#undershow

[zzoro-yaa]

溶けた レモネード

sweet, sad, melted lemonade.

[saltypepps]

Going on hiatus again because I was a stupid fucking idiot. I’ll try to get ahead in my coursework. Might pop on in the evenings if I have time, but I’m not gonna be super active for now.

See y’all on the other side, and feel free to send asks 🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶🩶

(Lil personal rant below bc I just gotta get it out)

I don’t know how much longer I can do this tbh. Can’t balance my time properly, and I don’t have anyone to body double with. I think I should talk to my doctor about my anxiety and ADHD bc they are SEVERELY impacting me rn and I don’t want to fuck up my education. Hell, I might even just come out as trans to my family bc fuck this. I’m a grown-ass adult and I can make my own decisions, and they’re just going to have to live with it. Sorry for blabbing all this. Tired, cranky, overstimulated, undershowered, and probably PMSing.

[btrswtoriginals]

I love their annoying/annoyed dynamic a lot, but i really need to depict herta openly happy more

I feel like im undershowing that and it is an important part of their dynamic for me

Iris cares about Herta a lot for reasons beyond her scientific achievements and ‘different level of thinking’, and just likes her for…her, which Herta doesn’t get a lot of

And it makes her happy, even if Iris can be A Lot (and borderline obsessive)

I love depicting them in the silly annoyed way but i think only seeing that is making me kinda sad

[sakuratruther]

it’s so sad that sakura and sasuke relationship is so overlooked by the fandom. i’m not talking specifically about romantic relationship, before everything they were friends; sasuke thinks of both her & naruto when he thinks of bonds, but for some antis (that are mostly sns shippers, sorry to say) it’s canon that sasuke doesn’t give a shit about sakura when?? it’s not true?? and because of association problems of The Brain i can’t stand sns anymore. i think both sns and ss incapsulate naruto’s themes. and even though i love sasusaku so much i think that they all should be together, in a weird toxic polyclue because they are each other’s family. and y’all leaving sakura out of it makes me wonder if you even read the thing throughly

[axarajita]

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[enniewritesathing]

“Dr. Summers... I think, I-I think I’m ready to talk. About Jacob. For real.”

John takes a deep breath. He promised himself to be calm about this. Dr. Summers has her notepad in her hands -- she always does -- and pen at the ready.

“Where do you want to start?” she asks.

“Uhm...” he looks down at his hands. They’re clasped together. “I... there was an essay we had to write in English class the other day. The topic was ‘who was the strongest person we know’ and write it. For extra points, we could read it outloud. I did it on Jacob and... I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t read and... I cried. I still can’t talk about him without crying.”

“What did you write in the essay?”

“I talked about... when we found out he had cancer. Stage four, uh... I can’t remember the exact name, but it was in his brain and brain stem. Brain cancer. The only reason that we didn’t know is because, he was something called asymptomatic. He didn’t have anything except a real high fever at the time. I didn’t know what cancer was. They told me... it’s when cells go bad and they spread everywhere. It sounds simple but, it’s not.

“Mom and Dad told me that Jacob’s real sick, and has to stay at the hospital for a while. I asked if I could still see him, because y’know, he’s my brother. We’re not that far off from each other; always nearby. And... at the time, I didn’t know, but it was bad. They... tried to put on a face. For me. For him. I think we all did, subconsciously.” He looks at Dr. Summers for the right usage of the word, and she nods in agreement. 

“We... sat aside any thoughts that we may have had and concentrated on him getting better. There were good days... and bad days. No matter how bad it got, Jake seemed he was fine with the treatments. He wasn’t afraid or anything like that. I saw him get treated with stuff a couple of times. The nurse would talk to him and he’d respond. A joke. A short story. Anything to take his mind off of it.

“Jake... always had a smile. I think... he did that because he didn’t want us to worry about him. That he was okay. He was gonna make it. I wanted to cut off my hair off, to match him so he wouldn’t be alone. He didn’t want me to. He made me promise not to ever do that.”

“Promises to you are important,” she remarks.

John nods. “Yeah. I don’t ever break promises. Since then, I haven’t. You see how long it is. As time went on, he... didn’t get better. He had bad days more than good days. Treatments became more... experimental. He was in pain; I know because I felt it too. I got angry because of it. I even offered myself up for anything. Anything to make his pain go away. I couldn’t... protect him all. And yet, he still smiled. Only I knew... he was putting up a front. We all were. It was just a matter of when. At night, I’d listen to Mom and Dad and... ” He shakes his head. “...nothing was working. The cancer spread. The only reason he was still alive because... well, he was fighting it. When we found out, he had only a couple of months to live. He fought for a year.”

John is silent for a few moments. “The day before he died, it was his birthday. We were born on different days, at night. He was born on May 2nd. I was born May 3rd, a little after midnight. Because of that, we celebrate that weekend. Together. I, uh, had a tournament to go to. I told him about it. Asked him if I could wear his pra jiad on my right arm, since he’s right handed. I’m left handed. That way, even he’s not here physically, he’s still there with me. I told him, I’d win the belt and I’ll bring it back to him.

“I remember Jake... being weirdly quiet. That smile. But it was a type of smile that... I guess he was sad. He knew. I even told him this. He told me, he was tired. At the time, I didn’t know what that meant, but I know... he was tired of fighting. Tired of wasting away to skin, bones, and wires. Hooked up to all of those machines and montiors. Being alone. He was in pain and he just wanted it to stop. And I couldn’t -- take that away from him. I couldn’t do anything. None of us could.”

“And, the next day...”

“He died. I was in the finals. I felt funny the whole time. Something... ripped out of me. My head was swimming. I couldn’t breathe. I wasn’t steady on my feet. I got knocked out. I didn’t feel that. When I woke up, a part of me was missing. That’s when I knew... that’s when I knew he died.” John sighs and wipes away the tears. “Jake... had a seizure. His heart stopped. They tried to get him back but...” 

John clasps his hands again. “They couldn’t get him back,” he says, voice breaking. “The last thing he told me... he’ll always be proud of me. That he’ll always be thankful and grateful that he’s my brother... he said goodbye without me knowing that he did.”

“Do you feel guilty that... you didn’t say what you wanted to say at the time?”

“I feel guilty because... I’m here. He isn’t. After he died, I didn’t want to live anymore. Not... necessarily kill myself, but I didn’t want to live without him. I... well, you have your notes. I was angry at him. I thought that he just... quit. No. He didn’t. His heart did stop, but it came back, but it was too weak... and... he let go.”

John pauses and closes his eyes. “Jacob... did his best.”

John stops. He’s had enough. Dr. Summers steers him away from the subject and says, “John, it’s alright.”

He nods. And nods again. He grabs some tissue and collects himself. “I only remember the bad parts. Not the good parts, but I talk about him as if he’s still alive. It’s been years. I’m almost seventeen. I... wanna... start moving on, but I can’t. I... feel like, if I do, I’ll eventually forget about him. But I can’t even do that. There’s always gonna be a part of myself that’s always going to be empty. I-I know that. Mom said... it’s time to start living my life. I mean, I got the rest of high school to worry about. College maybe. Maybe, a relationship...”

“With your essay, what did you conclude? Did you think that there were any lessons learned?”

“Like... how I act now?”

“Yes.”

John furrows his brows. “I... don’t take anything for granted anymore. I tell Mom I love her. My friend too. Be appreciative. Gratefulness. I... had to do a lot of growing up. Especially after my dad died. Mature, I guess. I’m a lot more protecting. I say what’s on my mind -- good or bad. I don’t like having things being unsaid. Not anymore. I’m... responsible. At least, I try to. All of it. It’s hard, but I’m... I’m trying. Even if it’s baby steps. I just... I don’t want to wear that mask anymore.”

“It is hard, Johnathan. And your admission, your desire to begin the healing process, is a step in the right direction. This isn’t going to be an overnight thing; it will take time. You’re not alone. Remember that. We’ll take as much time as we need to. Okay?”

“Okay.”

--

John waits in the waiting room. The door opens and his mother is there; she beckons him to come with her. “So, how did it go?”

The question has always been open ended -- sometimes he choses to answer, sometimes he doesn’t. John’s thoughtful in his response as he buckles his seatbelt. “I’m ready.”

“You sure?” She knows what he means.

“Yeah,” he says. “Baby steps.”

[seaweedbrain-wisegirl-andasatyr]

What a Live-Action Tartarus would look like: or, the complexities of Cosmic Horror in Middle Grade Fiction

I've always been really interested in film- it's my dream to work in this field in the future. So of course with news of an adaptation of this series so close on the horizon, of course I had to think about how, if for some absurd reason, I was personally hired to direct/design an episode, how some of my favorite scenes in this series would they look in live action form.

Some context: This is after Percy and Annabeth's fall in Tartarus. I think the scenery of this place is very interesting, yet extremely complicated to replicate in live action form. Tartarus, at least Rick's version of Tartarus, is horrifying when you think too hard about it, especially in a middle grade fiction series where characters can't even say the word "dam" properly, and monsters dissolve in a dust of sand. I think Tartarus is very similar to Lovecraftian horror. It's like, the idea that something is so terrifying that a human mind can’t even perceive it. You can't accept it because it's just too horrifying. You can’t even describe it because there are no words for it or things to compare it to in our world.

I made some personal rules for myself. Firstly, I think obvert violence thrown in your face is overrated. Any PJO or HoO series would be rated PG, at most, PG-13. Using these guidelines, I tried to construct a version of Tartarus that isn't fueled on gore or blood, but more this dark, deep nothingness.You know how, in many YA movies/tv shows, especially those trying too hard to be "edgy", we always make fun of how dimly lit the scenes are? Well, these scenes in Tartarus should, for once, actually be like that- so dark it almost makes our(as an audience) eyes hurt. Everything around our main characters are dark and hazy. Fog swims around them.

But we don't see much of this environment, no matter how dark it is. Everything is filmed so up close, the camera sticking so close to the characters it's uncomfortable. We are stuck with Percy and Annabeth in this huge, intangebly huge space. Two small ants in this great, unescapable landscape. Have y'all watched Stranger Things? you know that strangely filmed darkness we see when Eleven goes into the upside down? Tartarus should be filmed very similar to that. Everything except for Annabeth and Percy should be engulfed in black, pure darkness all around, when the two first enter this place. It's only when Annabeth and Percy stay too long, finally perceive this landscape for what it is, the body of Tarturas himself, that we as an audience sees this too. It's not abrupt or sudden. It's a gradual, uncomfortable recognization. The music that has always been in the background gets a little louder, pounding a little too similar to the beat of a human heart. We hear wet, sloshing, horrible sounds every time Percy puts his foot down. Dark liquid and goop drips from all around, and the camera stays just a little bit longer on these elements. The darkness slowly lifts, just a bit.

The Arai curses fight scene is, for me personally, the scariest scene in everything Rick wrote. It's utterly horrifying to think too long about. Again, I don't think it needs to be overtly graphic or visual.When you really think about it, there is so much death and killing in every one of the PJO and HoO books. But this sort of murder is made child-friendly in every way- monsters resolve into dust only to be reborn, death is written off in a few paragraphs, kids get shoot, cut, burned, maned, and we just ignore it. This scene really brings us to the reality that these monsters are still beings, about the sheer numbers of monsters just Percy and Annabeth themselves have brought to death. In a live-action adaption, this realization and horror should be replicated.

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At first, we think this is just a normal fight. Percy and Annabeth have went through plenty of those already- this is HoH, by now the audience has watched 12 year old Percy fight a god, 15 year old Percy become almost invincible- a little run-in with some winged monsters is just another Tuesday. The music increases, but it's still just regular, action-movie fight scene music (behind it is a heavy dropping beat. Again, just like a heartbeat. Is it Percy's heartbeat? Is it Tartarus's heartbeat? we can't tell). But as soon as Percy takes that first swing, we know something is wrong. think this scene would be interesting if the camera switches jarringly from Annabeth's pespective to Percy's. When Annabeth strikes down the arai that curses her with blindness, we are suddenly plunged into darkness too. Sudden, startling darkness. It is quiet, too. too quiet. We are engulfed in pure nothingness. It's so sudden and holds out for so long that the audience must think something is wrong. They get uncomfortable, squirming in their seats. Is their tv broken? Did they accidentally click mute? We see dim flashes of light, waving like somebody stumbling around in the dark, with a dim flashlight,but they are too gone so suddenly.

The camera swings, and now we see this scene from Percy's perspective, but everything is all wrong. The music is not this dramatic, action music we are use to, but instead, while the beat is the same as before, we are only left with this uncomfortable, startling heartbeat. It goes: dun, dun, dun. Percy is in pain: you know when you're in so much pain everything is fuzzy at the edges and you don't know if what you're percieving is real or just a halluciation? This scene is that feeling times a thousand. The techincal term is called a dolly zoom, but more casually a "Vertigo shot" the camera pulls back sudden at the same time it zooms in. It is often used by Hitchcock, espeically in the movie Jaws. You can google it, but what we get is this effect where the subject (Percy, here) not quite moving, but the background shifting around him so quickly it almost gives you motion sickness. The camera then spins jarringly around him, again, so quickly it's dizzying. we don't get to see too much. There are so many of these creatures, coming from all sides. It's too much. Behind this still pumping heartbeat, there is RINGING. God, so much ringing, in your ear. Because of all this action happening on screen, again it takes the audience a moment to even perceive this sound. But when they perceive it, they can't unheard it. it's so loud, it comes from everywhere, it's getting higher in pitch, it's uncomfortable, you're about to throw up, yet just like Percy you're pinned to the spot, unsure what to do, as everything goes out of your control.

Olf. That was a long one. But for a little TL;DR, undershowing is often scarier. There is a quote, I'm not too sure where it first came from since it sounds much too smart for me to think up myself, but to paraphrase, it goes something like: "The scariest thing in the world is what our imaginations can conjure up." Here's a simpler one for you:  "The most frightening monsters are the ones that exist in our minds." I've had the personally experience of laying awake too many nights, stuck in a mind loop, scaring myself half to death with my own thoughts. Let me repeat this again: A story, even a horror one, doesn't need excessive blood, guts and sexy stuff thrown at it to make it dark and horrifying. A lot of this post was inspired by talking with a lot of fellow PJO fans, you know who you are :), while also being influenced by this great video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OTO7Rqln9Q. It talks about the complexities of writing comic horror. I highly recommend watching it. Also, for a few examples of this kind of horror done well, I recommend Birdbox, and also, strangely the ending fight of Spiderman Far From Home. I won't spoil it, but it was a very well directed scene that really made me feel jarred and uncomfortable as I watched it. I've also heard The Thing is good at this, but I really do scare myself too much, and can't watch truly scary horror movies without freaking myself out. Anyway, if you've made it this far, I hope you all have a nice day/ night and comment if you want me to write out any other scenes from PJO or any Rick books. Film, whether that's in screenwriting/cinematography/set/costume design, or, most of all directing, is both my dream and plan, so this is good practice.

[pixelcreate]

Humans gate Monsters gate

What the village of Nova Square looks like

The Monsters Magic carnival

Humans Monsters

And that is all for the things that need to be shown in the introduction part of the ff, part one is out! So go check it out! Type in Undershow |Frans|, y'all be mad at me for putting Frans but, trust me only a little romance will be in the main plot the more cute ones are all in the side stories.

[thirdmagic]

it’s been ten years and we still don’t have the official lyrics for happy maria. the ep8 manga flat out unveiled the whole mystery behind the murders and beato and yet the true mystery of the vn remains unanswered. it’s been haunting me for this entire decade. why is the singer going to piss in fire for magical breeding power??????? who is the prettiest golden dreamer she speaks of????????? what is the broken undershow???????? is gohda really a magical chef?????????????? i won’t be able to sleep peacefully until i have answers

[dopecheddar]

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[poorly-made-life-choices]

I'm overeating and undershowering, wich I know it's not a thing, but I'm in that phase of depression where I don't shower unless someone tells me I should, usually my mom and usually after three to four days where I didn't.

[nekomessiah144]

Shampoo

I haven’t been able to take a shower IRL for a long time b/c my bathroom tub is clogged, and I have long hair, and it’s bothering me due to how unkempt it is b/c I haven’t been shampooing it since I’m deprived of the bathroom.

I’m actually very meddetranian in my hygiene habits, I shower a lot, and lately I haven’t been able too. I live with my parents, but I’m not a basement dweller at all.

But I think I need a bigger bathroom now, my hygiene needs are actually quite extensive. I overshower instead of undershower if anything. And my bathtub doesn’t provide me with much space either. It’s too practically designed or something.

[fullsuccessconnexion93]

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[pouzzi]

Bassiste du groupe Undershower

[wadanoharaobsessed]

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[vnlt]

overflowing, undershowing-- nothing goes without saying, so I suppose we don't exist to each other