool vaca for them in the oc area haha, so shopping understandable. Eric, Peach, Fyona, and I all split off from them for a bit to idk talk and hang out. We sat at some paris restaurant not to eat, but for fyona to eat. Then I talked to Eric and we REALLY hit it off. He saw me spinning the fork like idk casually, and was like wtf do u know pen spinning. I was like yeah, I learned it a long time ago haha, then we talked about modded pens, tricks we knew, and yeah. He’s into photography, so I started idk teaching him a lot about photography, we talked about hobbies, and games. He thinks I’m super cool, since idk I have a lot of ‘cool’ hobbies apparently, and Peach hypes me up to the whole group apparently :O I was like woah, I didn’t know Peach found me so cool, and she told them I’m pretty talkative lol, which is fairly true if I don’t see ppl in a while or still at the small talk level. Since I have a bunch of interests to potentially share with ppl. So Eric and I talked about raves, school, how he met peach, music, games, lots about photography, a bit on pen spinning, how I got into fashion/fragrances (cologne)/photography, and yeah. Then Fyona split off, since she got picked up by one of her friends to hang out. Eric, Peach, and I joined up with Jen and Kathy again. We headed to the lab, which is nearby south coast plaza where the honey & butter truck used to be! At the lab, Jen and Kathy split up again to go shopping even tho not much to shop. While Eric, Peach, and I started shooting. Peach was nice enough to model for us and I basically taught Eric a lot of what I know about photography. I taught him about compositions, a lot about how to pose, how to shoot backlit, framing, how I like to shoot, and etc. I have to teach him about editing another time. But I pretty much taught him a lot of technical stuff like focusing on eyes, etc etc etc! So he’s getting pretty good by the end of it and REALLY appreciated the idk free teaching. Since I really really went indepth and he liked how I posed Peach, and etc. It was almost 7 and they were gonna go eat at Kitakata where Peach and Kristy used to work. I was thinking about joining them, but uhh I had other plans... But before I left, it turns out Kathy goes to UCSB, while everyone else goes to UCSC. It turns out she’s a 1st year bio major waow, so I gave her advice on teachers and kinda how classes are like and etc, she really appreciated it. She noticed that I was wear common project shoes, so I was like wow ;O how she know! Her sister was like, uhh is that a brand new or something?? Then Kathy was like uhh yeahhh! Then Peach was like yeah Theo is kinda balling. I was like ;-; friends I’m not balling (in my head ofc). But Kathy gets brownie points for going to ucsb and being a bio major! She will uh come into play in Saturday’s story lol... So at night my plans were to dick down this random broad... Uhm do not want to expand on this, since not necessarily trying to remember this event. But dang o.o girl got attached really quick what theeeee. Uhm, it didn’t feel very good tbh :l idk even kissing was like ehh... It wasn’t like she was a bad kisser or anything, just idk everything felt kinda meh even putting it in. Like I didn’t really feel anything? Idk if it’s just her or what, but I guess it just didn’t feel very good. I guess I’ve just been a relationship person generally and this kinda just helps remind me that, I really don’t like doing these things with people I don’t at least really like, and even if I’m horny I should remember that lol... But yeah, one night stand basically, and I guess it was the first time I did anything with another girl, since freaking August O_O... Well I had a long period of being a good boy and trying to be happy single and move on. But yeah, I don’t think I’ll be dicking down any girls again anytime soon, unless I’m dating them. Since it really isn’t that enjoyable :( from kissing to everything... There’s just something a lot more idk great about looking at the girl, knowing you really really love her, kiss her, exchange ilys, the intimacy and everything is what makes sex feels good at least for me. Also knowing you can cuddle with her after given the chance and idk, I think casual sex is just not for me. :( It may seem idk kinda cool in the moment, but yeah... Anyways, uhh after that, went home played games, and never talking to that girl again :D even tho she wanted to plan another day, like uhh no!!

The next day was a very interesting day, since it’s the day that I met up with Kristy. Kristy was my ‘real’ girlfriend essentially. She was my first kiss, my first lots of things, and yeah. We broke up my senior year kinda mutually, but I initiated it. At the time, she was idk maybe in love with me (who knows really), but wasn’t necessarily putting in that much effort anymore, and wasn’t too into being in a serious relationship anymore. I guess she was a sophomore in college and wanted to idk date around and etc, which is understandable. But I guess I didn’t see a point in continuing in the relationship, if she felt that way and wasn’t going to put some effort into the relationship since it would be unfair for me, who was. But we didn’t end over a fight or anything, we kept each other on social media/etc, just didn’t talk for like actually 4 months or so? By then, she had a new bf, I moved on and was happy, and we even became friends again after that. I think we generally continued to be friends from there, but maybe drifted away somewhere between when I was going to start college at UCSB, and she started UCI. I mean we were friends, but just didn’t talk that much around that time, I guess life just got busy. I do remember the first time we hung out tho, after breaking up. It was pretty interesting actually. I think we met up at a mall, I’d like to think it was round 1 mall in city of industry (?), and I remember one of the first initial thoughts after seeing her again post-breakup was, “o.o i’ve seen this girl completely naked before” lol... Yeah, I didn’t imagine her naked or anything, but it was just like a really dumb and random first thought haha... Following that day, I think we still hung out a couple times following that, I even recall helping her move into her apartment in Irvine with her mom one time, and she treated me to yardhouse afterwards. I think she even slept over once at my house, but in a diff room, and we were already broken up. She actually never slept over when were together!!! How wasted in a way or like uhh, I think I was thinking at the time, wowow this would be a lot more lit if we were dating lol. But ofc, feelings were gone by then, and yeah. Eventually Kristy and I got into a random dumb argument and stopped talking. Then she messaged me (kinda like after the breakup actually a long time ago) and said hi, and then we reconnected again. Anyways, met up with her at raising canes, where she’s never been before. Seeing her again for the first time in a year, she honestly generally look the same. It was fun catching up with her on the past year of our lives, and yeah. She told me about her crazy ex-bf and then her new dude that she’s seeing, life after graduating from UCI, hobbies, and we talked about life, future, idk plans in general, and etc etc. It was fun, we went to South Coast Plaza, walked around, talked about fashion a bit, and then bid each other goodbye. She said that we should hang out again before I leave, and I agreed. At night, I met up with my friend Jia for the movies! Jia texted me asking if I wanted to watch a movie with her and I agreed. She picked me up and I really appreciated it, since she’s pretty much the only friend of mine that actually drives me lol... I always drive other people, so it’s nice to be driven! Talked to her about beyond, rolling for first time, what’s new from the last time I saw her which was prob like a 3 day weekend not too long ago, and then we headed to Bella Terra to watch beauty and the beast. But the seats were pretty much all taken!! wowow lame. So we drove to irvine spectrum, which has this lit VIP seating thing nowadays. Where they deliver food/drinks during the movie to you and having those cool reclining chairs haha. We ate at the melt, since the movie started late at like 9 for the VIP tickets, and the melt was pretty good tbh! Good choice by Jia! I ate it before at an la mall food court, but it was pretty bad there... But it was soliddd at irvine spectrum tho! Anyways, movie began and took a bunch of snaps, since it was kinda cool. We got alcohol delivered (since jia has her cousin’s ID) and cake delivered during the movie, and had a good time watching Beauty and The Beast. It was a good movie! I kinda want to go on a date in the future and use the irvine spectrum vip movie whatever :) would be cool to chill with a date with reclining seats and have food delivered during the movie! Anyways, it was like 12 by the time the movie ended, said goodbye to Jia, it was fun and she dropped me off at home.

It was really funny tho, since I snapchat all my friends who I’ve been hanging out with over break, and I would get snaps from ucsb friends saying wowow your friends are so pretty. Like Amandi, Chloe, Kristy (ex, I guess not UCSB friend in this case) would be like wow ur friends are so pretty! I’d show my friend that I’m with what they snap chat me, and they’re like haha thanks. Idk, I guess I’ve only really hung out with female friends generally this break o.o... They just happen to be female and apparently cute. But I wasn’t hitting on any of them.. Chloe was like, damnn Theo get at those cute girls, I see youuu. But I’m not tho D: Fyona is prob one of my best friends, Catherine uhh no more with that, Hope has a bf, Jia one of my oldest friend and no, Peach uhh can’t since Kristy’s ex and she has dude, and idk if I’m forgetting anyone else. But yeahhh~ Had to explain to Chloe that they generally have bfs LOL. They’re just my good friends :) I think it’s funny tho that ppl think that I have cute friends and that I should get at them.

Anyways, Wednesday was a fairly chill day. My dad brought me lunch, we went to get my car I guess get an estimate on how much it’ll cost to polished the car to return since lease running out, then had a nice dinner out with mom and dad! I did talk to my dad and mom about my future, and they really believe in me still with becoming a doctor, but we also discussed other potential options for grad school too. Idk I feel bad when they really believe in me, and I feel like I’m letting them down sometimes if I’m not acing all my classes with solid As or something... Since I want to :( and my parents do work really hard to put me in school, make sure I’m living well and eating well, and do try to make sure I’m happy... So I want to be happy, successful, and live well for them, and take care of them when I get older.. But yeah, maybe more on that another time.

On Thursday, I was pretty bored in the morning. Fyona asked if she could come over and chill a bit, before her friend Pdiddy comes to pick her up and take her to pick up her wallet that she left in some photographer’s car. So I guess it was kinda cool just talking to her. My dad think she’s pretty and polite, and I should go after her LOL... I asked Catherine, if she wanted to grab lunch and hang, and she was down. But I did warn her that my dad was making me go car shopping. My dad said it should only take like 45 mins-1 hour, so I told Catherine that. I picked up Catherine, and then we headed over to my house. Uhh, she met my dad, and I explained to my dad how I oddly spend a lot of time with another vietnamese family (catherine’s family) nearby LOL. He was like wut, and I was like ye, they live like 2 blocks down. Anyways, uhm, got to the car dealership, and this was an adventure... But basically, dad was super cancerous with negotiation. I thought he was wasting our time and it seemed like that. Catherine and I was legit waiting 4-5 hours straight while my dad annoying negotiate for the car lease. Eventually he won, and he got pretty much the lowest price ever for the car lease (the finance dude even said so, he was like wtf this is a crazy good deal, and the finance dude wasn’t in the negotiations at all just saw price). Catherine was uhh fairly annoyed, since she was like 45 mins right Theo. I was like ;-;!! I treated her to cafe maji and uh ice cream, so it was okie! She wasn’t that mad or anything :3 at least I don’t think so lol.

Friday - On Friday, I was gonna accompany Hope to a shoot with some random photographer that wanted to shoot Hope. But right when I got to Hope’s house around 4, the shoot got canceled last minute since idk photographer had a family emergency. So we called up Catherine and it turns out she was at uh the Santa Ana Mall, where round 1 is. So Hope and I met up with her, but Catherine was with her mom and shopping. We hung out with Catherine and her mom for a bit. Catherine tried to leave with us/hang with us, but she had to do lots of important shopping with mom, since Catherine was leaving on Sunday to New York for a week. So I played DDR with Hope and it was fun, and a rhythm game at round 1. Then I dropped her off, and headed to hang out with Dana. I met up with Dana at Santa Ana 4th street market, and we got food and talked/caught up. She wanted to hang out, since she thought about starting a blog/instagram/etc, since she was going to transfer to SDSU. So I gave her tips about hashtags, etc etc etc. Then she wanted to head to the Artic to take a nice shot. She didn’t want photos of her, but she was kinda interested in learning photography haha. So I spent like legit 1-2 hours of just talking and teaching her photography. Stuff from aperture, shutter speed, settings, iso, composition, lenses, etc etc the essential basics. She really appreciated it and learned a lot! She doesn’t know if she’ll invest in a nice camera any time soon, but she really appreciated the composition tips! So basically over spring break, I taught 2 ppl photography lol :3 But yeah, it feels good idk teaching and sharing my knowledge. I always kinda want like an apprentice, where I could just dump all my sick knowledge of fashion/photography/etc haha. Anyways, fun night hanging out with friends like Hope/Catherine, and old friends.

Saturday - On Saturday, it was a busy busy day. I basically woke up at 8 am and went over to pick up Catherine. Since there was this sick warehouse sale where shoes are like $5, $10, $15, and $20 and the sale starts at 9 AM in Chino Hills. Chino Hills is like 45 mins away, but I drove and accompanied Catherine for the shoe sale, since I owed her after she waited 4-5 hours for my car shopping lol. We got there, the line was crazy long, waited 1 hour just to get in, and then Catherine only bought 3 pairs of shoes. This is actually not that many pairs, since other girls were buying like 7-10 pairs, since some shoes are just $5 or $10! But uh, carried her bags, and kinda just stood in hot sun for like a couple hours. Then we ate, and head back to our respective houses. Then at like 5, we met up with some photographer name Anthony Kwon to shoot in Laguna Beach. We actually shot at the beach, and I haven’t shot at laguna beach’s actual beach yet. It was really sunny, so it was kinda hard for me to take my shots. Anthony Kwon was a really nice dude, and apparently he does photography for a living. He’s a wedding photographer and apparently works for one of the biggest wedding photography agency or whatever. This was a bit surprising tbh, since uhh I don’t think he’s that good of a photographer based on his portfolio haha... But he does use uhm strobes and external flash and reflectors/etc. But the problem is, I think he doesn’t know how to use them well. Since using flash poorly gives a really idk bad look, but if you can use it well then you can get some really dramatic shots. Idk, I just prefer natural light, since it does take some skill to use natural light well. But I generally don’t like the look of flash, unless someone is especially skilled with it, or it’s like some studio shot. But yeah, shooting with Catherine and Anthony was fun, it was getting late like 7-8ish, so I head home and ate with family. Then I rested a bit, and Kristy was bored and fb messaged me that she was craving pho. I already ate dinner, so I wasn’t gonna eat with her, but I told her that I’d join her and order like Thai Tea or something, if she wants to get pho nearby me lol. She did want to, and at like 12:45 we met up at a pho place near my house. She said the pho was okay, and I just ordered a drink. We talked and it was kinda fun to talk to her more. I told her how I got into like chinese novels, and she was like ooh recommend me some, and I’ll check them out. I was like woah, nobody ever takes the initiate to idk try reading them after I mention about it. Then it kinda remind me back when I used to date her a long time ago. She was also fairly down to get into my hobbies/interests and I was down to get into hers. I got into tumblr more because of her, she got into reddit and began to actively use it. I got into watching the walking dead and dynstopian novels, well I didn’t really get into them, but I tried them at least for her. She was also into knitting/sewing, which I didn’t get into but appreciated lol. I think she got into some mangas cause of me back then and some other hobby. But I just think it’s cool when ppl are open minded and tries chino hills shoe shopping with catherine, then shoot at laguna beach and met anthony kwon, and then met up with kristy 1st gf at night just now for midnight pho run lol, how she was down to read wuxia novels, how it’s cool and how I previously liked in our relationship how she would get into my hobbies and I get into hers. Okay, I don’t want to make it sound like I’m interested in Kristy or anything lmao. Feelings are long gone, I just think it’s cool like oh hey, she still has this characteristic that I really appreciated about her back then. But yeah, recommend her stuff, and she suggested getting roasting waters with her and this dude she’s seeing before I head off to SB the next day.

Sunday - I met up with Steven and Kristy the next day around noon, we got roasting waters, then ate at mcdonalds together haha. Steven was a nice dude, pretty interesting. He does magic tricks and they were pretty cool~ Then, I headed off back to SB, unpacked, and etc then passed out!

That was pretty much my Spring Break :D

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surveysbygracelynn · 8 years

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What do you want for your birthday? I’d love for my own apartment to fall into my lap by then.

What’s your favorite flavor of tea? Chamomile is fun to drink.

What’s your favorite fall drink? Salted caramel mocha / hot chocolate!

What’re you going to be for Halloween? Idk. my past few halloween costumes have been A+ so I kinda have to step up my game.

Do you think you’ve learned a lot and grown a lot in the past year? Uh... I’ve probably grown.

Are you satisfied with how you’ve spent your year? I guess. Some days were better than others.

What’s something you’ve learned lately? I mean, I’ve kind of always believed this but everything happens for a reason.

Do you have a lot of friends? I don’t really socialize with a lot of people regularly but I have a lot of people I could potentially reach out too.

Do you own a yellow scarf? No.

Do you own brown shoes? Also no.

Do you own anything leopard print? Hmm. Not sure.

Will you buy a cake for your next birthday? I don’t really like cake so probably not

Are you counting down the days until your birthday right now? Nah.

Are you excited for something currently? My next day off. LOL.

If you could change just one thing about your life right now, what would it be? I wish that Brandon could be here.

What’s your favorite color? I like purple.

Have you ever been to a school dance? Kinda, but no.

Do you make a list of goals at the beginning of each week? Nope but that would be something lol

Are you artistic? Not really.

When was that last time you drew a picture in a sketchbook? A while ago

Is there a tree right outside your bedroom window? Yes.

Is it windy right now where you are? Yes

Is it raining? It is.

What’s something about you that makes you different from everyone else? I don’t know. A lot of things I guess.

Do you dress the same way as your peers? I don’t really have peers, but my friends my age, yeah.

Do you talk the same way as your peers? Not really.

Do you have the same life goals as your friends? I think so.

Are you having a good day? Eh. I mean, it started off blah. I was kind of annoyed my boss caught up to me with work. But I took a longer lunch and I felt a bit better after that.

Is your hair red? Nope.

Do you like brownies? Yes.

Have you ever dressed up as a witch on Halloween? I think I have but I really can’t remember.

What’s one color that you never wear because it doesn’t look good on you? I don’t know. I’ve been embracing more colors lately and so far all of them look ok.

Have you ever been to a masquerade? No.

Do you eat vegetables? I do.

Do you wear leggings? Yes.

Is there anybody you think is hot over the age of 40? Stephen Colbert.

Who is the most inappropriate person you know? Probably Adam.

What year in your life do you think you were the least attractive? I mean, I guess middle school. Did anything bad happen to you in August? Uh... I think August was a pretty good month, actually. I went to Lake George for a full weekend. I saw my college friends.

Who in your phone has a heart after their name? I don’t think anybody does.

What was the last movie you watched? With who? I’m not sure, honestly.

Anything you’re avoiding? I guess doing search team stuff. And processing emotions. lolol

If you could have one thing right now what would it be? My own apartment, honestly.

If your parents searched your room, would they be angry at what they’d find? I don’t think so. Maybe if they looked in the books I’ve started writing emotions in.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Yes

Have you given somebody more second chances than you can count? Idk. I guess.

After breaking up, what’s the worst? Probably just wondering why they couldn’t be honest with you in the first place.

Do you think your last ex deserves to die? Nah.

Do any girls like the last guy you kissed? I don’t know. He’s pretty sweet, so I wouldn’t be surprised.

Are you happier now than you were three months ago? I’d say I’m a bit happier - my employment is more secure lol

Honestly, are things going the way you planned? Not at all. Lol but it’s alright.

Have you done anything sexual today? No.

Is there something you want to say to someone but can’t or won’t? Probably. lol

Do you have a second mom? Nope

Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? Nah. :P

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hellotvv · 8 years

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Can’t Assume Things About Ppl

Well, it’s been an interesting past two weeks. Something I learned though, is it’s crazy how you can’t really assume things about ppl.

It’s easier to say all that I want to say, and honestly it’s kinda tiring to recap it all in writing sometimes. But this is probably a pretty important lesson that I should keep in mind for the future.

Was fairly interested in Amandi and it seemed like she was kinda cool. Just kinda tho, since we didn’t really have that many similar hobbies. She works two jobs and works prettyyy often. So she seemed like a pretty hard working girl. She tries not to eat out too often as well, to save money. So yeah! She has nice friends like Chloe and Michelle, and they are pretty nice ppl. I know Chloe more personally obviously, and Chloe is honestly really nice. From stalking her fb photos, it seemed like she was kinda nerdy or had fairly nerdy friends in HS. Then in her ig, she has an eh looking ex bf, and he didn’t look like a fk boi or anything. She also doesn’t party too often, and seemed fairly nice from our interactions.

Turns out, oh boy do I not know her at all. Well, it makes sense, given that I’ve only known her for like 2 weeks LOL. But thankfully, Chloe sat down and talk to me. Essentially story went like this, been casually talking to her/flirting with her, and stuff. I was worried at first I seemed like a thirsty boy when asking her to hang and flexing my beanbag chair and tv that’s good for watching shows together. So I was like oh fk, gotta show off my nerdy side, so I don’t seem like a fk boi. Also I should just chill on it and only ask her to like idk eat or something normal, and she was super down. Also, since it seemed like she was a hardworking frugal girl that cares about idk how much she spends, I should try to not seem boujee or rich or spoiled or entitled idk. So I was gonna go on the in n out date, and then I told chloe about it, since she casually trying to wingman me. Then she tells me, ohh that was me? I was like ?? she told me that amandi told her that a dude that likes her is taking her to in n out. I was like ooh? I mean I knew she knew that I like her, since I told chloe that I thought she was cute and figured she would tell amandi ofc. But anyways, Chloe tells me she needs to tell me something important in person. I was like ??? wondering what it was, and she told me she had to tell me before going to in n out with Amandi. So I was like okie, i can meet u on campus in a bit. I did ask if it was another guy or something, but she told me no no. i was like ooh okie, I wonder what it could be.

So I met up with Chloe on campus, and oh boy would I have never really guessed the news. So Chloe is going to be Amandi’s housemate next year and are good friends with her. She said she fells bad about saying these things about Amandi, since it feels like she’s talking shit. But basically, she first asked me if I was gonna treat Amandi to in n out? I was like, uh yeah probably, just to seem like a nice guy you know. Then she was like ooh, she was expecting you to. I was like ??? I thought in my head, weird i didn’t specifically say it was a date or anything, and I was even potentially inviting chloe and michelle too. But I did think it seemed kinda entitled of her to think I would, but whatever I can brush it off. Jessica, Fyona and Brent immediately went wtf too, when I told them that she expected me to pay for her, and they were ilke but u didn’t even say it was a date when u first asked. Anyways, I asked chloe, oh was that the important thing u were gonna tell me? Then she was like oh no, and explains that Amandi has a history of like hanging out with dudes she doesn’t find out, since she knows they’re gonna treat her to like dinner or something. I was like wow O_O... Chloe explains that she doesn’’t know if it applies to me or not, and kinda flattered me a bit by saying that I’m good looking, but she doesn’t know if Amandi thinks I am as well and she doesn’t really know Amandi’s intentions. Then she tells me even more worst stuff about Amandi omg. :( I was so surprised, since idk Amandi didn’t seem like that type of girl. She explains that Amandi even once kinda put out, since this dude that she didn’t even like was gonna buy her a rave ticket/concert ticket. I was like holy fk.. O_O... She explains that Amandi once told her that her ideal guy is like a rich cantonese sugardaddy basically. I was like oh my,.. Then she explains that uh Amandi is the type that expects her bf to pay for everything. I was like damn, I totally don’t like that. Like I am the type to show that my SO means more than money and treat them out, never ask for gas $$, and spoil with small/big gifts depending on circumstances. But to EXPECT your SO to do those things is legit just entitlement and weird that it’s even an expectation lmao. Like I understand wanting your SO to do nice things once in a while or periodically show that hey they care about u more than $$ and etc idk, but to expect your SO to always pay for you/spoil you, then dang... I guess it kinda makes sense why she cares a lot about money, since it doesn’t seem like she wants to spend her own $$ and prob doesn’t mind spending other ppl $$. But I generally assume ppl who work two jobs are the type that idk value $$ but not in that way? Anyways, Chloe tells me that Amandi even didn’t pay one of their mutual friend for gas $$ when asked, and Chloe still upset about that since it’s her friend. But yeah, she was telling me that honestly the fact that idk I have a single room and seem kinda balling, is actually probably a turn on for Amandi lol... But Chloe just wanted me to know kinda what type of person Amandi is, so I know what I’m getting into. Chloe also explains that, she fells bad talking about her friend like this. But Chloe hears stories from Amandi obv about what she does to those dudes she doesn’t find cute and just kinda use them for dinner/etc etc since she knows they think she’s cute, and she obv doesn’t know them so she cant tell them. But she knows me, we’re friends, and going to beyond together in a big 8+ person group. So she just thought I should know. I was like wow, thanks for telling me, and I really appreciated it like honestly... I asked Chloe what I should do and if I should even take her to in n out still lmao. Chloe told me that I could and just not pay for her and see what happens lolol (brent and fyona also suggested this later funny), but Chloe says she doesn’t know what Amandi’s intentions are and maybe Amandi is genuinely interested. But she just thought I should know basically who Amandi is and doesn’t mind what I decide to do, it was just important that I know.

I guess the thing is, I was more surprised and shocked. Since I actually never met a girl that’s like that, that kinda just uses ppl shamelessly, and etc. Also, I never would have guessed honestly. Like I originally thought omg maybe i seemed thirsty for suggesting to watch shows together, when I really just wanted to watch shows and converse, not netflix and chill. So i tried to correct it, and I tried not to seem boujee and rich/entitled/spoiled/etc. But it turns out, I prob should be doing those things lol... and probably could easily get her to put out. But obviously, I wouldn’t do that, since that’s not me. Also I honestly wouldn’t really wanna be friends with a person like this, and definitely not dick them down if they’re a terrible person. I guess just shocked? Since it definitely seemed like she’s not that type of person based on idk friends (great sweet friends), seemed hardworking, and etc. But I guess you can’t really assume things about a person, and imagine I somehow dated her or even some other dude that dates her. Unless she or Chloe does tell the dude/me, I would have NEVER KNOWN. Like it’s crazy to think that a future gf that you love/cherish, could be someone that just using you for idk food/gifts/etc etc O_O... Like doesn’t she feel bad at all???? Maybe she justifies it somehow, but that’s so crazy and scary to think about.. Like I’d feel bad whoever opens their heart and become emotionally vulnerable and really care about her, only to maybe find out or even never find out she’s the type of girl that would literally put out for just concert tickets regardless if she finds them attractive or not... Like damn... I’m not even sad or anything over this, since I barely knew the girl for 2 weeks, and only thought she was kinda cute. I’m just surprised like I keep saying, since I’ve never really encountered this type of situation/person.

It just goes to show how many interactions with another person may just be in your head. Like I assumed oh seeming boujee/thirsty is bad, but ironically would have been good lmao. Maybe not good for dating, but I guess ‘getting’ the girl. Also it’s hard to assume what type of person someone is even based on the ppl they surround themselves with, her exes, fb photos, what they look like, and how diligent they seem.

Overall, not sad, very very surprised, learning not to assume things about ppl, and wonder how hard is it to really get to know someone then? o.o... Since really, like you could date this girl and probably never know unless one of her friends or her tell you... Kinda crazy and scary... I’ve learned some valuable lessons at least... Don’t assume things about ppl, try to be as objective as possible I guess and try to find out more about them from what other ppl say about them rather than what they tell you/how they seem on social media/etc (i guess pray their friends don’t lie for them too?), and it’s honestly better to just date by becoming friends, then best friends tbh.

I mean, everyone prefers their own way of dating. Like I’m sure some ppl don’t mind meeting their SO through like hitting on a girl at a party, going on a couple dates, and then blah blah end up together a while later. But I realized that I really prefer the friendship route, since I don’t have to worry about impressing someone, I’d be myself and if they like me for me, then yay and it wouldn’t be them liking me based on idk the mask/face/soley whatever good side I try to show them to impress them. Honestly I stay pretty true to myself even then, but still I like knowing that hey I’ve been friends with this person for a long time, they prob know a good amount about me, and genuinely somehow manage to have a crush on me/like me enough to want me to be a SO/romantically. Also chances are, if I approached Amandi as just a friend and not you know to hit on her, maybe in like months time I’d find out by her telling me or idk after being friendzone that she uses dudes LOL and I could be like whew dodge a bullet from being friends, and then idk. Idk where I was going with that, but kinda makes sense in head, but yeah she prob would still never tell another guy idk. God bless Chloe tho. But yeah, for me, friendship > dating seems best method generally. Many lessons learned, and surprised.

Will prob follow up with the conclusion to Amandi story. But she doesn’t know I know, and she still snapchats me/talks to me quite a bit, and even asked me when are we going to in n out lol today... Lol. Still want to reexplain, regardless of her intentions, even if she genuinely is interested in me for whatever reason as a person or from my looks or idk, I still am not interested anymore. Since she’s a terrible person, would make a terrible SO, and I don’t want to associate myself with ppl like this lol,.. I would not even contemplate dicking down an attractive girl, if she’s a terrible person. Since idk personal morals, and not too interested in hooking up with ppl tbh.

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