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Baby Severide - Chapter 2: Good Genes

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Pairing: Kelly Severide x reader

Summary: You and Kelly finally get to tell 51 the news

Words: 946

Warnings: medical terms, hospitals, still not great writing, Kelly Severide being sensitive (who knew he could do that)

Read on Ao3 here

Next Chapter: Chapter 3

Notes: I really love where this is going tbh. Anyone who reblogs any chapters of the fic will now be tagged in the remaining chapters to make sure they can come back and keep reading if they so choose (this includes those who have reblogged chapter 1)

Tags: @district447 @keabbs @storiesofsvu @marvelcharactersxreader @carnationworld @witchywinchester99

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Holding your hand as you walked up the driveway, Kelly kissed your forehead.

“Ready for this?” He asked.

“The 51 love? Always,” you laughed. 

Sylvie and Matt were the first to greet the two of you. 

“You’re glowing!” Sylvie exclaimed, “how much longer until we get to meet this little one?”

“Well, that’s why we’re here,” Kelly started. 

“The doctor is worried that the baby is too big and may cause some risk to the baby. We’ve scheduled a c-section for Saturday morning at 11:30,” you announced, excited.

“That’s amazing!” Sylvie smiled.

“You ready for this?” Matt asked Kelly.

“Yeah, I’m ready. She’s gonna do great,” he replied, “I’ve got to go talk to Boden about extending my furlough though.”

“He’s between meetings right now. Now is your best bet to talk to him.”

“Come with me, I want some opinions on my replacement.”

Matt followed Kelly into Boden’s office. 

“Mind if I have a listen?” Sylvie asked.

“Go ahead, Doctor said she’s got a strong heartbeat. Been kicking like crazy too,” you laughed.

Grabbing your hand, Sylvie led you to the back of 61.

“Two days away, huh?” Sylvie asked, grabbing the stethoscope from the jump bag.

“Yeah, the timeline was a bit of a shock, but more time Kelly and I can spend with the baby together, so I’ll take it,” you smiled, rubbing your belly. 

Sylvie put the earpieces in her ears and brought the chest piece up to your belly. 

“Magical, isn’t it?” You giggled. 

“She’s so strong. Maybe she’ll be a firefighter like her daddy,” Sylvie laughed. 

“With a family like 51, she’d kick ass at it for sure.”

“Should we go see the boys?”

“Make sure Kelly isn’t trying to get back on shift today,” you laughed.

“Here I’ll help you up,” Sylvie offered, reaching out her hand. 

As she helped you back on your own two feet, you started to feel a little woozy and Sylvie could tell.

“Hey, you okay?” She asked, gripping your forearm.

“Yeah I’m fine, just a little head rush.”

“You should sit down.”

“No no I’m okay, really Sylvie. Thank you. Let’s go see Kelly and Matt.”

“Okay, but I’m gonna bring the stethoscope just in case.”

“Fine by me,” you smiled.

Walking over to Boden’s office, you saw Kelly with a few tears on his face through the window. 

Sylvie knocked on the door and you followed her inside. 

“What’s wrong?” You asked.

“Nothing baby, I’m okay,” he replied, wrapping his arms around you. 

As you used your thumbs to wipe the tears from his face, more streamed along behind them. His mouth with a slight smile. 

“What did you do with my husband?” You asked, looking at Matt and Wallace.

“He was talking about the baby and how happy he is to be becoming a dad,” Matt laughed.

Boden, Matt and Sylvie quietly left the room as you cupped Kelly’s face in your hands.

“Baby I love you and I love this little girl so much,” he laughed, wiping the tears from his face. 

“I love you too babe. I didn’t know you felt thi-“

Kelly caught you off guard with a passionate kiss.

“Let’s get you home,” he smiled.

——

“Can you believe we get to meet our daughter tomorrow?” You asked, smiling from ear to ear.

“You ready?” Kelly asked, packing the rest of his things for the hospital. 

“As soon as we finish packing for the baby. Then, yes,” you laughed.

“You pick out the outfits for her and I’ll pack the rest. You need sleep baby.”

“I’ll be fine. I don’t want to forget anything.”

“Five more minutes then I’m tucking you into bed. We’re having a baby tomorrow, baby,” he smiled. 

——

Kelly dropped you off out front and went over to the lot to park. You found yourself a bench to sit on while waiting for your husband. An older man was sat down beside you a moment later.

“What are you here for, young lady?” He asked.

“A c-section. My baby is too big so I’ve got to have surgery. You?” 

“Bad heart. Getting a new valve today.”

“That’s exciting, why aren’t you in there?”

“Could say the same for you.”

“I guess that’s true,” you laughed.

“Truth is, they’re putting a pig valve in me. I’m going to be 1/200th part pig by the end of the day. That don’t sit right with me. My son already doesn’t talk to me, why would he talk to me when I’m part pig?” He grumbled.

“I’ll tell you what. Once they do my surgery and say I’m all good, I’ll come by to see you, let you meet the baby.”

“You’d do that for an old guy like me?”

“Hell yeah I would. What’s your name? I’ll have one of my nurses look you up.”

“Aaron Whitley.”

You saw Kelly parking the car and walking towards the hospital.

“Looks like I’ll have to let you go. My husband is walking up,” you laughed.

“With a good looking husband like that, I’d leave me too,” he chuckled, “he looks really strong, what does he do for work?”

“He’s a rescue squad lieutenant with the CFD.”

“Good genes.”

“I guess so,” you smiled.

Kelly walked over with your bag.

“Kelly, this is Aaron. He’s having surgery too today,” you announced.

“Nice to meet you Aaron. I’d love to get to know you, but I’ve got to get her upstairs,” he replied, “thanks for taking good care of her, Aaron.”

“I’ll see you soon,” you smiled.

Kelly shook his hand and you waved behind you as you walked in the front doors to the hospital. Today was the day.

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I’m not worried Pt.2 - Y.Jungwon

Scenario : You and your little family are facing an Earth Apocalypse. Everything around you is desert as you search for a safe place. But at what price ?

Words : 2k.

Pairing : survivor dad! Jungwon x survivor mom! reader.

Genre : tiny bit of fluff, overall angst, Major Character Death.

Warning : Non Identified Monsters Apocalypse, cursing, violence, blood, mentions of covid-19, a lot of crying lmao.

Author's notes : I have two things to say : I’m too lazy. And… : Please forgive me for it. 😭 Also I recommend you to read Pt.1 here before reading this one ! I pour my everything in this one lmao.

This is a work of fiction, it is not a reference to reality. I do not copy, or had plagiarized any work, every scenes familiar to other works are just pure coincidence ! Reblog if you like :p  

Tag list : @hiqhkey (I know you waited for part 2 TT)

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*now play Tori Kelly - Paper Hearts*

April, 2029.

A few days after his departure…

« Where did Daddy go ? » asks your son of three years old. You can feel your heart breaks into millions of pieces at the sound of his innocent voice and big doe eyes… just like him. « Did he go to work ? Is Daddy working ? » he continues to ask, slowly tugging at your sleeve. You nod and hum, caressing his chubby cheek ever so gently. « So Daddy will come back, he will come back. » You show him your best smile, trying to hide your anxiousness and sadness. He shouldn’t know at all cost. Your daughter then comes besides your son, tugging at your other sleeve, « Mommy I’m hungry… I want to eat curry ! » Just like him. Every time you look at your children, they remind you so much of him, from the way they talk, their favorite food, their round faces and habits, indeed he is their father. Damn how much you miss him right now. It’s like a part of your world is missing. Feeling like someone take out a part of your heart. How you wish to have him by your side, playing hide and seek or tag along with the children. How you wish nothing happened this day.

*Flashback in February 2029*

Children's laughter were heard from the garden as you hang out the washing on a clothes horse. It was a beautiful day, a sunny sky with not a cloud in vision. You took a day off to spend some time with your daughter and son while your husband, Jungwon was at work. He promised to finish earlier so you were more than content.

Your family was perfect for you. No, your life was perfect. Being a doctor, Jungwon a succesful taekwondo athlete and soon a to-go coach, your children were happy and healthy. Everything was perfect.

Until you turn on the television during dinner time.

Oh you wished you never turned it on.

Reporters were asking people to stay inside their house for emergency circonstances. Was it a situation like the Covid-19 ? Or even worse ? Up to where humans were able to commit crimes ? As you were asking those questions in your head, panic slowly started to make its way into your veins when you saw one of the reporters being assaulted by someone. The camera was then cutted right away.

You took out your phone to scroll through Twitter, only to see the chaos. People were screaming and running everywhere, giant hideous dark monsters with a slim body, multiple eyes and bony fingers were trying to infiltrate the houses.

You were petrified and your first reflex was to look at your husband. Jungwon seemed deep in thoughts. You didn't know if he was thinking or if he was shocked, you were too anxious to tell.

What will happen now ? Unknown creatures ? They are not zombies, nor aliens ? This is a dream right ? You will wake up in your bed while hugging Jungwon tightly... right ? Your children will be sleeping in their own bed and everything will be perfectly fine, like it has always be.

« We need to leave. Our house is not a secured place. » your husband finally spoke.

« Then where are we going ? » you respond, stressed.

« Mommy , what is happening ? Why are you scared ? » ask your daughter.

« Mommy is tired birdy. It's getting late, take your little brother with you and go wash your teeth. » he smiled at them and did some silly movements to tell them to hurry up. They giggled and run away towards the bathroom.

After making sure they were away, he took your hand in his and stared deeply in your eyes.

« Firstly, we need to calm down. Everything will be perfectly fine darling, okay ? »

« B-but- » you stuttered, on the verge of crying.

« Calm down, I'm right here baby, I'm not gonna let you down. I'm right here and I will protecting you all at all cost. » he reasured you as his hand was caressing the back of yours.

You took a big breath before nodding. It wasn't the time to break down. You were the mother of two children, they were more important. You didn't wanted to show them how much you were scared. You had to be strong.

You and your family officially left your house two days after the news broke.

*End of the flashback*

« (Y/S/N), you need to wear properly your protection. » you said as you adjust your son's piece of metal on his chest. Not long after your departure from your house, you found out those creatures were feeding themselves with humans' hearts. That's why y'all have a piece of metal around your chest constantly.

« Mommy... What is this ? » you heard your daughter soft voice while she points at something far away.

You feel your hairs ruffling and quickly look at the direction she pointed. You saw the familiar slim body and bony fingers’ monster standing a few meters away, looking around. You inform her and your son to not make any noise by putting a finger infront of your lips and silently start to gather up some of your belongings while looking at it. You then inform them you have to leave. As you do silently, you scrach your knee, a few droplets of blood falling. But it was your least concern, you just hope your son will not make any sound.

*Flashback*

« (Y/S/N) » called strictly Jungwon with a frown, « don't make any noise when we tell you, understand ? » he said.

« Understand Dada. » answered your son, a pout on his face.

Jungwon kneeled down and ruffled his hair, face now adorning a smile, « Good job, little hero. »

*End of flashback*

As you're now running in the woods, hands clutching with your loves, your daughter suddenly speaks up.

« Mommy... » she calls, almost inaudibly.

« What is it sweetheart ? » you stop and look at her.

« I forgot my binky... » she confesses, looking up at you with big doe and tears in her eyes. You know how much she can't fall asleep if she doesn't have it and you can't afford to make her cry.

« Shit... » you silently curse. You have to go back and get it.

You were now standing at fifteen meters from your previous camp, and was tetanized. If before there was only one, now there were five. They were smelling and one of them was licking the ground. « Shit, my knee », you thought while looking at your bruised knee.

« Listen up babies. You have to stay here, understood ? No matter what, you ARE staying here, well hide behind these leaves, did you understand me ? » you insist without actually yelling.

They just nod at you. « Good. (Y/D/N), count to 300, you know how to do that right ? », she nods again. « Good girl. If Mommy is not here after you finish, you know where you need to go, right ? Do like Mommy and Daddy teached you, alright ? » you tell her and hug them tightly, not wanting to let go. The tears are welling in your eyes but you stopped them before they fall.

« I love you so much my darlings » you lastly say before kissing their forehead. You hope it won’t be the last time you will see them. You can’t imagine your two babies running in the forest without protection, without you, without nothing.

You quickly stand up and go far at your right, heart about to explode. Five minutes. You can do it.

You gently place a phone on the ground. It was situated far away from your children and enough from the camp. You then return to your previous position and wait for the alarm that you set to ring.

You began to sweat, tension at its peak. It was not the time to flinch. You steady your breath and focus.

*Ding ding ding ding*

The five of them rush towards it while you run towards the camp. Quickly entering it, you grab the binky and come out. But what you did not expect is that the precious bracelet Jungwon gave you on your first anniversary got stuck with one of the corner of the tent. Wanting to remove it, you are suddenly expulsed from where you were. Feeling dizzy, you hurry yourself up, grab the sword on your back and try to defend yourself against the monster facing you, a smile on its face.

« You fucking bastard, come on. » you say, preparing yourself.

Blood is spurting on the floor.

*now play - Westlife - I’ll See You Again*

*Jungwon POV*

I was finally running towards the camp where my family is when I saw a bunch of monsters in circle.

« FUCK ! Y/N ! (Y/D/N) ! (Y/S/N) ! » I scream while running towards them. One of them turn around and I saw its mouth, full of blood. Rage is taking over me as I take my gun and shoot them all. Fuck it if I end up bringing them all. I want to see them and check if they’re fine. As I come closer, I only perceive one body lying on the ground, I feel my heart stopping at the view infront of me. She has blood everywhere and is severely injured. Her right foot is missing and the blood is flowing endlessly… No… tell me it’s a lie… Plus the children are nowhere to be seen, she must have hide them.

« Baby can you hear me ? It's me, your kitten. Darling please, tell me you hear me » I cry while holding her head on my laps.

« J-Jungwon...? Is that y-you ? » she replies, faintly. Her eyes slowly opening as I see the emptiness in them.

« Yes baby, it's me, I'm right here ! Stay with me, will you ? Please don't close your eyes ! » I say, cupping her bruised face in my hands, making sure to be careful.

« The babies... They are... in the forest, around fifteen meters... from here. Give this... Give this to my princess... » breathless, she handed me the binky with a trembling hand, she protected it, so it wasn't soak with blood.

« You will give it to her yourself, okay ? Stay with me, hold on tight, I will treat you baby. » I tear a piece of my shirt, put it around her calf, tie it then take a little stick of wood and turn it as hard as I can before putting her on my back. Her moans and grunts of pain were broking me.

« Darling... They got my leg... The chances to survive... from an haemorrhage are poor... » she says, voice trembling, as if it will fade out anytime soon.

« No ! You can do it ! You will do it ! You're strong I know it ! » tears were already streaming down my face at this point as I walk quickly towards the hiding place that is shelting my children.

« (Y/D/N) ! (Y/S/N) ! Come out ! It's me ! Daddy ! » I shout, voice cracking. They quickly complied and run towards me.

« Daddy ! » they call, happy to see me. They hug me tight and look at Y/N on resting on my back.

« What happened to Mommy ? Is she sick ? » asks your son. Our daughter was too shocked to speak, being old enough to understand your situation. She slowly take her mom’s hand and squeeze it.

« We need to run little guys, Mommy is sick okay ? Hurry up ! » I say and start running.

« Jungwon... My kitten... My lovely husband... Thank you for everything... » I can feel her faint breath on my neck.

« Stay with me baby ! Don't leave me ! I need you ! We need you ! No..! I love you ! » I cry desesperately, still running alongside the children, vision blurred by the tears. I don’t even know what I’m supposed to do, we are in the middle of a wide forest, where can I find the necessary to heal her ?! The place I come from is too far from here and monsters can appear at any moment. With her on my back I will not be able to protect the children !

« Take care of them for me, will you ? I love you all so much, thank you... for making me feel love... for » she grunts, « for making me your wife... thank you for those beautiful children... Tell them that I will always... always love them... and... » she coughs up, « and... I... will always be... by... their side... » the weight on my shoulder indicates me that she gave all her strenght left. I stop and lay her down.

« Baby ! Answer me ! Please ! Y/N !! Y/N !! » I call out, looking like a mess, tears won't stop and the children start to cry. I shake her by her shoulders, scream, I try everything to wake her up.

She opened her eyes one last time before whispering…

« I'm not worried... I Love You... » were her last words.

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#5

Better Man Masterlist

For @supernatural-jackles tell me a story bingo

Squared Filled Enemies to Lovers

Warnings: Angst, Stalking, Smut, Enemies to Lovers, Fluff

Summary: Y/N used to be a fan of Jensen when he starred in her favourite tv series Supernatural. Then he started embodying too much of his character from The Boys in public. Y/N, a nurse one day, saves him after his plane crashes right near her house. Jensen becomes enamoured with her but she refuses to give him the time of day. Will he be able to win her over?

Loosely inspired by Taylor Swift's Better Man

I wish you were a better man. I wonder what we would've become.

If you were a better man. We might still be in love.

If you were a better man. You would've been the one.

If you were a better man.

Yeah, yeah.

Chapter 1 Chapter 2: Chapter 3 Chapter 4:

Chapter 5: Chapter 6: Chapter 7: Chapter 8

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#4

🎈Happy Birthday Jared Padalecki 🎂

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#3

Already Gone

For @supernatural-jackles tell me a story bingo

Square filled: hugs

Platonic! Jody Mills x reader Former! Dean Winchester x Reader

Warnings: Mention of Break Up, Mention of Cheating, Angst, Fluff

Summary: Out of nowhere, Y/N's relationship with Dean crumbles.

He's told many lies, cheated, and in her darkest times, he's never there. Done with his behaviour. Y/N turns to Jody, who's been like a second mom to her.

Inspired by Kelly Clarkson's Already Gone

What you see's not what you get. With you, there's just no measurement No way to tell what's real from what isn't there

Your eyes they sparkle. That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain. You washed away the best of me. You don't care

Dean Winchester, a name that once tasted so sweet on my lips, has turned bitter.

I didn't listen to the warnings from the rest of the hunter community. Saying he was not relationship material. Even his own brother warned me. I stare at my wedding rings, once filled with promise. Now just an empty lie.

I packed up stuff and headed to Jody's place in Sioux Falls.

Jody opens the door and wraps me in her arms. She knows by my tear-stained face that I finally left Dean.

She leads me to the living room. She goes to pull out the ice cream from the freezer. Jody also grabs a bottle of whiskey.

She pours me a nice, healthy glass.

" I know it's hard right now. You are better off Y/N. You'll find somebody who will love you, right." Jody reassured me.

I down the whiskey in one go.

" I know you are right. Just a lot to process. He wasn't a good husband. Between the cheating and countless lies. Whenever I needed someone, he was never there. It's a relief that I never had kids with him. Otherwise, I would have been saddled to him for life." I replied.

" Okay, enough sad talk let's watch some comedies. That always cheers you up." Jody said. I simply nod in agreement

We spent the night and early into the next morning watching them. I feel better already.

2 years later…

I pick up my little girl, Primrose, as if on cue. My husband walks into the room. He kisses my temple.

Prim reaches for him.

He immediately takes her from me.

I smile at Raiden. I love the way his bluish-grey eyes light up whenever he sees us.

Moving to Sioux Falls and divorcing Dean was the best thing I could have done for my mental health.

I retired from hunting and started a life with Raiden Irvine.

We met after local salt and burn. Once I got pregnant with Prim, we retired from hunting.

I still keep in contact with people from the hunting community, especially Jody. Prim considers her an aunt. I've even kept in contact with Sam. He didn't want to lose me as a friend. As for Dean, after Jody sent the divorce papers to him for me. I haven't seen him since.

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#2

Tolerate It

For @negans-lucille-tblr N-L-Threenager Blogiversary Writing Challenge

Prompt: My love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it.

Inspired by Taylor Swift's Tolerate it

Warnings: Bad Marriage, Lovers to Enemies, Angst, Alcohol, Smut, Unplanned Pregnancy, Fluff

Summary: A couple of two prominent families. The Morgans and Y/L/N seem to have an idealistic love story, but that couldn't be further from the truth.

Another damn high society party. I stock up on champagne before the party. I hate these types of things.

Jeff yanks for the glass from hand.

"That's enough, doll. You are going to embarrass me if you show up drunk." Jeff scolded.

A used to love that nickname he gave me. Now I hate it when it comes out of his mouth.

I storm off to get dressed.

To think we were so happy only a year ago.

1 year ago

4th-anniversary celebration at Morgan’s restaurant

“Another bite of pasta doll?” Jeff asked as held the fork up to my mouth.

“Yes, of course, dear,” I replied. He smiles at me as he put the creamy fusilli into my mouth.

He sets the fork down, then places a light kiss on my lips. I love the way he treats me. And I hope it’ll always be this good.

End of Flashback.

I rummage through my closet and pull on the latest black Gucci dress. I look in the mirror and hate the superficial person reflecting back me. At one time, Jeff and I used to be in love. Now we are just a show for the public. Some would blame the age gap between us. It couldn't be further from the truth. Eventually, he just got bored with me. Now I am just a mere trophy for him. I am the only heiress to the Y/L/N publishing company. There's not much substance to our lives between the parties, drinking or hate sex. Well, one-sided hate. My stupid heart refuses to let go of him.

Jeff, with a phony smile on his face, is waiting for me downstairs. Even though I know he’s an asshole, but damn, does he look good in that white suit.

He guides me to the limo and opens the door for me. I drum my fingers on my thigh, eagerly awaiting this night to be over.

Keeping up with his act, Jeff helps me out of the limo. Greeted by the usual sight of tuxes and ball gowns.

We go to greet the usual people in his circle before I make my way over to my friends.

“Y/N, you look so unhappy. Why don't you just leave him.?” Melody said.

Maya, Cole, Bee, and Jen all look at me the same way Melody does. Silently agreeing with her.

“You know I can't. It's frowned upon.” I replied dejectedly.

I could just see the headlines now if I left.

"Publishing heiress runs away from Movie Director husband."

I'd be on the blacklist from everything, not to mention my family's reputation would be in ruins.

Cole snags a glass of champagne from the waiter and hands it to me. She knows I need it at times like this. I savour the taste on my tongue.

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My #1 post of 2022

Propositions Masterlist

Jared Padalecki x reader 

For @supernatural-jackles bingo

Square filled: Enemies to lovers

@holylulusworld 15.555 Followers Celebration prompt: enemies to lovers

Warnings: Angst, Smut, Misconceptions,  Alcohol, Drunk Shenanigans, Unplanned Pregnancy, Enemies to lovers 

Summary: Y/N and Jared are two of the most prominent people in the movie/tv industry. Both started as child actors. They've been vying for the same roles since they were teens. Y/N is always determined to shatter barriers in the industry. One night out leads them to an interesting proposition.

 Inspired by Taylor Swift's Girl at Home.

And it would be a fine proposition If I was a stupid girl.

And, yeah, I might go with it. If I hadn't once been just like her.

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Chapter 6: Chapter 7: Chapter 8: Epilogue

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Girls Night

A/N | This will be the last chapter for two weeks as I am away. One song is especially featured for one special Aussie 😘

Summary | It’s girls night.....

Word count | 2.5k

Warnings | 18 + Only! Fluff & a little bit of Angst.

Disclaimer | This is a @pixie88​ original story and character.

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Pairings | Ellis x Dana.

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"Remember, just ignore Melissa, she was always jealous Ellis choose you" Dom says as she pours Dana a drink, Dana sneers "I've handled her for sixteen years Dom, one more night isn't going to tip me over the edge. Plus, I married for love, she married for money.....five times before she met Jacob!" Dana smugly smirks.

"She reveals in others' misery, but ignore her!" the doorbell rings, Dom rushes to answer it, Kellie, Selina, Nancy, Annabelle and Melissa are there.

They flow through into the kitchen, Selina pulled Dana in for a hug, "hi sweetie, how are you and the boys?"

"Hey lovely, I'm alright and the boys are good thanks. What about you? How's Liam?"

She pulls Dana away from the girls, Dana quarks her brow at her, "you are my best friend, so I guessed maybe you could help me tonight?" Dana nods curiously, "this needs to stay between us, I can't drink tonight because I'm pregnant!" Dana was about to squeak, but she stopped herself. Her eyes glass over because she knew how long Liam and Selina trying and the struggles they had gone through to keep trying.

She pulled her in for a hug, "I'm so happy for you both! Congratulation!" the both of them get a bit teary, "thank you, I need your help with the girls. I don't want to tell them before twelve weeks. If I don't drink they will get suspicious..."

"I will get all your drinks tonight, don't worry!" Dana grins, "come on, let's get back to the others" Dana pulls her back towards the girls.

Keeping her promise and kept pouring Selina's drinks, "alright Dana?" Melissa takes a seat next to where Dana was "yup, you?" she vaguely answers her knowing she is only after information on Ellis "me? I'm great thanks...so how's the kids and the husband?"

"The boys are fine!" she doesn't tell her about Ellis, instead she wanders over to Selina with her drink, "what did she want?" Selina asks as she took the glass from her hand, "asking how the boys and Ellis are!" she hissed through gritted teeth.

"She's jealous of you, she always has been since Ellis asked you out and not her all those years ago"

"Ellis would never go near her, especially every stunt she's pulled over the years!" Dana smugly smirk.

A little later...

"Why don't we play a round of never have I ever?" Kellie says a little tipsy, "Yes! Let's go and take this into the living room!" Dom calls the girls through.

"I'll take care of the shots, Selina you can help me!" Dana holds Selina back, Dana fills two plates with plastic shot glasses, one plate she loads with vodka and gin shots and another with water, "take from the plate with the red flowers, Selina!"

"Won't the girl suss it out?" Selina asked, "I have a plan!" she winks at her as they take the plates of shots through, "right girls, I've loaded these two plates with three different shots, you'll get vodka, gin or just tap water. I've mixed them up, so there are different shots on each plate!" she places one on one side of the table and the water shots in front of Selina.

"I'll go first, then we will work out way round, never have I ever cheated!" Nancy looks around the group only Melissa drinks, the girls look at her, "it was in college years ago!" Melissa tells them like it isn't a big deal.

"I guess it's my turn, never have I ever slept with an ex after splitting up with them" Dom had said this so Melissa had to drink again, Dana raises her glass to her lips as well as Kellie, Annabelle, and Melissa. Dom looks at Dana in horrible, "what?! When?!"

"After the last girls night, it had been five months. I called Ellis and he was happy to oblige" Dom's jaw dropped, "how did we not know about this?" she asked her.

"I knew Shane told me, he saw Ellis the day after and Shane said he had a spring in his step and a huge smile on his face" Nancy winks at her, "sorry, I knew too, but we are best friends so!" Selina shrugs.

"Moving on, never have I ever had a Onlyfans page!" Melissa gives Kellie the side eye, knowing Kellie will have to drink, "so what?!" Dom roll her eyes at Melissa as Kellie drinks, "my body, my choice!" Kellie shrugs.

Selina looks pissed off with Melissa, "my turn! Never have I ever slept with someone over sixty" Selina looks at Melissa, who sips her drink, Dana hides her smirk behind her glass.

"Me next, never have I ever slept with more than one guy!" Dana grins, knowing the whole group will have to drink "that's not fair! Not all of us found our soulmate at fifteen!" Nancy playfully teases her.

"So much for soul mates! They aren't even together anymore!" Melissa reminds them, "they might not be, but I don't think Ellis will get with anyone else." Selina nudges Dana.

"Never have I ever been arrested!" Kellie watches the group, Dom, Annabelle and Melissa drink. Dana looks to Annabelle, "you work for the police!"

Annabelle smirks, "I do, it wasn't an official arrest it was more an intimate one. Jacques used his work handcuffs on me role playing! Still counts?"

"Well, if it does looks like I'm taking a shot too!" Dana picks one off the table and knocks it back "what a waste of police time!" Dana grins at Annabelle and the pair start to giggle.

The game continues on.

Later in the kitchen, "why wasn't I told about Ellis scratching an itch?" Dom teases her, "no one was suppose to know...Selina only knew because she caught him leaving the house the next morning"

"You still at least fancy him, then?" she quizzes her friend, Dana doesn't answer her, but it's written all over her face, "you still love him!" she mischievously grins at her, "you do!"

"I can't just turn those feelings off can I?!" Dom wraps her arms around her friend.

The next day...

"Dana?" she felt someone stroke her cheek, for a second she forgot "Hmm...Ellis" then she heard him chuckle. Her eyes flicked open, she saw him smile down at her, "oh god! We didn't...did we?" she asks, trying to remember, he chuckles, "unfortunate not...I did knock, but there was no answer, so I used my emergency key. We did say eleven didn't we?"

She rubs her eyes "what time is it?" she stretches as she looks up at him, his eyes glide over her body, she pulls the covers up, his eyes flick back to hers. He looks down at his watch, "eleven twenty one!" she sighs, "my head hurts," he laughs, "you do look a little rough!"

She narrows her eyes, "thanks a lot!" she hissed at him, "look, why don't you stay in bed, and I'll take care of the boys?" she looks up at him, "I can't ask you to do that, it's my own fault I have a hangover!"

He gets up from the bed, "it's fine! I'll go to the shop and grab you some painkiller, a Lucazade and dinner"

"Y-you don't have to do that," she sits up and the room starts to spin, she clutches her head "Ouch!" she laid back down. "Ok, fine! Can you help the boys do their homework and reading?" he nods "boys, get your shoes on, we're going to the shops" he calls out as he leaves the bedroom.

A little later...

She stirred, she looked at her bedside table Ellis had left her a couple of paracetamol and a bottle of Lucazade. She sat up, reaching for the painkillers, her clock read fourteen minutes passed three, she could hear Ellis and the boys downstairs, she jumped into the shower and changed into fresh clothes before she made her way downstairs.

The three of them are sitting around the table doing their homework, she wandered in quietly. She listened to Ellis helping them with their maths homework, "hey" the three of them look up, "how are you feeling?" Ellis asks.

"I bit more human now, thanks," she smiled, "good, we are going to finish up here, and I'll start on dinner"

"Oh...you don't have to do that. I don't want to put you out"

"Dad is making chicken korma, Mum" Arlo tells her, "oh well if that's the case you're welcome to stay. Do you want me to do anything?"

"You could show me where everything is in the kitchen?" she nods, "ok, I'm just going to get a glass of water" she walked into the kitchen, filling a glass, "so where's the pans?" she heard him behind her.

"Oh in this cupboard" she moves passed him, his aftershave fills the air around her, reminding her of all the times he would wear that scent. She opens the cupboard, "anything else?" he reaches into the cupboard pulling out the biggest pan, "chopping board?"

She moves over to another cupboard pulling out the chopping board and placing it against the counter, "there you go," he smiles at her, "thanks, now go relax and let me cook" she rolls her eyes at him, but makes her way into the living room where the boys are.

Twenty minutes later she wanders into the kitchen where he is cooking, she pulls a bottle of wine out of the fridge "wanna glass?" she nudges him as he is stirring his curry, "just one, I need to drive home"

"Lightweight!" she teases him, handing him the glass, "said the woman that got drunk on Bucks fizz Christmas morning," he nudges her, "hey! That was because I couldn't drink for months being pregnant," he chuckles "do you remember when you were craving black olives at eleven o'clock at night?"

She laughs, "yep and you drove around for three hours in search for them!" she laughs at the memory, "in the end, I went to a Domino's ordered a pizza and got them to put loads of black olive on it. You got your olives and I had a pizza!"

She pours herself a glass, "hair of the dog?" he teases her, "just one, you can take the bottle home if you want?"

"How was girls' night anyway?" he looks at her and he starts dishing up, "well, I came home drunk, so it must be a good night," he chuckles, "right dinner is ready" he hands her a plate.

After dinner...

"See I told you that your Mum could dance!" he nudges the boys as they watch her play Just Dance, "Rah, rah-ah-ah-ah. Roma, roma-ma. Gaga, ooh-la-la. Want your bad romance" the song plays as she hits every move, her hips sway to the music.

At the corner of her eye, she saw his were fixed on her, she hits the last few moves, "eighty nine percent! YES" she jumps up and down, "right, duo!" Ellis jumps up from the sofa, picking the song Girls just want to have fun by Cyndi Lauper. She laughs at him wiggling his hips to the beat, that was one thing about him, he knew how to dance every time they got on the dance floor, he'd give her a look that made her feel like the only girl in the world.

The pair are laughing as they hit the steps, "you still know how to move!" she teases him, "I thought you knew the answer to that already!" he winks at her.

She rolls her eyes at him, "smug git!" she thought, missing her moves, when the song finally came to an end, Ellis won making him cheer, the boys gave him a high five.

"Right, bedtime you two!" Dana told their boys, "b-b-but Mum!" Arlo protested, "you have school in the morning!" she reminded him, "fine, but did you ask Dad about Tuesday?" he looked at her, "no, but I will. Now go to bed!"

Arlo sighed, looking to his Dad, "I thought after what you said last night, you'd have more time now? So you can come right?"

"Come? Come to what buddy?" Ellis crouched down to his smaller son, "sports day, I asked Mum to ask you. I'm sure Grandad won't mind?!" Ellis nods, "I'll be there, but only if you do as your Mum told you and go to bed!"

Arlo is beaming, "ok! Night Mum! Night Dad!" Arlo rushes off, Myles gets up from the sofa, "I'll make sure he brushes his teeth! Night" Myles follows his brother upstairs. "Night! I love you!" Dana calls after them, "Night boys!" Ellis shouts up at them.

Dana turns to him, "I'm sorry about Arlo, but what did he mean when he said you have more time?" she quirks a brow at him, he lets out a long sigh, "I was going to tell you this morning, but you were hung over, so I thought it was best to wait till you were feeling better...."

She looks at him waiting, "...I-I..er...I quit!" she narrows here eyes at him not quite believing his words, "you quit?" she repeated his words, "yeah, two months ago actually. I wanted to find my feet before I told you and the boys, but now I have I thought you all deserved to know!"

She let out a light chuckle, "what's funny?" he looks at her, "heard it all before!" she walks away towards the kitchen, he follows her, "it's true!" he pulls out his phone looking through his emails.

"It was true the last time..." she pours herself another glass of wine, "look!" he slides his phone over the kitchen island to her "read that and look at the date!" her stubbornness kicks in, glancing at the phone she saw the Sussex Police header, she skimmed through the resignation email that was dated three months earlier.

"You said you quit two months ago, this is dated back three months?" he looks at her, "I had to give a months notice" her eyes meet his, "so what are you doing now?"

His hands run down his face, "I...er...I'm working with my Dad!" she knew that was the last thing he'd want to do, "you always said you didn't want to work in the family business. Why would you do a job that makes you so unhappy?" she looks at him over the top of her glass.

His eyes bore into hers never breaking contact, "because doing what I love means I can't be with the woman I love!"

She clamped her eyes shut and let out a breath before she caught his gaze, "not this again! I can't do this!" she set her glass down on the counter. "You've always said action speak louder than words, these are my action to keep you happy!" he looks at her the way he used to when he wanted to make up.

"But it's not just about where you work, I want you to love your job! But it's not just about that and you know that!" he huffs.

This wasn't the reaction he wanted or was hoping for, "are you going to Arlo's sports day?" he asked, wanting to change the subject, she nods, "he wants us both there"

"Specking of..are you going to Priya and Jason's wedding?" he cautiously asks "I don't think that's a good idea. I think you should just take the boys"

He bows his head, "I was kinda hoping you would come?" he looks up at her, "I don't think that's a good idea, plus I got Cherry to do the photos, so I didn't have to go!"

"It's just a wedding, you've known Jason for years, and you get on well with Priya...I don't see the problem?" he quirks a brow at her, "I don't want to confuse the boys!"

"Confuse them? How would going to a wedding together confuse them?" he looks at her, "because us, doing things together is confusing! Even for me!"

"But you are their Mum and a part of the family. To be honest with you, I was hoping you'd come to keep my Mum off my back," she chuckles knowing she could handle his Mum just like he could handle hers.

"Fine...if we are going together, it's just as friends that's it!" he nods, hoping this was a step forward...

~~~~~

Two and a half years earlier...

She pressed the brakes in vain, "MUM!" Arlo cried out before the world faded to black!

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Chapter 3 - Sport Day

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June 2020 Reblog Challenge

Reblog Challenge Masterlist

Day 153: Deep Blue, Painted Golden Masterlist: Part 1 (Football Player!Steve Rogers x Popstar!Reader) Steve Rogers is the all-American quarterback of the New York Avengers football team. Y/N Carter is the biggest pop star on the planet. A meeting by chance, an idyllic courtship, an amicable goodbye, and a shocking betrayal send Steve and Y/N on a whirlwind rollercoaster of emotions. Can Steve get to her before she hits rock bottom? Does Y/N have anything left to give him? Can they find a way to make it work? @sunriserose1023​ Day 154: Deep Blue, Painted Golden: Part 2

Day 155: Companion for Hire Masterlist: Last Resort (1) (Escort!Steve Rogers x Reader) Steve backed himself into a corner and now he has to produce a wife out of thin air before the weekend’s work retreat. He’s willing to do whatever he has to in order to save his job. Enter you, a companion-for-hire. Whatever he needs you to be, that’s what you’ll be. It shouldn’t be that hard to pretend to be husband and wife for three days, especially when your fake husband is handsome as hell and one of the sweetest people you’ve ever met. It’s a job, just like any other job. So, why are you having a hard time separating the fantasy from reality? *Sexual Content @captain-rogers-beard​ Day 156: Companion for Hire: Montauk (2) Day 157: Companion for Hire: Ruschmeyer’s (3) Day 158: Companion for Hire: Tension (4) Day 159: Oops! Day 160: Companion for Hire: Scavenger Hunt (5) Day 161: Companion for Hire: Talk It Out (6) Day 162: Companion for Hire: All Good Things Must Come to an End (7) Day 163: Companion for Hire: Not Giving Up (8) Day 164: Companion for Hire: Epilogue (9)

Day 165: Call Sign: Renaissance Masterlist: 01. Wheels Down (Steve Rogers x Reader) After a rescue mission gone wrong, you retire as a pararescue airwoman. When an old friend of yours comes calling, asking you to spearhead a disaster response team for the Avengers, you have to decide if you can let go of the past in order to save lives. Will you move on and possibly fall in love? Or will the demons of your past come back to haunt you? @captain-kelli​ Day 166: Call Sign: Renaissance // 02. Stilettos + Aviators Day 167: Call Sign: Renaissance // 03. Dueling Pianos  Day 168: Call Sign: Renaissance // 04. Planes + Parachute Packs  Day 169: Call Sign: Renaissance // 05. Beast of Burden Day 170: Call Sign: Renaissance // 06. Ring the Bell  Day 171: Call Sign: Renaissance // 07. Redemption  Day 172: Call Sign: Renaissance // 08. From the Ashes  Day 173: Call Sign: Renaissance // 09. The King’s Gambit  Day 174: Call Sign: Renaissance // 10. The Days in Between  Day 175: Call Sign: Renaissance // 11. These Things We Do

Day 176: Crossed Paths (Detective!Steve Rogers x Ex-Detective!Reader) Homicide Detective Steve Rogers is assigned on a case. His goal? Find out who the killer is and bring them to justice. This proves to be a hard task when he has no lead to go after, until your paths cross. He hasn’t seen you in three years, yet he wants you to help him finish his case. @romaxnogersav​

Day 177: Focal Point (Bucky Barnes x Reader) You take PR photos for Pepper Potts and are semi-successfully navigating your giant, unavoidable crush on one James Buchanan Barnes. @sunlightdances​

Day 178: Hearts Beat Fast (Doctor!Bucky Barnes x Reader) Reader is Bucky’s favorite patient and he’s always calling her in for follow up appointments because he has heart eyes for her. @propertyofpoeandbucky​

Day 179: Roommates (Loki Laufeyson x Reader) Bringing Loki back to Earth wasn’t Thor’s best decision and Tony Stark wants nothing to do with the God of Mischief.  With no other options, Thor finds a classified ad looking for a roommate.  You had no clue what you were getting yourself into when you agreed to let Loki live in your spare bedroom, but the chemistry between the two of you in undeniable.  Is Loki capable of adapting to life on Earth, and can he ever be content to be with a mortal woman from Midgard? @beccaanne814​​

Day 180: Just a Little Complicated (Florist!Steve Rogers x Reader) @empyreanwritings​​

Day 181: Forever in my Heart Masterlist: Part 1 (Steve Rogers x Reader) It had been ten years since you last saw Steve Rogers, unrequited teenage love, an ocean that separated you and loves never forgotten. What happens when you see him again a decade later? @prettyyoungtragedy​​ Day 182: Forever in my Heart: Part 2

July 2020 Reblog Challenge

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Reboot PoTA Couple Theme Songs and their Meanings

Boy did this take me a while to finish! This is something I’ve been working on almost all of 2019 and I’ve finally finished it (2019 was not nice to me-my classes were, but everything else was a blur of getting sick and going from no anxiety to anxiety attacks happening daily. It was just a mess!)

Like the title says, it’s a theme song list for our favorite Planet of The Apes shippings and couples (I only did a few to save time but if this gets popular enough, I could do another involving any shippings and couples that aren’t present here (such as Will X Caroline or Malcolm x Ellie)).

Each couple have their own five theme songs (because one isn’t enough to tell their full story) and each song represents something unique about the couple dynamic or how the shipping can be interpreted and will include a description underneath (some may be longer than others (the more I know on that shipping/more I have to say, the more I write about them)-I apologize in advance for that!). If there’s any information that is missing or details that I overlooked (or even if you disagree with the description) please feel free to share! 

Please note that you are not obligated to listen to these songs and you are completely and totally free to add a song to these couple lists. Part of the reason why I made this was in hopes that maybe it would spark a conversation amongst us PoTA fans about our favorite PoTA shippings/couple and explore other shippings. 

Also, I didn’t include OC relations here but feel free to add them in your reblogs(you may also re-use songs that are already on these lists if you feel they could describe your OC x Canon shipping)! All love stories are welcomed on this post! (the only rule is there can’t be any underage or huge age difference couples).

My information sources are:

All three Reboot movies, Firestorm, Revelations, The Planet of The Apes Fandom Wikia and also reading a couple of stuff/peaking around on AO3, FanFiction.net, DeviantArt, and Wattpad.

With that said, enjoy the theme songs!

Caesar x Cornelia 

Stand by you - Rachel Platten

Better Together - Jack Johnson 

Say Something (I’m giving up on you) - A Great Big World

Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down 

The Call - Regina Spektor

Description: 

As this is a couples list, it only makes sense to start it with the king and queen themselves!

I think it’s more than safe to say that these two loved each other very much. 

We saw Caesar and Cornelia’s relationship grow from Rise, Firestorm, Dawn, Revelations, to War and during that time, we’ve seen them grow closer (I actually think that, as their relationship progressed, Cornelia made Caesar a better leader-as she pointed things out to Caesar that he either ignored/didn’t realize/know in Firestorm). 

When I personally think about this couple, I think about Caesar: The life he grew up with, the family he left behind when he chose to stay in the forest with the apes, the hardships he had to face in the earlier days/years of freedom and I think about all the stress and the anxiety that he had to have felt during those times. He had to have felt that he had to show strength in the presence of his followers-that would have meant not thinking/talking about Will, Charles or Caroline or letting it be known if he missed them at all. 

Then I think about Cornelia. As his wife, she had to have known everything about Caesar. From his childhood to anything and everything he feared and worried about as king and leader. If there was anyone in the whole colony that Caesar could have shown that side to him, that uncertain, missing his family side to him, it would have been Cornelia, and I would imagine that she understood that he missed his human home. That she listened to his worries and comforted him-possibly reassured him if he needed it.

I didn’t know if it’s talked about very much but, as king and queen they’re very similar in personality: Both being compassionate and kind, but also fiercely protective of both the colony and of their friends and as parents, both are (also) protective and loving towards Blue Eyes and Cornelius (examples being Caesar protecting Blue Eyes from the bear and later protecting both sons from Carver in Dawn and Cornelia keeping Cornelius safe in Revelations). 

This couple is featured in nearly every fanfic out there and every Planet of The Apes role-play that Tumblr has but I feel like we don’t talk about it enough. In War, Caesar was more than devastated by Cornelia’s death (and by the death of Blue Eyes) as he became vengeful, murderous and (pretty much) ready to kill because of it (remember that man with the wood at the oyster farm where they found Nova?). 

If you really want to go there, it says a lot about his and Cornelia’s relationship during the war. That (maybe) the war took such a tool on Caesar (mentally and emotionally) that she became his strength. That (maybe) Caesar was already on the verge of losing it well before the attack on that hill (like having a breakdown or panic attack)-and I wouldn’t be surprised, as he was betrayed by Koba, then by Red and other followers of Koba, and his apes were being attacked, threatened and/or killed by the soldiers.

Maybe Cornelia kept him grounded, reminded him of who he was and what was important and when the Colonel killed her, it broke something in Caesar and when he lost her, he lost part of himself and may have forgotten who he was (only remembering when he realized he couldn’t kill the Colonel). 

Blue Eyes x Lake 

Kiss The Girl - Ashley Tisdale 

Love Story - Taylor Swift 

Colors - Halsey 

It’s all coming back to me now - Meet loaf

When you’re Gone - Avril Lavigne

Description: 

Blue Eyes and Lake clearly loved each other in War. We know they grew up together and played with each other as children though their (romantic) feelings for each other likely came later (around the time of Dawn/Revelations). 

We didn’t get to see much of their relationship (due to Blue Eyes dying and/or being sent away in Revelations) but, considering that Blue Eyes was protective of his friends and family (and openly affectionate towards them in War), I think it can be assumed that he would have been a loving husband to Lake and would have protected her if she were in danger. 

Lake appeared to love children, so it is reasonable to imagine they would have had children together and she would have, more than likely, been a wonderful mother to them. Lake was also brave (as seen when she defended Caesar in War), which makes it likely she could have assisted Blue Eyes as his queen (if he had lived to become king). 

And now, the Fan-Made couples!!! 

Caesar x Koba (aka: ‘Caba’)

Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra

Hold On - Chord Overstreet

A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson 

Breathless - Shayne Ward

Teddy Bear - Melanie Martinez

Description: 

Yes, I absolutely had to start with this one as it’s, if I’m not mistaken, the most common shipping in the fandom (and it’s also my favorite too!).

Caesar and Koba were obviously very close in Dawn (as best friends and honorary brothers) as Koba saved Caesar from that bear in the beginning and Caesar later gifted the pelt to him. This relationship was created when Caesar rescued Koba and other apes from Gen-Sys and continued in Firestorm.

I can’t remember if I got this far into Caesar’s Story, but I wanna say there was a part in the book where it talked about Koba having feelings for/falling in love with Caesar(?)(Please correct me if I’m wrong).

It all came crashing down when the humans showed up and Koba’s hatred of them was reborn and it became clear to him that Caesar still ‘loved’ humans (when Koba said “Caesar loves humans more than apes” he may have actually believed that-it is also possible he may have thought Caesar loved humans more than him). 

It eventually leads to Koba shooting him (which means he, essentially, abandoned his love for Caesar in favor of his hate for humans) and then declaring war on the humans-and later, resulted in Caesar having to kill him. Koba’s betrayal deeply hurt Caesar and so did killing him (let’s not forget that Koba’s ghost haunted him in War). 

What I’ve noticed with this shipping is it’s all about the vulnerable and damaged side of Koba’s personality and about Caesar’s protective and compassionate heart. 

Fanfics of this shipping sometimes follows the story of Dawn (with Pope as the bad guy or with Koba’s betrayal being deeper than just about revenge on the humans) and other times it’s completely different (nodding at the ‘Caesar and The Bonobo’ Beauty and The Beast AU on FanFiction and all other Caba one-shots(all deserve a read!)) but in all fanfics and fan arts of this shipping, there’s always a sense of heartache for the couple (either due to how Koba suffered before Rise or knowing how their relationship ended in Dawn).

Everything about this shipping is tragic and (when well-written out) heartbreaking but at the same time, it can be adorable and beautiful (I’m also tempted to call it irresistible for many fans-seriously, look on AO3, DeviantArt Wattpad, FanFiction.net-literally all of these sites has three or more fanfics/one-shots of this shipping (though I would advise you all to be careful as some of them may be, let’s say, ‘Rated R’)!).

I have not found any role-plays of this shipping on Tumblr (yet!) so I wouldn’t know how the shipping is portrayed in that category (Seriously, are there any role-plays of this? Cause I’d like to know!).

Koba x Stone 

I Still Love You - Josh Jenkins 

Yours to Hold - Skillet 

Grenade - Bruno Mars 

Hero - Enrique Iglesias

Immortal - Evanescence 

Description: 

I’ve, sadly, only seen this shipping on role-play blogs here on Tumblr so much of this is guessed (if anyone reading this has role-played this shipping before or have more experience with it, please correct me if I’m wrong!) 

Stone was one of Koba’s friends and first followers in Dawn (aside from Grey) but his motives for following Koba are never talked about (also in Revelations, it says he’s dead but he’s clearly seen alive in War…Does he have superpowers or did he just disappear and showed up again for War?) 

(Here’s my guess) Stone likely disagreed with Caesar’s role (to some extent but I doubt he was as extreme about it as Koba was) but what if, his main reason for following Koba had more to do with him having secret feelings for the bonobo than anything else? What if Stone saw and knew that Koba was still haunted by his past and comforted him when no one else would? And by the time the humans reappeared in Dawn, Stone developed his own hatred for the species that had hurt his love?

Meanwhile, Koba, who likely doesn’t feel comfortable talking about his past with anyone and felt betrayed and angered when Caesar disregarded his hatred of humans, probably would have resisted Stone’s affection for a long time before he finally let him in and fully accepted the comfort and love from the chimp (it is also possible Koba used that very sympathy to manipulate Stone into doing his bidding but I’m not sure if he would have needed to as, again, Stone would have already hated humans for torturing Koba in the past anyway).

Now about Stone’s death/survival: Let’s say that Stone survived Dawn (as seen in War). If he really did have feelings for Koba, it’s likely he would have felt guilty and somewhat responsible for his love’s death as he had chosen to agree with him that the apes should go to war with humans instead of talking Koba out of it (to be fair I’m not sure if Koba could have been convinced otherwise after the fight with Caesar in the dam but I think Stone would have had a better chance of reasoning with him anyone else).

Now let’s say Stone had actually died and Koba wasn’t defeated by Caesar. I think it’s more than safe to say Koba would be screwed if he was the one to have to go to war with the Colonel in War instead of Caesar (and it may be reasonable to suspect he may eventually realize the gravity of what he did and would regret it all as the war continues) but if this war took Stone early on, and if Stone and Koba were romantically involved, it’s also reasonable to assume Koba would have regretted that most of all-seeing Stone as the last (and by the time of War, the only) to love him and care about him and feeling lost and alone without him.

All in all, this shipping has a love lost and a sort of ‘dam(sel) in distress’ feel to it.

Koba x Cornelia

Sk8ter Boi - Avril Laringe 

When I was Your Man - Bruno Mars

Uptown Girl - Billy Joel

Bad Boy - Cascada 

Dear in The Headlights - Owl City 

Description:

I have the same problem here-total guesswork! 

Based on what little I know of this shipping so far, it reminds me of the ‘outcast falls in love with popular person’ scenario that is sometimes seen in high school movies. But this shipping could seriously work as a love triangle story! 

Koba and Cornelia have little to no interaction in the books (the ones I’ve read so far anyway!) or in the movies but it is known that they see each other as honorary brother and sister (due to Caesar and Koba being honorary brothers). It’s reasonable to assume they had mutual respect for each other and that Cornelia was just as betrayed by Koba’s actions as Caesar was. 

However, it is never revealed what Koba’s plans would have been for Cornelia had Caesar truly died (there is a chance he could have forced her into marrying him but I also think there's a chance she would have rebelled against him and Koba could have decided to kill her (or kill Cornelius as punishment and then kill her? I dunno know)). 

Also, what if Koba had wanted Cornelia as his wife all along and only decided to kill Caesar when he did because the humans ‘conveniently’ showed up (unlikely but maybe)? I think this shipping was born from the idea that Koba always had a secret crush on Cornelia but kept it a secret because she married Caesar and knew he had no chance with her.

Another thought (and this is highly unlikely but still): In the wild, chimps would have multiple mates (Rocket in Rise for example) so there's also a (tiny) chance that Caesar could (in theory) be married to both Cornelia AND Koba-I have never heard of this particular thing happening and I’m not sure if the Caba and/or the Koba x Cornelia shippings are popular enough to warrant that sort of dynamic but it would make an interesting fanfic. 

Koba x Pope 

Issues - Julia Michaels

Battles Scars - Guy Sebastian Ft. Lupe Fiasco

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem Ft. Rhianna

Next To Me - Imagine Dragons

Courage - Superchick

Description:

For those who don’t know, Pope is the main villain from the Dawn comics. He’s very similar to Koba (as they’re both apes that came from labs) but worse as he enslaved primitive apes and saw them as lesser beings-going as far as calling them ‘stupid animals’. 

Anyway, me and a friend made this one up a while back in our discussions and, from what I remember, we had two or three(?) different scenarios for this shipping. 

One being that since they were both abused and tortured by humans, they may find comfort in each other (finding it easy to show vulnerability to someone who’s equally damaged) and fall in love from their shared experiences. 

In the comic, Pope’s past is only hinted by Koba when he says: “He was like me…A lab ape. Bad Things, maybe worse.” and then his past is never mentioned of again however, Pope does say: “Never show weakness.” after the killing of a human later in the comic. Based on that, it’s reasonable to suspect that Pope may harbor a similar hatred to humans as Koba does and may suffer from demons of his own but keeps it well hidden from other apes.

Two being more about their personalities: Both Koba and Pope are capable of hurting people (as seen when Koba killed Ash and shot Caesar and Maurice in Dawn and when Pope killed the alpha, killed Fifer and Cora and enslaved all the primitive apes in the comic) and both are described by the PoTA Fandom Wiki as ‘cruel and tyrannical’ (with Koba being described as ‘belittling’, ‘unstable’ and ‘manipulative’ and Pope as ‘immoral’, ‘arrogant’ and ‘egomaniacal’). 

Considering these traits, it wouldn’t be too hard to imagine one of them to perceive the other’s vulnerability as ‘weakness’ and actually abuse the other (like Pope abusing Koba or Koba abusing Pope). Based on their personalities, it’s possible the kind of abuse they’d inflict on each other would likely be physical, emotional, or mental abuse (or all three).

Third (and this is more of continuation of the second one!), even if Koba and Pope weren’t abusing each other, their relationship would likely be argumentative, unhealthy, troubling, rough and just very dysfunctional. 

These are two very damaged apes with traumas that were not properly dealt with or given help for and full of pent up rage and hate towards humans (plus Pope hated Caesar and disrespected his rule). If they were to be a couple, their own traumas and hatred would feed off of each other and may, inadvertently, make it worse (this would likely not be a problem if Pope and Koba were with other people as a person who doesn’t have the same experiences or resentment as them would likely help ‘heal’ them). Maybe their relationship could work but they may need therapy (psychotherapy and/or couple therapy) before it gets there.

Red x Winter 

Sorry - Halsey 

Please Don’t Leave Me - P!nk

Accidentally in Love - Counting Crows

Secrets - OneRepublic

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

Description:

Eeeeeek! This one is my second favorite! I can’t wait to share this dynamic! :D 

Both gorillas are first seen in Revelations. Red being manipulative, defiant, aggressive and violent (as shown when he manipulated Grey, lead the soldiers to the building where the colony was hiding in, tried to kill Cornelia (twice and one being while she was trying to help another female ape give birth!) and also when he slapped Cedar) and Winter being fearful and timid (as seen when he faced the wall after the building next to the colony’s hiding place was blown up and when he failed to kill Cornelia (which Red manipulated him into trying to do anyway)). Both are seen again in War, where Winter proves himself as a coward and Red a traitor. 

Needless to say, both of these gorillas have very different personality types. The interactions they had both in Revelations and in War weren’t enough to say they were friends (let alone romantically involved) however, Red clearly knew Winter was easy to control. Why else would he consistently manipulate him? And Winter appeared to be afraid of Red. This could be because Red was more aggressive than him and Winter feared confrontation. 

However, there’s a lot about the two gorillas that were never revealed (backstory wise. I actually do have a backstory theory for Red but that’s a post for another day). For example, Red was shown to have a lot of anger built up in him and while it is believed to be due to Caesar killing Koba, it feels much deeper than that. 

Koba was only leader for a day and or two (or less, my math isn’t great) and Red was willing to kill Cornelia, manipulate and endanger other apes and betray the colony over that? No, this anger didn’t develop overnight. It had to have been there BEFORE Dawn (and it somehow has something to do with Caesar)!

Then there’s Winter. We know his father died before he was born but we don’t know how or what his relationship was/the whereabouts of his mother (this does open the door for speculation of whether or not the circumstances of his father’s death and the relationship he had with his mother could have anything to do with Winter’s fearfulness).

Finally, their relationship: What if Red’s anger and hate was all a mask? What if, deep down inside, he was actually a very hurt, troubled and damaged person and only knew how to show it through anger? And what if Winter’s greatest flaw was actually his strength? Winter was more open about his feelings in both Revelation and in War (whether it be fear, shock, or worry) while Red was very closed off. 

What if that difference was what originally attracted Winter to Red? What if Winter, despite being intimidated by Red, viewed him as mysterious and was drawn to him by that. Meanwhile, what if Red was secretly jealous of Winter being so open about his vulnerabilities-even if he knew others would look down on him for it.

With all that said (sorry it was that long!), Red and Winter’s relationship would be built on shared (either expressed or hidden) vulnerabilities and traumatic experiences. Both have flaws and neither of them are weak. They just depend on each other for strength and (in one-shots where they survive War) for belonging as they have no one else.

Blue Eyes x Ash 

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Dark Paradise - Lana Del Ray 

Perfect - P!nk

Complicated - Avril Lavigne 

Count on Me - Bruno Mars

Description:

This is another shipping I’ve only seen briefly-I’m not sure if there are any role-plays of it on Tumblr (but then again I never really looked either!) but there is a fanfic or two out there of this pairing (again, if I miss something a detail regarding this shipping, please let me know!).

Ash is first seen in Dawn when he and Blue Eyes are fishing together. Right away, it’s pretty clear these two are close friends and likely grew up together (which would make sense as their fathers are so close). Based on the interactions between him and Blue Eyes in that scene and the council meeting scene, Ash can be described as humorous (such as when he poked at Blue Eyes) and confident in himself (like when he was teasing Blue Eyes over the bear incident) and Blue Eyes, is protective of him as he (presumably) protected him from Carver before Rocket and the other apes intervened. 

Blue Eyes is left devastated and deeply hurt after Ash’s death and, throughout Revelations, thinks about him constantly and later having a dream about him. 

Since I don’t know that much about this pairing, this is where the guesswork comes in: As these two grew up together, it’s more than likely they also knew each other on a deeper level than their parents did-for example, Blue Eyes could have told Ash all his secrets, whatever worries or fears he had, maybe ranted to him about his anger and frustrations with his father or about being prince. 

I don’t know if Ash had any issues with his parents (as he and Rocket appeared to be very close as father and son-and we don’t really see Ash interacting with Tinker) but if he ever had a bad day, he’d likely talk to Blue Eyes about it just like Blue Eyes would. 

This relationship would be founded on childhood friendship, turned best friends, into lovers. Likely turning into a ‘you’re the only person I trust with my secrets’ kind of relationship while also being a very supportive and protective kind of relationship too.

McCullough x Caesar

I Hate Everything - Three Days Grace 

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne 

Hold Me Down - Halsey 

You Don’t Own Me - Grace Ft. G-Eazy

Hellfire - The Hunchback of Notre Dam

Description:

I dabbled on this one in my Whumptober one-shots but if anyone’s interested in more of this shipping, there’s a few on AO3 (it’s easily the black sheep of this list but I think it deserves a place here for clarification as to what this shipping could be versus what it sounds like). It’s a weird pairing but it’s worth checking out! 

I think we all know Colonel McCullough as the most evil human in the reboot movies (as he is willing to kill apes and any human who is infected with the virus-his own son for example) and seeing how he treated Caesar in War (chaining him up, forcing him and the ape colony to work, having him whipped and tied to a cross with no food or water for days, killing Cornelia and Blue Eyes) it’s easy to see why this shipping would raise eyebrows but it all depends on how one looks at it. 

For example, I see the shipping as a possible twist on War: As the war between the apes and AO soldiers unfold, McCullough’s desire to capture and/or kill Caesar turns into something else. He becomes obsessed with the Ape King and decides the best way to defeat him and get rid of the apes would be to destroy Caesar’s life. So he deliberately kills Cornelia and Blue Eyes knowing it will provoke Caesar to go after him and later in the base when McCullough has Red and Preacher bring Caesar to his office, he blackmails Caesar into marrying him (saying that he’ll let the colony live if he agrees).

As a result of it, Caesar becomes McCullough’s “chimp-wife” and is a prisoner in this forced marriage, the ape colony thinks he’s abandoned and/or betrayed them, the AO soldiers and the Donkeys are confused by the whole thing and Red and Preacher (who witnessed the Colonel’s blackmailing marriage proposal to Caesar) are thinking “WTF is happening here?”.

Another way one could see this shipping would be as something funny. Yes, it’s dysfunctional but that could be the point! If one wanted to make a fanfic of this shipping, they could use the dysfunctional aspects of the relationship and make it funny. Think Marge and Homer Simpson for example.

For those who have an issue with this shipping, I 100% agree this relationship would be doomed from the start (if we decide to take it seriously). If McCullough and Caesar were to be married, I can picture the Colonel being abusive and predigest towards Caesar and his species, blaming him for all things wrong in the world (such as the virus, the fall of the human race), likely never showing any love or affection towards Caesar, and poor Caesar would become depressed and miserable from this awful marriage. 

Bon x Pope (from the Dawn comics!)

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis 

Follow Him - Peggy March 

I would Do Anything For You - Foster The People 

Just The Girl - Click Five

All You Wanted - Michelle Branch

Description:

To be honest, I’m not sure if Bon was really this close to Pope as he only appeared once or twice in the Dawn comics BUT! he was one of his loyal followers and while it is possible he only disagreed with Caesar’s rule, there’s another chance that he may have had feelings for Pope (much like my description of the Stone x Koba shipping).

For those who didn’t read the comics, let me sum up the interactions between these two: Bon was one of Pope’s followers and is seen returning back to the zoo after (unsuccessfully) searching for an ape named Fifer who escaped them and informs Pope that there are humans nearby. Bon also took part in the battle between Pope and Koba and was later banished along with Pope’s followers while the primitive apes followed Koba back to the Ape Village. 

As this shipping, almost no leg to stand on (and is more made up than the others on this list) allow me to explain it here: Much like Grey and Stone towards Koba, Bon (and a gorilla named Rex) followed Pope-presumably because they also disliked Caesar and/or his rule. As Pope didn’t actually plan on killing Caesar until later in the comics and didn’t realize there were primitive apes, in the beginning, I don’t think there was any manipulation going on from him.

Now let’s look at Pope for a second: Pope was an ape who looked down upon anyone who showed weakness or was primitive and had no problem with enslaving, torturing, endangering or murdering other apes. Like I said in my description for the Koba x Pope shipping, Pope was also a lab ape (with fishnet scars on the left side of his face, shoulder and chest giving us a hint as to what he was put through-though it’s never actually discussed) so it is reasonable to imagine he may have his own demons and traumas, much like Koba does (unsurprisingly, Pope also hates humans). 

The thing about Pope that I’m curious about is if he is traumatized from what had been done to him at the hands of humans, does he show it? He likely doesn’t as he appears to dislike seeing it and other apes showing weakness but that would mean that, much like Koba, he’s holding things back, probably much more than Koba was (as Koba is seen in Dawn talking (briefly) about what he went through with humans to Caesar). 

Now looking at Pope and Bon, it makes me wonder if Bon could have picked up on that. Like what if Bon saw the pain that Pope was covering up and reached out to him? 

That, and it is also possible Bon was into the ‘bad boy’ type.

Phew, glad that’s over! XD

[iamnotawomanimagod]

2019 Retrospective Survey

Once upon a time, in the wayback ancient days of yesteryear, aka 2006 or so, people would fill out little self-important surveys about themselves almost every night on Myspace. These surveys were then posted to your profile via a “bulletin” and could be perused by your friends at their leisure. 

Eventually, this phenomena evolved into what we now know as “ask games” - people taking these surveys and, instead of just filling them out, reblogging them in the hopes that their followers might grow curious enough to send in some numbers.

Well, to that evolution of this tradition, I say - pah! I’ll answer all these questions and you’ll like it!!

Or you’ll skip it, which is probably the reasonable thing to do. This is mostly for me, so I have some vague record of this year to look back on, which I’ve been bad about the past several years.

1. First things first, did you have a good year?

It’s kind of tough for me to discern what is good and bad, anymore, especially when it comes to my life experiences. Things kind of just “are.” I think I had a pretty good year overall, though, if I step back and look at it, and ignore my mental health and those other niggling little details.

2. How old did you turn this year?

Twenty-eight. Getting up there. I’ve been doing some version of these surveys since I was like, fourteen. That’s fourteen years of random, unnecessary internet void-shouting.

3. Do you feel your age?

Not really. When I was younger, I definitely thought 28-year-olds always had their shit together, automatically, just because of the age. Like it feels like an age where I really should’ve outgrown a lot of things. But I haven’t yet, not at all, and I have zero interest in conventional adulthood.

Did your appearance change in anyway?

I got new glasses, because I lost my old ones in Hawaii.

Post your favorite selfie.

I rarely like selfies where I smile, so even though this one is clearly some goofy cheesin’, I still consider it kinda special.

If you traveled, where did you go?

I went to a place called Monroe, in Utah, which has some amazing hot springs. Slept overnight in a converted hippie bus. It was freezing (if you weren’t in the springs), but really fun!

I also went to Maui, Hawai’i. It was beautiful and I do see why people love it there, but it was very much so not for me. Also flying while fat fucking suuuuucks aaaaass, hugely.

Which fashion trends did you love?

Eye makeup got really fun and weird this year - I love the new shapes and crazy colors.

Here’s a decent example on Halsey. The way her top lid has a line above the lid and under the brow - I’ve never seen that before this year. Really fun and new kinda twist on makeup.

Which fashion trends did you hate?

Chunky dad shoes, the popularity of Crocs (and I fucking love Crocs, don’t get me wrong,) and other seemingly-ironic “comfortable chic” styles. It’s super cute on most skinny girls but the moment a fat girl tries to rock that style, it’s “sloppy” or “lazy.” On the other hand, it was good to see some women reject more revealing or extravagant styles in favor of being comfortable. It’s just tough for a fat woman like me to pull off.

What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible?

I pretty much lived in black sweatpants and baggy t-shirts this year.

What song sums up this year for you?

“I Think I’m OKAY” by Machine Gun Kelly feat. Yungblud

What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then?

I listened to a ton of “thank u, next” and “when we all fall asleep, where do we go?” this past year.

What was your favorite movie of the year?

I haven’t seen any movies from 2019 yet. I watched one film this year: “Slow West” - it was pretty good!

Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year?

The entire casts of Legacies and Runaways.

Favorite new TV show?

Probably Legacies! Really surprised me, but it’s a fun show!

Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears?

Cheleanor stole my heart this year, from The Good Place. I, of course, spent way too much time thinking and talking about The 100. Gotta give another shoutout to Legacies and Runaways. Special nod to #deanoru and #hosie, respectively.

What food did you try for the first time?

I tried dragonfruit and papaya for the first time while in Hawai’i. It was also the first time I’d ever tried and enjoyed mango. All the other mango I’d had was never sweet enough and always reminded me a lil bit of cat pee, but a fresh tropical mango is fuckin’ heaven.

Did you make any big permanent changes this year?

Not really “permanent”, but semi-permanent - I moved out of one place and into a new one. We definitely won’t be here forever, though. Maybe a year or two.

What was one nice thing you did for someone else?

I do a lot of little nice things for my husband every day, it’s kinda tough to list them all.

What was one nice thing you did for yourself?

I reached out to an old friend that I had been fighting with and made amends, and we’re friends again.

Did you develop a new obsession?

I always move from TV show to TV show obsessively - lots have already been mentioned. I think I got more into The Try Guys this past year than I have before. I also played a lot more management sims than I ever expected to - games like Dead in Vinland, Banished, Frostpunk, Weedcraft Inc, and This War of Mine.

Did you vote?

Shoulda - didn’t.

Did you move?

Yup! Moved out of my old roommate’s house and into my own apartment.

Did you get a job?

In a sense - I drive for DoorDash. It’s definitely work, but not a conventional job.

Did you get a pet?

No. :( In fact, I kinda lost some - I loved the shit out of my roommate’s dogs, I got way too attached to them. I miss them too much.

Do you regret not doing anything?

Not really.

Do you regret doing something?

Yeah, I let a friend down in July. Wish I hadn’t done that, but. I’m not a very good friend to have, and I’m okay with that. The people who get it stick around through the tough stuff.

Have you done anything that scared you?

I always think it’s a little scary to get on a plane. That’s probably it.

Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?

God, yes. Too many things. Still angry at my old roommate for being such an asshole about cleaning and for threatening to kick us out. That’s the one that happened this year, lol. But I’m still angry about things that happened years ago. I can hold a hell of a grudge.

Did you lose anyone close to you?

Not this year. Got lucky. Guess the universe decided to give me a little break.

Did you fall in love?

Nah, but I stayed in love with a coupla people. ;)

Did you fall out of love?

Nope!

Did you start a new relationship?

Nah. My husband and I have been together for 8 years.

Did you go through a break up?

See above!

Did you have to cut ties to someone?

Kinda. Had one or two people who wanted to be my friend. Made the mistake of being approachable and shit. But they figured out I’m a flakey asshole soon enough. :)

Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?

I made amends with my friend, Tracie, this year. She was always important to me. But I was pretending that she wasn’t, last year.

Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year?

I can’t really think of anyone. I guess my husband’s best friend - she moved out of our old house first, and I stopped talking to her as often. Prior to that we’d been pretty close. Proximity-based closeness is a trip, y’all.

If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?

Nah. I made it through. That’s all that counts.

What was the best moment of the year for you?

Seeing my friend get married. It was a really, really lovely ceremony.

What was the worst?

Probably when I tried out a new form of self-harm - aka banging my head as hard as possible against the bathroom sink. Gave myself a mild concussion. 0/5 would not recommend.

Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?

Going to Hawai’i. I don’t know why I thought it would change me - it just seems like one of those “life-changing” destinations, y’know? But it wasn’t. It was beautiful and otherworldly, and also full of a weird and uncomfortable mixture of white wealth and brown poverty. If anything, that only affirmed my beliefs more.

Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did?

It’s tough to answer these sometimes, because I just don’t really know who I am “as a person.” I don’t think there was anything I didn’t expect. Not this year.

What are you most proud of accomplishing?

I got out and worked a lot. I pushed through some really tough times and experienced some nice things on the other side. I was able to care for my husband during his down moments, the way he’s cared for me. I fuckin’ survived, which is always an accomplishment for someone whose brain is frequently shouting at them to end it all.

What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?

I’m more resilient emotionally than I thought I was. I’m less resilient physically than I used to be.

Did your opinion of anyone change for the better?

I feel warmer and closer to my mother-in-law than ever before.

Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?

My sister continues to find new ways to disappoint me, but that isn’t exclusive to 2019. My former roommate went from being, in my mind, a mostly-okay guy, to potentially one of the worst people I’ve ever met. And that’s really saying something. Duplicity and lack of awareness go a long way in making someone shitty, though.

If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?

Nah, pahaha. I was supposed to go outside and also journal every day. Didn’t do that. I mostly kept up with it, but there are a lot of gaps. I definitely spent a week or two consecutively indoors, at least twice.

If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year?

Probably gonna keep trying with the old ones, tbh.

If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do?

I would go pick up Cami and head north, for Alaska. Find someone beautiful and peaceful to see the aurora borealis. Drink cream liqueur and hot cocoa with scarves and hats and gloves on. Look up at the endless stars. Have a long, sleepless road trip back, screaming our favorite songs at the top of our lungs, stopping at interesting places when we can.

What do you wish for others for the coming year?

I just hope things get better, dude. Stabler. Less scary.

What do you wish for yourself?

Same as the above, but on a micro scale. I’m heading into my 30s in this next decade. I gotta find something else to do besides just surviving.

[waywardnerd67]

Red Pants of Sex

Summary: (Y/N) tags along with Jensen to his interview on Live with Kelly and Ryan. Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Reader Pairing: Jensen x Reader Warnings: Fluff/Smut Word Count: 2300 A/N #1: Inspired by Jensen wearing red pants on Live with Kelly and Ryan. Also, for my wifey @dean-winchesters-bacon for reminding me that I wanted *cough* needed to write this. Love you wifey! A/N #2: As always this is unbeta so all mistakes are mine. Likes, comments and reblogs are splendid and I will love you doubly for them! Enjoy! Special Note: This is a work of FICTION and should be enjoyed as such. I mean absolutely no disrespect to the Ackles family as I truly adore and admire them.

Also Check out: Red Shirt of Sex & Ginger Beard of Sex

Beep. Beep. Beep.

I stretched my arm out smacking the annoying machine bringing me out of my peaceful slumber. A strong arm snaked around my waist pulling me back against a firm body. A smile immediately spread across my face as the man who was the center of my everything snuggled against me holding me tight.

“Five more minutes.” He mumbled his voice raspy from being sleepy.

I chuckled, “You don’t have to convince me to lay here. If I had my way, we would stay in bed all day.”

His soft laughter rumbled from his chest and I felt his lips stretch into a smile against the back of my neck. “I could think of a few things we could do in bed all day.”

“I think your manager would be upset if you missed your interview today. I know Ryan would be pissed for you staying in bed all day with your little ole wife than seeing him.” I explained as he lifted himself up making me roll perfectly underneath him.

I looked up into the mischievous olive eyes of Jensen Ackles who never failed in all the years we had been together to make my heart flutter. “Ryan would understand after some groveling and a bottle of Scotch. However, my manager would not be.”

His head hung low with his sandy brown hair tickling my cheek and neck. I brushed my fingers along his arms over his broad shoulders and up into his hair earning me a low growl. He began to nip at my neck causing me to giggle until his soft full lips covered mine.

One of his large hands made their way under my shirt palming my bare breast. I hooked my feet around his narrow waist pushing him closer to my aching core as his hips grinded into me. He began a trail of open mouth kisses down my neck as a long moan escaped my lips.

“Yo Jay, you have ten minutes before we have to leave.” Came Clif’s booming voice through the hotel door after knocking on it a couple of time.

I laughed when Jensen groaned, “Rain check pretty girl?” he asked.

“Definitely handsome. Now get your fine ass in the shower so you can leave on time.” He quickly kissed my lips before rolling out of bed and stripping down to take his shower.

I had decided to stay behind and leave with his best friend and co-star, Jared Padalecki. It had been a while since Jared and I had some time together. The three of us had been friends since the moment we all met. Jared and I had instantly connected with one another driving Jensen crazy at times.

Having breakfast with him was relaxing and a much needed break from all the hustling around we had been doing. As we arrived at the studio, Jared stopped to say hi to the fans and take photos with them. I always admired the guys for the time they spent with their fans. Always making sure they knew how much they truly loved and appreciate them.

Jared and I stood off to the side as the show began. Kelly and Ryan starting the introduction for Jensen to come out on stage. When he did, my heart stopped. He walked out in a plain white t-shirt covered by a simple blue blazer and white sneakers. However, it was his pants that had caught my attention.

His long, bow legs were covered by dark red pants that fit him like a glove. Highlighting all the best features of his lower half including his muscular legs and bubble butt. He seemed to walk with more confidence than I could ever remember and that was a huge turn on.

“(Y/N), you alright? You’re breathing heavily.” Jared asked as I nodded watching Jensen sit down in his chair.

As the interview when on all I could do was stare at Jensen’s every little move. The way he would rub his thigh or fidget in his seat. It was driving me mad as I wanted nothing more than to drag him to the nearest locked room and fall to my knees before him.

“Now Jensen, your wife is here as well, and I have to say you are one lucky guy. She is absolutely stunning.” Kelly said as Jensen pointed over to me.

My cheek burned as he gave me his best breathtaking smile, “You don’t have to tell me how lucky I am. I already know. She could have ended up with this guy over here.”

Jensen began telling the story of how Ryan and I had gone on a blind date inviting me back to their house. “The moment (Y/N) and Jensen saw one another I knew I had no chance with her. I should have known not to bring her back to the house.” Ryan interjected.

Everyone laughed at the story, “I have thanked him repeatedly for bringing her because I wouldn’t be who I am today without her. She’s everything to me.”

The audience awed as I blew him a kiss. When the interview was over Jensen took some pictures with Ryan and Kelly then planned on meeting with the fans outside. My body was buzzing with pent up energy waiting for him to get in the car with Jared and me.

As soon as we were back to the hotel, I grabbed Jensen hand pulling him towards the elevators that lead to our room. I did not care if Jared was making crude comments as the elevator doors closed.

Jensen was chuckling, “Pretty girl, everything okay?”

I was tapping my foot impatiently as I watched the numbers flash with each passing floor. Finally, the door sprung open and as best as I could dragged my six foot one husband down the hallway. When the sound of the door latching shut I crashed my body against his. My lips pressing up to his as my hands reached around grabbing his perfect butt.

“Whoa, what has gotten into you?” He laughed as I bit my lower lip.

I brought one of my hands around his hip and over his length. He hissed rolling his head back as my hand slowly worked over his harden cock.

“Don’t laugh, but these pants are doing all kinds of things for me. It’s like that damn red shirt you wore while playing Demon Dean or when you grow your ginger beard out during hiatus. There is something about you and the color red that drives me crazy.” I said popping the button open on his pants.

When I looked up at him, his eyes were dark and filled with desire that I knew was only for me. The tension building between us was reaching a critical level and I broke first. I needed him. In any way I could get him, I needed to feel him. In my hands, my mouth, I did not care. I just needed him.

I sunk down to my knees my hands carefully pulling down the zipper of his red pants of sex. Hooking my fingers, I brought his pants and boxers down his thighs. His length stand firm just inches from my lips. I looked up at him one last time seeing his body rigid from holding back. He wanted me to be in control and that was just one of the many reasons why I loved him so much.

Gently, I ran my hand down his length feeling his body tremble as my tongue licked the underside of it. A strangled sigh slipped his mouth as I took him slowly into my mouth. There was no other man I had ever been with that I loved going down on. The way he tasted, the noises he made gave me the confidence to be bold.

“Fuck… (Y/N), that feels so good.” He moaned leaning back against the wall behind him. His large hands gathering into my hair guiding me over his cock.

My hands ran up the back of his legs to his ass pushing him further down my throat. The growl that rumbled from his chest send chills straight to my core. He was close to coming and I began to suck a little harder and faster using my hand to pump him at the base of his cock.

“Pretty girl… I’m gonna… fuck!” He cried out as he came deep inside my mouth.

Swallowing every last drop I licked him clean and as soon as my mouth left his cock he picked me up tossing me over his shoulder. I yelped as he gave my ass a firm smack grabbing a hold of it. I knew my time of being in control of over and now it was his turn.

Setting me down his lips crashed to mine as he kicked up his shoes and his pants along with his boxers. Both of us were breathing heavily as we parted. He tossed his jacket on the floor and pulled his t-shirt over his head. I could not help but to stare at the naked man in front of me.

It still amazed me after all this time that this beautiful man on the inside and out was mine. “See something you like?” He asked a smirk playing on his lips.

I nodded biting my lip the way I knew drove him crazy. He ran his thumb over my bottom lip pulling it from my teeth. His hands slipped underneath my blouse pulling it over my head and tossing it to the side. Next was my skirt that he dragged down my legs kneeling in front of me. His lips brushing against my stomach.

He pulled my panties down next his hands trailing up my legs to my hips pushing me back onto the bed. My legs slipped over his strong shoulders as he kissed his way up to her. I pressed my head back against the mattress as his tongue leisurely licked my folds.

“Oh, pretty girl I could stay down here for days tasting you.” He whispered against my mound making my body shiver.

His expert mouth began working me over as my body writhed against the bed. My hands grasped his hair as I shamelessly grinded my hips against his face. His arm snaked around my waist holding me in place as he pushed two thick fingers into me.

“Jensen!” I cried out as he slowly pumped into me over and over again.

His low chuckle against my clit pushed me over the edge. Gripping the sheets beside me I cried out coming hard on his fingers as his tongue licked me clean. Watching Jensen crawl up to me was like watching a cheetah stalking their prey.

As he looked down at me I bit my lip suddenly feeling bashful from what I wanted. I still got nervous asking for things even though we had done everything possible in the bedroom.

“What is it? What do you want?” He asked his voice deep and sensual.

My cheeks burned as he placed kissed along my neck, “Against the wall.” I whispered.

It was the only position we had only done once, and it had been in a fit of passion after a fight. Emotions were running high and Jensen had pushed me against the wall kissing me to keep me from arguing with him. It had been the hottest sex they had ever had, and I had been fantasizing about it ever since.

Jensen pulled me up from the bed picking me up as my legs wrapped around him. He pressed my back against the nearest wall bracing myself against it as his hands went to my hips. Aligning himself with my entrance I sunk down onto him slowly. I gripped his shoulders my head falling back against the wall with a thud.

His face was pressed into my neck and his muscles were straining as he held still for a moment. I slowly grinded my hips against his and he snapped them up pushing even further into me. I cried out holding onto him as he did it again.

“Oh god… Jensen again.” I moaned as his hands gripped my hips tighter.

He began to thrust up into me faster until I was practically bouncing on his cock. My back and head were thumping against the wall with each thrust. I opened my eyes to see his body moving against mine and I was in awe of his strength. Watching him, feeling him, hearing him was all too much and I could feel the coil within me about to snap.

“(Y/N), come with me... now.” He demanded, and my body immediately responded stars flashing before my eyes as my orgasm flooded my body.

He buried his head into the crook of my neck muttering out his own release. His arms wrapping around me holding me tightly as he pushed inside me a few more times. His body leaned against mine pressing me further against the wall.

He lifted his head to rest against mine, “Pretty girl if I promise to wear those pants again can we do this again?”

“Absolutely, handsome. You wear those red pants of sex and you can do whatever you want with me.” I chuckled as he smiled widely.

Jensen carried me over to the bed laying me down before getting in himself cuddling against me. I began to laugh as I could feel his cock getting hard against my ass. “Round two?” I whispered.

He rolled me underneath him smiling, “Oh god yes, we are going to spend the rest of the afternoon in bed.” He said leaning down and kissing me.

I could not think of any better way to spend an afternoon than making love with the man I love.

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#5

What the fuck is this

2 notes • Posted 2021-03-02 11:23:08 GMT

#4

hey idk if u know but that person never stated they were aromantic, just that they were fucking their friend behind her husband's back :/ as a bisexual aromantic person can we stop equating queerness to infidelity thanx xo

I don’t care about your pet cause and you don’t have to care about mine. Also I think homewrecking is not only morally neutral but actually a solemn duty on the part of each and every one of us. Thank you for the kind ask, go have sex w someone’s husband.

4 notes • Posted 2021-07-11 20:07:11 GMT

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Charlie Kelly from It’s Always Sunny… poor little meow-meow…

5 notes • Posted 2021-07-18 19:57:35 GMT

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I’m tired of discussions abt paganism/Punk rock/witchcraft/history/insert other hobbies “poisoned” by the far right. Every time someone tries to say “those guys are assholes, they’re not my friends, and they aren’t representative of this subculture/interest” they get accused of using the no true Scotsman fallacy. That’s... not how that works.... Obvi someone who talks abt what “real” witches or whatever do is in fact employing a logical fallacy, but ppl who just want to say “I’m not a nazi, and in fact I hate nazis and don’t associate with them” have not done anything deserving of snide replies about how obviously this is the real character of their subculture and they’re just in denial.

I am so tired of everyone bitching about how “we” haven’t done enough to keep right-wingers out of “our spaces.” This is such a weird take. One cannot control the actions of other people unless one 1) knows who they are and 2) has the power to persuade them by either words or force. We usually cannot prevent random violent white people from doing internet research on punk music or WWII. We can beat up and shun shitty people when we encounter them co-opting our interests irl, but you are in fact unlikely to casually run into these shitty people because oh, idk, they probably actively avoid you and vice versa, since aside from your one interest or subculture or whatever, y’all have n o t h i n g in common.

And when you do encounter these ppl in real life? From each according to their ability, my dude. Why are we yelling at sickly teens on the internet about their failure to regularly beat nazi ass??? These dickheads run in groups, and are usually armed. Fuck them up when you can! Absolutely! I’m just tired of the mindset that we all seemingly have a superpower that allows us to instantly push nazis out of our spaces. That one story abt a bartender kicking out a nazi skinhead is inspirational, but can we please use critical thinking? That story is about a person who situationally HAS the power to kick that guy out, and it’s JUST one guy. Yeah you have to kick out the first nazi to make sure their friends don’t start coming around, but you have to 1) know they’re even there 2) recognize they’re a nazi and 3) have the ability to deny them access! How does this lesson translate to the internet??? Ban them from your forum? (assuming you even fucking run one or have mod powers anywhere online) Oh, you mean the way everyone worth a damn is already doing?? They’ll just fucking make their own, and tech giants have shown time and again that they’re not interested in shutting right-wing extremists down. And irl? What do you think will happen to you if you walk your happy ass up to a tent full of odinists at a ren faire? That battle is the organizers’ to fight, and if they’re not willing to fight it, they’re not “us” and you’re not in “our space!” You’re just accidentally in a nazi space! Woops, don’t do it again, I guess (at least not without some friends backing you up). 

The truth is, people who aren’t nazis already do not tolerate nazis in their spaces. That doesn’t stop the shitheads from running away to their own turf and continuing to loudly and publicly misappropriate others’ symbols and activities. I think the real problem is that when they do this, people consistently give up their subcultures, interests, and religions. It’s not when fash take an interest that the thing dies, it’s when you give it up out of cynicism and fash are the ONLY ONES still talking about it! That’s when you’ve actually lost your shit for good. And getting mad at ppl for not magically reaching in the heads of extremists and yoinking all the cool interests out of there is facilitating this. Y’all are the very problem you’re bitching about. You’re mad at people for “failing” in some nebulous way at a task that a) doesn’t exist and b) shouldn’t even be anyone’s primary focus. Keep being a witch or a history nerd or whatever. Do it loudly, and publicly, and set a good example for others who are interested. Otherwise, I guess you can keep letting nazis chase you from your own culture while self castigating bc you didn’t somehow prevent a white supremacist from googling “cottagecore aesthetics” in the comfort of their own home.

This post is not for sophists and petty discourse-jockeys to clown on. This is an argument on which you must be --> this nuanced to ride. Don’t fucking send me messages or comments about how I’m saying it’s ok to use swastikas bc they were appropriated. I’m not saying you should use hate symbols that will cause other people to fear for their life in your presence! I’m saying stop giving up your normal-ass interests and activities to shitty people. And for fuck’s sake stop harassing people who are obviously not far-right, just because they like My Little Pony or Greco-Roman architecture or something. Stop it. Get some help.

9 notes • Posted 2021-01-09 00:50:52 GMT

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After literal years (since 2015) of being lurp-burp, I have now become mouthfacedickrat

Thank you all for understanding

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30-40 of the OC questions. Please and Thank you!

Thank you for asking! I was trying to edit cute little headline for each character before answering the question, but we all know how I am at editing so that obviously didn’t happen Q-Q

30. Which one of your Ocs most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection?

That would 100% be Viola Mays. She likes to try to pretend that she’s grown and mature, but we all know that she’s still just a kid who loves dolls and stuffed animals. 

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

I’m gonna go with Eirwen Mays. I feel like she would totally have a Tumblr, but not post on it. She would always be strolling through different animal tags and reblogging everything fluffy and adorable. 

32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why?

I think this one is a tie between Kelly Teel and Mihael Goth. Kelly would be great as a horror game protagonist because he’s brave, loves to adventure, and is always able to weasel himself out of dangerous situations. Mihael would be both the best and the worst. He would be the best because he is super protective of his younger brother Taylor and would NOT let anything happen to him. But that would also make him the worst because he doesn’t really care about anyone else. The others would be used as bait if it meant saving his little brother.

33. Your shyest OC?

That would be Ember Mays. She has always been shy and hid behind the backs of her older brothers. But now that they’re in high school she’s starting to come out of her shell a bit. 

34. Do you have any twin characters?

Yep! Robin and Kelly Teel from Bianca’s arch are twins. 

35. Any sibling characters?

Oh yes, where do I start? For the Mays family, Winnie, Eirwen, Wilder, Bianca, Viola, Colden, Blue, and Ember are all siblings. Then for the Goth family, Mihael and Taylor are brothers. And like mentioned in the previous question, Robin and Kelly are twin brother and sister. 

36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?

No, but PM me if you’re down for a collab!

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

Boe Fowler, you can read about him and follow his story with the Mays-Fowler story arch! 

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer? 

Hunter Keeler from Liar Liar has some sick moves. 

39. Introduce any character you want. 

Sorry, but the next characters I’m introducing need to be kept a secret for a little bit longer ;)

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

I have so many fond memories of the Mays kids! I remember how excited I was when Winnie first aged into a teenager and I was even more excited when she went off to university. I made a future husband for her, but it ended up never happening because Winnie accidentally got pregnant by her boyfriend Mortimer! It was so crazy and I was honestly so upset when it happened, but now I love her sons to pieces. It’s crazy to think that if things had gone as planned, my two favorite Sims never would have been born!

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Destiny

Summary: A mysterious woman is emails Sam Winchester needing to meet with him and Castiel. When they find out who she is and where she is from they must decide how to handle telling Dean and (Y/N). The shock of the truth and a great threat to the world has all the Winchesters panicking. The fate of their futures depends on this mysterious woman. Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel, Samantha Mills (OFC), Reader Pairing: Dean x Reader Warnings: Angst/Tiny bits a fluff thrown in Word Count: 4126 A/N: I was listening to Kelly Clarkson’s “Piece by Piece” and this story popped into my head. The song has a lot of meaning to me since my own dad and I did not have a great relationship. The point of view is a little different so I hope everyone will like it. As always this is unbeta so all mistakes are mine. Likes, comments and reblogs are splendid and I will love you doubly for them! Enjoy!

Walking into the small diner, she looked around spotting the two men she was meeting with. Her stomach churned as she approached the table, “Hello Sam, Castiel.” She said as she sat across from them.

They looked to each other then back at her. “How do you know us?” Sam asked the ache in her heart growing as she stared at the man she had admired for so long.

“You can say that I’m a distant relative of sorts. Look, I don’t have all the time in the world to explain everything to you. The world is in great danger as is all of our futures.” She looked to Castiel smiling feeling more at ease with him there.

Sam sat back holding up his hands, “Look I don’t know who you are or how you got my email address but I think you better start telling us everything.”

“Cas, press your fingers to my forehead and see who I am. I trust you completely if you tell me to tell Sam everything.” She said closing her eyes.

She felt his fingertips touch her head hesitantly and then she became lightheaded for a moment. When she opened her eyes again his deep blue eyes were wide staring at her.

She took his hand, “Cas should I tell him?” she asked as he looked bewildered then nodded. She looked back to Sam who had his forehead scrunched and arms crossed as she took a deep breath.

“My name is Samantha Cassie Winchester-Mills and I am your niece from the future.” Saying it out loud sounded ridiculous to her and from Sam’s expression that is how it sounded to him as well.

He scoffed glancing over to Castiel, “This has to be a joke, right Cas? She can’t possibly be… wait did you say my niece?” He snapped his head back to Samantha who nodded.

“My father was Dean Winchester and my mother is (Y/N) Winchester. I am the oldest of their two kids, my brother’s name is Henry Bobby Winchester.” She explained as Sam sat back taking all of it in. She knew it was going to be difficult convincing them of who she was and if she needed to, she had a last resort to use.

“Sam, she is telling you the truth. Looking at her now, I can see Dean and (Y/N) within her.” Castiel said as she smiled at him.

She leaned forward, “I know this is hard to wrap your head around, but thirty years in the future the world is at war. Lucifer is back and ruling most of the world, hell and heaven has shut its doors to everyone. I need,” she paused thinking of Henry and swallowing the lump in her throat, “I need to know how to get Lucifer out of my brother so I can save the world.”

Sam’s jaw slacked for a moment before stuttering, “Lu-Lucifer back?”

She nodded, “Yes and I need to save my brother no matter what the cost is.” Samantha looked up into her Uncle’s hazel eyes watching as the shined over from holding back his emotions.

Samantha followed Sam and Castiel through the familiar Bunker door and she looked out over the landing memories flashing before her mind. She missed the Bunker a lot, but in the future, it was just a heap of concrete piles destroyed within the first year of the war.

“Are you okay, Samantha?” Castiel asked her as she smiled softly nodding.

As she walked down the stairs she stopped suddenly hearing her mom’s voice echoing throughout the corridors. Samantha bit her lower lip nervous reminding herself that even though they were her parents they also were not yet. Taking a deep breath, she walked down into the War Room standing close to Castiel as Sam went to get who would be her parents.

Seeing her mom at the same age she was made her smile brightly. She was beautiful with her long (Y/H/C) hair and soft green eyes. When Dean came from the far corridor by the library, Samantha sucked in a deep breath. The anger, resentment and emptiness she felt most of her life hit her like a tidal wave. Her hands began to tremble and bile was rising into her throat. She expected to have some kind of reaction to seeing him again but she was not prepared for how overwhelming it was.

“Cas, who’s your girlfriend there?” Dean asked as she balled her fists at her side. (Y/N) smacked Dean’s shoulder playfully.

Shaking her head, she came up to Samantha sticking out her hand, “Don’t mind him. I’m (Y/N) Winchester and that man-child is my husband, Dean. What is your name?”

Samantha shook her hand and looked to Sam who spoke up, “I think we all need to sit down for this.”

They all took a seat around the large map table as Sam explained everything. Samantha watched as (Y/N) placed her hand over her mouth and instinctive touched her stomach. No one else seem to notice the gesture as Dean’s skeptical face narrowed his eyes at her.

“This is crazy. I know we’ve traveled to the past before, but this is beyond crazy. How do we even know this woman is who she says she is? She could be anyone.” Dean’s disbelieving tone sent her anger sky high as she reacted before thinking.

“Well, it’s no surprise that you wouldn’t know your own daughter if she slapped you across the face. You sure in the hell would not know your son who, by the way, is a meatsuit for Lucifer right now. If you don’t want to believe me that’s fine, but if family means so much to you then you will help me save my brother!” She yelled standing up and walking off towards what would be her room.

She heard her mom’s voice called out to her, “Samantha, stop.” Immediately, she stopped in her tracks and turned around seeing her mom gasp.

“(Y/N), how did you know her name? I never said her name.” Sam asked stunned as Dean looked to her in a similar fashion.

(Y/N) looked to Dean and gently took his hand placing it on her stomach, “I’m six weeks along. I just found out a couple of days ago and have been planning out a way to tell you.” She said softly.

Samantha walked back over sitting back down next to Castiel. Dean was motionless as he stared at (Y/N). Samantha could see his hand trembling against her stomach as (Y/N) had tears coming down her cheeks.

“I’ve already thought of a few names I liked. Henry for a boy after your grandfather and Samantha,” Her voice cracked slightly looking up into her eyes, “for a girl after Sam. Dean look at her. She… she’s our daughter. She has your olive eyes and my body shape.”

(Y/N) stood up walking towards Samantha and she could no longer hold it in. She missed her mom desperately and she got up hugging her tightly. They were sniffling with tears running down their faces. (Y/N) could her face in her hands letting out a strangled chuckle wiping away her tears.

“Hi mom.” Samantha whispered hugging her again then they heard the scraping of a chair against the floor.

She turned seeing Dean walking away, “This… this is all too much for me.”

Samantha watched as he walked away bring back vivid memories of the last time she had ever seen her father.

May 2029

Samantha held onto Henry small hand as their parents were arguing. Neither of them aware they were standing there.

“Dean, there has to be another way! I can’t live this life without you dammit!” Her mom yelled through tears streaming down her face.

Her dad sighed heavily and pulled her mom into his arms, “(Y/N) I wish there was another way, but there isn’t. Sam and I jumping in is the only way to save the world for good this time. You will take the kids far away from here with Cas and you give them the normal life they deserve. You live the normal life I could never give you and all of you live nice long lives.”

In all of Samantha’s ten years of life she had never seen her dad cry. He had been hurt badly and never once cried making him the bravest person in the world in her eyes. Her vision blurred as tears fell from her eyes. That is when her dad noticed them standing there and he smiled at them.

“Come here you little stinkers.” He called out kneeling down picking Henry up as he ran into his arms. “Alright little buddy, daddy is going to have to leave for a while. That means you’re the man of the house and you need to take care of your mom and sister. If you ever need help, then ask Uncle Cas. Okay?” Henry nodded throwing his little arms around their dad’s neck hugging him.

Samantha stood by her mom whose body was quivering watching her dad and brother hugging. She took Henry from her dad and he looked down to her. His bright green eyes wide and shiny from crying.

“C’mere Sammi.” He said as she launched herself into his arms. Her arms wrapped around his waist and her face pressed against his stomach hiding her tears. She heard him take in a shaky breath before speaking, “Sammi, I need you to be strong. I know you won’t understand why this needs to happen but know that I love you so much. I love you, I love Henry and I love mommy more than anything in this world. Try to remember that when you look back on this day.”

Samantha started sobbing and he picked her up with ease as she wrapped herself around him. He rested his chin on her thin shoulder and she could hear her mom crying behind her. He pulled her mom to them all four of them hugging one last time before he let go of them. He kissed each of them and then started walking down the corridor towards the garage.

Samantha ran after him screaming, “DADDY! DADDY DON’T LEAVE ME! DADDY!” That is when she felt a pair of strong arms grabbed her around her waist and she looked up seeing Castiel. She struggled against him until finally giving up and falling against him crying.

Present Day – 2018

“I will go talk to him.” Sam said as he went to get up but Samantha stopped him.

She shook her head and started walking towards what was her parents room, “I will.” She said simply as no one stopped her.

Walking down to the familiar corridors was weird for her and seeing the door to room number eleven partial closed she knocked on it before entering. Her dad sat on his bed with his legs outstretched and his back resting against his headboard. When he looked up at her, she was not prepared to see the agonizing sadness on his face.

“May I show you something?” She asked pulling up a chair next to his bed. He swung his legs over the edge and nodded sitting up.

Samantha reached into her jacket pocket and pulled out several pictures. Laying them all out on the bed for Dean to see. Pictures from her childhood in the Bunker. Pictures of their family smiling together and having birthday parties with the Jody Mills and the family she built with wayward children. Summer trips to her cabin with all of the kids swimming in the nearby lake. As Samantha explained each picture she could see her dad’s face changing into the man she remembered.

“This is my favorite picture.” She handed him it to him as she watched as tears slipped down his face. It was her tenth birthday and she was sitting in the driver’s seat of her dad’s Impala. He was sitting in the passenger seat as Sam and Castiel were in the back. She was smiling brightly pretending to drive as the rest of them were acting like they were scared.

Samantha stood up leaving the pictures for him to look at, “I know this is a lot to take in. I’m sorry that I lashed out at you. It took me a long time and getting married myself to come to terms with you leaving. As we speak, my husband and daughter as living in an underground shelter hiding from Lucifer who has brought on the Apocalypse while I’m here trying to not only save the world but my brother. Not to mention a psycho crazy Archangel trying to wear me to the prom.”

She paused seeing Dean’s head snap up and she held up her hand to continue, “As much as I would love to have a heart to heart with you right now I don’t need my dad. Right now, I need Dean Winchester and Sam Winchester the legendary hunters who defeated Michael and Lucifer.”

He gathered her pictures handing them to her, “Okay. Sam and I will help you in any way we can.” She nodded as they left the room walking back out to the War Room where everyone was waiting for them.

“Now, Samantha tell us everything that happened.” Dean said once they were all seated.

Samantha shared with them everything that happened with Henry and Lucifer. It was a day she would never forget no matter how much she tried.

March 2049

Samantha drove the beat-up Impala up to the gates of an old cemetery outside of Lawrence, Kansas with Def Leppard’s ‘Rock of Ages’ blaring out the windows. It was the exact spot that her dad and uncle had jumped in together trapping Lucifer and Michael in the cage. The same spot her Uncle Sam had jumped in trapping Lucifer in the cage with his half-brother Adam having Michael inside the cage.

She saw her brother staring over to her as she killed the engine and got out of the car. She casually walked up with her demon handcuffs in her pocket and angel blade at the ready up her sleeve.

“Sammi, I have to do this. I know you don’t understand but everything will be better. We will have everything we wanted as kids once I complete this.” He said as he ran his hand over his chocolate brown hair.

She shook her head, “You know dad said the same thing to me when he left. He had to leave and it was all for the better but it’s not. Whatever Lucifer is promising you is a lie. You’ve read Uncle Sam’s journals about Lucifer. Everything that comes out of his mouth is deception and lies.”

She watched as her brother squared his broad shoulders. His jaw set in a stubborn straight line just like she could remember her dad doing when she was set in his ways. She dropped her angel blade as Henry laughed.

“You’re going to kill me? I don’t think so sis. You’ve been out of the game too long now. I promise if you leave now then you and your family will be safe. Lucifer will bring dad back, Uncle Sam, mom and we can all be one big happy family under his rule.”  A wicked smile spread across his face as he turned his back to her beginning to chant his incantation.

Samantha hesitated for only a moment and then she lunged forward aiming for the middle of her little brother’s back. He turned quickly blocking her knocking her blade out of her hand.

“Samantha, please don’t make me hurt you.” He snapped at her and resumed his incantation. The ground began to rumble and open right at his feet. It was splinter in every direction as she scrambled to get up running from Henry. She looked up just in time to see the ground swallow the last thing connecting her to her dad. The sounds of crushing metal ringing in her ears then she felt herself being pulled away suddenly.

She looked around seeing she was in an open field. Turning around she saw Castiel standing behind her, “Cas I have to go back! He’s going to release Lucifer!” she yelled.

Castiel shook his head and grabbed her shoulder roughly, “It’s too late Samantha. Henry has already said yes to Lucifer allowing him in. I have to get you to a safe space where Michael cannot find you.”

She felt her heart drop and her mind was racing with thoughts. She looked up panic setting in as she held onto Castiel, “Take me to Jacob and Jody.” She said as Castiel whooshed her away.

Present Day – 2018

Samantha looked around the table all of them looking shocked and puzzled. “Uncle Sam, I need to know how dad was about to reach through to you when you were possessed by Lucifer the first time 2010?” she asked.

The brothers looked to one another as Sam spoke, “It’s kind of hard to explain. I saw one the plastic army men that I stuck into the ashtray and something about seeing that made me think of Dean and everything we had been through. From there I just fought my way to the surface, but it sounds like things are different with Henry. He wanted Lucifer to come into him where I had every intention of fighting Lucifer for as long as I could.”

Samantha sighed heavily feeling defeated, “There has to be something I can do to save my brother.” She whispered as she felt her mom’s hand start to rub her back.

“There may be something to defeat Lucifer, but it won’t save your brother. I know how this may sound coming from a Winchester but for the fate of the world you may have to choose between it and your brother.” Sam explained as Samantha sat up straighter.

Her daughter’s face flashed before her mind and she pursed her lips, “I will do anything to save my little girl and my husband. Whatever you got to defeat Lucifer I will take.” She said with determination.

She glanced over to her dad who was smirking proudly as Sam and Castiel got up, “Cas and I will look for the item in our storage room. We’ll be right back.” Sam said as they got up walking off down the side corridor.

Samantha looked from her mom to her dad as they both were anxious looking. She snickered, “Whatever you both want to say please do because I can’t take the awkward silence.”

They all laughed as (Y/N) asked, “You said you have a little girl and husband?”

“Yes, I do. Jody adopted a boy when I was six years old who is a year older than me. His name is Jacob Mills and we were always best friends until that turned into more in high school.” She looked over to her dad as he growled in disapproval making her and her mom laugh.

“Anyway, we’ve been married for six years and our daughter Cassandra will be five in a few months.” She pulled out her small wallet and showed her mom a picture of the three of them.

Dean leaned forward to look at the picture as well and a small sigh came from him, “I need a drink. Would either of you like one?” (Y/N) shook her head as Samantha nodded.

“Whiskey for me, please.” She said once again earning a smirk from her dad.

(Y/N) and her spoke briefly about what Samantha did before everything happened with Henry, “I guess I’m more like my dad and Uncle than you ever wanted me to be. I got a degree in computer science so I could freelance my skills to make money in order to hunt. Jacob and I hunted together until I got pregnant then everything changed. We stopped hunting all together like you and dad did when you found out about me.”

Dean handed her the glass of whiskey, “I stopped hunting?” he asked his eyebrows knitting together.

Samantha nodded, “From everything mom would tell Henry and I you did. I think you and Uncle Sam still went out on little hunts because I would hear mom and you loudly talking to one another.”

(Y/N) rolled her eyes as Dean looked away guilty, “Sounds like something I would do.”

She laughed, “Don’t worry dad, I’m the same way. Jacob is always mad at me whenever I sneak out to take out a werewolf or a vamp nest.”

Dean laughed nodding proudly at her as (Y/N) muttered, “Great, two peas in the same damn pod. Good to know in the future I won’t have any peace of mind either.” Dean leaned over kissing (Y/N)’s cheek.    

Samantha and her dad were talking about different hunts when Sam and Castiel came back in holding a gold blade that twisted into a point.

“Holy crap, is that an Archangel blade?” she asked as Sam handed it to her.

Sam nodded, “It is and the only thing that can kill Lucifer, but you will need one more thing.”

“What?” she asked feeling hope creep up in her heart.

Her dad placed his hand over hers, “You need an Archangel to wield it in order to kill Lucifer.”

Samantha shrugged nonchalantly, “No problem.” They all snapped their heads to her in surprise.

“Do you have an Archangel on speed dial or something? If you dare say you’re going to say yes to Michael then I will lock you in the dungeon because I know from personal experience that he will just screw you over.” Dean said shivering.

She shook her head adamantly, “No, I would never say yes to Michael. Hell no! He’s coo-coo for Cocoa Puffs. However, the boy that Jody will adopt is a Nephilim.”

(Y/N) gasped, “You’re married to a Nephilim and had a baby?”

“Yes, the angels aren’t as uptight about Nephilims since Jack took over running Heaven. They can see the benefits of them and how having a nurturing influence will help them control their powers. Jacob’s real father is the Archangel Gabriel and let me tell you the apple doesn’t fall from the tree.” Samantha explained.

Samantha stood up looking to Castiel, “Cas, I will need a lift forward to 2049.” He nodded to her as she turned around facing her parents and uncle.

She hugged Sam first thanking him for all the journaling he will do in the future. She stepped over to her mom who pulled her into a hug whispering to be careful. Samantha smiled nodding her heart hurting as she knew going back meant her mom no longer being around. Finally, she turned to Dean who was awkwardly standing with his hands in his pockets.

Samantha threw her arms around his neck hugging him and he wrapped his around her holding her tightly. She whispered, “I forgive you for everything daddy. I understand now why you had to leave and I just want to thank you for what you did.” She pulled back slightly kissing his cheek and hugging him once again.

She stepped out of his embrace and looked around at her family not wanting to leave them but knowing she had too. “I love you. I love you all.”

She stepped beside Castiel and just before he placed his hand on her shoulder she heard her dad call out, “Sammi, kick it in the ass!”

The next thing she saw was her husband and daughter standing with Castiel in their version of the Bunker in 2049. Jacob rushed to her as she slumped into a chair.

“Baby, you okay?” he asked as Castiel walked over to her placing his healing hand over her head.

She felt her body warm up and get tingly then she felt back to normal. “I’m fine and I have a way to defeat Lucifer. Jacob, you will need to wield this,” she handed the golden blade over to him, “and I’ll stay home with our baby. It’s your turn to save the world. I’m going to take a break since I time traveled to get the weapon.”

Jacob laughed kissing her as he went over to their small group arranging a plan to defeat the devil. Cassandra ran over jumping into Samantha’s lap hugging her. Castiel said next to her smiling slightly.

“So, how did everything go back in 2018?” he asked curiously.

Samantha hugged her daughter tightly, “Awesome.”

Castiel laughed, “You really are the spitting image of your father.” He got up to help Jacob with the others as she sat back enjoying holding her daughter.

“I know and that is why I am choosing to stay with my daughter.” She whispered resting her head on top of hers.  

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