#vampy vents

[thxnks4themrms]

I am the song first love / late spring

[azuhreidii-arts]

Here comes the rain...finally. 🌧️☔

The heat has been rough throughout April, so at least May's somehow compensating for it.

[vampireexia]

TW ED vent edit

[cottagecorevampy]

so verizon was doing this promotion where if you had their wifi service for a period of time, they send you a free nintendo switch and mine was nearing the end of its life so i took advantage of course.

i just finished setting it all up and painstakingly took the time to make sure all my data and save data transferred over.

none of it transferred. i have to start my animal crossing island over from scratch (i am deeply mourning my villagers i loved them so much we were all besties). i have to play botw and totk from scratch (which is awful for me bc i had them both almost 100% completed). mario kart as well (but that doesn’t matter too much tbh i enjoy unlocking everything all over again).

this is the 4th time i have to restart my island as well as botw. the first time it was bc my nintendo account got hacked by some fucker in france and locked me out. i had to purchase the games again as well that time. the rest was silly things with my siblings losing my game cartridges so i bought them digitally instead.

there’s no point to this rant i’m just fucking tired of losing all my progress repeatedly over the course of like 4 or 5 years idk how long the switch has been out lmao.

god i’m tired.

[damiencarlisle0226]

this sleep token blaring in my ears and the cute boy in my phone are the only things keeping me floating right now..can life just slow the fuck down? Please?

[ddwweebbii]

2022.12.20

[tinyvampire]

so how do you stop cycling between accepting yourself for who you are and pandering to what everyone wants you to be out of fear of losing them? bc i need to transition soon or i won’t be here anymore at all. not planning anything, so you don’t need to worry. just assessing my situation mentally & irl and it is not looking good. something’s gotta change. idk what to do.

[saintvampy]

i need to kill

[mirakurutaimu]

have you ever talked about the origins of your sona/her design inspirations before? ive always really loved her design and i like hearing about how nice character designs come to be

here is the full tale

she started off as a mere picrew years ago

and then people drew fanart of that design whenever i started streaming (like this retro mimi model @catastrothy made)

and then at some point i thought "hm wouldn't it be cool if i paid an artist to make her design better" and then i approached noted good local artist @cnmchn and we went back and forth on some stuff and She were born proper

here is some other behind the scenez

hair accessories were considered at one point but then we thought of the ミ earrings and i just colored in one of her streaks black lmao

final design ended up using a combination of outfit elements from our two examples, rip to alt universe skirt spats and kneesocks short braid loose hoodie long shirt ribs mimi (she will be missed) (i should draw that sometime)

anyways thats all. thats da mimi roundup. sure hope read mores function on this site

edit: i forgot to mention design inspirations.

uh. riamu failgirl, kumbhira granblue, we almost stole astolfo's haircut sans hair vents (though I think it was actually edward elric who made me think 'braid'), vampy granblue. as for the tenets of her design i just wanted a cute, colorful, energetic, annoying, smug, punchable little beast to match my vibe. her fashion sense is like the complete opposite of mine tho lmao this little freak dresses in this skimpy summery crop top and short shorts getup and shit meanwhile i'm a jeans-all-year and longsleeves/hoodie at all times kinda bitch. at least she still melts in the heat like i do

anyways i figure i may as well dump some silly canon stuff here too:

she's a being from what she says is 'the hell that froze over' (because it sounds cool), in actuality it's probably something more like a frozen-over planet with some level of aquatic life under the ice.

at a base level, she's kinda like... if a slimegirl was a crab? like, she's not made out of slime it's still Meat Stuff but it's definitely amorphous and should usually be contained within a thick carapace on the exterior (so when fully shelled, lookin like some kinda scary lookin pointy bone demon). she claims to have lost hers or that it hasn't grown in yet or some such (hence she only has the horn covering)

anyways. her inside meat being amorphous = limited shapeshifting ability, so she somehow ended up on Earth and is posing as a humanoid and having a ton of fun eating and smoking and breaking stuff. but she still fuckin' hates the sun and heat

other fun facts:

loves meat, milk, sweet stuff, clothes, sleeping, swimming, video james (bad at them), money

hates spicy stuff, hot weather, working, people as stubborn as she is, waiting

i'm torn on when her birthday should be. officially it's technically 5/21, but 3/3 would be cute...

believes drinking milk will help grow her shell in

has a strong sixth sense due to having similar organic function to ampullae of lorenzini

durable. if you punch her it caves in like some monkey d luffy shit

[kitttenteeth]

:,( vampy I was worried about you! Glitter angel <///////3 not to sound parasocial but things do feel rlly dull whenever you do your stray kitty thing. Always thinking about you, I hope you know you were missed! And hoping life has sweetened for you and that you were able to get that procedure for your bunny :( You’ve always been the sweetest girl to me and I know things started getting rlly hard, you are something so special and unique so pleaseeeee do not let this world take any of that sparkle from you. Idk why I am shy too shy send this off anon but I’m hoping any of this strikes some familiarity in you lol, message me if you ever need to talk! Love you kitty

;-; too sweet 4 me not to respond to rly quickly . Thank you so much! i feel too shy & very sugary over this lol, thank u ^^ My brownbunnie ended up not needing the botfly removal &she Is okay, i feel so blessed abt that. I am okay! my life has been feeling incredibly frustrating ! But all is okay. this msg means a lot & I feel inspired to vent. pretend we r all squished on the countertop 2Gether like we used to , when I was miss blogger. i’ve been In limbo with my living arrangement for nearly half a year + My family situation is . if I am speaking sweetly I would use the word disheartening lol + Mostly most of all When things go wrong with my animals There Is just genuinely no way of coping 4 me . i am so blessed that all the animals I take care of are currently healthy But a few scares happened + i became responsible for even MORE!! animals which ;-; isn’t necessarily where the issue lies . Ohh boo Trying not 2 ramble much but :

I have been taking care of animals truly as soon as i could start walking lol , my dad has always owned all sorts of farm animals & etc. And as a kid I took on a lot of that responsibility so it’s always been my life &very willingly so , It’s what makes me happiest [<- this is to explain I am confident in my care , It is so most definitely the thing i am best at / most proud of myself about. i feel strange sort of bragging abt it I guess but if it is true . Then YK i rly feel like i am allowed to lol! i do anything 4 animals I’m responsible for and I am rly proud of the amt of time &dedication & especially physical work I put into making sure they r all healthy and as happy as possible] flipside : I am aware it is a problem and all my life I have been told / attempted 2 work on it But anything happening to my animals has always been totally unsurvivable for me almost. it is , idk. It is rly distressing for every1 to see what happens to me ig And especially to hear the sorts of thoughts i have. So rambly ALL OF THIS TO SAY - i feel my dad Is irresponsible with the way he takes care of his animals So i have taken ~all~ of it up myself but with the limited resources i can afford + energy i have lost bcus I have been unwell for a while, i am rlyly frustrated with the circumstances and so badly at myself for not being able to give all these animals the type of care they deserve . If my love was enough Then they’d all be living in their own slice of heaven with heated blankets and heart - shaped ice cubes in their water containers but. :[ I have been doing the best i can with what I have the money for but this totally by far has been tenthousand bullets to my psyche And how can i blog when everyday i am crying abt my animals or digging the dirt out from my fingernails &cleaning outside until a snotbubble is frozen to my face . I just wish every animal in the world was okay lol . anyways. I love u! iknow who you r silly I will dm you soon <🐾3

[thxnks4themrms]

Really feelin the entire ultraviolence album rn

[choccyhearts]

okay, i need to know:

for context: vampire!eddie & werewolf!steve

(winner may or may not get a silly ramble posted this weekend👀)

also i did NOT forget abt the renfield fic i promised, but writing it is so taxing because theres only so many times i can use "wet" and "damp" before theyre overused😭😭😭 so please give me more time

also the other promised fics will be pushed back, im very sorry🫣 if u want to know why, just read my updates/venting posts, things have been very hard so silly rambles/blurbs are all i can handle right now, i'm so sorry💔💔 i will try to write the promised stuff before the end of the year

(also side note, im literally gonna kill tumblr for making me post a wip on accident, they neeeeeed to fucking fix the app version of this omfg why are the buttons so fucking close together, whoever made that choice i hope you burn in hell)

[hauntedbows]

❥ 🌸 𓉸ྀི type of girl you see in the woods ♡ . . {🪦}

ㅤWelcome to silent Hill Lemme give you all a tour to my doodle / flag/gender horder blog ! i switch betweenㅤ1st & 3rd person when speaking sometimes 𓈒 moreㅤaboutㅤmeㅤcanㅤbeㅤfound in another universe <33ㅤ

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My other blogs

My main/writing blog - @vannilagvtzz

ㅤi go by many names you can call me any!

But I prefer Nana/Yukio/yuki!

But here is my list of names I got by! <33

Bambi / Kittie / Nana / kitt / KC / Gh0st / Cookie / Sol / Solana / Vampy any ／all + neos!! ♡ㅤㅤ❥

Trans~nonbinery~Sapphic {pan?}

I adore Lace and other soft materials I enjoy horror movies and the aesthetic of it

I really like creepy stuff and I mostly associate myself with morutecore and dollcore <3

🎀DIS ~ CLAIMER : All violent / yan/ fake gore / Cannibal posts are venting and are never acted on! 🎀

[damiencarlisle0226]

I’m so tired of being tired and feeling so unloved and unwanted..I just want to feel safe and like I belong somewhere with people who actually care. The heavy emotions are so tiring..I want to break free.

🥀18+ he/him MDNI🥀

[tinyvampire]

i know you can transition at any age & it’s never too late and bla bla bla but holy fucking shit i wish i’d had the balls to do it when i was 20 and knew what was going on. i knew i was trans. i should’ve taken the leap. i could’ve grown a few more inches. i could’ve prevented my hips from getting as big as they have. i could be essentially done with my transition at this point in my life, or at least almost there. now i’m 25, 5’2 and a half, and not even on t yet. i’m gonna have to go through a second puberty as a full adult with an entirely developed brain and a masters degree. that’s fucking embarrassing. i’ve lost so many years doing nothing except denying myself happiness and i’m so tired.

[saintvampy]

my fav recovery mindset 🕊